#in case anyone asks i like them a normal amount. (<-lie)< /div>
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5, 8, 16, 17 for that ask game :] i dont know a lot of your ocs yet so surprise me!
hell yesssss lets GO
5: Does your oc have a signature weapon and/or attack? How long did they have to train to master it?
I answered this one for Liliana already! SO I'll give you Brooke!
Brooke's weapon of choice is a hand-and-a-half sword she's had for years and years and years. It was granted to her when she reached the level of skill in her guild that allowed her to go on formal hunts. It being hand-and-a-half means its versatile: it can be used two-handed or one-handed. She values adaptability and flexibility in a fight, and is very bad at both of these things in everywhere else in her life. Being in a familial-based guild, she's honed her skills over, again, years and years and years and years, pretty much since she could physically perform the necessary motions. Even after dividing from it, she keeps the sword, as well as the pendant and armor, because to fully divest herself from the image of the guild feels like lying, like hiding some nasty truth, and she doesn't want to do that anymore. She keeps these things as symbols of what she was, but in doing so prevents herself from being able to be anything but that.
8: What was your ocs most embarrassing moment? Does it still bother them or are they able to shrug it off?
So I don't have a One Right Answer BUT I'll say that Diana is pretty intimately familiar with embarrassment and humiliation on a small scale? The thing about needing to do things Correctly and the emphasis placed on respectability and decency and being polite and doing what you're told and not making a fuss and Form and Function is that well. It gives you a lot of little ways in which you can fail and be punished for it. Typically the punishment is failing in of itself. Diana, by nature of the culture she lived in, was weighed down by reputation in a manner where her own leaks out to her family, meaning people other than her have a stake in it. It's kind of a self-assuring cycle even without that, but. It is also enforced. Did I even answer the question? Peace and love on planet earth.
16: How does your oc make money?
Julian is maybe the only bitch in here who had an actual normal source of income for a significant portion of the plot. Once he fucked off to the sea he hops around ships going wherever and is paid to work them- he gravitated more towards cargo ships because they sailed farther and longer than ferries or other passenger ships. Eventually he joins the Siren's Song- an interislandary that, because it's rougher work out far far longer and requires just a bit more experience and is less appealing to most, paid a bit more. He didn't really join it for the pay, though. It had a certain energy in the air that, at the time, he envied. This turns out to be a bad choice.
17: Does your oc have an enemy?
I also answered this one for Liliana teehee so. This other guy ->
Julian beefs with everybody all the time forever but there's this One Fucking Guy on the Siren's Song that he just. Hates for all he's worth. It IS two-way because Julian also gets on Warren's nerves All The Fucking Time. Sometimes it's on purpose, because seeing how far he can push him without real consequences is fun, but sometimes it's not, because they are two people with very different ideas of how they function in the world. To Julian, Warren is a sort of needless cruelty, nose where it doesn't belong, breaking unspoken rules that exist for a reason type of person. To Warren, Julian is a kind of high horse, careless for the other men in the crew, manipulating his favor with the people in power to get what he wants type of person. Honestly, they're both right. They don't get to just throw hands about it because they are crewmates- you can't fight amongst yourselves at sea, it hinders the function of the ship, the first mate stops anything from starting (the captain... he doesn't care as much. he'll let it happen if it's entertaining enough). So they just sit there boiling hatred at each other until eventually.,.. well the first mate can't always be around.
OC ASK GAME :]
#ask#ocs#YAYY YIPPEE THANKS KINGGGGG#in case anyone asks i like them a normal amount. (<-lie)#AUCH i was gonna go for dante for that last one because Does She Ever. but truly i still don't know what her fucking problem is#i know WHAT i want to go down. but i do not have a good why. dante my beloved bitch why did you do that. what did they do to u
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Can I request headcanons for Kurt, Remy, Logan, and Wade reacting to his gender neutral crush kissing him because they're so in love with him before apologising when they realised what they just did please?
Ofc!!
X-Men with a gn!crush!Reader who suddenly kisses them đ€Żđ€Żđ€Ż
Includes: Remy LeBeau, Wade Wilson, Logan Howlett, and Kurt Wagner
A/n: I love them a normal amount. This took me a long time to write because tumblr kept deleting all of my work đđđ But, itâs here now. Hope you freaks annoy it. Requests are OPEN đ
Remy:
It happens one day when you guys are in the kitchen cooking together
Remy (ever the opportunist) is helping you out by occasionally guiding your hands or gently grabbing your waist/hips whenever he moves past you. And you're definitely not complaining
Overall, the vibes are very flirtatious and cutesy, and you sort of get caught up in it.
After the food is in the oven and Remy is washing dishes, you walk over and kiss him.
Remy damn near drops the bowl he was rinsing, but he manages to keep his cool and almost immediately starts kissing you back
You're the first to pull away because it suddenly clicks for you that you're kissing your friend, so you break the kiss to start apologizing
"What you apologizing for, mon Ami?"
"I kissed you."
"And? I certainly didn't mind."
Remy has liked you for a while. That was pretty obvious to everyone. Everyone except you, since you thought he was just being flirty with you like he was with nearly everyone.
But, that's obviously not the case. He makes sure to make that very clear.
Once all of your feelings are cleared up, Remy pulls you closer to him by your hips and smirks softly. "You wanna try and kiss me again? For real this time?"
His ass did NOT finish those dishes đ
Logan:
He comes back from a long mission, exhausted and not really in the mood for dealing with anyone
Well, that is until he sees you walking down the hallway. Then he decides he can maybe deal with one more person.
You're happy to see him back, wrapping your arms around him in a warm embrace that he didn't know he needed
"Ugh, I missed you!"
âYou say that every time I come back from a mission."
"Yeah, because it's true."
He missed you too, but you don't need to know that.
You pull back from him just to lean in and kiss him.
That's probably the last thing he expected you to do. I mean, yeah he really like you, but he'd always been certain that you'd never want a guy like him.
After a moment of shock, he starts kissing you back, arms tightening around you
You pull away to ask "is this okay?" And he doesnât even let you finish, just pulls you in for another kiss.
Sorry. Heâs just wanted this for such a long time.
Wade:
He's liked you for a pretty long time. But, he knows you probably wonât like him back with how he looks. And he tells himself heâs fine with that.
But, since you two have been friends for a while, you get curious. So, you ask if you can see his face.
He agrees eventually and pulls his mask off to show you.
Normally he doesn't get so nervous to show people his real face. But, it's different with you. He doesn't think he can just laugh off your disgust.
When he pulls his mask off and your eyes widen, he immediately assumes the worst
"Yeah. Hideous, I know. Not the chiseled supermodel that I sound like under the-"
"Wade, you're like, hot."
"Excuse me?"
He can't believe it. Actually, he doesn't believe it. After you repeat yourself, he starts telling you that he doesn't need you to lie to him and that's when you cut him off with a kiss.
He pulls away immediately just because of utter shock "Woah! Cool down, hot stuff. What are you doing?"
You tell him you've always liked him, and that you still like him (maybe even like him more) now that he's shown you his face.
He's over the moon.
"Well, why didn't you tell me sooner? We could've been doing this all along!"
"Doing what?"
And then he kisses you again. Heheheheehehehe đ
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Kurt:
Kurt loves helping you with anything and everything whenever he can. Itâs one of the ways he shows his appreciation for you.
So, when you receive a (very minor) injury during training, heâs at your side almost immediately
He drags you away and makes you sit down, treating your small cut as if it were a leg that had fallen off
âDonât move, Schatz. I will be back with a first aid kit.â
âKurt, you donât need to-â
âStay, please.â
So, you let him patch you up, and he does far too much for a wound that you could probably just slap a bandaid over
But, you donât mind. You admire him as heâs crouched down to the floor, delicately treating the small cut on your knee
And then he looks up at you with those bright, yellow eyes and he smiles. And you canât help yourself. You lean down to him and kiss him.
This poor boy is so surprised he canât do anything. He just freezes up. So, you assume youâve done something wrong and you pull away.
âIâm so sorry. I thought- I was just-â
âPlease do that again.â
âWhat?â
âPlease.â
And you do đ§ââïž
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I know the mike initiating a kiss or making the first move is a popular thing among bylers but i dont think that would be/should be the case AND HERES WHY đ€â *mcyter with lists voice* (i get sidetracked so bear with me)
For starters; we've come to a conclusion that mike has internalized homophobia and there's plenty of evidence to back this up, he wants to be "normal" and in the 80s being gay was abnormal, this is a commonly known thing that's mentioned a lot amongst bylers and its precisely the reason i dont think mike would be the one to make the first move
Mike does everything in his power to be a normal person which is why i think he was willing to lie to el so easily in season 3
This is where i get sidetracked but really its just backup analyzing for this
Before gay marriage was legal, lavender marriages were everywhere or at least a fairly common thing, in case you dont know lavender marriages are marriages that were used to cover the sexuality of one or both of the people getting married, which i think ties in with mike and els dynamic (will get to that later)
Mike uses el as a cover or a way to be normal, its what he grew up around and its what he saw on tv gay relationships just werent considered normal
In season 3 mike lies to el so he can continue to see her, to continue to have a cover or something that convinces him hes "normal", and all they really did was make-out because "thats what couples do"
You have the season 3 rain fight which ive seen multiple people mention that mike was blatantly reflecting but ive never seen anyone explain it more - will says something about mike and el (seemingly) constantly kissing, referring to el as "a stupid girl" and while mike did defend el, he couldve just left it at "els not stupid", "its not my fault you dont like girls" did not need to be there. He felt like will was seeing through the amount of effort he had been putting into normal and panicked, saying something he didnt mean and we can visibly see he didnt mean it
In season 4 theres the rollerrink fight, another instance where mike says something he didnt mean or like to say - will complains about mike not sending him letters whereas el has "a whole book of them", mike tells him "thats because shes my girlfriend" to which will asks "and us?" Which mike once again saw as will seeing through mike and he panicked, feeling the need to clarify that theyre just friends and wont be more, wills follow up shows hes more upset mike doesnt treat him like theyre best friends than the idea of them dating, wills already accepted the idea that mike doesnt like him the way he likes mike
The letters isnt because mike didnt want to talk to will, he most definitely tried (sitting by the phone and whining about joyce being on the phone all the time making it busy) but its because EVERYONE in hawkins knows who will is and theyll hear about it him growing up, hes the boy who was dead for a week and came back literally all over the newspapers as "zombie boy"
Mike would not be able to get away with being seen as "normal" while writing and receiving letters from another boy, especially if someone found out because for all he knows they could be the wrong person and suddenly all the work he puts into being "normal" has been washed away
With all that said; mike and will both have internalized homophobia on different ends, will knows and accepts it knowing he cant change it but he also hates it, and mike knows but denies it - i dont think mike would be the one to make the first move, i think it would be will
Idk thats it thats all i got
Will byers making the first move đđ
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MysticTober 2024 Day 8/9: His Muse
You can read this over on Ao3 if youâd prefer.
Rating: T
Prompt: Jihyun x MC / Painting || Fate / Lie
WordCount: 8028
Summary: Jihyun needs a muse for his new painting collection. Author's Notes: So, Day 8 got away from me and became both that and day 9. Sorry it's a day late... but not sorry it's over 8000 words.
Hen knocked on the studio door, then stood and fidgeted nervously with the strings of her hoodie. Sheâd replied to this advertisement on the Art Departmentâs bulletin board for a model, specifically one who could stand for long periods of time without moving. Honestly, she was pretty sure that most people these days just took reference photos and painted from that, but if some student wanted to pay her an exorbitant-seeming amount of money to stand in one place with her clothes on (the ad had been very specific that while there would be an outfit provided, it was modest), she wasnât about to complain.
Her friends had been on her case about applying. Sheâd always wanted to be a model, but she wasnât model material. She was in that nebulous middle-point, Far too big to be a classic fashion model, but still too small to be an acceptable plus-size model. And she didnât hate her body by any means. So she let them nag her into it. Sheâd sent what the flier asked for. Her name (preferred, even, not even her wallet name) and then a headshot and a full body shot. Sheâd tried to be as confident as she could while her friends took photos for her, but even now, having landed the job, she was nervous.
What if he was a creep? Art students could be anyone really, andâŠ
The door opened to reveal a man in wire-frame glasses with teal hair and eyes and a warm smile. Wait a minuteâŠÂ
âV?!â Hen had studied his pictures for one of her photography classes, theyâd done a unit on current artists, andâŠ
He chuckled looking chagrined. âCall me Jihyun, please.â He led her inside and shut the studio door again before continuing. âV did photos. Iâm⊠well, Iâve moved on from that and Iâm pursuing painting, which has been my passion far longer, though I didnât have the guts to change mediums until recently.â
âOh.â Hen said, just as awkwardly as she felt. âI didnât mean to be rude, IâŠâ
âNot rude.â Jihyun interrupted. âI was V. I am still, technically, that same man. I simply am using my given name now.âÂ
He sighed, and shook himself loose from whatever thought seemed to be plaguing him. âWe got off on the wrong foot.â He held out his hand for her to shake. âHi, Iâm Jihyun Kim, the artist who will be painting you for the next few hours.â
She took his hand with a grin and a firm shake. âIâm Hen. And Iâm very good at standing still.â
The outfit that heâd chosen for her to wear was very fantasy. Flowing skirts, a corseted belt over a lightweight top. She felt like a peasant girl in a magic world, and she loved it. Heâd positioned her standing at a window, and sheâd gotten to people-watch campus while he painted her. Sheâd expected a need to be quiet or mostly still, but he told her to go ahead and fidget if she needed to, and kept her engaged in a number of different light topics as he worked, almost as though he was trying to keep her entertained.
Eventually, as the light was waning, Jihyun stood. âAlright, thatâs time. Thank you so much for all of your help today.â He smiled. âDo you need assistance with the belt or anything else getting back out of the costume?â
Hen waved him off. âNah, Iâm good. Give me two shakes and Iâll be out of your hair.â
Once she was back to her normal self, she was sad to see that Jihyun had already closed up his work, so that she couldnât see it. He immediately spotted her looking, however.
âIâll show you when itâs done. I was intending to invite you to whatever gallery it shows in, of course, as the model.â
Hen grinned. âIt would be my honor!â
Jihyun handed her the envelope containing her payment, all smiles. âHonestly, Miss Hen, youâre an amazing model. May I call on you again for another piece? Same terms, but the next one likely wonât be standing.â
Hen nodded, sheâd had a great time, and the pay was definitely worth it. âIâd love to.â She said, honestly. âI enjoyed today!â
Jihyun nodded, and they parted ways. Hen couldnât help but smile, her friends were going to be so surprised when she told them she might even get a callback.
The second time that Hen stood as a model for Jihyun had her sitting on a bench in an awkward position. It was uncomfortable at first, but she made it work. Eventually, Jihyun admitted to her that the piece involved the woman sitting in a tree, but he couldnât justify making her sit somewhere ostensibly dangerous for hours on end, so heâd made the bench setup like the branch he had in mind. Once he explained that to her, she found it much easier to settle into a pose that was actually useful for him.
She may have caught him grumbling to himself about wasting less time if he could just trust her more. She didnât blame him, of course, Artists were often secretive, and she knew it was hard to trust someone you didnât really know. Goodness knows sheâd only met this man twice and definitely didnât trust him with anything personal, so she didnât blame him. Not even a little.
When the time was up and Jihyun started cleaning up, Hen realized she was stiff as she changed back out of the costume.Â
âHey, Jihyun, do you mind if I do some stretches on the floor here before I head out? Iâm a little bit stiff.â
âAh. Go right ahead. Let me know if thereâs anything I can do to help. Your stiffness is the consequence of my art, after all.
Hen sank to the ground, grateful that sheâd worn leggings today instead of jeans. She worked her way through some yoga poses, careful of the fact that she didnât have a mat of any variety, only realizing she was humming as she finished the last of the stretches because of Jihyunâs quiet chuckle.
âIâm glad youâre so comfortable in my studio.â He said, chuckling.Â
Hen blushed even as she nodded. âYou make it easy, Jihyun. This is by far the highlight of my week.â
âEven with the odd held poses?â He was surprised.
âEven so.â Hen nodded. âIâd be honored if you wanted to call me in again.â
Jihyun smiled so brightly at that, Hen couldnât help but smile in return.
The next sitting was more stereotypical, and Hen couldnât hold back her giggles as Jihyun helped her pose in a very Ancient Grecian looking gauzy dress while half-laying on a chaise lounge.
âWhat is it?â
âItâs just⊠if you told someone they were going to model for a painting, theyâd probably imagine something like this.â
âAh.â He nodded. âYes, I suppose it might be. I hope that the outcome of the painting far exceeds my pedestrian posing layouts.
âIâm certain it will.â Hen had no doubts that the man had an impressive artistic eye - his photographs were stunning enough that sheâd written an entire paper on them her freshman semester of college. Sure, her major had nothing to do with art, but one didnât see one of Vâs photos and not know the man was gifted. âIf nothing else, Jihyun, itâs fine to have one simpler piece in a collection.â
He chuckled, and Hen settled in to hold her position. It was surprisingly comfortable, and she knew it wasnât going to be too difficult, especially because he was good about giving her breaks.
For the first time in their sessions, Jihyun was quiet and focused on the painting, which gave Hen time to think about everything going on in her classes, in life, in that book she was reading⊠eventually she started to feel sleepy. She knew she should say something, get up and take a walk, get some water, anything so that she didnât cause a problem for Jihyun.
Instead, she found herself drifting off to sleep while watching him paint with the most blissfully calm look on his face that sheâd ever seen on another human being.
What felt like a blink and also an eternity later, Hen woke to the soft shake of a shoulder, Jihyun crouched down next to her.
âHey, Miss Hen.â
She startled, coming to consciousness all at once. âOh, no, Jihyun! Iâm so sorry, I didnât mean to fall asleep!â
âItâs alright, you held the pose I needed, and you just looked so happy I couldnât bear to wake you. Good dreams, I hope?â
Hen shook her head, holding a hand to her chest to will her heart to calm down from its momentary panic. âNo dreams. One minute I was watching you paint, and the next you were waking me up. I feel insanely well rested though. Probably going to be up late tonight.â She chuckled.
âHm, I should have been responsible and woken you.â He sighed, but continued before Hen could argue. âWould you let me take you to dinner as an apology?â
âWhat time is it?â Hen asked, sitting up properly so she could stretch the sleep out of her bones.
âJust about six.â Jihyun said, backing up to give her space.
âI could do dinner, I donât have any other plans.â She said, and the smile that bloomed across his face warmed her soul. Yeah, sheâd do a lot just to see that smile more.
Dinner was lovely. They went to a little hole-in-the-wall bibimbap restaurant that seemed to know Jihyun well, but wasnât so expensive as to make Hen feel out of place. It was even on an easy bus route home again, so she wasnât even particularly going out of her way, either.
They chatted over dinner about this and that, nothing important, the same calm, cheerful kinds of conversations that they usually had while he was painting. That just cemented for Hen that Jihyun was just like that and he wasnât just chatting to keep her from getting bored. It made her wonder why he wasnât chatty during their session today, but by the time they got to a break in conversation where she might have asked, sheâd already forgotten.
When the bill came, Hen snatched it away before Jihyun could pick it up, and handed the whole bill to their waitress - a granny who she suspected was simply the owner of the place - with a smile. The granny even turned a look on Jihyun like she was surprised he was letting her pay. Jihyun looked stunned. âHen, you donât need to buy my dinner.â
âBut I want to.â She smiled. âWeâre friends, now, right?â
Jihyun smiled in that way that made her feel alight, and she blushed and fidgeted with her hoodie strings. By the time she realized it, the granny had gone and come back⊠and she was only paying for her half of dinner. Jihyun smirked at her, and Hen wondered if sheâd been played. As they packed up to leave, Jihyunâs phone started ringing, and his face took on an ominous look.
âSorry, you head on home, I have to take this⊠and it might be awhile.â
Hen nodded and waved, waving again to the granny on her way out.
That had been a fun dinner. She hoped his phone call wasnât too painful.
It had been a few months since Hen sat for Jihyun, and almost as long since sheâd heard from the man. Sheâd thought it was Fate when they met and hit it off that well, even just professionally, but then heâd disappeared. Hen tried to convince herself that it was fine, but at this point even she would admit she was moping. She really enjoyed his company, and couldnât help but feel like sheâd done something wrong. Had accepting his dinner invitation been too forward? But sheâd even paid for her own meal⊠Hen had been worrying about this, of course, for weeks now, with only her coursework to keep her mind occupied and off of her presumed faux pas, whatever it might be. And unfortunately, winter break had just started so she had an entire month to mope about and worry about a problem with no guarantee of resolution.
At least she had her favorite coffee shop to curl up and read in. She usually got tea, but today she splurged on an extra sugary coffee drink, and the woman behind the counter chuckled. âAm I celebrating with you or commiserating, Hen?â
âUgh.â Hen grumbled.Â
âCommiserating it is!â The woman behind the counter quietly put an extra pump of caramel into the drink - Hen didnât comment, not sure if it was intentional, but she wasnât going to turn down more caramel goodness.
An hour or so later, Henâs reading was interrupted by someone sitting down across from her. She ignored them for a moment, but when they didnât move she put her bookmark in and looked up, only to let out a surprised squeak as she realized the person sitting there was none other than Jihyun, patiently waiting for her to pause.
Before she could say anything, the woman behind the counter appeared and set a coffee down in front of him. âDonât scare away my regulars, Jihyun.â She said sternly, then returned behind the counter.
Before Hen could say anything, Jihyun immediately spoke up.
âIâm so glad that I found you.â He winced. âI threw my phone in the ocean in a fit of temper. Did you know that there is such a thing as backing up your contacts? I⊠did not do this thing. And as such, I had to simply hope to run into you. It took some time.â
He slid a brand new phone across the table to her. âMy friend set it up so I canât do that again, even if I do something as stupid as throwing my phone into the ocean again. May I have your number again?â
Hen sighed, and immediately added herself as a contact. âSo youâre saying you didnât respond to my texts not because you were upset with me, but because you didnât know who they were from?â She looked over at her phone as the message she sent herself pinged in as an unknown number.
Jihyun had the grace to look embarrassed. âI needed a new number.â
âDid something happen?â Hen added his new number to her contacts, and changed the old one to read âDavy Jonesâ Lockerâ, just in case some fish tried to text her later.
Jihyun sighed. âThe unreasonable unbelievable drama that is my life simply continues to happen.â He took a sip of his drink and sighed happily. Jaehee could really make a mean latte.
Hen chuckled. âEveryoneâs got some weird rats in their closet, I swear. Iâm glad you reappeared, I was worried.â
âYou were?â His eyes lit up for a moment, but then dimmed. âIâm sorry, Miss Hen. I didnât mean to worry you.â
âHey, itâs fine, you reappeared before I could mope myself into a corner.â
âWhy would you be moping?â Jihyun was clearly confused.
âWell, I mean, I bullied my way into paying for my own dinner and then you disappeared. I was sure Iâd said something stupid, or maybe that I shouldnât have gone to dinner.â
âGod, no, Hen. That dinner was one of the best nights Iâve had in a long time, I just had to leave for a trip the next morningâŠâ
âHis not wanting you to pay is just some misplaced chivalry.â The counter lady said, stopping by to leave a to-go cup refill of Henâs coffee. âThis oneâs on the house. For celebrating this time, and for putting up with him.â She winked, and Jihyun looked scandalized.
âJaehee! Are you buying my⊠are you buying Henâs loyalty with coffee now?â
The woman - Jaehee apparently - cackled. âYes.â The look she was wearing told Hen that she had no idea what their relationship was, and was assuming all kinds of things that Hen didnât want to have to be the one to dissuade her from.
âListenâŠâ Jihyun took a deep breath. âBetween the trip and needing to find you back, Iâm way behind on painting work, and the galleryâs already booked. You wouldnât happen to be⊠staying in town for winter break? I could book you⊠a lot⊠if you had time.â He looked like he expected her to say no, like he was already letting himself down before she could.
âIâm so game.â she said, laughing awkwardly. âI have, well, nothing going on for the next month until classes start up again.â
âNo family events, or friend things, orâŠâ Jihyun looked surprised.Â
âNope. Just lil ol me and my TBR.â
âTBR?â
âTo Be Read. All the books I havenât read this past semester because of classwork.â
Jihyun laughed at his own expense. âI should have known what that was. Fair, fair. Um.â He took a deep breath. âSo, I canât use my campus studio during break. Would you be okay coming to my apartment? Itâs safe, I promise, and if you donât feel safe you can leave, I wonât be upset.â Hen nodded, but winked at him before calling out to Jaehee behind the counter. âHey Jaehee, can I trust this guy?â
Jihyun paled as though he had no idea what Jaehee would say.
âWith your life.â Jaehee responded, without a pause. âBut if you need an emergency text check-in hit me up before you leave.â Something relaxed in Jihyun, and Hen wondered if heâd let her give him a hug, but the moment was lost when he stood and bussed her empty mug.
Jihyunâs apartment was the 79th floor of an 80-floor high rise building. The entire 79th floor. Well, apparently his apartment was half of it and the other half was studio space, but still. She went directly to the windows and looked out over downtown, her eyes shining when she looked back at him.
âJihyun, we should have done that first painting hereâŠ. this is such a great view!!â The painter smiled. âIâm glad you think that, actually⊠because I was hoping to do a triptych of that one, and so Iâd need you to stand for two more at windows, and, wellâŠâ
He looks so nervous! Hen thought, and smiled, shaking her head and then nodding.
âListen, Jihyun. I will sit for you to paint as often as you need me this month, as long as I donât starve to death, and get to sleep properly.â
âThatâs a low bar. Iâm still going to pay you. Same rates. Also, since weâre not on campus Iâm covering at least one meal a sitting. No arguments or pulling what you did at Yuâs!â
Hen blushed. âI still think it was only fair.â
Jihyun laughed, and walked over to a closet. âSo, this closet has the outfits for the otherâŠâ he winced. âFour paintings I have in mind.â
âThatâs only like one a week, do you have other obligations? We both already know I donât.â
Jihyun chuckled. âWell, I can get the part of the work I need you modeling for done in our usual 6-hour blocks, so we could do those, say⊠every other day? That should give me plenty of time for finishing work on all of them and still be able to get them to the gallery on time.â
âDo you want to start today, since Iâm here?â
Jihyun looked at the clock. âOnly if you let me buy lunch and take you to dinner after.â
âYou drive a hard bargain, Mr. Kim.â He raised an eyebrow, and she relented. âYes, okay, okay. I want to see your gallery look good. I donât know why youâre not the one begging here.â
Jihyun blinked. âI⊠really should be, shouldnât I? Youâre too good to me, Miss Hen.â
âJust call me Hen. Itâs already a nickname.â
âIt is? No wonder I couldnât find you.â
Hen laughed so hard she sat down abruptly on the floor. âJihyun Kim. You seriously thought my given name was Hen. Like a chicken.â
âYes. Why would I assume otherwise?â
Hen just made flustered hand motions while she laughed at him.
âItâs Henrietta.â She said, once she could breathe properly. âHenrietta Chatham.â
âI like Hen better.â Jihyun said through a pout.
âMe too! Thatâs why I introduce myself that way! If you start calling me Miss Henrietta, Iâll quit.â
âPlease donât.â Jihyun said, helping her up off the floor. âHen.â
She blushed at their proximity, and turned toward the closet so he wouldnât notice. âSo, which outfit first?â
Jihyun pulled out an outfit that was leggings and a leotard and a cropped leather jacket. âCyberpunk? Or 80s Workout?â She asked, and as usual he gave her a shrug. No insight from the artist. No hints. No spoilers. She would get to see the paintings at the gallery opening with everyone else, and no sooner.
Hen was changing back into her regular clothes when she heard a knock at the door. Grateful that this wasnât her house and thus she was spared from needing to rush to get clothes on and the inevitable falling over that would come with it, Hen simply continued at her leisurely undressing and redressing pace⊠which also meant she was able to eavesdrop on the conversation.
âAh, good evening, Jihyun.â A warm baritone that matched Vâs friendly tenor practically sang into the apartment.
âJumin. Good to see you well. What can I help you with?â
âMiss Kang told me you found your muse.â
âI did. At Jaeheeâs coffee shop, no less. I owe her.â
Muse? Does he consider me his Muse?? Hen felt her cheeks heat as she considered what that meant, if it meant anything. She hurried a little bit faster to get herself put back together.
âWell, I suppose you shouldnât have any problems getting five more pieces done in time for the gallery opening, assuming sheâs amenable to sitting for more paintings?â
She heard Jihyun laugh as she opened the bathroom door and made her way over to the costume closet without even glancing at the door.
âIâd say she is, we already got one session in today.â His volume changed as he turned and called out to her. âHen, come over here when youâre done there, would you?â
She turned, surprised to see that Jihyunâs guest was in a three-piece suit, albeit one decorated with white cat fur.
âHi.â She said, holding out a hand. âIâm Hen.â
He shook her hand, professional to a T. âJumin Han.â Then, he turned back to Jihyun. âYou should tell Luciel youâve found her so he stops sending photos of random chickens to the chat and asking if theyâre her. Heâs been at it for approximately two hours now.â
Hen couldnât help it, she burst out laughing. âSeriously?! Will you show me? We can pick which chicken looks most like me.â
JIhyun smiled that smile she loved so much. âWe can look over dinner.â He turned to Jumin. âWould you like to join us? Weâre going out for barbecue.â
Jumin shook his head. âElizabeth is waiting for me. But thank you. Maybe next time.â
They watched as he turned and went back to the elevator and rode itâŠup. âHe lives above you?â Hen asked, as they waited for the elevator to return for them to take it down instead.
âYes.â Jihyun said with a smile. âWe were childhood friends, Jumin and I.â
âAnd now?â
âStill friends. Less so children.â
Hen giggled, and tried to keep herself from thinking of this dinner as a date. It was just.. a work dinner.
The rest of the week flew by, and before Hen knew it she was back on her own, her sittings were all done and now she had all the free time in the world to get her reading done, but she couldnât stop thinking of Jihyun. She hadnât really been being honest with herself about him, it seemed, but now that she had some time to think clearly, it was plain as day. She was in love with the painter. He made her smile and laugh in a way no one else had. None of her previous partners even held a candle to the way he made her feel.
Sure, she might be his muse, not that heâd said as much to her even after sheâd heard Jumin say it, but regardless⊠that was an art thing, not a personal thing. And now that this collection was done, other than the gallery opening heâd wanted her to come to, she may not ever see him again. Hen sighed, and like clockwork, her phone started ringing. Who called these days? Oh. It was Jihyun!
âHey Jihyun!â
âHi⊠I have⊠a selfish request.â
âShoot.â
âI need your help. Iâm trying to get all the finishing work done and for the life of me I cannot focus. I thought maybe getting someone to body double for me would help, but all of my friends are normal boring adults with day jobs. Jumin offered his cat, but sheâs white and a mischief and I do not think that would be a good idea around all the paintâŠâ
âJihyun. Slow down. Calm down, itâs okay. What do you actually need from me?â
âCome and sit here and hang out? You can bring your books. I know you were eyeing that oversized chair, Iâll clear it out so you can relax. Maybe⊠get coffee from Jaeheeâs on the way? Iâll pay you back, I swear, I⊠Hell, Iâll even pay your sitting fee just to chill with me for the day.â
âJihyun! Thatâs not how friendship works! You donât need to pay me to hang out with you. But you can take me to dinner. Iâll be there in 20 minutes.â
âThank you. Youâre a lifesaver.â
âPeppermint! Bye!â She hung up to the sound of his laughter, and if she wasnât about to walk through his door with two coffees and a tote bag full of paperbacks to devour, sheâd hate to end the call. Yeah. She had it bad.
Hen knocked on Jihyunâs door in the most inelegant fashion possible: with her forehead. Sheâd considered kicking it, but that would have sloshed the coffees too much.
Of course, Jihyun opened by her third knock, and instead she stumbled forward a step when her head met air.
âWere you knocking with your head?â
âShhh.â
âNooo. Your poor face.â
âI said shhhhh.â She allowed him to take his coffee, and laughed when she spotted the oversized chair in her usual posing space. âIâm modeling my dumb reading faces for you today.â
âI told you Iâd pay your sitting fee.â He winked at her when she blustered, and instead she blushed. âWhat? Youâre going to be sitting!â
âYou. Are a brat.â
âThatâs what they tell me.â
âWhat, your RFA Friends?â She said, thinking back to the chatroom entirely full of chicken photos.
âOnly ones Iâve got.â
âYouâve got me!â Hen argued, and Jihyun turned a look on her that she couldnât decipher, not even paired with the radiant smile.
âYouâre different. Youâre my Muse, Hen.â
âWell, youâre my⊠artist⊠i guess.. thereâs not a good word for that. Iâm sticking with friend.â She grinned at him, and he laughed.Â
âWell, get to reading, Muse, I better get myself actually working so you didnât come here for no reason.â
Hen settled and then realized the scale of the canvas he was currently working on.Â
âDamn, Jihyun, thatâs huge. Is it the centerpiece?â
âIt is!â
âAnd you still wonât let me sneak a peek?â
âOf course not! and ruin the effect of the collection as a whole on opening night? Never.â
âIâm still invited to that?â
âOf course. Youâre my muse. Youâre my plus one.â
Hen saw the chance and had to ask⊠to save herself heartbreak down the road.
âWhat, no boyfriend? I was sure you and Jumin had--â
âNo.â He cut her off. âIâm single, Hen. Have been since⊠well. Everything.â
âYouâll have to tell me about that someday, you know? I hate walking into landmines that just hurt your feelings.â
âYouâre right. I should. Maybe over dinner?â
They spent the day in quiet companionship. Every now and again Hen would laugh at something that happened in her book, or absolutely have to read part of something to Jihyun because it was just written way too well.
They took a break for lunch, Jihyun had ordered sandwiches while she was still wrapped up in the most recent book.
âYour reading speed is ridiculous.â
âJihyun. Iâm in law school. Of course itâs ridiculous.â
ââŠI keep forgetting that. Youâre so nice.â
âSometimes lawyers are nice.â
âMy lived experience begs to differ.â
âHm.â Time to change the subject so that he could get back to work and not just spill everything now. âYouâre going to tell me about that over dinner you said. Any ideas where you want to take me?â
Jihyun blinked for a moment, and then shrugged. âI was thinking Sushi?â
âI do not know if I am dressed well enough to go out for sushi, butâŠâ
âI was thinking about a local place that has all you can eat sushi. No dress code. Plenty of time to sit and talk about difficult subjects in an informal environment.â
âOh. Well then. You will be surprised at how much sushi I can eat.â
âWith my friends, I donât get surprised by much anymore.â
âAnd since then, sheâs been in Alaska, at an inpatient rehabilitation center.â
âJesus. That was⊠you? We discussed the situation in one of my classes while it was ongoing.âÂ
âYes, Iâm not surprised, it was a clusterfuck.â
Hen reached her hand out across the table to take Jihyunâs, heedless of how forward she was being. The man needed comfort.
âThatâs a lot of stress, Jihyun.â
Jihyun sighed, but didnât move his hand out from under hers, a choice that Hen chose to take as a positive sign.
âIt was, but itâs over. Now I can move on and be better. To myself. To my friends.â
They paused to eat more of the sushi in front of them, when something he said suddenly connected for Hen.
âYou said sheâs in Alaska⊠is that when you âlostâ your phone?â
Jihyun chuckled. âWhen I threw it into the ocean. Yeah. We were still engaged when she was sentenced, and I hadnât woken up at the hospital yet, so they put me down as one of her guardians. She was demanding to see me since I was on her paperwork⊠I had to go there in person to get my name removed.â
âOh because that was safe and healthy for your traumaâŠâ Hen muttered grumpily.
Jihyun nodded. âExactly. Anyway, once I left, she started texting me begging me to come back, and⊠I just⊠I needed to be free of her. Of all that. Iâd managed to put myself back together in the two years since and I couldnât go back to that mental place. So I chucked my phone off of the side of the ferry. âOopsâ. My only regret is losing your contact information in the process. Why did we never email?â
Hen shook her head with a low chuckle. âHubris. I donât know. Iâm just glad you found me back. I was really worried Iâd done something to upset you.â
âWell, I do wish youâd let me buy you dinner. Grandma Yu teases me to this day about ruining that date.â
Date? Hen must have thought about it for a minute too long, because Jihyun was rushing past the statement like heâd never made it.
âYouâre not buying dinner tonight. This is my gift in return for you sharing your day with me.â
Hen nodded. âThe chat with the chickens - that was those friends?â
âThe very same.â
âI hope I get to meet them someday.â
âTheyâll be at the gallery. Maybe⊠donât wear feathers.â
Hen laughed so hard she aspirated her tea. âJihyun!! What should I wear?!â
Leaving the restaurant, Hen realized this would be a perfect time to tell Jihyun how she felt. He deserved to know. She deserved to be let down in a nice quiet parking lot, not in front of however many people at the gallery showing. And since that was the last time she was likely to see him, well, she chose now.
âJihyun, IâŠâ
He reached out and held a finger to her lips, stopping her from talking.
âI know what youâre going to say. Can you wait until after you see the paintings? Please?â
Hen blinked. He wanted her to wait to confess until after the gallery? That was exactly the opposite of what she wanted.
What she was thinking must have shown on her face.
âI promise I will hear you out. I will give you privacy if you want it. But I need you to see⊠what I see⊠first.â
Hen sighed and nodded, and only then did he move his finger.
As her bus pulled up to the stop, Jihyun smiled at her. âSee you at the gallery.â
âYeah.â she forced a smile onto her face. âSee you Saturday.â
The entire ride home, Hen let the tears silently track down her cheeks. He was going to turn her down, she knew it. Heâd known she was going to confess. How many people had fallen for him while modeling? How many women had he turned down? Had he known since he came back from Alaska? Had he known before she did?
Heâd had probably the worst relationship experience on the planet, there was no way heâd be interested in trying something. It wasnât even that there was anything wrong with her, just that with everything heâd been throughâŠ
Hen sighed. She was thinking in circles. She should have known better than to fall for anyone. Itâs not like her dating history was stellar either. She wiped the tears from her face as her bus arrived at her stop and she started walking home. She would be the best possible muse at this gallery opening. The belle of the ball. Maybe they could stay friends, if she didnât make a complete mess of everything. Sheâd like that.
Hen had gone all-out for the gallery opening. Sheâd secretly talked to Jaehee at the cafe about what the dress code would actually be like, so she wouldnât embarrass anyone, and the woman had actually volunteered to go shopping with her. Hen turned her down, but they exchanged numbers so Hen could send photos if she needed advice. She felt like she needed to do this herself.
Eventually she found what she needed. A navy blue and black jacquard dress, with an off-the shoulder sweetheart neckline and a subtle high low hem, from knees to tea length. The neckline showed a lot of skin, but a shawl would temper it, especially with her hair in loose curls over one shoulder.
Hair and makeup were easy. She knew how to put on a flawless face, it was practically a requirment with law school. Her favorite jewelry - understated sapphire earrings and a matching pendant on silver chain - finished the look. With a pair of short black suede ankle boots, a cashmere shawl, and her wool coat, she was prepared for a gallery opening in mid-January. Hopefully Jaehee hadnât steered her wrong. She wouldnât know what to do if she were dressed improperly. Both overdressed and underdressed were a possibility here, and sheâd be lying if she said she wasnât nervous.
âYouâve really outdone yourself, Jihyun, these pieces are magnificent.â
Hen stepped into the gallery, slightly early for the actual opening, but Jihyun had requested her to be early to meet his friends. The entrance to the room was slightly raised, and had an unimpeded view of the collection. She could hear people talking, but she had eyes only for the art on display. She recognized all of the pieces along the edges from her sittings. First the triptych, Three pieces, one looking left out a window toward a historical setting, one looking right out a window in a cyberpunk-esque future setting (she knew thatâs what that outfit was!), and the third looking straight out a window into a modern wartorn landscape.
âI see why you wouldnât show us any of them early.â
The one where sheâd been posing on the bench like it was a tree seemed to be robin hood? Or maybe hunger games? Either way, very stealthy, she loved the look of it. Opposite that was the grecian chaise lounge scene⊠heâd actually painted her asleep?! Jihyun! She internally scolded him. He could have just asked her to pretend to be asleep. Brat.
âImagine if he hadnât found his muse back!â
Her favorite so far had been the hardest pose to hold for the time heâd needed - a sword-weilding maiden from chinese folklore. It actually showed her in three distinct poses, as though in motion, and she stared at it for a long time. The last had her crumpled on the floor in front of a grave, hair in her face, soaked by rain. Sheâd remembered that - heâd asked her if sheâd be willing to go stand in the shower in the giant pile of organza. Sheâd gotten the entire studio wet. It had been a riot.
âYou did five of these just this month? Youâre a madman, V⊠I mean Jihyun.â
But it wasnât until she focused on the centerpiece - the only one she hadnât posed for - that she realzied that none of the women in the paintings were actually her. Sheâd posed for them, but they had different hairstyles, different facial features, like she was playing characters instead of being herself.
âJihyun, this collection is radiant. If itâs this good, then your muse must be exquisite.â
The centerpiece was actually a painting of her, done the last day sheâd been in his studio, sitting ridiculously sideways in that oversized chair engrossed in her book, but instead of it being in his studio it was in a vast library. She couldnât help but laugh when she realized how many hints heâd tried to give her that she was in fact sitting for another painting. Heâd clearly wanted her to be herself. God she loved him.
She looked down, then, to where Jihyun was standing surrounded by a small group of people⊠all of whom were looking up at her. Of them, she recognized Jaehee from the coffee shop and Jumin his upstairs neighbor / childhood friend. There were also two gingers who could be twins, a girl with long brown fringe and even longer hair, a blonde with dark roots, and a ⊠was that Zen?! Huh. He wasnât kidding about the eclectic group of friends he had.
Jihyun held out a hand to beckon her over, and she made her way down the stairs and over to the group. Jihyun took her around the group; Jaehee, the owner/operator of the coffee shop she frequented. Jumin, his best friend from childhood and Director of C&R International. Saeyoung and Saeran, the computer-savvy twins. MC, the insightful party planner. Yoosung, the newly-minted Veterinarian. Zen, also known as Hyun, the actor.
âAnd Iâm the model.â She shook her head. âI mean law student.â She smirked at Jihyun who laughed. She didnât miss the surprised looks from his friends at the sound of his laugh. She was right. This man needed to smile and laugh more. If she could give that to him, she would gladly â no, that was a lie - she would accept simply being his friend. âYou sell yourself short.â Jihyun said, a soft smile flickering into place. âThis is Hen. My muse. My friend. I hope you can all get along well.â
âDonât worry, Jihyun. Weâll take care of your girl when you inevitably get pulled away by boring rich guys.â One of the twins - Saeyoung, she thought, gold eyes - said with a smirk.Â
After the introductions, the RFA scattered around the room as other patrons of the arts started to filter in, the official start time having passed. Jihyun held his arm out for her like a proper gentleman. âYou look absolutely stunning tonight, Hen.â He said with that smile she loved so much.
âThank you.â She felt her cheeks heat and willed herself to calm down. This was his show. âI didnât want to make you look bad. Not after you made me look so good.â She gestured to the biggest piece of art in the room, and he had the grace to look embarrassed.
âI should have been up front and asked for your permission, but I wanted to paint you naturally, not posing. Iâm sorry I lied to you, Hen.â
Hen shook her head. âYou didnât lie to me, Jihyun. You left so many crumbs, I could have assembled an entire loaf of bread from how much you were afraid to surprise me with this. Hell, you even offered to pay me a sitting fee just to hang out with you. The fact that I was still surprised is more on me than it is on you!â
âIâm still going to pay you for that.â
Hen smirked. Theyâd had this back and forth so many times, she couldnât help but kick it up a notch.
âYou could pay me back with a kiss.â She said, raising an eyebrow at him.
Jihyun not only sputtered trying to respond to her in any fashion, he even stopped walking.
Hen turned to apologize to him, just in time to see Jihyun school his features and hold his arm out properly again. Great, now youâve done it, Hen. If he wasnât going to turn you down before, he definitely is now.
Moments later, a group of men walked up and started talking to Jihyun about his works, and Hen tuned in so that she could respond to any questions asked of her. There werenât any, of course, she was arm candy and most of them probably hadnât even noticed that she was the woman pictured in the art.
Eventually, the event was in full swing, and Jihyun went up to the landing to talk about the art a bit. He told a story about a woman who loved to read more than anything, and her trips of imagination through storybooks. He talked about how the collection was about escapism through fiction, and how the modern world has made even fictional war more glamorous than our day-to-day slog through capitalism.Â
He introduced her to the assembled patrons as his muse, the beautiful law student who deigned to stand, sit and otherwise pose for long hours just so that he might put some paint on canvas. There was nothing in his description about their friendship, or the bond theyâd formed, simply a focus on a beautiful woman who inspired his art. He even kept her name out of it, kept her away from being associated with his art in any way but visually.
Hen was more certain than ever that this would be the last night she would see Jihyun. Maybe she wouldnât tell him how she felt. Maybe it would be better to pretend that she wasnât feeling any of this. After his talk, Jihyun passed her off to Saeyoung to walk through the gallery while he was accosted by too many people all at once, just as theyâd predicted.Â
Hen looked around for the rest of his friends, and couldnât help but notice MC snuggled up to the other twin. âThose two are cute together.â She said discreetly, and Saeyoung laughed.Â
âThey are. Theyâve been dating for a few years now.â
âAww, thatâs just too sweet.â
âYou mean like you and Jihyun?â
Hen laughed bitterly. âI wish.â
âOh come on, Hen, Iâve only known you for a few hours andââ
âI didnât realize I was that obvious.â She chuckled ruefully at her own hubris. âHe stopped me from confessing, Saeyoung. I donât stand a chance with someone like him.â
Saeyoung sighed. âI think youâre selling yourself short. Youâre good for him, Hen. I havenât heard him laugh like that in⊠a very long time.â
Saeyoungâs words stuck with Hen the rest of the night, even as she was bounced between the other members of the RFA. Just as she was thinking sheâd hit her limit for socialization for one night, and thought she might try to find Jihyun to say goodbye before heading out, the man found her himself, a hand at her elbow leading her away from the crowd.
âIâm sorry we didnât get much time together tonight.â He said, turning her to face him, his hands gently circling her, keeping her close enough that their quiet voices wouldnât carry.
âAll those hours with me in your studio, Iâm sure you had more than enough of me.â
âNever!â He said with a laugh. âWhat you were going to say the other nightâŠâ
Hen blushed, and bit her lip. Her confidence was gone. Her willingess to have her heart trampled had gone with it. âJihyun, IâŠâ
âHen, Iâm in love with you.â Jihyun interrupted, and Hen was suddenly very aware of how he was shaking.
âYouâŠâ
âI know, itâs inappropriate. I tried to be good, but I couldnât have you end everything before you at least got to see the gallery andââ
Hen reached out and put her finger against his lips to silence him. âJihyun. Me too.â
His eyes went wide, but she didnât move her finger, and he didnât attempt to say anything.
âI was so sure you were going to turn me down when I tried to confess after sushi.â She moved her hand away then, anxiously twisting her fingers together.
âWait, you meantââ
She nodded, cursing the tears beading up in her eyes. âAnd then when you kept me out of your speech except the fact that I was standing there, I..â
âI wanted to keep your bright future from being tainted by my questionable past, is all.â
âWeâre idiots, arenât we? â
He nodded. âComplete idiots, but at least weâre together.â
âWe have got to learn to communicate better. No more throwing phones in the ocean.â
They shared a laugh, and Hen knew, then, that everything was finally going to be alright.
âHey, letâs get out of here.â Jihyun said, that smile she loved so much lighting his face. âJumin can handle the cleanup and closing.â He looked over her shoulder and she felt him shake with silent laughter.
Hen followed his line of sight to where Jumin was standing with Saeyoung, the former nodding discreetly while the latter made hand motions as if shooing them away. She giggled. âOkay, Jihyun Kim, I will allow you to drive me home.â
The ride home was silent, but it was a calm introspective kind of silence, rather than an anxious uncomfortable one. Hen, of course, was warring with herself internally about what she wanted to do with her night. She was reminded, as they pulled into her parking area, that she didnât have to make these choices alone anymore.
âDo you want to come up for tea?â Hen asked quietly, fidgeting with the ends of her shawl in lieu of her usual sweatshirt strings.
âI would love to.â Jihyun said, just as softly.
She led him through the building to her lofty third-floor apartment, where she stepped out of her shoes and set about getting tea started. She set the mugs on the counter and opened the tea cabinet. When she turned to ask Jihyun what kind of tea he wanted, he was right behind her, and she startled.Â
âOh, hello there.â She said with an awkward giggle.
âHi, Hen.â He said, leaning into her space. âMay I kiss you?â
She nodded even as she felt the blush on her cheeks, and moments later his lips were on hers, and her arms were looped around his neck, holding him close. When they broke for air, they both laughed before moving toward each other again.
âWhat about the tea?â She asked, softly, afraid to break the spell.
âI⊠donât need tea.âÂ
#mystictober 2024#mm_mystictober2024#mystic messenger#mysme#jihyun kim#mysme v#post-canon#this is a kissing book#fanfic
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Flowey: If you're not dating nor are friends, you're acquaintances with a silent crush phase. Heehee, I know what you should say when someone asks what you are next time! You're blockheads.
That uh⊠that means you're not heartheads or smileyheads. *Flowey smiles innocently and snickers to himself as he tries to trick you into insulting yourselves.*
Anyway, got any root beer left for me?
(Kara) "Really? Blockhead."
(Dess) "What's so wrong about it? We're blockheads through and through. I'm sorry if you don't like the word for some weird reason."
(Kara) "*Slaps head* Should I tell her?"
(Dess) "Tell me what?"
(Kara) "I don't know. Hey, do you want to watch Peanuts?"
(Dess) "Sure. I don't know why you want me to watch it now."
*12 minutes into the story*
(Lucy) "Charlie you blockhead. This is what you call a tree?"
(Dess) "Oh! Flowey you trickster."
(Kara) "Oh also sure Flowey you can have it. *gives the rest to Flowey. After he finishes...*"
(Kara) "I appreciate the respectful gifts. You all are so much nicer than I thought you'd be. When I heard horror stories about you all I was scared. Granted not all of you are good. I mean my arm got cut off by someone that seems to be part of the wind. That's fun. I always wonder why me? People like you though show how not all Anons are bad. Hell besides that airspeaker, you're all fantastic. Now back to our original problem."
(Dess) "Now we need an actual title."
(Kara) "Perfect! Now that we've done something completely unimportant like naming ourselves we should probably go out and get to work."
(Dess) "On what?"
(Kara) "I didn't think that far ahead."
*John walks in looking like he hasn't seen the sun in 3 days*
(John) "Well that was difficult but I finally got Asgore's case. Does anyone want to talk with him again? I negotiated one more call."
(Dess) "I'll do it. *Grabs phone.* Hey Asgore how are you doing?"
(Asgore) "I want to say good but that'd be a lie. I've been burning from the heat and the work they make us do. These monster prisons are more brutal than I thought. Guards go up to you on occasion and beat you till you cry. It's a game they play and if you end up being last you get socked in the eye. If anyone tells anyone anything they get abused even further. It's scary and to say it's ignored would be too nice. They outright encourage it here. Anytime something goes wrong I get hit by their bats while everyone else laughs and throws whatever they want at me."
(Dess) "That sounds awful! Do you have any way to have them stop? Surely what they're doing is illegal."
(Asgore) "Those types of laws are barely enforced in normal prisons, let alone a species everyone hates."
(Kara) "Do you have air conditioning?"
*Dess and Asgore started laughing.*
(Asgore) "This is Britain! We're lucky to have air conditioning in our own homes. You really believe they care that much about monsters?"
(Dess) "Well, try to stay a low profile, okay?"
(Asgore) "Alright. *Hangs up.*"
*In the prison.*
Asgore walks back to his cell seeing the high amount of monsters entrapped. Some of them go into a room of complete white if they misbehave. Suddenly, while no one is watching Asgore, Chara burrows out of the ground.
(Chara) "So how do you feel? Don't worry you'll only get killed by the executioner, not me. I wonder if you'll ever crack?"
(Asgore) "Can you stop teasing me? You're the only reason I'm putting effort into stopping the death penalty."
(Chara) "You know it's funny. People think you are a great serious leader. The only smart ones are Papyrus and Alphys. They know who you are. I'm mostly here to make your situation worse and to observe what you do. I bet they give you food that tastes like poop."
(Asgore) "They gave us a bun for a meal. Two on special occasions. Help me please!"
(Chara) "WAH! Boo hoo. Oh, also one thing I want to do. *Slices his left thumb in half and watches it bleed.*"
(Asgore) "Why would you do that!!!"
(Chara) "So I can hurt you without killing you. Oh, people are coming. See you when you're fried!"
#undertale#the white soul#kara#flowey#ask flowey#Asgore#A lot of anons#Chara#Dess#When I do the court case I'll have it be impacted by you and if you choose wrong I will kill Asgore. If right he'll live.#Iâve seen one comment about this so I just want to clarify I know what friends with benefits are but Kara and Dess are too naive
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Hicvember: Pinocchio
Fandom: Gr1mm Characters: M0nroe Ros@alee N1ck H@nk Ad@lind Glori@ (mentioned) DeEtt@ (mentioned) Definitions/Lore: Gr1mm-a person with the ability to see We5en when they don't want to be seen. Killers of We5en, historically. We5en-a person who has the "soul" of another creature/being. They can change forms with emotion (unseen by normal humans) or intentionally (seen by everyone) Inspired many fables from the Brother's Gr1mm, the namesake/family of those who have the ability to see them. Blutb@den-(singular: Blutb@d) The "Big Bad Wolf" Fuchsb@u- Fox-like We5en Hex3nbie5ts- Witch-like We5en
CW:
long hiccups
painful hiccups
fast hiccups
allegory for recovery group
mentions of past drug addiction
mentioned pregnancy
heterosexual relationship (tee)
adorable relationship dynamics
domestic tiff
mother-in-law tropes
âSo, basically what youâre saying is anyone who touched the amulet would be affected,â H@nk said, the detective taking a deep, cleansing breath in a way he hadnât been able to a moment before.
âYes,â Ad@lind confirmed as she shifted back from her Hex3nbei5t form.
âMan, my chest hurts,â N1ck muttered. He rubbed his muscles with a wince.
âYeah,â H@nk said, âbut think of how lucky you are to have this happen now and not while you were still with Juli3tte. Man, the lies you told. We lie enough at our jobs as it isâŠâ
N1ck winced for another reason as H@nkâs statement sunk in.
Ad@lind met his eyes with an equal amount of sympathy and mischievous amusement.
âYou might have died from suffocation,â she quipped.
âOkay, okay,â N1ck protested holding his hands up to stave off any other reminders of how horribly heâd handled his past relationship. âJust glad itâs over.â
âAs long as no one else touched the amulet no one else should be affected. Iâve nullified the magic so it wonât cause any...disturbances to anyone else again,â Ad@lind said, still handling the object delicately.
A beat passed between N1ck and H@nk before realization simultaneously donned on them and they said together, âM0nroe!â
âCrap,â Ad@lind sighed, knowing sheâd have to now do the whole ceremony again. âIâll...remake what I need and you get to him before it becomes a permanent affliction.â
***
N1ck and H@nk didnât even bother to call Ros@lee before they showed up at her and M0nroeâs house. N1ck knocked on the door after turning an unsettled eye at H@nk. But M0nroe didnât really lie all that much, right? Especially not to Ros@lee.
âHey, guys,â Ros@lee said. Her pregnancy was just beginning to show through her clothes. It was early, but she was having triplets so it was no wonder sheâd already had to buy maternity jeans.
âHey, is M0nroe here?â N1ck asked.
âUh. Yeah? You know, heâs not in a great mood, honestly. Heâs...well it sounds a little silly but...heâs had this stubborn case of the hiccups for over three hours, now!â she said as she brushed her hair back from her face. âPoor guyâŠâ
âThree hours?â H@nk said. He actually looked relieved.
âYeah, thatâs good,â N1ck confirmed.
Ad@lind had told them it took 12 hours for the spell to cause a chronic condition. Figures that it would take M0nroe a lot longer than two detectives to tell a lie to trigger it. Though N1ck was curious what it must have been. It wasnât triggered by white lies or innocuous lies. It was only triggered by larger falsities, lies contradicting a personâs values and nature. In N1ck and H@nkâs line of work it didnât take long to tell someone a life altering fib in order to get information, no matter the detectiveâs moral disagreement to it.
âUm, no, I still think three hours having hiccups is pretty bad,â Ros@lee insisted.
âWhat, no, yeah, of course it is,â H@nk confirmed.
âItâs a spell,â N1ck clarified.
âN1ck, M0nroe, and I found this amulet wedged in a cinder block at the construction site we were a couple of nights ago. Seemed innocent. N1ck stored it at his place to research later,â H@nk continued.
âTurns out, Ad@lind said it was a truth amulet. Anyone who touches it has to tell the truth or face the consequences,â N1ck said.
âConsequencesâŠâ Ros@lee said, eyes widening.
âYeah,â H@nk picked up. âA nasty case of hiccups.â
âThat donât stop until either the person who told the lie tells the truth or the curse is lifted. H@nk and I were both triggered. But we were deep in a case and wouldnât have been able to tell the truth to who we needed. Ad@lind had a way to nullify the effect as long as we were able to tell her when we told the lie that started it,â N1ck said. âIf weâd hiccuped for more than 12 hours it would have been permanent.â
âOh my god!â Ros@lee exclaimed. âThat sounds terrible!â
âSo, you remember M0nroe telling you any lies lately? Something big,â H@nk asked. âUnless heâs been talking to anyone else in the past 3 hours.â
âNo,â Ros@lee said, frowning. âI...I donât know. Lemme get him.â
Ros@lee went to the bottom of the stairs leading up to their room. M0nroe had thought taking a nap might calm the hiccups down, at least. It hadnât worked in the least.
âM0nroe! N1ck and H@nk are here! It has something to do with your hiccups! Itâs a spell!â Ros@lee yelled up.
She returned to the two detectives with her hands to her lower back in support of her bellyâs weight and her spreading hips.
âAd@lindâs on the way with supplies, by the way,â N1ck assured her. Ros@lee gave a worried nod.
âYou guys sit down. Iâll make some coffee,â Ros@lee said distractedly.
N1ck and H@nk sat down in the living room. N1ck was on the couch and H@nk took the chair to the side of it. M0nroeâs footsteps landed hard and fast as he came down to the living room, a sound the boys had been made all too familiar with peppering his arrival.
âHâhey guys,â M0nroe said. He looked disheveled in sweat pants and a white shirt as he suppressed a hiccup deep within his throat and chest. He winced as he rubbed his chest. âWh-HUCK!-whatâs this abo-mk!-out a spell? HUPâM! UghâŠâ
The Blutb@d rubbed his sternum again and sighed a breath before another hiccup attacked him. He sat down next to N1ck and the Gr1mm patted him on the back sympathetically.
âThe amulet we found,â H@nk explained. He silently nodded to Ros@lee in tH@nks at the coffee.
âH@nk and I were both on a case, today. TH@nks,â N1ck said to Ros@lee as she handed him a mug as well.
N1ck couldnât help but notice that M0nroe waved a hand to the coffee offering. He imagined if M0nroe had been experiencing the same acid reflux both he and H@nk had during their attack, coffee was the last thing M0nroe wanted.
âYou remember the amulet we found yesterday?â N1ck asked.
âYeah th-huck!-the onâone that looked hmp!-looked like an Eâevil Eye except HUCKâM!-except not?â M0nroe asked.
âWater?â Ros@lee asked. And was it his imagination but did his wifeâs demeanor seem a little chilly?
âUh HUâUP! Yeah, my thr-uck!-throatâs killing me!â M0nroe suppressed another hiccup and swallowed with a wince.
âI bet it is,â Ros@lee said.
Oh, N1ck thought, Ros@lee had probably just figured out whatever lie it was M0nroe had told. H@nk had picked up on it too and widened his eyes in realization, looking down.
âAd@lind said it was called the Eye of Truth,â N1ck explained. âAnyone who touches it is made to tell the truth or face the consequences.â
âProbably HUâUCK!-ugh. Probably why it hmpâmk!-was in a conâconcrete block, huh? HUP! So, what consequ-HIGGUP!-ences?â M0nroe asked as Ros@lee came back with the glass.
âHiccups!â Ros@lee said primly and put the glass of water in front of her husband down with more force than necessary on the coffee table. In a lower voice she said, close to his face, âAnd if they have them for more than twelve hours without telling the truth they have them foreverâŠâ
M0nroeâs eyes widened both at the information shared and at Ros@leeâs sudden demeanor change.
Ros@lee turned on her heel to head back to the kitchen.
âIâm going to make tea!â she announced sharply.
âDudeâŠâ H@nk said in a low voice. âWhat did you do?â
M0nroe looked lost for a little bit. His hand pushed flat against his chest as he searched his mind for the moment he had lied to her. His stomach jolted out sharply and his entire body jumped with the power of the hiccups heâd endured for three hours. He let the squelchy catches of breath fill the room over the ticking of his clocks for a while as he tried to recall when they started. A hard one knocked his head back with a HNKâGUULK as recognition suddenly passed his features.
âCrap,â he said. âWe were HUCKâLP!-were talking about hmk!-Ros@leeâs moâmother.â
âDamn,â H@nk said in understanding. âMother-in-laws. Iâve definitely had to deal with my share fair.â
âI said,â Ros@lee said, reappearing as she waited for the kettle to sound, âmy mom would make a good grandmother for our kids. And M0nroe agreed. And then he caught the most aggressive bout of hiccups...hm...interestingâŠâ
Ros@lee crossed her arms over her chest with a frown.
âI do-HUCK!-donât thiâink she wo-HUâUP!-wo-HUP!-uld ma-HMK!-make a b-HUâUP!HUP!-bad gr-MK!-grandmother!â M0nroe tried to argue.
N1ck patted his friendâs leg and shook his head.
âThe hiccups get worse when you try to double-down,â H@nk explained.
M0nroe just winced in both mild pain and frustration.
âSo you do think my mom would make a bad grandmother?â Ros@lee said, voice growing louder.
âNo! HUP!HNK!HUCKâUP!â He grunted and rubbed his belly at the muscle ache. âOkay, yes. Hulp! But itâs HULP!-uh, not that simâsimple, okay? Can we HUP!-Can we talk abâabout this HUPâK!-this in private, please? HILP!â
For a moment everyone was quiet. N1ck and H@nk exchanged looks of discomfort as Ros@lee held her jaw hard in thought. The only sounds were M0nroeâs hiccups being muffled by his fist pressed against his mouth. His body jerked up violently as he looked at his wife in desperation.
âYeah, okay. Letâs go to our room,â Ros@lee said softly. Her jaw relaxed a little.
âIâll-uh-text Ad@lind what we found out,â N1ck said. âSheâll be on her way shortly...I hope.â
Ros@lee nodded stiffly and followed her husband to their room on the second floor.
***
When M0nroe arrived he sat heavily on the corner of the bed. Ros@lee paced a little, running her hand through her hair as she watched her husband battle the spasms that attacked his body. Her anger softened even more at the way M0nroe cradled an arm along his stomach and rubbed his forehead tiredly.
Fuchsb@u were quick to anger, but they were also quick to change their minds. While not all Fuchsb@u were the same, obviously, this genetic trait seemed pretty prevalent in Ros@lee.
She finally sat next to him as he struggled to figure out how to word whatever he was trying to say, hiccups barging in as he stuttered. He was getting frustrated and Ros@lee could feel that. She laid a comforting hand to his back and rubbed his shoulders.
âTake your time,â she whispered.
M0nroe sighed and closed his eyes. He rode out a few more hiccups, catching gulpily in his throat, before speaking.
âGlori@ isâisnât a bad person. HUP!â he started, calling Ros@leeâs mom by her first name. âBut...mmk! Do you know hâhow hard it is for HUPâK!-for someone like m-HEEP!-me to go WeâWe1der?â
Ros@lee thought for a moment. M0nroe hadnât told her a lot about the process of becoming We1der, a program originated to help predatory We5en with their aggressive tendencies. Basically, it was a group facilitating a completely different relationship with inherent violent instincts which defined what being a Blutb@d, or any other number of predatory We5en, meant.
Instead of sacrificing himself to his natural inclination to kill living things and fight those he saw as weaker than him, M0nroe had taught himself to redefine who he was at the core of his being. Heâd stripped out as much of the âaddictionâ, for lack of a better word, to cave to his base cravings as he could. It was why he was vegetarian. It was why he focused so hard on music and special interests and exercising and clocks and...Ros@lee. It kept him on the good path. It kept him from hurting anyone. It kept him sane.
He didnât do this alone. He did this through We1der teaching facilitated by a group leader and within a group of people, We5en, who experienced the same urges as himself and the same desire to gain control. It hadnât been easy. It hadnât been pretty. But it was important to him that he honor his growth as much as possible. There-in came the complication who was Glori@, Ros@leeâs mom.
âI-I mean, no,â Ros@lee finally answered. âBut I donât understand what that has to do withââ
âPity,â M0nroe said. His diaphragm defied him again and he grunted with the deep hiccup that caused his muscles to convulse and his breath to hitch. âGlori@ looks aâat me with hup!-pity. Itâs huâup!, itâs always been th-hnk!-that way. I recogn-ip!-ise it. Youâre sisâsister too, but hmp!-but thatâs just DeâDeEtt@, I th-hmp!-ink.â
Ros@lee nodded at that, at least. DeEtt@ was the master of a look of derision. But her mom? Ros@lee silently considered what M0nroe had said.
Pity seemed like a pretty innocuous expression until you considered where it came from. There was an inherent arrogance in pity. People pitied because they thought someone else was in a lower place than themselves. It was different if the target of the pity was someone in a genuinely bad situation. But if they were just living their lives in the best possible way and someone pitied them for it, that felt like a direct attack on the way they were choosing to live. M0nroe was thriving; Glori@ had no reason to pity him.
But, the more Ros@lee thought about it the more she realized she could remember the exact look M0nroe was talking about. It wasnât subtle, either. During her own struggles with drug addiction, that same look of pity, disappointment, and arrogant judgment appeared in her momâs face more than once.
âI just hup!â M0nroe said, filling the silence as Ros@lee processed what heâd told her. âI just d-hmk!-donât want our kids hulp!-kids to bâbe judged if himpâk!-they decide to mk!-to take the same pâpath as me. If they ne-ip!-eed a little help. Itâs their deciâision, obviously. But the thought of mk!-of their granâgrandmother judging them? Doesnât hup!-doesnât sit right with me. IâIâm sorry hmp!â
âNo, youâre right,â Ros@lee said. âI...if it helps I donât think she even knows she does it. But I know that look. Every time I came back from a bender she had that look. It made me feel like I would never be good enough. I had no idea she was using that look with you.
âShe,â she sighed, âSheâs asked me before about you being We1der.â
M0nroe looked surprised. He didnât know that.
âYeah. She seemed confused. I explained it but...my mom is really big on connecting to the We5en part of her. I think maybe...she thought you were denying part of yourself. And I thought, you know, I thought I explained it enough to dissuade her butâŠmaybe not,â Ros@lee admitted. âShe relented, finally, saying that at least I wonât have to worry about cleaning up as much blood. Guess she really didnât think about us working with a Gr1mm.â
M0nroe laughed, body softly jumping with his fading hiccups.
âOr that Iâm hup! Iâm the one who dâdoes the laundry?â he teased.
Ros@lee laughed at that.
âWhich I tH@nk you immensely for,â she said.
He smiled.
âI...wish you had felt like you could have told me this. I understand why you thought you couldnât. And I probably shouldâve told you about her and my conversation, too. I just didnât want you to feel...well...like you already feel,â Ros@lee said with a shake of her head and a sad smile.
M0nroe huffed in amusement.
âI guess this means we arenât the perfect couple everyone thinks we are?â he lamented.
âBite your tongue, Blutb@d,â Ros@lee teased. âOf course we are. Otherwise you wouldâve had the hiccups for all of eternity instead of feeling safe enough...eventually...to tell me the truth. Which I appreciate.â
âTrueâŠâ M0nroe said with a nod. âSpeaking of which.â He gave a big breath. âThey are finally gone!â
âTH@nk goodness!â Ros@lee said.
âYeah, they were really starting to hurt,â M0nroe grumbled.
âWell, yeah. But also...I wouldnât have gotten a wink of sleep!â Ros@lee joked.
They both shared some laughter.
âOkay, I think I heard Ad@lind come in,â Ros@lee said. âUnless you want to be stuck having to tell the truth for fear of hiccuping chronically for the rest of your life I guess it would be a good idea to nullify this thing, huh?â
M0nroe nodded enthusiastically.
âI would definitely appreciate that. Although, Iâve also learned my lesson. Itâs not like...Iâm not going to start lying or anythingâŠâ he said nervously.
âCalm down, dear. Iâm a Fuchsb@u. We live on lies,â Ros@lee said with a grin.
M0nroe looked at her suspiciously.
Ros@lee offered no comment, just an inquisitive look back. The expression devolved into laughter, though.
M0nroe laughed nervously, still not convinced it had all been a joke. Ros@lee just shook her head in amusement at the response.
âIâll talk to my mom tomorrow. She needs to know how you feel and how her judgment affects people,â Ros@lee said.
âYou donât need to do that,â M0nroe protested, rising as she did from the bed.
âYeah, I do. I want our kids to feel safe no matter what. I need her to know how important it is for me to fully accept our children. If our kids turn out to be Blutb@d, even just one, I need them to know theyâll be supported no matter what. Itâs important,â Ros@lee said.
âI love you,â M0nroe said.
âLove you, too.â
They kissed.
âSee?â M0nroe said pointing to himself. âI really do love you! No hiccups!â
âBetter not beâŠâ she said with a grin.
M0nroe kissed her again with a dopey grin before they went downstairs to nullify any future impacts of the spell on M0nroeâs poor, abused diaphragm.
#hicvember2024#hiccups kink#hiccup kink#hiccups#non kink blogs do not reblog#18+ mdni#hic fic#hicfic#not safe for minors#no kink all hiccups#M0nroe#Ros@alee#N1ck#H@nk#Ad@lind#Gr1mm#Hopefully everything is consistent and easy to read?
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6am ramblings :) I did not spellcheck this so lol good luck! Aksnsk
So Mega.lop.olis is an actual mindfuck. Like the visuals are so incredibly cool but if you don't pay close attention it will seem like random and complete nonsense.
Despite everyone saying how bad it is, its actually not? I found it to be really good with a good story that goes into a pretty deep discussion about our way of living. (Again if you're paying attention!)
Now onto the other stuff (that I was screaming about last night)
They outright say my boy has mania and given how a certain scene goes and the story that goes with it it is very very deeply implied that my love suffers from the same mental illness I do which is very unfortunate but I instantly could relate to him on a deeper more understanding level. Ce.s.ar went through an episode and did some not so great things and my heart absolutely broke for him. As stated last night, the moment it started I instantly knew what was happening before it became aware to audience.
Much like my irl self and the woman who birthed me, he does not get on well with his mother. We both have very very shitty mothers (our fathers aren't in the picture. This also contributes to Ce.s.ar's moods and again my heart breaks for him because he's just so sweet and his mother is so....not...)
Pretty sure my boy cannot die, like.. ever. I yelled in the theater last night mainly because loud sound and what happened to him (he got shot in the right side of his face ;A; survived though by using the very stuff he discovered to create, to heal his face. The surgeons used it for him)
Silly rambles(?) Kinda.
I did not like the canon love interest that was happening. Ya know despite my raging jealousy lol like just viewing it, they would have been better off as rivals(?) Granted she helps him in a huge way when someone tries to lie and say he's done (x) things and proves he is innocent but in terms of relationship all I saw was someone following him around (literally stalking him in her car with her friend) and then it's just a weird little timeskip of "oh we work together now" but doesn't say or show what she actually does?
Also what confused me is Ce.s.ar's ability to stop time. Well not so much him in general but more so...can anyone use it? Because there's a scene (blah blah canonxcanon) where she gets him to think about her to try and stop time because he seemed to have lost the ability after his big episode. It works and thats what kicks off their relationship? But then their relationship isn't really..idk concrete? Its so hard to explain but I did not connect to her and his relationship. Nothing made me root for them as a couple in the way the movie thought I might would??
OKAY TIME TO GET ALL SQUEAKY AND WEIRD (kinda some suggestive kinda not?? Suggestive Marked â lol)
â I got flustered in the theater, like I hid in my shirt. Because there's a uh...a scene while granted I do not like the visuals it was with a different girl and not his love interest. Near the start of the movie...ahem the s o u n d s lets just say Ce.s.ar is very vocal and it wasn't even the actual act of ..y-yknow. He was just heavily making out and grinding I hid in my shirt and the guy sitting beside me was like "are you okay?" And I was like "t-tooootally normal and fiiiiiine" I was not fine. >////>
â Don't allow this man to consume copious amounts of alcohol he'll end up in his underwear...tight black underwear to be exact AHEM
Ce.s.ar like cloakes lol he wears one often he looked realllllllly good in it too~
My man has the case of the sillies!! No really, he sometimes will randomly dance OR if asked a question he replies in a silly way "is mega.lop.olis safe?" And he just goes "absolutely not, extremely dangerous you all should RUN!" and then he got all giggly and was like "no its actually extremely safe~" also he smiles A LOT and also also there is a moment when he's learning something similar to those old games in school like miss Mary mack hand game and he gets faster and faster and faster and when its basically noncoherent the other is like "stop! What are you doing!?" And he's like "a solo!" HELP he's so fucking cute???? like I love you even more??
I was expecting softly spoken always serious. While I got it in certain scenes from him, he's actually so playful and silly which is so fucking great for me because I too am very playful and silly. He can also be loud like his voice can be very commanding and im like.."h-h..hey ~âĄ'
1000/10 love my man ever more now and because of the rocky//weird relationship that was happening in canon I already know how to make my self insert fit into it WITH EASE
Also it seems like more than one person has a certain type of power? Ce.s.ar could stop time and his partner before the main love interest can hypnotize people.
So who tf says I can't take elements from my ISS SI And bring em over to this work eh~? Ehehehe
If you made it this far thanks for listening to my rambles!
OH BIG THING I FORGOT big spoiler
his love interests father is responsible for making sure his dead wife's body was never found??? Hullo!? And then its touched upon a little bit but then the movie treated Ce.s.ar and the girls dad as if it was completely forgotten by the end if the movie like after that reveal it was still the dad hating him and Ce.s.ar was just....??? Still wanting his praise and approval?? I really did not like that. He should have been pissed! I mean the man convicted Ce.s.ar of killing his own wife which wasn't the case. Due to Ce.s.ar's untreated bip.olar he (like me) was deemed 'too much' and sadly, unfortunately, his wife couldn't take it and she did take her own life but it was that girls father that made it look like he killed her and Ce.s.ar was convicted (but acquitted shortly after)
So I'm taking my man, from everything. My boy now, I'm going to show him all the love and compassion that he deserves and show him he's not alone, that he doesn't have to settle for just anyone who strolls into his life, I will hold him and tell him he isn't a burden, that he is lovable and so much more than the disorder that plagues him because in that regard we are the sameâ we sometimes do and say things without knowing we don't have the same rationality as other people do when we are struggling but thats okay, he'll have me to lean on, we'll weather it together âĄ
I am sad he has what I have but also at the same time, I don't feel as alone anymore, this isn't just me going "I hc him with bip.olar" the movie makes it pretty obvious that he actually has it. I feel even more so connected to him than I did before because I understand him and its comforting to know that he'd understand me too...
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All of the fandom ones for Hyo? And the ones asking for canon characters, Will! :D
tagging @tiredsleep and @deck0fc4rds because they also asked the same thing đđ«¶
all of the answers are utc
How does (canon character) feel about your OC?
WILLÂ feels pretty close with HYO, they work as partners đ«Ą Not only that but the way theyâre able to see through another personâs eyes is also VERY similar, the only difference is that Hyo is able to see through the eyes of the victim. They have an odd relationship where itâs not just platonic and not exactly romantic but a secret third thing. Like do they have very strong tension in intimate moments like when they reenact a crime scene, yes. But will they ever kiss or say anything explicitly like âI love youâ? WHO KNOWS. But they both do wish they were brought closer together in different circumstances
How does your OC feel about (canon character)?
HYO also feels the same way as WILL in the sense that theyâre pretty close. Thereâs like a soft vulnerability that comes with understanding that they both really enjoy with each other. Theyâre both fiercely loyal to the other and basically are like. locked in for realsies. If no one believes the other one, they know they got each otherâs backs âŒïž To be quite honest I canât tell if theyâre normal about each other or not, but compared to other people in the show I think they are đ°Â
Has your OC ever made (canon character) laugh? / What about cry?
omg HYO and WILL make each other giggle all the time, itâs very silly. They like to crack small inside jokes pretty often to make sure theyâre both not being so caught up in their own heads. I donât think theyâve made each other cry (i say as i literally created hyo and her lore) but i think the closest that comes to crying is like. being very concerned over the other person which has happened often
Do your OC and (canon character) ever cross paths?
YES âŒïžâŒïžâŒïž HYO becomes WILLâs work partner through Jack. Jack has known Hyo for a while because she actually used to work for the BAU for a short amount of time before a case got her real fucked up (which is why she has the neck scar) and so she was taken out of duty đ She got back into work though after Will unofficially joined because it only made sense
Which canon character annoys your OC?
Itâs a tie between DR. CHILTON and HANNIBAL. Okay to be fair, HYO doesnât like medical professionals/psychiatrists đđđ so like anyone in those fields already put her on guard due to past trauma. She doesnât like either of them but unfortunately for her, much like Will, she catches their interest. Another character would be FREDDIE. I think she would get irritated more with Freddie than the other two to be honest. Freddie sticks her nose in Hyoâs personal life which sheâs very protective about
What canon character gets annoyed by your OC?
A character that gets like. annoyed. ERMMM. I think ALANA, and not because HYO is like âin the wayâ between her and Will/Hannibal (at least at first before shit went down) but because she got the vibe that Hyo didnât like her. Hyo is neutral about Alana leaning towards dislike so Alanaâs guess wasnât entirely off
Which canon character respects your OC most? What gained that respect?
In all honesty, itâs a toss up between BEV and WILL. Bev really respects HYO a lot because of how she handles cases with a dedicated focus and desire to solve it and how she tries her best to not get lost in her own head. WILL has pretty much the same reason too
Which canon character doesnât respect your OC whatsoever?
ERMMMM. THIS IS A GOOD QUESTION I DONT KNOW. oh wait thatâs a lie i do know. Probably FREDDIE. Freddie is all up in Hyoâs personal life itâs so bad đđđ
Which canon character does your OC respect a lot?
HYO respects BEV, WILL, and JACK a whole lot. She really appreciates them and what they do not only for her but for other people as well. Theyâre people who she knows is doing what they think is genuinely right
Which canon character does your OC not respect at all? Why?
HYO does not give a flying fuck about FREDDIE. At all. If there is one thing Hyo absolutely cannot tolerate, itâs when nosey people refuse to give up. She does not take kindly to people digging up and trying to find stuff about her personal life that sheâs left in the past, especially not when itâs Freddie. You would see Hyo get so bitchy when Freddie is around
Which canon character is pissed off by the general presence of OC? (we all have those people)
FREDDIE. đđđ She couldnât finish like a single question because HYO kept shutting her down. Hyo does that any time when Freddie asks about her
Does your OC have a crush on anyone?
Not a crush, not platonic, but a secret third thing đ
Who would probably have a crush on your OC?
This is a good question, I also donât know đ§ââïž I think WILL to be honest would catch feelings for her but not realize it which is when and why their relationship develops into secret third thing. So Will or another hannibal OC I have who is named VICTOR. I havenât talked much about him on here but heâs like. I wouldnât call it a crush necessarily but yeah heâs very not normal about Hyo. He himself would call it a crush but sheâs his muse out of many
Who would your OC most likely to get a puppy-crush on? (but it canât be the cc theyâre actually shipped with!)
HYO doesnât really get puppy crushes đ° itâs very OOC for her to have like. a puppy-crush on someone đ  Closest thing I can think of to that would be her middle school best friend #codependentyuri
Who would your OC say is their best friend?
BEV and WILL are HYOâs besties đ (also Victor if this is before his case) (after his case then no) Also if weâre including relatives then most definitely her brothers
Who would call your OC their best friend?
BEV, WILL, VICTOR (before and after his case), and HANNIBAL. Also her brothers if weâre including relativesÂ
Who has brought your OC to tears before?
HYOâs middle school best friend ;smiley~1; Both happy tears and sad tears. Mainly sad tears though
Who has your OC made cry?
All of the psychiatrists/therapists/nurses/doctors that have taken care of her đ°
Is there someone your OC didnât like at first, but then got along with later?
JACK đđđ She didnât like Jack when she first met him, but then he started to grow on her and now she respects him a lot
Is there someone your OC liked at first, but then grew to dislike?
UMMM. The first nurse that took care of her đ° That was the transition to the horrors
Who does your OC hate?
FREDDIE đ„đ„đ„đ„ and every person in healthcare + mental healthcare that was in charge of her
Who does your OC love? (platonic)
BEV đ„đ„đ„đ„
Who does your OC love? (familial)
HER PARENTS + BROTHERS + NIECES/NEWPHEWS + HER SON DAISUKE đ„đ„đ„đ„
Does your OC love anyone? (romantic)
NOT ROMANTIC OR PLATONIC BUT SECRET THIRD THING WILL GRAHAM đ„đ„đ„đ„
Has your OC ever had to let a canon character down easy?
I WOULDNâT THINK SO??? Let down as in like. Reject someone? The way Iâm interpreting this question is rejecting a character softly because they had a crush on her. In that case, no đ
Has your OC ever been rejected by a canon character?
HYO isnât a confession type of girlie so no â sheâs all about yearning looks and soft smiles
Did your OC bear witness to anyoneâs full character arc?
Iâm a little stumped on this question. Full character arc so im thinking of like the changes the characters went through that the show went over and not like. all the way from the start #birth character arc. Because if itâs not the latter then that would be majority of the cast no?
What is the worst thing your OC does in their story?Â
Um. đ§ââïžReally good question. I think the worst HYO has ever done was like beat up people really badly when she was in middle school, but she hasnât killed anyone (i dont think) (this is subject to change)
What is your OCâs ââdarkness momentââ in the plot?Â
SHE HAS A LOT OF THOSE đ FROM THE MOMENT SHE CALLED THE COPS ON HER BEST FRIEND WHO ENCOURAGED HER TO DO IT TO THE REALLY BAD TREATMENT JN THE HOSPITALSÂ
What is your OCâs redemption moment?
I think a huge redemption moment for her was adopting/meeting DAISUKE, thatâs when most of her most of her bad habits started to break like smokingÂ
Is there a canon character that your OC needs to ask forgiveness towards?Â
No I donât think so, I donât think thereâs any moments where she has hurt someone who didnât deserve it
Is there a canon character your OC needs to forgive?
I think JACK owes HYO a huge apology đ she doesnât NEED to forgive him but he still owes her a big ass apology for being an asshole and pushing her boundaries
Is there anyone who your OC would die for?
HYO would die for DAISUKE and/or her brothers. She feels very protective over them đ«ĄÂ
Is there a canon character who would die for your OC?
UMMM. I have no idea tbhsies đ°đ°đ°
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I'm thinking thinky thoughts about your fics and how you have a wonderful sense of setting weight.
'Setting weight' being a term I made up for how much weight an author puts on the setting of a scene.
To use examples, Tolkien puts a massive amount of time and energy into his settings. On the other end of the spectrum (and I have thrown a dart at the wall here) I'd put Chuck Palahniuk. Oh, he has settings - office buildings, fight clubs, self help groups - but there's little physicality to those settings. They exist to paint a theme.
But in both cases, the author rarely connects the character to their setting. To its history or its meaning, yes, but not to the sensation of the character within the space.
So as I sat there, beginning to reread Not to Me, Not If It's You, I was struck by how lovely your sense of setting weight is. I think back to this opening image a lot. To Jamie, sitting alone on a bed in a hospital in Qatar, watching the World Cup on this small TV. The space Jamie inhabits here is very clear. You cannot dissect him from this setting and have the same meaning ring through
Take Apologies From My Tongue, And Never Yours. Colin and Jamie on the bus. What's so special about that, you may ask? They're on a bus. Characters be on the team bus all the time. Well, yes, but do they often feel like they're on a bus? It's small, but sometimes the setting really is just a passing mention of where a thing happens to take place.
Rage, Rage, Against the Dying of the Light takes place in a hospital, but more importantly (to me) it feels like a hospital. It feels like, even if the author isn't focused on writing about the setting, they're not forgetting that the setting exists. The room stays in the room with us. It's not an after thought.
The cab ride snippet you posted for the fic you're writing on, that also had an excellent sense of just... space. The space the characters inhabit. It's a sort of visual I can feel through the words. It feels real without overwhelming to a Tolkien-esque degree.
I don't feel like I've explained this right, but especially with your last few fics, it's something I've begun to really notice. Just. Setting weight. Good stuff. I know this is more technical appreciation than anything else, but I thought I'd share how much I enjoy this aspect of your writing <3
Thank you for these generous words and fuck you for making me FEEL ALL THE THINGS. (anyone outside of the TL fandom going to read that like damn girl, relax).
Iâve been thinking about this a normal amount (that's a lie I will cherish this until my dying day I want it used as my euology) but I still can't form words enough to do it justice, it's all shrimp emotions.
But seriously, thank you (which does not feel like enough) for your amazingly nice words and taking the time to send them and looking at my works. It's really an honour to have you read them and that they had any impact that you would remember them is absolutely flooring me.
And it's especially an honor because you are one of the authors I try to emulate with this particularly. There are so many amazing authors in this fandom that I learn from everyday and I while I look at your work with admiration for many, many aspects, I especially have tried to learn from your stories and their setting weight (wonderful term btw!).
Thank you so much for taking the time to share this with me, it's especially helpful when I'm struggling through the normal writer horrors. The imposter syndrome is real and especially because there are so many amazing writers here I often struggle comparing myself. The doubting voice in the back of my mind has been especially loud lately. I think there is no other land is the fic I have had the most interest about on here which is amazing and exciting but also fucking terrifying.
The mortifying ordeal of being known, am I right?
All of this rambling to say THANK YOU, for these wonderful, kind, thoughtful words but also THANK YOU for being you and inspiring me, for talking me through whatever story help I need, for giving me story ideas, for being the extremely supportive person you are, for your kudos, comments and bookmarks, for sharing my work or snippets, for sharing cat photos, for absolutely FEEDING me with your works and snippets (where I can be found laughing and/or crying on a regular basis), for sharing your thought provoking analysis.
But most importantly, thank you for your friendship. I am beyond blessed to have the wonderful people in this fandom but especially you. I do not miss all the support you spread through tumblr and ao3 and I have no doubt everywhere you go. You are a joy and I smile everytime I see your name (and esp after I realized you and @jamiesfootball were one in the wonderful same lmao).
Now stop being so nice to me ;)
#wahhhhhhhhhh#seriously I am unwell with how nice you are to me#whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#If I can't deflect with thanks I got it on sale or thanks it has pockets I don't know what to do#all this to say thank you#but thank you will never be enough#I have already read this a reasonable amount of times*#*that is a lie#aahhh thank you#love you#you are too nice to me#shrimp emotions#readwing#<33333
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Would you consider writing an angsty fic where Derek corners Hotch in his office to argue with him about his recklessness post Foyet but accidentally triggers a panic attack?
Would I consider? HELL YES I WOULD. I have to say, I wrote about 3 different version of this before I decided this was The One to share. Inspired by THIS, because...yes. (3.2k words)
**** barely breathing ****
He hasn't seen Derek outside of work in weeks. Not just 34 days, longer than that. There was the pig farm, and before that was the fucking anthrax that put Reid in the hospital and stopped up all the works.
34 days plus a lifetime, unless you count those fractions of time he can barely remember while he was in the hospital. They solved a case while he was in surgery, while he was dead. They called him repeatedly, messages from JJ filled his voicemail (he never did listen to them, just emptied the whole thing) but it was hours before anyone checked. More before they appeared at the hospital.
He's keenly aware they're talking behind his back. They quietly assume he's a ticking time bomb and would rather aid him in pretending nothing happened than risk being the one to set it off. They assure themselves with confidence that this is the best way. Maybe the only way. Things can return to normal if Hotch is normal, and if you go by appearances...well his hair is neatly trimmed and his face is clean shaven and those suits never looked quite so tailored.
Things are normal because he checks all of their boxes. They never look any closer than they have to and he's learned not to concern himself with their casual nonchalance. It works in his favor most of the time if what he wants is to hide in plain sight.
But it does bother him that he hasn't seen Derek, that they haven't been alone together. Part of that, a big part, was his fault. It wasn't like Derek hadn't tried. It wasn't like he didn't call, but the team has had cases and Derek was pulling double duty with Hotch being out so when it came time to call him back, to ask him to come over because he wasn't cleared to drive yet...well it just felt wrong. So he didn't. He made excuses about being tired. They weren't lies, but tired had never stopped him before. Tired was always his excuse for stopping at Derek's instead of going all the way home. Tired was usually his reason.
He used to stay at work until too late, then show up on Derek's doorstep wrecked from the day. They would shower and Derek would wash his hair, massage his scalp gently until the day melted off of him because Derek says he loves you with generous amounts of physicality and Hotch can't get enough of that. It was sweet and gentle but more often than not that was foreplay, and after their shower they would land in bed and fuck until they fell asleep. Those days are lost to him now. Not even a distant memory, it's like they belong to someone else entirely and when he thinks about them it feels like mourning. That man died on the table, and this creature that emerged from the hospital more scar than skin, more pain than love shoved itself into that old man's suits and did the best job pretending that it could.
âYou got a minute?â
He didn't expect Derek to knock on his door. Hell, he didn't even realize anyone had shown up yet. âSure,â he mutters, closing the case file he'd been reviewing. Darrin Call stared up at him accusingly, calling him a failure. âI couldn't stop him,â he'd said as he stormed out of that house, but that was a little bit of a lie, wasn't it? He didn't mind Darrin shooting his father because wouldn't he like to shoot Foyet? Have some kind of vengeance on the man who torched his life so completely?
He looks up at Derek expectantly. A part of him has this little dream that Derek is going to be gentle, hell maybe he'll just ask him a work question, but mostly he knows that he's in trouble. Derek is at work two hours early and the reason is written all over his features.
âFinally,â Derek says, pulling a chair up beside Hotch's desk. âYou sure you're not too tired?â
Hotch glares but says nothing. He deserves this, he knows it.
âYeah, okay, silent treatment. I guess I should have seen that coming.â
âI'm not giving you the silent treatment, Derek,â Hotch says quietly and Derek thinks he sounds a little breathless. Not enough to be troubling, but some small voice in his head tells him to approach with caution.
He doesn't listen. âLook, man. We don't have much time so I'm just gonna say what I need to say so we can clear the air, yeah?â
Hotch nods, he figures that sounds fair. As fair as he has a right to ask.
âI need to know if I can trust you. I need to understand how you were cleared for duty 34 days after you bled out under Foyet's knife. How you let Emily drive you to and from work yesterday instead of calling me. How you've been in touch with Dave, he knows all sorts of shit and I'm here in the dark. You used to show up at my house in the middle of the night, and you'd crawl into my bed...under my sheets, remember that? Fuck, I had a key to your place last month. Now you don't even look at me. You're always too tired to talk to me. I know you changed your locks and didn't bother to give me a new key. And you know what? Fine, you're really going through it and apparently, I'm the last person you want around you. I don't know what I did to make you feel that way, but I can respect that what happened is a lot for someone to handle and you can take your time. I'm not going anywhere; I'll be here when you want me around again. But I still gotta know I can trust you at work not to go and put yourself in danger, not to put the team in danger, not to put victims in danger.â
âYou didn't do anything.â Of all the pieces of that monologue, Hotch grabs hold of that. It's the most important part. He's not going to justify his decisions as Unit Chief just because they're afraid he's off his game. Maybe he'd have to consider his ability to lead the team soon but for now there really hadn't been any unnecessary loss of life, no one important was hurt, he'd done his job. But making Derek feel responsible for something he didn't do, that part hurt. Because it wasn't true. It caught in his throat, obstructed his breathing for a little too long. He's more than a little stunned by the weight of Derek's words. âYou didn't.â
âYeah? Well that doesn't help me right now. Thanks but no thanks.â
âWhat can I say?â Hotch asks, folding his arms over his chest and leaning back in his chair. His fingertips feel electric and that's never a good sign. He knows what's coming, there is a feeling of doom, of a speeding freight train about to slam into his chest. He's pressing hard on his ribs with static fingers to keep himself together. He glances at the clock and then at the door, they still have time which means Derek is going to continue and he's got to get his shit together. He squeezes his arms tighter against his chest, frowns to focus himself and braces for the impact.
âYou know, all I want is some honesty, if that's not too much to ask. No bullshit, none of your canned responses, just one honest thing and I'll leave you alone. I'll walk outta this office and we're cool.â
Hotch, already on the verge of tears, agrees. What else is there to do? He certainly owes Derek at least that much. And if he can just get that answer out, whatever it is, then Derek will leave and he can return to the safety of case files.
âWhat do you want to know?â Derek hears it again, that breathlessness. It's more pronounced this time and it dictates the question he asks â he thinks it's a simple one, a simple question with a simple answer. And he's pretty sure he already knows what the answer is anyway, so it'll be easy to detect the lie.
âWhy'd you take the vest off, Hotch? I get why you wanted to go into that house by yourself, and as pissed as I am about it...I'll get over it. But why the fuck did you take off the vest? Go in unprotected?â
Not the question Hotch expected, not even close. With the last gust of air in his lungs, he lets the words speak themselves. The room becomes a vacuum, walls stretching tall and thin while his voice rattles through what's left of his already paper-thin defenses.
But the answer is easy. He doesn't want to say it, but it's so easy it's almost silly.
âIt hurt.â
For one beautiful second, his chest stops hurting and the world doesn't collapse in on him and he thinks huh, maybe it works. Maybe telling the truth really can set you free. The way Derek blinks at him, slow and owlish, he thinks he's said something wrong. That Derek thinks he's lying. He tries to open his mouth to clarify that the vest is heavy and tight and his fucking stomach, his chest, his body just hurts so bad all the time but he doesn't get that far before his vision goes spotty and gray. He's on so many new medications that none of this comes as a shock to him, his body is a wreck and he's barely hanging on by a thread.
Hotch screws his eyes shut and tightens his arms over his chest in a desperate attempt to make himself smaller, to fold himself up. He hinges forward until his arms touch his thighs and his sandpaper lungs scrape as he gasps in and out hoping for air. He's dying. His heart is going to explode. The pulse in his head is a thundering river.
The door is closed, and the blinds are pulled, the lights go out and he's keenly aware of each thing but not how they happen. Little changes in his world, so quick he picks them up and then it's just like they always were. The lights were never on. And, like an answer to a question he never asks, Derek's hand is resting warm and heavy against the back of his neck. He'd almost forgotten Derek was there when everything vanished around him. Derek meat-hooks him, an old boxing move, just hooks the back of his neck in one hand and pulls him close. Manhandles him. Derek doesn't ask him what's wrong or what's happening, Hotch's anxiety has been a pillar of their relationship since the beginning, in much the same way as Derek's nightmares. Shared hotel rooms on slim FBI budgets leave very little to the imagination, and when they did manage to have separate rooms well, they always came with paper thin walls.
âI'm sorry,â Derek whispers, crouching beside Hotch. He's not sure what exactly he's sorry for, there's so much running through his mind right now. He could be sorry for just about anything, honestly. That he'd just taken his anger out on a man who was already beaten to pulp. That any of it had even happened in the first place. That he hadn't been there. That his damn credentials were left with him in the ER and it should have been him that Foyet went after. There were more things to be sorry for than stars in the sky, so he squeezed the back of Hotch's neck and rested his forehead against Hotch's trembling shoulder.
Hotch needs quiet. Derek has learned that one simple fact over the years. At first he thought he should tell him to breathe, coax him through it, that's what people said you should do. His therapist used to tell him to find three things he could touch, three he could taste, three he could smell. Some variation of that, and it worked about as well as could be expected...on him. Not Hotch. He quickly found that it only made Hotch feel worse. Only made the panic settle in harder, hold with a firmer grip. âIt hurts, Derek,â he gasped pitifully, his ribs expanding painfully, flaring wider and wider as he tried to suck breath into his ailing lungs. Not quite hyperventilating, but dangerously close. âIt hurts. All the time. It never stops.â
âI'm sorry,â Derek whispers again, shaking his head. âI'm so sorry. It will...it will stop...â He runs his hand from Hotch's neck down his back and up again, slow and heavy. Hotch moans and hugs himself tighter to try and stave off the pain of his ribs ripping him open. Up and down Derek's hand moves, trying to help him remember the motion, how to draw breath.
It's a fast one. Derek has seen him through some that he thought would never end, that left Hotch worn and wasted for hours after. He's seen him through some that even made him panic and think about hospitals. This one was fast, just a couple of minutes, and he's thankful for that. When the tension relaxes in his shoulders and his breaths come in smaller and shakier but without so much effort, Derek raises his head and really takes in the sight of Hotch hunched over there in his suit and tie and he gets it.
He gets it. Can't believe he missed it.
Reid got shot in the leg, and they all see it every day. They see the crutches and they ask him how he's feeling because they're constantly reminded of what happened. It's front and center. But all of Hotch's injuries are buried beneath his suit and his scowl. Nothing left but vicious scars and it was easy to believe that because the skin had healed, so had the wounds themselves. He was up and walking, he was behaving like he always did.
He hadn't let them see his wounds. Derek wasn't surprised by that, he wouldn't have either. The police took their photos for the reports, photos that probably mirrored Foyet's own, and Jessica sat in the room with him. Jessica, angry Jessica, standing sentinel as they poked and prodded and asked questions he didn't want to answer. Not in front of her, not in front of anyone, about being violated in his own home. She'd shown up out of a sense of duty to her sister, forgetting briefly that he was even her friend. He was the source of pain, and she'd prepared so many awful things to say to him, to shout at him, as she flew across town going nearly twice the posted speed limit in places only to end up crying at his bed side. Because she loved him so damn much, and seeing him there...like that...she didn't leave the hospital again. She was the only one he let stay.
So, none of them saw anything but a few scraps of gauze on his arms, when the real mess was beneath a hospital gown and a blanket and he kept it there. It could have been hiding anything.
Derek has taken this man to bed more times than he can count and he still hasn't seen what Foyet left behind for him. He knows Foyet was thinking about him when he did it, in some sick twisted way. Like a cat who drags a bird inside, fucks it up, feathers and blood and guts everywhere...a gift. I love you, see how much I love you? Fear me, because I can do this to you too. He can feel Foyet when he stands close to Hotch. Foyet who focused on Hotch, but wants to remind Derek how lucky he is to have been allowed to live.
âPlease let me back in,â Derek pleads, finally. He thought he was okay with waiting, with being patient, but fuck. He couldn't do this. It was torture.
âI can't,â Hotch whispers back, his voice barely more than the sound of wind whistling through reeds on a summer night. It's ghostly. It scares Derek.
âWhy not? What the hell did I do?â He knows he's treading in dangerous waters and he's really trying not to hit any trip wires, not to set Hotch off again. It's the last thing he wants.
âNothing. You didn't do anything...â Hotch gasps, and he thinks the panic is setting in again. His breath hitches and his chest expands painfully but he presses his palm to his sternum and he sucks breath after breath in through his nose. It works. âFoyet is watching me. I can feel it. He's waiting until he can get you too. You can't...be around.â
âOh, man, fuck Foyet.â
âThat isn't how this works.â Hotch knows that Derek keeps that bullet in his desk, that he looks at it every day to remind himself of how close he was. He knows that Foyet is torturing Derek, too. But he can stop it from going any further.
âWhy? Because he says so? I don't take orders from that sonofabitch. He does not get to steal your family and your life. Let him come at me, Aaron. I fucking dare him. Weeny ass string bean.â
Hotch smiles, just a little, through the tears. His nose is running and he fumbles around in his pocket for his handkerchief. âHe got me.â
âYeah, cos that chickenshit hid in your apartment and took you by surprise after a really fucking bad day. Any other time and he's leaving in a body bag, you know it. That guy is a coward and nothing more. He knows it, too, that's why he did you like he did.â
Hotch is sort of stunned for a moment, because in all the thinking he'd done over the last month and some change...he hadn't ever bothered to consider that. Not that he couldn't eventually have arrived at that conclusion himself but hearing it from Derek felt almost like a weight being lifted from his chest.
âCome on. You know that coward can't take us both. Come stay with me for a few days, just the weekend even. Clooney misses the shit outta you and I'm sure he'd love to snack on Foyet if he dares to show his ugly mug around my place.â
Before Hotch can answer, there's a knock at the door and Derek stands up. He's going to answer it while Hotch does his best to pull himself together. On the other side of the door is JJ with the worst words she can possibly say at that time. Neither of them are surprised.
âWe've got a case, guys. It's a bad one.â She always says that, it is pretty meaningless now, but she notices that Hotch's eyes look red and raw, and Derek looks a little disheveled. Worn out. She knows she's interrupted something important and she doesn't feel good about it. âI'll start debriefing the team, we can catch you up on the jet. Take your time.â
âThanks, Jayj.â
He closes the door again, briefly, and glances over at Hotch who is doing his best to remove tear tracks from his cheeks. Derek thinks it's kind of cute, the way he dabs at his skin with that old embroidered handkerchief.
âRain check?â he asks hopefully, and Hotch nods.
âRain check.â Maybe they'll go home together when they get off the jet.
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The AUTISM (my experience)
Iâve spent more of my life aware of my autism than not aware of it, at this point.Â
I got my diagnosis the winter before my freshman year of high school and it was extremely exciting for myself.
For the first time in my life, I knew why it was so hard to talk to people, why I loved reading so much, why various objects were so noisy and loud and bad to touch at times. (Why no one wanted to be my friend.)Â
As part of that experience, I was on the high of self-awareness. I wanted to tell my friends and for a few, I did. I wanted EVERYONE to know, I am autistic!
Only for that to not...go so great.Â
People said stuff like âYou donât seem autistic.â Every bit of their tone and words implied that autism was a Bad Thing, even to an individual less than savvy about social interaction such as me.Â
I tried to explain. I tried to say, âWell, thatâs not true, Iâve just been working very hard to fit in.â âDonât you know what it means to have autism, this is what it means-â
But no one wanted to listen. People have their own ideas of what autism is, you see. A teenage girl that read all the time in the back of the class, getting good grades on everything, and didnât keep up on the latest gossip, doesnât fit into those ideas.Â
Ideas Iâm going to touch on, just you wait.Â
Iâve spent a heavy amount of my time in school, before and after my Revelation, being jealous of Autistic Boys TM.Â
The âboysâ is the important part, you see. They fit in every autistic stereotype almost perfectly. They talk nonstop about topics most people donât even care about, like trains and planes and bugs and elevators. Theyâre louder than usual. They fall into very noticeable meltdowns when itâs too loud, too bright. They punch people, even, in the more extreme cases.Â
But people smiled at them in school. Nodded and pretended to listen in ways they never did with me. Never told them they were wrong for existing. And I envied these boys for that.Â
Because theyâre allowed, you see. Theyâre allowed to be obnoxious and unable to fit in, because they have autism, you got it? How terrible that these boys have autism, theyâll never be able to have normal lives!Â
Theyâre allowed to exist as they are, because theyâre pitied for it.Â
The first thing to learn, having autism: that youâre only allowed to be autistic if youâre pitiable.
Thatâs what people assume, if you learn later than usual that youâre autistic, that youâre looking for pity.Â
When in reality youâre looking for understanding. For a reason, no matter how terrible, your life has been the way it has up to this point. And beyond.Â
Only children have autism, donât you get it? Small pitiable creatures that have no control over their lives. Autistic children never grow up, in the minds of the public.Â
But where does that leave the rest of us?
Where does that leave me?
Well. Getting angry, I guess. Anger burning through my veins and heart.Â
Iâve spent a lot of my life trying to figure out how to function in a world that isn't made for me. Done things like studying how social interactions work, take in as much nerd culture as possible so I could talk to said nerds about anything they wanted to, practiced work interviewing over and over. So many small pieces for the mask the world wants to see.Â
Only for it not to matter. Not really.Â
Thereâs always going to be a person that just gets it, understands the interviewers down to the base level, in a way that I would have to study for years to comprehend. Who gets picked because of that, nevermind how hard I worked for the same.Â
Sometimes I ask for help, and it only ends up in being treated like an infant.Â
So much of my life makes me angry at its unfairness. At how I feel like I have to lie about who I am for anyone to accept me, for me to do anything. Â
And lying, as they say, is a thing autistics hate.
But itâs not always like that. There are people that want me to work as I am, who are very happy at my neurodivergent ability to just do the same thing over and over without getting extremely bored with it.Â
People who tell me that theyâre happy that Iâm sharing my experiences, that thereâs someone else out there whoâs autistic like they are.Â
People who fight to get more studies on how autism works in the brain, how it shows up in people outside those Autistic Boys TM.Â
The worldâs already better when it comes to information on autism than it was when I was younger, and it was better then than it was for my dad before me.Â
So.
I am Autistic and proud of it.Â
I hope you can be proud too.Â
#long post#ableism#autism#personal#i ain't giving up#not any time soon#and i don't want any other neurodivergents to either
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All the boys seem heavily revolved around partying and drinking and clubbing etc. especially with their friends. Thats kinda why I asked - like would any of them be with someone not like that and how that would impact friendships and stuff if you weren't.
I don't vibe with that lifestyle and have opinions on those that do (excessively) and is partly why I have doubts around the boys being genuinely good people. Sorry this was a rant and I'm just babbling here - no hate intended to anyone.
Not gonna lie, i was really confused about which boys u're talking about because everything u said is so similar to the sam and colby case haha. It took me a second to remember the ask
I didn't know u were referring to that, so thank u for clearing that up. I don't think that partying and hanging out at a drink with the friend group is something that should define u as being wild or not nice. At the same time, it also doesn't mean that u're entirely nice. But i feel like they do nothing wrong. I know English people are usually party people, Irish too, i know this from my cousin who goes to uni with these nationalities so to say. Maybe partying is in their blood đđ
But also, i don't think they party that much. Maybe after the concerts it's bound to happen if they're in a really good mood and when they have days off too. I don't see them going out too often tbh. And even if there are pictures from one night at a club, the next ones are in like a month or something. It's definitely possible that they go out more than what the pictures amd timelines show, but i think it's still a normal and healthy amount of going out and partying.
I share the same feeling as u, like not necessarily liking the people who excessively do this. I would say tho that i hope they don't overdo it with drinking. At weddings (just like James' wedding case where they were really drunk) is something else, but drinking too much is too much haha. Still, i don't think they do that. They really seem responsible, they're grown men at last
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Tony's here. Doing that thing he doesn't deserve. Caring.
It's not as weird as he thought it'd be. It's awkward as hell and he feels guilty, but it's not weird. That they slept together. Tony showed up which means something. It didn't ruin them. The stupid bastard was here, and that means he failed at icing him out.
Fuck, he should not have opened the door. Now it's going to be awkward. The only saving grace was the paper coffee cup held tightly in one of Tony's hands, that was promptly shoved into his hands. There's a relieved exhale at the warmth of the cup still, it was fresh and he forgets to invite Tony in because he's distracted with sweet, sweet caffeine.
â My hero. â
He had needed that today. Seventh cup already. How he hadn't given himself heart problems with the amount of coffee in his veins was a miracle. One he won't call out. It relaxes him just enough to accept the guy he didn't call was now sitting in his living room. A bag of food deposited on the coffee table which saves Clint from leftovers again.
Blue eyes are scanning around his apartment, peaking up at the loft and trying to make sure that nothing was too suspicious. It's a little messier but not a bad as that one Christmas or in the past. He was alright two days ago, or had a better day.
â Haven't you heard of the irresistible factor test? I don't call and I score a perfect 10 if you show back up within two weeks. â He scoffs a laugh, as he finds nothing too out of place and goes to join Tony on the couch. â I just passed it, with a perfect 10. See, I can't miss. â
Okay, being closer was a little weirder than normal. The man kissed him, refused to let Clint shove him out, and now he's hear again and he didn't call. Would lying and saying he was gonna call about a new air conditioning unit be better? He considered it, would have done it eventually.
Clint focuses on the coffee in his hands for a solid thirty seconds before his hands are in the takeout bag, trying to find out what was for food. He could eat, he could always eat unless he couldn't eat. Today was an eat day. He's pulling out, about to pop open a foam box when Tony's produces a plastic case and tosses at it.
â What the- â Food dropped as he reflexively moves to grab the case. He shuts up as Tony explains. They weren't tiny which Clint was glad for, he hated the damn stealth hearing aids that were like tiny earplugs that Shield made him wear. Hidden, like he was supposed to be ashamed, like no one was suppose to know.
His left eye burns and he wills himself not to get choked up because Stark's made something new, to the shape of his ear and they were purple, and they would be visible when he was wearing them. They looked nice, and they came with bells and whistles. Clint wants to shove Tony Stark, because he was fine, he didn't deserve this or need this.
Sound dampeners. He needed that. Crowded rooms bothered him a lot. His current model was Stark tech, but ones that could be bought at very low and affordable price, the ones anyone could buy because he was never going to ask for something special made. These were that. Fuck, he should just kill Tony, save Clint the guilt that he was feeling.
â You didn't have to do that. â Thank you is what he means. He already had a headache, very dull and only at the back of skull, so swapping to new aids wasn't going to be an issue. Might as well swap them now, than ruin a headache-less day by making his brain and ears adjust to something new. He takes a moment to swap them out. The other ones will go into one of his stashes or put in his emergency gear kits, just in case.
â I was going to. â Liar. â Eventually. â Liar. â I've been fine. â Liar.
â I'm giving the air-con one more month before I'll replace her. I would have called you about that. â That's not one hundred percent a lie. It's more depedent upon if he could bring himself to get a new air conditioner. â She's working just fine. No reason to fire her yet. â
Sorry, he should maybe say. â What's up, Iron Pants? Your harem of women been tearing you a new one or...? â
Tony can hear Clint on the other side of the door moving things around. He knows that Clint is aware he knocked. Even if he didn't hear it, Lucky is barking up a storm. Besides, Tony saw the shadow at the door of Clint's huge feet and the way the light changed in the peephole when he looked through it. So there's a few options for what's going on right now.
The first is, Clint thinks he's an idiot and is pretending he doesn't know there's someone there and/or hoping that Tony thinks there's no one home. Alternatively, he's hiding something or putting on some clothes. Finally, he's trying to get his window open so he can escape out the fire escape.
Whatever the option, Tony will give Clint some time to dress/hide whatever he's hiding and if he doesn't open the door he'll break in. Bonus points for if he has tried leaving through the fire escape, in that case, when Clint gets back, Tony will also kick his ass.
After some scraping and door slamming Clint finally opens the door. "Just for you," Tony says and pushes the takeout cup into Clint's hands and use it to guide him out of the way, so Tony can push past. He glances around the room. The couch is made up for someone to sleep in. No one is here though, so either Clint's sleeping on it, or his guest is out for the moment. Or he supposed Clint could have shoved them into his bedroom as the door has been shut. Sucks for that person then, they'll be hiding in there for a long fucking time.
Tony drops the takeout bag on the coffee table and flops onto the couch, putting his feet up on the table next to the back and crossing one ankle over the other. "You didn't call me," he snarks as he fishes around in the inside breast pocket of his jacket. "And we had such a nice date, Cupid. I was thought you might be the one."
His fingers close around the smooth plastic case he'd manufactured for the new hearing aids and he pulls them out and tosses them to Clint. "Here. Try these. I had them modeled to the shape of your ear. Do not ask how I had a 3D model of that. You don't want to know. They have a background sound dampener for when you're in a really noisy space so it doesn't all just become a mess of sound. It filters out any sounds of things rubbing against them. And I can install something on your phone that you can target them onto something specific. Even if it's on the other side of a noisy room. You know, sneaky spy shit. Oh and bonus features of being fairly resistant to both water and EMPs. Not proof. Just resistant. Don't intentionally go leaving them in glasses of water over night."
He takes a sip of his coffee and looks up at Clint. "Why didn't you call me?"
#ic; clint barton#mrtonystark#thank you so much <3 i love your tony a lot and just you've been amazing <3#it's so nice to connect over these two disasters#consider clint offers to go with tony to meet his mom :))#content warning#alcohol cw#drinking cw#dark cw#self harm cw#suicidal idealation cw#violence cw#abuse cw#verse; clint barton; who shares your burdens (mrtonystark)
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"Why do you like me?" (Amephil Story)
Hello, here to show you my self made story, it's still on its preliminary stages, so I apologize for the spelling mistakes! Please correct and give out constructive criticism, thank you!
America paced through the front door with agitation of whomever it is to come, and he was absolutely dreading it, but don't let him deter it from the fact it was a necessary sacrifice. He snorted, all of this was sounding itself to be an awful narration of a story if he were to ask. He then shuffled in place, unable to stay long as his anxiety still shook him to have that of an adverse effect.
He preferred the USA, as it is more specifically referring to him, and nobody else is mistaken in the process of his name being called, yet to the insistence of completely everybody except him, had decided by whatever council of fate had blessed(read: cursed) him with the title of America for their excuse was simply, they have gotten used to the designatory leaving their lips with the thought behind their eyelids was his imaginary self in their self-reflective perspectives, oftentimes an exposure of how they perceive people and interpret their behavior.
So now he was stuck with the blasted entitlement that wasn't his namesake.
Screw this, he would've internally thought so himself, as for once he realizes not twice, nor thrice, but abundantly amount of times the extent that they tend to overshadow himself and somewhat find the semblance and the audacity that HE is the one who manages to be stereotypically overconfident and with the zeal and zest for life that is bigger than his being, and from where they caught or found that kind of personality in him was a wonder.
"USA?" And then a breath of fresh air was by an instant, intermittently fed through his lungs when he turned to look up and - was greeted by a too familiar face, very familiar in fact. He would've bolted his way outside the building if only she weren't, blocking the godforsaken doorway.
Philippines, now where were they? Ah right, recalling the moments of who made them the standing intimidating gal at least for him, what led to them becoming a cat and mouse dynamic asked by the dismay of nobody? He'll deliver and answer it just fine without anyone backing him up, the Philippines had picked up on his own lonesome, whether it was because she was an extrovert who empathized what it was like and misdirected the scene entirely in their head from the assumption that he was, utterly and cripplingly cut off from company in purpose, or a sympathetic compassionate individual who wants to heal him from his presumed butthurt feelings.
He wasn't, he can attest, he was tired of the people's demands over his head that were looming on the top wherein it could drop anytime soon and he would be a shell of who he is due to the sheer magnitude of stress they're willing to put him up with to fix their own dilemmas and issues they've presented, you'd think they'd be the one to do it, but no... they still rely on him and never once they thought to be independent, and so he snapped. Luckily that abated their prying influences and attention for a temporary while, which he then diverts his last dredges of energy to make an escape from the crowds to intake the reward for peace, from what he heard so and so was a rarity in his country nowadays.
Returning to the case of the Philippines of whom he doesn't understand nor care to find out what goes in her head. Secretly though, he wouldn't lie he was a bit, only just a bit oddly curious to earn himself the knowledge of what keeps her on her toes, so that she can be avoided altogether, and to his admittance, her thoughts on him, and her outlook on life. It was a normal interest, believe him, anyone asks the question once in a while. There is a strange delight in deeply comprehending the things that unfold in you when you know the motivations and context behind it, to you, it all made sense down to the very inch, etched in there, that it served a purpose.
Philippines opened her mouth, probably taking advantage over the silence of the previous incursion and distracted look he kept, "So, what are you doing?" Is that all she was going to ask?
And here he thought - oh no, she opted for more words instead, he should've left it at nothing, but fine, let's hear it then, he derisively suggested inward, holding the urge to roll his eyes. He didn't mean to be less than amicable but lately since the incident of USA/America which could've been avoided overall if they had just listened to his pleas, that fell into deaf ears, then he would've been in a lighter mood than he is currently. There's also the affair that was related to his own behavior, which he was scolded for, and he was following through his activities with no worries at all! What warranted such a reprimand? His actions weren't even anything remotely like they represented he was doing at all! But of course, information that he hid, that they don't know, won't know, strikes again. He almost regrets keeping confidential matters, almost.
Sensing his emotions acutely, because there's no other explanation for how she figured that out, "You're thinking about your name, aren't you?" He froze on the spot, he panicked, though figuring out showing it on his expression would catch her gotcha points, so he settled to a blank look that was convincing even to himself.
"What makes you think that?" 'Okay USA, I think you need to tone/bog down on your convincing display of irritation', he chided internally. He also thought this hit two birds if she were to expound on the concern, had flowed in a similar wavelength and went through the same conclusions as him.
She answered casually with a, "People were talking about it, and I caught wind of what they said... are you really all that?" She couldn't hold back a twitch in her smile, what did she find so funny about the situation?
Her eyes widened, as his gaze turned hostile, "Oh, sorry, I didn't mean to offend - it's been a long time since I last talked to you..." She huffed, looking longingly at the side before snapping when she realize she was reminiscing the lost memories. At least she had the propriety to look sheepish enough for her actions. He thought everybody else dropped the pretense ball ever since freedom was in store, being advocated for, arguably he wasn't inserting a commentary, it was just his honest feelings about the circumstances. It isn't that he isn't considering his people, the opposite actually, he was ashamed to know that this is where they led astray to, a hill they'd die on, with the loss of their emotional faculties because it overflowed with shame that it collapsed. But he understands, and he hates the truth he understands, and deeply so when your independence is wrenched away from you and you aren't in control.Â
He can say that United Kingdom wasn't without his faults, and nothing will ever retract the hurt that was once forcefully inflicted to him. This was one of them.
"It was to my notice that my cognizance of the information that we haven't been in speaking terms lately was on top shape," USA bit out, having to suppress a smirk when a flinch from her was caught in his eye, it was of minimal effort to have someone grasp his insinuations, goes to show that there are people who don't take things for face value, even if tempted or sorely suggested to.
"You'd think they'd contain themselves to their own bubbles rather than, shuffle messages over something unrelated to their case, they're clearly that bored if not even that can satisfy their thirst for drama, whatever happens in the meetings, it is their right to listen in or not, and they chose to prioritize lesser information, the joke is on them." He added, mockingly punctuating each point, as a billboard to a mad scientist does, lest she accuses him of not answering her other statements.
Philippines pursed her lips, as if daring to argue, nevertheless, her resolve was admirable, as all she gave was a restrained judgement that ran course through her countenance. Despite this, he felt the bubbling weight of her pressurecooker of emotions that she was holding and bottling up, switching aspects of her character in her disposition, contorting to various impressions of sentiments she wished to convey, ranging from disillusionment to irritation. The painfully obvious twitches in her eyes, as clear as day, brought forth signs of tension and stress marring her features, painting her older than she actually is. It was nearly as amusing as her vocalized remarks, and readily as foolish. If he were a lesser man, he would've called it adorable. Luckily, he wasn't that kind of man.
"Don't you have anything nice to say about anybody?" Oops, I guess she couldn't handle herself, what a silly girl. He had spoken too soon, he advised himself to tone down on the positivity, he can't expect everyone else to hold themselves hostage. He must be in a terribly condescending mood, honestly, now he wants to test the waters of what makes her tic. A lightbulb went above his head, and there he determined a plan, so he leaned forward, inches away from her face, putting a show of the biggest shit eating grin he could muster before delivering the blow of, "It must be so hard for you to be such a Ms. Nice girl, you're winning it, should I give you a reward for your good behavior?" Wait, the long pause. He couldn't believe his ears on what he muttered, that was... so -
"America!" Both of them shot from their head, craning their neck simultaneously at the intruding visitor, if anyone were to picture them, they would seem exactly like a deer in headlights. What a pair they make, he groaned, not. He mutely excuses himself his presence over the room, leaving the Philippines to deal with the aftermath of the encounter alone, accompanied by their discordant thoughts that was left by the day's escalations of events, that was coincidentally cut off before it could even be processed by both of the parties. Abstenmindedly, as his lidded eyes trailed on the back, from where his head can reach the turn, there she stood, he entertained the notion that they would've - no, could've been a close companion in another life. (What halts you from the principle of friendship in this life, then?)
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encountering a âpick meâ girl
character(s) : kirishima eijirou, todoroki shouto, bakugou katsuki (bnha)
warning : PICK ME GIRL, misogyny (?) pick me girl makes an off handed comment about your body but itâs not detailed at all
PART TWO â PART THREE
legend : [Y/N = your name] afab! reader, but they/them pronouns used, quirk not mentioned
headcanon type : fluff, angst if you squint
note(s) : i made 2 versions of this post so,, if youâre reading thisâ then i probably decided that i liked this one more than the other one i made,, anyways, i used real life examples đ
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kirishima eijirou
iâd imagine that eijirou would have an idea of what a pick me girl isâ i mean, there were probably 2 of those girls in middle school
but has he experienced it first hand? nahh.
though, eijirou didnât think heâd encounter one when he was already in a healthy and committed relationship!
eijirou is practically friends with everyoneâ and yeah, even the most unexpected. so, heâs bound to accidentally befriend a pick me girl
him, being the nicest one out of all of the characters in this list, will still be nice to said pick me girl, despite wanting to snob them to the core
because reallyâ you canât really fight fire with fire in some cases
but, he can be everything but lenient when the pick me girl starts insulting you for doing certain things, and for absurd reasons too
like,, how you laugh, and how you take care of yourself (for exampleâ if you wear makeup, or how you style your hair)
which is odd! everything about you is everything but the things the pick me girl has stated so.. he cannot stand by.
SCENARIO
the girl giggles to herself after that snide comment leaves her lip gloss coated lips. eijirou shifts uncomfortablyâ honestly taken aback by the anything but subtle insult that was thrown at you
âlike.. seriously! itâs honestly quite superficial if you look at it like that. who the hell would put that much effort infront of your boyfriend? iâd assume theyâd see everything AND everything but.. i guess not.â
you blink. superficial? now thatâs a new one. the girl infront of you has been babbling insults sugarcoated in boasts the entire time, and youâre just wondering if itâs about time you guys leave butâ
âwell thatâs unfair,â your boyfriend laughs, âi put the same amount of effort as this cutie right here,â eijirou pokes at your cheek, earning a quick laugh from youâ which he can only thank the heavens for that
âbut thatâs different. it actually looks put together when youâre doing it, eiji.â the certain glint in her smile makes you want to wipe it right off with a dirty mop, âitâs impossible to look put together with expensive clothes, but being built like aââ
the sound of the sliding of a chair is quicker than your actions, and it easily cuts her off.
âiâm sorry, but we gotta go, itâs totally not cool of you to say those things about Y/N!â
âwhat? but i mean.. itâs true, right? iâm looking out for them! theyâre literally out here lââ
âbye!â eijirou waves her goodbye with your hand, dismissing the sour expression on her faceâ as he dashes off with you
youâd question how heâs just so nice to people like that, but when he turns around, you could see the distaste in his eyes
âso thatâs what a pick me girlâs like,â shaking his head, his expression lights up with such a quick manner âiâll never make friends that are like that again!â
safe to say, eijirouâs friend list has been a a person shorter ever since that incident
bakugou katsuki
oh, so that girlâs bold bold.
if she thinks she could get away with being a not so subtle pick me girl infront of bakugou katsuki, then she couldnât be more wrong.
itâs absolutely revoltingâ i mean, he hasnât displayed any romantic feelings towards ANYONE that isnât you.
also, theyâre quite gutsy if you ask me. so congrats for having guts??
i donât think heâd be friends with a pick me girl. heâs very selective of who heâs befriending, so itâs probably your friend thatâs the pick me girl in this case
he wouldnât know what a pick me girl would be, but heâd probably know the description of one.
over some time, heâd grow some resistance to insults directed at him, but when someone insults his s/o
oh boy. thatâs not good. remember when i said that katsuki was almost like your scary and intimidating dog
this is what i mean
knows he canât make a scene, so his first option is to be dismissive asfâ but if said pick me girl literally canât get it, he wonât be afraid of shoving some explosions into her face
because his hands are rated e for everyone
SCENARIO
âso you wanna be picked or something, is that it?â he hates how you literally have the resistance of a rockâ which is something he always liked, but in this case hated. if it werenât for youâ he wouldâve blasted explosions into her sorry excuse of a face until itâs beyond recognition (that wouldnât be hero like, is what youâve said in the past, but he disagrees.)
but seriously? ugh. he just wants to leave this horrid place, and make some dinner with you in the comfort of his home. why are you even friends with her anyway? sheâs not even trying to be slick at this point.
âp-picked? iâm not understanding, katsu.â
âitâs bakugou.â
âright,â her laughter is like nails on chalkboard, âiâm just watching out for Y/N, yâknow? thereâs no point in wearing all of that.. on their face.â and sheâs obviously referring to your obviously very well done makeup
âitâll make your skin terrible in the long run! and reallyâ i couldnât really understand on why someone would wear that much, when you could survive with i dunno.. lip gloss at most?â
you wouldâve actually said something as a rebuttal, but your boyfriend is quicker, and a lot more direct than anyone else in the area.
âjust say you canât do makeup and fucking scram,â katsukiâs ice cold glare finally breaks out of the act heâs been trying to hold together for you
âtheir makeup is fucking bomb as hell, compared to your ridiculous spider lashes, lady. come back when youâve watched james charlesâ entire fucking channel.â he harshly states in similar bakugou fashion, despite the lack of screaming.
and if you squinted hard enough, you could see tears welling up in her eyes. but katsuki tugs your hand before anything else could be said
âletâs fucking go, you need better friends.â
he makes you cut ties with all of them, and he practically scolds your terrible choice of friendsâ but he goes quiet when you tell him that youâve been friends with her since middle school
âgood fucking riddance. next time, iâll punch them as soon as they say something outta line, got that?â and next time (hopefully, there wonât be a next time) youâll actually lash outâ or maybe,, youâll let him loose for once.
todoroki shouto
now shouto might be,, socially unaware sometimes. but he can tell whenever someoneâs trying to insult his s/o
like,, right away.
nowâ you both run into this person after a pleasant date, and she eagerly presented herself as your friend
so, her attitude catches him off guard because whoâd have anything rude to say about you and towards shoutoâs face? especially when itâs about something normal.
like,, wasnât she your friend?? why is she even like this?
his hostility is very well known, so they should be scared.
he gets detached from the conversation, and heâll immediately go coldâ and shouto would probably go as far as walking away with your hand in his
doesnât matter if he properly says goodbye or notâ if a girlâs being rude to his s/o, they obviously donât deserve his usually polite attitude. nope, thatâs a luxury.
ohâ and what more when theyâre seeking for his validation. newsflash! said pick me girl wonât be get any from him.
SCENARIO
shouto couldnât stop the bitterness bleeding into his mouth, when the girl in front of him continued to babble and take up the valuable time he had left with his s/o
initially, she presented herself as your friend from middle schoolâ but as of now? she seems to be more interested in him more than you, despite knowing you first.
sheâd ask him a string of obvious questions with very obvious answers, like âis she treating you well?â âis she acting correctly?â and questions of the sort
âoh, sorry! iâd hate to cut this conversation short, butââ you finally decide that it was about time to leave, while shouto looks pretty,, deadpanned right now, you could tell that he was gradually starting to get irritated by your friendâs words.
âwait. thats.. kind of controlling, donât you think? do you ever let shou make decisions?â
âuh.. controlling? since when??â you question at the accusation. this girl knows nothing about your relationship dynamic, and sheâs already jumping the gun and making conclusions.
your gaze snaps back to shouto, who looks just as surprised as he could possibly be.
âyeah! it clearly looks like he still wants to talkâ which is an obvious lie, shouto just wants it out of here âi wonder how you managed to snag such a guy like him,â she comments with a smile that looked anything above suspicion (yet, it makes your stomach churn)
you could see the way her hand gets gradually closer to himâ and frankly, youâre not sure about what she was planning to do next, âyou wouldnât need to dress all expensive and fancy, if youâre with a girl with an already classy appearââ
âi think this conversation is over,â shouto grip is firm on the wrist that was attempting to grab his shoulder, shouto makes no attempt to even look at the girl infront of him âi donât know what youâre trying to do, but itâs not humorous. at all.â
âwhat?â she stammers, drawing her hand back âi-itâs obvious they donât know how to take a joke! this is why there are barely any good wââ
shoutoâs next actions knocks her speechless, his hand rests at the small of your back, before gently guiding you forwardâ âlove, what movie are we watching later?â he says, making an effort to press a quick, yet intense kiss on your lips
âoh,â you breathe out, surprised by this action. âdonât be so tense, love.â shouto comments on how tense your shoulders have looked, ever since she started running her mouth, ânow.. what movie do you want to watch tonight? comedy? thriller?â
âyou pick,â you laugh at the quick shift of topic. and when you look behind you, you could see shame and defeat welling up on her face. shouto finally feels like he could smile again, the bitterness dissipating from his mouth
after shouto questions you if that was what a pick me girl was, he makes sure that you guys wonât ever encounter such thing again
âyou.. donât have more friends like that, right? if you doâ we could always do another friend list cleansing.â this statement makes you laugh but shouto is anything but joking
but being reminded of his reaction to that âpick meâ girl does puts a smile on your face.
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Truth Serum
Pietro Maximoff X Reader
Summary: While working with Tony and Bruce in the lab you accidentally drink some very experimental truth serum, leading to some unwanted confessions with your coworkers.
Warnings: use of y/n, swearing, lots of dialogue, barely proofread, etc.
Word Count: 1.7K
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You were busy working with Tony and Bruce in the lab and jokingly Tony placed his latest concoction next to your drink but you didnât realize until it was too late and you drank Bruceâs experimental truth serum.
âJesus Tony can you turn down that obnoxious music? Iâm so sick of that stupid 70s rock music youâre always playing.â
Tony stopped what he was doing are looked over at you in shock.
âL/n, what the hell are you talking about? You told me you loved my music.â
âWell I lied, I lie to you a lot actually.â You looked up eyes blown wide with dear as you covered your mouth after saying that.
âI did NOT mean to say that.â
âY/n⊠did you just take a sip of that beaker Tony so stupidly placed right next to your drink?â Bruce asked pinching the small space in between his eyebrows
You looked down as remorse filled your gut, noticing a small dribble of blue liquid slowly falling down the side of the beaker you obviously just took a drink from. Your eyes life to meet Bruceâs as you slowly nodded a small yes.
âWell, no thanks to Tony now we get to find out if my very experimental truth serum actually works.â
âTRUTH SERUM?!â You shouted, the last thing you wanted was for your team to have unrestricted access to your secrets.
âNo thanks to me? Are you kidding Banner? This might be the most fun we have with Y/n all year!â Tony said with a cheeky grin
Your groaned and let your head fall onto the desk you were sitting at. âHow long will this last?â You asked muffled
âBest case scenario for you? It could wear off within the next 30 minutes. Worst case scenario? You could be highly responsive and overly truthful for the two days.â
Tony broke out with a loud cackle as he got up from his desk and exited the lab âGood luck kid!â
âAnd theres no antidote?â You pleaded
âSorry, but we were barely in the trial phases of creating this and we donât try to make an antidote unless we know for sure that it works.â
âSo how the hell am I supposed to deal with this in the meantime?â
âMy best advice? Lock yourself away in your quarters for the next day or so to avoid saying anything unsavory to the rest of the team. Because I donât have a doubt in my mind Tony left to go and tell the whole team about your little predicament.â
But before you could reply Sam, Rhodey, and Bucky all came running into the lab practically running over each other.
âOkay, Iâve wanted wanted to know. How do you feel really about Redwing?â Sam asked pushing Rhodey and Bucky aside.
âI think you should find a girlfriend so you stop obsessing over a high tech piece of metal.â You said with an unholy amount of sass, already sick of this treatment. Bucky burst out laughing but you sent a pissed off glare his way.
âDonât think youâre safe either beefcake. Youâre 106 years old and still canât take a joke, not to mention that youâre forgetful as fuck. I mean who the hell just forgets that they have a vibrium arm? Iâm not even going to get started on that staring problem you have that you think is so intimidating.â You snapped, shutting everyone in the room up. Before leaving you locked eyes with Rhodey.
âOh hi Ego Machine! Donât worry, I didnât forget about you. I mean who could when you tell that story of how you dropped a tank at the generals feet every single party? I mean, BOOM were you looking to be interesting?â
After shutting every one in that room down you stormed out and locked yourself in your room. You really could tell if you had taken truth serum or just a liquid curse. You never left your room for the rest of the night, not wanting to risk dinner with the team. But you woke up around 5:30 in the morning to. Very strong feeling of hunger, and prayed no one else would be up this early as you snaked down into the kitchen. You walked past Wanda sleeping quietly on the couch as Vision floated peacefully in the corner.
âCreepy motherfuckerâŠâ you whispered as you stepped into the kitchen
âWhat was that you said about my husband?â Wanda said, suddenly on the other side of the counter looking at you with a tilted head. You jumped almost spilling your cereal
âJesus Christ Wanda! A warning!â You said clutching your head with one hand and the cereal box with the other. But she only looked at you and smiled mischievously
âYou can ask anything you want but youâre not allowed to be upset by the answerâ you stated plaining, pouring some milk into your bowl.
âAre you talking about the truth serum you took yesterday?â Wanda asked, tilting her head at you.
âYeah, it might not wear off for another 24 hours. Everyones been dying to find how I âreallyâ feel about them since Tony ran his big mouth and told everyone about this stupid serum I drank.â
âYou do remember I can read minds, right? I always know when someoneâs telling the truth or lying, I just donât always call them on it.â
âRight.â You said quietly as you stuffed your face with cereal so you could go back to your quarters as soon as possible.
You sat alone in your room unbothered for the next few hours, until you heard a rock at your door.
âDonât come in! Go away!â You shouted turning the page of your book assuming whoever was on the other side of your door would kindly fuck off. But as a tall man with a mop of silver hair entered your room you sighed dramatically and threw your book at him, missing spectacularly.
âI couldâve sworn I said to NOT come in.â you said as you crossed your arms over your chest, looking at the ever so muscular man making his way over to your bed.
âAnd whenâs the last time I took orders from you?â Pietro said with a smile.
âYou never take orders from anyone, Iâm surprised you havenât been kicked off the team yet honestly.â You spat, bitter that he wasnât respecting your wishes to be left alone. A pit of nerves also started to grow in your stomach the closer he came to you knowing how you really felt about him, and that if he asked thereâd be nothing stopping you from telling him the truth.
âAh, you wound me dragĂą.â Pietro says as he mockingly clasps his hands over his heart as if youâd shot him. You just rolled your eyes in response.
âThe team tells me youâve become somewhat of a bitch since yesterday, is that true?â He asked, sitting down at the foot of your bed.
âIâm not a bitch, Tony just tricked me into drinking some of Bannerâs experimental truth serum. But you already knew that didnât you? Either way, spoiler alert. The stupid serum works and probably wonât wear off for another 12 hours. Besides, Iâm only a bitch to the team members I donât like.â Your eyes widened realizing what you just admitted to Pietro
âI suppose thatâs true, Wanda did tell me you werenât too bad when she ran into you this morning.â Pietro said scooting up next to you in bed, normally youâd tell him to fuck off before he got too close so he would know how much you loved being in his arms but when he asked
âIs this okay?â As he stretched his arms over your shoulders pulling you into his chest
âYeah, I love it when you hold me. Or just touch me in general, always makes me feel like Iâm on cloud nine.â The confession just spilled right out of your mouth, causing you to once again to clasp a hand over your lips to prevent you from saying anything else.
Pietro looked down at you with a shocked eyes but a smug smile, deciding to push his luck he asked âThen why do you always push me away and tell me to fuck off anytime I hug you?â
âBecwagh wi dwomt vhmnf to nmfhâŠâ you said, keeping your hand over your mouth to muffle your answer. Pietro shook his head light at you as he took your hand off your lips and held it, gently caressing your knuckles with his thumb
âWhat was that darling?â He said as he cobalt blue eyes poured into yours. Itâs like he already knew how you felt but just needed to hear you say it to confirm his suspicions. Months of pinning after you, and now here was his chance. He had no other choice but to act on it. You swallowed the last bit of pride and fear held in your chest and said
âBecause I donât want you to know how I really feel about you.â The last of your walls came crashing down as you smiled gently at the handsome man before you, he gently tucked a strand of hair behind your ear as his faced inched closer to yours.
âAnd how do you feel about me dragostĂ©?â
âLike youâre the only person in the world I could ever fall in love with.â That was all Pietro needed to push aside his ego hearing how you really felt about him as he leaned down and closed the gap in between the two of you pressing his soft lips to yours. Moving gently with you as his lips slotted perfectly over yours, you breathe in his musky scent as you ran your hand across his chest pulling him closer to you. Sadly it wasnât long before you both ran out of air and had to pull away
âSo how do you feel now?â Pietro asked with a cheeky grin plastered on his lovestruck face
âLike I could kiss your stupid face all day.â You said grabbing the collar of his shirt and pulling him back in for a much more heated kiss.
The rest of your afternoon and week into the evening was spent in Pietros arms sharing soft kisses and fleeting touches. Although admittedly he was sad when the truth serum wore off and he couldnât ask you any and everything under the sun about how you felt about him.
But youâd end up showing him how you felt in other ways later on ;)
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A/N
Ahhh hereâs my 4th post that will be published while Iâm away at camp! Found this little bit in my notes as well and just fleshed it out enough to post! Hope this was enjoyable!
Much Love,
âSkyler
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