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penisbilt · 8 months ago
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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itsalwaysdark · 5 months ago
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theres like fr something in the water abt cadaver w long hair. also im blaming this on the fact im listening to nine inch nails. but guys has anybody thought about cadaver and scientist...
lord this edibles crazy i thought i was getting over it and then i wanted to do more cas in the sims and i basically just made a copy of cadaver and then spun him in circles for like A while. it was way more fun than it shouldve been
#i like looked at scientist and thought i was gonna start crying bc i like her so bad#VERY SCARY! it feels like im feeling an emotion past what im able to actuallyregister#did i tell u guys abt that um last night i guess#i had a moment where i was able to like. ground myself further than im usually able to and i was able to like. feel real again#and i couldnt stop crying abt it like i was unconsolable. i just kept sobbing bc i was actually real and i got out and i got to feel it aga#and i kept feeling them coming to like. put meback and it was awful. but im back now and i dont feel real again. but whatever. ik i ws cryi#the entire time and it felt Awful it was painful it was scary to be like back the way im supposed to be but i do miss it a lot#but idt im strong enough to try to come back again so im staying inside where im supposed to be#idt im making muchsense. just be glad im not telling you guys about the g#the g i couldnt stop thinking abt id during dr who bc everything in the universe is this one endlessly intricate g like calligraphy shit#and i can see it in my head but i cant see it all at once bc there r too many little details and stuff#itis ok. ive been seeing a lot today JDJWA#thats why ive been keeping myself from taking another edible even though its temptingggg but imnot.#love you guys btw. everybody i love you snd stuff. i feel so like. connected to everybody bc of what ive seen#like i get it all i can see everybody and when i think im like. everybody and its really nice. its all here like were all together and stuf#umm yeah. so :] i am done writing now. this song is good though. and what about cadaqver and scientist and stuff right guys
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sw33t-oubliette · 1 year ago
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so fucked up i cant go sleeps right now or else imnot gonna get my assignmence done god hates faggots
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cdrwstorm · 7 years ago
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literally though....brainstorm, the bot The Most starved for affection, suddenly being fawned over and adored by the two most iconically affectionate bots on the ship? he'd combust. rewind would bounce up to him and grab his hand while chromedome walks over and gives him a faceplate-to-faceplate kiss as he grabs his other hand & brainstorm would just die on the spot. every time one of them is like "we were talking abt how much we love you last night" brainstorm just short circuits entirely
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arcadequeerz · 5 years ago
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captaincartervalues · 5 years ago
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My Stubborn Alien (for the fic title thing)
“Jus truuusst me, Lena thi- thisis a greaaat idea!” Kara empathically waves her hands.
“Kara, you’re drunk and this is most definitely not a good idea.” Lena replies matter of factly.
“Imnot drunk. Yooou’re drunk.”
Lena shakes her head at her girlfriend in exasperation.
“N Ssure it is! S’its what the peeople want. ANd it’s gunna be gREAt for ma image! No more ‘Oh Supergirl’s sooo uptight’ or ‘Oh Supergirl is toooo muchofa goodie tooshoes’ or ‘out of touch with the people’!” Kara airquotes.
Lena raises her eyebrows and tries to conceal her smirk.
“Imma be hip! Imma be wit da people, LenAa!” Kara reaches out to boop Lena’s nose as she’s making her last point. “Supergirl is CoOl Ssupergurl is sFun! Thhiss is gonna show everyone that. Okay? Okay.”
“Does this have something to do with the article Andrea had William publish this week?” Lena asks gently.
“NooOoo.”
“So this has nothing to do with her saying Supergirl isn’t the kind of hero you wanna have a drink with?” Lena presses.
“Uhh noo.” Kara insists defiantly. “It’s about the gAys!” Kara comes up with.
“What?” Lena laughs out.
“Nia said Tiktok is on the rage and the gays love it! And I wannabe something the gays love toooo” Kara points out.
“Darling, I’m pretty sure the gays already love you...”
“Yeeaaaahh BUT do they knooow I love them back?! Isdunno... Isss why I need Tikstok!” Kara exclaims as if her reasoning is flawless.
Lena looks at the innocent face on her drunk girlfriend and knows they’re going to be in trouble tomorrow. “There’s no talking you out of this right now, is there?”
“NOpe!” Kara smiles triumphantly.
Lena sighs as she acquiesces “Fine.”
Kara jumps up and down with exuberance.
“But I’m not taking any of your complaints when you regret this tomorrow.”
———
Kara wakes up with a decent hangover, which wouldn’t be so bad, if she didn’t also wake up to an empty bed and no Lena to snuggle.
With a pouty face and her eyes half closed, Kara glacially shuffles out towards the kitchen and freshly made coffee. Although, she quickly realizes her and Lena aren’t alone this morning when she hears a whispered conversation.
“Alex? What are doing here so early?” Kara inquires as she excitedly spots the donuts her sister must have brought over.
“Oh you know just catching up with my future sister-in-law about how your night was.” Alex says sharply.
Kara brushes past the sister-in-law comment and looks skeptically at Alex as she eats her second donut. “It was fine. Pretty low key.” Kara says with her mouth full.
Alex scoffs “LOWkey?! Mmm and how much of it do you remember there, Kar?”
Kara looks to Lena with questioning eyes but Lena won’t quite look at her as she chuckles behind her coffee cup. “Most of it...I mean I don’t really remember going to bed once we got home but -”
Lena bursts out laughing at Kara’s unassuming admission.
“This isn’t funny, Lena.” Alex chastises.
“I mean it kind of is, Alex. Come on, it wasn’t that bad in the end” Lena argues.
Kara cuts Alex off before she can argue back “What wasn’t that bad?”
“Oh why don’t we just show you superstar!” Alex quips.
Lena takes pity on Kara’s still confused face and pats the seat on the couch next to her “You’re gonna want to sit down for this one, honey.”
Kara takes the offered seat as Lena hands her phone over to Kara after opening the Tiktok app. Kara’s mouth immediately drops when she sees herself in her Supergirl suit on the screen.
“Oh no!” Kara gasps.
“Oh YES.” Alex digs. “Go on, press play.”
Kara presses play and immediately regrets it as she watches herself stare back with ‘sexy’ eyes and lick her lips before lip syncing:
“I wanna put you in 7 positions for 70 minutes. You get it babe. You got a lot on your mind and I want to ease it up and lick it and slip it in. You do a light scream on the ice cream when I scoop it and dip it in.”
“Oh. My. Rao.” Kara groans as she presses pause to stop the video. “Why am I seducing the camera in my Supergirl suit?”
“That’s a great question, isn’t it Kara?” Alex jabs sarcastically. “Lena?”
“You said it was trendy and that the TikTok gays would appreciate it.” Lena offers.
“Why didn’t you stop me??” Kara whines.
“I tried!” Lena defends. “You told me it was homophobic and a hate crime not to post it!”
“I am never drinking Vahorian Rum again.” Kara says as she sinks into the couch.
“You said that last time.” Alex mocks.
Kara glares at her sister before attempting her patented optimism. “Okay, so I made a TikTok as Supergirl last night. At least it’s just this one video with only - um” Kara checks the phone “3.6 million views...”
Kara sighs, “It could be worse.”
Alex and Lena exchange a knowing look and Kara’s eyes go wide.
“I made MORE than one video?!?” Kara postures.
“Try like six.” Alex huffs disapprovingly.
“Oh Rao!”
“Weeelllll, she only posted six...” Lena adds.
“OH RAO!” Kara groans. “Show them all to me now.”
The three of them proceed to watch all of Kara’s drunkenly produced TikToks from the night before.
“Ayyyoooooo bisexual check!”
Kara doesn’t even know how she manages to roll the sleeves and pants of her supersuit but she watches herself do it before putting a beanie and chucks on, grabbing her ukele, and topping it off by replacing her cape with a bisexual flag.
“I don’t even have a bisexual flag!” Kara blurts.
“You do now.” Alex points to it draped over the dining table.
Kara looks at Lena baffled.
“You said it was ‘essential’, yelled ‘brb’, and came back with the flag and some candy before I could open my mouth.” Lena explains.
Kara sighs and scrolls to the next video.
“Ayyyoooooo everyone thinks my cousin is hot check!”
This video turns out to be just Kara rolling her eyes and shaking her head with embarrassment in front of a bunch of pictures of Kal in his Superman suit. Most of the comments on the video are either ‘well they ain’t wrong doe’ or ‘not as hot as you Supergirl’ and Kara isn’t sure which she hates more.
The next one starts with Kara and Lena standing next to and looking at each other with background music and the caption ‘whenever Lex tries to take over the world’ and ends with them not missing a beat as they turn towards the camera and lip sync:
“What kind of fuckery is this?”
“Okay this one is kind of funny.” Kara cautiously proclaims.
“Yeah I liked that one too.” Lena admits with a smile.
“Should have said ‘whenever Lex does anything’.” Alex corrects. They all burst out laughing at that.
With the mood slightly lightened, Kara scrolls to the next video.
“Ayyyoooooo jawline check!”
Kara is already cringing again as she anticipates watching herself show off her jawline but is surprised when the camera flips to Lena rolling her eyes as Kara’s hand turns her head to its profile to hype up her girlfriend’s impeccable jawline.
“I’m so sorry” Kara says sheepishly.
“It’s okay, babe.” Lena reassures her as she presses a quick kiss to Kara’s lips.
“I mean...Lena’s jawline was made for this trend sooo...” Alex concedes.
Lena rolls her eyes again as Kara shrugs, “She’s not wrong, babe.”
“Yeah, yeah. Just watch the last one you posted because it’s Alex’s and mine’s favorite.” Lena says as she and Alex laugh in anticipation.
“Oh no.” Kara sighs before scrolling.
Music plays as she watches stock images of Superman, the Flash, and the Arrow pop up before Kara appears and lip syncs the last line with a cocky grin:
“These boys ain’t shit.”
“Oh my - Lena! How could you let me post theeeese?” Kara tries again.
“Listen,” Lena starts “you’re very stubborn when you’re drunk and it took everything I had to keep you from posting the other videos!”
“Do I even want to know?” Kara questions.
“I do!” Alex says taking a little too much enjoyment in Kara’s suffering.
Lena pulls out another phone.
“At least you guys were smart enough to use one of Supergirl’s burner phones and not your personal phones.” Alex says.
Lena tosses Alex a side eye. “Do I look stupid to you?” Lena asks rhetorically. “I also added extra layers of encryption to the app and the phone just in case.”
“Well I don’t know! You were stupid enough to fall in love with this idiot.” Alex mumbles as she points toward Kara.
“Normally I would be offended, but after last night, you might have a point.” Kara says.
Lena pulls up the the drafts she refused to let Kara post.
The first one is Kara floating with Lena in her arms in a bridal carry and the caption ‘when you save Lena Luthor from an attack’. Kara is looking at Lena before she turns to the camera and lip syncs:
“I think. You know. Where this about to go.”
Drunk Kara added some eyebrow raises and a wink before kissing Lena at the end.
“Okay it’s probably a really good thing you didn’t let me post this.” Kara admits.
“You think?!” Alex chastises.
Kara clicks on another video in the drafts to avoid Alex’s judgmental gaze.
This video is Kara and Lena standing in from of the camera facing each other as Kara lip syncs to her:
“You say we’re just friends....”
Kara smiles and pans to the camera. “But friends don’t know the way you taste.”
Kara smirks as Lena’s mouth drops and she goes to stop the recording immediately.
“OHkay I did not need to see that last one, Lena!” Alex complains.
“You asked for it.” Lena shrugs.
“She’s right. You did.” Kara backs up her girlfriend.
Alex glares at them both. “You two are lucky no one pieced together where you were or who you are!” Alex scolds as she points at Kara.
“I think it helped that Supergirl and I have a known working friendship.” Lena admits. “No one questioned why she was drunk and with me.”
“What has been the overall reaction to these?” Kara inquires.
“Honestly, it’s been mostly positive with most fans loving the content and an inside look at playful Supergirl.” Lena explains.
“Though there have been some critics questioning why a hero would get drunk at all with the responsibilities you have.” Alex levels. “And some negative responses from parents about the appropriateness of some of the content.”
Kara sighs resigned to the damage she has done.
“But. On the positive side, you were right!” Lena adds with encouragement.
Kara tilts her head quizzically.
“The gays LOVED it and they loved that they now definitively have a shot because you like girls!” Lena teases.
“Oh Rao! I can not believe Supergirl came out as bisexual on TikTok! Kate got an incredibly well written and thoughtful article on what it means to her and the world that Batwoman is gay and I got thirst traps! THIRST TRAPS!” Kara groans.
Alex shakes her head and Lena tries to hold back her laughter.
“I can’t believe you let me do this, Lena!”
“Hey, I told you it’s not my fault! You’re one stubborn alien when drunk.”
“But I’m your stubborn alien and you’re responsible for me.” Kara counters with a whine.
Lena sighs as she takes Kara into her arms. “You are my stubborn alien...with a drunken propensity for thirst traps.”
———
Kara embraces her drunken mistakes and utilizes her newly created TikTok fame to connect with the people and kids of National City on a more human level. She does PSAs and educational material in her videos as well as more lighthearted fun ones that people love.
She also managed to convince her superfriends to be in videos with her. The most liked videos on her page are the ‘flip the switch’ videos she’s done with the other heroes where the light goes off and they swap costumes. It started with Dreamer when Nia told her about it and convinced her to do it. Then Kara got Barry to do one (pretty easily) and then Sara, Killer Frost, J’onn, Mia, Constantine, and even Kate (after a lot of convincing). She also roped Kal into doing one with her old suit so he ended up in a skirt. That one is definitely her fav.
Generally, Supergirl’s official account has veered aware from making any more thirst traps, but that doesn’t seem stop other creators from making raunchy thirst traps about Supergirl.
Though, after some time and much convincing from Lena, Kara releases the last video in her drafts from that first drunken night.
“They say drunk words are sober thoughts” a sober Supergirl says as she shrugs and the video cuts to the clip of her drunk sprawled out upside down on the couch “Women are just like...sooooo HOT”
A lot of women liked that post.
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mocha-tapioca · 2 years ago
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swanee said ear so legally i have to now
this is gonna b long so im putting it utc
@swantosa bc u wanted to hear im tagging u
gonna preface this by talking abt said crushes, both of which r good friends of mine because i never fall for ppl imnot friends with
one of them is a demigirl that for the sake of anonymity im going to call kei!! very goth very much lesbian but shes the longest friend ive had since i moved to where i currently live ^^ despite seeming really intimidating and unapproachable shes actually the most adorable sweetheart u will ever meet and she has this habit of kicking her legs whenever she reads anything cute and specifically AVOIDS it for that reason and ALSO. ALSO SHE IS MY (currently platonic) WIFE I WAS THE ONE THAT GOT DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND PROPOSED SHE HAS MY BUTTERFLY RING RN AND THE SNAKE RING I FOUDN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY
the other one is a guy we're gonna call mac who is like. Very Very Different from kei. EXTREMELY different from kei. mac is a living himbo of a man and an absolute ray of friggin sunshine. AND SOMEHOW???? HE GETS BETTER GRADES THAN ME??????? HES ACTUALLY REALLY SMART AND HARDWORKING AND IT BLOWS ME AWAY??????????? weve known each ither for abt a year and we both thought we were gonna remain acquaintances forever but then we became rlly good friends!!!! he currently has me saved as "penguin" on his phone (bc i headbutted my friend once to get her to stop being so sad) n i have him saved as "puppy" bc its what animals we remind each other of haha
theyre both on good terms w each other even though they dont talk all that much, plus both of them are aware i hv a crush on the other person (but dont know i hv a crush on THEM too) ^^ not to mention both of them have seen me at my best and worst and have stuck by me anyway + theyre both like???? REALLY GOOD AT GIVING ADVICE???????? AND THEYRE BOTH ACTUALLY REALLY ADORABLE AND THEIR LITTLE MANNERISMS ARE SO CUTE AND THEYRE BOTH JUST SO AAAAAAAAAGH
tl;dr i like two very different people and theyre both rlly cute <3333
okok onto the dream part now
so irl we have a winter formal coming up where i am right?? so in the dream its the night of the formal and im sitting outside on the stairs that go up to the gym doors, which are outside the school parking lot. as far as i rmr i left the party to take a breather since the volume of the music was really overwhelming to me. for some reason its honeymoon un deux trois which like. DAMN OKAY RLLY SETTING THE MOOD THERE.
n then mac steps out and puts his suit jacket over my freezing shoulders bc THIS IS IN WINTER. MY DUMBASS IS COLD. anw he sits down next to me and we talk abt random little mundane things until i stand in front of him and stick my hand out, asking him to dance. he agrees but he doesnt know how to like waltz n stuff SO I TEACH HIM. I AM GETTING BITCHES KEFTA ND RIGHT IN THIS DREAM.
and at some point it switches to me dancing w kei and im the one in a suit this time AND SHES SO ORETTY???????? IN THAT DRESS???????????????? OMG???????????????????????? and we're both laughing and stumbling into each other because we're both so bad at dancing the way we're supposed to and keep jokingly flirting with each other and wondering if its actually a joke
AND THEN IT CUTS TO MEWANTING TO GO BACK TO THE OARTY AND THEY BOTH STAND IN FRONT OF THE DOORS AND YOU CANBSEE THE LIGHTS BEHIND THEM AND THEY LOOK SO DAMN GOOD HNGAHHHHHHHHHHH AND. AND THEN THEY BOTH TAKE MY HANDS AND LEAD ME BACK IN AND THE DREAM ENDS AND I WAKE UP AND UGHHHHH I WISH I COULDVE KEPT DREAMING LET ME SEE HOW IT ENDS PLEASE VRAIN AGH
and so concludes my dream pan rambles. panbles
who wants to hear my dream abt both the people im currently crushing on
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breakmyreddieheart · 7 years ago
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(Please Don’t) Say Anything - Ch3
 Chapter One | Chapter Two | Chapter Three | Chapter Four | Chapter Five | Chapter Six | Chapter Seven
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Summary: It’s the last days of high school and the Losers are soon to be leaving for university, moving to different parts of the country. Richie is trying to figure out how to tell Eddie how he feels about him, but only ends up making things worse and needs to figure out how to apologize. Bev has a cunning plan, and Richie Tozier gets extra…
Setting: Derry, ME - the summer of 1995
Pairings: Reddie (main), Stenborough (on the side) also Bev is dating a girl and Ben and Mike are just wholesome individuals right now
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Warnings: one stressy Kaspbrak
A/N: Do you like angst? Cause I’ve got some good angst for you here. Real melodramatic, like. 
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Eddie hadn’t felt right all evening.
While he tried to carry on as normal, the concept of Richie moving to New York permeated every thought and left him feeling cold and anxious. As concerning a revelation as this was, he was simultaneously reeling from the realisation of the extent of his feelings for Richie.
He had always had a soft-spot for the Trashmouth. Growing up, Bill had been one of the only people that Eddie was close with; though he was a few months older, Eddie looked up to Bill like the big brother he didn’t have. His relationship with Richie, however, was different; he was more like the annoying little brother Eddie had never really asked for, but was lumped with all the same.
After that summer back in 88′ - the summer which galvanised friendships, yet sat inaccessible on the edge of each of the loser’s memories - he had begun to see Richie differently. While he was loud and obnoxious with everybody, Eddie couldn’t help but notice that Richie seemed to focus a lot of his jokes on him. It made him feel special in a way he couldn’t quite comprehend or explain. Growing up, Bill had been his closest and most loyal friend - he looked up to Bill in many ways - but he never gave Eddie the same feeling of nervous warmth that he felt when Richie talked about this cute cheeks or ruffled his hair.
As the years went by, he had spent more and more time with Richie; many nights studying together or just reading comics on Eddie’s bed and talking about dumb shit. He noticed an ever-increasing list of things that he came to adore; the way his eyes lit up when he talked about his favourite comic book plots, the raspy quality of his voice from smoking an unreasonable amount of cigarettes from such a young age, how he stuck his tongue out when he concentrated on writing new script ideas. Only at the thought of not having Richie in his daily life did he truly begin to appreciate how much the Trashmouth meant to him - and how utterly, ridiculously in love he was.
How had he not seen this sooner!? How had his brain failed to register this important detail??
Except it had. Subconsciously. As he sat in the midst of the Loser’s festivities, he pondered his reasons for choosing the University of California. Sure, it was a good school - but there were plenty of good medical schools in the East. Sure, he hated Derry and how the town seemed to smell like hate and decay - but did he really have to move to the opposite end of the country to get away from it? And sure, his Mother was frustratingly overbearing - but he didn’t have to move more than a few hours away to really get a good sense of freedom.
No, he was moving to California for Richie Tozier, and only now did that realisation begin to set in. Now, when it was too late to change his mind without raising far too many questions and causing way too much trouble.
“...Eddie?”
But what if he just--
“...Eddie!” Bill yelled as he was waving a hand in front of Eddie’s face, causing him to jump back to reality. “You haven’t had any p-puh-pizza yet. It’s nearly all g-go-hn.”
“Oh...um, I’m not really hungry...” he replied, his stomach churning a little at the thought of food.
“Is everything okay?” Stan asked. He and Bill were knelt either side of the armchair in which Eddie was sat, eyebrows furrowed in concern. Ben and Mike sat across the room playing Mortal Kombat while Richie and Bev were nowhere to be seen.
“You’ve been d-distant all e-eve-ning,” Bill spoke from the other side. The situation felt like a very polite interrogation. The last thing Eddie wanted to do right now was talk about it.
“I’m fine guys, just...I’m just thinking about stuff I guess” he replied, staring at his knees as he spoke.
“Stuff?” Stan scoffed, “Any specific stuff? You know you can talk to us right?”
“Sure, I just don’t want to talk about it right now, okay?” Eddie stood up and went to grab a beer, finding them all empty. He huffed in frustration, he should have just gotten over himself and accepted the one Richie offered him.
“Is it about R-Ruh-Richie?” Bill asked, him and Stan both standing now.
Eddie’s face reddened with annoyance, had Bill told Stan about their conversation??
“No! I don’t want to talk about it okay!?” He raised his voice, clenching his fists at his side as he spoke, tears beginning to burn in the corners of his eyes.
“There’s no need to be like that Eddie, we’re just concerned,” Stan said as if they weren’t the ones pressing Eddie for information. “Richie’s out front with Bev having a smoke, it’s safe to talk.”
Eddie shot a look at Bill feeling a little betrayed. He was only just realising these feelings for himself, he didn’t want it becoming gossip amongst the rest of the Losers.
“Look, I’m just gonna go home” he huffed, grabbing his bag from the armchair. “I’m tired, I have a headache, my mom’s gonna be pissy cause I’m out late, and I really don’t appreciate you jumping to conclusions about what I’m thinking.”
Bill and Stan paused, looking somewhat shocked at the outburst. Eddie pushed past and headed for the back door.
“So you’re not sneaking out the back to avoid Tozier, then?” Stan said pointedly. Bill elbowed him in the side and followed Eddie out onto the back porch.
“E-Eddie, wait up!”
“I can’t believe you told Stan!” Eddie snapped, spinning round to face Bill before beginning to pace the porch, gesticulating as he spoke. “What part of ‘don’t tell the other Losers’ didn’t you get? I trusted you with this Bill!”
“He’s my b-b-boyfriend, Eddie. We tell each other everything.” Bill said, sitting on the bench under the kitchen window. “I’m s-suh-sorry, I didn’t m-mean to u-u-u-upset you.”
Eddie noticed Bill’s stuttering was worse when he was feeling anxious. He huffed a little, still pacing, before moving to sit down next to his friend on the bench.
“I think he’s moving to New York,” he said after a pause, his right heel still tapping involuntarily. “I thought he’d be going to California. That’s why I applied there.”
“I figured,” Bill said matter-of-factly. Eddie felt frustrated but probably more appreciative of how well Bill knew him. “I didn’t think a-a-anyone knew where Richie was guh-going? He’s been keeping it p-pretty quiet.”
“He mentioned to Bev about living with her when she moves...” he said, staring at the floor, the tapping of his heel intensifying.
“Oh, that? I’m sure he was just joking!” Bill insisted, squeezing Eddie’s shoulder. “You know how he is, you can’t take half of what he says seriously.”
“I guess... but don’t you think he would have made a bigger deal of it if he knew we were moving to California together?” He waited for a response from Bill but the pause in conversation confirmed that he had made a valid point that Bill couldn’t refute.
“You should talk to him,” Bill said, leaning forward so that Eddie couldn’t help but look at him. Eddie made to argue but Bill raised a hand to stop him. “I know you don’t w-wuh-want to tell him how you fee-f-feel, but you need to say something or you’re just going to t-tie yourself up in kn-nuh-nots.”
Eddie sighed, knowing Bill was right.
“Fine, but not tonight. I really do have a headache and I just want to go to bed.”
“Okay, but don’t l-let this eat you up. I’m here for you, you k-kn-now that,” Bill smiled, “me and Stan.”
Eddie crossed his arms and gave Bill a look, but broke it with a smile and went to hug his friend. Bill hugged him back tightly, giving his shoulders a reassuring squeeze.
“Thanks buddy,” Eddie smiled, breaking the hug and relaxing his shoulders a little.
While he knew Bill was right, he couldn’t help but wonder how he could talk to Richie without giving his feelings away; the last thing he wanted to do was ruin their friendship before leaving Derry. He would try and talk to him, but not tonight. Not while he was feeling so worked up.
“Get home safe,” Bill waved as Eddie made to leave via the side of the house.
“Laters, ‘gaters!” Eddie called, waving back.
“Wh-while, ‘dile!”
Eddie smiled as he walked around the house, checking to see if Richie was still out front. Seeing the way was clear, he made for home at a fast pace, smile faltering as his worries wrapped themselves around his shoulders again.
This was going to be difficult. 
- End of Chapter 3 -
A/N: Sorry for the short filler-y chapter, this scene ended up being a lot longer than intended and would be too long if I added the next bit too. So I’ll get this out there for now, more soon! Bright side, y’all be getting seven chapters in total now!
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toovain-forpain · 8 years ago
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ALRIGHT LETS DO THIS
I’m equipped with a selective attention span and a moderate understanding of Japanese, TIME TO LAY OUT MY THOUGHTS ABOUT CHAPTER 49
Obviously: spoiler alert, I won’t try being vague either. Screenshots included, along with some minor translations that are more paraphrasing than actual translations. 
SO FROM THE TOP
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YOSANO LEADS THE CAVALRY AND THEY LOOK DAMN GOOD DOING IT!! VERY HOPEFUL SHOT. THEY’RE KICKING SO MUCH ASS. Which is understandable tbh like in terms of making use of abilities? They’re is Illusion Support, Healing Support and a Tank, this is about as Dream Team as it gets. Also YOSANO so A++
(Anyone realise that Harukawa’s art in this chapter is fucking heavenly? They really did the Most this time. I love them so much it’s killing me.)
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Next up THESE ARE LIKE. SOME OF THE HOTTEST PANELS I’VE EVER SEEN FROM BSD I SHIT YOU NOT I THREW MY PANTIES AT THE SCREEN. RANPO IS TURNING IT THE FUCK UP, NO ITEMS, FOX ONLY, FINAL DESTINATION. AND CHUUYA. CHUUYA, MY SWEETHEART, WARINESS IS SUCH A GOOD LOOK ON YOU. THANK YOU BASED HARUKAWA.
If anyone wants to know: Ranpo here is referring to Chuuya as ‘Beautiful Hat-kun’! I’m not sure if this has happened beforehand, but IT SURE IS NOW AND I SURE AM... CONSIDERING IT. BOY. I FORGOT RANPO IS OLDER THAN CHUUYA UNTIL HE USED ‘KUN’ LMAO I LOST IT.
The convo’s gist is: Chuuya: I’m not gonna fight an ADA member with no ability Ranpo: Oh? But you’ve lost to Dazai, yes? Chuuya: 
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Then KATAI’S PLACE. THIS WHOLE PART. I CAN’T ACTUALLY BEAR TO POST THE WHOLE THING SO HERE’S THE GIST OF ME:
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1) KUNIKIDA FUCKING BAREKNUCKLE PUNCHED A HOLE THRU A CEMENT WALL BOI WHAT THE F U C K
2) Atsushis face extended my lifespan (the rest of the manga tho brought it back down to 0)
3) Fun fact this panel was the first spoiler I saw before reading the chapter. I thought to myself, ‘ah, Kunikida went with Atsushi! Splendid! That means we’ll get to see KNKD talk to his husband Katai!’
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4) I’m so sorry. I jinxed it. I cursed it. I’ve failed all of you. THATS THE FACE OF A MAN WHO JUST WATCHED HIS FRIEND OF 10 YEARS GET SHOT BY A FUCKING DEMON. STONE COLD. IM DEAD INSIDE BITCH. DEAD!!!!!
5) I CANT EVEN BEAR TO LOOK AT IT ALL I WANT IS FOR KATAI TO COME B A C K PLEASE KUNIKIDA’S BEEN THRU E N O U G H JUST... LET HIM HAVE A BREAK N HUG HIS FUTON HUSBAND WTF
THEN NEXT UP IS FUCKING AKUTAGAWA AND KYOUKA LIKE FUCK
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LIKE BITCH WHAT THE FUCK!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! HE SAYS ‘IT’S BEEN A WHILE’ WHICH IMPLIES?? SO MUCH??????? I LOST IT IMMEDIATELY?? APRICOTS: DROPPED.
AND THEN THE LEGENDARY PANEL
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HE SAYS ‘FINALLY (AFTER A WHILE), AN OPPONENT WITH BACKBONE’ (I THINK?? HE USES A JAPANESE EXPRESSION THAT IMNOT FAMILIAR WITH) LIKE BRUH
Personally this part wasn’t all that interesting to me until the later half of it but I’LL GET TO THAT
Skipping over the RanChuu part bc idk what to say fam, they’re trapped in a murder mystery now and Ranpo literally said “Let’s try not to die together” im Tired That They’re Targeting Me Like This
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Tbqh i feel that if my senpai grabbed my fucking knife and snapped it in hald with his bare hands i’d be fucking terrified but KYOUKA... SHE’S BEING BRAVE AND ALL. LOOK AT HER EYES. THEY’RE A FOCAL POINT THROUGHOUT THE NEXT FEW PAGES
I’M TOO LAZY TO ACTUALLY PUT PAGE BY PAGE HERE SO HAVE THE DIALOGUE INSTEAD
Aktgw: Isn’t it odd, Kyouka. Your eyes. They are very different from when I first met you. =FLASHBACK, 6 MONTHS AGO TF= Kyouka: Are you the one with the Ability that can cut through anything? Aktgw: If so? What of it? Kyouka: Snow Demon killed my parents. I want revenge. So please kill me, the owner of this demon. =FLASHBACK END= Aktgw: From your eyes, it was obvious. You hated life. From the time you jumped off the train, until the ship, and the whale, you did not see meaning in living. Kyouka: What would you know about that? Aktgw: I do know. Because there was (I knew?) a child with those same eyes, void of life’s purpose. Kyouka: What happened to that boy? Aktgw: The same thing that happened to you. Through meeting certain people, and through meeting certain groups, they were able to lose those eyes. AKUTAGAWA’S FLASHBACK ATSUSHI (!!!!): I SAW WORTH IN KYOUKA, EVEN THOUGH I’M WORTHLESS MYSELF...!! (MY FAV PART, WAIT FOR IT) Aktgw: ...Kyouka. Aktgw:  よかった な (Yokatta na) (YOKATTA NA) (ITS HARD TO TRANSLATE BUT THE SENTIMENT IS ‘IT’S GREAT’ (THAT YOU FOUND THE ADA’))
AND HE SAYS THIS WITH ENOUGH SINCERETY THAT KYOUKA LITERALLY OLLIES RIGHT THE FUCK OUT!! SHE LOOKS SO WORRIED TOO LIKE FML... I’M WORRIED TOO BITCH AKUTAGAWA LITERALLY SHOWED A FUCKING EMOTION!!! AND ATSUSHI IS THE ONE WHO BROUGHT OUT THAT EMOTION IN HIM!!! WHAT!! THE!! FUCK!!!!
MY SHIN SOUKOKU HEART BITCH I CRIED. SO MUCH. FUCK. AKUTAGAWA SHOWING KYOUKA AN EMOTION FUCKING RUINED ME!!!
Ah the rest of it is lemon man rambling and the cavalry RETREATING I didn’t bother translating it bc im not interested in him, basically FUCK!! THIS CHAPTER WAS WILD AF
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booksbroadwaybbc · 6 years ago
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Is she playing with me or do I overanalyze via /r/selfimprovement
Is she playing with me or do I overanalyze
So I met a girl in a college class and asked her and her friend if they wanna go to a bar. I wrote with her per Whats app and she said that she didn't know if she had time and write later and then she Calle off. Agter that I asked her when she had time and she said Friday. So I asked her if she wanted to go to a Party. she then said she will go with her friends anyway but I cn come with them. I said yes and a bit later ( like 4 pm) when we meet up and she didn't answer, so I said fuck it she probably just likes to keep me in suspense or smth. Maybe it was a shittest maybe it was because shedding care about me, not sure, but it seemed to me that she was interested. So Friday at 22:20 she wrote: "we meet at 22.30, sorry for not writing". I had my phone in my room and I saw the message at like 22:40 actually by coincidence.
But I thought:"Imnot gonna let her make me her bitch= and answered... roughly translated in English: "won't happen."
She didn't quite get what I was saying, she's a foreigner. So an hour later she asked where I am and I said that I won't come today. But then she actually wrote like she was actually disappointed.
Now I don't know if I did the right thing and wasn't acting like a needy bitch and she was actually trying to play games with me or give shittest, or was I actually the douche in the story and she actually couldnt write earlier.
Am i am asshole trying to act less needy?
I mean I think I acted right either way. Did I?
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sw33t-oubliette · 6 months ago
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Since you’ve been getting a few ask about your thoughts on F&C season 2 I’m going to throw my two cents in and ask a question about it. What do you think will happen to Prismo in the next season if he appears at all ? In the end of Cheers when his face glitches out for a brief moment when talking to Scarab seems concerning. It could be caused by the glitches our ‘normal’ touch that Fionna and Cake accidentally cause to objects and people across multiple universes ? Or the tear/crack like injury Prismo gets on his arm when he breaks out of Scarabs Cube Container? Or as a result of his grief over Jake’s death? (Or perhaps a combination all three ?).
For a non F&C Adventure Time question there might be a chance we get to learn more about Jake’s backstory in the prequel spinoff series ‘Side Quests’ would that be something you’d like to see ?
Also what’s your favourite kingdom in the series and/or what’s a location you’d like to see more of in the future?
YAY whoever these got damn anons are thank you im so normal
i dont really . have any Predictions of what i think Would happen with him but i think theyre at least gonna bring him back like hes at least gonna be in there . i think the face glitch thing is definitely gonna be explained in the next season like you cant just randomly flip his face upside down for a second and never bring it up again yk . i dont really have any theories of what it could be from yet theres not really much to go off of yet .
okay this is the first time i have heard of them makign a prequel spinoff holy shit . first of all so fucking excited for that what . 2nd YES DEAR GOD on my hands and knees pendleton ward please more jake backstory please pl
basic ass answer but candy kingdom ... its so interesting in so many different ways imnot gonna get into all my thoughts about it right now though . and id love to learn/see more about the human island from the islands miniseries like howd their culture develop ? how does their society generally function ? do they still have religions ?? how is the economy . much to be asked about it
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