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chapter 2: you're on your own, kid
ceo!oscar piastri x reader
summary: the one where an opportunity arises.
word count: 1.3k
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Oscar wasn’t reckless. Every decision he made, whether in business or in life, was careful, deliberate. So when she began to occupy more space in his thoughts than he was comfortable admitting, he decided to treat it like any of his other projects. Not emotionally - Oscar Piastri didn’t do emotional.
Head over heart.
Always.
“Logan,” Oscar began one afternoon, his tone casual, as his assistant walked into the office. “What’s our updated status on next quarter’s internship positions?”
Logan, pulling up different tabs to cross-reference on his tablet, glanced up in confusion. “Internship positions? I thought we finalized those a few weeks ago. Everything’s locked in.”
“Remind me,” Oscar continued smoothly, leaning back in his chair. “Do we have any open spots in legal or compliance? Or plans to expand there?”
Logan furrowed his brow. “Not really. Legal’s been fully staffed for a while now. And compliance? We’re in a good place there too.”
Oscar nodded, his expression giving nothing away. “Fair. Still, it might be worth revisiting. Fresh talent brings fresh perspectives. Maybe we’ve overlooked an opportunity.”
Logan blinked at him for a second before shrugging. “Sure. I can ask HR to review our pipelines, if you’d like.”
“Please,” Oscar said, returning his attention to the file on his desk as if the matter were entirely routine.
But it wasn’t.
The opportunity came just a few days later, during one of Logan’s more casual updates.
“She’s absolutely buried with exams and applications right now,” Logan said, shaking his head as he popped the lid off his coffee. “I told her she doesn’t need to worry—every firm out there would be fighting to have her—but she’s still stressing over it.”
“Job applications?” Oscar echoed, feigning mild interest.
“Yeah,” Logan said, settling into the chair across from him. “She’s picky, though. Doesn’t want to just take the first offer that comes along. Wants somewhere she actually respects.”
“Smart,” Oscar commented, his tone neutral but his mind already working. “With her qualifications, she’d be an asset anywhere. Including here.”
Logan blinked at the suggestion, surprised. “Here? You mean this company?”
“Why not?” Oscar asked, shrugging slightly. “We’ve always prioritized talent over experience. If she’s looking for opportunities, it wouldn’t hurt to suggest she apply. From everything you’ve said, she sounds like the kind of candidate we should be keeping an eye on.”
Logan chuckled, though there was a flicker of intrigue in his expression. “She is brilliant, but I don’t know if this is her kind of place. She’s more interested in the big-picture side of law. Impactful work, that sort of thing.”
“Impactful work doesn’t have to mean the nonprofit sector,” Oscar replied. “The right role, the right mentorship—it’s all about showing someone the potential in places they might overlook.”
Logan frowned thoughtfully, nodding as he mulled it over. “You’ve got a point. I could mention it to her, see what she thinks.”
“Good,” Oscar said simply, turning his gaze back to his monitor.
Logan left a few moments later, clearly still considering the idea.
Oscar stayed seated, tapping his pen lightly against the edge of his desk. It wasn’t much—just a suggestion, an idea planted carefully—but it was enough to start. If Y/N ended up walking through the doors of this building, no longer just a fleeting encounter on a crowded street, it would be because he’d given her the option.
And Oscar Piastri understood the power of giving someone the right option at the right time.
She had been staring at the email on her laptop for what felt like an eternity.
The subject line read: Exciting Opportunity at McLaren Ltd!—a suggestion Logan had dropped in conversation a week ago and followed up with a link to the company’s career portal. At the time, she’d laughed it off, telling him it wasn’t her kind of thing.
Corporate law? No, thanks.
But now, the cursor blinked at her as if daring her to reconsider.
She sighed, leaning back against the worn cushions of the couch in her quaint apartment. The place wasn’t much—hardly bigger than a shoebox—but it was hers. Her space. The one thing she controlled in a life that sometimes felt like it wasn’t really her own.
The sound of her phone buzzing against the coffee table cut through the silence. She didn’t need to check the screen to know who it was.
“Y/N,” her mother’s voice crackled through the speaker when she answered. “We need to talk.”
Here we go again.
Her mother didn’t waste time. “Your father and I have been discussing things. It’s time you stopped fooling around. You’re graduating soon—what are you going to do with all this law nonsense? Where’s the money? Where’s the stability?”
Y/N pinched the bridge of her nose. “I told you, I’m applying to firms. I’m figuring it out—”
Her mother’s sharp laugh cut her off. “Figuring it out? You’re almost twenty-two, Y/N. By this age, your cousins were either married or already contributing to their families. And you? Still playing student. Still living in that… tiny apartment. It’s embarrassing.”
Her father’s voice joined in the background, muffled but unmistakably critical. “Tell her to stop chasing dreams and start being practical. A real job or a real husband. One or the other.”
The familiar knot tightened in Y/N’s stomach. “I’m not having this conversation again,” she said, trying to keep her voice steady.
“You don’t have a choice,” her mother snapped. “Do you think we can keep helping you forever? The money’s tight as it is. Your brother’s college is coming up, and we need every penny.”
Y/N’s grip on the phone tightened. “I never asked for your money,” she said, her voice quieter now. “I’ve been supporting myself.”
“For now,” her mother said bitterly. “But how long will that last? Face it, Y/N. You need us more than you think.”
The call ended with her mother muttering something about how ungrateful she was.
Y/N sat there for a long moment, staring at her phone.
By the next morning, the idea of McLaren Ltd. wasn’t just a suggestion anymore—it was the only card left to play.
Y/N hesitated before dialing Logan’s number. The thought of taking this job still didn’t sit right with her. It certainly wasn’t what she wanted. But it was a job, and a damn good one at that, with a reputable company and better yet, an actual paycheck. If she could get her foot in the door, it might buy her the time she needed to figure out what she did want without her parents breathing down her neck.
Before she could psych herself out any further, she pressed the call button.
“Hey, Y/N!” Logan answered, his voice chipper. “What’s up?”
“Hi, Logan,” she said, forcing some brightness into her tone. “Um, about that position you mentioned… at McLaren?”
“Oh, yeah, for sure! Have you thought about it?”
“Yeah,” she said, her fingers flicking non-existent dust off the fabric of her pants. “I think… I think I’d like to apply. If the offer’s still open, that is.”
Logan laughed. “Dude, for you? Of course. It’s still open. I told you—you’d be perfect for it. I can help you with the application if you want. I’ll even put in a good word with HR.”
Her chest tightened at his enthusiasm, but she managed a small smile. “Thanks, Logan. That means a lot.”
“Don’t mention it. You’re going to kill it,” he said confidently.
Logan seemed to believe it enough for the both of them.
As she hung up, she glanced at the email on her laptop again, this time with a mix of determination and resignation. She wasn’t doing this for her parents. Or for Logan, great as he was.
She was doing it because, for once, she needed something to work out—something she could call her own. Even if it wasn’t the perfect fit, it was a start. And maybe, just maybe, it would lead her somewhere she never expected.
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doodle to keep me going.. i miss them… primotalii (oc) likes just dance bc he likes moving around!!! shadow milk likes mario party because he likes to hurt people.
playing a game of cards with either of them is probably horrifying….. spiritual near death experience. primotalii unintentionally has a really good poker face bc be locks the fuck in so hard his face barely twitches 😭
#he’s literally almost always smiling in some way so u cant. rly tell. either. and its not like his appearance makes it any easied#EASIER*#like the all red eyes..?? completely shadowed out skin? u don’t have any eye movements or many microexpressions to go on#he’s like 😁#😁😁😁😁😁😁#😁? 😁??!!!!#not like him closing his mouth makes it any easier bc then u RLLY have nothinng to go off of#sorry i love him so much chat#the stylistic choice of his design it just is so fun to work with#in actual applications and day-to-day life#i love him… i love him.. my stupid little baby boy…#crying.#OKAY OAKY IM DONE. IPROMMY. DHSJFJGB. monologing to myself in the mirror telling myself NOBODY GIVE AF!!!!!!!!#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#mystuff#oc: primotalii#oc x canon#cookie run oc#shadowtalii#primotalii cookie
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"Saki glue theory more like Mizuki glue theory-" sorry to be a killjoy but Mizuki glue theory literally has even less to back it up than the first one does. Stop trying to make one character to be more important than the others stopppp appreciate them on their own merit. Dammit
#jay rambles.txt#with Saki at least you can argue (falsely) that it would impact VBS. Mizuki wouldn't even be that because if An never got to meet Mizuki#(by which point she'd already be like... days away from VBS forming. btw. they met at Kamiyama 1st year and VBS formed like 2 months into#thay year. Kohane meet up was much earlier. it's. it's not that much time)#then the only thing that would change in An's life is not having Mizuki in it. sorry#wxs *might* be affected but not as much too#Ena might be friends with Airi too but again. same thing as with Shizuku#and to l/n it's straight up not applicable at all#settle down. let's actually discuss the topics of fate and intertwined lives in pjsk without creating the Chosen One character. cmon
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My roommate did, in fact, quit her job
#I am living with a caricature of a person oh my fucking god#she has apparently now decided against driving across the country to live in la with no plan and no savings#but still has not found anywhere to live in town despite our lease being up in less than two months now….. I don’t think she’s even looking#SUPPOSEDLY she’s starting a new job but she has not been working for like a month 😭#girl I hope you know that I am NOT letting you skimp on bills you WILL be paying your fucking share#also apparently her new job is some job working with autistic kids which genuinely makes me cringe so hard#those poor fucking kids#given the way she has reacted to and treated any of MY autistic traits…..#this girl should NOT be allowed around autistic children esp not in whatever fucking program this is#(which from what it sounds like is already not a very good one)#it’s like every day she somehow finds new ways to make me dislike her more#she also keeps trying to give me ‘life advice’ which is already a laughable concept considering her….. everything#but most of it she should know is not even applicable to me if she had EVER listened to a single thing out of my mouth#regarding my life past interests goals current situation etc#I am literally living with a fucking clown#no that’s too generous clowns are ridiculous but fundamentally not very harmful#this bitch is basically just a slowly unraveling disaster for anyone who has to be involved with her in any kind of serious capacity 😭#oh she also tried telling me I should ‘give being manic a try’ because it’s ‘actually a really good thing’#do….. what. huh. EXCUSE ME??????#first of all I have watched mania and manic episodes literally ruin people’s lives#also YOU CANT JUST MAKE YOURSELF MANIC???????#WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING TALKING ABOUTTTTTTTT 😭😭😭😭😭😭#kaz rambles
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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I GOT AN INTERNSHIP YEEHAW
#WE'RE SO BACK#it's at a day nursery 🥹🥹 i applied last week and got the offer todayyyy without even needing an interview#i sent a quick email without a cv and called earlier this week to clarify the only requirement is that i see everyday kindergarten life etc#because i wrote tons of applications and only got a reply from two of them but they turned me down so. i prepared to die#microdosing on kids by working with them and if some of them annoy me i can give them back to their parents in the afternoon#now i can actually start studying in september 😭😭#mel talks
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Fuck. So, after my last appointment, they didn’t automatically make me another one, and I got locked out of the portal in some giant stupid clusterfuck of idiocy, and with my sleep issues couldn’t call in time, and other myriad things that crank the already high activation energy of trying to make an appointment even higher for someone with adhd
But I ran out of my SSRI Rx, which usually is like, no big, have pharmacy contact doc, they’ll issue new script. Well, psychiatrist’s office refused. Bitch this is not a controlled substance, it’s not take as needed, it’s a daily maintenance. You’re the ones that didn’t think it was important to put a next appt on the books at my last one and make making one a fucking ordeal?
So it was too much for my executive dysfunction so I let it lie, which uh, was a really bad idea. Just got back on it (a different doctor wrote me a script, because, uh, yeah, shouldn’t be off that) but I was off for just over 3 weeks. And Boy has the apathy sunken it’s fucking teeth in me. However much I didn’t want to do a goddamn thing before because of burnout and lack of energy, now even more I actively do want to do fucking anything. Supposed to meet with a friend around these days and honestly don’t care. Thought I wanted to meet up with others but honestly don’t fucking care.
My sleep is screwed up to the point I can go to bed at a reasonable time but my body must think I’m taking a nap bc then I wake up wide awake between 2-4am, hungry, I might add, and my sleep meds feel like they barely move the needle in getting back to sleep.
Every day I just want the day to end
I really hope it doesn’t take 2+ weeks for the med to built up and restart its effects…
TLDR I ran out of my antidepressant for 3+ weeks and am in the grip of it now
#meanwhile my mother is nagging me every day about sending job applications in#bitch I just SENT the most important one DESPITE the throes of my apathy back the fuck off#I’m not applying to one RIGHT after I found the fucking listing#I need to investigate and not like this#and she brings this shit up EVERY TIME#EVERY ****FUCKING***** TIME right when I’m about to start winding down so that I might actually sleep at a normal tome#EVERY. FUCKING. TIME#like for anything#the nag list usually of things I can do NOTHING ABOUT AT THOSE HOURS comes out exactly before winding down for bed#fuck her for that#really kind of want the black hole to swallow me lately tbh#anyway#mah life#no1curr
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life draw compilation from the past few weeks :)) 10-20min poses
#life drawing#the last 3 are from today i was having such a good drawing day actually#went to a friends place after class to try brainstorm merch for con application and my chibis were looking pretty swag too#really needed this after 3 weeks of mediocre drawing !!!!
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#fig#signal#nathaneal#more torch smp#torch smp#fig and nathaneal are sanctify duo (second to last drawing) altouh that drawinh is now non canon applicable#but theyre special to me anyways#fallen angel and guy who believes everything he says and now he sees himself in that guy#signal and fig are redemption duo (tv guy is signal)#they were completely accidental#1 lore conversation of fig being sympathetic while signal is going through it and now signal put way his murder tendencies for a few days to#hang out with fig but oh uh oroborus trio lore session happened and everything went to shit!#nathaneal ran away signal is become more murderous and fig IS IN THE VOID!! well close to it#sanctify duo#redemption duo#if theres actual mcyt duos with those names idgaf#oroborus trio#theyre kinda dumb but idgaf#also the first line is what nathaneal says to fig#and i should say that the first person fig dver saw innhis life was thaneal#imagine your only friend says they cant trust you and then runs away
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sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something
#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student#which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be#the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading#but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol#so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc#god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao#also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment#which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :(#its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring#its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun#but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa#so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work#watch as they dont hire me lol#oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year#i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year#i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024#its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point#tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever#coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think
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Oops i slipped and fell and read flwogb for the thousandth time :)))) praying to the Gods for more <3 no pressure <3
buddy you should get that checked out [ba dum tiss]
no but in all seriousness. i am 7 months into a career that pretty much consumes most hours of my working day, and on weekends i slump in bed and watch netflix because i am turning into an old hermit-- no wait, an old potato
ye gods i am living up to my username in the worst possible way
anyway i wish i could say that i can see things changing but frankly my workload only increases with every new day :( but i'm getting a severe writing itch that will end up being scratched at some point soon [she says through gritted teeth as she gets yet another notification on her work phone, resisting the urge to hurl it into the wall]
#you know what? i did actually write today. 2k words for an article for the journal of intellectual property law and practice#on a bullshit judgement that carries very little real-life applications or implications but here we are. the partner wanted it#apologies friends but after that much writing in my day-job i have very little energy to do writing for fun :/#but! i never plan on abandoning flwogb so worry not we'll get there eventually#flwogb asks#asks
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*inhales*.....................DEEP SIGH
#i'm exhausted#i have a job interview this week which i should be grateful for but i'm still so unsure about what i want in life#and i'm so scared of making wrong choices like i'm terrified#and the company seems kind of conservative in its structures and culture i mean apparently there are low hierarchies but#they make their whole deal about 'family' and then there are almost only men working there which is like ughhh like the ratio is ridiculous#and the thing is i found another job offer at my local library and i would just so love to work there!!!! i will definitely apply this week#i'm just scared that i'll do well enough during the interview that they will actually want ti hire me and then i can't say no#bc i didn't even expect them to reach out to me in the first place so i guess my application was better than i thought#so now im'm debating whether i should take the chance or sabotage the interview so that i get to try really hard for#the application for the library job instead#i sound ridiculous being upset that an employer is showing interest in me like what a privilege to be able to turn that down#at the same time. like thankfully there is financial support from the government so i'm safe in that regard atm but it's really not much#and i also don't want to be in this state of unemployment for too long#and yet...i want to just spend my days doing something worthwhile? maybe i should just be grateful that i have the privilege to choose betw#different jobs and try to take advantage of that fact and opt for the offers that speak to me rather than cry about it#god i'm so stressed this is my first time in life where i can't rest assured that the upcoming years will follow the same routine#like how it was when i entered uni like i just knew 'alright i'll be studying for at least 5 years and then we'll see' and now#it's like i don't know what i'll be doing next month or in half a year or next year or in five years#the uncertainty. killing me. that's how i know i grew up way too protected cause i break under the slightest inconvenience god#alright crying rant over from now on i'll be growing up for real 👍#personal
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Merry Christmas to those who celebrate, and for those who don't or can't, happy Monday, hope it's a good one
This season's been a bit of a rough one for me because reasons but we have more holiday curry planned tonight and I have plans to actually try and get my shit together in the future so that helps I think
#tapu irlposting#sorry I don't have a nice cozy holiday post to make#gf and I had a huge argument yesterday and while we're good now I have a Lot of thinking to do#about a lot of things#like I need to start writing again and get back on the therapy train and actually finish filling out those job applications I started#but getting life together is hard#and it gets even more rough when I have to go home and see my parents and deal with their complete lack of basic fucking empathy#and it hurts#I try not to let it get to me but it hurts#and I cried most of it out yesterday but thinking about it still hurts#anyway hi I got a little too vulnerable there ignore that#bottom line is I hope everyone has a nice day
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im reading a rly long environmental history book about the bering strait for school rn and i gotta say. this place is a little wild
#so far the narrative here is very much like#americans made contact w beringian peoples and fucked up some shit but then they tried to fix it#but then the fix made new problems#then the russians saw the us creating problems and they were like wait no WE can fix that actually#and then they also made things worse#wash rinse repeat with various different natural resources and ideologies#it's like almost comical looking at the cold war from this perspective#imagine being a chukchi person living in northern alaska and someone asks you whether you're a capitalist or communist#the answer was very much 'whichever one is more convenient/beneficial to me'#ive never even been to alaska or met anyone from there and just knowing what i know about beringian life from this book alone#those concepts are just like not applicable to culture lmfao#anyway. i have a lot of book left this is a long haul goodbye my dear friends enjoy whatever's left in my queue#bri babbles#secret edit a day later bc i just realized i accidentally said alaska twice when i meant siberia in these tags#so if u are reading this lol hi i accidentally mixed up the cold places and it haunted me overnight
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idk myb im wromg but i feel like the more the user base ages the more if you're 14 trust me it doesn't get worse than that if you're in ur 20s ur life sucks it doesn't get better till 30s etc posts there are n yh on one hand it's supposed to be 'positive' n 'reassuring' but on the other hand it's like can u not? can u just hush n let ppl live whatever stage of their life they're living without ur optimisticly disguised pessimistic sentiments
#idk it's just like such a pet peeve for me#like ok yh im overreacting#n not every post on the internet is applicable to u#scroll n move on etc#but like if u remember being 14 or in ur 20s or whatever else#you'd remember tht no somedays if any day u dont want to or need to hear tht oh#ur life rn isnt the sunflower n rainbows u think it is#ur life is actually shit#u dont start living till 40s UwU#idk i feel like there's often no middle ground in these things?#or anything#it's like from one extreme to the next#whatever#ignore me#cloud nonsense
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a doc of omega yamo being a nuisance, you say?
well…
#the doc sure does exist 🤷#me waiting to post this until i had compiled all the tags into the doc so it wasn’t just the empty doc i started with good intentions#that just said ‘yowling’#and then me not even doing that 😭 what’s in the doc right now? absolutely unhinged shit from ANOTHER yamo post. why#liv in the replies#anon i love you so much. this is the correct method to get me to do things (be interested) (bully me a little) (i have to write FOR someone)#maybe if i actually write something for omega yamo being a nuisance i will post snippets#and not have to create elaborate rules about posting them. also i keep telling myself it helps to be like. home & functioning to write#& maybe if i chilled the fuck out a little bit i would have the time to do fun things i like but i feel like i have been saying#‘ok once i get through this [semester/summer/working/class/season]’ for like. three years now but also i don’t feel like i have stopped ever#in my life so that may also be part of the issue. anyway! in the mindset now that i have to make time for things that bring me joy/creative#because otherwise there will never be time#but also telling myself that like. i work seven days a week 8.5-9 hours a day plus commute/classwork so it’s ok to only be able to come home#& do Adult Tasks & write my coursework requirements & ALSO i’m doing my fucking applications which i really really need to do & should take#priority & i am going to need to work very hard to do because. i don’t want to do them :)#so!!!! this is your daily tag dump on a post which it is not relevant to (on brand for me)#but also the point was to say thank you i love you please have 0 expectations because i don’t want to disappoint you#but i love your encouragement and am not taking it to be any pressure!! i just have to preface bc i am like this
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