#im trying to learn how to do it myself

[anadorablekiwi]

Wanna see what it looks like when i trim probably 2 inches total of my hair?

[hinamie]

completely innocuous vash sheet :) fr practice

[skunkes]

reposting some old doodles i still enjoy a bit

[cerealmonster15]

five stages of adeuce ft the trials and tribulations of ace trappola

[creaturefeaster]

agh!!!!

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[tradingjack]

having fun with colors for once :P

thanks @creepycoffins for the awesome dtiys :D

[skaluli]

dude i finally figured out how to draw him im so happy i love him so much

[puppyeared]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

[lyhil]

OC-tober 21 - "Grasping the Splinters of My Previous Self"

Cardamomo / Caoimhe belongs to @starlightsuncrow

(SORRY rotated him too much in my mind and got hopelessly enamored)

[skunkes]

[omppupiiras]

never stop the madness etc

[nudibutch]

you know. while im at it. im really proud of myself. ive come a long way. i have a lot of emotional and nonemotional (ie texture taste etc) sensitivity around food and ive been working really hard to find ways to get my body the nutrients i need..... ive found ways to really enjoy veggies i previously rejected. ive added (petite) peas, broccoli, certain kinds of cooked tomato, arugula, spinach, onion, bell peppers, jalepeno, cooked eggs (in two forms!!!), chickpeas and more into my diet... all things i previously disliked or was too scared to try. im always gonna dislike most forms of artichoke, raw tomato, sweet potato, and others... but i genuinely feel so much better than i did a few years ago. the confidence that i can always add SOMETHING to make a meal healthy without being scared of the flavor or texture or whatever else is really a game changer.

[kkoct-ik]

the lesser known did symptom of not knowing anything about your life because not only do you not remember anything (and the memories you Do have are heavily fragmented so you have no idea when they occured), but you also consistently destroy all traces of yourself during dissociative episodes. rip every diary ive tried to keep and almost every social media account. i will never know what i got up to or who i was during those years

i have a spreadsheet i use for documenting memories that turn up before i can forget them again. where i also do my best to estimate what year or season or month they came from. but its all just such a mess. even 2021 onwards which are supposed to be my therapy years are very very patchy. i wish i could just know my life

[mellotronmkll]

Wverytime I sit down at a computer to make music I get so scared