#ihatethisfeeling

[christopher-michael93-blog]

I just don’t fucking know anymore, I’ve got everything I could ever want in the woman of my dreams, my fiancé, a family on my mind. I always find a way to fuck things up and I end up hating my fucking self. I’m 33,000$ in debt, I’m 100%broke, can’t find a job to save my life, my parents fucking hate my guts, my two previous daughters are next to non existent at this point and no matter what the fuck I do I can’t fucking make anyone happy. I’m so fucking sick of feeling like this. I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating, I have no way of relieving stress, my car broke down, my Xbox data is gone my dog needs to go to the vet and I can’t take him with no money and no car. My fiancé is stressed out to the max because I’m not doing nearly enough for her. I can’t even breathe without feeling like my heart and lungs are literally going to explode inside my chest and it’s not a fun feeling. I’m so fucking happy with my fiancé but I just can’t get shit right. I’m just fucking destined for a wooden box and it can’t come fast enough.

[xash-guardians]

Ihatethisfeeling

Ihatefeelinglikethis

[forevermymizu]

No one really talks about the ache you get after you realize they don't love you anymore

Okay, so what do you expect me to do?

#ihatethisfeeling

[ayezxxzeya]

It's funny since you're still the first person who comes to my mind whenever I listen to the music. I still love you, but it's time for me to move on since it's no longer healthy for me. I'm glad you're happier without me, but it sucks that I'm not the one who made you happy.

te extraño, mi amor.

[djdrazun]

It seems I have a thing for women who couldn't care less about me. It's not the first time but it needs to be the last. This is obviously a ME problem. A problem I need to fix...

I hate that the ones I connect with and relate to are who I feel so drawn to. And they will indulge me in their low times and forget about me in the highs.....

I'm always a fucking mistake they didnt mean to cause. She doesnt even recall any of it... how convenient for her. I should've listened to everyone around me. To her own kin. I knew better..... so why does this hurt so bad? Why does it feel like she is the only woman left in the world?

I HATE EMOTION. I want to be a stone faced sociopath.....then maybe the ones I feel for will love me back....

[wadword]

Distressed Domino

The first word of the collection is here- DISTRESSED DOMINO

A domino tips back and forth, mostly unsteady swaying around, ready to fall over and gee, i pity the little guy.  Must be under a lot of stress huh? the whole team’s future depends on it and one misstep- ITS DOOMED.

But how does this phrase work?

IT’S Perfect for describing ur nerve-wracking nervousness, the i’m soo anxious foir tomorrows exam scenarios, indecisiveness ( example- shld  pick option A or option B?) swaying between choices, unsure of how to proceed and just being STRESSED when you have to choose. The feeling sucks guys. Stuttering and pondering for even the smallest of choice and stressing out over the most insignificant things. i hate being a distressed domino.

[ahronerox]

You will never see the lie's infront of you... unless you know the truth behind those eyes 😭😭 #afraidagain #ihatethisfeeling https://www.instagram.com/p/B7iyNamnYuvxMSjfvnp7QtgtWttcU2wY9oG3d40/?igshid=g75rgj7qqoe2

[stephserona]

“If being attracted to you is a crime, arrest me now.”

[ghostgirlwithshadows]

I don't want your body

But I hate to think about you with somebody else

Our love has gone cold

You're intertwining your soul with somebody else

~The1975~

[kkapri19]

I feel like my entire world just came crashing down. I’ve ruined the only good thing I had going for me. I’ve lost the only person I wanted. 😔😭

[christopher-michael93-blog]

You know, I’ve always had this issue, this absolute fucking problem. I give to much of myself to people, who yes in the long run have proven themselves at least somewhat to care about me. Others who absolutely 140% care about me and everything before and after. And I love that but I do feel like I care too much way to fast. People come into my life and I’m so quick to want to help them in anyway I can. I’m so quick to want to get to know people and spend time with them. But do they really wanna be around me, do I really mean shit to any of these people? Come on man, you know better than that, it’s the same thing every single time. You meet people you let them into your life so you can overly exert yourself to care for them in a way that only promotes the idea, that no matter what you’ll be there for them. All your little “are you okay?” Texts and your phone calls and deep conversations are all to help someone else feel better, yet you don’t talk about your issues they way you want to or the way you need to. And what good does that do you? All that happens is these people that you love and hold so dearly in your heart , some of them may have even gotten a little more of your attention making it worse but they LEAVE. Every fucking time, they leave. I don’t know how else to put it there bud. Hell some of em act like they want you in your life really well but it’s obvious that that’s a lie. Open your eyes, your “friends” are only gonna be around for so long, you’re alone Chris wake up and move on with your life. You’ve gotta keep your eyes on the prize. And that’s just to survive. You’re 28, single, with an average job, two kids, an insane baby mama, a billion court issues, and you’re not attractive or rich. You’re a mess, nobody’s gonna want you and I think you need to just accept that now before you get any kinda hope that you’ll find your happily ever after someday. Get over it and live your life, it was better when you lived under a rock, when you accepted the darkness and loneliness, your phone never went off and it was normal, you liked it that way, you were safe from all of the horrors and cruelty of people on the outside of your house, and sometimes even inside. Protect yourself Chris, you’re gonna get hurt you dumbass. And not to mention the fact that the only thing you have to live for is gone in your two daughters. If it wasn’t for them walking the earth somewhere other than with you, you would’ve ended it all forever ago. You constantly wish that rebar in your neck incident had just nicked your jugular vein and ushered you so quickly to the dark and the quiet. You love your daughters so much to pieces even and they’re gone that’s the last bit of hope you had and they are gone.

[to-potami-kulaei]

The list goes on and on and on...

Ummm, I had a revelation today that there is another thing (maybe a pet peeve that I have) that annoys the fuck out of me. It's get togethers with some certain family members I think, or some get togethers in general. It might be family gatherings all together and when everyone is in their own world, I don't know. Let's try to figure this shit out cause it's stressing me the fuck out! Ok, so today I was at work and was getting near to closing time and my family as well as 3 cousins and uncle were outside stuffing themselves. They told me to join them (even though I was working and I had a few shine calls and customers) and I said no I'm busy blah blah blah. I could go out and eat but the atmosphere was to giggly and jolly and I'm in my own world cause all I wanna do is just sit down and eat my guts out. Something bothered me so hard that I refused to do so. I think it was two of my kitchens and I can't put a finger on it as to why I felt that way. This has happened in the past many times, when it comes to get togethers and stuff I have thus bratty, pissed of attitude and the last place I wanna be is there. Maybe it's jealousy from my end how everyone is "fake happy" with their so and so's and I'm just there. It's cause everyone is in their own oh look at me and I'm the pick me person. It just irks me and I just cope with it. I either don't talk or come up looking pissed af and have this fake ass forced smile on my face and all this while being self conscious. It's odd that this happens. Today it was my brothers name day and I could be in a more inclusive feeling but I chose not to. I was going to write maybe I want to be the attention of the night but no thanks, I hate the unwanted and unnecessary attention. oh well screw it, I'm not gonna change the way I feel and act. I ate food that wasn't eaten right away and I was alright with that. But still I have this anger in me and its fucking loud and I wanna go out and scream and throw a rock at window or something. WTF is this life, like wtf is this fucking life. I hate fucking celebrations I think. I hate namedays maybe, I'm not fond of them and find them pretty useless. So yeah fuck namedays and everyones name day including mine.

[latasha722]

#ididntdeservethis #ididnt #deserve #this #ptsd #ihatethisfeeling #😢 #stupidbitch #iamstrong #becauseofyou 💪 https://www.instagram.com/p/CKOxojNhVXi/?igshid=1rxfk9dqpxc2c

[k-tinx-bye]

More often than not, the one that seems okay needs fixing too.

[djdrazun]

Say you dont recall

Doesnt mean it didnt happen

Drunken lie or not

Discipline is what you're lacking

Now I'm stuck feeling like this was all a big mistake

You only wanted me when his attention went astray

I understand. A helping hand. A boy that would never tell you no.

I had a choice. And never voiced. That I couldn't let you go.

But you're the reason, I woke up. And the reason I dont sleep.

Has no one ever told you? What you sow is what you reap.

[astravivian]

當自己以為努力是夠的 人家眼中我沒有盡力 當自己以為做好自己本份也是夠的 最難過 是自己傻傻的相信錯了人 還有被扭曲的事實 是我太天真，又或這世界本來如此？ #難過 #放不下 #太天真 #正白痴 #不要長大 #誰可相信 #失敗 #這世界怎麼了 #赤柱 #圖文不符 #傷感的一天 #嘆息 #whatswrongwithme #ihatethisfeeling #sadness #ibelieve https://www.instagram.com/astravivian/p/BwhqHF1AnbG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=16acy6rc6c34s