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There's a lot that white men can do to counter the incel-to-nazi pipeline that the rest of us cannot.
There is ZERO amount of support that a woman can provide for a guy who says "why can't I get laid like all the cool guys in the movies?" Zero support she can provide for "howcome women are all friendly with each other but when I walk into the room, everyone goes quiet?"
Nothing she can say to help him understand why his appearance is considered a potential danger. That info has to come from someone he trusts, someone he respects - and if he's asking "why does this random group of [women/Asians/queer people/etc] not instantly accept me as a friend and ally" - he doesn't trust or respect them well enough to understand their answers.
Because, sorry dude, you are not friend-shaped. You are suspect because so many others who look like you and talk like you and have similar backgrounds to you, were discovered to be bigots just waiting for the right excuse to be public about it.
Are there good white cis het guys? Of course. There are even good Christians.
But I can't spot them from a distance, and I don't have the energy to review every one I encounter to decide if they belong in the "safe" bin. They stay in the "maybe unsafe" bin until proven otherwise, and I sure as hell don't have the time to check them all.
Guys who want to prove they're safe can start by respecting boundaries.
...This means NOT pressuring people who say "no." No, I don't want a date. No, I don't want to take my earbuds out to chat on the bus. No, I don't want to sit next to you at the bar. No, I don't want to dance with you. No, I don't want to share my fries. No, I won't review that report for you. No, we don't have space in the carpool. No, we don't have an extra ticket to the game.
Because we have discovered, over and over, that a whole lot of "I am an ALLY, REALLY!!!!" guys are only an ally until someone tells them they're not wanted in a particular group, or as part of a particular project, or (sigh) in someone's bed.
I don't see cis het white (christian) guys as scum of the earth. But a lot of them think I do, because I don't see them as angels, either. They get upset because they start at "neutral, maybe dangerous" instead of trustworthy and respected.
"Why don't they trust me?" I keep hearing.
"What have you done to make yourself trustworthy?" I ask.
"Done? Why should I have to do anything? I am trustworthy!"
...well, that's the problem. How would anyone know that?
I couldn't have said it better myself.
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Tips for Talking to Conservative Friends & Family
In the wake of the election, with the holidays around the corner, some of you may be wondering how to deal with friends, family members, coworkers, etc. who voted for Trump and/or who espouse his policies.
This guide is by no means meant to be authoritative and won't work in every circumstance. I accept no responsibility for what happens if you use any scripts and it goes horribly awry. But I did want to share some of my personal experience in this vein, as someone with a great deal of conservative people in my life whom I generally love and respect and would like to maintain a civil relationship with (and, hopefully, bring them back to center if not my side). I've had decent luck with these strategies in the past.
First: Only engage if it is safe to do so.
Do not get into political discussions that might endanger your job, your living situation, your access to care, or your physical and emotional safety. However, do engage if you are able to do so safely and your doing so might help someone in a more vulnerable position. What the fuck is privilege for if not using it to protect people?
Second: Identify your goal.
Do you want to de-escalate a situation so someone can get out of immediate danger? Do you want to establish a boundary? Or do you want to actually attempt to convert someone over to your side? Each goal has different tactics. Be realistic with yourself about what you're going to accomplish. If you do not have a close relationship with the person, you are extremely unlikely to change their mind about anything, and it's frankly not worth the effort. Let someone who is close to them do that work. De-escalate, set a boundary if possible, and gtfo.
But if you do have a close relationship -- if this person generally likes and respects you -- then you might have a shot at challenging their views.
We're going to assume a scenario where you're dealing with people you know and who you can generally count on not to be immediately aggressive. Somebody else will be better-equipped to talk about strategies for dealing with protests and people on the street etc.
De-Escalation & Setting Boundaries
This is your first line of defense against family members acting shitty. If someone tries to start a debate, makes an off-color joke or comment, or is otherwise behaving inappropriately, try:
Let's not talk about this over dinner.
I don't think this is appropriate conversation right now.
That's an awful thing to say.
I don't understand that joke, can you explain why it's funny?
I'm sorry, I won't listen to any more of this (leave the room)
That's not okay.
What you want to do here is make an appeal to correct standards of behavior. You want them to feel ashamed for acting out of line. In order to make this work, it is essential that you:
Remain calm and keep an even, light-but-firm tone of voice. It needs to be clear that you're not joking around, but you also cannot sound upset. (Yes, this is really hard. I'm sorry.) Practice your very best "I'm not angry, just disappointed" tone for maximum effect. If you can manage it, eye contact and a neutral or even slightly concerned or sad expression will make it even better.
Avoid insulting or attacking them. Do not say things like, "Stop being an asshole" or "I can't believe you're acting like this" no matter how much you want to. Do not say "That's racist/sexist/ableist/homophobic." These types of replies, no matter how accurate, will make them defensive, and defensive people shut down and stop listening. If you come off as angry, that gives THEM permission to be angry right back. But if you come off as the normal one, them getting angry makes them look like a dick.
Do not laugh. Avoid the urge to chuckle nervously or joke it off. It WILL feel uncomfortable. It WILL be awkward as fuck. That's the point. They are misbehaving by violating a standard of appropriate behavior, and you are setting down a boundary. The awkwardness will fade and, frankly, they'll often start behaving better pretty much immediately.
Follow through on your consequences. If you say, "Dad, if you continue to bring up Trump, I will not call you anymore," you have to stick to it. Holding firm to your boundaries is HARD AS FUCK but if you don't do it then all you do is teach them that they can wear you down. Think of it like training a dog. Consistency is key.
You're not going to change anybody's closely-held beliefs with this strategy, but you WILL make a case for what is allowable around you. If you model this behavior, and encourage and embolden other people you know to do the same, you might be surprised. A lot of times, people's inappropriate behavior is a boundary-testing mechanism -- they tell the racist joke because they want to see if they can get away with it -- and if you shut them down, they often just...stop. Or at least retreat into their little hole to talk to fellow gremlins instead of you.
Challenging Views, Changing Minds
Okay. You actually want to engage them in conversation. You want to challenge their views and help them change their opinion. How do you do that?
Again, it's essential that you remain calm. If you can't have this discussion without getting heated, it's not the time to have the discussion. If they start to get heated, be prepared to de-escalate and walk away: "I cannot continue this conversation with you right now. Let's talk again some other time when we've cooled off."
But if you can keep calm, here is what actually works (sometimes):
Listen to them. No, really. Hear them out.
Help them feel heard by empathizing with them. Repeat back your understanding of what they said and how that must feel.
Remind them that for other people, THEY are feeling xyz emotion, too.
Ask them questions. Instead of telling them they're wrong, ask questions that will lead them to draw that conclusion themselves.
Make appeals to emotion rather than starting with facts and logic. You'll know what kind of emotion to draw on because you've been listening to them and empathizing. Hint: almost always, bigotry (at the personal level) is rooted in fear.
If this is going well, THEN you can start citing some sources, statistics, and facts.
Invite them to share THEIR sources with you.
Thank them for doing such a good job at being calm and discussing this with you, reaffirm your close relationship, and encourage them to come talk to you about this at any time. It's very possible that you are the only person they might feel safe bringing this stuff up to now and you want to keep that channel of communication open.
Very often (not always, or often), conservative-leaning individuals are people who lack the education or knowledge that left-leaning people do. They may be accustomed to being insulted, yelled at, and made to feel stupid. They are conditioned to believe that folks on the left are smug, holier-than-thou, stuck-up assholes. Whatever you can do to poke a hole in that perception will simultaneously make it easier to talk to them AND cause them to question that rhetoric the next time they encounter it.
This tactic won't always work. It probably won't work at all the first conversation. It's something you'll have to chip away at over time. But sometimes, it's worth it.
And if it's not? Well. As they say.
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So...im making a post of the things you can like, do with or about my fancomic 'Krattastrophe', so you don't have to ask me basically
Remember, these are for my boundaries and for you! If you can't respect my boundaries block me and never interact with my stuff
The stuff is down below..
1. Can i make fanart or fan content? (Edits, fan animation, etc)
Thats a stupid fucking question OF COURSE YOU CAN, ill eat that shit up tears in my eyes crawling on the floor whenever i see fanart, love you guys..mwaaaa
2. Can i repost your comics/post it on other social medias?
Of course, all you have to do is credit me (all of my socials have the same name (ranfordgallus) im only in tumblr (obv), instagram, and tiktok, no where else, so if you wanna post it on twitter you can credit my Tumblr or just ranfordgallus in general)
3. Can i make headcanons of the character?
You can, as long as its not fully outright mischaracterizing the characters
Example: you can headcanon what Khriz's gender identity is, he doesn't have a canon gender but he prefers having a masculine identity, so you can make him..non-binary, demi-boy, whatever.. if you wanna make him more fem or "womanly" its a bit controversial for me, it feels like you're not really accepting what he identifies (being more masculine) soooo..
Khriz's race? I mean..he is a clone of Chris so he's technically white, though he doesn't have a race because hes a robot obviously so can change races when he morphs, if you make his human form black, asian, etc then...i guess im not stopping you really
4. Can i make redesigns of the characters for fanart?
I mean...sure i guess, for Khriz in his "human" form he does not have a "canon" appearance because he is a robot clone and his human look is what he imagines he'd look like, you can make him more conventionally attractive or something because he doesn't have..like i said, a canon human design..though, it'll be odd seeing him "attractive" than just scary or unnerving..
5. Can i ship the characters?
..depends, for Chris x Khriz that is a no, Khriz sees him as a brother figure but also a friend, Khriz x Zach? Im killing you, Chris x Zach get out of my office, any ship between Zach that isn't Gourmand you're out, other ships im chill or atleast okay with like...koki x aviva, uhhhh jimmy x his controller, etc...crackships??? IM OUT THE DOOR! Love seeing crackships
Im not a big fan of selfcest, never really had a positive feeling about it, its not...well technically its not a proship but..just not a big fan, so i dont wanna see Chris x Khriz in my feed
6. Are you okay with Oc x Canon?
Literally go ahead, like i care honestly, Chris is aroace in this AU so...idk, Khriz however i mean..he doesn't have a confirmed sexuality but he's a bit like demiromantic in a way so take what you can, except for Zach cuz...yk he's dead n stuff LMAO
8. rule 34?
...uhhh, just wait till i'm 18 dude..(2 YEARS LEFT!!!!) if i turn 18 don't make it weird please, boundaries first
If i see..*gag* some weird fetish art or proship*gags* im gonna need you to stop and leave , get the fuck out you weirdo, fucking dweeb
Theres probably other questions you have that i didn't put so..let me know in the comments!
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"Can I call you 'Drias?"
"Only one person ever called me that"
"Oh! Gotcha! Too personal. Boundaries, Marcy!"
My babygirl blaming herself and her difficulty reading social cues when she didn't do anything 😭 how was she supposed to know it was "too personal"?? She automatically assumes she did something wrong she assumes she messed up my BABY
#amphibia#my posts#also andrias that is one big fat LIE both Leif and Barrel called you 'Drias#this useless fucking idiot forgot he had a whole ass boyfriend back then 😭😭😭#also -> Marcy having trouble remembering she needs to respect people's boundaries to the point she has a little mantra#to remind herself of that. + the 'prom?' poster reading 'yes or YES' = Marcy crossing the boundaries of her friendship with anne and sasha#by fantazising about going to prom with them. something stereotypically romantic#this is what my friend claude (xx century french anthropologist claude lévi-straus father of functional-structuralism) would call#the ''exaggeration'' of a bond. in his analysis of the myth of Oedipus and in how he linked it to the myth of Antigone#Oedipus incestuous relationship with his mother is analogous to Antigone violating the city laws to illegally bury her dead brother#this is: the exaggeration of a familial bond beyond the reach of what is socially acceptable (yes it's far fetched yes i know yes#yes we talked about it in class)#this is opposed to Oedipus killing his father: the underestimation of familial bonds.#which is analogous to the war between atens and sparta: slaughter among brothers#in this case Marcy's continuous violation of her friends' boundaries betrays an exaggeration of their bond#as exemplified by her ''wanting to take them to prom'' in a ''dream'' (which would be very jungian of her)#don't take my word for this tho because i got a 2 on my last exam so clearly i need to read my lévi-strauss again
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Hey there! Hope I'm not bothering you, but your various Cosium AUs are living in my head tonight. :D I was wondering if you had any little snippets of info you'd like to share? (About any of them. I'm not picky. ^^ I'm more than willing to listen to you ramble if you so desire.) Also, your Phantom Ben design is SUPER cool and I was wondering if I could have permission to draw him?
glad you enjoy them :^] also yeah feel free to draw him and any other of the au designs
As for snippets, you gotta give me a specific au XD I have. so many--too many, one could say. And all of them have some level of ✨Unreleased Lore™️✨ that I don't know which to talk about ahhdh
Here's some snippets for the RuBen au (aka the nickname I've lovingly given Phantom Ben):
The entire cosium family is from Mobius in this au
Ofc the entire story takes place during Forces.
Ben, Kaze, and Darren were separated from their parents when The War™️ started. They still have some contact with Mort and Athena at least.
Benonic is the only who is an "official" Resistance member. Kaze likes to tag along despite Ben telling him to stay where it's safe.
Kaze and Darren take up some of The Avatar/Gadget's roles in the story. I imagine that Gadget himself and his story still exists though.
There was a planned third part to the Ruben saga I ended up never drawing. It would have depicted this au's equivalent of the last Infinite fight. Kaze and Darren would have defeated Ben and destroyed the Phantom Ruby that was encasing his hand.
Ben however ended up in a coma because the ruby's power fried his brain.
A 4th "epilogue" drawing was also planned. This time it was Ben at the hospital with a robotic hand to replace the one the Ruby consumed before. He would have been surrounded by his brothers, Athena, Carrie, and Regina.
Mortesen and Rakar would be off to the side, talking. Rakar was a neurosurgeon in this au and operated on Ben's brain to help it recover and remove any leftover stuff from the Ruby.
Ben has striped scars on his arm from his time as RuBen. He also still has weak reality-warping powers, but using them at all takes a lot of energy and causes a terrible migraine.
#asks#the-sky-queen#Fateswap alone has so much unreleased lore hoo boy#There are also aus I never really talked about outside of my Secret Discord Circle of friends#a part of me wishes I could go back to working on them but my conscience tells me I shouldn't#I had a moment of clarity a while ago and I realized that I might have passed the boundary#for what is acceptable when making stuff for other people's ocs#so out of respect for liyu I decided by myself that maybe I should stop lmaoooo#(making aus of cosium i mean)#rey rambles
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i just remembered how my mom used to say its actually her religious right to treat her children however she wants and if we retaliate we would be completely at fault bc the parent should ALWAYS be treated with utmost respect
#she would say how the child has to respect their parents and bring them to church if they were to become a christian#as an example#how abusive#to tell children they should accept all behaviors towards them and never say anything or fight back#of course i argued with her but i internalized that#i still blame myself too much and am not as nice as i want to be towards myself for even the most minor things#bc she did that to me my whole life#belittled for everything at least and beat for it at worst#now it takes a lot of tries to not shame myself when something is comlpetely out of my control#bc according to her everything is my fault#if she spills water its my fault for distracting her#if she hits me for something my dad did then its his fault that she Had to beat me#no bro u decided to hit me thats YOUR choice#i hate them both so much for what they did to me#how they instilled guilt in me for trying to have boundaries and fighting for myself#i still am a people pleaser bc of that#its a raw very raw fear that if i displease someone they will hurt me#i have to remind myself over and over that someone being upset at my boundaries is not a reason for me to not have that boundary#if ur mad thats ur problem stay away from me then#i just will care too much about upsetting other people but its not my job to regulate everyone elses feelings#it makes me so mad#when theres something i need and am not getting and its bc im so scared of making people mad#even if they cant put their hands on me now#im sick of the paranoia and constant anxiety they have put in me#cant go outside without being scared they will pop up out of nowhere and try to ruin my life again#ivebeen living by myself for two years now and still so scared to even open my curtains sometimes#🧃#its disgusting to me how they think they own me#how they STILL think that any negative action i take towards them must be inspired by someone or something else#it could never be bc of their own abuse towards me
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She's finally giving in to becoming the lap cat I knew she was 😈 all according to plan,,,,,,
#the plan was loving her for years and uears and respecting her boundaries and fears#:) shes very suspicious of surfaces so anytime she accepts a new one as Trustworthy its a Big Deal!!#my jelly bean#shes really just the sweetest little thing on earth#cats
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god one of my favourite things about bg3 is that characters are allowed to change opinions, and I don't mean about story beats e.g. character endings etc, but about relationships - like where Karlach for example is initially all for your PC spending time with someone else, but then later on actually changes to want to be more serious and exclusive and/or recognises that's what she truly wants (depending on interpretation). I actually think its a very refreshing way to look at relationships and more specifically polyamory in RPG games compared to just 'everyone is poly'/'one Single Pairing works as poly'/'everyone is playersexual'. Like its refreshing it isn't just locked in from the get go.
#bg3#bg3 spoilers#baldurs gate 3#would like to point out this is said as someone who has two hands if you catch my drift#like dont get me wrong i DO want to be surrounded by two buff ladies at all times but i appreciate the growth and respecting of boundaries#i am of course sad that the poly rep is two relationships at once where they acknowledge and accept each other rather than a triad but stil#how we have grown from fshep/kaidan mshep/ashley and any shep/liara
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aight fr tho I think they're right because it once again feels unsafe like everywhere all the time
#🫀.vents#im scared to talk about anything because I'm scared someone will be offended by me setting boundaries#or that my triggers are too specific to reasonably expect others to respect#or the fact that I don't wanna accept how much damage my abuser did#I don't even wanna call them an ex because i never really wanted to be with them
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tours will have you finding out that even the most trusted mutuals have been taylor swift fans all this time. jerry seinfeld voice not that there's anything wrong with that 🫢
#UGH IS THIS GOING TO SHOW UP IN SEARCH RESULTS NOW BECAUSE I DIDN'T CENSOR HER NAME#whatver. dont read this go away this isnt for you#i still respect you all as people but this does lower my opinion on your taste in music & in general sorry#like the fact that we're already friends means i will be okay with this aspect of you i will accept it and love you as you are 🙏#but when it comes to new people. not so much. on bumble if i see her in someones top artists its an immediate pass from me no matter what.#like its one of my very few non negotiable boundaries i will never ever ever ever have that music played where i can hear it so help me god#emily.docx
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#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats#just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind#i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence#he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged#with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive#always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell#accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this#and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little#affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do#the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i#fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty#even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck#either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that#anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there#i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack#in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing
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Random thought but. I've worked in education for 5 years now, and I love to see gentle parenting and kindness being taught first!!!
You're remembering to tell your kids a solid and resolute "no" when necessary, right?
Right???
#if you never tell them no as a child#you are fr robbing them of the practice of ACCEPTING REJECTION#every single person is told NO multiple times in their adult life#how do we expect people to be okay with rejection and denial when we deny THEM the tools to learn to b okay with it#children need to understand hard boundaries as well!!! and respect them!!#“theyre too young” SHUT UP#my kids understand i can say “no” and not mean it rudely.. bc its not rude... bc No is not a rude word...#saying no is a gift#that everybody deserves to witness hold and protect#teach them how! teach them its okay to say no!
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IN OTHER NEWS I FINISHED TRANSLATION STATE LAST NIGHT the ending had me sobbing not bc it's sad at all but WAAAAA
#i have not stopped thinking abt qven and reet for a single minute since i started reading#just. seeing a character who experienced an extremely traumatic violation of both eir trust + body find someone who not only respects-#eir boundaries but naturally creates a space for em where e feels safe enough to trust him + open up to intimacy again#OURGHHHHHH. I had to go out to the park alone and walk around in the dark and pouring rain for an hour just to feel normal after that#the way reets family were so immediately accepting of em and basically adopted em on the fucking spot too 😭😭#I loved enae as well the exploration of hir grief + complex feelings towards hir family was so well done#also rly cool to see an older protagonist ESPECIALLY an older nonbinary person I was thinking how incredibly rare that is#all the protags arcs just meshed so well together as an exploration of the themes. v well constructed book#ann leckie got me wanting to use neopronouns now goddamn#ALSO SPHEEENNNNEEE god i missed it so much 😭😭😭😭😭 i might have to reread the ancillary justice series soon#weird dimensional tech + cannibalistic body fusion have gotta be 2 of my fave ever sff features too. books that were written JUST for me#the presger translators were one of the most intriguing parts of the ancillary series im so glad leckie picked that back up!!!!#1 million thoughts. anyway I think matching w someone would fix me who want to melt into each other and become a single multibodied being#.diaries
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No one gets under your skin and makes you feel sick quite like your siblings, and there's no numbness quite like the feeling of having to put a boundary firmly in place with a wide open door for them to walk through should they see it for one
#ive not always been a good older sibling to my brother and i know that. ive owned up for it and apologized and made myself open.#so that we can mend what fractured relationship we have should he choose.#but he fixates on my refusal to play nicely with family that has not done right by me for the whole of my life and bases#the entirety of our potential relationship and the memory of out mother on that on the fact i wont play nice with her kin#because they have not ever fully accepted me save for my uncles which is a new thing. and ive made my boundaries about this clear#and he pushes and pushes and says if we come together as a family it'll ease his grieving and we'll all heal together#but thats just disregarding my own boundaries and trauma in exchange for catering to the comforts of himself and the family#ive given up fighting him on that#but i asked him simply that if he needs me or wants to tell me something to just call me pr text me directly it can be short n sweet#but not to go to our parents. its insulting. ive always answered his calls. even when we fight pr have a failed mediation i always answer#and he immediately made it about how my boundaries are unacceptable so why should he bother#i give up. i know i was arrogant at 26. i know i was. i was probably cruel too. but i had made myself a doormat at the same time.#all i told him was he never bothered to talk to me as my brother or ask my about our mother without the lens of her kin#it was always about them never just about her. it was never about us as siblings just about our aunts and uncles and grandparents#he never crossed the road and came to me and said can we talk about ma and I reminded him of that. never a conversation just#him playing court jester/therapist and ignoring boundaries over and over. and even then i always answered the phone#so i told him he can pivot and change the subject all he wants. but the point of this was that if he needs me i answer.#and should he need me i will answer. but if he continues this behavior of backhanded communication#ill know he doesnt respect me and doesnt see me as his sibling because ive asked him plainly to speak to me#im fuckin tired. you try with people and they just... bait you.#the fact he looked at me and said our relatives are all he has left of ma and im his sibling will never not feel like a salted wound tbh
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it's so fucked up that people keep telling me that my parents love me and suggesting I shouldn't cut contact with them while I'm trying desperately to process and put into words all the ways in which my parents hurt me throughout my life, all the things i should see as violent instead of normalizing them and excusing them or pretending they don't exist
#i don't know if it's a defense mechanism because their own parents aren't great and they don't want to look too closely at that#or if the nuclear family is so deeply ingrained in their psyche that even when they question a lot of other stuff they can't reject that#but it makes it so much harder for me to look at my own life objectively#it's so easy to get swept back into the cycle of excusing stuff and thinking that's just how they are they're from a different generation#it's so easy to be guilt tripped into letting them back in my life#it's so hard to understand and accept that when the adults resposible for you tell you that they love you but don't treat you like they do#and they teach you to be afraid and ashamed of who you are it means you've been gaslighted for year#my parents tell me that they love me and call me by my deadname in the same sentence#i tell them that it hurts me and they keep doing it#if that isn't violence then what is it#if it isn't gaslighting then what is it#if they won't change and won't respect my boundaries why shouldn't i cut contact with them#I'm so tired of being told that they're just old fashioned while they keep hurting me over and over#alex txt
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#personal#its ridiculous how i was so depressed 2 days ago and then my partner was like. whay if i came over right now even though#its almost midnight. and what if i slept over at your house for 3 nights in a row. and now im sitting here having eaten breakfast for the#first time in like 4 weeks and feeling happy waiting for him to wake up so we can shower together and were#gonna go on a build-a-bear date and i no longer feel like i deserve to d*e with him here#hes just so sweet and i love him a lot and im really lucky to have him in my life <3 ive never been in a relationship where i felt this#safe and comfortable and accepted before and i know he hasnt either and its just nice#definitely helps that were both trans autistic queers with parental trauma so theres a lit about each other that we understand without#needing to explain it in depth#but also he really values communication and even thiigh im so used to shutting all my feelings off and not telling people about them#im trying really hard to not do that with him and its? nice not bottling everything up for once?#he really listens to me when i talk and tries to understand and respect my boundaries all the time and its realy nice to have that#ive been awful at establishing boundaries in past relationships and i didnt feel like my boundaries mattered to at least one ex so its#a nice change of pace to have someone go out of their way to make me feel reapected and valued like thay#and thats not even mentioning all the hot gay transgender sex we have because like. both being on t kind of makes that a necessity dhdjdjdj#its just nice having him in my life and feeling loved and cared for and getting to love and care for him back and im so lucky#that everything fell into place for us to date each other because i really dont know what id have done without him this past half a year#this is so long fhdjsjsjsj im just waoting for him to get up and feeling emotional about how much of a good influence he is in my life <333
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