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Twelve Days of Mingyu 🎄 12/12
Day 12 - Dinner and Gift Exchange
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The instructions for the night’s date were to wear the fanciest thing in your closet and to doll yourself up. Mingyu did tell you that the two of you were going out for dinner but never specified where, just to keep the romance alive. The time seemed to drag on while you waited for Mingyu, not that he had run late, he was always very punctual, you were just looking forward to the evening. 
Sure, the date itself wasn’t necessarily festive, but the length Mingyu went to plan everything meant the world. There’s no doubt that he would do it again a thousand times over. 
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The restaurant was elegant, with soft lighting and menus filled with ingredients and words you didn’t know. Mingyu watched as you tried to pronounce the name of the dishes to yourself, and failed miserably at it. You graciously accepted his offer to order for you.
“I’ll give you my answer about visiting your family after we exchange gifts. But I owe you an explanation about why I never go back home.”
“I just get sad at the thought of you being alone. If you’re uncomfortable sharing, I respect that boundary. The person you are now and the person you’ll become are what matters the most to me.”
“I was never really close with my family, then it slowly got worse.” The restaurant was quite spacious which was definitely useful since you were about to tell Mingyu your whole back story.
“There was a lot of pressure on me to work at my parents’ law firm. There are no words to describe how mad they were at me when I told them it wasn’t something I had the slightest interest in. In their eyes, me becoming a software developer was a waste of time and I was a failure. So, I told them I was leaving and they didn’t believe me. They were convinced I would end up unemployed and homeless then I’d come crawling back. I haven’t spoken to them since.”
“That’s…rough. I’m sorry you went through that.”
“Thank you. Honestly though, I’m okay. I’ve never been happier.”
Not wanting to kill the mood for the evening you suggested the gift exchange, just to put each other's attention on something a little more positive. You did warn Mingyu that his Christmas gift was quite heavy but the expression in his face told you that he severely underestimated the gift’s weight. There was also slight concern etched on his face as he racked his brain to come up with some ideas of what it might be, any ideas really. 
Mingyu’s gift to you was beautifully wrapped in snowman designed paper and a bow that he had made himself.
“It’s so pretty, Mingyu. I don’t want to ruin it.” As delicate as you could possibly manage you cautiously unwrapped the gift to avoid ripping the paper.
“It’s fine, just tear into it.” Mingyu was beyond excited with the gift he threw together for you. As he should be. “That’s what I had to pick up from the post office the day you came over to paint.”
Inside the beautifully wrapped package was a customized scrapbook in your favourite colour. The front of the book had a little plastic slot that held a photo of the two of you from when you went to get your picture taken with Santa. 
“If I open this I’m going to cry.” The pages contained memories from the past twelve dates; Mingyu’s letter to Santa, a cutout from the box of gingerbread cookies you decorated among many other memories.  “This is the most thoughtful gift I have ever received. I love it.”
“Before I open the gift you got me. I have something important to say.” Mingyu moved the gift you got him to the side to lean in as close as he could to you and repeated some very familiar words;
“There are not enough words to express the feelings I have for you. You are quite literally the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have fallen so deeply in love with you and I hope we fall in love in every life after this one.”
At a loss for words, your jaw dropped. “How did- That’s what-”
“I love you.”
It took a moment for you to process what was said. “That’s what I wrote on the back of the canvas I painted you.”
“You weren’t so subtle when you tried to hide the back of it.”
“I’m sorry you had to hear it from a canvas instead of me.”
“I loved it, it was so sweet. Now I can keep that memory forever.”
The moment you received your gift you knew tears would be shed, there was nothing that could have been done to stop them, so you just embraced them. Mingyu was too busy focusing on you that you had to remind him to open the gift, and to stop trying to guess what it was.
“Books? Textbooks!” Mingyu's jaw dropped as he examined the books, amazed. “You bought me books for school! That’s so helpful. Thank you so much.” Even Mingyu couldn’t hold back his own tears. “You believe in me so much. I don’t know how to thank you.”
“Just wait until you see what’s at the back of the first book.”
“What did you do?” Concerned but yet intrigued, Mingyu followed your instructions, and there sat the answer he had been waiting for all evening. “Oh, thank you so much for buying my train ticket. I’m going to miss you.”
“Tickets,” you corrected. “Plural, there’s two there.”
“You’re coming with me? You’re coming with me! You’re going to meet my family! We are going to have so much fun, they’re going to love you. This is so exciting.”
“Oh, one more thing.”
He hummed in reply, still excited that you would be joining him and his family for the holidays.
“I love you too, Mingyu.”
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agalychnisspranneusroseus · 2 months ago
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"Can I call you 'Drias?"
"Only one person ever called me that"
"Oh! Gotcha! Too personal. Boundaries, Marcy!"
My babygirl blaming herself and her difficulty reading social cues when she didn't do anything 😭 how was she supposed to know it was "too personal"?? She automatically assumes she did something wrong she assumes she messed up my BABY
#amphibia#my posts#also andrias that is one big fat LIE both Leif and Barrel called you 'Drias#this useless fucking idiot forgot he had a whole ass boyfriend back then 😭😭😭#also -> Marcy having trouble remembering she needs to respect people's boundaries to the point she has a little mantra#to remind herself of that. + the 'prom?' poster reading 'yes or YES' = Marcy crossing the boundaries of her friendship with anne and sasha#by fantazising about going to prom with them. something stereotypically romantic#this is what my friend claude (xx century french anthropologist claude lévi-straus father of functional-structuralism) would call#the ''exaggeration'' of a bond. in his analysis of the myth of Oedipus and in how he linked it to the myth of Antigone#Oedipus incestuous relationship with his mother is analogous to Antigone violating the city laws to illegally bury her dead brother#this is: the exaggeration of a familial bond beyond the reach of what is socially acceptable (yes it's far fetched yes i know yes#yes we talked about it in class)#this is opposed to Oedipus killing his father: the underestimation of familial bonds.#which is analogous to the war between atens and sparta: slaughter among brothers#in this case Marcy's continuous violation of her friends' boundaries betrays an exaggeration of their bond#as exemplified by her ''wanting to take them to prom'' in a ''dream'' (which would be very jungian of her)#don't take my word for this tho because i got a 2 on my last exam so clearly i need to read my lévi-strauss again
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maareyas · 9 months ago
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Hey there! Hope I'm not bothering you, but your various Cosium AUs are living in my head tonight. :D I was wondering if you had any little snippets of info you'd like to share? (About any of them. I'm not picky. ^^ I'm more than willing to listen to you ramble if you so desire.) Also, your Phantom Ben design is SUPER cool and I was wondering if I could have permission to draw him?
glad you enjoy them :^] also yeah feel free to draw him and any other of the au designs
As for snippets, you gotta give me a specific au XD I have. so many--too many, one could say. And all of them have some level of ✨Unreleased Lore™️✨ that I don't know which to talk about ahhdh
Here's some snippets for the RuBen au (aka the nickname I've lovingly given Phantom Ben):
The entire cosium family is from Mobius in this au
Ofc the entire story takes place during Forces.
Ben, Kaze, and Darren were separated from their parents when The War™️ started. They still have some contact with Mort and Athena at least.
Benonic is the only who is an "official" Resistance member. Kaze likes to tag along despite Ben telling him to stay where it's safe.
Kaze and Darren take up some of The Avatar/Gadget's roles in the story. I imagine that Gadget himself and his story still exists though.
There was a planned third part to the Ruben saga I ended up never drawing. It would have depicted this au's equivalent of the last Infinite fight. Kaze and Darren would have defeated Ben and destroyed the Phantom Ruby that was encasing his hand.
Ben however ended up in a coma because the ruby's power fried his brain.
A 4th "epilogue" drawing was also planned. This time it was Ben at the hospital with a robotic hand to replace the one the Ruby consumed before. He would have been surrounded by his brothers, Athena, Carrie, and Regina.
Mortesen and Rakar would be off to the side, talking. Rakar was a neurosurgeon in this au and operated on Ben's brain to help it recover and remove any leftover stuff from the Ruby.
Ben has striped scars on his arm from his time as RuBen. He also still has weak reality-warping powers, but using them at all takes a lot of energy and causes a terrible migraine.
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uumumuu · 10 months ago
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She's finally giving in to becoming the lap cat I knew she was 😈 all according to plan,,,,,,
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ajacks99 · 10 months ago
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god one of my favourite things about bg3 is that characters are allowed to change opinions, and I don't mean about story beats e.g. character endings etc, but about relationships - like where Karlach for example is initially all for your PC spending time with someone else, but then later on actually changes to want to be more serious and exclusive and/or recognises that's what she truly wants (depending on interpretation). I actually think its a very refreshing way to look at relationships and more specifically polyamory in RPG games compared to just 'everyone is poly'/'one Single Pairing works as poly'/'everyone is playersexual'. Like its refreshing it isn't just locked in from the get go.
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carnage-cathedral · 1 year ago
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aight fr tho I think they're right because it once again feels unsafe like everywhere all the time
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emi1y · 2 years ago
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tours will have you finding out that even the most trusted mutuals have been taylor swift fans all this time. jerry seinfeld voice not that there's anything wrong with that 🫢
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skinnymeanfaggot · 1 year ago
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#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats#just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind#i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence#he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged#with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive#always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell#accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this#and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little#affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do#the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i#fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty#even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck#either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that#anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there#i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack#in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing
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phagodyke · 1 year ago
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IN OTHER NEWS I FINISHED TRANSLATION STATE LAST NIGHT the ending had me sobbing not bc it's sad at all but WAAAAA
#i have not stopped thinking abt qven and reet for a single minute since i started reading#just. seeing a character who experienced an extremely traumatic violation of both eir trust + body find someone who not only respects-#eir boundaries but naturally creates a space for em where e feels safe enough to trust him + open up to intimacy again#OURGHHHHHH. I had to go out to the park alone and walk around in the dark and pouring rain for an hour just to feel normal after that#the way reets family were so immediately accepting of em and basically adopted em on the fucking spot too 😭😭#I loved enae as well the exploration of hir grief + complex feelings towards hir family was so well done#also rly cool to see an older protagonist ESPECIALLY an older nonbinary person I was thinking how incredibly rare that is#all the protags arcs just meshed so well together as an exploration of the themes. v well constructed book#ann leckie got me wanting to use neopronouns now goddamn#ALSO SPHEEENNNNEEE god i missed it so much 😭😭😭😭😭 i might have to reread the ancillary justice series soon#weird dimensional tech + cannibalistic body fusion have gotta be 2 of my fave ever sff features too. books that were written JUST for me#the presger translators were one of the most intriguing parts of the ancillary series im so glad leckie picked that back up!!!!#1 million thoughts. anyway I think matching w someone would fix me who want to melt into each other and become a single multibodied being#.diaries
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lupismaris · 2 years ago
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No one gets under your skin and makes you feel sick quite like your siblings, and there's no numbness quite like the feeling of having to put a boundary firmly in place with a wide open door for them to walk through should they see it for one
#ive not always been a good older sibling to my brother and i know that. ive owned up for it and apologized and made myself open.#so that we can mend what fractured relationship we have should he choose.#but he fixates on my refusal to play nicely with family that has not done right by me for the whole of my life and bases#the entirety of our potential relationship and the memory of out mother on that on the fact i wont play nice with her kin#because they have not ever fully accepted me save for my uncles which is a new thing. and ive made my boundaries about this clear#and he pushes and pushes and says if we come together as a family it'll ease his grieving and we'll all heal together#but thats just disregarding my own boundaries and trauma in exchange for catering to the comforts of himself and the family#ive given up fighting him on that#but i asked him simply that if he needs me or wants to tell me something to just call me pr text me directly it can be short n sweet#but not to go to our parents. its insulting. ive always answered his calls. even when we fight pr have a failed mediation i always answer#and he immediately made it about how my boundaries are unacceptable so why should he bother#i give up. i know i was arrogant at 26. i know i was. i was probably cruel too. but i had made myself a doormat at the same time.#all i told him was he never bothered to talk to me as my brother or ask my about our mother without the lens of her kin#it was always about them never just about her. it was never about us as siblings just about our aunts and uncles and grandparents#he never crossed the road and came to me and said can we talk about ma and I reminded him of that. never a conversation just#him playing court jester/therapist and ignoring boundaries over and over. and even then i always answered the phone#so i told him he can pivot and change the subject all he wants. but the point of this was that if he needs me i answer.#and should he need me i will answer. but if he continues this behavior of backhanded communication#ill know he doesnt respect me and doesnt see me as his sibling because ive asked him plainly to speak to me#im fuckin tired. you try with people and they just... bait you.#the fact he looked at me and said our relatives are all he has left of ma and im his sibling will never not feel like a salted wound tbh
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areyoudoingthis · 1 year ago
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it's so fucked up that people keep telling me that my parents love me and suggesting I shouldn't cut contact with them while I'm trying desperately to process and put into words all the ways in which my parents hurt me throughout my life, all the things i should see as violent instead of normalizing them and excusing them or pretending they don't exist
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catgirlwizard · 2 years ago
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#personal#its ridiculous how i was so depressed 2 days ago and then my partner was like. whay if i came over right now even though#its almost midnight. and what if i slept over at your house for 3 nights in a row. and now im sitting here having eaten breakfast for the#first time in like 4 weeks and feeling happy waiting for him to wake up so we can shower together and were#gonna go on a build-a-bear date and i no longer feel like i deserve to d*e with him here#hes just so sweet and i love him a lot and im really lucky to have him in my life <3 ive never been in a relationship where i felt this#safe and comfortable and accepted before and i know he hasnt either and its just nice#definitely helps that were both trans autistic queers with parental trauma so theres a lit about each other that we understand without#needing to explain it in depth#but also he really values communication and even thiigh im so used to shutting all my feelings off and not telling people about them#im trying really hard to not do that with him and its? nice not bottling everything up for once?#he really listens to me when i talk and tries to understand and respect my boundaries all the time and its realy nice to have that#ive been awful at establishing boundaries in past relationships and i didnt feel like my boundaries mattered to at least one ex so its#a nice change of pace to have someone go out of their way to make me feel reapected and valued like thay#and thats not even mentioning all the hot gay transgender sex we have because like. both being on t kind of makes that a necessity dhdjdjdj#its just nice having him in my life and feeling loved and cared for and getting to love and care for him back and im so lucky#that everything fell into place for us to date each other because i really dont know what id have done without him this past half a year#this is so long fhdjsjsjsj im just waoting for him to get up and feeling emotional about how much of a good influence he is in my life <333
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love-is-here · 2 years ago
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Deciding to be just let things go instead of getting mad at them …. this really is peaceful
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wooahaes · 2 years ago
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u kno what. the inclination is bc seokmin would hug me and listen and tht would probs b pretty healing on its own. maybe ill do reactions or something
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episbep · 5 months ago
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rehab day twenty seven
I’ve been promoted to advanced! primary treatment completed 👌
I’ve been all over the place emotionally again today, i started the day feeling chirpy and chatty, meditation was all about “inches in front of your face” and the childish members of the group (myself included) got the giggles and kept setting each other off. The CA Hospitals & Institutions share was really good actually (usually they’re really same-y - life in active addiction was hectic, they got clean with the help of the program and fellowship now they’re clean and sober life is much better) but I was rly sleepy and antisocial after we left the centre so had a 2 hr nap when we eventually got back to the house and felt functional again☺️ we met up with some of the other houses and had a BBQ karaoke sesh on the beach - me and flex parked our towels beside each other and just chatted the whole afternoon away, laughing and flirting in the sun just having a good time, I really think I like him and he’s got a good head on his shoulders, a positive attitude, cheeky sense of humour and the conversation just flows, I feel like I’ve known him ages and nothings really off limits; we chat about any and everything and it just feels good! We listened to music and sung along, some of the lads cooked burgers and sausages on the BBQs, was probably the best social thing I’ve done here so far, really was lush🫶✨ when the sun started to fade we went back to the house and ordered Chinese (paid for by the centre as our prize for being chosen as house of the week!) and had a bullshit, then me and flex facetimedfor a couple hours just chatting away about all sorts, and my housemate walked in (without knocking!!!) and literally screamed and couldn’t breathe from laughing so hard cos I was laid on my bed completely naked🙈 I’m never gonna live that down lmao (flex couldn’t see anything on the call, but my housemate did see my 🍑)
gratitude list, goals for tomorrow, bed x
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