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So I just discover your Chaotic-Natural Mabel au and I really like it and curious on how the au will be like.
But also question, How do you think Chaotic-Natural Mabel would react if Bill did something really messed up, like ripping out the metal plating out of Fords head and not letting him die because that would be boring. Or just Bill doing really messed up stuff like find out the living furniture made out human skin are actually people, that Bill turn them into because he though it would be funny, and are now in constant agony and are begging to Mabel to kill them so their suffering can end.
How do you think Mabel would react to that or ?
Anyway I hope you have a day!
Mabel learns to compromise. Bill Complies to more than he'd like to.
#real fans know Amorphous Shape is invisible here cuz she's only visible to Bill 8-ball and guys on DMT#i tried to make this comic less crappy#but i REALLY wanted to get this out so sorry if some stuff still looks bad#also the first panel is kinda wild so sorry for that#gf#gravity falls#gravity falls au#MY ART WOO#chaotic-neutral Mabel au#ask#guys i'm stupid cuz why did amorphous shape's dialogue say âwhy are not you with the othersâ#im very sick today okay#i can't be held responsible for my actions /j
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woke up. lizard on pillow. like i opened my eyes and he was beside me and staring at me. lil green-brown fella. tongue like :p. he was the length of my pinky finger. as soon as i reached for him he scuttled away out of reach and vanished behind my bed.
literally lived a g/t first meeting this morning so thats cool
#i have to go on a six hour drive today and id rather die tbh#im soooo sick rn. i dont wanna go. but id feel bad abt missing my cousins wedding#abyways ill b okay. lets discuss the lizard more#he was very cute and very small#i did think he was dead at first and almost yelled
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pain so bad I woke up 2 hours ago and haven't been able to sleep again and I have work today :(
#i feel. so sick#i think im gonna stop w these meds i cant handle it anymore and its not making anything better#and its been 2 months now thats long enough probably#im so tired its making me stupid i keep crying over everything#being in pain so much makes me feel like a shitty friend & person in general sometimes bc i dont have the mental energy or resources to#be the person i want to be. like not in an anxious way its just so frustrating to not be able to live up to my own standards#and ik the ppl in my life are understanding of that & ive been shown far more empathy than i even deserve and im very grateful for that#but im tired of having to let myself down all the time i dont have endless patience and its just so fucking hard.#and it might perpetually be like this. which is near impossible to come to fucking terms with so im trying not to think abt it#god i dont want to work today. ill see how shit i feel when i get up qnd maybe ill call in sick#ough. wish i didnt feel so alone with this i could rly go for some comfort rn its a shame i cant ask anyone for anything#anyway vent over itll be okay. got a few other pain management strats to try over the next month im not at the end of the line yet#and yeah ill stop taking these meds. hoping i can fall back asleep soon im so shattered man#.vent
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Held my classmateâs hand today and he kissed me!
#well. perhaps more accurate to say. he held my hand and kissed me. but he asked for permission for both. and that made me happy.#Iâve been having the cognitive dissonance where I felt soâŚill? over the thought of kissing or holding hands and him thinking me gross.#Iâve genuinely been sick to my stomach with anxiety while together even though Iâm having fun and feel safe. the thought of trying to#initiate anything frightened me. and it created this block too where even though we are dating I didnât feel like he was my boyfriend or#partner. even though heâs called me his girlfriend and has spoken about us living together and more. but I just kept thinking. I canât even#do this simply thing. I canât ask to hold his hand#how could he like me after that. well. today I had pretty well and truly decided k would try my damnedest to work through it and be#intimate in some way because I knew we were going to a bar to drink and I needed Dutch courage. I drank. I became more confident. I leaned#in real close and we rubbed arms and I made strong eye contact andâŚI realized I needed to sober up to drive home. so I kinda pulled back.#and thought that was that. he kept drinking and indeed drank more than he intended. nothing insane but more inebriated than Iâve ever seen.#so on the drive home weâre chatting and heâs a little flirty and im embarrassed. and he holds out his hand to allow me to hold his. so i do#and I get flustered and embarrassed and he tells me how to hold hands and lets me just hold his hand on the drive home and I enjoy it and#he brushes the inside of my arm. we get a late dinner and he sobers up a bit. and he holds my hand some more. and we get to his house and#I get out of the car to hug him goodbye and he asks if I want anything more and I say yes. so he kisses my check. and he asks if I want#anything more. and I say yes. so he kisses my lips. I tell him I donât know how to kiss and he says thatâs okay. very chaste. low pressure.#encouraging. I almost felt like crying in a good way. and it turned me on like crazy. like. Iâve never had this reaction to anybody. ever.#I was stunned. and embarrassed.
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bf says ive been going thru it and doing really well at that. bursts into tears.
#im like a toddler that needs a nap except ive badly needed a nap every minute of every day for a week because covid#and im trying really hard#im actually really okay. i don't have my first math test for another week and two days and if i did terrible on#the bio test today my lowest test grade gets dropped and it's okay. it's okay. it's okay.#i am recovering and working and in a class that is very hard for me and i miss simon so bad. i was too tired to drive last weekend#and couldn't go the one prior to that bc covid obviously#it's okay it's okay it's okay#also im getting the depo provera shot in november. i'm fully over it#also the fatigue is getting better by the day. it's okay. it's okay#getting the shot. seeing si on friday. my math prof is very kind and understands that i'm struggling and wants to help. fatigue is getting#better. turns out i don't have work tomorrow. im gonna play valo w seity sometime soon that will be SO fun.#new comfy desk chair. im gonna put something on and work thru my math hw and submit questions without feeling bad about it#it's okay it's okay it's okay it's okay. im being sooo brave.#he also said it's insane that i've had to work this week because i'm very much still symptomatic. it got me really good this time#the initial sickness wasn't nearly as severe as the last time i had covid but this one is more drawn out#im still having sinus symptoms/pain on top of the fatigue. cried in my car both days that i worked đ it's okay. it's okay
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there are two wolves inside of you: one feels impending doom at the thought of tomorrowâs race. the other feels immensely hopeful that oscar will get his first win tomorrow or at the very least a mclaren 1-2. you are a formula one fan.
#iâm literally about to fucking throw up#this race doesnt even start for another 8 hours but i feel actually sick#like this is keeping me up#(yes i have a TOTALLY normal and healthy relationship with this sport)#you guys literally dont even understand the ways of which i need oscar to get his first win tomorrow#like i can literally feel it in my bones i just KNOW he can do it#like i know he can and i really feel like tomorrow is the day for it#however i am very very scared that the more i keep thinking about it and saying it the more i am jinxing it#like iâm literally imagining everything that could possibly go wrong#but iâm also beautifully imagining the way that oscar is going to get a perfect start and overtake lando (so sorry lando)#and build a big enough gap to where he can win the race#i need the mclaren pitwall to lock the fuck in today like i am nowhere near joking when i say i will start hysterically sobbing#if they fuck it up#alternatively i will start hysterically sobbing if oscar/lando wins so really theres no winning for me in that sense#but also i cannot even imagine the amount of pressure that both lando and oscar must be under right now#like i do not know how they do it because imagining it is further making me sick#me when i develop an anxious attachment style to two drivers and also an entire sport#lol#didnt have that on my 2024 bingo#anyway so im lraying to fucking god that the race goes okay because otherwise im killing myself#and i think i am perfectly valid in saying that#im also getting lunch with my two other friends who watch f1 a few hours after the race tomorrow#so regardless the race is going to be talked about but it will very much vary oh whether or not its good or bad#anyway im going to stop talking about this now because ive been doing nothing but talking about it all day#and i like genuinely need to shut the fuck up#SO i am going to hopefully go to sleep#weâll see how this ends up going for me#lacey talks
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#UNDER THE CUT- images that have been making me giggle all fucking day#so i tried to microdose and i fucked up#todays been a blur#but a productive one#got chores donw#todays the first day of my writers group so im gonna hopefully write tonight#post office didnt pan out but thats okay#its been so hot#so very hot#hot to the point of feeling sick to my tummy#blech#hoping tonight is a calm one :p#pavi talking
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#vent#tw for surgery mention !#dont need to read lol i am fucking scattered rn just#soo i majorly fucked up my timing with preops.#my top surgery is next TUESDAY. I have to be in the hospital on MONDAY.#and today my GP told me my labs are bad (blood+urogoly) and she needed another ecg but the doctor there can only take me tomorrow at 12#my gp is in officeo nly until 1 pm and i dont know if she can see me tomorrow after the ecg (same building so no trouble traveling)#cant call her because she was already out of office because i had the fucking time. so i scheduled an email in case i wake up later#left my phone number so i can be called if its after 9:30 bc i will not have internet then#im majorly panicking because i may have to reschedule my top surgery#lot of intrusive thoughts right now. like a fucking lot. i don't remember last time they have been this bad.#i dont really know what to do. i feel so sick#the gp told me she would hope i wont have to reschedule but im so terrified i have to#this is SO last minute as well? i don't know if the doctor who i talked to about my surgery will even be available after my appointment#and i dont think she does weekends so like i will likely have to turn in on monday mornign and tell her i have to reschedule if the surgery#isnt safe for me#and this is very much my fault because im not fucking competent in taking care of myself#âits okay because i dont faintâ yeah well i fucking guess i was wrong
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Took a picture of myself with my new plant and now i feel like the fattest mf on EARTH whyyyyyyyyy
#like i look huge itâs not even funny.#ive been lying to myself that im like. doing ok.#bc my bmi is 21.5#which is gross btw. like. whatever.#but becaude itâs technically very healthy ive been trying to be okay with it.#but i cannot take it snymore. genuinely.#my entire body feels huge and horrible. i regret my food choices today.#i want to relapse like to the extreme and get back to my lw like all i want is to still be that bmi.#like i KNOW i was miserable. but at least i didnt weigh this fucking much.#like if i keep gaining weight iâll be ??????? SO SO SO huge????#im just terrified of weighing myself and being over 60 kg.#like i dont think iâd survive.#it sounds so dramatic but i feel sick thinking ablut it.#all i want is to be 45 kg again. genuinely wtf have i been doing trying to recover.
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#okay so they told me to go home because it would be a long time before i could see archie#so im home#but like currently feeling sick AF#like migraine is coming back#yes it IS definitely because i didnt eat or drink today and havent stopped clenching my jaw#and im shivering?? even though it is very warm#and i still feel like im gonna vom dot com!#so there's that!#but im happy archie is being taken care of!
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oofa doofa the imposter syndrome is kicking my ass today for some reason I have so many ideas in my head butfor some reason today my brain is like "nope cant do any of em ur a fool and a dummy and why are you wasting time"
so I forced myself to buy the stuff I need for my chii wig so now im excited for that to come in to start working on her but good lord I gotta get back on my schedule grind., I think leaving myself this entire week without a daiuly schedule and getting tasks done Im starting to preemptivly panic that im gonna fall apart again
but no! we shant! I merely gave myself a few days to come back out of vacation mode and get some rest since ive been sick its okay! we will be back to regularly schedule programming by tomorrow!
#angelic bitching#itll be okay I just feel spooked cause ive been very lazy the past few days but ive also been stupid sick#and now that im not sick today the GUILT HAS COME TO GET ME
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i need some motivation to do shit, so like... notes thingy i guess
100 notes - water consumption for the body. marching band season made me realize i dont drink enough fucking water out here. (alright, i guess i need water now... I WAS DRINKING TEA EARLIER. THATS CLOSE ENOUGH, RIGHT??)
200 notes - food consumption, i guess. i'll try to eat 3 full meals a day. enough to make my body full and stuff. (gods dammit. well, i already ate breakfast and lunch, and i have leftovers from lunch, so, i guess dinner's all set for me.)
300 notes - homework completion. i've been lacking in my homework game, and i definitely need to improve it this semester. (...i'll start my chem homework tomorrow since saturdays are my rest days, okay??? MOST OF MY WEEKEND HOMEWORK IS DONE BUT THANKS FOR CARING, CHAT)
400 notes - writing hobby. i need motivation to write lore for my dnd campaign (#runaway ruler dnd / #convict ruler dnd / #ruined ruler dnd universe if you want to follow along my shitposting for that) (i already started shitposting for runaway ruler again, so check it out. I WILL WRITE LORE FOR EACH ARC DONT WORRY IM JUST BARELY GETTING STARTED ON THE SECOND ARC SINCE ITS VERY LONG)
500 notes - animation gift. i'm making a little valentine's gift for my spouses, and it's gonna be 1:34 seconds long... I need motivation to actually animate lmao. (i'll do bits and pieces throughout the week. don't worry, i plan to figure this out [i haven't animated in months, and even then i barely scratched the animation surface])
1000 notes - script memorization. i uh... need to memorize my silly little script for a production coming up in a month. im performing in front of kids so like... the script's pretty short and easy. im the antagonist in my cast >:]. (sick, let's go. i love myself some memorization.)
2000 notes - chest binder shopping. i'll ask my parents if i can get a chest binder. ive been meaning to get one for myself for some time now. im getting desperate for one. (i suppose i'll ask today or tomorrow... or over the weekend- that's when most of the shopping happens, anyways.)
3000 notes - leaving the closet. i'll come out to the rest of my family that i'm trans, aromantic, all the nine yards about my lgbtq+ identities. i'll definitely have to schedule a good day to do that. (HELLO??? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?? OKAY FINE I'LL FIGURE OUT A DAY. I'LL COME BACK TO YOU WITH THAT-)
4000 notes - researching possible colleges across my state and outside my state. because i wanna get out of here.
5000 notes - order a suit. preferably black or purple. because i need more gender affirming clothes in the formal department.
EDIT: do however many notes you want. i know i said 10 notes per person earlier, but like... go wild i guess
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reckless | jjk

pairing: idol!jungkook x producer!reader
word count: 3.8k
tropes: idol!jungkook, producer!reader, established relationship, childhood best friends
rating: pg
warnings: smooches!!, jungkookâs being very touchy <3, smoking, lots of pda, one (1) butt squeeze, lots of teasing n flirting (they're in love ur honour), mentions of jk being on a diet, mentions of oc being bullied in the past, just soft lovesick jk <3
summary: a casual date, the skirtâs a little too short, the night a little too quiet, and jungkook's hands on you like he's never going to let go.
a/n: writing this was so therapeutic im this đ¤ close to breaking no contact â¤ď¸ (also dare i say this is the maybe in another universe couple <3)
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When you round the corner of the building, itâs not hard to find Jungkook.
Heâs leaned against his Harley, dark clothes hanging easy on him, making him blend into the night. He has a faint frown on his face as he scans the empty street, toying with his lip ring like heâs lost in thought.
Once he spots you, though, everything softens. His eyes go all boba-round and warm, crinkling at the corners as a smile stretches across his face. That stupid pretty one that makes your chest feel full. He straightens up a little.
âSorry for making you wait,â you say when you reach him, rising on your toes to wrap your arms around his neck. You hug him tightly. You melt into him without thinking. His hands naturally land on the small of your back, holding you close in his embrace.
âItâs okay, baby.â Jungkook leans back just enough to press a little kiss to your lips.
One of his hands dip even lower, brushing over the curve of your butt and the light fabric of your skirt. It doesnât take long before he grazes bare skin, catching just the edge where the hem ends and you begin.
âHow did it go?â he asks.
âOh, it was so fun!â you beam, hands coming together in an excited little clap in front of your chest. You bounce slightly.
It had been a long day filming at one of the major companies in Seoul, part of that new show about the behind-the-scenes process of producing k-pop songs. The set was huge â too many lights, too many people, and so many cameras that you couldnât even look around without feeling watched.
Everything felt loud and fast and intimidating, like you were going to mess up just by standing there.
âI was still really nervous in the beginning because there were a lot of people, but I did what you told me over the phone this morning and reminded myself that just being there already meant I belonged. That in a little while this would be just another thing that Iâve overcome.â
Dare you mention that just this morning, you felt like throwing up at the thought of todayâs schedule â and yet, somehow, it turned into something you ended up loving. Getting to work on something youâre genuinely passionate about, surrounded by new people who love it just as much as you, felt amazing, inspiring.
âI told you it wouldnât be as bad. You wanted to call in sick,â Jungkook reminds you, teasing you with an arched brow.
âI felt so anxious this morning!â
âYou underestimate what youâre capable of.â
âAnyways.â Your shoulders slump slightly. âIâm exhausted now.â
âWe can just go to my place if you want.â He gently tucks your hair behind your ear, cupping your cheek.
âNo. I wanna go to the Han River with you,â you say, lips tugging into a pout.
Jungkook grabs the collar of his hoodie and pulls it over his head. A glimpse of his toned abdomen flashes before his black tee falls back into place. He swings the hoodie around your waist, draping it carefully before tying it snug at the front.
âCanât drive my bike in a short skirt like this,â he explains in a mumble, smoothing the hoodie down over your butt.
âYou helped me pick out this outfit this morning.â
If youâd been left alone in your anxious spiral this morning, you probably wouldâve just thrown on whatever comfy thing was closest. But after Jungkook talked you down over the phone, his voice all soft and steady, you felt a little more okay. Okay enough to want to feel pretty, at least. So you stood in front of your overflowing closet, doors hanging open, letting him help you pick something out over facetime.
âYeah well. You look pretty. I wasnât thinking about logistics.â
You roll your eyes, but your face warms anyway. âYouâre the logistics.â
âSue me for getting distracted.â He pecks your temple, grinning as he pulls back.
Then he crouches next to the Harley, lifting the seat to reveal a small storage compartment. With a bit of manoeuvring, he pulls out a black helmet, matching his own.
He turns back to you and holds it out like itâs something delicate. âCâmere,â he murmurs, brushing your hair back gently before slipping the helmet over your head and securing the strap under your chin.
âToo tight?â he murmurs, adjusting the strap with the pads of his fingers.
You shake your head.
He grabs his own helmet from the handlebar, slipping it on with practiced ease. The engine rumbles to life with a twist of his wrist, loud and steady. He swings one leg over the bike and settles in before turning to glance at you over his shoulder. He holds his hand out to you.
âHop on, baby.â
You take his hand, grabbing his shoulder with your other one for leverage as you climb on behind him. Your hands move to circle his middle once youâre properly sitting.
âYou good?â He cranes his neck back to you, looking you over.
âYes,â you reply, hugging his back. âDrive safely, please.â
The engine hums beneath you, the vibration slipping through your legs and settling in your chest as Jungkook coaxes the Harley onto the road.
The wind rushes past in silky ribbons, threading through your hair and curling under your skirt, making you curl closer into his back. His hoodie sways around your legs, and his scent, clean laundry and the last bit of cologne clinging to his skin, fills your lungs. You rest your cheek against the strong curve of his back.
Seoul twinkles around you in bits and pieces, like someone sprinkled glitter across the skyline. Streetlights blink down like stars with somewhere to be.
At a red light, Jungkook reaches for your hand without even looking, like itâs second nature. His fingers find yours and give them a slow, reassuring squeeze that makes your chest flutter. Then his hand drifts upward, trailing a lazy path along your arm before slipping behind him. His touch lands on your thigh, gently brushing his thumb over your skin. Itâs just a small stroke, but enough to send a little spark dancing up your spine.
Eventually, the buildings thin out, replaced by the open stretch of the Han River, glistening under the cityâs glow. Jungkook rolls into a quiet patch near the railing and cuts the engine.
âMy mum would kill me if she knew I was riding a bike with you,â you say.
Jungkook huffs a laugh as he slips off his helmet. With a little shake of his head his hair falls back into place. âMy mum would kill me for letting you ride it with me.â He turns slightly to look at you, flashing his soft dimple as he reaches to unclip your helmet.
âAnd yet,â you retort as he helps lift it off your head, âhere we are.â
âReckless,â he grins, brushing your hair back into place. âBut cute.â
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After a quiet walk along the river, you settle onto a bench facing the water.
âI even got a bit of the lyrics done for the song we finished producing,â you say, tucking your hands into your sleeves
Jungkook hums, slinging his arm over the back of the bench and letting it rest behind your shoulders, pulling you closer. âYou need to let me listen to it.â
âIâm not giving you the song.â
âAh, itâs always worth a try.â
âIâll start working with you when you guys are over this...era of music youâre in right now.â
âEra of music?â Jungkook scoffs. âYou find new words how to describe the fact that you donât like the new music every time.â
âThatâs not what I meant,â you whine, falling into his teasing. âItâs not that I donât like the new music. Itâs just not my type of production,â you quickly defend, truthful.
âAt least let me listen to it.â
âWhen Iâm finished you can.â
He lets out a small groan. âIâm terrible at being patient.â
âOh, I know. Donât have to remind me.â Heâs an impatient boyfriend disguised as your number one fan (which, letâs be honest, he is). Always acting like heâs not trying that hard â when really, heâs the most obvious about it.
You roll your eyes every time he launches into a totally casual, totally unplanned, âhey, wanna show me a little something?â but you love it, every time. You love the way he sneaks into your world like that. Softly, stubbornly.
The sneaky bribes, the casual shoulder nudges, the way he tries to coax you into playing something, anything, even if itâs unfinished. Even if itâs messy. Even if itâs just a late night, the two of you curled up on the couch, guitar perched on your lap, him humming half-written lyrics with his knees touching yours and a smile tucked into his voice. Songs that only live between you two.
âIâll show it later to you,â you finally say. Thereâs not much of a fight when it comes to Jungkook. âMissed you.â You rest your head on his shoulder, hugging his arm.
âWe should do something before my schedule gets crazy again.â Jungkook pats down his front pockets. He pulls out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. âLike a small vacation?â
âIâd love that.â
You eye him as he slips a cigarette between his lips, cupping the flame with one hand as he lights it. The cigarette glows at the tip, smoke curling past his cheekbones and drifting in the opposite direction as he tilts his head to avoid blowing it your way. You still wrinkle your nose and lean your head away, your clutch around his arm loosening.
âYouâre buying me ice cream for smoking next to me,â you mutter, half playful, half serious.
He exhales to the side again, then flicks the ash off the end with a small grin. âI was already gonna.â
You give him a look. âNot the point.â
âI know.â He tilts his head toward you, eyes tracing your face like heâs trying to read something only he can see.
When you saw Jungkook smoke for the first time while he was waiting for you in the dark, after not seeing each other for a very long time, you felt something twist in your chest. A mix of anger, sadness, and the sick realisation that time had changed him in ways you hadn't been there to see.
It messed you up a bit. Realising he changes in little ways when you're not around to witness it. It made you wonder if he's still the same Jungkook you've always known. If he's still your Jungkook.
Upon talking with him the entire night you quickly came to the realisation that Jungkook will be as much yours as you're as much his for the rest of your lives.
Maybe not in loud, dramatic ways, but in the quiet constants.
There is no version of your life where he doesn't exist - you're too intertwined with each other.
You sigh, the slightest hint of annoyance seeping through, but your fingers find his again anyway, slipping between them. Heâs warm, even with the breeze coming off the water. The smoke lingers in the air between you, but his scent cuts through it â familiar, stupidly comforting.
âI say we go on a weekend trip to Jeju,â Jungkook says, his gaze fixed ahead.
Your head pops up. âThat seafood restaurant,â you gasp, eyes widening.
He watches you, smiling at your excitement.
âWe have to go,â you say, tugging his arm. âI still think about that abalone porridge from that tiny place by the harbour, you remember? With the old lady who called us lovebirds.â
âHow could I not?â Jungkook laughs. âShe told me to marry you or someone else would.â
You laugh too. âShe wasnât wrong.â
Jungkook snorts, flicking the half-smoked cigarette away and stubbing it out under his shoe. He turns back to you, and you feel his finger brush over your ring finger â it's a subtle, fleeting touch, but you wouldnât dare miss it.
âI wouldnât ever let that happen.â He leans in, catching you in a warm kiss.
âI love you,â you murmur against his lips, then pull back slightly. âBut donât kiss me after youâve just smoked.â
Jungkook sighs like youâve wounded him. Dramatically. Then he leans back in, peppering kisses along your cheek, down the slope of your jaw, and onto your neck, ignoring your protests with every one.
âJungkook,â you warn through laughter, swatting at him half-heartedly. âWeâre not at home.â
âBut I still love you the same.â Itâs a gentle murmur against your neck, nuzzling the skin there before leaving one last kiss just below your jaw.
âJungkook.â
He finally pulls back, just enough to meet your eyes, and his teasing fades into something more softer, more quieter.
âI love the way you say my name.â
His mouth curves into the faintest smile, just slightly lifting the corner of his lips. But his eyes hold the sincerity behind his words, the soft glow of them making you feel like youâre the prettiest girl he has ever seen.
Every time Jungkook says this, youâre reminded of when you still wore uniforms and shared secrets in the quiet spaces between classes. When he said it for the first time, you thought he was poking fun at you like the others for pronouncing words differently because you grew up abroad, in the US.
He told you it sounded softer, rounder, like it meant something more when it came from you. He said it made him feel like someone safe. Someone yours.
He doesnât say it often, but every time he does, youâre reminded of the past. And a soft, nostalgic feeling settles in your chest at the memory of fifteen-year-old Jungkook and you falling in love for the first time. Itâs a bittersweet ache because when you think of that time, all you see is blue, but Jungkook was the one thing that still felt warm. Like hope tucked into a person.
And now, years later, even with everything youâve both grown through and grown out of, that version of him still lives in moments like this. In quiet confessions and shared glances.
Heat nestles in your cheeks. You look away â straight at the river with the twinkling lights reflecting off of it. They remind you of his eyes.
âWhat?â His voice carries a teasing lilt, like he canât quite place where your sudden shyness is coming from, but heâs definitely enjoying it.
âI dunno,â you mumble under your breath, hiding your face on his chest while keeping your eyes trained on the water. âI just get overwhelmed sometimes.â
âBy what?â
âBy how much I love you.â
âWanna know something?â
âHm?â
âI do too.â
You smile into his shirt, warmth blooming in your chest.
He presses a kiss to the crown of your head. âYou really know how to kill a man,â he murmurs, voice low and a little awed.
You look up at him at that.
âI love you more,â he says eventually, like itâs the simplest truth. âLike... stupid amounts. Heart-aching amounts.â
You giggle, nose scrunching. âYouâre so dramatic.â
âYou started it.â He peers down at you, eyes soft. âNow let me be in love with you in peace.â
âIâll let you love me in peace after we get snacks.â
âWill I ever witness a day where you donât want something sweet?â
âNuh-uh.â You shake your head with exaggerated seriousness. âThe day canât successfully end until youâve had a sweet treat.â
âI actually think youâre singlehandedly keeping the candy industry alive.â
âI should be thanked, honestly.â
You rise to your feet, brushing invisible dust off your skirt as you stand in front of him. Jungkook doesnât move right away. His eyes trail down to your legs, then to the hem of your skirt, fingers reaching out to tug it just a little lower with that automatic protectiveness he tries (and fails) to hide.
âYouâre not cold, baby?â he asks, nodding toward his hoodie tossed over the bench behind him.
âNo, Iâm okay.â
Still sitting, he tugs you gently by the hips until youâre standing between his knees. His hands find your waist like magnets, thumbs stroking slow circles against the sliver of skin where your top has ridden up.
âI like this spot,â he murmurs, leaning in to press a soft kiss to your stomach, right above your belly button. You flinch a little, giggling, fingers slipping into his thick hair.
âYouâre such a menace,â you say, voice light, but you donât pull away.
âAnd youâre so pretty,â he says, looking up at you from where heâs still crouched against your tummy. His eyes are warm, sparkling. âLike... dangerously pretty. You know that?â
You bite your lip. âStop.â
âIâm serious.â He rests his chin just above your waistband, arms looping around the back of your thighs like heâs not letting go anytime soon. âSometimes I think youâre not even real.â
You roll your eyes, trying to hold back your smile. âThatâs what people say right before they do something stupid.â
He grins up at you, squeezes your thigh just enough to make you squeak. âThen I must be about to do something really stupid.â
âI feel like thatâs something for home. Not public.â
âYou think so?â He tilts his head slightly.
âJungkook.â Itâs meant to be a chiding. But instead, it escapes softer than you intended, more like a puff of air. Like we shouldnât but I wanna know anyway. Like stop talking... but actually, no â keep going please.
Instead of backing off like any reasonable person would, he smirks, then has the audacity to give your butt the lightest squeeze, fingers quick and shameless.
You squeal, jumping back. âJungkook!â
Flashing you a smile thatâs somehow both innocent and guilty, he casually grabs his hoodie from the bench and stands up.
You stare at him, half scandalized, half trying not to smile. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âCome on,â he says, slinging the hoodie over one shoulder glancing over at you with that smug softness that drives you crazy. âYou wanted snacks, no?â He grabs your hand.
You narrow your eyes, but your feet already fall into step beside his.
~
Itâs not a long walk until you reach the next convenient store.
âIt looks kinda busy in there,â you tell Jungkook, peering through the glass. âIâll just run in real quick. You can wait out here.â
Jungkook squints into the store, brows furrowed. âWhoâs in there? I donât want you going in alone if thereâs some creeps.â
You roll your eyes and nudge him with your elbow. âItâs just a group of girls. Relax,â you say. âWhat do you want?â
He pulls his black card from his pocket. âNothing for me. Just treat yourself, baby.â
You snatch the card from his hand. âDonât mind if I do.â
~
You exit the store with a slightly overstuffed plastic bag tugging at your wrist. Being a girl who loves snacks, is hopelessly indecisive â and has her boyfriendâs black card â is a dangerous combo.
Jungkook tilts his head, trying to sneak a look inside the bag. âWhatâd you get?â
âToo much to name,â you say breezily, fishing out the ice cream resting right on top. âGot this for us, though.â Itâs the ice cream that comes with two sticks so you can snap it in half and share. âI always think of you when I see this,â you admit, passing him one half after cracking it down in the middle.
âAh, I didnât want to eat any sweets today.â
âToo late,â you tease, nudging it closer to his mouth. âYou already kissed me, so thatâs off the table.â
He lets out a soft laugh. âThat counts?â
âIt absolutely does.â You raise your brows. âNow eat, please.â
He leans forward and takes a small bite straight from your hand. âHappy now?â
âVery much so.â You swipe the pad of your finger over a smudge of ice cream at the corner of his mouth, then lick it off with a grin.
He huffs a quiet laugh, head tilting as he watches you with that impossibly fond look. âYouâre trouble.â
âSays you!â
With a sigh, he takes it from you. âYouâre only getting away with this because youâre cute.â
âI know.â You smile around the ice cream in your mouth. âI canât have a boyfriend who says no to a sweet treat.â
You fall into step beside him, walking slowly as you both nibble at the halves in your hands.
âIâm dieting.â
âFor what?â
He doesnât answer, just shrugs, proving your point.
Thatâs when your mind slips, just a little, to all the ways you used to be like this. All the self-destructive habits he had to gently pry from your grip. Jungkook has saved you many times. And you want to be there for him just as much he was there for you when no one chose you. When he was the only one who saw you â really saw you â and still chose to stay.
You reach for his hand, linking your fingers through his.
âI feel like sometimes you live your life like itâs harder than it has to be. Like youâre holding yourself back, setting rules that you donât have to follow.â
Jungkook lets out a quiet breath. âI know,â he mutters, squeezing your hand. âYouâre the first person who made me think maybe I deserve ease too. You make it feel okay to slow down.â
âAm I?â you ask sceptically. You hope you do, but are you actually?
He tips his ice cream in your direction.
You laugh. âBaby steps.â
You glance up at him. Heâs licking his ice cream, a small smile pulling at the corners of his mouth like he doesnât even realize itâs there. It makes your chest ache a little. In that sweet way.
âJungkook?â
His head turns slightly, face lit soft by the golden glow of a nearby streetlamp. His eyes flick to you, a soft, curious glint catching in them as your gaze meets his. You lean your head against his arm.
âYeah?â
âThank you for sticking with me through every version of myself.â
Itâs a thought that catches you off guard â maybe not entirely, youâre not sure â but suddenly itâs there, clear and undeniable. A reminder that, through every change, every version of yourself, heâs never left. Whether youâve been at your best or your worst, heâs always stayed. And sometimes, itâs hard to wrap your mind around the fact that someone can love you through all of that.
âThereâs never been a version I didnât love,â he says quietly, like itâs not something he even has to think about.
Your heart stumbles a little, eyes stinging in that warm, fuzzy way that only he can cause.
âYou make it really easy, you know,â he adds, brushing his thumb gently across the back of your hand. âLoving you. I donât even think about it. I just do.â
You blink up at him, lips twitching into the kind of smile that only he gets to see. âI still donât know what I did to deserve you.â
He tugs you closer to him, your sides brushing with each step.
âYou existed.â
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terrible profilers



(aka the team meets early seasons!spence's not-so-secret girlfriend)
a/n: this came to me in my dream last night and i cannot get over it, pls send asks/requests and tell me what you thought! (look at '#mystery girl!au' on my blog to see more musings about them <3)
cw: USE OF Y/N IM SORRY reader has she/her pronouns, the team is nosy, reader is a phd student, my niche personal headcanons of how i think spencer would text, probably more tech inaccuracies
wc: 3.5k
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The moment Spencer walks into the bullpen, he knows somethingâs up. Garcia never replied to the text heâd sent on Friday night, and heâd hoped she was just busy on their first weekend off in a while, but itâs clear thereâs more. Clutching the strap of his satchel, he walks to his desk, observing the strange tension blanketing the room.
For one, Hotch and Gideon are in the bullpen, standing in the corner speaking in hushed tones. Weird. They usually go to one of their offices to talk, and either way, they usually are stuck in their offices until lunchtime when they donât have cases.
Another thing. JJ and Penelope are standing around Elleâs desk, which isnât out of the ordinary, but theyâve swivelled around to stare at Spencer like heâs an alien (which they do on occasion, but Spencer is pretty sure he hasnât been strange yet. He just walked in!).
Derek is sitting on Elleâs desk, leaning over to huddle with the three girls, but heâs frozen with his mouth open, like he just shut up for some reason.
âUh⌠Good morning.â Spencer furrows his brows, but tries to shrug it off, more interested in the smell of coffee emanating from the kitchenette. Setting down his bag, he quickly busies himself with pouring his signature overly-sweet (according to you) coffee.
Itâs like his movements snap a thread that has been holding his colleagues together, and they suddenly start bustling around the bullpen again. Derek sidles up beside him as heâs stirring in sugar, and Spencer braces himself for some Morgan-esque prod. But what he says has Spencer confused.
âKid. You know you can tell me anything, right?â
Ok, something is going on. Spencer has worked with Derek since he was 22, and theyâve fallen into a very comfortable dynamic ever since. But neither of them have ever felt the need to reassure the other of their closeness.
âWhatâs up, Morgan? No jabs today?â
Derek stiffens, like heâs been caught in a lie, and scrambles to reply.
âWell⌠We- Um, Garcia worried about you on Friday. What was up with you leaving so suddenly?â
Spencer has to bite back a smile, memories of you, coming to Oâ Keefeâs just to see him, flooding into his mind. But he answers as smoothly as possible, still turned away from Derek as he elaborates.
âOh, I felt a bit sick. It was probably the drinking and travelling back and forth from the more arid parts of the country that did it. Did you know, travelling between warmer and colder climates makes you more susceptible to contracting viruses because it strains your immune and musculoskeletal systems, causing the feedback loop of homeostasis to-â Derek puts a hand on his arm, and Spencer quiets.
âOkay, okay, pretty boy, I get it.â
With that, he walks off, and Spencer is left at the kitchenette, stirring his coffee, confused. Itâs not like it was a lie, he was feeling nauseous in the bar, so you insisted that you go home. He recovered that same night over a cup of tea, Metropolis on the television, and you cuddled up on the couch next to him.
When he walks back to his desk, mug in hand, he calls out to JJ, still standing by Elleâs desk.
âJJ, no cases today? âŚJJ?â The blonde is looking at him, but his words seem to fly right over her head, until Elle pokes her shoulder.
âOh! No, the cases Iâm being called about are still pending, weâre probably not leaving on anything until tomorrow.â Spencer smiles softly, glad to have at least one more night sleeping at home this week. Because of his reverie, he doesnât notice the way JJ, Penelope and Elle are staring at him, befuddled expressions on their faces.
The day continues to be a little weird, much to Spencerâs chagrin. Around 1pm, Gideon emerges from his office again. This, already, is out of the blue. Gideon only leaves his office an average of 3.78 times a day, mainly to go to Hotchâs office, or to go home. This time, however, Gideon marches to Spencerâs desk.
Gideon comes to a stop next to Spencerâs desk chair, and itâs all he can do to muster a blank face and look into his mentorâs eyes.
âHey, Gideon. Whatâs⌠Whatâs going on?â
The older man sighs wearily, looking down his nose at Spencer, looking uncannily like Spencerâs highschool Calculus teacher when she got irritated at him for being a â13 year old know-it-allâ.
âSpencer. You werenât sick on Friday, were you?â What is happening? Spencer doesnât lie, heâs never told Gideon something untrue, so this is incredibly out of the blue.
âHuh? No, whatâs wrong? I felt nauseous, which couldâve technically been a symptom for an inner ear problem, inflammatory bowel disease, gastroenteritisâŚâ Spencer continues to rattle off a list of things he could have had, not noticing the uncharacteristically soft, paternal gaze that Gideon has trained on him.
â...and even a brain tumour, but it was probably because I drank more than I usually do. Why do you think thatâs not true?â Spencer finishes his little speech, looking up at Gideon with a confused expression. Thereâs nothing else the older man can do but sigh, patting his shoulder softly.
âOkay, Reid. Glad youâre feeling better now.â With that, the experienced profiler walks away, not bothering to reply to Spencerâs continued questioning:
âGideon! Whatâs wrong? Why are you-â Gideonâs office door slams shut.
Unfortunately, Spencer cannot ignore the rest of the signs, spending the rest of the day in a state of coiled anxiety. Something is going on, but he canât get anyone to tell him.
Derek and Elle are constantly glancing over at him, unreadable expressions on their faces. Penelope keeps finding excuses to go to Spencerâs desk, and even if Spencer wasnât a profiler, heâd be able to see the words bubbling up in her throat, but she never says anything.
JJ doesnât come talk to him at all, which is strange. Instead, she shoots him knowing looks whenever sheâs in the bullpen, sending Spencer into a spiral every time she doesnât say anything about why theyâre all acting weird.
Heâs even caught Hotch and Gideon peeking through the blinds over their office windows to look at Spencer, with the analytical looks they get when theyâre observing a crime scene on their faces. Itâs driving Spencer crazy, and he has to tell someone.
Youâre leaving your desk when your phone buzzes.
SPENCE <3: Hi. I looked normal when I left the house, right?
Your brow furrows at the text. Normally Spencer isnât a fan of texting while heâs at work, and youâd told him multiple times how handsome he looked when he left the apartment this morning. Heâs wearing his striped white button down and the purple tie you bought him for his birthday last year, he looks pretty. And you made sure to tell him so.
YOU: hi <3
YOU: no spence you look pretty i told you this morning didnt i?
SPENCE <3: You did, thank you. Everyoneâs acting weird at work, and I canât think of what it could be.
YOU: maybe its something with a case?
SPENCE <3: They would tell me if it was that, right?
YOU: ur right
YOU: if you cant think of it with that big beautiful brain its probably something to do with them
Thereâs a solid minute of silence before he texts you back, and you grin to yourself as you walk through the halls. You can see the flush growing over his face in your mindâs eye, the way he does every time you pay him a cheesy compliment.
SPENCE <3: I guess so. They wonât tell me anything about it, which is strange.
You frown a little, imagining his frustration at being out of the loop. Spencer has expressed his love for his coworkers to you many times, but heâs also told you about his struggles feeling like the âbabyâ of the office, and the way it makes him feel isolated at times. Racking your brain to think of a way to cheer him up, you check the time on your watch (the twin of which is settled on Spencerâs wrist).
YOU: its nearly 6
YOU: if i leave my building now i can make it to your office in 30mins
YOU: i can pick you up and we could get thai for dinner
YOU: ?
The reply is instantaneous, and you smile, looking forward to seeing him earlier than youâd expected today.
SPENCE <3: That sounds great. Iâm finishing up here but text me when youâre in the lobby and Iâll come down.
SPENCE <3: I need to go, Iâve been texting you from the bathroom.
SPENCE <3: See you soon :-)
The last half hour of Spencerâs workday flies by, unlike the way the clock had crawled previously. He finishes up the consults he was working on for the day, and begins packing up the moment the clock hits 18:27.
Derek and Elle are still sneaking glances at him, but Spencer couldnât care less at this point. As he closes the flap of his satchel, his phone buzzes in his breast pocket. He canât help but whip out his phone immediately, missing the bewildered looks that pass between his fellow profilers as he smiles down at the screen.
Y/N L/N: in the lobby now!
Y/N L/N: i forgot how fancy it is here i feel underdressed
He doesnât bother replying, instead opting to leave the bullpen through the glass doors, nodding at Derek and Elle, and pressing the elevator button immediately. Heâs so engrossed in his thoughts as he stares at the closed doors, that he realises far too late whatâs happening behind him.
He can hear the sounds of shuffling feet, a squeak of surprise (Penelope), hissed insult (Elle to Derek), and a firm clearing of a throat (Hotch). After sighing rather petulantly, Spencer turns on his heels to find the entire BAU team standing there, faces just as confusing as theyâve been all day.
âIâd ask you whatâs wrong, but none of you gave me an answer the last 23 times I asked, so.â
Thereâs a beat of silence, before Hotch, of all people, says, âReid, we need to⌠ask you something. About last Friday.â Thatâs strange. Spencer cocks his head in confusion.
âWhat about it? I already told Morgan and Gideon, I was feeling sick, but it turns out it was just that Iâd just drank more than I was used to.â
Penelope looks like sheâs about to burst, and finally, she blurts it out, voice slightly shrill. âReid! Who is she?â
âWho is who?â
Derek butts in, a hand on Penelopeâs shoulder. âKid, that girl. The girl you were⌠close to, on Friday. At the bar?â Oh. Thatâs what theyâre talking about?
âThat was Y/N. My girlfriend. Are you mad I didnât introduce you guys? I thought you were all busy.â
Spencer sees six sets of jaws drop. Thereâs more silence, before JJ croaks out, âGirlfriend?â
Itâs a bit of a sight, to be honest. Penelope has clutched on to Derek, and Derek on to Elle. JJ looks gobsmacked, eyes bulging out of their sockets. Even Hotch and Gideon look the most shocked Spencer has ever seen them. But why?
âUh, yeah. She came to see me because weâd had plans before we decided to go out. Then when she found out I felt sick we went home.â
Gideon looks a little green, and when no one makes a sound, Hotch speaks, his normally stoic voice coming out a little shaky. âReid, we didn't- We didnât know you were seeing anybody.â
What? Now theyâre being even weirder. Spencer can hear the elevator doors open behind him, but he doesnât bother. This is something he has to get to the bottom of.
âHow did you not know? Iâm sure Iâve mentioned having plans with her multiple times. Elle, I told you about the time I went to the movies in New York with her, when we were on that case.â Elle looks more shocked, if thatâs possible, but doesnât say a word.
âGarcia, I asked you to help me find florists that have Gibraltar campions in Vegas that one time.â Penelope jolts, muttering under her breath about âidiot geniuses and their mothersâ.
âGideon, I asked you for advice on how to ask her out!â Gideon stiffens, remembering the time Spencer had asked him about his ex-wife. Was that Spencer asking for advice?
âI ran into you, JJ and Morgan, when I was with her, donât you remember? She was in the aisle overâ Derek distinctly remembers a time at the bookstore, theyâd seen Spencer, but not noticed anyone with him. JJ shamefully recalls being too busy making fun of Spencerâs heart-studded tie to look around.
Spencer looks bewildered, eyes bouncing between the different members of his team.
âHotch, I literally told you about her! When I added her to my emergency contacts?â At this, Hotch pales. A year ago, Spencer had come to him with a request to change his 1st emergency contact from his mother to a Y/N L/N. How he never registered that this was a girlfriend, Hotch would never know, but he stares fixedly at his shoes as he contemplates quitting his job as a profiler.
Spencer looks at them, mystified. How did they not know? Itâs not like he was ever hiding you! Of course, Spencer wanted to keep you to himself, so he didnât talk about you that much, but they were profilers. He assumed theyâd known, and just didn't want to embarrass him.
His phone buzzes three times, and he pulls it out to see more texts from you.
Y/N L/N: spence are you coming
Y/N L/N: a guy in a suit is eyeing me weird
Y/N L/N: he knows i dont belong come save me
A happy sigh leaves him, before he remembers the people standing in front of him, still gobsmacked. He scrubs a hand down his face wearily, and mutters slowly, as if heâs not sure if he wants to do this.
âSheâs downstairs right now, we were going to take the metro home together. Do you⌠Do you guys want to meet her?â Penelope brightens up, and the rest of the team seem in higher spirits, despite their continued disappointment in themselves. Warily, Spencer opens the elevator door with a press of a button, and they all file in obediently.
âPlease donât be weird.â
âMy good doctor, I would never!â He eyes Garcia with a fearful expression, but presses the ground floor button anyway. As the doors close, a strangled shout leaves JJâs mouth.
âWait, you live together?â
You are sitting on a bench inside the lobby of the FBI Headquarters. No matter how many times you drop Spencer off or pick him up, this will always be surreal to you. And, right now, itâs not just surreal, itâs a little scary.
A real Danny Ocean type guy is sitting on a bench across the room, talking on the phone and eyeing you. Clearly, you donât exactly look like an agent, you know that. Dressed in the uniform of a PhD student, jeans and an oversized Doctor Who t-shirt (Spencerâs), you know that you look out of place.
Youâre just hoping Spencer walks out of the elevator before you get escorted out on suspicions that youâre a spy or something.
Like some deity has heard your words, you look up at the ding of the elevator to see Spencer⌠and a whole gaggle of people behind him, slapping at his shoulders and barraging him with questions. He looks harried, a line between his pretty eyes.
The line disappears, though, when he locks eyes with you. His eyes light up, and his steps grow in length, before he's left his entourage behind, at least for a couple of seconds.
He uses this time to explain to you: âHi, hello, I'm so glad you're here and I need to tell you something-â As if on instinct, your hands come up to rest on his upper arms, thumbs moving in circles soothingly as he continues to ramble, only catching the tail end of his sentence.
â-and well, they didn't know about you somehow? Which is crazy to me because you know I don't hide you so I don't know where they got that from but either way they were acting crazy, so I suggested they come meet you, andâŚâ The group of people you now recognize to be the BAU have caught up to him, eyes darting between your face and Spencer's. His shoulders slump, and the agitated look returns, if a little less intense.
âWell, here they are.â He motions to the group behind him. âThese are my coworkers, Jennifer Jareau, Elle Greenaway, Penelope Garcia, Aaron Hotchner, Jason Gideon, and Derek Morgan. Guys, this is my girlfriend, Y/N.â
Rising on your toes to see over his shoulder, you wave with a smile, eyes zeroing in on Penelope Garcia, who looks like she's vibrating from excitement, shouldering past Spencer to hold both of your hands.
âHi! It's so good to meet you! I'd say I've heard a lot about you, but you know that's a lie, we didn't realize you existed until 10 minutes ago, but oh my god! You're here! You're so pretty- Spencer, she's so pretty!â She's practically bouncing up and down, causing Spencer to laugh sheepishly.
âYeah, Garcia, I know that.â The next few minutes are a barrage of introductions and handshakes, all so brief that you can only get quick first impressions of them all.
Penelope is incredibly kind, not letting go of your hands until Spencer pries her off of you, telling you that you have to come out on girl's night with us, exactly like Spencer described her.
Elle is nearly intimidatingly cool, giving you a handshake and a smile, mentioning that she likes your eyeliner.
Aaron (Hotch? You're not sure how to refer to him) is nowhere near as stoic and intimidating as Spencer makes him out to be, breaking into a smile as he introduces himself, and grinning even wider when you congratulate him and his wife on their newborn child.
JJ is the sweetest. You've heard a lot about Spencer's best friend, and she lives up to expectations, squeezing you into a chaste hug with warm words.
Gideon is a little terrifying. He gives you a handshake, quirking the side of his lips in what you assume to be a smile, but saying very little beyond an introduction. You know how highly Spencer thinks of him, and hope he will warm up to you (Spencer is over the moon that he smiled, and informs you later that Gideon loved you).
Derek is exactly how you expected him to be. Somehow, he makes you feel wholly comfortable after a single comment, and promises to regale you with all the Spencer stories you'd want (you see him punch Spencer in the arm, grinning and saying he approved).
Spencer pulls you away from them as quick as he can, citing your dinner plans as an excuse. He slings an arm around your waist, leading you out the door as you wave over your shoulder.
âIt was great to meet you guys! We should go out to dinner or something!â You hear mixed shouts of agreement from behind you, before the doors shut and it's just you and Spencer, on the sidewalk outside the building.
It's butterfly-inducing, the way you can see the tension leave his shoulders when he turns to look down at you, brown eyes shining.
âI'm sorry that was so last-minute, I know they can be⌠a lot.â You giggle at the weariness in his tone, resting your forearms on his shoulders.
âThey were really nice, Spence. I'm glad to finally meet them. They didn't know who I was?â He sighs, hands tightening slightly on your waist.
âI don't know what goes on with them half the time. I've told them things about you so many times, but they were just being dense, I suppose. They saw us on Friday, at Oâ Keefeâs, and they had no idea I was seeing someone!â He bends to rest his forehead in the crook of your neck with a sigh. As if on instinct, your hands come up to play with his hair.
âI guess they would have found it a little strange that you acted like nothing had changed, huh? Is that why they were being weird today?â He grumbles unintelligible words into your skin, before raising his head to look at you.
âI guess⌠You know I wasn't hiding you, right? I really thought they knew about you,â The earnestness on his face makes you want to implode, his thumbs rubbing minutely on your waist. Speaking would pop the bubble you've found yourselves in, so you find the best next option for you to show him your assertion.
Your hands roam up his neck to cup either side of his jaw, and slow, slow, slowly, you rise to your toes and kiss him.
Suddenly, Spencer's not worried anymore.
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crying in the club | mv1
pairing: max verstappen x norris!reader
summary: how should one react when their boyfriend wins the world championship at the same time their brother loses it?
max my four time world champion!!!






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yourusername: the sun will shine on you soon baby brother!! this season was tough but you got through it âĄâĄ i love you forever (world champions are overrated anyways đ)
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user1: you are the strongest soldier here
user2: you are the reason i survived this season
user2: everytime i wanted to throw up, i thought about how you were doing, and thought you mustâve been doing much worse, thank you!
user3: youre finally free from all this âchampion battleâ talk đž
user4: you running back in forth from redbull to mclaren made my night
user5: itâs even funnier how her body language would change, in the mclaren garage she would be all gloomy but once she ran back to redbull it was arms up partying
lewishamilton: i wouldnât say alll world championships are overrated
yourusername: shut up lewis hamilton 7x world champion, arguably the best f1 driver in existence, kind, humble, handsome andâwould you like do go on a date with me?
maxverstappen1: excuse me?
yourusername: i donât know what happened max, i was i insulting him and next thing i knew i wanted him on my lap
lewishamilton: i feelâŚodd
yourusername: good odd or bad odd
lewishamilton: i canât tellâŚ
yourusername: come over to the redbull garage to find out đź
landonorris: genuinely, what the fuck is going on?
maxverstappen1: i donât know, so iâve decided to ignore it
landonorris: ignoring what ever that was, thank you đ§Ą
yourusername: say it
landonorris: say what
yourusername: say âi love youâ you emotionally stunted gremlin
landonorris: i donâtâŚ
yourusername: say it lando
maxverstappen1: yeah cmon lando, say it
landonorris: too like both of you or?..
maxverstappen1: yes, tell your brother in law that you love him
landonorris: okay first, youâre not my brother in law, second, i donât feel very comfortable right now
yourusername: say it with me lando, âi loveee youuuâ
landonorris: guysâŚ
yourusername: SAY IT
maxverstappen: CMON LANDO SAY IT
yourusername: SAY IT
yourusername: SAY IT
landonorris: OK I LOVE YOU GUYS
user6: is this the peer pressure my school always warned me about?
user7: noâŚthat was just, sad.




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yourusername: THATS MY FOUR TIME WORLD CHAMPION!!! THIS IS FOR ALL THE BUMS WHO SAID HE WAS NOTHING BUT A PRETTY MAN IN A FAST CAR, NOW WHAT????? NOBODY COMPARES TO MAX FUCKING VERSTAPPEN. AND YOU ALL BETTER REMEMBER THAT.
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user8: now itâs time to hit the club
yourusername: iâll be crying in the club, thank you very much
user9: crying for lando, partying for max, itâs perfect
user10: you are the perfect amount of supportive to both lando and max
maxverstappen1: ik houd van je đ
yourusername: @/landonorris
landonorris: i donât speak dutch??
yourusername: he just told me he loved me loser
landonorris: o-kay?
yourusername: gosh you are so emotionally unintelligent, it makes me sick
landonorris: i just lost the world championship please be kind to me
yourusername: im your sister which basically means i lost the championship too, yet i still tell you i love you?
landonorris: THATS NOT HOW THAT WORKS
yourusername: I LOVE YOU LANDO
landonorris: LEAVE ME ALONE
maxverstappen1: we should get married in vegas
yourusername: oh my god, yes. but no elvis because he freaks me out
maxverstappen1: CHARLES SHOULD MARRY US
charles_leclerc: guysâŚi would be honored
yourusername: i donât know max, i have a feeling youâll run away with him and leave me at the alter
maxverstappen1: yeahâŚthat probably will happen đ, itâs okay, lando can marry us!!!
landonorris: what the fuck is today
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how rafe would treat his gf on her period



rafe cameron x fem reader
word count: 796
warnings: menstruation, mentions of toxic relationship and period sex
a/n: yeah this is how rafe treats his girl on her period but also how he would be like in a relationship throughout the seasons? i got carried away, sorry not sorry
s1 rafe: sooo i feel like fratboy!rafe genuinely doesn't give a fuck, i don't even know if he would be capable of being in a relationship. i see him being involved with a girl but only for sex and he would only know she's on her period bc she would just text him that they can't meet today bc of it and he'd be like "uh huh cool" and would go jerk off
s2 rafe: here i think situation would be slightly different. i think our psycho bby could acc develop feelings for a girl, it would mostly be just sex but he could start falling for someone. so i think he'd fight a battle in his mind if he should come over to the girl's house and be there for her on her period or to completely neglect her. it's just he doesn't have a clue what to do and tbh he's occupied with other shit, he uses sex with her to forget. i think it's very similar to s1 rafe but with guilt and feelings creeping in (and obvious denial for this emotions)
s3 rafe: so okay we all know the shift from curtain bangs psycho rafey to buzz cut man of the house rafe who looked like he's getting his shit together. of course that means he's different when it comes to relationships. he still deals with a lot, but he finds you. and he kinda sees you as this light. a small light who he has to be very careful with so it won't go out. he is attentive to you. treats you right, but with some sort of distance and you don't blame him. he doesn't spend every day with you, he didn't even ask you to be his girlfriend yet, didn't make it official but he will and somehow you know it. when you're on your period you become quiet. you don't text him, but he finds out as he had a feeling that he should drop by your house. he finds you on your couch with a heating bag and cookies. you told him you weren't feeling well and he ordered you hot soup and made a quick run to pharmacy for some medicine. he still was clueless and thought you caught a cold. "rafe im not sick im just on my period" "oh" it's not like he avoids you, no. he visits you everday for the next four days but doesn't stay for long, always excusing himself with some meeting or business. you know he means the best for you but wish that he's going to be able to let you in soon. you're really patient with him, but start having doubts.
s4 rafe: is now fully committed to you. you talked to him how you really felt about this relationship. that you really cared and wanted to give him as much time as he needed, but also you couldn't waste it anymore waiting for him. and rafe realized that nobody else would have such patience for him. he was thinking about you a lot and he admitted to himself that you were the one. he made your relationship official and two months later you were living together. he was spoiling you, really. taking you on dates, buying you gifts and most importantly giving you his time. getting to know you, observing your daily habits, remembering stuff you said. your likes and dislikes. no wonder he became pussy whipped. and started to feel like he knows you better than yourself.
that's why when it's that time of the month you don't have to say anything. rafe knows. just by the way you whine when you wake up, he knows if you'd be able to get out of bed and get on with your day or you'd want to stay in bed cuddling, because he's your personal heater, makes back pain go away. gives you massages. cuddles with you all morning untill your stomach start to signal that it's time for some food. oh and he doesn't care about his schedule. he could clear it off, cancel the meetings, but he doesn't bother. his girl is the most important, his business associates don't even deserve a phone call on a day his girl is in pain. also he's not opposed to period sex at. all. orgasm is a great way to reduce cramps, so if that works for you and you want him to help you, he is the happiest to do so. if you're not comfortable with having sex these days he totally understands. wouldn't even thought of forcing you to do something, on your period or not. when he discovered that he has so much love in him, his only interest is to give it to youâĄ
dividers by: @bernardsbendystraws
tagging: @sugaraanddiesel @cherrylipglossss hope they'll enjoy it and @cameronsprincess bc maybe it will put a smile on her faceâĄ
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