#insecuregirl

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[thereallamala]

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[jswets]

a bitter dawn

every night i gaze into the sky

as i wonder which star that you are

i no longer cry though i still feel just as alone

i think of the days before you left Earth

and what the love that we shared made you say

"please don't forget that you have love left to give,

please don't let this end your world

and if you ever find another like you

don't hesitate to make her your girl"

and though it is hard and i still love her heart to this day

i have no choice but to honor the promise i made

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prompt "cry, alone, love, sky, girl" from @insecuregirl-16

[drivengirl]

Love

The truth is... I'm a hopeless romantic. I want to wait for the right guy though, I mean I'm still young and I want to enjoy that. I feel like everyone around me already has a someone. I'm like "they're not gonna last!" 'cause that's the truth. Trust me, I know my friends.

Last year, there was a boy... he liked me and I liked him back. Typical "love story". He said that he loved me and I was the one who said, "No, you're not inlove." I know that he likes me, but that's not my definition of love. For me, love takes a LOT of time, to build it up. You can't just buy someone flowers and tell her you're inlove. You can't buy someone, alright?! Being inlove means you know them like nobody else does. You know the thing that someone says in the movies? "He's inlove with you. I can see it when he looks at you." I believe in that.

We were never in a relationship because I really am not an easy girl. Well, I still thought that he cared for me though. So while we were in that phase where he still "likes" me... turns out he also likes my friend. It just hurt me so much because they hid it from me from two fucking months. What? They were just laughing behind my back and talking about how I look like a fool when I thought he still likes me? That was last February 13, 2017. Yes, I was broken on Valentine's Day. I was crying my heart out and maybe everyone saw that? Because I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down my face. I felt so broken. Two of my friends who I trusted so much with my life, just ugh.

Luckily, the girl moved to another school and we never talked to each other again. I just discovered that she's really good at pretending. The boy and I talked though so it's fixed and I'm finally fine with it. I mean, we're in the same room literally everyday. He's like a normal friend to me now and feels like nothing happened.

So yeah, thought I'd share that experience...

||insecuregirl-16||

[neversurrenderunderfire]

the beginning.

i have been so depressed where I lost meaning in life. where i didnt understand why i was friends with the friends i had. but not because they werent good friends, but because i had no want to have contact with other human beings. i learned to be really really good at faking it. everything i did was fake. smiling, loving, caring. no one knew how sad i really was, they had no clue. people see/saw me as this happy, smiley girl who loved everyone, but on the inside i was the most insecure, scared child ever. This is my journey in overcoming my depression, anxiety, and insecurities. Its been a long journey, and I'm still working on it, but i hope to make it one day. and maybe help others out in their journeys along the way.

[drivengirl]

Personal Life

I am 15 years old and I'm a grade 10 student. I have 2 younger sisters, a perfect mother and an idiot father.

I study in a small, quiet school. It's strict there... no phones allowed and sometimes when I'm there, it feels like all of their eyes are set on me. Still, I love it there 'cause I have amazing 'friends'.

I need to choose a course this year and I've decided on taking Accountancy. I don't even know what the fuck it does, but my Aunt suggested it and said that it fits me. I love Math and she said that it has a lot of that topic there. I also love make-up, not because it's "trendy" but I want to learn more about it. Like what make-up would look good on a person's face, if it needs bright, dark or nude lipstick and etc. I also love acting, buuut I'll never be an actor. Never. So my plan is to study business first then make-up and then maybe combine both?

That is all for today!

~ ||insecuregirl-16||

[drivengirl]

New Year

I just want to sit in the corner of my room and write whatever I'm thinking. I want to post/tell everything that I've never told anyone before. It sounded risky to me, but I think it will actually help me breathe and sleep at night.

||insecuregirl-16||