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[logically-stoned]

Hello Anxiety My Old Friend

Ah its so frustrating, I’m finally having a day off and all round its been a pretty good day. Got a new tattoo this morning, enjoyed a lovely vegan brunch after and then did a slow but present walk up to the centre of Edinburgh. But of course out of nowhere, my anxiety has come to join me for this sunny but grey afternoon. Like everyone I know anxiety creeps up at the most unfortunate moments, I just feel heavy and uncomfortable now :( 

I’ve been trying to practise mindfulness so that I can be more present with my thoughts. But of course in this moment all I can think is that this anxiety that is sitting on my chest is just horrible. Using a lovely CBD roll on which really does wonders for my anxiety and my nerves, but I guess I am too aware that I am anxious as I miss my ex. I feel as though it’s not fair to be anxious because of someone. I know she isn’t doing anything to cause my anxiety but its just there. 

This is all part of my growth and evolution, I just know that it will take some time, maybe more time than I am prepared for. But I can do this. I need to remind myself that I can do this.

[wannabeskinny-princess]

I knew Fading was a very popular fanfic, BUT WHY DIDN’T ANYBODY TELL ME ABOUT THE PLOT AND ALL THE EMOTIONS AND WHY IS THERE NO ONE I CAN TALK TO ABOUT IT?

[green-lady-bug]

Struggles of Depression

How do you do it? How do you put one foot in front of the other when it feels like a million pounds is dragging you down? How do you sit at a desk and talk to customers in that sweet voice you're applauded for? How do you fight the urge to run back to your boyfriend and son when they are all you want? Wants and needs turn into needs and wants. I both want and need my job but the same goes for my family and I hate sacrificing one for the other. I don't know why I made this post I guess I just need to get these words out of my head before they kill me. Wish me luck.

[oxygenbreathesme]

You ever felt so alone and no one will give you a chance and it only makes you more depressed

[beforethesunsplits-blog]

Mood: To cry in front of the ocean

[amormiavida-blog]

i’m tyring to make sense but, i have no sense to start with lol

[welcome-to-reality-superstar]

I don’t invest in anything that doesn’t have a future. Yet I’m investing so much in a relationship I know won’t last more than a few months more, another year at the most. All rationale is out the window. I know what I want, what I need, and what’s best for me, yet I’m so deeply rooted in this I can’t pull myself out easily. I’m stupid. I’m wasting precious time with this, I know, yet I can’t let go. The longer I stay, the more it’s going to hurt. I don’t know how to get out of this. Do I want to? No. Do I need to? Yes. I need someone to talk to...

[colinfirthannonymous]

My mind has been so cluttered recently. Everything feels so... congested and heavy in my head. I didn't know where else to go, who else to speak to. So I've resorted to typing my thoughts out, here. Sometimes I get this horrible feeling of loneliness and emptiness. I don't know what I'm craving for exactly. Someone to connect with? Someone to laugh and cry with? Someone who puts me as their priority, so that I feel important for once. I am so tired of smiling and pretending like everything is okay, because I don't want to explain anything to anyone. Because I know how uncomfortable that makes them. I try so hard to make you like me. Maybe too hard, that's why. But you never seem to be interested in how my day went, whether I've eaten, how's revision coming along. All you ever talk about is yourself. You're bad, toxic for me. Why can't I stop myself from being drawn to you then? Is it because I truly believe I don't deserve better? I don't know how to pull myself out of this cycle of thought. I don't know how else to express my feelings. I don't know how to stop hiding behind a facade and seek help.

[daqueendaisy]

Does it even matter if i find a guy anymore? Does it matter if i even do anything anymore? Nothing seems to matter for me anymore because it’ll get fucked up either way. No guy will ever like me. I’ll just get dropped and just another trash. The amount of times i’ve been fucked over could fill up a trash can. I constantly tell myself to stop trying, but i still do it either way. Why? Because i’m stupid and i’m desperate. I want people to stop telling me that the right guy will come but no matter how many times i wait, my hopes become more and more useless. I need someone. I need someone to talk to when i’m down, when i’m having good days, when i need to complain about something, WHEN I JUST NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE. Everyone has someone but i don’t have anyone. i’m always faking my smile and i’m starting to get tired of it. I’m always happy but that just covers up my sadness inside. I don’t know why i even feel this way. I have so many friends but i’m always lonely. I could be in a crowd of 1 million people and still feel alone. Why won’t this feeling stop. 

[burstmybubble]

Current Thoughts

Today, I think I’ve hit rock bottom. I am not studying for college, I am not eating healthy at all, been smoking lotta weed and shit.

I’ve found myself looking for validation of others. The lowest of all, not knowing your self-worth. Currently struggling with a stupid love and an old love, very confusing.

I am not sure if I’ll even find my way back

[sambarkssprout]

Haha hey so my life is falling apart right now an d I am FILled with rag e haha this is wonDErfUl,.., I am so freakinG ups et :))))))))))))

[madhatmodder]

Fucking hello humans.

Okay so here's an update on my pathetic existence. In the past Month I've had 3 mental breakdowns, an existential crisis, I got a tattoo, I'm falling in love with someone who will probably get over me in a week, I've come to the conclusion that I'm genuinely uninteresting, I've made three new friends, I'm still socially awkward, I'm failing at keeping my shit together and I'm always panicking, I'm usually always having some form of anxiety, pretty sure I may have developed schizophrenia possibly, I've scraped the bottom of the barrel for reasons to live so now I'm just winging it. I'd say I'm doing pretty good with the cards I've been dealt.

[iamvalerie1234]

So. I had my first panic attack today. Almost 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. It was manageable, but now....not so much. I was always smiling, but I bottled my real emotions up and stayed positive. I've never had a panic attack, but this....this was hard. I literally couldn't concentrate or.... Breathe. I just stood their and cried. And my family, when I told them what happened, they thought I was a "Drama Queen", just "looking for attention." My FAMILY didn't think that something was wrong, even though the even heard from a DOCTOR that I have DEPRESSION and ANXIETY. They brushed it off, leaving me in tears at the dinner table. I just need to say that, I need someone to talk to. #AFK #anxiety #depression #helpme #ineedhelp #saveme #ineedsomeonetotalkto

[lazos24]

I love you and so does everyone else please don't commit suicide

Idk like I have had friends commit suicide and I have family commit suicide and I’ve seen and felt the devastation that it can bring to the people around them everyday and years and years after they are gone .

I have been scarred in so many ways from what they have done and now I am constantly paranoid , my dad is very depressed and is now talking about how he sometimes wants to do that, a word I can’t even say in relation to my father, no daughter needs to hear that from her father and be scared that she’s gonna go home an have him gone everyday. Now it’s my niece , my beautiful insecure little niece is cutting herself and saying she doesn't want to live anymore and I honestly can’t handle it. I cant handle having the people I love thinking like this anymore . But I’m bad with words and I don’t know how to help them or what words I can say to comfort them. I’m scared and dumb and I can’t say anything other than “ We love you” . something that is so basic to me “of course we love you” I’ve learned for some reason these people don’t believe when we say it? Why? It’s so natural I have never understood why you didn’t know how much I love you!

So if you think that no one cares about you or that the people around you aren’t taking it seriously or that you won’t be missed please know that EVERYONE will miss you . Your absence will devastate so many people and they will forever be walking around this earth with a chunk of their heart missing. So please don’t think no one cares because they can’t say what you want to hear, maybe they are just too scared , or they don’t know what to say but don’t ever think they don’t care.

[brittanykay24]

Laying in bed just wishing I could stay here today. Everything is tumbling down on me and I just want to hide in the blankets all day. I wish I knew how to get out of this. I'll just enjoy my last hour before I have to get up 😭

[lessthan3rocky]

Not feeling like myself lately... #lonely #empty #feelingpathetic #noneedtolike #kisses #smooches #redheadshavemorefun #redhairdontcare #girlswhowearglasses #girlswithguages #girlswithpiercings #fatbabe #fatbabesofig #biggirlsdoitbetter #dontfeelliketrying #sadnessinmyeyes #ineedsomeone #ineedsomeonetotalkto