#instead of like 'Oh. youre STILL sad? we dont wanna see that anymore. quit being a weirdo online'
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thinking about that period ~2014 or so when everyone like, over night switched from “hehe we’re sooo much better than boomers, we make self deprecating jokes” to “wowwww you still base your personality off self deprecating jokes? go to therapy”. Which on its surface is a good thing, but I think people went about it very very poorly
#suicide mention/#in tags probably#yeah but i was a young sad teen at the time and the posts people were making back then...#they didnt inspire me to treat myself kindly#they pissed me off and made me feel alienated and i wanted to dig myself deeper into that pit out of spite#because you really cant be condescending to sad teenagers and like. expect them to listen to you#especially since it spurred this trend of like. Wholesome Memes that were very obviously just old self deprecation/suicide jokes reskinned#like all that shit with 'oh youre making other feel bad about themselves. youre not helping yourself. you need therapy go to therapy instead#combined with 90 posts in a row of 'me when i love my friends and am feeling great! *samoyed surrounded by heart emojis*'#straight up. exactly the same energy as corporations attempting to appeal to me#when kids @ that age are upset they dont wanna hear that shit. they wont even try. they want someone to acknowledge that theyre hurt#and i felt like everyone was telling me that it was BAD to feel hurt. that i should ignore it for the comfort of followers i didnt have#and like i was 15 at the oldest. therapy was not even on the fucking table for me. and trust me when i say i was trying#i think people are better about it nowadays#self help posts are definitely framed more like#'hey i get that things suck right now so make the most of the small things in life that make you happy-#-if theyre keeping you going they arent as small as you think'#instead of like 'Oh. youre STILL sad? we dont wanna see that anymore. quit being a weirdo online'#but that kind of brings me to the point where. i dont blame people for handling this imperfectly#because everyone was a fucking sad kid back then just. trying to make themselves and each other feel better#wasnt their fault they were bad @ it. rly wasnt their fucking job#but still sometimes when i see a post that makes me feel a bit better today#i cant help but be. a little bitter about it#like where was this when I REALLY needed it.#why did everyone treat my suciidal ideation like a passing trend when they couldve been saying this instead#but. i mean i know WHY. i just explained why#its just like dumb irrational bitterness and it isnt anyones fault#my god i wish i knew how to speak concisely#dottxt#negativity
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Entry 7 - Summer of Vulnerability
part of let the pile of good things grow series - series masterlist
previous entry here
Yoongi x reader
Ft. nonidol!bts (glimpse of ex-boyfriend!namjoon)
Producer!yoongi, roommate!yoongi, soft!yoongi
slow burn romance, friendship, slice of life
series of drabbles/one shots
warnings: alcohol consumption
a/n: okay so here goes y/n remembering his ex!joon also will never get over of in the soop yoongi! can’t wait for the new season. Thank you guys for reading! 🙈
word count: 2,546
Went home from the grocery and some of their wines are on sale so you got carried away and bought 8 bottles and to your surprise, Yoongi’s cooking steak. “oh my God!” You exclaimed as soon as you saw him cooking in the kitchen with paperbag of wines in your arms. Yoongi looked at you with a confused face.
“Did you just read my mind or what??! There’s a sale on the corner deli and…” raising both of your hands as if surrendering, “okay don’t judge me yet but i got a little carried away.”
“A little carried away? You looked like the world’s going to run out of wine tomorrow.”
He smiled on your disclaimer and shaking his head as he paid his attention back to his steak.
“No.” You sighed. “Nothing went my way today, not at all—but i dont want to think about it. I’m psyching myself out of it you see, or better yet i’m drowning myself on these babies.” As you drank your first glass empty. “My eternal companion, the love of my life…”
He turned to your direction, only to see you hugging the bottles of wine that you bought.
He turned to your direction, only to see you hugging the bottles of wine that you bought.
“Come on clear the tables, your babies are not going anywhere.” He declared as he puts down 3 steaks and some aglio olio with honestly way too much garlic because it’s Yoongi.
“I didn’t saw you made pasta also. I am so happy now.” You happily exclaimed as you took a bite of your new favorite steak. “But why the 3 steaks? You hungry?”
He sat in front of you, filling your glass with wine and his too.
“You need food before you chug them all up. I’m not gonna clean up your mess. So you better get it together today. I tell you.” He scolded you.
“Sure sure.” As you immediately devour the pasta he made.
One bottle of wine down. He let you listened to a ‘sketch’ he’s been working on lately. Carefully studying your already flushed face for any reaction. He does this sometimes, ask for your opinion even though you have zero idea about music and producing or anything related to that for that matter.
All he considers is whether you winced at the melody of it, or you nod and eventually smile as it goes. But this time you’re just staring blankly in your wine glass, circling it repeatedly as the sketch ended at exactly 2 mins and 19 secs. And when it ended you looked straight at him.
“This looks like it’s almost done right?” You commented. “Yeah.” As he gulps on his wine, emptying another glass.
“And you wrote the lyrics also?” He nodded.
You looked away and sighed. “It’s too beautiful—Sad and in pain, feels tormented also but beautiful.”
He blinked several times at your words. You’ve heard several of his sketches before and you’d just always say, ‘it sounds good, but Yoongi—i have no idea about music. Zero.’ But he’d let you hear it anyway for couple more times and he’d smile at your ignorant reactions.
This time however, doesn’t seem like a laughing matter. Something about your words got his heart beating faster and he has no idea if its just the amount of alcohol he has consumed by now or just you.
You clinked on his empty glass. And asked, “You want more?” He nodded. And you poured him another. “Remember the girl, I introduced to you before?” You stopped and think for a second and it dawned to you. “Hell yeah, I remember.”
“She’s actually my ex-girlfriend.” He declared.
“Well that I did not expected. The ex part. I can tell though she looks really special.”
“Well, we’re together for a while. But now we’re just co-workers for this debut song of a girl I told you about before. That’s why she was here also the last time, we were looking through old sketches that I have after the meeting. We actually finished that quite early. ”
He never really talked that much about himself. He’s good at talking about work, which for you is already more than enough. You know that despite your living situation, he’s not really obligated to get personal if he doesnt want to. And besides, you also don’t want to. Your end of the rope for sure is scared of any form of vulnerability anyway—so you’re not expecting or demanding that from anybody else.
“So you’re just co-workers now?”
“Yeah, I think so. I really don’t know what I feel.”
“Well, relationships are messy my friend.” Raising your glass of wine as if to cheers and chugging it in one go.
Not sure of what to say next but he looks like he’s in mood to talk but the topic looks too sensitive to even crack a joke so you continued drinking despite the eerie atmosphere.
“If you dont mind me asking, what happened?” Yes, despite your immense effort to hold yourself back. Like any other novel you read, you have this eager feeling to know how it ends. Your mind is literally shouting, ‘But I gots to know!!’
And so you asked. Half fearing for your life for being too nosy and half expecting that you might be up for a good story. Elbows resting on the table, with your chin at the palm of your hand looking eager to hear the story.
“We’ve been together for a while”
“Yeah, you said that already.. and that she’s a song writer. I figured.” Unconsciously saying your thoughts out loud.
“You wanna tell the story instead?” He teasingly reacted in a straight face.
“I didn’t mean to say that out loud… I literally said that in my mind and my mouth just burst it open. They both can’t coordinate that well. I’m sorry. You may continue…sir. Please don’t cut my head off.” You love teasing him.
“You’re drunk.” He was pointing out the obvious by that time, after two bottles of wine.
“Yes she’s a songwriter. They said before thay she’s the words to my melody. Well… before.”
Something about those words just made your heart ache. Frowning in his words you continue to listen.
“We’re together for about 2 years? And then on and off after…. She cheated on me, slept with another producer from another company. I really thought that was the end but after that i still accepted her. I don’t know why.”
“Aigoo you dumbass solider of love. And then??” Continuously frowning in frustration led you to keep on drinking.
He has no plans of actually telling this story tonight, it just poured out. You’re just one of those people that actually listens. He has seen you before, how intensely you focus on a movie or in a book that it bothers you for day. You love hearing stories and your willingness felt like a safe space for his unspoken scars.
“She keeps coming back to me and I keep accepting her. That’s it.”
With a confused look on your face, “I don’t get it.”
“Like you said, relationships are messy.” He’s obviously trying to close the topic already but that’s not going to stop you—you never stop midway of the story. This is not how it ends.
“Messy is one thing, toxic is another. And since when are you a coward? You don’t strike me as one. Really.” ‘Yeah i was.’ Yoongi thought in his head. Words are just literally pouring out of your mouth by now, drowning yet another glass. Yoongi opening your forth bottle.
“Boy, I bought the wrong alcohol tonight, tequila would’ve been perfect.” You declared as he pours you a refill. He laughed at this comment, he kept wondering sometimes how easy it is for you to make him laugh.
“No but all kidding aside… Hard question coming in, Min Yoongi. Do you still love her?” Looking right at his eyes and him staring back at you as he answered. “No, we broke up a month before I moved in here.”
‘That’s quite a while, at least 9 or 10 months now…’ you thought to yourself
“Yeah but having been broken up doesn’t mean that love is gone. It’s not a switch you know.”
“I know. And I wish it was, she’s was a big part of my life I’m not denying that and maybe she always will be. But I’ve changed, she has changed—we’re no longer the same people that we were in the same relationship where I keep questioning my self worth. That’s done now, over. Love took a turn, and it doesn’t look the same anymore. We’re just co-workers now that’s all.”
You like the way he said it. Being no longer the same people that they were. You nodded in his statement not sure what to say next and also feeling a little dizzy.
“I gotta pee.” You suddenly declared and stood up, ran in small steps to the bathroom with Yoongi smiling at you and shaking his head.
And when you got back, he got you a warm water on your favorite mug.
Your thoughts are all over the place when you’re drunk, like you said—your mouth just spills it all out.
“You know what, this is all very brave of you. Being friends with your ex, I can’t imagine.”
“Why? Can’t you?” Staring blankly and holding onto your mug, eyes blinking fast in this question.
“I’m not sure. I’ve never really done it before, I’ll let you know if I can.”
You’ve been staring hard on your mug contemplating on his question. He gently touched your hand that’s been holding your mug and said, “Just drink your water.” And pulled it away as soon as you looked like your soul has comeback to earth.
“Can’t I…?” You repeated the question again, and this time out loud.
Hands underneath your chin and resting your elbows on the table. Yoongi is just staring at you, hands in his cheeks—thumb underneath his chin, not even sure if you can even see him. “I hate your question.” You looked at his eyes this time and said that and he just smiled and when he did, you narrowed your eyes. “I hate your smile too.” And this time, he gave you an even bigger one, those gummy smile. And whenever he smiles at you like that you just can’t help but grin in return.
You chugged the water and showed him your empty mug.
He got up and put the rest of the unopened bottle of wine back to the fridge just to prevent you from opening yet another. With his back facing you, arranging the couple of bottles left unto your fridge.
“Yoongi-ah, I know and I love how we respect each other’s privacy and all but just in case things get too heavy. I’m always here, you know. I mean, I’m really glad about today.”
He looked back at you, hands underneath your chin again and eyelids looking all heavy.
“Same goes for you, I’m always here…” And he turned his back again, “fixing you some food and light bulbs.”
And that statement made you smile. “Indeed, my friend. Indeed.”
He went back to the table and grabbed your wine glass and emptying it for you.
“So you wanna talk about how nothing went right today?” You sighed with your eyes closed.
“Maybe next time, my friend.” You stood up from the dinning table, offered to clean the rest of the dishes but Yoongi insisted that he’d do it instead. So you just nodded and slowly creep back into your room.
“Thanks for today, Yoongi.” You thanked him before you go, peeking behind the wall near the counter and he just smiled at you, cleaning gloves on and started washing the dishes.
Minutes later, you shouted from inside of your room.
“Hey i’ll be in the bathroom for a while. Hope you’re already done using it.”
Yoongi didnt answer. He’s already in his room.
You sat in the tub filled with water that is too hot for anyone else but not for you. Head all dizzy and pounding. It’s 2 am and nothing is more comforting than the silence of it all. Alcohol keeps you awake, more than coffee ever does. The dizziness, the feeling that is drilling in your head, makes it hard for you to sleep. Despite the fact that you always drink. You always drink on an empty stomach though, just so you’re sure you would pass out and not have a hard time sleeping.
But tonight you can’t say no—Yoongi made dinner and as much as you hate how you’re having a hard time now you don’t regret it. The question he said, still lingers. And you know your answer to this, you can’t.
Along with the headache, comes the memories you rarely remember—there are just some special days where somehow the guilt and regret still comes to you in waves, together with conversations you long to let go.
“You can’t be serious?” Joon said, voice cracking with hand on his hair in frustration. “But I am.” With a straight face you answered, “I can’t marry you, Joon. I don’t want to have kids and I know how much you want to have children.” Feeling the desperation in his face and actions, he held your hands close and hugged you. “I love you, I want to marry you. We don’t need to have kids immediately, that’s years away. We don’t have to even worry about that now.” It hurts you to seem him this way, yes both of you may be young—maybe you will change your mind but there’s no guarantee to it. You held onto his shoulder to see his face, tears kept rolling down his face and you keep wiping it off one by one. You’ve thought about this even just a year into the relationship, with all the dad jokes and tiny little shoes he kept in his room. He’s going to be a wonderful dad you thought—maybe not just to your kids because you don’t want one.
The most wonderful man in the world just asked you to marry him a few minutes ago, and now he’s crying on your shoulder in defeat. While you can’t even bring yourself to cry, everything about this just made you numb. You just know you’re doing the right thing. Keeping him by your side with a promise of a future you can’t guarantee is not what love is. You loved him—even much so that you could ever admit.
With the knock on the door, you went back to reality.
“Hey you in there?” His voice echoing at 2 in the morning.
“Yeah, I’ll be here still for a while. You need it?”
“No, it’s okay.” He quietly said, as you heard his footsteps getting farther away.
moodboard sr: x
#bts fanfiction#bts fanfic#bts fluff#bts imagine#bts scenarios#bts roommate au#yoongi fics#yoongi fluff#yoongi x reader#yoongi scenarios#yoongi imagine#roommate!yoongi#producer!yoongi#namjoon imagine#namjoon scenarios#exboyfriend!joon
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I’ll always love you
Pairings: Oikawa × Fem!reader (established relationship)
Warnings: angst to fluff, heart break, (fluff ending)
You and Oikawa have been dating for over a year and a half. Hes recently recovered from a knee injury and even though hes promised that he’ll take it easy. You know he won’t.
So one night after school you are waiting for him to go home. When the most of the team had already left nearly thirty minutes ago. You walk in and see your boyfriend and Iwaizumi.
“Toru!” You scold seeing him still practicing
He freezes hearing you and walks over.
“Hey cutie” he said “you’re still here?”
“Yes you were supposed to walk me home” she said “and the rest of the team left almost a half hour ago”
“Well you se-” he started
“Enough, you just recovered from your last knee injury” you said “you promised me that you would take it easy so you wouldn’t hurt yourself again, but here you are doing extra practice”
“But I am” he said
“No you’re not Toru, if you were you would be home” you said “I know you love volleyball, but I can’t sit by and watch you get hurt again”
“Wait baby, you don’t mean that” he said
“But I do Toru, I can’t sit by and watch you do this to yourself” you said “so tomorrow, I need you to come to my house and I’ll give you, your stuff back”
“But I love you so much” he said tearing up “I dont want this I dont want to break up”
You kiss him on the cheek before taking off his volleyball jacket and giving it back to him. After that you run out tears falling down your face. When you get home you start putting all of his things into a box, his clothes you had been given and that you had stolen. Some of the gifts he had given you. You touch the necklace around your neck, it had been your one year anniversary gift from him, it was a small pendant with a circle charm that had his first name initial ’T’ stamped into the metal. Taking off the necklace. You give it a kiss before putting it in your jewelry box, not having the heart to give it back to him. Its not that you didnt love him anymore, quite the opposite. You loved him too much that you couldn’t bare to watch him hurt himself. You take down all of the pictures and random polaroids from your room putting them safely in your desk. You end up crawling into bed and cry yourself to sleep. In the morning your eyes are red and slightly puffy from crying.
You hear a knock on your bedroom door. That pulls you out of bed.
“Come in” you said pulling your hair out of your face and tying it back
The door opens and you see Toru and he doesn’t look like himself, his hair is a mess, his eyes are red but hes not looking at you.
“You told me to come get my things” he said his voice sounding rough.
“I did” you said standing up and picking up the box from your desk
“This it?” He asked
“That should be everything, if I forgot something I’ll return it” you said
“I’ll let Iwa know, I wont be coming back here” he said “he can get whatever it is left”
“Right” you said nodding.
You looked at him holding the box. Your body itched with the need to throw yourself into his arms and not have it end like this. But you couldn’t bring yourself to do it. You watch him turn and leave. You end up spending the weekend alone in your room, thinking about your decision to end things. On Monday morning before school you decided to go on a morning run and while on your run you see most of the boys volleyball club running.
“Hey!” Iwaizumi said slowing to run over to you.
“Hey” you said stopping
“You okay?” He asked
“Not really” you said
“Wanna talk about it?” He asked
“No, not right now, maybe later” you said
“I’m here if you need me” he said “I’ve got to catch up but I’ll see you in class”
You sighed a little bit and headed back home to get ready for school; you really didnt want to go knowing that once word got out about the break up you’d get harassed and bombarded with questions. Not just from his fans but nearly everyone, and they all knew you had been dating not exactly easy to hide a relationship with him being as popular as he is.
You unwillingly walk to school trying to make it appear as though nothing had happened. Instead of meeting Toru at his home room and staying until it was time to get to your own. You go straight to your own and lay your head down on your desk, covering your head with your arms. When suddenly there was a light tap on your shoulder.
“Yeah?” You asked lifting your head up to see one of his fan girls
“Is it true?” She asked looking at you
“Is what true?” You asked
“That you broke up with Oikawa?” She asked
You look down “yeah, we broke up” you said
“If you still care about him, please consider getting back with him” she said
“What?” You asked your head snapping back up
“They had a practice game on Sunday and like I watched like I normally do” she said “I’d never seen him play the way he did that day”
“How do you mean?” You asked
“He couldn’t focus and his normally powerful serves were weak barely making it over the net and his sets were a mess” she said
“Did he really play that badly?” You asked
“Yes he did” Iwaizumi said from behind you
“Oh God” you said turning and looking at him
“He misses you” he said “a lot”
“Iwa, I didnt brake up with because I stopped loving him” you said
“I know” he said “just think about it”
Almost a week has passed its Saturdag and you were at the mall when you see a Takeru, Oikawas nephew he seemed to be lost.
“Takeru?” You asked approaching him
“Y-yeah?” He asked
“Do you remember me?” You asked
“You’re the girl dating Toru” he said
“That’s right, did you get lost?” You asked
“Yeah the crowd got really big and I got lost” he said
“Take my hand so you dont get lost again” you said holding out your hand
“Okay” he said taking your hand
“Who were you with when you got lost?” You asked
“Toru” he said “can we get ice cream?”
“Sure thing, let’s go to the ice cream shop and I’ll call him” you said
He nodded and you started walking with him to the ice cream shop. When you pulled out your phone and called Oikawa to your surprise he answered.
“Now’s not a good time” he said his voice a little panicked
“I have Takeru” you said
“You do? Oh thank goodness” He said relieved
“I found him at the mall, said he got lost in a crowd” you said
“Yeah…” he said “where are you?”
“I’m taking him to get ice cream, I can take him back to your house afterwards” you said
“Its okay I can come get him, I’ll meet you at the ice cream shop, I’ll be right there” he said and he hung up.
You get to the shop and its empty besides the people working. You get an ice cream cone for Takeru and yourself. You both take a seat at one of the little tables and eat your ice cream while waiting for Toru.
“Are you sad?” Takeru asked
“Hmm? No I’m fine” you said “just stressed with school stuff”
“But that’s not really it is it?” Oikawa asked
“That’s part of it” you said looking up at him
“Thank you for finding him and calling me” he said
“Of course, take care boys” you stand to leave
“Wait” Takeru said taking your hand “can you walk back with us?”
“Taker-” Oikawa starts
“Its, fine I can walk with you back to the house” you said “that’s okay right?”
Oikawa just nodded. Takeru finished his ice cream and wiped his hands with a wet wipe then took your hand.
“Let’s go come on” Takeru said pulling you towards the door
You follow him throwing away your napkin after finishing your ice cream. Once out of the mall you swing his hand that’s still holding yours, as he talks to you about school and his friends. Oikawa watches you smile and talk to his nephew. His heart hurt, he wanted to take your hand in his and kiss you. But you weren’t his anymore and he couldn’t do that.
You get to Oikawas house only to realize that he was yet again missing. Thankfully you had Takeru which is was the important thing. You knock on the door and his mom answered the door.
“Oh darling what are you doing?” She asked you
“I found Takeru at the mall he got lost, so I took him for ice cream and we met back up with Toru, and on our way here he disappeared again” you said
“Thank you again for the ice cream” Takeru said releasing your hand
He took off his shoes and walked further into the house.
��Thank you for making sure he was safe” she said “Would you like to come in for some tea?”
“Oh I dont want to intrude” you said
“Please I insist darling” she said
You walk in and take off your shoes and follow her into the kitchen.
“I know it must not have been easy spending time with Toru and Takeru, since I know you’re no longer dating my son” she said
“Not really, but Takeru insisted, and I’ve never been good at telling him no” you said
“Do you want to talk about the break up?” She asked handing you a cup of tea
“A little yeah” you said taking a sip. “I still love him so much, but he’s just recovered from hurting his knee and I found him over working himself after he promised me that he would take it easy”
She nodded and listened placing one of her hands on yours
“I dont want to see him hurt again, because I know how much volleyball means to him, and if he keeps getting hurt he’ll have to stop playing” you said “I just want him to take better care of himself…”
“He went through the box you gave him, and he was surprised that the necklace he gave you wasn’t there” she said
“I know, I kept it” you said and pulled the chain from under your shirt “I’m still wearing it”
“Why?” Oikawa asked you hadn’t heard him come in.
You turn to look at him on the verge of tears.
“Because I’m still in love with you Toru, that’s never changed” you said
“You broke up with me” he said
“Because I don’t want you getting injured again or to the point where you have to stop playing volleyball” you said “I know now how much it means to you, but you have to stop over working yourself”
“I was only staying late that one night because I had missed practice for two months” he said “I know Iwa and a few of my fans have talked to you”
“They have” you said
“So you heard about the pitiful practice game?” He asked
“Yes” you said
“You still love me, you said it your self right?” He asked
“Yes, I do” you said
“Then take me back, cutie, I love you so much” he said “I’ll take care of myself so I don’t get hurt, I’ll do anything I just need you back”
He had tears falling down his cheeks. You gently cup his cheeks and wipe his tears, bringing him down into a gentle kiss. He wrapped his arms around your waist pulling you close before slowly pulling away resting his forehead against yours.
“I’m taking that as a yes” he said
“It is a yes” you tease him
“Good” he said and he looked at his mom
“She can stay the night, I’ll call her mom” she said
“Thank you” you said
Oikawa led you to his room and laid down on his bed pulling you with him. The night was spent with cuddles, kisses and whispered ‘I love you’s. The next Monday at school things were back to normal walking to school with him attached at the hip when his team found out they were happy to have their captain back to his normal self.
#oikawa tooru#oikawa tōru#toru oikawa x reader#tooru oikawa#haikyuu!!#hq x y/n#hq x reader#hq oikawa#hq tooru#angst to fluff#happy ending#breaking up#getting back together
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Wait....Top Wholesome Y/N gets terrifying jealous. Can I request that!? Y/N wrap their arms around the yandere's waist (hugging them from behind) and lay their forehead on their shoulder. Y/N takes a deep sigh and looks at them with a glare full of anger (or horniness...but mostly Y/N being piss off.) Y/N whisper in their ear, "Let's go home...I need to release some steam." Yandere is unable to walk the next morning. (Can you write it about the yanderes who are just...bottoms? Or become a bottom when Y/N is a top? Thank you)
I just adore the thought of the yanderes being bottoms to a possessive y/n
Skipped hikaru cause he has a whole story bout him being a bottom
Didn't add scarlett cause there is no way she is a bottom, the only way she would ever bottom is if maybe she was with a feral reader
This story contains: smut, jealous reader, reader giving off soft yandere vibes
Theodore
Theo was incredibly handsome so it's only natural that someone would wish to flirt with him. He had took you to one of his favorite coffee shop for a relaxing date, all it took was you leaving to the bathroom only to return to have a flock of girls around him. "Oh, well thank you for such kind words but I'm on a date" it seems they weren't getting the hint so you walked over before simply plopping down in theo's lap a sharp glare on your face while the male pushed up his glasses his face red before he placed a hand on your thigh. "Theo, let's go home now."
Your hands gripped the male's hair as he felt like his hips were breaking from you slamming down on his cock over and over and over. "Y-y/n~ y-you're being too rough on me i-i cant-" his shaky words were met with a rough kiss before you pulled back watching his eyes get teary. "Who owns you and this cock?" Your voice was low and filled with a burning rage that you just had to release. With that you continued to ride him in such a way that drove him absolutely insane, you were definitely in control of this situation "y-you do! I-im all yours!"
Axis
"oh so you're blind? Poor baby. Must be hard on you."
Axis nervously stood waiting for you to show up to the movie theater for your date and while waiting some older women decided that he was just too adorable to pass up. The male tried to explain that he was on a date but it seems they weren't getting it "y-you all a-are really k-kind but I'm waiting for my-" his words were cut off when a scent hit his nose and like an excited dog he turned his head towards the smell before feeling a soft hand against his arm. It's you! He knew that smell anywhere! You wrapped your arms around his waist your breathing tickling his neck.
"hey babe, let's go home and watch movies instead okay?"
Axis drooled as he felt you grip his hair yanking his head close to your sex making him pleasure you while you pumped your fingers deeper into his hole. "You're such a sweetie, but you shouldn't be so kind to strangers ax it makes me sad" your pouting tone made the male whine and whimper as he trailed his tongue along your more sensitive of areas
"i-i never wanna make you sad..never! P-please forgive me y/n!"
Salem
Salem had his nature of docile and calm, moments where you two can go on a date on public without making a scene. Though feeling someone rub against him always riled him up so when you excused yourself to the bathroom while you do were eating breakfast at a diner it wasn't long until he had some flirty strangers sit beside him and rub along his thigh trying to take him home.
"you're hair is so pretty, I've never seen a boy with such pretty long hair" their voice was making salem's head spin though he wasn't sure if that was good or bad. His instant thought was downright gruesome they weren't you, so it was okay to eat them..right?
Salem started to drool which they must've taken as intense pleasure cause it wasn't long until he was backed into the corner of the booth trying to hold in his cannibalistic urges while he felt hands trail up his thighs. And soon the feeling was whipped away as you pulled the stranger away before grabbing salem's hand your eyes cold and filled with rage. It was time to go home
"who owns you?! Who owns everything about you?!"
Your voice was drowned out by salem's loud squeals and moans as you thrusted deep into his hole your hands gripping the leash connected to the collar around his neck that choked him. "Y/n! Y/n! Y/n!" His chanted got more and more whinier as you fucked him harder until he was sobbing and shaking under you. Salem was such a good boy
Prince
Prince was a total ladies man or at least he was until he met you, he had to let all his many one night stands know that he was off the market though some just didn't get the memo. "Come now princey, you really gonna say no to me? Don't you remember what we did right here after hours...we were so loud I'm sure the whole area heard it" prince nervously gazed at the female who sat at his bar clearly wanting another ride. His main worry was you coming back thinking he was unfaithful.
"Sorry but I don't put my dick just anywhere anymore"
"but you could, you always hated commitment so why bother now?"
Before prince can utter a word you were hopping over the bar without a single care in the world. "Hey babe, you done working?"
Prince admired your badass nature and simply nodded ready to go, though he missed that deadly glare you shot towards the slut.
"if your groupies can only see you now, whining and whimpering to feel an ounce of pleasure" you spoke lowly as prince bucked his hips up as you stroked his cock and fingered his hole but gave a frustrated huff when you stopped for the third time that moment, just as he was close you would stop and he was going crazy.
"p-please, have mercy"
"I'll think about it."
Yuki
Yuki gave off huge 'dont bother me' vibes but even still with that people would come up to him thinking they have a chance. You two were at the arcade and had split up since he had to use the bathroom, as he started to walk back to where you were he bumped into someone causing him to stumble back lightly. He looked and saw that it wasn't you so he proceeded to keep walking without speaking a word.
"don't leave a guy hanging now hot stuff!" The male stranger followed yuki who now scrolled through his phone ignoring the stranger but soon noticed they blocked his path. With a frustrated sigh he looked up his green eyes clearly bored and uninterested
"you're quite the looker..how about we go out together?"
"no."
They definitely wasn't expecting his dry and short response but when yuki suddenly felt himself being touched he cringed lightly making an expression one can see as cute. Having someone touch his chest that wasn't you gave him bad vibes, he didn't like that. Before he could take action you were at his side hugging against him calming his nerves down
"please don't touch him okay? He has anxiety" your sweet tone did not match your sharp glare or light scowl. With that you dragged yuki along who was more than eager to cling to you.
Yuki panted softly his back arching as you thrusted slowly inside of him making it unbearably slow, he needed more so much more and your teasing was making him crazy. "Come now, you can be louder than that can't you? Tell me what you want yuki"
"y-you, I want you..please y/n"
Rocket
Your beefed up boyfriend always got attention wherever he went, so going to the beach was probably a terrible idea honestly. You two found a perfect spot and once all set up rocket excitedly stripped out of his shirt, you definitely noticed all the stares from both male and females. Of course it wasn't long until a group of girls came up to him blushing and giggling, clearly wanting to ask him out
You sat next to him on the towel while he started to put sunscreen on, your glare was sharp as the girls started to flirt and gawk. "You're really ripped, do you work out or something?" Rocket who was oblivious as always proceeded to entertain them with his innocent answer. "Well we're going to play volleyball, of your sibling doesn't mind you leaving then maybe you can join us?"
SIBLING?! utter rage filled you but you forced a smile now standing up, rocket glanced your way and was about to correct the girls but you simply interrupted him. "Hey babe I think it's gonna start raining soon we should go" you were met by a pouty rocket who really wanted to go swimming but the two of you packed it up and went home.
The water grew cold as you stroked rocket's thick cock while standing behind him trailing kisses along his back feeling him shudder and squirm against your touch. "B-babe, I'm gonna- ngh! So good" his small moans always made you even hornier and it wasn't long until you had him pressed against the shower wall sliding inside of him and feeling his large body shiver at the feeling. Your hands going straight to his chest now groping it and squeezing his nipples
"I'll show you who you belong to"
Yuuta& yuuji
Having two boys meant twice the flirting and twice the annoying sluts bothering them. You three had taken a vacation to disneyworld and when your three weren't in the hotel fucking each other's brains out you were at the amusment park walking around and doing things.
"hey how about we ride that?" Yuuji pointed at a big roller coaster that made both you and yuuta worry about your life. As you three waited in line yuuta felt someone brush their hand against his waist, thinking that it was you he settled down not minding it until he nothing both your hands gripped yuuji's arm.
with wide eyes he turned only to see a random girl touching him but to make matters worse it seems yuuji got targeted as well by a boy, the twins had a look of discomfort. "Sorry me and my brother were wondering if you two would be open to a double date, you two are very cute and-" you cut them off with a loud fake yawn causing both boys to look towards you in worry their attention on you now.
"oh sweetie! Are you tired? We can go back to the hotel if you want?"
"damn y/n if you're sleepy you should have let us know!"
Wasn't long until you held both boys hands the three of you walking back to the hotel while you shot the strangers a hard glare.
"you two really are so cute, no wonder people fall for you." You eyed the two boys who both had their hands tied above their heads, blindfolds on while a line of sex toys sat at the end of the bed. You've been teasing their holes for the last hour and they couldn't take it much longer.
You pumped the toys into each of their holes watching their reactions, yuuji always gave the cutest moans while yuuta whined and let out small cries of bliss.
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Light’s Corruption- Chapter V
Pairing: The DarklingxAlina
Summary:With few friends at the Little Palace, Alina must work to win the favour of her fellow grisha and their commander, who makes her feel light headed every time she sees him.
After training in Os Alta for two years, the king grows tired of waiting and demands the Sun Summoner joins a western post near the Fjerdan border along with the rest of The Second Army to test her abilities.
Something happens. Suddenly, Alina wants blood to run down the rivers and those who stand in her and The Darkling’s way will be blinded by her light and swallowed by his shadows.
It won’t be pretty
Rating: 18+
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Chapter 5: Heartrenders
Days went by, and they turned into weeks. The leaves fell off the trees, a crunchy sea of red, orange, yellow and brown, and Alina wanted to pile them all on and throw herself inside.
She'd do it the first chance she got, but for that she had to beat the gardeners before they took the piles and burnt them to depressing ashes.
She talked to Michail some more during they rounds around the lake and had her rematch with Natasha.
She lost. Again. She laughed it off. Again. Natasha said she hadn't been so easy to defeat that second time, to which Alina smiled almost genuinely. Progress.
Baghra refused to see her still, and Alina was too proud to go back to her, so she tried to practice on her own. She'd hide away on the far sides of the gardens where the other grisha rarely went to and try to gain more control. It was a slow process; the temptation to let her power run free and vast was always there and trying to tame that always left her exhausted. She had no trouble falling asleep, yet each day the bags underneath her eyes seemed to deepen, as did her appetite. Alina was pretty sure that summoning should be for the better, but more than once, she had thoroughly considered laying down on the cold grass and take a nap there instead of walking all the way back to the Little Palace.
The General wasn't back yet, and much to Alina's confusion, frustration and shame, she worried. Maybe that too had something to do with the bags underneath her eyes. She tended to dream of him in all kinds of scenarios, each less pleasant than the last. It made her wake up sweaty and choking for air.
More than once, she almost wrote to him, only if just to make sure he was alright. But he had to be. Otherwise, word would've spread quickly…right?
She always talked herself out of it though. His presence was missed, her mind was making up all kind of tricks to make her reach out to him like a pathetic girl begging for attention.
The thought reminded her of Baghra's opinion of her, which only strengthened her resolve to not write to him.
She had had enough of begging, enough of getting scrapes of affection from a man who hadn't even bother to write once; she wouldn't do it again, no matter how much her heart tried to pull her to him.
But then her eyes would drift back to the black, shadow rose that laid on her nightstand, the little bit of gold on its inside long dead, and her heart would race and some form of reassurance would fall gently over her, like a blanket shielding her body.
She'd reach out and take it in her hands. It had no thorns. Her fingers would run through its petals, as soft as those of a real rose, but with something deeper in there. There was something more alive inside that rose than in any flower in all of Ravka; it was deep, powerful, and dark. It scared and alluded to her in the same measure, and she'd stare at it fascinated for an unfathomable long time.
She wondered if The Darkling could feel her caressing his shadows; and how he'd feel about it.
Besides Michail and Natasha, Alina didn’t seem to be progressing very much. They exchanged niceties and some jokes, even paired up during training, but there was not much more to it.
She told herself to be patient. These things took time.
One early afternoon, Genya showed up on her room unannounced. Alina hurried to hide her rose inside her nightstand; she wasn't sure why, but she wanted it to be her little secret.
"The Queen just left Os Alta." the redhead smiled. "As did the king. They'll be gone for two days on a hunting trip."
"A hunting trip?"
"Yes, where they kill animals for the fun of it. Like one of those brutish size competitions men seem to like so much."
Alina snorted.
"So?"
"So…"there was a gleam to her friend's eyes, and the summoner leaned back and frowned slightly, almost scared. "I could sneak you into the Grand Palace and into Her Royal Bitch's wardrobe."
"We'll get in trouble, Gen."
"Oh, please; have some faith in me." she placed her elbows on the desk and her chin atop of her hands, almost looking angelic. "Do you really think I'd get you in trouble?"
"Yes."
"Well, then you're wrong." she straightened up and tugged on Alina's arm. "C'mon; there's so many gowns and habits: she rarely wears them twice. We're not stealing; no one will know."
"How many gowns?" she asked, genuinely curious. She had seen the queen on two official occasions, the first time when she arrived from the camps near Kribirsk, and the second when she was invited to her ridiculous tea parade. Still, she had seen her in passing a few times as she strolled the grounds. A part of Alina felt ashamed of the jealousy she felt upon seeing her beautiful clothes and jewels.
There she was, living in a palace, wearing a kefta and being pampered, yet she dared to want more.
"Hundreds!" the Tailor whispered excitedly. "And they'll look much better on us anyway."
She gave in a little to temptation. They would just try them on and leave them again. No one would know, and maybe she'd be satisfied then.
"Alright, alright. But we better not get caught."
"Don't worry, we won't."
They left the bedroom and ran down the stairs, Genya holding onto the blue sleeve of her friend as she rambled about all the different fabrics and patterns and accessories while Alina tried to keep up with her, listening to every word while watching her step. The last thing she needed was to trip down the stairs.
That'd be a sad way to go for her.
"You'll love it. I promise!" Genya turned to give her a smile, but Alina's eyes drifted to the looming figure appearing in her line of vision.
The Darkling walked into the Little Palace accompanied by Ivan, Fedyor and a third heartrender.
It was a woman, a little bit older than Alina probably, but only for a few years. She was tall, with long, brown hair cascading down her back. Her kefta, which hugged her rounded figure nicely, gave her away as a fellow heartrender.
The Darkling noticed them approaching. Alina tried to search something in his eyes, anything that gave away any sort of emotion that could cause in him to see her again, but she saw nothing but his usual coolness.
The Summoner and the Tailor came to a stop and bowed.
"Moi Soverennyi." they bowed respectfully.
"Miss Starkov, Miss Safin; it has been some time." he looked from one to the other. "May I inquire as to your present activities?"
"Nothing we're not supposed to do." Alina spat out, earning herself a dainty elbow to the ribs.
General Kirigan rose an eyebrow.
"I see. See to it that it stays that way."
"Of course, sir." spoke Genya, serious all of a sudden.
The man turned and contemplated the strange woman for a moment, then gestured at Alina with a gloved hand.
"This is Alina Starkov, our Sun Summoner." he looked at her, those pools of grey catching her breath. "Miss Starkov, may I introduce you to Nina Zenik. She is one of my best agents and has just recently returned from an assignment in Shu Han."
The woman's green eyes settled on Alina, taking her in. Something glittered in there.
"So, she is real after all."
"Would I lie to you?" was The Darkling's reply.
"You forgot to mention how pretty she is." Nina ignored him, taking a long, stealth step towards her and catching a tendril of Alina's dark hair in her fingers.
"Um, it's a pleasure to meet you." The Sun Summoner managed to say, nervous under the woman scrutiny.
"Oh, a pleasure indeed, sun bean." Nina smiled, amusement shining in her eyes as Alina's face heated up. "I can't wait to make your acquaintance."
Before Alina could even think of an answer -for the woman's pretty eyes were too distracting- The Darkling cleared his throat.
"Not for some time, I am afraid." he said. Alina finally turned her gaze to him. There was something dark and intense in the way he was staring at Nina's back, his jaw tense. "Miss Starkov has quite the busy schedule."
Alina felt Genya tensing beside her. Nina's eyes slid momentarily, as if she could see The Darkling behind her, and nodded, winking at her before receding.
"Certainly. I can only imagine." she turned a charming smile on him. "Should we discuss my mission in private?"
"Of course." he answered almost, almost too quickly. He made a gesture for her to go in first.
"See you around, sun bean."
Alina choked on her own saliva as she struggled to say her farewell.
Ivan left with them without even glancing in their direction; Fedyor was kind enough to give them each a courteous smile.
Genya was giggling like an idiot.
"Shut up."
Now she was laughing.
During their training one day, Alina decided to pair up with her. Many grisha gave her a myriad of odd looks, and for a moment, Alina feared she might be about to face another Zoya.
Nina seemed to not to notice them and beckoned her forward.
People seemed to like Nina, Alina observed. The woman had charm and wit; the Sun Summoner really had to try to not get jealous of those traits. She reminded herself that Nina had been at the Little Palace for years, not one season and a half.
They circled each other, taking their measures.
Alina didn't want to be the one to strike first. That always had seemed to go wrong thus far, so she waited.
The heartrender went to the left, so Alina turned, only to be tricked as she received a blow on her right. She winced and stood back, more alert. She didn't want to make a ridicule again.
"You're small and skinny." the heartrender whispered. Alina arched an eyebrow. "I'm bigger and stronger, so your best option is to tire me out."
"I'm not exactly the fastest person."
Nina threw a punch and, luckily, Alina blocked it successfully.
She shook her head.
"Speed and resistance don't need to go hand in hand."
Alina didn't dare to look around to see if anyone else could hear them. She hoped not. Botkin would most certainly disapprove of his students giving each other advice on how to defeat them.
So, with Nina's words in mind, Alina did her best to block and recede. She tried, mostly unsuccessfully, to punch and kick, and received a wince and an "ouch" as Nina rubbed her calf.
The Summoner could feel everyone still watching, Marie and Nadia cheering her on; Sergei and Michail more reserved since she was fighting a fellow red sporter.
Then, Alina caught a glimpse. It was a second, and before she even knew it, she was taking a chance.
Nina was placing her foot down, twisting it as if to test it, and the next she was laying on her back, Alina having all but hurled herself at the woman, grabbing her middle section with all her strength and pushing.
They landed on the ground, and in the disbelief, the Summoner almost forgot to fully immobilize her opponent the way Botkin had taught her.
"You know," Nina gasped, the breath having abandoned her lungs. "There's better ways to get on top of me, sun bean, but if you like it rough-"
Alina blushed in embarrassment, both for having potentially hurt her and for the path those words were leading to.
"Are you alright?" she interrupted hurriedly. "Did I hurt you?"
Nina tried to laugh and cried instead.
"Shit, sun bean. You do have some strength in that tiny body after all."
"Alright!" Botkin clapped his hands twice, coming over toward them. "The little girl wins again, …finally."
Alina was almost offended. At least Marie and Nadia were cheering, as were some others Etherealki. She noticed Sergei and Michail exchanging some coins and scowled.
"Healer." she called, and one hurried to Nina's side.
"It's just a broken rib." the woman said, setting herself to work.
Nina raised an eyebrow.
"Well, I'm impressed, sun bean. I didn't actually think you'd win."
Alina found a new hiding spot where to practice her summoning. It was a most secluded corner, surrounded by old trees, an unkept stone bench and a dirty sculpture of a woman.
She really wanted to be offended.
With eyes wide, she forgot all about her practice, raced and jumped in, laughing childishly to herself.
She looked up and took in the warmth of the sun with pleasure, her face basking in it as her hands ran through leaves and sticks. It was actually a little uncomfortable, but fun.
She almost wished she could sink in and stay there forever, with the sun warming her body and the crunchy leaves all around her.
There was a big pile of leaves.
"Did you fall?"
A shadow took the light from her face, and she found The Darkling standing over her, looking down with something akin to curiosity.
"No. I just jumped."
"Into a pile of dirt?"
"It's not dirt. Besides, it's fun!" she extended a hand. "Wanna try?"
He huffed. Her cheeks heated up. She should've known better.
He took her hand and pulled her up, the mere contact making everything about him feel more intense as usual.
She held onto him.
"How did you find me?"
"You are my Sun Summoner; did you really think I would let you wander about the palace grounds unguarded?"
"Do you have me followed?" she had never noticed.
"For your safety."
"I thought this was the safest place in all of Ravka."
"I am not taking any chances with you, Alina." he replied, eyes guarded, face soft.
"Well, I've never noticed them."
"It means they are doing a good job. I would not want you to live scared, looking over your shoulder all the time."
"I might as well start now that I know."
He opened his mouth and then closed it, thumb rubbing the back of her hand. Alina wondered if he noticed what he was doing.
"You are right." he stepped closer, pulling a leaf off her hair. "But you need not fear, especially while I am on the palace grounds."
"Because not even the dumbest drüskelle would dare to cross paths with you?"
"Nor would the boldest noble."
Alina frowned. The nobles of Os Alta?
She nodded slowly.
"I have scared you." he stated, studying her face. "I apologize."
"No, no." she let go of his hand. "You just made me wearier."
"That is just how life at court is." he offered, not unkindly. "This is not just an army sometimes, especially for you and I."
Alina looked at him, questioning.
"There is no one else like us, Alina." he said, approaching her once more. The calmness, the facts were gone, replaced by a fire she wanted to step into. The vehemence in his voice made her shiver and want to take refuge in his cloak. "There never will be."
She thought about it. What exactly did he mean by that?
He reached out again and plucked another leaf from her hair, then took her face in his hands. She tilted her head up, desperate for a look into those eyes.
Her heart drummed on her ribcage, wanting to break free.
"I-" words failed her as he studied her face, like she was something unique he wanted to memorize.
His thumb ran over her lips, and she exhaled heavily at the feel.
"I forgot what I came here to tell you." he whispered in confidence, his eyes on her parted lips.
"I don't care."
One of his hands left her face and wrapped around her waist, pressing her against his hard chest. Alina almost gasped, hands coming up to rest on his shoulders. He pressed his forehead against hers and closed his eyes, hiding the conflict she had briefly witnessed there.
Alina made a choice.
She leaned forward and pressed her lips to his.
He reciprocated immediately, holding her tighter and pushing his tongue inside her mouth, demanding a dominance she was more than willing to give him.
She had been kissed, but never like this. It was a first kiss that felt like the last; its intensity so beautifully crushing and chaotic. It was like he was a missing part of her, long searched for and finally found. It was like she was the most precious, addictive treasure, something to be cherished and corrupted at the same time.
Alina was willing to let him do as he wanted with her.
Her hands pulled at his hair, earning a growl. Their eyes met briefly, the desire in them fighting to see whose was grander, before kissing again.
It was like he wanted to pull her closer still, the barrier of clothes too much. Something told Alina that the lack of them wouldn't satisfy either of them anyways.
He kissed her jaw, travelling his way up to her earlobe.
"You make me weak." he whispered harshly, only to proceed to ravish the parts of her neck that were exposed.
"You make me strong." she answered, craning her neck to give him better access.
Growling, he gave her ass a hard squeeze and pushed her back against a tree. She could feel the tug and crunches of the leaves as he buried his hands in her hair but didn't care.
She wanted more.
And more.
She drew his lips back to hers. He reached for the belt which held her kefta closed.
"Sir!"
The next thing Alina knew was that she was standing against a tree, her back aching and her body cold, yet her face hot.
She looked at The Darkling, who seemed almost unperturbed as he smoothly fixed his hair and clothes, standing at a respectable distance from her.
Ivan appeared, seeming to be in a hurry.
Alina narrowed her eyes at him. As if she didn't dislike him enough already, the little shit.
"Moi Soverennyi, you are needed in the king's counsel immediately."
"Tell that grump I shall be there shortly."
Ivan bowed and left, not even acknowledging Alina's presence.
The Darkling cleared his throat. She turned her dark gaze on him, cheeks burning against the cold air, lips probably bruised.
What had just happened?
She wasn't sure, but she wanted to do it again. The Darkling, on the other hand, remained stoic as he stared into her eyes, as if nothing had occurred between them.
"I understand that you have been training on your own;" he said, as if he were talking to any other grisha, ever polite and smooth, voice reassuring yet commanding." I shall speak to Baghra so you may return to your lessons."
"But I don't wann-"
With him gone, the early winter sun felt cold.
"Miss Starkov." he bowed to her respectfully and marched away, disappearing from view within seconds.
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#shadow and bone fanfic#shadow and bone#Alina starkov#the darkling#aleksander morozova#darkling x alina#alina x aleksander#alina x darkling#genya safin#nina zenik#fedyor kaminsky#fanfic
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two days
pairing: tsukkishima x reader
genre: slight fluff then slight angsty???
word count: 1.3k LOL
a/n: i am in love with salty frenchfry and this is cringe station so enjoy this really badly written fluff +angst or something bye <3
yes i love the number 3
3 years, 3 whole years kei spent loving you, yet his dumbass still hadnt confessed till today, today of all days,that is 3 days before you were leaving.
he was hurt, he wanted to tell you he loves you, he couldnt muster the courage to do so. quite ironic for someone who is salty asf LMAO, he always had a soft spot for you, he knew you were someone important to him, he just couldnt figure out how.
he thought he knew you so well, or so he thought.
he didnt know you were in too deep for him too, he didnt know youd take a bullet for him, he didnt know you got jealous everytime some other girl flirts with him, he didnt know how much you defended him, he didnt know you rejected the confessions for kei. (kei being the dumbass thought you rejected the confessions because you wanted to concentrate on your sport).
he wonders how many minutes he spent adoring you, how many seconds he spent loving you because how much ever that was, he knew it wasnt enough. he loves you. a lot. and you deserve all the love
he wanted to tell you.
you are vvsmart but dumb enough to not realise your best friend was in love with you big time. you knew your goodbye party will involve alcohol sO you had it 3 days before you left because you hated hangovers.
you wanted to confess to kei. whats the probability that he would like you back?, the worse thing he could say was “i never want to see you again’’ which works because you were leaving japan anyway.
the day after the party- today seems good, its perfect actually, you message him
“hey, wanna come over? :D”
kei looks at his phone, as your name popped up in his notifications he felt himself smile.
sure :)
kei knew he had to say it today, its either today or never
you took a deep breath. ‘tell him today’ you told yourself.
it was around 7pm when he finNALLY came over. kei had your favourite chips packet with him. smiling at him fondly you invited him to your room. it was natural. everything felt home with kei.
you wanted to confess but you wanted to see how he feels about you first- atleast maybe an idea.
“hey kei, guess what?”
he looked at you with a twinkle, he smirked as he looked into your eyes.
“i am in love with someone”
‘huh? what? love? does she like no ‘love’ someone ? oh, not me thats for sure’ kei’s mind ran spewing thoughts. he was not able to say anything. he was surprised. no surprised was an understatemeant. he was seething with jealousy, pity, sadness, betrayal, he could feel his heart break into two. he kept a stoic face and whispered ‘‘oh?’’ with his eyes no longer being in contact with yours.
you smiled, you knew, you knew what he was feeling, afterall you have felt the same so many times whenever someone flirts with him. you knew he liked you but you wanted him to confirm it. you whispered “kei? is everything okay?”
kei finally looked at you again, “y/n”
“i love you” kei finally said. he closed his eyes and turned away from you, he was scared to see our expression.
“aww kei, i love you too” you said as you reached out to hold his hand. he immediately took it and squeezed it.
he looked at you again with the same fond expression “ no dummy i love you in a romantic way, i am in love with you”
you looked at him with a dumbfounded expression “ kei i am in love with you too, in a romantic way”
he felt his adrenaline pushing himself towards you, as if on instinct he cupped your cheeks and kissed you. he kissed you softly hoping the kiss would convey how much he loves you.
he whispers against your lips “you have no idea how much ive wanted to do this dummy”
“kei, i’m gonna leave in 2 days” you remind him after a steamy makeout session
his face immediately falls
“what are we kei”
“i dont know best friends to lovers trope?” he said hoping to avoid that topic. the fact that you, his love is finally with him and that you will be leaving you in two days.
you laughed and then pulled a serious expression “ kei tsukishima, what are we” you asked squeezing his hand.
“hmm, lemme think about it” kei taunts you, you pulled out your best puppy dog eyes and pouted at him and he had the audacity to smirk at you. you turned away from him and stared at the corner because suddenly?? it?? seemed?? interesting??
you felt yourself pulled to his lap. he looked at you, his eyes filled with love he whispered “ y/n i love you a lot but i-” you interrupted him with a kiss, “i know kei, its gonna be hard but can we fall in love for the night atleast?’’
“yes y/n we can” he said lovingly.
its been exactly 16 months since you’ve left. 16 months since the magical day- the day he kissed you for the first time,the day he confessed to you, he remembers every minute of those two days.
he sighed and plopped on his headphones.
now playing- lets fall in love for the night by finneas
Let's fall in love for the night And forget in the morning Play me a song that you like You can bet I'll know every line
he remembers how you both fell more in love the last two days. he remembers the day you shared the playlist you made, mainly consisting of finneas’s songs. he saw how happy you were when you listened to your playlist commenting on how its a masterpiece. he remembers the day he realised he was in love with you. he remembers your ‘jamming’ sessions as you both sang your hearts out.
he closed his eyes as he remembered the day your first boyfriend kissed you, how he was seeping with jealousy, how he badly wanted to be your first kiss. it was then he realised he loved you. revisiting his memories with you always calmed him down, you stole his heart afterall.
keeping in touch with you has been a little difficult considering college and the different time zones, yet you both tried to keep in contact with each other
I'm the boy that your boy hoped that you would avoid Don't waste your eyes on jealous guys, fuck that noise I know better than to call you mine
he remembered how your first boyfriend tried to stop meeting him and how your ex sometimes crashed you both hanging out together at your place. kei knew that your ex was jealous, yet you stuck by him considering that was your first relationship. after you broke up, you were sad and he was there to comfort you. he was always there for you.
he knew what was the best for you, but he also knew that you werent his. he couldnt stop you from dating who you want.
You need a pick me up I'll be there in twenty five I like to push my luck So take my hand, let's take a drive
he remembers the late night calls and how he would show up at your door exactly in 27 minutes when you call him over. he remembers how you used to persuade your parents so he can stay over for the night, he remembers how you used to cringe at the cheesy romcom scenes, he remembers how you fell asleep on him,he remembers how happy you were when you finally got your favourite college acception letter. he remembers how happy you were when karasuno reached nationals. he misses you a lot.
I've been living in the future Hoping I might see you sooner I want you riding shotgun I knew When I got one right
he was so happy found out he was significant in your life. he imagines a life with you by his side, he imagines smaller versions of you both running in the house. he knew it was going to be tough, so after around 7 months, he ghosted you for a whole month. you were hEARTBROKEN. did you go wrong somewhere? does he not love you anymore? overwhelmed with anger and heartbreak you ghosted him back. but he didnt even try to hold a conversation with you, he didnt ask any questions, he didnt call you too. was he done with you? was this it? you were done, done being heartbroken and done waiting.
but ghosting you just made him miss you more. was it a bad idea? he wanted to hear your voice so bad but he knew it will just make him miss you more, instead he started to concentrate completely on college and tried to remove you from his mind, he tried removing you from his life, but he couldnt, not a single minute goes by without him remembering the little things about you. he knew he was gone from your life when you ghosted him back.
he wants you, he wonders if you feel the same way he does. have you moved on?have you found someone else? did you fall out of love with him?
he wanted to move on but he was hopeless, hopelessly in love with you,
how he wished he could relive those two days forever
a/n again?: JSJSJSJSJS THIS became longer than i expected?? the second slight angsty part was heavily inspired by let's fall in love for the night by FINNEAS ahh i love his songs sm
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Best Friends
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It was morning and you didn't like the fact that you had to go to school today. you had to face your crush and best friend, Gilbert. yesterday he had walked you home and you accidentally told him you that thought he was very handsome. it was so embarrassing and you didn't think you were able to look him in the eye, especially because of that stupid smirk and all his teasing. however you knew that was just because he was blushing. but since he is your only friend, today is definitely gonna be awkward.
"Dad I'm of for school!" you yelled before grabbing your coat. "Bye sweetheart have fun!"
fun. how can I have fun sitting alone avoiding the guy I like all day.
you quickly made you way to school. Gilbert usually walked with you but he was nowhere to be seen.
I really screwed everything up.
You felt tears welling up in your eyes. you ruined the only friendship you had because of some stupid crush. tears were now streaming down your face. you mentally scolded yourself for being so stupid. when you reached the school house you saw that you were late.
I left on time did I?
everyone was inside already. you quickly went in closing the door behind you. you took of your coat and quickly walked to your desk. your eyes met Gilbert's he looked concerned.
crap I didn't wipe my tears.
you quickly looked away and wiped your tears. you sat down next to Diana. she looked at you with a soft expression but she didn't say anything which wasn't very surprising, you two weren't friends.
you felt Gilbert's eyes on you during the entire lesson and it was torture. you looked at him a couple times and every single time he was staring at you. always with a concerned frown and a soft smile. you heard people whisper things. everyone had seen you crying.
When it was finally lunchtime you jumped up from your seat and ran outside. you sat by the stream and tears were rolling down your face again. "Y/n what's wrong?" you looked up to see Gilbert standing in front of you. "Gilbert please go away." you said with a broken voice. it broke his heart to see you like this. "you can talk to me Y/n. you're my best friend"
best friend. hmm.
"I don't wanna talk about it. please go" you said and you looked down again. Gilbert looked at you with a frown. "okay. but I'm here for you Y/n" he said before walking off. you started sobbing even harder. you felt a hand on your shoulder. "Gilbert go away please" you said not even bothering to look up. "Y/n" you looked up. that wasn't Gilbert. you looked up to see Diana."what's wrong" she asked and she sat down. "I-" you couldn't get the words out. "what's going on between you and Gilbert" she asks. you look at her. "I totally ruined everything. I just can't be around him anymore" you say sniffling. "why not" she looks confused. "because... I have feelings for him" you say feeling a little embarrassed. you're not quite sure why you're talking to Diana about this but it feels nice to get it of your chest. "oh" she says and she lays her hand on your shoulder. "I totally ruined the only friendship I had." you say and you look at her. "I'll be your friend" she smiles at you softly. you look up. "thank you but you don't wanna be my friend" "yes I do!" she says and you smile. you hug her. "thank you Diana."you pull away from the hug and see that Gilbert is staring at you. he looks confused and hurt.
** Gilbert pov
Why are Diana and Y/n talking, since when are they even friends? and why isn't she talking to me? did I say something? why would she talk to Diana instead of me? I'm supposed to be her best friend.
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school day is over. you haven't said another word to Gilbert but he keeps looking at you with this sad expression on his face.
maybe I should talk to him. see what's bothering him.
you see Gilbert quickly walk out of the school. you grab your coat and run after him. "Gilbert wait!" you yell. he turns around. he's crying. "Y/n.." he speaks quietly and his voice sounds hurt. "why are you crying?" you ask and you go up to hug him but he dodges you. "Gilbert..." "Y/n aren't we supposed to be best friends? what happened. what did I do wrong?" tears roll down his face and you're now crying too. "you did nothing wrong Gilbert" you say with a soft expression. "then why are you avoiding me?" he asks calmly and he stares into your eyes. your heart starts beating fast. "b-because... I have feelings for you" Gilbert widened his eyes. "y-you what?" "just forget about it." you say and you run away. you don't wanna screw this up even more. "Y/n!" you can hear him come after you but you keep running. you dont want to embarrass yourself even more. you look behind you. no sign of Gilbert. you stop running and fall to the ground sobbing.
I just ruined everything!
you still hear Gilbert calling you in the distance but you're exhausted. you had almost no sleep at night and you're so stressed and tired of hiding your feelings. you feel a hand on your shoulder. "Y/n." Gilbert wraps his arms around you and he kisses your forehead. you try to get out of his grip. "Y/n please don't" he says trying to keep you close. "Don't play with my feelings like that!" you let out a sob. "don't hold me and kiss me like that when all I am to you is a friend." you get out of his grip and start running again. when you finally reach your house you run up the stairs and into your room slamming the door shut behind you. you fall onto your bed and burst out crying. you just lay there crying for hours. at some point you fell asleep without even eating dinner.
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The next morning you wake up feeling like you hadn't slept at all. you're eyes are still puffy and you have no intentions of getting out of your bed. you hear footsteps on the stairs. your door slowly swings open revealing your concerned father. "Sweetheart you need to get up it's time for school." he says walking closer to your bed. "what happened?" he asks. "I know you would always talk to your mother about things-" "dad please.""is this about mom?" he looks at you with a sad frown. "no. but I miss her" you look at your dad. why did he have to bring up mom? your mother had passed almost a year ago now and you could always talk to her about everything. "I do too honey" your dad lays a hand on your shoulder. "why don't you talk to Gilbert about what's bothering you?" he asks"I can't" you say tears forming in your eyes again. "why not sweetheart?" He asks confused. "because this is about Gilbert" you say quietly it's almost a whisper. you stand up from your bed. "what happened?" your dad is now even more confused knowing that Gilbert would never hurt you. "I don't wanna talk about it. I'll get dressed and then I'll make breakfast" you say walking over to your closet. "okay sweetheart. are you going to school?" he asks before walking out. "yes I need to talk to Diana" you say picking out your favorite red dress from your closet. "Diana? Diana Barry?" "yea we're friends now" you said and your father frowned closing the door on his way downstairs to the kitchen.
you put on your dress and tied a matching ribbon in your hair. you looked in the mirror. your dress matched your red puffy eyes. you went downstairs and made yourself breakfast. your father didn't say anything. you didn't blame him he was never much of a talker.
"I'm off for school!" you said walking out off the kitchen. "bye sweetheart" you heard him say. you put on your coat and quickly walked through the forest. "Y/n wait up" you froze in your tracks. Gilbert. was he serious right now. he put his hand on your shoulder and you flinched. you looked at him and he immediately looked concerned. probably because of how tired and sad you looked. you ran away from him to find Diana. "Diana!" you walk up to the school house and see Diana standing there with her friends. you feel a little uncomfortable because all the girls look at you. "hey Y/n... Oh my what happened" she says as she studies your face. "can I talk to you. you know in private" you ask giving her a soft smile while slowly walking a bit further away from everyone. "of course" she says. she excuses herself from her friends and walks over to you. "what happened?" she asks with a concerned expression. "I told him" you say looking at the floor. "I told him and he played with my feelings" you say fighting against your tears again. "what did he do?" Diana hugs you tight and you cry into her shoulder. "he hugged me and then kissed my forehead, but I know he only sees me as a friend" you say pulling away from the hug. "did he say that?" she asks and before you could answer you hear someone talk behind you.
"no I didn't" you quickly turn around to face Gilbert. he looks over at Diana who takes the hint and walks away. "Y/n I'm so sorry I hurt you" Gilbert takes both your hands. you're confused at what he's saying and you frown. "what?" you say looking at your hands."I never meant to hurt you Y/n. I love you, as more than a friend" he says and he pulls you into a hug. he squeezes you tight and you hug him back. you're crying again and you don't know why. you hold on to his shoulders for what seems like eternity. "I love you too Gilbert. so much" you whisper in his ear. he pulls away and smiles at you. you smile back with sparkling eyes. you haven't had that sparkle for a long time and it made Gilbert chuckle. you feel relieved knowing that you didn't ruin anything. and that Gilbert Likes you back!! Gilbert takes your hands and presses a kiss on them. "so are we dating now?" you ask. Gilbert chuckles and he pulls you close. "yes we are"
this ending is bad I know. it's like 4 am rn and I can't sleep
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monoma x neutral!reader | summer camp
neito monoma x reader
gender neutral
Neito gets worried about you when the League of Villains attack the students at the summer camp.
no warning
You didn't really know what your relationship with Neito was. Maybe you guys were in a 'flirt only' relationship. Well, it was mostly for him ; you were just getting along with it. ''(L/N), stop being so bright, people in your class need to look at the sun and become blind only because of you !'' And you would brush it off. How could he be flirty with you and still hate on 1A at the same time ?
Moreover, whenever 1A and 1B had to paired up, he wanted to be with you. At first, you were kinda disappointed to be with him, but throughout time it only became automatic. Actually, your first interaction with Monoma was when the 2 hero classes were going to the USJ to have a common class. In the bus, Mina talked about how pretty the girls in 1B were. ‘’We got the handsome boys, though.’’ Jiro commented.
You nodded. ‘’Only 1 of them is good looking.’’ You said, pointing to Juzo. Mina giggled, Momo gasping at how disrespectful you guys were. Monoma was actually sat close to you all, and had rolled his eyes. ‘’Dont be mad, you’d be considered good-looking if you weren’t an ass all the time.’’ You told him.
Throughout time, he became comfortable around you. You couldn’t even tell when the transition began. According to you, it simply went from ‘I don’t know Monoma’ to ‘he’s that guy who flirts with me’. Not that you actually minded ; he really was good-looking, despise his attitude. And he looked really into you and wasn’t actually pushing you or anything. He even had some good intentions, like that one time at the cafeteria.
‘’(L/N) ! I got you your favorite dessert !’’ He said at lunch, when there wasn’t any of those anymore and he had noticed you were disappointed. ‘’How do you even know what I prefer ?’’ You asked, taking it gladly, giving him the dessert you had taken instead. ‘’I just know it !’’ You rolled your eyes. ‘’Fucking stalker.’’
He simply giggled, thanking you for the exchange, and went to eat with his classmates. Yours, well, they were used to it. But they still were mad sometimes that the blonde was nice only to you and no one else.
That’s why in the bus for the summer camp, while you were sat next to Kaminari, Monoma decided to sit right behind you. He didn’t talk to you, but you knew he had sat there on purpose, like the fucking stalker he is.
The first day was great, even with the hard training, and the night was much funnier, even if everyone was tired. The second night, however, took an odd turn. The League of Villains had decided to attack, and with your quirk, Aizawa had told you to rescue as much people as possible, trying not to get in a fight.
‘’Bakugou is in danger ?!’’ Kirishima exclaimed, in his class with Vlad King ; he knew the villains’ target was Katsuki. ‘’Wait, is (Y/N) outside ?!’’ Neito asked, suddenly. ‘’We have to help them !’’ Sero said, turning to the teacher. ‘’No, we have to stay here. We’re much more safe here than we would be outside. We’re not moving until we’re getting the order to do so, or if I find it too dangerous there.’’
Of course, everyone was nervous about Katsuki being the target. However, Neito couldn’t care less, his main focus being you. Of course he was always flirting, even trying to make it funny. But he actually really loved you and cared about you, and just didn’t know how to properly ask you out.
When the students taking the late classes could finally go out, they found you, Tokoyami, Izuku, Shoto, Shoji and Tenya all together. You were sat on the ground, crying. Neito ran to you, not even noticing that Izuku had two broken arms and looked much more hurt than you were. In fact, you didn’t look hurt at all.
Still, the blonde sat in front of you to take you in his arms, like it was something you guys would usually do. ‘’Are you okay ? Are you hurt ? Why are you crying, is something wrong ?’’ He asked, actually worried. You gulped, trying to catch your breath. ‘‘They got Bakugou, we couldn’t save him ! I had to rescue everyone but I didn’t rescue him !’’ You said, between sobs.
Neito was actually glad that you weren’t hurt. But seeing you that pained made his heart ache. He cupped your cheeks, wiping your tears, and giving you a sad smile, for some reason. You looked at him, and then rest your head against his chest, finally hugging him back. He was glad you did, since he started to rub your back to try to make you feel more comfortable.
Because of that incident, the summer camp trip was over, and everyone had to already go back in the bus. Neito insisted on sitting next to you, and you actually let him do it. You were resting your cheek against your hand, trying not to break down again. But he noticed it. ‘’(L/N)... (Y/N), they’ll save him. They are pros, it’s what they do. It’s their job.’’ You nodded, not really caring about what he was saying, though.
Well, that was until he pulled you in a hug, kissing the top of your head when he was done settling you. ‘’Sleep, (Y/N). Don’t worry about him, they’ll rescue him.’’ You wanted to argue with the blonde. But you were too tired right now, and simply nodded, hugging him to use him as a pillow. He snorted at the sight, playing with your hair as you drifted to sleep.
Both Neito and you didn’t talk about you two being that close when you were back at U.A. And after that, well, you were busy being a member of the Bakugou rescue squad, so you didn’t have time to talk to the blonde at all. And even if you got grounded from getting endangered to save your friend, you couldn’t care less ; Katsuki was alive and safe.
Moreover, you were quite fond of the idea of living in dorms by now ; you were much closer to the school, and you could call a pro directly when there was a danger. Oh, and also because Neito was in a dorm as well, so you could see him very often. And that’s why, the next morning, when everyone was settled, you went to find him.
‘’Neito ?’’ You asked, quite unsure about if you could use his first name, even if he did use yours. He turned and smiled. ‘’Thank you, for the camp. You were nice with me.’’ He chuckled. ‘‘No problem, (Y/N) ! It’s good that your friend’s back, you won’t have to get sad anymore !’’ You nodded, staring at him.
Noticing it, he started to laugh. ‘’What ? Do I have something on my face ? You had never seen a guy that handsome before ?’’ And he didn’t look done, but you cut him off... by kissing him. When you pulled away, he was frozen in place. ‘’Did you... did you just kiss me ?’’ You nodded, once again. That made him laugh again. ‘’That’s what I was saying ! I’m so handsome you had to kiss me !’’ But you brushed it off.
‘’That also means that I’m very grateful you tried to cheer me up and that you can stop your cheesy pick-up lines and the flirting. I wanna go on a date with you.’’ Once again, he stopped laughing, and simply widened his eyes. He smiled, and hugged you. ‘’I’m glad you’re agreeing even before I ask you out.’’ You snorted. ‘’Else we would’ve never gone on a date. You’re too weird to ask properly.’’ He snorted as well ; maybe that’s why he liked you. You were witty, and you didn’t care picking a fight with him. And oh, how happy he was.
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Could u write albert/race (platonic or romantic) w adhd!race (btw i l o v e ur fics)
thank u love, just for you here’s a fic of me projecting on race, ft. an asshole date and albert being a sweetheart
trigger warning: ableist language
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“Come to the park with me on my date, he said,” Albert muttered to himself, swatting a branch out of his face. “It’ll be fun, he said.”
In any given situation, Albert would rather stab out his left eyeball with a spork than be a third-wheel on a date. It made him anxious and turned him from calm and collected to a shy, awkward mess in a matter of seconds.
Apparently, all those things went out the window when Race was involved. Albert guessed it was fair, anyway. Race had met a cute boy named Kevin at a party, been asked out on a date, and proceeded to beg Albert to come with him. He’d barely talked to the boy and he was “too young and pretty to be murdered on a first date.” (Race’s words, not Albert’s.)
Besides, it wasn’t really third-wheeling. Not when Albert was crouched in a tree, watching Kevin slip his hand into Race’s. It was technically called stalking.
“You having fun?” Kevin said to Race. They were sitting on a bench directly under Albert’s tree, and frankly, he considered it a miracle Kevin hadn’t looked up yet.
“Yeah,” Race said, grinning at their linked hands. His cheeks and ears were tinged pink. “I love this park. When I was seven, my mom, my biological one, took me and my best friend Albert here. I don’t live with her anymore, I doubt she remembers it, but I broke my arm. I don’t even remember how. I mean, that wasn’t the last time I was here, that’s the only time I’ve ever broken something. My brother says it’s a miracle I haven’t cracked my head open from all the idiot stuff I do. He shouldn’t be talking, right? He’s usually the reason I do stupid stuff. Me and him went to this park a few weeks ago. Oh, his name’s Jack, I’ve got two brothers and a sister, all adopted, our poor mom. Have you met him? He was at that party we met at, but he was probably passed out on the couch.”
Race took a breath and looked at Kevin expectantly. Albert had followed the entire conversation, more than used to Race when he started rambling, but Kevin didn’t have the same expertise. He looked like a deer in headlights, scrambling to find an endpoint to Race’s story.
“Um… you’re a foster kid?” he finally settled on saying. “Or, um, you’re adopted?”
Albert didn’t approve.
“Yeah,” Race said. “Adopted when I was eleven. Did I mention that? Shit, sorry, didn’t mean to unload on you.”
“Um, it’s okay, you didn’t,” Kevin said. “So… what happened with your brother?” Race raised an eyebrow, and Kevin elaborated. “A few weeks ago? When you were here with him?”“Oh!” Race said, and he launched back into his story like he’d never taken a pause. “So, we dragged a trampoline to the base of a tree, and he dared me to jump off a branch and land on the trampoline. We didn’t have a helmet so we just used a pillow. Honestly, that was one of the times where I thought I’d break somethin’ else, but it was just that one time when I was seven. I had a huge scratch on my leg for a couple weeks and I’ve got a scar, but it’s not that bad.”Kevin laughed awkwardly and tucked his hands under his thighs. It was then Albert noticed that Race had pulled their hands apart and was gesturing grandly with one. The other was resting on Kevin’s knee. Race was a tactile guy, and Albert was surprised the hand hadn’t made its way to Kevin’s face.
“You talk a lot,” Kevin said.
Race smiled. “Ain’t the first time someone’s told me that, trust me,” he said. “You should talk to my teachers. They’d probably go on tangents longer than mine about me. My math teacher doesn’t like me ‘cause I always get the answer right, but not the way I’m supposed to get it, which is fuckin’ unfa-”
“Let’s get ice cream,” Kevin cut in, standing up suddenly and grabbing Race’s sleeve to tug him up with him.
Race smiled sheepishly as his hand moved to grab Kevin’s again. Kevin stuffed his hands in his pockets pointedly. “Okay, cool. Sorry. Just let me know if I start rambling like that and I’m bein’ annoying. I’m kind of an idiot.”
“It’s fine,” Kevin said with a grin so fake it hurt to look at. The kid was getting a solid two out of ten on Albert’s scale of “People That Deserve To Hang Out With My Friends.”
“Hey, I don’t have my wallet with me,” Race said, patting his pockets. “But I can pay you back for the ice cream. It’d be the gentleman thing to do, right?” He winked, sidling up to Kevin’s side to lean on him, and Albert forced a laugh back down his throat.
Kevin didn’t think it was funny. When Race’s elbow raised to rest on his shoulder, he moved away. “You didn’t bring your wallet?” he said, frowning. “But I didn’t bring mine. We agreed to get ice cream a couple days ago, when I asked you out, and you said you’d pay. Remember?”
Race’s face fell when Kevin stepped back. “Oh… oh,” he said, realization dawning over his face. “Fuckin’ shit. I’m sorry, Kevin,” he said, running a hand through his hair. Albert wanted to jump down and give him a hug, but that might have had something to do with the fact that his back was permanently cramped from hunching over in the tree for so long.
Instead of forcing a smile and saying “It’s fine,” which Albert had been expecting, the frown didn’t waver on Kevin’s face. “What’s your problem, man?” he said. “Like, I don’t wanna be rude, but you’ve spent this entire time talking about yourself and you forgot about something we agreed on two days ago.”
“I… dude, I didn’t mean to,” Race tried. “Sorry if I’m being obnoxious. I have ADHD and I’ve been out of meds since last week. I forgot to tell my mom, but she’s picking them up today.”
If anything, Kevin’s scowl deepened, which just made the situation worse. Albert could read Race’s stiff shoulders and fleeting eyes like a book. “That’s not an excuse, dude. I get that you’ve got memory problems or whatever, but we’ve all got our issues. Can’t you just… I don’t know, try harder?”
“I -”
“Forget it,” Kevin muttered. “I’m not really in the mood for ice cream, I think I’m just gonna go home. I’ll text you or something.” He clapped a hand on Race’s shoulder. “See you later, Tony.”
From the look on his face as he walked off, hands still stuffed deep in his pockets, Albert had a feeling he wouldn’t be texting.
He waited until Kevin had completely disappeared around the corner. He’d pulled out his phone as soon as he left Race alone, thumps tapping wildly on the screen. Albert could only pray there wouldn’t be rumors about “the weird, freckled kid that never shuts up” at school on Monday.
He jumped down from his tree, a lot less gracefully than he would’ve prefered. Race jumped a foot in the air and whipped around as Albert sweared loudly, clutching his foot.
“Shit, I forgot you were up there,” Race said. His shoulders slumped, and he looked more like a kicked puppy than a dejected teenage boy. “Sorry you had to listen to all that. Like, me rambling and then gettin’ ditched by Kevin and whatever.”
“Shut up,” Albert said. Hearing himself out loud, he quickly backtracked, “I-I mean, you can talk as much as you want. I just don’t want you to… you’ve said sorry too much today, Racer. It’s not your fault.”He stared intently at the hole in the toe of his Converse as he was talking, and when he looked up, Race’s eyes were red. He wasn’t quite crying, but his voice cracked when he spoke.
“Yes it is.” It sounded like he’d tried to sound angry with himself, to snap out his words like a rubber band against raw skin, but he just sounded sad. “Don’t play dumb, Albie. Kevin’s right. I talked about myself too much, and I forgot about somethin’ so fuckin’ simple, and I chased him away. Did you see his face?” he demanded. “He looked at me like I was a fuckin’ alien from Area 51, and then he left.”
As much as Albert wanted to say “Good riddance to him, then,” he didn’t think it would be appreciated. He stepped forward, Race sunk his head into his shoulder.
“I’m such an idiot,” he said, words muffled in Albert’s shirt. “And I kind of wanted that ice cream, babe, not gonna lie.”
Albert gripped the back of Race’s neck wordlessly, knowing the pressure was grounding and comforting from how often Race did it to him. “Lucky for you,” he mumbled in Race’s ear, “I always come prepared. C’mon, dude, my brother gave me twenty bucks and I’m spending all of it before I step foot in my house.”
Race smiled against his shoulder. “What would I do without you? Seriously, would I be dead? I think I’d be dead.”
“No, you just wouldn’t have stories to tell about breaking your arm with me to asshole dates.”
“He wasn’t an as-”
“Race. You told him you had ADHD, and he told you to try harder and get over it.”
“I should’ve told him before so he’d know how much work I can b-”“If I told someone I had autism and they told me to suck it up and stop whining, would you deck them or not?”
Race lifted his head, silently pursing his lips together. “Okay,” he admitted. “He was kind of an asshole.”
Albert nodded solemnly. “The asshole to end all assholes,” he said. He was just trying to make Race laugh and they both knew it, but in his defense, it was working. “C’mon,” he said, grabbing Race’s collar and ushering him towards the sidewalk. “Chocolate or vanilla?”“Both. Extra sprinkles.”
“Damn. You know I’m paying, right? Maybe you’re the asshole.”
Race laughed again, throwing his head back and an arm around Albert’s shoulders, and for the first time in an hour, all was right with Albert’s world.
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Somebody New
Pairing: Modern!Newt x Reader
Summary: Newt really really loves you, that's obvious. You like him a lot too, which isn't as obvious, but nonetheless true. You're just not sure if a relationship is what you want right now. Hurting Newt is the last thing you want to do to him, but you may not have a choice today.
Terms: (Y/n) is Your Name, (h/l) is hair length, (h/c) is hair color, (G/n) is Guardian/Parent name
Warnings: Angst?
A/N: As requested by @scribblestarsonthecuffsofurjeans . Enjoy!! I used the title from this song, just because it kinda reminded me of it. Once again, bold shows texting back and forth
Disclaimer: I dont own you or Newt or any other TMR characters! Plot is a request!!
Newt laughed with Thomas, slightly leaning into his friend for support. Thomas laughed along, and lazily helped Newt walk.
You gave the duo a funny look, and lightly shut your locker. Walking up to them with your eyebrows furrowed, you asked,
"What's so funny?" You asked, gaining their attention.
"N-nothing." Thomas tried to say between his laughs. Needless to say, he epically failed.
Once again, you furrowed your eyebrows at the two, but let it go with a small giggle. Laughter was contagious. Especially Newt's.
Wait, what?
"Oh, luv!" Newt said to you, suddenly forgetting Thomas's joke. "I've been meaning to ask you about the dance coming up. Would you--"
"(Y/n)!" Teresa's shout echoed through the near-empty hallways. You sent Newt an apologetic look and turned to look at her. Brenda was hot on her heels.
"Mind if we steal her for a sec? Thanks!" She said, her hands resting on your shoulders, not bothering to wait for an answer. She hardly looked at Newt and Thomas before taking you away. So naturally, she hadn't noticed Thomas glaring in her direction.
Newt looked over to Thomas nervously, disappointment written across his face. He sighed and walked away with his head low. However, it didn't look nearly as pathetic as it sounded. Thomas took a few seconds to realize what just happened, but when he did he immeaditely ran over to Newt.
"Wait!" He called. Newt turned to look at his friend,
"Yes?"
"Uh..." Thomas had to think of something quick. He hadn't expected Newt to actually stop. "Do you wanna hang out with Me and Minho tonight?" Nice save! He told himself.
Newt gave him a small smile, which Thomas hoped wasn't forced.
"Maybe," Newt said. "I got homework." He tried.
"It's Friday!" Thomas cheered, ignoring Newt's change of mood. He knew why, everyone did. Newt was deep in love.
With you.
Really, it was quite obvious--the stolen glances, the lovey-dovey sighs, his love for love songs... need I go on? Newt was madly in love, but anyone who saw it would think it's prerry one-sided.
Yet it wasn't.
You tried not to give Newt any hints that you feel the same towards him because you didn't want to hurt him. Newt just took it as 'uninterested' instead.
You weren't, though. You really like him, but you recently got out of a pretty toxic relationship with your ex--which goes unbeknownst to your friends. They (especially Newt) wanted you to break up with you ex (before they became your ex), pointing out that everything they do isn't what a significant other should be doing, but you just took it as them being overprotective friends.
But one day your significant other accidentally slapped you, and you decided to be done for good.
You broke up with them immediately, and left their house. You never thought to turn back and watch their reaction, because knowing them, they probably just shrugged to themself and called a side chick for comfort they didn't need.
Sure, it still hurt you, but it that's how any other person would feel. Even then, your joy outweighed the sadness; you were finally free!
But unfortunately single.
You had honestly never noticed the way Newt stared at you.
Well, okay. 'Honestly' makes it a lie. But you always thought it was a platonic kind of thing. Or that he was worried about your wellbeing (which he is). Never on your life would you have imagined that a cute little blond British boy would be madly in love with you.
And Newt would be lying if he didn't say the same.
He didn't know what it was; maybe because your beautiful (h/l), (h/c) hair never fails to catch his eye when it glistens in the sunlight. Or your very loud (but very adorable) laugh that made everyone around you laugh as well. Maybe it was how you'd mumble sassy remarks under your breath instead. You'd never get caught--even if Newt blew your cover for laughing and got himself in trouble. He also loved your late night conversations about the universe, life, and fate, as well as the secret love you two shared for Disney and Captain America--whatever the reason, Newt loved you dearly, and constantly worried about your life, and tried to make everything perfect for you; how are you? How is school? Is (G/n) giving you a hard time about your grades again? Are your friends okay? Are any of the stupid people in school bothering you? The list never seems to end.
He worried about anything and everything, but he'd never let you know it. Like I said before, he was afraid you'd leave him. He'd be lost without you, and you him.
And your friends were getting sick of it.
"I don't know, man." Newt said to Minho, who just offered Newt to 'step it up' to you. "She just... took off. Maybe she doesn't like me." He said. The sorrowful look from before was back, and it did not seem to be going away any time soon.
"Why don't you just tell her?" Thomas asked suddenly.
It took his friends by surprise. Both Newt and Minho whipped their heads in his direction. Newt with his golden eyes and rosy lips wide like the sun, and Minho with his sly smirk that put the Grinch to shame.
"What?!" Newt asked. He was nudged by Minho teasingly,
"Yeah, Newt." Minho mocked. "Tell 'er how you feel."
Newt sent him a pouty look, as I to say 'are you for real?'. "No way!" He said with a shake of his head. "I'm not that shucked."
Minho raised his eyebrows and bit his tounge to stop the snarky comments from escaping his lips.
Thomas, on the other hand, didn't care. "C'mon man, just do it! It works, trust me!" Newt offered.
Newt looked at him cautiously, "How? Because Teresa broke up with you?"
Newt got him there. "Well, no, but..."
"But (Y/n) will love it, and you love her, so..." Minho interrupted. Thomas sent him a grateful look. "Do it." Minho concluded.
Newt sighed and fixed his backpack, "I... I just don't know. Maybe she doesn't like me. Maybe she..."
"Newt, stop." Thomas said. Minho was stunned at how stern Thomas sounded, but Newt wasn't for some reason.
He was more annoyed than anything.
"No, Tommy," Newt said. His accent thickened with each word he said. "She avoids me. You know that? She doesn't catch me staring like she used to. She has dark bags under her eyes--"
"You don't cause dark bags." Minho interrupted. "Sorry to ruin your pity party, but she still likes you. Just think about it... her ex. Do you remember why we didn't like them?"
Newt nodded his head, and mumbled a "Yeah."
"Good. Why don't you get Sonya to talk to her? Or ask Brenda what's up."
Newt shrugged again, and did as his friends advised.
--
"I don't know, Newt." Sonya said from the other line. She sounded helpless. Newt hated doing this to her, but he needed to know what he was doing wrong.
"Can you just ask?" He asked. Sonya made a helpless grunt, but decided to stick with it.
"I'll see what I can do." She said. "Bye."
"Bye." Newt said, pushing the red 'end call' button on his phone. He searched his contacts, and found Brenda. He decided to call her, too.
"What's up?" Brenda asked. She sounded bored. More than normal, at least.
"Does (Y/n) actually like me?" Newt asked. He sounded heartbroken, but Brenda knew he could stay strong.
Brenda sighed heavily, "I honestly don't know." She said. "I-I think she does, but she seems to block out every opportunity you get. Sorry, dude." She said.
Newt pressed his lips together, and his tounge against the roof of his mouth--something he learned that keeps you from crying. He tightly squeezed his eyes, but opened them before speaking again.
"S'okay." He responded.
But Brenda knew it wasn't. She could smell the lie from miles away. And it's not that Newt isn't a good liar because he is, it's that he has been hiding his feelings for so long that Brenda has become used to it.
Brenda thought about saying "I know you aren't," but she knew that wouldn't help anything.
Or would it?
"You don't sound like it," Brenda mumbled before she could stop herself.
Newt's forced laugh came from the other end of the phone, "You're right. But I will be... soon." He said.
Brenda's heart slowly broke at Newt's sadness.
She wished that she could figure you out just as much as Newt. If not more.
--
Your phone buzzed. You looked down to your phone to find that omeone texted you. U ok? A text from Brenda read.
You responded with an immediate Yea
But added: Why?
Jw
You furrowed your eyebrows, but moved your attention back to your math homework.
Well, you tried at least.
Do you hate newt? She asked. You were surprised by this question.
Did you hate Newt? No. No way would you ever, but...
No. You didn't love him nor did you hate him.
You just... you typed in 'why' instead.
Bc you never talk anymore Brenda responded.
Not gonna lie and all, this conversation was starting to feel like a punch in the gut to you.
So? You responded. You knew it made you sound like a shank, but you didn't really know how to respond.
Sure, you liked Newt. A lot, actually, but is he worth it? Isn't it just easier to stay guarded and keep it at that? After all, the only person you really have to take care of is yourself.
Right?
Then again, Newt is Newt. He'd never try to hurt you, no matter what happens.
Why do I have to make this decision? You wondered to yourself.
So he likes u
I know You totally were sounding like a shuck-face, but what could you do?
Do u like him
Do you like him? You used to, but do you still? Maybe...
Or are you trying to convince yourself that you don't, instead? That wouldn't surprise you, especially after the nasty breakup with your ex--you've started to learn how to cover up your feelings.
Sure You responded. Who doesn't?
When in doubt, play dumb.
Just not too dumb.
It seems like u dont
Well that was like a stake to the heart.
What?
I dunno but hes upset
Why?
Cause he thinks u dont like him
You paused for a moment, before exiting the chat. You pulled up your speed dial, and decided to call Newt.
"Hello?" He asked. His voice sounded groggy and worn to you. It saddened you to think about him being like this.
Especially if it was because of you.
"Hey," You said. "Are you alright?"
Don't lie to me. Don't lie to me. Don't lie to me. Don't lie--
"Fine."
Shuck no.
"I know you're not," You began. Newt started talking before you could, though.
"Do you? Why? Because Brenda told you?"
You were surprised by his sudden outburst. It actually kind of scared you.
"What?" You asked.
"Whatever, (Y/n). I-I'm sorry. I just... what's going on with us?"
You forced a small smile. And a chuckle. "I don't know--"
"Actually--sorry to interrupted, but--have you been avoiding me?"
Well this is new.
Not.
"Um... no. I..." you sighed. Sometimes, the truth is the best way to go. "I haven't been avoiding you. I... I just broke up with my ex--I know, but I lied--and it's been rough. They... they moved on fairly quickly, but I still haven't... I'm sorry."
"It's okay." Newt responded. He was much calmer now.
"But it's not. I like you, I really do, but--"
"I get it, you're not ready. That's fine, (Y/n). It's... it's a lot better than thinking you're sick of me."
"Oh, I'd never!" You said. "But I lied, and--"
"Relax," Newt said. "I probably would have done the same thing. Do you want to come over?" He asked.
You thought about it for a moment, would you like to come over?
Yes.
"Yeah, I'd love that."
"I'll get the ice cream, you get the chick-flicks?" Newt said with a chuckle.
You giggled. "Sure. See ya in 10!"
"See ya in 10, (Y/n)." Newt responded.
#newt x reader#tmr newt#newt x reader tmr#sad newt#modern au#modern!newt#modern!au#modern tmr#newt#request#tmr x reader#tmr#the maze runner
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Journey into the MCU XII
Avengers: Endgame
I just watched Endgame. Part of me doesn’t even know what to say. Some bits were brilliant and exactly what I wanted them to be and then some bits were just... a bit shit?
Don’t get me wrong. I loved it. Whenever something happened I was screaming ‘ABSOLUTELY NOT’ you know, in the best way :) ...But... I had to love it, you know what I mean? Seriously though, don’t really know what the shit I just watched (in a good way lol)
So, I love the fact that it started with Clint - that already got me crying (the first of the 41 instances of crying due to this film and probably the fact that I’m hormonal lmao). I adored Tony and Nebula’s interaction playing the game in space and I was like ‘Ah shit here we go again he’s adopting another one’ lol. I honestly had no idea how they were going to get back to Earth until That Bitch™ turns up - I actually waaaaay prefer Carol in this film to Captain Marvel!!!
STEVE RUNS TO TONY WHEN THE SHIP LANDS! I CAN’T! HE’S BY HIS SIDE BEFORE PEPPER EXCUSE YOU BITCH WHAT!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH
I love them so much :’) sorry I’ll stop
Tony’s whole ‘zero zip nada no trust liar’ just. Wow. Very well done to both RDJ and Evans because that’s improvised right? I love!
I really like Thor, Protector of Lesbians and That Bitch’s interaction. Instantly a yes from me.
I enjoyed Thor’s desperation at just slicing that purple twat’s head off.
I’m trying to do this chronologically but I’m gonna start fucking up. Whatever.
I HATE what they did to Bruce. I wanted to see Bruce Banner being distraught and instead they wrote in all this unnecessary humour which personally I didn’t think was too funny maybe because I was too mad and made him permanently green?? Excuse me? The Russos have gotta be clowning right? The dared do THIS to the strongest avenger? Fuck off honestly. Think about what that man has been through - tried to kill himself and this is the treatment he gets?! No.
I like the fact that Thor is depressed because that was a natural decline. And I mean, he was depressed waaay before 2023 right? He has lost EVERYTHING and can’t really relate to anyone else because most of his loss was different, but he manages to maintain some of the humour we see from him in Ragnarok, HOWEVER I feel like the Russos were just trying too hard to make the humour happen and it just didn’t feel right?
LOVE THE FACT THAT THEY GOT OUT OF THE ‘OH SCOTT’S STUCK IN THE QUANTUM REALM’ PLOT HOLE WITH A RAT SCURRYING ACROSS THE CONTROLS. BITCH. I CAN’T EVEN BE MAD AT THAT. THAT’S JUST ICONIC.
Also, Tony Stark really is one of the best dads, huh? Along with Mr. Lang of course. AND NEITHER OF THEM GOT TO SEE THEIR KIDS GROW UP SORRY MORE ON THAT LATER.
I understand that Tony wasn’t on board at first, despite being a bit annoyed at him being selfish, I got it. And then bitch gets on board and everything’s happy for 20 minutes.
The Time Heist was ICONIC aND no one can tell me otherwise!!! Honestly just the fact that it was called the time heist and it was Scott’s plan and Scott is still tHE biggest fanboy - we stan.
I knew about the time travel shit before watching and thought they were gonna fuck it up because time travel is difficult with regard to not just going ‘so now we’re gonna go back and fix everything, job done’ but I actually think they did a pretty good job and did well explaining how *this version* of time travel was gonna work.
I really enjoyed Bruce’s interaction with the Ancient One and when she realises there must be a problem in the future if Stephen saved Tony’s life for the stone.
STEVE, TONY AND SCOTT WERE EVERYTHING AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THESE GUYS BACK IN 2012!!! I love Tony making Scott induce a heart attack. ICONIC. I live for the fact that we see all this sort of ‘behind the scenes’ action of The Avengers 2012 and the stuff that happened after the event and the ins and outs of everything. I will NEVER be over these whole shenanigans!!!!! I already knew about Cap V Cap but nOTHING could’ve prepared me for tHAT. This will be a continuing theme lol. I had no idea the whole ‘that is America’s ass’ thing actually happened jfc. SIDE NOTE: Tony really does say ‘I forgot that suit did nothing for your ass Cap’ bITCH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA why you looking though you bi little shit lmao I’m not sorry. Steve whispering Hail Hydra was iconic and I was screaming ‘FUCK YEH BITCH FUCK EM UP NOW THEY DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCKS GOING ON HELL YEAH STEVE!!!!!!’ and at first I was like ‘wait, are they gonna recreate the CATWS elevator fight sequence?’ and then they did tHAT. ICONIC. And then I also knew that they go back further because I knew Tony met Howard and I knew about Dr. Potts and Capt. Stevens (lol) BUT NOTHING COULDVE PREPARED ME FOR THAT EITHER!!!! That shit got me FUCKED aND he hUGged him! He hugged his dad! I was! Not ready! For that!
Anyway so their time heist was really nice and I loved it so much it was everything I could’ve hoped for.
Thor and Frigga’s interaction I thought was really nice and she MUST know by the way he’s talking that in his future, the near future, she’s dead. I just find it so lovely and she completely restores Thor’s confidence in himself.
NOW
CLINT AND NAT
ABSOLUTELY NOT
That totally fucked me up. I knew Nat died at Vormir but turns out it didn’t matter that I already knew because nothing could’ve prepared me for that either.
For one, they hint at it quite a bit after they’ve finalised the plan - you know, that someone’s gonna go there and die. Nebula knows and we know that whoever’s going to Vormir ain’t coming back - well, one of them. oops
Secondly, I had no idea that they *playfully* fought it out to decide who it was gonna be and I was sOBBING from the moment they got to Vormir till- uhhh- well tbh it never stopped but you get the point. The whole fact that Nat realised that *this* was her purpose and after what Clint had been doing for the last five years, he thought he was too far gone and didn’t deserve his family anymore, even if they could get them back. It just totally fucked me up. That was one of my favourite scenes.
Sad Steve. AHHHH.
Then a whole load of shit happens and Thanos learns about the plan. I like the way Thanos talking about his future self is written, so kudos to the writers on that one!
I also appreciate the fact that there’s no delay between Thanos, Squidward and the rest of his crew coming to the future and the fight. That’s it. All of a sudden we’re straight into it! Great!
AHHHHHHH so now it’s time for The Big Three to confront Thanos and I just LOVE this sequence so much I honestly can’t express it and I was so so sooooo hoping that I would see these three on their own (plus purple numpty of course). At this point Thanos is just completely psycho because he wants to destroy the universe and create a new one which is an addition I really like - creates a new sense of urgency I suppose.
In other news, Steve Rogers is worthy! Which I love because somewhere around CATWS I started stanning this bitch!
Dr. Strange’s portals? ICONIC. Hotel? TRIVAGO.
Peter’s back and his and Tony’s whole interaction and hug had me in fucking tears jesus fUCKING christ nope. That shit hurt. THAT IS HIS SON RIGHT THERE. FUCK.
RIGHT.
TONY MOTHERFUCKING STARK.
The fact Stephen knows - has known for 5 years - what must happen.
The look on both their faces when Tony realises.
Nope.
ABSOLUTELY NOT.
Made me wanna die.
Then he does it. Fuck. I’m completely fucked now. Thanks. And then Peter’s by his side and Peter’s whole speech while Tony’s just dYING!!!!!! ABSOLUTELY NOT. I DID NOT COME HERE TO BE HURT LIKE THIS. AND RHODEY. AND PEPPER. AND PEPPER HAS TO PULL PETER OFF. NOPE.
THEN they dare just cUT TO THE FUNERAL??!!?!
ABSOLUTELY NOT.
Get the fuck out honestly.
Tony’s recording. No.
The placing of everyone at the funeral was just perfect. The funeral was just beautiful in general tbh. The Proof That Tony Stark Has A Heart on the flowers. HARLEY!!!!!!! NO.
AND MORGAN WANTED CHEESE BURGERS JFC HAPPY IS GOING TO BE THE BEST UNCLE WOW!!!
Did I know Tony Stark was gonna die? Yes I did. I would’ve had to leave Tumblr to not have found out. There’s only so much that tagging can hide and you see something that hints at it and then you see a quick gif and then you just know, you know?
Did it prepare me? Fuck no.
Now, Steve.
What tHE ACTUAL FUCK?
What was that?
I’m not buying it.
Love the fact he passed Cap onto Sam, but to spend the rest of his life with Peggy? Fuck no. Some girl he knew too seconds vs spending the rest of his life with his BEST FRIEND who was irreplaceable. Fuck off. Bucky’s face throughout the whole sequence. The poor man was fucking devastated. And I’m writing this from a canon perspective because I’m all for stucky you know? Then I asked my self: ‘How could Steve do that?’ Conclusion: he couldn’t and he wouldn’t - the writers were playing silly games and none of us, none of us are buying it.
Did I know all this was gonna go down? Yes. Was I prepared? No.
Not for Bucky’s fucking face jfc. All they got was a line and a quick hug. They were BEST FRIENDS. I honestly can’t stress that enough. Wow.
The deleted scenes. Of course I have watched them aND WHY IN THE SHIT WERE THEY DELETED??? Russos are fucking clowns!!!! They all fucking kneeled for him and that was cut? You having a laugh mate?! And Gerald the Alpaca was cut because??? The extra Howard and Tony didn’t make the cut? Excuse you? Tony’s talking about how he doesn’t think he’s done enough, and then he goes and does the aBSOLUTE MOST???? :’) fuck. And uhhh Rhodey having the ONLY brain cell in the avengers with the whole ‘well you coulda jumped out the plane beforehand Cap’ lmaooo brilliant!!!
So they may be deleted but let me tell you, they released them so now they’re fucking canon.
So in conclusion, did I know all the major spoilers before watching this film? Yes because I wasn’t going to be a tumblr hermit, but managed to pretty successfully ignore them until today. SO WAS I PREPARED? FUCK NO!
Surprisingly I LOVED Clint in Endgame - not that I didn’t like him before but I just really respect how broken he is in this. His family. Nat. It really adds up and I really enjoyed what they did with his character.
I did really love it generally but just wasn’t entirely happy with some of the character choices - because they seemed pretty damn out of character! There’s development over 5 years of not having seen them, and then... there’s... some other situations.
Would I have enjoyed it more not knowing any spoilers? Completely! But I wasn’t gonna stay clear of Tumblr for 4 months lol.
Main thing I will take away from watching this. I miss Tony Stark so much and love him so much. And no I will not shut up about it. And was I crying for a good hour after the film ended and then some whilst I was watching the extra content? Maybe.
Also I’m so emotional that this is IT for Downey and Chris. Wow. Ok I’m done :’)
#so tony *really did* sacrifice himself this time huh?#wow#i miss nat as well man#her sacrifice was incredible#she really did that#i just-#are these emotions ever gonna stop?#i feel like thats a no#lmaooo#im dying inside now#am i gonna watch infinity war and endgame back to back in a couple days?#ABSOLUTELY#AHHHHHHHHH#AND IT’S GONNA FUCK ME UP EVEN MORE!!!!#and then im gonna watch it this weekend with my parents lol#so good#not all of it ngl#but most of it#not over tony/steve/scott time heist#and NEVER will be#ok i think i really am done#:’)#for now#expect a LOT of endgame posts#with a side of rambling#avengers endgame#tony stark#mcu#long post#wow didnt realise how fucking long it is
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Gift From Eli
Short Snippet from a Convin Roleplay. Summary of Roleplay An AU in which Elijah made Connor specifically for Gavin as an apology for being a horrible brother and that maybe, just maybe, it might mend broken relationships. An excuse Kamski used for the gift, is Gavin's promotion as a Detective.
Detective Fuck Boy: Me Slut Sent By Cyberlife: @detroit-becomeslut
Detective Fuck Boy Here's the thing with Gavin. People thinks he loves sleeping, often seen passed out in his desk at work. When actually, he just has bad sleeping schedule, undiagnosed insomnia, and fucking noisy neighbors that ranges from college students partying to divouring adults that found themselves nearly having a screaming contest each night.
And tonight, after he manages a thirty minute sleep, it was a surprise that greeted him. There weren't awful dub music or shattering glasses that could be heard, what greeted Gavin were the lewd noises of two people moaning and groaning and a shitload amount of dirty talk and the words, he shudders, daddy.
He didn't hesitate to retreat out of his room, and thank fucking god, he was safe now in the living room.
Or so he thought as he was reminded of his Android sleeping peacefully on his couch. There wasn't any amount of guilt in his system as shakes Connor awake. He had work, and Connor can always sleep while he's gone.
"Hey, buddy, wake up. Just- look ya don't even have to leave. Just scoot over a little and let me pass out."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor looked startled and drowsy as he was awoken from stasis, LED turning yellow before he shifted over. Even though he was taller than him, he was quite petite.
He didn’t have as much muscle definition as some other Androids, but he was definitely toned. Connor yawned as he buried the side of his face into the pillows.
Even though he wasn’t human, he moved much like one did when they were tired, waiting for Gavin to join him as his LED turned blue.
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin dropped down beside Connor, not really caring he's practically sleeping beside an Android but if it means he'll get more rest then fuck it, he'll take it.
He did, however, noticed it's odd how they just... fit together perfectly in his little couch. Okay maybe his couch is actually bigger than normal, it's how he bought it, since Gavin knows he'll spend a lot of nights sleeping in it, but still.... it was weird. When he had exes and they sleep here, it never happens, it fails. Just not comfortable yet here he is, actually falling asleep despite the body beside him.
And a third party enters as Lucky settle in between their legs.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor gave a sleepy giggle as Lucky giggled. He was soon back into stasis, sleeping soundly next to Gavin. His chest moved up and down, a soft breath leaving his nose.
He even breathed like a human even though he didn’t really need the oxygen. Yet another small feature that Kamski added.
Detective FUCK BOY Connor's breathing was settling into a rhythm that slowly lull Gavin to sleep.
He ended up having a dream that didn't involved the smell of blood or a knife going through his neck, instead he had a dream of blue fireflies and a pair of brown eyes, staring rather lovingly at him.
When Gavin stirred awake, blinking his eyes open, he was met with inches away from a person's face.
He screamed, and shoved, and fell. Head hitting the coffee table as his legs got left hanging to the couch.
"Fuck!" he tightly shuts his eyes, rubbing the soreness and fucking hell, that hurt.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor was startled awake when he was shoved, wincing a little as he got up.
“Detective-“ Connor immediately helped him up and raced to get him pain killers and an ice pack.
Detective FUCK BOY "Hey, no, I'm fine- fuck it." He drops to the couch, sighing. Leaning on his elbows and covering his face with his hands.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor came back, a worried expression on his face. He crouched neck to him, resting a hand on his knee.
“Detective? I apologize for scaring you-“
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin sighed then leaned on the couch, arms crossing, "Sit down on the couch, let's talk for a minute."
He can't believe he's doing this. He fucking can't believe he's doing this.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor did as he was told, setting the painkillers and ice pack down.
“Yes, Detective Reed..?” He even sounded nervous as those brown eyes stared up at him.
Detective FUCK BOY Why did Eli had to place him in a situation like this?
"You're right about the fact we should just make this experience a little less shitty, 'cause like it or not. We're stuck together, so hell, let's do it."
He faces Connor, feeling a little like Tyler Durden announcing the rules of Fight Club.
"First of all, don't call me Detective. Gavin's fine. You're inside my fucking apartment not in the precinct. And you're just begging to be bullied. Not exactly a good cop, keep that in mind if you wanna be less hostile with each other.
Second of all," he had to briefly close his eyes, not really wanting to voice it out but... he looks at Connor, "Don't. Just don't. I'm not gonna hurt you... you look fucking pathetic always cowering away and apologizing to me, when- you get it, alright. Just don't.
And third of all, stop babysitting me. I hate it. I really fucking hate it. You don't have to worry or shit or be a maid. Pretend that you're my roommate. Surf the internet, use my Netflix subscription, read my books, I don't care.
Got it?"
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor seemed to lag, like he was buffering and struggling to comprehend what the other said.
“A..Alright Gavin...” The word was foreign and soft on his tongue, like an infant trying to say its first word.
“Though I don’t know what to do with myself. As an Android, I am built to take tasks and do as I am told, not to be free willed. It’s strange to be told to deviate from my specific purpose.”
His eyes flickered up to look at Gavin.
“I know you do not want to be taken care of, but if I am going to be considered like your roommate, may I at least help lessen any stress here? I can at least do minor things like do groceries and cook meals in return for you even keeping me here.”
Detective FUCK BOY "Yeah, sure. If it makes you happy."
Gavin nodded and was about to stand up, when he remembered something, "Oh yeah one last thing. You have any preference in clothing?"
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “I do not have any preference as I am expected to wear my uniform to identify that I am indeed an Android.”
Detective FUCK BOY "Cool..." he said it boredly and just stood up.
It was times like this that Gavin wished he had a best friend to talk to, just to rant about the stupid Android in his house or help him decide what kind of clothing he'd go buy for Connor.
Instead, he was left on his own to deal with this Android and shit fucking shit. He's slowly beginning to realize more why Eli have given him Connor.
When Gavin came back that evening, he dropped the gray hoodie and black sweatpants on the couch, and had to mentally slap himself as he looks at Connor.
"What are you doing?"
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor had been in the middle of playfully pinning Lucky. She was lying on her back with Connor pinning her front legs down while she stretched.
“We were playing.” He said it like it was obvious before letting Lucky go and watching her run off with a soft purr as she returned to her food. Connor got up and dust himself off.
“What are the clothes for, Gavin?”
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin is horrified. Eli had given him a new pet, a dog. It made sense, it's why Lucky likes him.
"It's for you."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “Oh.” He picked the clothes up before examining them. Suddenly, a smile broke out on his face.
“Thank you, Gavin. I rather like these. Would you mind if I change into these now?”
Detective FUCK BOY "What do you think was the purpose of me giving you that shit early?"
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “I see. My apologies.” The faintest of blue could be seen on his cheeks as he entered the bathroom quietly. After a few minutes, he came out in the new clothes, uniform folded neatly in his arms. The clothes were a bit baggy on him, but he didn’t seem to mind.
“Do they.. look alright?”
Detective FUCK BOY "Fucking better." And Gavin broke into a grin, his hand open, asking for Connor's uniform.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor took a moment before realizing what he wanted. He handed him the outfit, a confused expression on his face.
Detective FUCK BOY "You're not attach to this, right?" Gavin said as he starts walking to his window, taking the LED band from the uniform.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “Not entirely, but I still need identification that I am an Android, Gavin-“
Detective FUCK BOY "And goodbye motherfucker!" He says, happily throwing the uniform out the window.
He stands beside Connor, smiling at the flying uniform in the sky, then he looks at the Android, "What?"
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor’s mouth was agape, and his mouth opened and closed as he tried to figure some sort of response.
“G-Gavin— I needed that-“
Detective FUCK BOY "Not anymore."
Gavin tosses the LED band go Connor, smirking, "That's enough identification. Trust me. You don't need that ugly white uniform. Gray suits you well more."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “I..”
Software Instability ^
“..Alright..” He didn’t sound totally convinced as he slid his arm band on. Suddenly, there was an action that no android had done before. A nervous tick of lip biting.
Connor brought his plush, lower lip between his teeth absentmindedly and chewed on it as he tried to fully process what happened.
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin would be lying if he isn't finding this ordeal fun. "So what's for dinner?"
Gavin was staring at the ceiling, feeling the tiredness of his eyes intensifies as the seconds grew, and even though he had brought up music to try and silent the noises from next door, my fucking god was this bitch having a good time did her moans grew louder and louder and, Gavin's a little sad he can't hear Alex Turner's voice anymore.
He decided to grab the comforter this time as he heads into the living room. "Hey."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor was curled up on the catch, cuddling with Lucky. He looked up and tilted his head curiously.
“Hello. What are you doing up so late, Gavin?” He had thought the other had went to bed hours ago, reading his internal clock to see it was 1 AM.
Connor had played something quiet to break the silence, a random movie that he wasn’t really interested in playing in the background.
Detective FUCK BOY "Do you mind scooting over? My neighbors are trying to make a new kid next door, and I need to sleep."
He glances Luck a look of betrayal. So that's why she's not in his room, when normally she cuddles with Gavin. Wow.
Slut Sent By Cyberlife It took Connor a moment to understand what he meant before giving him a quick nod.
“Of course-“ He moved over, Lucky jumping away to curl up on the arm of the couch and watch the two.
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin settled down on the space, wrapping the blanket around him. He turns around, not facing Connor and just starts closing his eyes.
But then he found himself, twisting and turning every few seconds and shit, he's gonna be awake for the next thirty minutes, isn't he?
He exhales, looking back at the ceiling. He needed to waste energy and distract himself, just allow sleep to take over instead of forcing it but the thing is, he forgotten his phone in the bedroom, and he was too lazy to retrieve it.
He probably would never do this fully awake, but right now? His sleep-derived thoughts aren't working anymore, and next thing he knows, he started talking.
"Honestly I don't know who's she's having sex with anymore."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife Connor was surprised Gavin was talking with him, and Connor gave a shrug.
“From what little I know, I assume it must be the young man I’ve seen enter her apartment.”
Detective FUCK BOY "Derek must have been gone for the week then. Could only explain why Annabell's doing the nasty. Derek and Annabell are siblings. Derek's been living in that apartment nearly as long as i've been here. Annabell? About four years ago, after she graduated college.
Don't know much about them but they're nice. Kind of weird, especially Annabell. She's the type that looks prim and conserve but trust me, she likes bad boys." He smirks, looking at Connor, "She actually asked me out once when I was on my motorcycle."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “Ah.” He then furrowed his brows at the comment about her asking him out. A strange feeling blossomed in his chest at that comment.
Software Instability ^
“It’s illogical to assume you are a “bad boy” just because you ride a motorcycle. A fallacy in reality, honestly. You seem like a rather good man to me.”
Detective FUCK BOY "Seem.. like a rather... yeah, giving a lot of confidence that i'm a good guy here, tin can."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “I apologize, but I’ve only known you for a few days. Though, from how well you treat your cat, I can already tell that you are kind.”
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin gazes up above him, on the sleeping Maine Coon, "Fucking traitor."
He then snorts, as he turns to the side, pulling the blanket near him, "Yeah, well, try not to judge people base on their actions to others. I might be nice to my cat, does't mean i'm nice others. Luck's my cat, it would make sense why I should treat her right."
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “But, humans react to animals, much like they would children. I can tell you probably sympathize with children, especially if they’re victims. And you may not like others, but it doesn’t make you horrible.
After all, you don’t really like me, but unlike other humans who don’t like Androids, you’ve never attempted to truly hurt me or intimidate me much.”
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin looked over his shoulder at Connor. How the fuck did this piece of shit managed to look through his layers with just spending two days with him?
When Eli had spend years with him and yet, couldn't even go pass the first layer.
"Don't read too much into it. You'll end up overheating." he looks back ahead,
Slut Sent By Cyberlife “Perhaps I wouldn’t mind overheating if it lets me learn more about you. After all, you’re one of the few fascinating people I’ve met. Everyone else I’ve seen, encountered, they all hold an underlying motive, a front they hide behind.”
He gently brushed fingers with Gavin, though it was unclear if it was an accident or on purpose.
“You’re one of the few who don’t feel the need to hide them self.”
Detective FUCK BOY Gavin didn't dare to look behind him, just kept curling on his blanket, and just muttered a quiet, "Night, Tin Can."
That night, Gavin dreamt of sitting on his motorcycle while a pair of arms were hugging his waist. He couldn't see the person behind him, their brown hair the only thing poking out as their bury their face on Gavin's shoulder, but what struck to him most, where the fabric on his arms.
They were wearing a gray hoodie.
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Insomnia // Hwang Hyunjin [bulleted scenario!]
Summary: In which you and Hyunjin are both too oblivious to realize your true feelings... until it’s too late?
Genre: angsty, floooof, gender neutral
Word Count: 2175
Warnings: Just some cursing
A/N: This is my first time writing a bulleted scenario and i quite enjoyed it :) idk it’s fun to not care about settings too much and punctuation and stuff. I also liked adding my own little dumb remarks here are there :PP it was fuN! This was another scenario that kinda arose while i was napping i hope you guys enjoy it! <3 i love stray kids
i’m also gonna try to make all my scenarios gender neutral from now on (unless specifically requested) b/c we are all about inclusivity here !! :)
This was originally gonna be like a real fic
But the writers block was REAL like i really tried to set the scene and everything
But it didn’t turn out right
And i really wanted to get this one out so HERE WE ARE TRYING THE BULLETED SCENARIO OKAY YAY LETS BEGIN!
Trainee au!! Kinda :D
Like skz didnt go through the survival show yet
Ok so SEtting thE SCeNe~~~~
You just walked into the jyp building bc jyp hired you as a new producer
Like to study under him and potentially help w producing in the future
Like jyp 2.0 ya know
Jyp meets w you himself bc you’re like a prodigy
And a foreigner so he thought you’d be more comfortable w him speaking toyou in english :D
So he explained what you gotta do during your training period
Like studying more about composition and production
Learning korean to more easily communicate w idols and what not
And also honing your own style and figuring out who you are as an artist
So he pairs you up w the trainees bc it be good practice
More specifically skz bc they seem to have a more flexible style
Also like he thought it would be good for you to work w chan and the rest of 3racha
Like bc yall around the same age
And it helps you become more comfy
And familiar w the company and the producing rooms and recording studios and what no
Like
Yer
And then like
Through working w them to produce a song for the trainee showcase
Yall get mad close
And like
You have your eyes on hyunjin from the start
Like bc who couldn’t
Like
Gorgeous boy
At first you were just like “this is admiration”
“He very handsome i just admire his features”
Yeah
And maybe it was..
At first
Now it's a full blown crush
Like
For real
That boy is so hard working
Like you constantly see him asking for help
So he can improve
And like
People always said he was a visual only
Which made you feel bad that you saw that at first
But you realized later
That like
You actually like him bc of his personality
What a hard worker
For real
Angel
Anyways
Little did you know that your crush was NOT one sided
Hyunjin admired your hard work in producing
And how you always took criticism well and only worked to improve your work
Also
He thought you were hella cute
So yall were both kinda obvious
Him more than you
Like by a loT
So skz knew for a fact that hyunjin was head over heels in love w you so they pushed him to confess to you
Yeah he was like no
But after PEEr pRessUre
He finally agreed
They was gonna plan something like a party for you
To celebrate the time you’ve been w the company
But the showcase came before the celebration and suddenly they were on a survival show to see who would debut
So the party was postponed OOOODDDDD
But you didnt even know it was gonna happen so you didnt mind anyways
Soon enough it got closer to your birthday, and skz just decided to make it a birthday celebration instead
Hyunjin was more iffy about confessing bc what if you dont feel the same and he ruins your bday oh no
But at this point, skz was sure you liked him back so they were like dont worry about that they aren’t like that your relationship will be fine
So the party happens ladida
You were super surprised and sosososososo happy
Bc like
Your hart
These boys were precious and totally made your day
Tbh bc of your work
You almost forgot it was your birthday
After the crazy loud party, you wanted to like take some quiet time for yourself so you excused yourself
And then walked to the hallway and sat by the window and looked out at the city and the night sky
Beautiful
And suddenly you heard footsteps
It was this boy named jason who you were friends with
He was from the same town you were from so you got close p quickly when you first got to jyp
And jason had a not-so-secret crush on you
That ofc you were oblivious to
But he came over there to spend time w you and wish you happy bday
Little did you know
Hyunijn was mentally preparing himself to confess to you down the hall and around the corner w a pretty bouquet of flowers what a sweet boy
And when he finally works up the courage, he turns the corner and sees jason giving you a bday hug
And he cant help but feel his hart drop
Yall look good together and like you were from the same town so similarities
So he was heartbroken needless to say
He quickly turned around and walked away
But you heard the footsteps and saw just a glance of his outfit retreating
You excused yourself from jason’s company and ran after him bc you are so in love w this boy
You were gonna hug him and thank him, but when you approached he took a step back
Like ow
That hurt
He quickly stammered that he had to go home bc he was tired and left
He was hiding the flowers behind his back :’(
And then tossed them as soon as he left the building
He went for a long ass walk to clear his mind and soothe his aching heart
You were so worried
Was he okay?
You went home soon after bc you couldnt help but worry and that made you super tired
But you couldn't sleep
InsOMniA
Goddamn it hyunjin
You messaged him
“you’re prob sleeping but i hope you feel better”
Dry ass reply: “thx”
Like wow
Rude
But you let it go
jic he was actually really exhausted
You knew he took criticism from the show too so maybe it was that
Hopefully he’d talk to you about it bc he usually did
But he didn't
He avoided you
Your heart really couldnt take it
Meanwhile you and jason got closer bc you didnt have hyunjin to hang out w anymore
Despite your many efforts
And this just further fuels his belief that yall are together
So to ignore the tinge in his heart every time he saw you, he buried himself in practice
Didn't sleep
Didnt drink enough water
Didnt eat enough
He was getting dangerously skinny and unhealthy
And it affected his attitude
Not only to you but to his members
One day you were asked to come in and monitor a recording session
And he was happy and giggly in front of the camera
But as soon as it turned off u could see the fatigue
And you told him that he should take better care of himself
And he SNAPPEd at you
You actually flinched bc he was so aggressive
Your heart SHATTEREd
And you, also sleep deprived as FUCk
Slapped him
Not super hard, but like a “what the fuck is wrong with you”
And you walked right out, not even bothering to hide your tears
And he was sad but he thought that you hating him would help him get over you
What a dumb boy
You completely avoided him after that
You also still had restless nights
God that convo kept playing over and over in your head
YOU COULDNT SLEEP
But one day you got a call from chan
He needed your help
Hyunjin was seriously overworking himself and he was afraid hyunjin was gonna collapse
Luckily you were still at the company working on smth bc ofc you couldn't sleep anyways so might as well make use of your time
So you finally agree bc even if you’re still angry at him, you are srsly worried about this boy
And when you get to the dance room your heart breaks all over again
Hes so pale
And sickly looking
And hes shaking but hes still dancing
You knock and hear a gruff “its open”
The music pauses for a moment but when he sees its you he scoffs and turns it back on
“what do you want”
“Uhm.. are you okay?”
“Why? You wanna slap me again to make me feel better?”
Ofc you rolled your eyes bc wtf hyunjin you were being nice
“I dont even know why i bothered”
You go over to the stereo and turn it off yourself
And he turns to you angry
ARGUMENT TIME
Him: “WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?”
“MY PROBLEM?!!!?!?? YOU’RE THE ONE WHO PUSHED ME AWAY FOR NO DAMN REASON!! AND EVEN AFTER ALL THAT, I STILL TRIED TO BE NICE AND ASK IF YOU WERE OKAY. I WAITED FOR YOU TO OPEN UP TO ME. TO TALK TO ME ABOUT WHATEVER WAS BOTHERING YOU!”
At this point, you’re practically sobbing like udk if he can understand you but who cares
All this frustration that was pent up inside felt good being released
Bc at this point, you had nothing more to lose
Hyunjin already hated you so like why not just speak your mind amirite
Anyways continuing w the dialogue:
“HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT MY PROBLEM WHEN MY PROBLEM IS YOU!”
Cue awkward pause/break thing (AWKwARD SiLEncE)
“What are you talking about hyunjin?”
He sighed defeatedly
It was now or never. He felt like his relationship w you was ruined already anyways
So he, like you, also had a ‘what do i have to lose’ mentality
“I was going to confess to you y/n. That night at your birthday party. But i was too late. I saw you with jason and you looked so happy and perfect together. So i left. I cut my ties with you because i didn’t want my own feelings to get in the way of your happiness.”
You were completely utterly speechless
Like there were an overwhelming number of feelings enveloping you atm
Bc on the one hand:
The love of your life just confessed to you
But on the other
Like
What a dumbass
You end up laughing and scoffing at his words bc
Hes so dumb
You dont like jason
God you’ve been in love w hyunjin for so goddamn long
And now you’re debating over how to respond
But like your anger and frustration kinda takes precedence bc youre also sleep deprived and you go
“ so, you broke your own heart and then you broke mine because you didn’t want to talk to me about it you dumbass ????”
And he gives you that classic confused puppy-dog look
W the head tilt and everything
And you go
“Hwang hyunjin, i’m fucking in love with you”
And he just stares blankly at you and blinks like 8 times trying to comprehend what just came out of your mouth
And his lips form an ‘o’ shape
And then hes coming closer and wrapping his arms around you
And you dont even mind that hes still sweaty and kinda smelly
Bc hes finally in your arms
But holding him so close also makes you super aware of just how skinny he’s gotten
Like it was worse than you thought
So you pull back and you open your mouth to chastise him
But before you can even start he’s cupping your cheeks can pulling your face to his
Your lips collide and then they're molding into one another
And your mind kinda blanks out
But your automatic reaction seems to be letting your fingers run through his hair and pulling him closer towards you
And when yall finally come up for breath
He tries to go in for another one like immediately after
Like slow your roll boy you guys can kiss all you want later
If you said that out loud, he wouldve responded w something like “we gotta make up for lost time”
But you put your hands on his chest and hold him back
And he pouts
(you almost squeal at how cute he looks)
“Ok, now that we’re dating, i am literally commanding you to take better care of yourself because this,” you eye him up and down, “is unacceptable”
And he quirks an eyebrow up and is like
Oh? I don’t recall asking you out? On a date?”
And you get all blushing and become a blubbering mess and hide your face in his chest like
“Shut up hyunjin”
But he’s just giggling at your embarrassed face :D
Then, him being the dramatic hoe that he is, he gets down on one knee in front of you and says
“y/n, y/l/n, will you go out on a date with me?”
And ofc u say yes
And after that whole dramatic scene, you pull him out of the practice room, fingers intertwined, ready to stuff him with food
And he goes
“I dont think i said it back.”
“Said what back?”
“That i love you”
UWU
And the rest is history
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Welp... here we go...
If you dont want spoilers then I recommend you skip this entire post because I do not respect this film at all to not talk about the shit that happens in this film.
⚠️AFTER THIS LINE ITS ALL SPOILERS⚠️
This films wants to be an emotional gut punch but it is so... I your face about it. Emotional beats are either predictable or just... they don't hit. And the ultimate sacrifice from Bhgs at the end while sad just doesn't hit anything. And the plot of "Oh the main villain manipulates the kid to go against his dad and the villain ultimately joins the rival team" is really predictable. And I know that in the end this is a film targeted to kids and thats fine. But this film felt like it was trying to be too hip and too aware (the entire joke about LeBron acting hip and the 'don't dab' comment is just not funny)
The jokes
The jokes in this film do not land for me, albeit 2 (the joke about Sylvestar grabbing Michael B Jordan instead of the actual Michael Jordan was ok and the fact Wiley Coyote was in Mad Max was really cool) ; most the jokes either fell flat or completely missed the mark (this film tried to be hip and modern with its humor and honestly it was more cringe than anything else.
Also idk if this was intentional or not, but can we stop making jokes about how companies are stealing our info and spying on us? We get it Zuckerberg is trash Facebook and other big companies are taking our personal info but seriously it does get old. Mitchell's vs the Machines was at least clever because it was about a big tech company abusing it's power. Space Jam: A New Legacy is about an A.I trying to make himself feel better cause he doesn't feel appreciated and is projecting his issues on a kid he cyberstalked for a whopping 3 minutes.
The Plot
The films Plot is predictable, short, and a around not engaging. The idea of bringing another pro basketball player to aid the Tunes in another wild game for their survival isn't the problem, it's the rest of the Plot that's the problem.
The first film had a simple enough Plot that worked really well (The Tunes have to win a basketball game against roided up aliens or they'll become Amusement Park attractions, and they need a bow retired player to hp them win) Its short and sweet and it works.
This film felt the need to overcomicate it by forcing a dramatic subplot into the fold which, can work. You can have a dramatic subplot while still being a Zany and fun film. But SJ:NL can't seem to decide which to focus on; it goes from zany and over the top one moment moment then gives you tonal whiplash when it jumps to the dramatic bits in the plot.
I genuinely think that this film would've benefited from focusing on the zaniness over the drama, since frankly that's always been the focus of the Looney Tunes
Loony Tunes: Back in Action and Space Jam 1 are two tonaly similar films but both have better comedy and each have their respective dramatic beats, though their both saved for the climax of the film.
LT:BIA and SJ1 both have they're own dramatic subplots (M.J makes the deal with Smackhammer to raise the stakes of the game and J.D has to save his father from the Chairman and his plans. The difference here is that these films, while adding a level of drama, don't let the drama overshadow what tnis film is actually about (the Looney Tunes)
SJ:NL let's the drama completely overshadow the actual Tunes and isn't really engaging (to me anyway)
Also I'd like to say that, while giving this film a video game feel was an interesting concept it just reminded me more of Pixels or The Emoni Movie (though this wasn't NEARLY as bad as the Emoji movie I'll say that)
That's something else about this film. It feels like one big advertisement for everything WB owns (much like how Emoji Movie was one big Smartphone ad) and while that isn't inherently a bad thing it can be a hinderence to the film as well (I wanted to watch the films that cameod in this film more than the actual film itself)
The Characters
Look this is the Tom and Jerry film again, we don't go to this film for LeBron and his fictional family (if some people do then that's fine) but most of us go to see the film for the Tunes and the cartoon asthetic, and there's plenty of that here. But I'd like to actually care about the human characters in this film frankly.
Let's just get this out of the way, LeBron is not a great actor. He tries his best yes but he is not a great actor in this film; he reminds me more of Vin Deisel when he acts (he has a voice yes but he doesn't act physically. It's like he's trying to have his voice match the film but his body isn't in tune with it.
Now I don't wanna hate on kid actors, they do what they can and they're kids. But listen this kid was not interesting at all, and id have rathered the film not include him (or very least make him more interesting other than the "Gosh Dad stop pushing your ways and beliefs onto me" archetype.
The Tunes are fine I have no beef with how they treated the Tunes (all for ONE detail)
The way thsi film treats the Tunes in this film bothers me on so many levels. "Send him to the Rejects" "Losers" The fact that they treat the Looney Tunes like they're some forgotten property is really unsettling to me. The Tunes have never been forgotten the notion that they ARE forgotten bothers me so much, regardless if it's a plot point for the film. The Looney Tunes are some of the most recognizable faces in ask of media, and I get this is supposed to be a "New School vs Old School" message like with the Father vs Son but my God I do not like how this protrays the Tunes.
Speaking of the rejects, let's talk about AL G Rythm.
My God this is the most uninteresting villain and his whole plan is so easy to spot from the start of the film. "Oh look at me, I have a bruised ego cause I feel unappreciated in my time and im gonna project my issues on this kid I cyberstalked while praying KING JAMES would bless me with his support." Holy shit my guy you have a bigger ego than Tony Stark and its more bruised than Bruce Wayne's back after Bane was finished. He is one of the most bland villains I've seen in awhile, and the Goon Squad is no better. The Goon Squad is nothing but cool designs and a refderence to more popular Basketball players (and yeah they're supposed to be cronies but at least make them cronies with personality; the Nerdlucks were funny, had personality, and were an integral part of the story (also the fact that they ACTUALLY HAD THE NERDLUCKS CAMEO in in film but they were rooting against the Tunes just... Ehhhhhhhhhh) And the Goon Squad was boring and didn't add anything say for AL G. stealing the kids algorithm to make his own team.
Also sidenote, them constantly calling him "King James" got really annoying really fast. Like we get you gave yourself that nickname, you're the current too NBA player rn and all that but you don't have to keep saying it my God.
Now what did I actually like about this film. Well quite a bit actually.
For starters, the animation was top notch and everything looked great. I thought the 2D models were a little odd at first (too shiny compared to the faded sleek of the original) but they grew on me. All the CGI models of the Tunes looked really great, say for Sam who just looked really weird to me (probably cause he loses his hat by the end and a CGI Yosemeti Sam without a hat just looks strange)
The Tunes also felt exactly how they should in a Space Jam film, Bugs especially. Yes Daffy was his usual comedic self and I like how they had him try and be the manager of the team instead of a player, and every other Tune was just as zany as usual; honestly of all the Tunes I'm genuinely impressed with how they treated Bugs (till the end)
Bugs was the most interesting to see in the film, wherein every character left Tune World except Bugs and he kinda became this Castaway parody (with his own makeshift Porky Pig dummy) and he was just really lonely and stayed true to the Looney Way and he just wants his family back. That entire subplot is the most interesting part of this film hands down; the only thing about Bugs's arc I didn't like was the end which was predictable, but i was still more invested in Bugs's arc than anyone else's.
Also when they showed the Tunes on the other WB worlds in the Warnerverse that's not the name ik but it's basically the Warnerverse the only Movie refferences that i thought were clever were Mad Max, Austin Powers, and Themyscira. And as much as it pains me to admit it the Rick and Morty Gag with Taz was probably the funniest of them, and I don't even like Rick and Morty anymore.
The Matrix was just eh, Yosemite Sam just didn't land, Game of Thrones was just not funny and I won't apologize. As far as the cameos/refferences in the end I'll say it again, I wanted to watch the movies and shows that cameod more than the film itself. I'm not gonna try to list them off but some highlights were seeing Gremlins, the Mask, every Tim Burton Batman villain/Adam West Batman, Thundercats, and Scooby Doo. Aside from that this was all just one big add for Warner Bros.
So I'm gonna try end this on a note that I know alot of people are gonna bring up or use to say shouldn't be brought up: Nostalgia.
Listen. This film has the same issue that alot of modern film reboots tend to have, which is the fact that it has to match the same hype as the film that came before it.
Now I'd like to say that this isn't gonna be a Power Point on reboots, God knows this is long enough as is, but the issue with alot of reboots is that they try to remake something that more often than not did the media justice the first time around. Robocop, Nightmare on Elm Street, Ghostbusters 2016, litterally every Disney L.A Remake. This isn't to say these films can't be good, or even surpass their predecessors. But more often than not they tend to miss the mark either just barely or drastically.
And here's the thing, this argument can also apply to sequel films that are following up an iconic film that for fhe most part is still very prominent in modern media.
Space Jam has, for better or for worse, remained one of the most iconic films every made, if not for its premise alone. And when they announced a sequel it was only inevitable that people compare it to the original because, let's face it, we want the new film to live up to the original.
We want this new shiny film to live up to the film we all knew growing up as kids and adults, seeing the Tunes on a basketball court for the first time back in the 90s. And frankly, this film did not do that for me.
This film, to me, wants to be what Space Jam already is. But it felt the need to try and thats the first step it failed; it wanted to be hip and aware and make loads of refferences to the original
This film has a similar issue to Ghostbusters:Answer the Call I think, where in it wants to stand on its own two feet, but jt cant help but constantly remind us of a much superior film. We know they've done this before you don't have to keep saying it "We need help with a basketball game Lola!" Been there! Done that!" "So you want me to help you win a high stakes basketball game? One that could very well decide both our fates? Hmmmmm where have I seen that before?"
This film is like that one kid in class who already proved he was right, and is still trying to prove he was right.
If you think this film is great and you enjoy it just as much as the original that's perfectly fine, I'm not gonna try to overshadow your opinions, I just want to share mine.
In the end, I'm gonna rate this film a solid 4/10 (and most of that 4 is the comedy and the animation and the Tunes themselves.) Can you watch this just for the Tunes? Absolutely. Can you like this film more than me? Also absolutely. Do I think this film would've been worth it if I'd have seen it in theaters? No not at all I'm glad I waited for HBO Max.
#again#this is all my own hot take#you can have your opinions#and ill have my opinions#space jam#space jam 2#space jam new legacy#space jam 2021#lebron james#bugs bunny#warner bros#dc comics#the looney tunes show#looney tunes#looney toons#movie review#movie rant
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skaterboy!AU yoon sanha
category: flOOOOOF note: dedicated to kaka~( @sanhasmoonbuns ) and completely inspired by this super cute photo so i couldn't resist writing this
at every school there's that "skater" squad that's considered really cool & considered popular
they would skate to school together, skate down the street to the mall, skate in the neighborhood, basically they just SKATE A LOT
and everybody at your school ADORESS THEM
"omg the skaters passed by my house this morning and one of the boys WINKED AT ME AIHFOAFIA"
"wow skaters r so hot"
"have you seen the skaters today ?1!1!! they ditched school omg"
"i'm taking skating lessons now"
but then you're just awkwardly there because you really DON'T care
i mean yeah skateboards are cool but in your opinion the skaters are just edgy teenagers who are rebellious and you don't really find any appeal in that
so one day you have to walk home and you do this thing where you always go another direction from the skaters so you can avoid them
but it's not like it's bc you hate them or anything
you just don't wanna be in the way when they SKRT SKRRTTTTT past you
so there you are walking home with your earplugs in when suddenly you hear that SKRT SKRTTTT
AND YOU'RE SHOOK BECAUSE NOW WAIT A MINUTE A SKATEBOARD'S GONNA RUN OVER ME GOSHDARNIT
and before you can move out of the way bOOM a person crashes into you from behind
and you stumble forward and scrape your knee and it's stinging really badly too
and then you hear a squeaky voice that sounds really worried and he's saying "ARE YOU OKAY" while rushing forward to examine your leg
and at first you're like "yeah i'm good" but then suddenly you get anGRY AND YOU'RE LIKE:
"WHY TF DID YOU RUN OVER ME COULDN'T YOU HAVE LIKE WARNED ME AT LEAST OR TRIED TO GET OUT OF MY WAY THIS SIDEWALK ISNT THAT NARROW"
and the boy which you now take time to look at eyes just widen a little
his hair is brunette and he has messy bangs that fall a little bit over his eyes
he's wearing this red snapback, earbuds are dangling from his pockets, and he's wearing a lot of wristbands
and then you realize huh this boy is actually really cutee!! wait no hes not lol-what am i saying
and he's lowkey scared but then he turns anGRY too and he's like
"WELL MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T BE WALKING SMACK IN THE MIDDLE SO I WOULDNT HAVE CRASHED INTO YOU"
"SO THIS IS MY FAULT?"
"I MEAN, YEAH"
"WHAT, HOW IS IT-"
then you two start bickering over whose fault it was for a solid two minutes before you look down at your phone and realize that you should've been home by now
so you're like oH SHIT we'll continue this argument another day then you usain bolt down the road
the next day, you're at lunch with your friends and you're eating your lunch and socializing
when suddenly a band-aid falls in front of you and when you look up it's tHE SAME BOY FRMO YESTERDAY
and YOUR FRIENDS JUST KINDA LOOK AT HIM THEN LOOK AT YOU THEN LOOK AT HIM
AND THEYRE IN SHOCK BC WHATS A SKATER BOI DOING HERE
you notice that he's wearing a different outfit this time: backwards snapback and a green hoodie (still with those tangled earbuds though)
and his skateboard is still hanging loosely in his arms
so you give him the stinkeye and you're like "why are you here"
and i guess he wasn't expecting that response because he chokes on his words before coming up with "i got you a band-aid since you scraped your knee"
and you just scoff at him and show him your already bandaged knee
and he's like :O and he reaches his hand to take it back but you're like "no it's okay i'll just save it for the next time you crash into me"
the boy is obviously shocked but then he just laughs and says, "can't wait"
then he leaves not before winking at you and then you turn back to your table and your friends are ლ(ಠ益ಠლ) why didn't you tell us about this
so school ends and you're walking home alone AGAIN unfortunately
but this time sanha is lingering at the school gates while tossing his skateboard in his hand from boredom
then he looks up and sees you and he's like "oh (Y/N) wait up!" and he runs over to you
and you're just like ??¿?¿¿ how do you know my name
regardless, you allow him to walk with you anyways because it's lonely walking alone
and that's how you learn his name which is sanha
you and sanha chat about random shenanigans and argue over small things
"it's better hearing the bad news before the good news because when you hear the good news it'll lift your spirits and make you forget about the bad news and compensate for it"
"but that's false hope and expectation. it's better to hear the good news and THEN hear the bad news so you don't delude yourself into happiness"
and so this becomes a habit now; he would wait for you at the school gates and you two would walk together to your house. he'd watch you go in and skate away.
it becomes such a casual routine now and you actually quite enjoy it
one day you ask sanha why he doesn't hangout with his skater friends after school anymore
and he just casually says "eh they're no fun compared to you."
and your heart flutters a little bit at his words even though he probably didn't really mean it romantically
as time progresses you find your heartbeat accelerating each time you see him and you would become unusually shy around him
but you being a stubborn cookie, you would never admit to having a crush on sanha although all of your friends know it too well
all of your friends think you guys are dating because you're always seen wearing his snapbacks and hoodies and sharing earbuds in the hallways
plus you two would often hangout during lunch together and sneak off into the back of the school and just listen to music together
and all these little actions he does such as pushing a strand of hair behind your ear or teaching you how to ride a skateboard makes your heart go sssKKKKRRRAAAA
then on one fateful day as you two are sitting together during lunch sanha suddenly offers to visit the skate park together
and you're like sure! and then he says "ok let's go now" and you're like ب_ب wdym
"let's go to the skate park right now!" he says really cheerfully which is different from his usual chill and calm mood
but YOU'RE LIKE AIWHOADIFH DITCHING SCHOOL ?????
and at first you hit him playfully and scold him for even thinking about skipping school especially since his grades have been doing so well lately
and sanha feels down that you rejected him but then you look at his sad state and you're finally like OK WHATEVER LETS GO YOU LITTLE BRAT
and immediately sanha is (。◕‿‿◕。) again
using his past rebellious experinces, sanha is able to get past the locked school gates with you and your adrenaline is ruuuuuushhing because oh god what if we get caught!!!1!!
but when sanha holds your hand you calm down and you know that he'll protect you <3
once you two make it outside the gates, you both run away as fast as you can before somebody sees and by the time you reach the skate park you're both out of breath bc wow exercise amirite?
and at the skate park you two have lots of fun together (^̮^)
he holds your hands as you try to balance on the skateboard and even tho you're wobbling sanha laughs and encourages you to keep on trying
and once you can finally "ride" the skateboard he's never been so hYPED BEFORE
"yay now we can ride together!!11!!1!"
"sanha i dont have a skateboard lol"
"oh"
so when christmas comes up and sanha is waiting at the school gates you notice a pretty big present box in his hands
and you're like oh?? what's that
and guess what? it's a skateboard he bought for you and it's in a custom design of this really cool black and white sketch
and you're like in LOVE with it because it's so new and nice and pretty and you can't help yourself from hugging sanha really tightly bc wow thanks i love it omg
and you two finally skateboard together (although you occasionally trip and fall down but its ok bc sanha is always somehow there to catch you)
but you didn't forget about sanha's christmas gift!!!
you TOO got sanha a BRAND NEW SKATEBOARD since you notice that the one he uses is rlly old and is about to snap in half
but you put more thought into it by customizing his initials in it and choosing a plain design since sanha isn't into overly decorated things
and when you reveal it to sanha he almost cries because he spent all his money on your gift so he couldn't get a new skateboard but you got it instead for him
and then the next day he shows you that he carved your name onto the skateboard and you blush so hard and at this point your heart is soARRRING FLYINGGG
so in return you put the band-aid he gave you at lunch a long time ago onto the skateboard and he’s like bursting into laughter at the memory and he’s like obsessed with it
and obviously you can't hold your feelings in because you truly love sanha as a friend and as a partner
so one night at the skate park it's completely vacant and the sun is setting with pink clouds looming in the air
and you and sanha are laying down besides eachother in those big bowls used to do cool skateboard tricks while staring at the sky
and like always, you two are sharing earbuds and are listening to chill lofi hiphop music
until suddenly you turn around to face his face as he gets lost in the view above you guys
and you can see his eyes glowing like he's in a dream and you realize the beauty of love and how beautiful sanha is
and then he looks at you and just smirks "what are you staring at?
"you." you bluntly reply
sanha just chuckles and stares back at you, forgetting about the sky
"are you just now realizing how sexy i am?" sanha teases playfully
you scoff but can't help to smile yourself
then out of the blue you lean forward and peck him on his cheek quickly
aND SANHA fREEZES because WHAT JUST HAPPENED!?!1??
then you confess "i love you" before you can regret it
so he wraps his arms around you and pulls you tighter to him until your face is nuzzled in his hoodie
"i love you too."
“my knee still hurts tho i wont forgive you for that”
“you really know how to ruin the mood”
#astro#astro scenarios#astro imagines#kpop#mj#jinjin#eunwoo#moonbin#rocky#sanha#sanha fluff#sanha fanfictions
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a confession i will never be able to make, cause i never was able to get closure, if you (and you would know who you are) are reading this throw me off a cliff pls thanks
(heyyyy, to those who know me personally from real life, i have one thing to say
fuck off.
this is shit i dont want you to see... if you read this ill fucking rip your throat out. im warning you now, if i even get the hint or the smallest suspicion that you read this you will never gain my trust again. your choice on the matter really)
(haha, this is not a joke i will kill you)
(if not, and you do not know all my friends and my address. feel free to read it and embarrass me, i probably would appreciate it lol) (i probably would need that actually since i cried multiply times writing this oop-)
warning: grammar errors, that’s it yup
below is a really long post, like long long if you manage to read through everything, have a cookie, cause honestly how?
(i did this instead of studying hooray)
(for such a heavy topic, i played the madoka magica gun song the entirety of writing this shit) (which now that i finished the post is so fucking funny to me lol)
hey, do you know me in real life? did you accidentally click the keep reading thing? okay.. turn back lol you aint suppose to be here silly! get ready for your ass to be kicked when i get out of quarantine :)
(you probably know how violent i was back in grade five to seven. dont make me bring that out again cause i will)
okay? right...
i wanna get hugs from you again,, you were quite warm and made something in my chest rise in speed,,, (i was always the one to initiate hugs in every encounter, i loved hugs, and at first you hated them...) (but then when you did hug first, i swear to god my heart burst) (hug me again, please)
i wanna hold hands again,, (god your hands are so soft, holy shit i couldnt stop holding them. not like clouds, or a pillow not that kind of soft. soft like humming my favourite song, or soft like your smile. that’s my favourite soft)
i wanna make you laugh with my shitty jokes,,, (my jokes are all shitty, but you laughed at some anyways, i cant seem to remember your laugh now... i want to fucking search for my brain for your laugh.. curse my shitty memory... but i do remember you smiling to them...)
i wanna make you sigh in a tired but amused way,,, (im an attention seeking bitch alright, i know that much...) (but that sigh,,, when you sighed at me because of my shitty antics... i missed that a lot... more than my cousins back home... more than my sister going away for years... i miss you really, that much is true) (is that selfish of me? yup. do i give a shit? nope)
im probably never gonna see you again, which is a fucking bummer (hahah, wow my chess is tight and i oop,,,) and im really shit at staying in touch with people (haha, shitty i know...) and honestly? fucking scared of how ill react if i see you again (i bursted into tears the last time,,, ill do it fucking again)
i never really told you, but you meant the world to me,,, and in those days where i have nothing to distract myself, or when im lulling myself to sleep... or when i remember that one picture saved by my friend at her phone...
i think about you, and i can never sleep again (you wearing that flower crown has actually cleared my skin, thank you-)
i remember for a project i had to describe something without telling what the thing was. the first thing i thought of was your eyes, and god do i like staring at them... (you always looked away when you caught me staring... from embarrassment i would guess, but how can i not stop when you always looked so stunning?) (everytime you denied that you were not pretty i would scream inwardly... how? self esteem issues yes, i get that, but holy shit i looked at you everyday.. you always got prettier)
your eyes are so so so so pretty, like a gray cloud in the middle of a brewing storm. but you were never really angry, not at me anyways... (no matter how many times i pissed you off you always found some way to like me again... i was good at being annoying, how-) (flustered you was the cutest thing i can think of) (i wonder, did i ever push to hard? if i did im sorry)
you were oh so sweet, like a fuji apple (never too sweet, i think you were the only time i thought of liking something that isnt completely made of sugar) but i can never describe you in one word, or with one item, you were just you... something so i loved very very much
i miss the color of your hair, sometimes i can’t help but think it’s the only shade of blonde ive found. i never found anyone with the same hair color as you, nobody else. like a single bright yellow tulip in a sea of dandelions.... but my god can you pull off any hair colour (howd you pull of green? witchcraft i dare say-)
shoes, you always wore one pair of shoes. vans (or was it converse?) black ones. i remember them cause you drew at the white parts. (whenever i saw anyone else who did the same thing i always thought of your shoes...) (that made me sad when i did remember, cause all it did was make me remember you) (i never saw drawing or painting on shoes the same after that, all those fuckin tik toks-)
i liked it when you drew (ha liked? the fuck i loved it) i remember the first time i saw art from you. an aurora with stars that shined against black wallpaper... (for something in the five grade, that shit blew my mind holy fuck) i dont exactly remember how i got one of your drawings, but it is here, in my room,,, (i see it and smile, i wonder, are you still drawing? painting? if you are thanks, you motivated me to draw til this day)
we were utter opposites. you were an introvert, you hung around cool kids a lot, overall, popular. I was a lonely extrovert, i didnt have many friends (im afraid that i was too annoying back then.. i still am lol...) (i remember that i was jealous of you back then, wack, back me could not handle how perfect you are) (even now that i have seen you “imperfections” i can now confirm that i am not jealous anymore thank fuck)
the chances of us being even friends is bizarre to me, like fate. in the short time span i spent with you, nobody else compared.
you were cool, you made me feel cool. i loved you so very very much.. i dont exactly know what my feelings are, but i can say you were my best friend. the best of a lot of people.
this post is so embarrassingly long, (you would have laughed from how many typos i made) if you ever so this i would snap my neck honestly
i completely fell for you, without even knowing... wack (hahahaha, i admitted it now,,, and im so scared... you know why im scared...)
(to the people who know me in real life. youll know who this is,,, you had the fucking audacity to read this shit okay fuck you) (but i really couldnt blame you, curiosity is fucking deadly, (you now know one of my most hidden secrets, one that i have kept for years, from anyone in rl) (so congrats, you earned title of asshole)
(if you did read this, youll probably have questions... but please dont even tell me you saw this post... dont like this post... dont talk to me about this post... and mostly of all... dont tell them please... my heart will actually weep... so please dont)
to those who dont know who this is, this is a person who was my friend. i loved them,, very very much
#i cried writing this like#fifty times#lmaooooooooo#i dont even know what to say in the tags#um#hi#you now know something my rl friends do not even know#congrats#yeyeyeyeyeyeeyeyeyeyeeyey#why the fuck am i even posting this shit#might delete later who knowss#aye litttt#panic?#panic.
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