#integrity at peace; felix

[isan0rt]

Also tbh like speaking of Dedue and his community, like, there's no way the Duscur soldiers who save him if you do his paralogue in Azure Moon knew he was there alone at the time they saved him. They had no reason to think he was in the dungeon needing rescue. They happened to show up after he had already gotten Dimitri out, but what were they doing there in the first place, unless they were also there to break out Dimitri?

Like, Dimitri's own people left him to rot, his own friends didn't come help Dedue rescue him, the people of Faerghus didn't rise up to save him. People from Duscur did.

The soldiers at the end of Dedue's paralogue think he's naive, but they promise to pay their debts, and they do. Dedue is the reason Dimitri survives when he's been all but abandoned by Faerghus. The fact that Dedue is the one who saves him when everyone else has forsaken him, that his actions to save Dedue's countrymen ultimately save Dedue also, reinforces the themes of healing broken bonds and choosing to build community instead of perpetuating the cycle of revenge. It validates Lambert's whole thesis in even trying to make peace with Duscur that it's better to make a friend than an enemy, and that building bonds will always pay off more than conquest will.

The fact that Azure Moon can't let Dedue coming back be the primary catalyst for Dimitri's healing because of the permadeath mechanic (and, tbh, the need to center the player character) is probably the single weakest aspect of Azure Moon. Thematically, Duscur is crucial to Dimitri succeeding as a king, and of letting go of his need to perpetuate the cycle of bloodshed and vengeance. It shouldn't be possible for Dimitri to have a good ending if the player lets Dedue's countrymen die. That whole situation is just too integral to the setup for his character.

(Three Hopes, it must be said, really gets all this. It's interesting how that game specifically sets up another scenario of needing to rescue Dimitri from being jailed in Fhirdiad by Cornelia, but this time Dimitri's friends back Dedue up, so he comes out of it unscathed. Even so, Felix can't convince Dimitri to stand up and fight and choose to live. Only Dedue can do that.)

[reunionatdawn]

My Analysis of the Best Paired Endings in 3H (Part 2: Dimitri/Byleth)

Despite the popularity of some of Dimitri's M/M ships, he seemed to be a typical heterosexual man to me. However, his straightness was actually part of what made his character so interesting, ironically. He spent his youth absorbed in masculine activities like hunting, training, and practicing with the sword.

He was willing to TRY and take Sylvain's advice to pick up girls. But he was very inexperienced with women. Chivalry definitely promotes homoromantic social bonding among men. And perhaps because of that very male-dominated culture he grew up in, he deeply yearned for a relationship with a woman.

The tagline for the game was, "Sweet memories twisted by time's cruel hand". Dimitri's feelings for his stepsister may have been only puppy love, but it was his first time emotionally connecting with a girl. It was one of his sweetest memories. That was why Edelgard's betrayal hurt him so deeply. The emotional core of AM is Byleth taking the spot in Dimitri's heart that Edelgard once held.

The developers did not want to write an entirely different script just to accommodate male Byleth. So, they just took out the Goddess Tower scene, S-Support, and paired ending. The loss of which are a huge detriment to the integrity of the story. Dimileth is just as "canon" as its counterpart Edeleth. I don't even think AM's story or Dimitri's redemption make sense unless there was a romantic connection between those two. Dimitri's Goddess Tower event even foreshadows that specific scene, proving that the moment Byleth reached out her hand was written with romantic undertones.

Byleth being female is an integral part of the story of AM. If Byleth represented the divine masculine in CF, then it follows that she represented the divine feminine in AM. She was a vessel for the soul of the goddess, but more importantly she was a human who could directly intervene in the world and support people with her own flesh and blood.

Dimileth is often criticized for being a simple "fixing the bad boy" straight girl fantasy. But it's less cliche than people give it credit for. Byleth and Dimitri are an interesting blend of masculine and feminine qualities. Byleth is a silent protagonist, but I could tell that Dimitri enjoyed her dry sarcastic sense of humor. She was not a typical healer or pegasus knight like most FE love interests, but a deadly mercenary. She was meant to be similar to Glenn, which is why Felix sees her as his rival.

She serves the role of being Dimitri's sword and shield and stood at his side and protected him during the final battle, filling the knightly role Glenn would have if he had survived (and the role Felix serves in Hopes). She was the Seiros to his Wilhelm. Dimitri is one of the very few male characters that Byleth will give her mother's ring to when she proposes. Yes, it is a woman's ring that Dimitri wears. In fact, Dimitri's whole character arc is about rediscovering and embracing the softer feminine qualities he had as a young boy.

The Professor taught Dimitri how to live. In AG, Dimitri told Shez that from the moment he was born, he never felt like his life belonged to himself. He overworked himself because it was the only way he knew how to live. After Duscur he lost everyone, including his best friend, and his life belonged to their ghosts. The only time he could imagine being happy was upon his death, having devoted his life to forming a peaceful kingdom full of joyful citizens. He yearned for someone to stand by his side and give him a reason to live for himself.

I've seen many people online criticize Dimileth because they say Dimitri already had plenty of people that he was close to in his life and his non-Byleth relationships should have played the biggest role in his redemption. But I disagree. The story made it quite clear that Dimitri's support system was totally inadequate for his emotional needs and could not have pulled him from the abyss.

He was not actually all that close to his childhood friends, even before the Tragedy of Duscur, and he did not confide in them about what he was feeling. He said Rodrigue was the only person outside the castle he was close to. Rodrigue obviously cared for him, but he had not seen Dimitri in two years prior to the academy. Dimitri and Dedue shared a very powerful bond. Losing Dedue was the cause of Dimitri’s initial descent into savagery. But Dedue still insisted on being his vassal instead of his friend and equal.

Felix was obligated to fill the role due to his bloodline, but he did not WANT to be the person Dimitri unburdened his heart to. He was constantly irritable and losing his patience in Azure Gleam. Glenn was one of the ghosts who shadowed Dimitri's every move. And Felix said that since Glenn's death, "his memory has followed me around like a shadow." He hated acting as his brother's replacement. In their AG A-Support, it seemed like he was pretending to like the idea of being the right-hand man because of how dependent Dimitri was on him. We see a direct parallel of that scene in AM where Dimitri is hallucinating in the chapel. While Felix certainly felt compassion for him, he was very eager to foist the role of confidant onto Byleth.

Without anyone to lean on, Dimitri acts pretty monstrous. For five years, he tortured and killed people brutally, as if they were not even human. He threatened to kill Randolph's friends and remove his eyeballs before killing him and we can probably assume that he actually did that sort of thing to his other victims. I related so well with Felix because I felt the exact same mix of disgust and pity towards him.

I didn't ship Dimileth because I self-inserted onto Byleth and I wanted to marry him. I just wanted Byleth to accept him. And I don't find it difficult to believe that she would. Because before she was the stand-in for the goddess, she was the Ashen Demon who cut people down with no emotion. She only began to smile when she started teaching his class. He offered his shoulder to lean on when she lost Jeralt, something the other two house leaders didn't do.

The main ideological conflict between Edelgard and Dimitri was how much they are willing to compromise and accept the unacceptable. Dimitri seemed to understand that Edelgard had legitimate issues with the Church of Seiros as well as the existing world order. But he thought that total destruction of that system would require too much sacrifice. It was an interesting moral quandary.

And honestly, there was no easy answer. In an ideal world, there would be no false religion and no such thing as nobility, period. Even most of the nobles in the cast would have been happier to just be regular people. AM certainly doesn't end in a utopia or anything (although it's less status quo than AG). It was about the characters compromising and making concessions with an inherently unjust system because perhaps taking innocent human life is wrong even if it's for a just cause.

The Crest of Blaiddyd is associated with Strength. The Strength Tarot card is the Major Arcana of inner strength. It represents mastering raw emotions in order to bring calm to yourself or a situation. Dimitri was born on the winter solstice making him a Sagittarius, which is a masculine fire sign symbolized by a centaur. The horse portion of the Sagittarius symbol is unruly, relentless, beastly, and strong. The human portion is wisdom-seeking and rational. Dimitri's character arc was about overcoming his anger and hatred and becoming the wise "Savior King" who could reach out his hand to his mortal enemy.

Byleth & Dimitri The marriage of the newly appointed Archbishop, Byleth, and Dimitri, who officially ascended to the throne of the Holy Kingdom of Faerghus, further delighted the people amidst the celebrations of the end of the war. Continuously seeking a better future for Fódlan, they pursued their ideals, gradually reforming the traditional political systems and the structure of the Church. They upheld their roles as leaders of the Church and the state, engaging in intense debates at times. However, when they went on long rides or hunting trips alone together, they wore not the faces of the Archbishop and the King, but those of an ordinary, loving couple.

JRPGs are known for "killing god". AM ends not with you destroying the church but becoming its leader. The people of Fódlan paid lip service to the goddess, but they actually revered Nemesis and the 10 Elites. So much so that Rhea had no choice but to refer to them as heroes and Crests as gifts from the goddess. Fódlan is a patriarchal land. Faerghus especially so.

With Fódlan unified under Faerghus, Byleth acts as the divine feminine force who will change that society from the inside out, just as she did her husband. Is rulership by a benevolent monarch and a matriarchal pope a good enough ending? Well, that's for the player to decide. But I found it to be the best ending, both for Fódlan and for Dimitri and Byleth themselves.

[kronosveritas]

✨HELLO RVB FANDOM I AM ASKING FOR YOUR GUIDANCE✨

I don’t know if any of you know much about Tarot, but I am in the process of drawing an rvb tarot deck and these are my thoughts for which character should be assigned to each of the major arcana cards.

Included in parentheses after the character are some trailers generally associated with that arcana (to my understanding)

Please feel free to let me know in comments/tags if YOU think these fit/what fits better so I can potentially make the deck!

_____________ {arcana below fold} _____________

💙 Fool- Caboose (new beginning, fresh start, risk, a chance, new cycle, originality, fearlessness, travel, innocence, being green, trickster, acting foolish)

❤️ Magician- Tex (talent, skill, power, magic, control, manifest, tools, mastery, willpower, focus)

💙 High priestess- CT (intuition, feminine wisdom, hidden knowledge, secrecy, initiation, receptivity, spirituality, the inner world)

❤️ Empress- Allison (feminine power, abundance, fertility, pregnancy, marriage, creativity, receptivity, pleasure, mothering, nurturing, giving birth)

💙 Emperor- The Director (Order, structure, authority, power, boss, masculine, father, ownership, autonomy)

❤️ Heirophant- Sarge (tradition, structure, teacher, mentor, counselor, religion, dogma, advice, status quo, organization, conformity, rules, church, obedience)

💙 Lovers- Grif and Simmons (romance, partnership, love, choices, duality, opposites, union)

❤️ Chariot- Shiela (triumph, directed willpower, control, direction, movement, progress, vehicle)

💙 Strength- Carolina (strength, inner power, self control, calm, endure, willpower)

❤️ Hermit- Epsilon (inner wisdom, solitude, withdrawal, quiet, teacher or guru, research, seeker)

💙 Wheel of fortune- The Triplets, or the Chorus Rebels??? I can’t decide (luck, change, a turn of events, karma, movement, shift, improvement, fate)

❤️Justice- Doc & O’Malley (fairness, court, justice, balance, weighing options, seeing both sides, consequences, integrity, honesty, truth, law, middle path)

💙 Hanged man- Temple (sacrifice, letting go, faith, suspension, waiting, hang-ups, martyr, illusion, surrender)

❤️ Death- Felix (ending, transition, transformation, release, change, severance)

💙 Temperance- Lopez (moderation, balance, healing, alchemy, middle ground, patience, blending, harmony, guardian angel)

❤️ Devil- Meta/Sigma (bondage, materialism, negativity, slavery, addiction, stuck, jealousy, deviance, excess)

💙 Tower- Kimball (chaos, disruption, tearing down, rebuilding, uncertainty, blow, enlightenment, unexpected change, overthrow, revolution)

❤️ Star- Donut (hope, optimism, healing, balance, spirituality, health, well being, peace, wishes, vulnerability, success, balance)

💙 Moon- Wash (intuition, illusion, deception, darkness, reflection, fear, subconscious, dreams, difficulty, fear, imagination)

❤️ Sun- Tucker (optimism, success, joy, birth, happiness, health, inner child, energy, enthusiasm)

💙 World- Rooster Teeth Founders? Or Blood Gulch? Or RVB kill switch? (completion, ending, success, travel, closure, graduation, Universe, freedom, environment, rebirth)

https://www.thetarotlady.com/tarot-card-meanings/

^^possible link for meaning reference

<<I have individual assignments for nearly all the minor arcana too, but that would be far too long to post here>>

[allthebrazilianpolitics]

Brazil expels illegal settlers from Indigenous lands in Amazon

Thousands affected as government vows to stamp out land grabs in protected areas

Brazil’s government has begun removing thousands of non-Indigenous people from two native territories in a move that will affect thousands who live in the heart of the Amazon rainforest.

The Brazilian intelligence agency ABIN said in a statement that the goal was to return the Apyterewa and Trincheira Bacaja lands in Para state to the original peoples. It did not say whether or not the expulsion of non-Indigenous people had been entirely peaceful.

The territories are located around the municipalities of Sao Felix do Xingu, Altamira, Anapu and Senador Jose Porfirio in Para state. Brazil’s government said the supreme court and other judges had ordered the operation.

Indigenous groups estimate more than 10,000 non-Indigenous people are living inside the two territories. ABIN said as many as 2,500 Indigenous people live in 51 villages within.

“The presence of strangers on Indigenous land threatens the integrity of the Indigenous [people] and causes other damages, such as the destruction of forests,” the agency said in its statement. It added that about 1,600 families lived illegally in that region with some involved in illegal activities such as cattle raising and gold mining. “They also destroy native vegetation.”

Continue reading.

[pavedinashes-if]

What are the ROs love languages?

Thanks for the question! Quite a bit of typing here but definitely giving a good insight. Obviously there's a lot more to each of them, but have a peek. :)

Samual / Samantha "Sam" Peters - (Neighbour, Police Officer) 💙 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. recognize their dedication for their job and sincere wish to help people) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. whatever necessary to make your life more Zen - they're on it)

Felix / Felicia Nowak - (Ex, Rich Kid) 🩷 - Receiving: Physical Touch (e.g. show them there's a connection money can't buy - they are more than their money) - Giving: Gifting (e.g. fulfilling even your most absurd wishes - at any co$t)

Alex Czenacki - (New Foe, Lawyer) 🧡 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. valuing and building an almost spiritual connection) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. he sees your struggle, your worth and your growth)

Noah / Naomi Cho - (Best Friend, Photographer) ❤️ - Receiving: Acts of Service (e.g. be an integral part and support in their every day - even from afar) - Giving: Quality Time (e.g. making sure you build new unforgettable memories - worth a bestseller)

Xavier Hoffmann - (New Friend, Musician) 💚 - Receiving: Receiving Gifts (e.g. show him you thought about him - no matter where you've been) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. he's your biggest fan)

Bianca Wolf - (Childhood Friend, Student) 🩵 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. she's a daydreamer, give her shared memories to dream about) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. she can't wait to do anything for you - puppy like)

Laurenz / Laura Svenson - (Rival, Pro Skater) 💛 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. show them they're finally good enough) - Giving: Physical Touch (e.g. break their shell by being gentle)

Francesco / Francesca Moretti - (Bestie's BF/GF, Model) 💜 - Receiving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. make sure they know they're more than their stunning looks) - Giving: Physical Touch (e.g. they are obsessed with every inch of you)

Dima / Dalia Petrov - (Boss, Club Owner) 🖤 - Receiving: Quality Time (e.g. make their rare moments of peace worth it) - Giving: Acts of Service (e.g. whatever you need and before you even know it - without exception)

Dr. Michael / Michaela Sturm - (Doctor) 🤍 - Receiving: Physical Touch (e.g. the desperate need to relief daily tension - a long hug, a deep kiss or maybe more) - Giving: Quality Time (e.g. a day without you smiling is a lost one)

"Sparks" - (Dealer) 🩶 - Receiving: Receiving Gifts (e.g. they never received any gifts - from you it's precious, almost holy) - Giving: Words of Affirmation (e.g. show them you don't judge - you see their true self)

Paul / Paula Gerwig - (Stranger, Executive Vice President) 🤎 - Receiving: Acts of Service (e.g. they'll ask for your presence...) - Giving: Gifting (e.g. ...and they'll give back in return)

[mwezina]

Justice & FE3H

Justice as an archetype is a reminder that there is a consequence to every action. What is fair is enforced by severe action (the sword). While the figure appears to be restful, the shoe peeking out from beneath her rich red robe tells us she is connected to the world and ready to act on a moment’s notice. 

Justice reminds us that what happens now is the result of one’s own actions. We must take responsibility for and acknowledge the effect we have upon the world. Interestingly, her positioning along with the drape behind her mirrors the High Priestess, with the exception that behind her seems to be the blinding sun, symbolising a connection to fire (ambition) instead of water (subconscious). 

The Crest associated with this card is the Crest of Cichol. The name possibly comes from Cichol Gricenchos. He was the first leader of the Fomorians, a group of monsters from the land and sea. Just like his brother, Macuil, the name Cichol draws from Irish mythology. Cichol Gricenchos was the first to arrive in Ireland with the humans, subsiding on fishing and fowling. 

The dragon associated with this crest is the Earth Dragon. It represents the solid objects of the world, things we can touch and manipulate. Things that can be depended upon. Just like his siblings, the Earth Dragon references one of the five elements of Japanese Godai philosophy. It represents both stability and stubbornness. 

Now that I’m looking at the card itself, I can see why it can be related to Dimitri (the woman looks strikingly similar to our blond heartthrob). However, I am relating it to Seteth / Cichol. 

Looking at the image parallels between Justice and the High Priestess, we can see that Seteth is very much similar to Rhea. They are co-leaders of a powerful religious group, and they embrace some of the same principles. Upholding peace and stability over sudden change, caring for the inner spiritual needs instead of leading by force or charisma. However, Seteth also reflects Justice in that he appears more approachable while Rhea is very mysterious. 

Seteth himself also embodies the teachings of Justice. He is living with the consequences of his actions during the War of Heroes. He acted irresponsibly, and lost his wife as a result. In the same war, his daughter became gravely injured, and spent nearly a thousand years resting to recuperate. He accepts the repercussions of his actions (or inaction? We’re not quite sure), and goes forward working to correct them, sometimes overcorrecting. 

His connection to Cichol Gricenchos is that he likes fishing. Just like Cichol Gricenchos, he and his family lived off of fish. Seteth also mingled with humans, just like his mythological counterpart. 

Finally, his connection with the Earth Dragon. Seteth is solid and stable, a father figure to most of the students at the Officer’s Academy. While he can be quite stubborn and even obtuse with Flayn, he is a dependable place to land on or push off from for most students. His supports with Hilda and Felix especially highlight the ways in which he pushes students outside their comfort zone while also being a solid foundation. 

Overall, Seteth is very well integrated with this arcana archetype, his namesake, and his dragon name. What are your thoughts? Any other cool connections I might have missed?

Previous: Wheel of Fortune

Next: The Hanged Man

[astrosfaerydae]

Love is the Death of Peace of Mind || Chanlix

Chapter 37: Of Grave Importance

[WC: 7.9k]

Summary:

The night and morning after one of the biggest moments of Felix's life was followed by another huge one. This one could mean all the answers or also nothing at all... It was well worth giving up their last day of vacation even if it was a bust. The reward would be well worth it if it worked out.

Notes:

CW// Death, Grief, religious trauma, family trauma

Hey I'm sorta on time for an update! I hope you enjoy this one it's a mix of plot and the boys being silly in the "family<3" group chat together.

Ps. I feel like I must add anytime the whole group is together I am sorry about Minsung 😭 didn't expect this to hit 200k omg I wish they were near but they are an integral part of the journey

[MasterList]

[hardynwa]

Akwa Ibom to host maiden ECOWAS food, cultural festival

Akwa Ibom is set to host the first edition of the food and cultural festival for the Economic Community of West African States. The Director General of the ECOWAS Food and Cultural Festival, Mr Felix Ihonre, who made the disclosure in Uyo on Wednesday, said the festival would hold from April 25 to April 29. Ihonre said that the theme of the festival is: “Celebrating Africa’s Cultural Heritage for Peace and Development”. He said the programme would promote the rich cultural heritage of Nigeria and bring together stakeholders from all walks of life to articulate positive action plans as well as strategies on how to end poverty in the country. Ihonre further said that the event would give Akwa Ibom the opportunity to showcase its rich cuisines and boost the internally generated revenue of the host state in particular and Nigeria at large. “This all-important event aims to attract foreign investors/investments to the host state, Nigeria and the ECOWAS region. “It will promote African cultural heritage, food/hospitality industries for tourism, peace and development; promote a region for sustainable/ qualitative/quantitative food, cultural and industrial revolution. “Promote friendship, peace, economic integration and trade in ECOWAS with the global community; expose the economic/cultural potential of host state/country /ECOWAS to the world. “It will also promote youth development, employment and internal revenue to the host state, country and ECOWAS. “The event is in partnership or sponsorship of the Federal Government through the Ministry of Foreign Affairs, Federal Ministry of Information and Culture and other MDAs. ‘It will also be a collaboration of the host state, Akwa Ibom state through the Ministry of Culture and Tourism,” he said. According to him, the goal of the event is geared toward a food and cultural revolution in West Africa. The DG said it was also for peace, security, sustainable development and investment that would promote a source of livelihood for employment and nutrition. He noted that the programme would be on a rotational basis and would bring more economic fortune to the state. “It will showcase the host country’s potential to the world and promote peace and cordiality within the 15- member countries of ECOWAS. “The main event will be cultural floats from across the nation, we will have a session with students and youths, where they will be engaged in essay competitions in food security,” he explained. The Chairman, Local Organising Committee, Mr Lawrence Umoren, said that Akwa Ibom had been adjudged to be one of the cleanest, safest and most peaceful states with a good road network. Umoren said that it was high time for the people of the Akwa Ibom to showcase to the world the rich culture and cuisines of the state. Read the full article

[sixsoulsinhiding]

They had done it. They had finally run away. To somewhere nobody would find them. To somewhere they can be themselves, free of judgement.

And it was only them, and though the darkness surrounded them, the fire they made together sparked hope. New light for the future and what it holds.

Briar stood suddenly, Felix's head momentarily bouncing, as it had been disturbed from its spot. The fluffy haired boy fiddled with the makeshift shelter, still unhappy with how it looked, but mumbling about it'd have to do for now. Felix quickly scooted up beside him, deciding to stand as well.

Briar paused, letting Felix lean on him again. He wasn't much for words, but this moment felt important. And he didn't know how else to mark the occasion, other then to restate a important saying once said to him by Felix, under much different circumstances.

"I will always be by your side." He said softly, thinking back to when Felix had said the same to him.

Felix hums, smiling. "A threat well kept!" He comments, laughing slightly. He grabs Briar's hand, saying, "Once we make it there. To house, a home, I'll show you I'm worth of all this trouble."

Briar quietly cracked a small grin. "I never doubted you were." He replied simply, listening to Felix prattle on about the future.

One where they get to be never be separated. One where they're much more then royalty and guards. One where they're just themselves. It's a beautiful fantasy.

"We're finally free." Felix comments, then closing his eyes.

Briar takes a breath, studying his friend's features. He'd do anything if they'd just stay as happy as they are right now.

He sits, taking in the moment, and the night.

"It's a beautiful night." He says quietly.

[wackus-bonkus-maximus]

the miraculous enneagram post nobody asked for

if by now you don't know i'm obsessed with the enneagram & personality stuff, i present to you know the depth of the hole i'm in. hello, i'm wackus, type 9, and if you skip this rambling post i totally understand.

the enneagram is a personality tool i use for writing (both fanfic & non-fanfic stuff) and irl to navigate relationships. this post will focus on how i type the mlb characters in my fics. however, the enneagram is more than putting people in boxes and stamping them with stereotypes. i use it in my writing is to know what motivates each personality and how their values shape not only their worldview, but the actions they will take in the narrative.

1 - the reformer marinette (wing 2), su han, kagami driving goal: integrity, perfection, improvement basic fear: being bad or corrupt

2 - the helper nino, rose, sabrina (wing 1) driving goal: love, appreciation, validation basic fear: being unwanted, unloved

3 - the achiever chloe (wing 2), lila (wing 4): driving goal: worth, success, image basic fear: being worthless

4 - the individualist gabriel (wing 5), zoe, juleka driving goal: identity, authenticity, significance basic fear: the void

5 - the investigator felix (6), max, nathalie (wing 4) driving goal: knowledge, understanding, competency basic fear: being helpless or incompetent

6 - the loyalist mylene, roland, sabine (wing 5) driving goal: security, community, certitude basic fear: having no support system

7 - the enthusiast adrien (wing 6), kim, gina (wing 8) driving goal: satisfaction, excitement, contentedness basic fear: missing out, feeling pain

8 - the challenger alya (wing 9), alix (wing 7), ivan driving goal: autonomy, importance, control basic fear: being harmed, being controlled

9 - the peacemaker luka, fu (wing 8), tom driving goal: harmony, connection, peace of mind basic fear: conflict, separation, loss

there is no enneagram type that's better or worse than the others. an unhealthy person will present the worst symptoms of their type, while a healthy person will present the best. remember, the goal of the enneagram is to get out of the box you're in so you can be a more healthy personality!

notes:

*i'm like 95% sure i got their types right but if you think differently pls feel free to correct me

*wings are when an enneagram type leans into the traits of the type next to them on the circle (either side). i, a 9 wing 1, am mostly laid-back and chill, but if you don't do the dishes like i asked then i'll passive aggressively get up and do them myself while saying "it's fine."

*each type might act like another when they are healthy/unhealthy. E.g nino (type 2) has gone to the "bad side" of 8 in stress (bubbler & rocketeer tried to dominate & regain control). but when he is healthy he looks like "the good side" of 4, making videos and dj-ing & just being super creative.

*any type can be in a happy relationship with any other type as long as they're both healthy (which is one of the things i like about the enneagram's perspective). that being said, my favorite couples that i always end up shipping the hardest are the 1/7 and the 2/5. just so much fun to watch ❤️

*if you're looking at this like "mm i don't buy it, sounds like bull" you might be a type 6

*if you are reading this and thinking "i need to research this more and get the right info" you might be a type 5

*if you're looking at this and are unsure which one you might be because some or all of them kinda sound like you, you're probably a 9

**i am not a certified enneagram coach, just v obsessed

tldr: wackus sorts the miraculous characters into enneagram types bc it helps her write good.

[poisonouswritings]

*jump out the bushes* hey ozzy~~

Listen, bro I have a request.

M3 going on a date to the tarven with mc. They are having fun, they get drinks, mc getting a little tipsy nothing crazy, BUT that tarven has a stage and let people to perform on and tonight is a karaoke night (I don't know if karaoke exists in Astraea but that definitely won't stop me >:) )

Anyway!!!

M3 look back to mc who's pretty drunk and jokingly tell them to go up stage and perform and mc is like "fuck off dude not a chance" , so they start to tease and call a chicken

Normally mc would roll their eyes and brush it off but nah not this mc. They are drunk and don't give a shit

So they climb up the stage, steal some poor guy's lute and go " I declare this song for a very special person to me , they are sitting with us right now btw" they point at their Lis " I hope you would appreciate what I'm about to do because you won't hear that from me sober. Love you, dumbass"

And they start singing "can't help falling in love" by Elvis Presley and holy shit their voice is amazing!!!

By the time they finish, everyone is clapping and Lis walk up to them shaking them like WTF?!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THOSE LUNGS?! And mc is like " Hold on. I'm gonna puke-"

Btw Ozzy thanks for writing my reverse au last legacy hc. You really did amazing and I'm so glad other people liked it. That really made my day.

Ok that's it. Later Ozz. Peace✌️* vanish to atoms*

Oh hey my metaphorical inbox-house has bushes now! Upgrades, people. Upgrades.

GN!Reader, you're drunk, hehehe this is so cute, MC is drunk as a skunk, I give my own lil' song rec but will use the Elvis one for the scenario, though I personally like the Michael Buble version.

M3 Together Because It's More Fun, Colored Bullets Are Romantic With That Character (Felix, Anisa, Sage)

Okay so it's one of the rare times Anisa gets off of work early and doesn't have a shift tomorrow and Felix has torn himself away from his studies, and Sage has decided the night would best be spent at the tavern having fun.

Well. You're having fun. A little much.

Felix gets drunk of a glass of red wine, so he has a hard time judging other people's tolerance. He had meant to encourage you to drink water but he kinda zoned out for a minute there and suddenly you're three drinks deep and it's kinda too late.

Anisa has been on top of it, feeding you snaccs and passing you water and making sure you don't get sloppy. She's happy to let you have your fun - you've been working hard and you deserve it - but she's also gonna make sure you're not putting yourself into danger or something.

Sage is probably the best at making sure you don't overdo it because he obviously has the most experience. Not to say he's gonna harsh your vibes in any way - the Vibes Are Integral To The Night - but he's gonna take good care of you.

Regardless of who you're partnered with, they're all keeping an eye on you. Sage, ever the gentleman, asks you a bunch of sexually revealing questions. Felix, ever the wise man, asks you a bunch of embarrassing revealing questions. Anisa, ever the Single-Brain-Cell-Mom-Friend, tries to stop them but only ends up asking you to elaborate on just about any answer you give. It's all in good fun though, don't worry.

And then they announce they're starting karaoke, and anyone can join!

... Felix wants you to do it. He nudges your shoulder and puts a lilt to his voice as he says that Oh Darling He Just Wants To Appreciate Your Talents And It Would Mean So Very Much To Him If You Did This :)

Anisa looks at you with those big eyes and hair poofed out in excitement and she's like,, three inches from your nose as she says that You Need To Do It. She Needs To Hear An Earth Song and She Needs To See You Doing Something So Adorable. Please. If You're Comfortable.

Sage,, nuzzles into the crook of your neck,, purrs against your throat,,, Hai :3 his tail flicks along your stomach :3 You Know You'd Probably Have A Lot Of Fun Up There :3 and he gives your hips a little squeeze :3 And He Definitely Wants You To Have Fun :3 kisses your cheek :3 So You Should Go Do It!!! :3 yes he's going to be checking you out and having horny thoughts that's just implied

Well, it seems like everyone wants you to do it.

You stumble onto the stage and you have your microphone and you point at Felix and you're like 'THIS IS FOR THE CUTEST GUY WITH THE NICEST ASS HERE, AKA MY BOYFRIEND!' and he's just !! The tips of his ears are turning pink because everyone is looking at him but he's focusing on you but also he wants to sink into the floor a little bit because did you have to introduce him like that? Of course you did. You Are Evil Incarnate. But he loves you anyways.

So like,, you start singing right? If it were me I would sing like,,,, Nicotine by P!ATD but that's me.

But anyways Felix is not expecting you to go off like that. Your voice is far more impressive than he could have imagined, especially the alcohol-enhanced emotion that seeps into the words.

'Wiiiiiiiise meeeeen saaaaaaaay, only foooools ruuuuuuuush iiiiiiiiiin, but I ca-a-a-an't heeeeelp falling in looooooooove wiiiiiiiiiiiiith youuuuuuuuuuuuu'

That's the song stretching the syllables not me

And you're looking at him, grinning and swaying around and seeming so impossibly delighted by the sheer prospect of... being with him.

And the tips of his ears are red and his nose is burning and he can barely speak because the words keep tumbling over and over in his head and hohohohoho he is Not Okay

You take the stage, swaying from side to side a little, and shout that 'THIS IS FOR MY SUPER HOT CAT WIFE!! LOVE YOU BABY' and Anisa is choking on her milk wine Because She Really Didn't Think You Would Do That Oh Gods. And now everyone is looking at her because A Knight Lieutenant Is Letting Her Partner Act So Embarrassing In Public? And Anisa is ignoring them because She Has Standards To Uphold but you sure as hell don't, and she won't let anyone impose on you.

I would recommend Would You Be So Kind by Dodie but that's just me

'Like a riiiiiiveeeeer flooooows, surely toooooo theeeee seaaaaaa, Daaaaarling, soooo it goooooes, some things are meaaaaaaant tooooooo beeeeeee'

And Anisa is just falling in love with you all over again because yes obviously this is an adorable song and the fact that you're beaming at her and flashing her finger hearts and whatever and you're just so sweet and probably a little bit awkward and she gets the awesome honor of being Your Knight

Cat hair poof cat hair poof cat hair poof your (half) cat girlfriend is So Very Very Just Absolutely Captivated By You.

Like I said, Sage is totally checking you out a lot a bit and he's not at all sorry. So when you're up there, leaning on the microphone pole and waiting for the band to start,,,,,,, do you think that Astraea has pole dancers? If they do Sage is zoning out imagining you as a pole dancer. If they don't then man He's About To Have A Fucking Universe-Shattering Idea

I would recommend the Michael Buble version of LOVE but that's just me

'Shaaaaaaall Iiiiiiii staaaaaaaay, would it beeeeee aaaaaa siiiiin, if Iiiiii can't heeeeeelp, faaalling in looooooove wiiiiiith youuuuuu'

And you're looking at Sage?? Like you're drunk and whatever but you're still focusing on him and there's such an earnest burning in your eyes when you say that you've fallen in love with him and his tail goes still and his eyes go all big and his ears are twitching and flattening against his hair and there's a little bit of him that wants to cry (in a good way)

And he's just staring at you because his brain is short circuiting

You stumble back off the stage, giggling and laughing, and practically crash into the table. Luckily Anisa and Sage are able to stabilize you and Holy Shit Everyone Is Losing It

Since when could you sing like that?? Why have you never sung for any of them before?

If your singing sounds like that then what does your moaning sound li- Anisa kicks Sage in the shin so hard he nearly falls out of his chair

You cut everyone off by slamming your hands on the table hard enough to make the mugs rattle and declare that You Gotta Fuckin' Pee But You Cannot Walk and then you stumble and trip over your own feet and faceplant

,,,, your partner loves you so much

Anyways you get carried home because you Cannot Walk

Depending on how badly you Cannot Walk, Felix might have assigned Sage to carry you. But if you can walk a bit, you're leaning on his shoulder and he's still too flustered to talk because Why Did You Mention His Ass but also he is such a fool for you

Anisa! Is! Carrying You! Even if you don't necessarily need her to. She asks you a thousand questions about Earth music and romance songs and poems and stories. She wants to pick something suitable to serenade you with :)

Sage but he's koala-carrying you so your legs are wrapped around his waist and you can nuzzle into the crook of his neck and hes carrying you and bouncin' you a little bit and kissing whatever parts of your face he can reach because Why Are You Such A Sweetheart He Really Really Loves You :'3

[nevereverlandboys]

Different Pulses 

Pairing: Felix x Reader

Warnings: Swearing

Summary: After Pan gets defeated, Y/N and Felix live together in Storybrooke with the "heroes". They both don't get along and seem to avoid each other, until the "heroes" need to leave them alone to save Henry from another threat. Will Y/N get along with the cold, distant boy?

Part: (1/?)

@madd-devil

This story is heavily inspired by "When it's cold" by:

@the-original-weirdo-83

@peter-pan-on-neverland

Y/N's eyes wandered through the small room, from the small bed to the huge window, stopping at the small drawer underneath it, before finally stepping further in. The walls were dyed light blue and besides a big clock and a flat screen they were empty. There was nothing unusual with this room, nothing really striking and yet it still felt a little strange. She walked forwards and ripped the dark curtains away, opening the window to welcome the golden sunlight into the room, warming her skin. The air smelled different and even the birds chirped in another tune. It seemed as if this world was quieter than the other, less dangerous and more welcoming. For a moment Y/N was soaked into the moment and drifted off into her thoughts, as suddenly some cursing in the next room ripped the girl out of her thoughts. With an annoyed snarl, she rolled her eyes and let herself drop onto the small bed, trying to ignore the sounds that probably came from the grumpy former second in command. After all, he still did not like being taken from Neverland, as he found himself with Y/N in a new home in Storybrooke. He still did not fit in and fought with everything he had to integrate. The second in command was stubborn and feisty, hot-tempered and constantly in a bad mood. Felix had barely granted Y/N a smile since they came off the Island and after he was brought into Mary Margaret's and David Charmings flat, everything went worse. The lost boy usually locked himself up inside his room, stayed there until after dinner to grab himself the leftovers, before vanishing back behind the wooden door. He never seemed to understand the technology around him, not even trying to understand it, but getting angry instead if it did not work out like he had imagined it to.  Y/N on the other hand, found herself in a healthy relationship with her hosts real quick. They took it as their own responsibility to take both of them in, after Pan was defeated. Felix, because he was the most stubborn boy that would never find his peace in an orphanage and Y/N, because she was the only girl next to Wendy that lived with the lost boys. After all this time on the island, she found herself being close to Henry as well. The small, young boy was like a little brother to her, making the girl laugh and joining her whenever Mary Margaret would allow them to go out. She was a careful woman and even though she trusted Y/N, there was no reason for her not to be cautious. Also Y/N suspected Mary  not to act like granting the girl a privilege while Felix was still being guarded. 

Another loud yell from behind those walls disturbed the girls' peaceful daydreams once more, so she grabbed the pillow and pressed it over her head to muffle all the sound, trying her best to ignore everything around. It was a day too pretty for this and Y/N only wanted to relax, but not a few minutes of delightful silence later, she heard a knock on the wooden door. Moving her body properly under the sheets, she faced the door and mumbled just loud enough,"Come in."

The door swung open and revealed the former second in command's worried face, his sweaty hair hung down his face and he breathed so loud that the girl could literally feel anger flooding in the room. The atmosphere turned immediately tense and the room seemed to shrink around her with each second passing. Y/N held her breath and raised one eyebrow in confusion, trying her best to hide her insecurities behind a questioning look, as the lanky, blonde boy's eyes pierced her urgently. 

"Where is the little rat?" Felix spoke in a hoarse tone. 

"The ra-" She started confused. "Oh."

Henry.

"He took my cloak." Felix raged. "Where is the bastard, so I can smite him!"

"It's in the laundry." Y/N interrupted him before Felix would even try to hurt Henry and give him the fault for her doings. She found it in the bathroom and washed it along with the other laundry. The girl's voice was almost inaudible, well knowing the boy's temper from all the countless encounters with the other lost boys. Felix's eyes twitched and he gritted his teeth as he slowly came closer, one step after another, to close the distance that kept her away from him, the only distance that gave the girl at least a little bit of comfort. Henry could be glad to have to spend the time with the grumpy lost boy on weekends only. How much she envied him.

"What?" He snarled with his face just a few centimeters away from hers and for a moment her mind went blank, the only impulse she felt was to storm out of the room. As she crashed to the door, Y/N did not even bother to look back and swiftly grabbed her shoes and keys before leaving the apartment.  The door swung shut with a loud crash that echoed through every room as Felix swayed back in his own room, every cell inside him questioning why his heart felt so heavy. Y/N was not even sure if the lanky boy bothered to chase after her and if her actions seemed a little exaggerated, but when Felix built himself up in front of her, the girl's heart sank into the bottom of her body and fear overtook her mind. The former lost boy had been cruel to other boys for less than that.

She did not stay out for long, simply walked around the block to get some fresh air and to get some space from the tall boy. Also, because she knew that Mary would be mad if she was not home when the woman returned. The first week did not start well and Y/N let out a frustrated sight as she thought of the future. Mary and David left her alone with him half of the day, having the boy locked up in his room was not consoling though, the fact alone that he was present was enough to make her feel nervous. When she returned to the apartment, Felix was nowhere in sight, so she quickly snuck back into her room, hoping that he would leave her alone for the rest of the day. On the other hand, she had to make sure that he would not hurt Henry, the poor boy did nothing wrong. For a moment Y/N hesitated until she decided to get Felix's cloak from the washing line on the balcony. Not a surprise that the asshole did not know it was there, when he never left his room. Still, the girl felt a little curious when she thought of what he might do all day by himself- especially with no understanding of technology. Was he not bored? There was no convincing answer that she could think of and Y/N wondered if she would find out as she strutted with the big cloak in her hands towards Felix's room. She  knocked at the door and immediately regretted it after the previous events. Nevertheless she tried to be brave and push her fear aside, telling herself that the former second in command was not threatening at all.

She knocked again when nothing happened and suddenly some angry footsteps stomped into her direction-, firm and loud, before the tall boy ripped the door wide open, revealing his furious face.

"What the fuck do you want?" Felix growled, the veins of his neck throbbing and his hands pressed so tightly into fists that his knuckles turned white. 

"I-...eh." Y/N stammered nervously and tightened her grip onto the cloak. Her eyes widened as she thought, He would not hurt me, would he? "I have your-"

"Keep that!" Felix interrupted her, his words were like poison.

Felix slammed the door shut before  the girl could say another  word, leaving her in the dark hallway with an unsettling feeling inside her guts that something was wrong. But how could she even tell what? Felix never spoke to her that much and it was pretty obvious that he would not do more in the future. All Y/N knew was that the grumpy boy missed the island and that he missed Pan, even though the girl never understood his obedience to the green devil. Peter Pan was manipulative and evil and she was glad he never left Neverland alive. Felix couldn't give her the fault for his loss, she had never helped the heroes and even refused as the only one next to him to say a word. Well, Y/N opened up quicker and befriended the "heroes" after everything they did. It was a saint if she could speak freely about it. The cloak must mean a lot to Felix, or else he would never be this angry, even for a boy who had a tendency to violence-, he never hurt Y/N before. She really hoped he would take it back and overcome his rage. The idea that Felix might only looked for a reason to hate Henry more occured her a few minutes later, but it was an unspoken thought that seemed to be way too assumptious.

"I am sorry about Peter." She moved her forehead onto the wooden door, resting it there for a bit and after a while she watched a single tear drop down onto the ground. Peter was not completely evil, not to Y/N at least and deep inside he was a loss to her as well. There was a short time where Felix seemed to be nice too, back on Neverland just weeks before Peter got defeated. He had shown the girl a flower field and tickled her until some boy's would crossy their way and disturb that lovely moment. It was the first and only time he had ever been close in a comforting way. Since then, Y/N had always hoped to see the boy underneath this rusty shell, but it was all gone since the second he stepped off the boat.

The door stayed closed and she stared at Felix's cloak, wondering what to do with it. When Y/N returned to her own room and snuck underneath the covers, the cloak was still under her arm. It did not smell like Felix anymore. The ticking of the clock was the only sound filling the room, capturing the girl's eyes to check the time- six pm. It was late, almost time for Mary Margaret to come back from work and cook some dinner, and when it was time for Y/N to sleep, David would come home too and Emma would come tomorrow, to bring Henry over for the weekend. Y/N barely saw David. He was always busy with his work in the police station and would get home late in the night. He left Felix and her up to Mary and Emma, which was definitely a hard task thinking of the rebellious boy next to Y/N's room. The man could not stand the former lost boy, the girl had seen it in his eyes when Emma brought her onto the ship, back then,  from escaping Neverland. Felix's emotions seemed mutual and everyone around could sense it. That both of them were separated most of the time, was not so bad after all. Mary Margarett even tried to take it as an opportunity to get to know more about the former lost boy, but all her attempts failed. The boy kept shut, would not reveal his past and barely replied to any of the woman’s actions. It was tiring to watch, quite a show though. It seemed like a boring game of charade, in which Mary kept asking him countless questions and then tried to interpret his annoyed growls as he ate some cereal. Breakfast was a strict rule for him to join and dinner to avoid. 

Y/N rolled over and grabbed her phone, turning some music on to change her thoughts and kill the silence. Even though it was so early, she felt how her eyelids were getting heavy, how she slowly drifted off into sleep, using the cloak as a pillow. Throwing it away was not an option for her, there could always come a time where the former lost boy would demand it back. 

It felt like a whole night when the girl woke up from a strange feeling of someone pulling on something underneath her. Out of reflex, she tightened the grip on the cloak in her arms. The pulling got stronger and when she realised that this was not a dream, she slowly opened her tired eyes.

"I changed my mind." Felix scoffed. "I want it back."

With a mind still dizzy and drunk from sleep, Y/N's sight was still so blurry, that it was hard to catch up and she needed a moment to follow the lost boy's words. He obviously meant the cloak, but why did he make such a fuss about it when he did not want it in the first place? 

"Y/N?" He pronounced her name so carefully when he realised her eyes were closing again. She did not respond. 

The sound of Felix's knees hitting the floor startled the girl out of sleep, finding herself sitting bolt upright in bed, pressing the cloak with widened eyes tightly against her chest. He let out an amused chuckle, grinning from ear to ear. Being fully awake now, Y/N realised why the tall boy was here and she slowly reached her hand forward, handing the boy his cloak over. What the hell did he do in the middle of the night inside her room? Why could this not wait? Her eyes wandered to her phone on the small nightstand-, it was eight pm and winter. It caused the girl to genuinely laugh to herself.

"Sorry for washing it." She whispered meek, avoiding Felix's gaze and dropped her head back onto the pillow before turning  away from him to close her eyes. 

"It's all right." With that Felix quickly made his way back to his own room, the door closing so quick as if he had run.

The next day he kept quiet, did not say a word at breakfast, not even a snarky comment towards Henry who was constantly talking about one of his favourite movies and its heroes. The word 'hero' usually was enough to make the former lost boy explode. Not this time. His steel like eyes were glued onto his bowl as he ate in silence. Later he would sit in the living room, watching some TV that Henry forgot to turn off and would not even complain when Y/N joined and switched the channel. For a moment she felt his eyes burning on her skin. When she met his gaze, the former lost boy rose to his feet and walked away, slamming his door to confirm he was in his room now. Felix was strange and not the friendliest boy for sure. Still, Y/N had the feeling that there was more behind his behaviour that he would let her on and that he exaggerated an act. Mary would give her some tasks over the time like getting the groceries, which she would really appreciate doing, since it was a great way to get out. Y/N and Felix were no prisoners of course and the cold of the thick snow creeping in from the outside would keep her under her covers anyway. There never has been snow on Neverland. It was entirely strange and yet so familiar, waking a nostalgic feeling inside the girl. When Y/N found her way to the grocery store, there was no one to harm her and she had all the time she needed to wander through the different Isles and shove anything she liked into the shopping cart. There were no lost boys with spears and torches, that would hunt the girl down until her feet would bleed. No Pan that played his dangerous, manipulative games, that only entertained him in a twisted, sadistic way,  satisfying him, that it could already be a kink. 

It was freedom. 

The good snacks from the store disappeared immediately inside the drawer, keeping it safe from Henry or Felix. Both had the tendency to steal Y/N's food. She would often cook for herself, learning new skills since there was nothing else to do anyways. As soon as Mary returned, the girl hoped she would bring some more groceries, but she got disappointed. The snow held her off too long, the mood to go into the supermarket was simply gone and Y/N could understand that.

"You can go with Henry." She smiled and grabbed herself something to drink from the fridge. 

"When will he be here?" Y/N asked, raising an eyebrow as she waited for an answer. The short haired woman slowly turned around, her face seemed to be frozen in an unbelieving, perplexed and slightly fearing frown.

"Isn't he here alr-" She stopped and both of their heads shot into the same direction when a key was put inside the front lock, turning and unlocking the door. The girl expected the young boy to get home, instead, Emma stormed into the apartment, shortly followed by David and the girl already saw on their faces that something was wrong. Mary let go of what she was doing and closed the distance between them with quite some concern on her face.

"They took Henry!" Emma bursted out, her eyes searching the room as if her son could just hide somewhere and would just magically appear any moment. She looked full of hope. David gently rubbed her back and told Mary to get her things. They always seemed to find trouble and now Y/N finally understood what Felix meant, when he once claimed that their hero being was only a facade and they were the true danger. Were they? Henry was gone and that was because he was so important to these women.

"Who took him?" Y/N asked worriedly.

"Stay out of this, you are not a part of this." Emma ignored the question and  gently shoved the former lost girl out of her way to get her keys. She ripped the door wide open and jumped down the hallway without bothering to close it, expecting the others to follow quickly. 

"We will get Henry back." Mary turned to Y/N, trying to comfort her by holding her hands. "You don't have to worry."

It was not the young boy she worried about and the short haired woman knew that. With a quick glance back to Felix's closed door, Y/N gulped and immediately shook her head.

"I can come with you!" She protested at the thought of being all alone with the former second in command.

"No," Mary said and sighted. "I need you here."

Her gaze wandered off to Felix's door again and her look grew frustrated. Y/N followed with her eyes and nodded before facing the short haired woman again. She turned to the counter and grabbed her purse to pull out her wallet.  Then she collected all the money she had and put it in a sugar box inside the shelf. 

"I trust you enough." Her words meant a lot. "Besides, once in a while Regina will check up on you two."

With that, Mary Margaret turned around and gave David a final nod, before both of them left the apartment to join their daughter in the car. As soon as Y/N closed the door behind them, everything went into an uncomfortable silence. There was no single sound instead of the unbearable striking of the clock hanging on the kitchen wall. 

"Great." Y/N moaned quietly. At least they could have told her who took Henry and for what possible reason. The adults would always seem to know better and in this case they decided it would be better to keep Felix and her out of this. Did they really want to leave her out of it, or was Y/N just not to be trusted? Felix would easily try to convince her about that. The former lost boy probably would not  care  at all. It was smart of Mary Margaret to hide some money for Y/N. The fridge was almost empty and she wondered how long they would be away and when she would need food. There was nothing good inside it, nothing appealing, so  Y/N closed the door and strutted back to her room. Dropping into the sheets, she grabbed the remote next to her pillow and turned on the TV. Henry had shown her how to use it real quick as he often joined the girl to play video games. All those years living here and using all these things caused him to always be smarter and it was the first thing Y/N noticed that Felix disliked about him. At the end, there were countless things the scarred up boy hated, but Henry was always the center of his anger. 

With the time passing by, the rumbling in the girl's stomach got louder until her tummy literally screamed for something to eat. Back in the kitchen, there was still nothing  appealing and with a quick glance to Felix's wooden door, she wondered if the former lost boy would like to eat something too. Each step further towards his room felt more heavy and Y/N's stomach turned inside out. The moment her knuckles knocked against the cool wood, she questioned why she even tried to be nice and get along with him. The floor was cold, maybe she should have put on some socks or turned on the heater. There was no sound on the other side of the wood and Y/N started to wonder if Felix was even home, when suddenly some heavy footsteps slowly strutted closer. Felix swayed the door wide open and rubbed his tired eyes, then rested his heavy head on the doorframe. He only wore some grey sweatpants, revealing his scars on his pale chest. The air around the girl thickened and her body heated up at the sight of his messy, sweaty morning hair. 

"Sorry." She mumbled and avoided looking at him. His presence alone caused shivers to run down her spine. "Did I wake you?"

"M-hm." Felix grumbled tiredly, fighting to keep his eyes open. Y/N's eyes wandered back to the open kitchen and its clock. It was four o'clock.

"Are you hungry?"

The tall boy remained silent for a moment, his dull eyes staring at the girl as if he did not understand the question, turned to look at his bed, then slightly nodded with his head as if it was the hardest thing to do.

"I could eat." He spoke with a deep, raspy voice, laying his focus back onto Y/N. Fuck, he sounded so hot, it caught her off guard and left her unable to speak for a glimpse moment. 

"I am ordering food." She said after a small moment. "What would you like?"

Felix pressed his brows together, then lifted one in confusion. "How does that work?" He asked and Y/N chuckled in amusement, feeling how her stiffened limbs relaxed. 

"You choose a restaurant and then decide what you want to eat." She explained and showed the blonde boy her phone. "They deliver it and you pay."' 

"Ah."

Y/N were not sure if Felix was not understanding it, or simply did not like it. He brought his hands up to his arms and rubbed the scarred skin, feeling how cold it was and finally bothered to put on a T-shirt. If Y/N were honest with herself, she liked Felix's exposed back. Muscles danced under tender flesh, as arms stretched upon the ceiling, forward and crooked together, pulling the cotton over his chest. Back on Neverland, Felix always seemed to be violent and rough, harsh to others and never in a good mood. There has not changed much, yet the dangerous, threatening touch was missing since he came to Storybrooke with Y/N. He was bent to new rules now. 

"Pizza." Felix said and stepped closer, closing the distance and bent down to take a glimpse of the menu. "Do they have some?"

Y/N's skin started to prickle when she felt his breath against her cheek and immediately froze in place. Why was he so close? 

"You know Pizza?" She asked unsure, still a little curious. Felix smirked and let out a husky chuckle. "Sure I do."

He walked past her into the kitchen, grabbed a glass of water, gulped it down, filled another one, gulped it down, but when he repeated that for a third time, the second in command could not finish it and disposed of the remains in the sink.  He turned around to check the time and widened his eyes as he realised how late it already was.

"The days are dark during winter." The boy mentioned with a side-along gaze, as if he knew that she might have criticised him for sleeping that long. Y/N did not know how to respond, but was confident enough to join the tall boy in the kitchen, pulling the chair back and taking a seat at the table. Both of them did not say a word and with each second passing in silence, she regretted sitting there with him even more. 

"Why did you run from me earlier?" The question caught her off guard, she needed a moment to think for the right answer. The girl tilted her head in Felix's direction, his eyebrows were lifted up in a questioning look and he leaned at the counter, waiting for the girl to open her mouth and speak.  He was just curious, not too gruff nor angry. 

"You scare me sometimes." Y/N admitted. "It's like being back in Neverland."

The former lost boy nodded disappointed and shifted his gaze out of the window to hide half of his features as if she would ever be able to read them.

"You really did not like the Island." The boy stated, receiving a light nod as an answer. "Was it so bad?"

"There were no toilets."

Felix could not help but chuckle, a warm genuine smile spread over his face and he nodded his head in agreement when he faced her again. 

"Toilets sure are great." He laughed. "Or warm running water."

Felix pushed himself away from the counter and slendered over to the girl, taking a seat on the chair in front of her. "It took me three days to find out how that works, by the way." He added after a small pause. Y/N could only shake her head in response and give him a brief smile. "Must have been cold."

The tall boy agreed in silence and crossed his arms in front of his chest, waiting for the food to arrive. He would disappear for a while to go to the bathroom, giving her some space to clear her mind. All she could think about was how beautiful the former second in command looked when he smiled, making her nervous the longer he stayed with her. For a moment, it seemed like he was another person when she was all alone with him. 

"Where are the others?" Felix asked when he returned from the bathroom, pulling the chair around to straddle it. 

"Someone took Henry." Y/N admitted low, not even wanting him to know that, well aware that he would only mock this situation, probably having expected such a thing sooner or later. 

"Hm.’' Felix let out an amused chuckle and gave her a winning smirk, one that said,"Told you so!"

"We're on our own for a while." The girl said, checking her phone for a message from the delivery guy. Not long. Almost here. How the time had passed by.

"I am  fucking happy they are gone." Felix snorted and rolled his eyes."They were such a pain in the ass."

At least they gave him a home and clothes, food and no worries about his current life. That was something and even though Y/N knew how beautiful the Island could be, the former lost boy had not been safe there. None of them were. How could he still be so blinded after all? Y/N wanted to respond but decided to keep her mouth shut. Right at that moment the doorbell rang. Shifting from her seat, Y/N strutted over to the door and opened it, waiting a few moments for the delivery guy to get up the stairs and hand her the Pizza. She pulled a twenty dollar bill out of her pocket and handed it over to the man before closing the door. The boxes felt hot on her cool hands and the smell of fat, cheese and pepperoni filled the room, making the girl realise how hungry she actually was. Felix's stomach started to rumble when she started to cut her Pizza, so she assumed he did not have any breakfast either. For a moment the girl really enjoyed the boy's company and hoped he would stay longer, but she was also sure that he would take his food and vanish as quickly as he used to do. Yet, Felix never ceased to amaze her. He waited in silence until she was done cutting, then he took the knife and in that moment her fingers touched his, she felt  a quick, electric sensation followed by butterflies rumbling in her stomach. Taking the Pizza, she quickly strutted into the direction of your room to hide her sudden joy, just to be stopped by Felix calling her name.

"Where are you going?"

"Into my room?" Y/N gave confused back ,wondering why he would want her to accompany him all of the sudden.

"Oh- I thought…" Felix sounded disappointed.

"Oh…" Her eyes widened and maybe she sounded a bit too harsh. "I thought you wouldn't want-"

"Nevermind." Felix barked harshly and swiftly vanished behind his own door, not even giving the girl a chance to say another word. Damn, this boy was so sensitive, his mood was constantly switching and Y/N wished to find out why he was always  so pessimistic about everything. Not now, she thought, not now. First she would eat, then she would take care of that matter. 

The boy let out an annoyed sight when he opened his door after Y/N knocked not long after she finished eating. Felix was eating the last slice of his pizza and held the empty box in his other hand.

"Why are you always coming to me?" He snarled.

"I just care about you! For god’s sake! You act so fucking mean since we came here and I wonder why." She raised her voice and knitted her eyebrows together in a serious manner

"Please don't do this." Felix moaned theoretically. "Please don't act as if you cared!"

Felix swiftly turned around and threw the empty box of Pizza aside. His fast movements caused her to flinch a little, but still she managed to remain calm.

"You don't care!" He snarled. "Nobody cares. Just leave me alone."

The tall boy did not need to turn around and give her a final glare, he made it clear that she was not wanted and no matter how much he needed her help, she respected his wishes. Y/N had really no thought to waste about him when she went straight into the bathroom to take a bath that might cool her nerves. That fucking audacity and this childish behaviour, as if Felix really meant what he was saying. They both knew he was not serious and that he was simply lying to himself about his emotions. There was no place for love in his heart after being manipulated by Pan for so long, nor  for friendship. Y/N did not care what the former second in command told himself about their friendship, it all has been a lie and a game for Pan, something to entertain him. It was worthless. His loss meant nothing, still Y/N cared how Felix felt about the betrayal of every former boy.

While she stripped off her clothes, the girl waited for the bathtub to be filled with hot water and bubbles, a metaphorical way to clean her thoughts when diving in. She should rather think about helping someone out and earn some money, so she could afford buying her own things. She splashed the water with her fingers and slowly sank deeper into the bathtub to enjoy the silence. The hot steam filled the room and when her thoughts drove off to something pleasantly, she almost forgot the time. Back in Neverland there was nothing to worry about time, the days were almost all the same and no one was there to rush someone. Things have barely changed in Storybrooke, since there was nothing to do for Y/N and the lanky lost boy, so they needed to find something to kill the time. 

It had been an eternity since the girl had taken a proper bath and maybe it was time to get out, but the hot water remained too tempting for her to step out. With a deep breath she closed her eyes and leaned back, as suddenly a door slammed shut, immediately telling her that Felix was leaving his room again. His slow footsteps definitely made their way towards the bathroom and Y/N realised that she did not lock the door. She did not really forget to lock the door, right? The girl could not recall it and to get out of the water, to check was too late, as she watched agonised how the door handle went down and the door swung wide open, causing her heart to skip a beat. The tall lost boy did not seem to notice her at first, but as soon as he entered the steamy room, Felix froze in place. His eyes widened and his face turned blank. For a long moment, they both stared at each other and Y/N felt relieved that she was at least covered by a thick foam of bubbles. 

"Fuck, sorry...I-" Felix stuttered through half open lips, as if the little sight of a girl's skin was enough to steal his voice. It gave Y/N her confidence back.

"I didn't mean to-" the boy still couldn't open his mouth while his gaze burned holes through her. It took him a moment, but suddenly Felix shook his head to ban whatever he was thinking about and shifted his eyes away, then turned on his heels to swiftly leave the bathroom. 

At least he could have closed the door, Y/N thought as she sunk deeper into the water in embarrassment. Fuck, how in the hell could she forget to close the door? At least he did not see anything, or did he? The whole situation left her frozen in place, unable to think clearly. Y/N did not even dare to step out of the water to close the door, so she just sat there, trying her best to calm down. After a while, the skin of her fingertips were already wrinkled up, leaving a rough touch on her softened skin and she finally thought about getting out of the bathtub. A long time  had passed, since Felix stepped into the bath and now the water was starting to get cold. The girl's eyes searched the room for a towel until she realised that she had washed them and now they hung in the living room. Fuck this shit.

"Felix!" She called him as loud as she could, but there was no answer. The boy did not respond until she called him again.

"What do you want?" His voice echoed through the hallway. She sounded unsure and intrigued. 

"I have a problem."

"Well now you have two." Felix yelled back.

Y/N frowned in confusion and lifted her head.

"How's that?"

"I ain't interested in your first problem."

She let out an annoyed sight and rolled with her eyes and brought her fingers to her forehead, running over her skin in a steady, relaxing movement. Why was he like that? Was it really necessary to always find a way for drama? 

"I don’t have a towel." She whined, hoping for him to bring her one. The grumpy boy did not respond again, an unbearable silence filling the apartment. Felix was there, the girl knew that he was. He had not shut his door yet, so he must be in the living room or kitchen where he would perfectly understand you.

"Felix…" She called him, already giving up that he would come and breaking her mind by finding a way to get past him. "Please."

A few seconds later she heard his footsteps come back again, the wood creaking under his weight and announcing the boy’s arrival. He did not even enter the room, instead Felix threw the towel through the open crack.

"I need to take a piss, so please hurry up!" He said rather cowardly before the footsteps led him away, then shutting the door shut. Y/N did not hesitate and got out of the water as quickly as she could, barely drying her skin before she sprinted into her own room before the former lost boy would cross her way again. 

Why did such things always happen to her? Could it not have been someone else to walk in like Emma or Mary? Of course not, destiny always found a way to punish the girl,- first Pan, now Felix. Nevertheless, the cold boy stayed inside her mind all the time. She dressed herself and got ready to snuck under the blankets. For a while she allowed herself to dream of him cuddling against her back, how his big body would feel like pressed against hers, or maybe even… on top  of her?

NO.

Fuck no, she was not having dirty daydreams of mister cold facade. There was nothing special about Felix, right? Eventually that long scar that ran over his jagged jawline and those blue, stabbing eyes fascinated her. Those  piercing eyes, that were sharp as daggers and intimidating as the gaze of a shark. There was definitely something mysterious about the former second in command, still, Y/N had told herself that she was done with adventures and risky decisions- Felix was definitely one of those,- that she could tell. He was hot, but also the biggest asshole she ever met. The former lost boy kept wandering through the apartment and distracting the girl's dreaming thoughts with each passing second. He would not leave her mind until she fell asleep.

(Next Chapter ->)

[mariproducer]

Kaoru Hakaze aka a fully realized variant of Adrien Agreste

He was forced to rewrite the sleep-deprived kaoru Adrien comparison essay and make it coherent.

They’re both blonde, they’re both rich, they both have parental issues, and only one of them remains to be a stagnant character (surprise! It’s not Kaoru).

Before I get into the meat of this long long post, I want to preface this by saying that I do NOT want or expect Adrien to be written this way. I acknowledge that there’s a point where the similarities between Kaoru Hakaze and Adrien Agreste diverge. I’m only making this post because a) the few friends I have that like both mlb and enstars wanted to read this and b) I just want to highlight how MLB could’ve tackled certain facets of Adrien’s character. At the end of the day, these two are only characters that share a few similarities and are different enough to be their own unique characters. Again, I just wanted to put this out there to show that Adrien, at his basis, could easily be an interesting character in the show, but the writers do nothing with the gold mine they’re sitting on.

ALRIGHT, since I’m posting this to my Tumblr dedicated to talking about MLB, I think some introductions are needed. Kaoru Hakaze is a character from the Japanese anidol franchise Ensemble Stars. He’s a member of the unit UNDEAD, and upon first glance, he appears to be a flirty and breezy sort of guy (note: his last name Hakaze plays into his wind theming).

At the start of Ensemble Stars! (with one exclamation point, this different is integral), you meet Kaoru Hakaze and 9 times out of 10 (unless your fave type is the flirty guy, which uh Stares at the numerous amounts of JP fans who love Kaoru ok maybe I was in the minority) you’ll likely be infuriated with him: he’s flirty and brushes off most of the cast because according to him, hanging out with guys is a waste of time and not fun and he’d rather be in the presence of girls. If I could find a clip, I would put his first appearance in the anime to give you a good idea on his initial demeanor. Anyway, the game, especially in its earlier years, really liked laying it on thick that Kaoru loves girls and loves flirting and loves taking them out on dates and detests the idea of hanging out with boys.

But slowly and surely, the Enstars writers eventually realized that they had something good and interesting in their hands, and began to write Kaoru slowly growing out of this pre-established mindset. As years passed by and we got more Kaoru-centric stories, he evolved from the stereotypical flirt character who only cared about chasing skirts and flirting with the player character (a girl named Anzu) to a guy who has a lot of love and care in his heart and hopes to be someone reliable to his peers. By the start of Ensemble Stars!! (I’m telling you the amount of exclamation points are important), he’s become a reliable sort of guy, hoping to be a good mentor figure to Anzu and the younger idols, and he cares deeply for his fellow unit members and friends.

So with that quick intro out of the way, you must be wondering: what does this have to do with MLB and where does Adrien Agreste fall in all this? Well, I’ll tell you! By bringing up the similarities between these two and how Adrien’s writing could’ve followed a similar path.

Dealing with the loss of a mother

The first and easiest comparison to make between Kaoru and Adrien are that they both have lost their mothers, with Kaoru losing his mom at a young age, while Adrien losing his mom a few months before the MLB canon starts (supposedly… uh the show is weird about when exactly Emilie Agreste disappeared).

The issue with Adrien is that… well his feelings about his mom’s disappearance isn’t really explored in the show. There are only a few episodes in the show that tackle this subject in relation to Adrien: Simon Says where Adrien tells Ladybug about his mom, Gorizilla where Adrien wants to watch the indie movie his mom starred in, and Felix where it appears Adrien seems to be at peace with his mom’s disappearance considering the fact that he appears to be ok with Gabriel moving on in life with Nathalie. Christmas Special also tackles Adrien being sad about his mother’s disappearance, but that episode falls in the weird line of it’s canon or non-canon because the MLB timeline is all sorts of wacky. Anyway, the point I’m trying to make here is that Adrien’s thoughts about his missing mother are only brought up when the show needs a sad moment and to make us feel bad for him. We don’t get to see the ongoing effects on a kid who lost their mother recently, like how it’d affect the actions he takes or his perceptions on relationships with people or anything. It’s just there as an angst point.

Contrast this with Kaoru, who’s loss basically rewired his brain. For Kaoru, we know that his mother meant so much to him, as he brings her up in quiet monologues to himself, asking her for guidance or assurance. The reason he flirted with girls and craved their presence so much? Because his mother was a shining beacon in his life and when she died, it felt as though all those good feelings vanished (which was also exacerbated by his father’s colder attitude). Kaoru thought he could fill the void by going on dates with girls (yes this is Freudian as hell and I am so glad you have moved past this Kaoru) because he desired to feel loved.

You can tangibly see how this loss affects Kaoru, but with Adrien, sometimes it’s easy to forget that he lost his mother because there is hardly any exploration of grief for him (especially if this happened so recently). Why don’t we see an Adrien uncomfortable with the topic of moms more or more scenes of him wistfully staring at his peers’ with his parents?? Maybe we could get a proper explanation as to why Adrien somehow manages to get over his grief to the point where he thinks it’s alright for Gabriel to move on too. Like writing a child in mourning would be a good thing to show to kids, to not shame them for their tears and fears, to show them its ok to cry and that moving on is a journey. But with Adrien? Nothing.

A flirty demeanor and focusing on one girl

Both Kaoru and Adrien are established flirts. Both Kaoru and Adrien also end up singling out one girl for their affections. It’s just how these facts unfold throughout the story that differs. As said before, Kaoru has a reputation of being a skirt-chaser: his peers know it, girls know it, and it’s a part of his image as an idol. When he meets Anzu, the player character (side note: Anzu really shouldn’t be the player character for the player to self insert on because at this point, she is so heavily involved with the cast and has her own backstory, personality and motivation that it’s better to consider her as her own character), Kaoru takes interest in her because of course he does. However, because of Anzu’s constant presence amongst all the idols and her role as their producer (basically she’s their manager), Kaoru’s interest goes from shallow intrigue because she’s a girl to a full-blown crush on her. Kaoru does confess to her at the end of the school year, only to get promptly rejected. He ends up taking this rejection in stride, now focusing his efforts on supporting her whenever he can as a friend. (until enstars remembers it also has to appeal to self-shippers so Kaoru has stupid moments where he gets nervous around Anzu in !! era and it’s kind of PISSING ME O-)

On the other hand, we have Adrien, who acts flirty when he’s Chat Noir for… uhh actually is there an established reason as to why Adrien acts this way in canon? Because I was always under the assumption that he does this to differentiate his hero self from his civilian self but now I have no clue if that is canon or fanon (knowing this show I’m leaning towards fanon). So yeah, we have Adrien who flirts with Ladybug and some of the other female heroes too (like Ryuko) and his object of affection is Ladybug. He likes Ladybug because why not? Origins wants you to believe that he likes Ladybug because she’s an amazing sort of girl with convictions who also has a vulnerable side, but later episodes make it seem like he’s just in love with the heroine being perfect and also in love with him in return (looking at you Puppeteer 2 and Ladybug). And Adrien has confessed to Ladybug (numerous times now) and has gotten rejected every single time… like he didn’t stop after the first rejection and kept going instead? Sure, in Glaciator he SAYS he’ll respect her rejection and be there for her as a friend, then a few episodes later, Frozer opens with him trying to ask her out again and taking it badly that she rejects him a second time. Like, instead of idk the lesson of Adrien getting rejected sticking and him actually respecting her rejection, he just keeps asking her out? What’s the point of constantly having him do this because It just makes him look like a creep who can’t take no for an answer. Nothing of substance is really done with Adrien here either and this part of his character and the way it’s written in canon just makes him look worse.

On the topic of friendship

Alright I’ll admit that this may seem like a reach at first, but hear me out. For both Kaoru and Adrien, the topic of friendship is an integral part of their character, or at least it appears to be for Adrien. Origins establishes that one of Adrien’s goals is to make friends but we don’t see him in the act of making friends. Like he doesn’t go out of his way to approach people and befriend them most of the time (like Nino had to offer friendship first, Chloe was already his friend before the school year started, he ends up befriending Kagami because their parents pushed them together) and the episode Party Crasher just hands him a friend group with no effort on his part.

On the other end of the spectrum, Kaoru is resistant to the idea of befriending his peers because they’re guys but over the school year in ! era, he slowly opens up to them, finding their company to be pleasant and enjoyable. It’s also interesting to note the sort of company Kaoru keeps: he always manages to connect with those considered “eccentric” or too much to handle by others. His easygoing and breezy nature (sorry I need the wind puns) greatly contrasts the colorful personalities of his friend group; it makes for their interactions to be entertaining to read through. Making friends feels more meaningful for Kaoru because we see him work towards repairing his relationships with those who surround him, rather than suddenly having a friend group with no buildup like Adrien does.

An aside: Adrien has a thing in canon where no one? Dislikes him? Like besides maybe Lila but who knows what her motivations are since the show refuses to elaborate and Chloe I guess don’t know what’s going on with her and her perception of Adrien starting from s4. He never has anyone to butt heads with or have conflict with, and I think it makes him boring to watch at times because everyone just likes him. On the other hand, you have Kaoru who has a mixed reception with the cast: there’s a running gag with Souma where Souma wants to slice him with his sword and is always irritated by Kaoru or how Koga underestimates Kaoru and takes Kaoru’s easygoing attitude as laziness. People tended to condescend him for his skirt-chasing attitude, frowning down upon it or calling it his weakness. All the various reactions to Kaoru makes it fun to see him interact with all sorts of characters because will they make fun of him? Tease him? Look down on him? With Adrien, everyone likes him and praises him and sometimes it’s like hip hip hooray /s and other times it’s like wow this kinda sucks bc his father treats him differently but nuance or intriguing exploration of interactions? Sorry we don’t do that

Conclusion

Again, I want to emphasize that in no way, shape, or form do I want Adrien’s character to follow Kaoru’s exactly. They may share similarities but they aren’t the same. Like Adrien’s father is abusive, while Kaoru’s father only has a rocky relationship with his son (there’s no implication of abuse on Kaoru’s end, only that his father looks down on Kaoru’s decision to become an idol). Kaoru isn’t an only child and part of his character growth involves his relationship with his sister and how he wants to connect with his siblings, something that Adrien wouldn’t have as an only child. There will come a point where their stories diverge and tread different paths. The only reason I made this post is, again as I said at the start of this, to highlight ways the MLB writers could’ve written Adrien, could’ve tackled character traits they gave him, could’ve made him the interesting character he is on paper (but not in execution). I wish I could like Adrien because I could easily see him being a favorite character of mine, but his canon execution doesn’t allow him to grow in any shape or form and in fact, coddles him to prevent any sort of longstanding development to take hold of him.

I hope you come out of reading this long essay with the thought that more could be done with Adrien and his character, but because the writing team see and believe him to be perfect, that the world has to change for Adrien and not the other way around, Adrien can never be the compelling character people wish for him to be as long as he’s in the hands of the current writing team.

P.S. hi orion and friends ^_^

P.P.S. there's probably more I could talk abt but uhh my brain power is gone

[5283]

―What Color Each Stray Kid Feels Like―

aka me using my synesthetic powers for the Good Cause /hj. after i assigned every color i thought i'll look up the symbolic meanings of each color as well, let's say, for a kind of sense of completeness and to check how accurately i matched ? :-3 also, since i picked very specific shades, there was no exact symbolism on them particularly so i copy-pasted the meanings of the closest colors i could find.

I.N

beige, #f5f5dc :

comforting, cozy and snug, welcoming, doesn’t intimidate, embodies individuality, possesses overall beauty, sweet, subtle yet charming, effortlessly captivates with its delicate allure, upholds virtue, delightful, promotes inner peace and quietude, makes one feel at home, takes the ‘less is more’ approach, moral and righteous, honors purity.

SEUNGMIN

light periwinkle, #c5cbe1 :

delicate, soft, tenacious, will go to great lengths to achieve its goal, patient, doesn’t see failure as an obstacle but as an opportunity to grow and learn, understanding, collected, doesn’t succumb to daily pressures, resilient, isn’t cynical, carefree and cheerful, endearing, doesn’t take life too seriously, focused on what matters, preserving integrity.

FELIX

apricot, #fbceb1 :

holds loved ones near and dear to its heart, sentimental, goes above and beyond to nurture its relationships, loving, affectionate, knows how to captivate, often in the spotlight yet doesn't yearn for it, modest, opens its heart and mind to everyone, incredibly friendly, uplifting, possesses unconventional essence, willing to be vulnerable, lively, chirpy, pleasant, beloved by many, goodhearted and socially confident.

HAN

pine green, #01796f :

lively and wise, offers helpful insight, earnest, many are intrigued by it yet it isn't very interested in others, understands the importance of being yourself, relishes individuality, doesn't conform to social norms, attentive, open-minded, takes time to understand both sides of the story, logical, presents itself in a dignified manner, admires uniqueness.

HYUNJIN

oxblood, #4a0000 :

doesn’t do anything halfheartedly, passionate, bold, appreciative, knows its worth yet doesn’t boast, knows what it stands for, doesn't hold prejudices, unapologetically determined, understands failure as a stepping stone to triumph, a timeless wonder, both a dreamer and a doer, inherently romantic, enhances autumnal essence, seductive, sultry, intense.

CHANGBIN

 vermilion, #e34234 :

distinct, bold, cheery, fond of attention and social interaction, makes others feel accepted and safe, doesn’t enjoy staying in the shadows, eye-catching, is anything but reserved, doesn’t conform, strong personality, inspires to be vulnerable, goes with gut instinct, confident, wise, provides sound guidance, only speaks when spoken to.

LEE KNOW

navyblue, #000080 :

wise, seeing new perspectives, understands passion and patience that goes into creating artistry, thinks outside the box, promotes patience and self-awareness, focused, open-minded, determined and motivated, difficult to dissect its personality, unfazed when faced with stress, eliminates doubt, appealing, lovable, applauded for its brilliance.

CHAN

celadon, #ace1af :

inviting, cheerful, restoring and warming, soothing, uplifting yet relaxing, gives rise to healthy emotions, heals and controls feelings, promotes structure yet merely suggests it and doesn’t demand to get things in order, fosters decision-making, unassuming, creative, has an ability to connect to souls, opens hearts, observing, more informed than it might look.

cr.: all color meanings taken from this site.

[bruh-changbin]

skz as crystals *˚⁺‧͙

pairing: ot8

warnings: literally none this is just me talking about skz and pretty rocks

a/n: for those of you that don't know i love crystals and have a continuously growing collection so i thought hey why not pick some crystals that i feel represent each skz member 😸enjoy this little morsel, i have a semi-holiday related blurb coming out soon and lots of fun stuff planned for the new year :)

・・・・・・・・・・・

bang chan - amethyst ✧

* shield from negativity

* heightened intuition

* peace + tranquility

* helps with insomnia

lee minho - selenite (satin spar) ✧

* clarity + self awareness

* helps with judgement and decision making

* promotes integrity

* insightful

seo changbin - carnelian ✧

* stabilising and motivating

* protective, dispels anger

* promotes self-esteem

* improves creativity + perception

hwang hyunjin - blue lace agate ✧

* calming, peace and tranquility

* aids with self expression and voicing thoughts and feelings

* soothing + nurturing

* hope + unity

han jisung - kiwi jasper ✧

* nurturing and supportive

* aids in times of stress

* eliminates negativity

* supports you on life journeys

lee felix - rose quartz ✧

* healing

* represents love

* aids with self-acceptance

* unconditional kindness

kim seungmin - moss agate ✧

* strengthens relationships

* trust + restoration

* refreshing and congenial

* balancing

yang jeongin - labradorite ✧

* heightens imagination and enthusiasm

* stress and tension reliever

* supportive throughout change

* calming and grounding

[lananiscorner]

FE3H route review and thoughts - Azure Moon

This was the first route I played, and I am fully aware that this may bias my view a bit, but imo, Azure Moon remains the best route of Three Houses. I certainly found it to be the most emotionally engaging one, the one where it did actually feel like there had been a war going on for five years, where it did feel like there were actual stakes to the battles, where I genuinely cared about every character in the house and wanted them to succeed. A lot of this has to do with my own tastes in narrative (I live for stories that are not afraid to get dark for a while, but not forever, and that do not dilute the ugliness of trauma). Rest beneath the cut, because it got long:

Things I really liked about this route, in no particular order:

The Tragedy of Duscur (ToD) having had a tangible effect on almost every character in the house, which provides a tragic backbone to their story (with the exception of Mercedes, but she had enough crap going on in her life already).

The Lions feeling at once like the closest knit and yet most fractured group of the three classes—there are deep friendships and honest affection here between most of the Lions, but they are all complicated by the toll the ToD took on them.

The gradually growing sense of unease, as you catch more and more glimpses of Dimitri not being well. It's like watching cracks appear in the walls of a beautiful building and you can tell the entire thing is gonna come down eventually, you just don't know when.

Dimitri's response to Jeralt's death (best of the three, always and forever).

Dimitri's reaction to the Flame Emperor reveal. Holy. Fucking. Shit. I am so glad they went there and pulled no punches.

The reunion in the goddess tower made me cry.

The way Dimitri's psychotic break was integrated into gameplay (no teatime, no meals, no tutoring, all his battle quotes being so much more negative), and yet at the same time, even as early as chapter 14, you could tell that "the good Dimitri" was still somewhere in there, that not all hope was lost.

The other characters actually being allowed to voice their doubts/disagreements of Dimitri, even if usually not directly to his face, e.g. the fact that we got multi-faceted takes (political, personal, military) from all the Lions about the pros and cons of going to Fhirdiad vs. going to Enbarr, Rodrigue straight up saying "no, you'll listen to me, Dimitri", Sylvain still being wary after Dimitri's recovery, because while he may want to forgive his friend, it's hard to forget what he did. People being genuinely glad that he recovered.

The fact that Dimitri's recovery, while seemingly overnight and one-and-done on the surface, is explicitly NOT that. Dimitri still feels unworthy of affection and kindness after he retakes Fhirdiad. He admits he still holds resentment towards Edelgard, even as he acknowledges that he should try to talk to her and see if there's a peaceful solution. He still has nightmares of Duscur and he still hears voices and sees ghosts, even as far as into his S support with Byleth. Hell, he admits he'll likely hear and see them until the day he dies. As someone who is grappling with lifelong disabilities and mental health issues, I appreciate a narrative that so openly goes "this is always gonna suck to some extent, but you are still worthy of affection and support, and you can STILL have a full life".

Excellent execution of the concept of setup and payoff. E.g. Rodrigue: we first meet him in chapter 5 and learn of how important he is to Dimitri, we hear of him in exploration and supports with Felix. When he shows up in chapter 15, he's no stranger, and we immediately understand why Dimitri reacts so much more warmly to him and why Rodrigue is so much more direct in his disagreement with Dimitri than most other people, because we already know these two have a close, personal quasi father-son relationship. We then get two chapters of Rodrigue asking us to help guide Dimitri, so when he dies at the end of chapter 17, it is neither a surprise that he dies (we already had daddy Jeralt die in chapter 9, dads in FE apparently don't live long in general), nor that his death shakes Dimitri to his core and helps shape his mindset after he breaks down in the rain.

Another example is the dagger: we start with jokes from Sylvain, then hear about Dimitri having gifted Edelgard a dagger as a farewell gift when they were kids, so when the Flame Emperor drops a dagger and Dimitri has his "oh no" reaction, we can already tell where this is going, even if we do not want it to be true. It is how Hitchcock once described: when you simply have a bomb explode, you only get 5 seconds of shock, but if you show the audience the bomb earlier, you have suspense until it explodes. When Dimitri gives the dagger back to Edelgard at the end of the parley, we understand its significance. When Edelgard uses that same dagger to try to kill him, we understand the tragedy behind that action, because the game actually bothered to set up why this specific dagger is important.

Likewise, excellent incorporation of the theme of "duty vs. want" into the development of every single character in this house.

The Blue Lions bulldozing over all the important Slithers people without even knowing they are Slithers is utterly HILARIOUS.

This is the only route where both Claude and Dimitri get to live. And they part on good terms! And Rhea gets to live too!

Protodemocracy in my pseudo-medieval faux Europe? More likely than you think!

This is the house of handsome bisexual men and I am all here for that. (I am also here for bi Mercedes, and Ingrid and Annette are my gals, even though I see them as straight as arrows, going by their support chains and endings).

Things I didn't like/would have changed:

Felix really should have been called out on his dehumanizing language/behavior outside of supports. I'm supposed to be playing the rule of his teacher—let me tell him to knock that shit off.

Dedue dying by default unless you do his paralogue is nuts and the fact that the only character this can happen to happens to be a bisexual POC and genocide survivor who frequently encounters racism is, um, not a good look.

Related to that, Dedue should definitely have been there during that scene with Count Kleiman's man. Ideally, Ingrid should have been there, too.

Rodrigue's death seriously should have had a cutscene, because if not for the phenomenal voice acting, that scene would have tanked so hard.

Dedue and the other Lions (especially the Faerghus Four), should have been more involved in stopping Dimitri from running off to his doom after Rodrigue's death and in supporting him in finding new purpose in life. That way, his declaration to Edelgard that he learned how important people supporting each other is thanks to the professor and everyone else in his life would have made a lot more sense.

Either Dimitri's solo ending or Byleth's should have at least mentioned the Slithers (e.g. change Byleth's to: "He/She helped to guide the Holy Kingdom of Faerghus and crush Those Who Slither In The Dark, and worked..."), because let's face it: 1) There's no way Byleth nor Dimitri would just drop this thread, since, for all they know, Thales—the guy who is at least partially responsible for the ToD and Jeralt's death—is still out there. 2) If Hubert trusted the church enough to implore them to fight the Slithers after Edelgard's defeat, then surely he left a letter for the Kingdom as well. Don’t think we should have fought them in-game on this route, because that’s not what the route was about, but having it acknowledged outside of DLC would have been nice.

Would have liked Dimitri to have at least one support chain with one of the Black Eagles. Ferdinand, Dorothea or Petra would be three good candidates imo (Ferdinand for discussions on the obligations of nobility, possibly giving us a look into the differences between Empire and Kingdom nobility; Petra because they have similar “the needs of the people are more important than my own” attitudes, but different approaches to how to deal with that, also Petra is the most likely defector from the Empire imo and at the end of AM, Dimitri will be the one she’ll have to negotiate with regarding Brigid; Dorothea and Dimitri both abhor killing and like helping orphans, but otherwise very different likes and interests, which would have been interesting to explore.)

Even so, Azure Moon remains my favorite route, and is definitely the one I’ll be replaying for fun at least once, and the one I’ll use for my “golden” playthrough in NG+.