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How to kiss someone
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I donât really. Have much to say about this. Something something. Beauty in the horrors of the facility. And in each other. And in the things wearing your face. And in the things trying to remove your face.
#clover draws#lethal company#lethal company employee#suggestive#in a way. somewhat#cw eyestrain#I mean suggestive in its implied theyâre all fucking isuppose#good luck making any of this out#YAY#intentionally hard to read
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reminiscing about childhood books after that ask - all due respect to cool sleek movie toothless....but to me, he will always be a mean little gremlin
#my art#dragon#illustration#how to train your dragon#httyd#httyd books#i love you small toothless. i love you and your beautiful eyelashes. you are not overshadowed to me#also fireworm (top right) and monstrous nightmares as a whole were SO influential on my art and also my ocs#i never thought about it until very recently but my god. my god. so obviously a heavy influence on florawell especially#i drew her a lot as a kid she was my fav. cause she was mean and snooty. nowadays i do appreciate the ugliness of seaslug though#i wanna read the end of that series eventually....get some childhood closure#cressida cowell's drawing style is so charming and good...like drawing intentionally ''bad'' (10000 quotation marks) is so hard to pull off
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I don't know how everyone isn't also always constantly thinking about how burial rites seem to be potentially one of the few things Siffrin instinctively remembers about their culture. But rest assured. I am in fact always thinking about it.
Textless version where they're just hanging out. It's fine!
#love how i said id slow down on fanart. and then didnt. anyway. the bg is supposed to be a ocean shore but its vague intentionally.#ALSO SORRY FOR DRAWING EVERYONE FACING AWAY FROM THE CAMERA ALL THE TIME? WHY DO I KEEP DOING THAT IN MY ISAT STUFF. HELLO? HELLO??? WHY???#in stars and time#isat fanart#isat#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat loop#siffrin#sifloop#lucabyteart#hi again sifloop tag. read this as you will. go nuts. i know you people are here for the crumbs.#if you want other thoughts re: what they do/do not remember on instinct. i wonder what their culture's bonding ceremony equiv is.#since they dont seem to have any answers to that. perhaps since not directly asked during that conversation. hm. feels like a cute fic idea#not that ill be executing on that.#ill be damned if i bare my ass on ao3. i can barely write about my ocs without feeling like im naked on stage. i salute your kind's bravery#also sorry if the dialogue here is hard to parse what order its in. its a zigzag of some kind im not fighting my absolutely ass typesetting#samdontlook
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every single day people openly proclaim just how little jewish life means to them. every life lost in gaza is a world. but saying that this one bombing is worse than the holocaust and nazism is evil. itâs just fucking evil.
if this is referring to the bombing of the tents in rafa, itâs reported that 50 people died. thatâs 50 worlds. 50 people who shouldnât have died. but please be fucking real. please explain to me how you can justify saying that that is worse than the systematic murder of 6 million jews. you are openly admitting just how infinitesimally less jewish lives matter to you than non jewish lives. to openly say that 50 non jewish lives are worth more than 6 million jewish lives â particularly when this is a comparison you did not have to make â is beyond antisemitic.
#ip#not even going to go into how framing this as âthe (((zionists))) burning people aliveâ is fucking insane#israel bombed a refugee camp that caught fire and killed people#that is awful enough as it is#but there are people out here fully parroting the rhetoric that israel *intentionally burned people alive* solely to catastrophize#when âzionistsâ here is being very clearly used as a stand in for jew#it is hard to not read this as a mutation of blood libel#jews getting pleasure from gory violence against non jews#itâs a trope thatâs been becoming increasingly popular#and it is incredibly disturbing
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amab and afab, if they were used as shorthand for the actual full phrases that they signify, with emphasis on the "assigned" part, and an understanding that they are enforcements of normative (ie, dyadic and cisgender and binary) sex, would be like. really useful. but people took the terms and started using them as shorthand FOR normative sex instead of the ENFORCEMENT OF normative sex. so when other trans people (almost always dyadic trans people) ask for your agab they are almost always asking for your Original Genital Situation. your starting point, so to say. and the reason FOR asking is also almost always bc they are trying to also enforce a certain kind of normativity within queer spaces (which is stupid bc being queer is inherently non-normative but here we are). like, you cant be a lesbian if you're ftm, bc you ARE m, so if you ARE a lesbian, then that means you're lying about some aspect of your identity. does that make sense?
it is always always always incredibly.... i do not trust dyadic trans people that use cagab terms, even moreso than i do not trust dyadic trans people that just use agab terms. agab is also coopted intersex language, but the "coercive" part of cagab SPECIFICALLY refers to medical "intervention" of intersex characteristics, such as "corrective" surgeries and hrt. i am deeply fucking suspicious of any dyadic trans person that uses those terms exactly the same as described above, even moreso if they do so bc "all gender is coercive".
like. yeah. that's true. but you use these terms to erase and overtake intersex discussions on the medical abuse of intersex infants. and i cant help but wonder why you would feel the need to do that.
#iirc it was also common to tirf ideology and the baeddel group#< notoriously intersexist group#to say nothing of any other tirf beliefs#both of these misuses of agab and cagab come from the same source#but it is . deeply disconcerting with cagab#bc its like. that is such a lesser known term in the greater dyadic trans community#you would HAVE to have known what it originally meant#either YOU are misusing it INTENTIONALLY#or someone TAUGHT you to misuse it INTENTIONALLY#people that are cruel and bigoted always want to believe theyre good people#so its hard to convince them when they are being bigoted#esp as marginalized people#and especially as a marginalized people that is particularly affected by the same enforcement of normative sex#the more i learned about this the more i learned abt intersexism in trans spaces#the more i notice it. its so fucking pervasive#and like u should care abt intersexism on its own but its like#no surprise that the ppl misusing cagab terms usually are transandrophobic (as the discourse du jour) and exorsexist#these things go together and reinforce each other#anyways it sucks bc ill see a BEAUTIFULLY written analysis of transmisogyny but so often there will be#like one thing. two things maybe.#and ill go to ops blog search a few keywords and lo and behold#they are transphobic. they are intersexist. they are racist. they are aphobic.#all forms of exclusionist politic in the queer community just lead into each other ad infinitum#nauseating... and#i will read the theory of people who disgust me or who are fundamentally wrong abt other ppls experiences bc i think they still have#valuable things to say but i am SO FUCKING TIRED of running into the same goddamn problem EVERY fucking time#i think its just the posts that get circulated the most that are like that#bc i think the majority of people dont actively seek out and learn abt new queer theory as it rolls in#or other ppls experiences in general#so they dont learnt to recognize the red flags or even realize why its bad in the first place
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jaytim but damitim were getting married for reasons (maybe politics or they just have a really toxic relationship and tim is done) and tim runs away and into jason car
oooh i LOVE this. i think it's pretty easy to swing DamiTim getting married for political/family reasons. maybe something that Ra's arranges, forcing Tim into agreeing bc it keeps WayneCorp safe and out of the hands of someone like Tommy Elliot. and it's more fun if for that reason, neither Tim nor Damian are a fan of this turn of events. bc it *works*, legally, but they can't stand being in the same room as each other. maybe they hatefuck a few times, but it's clear they're terrible for each other. or maybe Damian is actually too controlling of TIm, seeing the marriage as an opportunity to finally force obedience out of Tim and that's his breaking point for going with Jason.
and Jason being the disgraced family figure who ends up getting Tim out of it is so fun. bc no one would expect *Jason* of all people to be the one to get Tim out of this situation. at first Tim goes with him just for the reprieve of getting away from Damian for a night, then it turns out Jason actually has a pretty well thought out plan for Tim to be able to get out of the marriage. and sure they're hooking up the whole time, but Tim doesn't actually expect to catch feelings. catching feelings would probably make the whole situation a lot more complicated. but he spends more and more nights at a club Jason owns, sometimes crashing at Jason's apartment not even for sex, but just to get away from everything. fuck buddies but they have a slow burn romance sort of thing going on as Tim deals with legal divorce proceedings. also sort of fun if Damian fights the divorce and you have the fun lil tropey moment of Jason protecting Tim, as well as the larger family reaction to Jason and Tim getting together if Jason is perceived as the family pariah. who approves and who disapproves, how the things that forced Jason out of the family are handled now that he's wrapped back up in the legal drama of everything. there's literally so much you could do with this, i adore it.
#necrotic answerings#jaytim#damitim#I tried to keep this like#intentionally vague to be read as both a canon au or a civilian au#it could work as both but clearly canon au would take more work#but either are good#usually I don't do civilian aus but this one could be so much fun.#I want to write this more than I usually do#I thought about it hard enough it works so much better in my head than it should#honestly I love that. I love getting drawn into the rare civilian au fic idea bc they're not usually my speed#so when they click they *click* yk#this might go on the back burner to revisit in the future for me
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another snippet from the Grand Princess novel. I am going to be SO ANNOYING about this. (spoilers for their first life! )
Although he didnât want to admit it, Pei Wenxuan still remembered that at the beginning of their marriage, when he lifted Li Rongâs veil, she raised her head and looked up at him with embarrassment and curiosity. Then, when they exchanged cups of wine, she said in a frank manner: âWenxuan, no matter how we came to be together, having become husband and wife, I still want to live with you for the rest of my life.â At that time, he also seriously thought that he would live with Li Rong, have children and live peacefully for the rest of their lives.
That was, until Li Rong found out that he liked Qin Zhenzhen.
In truth, he didnât even know what kind of feelings there were between him and Qin Zhenzhen, whether it was love or merely responsibility. They grew up together as children, and he only had her in his heart and hoped to live with Qin Zhenzhen for the rest of his life, but he could not do so.
Later on, Qin Zhenzhen married Li Rongâs brother, Crown Prince Li Chuan.
As Crown Prince, Li Chuan was a good Crown Prince but not a good husband. He married for political reasons, so although he was just the Crown Prince at the time, he already had a Princess Consort and four concubines. Qin Zhenzhen had a mild temperament and was unfamiliar with Palace affairs. If not for the Crown Princeâs favor and Pei Wenxuanâs help, she would have been long buried in the schemes of the Eastern Palace.
He helped her. Li Rong naturally knew about it, but she didnât mention it at first. Later on, when he secretly rescued Qin Zhenzhen at a palace banquet and almost was exposed, Li Rong could only step in and help him with arrangements.
That day, they were sitting in the carriage on their way home, and Li Rong was silent. He was a little panicked at that time and wanted to explain, but he didnât know what to explain because he felt that no matter what Li Rong said, she would be right.
Then, Li Rong returned home and after entering the bedchambers, she walked to the table and poured tea for herself. She turned her back to him and asked: âDo you like her?â
Pei Wenxuan stood at the door. He actually intended to say no, but he felt that it would not be completely truthful, so he replied honestly: âI canât forget her.â
âWhat is your relationship with her?â
Li Rong held the cup of tea and looked very calm. Pei Wenxuan still told her the truth, their engagement when they were young because they were childhood sweethearts. After his family had fallen, the Qin family annulled the engagement, and Qin Zhenzhen was forced to marry into the Eastern PalaceâŚ
âI just wanted to help her,â He said in a low voice, âNo other intentions. Sheâs the Crown Princeâs Side Consort now. Thereâs nothing else I can do.â
After he had spoken, Li Rong didnât speak for a long time. That silence became a deeply engraved impression of that night for Pei Wenxuan.
He saw that Li Rong kept drinking water, one cup after another. After a while, Li Rong seemed to calm down. She turned her head, stared at him and only asked: âWill you betray me?â
âNo.â He answered immediately. He looked at her, âYouâre my wife.â
âIâm not your wife.â
Li Rong looked at him with a serious expression: âIâm just your ally.â
These words stunned Pei Wenxuan. Li Rong turned and looked out the window and calmly continued: âIn this marriage, you and I had no choice and only did it for power. Truthfully speaking, thereâs not one bit of love between us. You have someone in your heart, and I have someone in my heart. Itâs just that we didnât make it clear before and had some misunderstandings. Now that itâs clear, it doesnât matter.â
âItâs not a big deal either,â Li Rong laughed, her tears seemed like they could fall at any time, âWhy didnât you say so sooner?â
Pei Wenxuan stared blankly at her. He wanted to deny it, but he felt that Li Rong wasnât wrong either. There was no such love between him and Li Rong because it was impossible for a person to truly love two people at the same time. He already had Qin Zhenzhen in his heart, so how could he make room for Li Rong?
Seeing that he still had not spoken, Li Rong lowered her head and softly said: âIf you make it clear, then it wonât be a problem. We will live as we have in the future, but I hope Pei daren remembers this in his heart:
Iâm not your wife, and youâre not my husband. I donât care who is in your heart, and you donât need to care about who I am with. You and I will have our own lives, and we will each have our own happiness.â
âAs long as Pei daren promises me,â Li Rong looked at him, her eyes sharp as a hawk, âYou and I are allies, so we must never betray one another.â
That evening, it also rained.
Just like now, the rain was pouring down.
#cdrama#the grand princess spoilers#the princess royal spoilers#the princess royal#the grand princess#this scene has lived in my head since i first read it last year#this is so classic silvia: i would compartmentalize and shut off my emotions in exactly the same way#and try to move forward smoothly with minimal dramatics#so i can deeply empathize with both characters#i just really like both main characters#and all of their mess and insecurities#they try so hard and do their best#their best was not that great in their first life lmao#but damn they did try#like even in this scene!!#they both handle the uncovering of his emotional ties to another woman in Not Great ways#but they are not intentionally being cruel to each other or out to damage each other over it#each wants to be fair (within their own concept of it)#and never intends this to be something to be used to ruin the others life#this is a royal princess like Wanning in The Double#but her reaction is certainly not to try to have this lady murdered#his reaction was perhaps naive and doomed the marriage but his intent was to not be misleading#and he wouldnt make promises that couldnt be kept#this scene crystalized me really liking these 2 and feeling an emotional stake in their happiness#(just becoming good friends or developing as more was fine with me)#cdrama spoilers
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I seriously wonder who this people are in real life? How they are around real people. Do they treat people the same way they are acting online? Towards friends, family, coworkers, strangers... These people are bullies. Toxic bullies. Either that or they just have no life. Or maybe hate their life. So they take it out on people online. For shipping on character on TV SHOWS!!! Its just so pathetic to me. These people seriously such a loser for being annoyingly loud about tv shows character. And if it was for spreading love and positivity thats fine, the world needs that. But they are mean toxic bullying people. But then again trump did just won the vote. Evidence that majority of the world are occupied by these kind of people. I feel so depressed and so sorry for us minority. At least we have each other...
#911#tommy kinard#911 abc#bucktommy#evan buckley#tommy x buck#lou ferrigno jr#buddie#i didnt mention any names in the post for a reason.#i add the necessary tags so necessary people will read these and open up their eyes and reach their heart. if they have a heart#stop being a bully and toxic.#is it so hard to be nice and kind?#just because you've been hurt in real life or online doesnt mean you have to intentionally hurt other people
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Shigeo swallowsâbreathes in deep. He stares down at their interlocked fingers, wonders if they thought this out properly, wonders what would happen if they didnât. He swallows again and it makes him feel even more ill. He nods, breathes, nods again, and then tenses his hand. Shigeo lets his energy funnel to the forefront and separates it into globs that he splits and splits and splits again, and he sends just a trickle, just a drop, just a test, from his palm. Teruki screams.
scene from my wip fic recondite <3 he's fine. probably
#qkdraws#id in alt#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 teruki#teruki hanazawa#tw body horror#body horror tw#body horror#heeyyy another proper background. those r rare#the speech bubble says ''teru?!'' ''i'm so sorry'' and ''oh my god'' btw in case the grain makes it hard to see#intentionally difficult to read but im putting it here in case anyone's curious#this was super fun <- acting like i don't say that on every art post i put up#getting the colors right for the ''liquid magic'' stuff pouring out of him was super cool#there r so many layer effects to this beast#he's fine after this . mostly.#i mean he's fucked up but like. whatever yaknow#i exclusively draw teru with his first haircut apparently#it's just the one that suits him best i think#i don't like his spiky one . doesn't fit him#also yes that is a cat hairpin in his hair :)#giggling . imagining being anybody but me and seeing this art for the first time n going#''wow that's wild and kinda creepy hope he's ok. omg cute hairpin tho''
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Some Stranger!Noelle and Susie expressions from this weekend's drawing that I'm pretty pleased with.
#S!Noelle's hair is orange because it's really hard to see the white lines when I'm inking#so I ink in orange and then replace it with white during the coloring stage#I wouldn't try to read into their expressions too much#These are from like page 103#so there's plenty of missing context and I'm intentionally presenting misleading panels out of order#looking glasses#ferrousart
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i love how so much of the stuff in delicious in dungeon that's not central to the main plot is left up to the reader/viewer's interpretations. it leaves a lot of space for fans to imagine what else happens outside of the plot, especially with how good the world building is. a sentiment ive seen more than a few times is that any character in dungeon meshi can be shipped with almost any other character, and because of how it ends you can even imagine characters who didn't interact much or at all eventually becoming friends and/or lovers, and there's so many ways for fans to imagine what else happens in this world after the story ends. there's little bits of interaction between characters that could easily be interpreted one way or another, but there's no malicious baiting or anything that's intentionally implied without being explicit.
That said, it is a little sad that there's no canon romance between Falin and Marcille, as far as I can tell, cause this type of thing happens so often in stories, where two characters of the same gender have romantic vibes but the writer didn't have the slightest intention of it being romantic. Also a little sad that, as far as I can tell, she didn't intend for Laios to be autistic either...
(to be clear, im NOT mad at ryoko kui here! this is JUST me being sad about the lack of good, intentional representation for queer and autistic people in media and how that conflicts with my appreciation for Kui's writing)
#dunmeshi#like i love how she wrote it and i do think its usually wiser for a writer to not get so in the weeds about character details#like a certain infamous wizard book author does.......#but what i mean is it's just a little sad that once again marginalized ppl have to just settle for headcanons#instead of explicitely queer or intentionally neurodivergent characters#id even be so happy if kui said she likes the interpretation of laios as autistic or or marcille and falin as romantic#i like it when writers say they like a common unintentional interpretation of their work without making a hard decision to make it canon#and i like that people have so many different interpretations of the characters#i just really wanna see more gay and nd ppl represented well in media#once again im gonna complain about how i can only think of 3 main character m/m relationships in animation#1 of those shows was cancelled#1 is no longer watchable unless you pirate it or have a dvd#and the other was a spinoff that also might not be available to watch.... fuck hbo#as for wlw theres a few more but only if you count the ones that weren't explicitly shown or only shown in the finale like korra and asami#fuck im waisting all my time and adderall on rambling about dunmeshi when im supposed to be doing work!#i finished my assignment but i have commissions to do and some reading to do#bye
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I want this character to be canonically gay because it would be an interesting culmination of his arc but also because dudebros online have fully bought into his hyper-masculine cool guy bravado instead of understanding who the character really is and I think if he kissed a boy it would kill them dead
#I also think the writers may have unfortunately bought into the bravado#But like I know that actor knows his soul#He was talking about how he intentionally lowers his voice for the character bc he thinks the character is intentionally lowering his voice#And I was like âthank god you understand the level of try hard cringe this guy isâ#Also in an interview he compared the characterâs tumultuous relationship with his (male) childhood best friend#To that of âyoung lovers who went through a breakup and saw other people before coming back to each otherâ#Anyways heâs far more interesting (and sympathetic) if you read him as closeted and masking Iâll shut up now#He unfortunately will never be gay for this exact reason bc people like him too much but Iâll know
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did any one else have to read the KJV bible as a kid? was there a reason for that?
#child indoctrination#ex cult#i'm guessing it was at least partially for cult reasons but i'm not 100% sure why#but i read a kjv bible passage last night and it reminded me that i was reading this at like.... 9-10#and like. that seems odd now?#i know it's considered the most âaccurateâ to a lot of evangelicals#but nkjv is.... right there? and a lot easier for kids to read?#idk. feels weird. like they want kids to read an intentionally hard to understand version without context?#and that it would be really really easy to insert their own meaning/agenda in there#and then it would be harder for âââoutsidersâââ to like argue against it bc most people aren't reading the ââârealâââ version anyway???#idk. just curious if anyone else has opinions/similar experience lol
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everything you despise will continue to haunt you forever in every single little thing you see
#maurposting#maurt#oc#also all that text in the bg is his repressed thoughts :3. intentionally made em hard to read#shes completely normalđ!!!! as long as you dont think about it or look at it too hard.
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i'll be honest i genuinely thought patrick marber wrote dj for david to play him (what with the "are you a doctor?" and "is it time?!" lines) but i found out that no this was written in 2006 for the guy that played the lizard in the amazing spider-man movies. and also both of these lines are in the original. that's crazy
#don juan in soho#david tennant#the most notable changes made were dj's big monologue near the end#and also instead of dj saying (essentially) 'well at least i'm not a rapist and a pedo' he says 'well guys at least i'm not donald trump'#haha........ha.....................ha.....................#oh and the addition of a the music/dance numbers#i told myself i was just going to read the script but then i ended up watching the play again (while reading alonside). i have a problem#I KIND OF THINK DJ IS ONE OF DAVID'S MOST CHARACTERS EVER????????!!!!! im insane#like there are so many elements to dj that i really love from other characters that he's played before#like kilgrave's fundamental selfishness and how he never grew up n only lives for his own pleasure n hurts everyone around him w/out a care#ten's inability to live without the company of others and how he reckons w mortality and dies without reaching catharsis#richard ii and how he starts off unaffected/unlikable but you see more and more of his humanity as the story goes on + he loses his power#hamlet's revulsion with the inauthentic nature of the world that he lives in and how he struggles w his Awareness Of Self#but like i feel llike dj is written in such a way where he's intentionally ambiguous and it's difficult to pin him down completely and that#makes him soooooooo interesting so interesting hwoever this means writing real analysis about him is kind of so hard#i'm putting him in the salad spinner#and then im sending him to hell again god what a deeply terrible and unpleasant person <3
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My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.
#butch speaks#it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head#when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god#the words came naturally to me#but they meant nothing#i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away#i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred#i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake#i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex#fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic#i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun#the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun.#not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO#the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love.#he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like#he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever.#he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer#then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there.#he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did.#but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there.#that wasnt for us.#my family wasnt even THAT catholic#i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group#i was an altar servant and in the choir#i even used to speak/understand a little latin#imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao#grateful to have grown up poor in that regard#hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually.#fucking hell.#i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.
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