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controversial take and i in no way wanna take away from queer brienne headcanons, but i think its actually kinda cool and good if brienne is straight and cis. i think it's important that we have masculine women characters that are straight as well as queer mascline women characters because that is real life baby!! the same way you can't look at every feminine man and call him gay for that either, because thats not how sexuality works at all.
i think there is that correlation tho due to the fact that queer people are usually more willing and open to gnc presentation due to already being, you know, gnc to begin with, but i always wonder how many more non-queer identifying people we would see presenting more openly as gnc if we stopped trying to correlate the two things (i see a lot of jokes about it on tiktok by queer people that kinda pisses me off)
anyways, back to the babygirl at hand: a worse writer would have written brienne to be cold, hard and masculine on the outside, and then having a soft, feminine inside hidden away (which is also honestly what i first thought of he was going for when reading her first few mentions) but she just straight up is not that. her "masculine" associated traits of her strength, her honor and bravery segway flawlessly into her "feminine" associated traits of being caring, kind and gentle. they coexist on the same level because these aren't masculine or feminine traits, these are just straight up her traits. it has little relevance to her how these traits are sided up since she is so strongly led by her sense of what is right. to live the life she wants to she had to give those notions up; to become her true self she had to give those up.
brienne is not feminine "in spite" of her masculine presentation, nor is she masculine "despite" her femininity: she is brienne and a fantastic human being in spite and despite the feminity and masculinity everyone else tries to force her to be, or percieves her as.
sozs if this is very rambly and not quite coherent
#i think there are totally a lot of super valid and cool arguments for queer!brienne#i just personally as queer gnc person myself really like the reading of her being not queer because i think its really cool to have#cis gnc characters considering i know a lot a lot a lot of people who are cis and gnc#including my own mother#brienne of tarth#valyrianscrolls#asoiaf meta#asoiaf#a song of ice and fire#brienne meta
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free will is drawing ur two favorite characters together and making them gay
#akekita content in this economy? it's more likely than you think#this is like for the three ppl that ship them (me tumblr user haliai and atlus)#also which boyliker at atlus designed yusuke's phantom outfit like WHY is he dressed like a gay hooker 💀💀💀💀#the skintight spandex bodysuit designed to show off the slutty waist?? the exposed cleavage?? the cunty little fox tail?? bro 😭#my hand was shaking while i was drawing the second img it felt so IMMODEST 😭😭😭😭😭#i wish atlus confirmed which highschool akechi went to bc i love the hc that he attends kosei#his tie matches hifumi's ribbon so i think they're trying to tell us smt (im delusional)#ANYWAY akechi and yusuke would match each other's freak lowkey like they're both hardcore yappers that weird everyone else tf out#akechi would find solidarity in the fact that yusuke doesn't shut up abt whatever he's interested in#also also the fact that akechi is a mirror version of him bc they're victims of the same situation#both being exploited and utilized as tools after their mothers death#by the man they called father in exchange for validation or a false sense of place#but ultimately yusuke was saved by phantom thieves while akechi refused any pity and slowly succumbed to fate of his own making#really makes you look at atlus and think whats going on in their buttery smooth brains for not including other character interactions#aside from the social links with joker. the wasted dynamic potential between some of the characters is insane 😭#persona 5#p5#yusuke kitagawa#kitagawa yusuke#goro akechi#akechi goro#akekita#bro me when i stay up until three am drawing persona instead of finishing my lab (i’m beyond cooked 💀💀)#i think i need to switch college majors i can’t keep doing this#lotus draws
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I cannot STAND Mr. Rochester.
Personally I think he might have been reformed to my liking, had the story gone on a bit longer, but as it is he didn't get enough reformation for me to believe it fully. Trying to save his mad wife from a fire is surely a fine thing, but I simply don't feel confident that he's truly reformed. I don't, for example, feel sure that he wouldn't tire of Jane in time. Jane, sweetie, you deserve better. Better a dinner of herbs and spinsterhood than living with a man who had no qualms about marrying you bigamously without your knowledge or consent.
Finished Jane Eyre and would like to gain some general data, just out of curiosity
If none of these apply at all, you're free to abstain and tell me why in the notes—I just thought trying to sum up the spectrum of opinions usefully was hard enough without adding an easy "other" option.
#St. John is ALSO terrible#probably my biggest issue with Jane Eyre is that the men unanimously suck#I understand that other people feel differently#including my own mother#and that's okay!#but personally I wouldn't have married him#I think the issue is that I see the beginnings of a better and nobler Mr. Rochester#but it's too early to be certain it's not just a phase#poll#jane eyre#the bronte sisters
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seeing the same people who complained that zutara fandom adultified katara & insisted that she was just as much of a child in the show as the rest of the gaang now having a meltdown over some vague ass interviews that might imply katara is no longer taking as much of a motherly role in the live action because “it ruins her character”… funny, i thought yall said zutara shippers were just making that up?
#*insert regina george meme here*#so you agree? you think katara was forced to be a mother to most of the gaang including her own future husband?#oh how the tables turn#i’m reserving my judgement for after the show airs but the hypocrisy was starting to piss me off lmao#zutara#anti kataang
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3 reasons I can think of, for why the first Three vestiges were too hard to find information on
[Reason 1]
The time they were born in.
Their births, and any records of them, could just be completely undocumented or non-existent.
They were born in times where systems and governments were down, and it's everyone for themselves.
People aren't going to register their existence, especially the Metas, when they all want to stay under the radar and hide from everyone else.
If you're in the middle of a war zone that spread to where you live, and your baby brother was just born, are you really going to go [Oh no! I have to register his birth for that sweet sweet child tax!]?
Or something like that. But still.
There are more important things, like survival, than registering a baby's birth and going through hospital paperwork. And it's been explicitly stated that the first appearance of Abilities caused a Great Depression all over Japan.
The government is gone. There's no point in registering anything anymore.
Yoichi was literally born at a riverside, and never went to a hospital. By the time the first Three are toddlers / young children, Japan is already chaos and up in flames.
Children are actively avoided because they're the most likely to be Meta Humans. No one wants anything to do with them.
Chances are, the records about the first Three never existed, or were destroyed in all the strife.
Or maybe, if some did exist, Kudo destroyed them. I can see him doing that, to protect themselves from AFO or anyone else having the chance to track their personal histories down.
It makes them ghosts. Exactly what would be best for not only their own survival, but anyone affiliated with them. Like family. It makes them untraceable, and invisible to bodies of old authority.
[Reason 2]
The three were a part of the Resistance. They could've kept information about themselves under lock and key, to protect themselves.
Like how Kudo is referred to as Leader, and never by his real name. Even in the void, up to the very end, Bruce still says "Leader" to address him.
I actually HC them as using codenames in the Resistance, exactly to protect themselves from each other, and outsiders. This makes Yoichi an anomaly among them, for going by his real name. Meanwhile,
Leader, Boss = their leader
Bruce = a reference to his Quirk
Codenames about their Meta Abilities, or roles in their cause, to better remember whose nickname belonged to who.
Outsiders won't know the Resistance members' real names. The Resistance can't betray each other by selling each other out for personal information as easily, if no one knows each other's actual names.
At the same time, this alienates them from who they are, and their humanity. They have to make tough choices that would classify them as monsters. And they're locking themselves under a false name.
They're protecting themselves from everything and everyone, including themselves. At least the person committing all these atrocities is [CODENAME], not me.
[Reason 3]
Bruce, when he was supposed to pass previous information to Shinomori, couldn't.
Maybe he didn't have enough time to tell Shinomori the whole story.
Or maybe he did, and passed on the previous holders' histories, but Shinomori didn't pass those on himself.
Or maybe reminiscing Yoichi and Leader as actual people just broke him, and he could only stick to the bare minimum of the history of this Factor.
Notably, the OFA story is known as "All For One's younger brother was sickly and frail, but he had a strong sense of justice."
We never, ever hear Yoichi's name in the spoken history of OFA. All Might couldn't even get their names. And since AFO hides himself so easily, and birth records just don't exist for him as an undocumented birth, Yoichi legally doesn't exist even as a birth.
Bruce is the first one to find the existence of Yoichi's "unformed dud". The Factor that let him pass on his current Quirk to others. How could the information of that dud be passed on, if not from Bruce?
Somewhere, the information breaks during Bruce or Shinomori's turn with OFA.
Bruce never passed on their names. Or maybe Shinomori didn't. But their names weren't necessary to pass on anymore. All Might only managed to dredge what he could, starting from the time society started trying to stand on its feet. Exactly because that's as far as the records went.
[Reason 2] could add credence to why the first Three's names were never passed on. Bruce could've kept quiet about Yoichi and Leader's personal details, not just to help himself stay together, but to protect anything they might've left behind.
#reason 2 is a HC i always include in everything i write cuz it just makes so much sense to me#“choose your own codename or we make one up for u based on ur Meta” [SPAMS CTRL-C CTRL-V]#cmon do u really want Bruce or Yoichi or someone else to shout your real name when AFOs henchmen are right there?#those henchies are gonna bring that real name info back to AFO and he'll destroy everything you left behind or have right now#sick mother in the last functioning hospital? a child? three siblings who need your help? WELL DONT MIND IF I DO-#ofa#one for all#afo#all for one#bnha#mha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#spoilers#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#yoichi shigaraki#bruce#kudo#all might#hikage shinomori#toshinori yagi#going back to older chapters to get these pics and i got some nice refreshers of info
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forget to tell the world i bought a custom flag with this design, made by me ofc
#did not inform my mother#yes this is going on my wall#full display for the world i am a real patriotic american#worth the money i needed some retail therapy#i feel bad for the flag maker he had to see this with his own eyes and confirm this is what i wanted#yes sir!#logan sargeant my american hero#i did a presentation that included me saying to my digital marketing class the horrors my american hero went through at williams#(before his death)#logan sargeant#f1#formula 1#formula one#f1 memes#lukeshitposting
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So, maybe this is just a fan theory and not officially canon, but I'm 99.09% sure that the goblin Beetleglum that shows up in the Labyrinth: Coronation comics:
Is the same goblin who tells Jareth that Sarah will never give up (far left):
They have the same oil-can hat and everything! Has anyone else noticed this?
#labyrinth#labyrinth 1986#honestly such an underrated character#like Jareth's mother Maria#theres not enough fanfic of those two#hoping to finish some of my own ideas including them soon#goblins#fan theory
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Totally understand this isn’t everyone’s thing, but unfortunately for y’all I love fucked up family dynamics, SO
#my art#described#tw: pseudo incest#SHOULDVE ADDED THAT TO BEGIN WITH SORRY GANG#not gonna put this in the main character tags cus I know it’s uncomfortable for folks#well maybe I’ll indulge a lil with…#sorak#if ur tagging him ur probably acknowledging that he’s their son so lol#I just don’t think spock would like him all that much!! and in doing so repeat the sins of his own father!! raghhhhhhh!!!!!!#or at the very least it takes spock a lot of time to come to terms with that being his son and the conditions he was made under. like a lot.#saavik feels that brief hesitancy then decides that’s not gonna be a thing ever. like no her son is never going to doubt how much she -#- just adores him.#somethin about that hellguard upbringing…#Sorak knows how messed up it is. he’s reminded every time he looks in a mirror or hears his mother call his father ‘father’ too#he knows they’d probably be happier without him - he feels it radiating off his father. but he’s afraid to express how much he knows.#I thought of including the grandparents as well… namely I think sarek would have a heart attack LMAO but I didn’t have as much for them#anywagy
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I know Titanic AUs are overused and extremely corny but like. I can’t help wanting to make one for SMB. Like come on Mario and Peach are literally perfect for the love story; protective lower class guy with a sense of adventure and rich girl longing for a little freedom from the high expectations. Bowser would also be perfect for the douche bag fiancé who likes to control her because reasons
#this has probably been done before#but you know what fuck it I’ll make my own version#because it’s all for fun anyway#some things might play out a little different if I want to include more characters#like peach’s ‘mother’ figure would probably be toadsworth but he isn’t an asshole#idk I’ll figure things out later lol#super mario bros#smb au#titanic au#mario#princess peach#mareach#bowser#lady luxo rambles
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people really do not know what they're talking about when it comes to Elizabeth Woodville's social status, huh?
#yes Elizabeth was without a doubt considered too low-born to be queen#no she was not a commoner and nobody actually called her that during her life (so I'm not sure why people are claiming that they did?)#Elizabeth's social status was not a problem in itself; it was a problem in the context of queenship and marrying into royalty#Context is important in this and for literally everything else when it comes to analyzing history. Any discussion is worthless without it.#obviously pop culture-esque articles claiming that she was 'a commoner who captured the king's heart' are wrong; she wasn't#But emphasizing that ACTUALLY she was part of the gentry with a well-born mother and just leaving it at that as some sort of “GOTCHA!”#is equally if not more irresponsible and entirely irrelevant to discussions of the actual time period we're studying.#Elizabeth *was* considered unworthy and unacceptable as queen precisely because of her lower social status#her father and brother had literally been derided as social-climbers by Salisbury Warwick and Edward himself just a few years earlier#the Woodvilles' marriage prospects clearly reflected their status (and 'place') in society: EW herself had first married a knight and all#siblings married within the gentry to people of a similar status. compare that to the prestigious marriages arranged after EW became queen#Elizabeth having a lower social status was not 'created' by propaganda against her; it fueled and shaped propaganda against her#that's a huge huge difference; it's irresponsible and silly to conflate the two as I've seen a recent tumblr post cavalierly do#like I said she was considered too low-born to be queen long before any of the propaganda Warwick Clarence or Richard put out against her#and the fact that Elizabeth was targeted on the basis of her social status was in itself novel and unprecedented#no queen before her was ever targeted in such a manner; Clearly Elizabeth was considered notably 'different' in that regard#(and was quite literally framed as the enemy and destroyer of 'the old royal blood of this realm' and all its actual 'inheritors' like..)#ngl this sort of discussion always leaves a bad taste in my mouth#because it's not like England and France (et all) are at war or consider each other mortal enemies in the 21st century#both are in fact western european imperialistic nations who've been nothing but a blight to the rest of the world including my own country#yet academic historians clearly have no problem contextualizing the xenophobia that medieval foreign queens faced as products of their time#and sympathizing with them accordingly (Eleanor of Provence; Joan of Navarre; Margaret of Anjou; etc)(at least by their own historians)#Nor were foreign queens the “worst” targets of xenophobia: that was their attendants or in times of war commoners or soldiers#who actually had to bear the brunt of English aggression#queens were ultimately protected and guaranteed at least a veneer of dignity and respect because of their royal status#yet once again historians and people have no problem contextualizing and understanding their difficulties regardless of all this#so what is the problem with contextualizing the classism *Elizabeth* faced and understanding *her* difficulties?#why is the prejudice against her constantly diminished & downplayed? (Ive never even seen any historian directly refer to it as 'classism')#after all it was *Elizabeth* who was more vulnerable than any queen before her due to her lack of powerful foreign or national support#and Elizabeth who faced a form of propaganda distinctly unprecedented for queens. it SHOULD be emphasized more.
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Marcille as the Elf-Queen's daughter, is that anything?
#the queen who is a traditionalist who refuses to have half-elves at court#having a half-elf daughter of her own#bonus points if this Marcille has the royal traits#hid away until she's old enough to either be sent away where she can't shame her mother#or thrown to the canaries#politely ignored by everyone at court including her own mother#also cool big cousin Flamela#marcille#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#really im just in the business of giving my faves mommy issues
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feeling slightly vindicated watching an RAS interview bc keep getting this feeling from the drizzt books that theyre very italian-american (as in, i see a lot of things i recognize from italian culture in it, but influenced and changed by american culture) and he said that he based off the culture of menzo partly on his hometown and then the sopranos/godfather which confirmed it to me
also he pronounces menzoberranzan the way i used to before someone else corrected me JKNDSKJFKDS
#i used to pronounce it MEN-zoh-buh-ran-ZAN#but then i got told its MEN-zoh-buh-RAN-zan#for those wondering what i recognize abt italian culture (so far)#a BIG emphasis on family and religion#the pressure to create big families with lots of connections to other family units#emphasis on showing yourself as not only being religious but actively involve yourself in religious affair#and chasing approval of god (lolth)/ saints (the yochlol) /higher religious figures (high priestesses and the baenres)#people will react with high disapproval and often shunning or rage at someone rejecting the religious order or even just the suspicion of i#and of course the enforcement of gender binaries with set roles between women and men#pretty interesting too that in nearly all families i know including my own the wife/mother is always the most religious figure in the house#with many being actively involved in the parish (my mom's a cathechist lol)#while often the men range from neutral to disinterested to outright agnostic (rarely atheist tho)#which is very similar to how in menzo the women are the ones in religious power#the american part is the heavy emphasis on showy fights and large scale battles#a focus on individualism over the collective#and the big family part often coming more as a “couple and possibly lovers having lots of children”#rather than also the extended family of grandparents uncles aunts and cousins often living nearby#or straight up together and sharing family activities#legend of drizzt#bani.txt
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I hate being loveless. Send post.
#despite the scrambling to accept loveless folks that ended up fucking over romance and love favorable people#I still feel broken. I feel like I'm misleading my partners because the truth is that I don't love them like they love me#and they know this. we're open and I haven't misled them at all but I feel like a fraud still.#I want to be included in things or at least thought about even though I don't give people a second thought#but when I voice this: 'you didn't care about them anyway. they tried to reach out before'#I still value connections. after years of being pushed away by peers I still try to make connections with people#and when they inevitably feel stronger about me than I do them#or see things differently than I do#I feel... inadequate. like my attempts at being a person are futile#It's part of why I don't see myself as a person at all anymore. Because I can't FEEL like a 'normal' person.#it fucking sucks. and no amount of 'oh you're no less a person than someone who feels love uwu' can fix that#I can't even love my family. do you know how much that sucks to not be able to love your own mother?#years ago when I was 7 I had a nightmare where my mom said 'you don't love me anyway' while I was trying to convince her#not to jump into the water in front of us. that phrase has appeared in arguments years later#imagine the horror I feel trying to come to terms with the fact that that's a true statement.#I do care about and appreciate people but it'll never be enough#I'LL never be enough#it hurts.#and the performative bullshit on this platform doesn't help#loveless#aplatonic#afamilial
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One thing that can get overlooked in discussions of Arthur and Mera's relationship in pre and post-crisis is how self-absorbed and single minded he can be. This can show itself in the way he dismisses Mera's requests and concerns when he has his attention caught by other things, such as stopping Orm as seen in Aquaman (1985), or his absence during the Death of a Prince storyline.
This obviously can have far reaching impacts on their relationship and Mera’s mental health. Mera is regularly the only person staying and handling the fallout of Arthur’s actions, or managing Atlantis’ day to day activities. There is a reason that even with all of the issues that hang over Mera’s head, you can often see the citizens of Atlantis demonstrate loyalty to her above him.
Despite how long Mera and Arthur have been established (they first married in 1963!), their entire relationship has been incredibly tumultuous. Mainly, this is due to factors outside of their control. Mera’s writing has had some very poor periods, and even ignoring the writers or editors role in this, in universe she has suffered through semi-regular instances of mental and physical manipulation.
Overall, this has lead to several periods where the two of them are not together. When Arthur and Mera are on the outs, typically, you can see a distinct decline in Arthur’s temperament; he gets more violent, easily agitated, and he often avoids any self reflection. He also consistently closes off parts of his emotions that cause him distress and becomes non-communicative. This means shutting Mera out emotionally, and not telling people important things about himself i.e. the existence of his wife and dead child.
Due to the instability he often feels, he can become very fixated on things he thinks he can or should control. This includes the people in his life.
As a result, his friends, and even an ex girlfriend, have made comments about him needing Mera to balance him out.
He has shown periods of learning from his mistakes and reflecting back on his faults such as in Justice League of America #242 and Aquaman (1991) but he often forgets those lessons when the next writer takes over.
Importantly, Arthur never gets particularly controlling over his wife. He can disagree with her, but when she says she does not want to be with him, or if she decides she is needed elsewhere, he will bow to her wishes.
Furthermore, it is not just when they are together that he becomes a little calmer, it can often just be having her in his life. While he was uncomfortable with the idea of her possibly starting a relationship with another man, he still respected her choices, and went so far as to make jokes about her crush just to make her laugh. Even when he is in a bad mood, Mera is the one person that can remind him to be playful, something that does continue into new52 and onward, even if most of his more negative traits have been sanded away.
Arthur's tendency to be self absorbed is most blatant in his relationships with women who aren't Mera. The primary women he begins romantic relationships with outside of his wife are Dolphin and Esther. As shown above, his dynamic with Dolphin was unhealthy in a number of ways. In addition to those, the second he found out that Mera was alive, it did not even occur to him that his current girlfriend wouldn't be as pleased to get her back as he was. In Esther's case, he stood her up on their first official date because he found out Mera needed help.
Luckily outside of some strong emotions when they first meet each other, the women are all shown to be quite gracious when the shock wears off, and Mera is able to form friendships with both.
Ultimately, while Arthur does struggle to be a perfect husband, it is always very clear that Mera is the only person he ever really wants to be with. Despite everything that has happened and the many ways they have hurt each other, they will always forgive one another and find it in themselves to try again.
TLDR: I really love Arthur but whenever Mera tries to kill that man this is my general reaction
Disclaimer: Can't even get into Mera's flaws here because that would require me outlining all the times she's been turned crazy/put in a trance/trapped in other dimensions/made purposefully ill so the atlantean court could use her as a figurehead etc.. And this would become unbearable long. But she has them too and they're meant for each other (derogatory) (affectionate).
#aquaman#Arthur curry#mera of xebel#it’s crazy that they don’t have a real ship name#mera is one Atlantean cell phone invention away from creating a group chat to talk shit about Arthur on#I didn’t include Koryak’s mother in this because Arthur’s relationship with her predates him getting with Mera#talking into the void because I don’t think there’s a single other aquaman fan on this website lmao#that’s ok#I can yap enough on my own
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(One thing I find peculiar and unfortunate in current fandom business is the seeming lack of pointed discussion, so here is a humble attempt to spark a conversation and I more than welcome commentary.)
I came across someone in the notes to a post somewhere talking of how Jillian had been better styled in season two than in season one and I agreed, already seeking the justification for it in my mind. My observations are as follows:
S1 Jillian is Arq-Tech's mastermind and public face. Even though we first meet her in Morocco, in her explorer, Indiana Jones-like garb, it's the image of her running her company that sticks with us, her statements to the press, her corporate persona opening metaphorical fire upon the Church. A "powerful woman" as mainstream media constructs for us everyday, in subtle but visible makeup so as to diminish the effects of age on her face, in heels so as to peek at the rest of humanity from above, with controlled gestures meant for the inherent theatricality that comes with introducing life-changing technology to society. It is a role she plays—well, but a role nonetheless.
The scene she shares with father Vincent is worthy of mention, for while he sits without taking up much space, his body restrained to the side of a couch, his legs crossed in what is deemed a more "feminine" posture, Jillian takes up the traditional "masculine" attitude: she commands the room, her body expanding upon her seat, in the broad pose where an ankle rests upon a knee, complete with a generous glass of alcohol in hand and talon on foot. Yet this is also for show—it's a little too calculated, a dance that was so perfected in exhaustive practice that it lost its dynamic.
Our glimpses into the more authentic Jillian come in the scenes with Michael—not only because (coded in white and blue as the Virgin Mary of immaculate conception) she plays the part of mother, but because, in her intimacy, far from journalists and employees and the public's prying eyes, she can be more herself within the areas where she conducts her studies. Starting from when Ava asks Jillian to "science her", we never see the doctor in uncomfortable shoes again, as she retreats from entrepreneurial life and into the lab.
This is clearer in season two, for, as Kristian says, she is on sabbatical, thus isolated from general view; S2 Jillian has nobody around her, nobody to impress. Locked away in her Spanish villa, consumed by her son's disappearance, she need not wear a mask. There are no more tellingly feminine accessories, no staged stunts; her clothes and footwear are even more practical, her movements less grand but more human, more expressive (here, of course, we owe it to Thekla Reuten's underrated range). Even as the OCS invites itself into her house, making it a makeshift HQ, she doesn't fall back on the act we saw in the first season.
Jillian's stepping back from the head of her company is not just in name and contract, but in body, too; she leaves the CEO role in her office and comes home to her science and her cause, to her limited inner circle of which only Michael was privy to and into which the OCS nuns end up finding their way.
Colours also indicate a shift—we begin the series seeing her associated with light hues such as white, beige and baby blues, but when season two comes in, Jillian's striking all-white attire is nowhere to be found. The Holy Mother parallel is in shambles after Michael has gone through the ark's portal, the intangibility of this "saintly", aseptic rich genius broken down, her person brought back to Earth after flights of fancy trying to open a gate to Heaven.
We see her in a darker palette, in greys with dashes of white, yes, but never again in full white. It is not just the authorisation to be herself rather than her company's face while in her private world, but also the reflection of her inner darkness and her loss upon her very appearance.
What a more definite loss could mean, now that her son is gone for good, remains a mystery.
For instance, unlike the nun who served as her superior, our Suzanne rejects the characteristic blues of the Order of the Cruciform Sword to don a heavy all-black outfit, more reminiscent of Orthodox priests than it is Roman Catholic nuns; her resurrection through Ava does not lighten her habit, if it does lighten her burden, so we can only assume, going forward, should there be any relation between how each character expresses their inner workings through clothing, that Jillian Salvius would keep the mixture of white and grey that season two brought along... Or go darker still.
#jillian salvius#warrior nun#i had already talked about this with a friend but i thought i'd better organise and illustrate my thoughts#i did have to go through both seasons in a single afternoon hunting all of jillian's scenes so i was tired by the time photoshop was opened#sorry for the terrible collage is what i mean to say#i do want to investigate the mother superion angle a little more sometime but i'm still unsure#anyway. i said it before and i'll say it again that i find film analysis difficult#it has its own grammar and i'm used to actual language written down in books but i try#hope this is fun to you as it was for me#and NO i couldn't help myself so i had to include the whole screencap when suzanne was in it lol#i love them and there is nothing you can do about it. they stand near one another and i cry. that is it.#analysis and similar#exercises in observation
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a random thing I just thought about: I had chicken pox when I was a kid, I think maybe 9 or 10? I remember being sent to my grandma's house for two weeks until I was better. I always thought that made sense so that my youngest brother, who would've been quite young, didn't get it too. but I just remembered that I'm pretty sure my other brother also had it at the same time?! and he stayed at home. so I think my mother just didn't want to deal with me when I was sick.
that would also explain a memory I have of lying on the couch when I was sick and my mother bringing me a bowl of soup. I was so confused. I remember that feeling so clearly. like 'what is she doing? why is she being so nice and giving me soup?'. I genuinely didn't get it.
every other time I was sick it was just: stay in bed with no entertainment or company whatsoever, and shitty home remedies - seriously, having onions strapped to my ears NEVER made my ear aches any better, and having thyme essential oils put on my pillow + in an oil burner thing in my room only made my face hurt (I'm allergic or at least very sensitive to most scents), and homeopathy... well obviously that didn't do anything.
so, I guess I'm glad I was at my grandma's for those two weeks. at least I got to lie on the couch and watch tv all day! and she was nice to me! I'm sure she made me lots of soup, or whatever I asked for.
#at home it always just felt like you were being punished for getting sick#my brothers and I had ear aches a lot (which I later learned is most likely because our mother smoked all the time including when she was#pregnant). and it just felt so awful. as if the pain on its own wasn't bad enough. the 'treatment' was worse for me. I cried every time#because I hated smelling like onion for days after... and it was so disgusting that I could barely sleep while I was sick.#also the first time I ever took painkillers I was maybe.. 16? and it was only because my friend gave me an ibuprofen. my mother would have#lost it if she had known.#anyway so yeah I guess it's no wonder I find medical things extremely difficult to deal with now!#(also I started thinking about this whole thing because it hurts when I move my eyes and that reminded me of when I had chicken pox at my#grandma's house. I don't remember the itchiness or anything now. just the stupid headache that got worse whenever I moved my eyes lol)#personal
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