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cancer sucks yo
#3 separate fiends#and i mean CLOSE friends#all had a parent get diagnosed with cancer#in the past year alone#2 out of these 3 lost said parent bc their diagnosis was stage 4#1 was my BEST friend and i grieved with him bc of that and being an empath#this was last january#the other was a family friends mom who was one of my other moms bc of how often i’d be at their house#one of 2 friends moms who i called mom to be funny but there was sm love there#she just passed away#luckily my 3rd friends mom had surgery that made it a lot better but still not gone#she’s doing well#but god fucking DAMN#3 friends all in the same time span#1 who broke my heart to see his family endure it#and another who i’m currently genuinely grieving bc i had a relationship a great one for a long time w her#even if me and my friend became different people and there was some conflict#this made all of it not matter anymore#i’m so happy i got to make peace with her and her mom a few months ago#that she didn’t leave this world with us on bad terms#cancer fucking SUCKS.
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As cameras becomes more normalized (Sarah Bernhardt encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use cameras because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by manufacturing companies. I paint not because I want a painting but because I love the process of painting. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.
if i have to explain to you that using a camera to take a picture is not the same as using generative ai to generate an image then you are a fucking moron.
#ask me#anon#no more patience for this#i've heard this for the past 2 years#“an object created and controlled by companies” anon the company cannot barge into your home and take your camera away#or randomly change how it works on a whim. you OWN the camera that's the whole POINT#the entire point of a camera is that i can control it and my body to produce art. photography is one of the most PHYSICAL forms of artmakin#you have to communicate with your space and subjects and be conscious of your position in a physical world.#that's what makes a camera a tool. generative ai (if used wholesale) is not a tool because it's not an implement that helps you#do a task. it just does the task for you. you wouldn't call a microwave a “tool”#but most importantly a camera captures a REPRESENTATION of reality. it captures a specific irreproducible moment and all its data#read Roland Barthes: Studium & Punctum#generative ai creates an algorithmic IMITATION of reality. it isn't truth. it's the average of truths.#while conceptually that's interesting (if we wanna get into media theory) but that alone should tell you why a camera and ai aren't the sam#ai is incomparable to all previous mediums of art because no medium has ever solely relied on generative automation for its creation#no medium of art has also been so thoroughly constructed to be merged into online digital surveillance capitalism#so reliant on the collection and commodification of personal information for production#if you think using a camera is “automation” you have worms in your brain and you need to see a doctor#if you continue to deny that ai is an apparatus of tech capitalism and is being weaponized against you the consumer you're delusional#the fact that SO many tumblr lefists are ready to defend ai while talking about smashing the surveillance state is baffling to me#and their defense is always “well i don't engage in systems that would make me vulnerable to ai so if you own an apple phone that's on you”#you aren't a communist you're just self-centered
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girls when the doc says its gonna take 3 years or so before the boobs grow in they ain't kidding. you're gonna spend 3 years going "damn... its been 3 years where are the boobs doc" and they're j gonna go "oh, well, yknow..." and flip the switch under their desk that turns on the boob growth or whatever and within a year you will have boobs. trust.
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Suspirium - Thom York
#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year#when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick#like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning#bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find#me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone#your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded#platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought#im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand#so i use the version i like better#original art
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Reuniting with a distorted past.
Extra:(New personality tested gone wrong)
wanted to play with rin living in the aftermath aus aswell and had these drawings laying around to share so yay
Panel 1: Was buried alive.
Comic 1: Who are you supposed to be?
new friends
Comic 2: Misguided protection.
obito still sensing the warning signs of rin losing her temper. anyways they proceeded to be dragged into the ocean by rin like some sea monster
Comic 3: Finding out (Now what will you do?)
obito is harshly brought back from his delusions because now its not just kushina but rin too who he needs to ripped out the tail beast from
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#hope i can add something new and if not may i shall add fuel to the fire for rin!! :)#So Rin loses ALL of her memories forever (kinda)#the only thing that remains for sure is the feeling of missing something that she'll never reach it again#she's alone and is left to roam directionless until she meets an elderly civilian that is also alone#she stays with her for a year+ but she passes away. But Rin with her new identity decides to walk forward (with love comes pain#but to love at all was the greatest thing to her.) She cherishes her new memories and won't let it stop her from moving on#inbetween this time frame she meets isobu in her mind after he gains enough form within her (who is also without memories)#Now WAY LATER she meets Sukea who looks like he's about to panic and she tries to help (which uh doesnt work too well)#but then Sukea joins her on her travels (sending minato an letter through his summons of rin being alive and forgetting the mission)#they both wander around (he doesnt know how to bring up their past) but then obito appears (always at the wrong times)#At first glance he's pissed but then realizes that this isnt fake AND its both the worse thing yet best thing to ever happen#Now Rin thinks she made two new friends who give her feelings of warmth but they both also reminded her of something old she thinks#PS Minato and Kushina are freaking out back in the village but can't do anything about it (Obito hasn't acted on his plans yet so yes)
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born to be in a cute wlw relationship…constantly attracted to emotionally unavailable women
#i am 3 for 3 in this past year alone :)#wlw#wlw and nblw only#wlw yearning#wlw post#wlw love#wlw blog#sapphic yearning#sapphic#lesbian
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I love how they could have gone any direction they wanted with the Ducktales Christmas specials, but decided TWICE to go with Scrooge McDuck toxic yaoi
#sorry for the HORRENDOUS image quality#but what happened to past really fucks me up#he was alone FOR YEARS#and for everyone else it was only a couple of hours#absolutely crazy#merry christmas!#ducktales#ducktales 2017#christmas#scrooge mcduck
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hands you all this cal to announce i’ve FINALLY finished fallen order (by which i mean i finally picked it up again after those couple hours i played a few months ago and then finished the whole game in 2 days lol)
#cal kestis#bd 1#jedi fallen order#jfo#star wars#my doods#anyway HOLY CRAP YOU MEAN STAR WARS WAS ALLOWED TO BE GOOD BEFORE ANDOR (2022-)??????????????? AND I DIDNT KNOW??#i love cal i loved the story i love how cinematic and amazing it looked good lord#i don't think i've ever played a game which gets such an amazing sense of scale across#like all the great temples or fallen starships were just Wow#like bracca ALONE gobsmacked me. seeing all these things i grew up watching in tcw as wreckage was like Ough Wow and THEY FELT SO HUGE#im just. wow!!#and THAT FINAL MISSION HUH. MOST FEAR INSPIRING VIDEOGAME ENCOUNTER EVER#my only criticisms are the awkward navigation/ level design in some areas and maybe the ending felt a bit lackluster somehow#i say somehow bc i dont get how lol#the reason im making this post past midnight is bc i got off work at 10pm and then immediately had to finish it LOL#anyway big heart emojis im very happy i sat down and actually played it finally#i want jedi survivor now LOL unfortunately it costs money and i have a rule i never buy games in release year lol#tbh i never rlly buy games til they're £20 or less
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☎️ i love natori's depressing ass apartment...
#natsume yuujinchou#natori shuuichi#matoba seiji#hexfest2k24#natomato#horrible exorcists#natsume's book of friends#star’s art#this tweet makes me laugh every time i read it i still remember seeing it and being like 🫵🫵🫵🫵 NATORI SHUUICHI#the cursephone... jsjshejrheje natori youre everything to me....#uoooaghh. i thiink this might be the last thing i can draw for the week... maybe i can do a late submission of a mini comic i really really#want to draw of his apt#but ill have to wait till school break for that probably#thank u guys for all the sweet comments on my posts.............. happy to pay my silly natomato taxes after#shipping them all alone by myself for the past two and a half years 😭😭
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I know we're supposedly in the era they're upfront with us and everything and maybe it is just the truth that they've decided marriage isn't for them but I will be keeping one foot on marriage hill with a sign saying "if no marriage then why always weird about marriage" just in case
#dan and phil#phan#titspoilers#and honestly the answer might just be to fuck with us but i simply cant look past it lol#my fiance nordvpn alone is gonna haunt me for years
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making descole and sycamore keychains for myself because why not ^^
timelapse under the cut!
#professor layton#jean descole#desmond sycamore#fanart#professor layton art#art#my art#the background and all that is just for the post im ripping these two into separate keychains as we speak#im actually really happy with these!!!! ive made chibi keychains of my ocs in the past so im glad i still can do that >:3#might also just make other layton charas into chibis if i have the time!!!#anyway turning my deranged archeologist into a keychain bc i miss him so much#also forgot to record the timelapse when i was sketching the design >>#but also i spent like 5 hours on descole alone bc i couldnt get him right i dont think ppl wanna see that ;w;#anyway happy new year everyone!!!! <33
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i hope this goes without saying but “if you see something, say something” exists within fandom spaces too. and i don’t mean outright cyber bullying.
i mean when you read something in a fic that feels off- be it a certain stereotype used, or a slur, or the erasure/changing of a character’s racial/sexual/gender/cultural identity/disability in favor of one that takes away from the content’s diversity instead of adding to it or leaving it the same.
i mean when you see art of a character and they’re very clearly much lighter in skin tone/have much more eurocentric features than the actual actor/character the art is based on, or a mobility aid they commonly use is never showcased when an artist draws them.
even if it’s not “against” you and the marginalized group you belong to. even if the creator says they put a lot of effort into their product, and you’re sure they did. look out for marginalized fans. send a kind and curious dm to a creator asking about why they chose whichever stereotype you saw. let your questioning make them question themselves so they can learn from the error. reach out. it’s not flaming or bashing fanwork- it’s protecting underrepresented fans from encountering content or creators that don’t welcome them. it opens things up for wider conversation and research and correction and continuing.
if you read it, give it notes, comment- say something.
#this isn’t after one singular person. more like a series of encounters over this past year#i feel like i personally always try and jump on every thing when there’s an opportunity to open someone’s eyes a bit but man. its hard#to do it alone all the time#this is a call to arms! being kind doesn’t mean not saying anything when u think smth is bad it’s speaking up to protect others.#fandom#newsies#bc i’m in that one#musical theater#musicals#broadway#broadway musicals
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who wants to see me cry????
#🥹🥲#they’ve really come so far in this past year alone#they’re all flourishing and growing and thriving#i love them so much wtf#jake kiszka#sammy kiszka#danny wagner#josh kiszka#greta van fleet#gvf
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compiled whatever this is (and I run out of tag space)
meh HoT gifs (3/?)
#alek gifs#ninjago#ninjago krux#ninjago acronix#hands of time#time twins#alternate title to this series is : stuff i noticed after watching this season 10 whole times#okay actually thats a lie. i realized this the 3rd time around#i think of acronix and how he barely makes any decisions for himself and i go crazy#ppl equate that with him feeling forced to do stuff.. uh hes always been a follower guys!!#cue him calling wu “master wu” even after the twins betrayal. him liking machia bc shes “mean” and bossy#he has no issue with following orders lol. prepare for a long acronix rant one day#contexts -> gif 1 barely counts i just wanted to include him looking at krux. he does this a lot during that fight#gif 2 is before they kill blunck and raggmunk (idk how to spell their names still ... sorry)#gif 3 is before they were going to kill wu in the golden hour legacy short. which is canon !!#gif 4 is before they sent themselves into the temporal vortex#that one post that was like “are we still doing revenge? yeah? cool” bc thats basically acronix#there is something fundamentally wrong with these two's brains but idk how to describe it#krux who literally lost his mind after losing his brother to the point he adopted an entire identity#“he just needed to go undercover!!” counter point as soon as acronix came back he was unable to pretend to be saunders. he acted super weird#like when kai was in the museum he couldnt pretend to be this person he wasnt. acronix was back !!! so was he. krux was 100% going to kill#the smith sibs if maya and ray didnt comply. also.. canonly they knew him when they worked as teachers back in s3. he watched them grow up#and pretended all was well meanwhile their parents were being forced to work and slave away to build the iron doom. he is not normal#then you have acronix who thrives off of violence and is described as throwing himself into battle like a blunt object. has no regard#for himself as a person and just takes (almost) everything his brother says as gospel. s7 couldve done smthn really cool with how#the only thing the twins ever really disagreed on was technology. also ive went on a semirant about how krux's hatred for tech was misplaced#hatred for losing acronix. wanted to travel to the pre modern era? okay well whyd he pick 40 years ago specifically. also NOTE that they#went back after their past selves had lost. they wouldve faired better if they went and helped their past selves. also the reversal blade#had already fallen so when the twins went back in time there was two kruxes. he literally went back to when he had been all alone for the#for the first time. he went back to when his life was ruined and his brother was gone!! but he had nix with him this time . ughdhf
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hi it's sappy hours. i've spent an hour sat in front of the mirror sobbing and i just. i don't say enough how much this space helps me.
because i see the dms and i see the comments and i see how safe people feel. and i talk to people who are questioning or i help people literally draft their coming out letters/texts and i always say "it's nothing !! don't worry !! it's nothing :D !!"
but it's actually everything because this is the only space i really have where i can be Robyn and i know i come on and talk about trans things in a coherent way and i seem really confident and like i've got it all figured out but i spend most nights either scrolling apps aimlessly for a bit of hope or i'm sat on call with helplines for hours and then suddenly it's 9am and it's time to Face The World again.
and idk. rambling here but everything sucks and every day for the past like,,, six months has been so difficult. and i don't say enough how much this space and my tiktok space help me too and i just 🫂🫂 it helps so fucking much i hope yall know that. i love yall.
#sappy hours sorry#like ive taken to calling myself my deadname in my room alone to see how it feels#and i go days sometimes weeks without putting my t on#and i threw away my binders and my tape and had to replace them#and i do so many little things to try and convince myself im wrong im wrong this is all wrong i can Do This i can Be Cis#and then i come online and like... strangers wanna talk to me.#i was talking to my nan today about the gofundme and i just cried because me??? you donated to help me be me?? you want that for me??#and ive had so many horrible things happen this past year because im trans and it feels so hopeless no matter how coherent my yaps are#and im just really fucking glad i have these spaces and i dont say it enough#and i am not an emotive person gang so this is the big leagues#thank you :((( 🫂🫂🫂
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you ever think about the fact that they stayed in the past for several days longer than they needed to and it’s very much implied that swaine was the one holding them back. bc I do
#twirls my hair in my fingers maybe I’m planning on writing a fic centered on swaine and young marcassin during those several days#very staunchly behind the idea that swaine likely didn’t know when the emperor died bc he’d already left hamelin#and there was no one to break the news to him. so the guilt of leaving marcassin alone on that day absolutely eats him alive inside#bc even now that he knows. he has to leave him again. marcassin is going to be alone for those 15 years whether he likes it or not.#swaine trying to comfort marcassin in the past while also burying his own grief while also fully aware that he has to leave him again#marcassin is aware that swaine is his brother bc. I mean he was there when the emperor called swaine his son#but is politely trying to ignore it#idk. I have fun here#this is just a quick concept doodle but. maybe I’ll draw something more elaborate for it#ni no kuni#ni no kuni swaine#ni no kuni marcassin#my art
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