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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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i like to play and drawww
#same as last post. au belongs to ford_owner#but i dont want to tag him again. shy#was just supposed to be a doodle before bed but then i colored them#i kind of deviated from the holy book w/ sanjis design a bit forgive me... i am not immune to stained fingers and heart tail and heart hoof#wtf... art#one piece fanart#roronoa zoro#zoro#sanji#black leg sanji#sanzo#zosan
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Been four years, time for this again.
With the trajectory these redraws are going, Merlin and Gwaine are going to end up just,,, making out. Full on sloppy style right in front of Arthur.
And honestly? Good for them they deserve it lmao
#bbc merlin#merlin#merwaine#merthur#arthur pendragon#sir gwaine#ot3#redraw#re watched “Gwaine” recently and the heart eyes they all have for each other#Arthur vouching for a man he's know for like two days max against a knight he's apparently been friends with since his childhood#Merlin being sad eyes and telling Gwaine he thinks he's fun and he's going to miss him when he leaves#Both of them recognizing his fighting style and being excited that he's there at the melee :3#It's Gwaine my Good Friend Gwaine he's here I Love my Good Friend Gwaine whom I've known for three days he's my Favorite Guy :) :) :)#Says merthur#Gwaine very famously being Anti Nobility but risking his life anyway for Arthur#and then literally just about every damn interaction he has with Merlin period#which in his defense isn't his fault because that's just the Merlin Effect but still. Gwaine is Not Immune.#anyway fuck these guys <3
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Every day I’m haunted by the fact the boys happily swim in sewer water
Even if it’s filtered somehow there’s no way it’s not still nasty 😭 Bet they can defeat any of their villains just by accidentally giving them diseases I swear
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#bless their hearts but they’re nasty#it’s funny because like#each and every one of them has moments#where they’re a typical disgusting teenage boy#and then the next they have STANDARDS#can’t blame Leo for being so determined to go to a spa#even if he nearly licked his own foot that’s prob cleaner than anything else the boys have been up to in years 💀#thank you shelldon for all your hard work cleaning after then 🙏#they’re all gross teenage boys!!!#even Donnie he is NO exception here#bro was DRINKING A BEVERAGE while wading through sewer water he is just as gross as his bros#bro also talks with his mouth full he is no more refined than his equally gross bros fr and I love it#but yeah no way that water isn’t disgusting even filtering it would still leave grime on the walls of the sewer for yearsss#pros of them moving into an abandoned subway system is fixing their sense of smell enough to not be as gross#100% that’s part of why they didn’t mind being so filthy pre shelldon#because I mean they were literally raised in the sewers and they’re teenage boys like that’s a double whammy#THEY ALSO DONT WEAR SHOES#the few times any of them do the shoes are discarded before heading home 💀#I love them tho they are endearing anyhow#April’s immune system must be godlike just being around them fr#honestly no joke Mikey’s probably the cleanest of them all#just by virtue of being a chef#Leo I see as a mixture since he no doubt loves to pamper himself so he’s clean like#a percentage of time before he goes out and ruins his own hard work#Donnie is similar in that he’s just VERY SELECTIVE about what he thinks is too gross#Raph may be more on the stinky end but it’s not his fault he has his stinks and eats things of dubious origin(esp since his bros ate poison)#Donnie and Leo really have the gall to be sick about Raph eating the origami salami but they have no room to talk#all their villains are prob like please stay away from us we have salmonella now
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i already posted this on twitter a good bit ago but this is the only finished drawing i have of hotguy !!
of course hotguy design and au by the wonderful @kitsuneisi and @xmaruu11
#ddvau fanart#ddvau hotguy#ddvau#kitsuneisi#double hearted#double hearted fanart#you are not immune to the goodtimes#goodtimeswithscar fanart#goodtimeswithscar#metalkaloids art
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Ah the dangers of heroism
Absolutely in love with the Desert Duo Vigilante AU that @kitsuneisi and @xmaruu11 have made as well as their epic designs
(Less shaded news version under the cut)
#hotguy#cuteguy#grian#goodtimeswithscar#digital art#fanart#art#fandom#double hearted#grian cuteguy#grian fanart#ddvau#ddvau fanart#ddvau hotguy#ddvau cuteguy#goodtimewithscar fanart#you are not immune to the goodtimes#mcytblr#hermitblr#doomed yaoi
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Sighs
#aixen art#fan art#art#our life#olba#our life beginnings & always#baxter ward#baxter#our life Baxter#I am not immune to monochrome man that will inevitably break my heart#trying really hard to get back into art but :(#I’m burnt out
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i think he's really funny
#dgs#ryuunosuke naruhodou#mine#grown ass man#his immune system must be crazy to be downing a whole bottle of pills in one go i always think about that like. he's not ok#relatively normal characters that are just some guy but theyre also in denial of how quirky they are. heart <3#that first one was like from february. og hater
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I like Langworth cuz you can tell that Edgeworth has a type™ and that Lang meets Edgeworth, who's running on like 3 hours of sleep and might be slightly concussed and is arguably having the second worst week of his life, and thought "smash".
#ace attorney#ace attorney investigations#aai#miles edgeworth#shi long lang#langworth#Lang revoking Alba's diplomatic immunity made Edgeworths heart flutter
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One thing people forget about Joshua Graham is that he’s just casually immune to all drugs.
He doesn’t give any explanation beyond that one line. He was just genetically engineered to be the perfect Mormon, I guess.
#you could interpret it as his pain not responding to med-x or whatever but he says I’M immune#and makes it sound like it was pre-hoover dam when he found this out#also the legion bans all drugs and most medicine so idk how he even discovered this#without being a huge hypocrite#i love fallout characters who are just cryptids#fallout new vegas#new vegas#fnv#honest hearts#joshua graham#fonv#fallout nv
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before we realized
#kingdom hearts#khgraphics#khgifs#my graphics#sorikai#i spent an actual eternity looking for the right lyric to go with this set#in the end i picked a line from When We Were Young by Adele#i am not immune to melancholic adele#also i had wanted to include a gif of their kh3 appearances#but wouldn't you know it there isn't any footage of them together :)#ask me how i feel about it :))))
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thinking about vex’s feelings about saving vax and these quotes from this webweave i did a while ago
like i was already just chewing on these but ESPECIALLY after laura mentioning on 4sd that she hopes the raven queen will just . give him back . i’ll literally be just chilling and then bang. vex’ahlia de rolo character of all time shoots through my head like an arrow . thinking about keyleth saying “i don’t even want to hope” versus vex insisting they can’t lose hope. vex playing the realist and the pragmatist on the surface who knows things always have a cost or a cruelty but also always having her hopeful heart under it. vex who helped in a resurrection ritual for her brother but chose to speak with his god instead of with vax himself. vex who could confess her feelings to percy when it was a matter of calling him back to life but when he was alive she hid behind excuses that it would be awkward and the timing was wrong all the whilst carrying a bow with the echo of his words carved into its wood. she is sO.
and the way she refers to their aim. occasionally suggesting theyre saving vax and the ambiguity leaving space for Hope that she might get her brother back, but then other times just saying “get him out of there/the orb” what if i died. what if vex was a character with such consistent traits arduously grounded in her backstory, her relationships, and the events she encountered throughout the campaign that it killed me. what then
#vex’ahlia#tonight’s 4sd was incredibly silly and genuinely lightened my heart after a Hard day with the silliness of it#but nothing is immune to making me rot about vex#vex’ahlia de rolo#critical role#cr1#cr3#vax & vex#laura bailey
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Barnaby just whimpering outside as Howdy is working, poor pupper give him some love!
denied
#howdy is immune to the puppy eyes i think#hes got that stone cold capitalist heart smh#maybe a pickup line would work better...#*barnaby voice* i dont need dignity i need caterpillar kisses#rambles from the bog#scribble salad#laughingstock
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do u guys ever think abt how the fandom blaming mabel and/or ford (this applies to other characters too but i mostly see it with them) for Everything is exactly what bill would’ve wanted. like it’s not his fault for tricking them, it’s their fault for falling for it
bill is the villain here - he’s the manipulator and the abuser and the one who wanted Bad Things To Happen. but somehow all the blame ends up falling on the shoulders of the people he used as unwitting pawns to achieve that goal
in fanfic & stuff i think a lot of this comes down to the fact that it’s easier to “punish” the human characters - they have loved ones and dreams and aspirations, and taking that away from them leads to more of an emotional impact than anything you could possibly do to bill. sure, you can kill him, send him to prison, make him do therapy, whatever, but he doesn’t have anything. there’s nothing you can take away from him that he hasn’t already taken from himself. as messed up as it is i think people just find it more satisfying to hurt someone who actually has a weak point, even if that person isn’t the one really at fault
anyways. idk i just think bill would really get a kick out of seeing people sympathize with him more than they do his victims
#tbob & the fandom’s response to it is truly peak ‘you are not immune to propaganda’#anyways the stuff abt not being able to punish bill is hyperbolic for the sake of making a point#i have seen some really incredible works abt him actually having to /think/ about his actions and what he did in therapy#but a lot of people just treat bill doing therapy as him just sitting there like ‘yeah whatever’ and not really taking any of it to heart#which i think is also a lot more accurate to his character BUT again there are ways to make him face consequences#it’s just. harder to write than turning to a human character and going ‘ok this is ur fault so ur family doesn’t love u anymore !!’#am i making sense. yet again i am losing it over blorbos#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#bill gravity falls#gravity falls bill#bill cipher gravity falls#twoa.txt
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May I offer you a hastily drawn picture to wish you a good get-through-the-week? :3
HELLO ??????? HELLO hot gluing this to my eyes IMMEDIATELY thank you so much i feel myself becoming stronger already
#fave#'snap i thought you were sleeping' i am not immune to notifications AND I AM REWARDED GREATLY#snap chats#that parks and rec meme You Know The One i havent stopped staring at this for the past five hours <- its been twenty minutes#PLEAAASSE this is so cute omg thank you so much .... ill cherish this until i die and even then ill continue to cherish it in death#PRECISELY the vision i had earlier you get it ......... im OBSESSED#will have to save this to my phone and refer to it like a sailor lost at sea missing his wife#BOTH wives even .... woAh ......#i dont wanna post this cause i just wanna keep lookign at it whenever i open my inbox. like i need this stapled In My Inbox#we'll do the next best thing il'l print it once i can ....... motivation to not fumble these next few weeks and life tbh#AAA THANK YOU AGAIN MY FRIEND for ALL you do. i STILL have to check the drive you updated i saw that vjLEKJEAJ#a morning endeavor surely ..... for now i bid you good night and a heart Thank You for the nineteenth time !!!!!!!!!#I JUST KEEP SCROLLING BACK UP TO LOOK AT IT PLEAAAASSSEEE ok im gonna sleep FOR REAL NOW#GOOD NIGHT and thank you once more !!!!!! i love it sm .......
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