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a-flickering-soul · 6 months ago

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lord im tired. take me now lord take me away!!!! i got nothing else for you god take me home!!! i can't do this anymore god..... sweet jesus take me home....

#I DONT WANT YOUR NEW FOOTAGE RARGHHHH LET ME OUTTTTT #wabbit.....#spg #flickerthoughts #im tired god im tired....take me home...#women....

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standfucker · 10 months ago

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not gonna lie yall, it feels like all I do is either work or recover from work and it's bumming me out big time

#I don't have a chronic illness. I shouldn't be taking this long to recover #idk why I can't get home from work and go straight to writing #it's like I have to spend a day mustering up the will to live in the face of ongoing capitalism #it's my own fault. I would have had a two day weekend but they asked me to come in to cover someone and my clown ass said sure #I want to be pissed at the coworker who called off but it's my own fault for accepting #I had a phone interview today and I am ANXIOUS to know if they're going to bring me in for a second interview I NEED a better job #I just want a job where I dont dread going to work and also maybe get paid more than minimum wage #feeling really depressed about capitalism and working forever and knowing I'll never be able to afford a house #I WANT TIME TO DO MY HOBBIES GOD DAMN IT ;A;#also im lonely as hell. how am I supposed to go out and meet people if I'm too tired to do anything #I wanna meet someone. I wanna be loved romantically.

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gifti3 · 10 months ago

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I was trying to do a little catch up in nightbringer

I finished lesson 20 and they like joke(?) about moving to the human world and staying at the MCs home if they cant stay in the devildom

And i just wanna seriously consider the logistics of MC trying to house 7 other people

Most of us are probably living with other people (who may not be okay with sharing a space with so many strangers suddenly) and/or dont have a giant sized place

And this is assuming the mc is staying at a house and not an apartment....

#obey me nightbringer #dont think anyone will last a day in this situation.#realistically theyre all gonna probably have to share 1 room right....#2 if we r lucky #at my home we have an extra bedroom and a living room #and the extra room technically belongs to my grandpa when he visits from ghana so...#id be like....yall gotta come up with some human identities and find jobs so you can move into a different place #im not trying to abandon them in the human world of course #especially mammon for several reasons #but yea....#and outside of living arrangements mc would have to teach them to live in this damn world #and navigate new social norms urghh #my head hurts thinking about it #like “noooo u cant fuckin threaten people so flippantly when they piss u off unless u wanna make my life more difficult!!”#ik they could take ppl in fight sure but god #what if they get arrested #ugh sorry my mind is just going towards all the worst case scenarios lol #anyways im gonna try to start next lesson but im already getting tired of playing these rhythm games sigh

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cousinthrockmorton · 4 months ago

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i hate living with people who still have high school minds and don’t practice basic respect in sharing spaces with people cause they just have their friends over all the time who r loud asf and no one cleans up after themselves and most of their friends call me a bitch behind my back ig cause i don’t interact w ppl and also yea you’d have a resting bitch face too if ur the houses fucking maid and only actual adult who deals with every fucking thing whatever holy fuck man

#like idk call me a bitch whatever but i think I deserve basic respect in my own goddamn house in which i pay bills in. fuck off.#and yea I have a friend group we hang out but because we’re adults we clean up after ourselves and aren’t obnoxious immature cunts . btw !#also these ppl who call me a bitch either don’t know me or disrespected me in my own home and ‘meant to apologize but is too scared’#ok so u still come into my goddamn fucking house loud asf disrespectful asf messy asf but pretend im not a human being bc ur soooo scared #when u yelled at me and told me to chill and called me a bitch for setting a boundary where I was in the right . and u don’t want to #apologize cause now u suddenly don’t like confrontation… when ur in the wrong … hm!!!! i fucking hate you tai get out of my fucking house #my god #also if this sounds mean it’s because i put up with toooooooo much !!!!!!!!! children!!! im taking care of children against my will im only #22!!! im tired!! and depressed!!! I don’t need this !!!!!!

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ultimateinferno · 6 months ago

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Looking back I think one of the biggest things that got me through uni was that Canvas had calendars that showed when assignments were due and actually let me plan out what tf I was going to do without feeling overwhelmed.

Well... that and being a tutor/TA/lab assistant letting me work on homework during my shifts. Those two things really pushed uni from being agonizing to doable.

#honestly getting through uni in 4 years with 0 loans on unmedicated adhd is a fucking god damn miracle #i was even able to do extra curriculars senior year AND art #god i miss that #also i didnt have chronic anxiety then but i also didnt have chronic anxiety 2 months ago so its not unique #honestly looking back at 1:45 am is a gentle reminder that for all the hardwork and dedication i have #i'm also VISCERALLY lucky. physically abled. financially stable. debt free. decent–ish degree (even though the industry shat itself)#cishet white guy with a support network who even while unemployed for an entire year #was still able to survive comfortably in spite of hardship.#it does make me frustrated just how badly ive stagnated because of it.#but also fully aware that i can very very easily bounce back #hell. after a year with 1k+ of debt on my credit card that shit is evaporating since ive gotten a flexible job that pays by productivity #rather than by the hour while working from home.#like... this is can easily constitute as bragging and tbh it is.#this past month has been a fucking ringer that im just taking it all in.#i'm lucky. i'm okay.#anyways heres to hoping the psychiatrist can fucking put down this OCD bug in my brain then ill be golden.#im tired of my thoughts being interrupted by pointless bullshit that shouldnt bother me but 100% does.#and maybe adhd meds along the way.#god had to take my attention span to make it fair for all of you.#thats a joke but its also not.

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coloursofaparadox · 6 months ago

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i finally got my adhd med dosage worked out and also for like the first time since upping the dosage actually managed to take it consistently long enough for it to actually kick in over the last few weeks and god damn. that shit is magic.

#im on the non-stimulant version bc the stimulant ones were too up-and-down for me #so they kinda act like how ssri meds do in terms of slow buildup #but now that I'm there its!!! insane!!!#I've been falling asleep just when I'm tired which I just am totally unable to do normally #I woke up before my alarm today and was like maybe I'll take a shower!! in the MORNING! as soon as I woke up!!!!#and left on time for my appointment w time to spare - then instead of going home after having accomplished the one (1) task for the day #i voluntarily just went and did MORE things. like. for FUN. and didnt have to force myself and be like 'you'll enjoy it once you're there'#then I finished doing fun things at the river with the dog and was like. yknow what? I'm gonna be productive and work on the car.#and I DID. then hung out and socialized and watched a movie after?#at this point this is 4 WHOLE THINGS in one day????? and it wasnt prescheduled and I did it all because I just felt like it #I am fucking astounded. I am going to do everything possible to make sure I don't fall off meds again bc like. this shit is lifechanging #as long as I'm not physically too tired I'm actually looking forward to doing more tomorrow too #like. god damn. not having to force myself to do things that logically I know I enjoy and just being able to DO them is insane #I'm gonna go to the weekly farmers market next week and pick up veggies. and then make something with them.#⭐✨magic✨⭐

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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what is my family going to do about the dishes when i move out. like this is insane.

#purrs #i understand that because im not contributing as much financially to the house + am not home most of the day doing dishes every night is a #fair reasonable way to expect me to contribute. but also i come home every day fucking exhausted and basically have to clean an entire day’s #worth of dishes (not allowed to leave them out to dry either i have to both wash and dry) for 5 people + put away all the food and #appliances + wipe down all the counters. like i clean up 5 peoples mess completely by myself. and it’s a lot and i constantly go to bed at #lkke 1:30-2am or later because im stuck doing dishes. my mom and siblings cook but they almost always do it together so it’s 3 ppl and then #i do this by myself and sometimes my dad helps me but he’s working all the time and all of his money is going to all of us so it’s fair that #he doesn’t have to help but. god. i have to be at work at 9 every day it’s not enough sleep and i am constantly late and so so so tired.#its 1:19am and i still have 2 sink fuls of dishes to do at least + have to put away all the food etc and it’s 1:19am. my body is screaming #at me to sleep but i am not allowed to leave it less than spotless. awesome #delete later #anyways yeah what i was saying initially is like.. what are they going to do when i move out and they can’t just leave the mess to me at the #end of the night. someone’s gonna have to stay up just as late to clean it all. lol #it takes me at least an hour every night to do all of this

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binders-and-beanies · 8 months ago

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#sry I need to vent more abt my tattoo pain bc I physically cannot do anything productive rn im completely and totally incapacitated #can’t read anything beyond short posts or texts. can’t eat or move at all #tried to sleep through it so it would at least Be Tomorrow so I can get medical help. but the jolts of pain make me like Jump #hence me being sent home from work early today like it’s not even that I was complaining I was just flinching involuntarily so much #and was unable to work or function at all. thank god I don’t work retail rn I remember the pain of tattoo infections in that context #it’s so Abrupt it feels like I’m being stabbed or repeatedly bitten #literally trying not to scream bc I have a roommate. but he almost certainly hears me crying and saying ouch #which sucks bc I barely know the guy lol he has no context. At least on my drive home I could scream as much as I needed #literally would go to the ER if I could afford it and that sounds so dramatic bc it is #it doesn’t feel like it can wait. genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna get through the night #I haven’t slept in like 60 hours and I doubt I will tonight. but it hurts too much to even tell if I’m tired #and I don’t have time for this!! I have so much I need to be doing. I hate that the only way I can have Time is to be Extra Disabled #in a way that leaves me completely unable to do the things I normally can fight through despite burnout #and I was just at health services yesterday asking them to do insurance paperwork that they couldn’t do #it’s embarrassing having to be like hey I was just there but can I come back #I have Another tattoo infection but I pinky promise I take such good care of them #and my artist is like the best of the best too. it’s like it doesn’t matter what either of us does to keep me safe #and I know if anyone responds to this it will be to tell me to stop getting tattoos #but that’s literally like telling me not to get top surgery if I’m immunocompromised n might have recovery complications #both are equally important gender affirming medical procedures to me I’m not joking #and I hate always having to justify this whilst in agonizing pain. I hate answering the same things every time bc still no one believes me #I say this as someone who lives every moment in baseline pain that would have your average person writhing on the floor and I ignore it #this is truly unbearable if I hadn’t been through it a million times I would think it was life threatening #just needed to get it out ig. bc it’s all I can physically do. until health services opens in 12 hours #PLEASE let them have availability tomorrow bc i have literally no option on weekends #this is just. so upsetting and embarrassing. I don’t have time or emotional capacity for this #personal #mine #vent post

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simcardiac-arrested · 1 year ago

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i deserve an honest to god medal for making it home but all i got was this lousy masterpost i need to update

#heeeelp. heeeeehkllpppp #crammerposting #EVERYONE GET DOWN IM ABOUT TO HASHTAG COMPLAIN HASHTAG STRUGGLEPOST #my god #i only walked for like 30 minutes but my back and feet hurt so bad i didnt know if i would even make it home or die in a bush somehwere #and it took me 1 hour in general cuz i kept having to take bench breaks #and im also a starving white woman im soooooooo hungry #for ththe past 7 hours i’ve only had like 5 spoons of rice a bun with chicken and Water #im so damn hungry and tired and now im gonna have to cook lunch myself cuz my brother is asleep #i feel crazy but fuck me if im not gonna make the bangerest spaghetti ever

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heartoflesh · 9 months ago

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I want out of this pain... I want out of this mental torture that suppresses my mind. I've wanted to die. How do you medically induce amnesia?

The only thing worth going through this pain is the gain of heaven some day.

#I never thought I was someone with anxiety or depression but I am now swimming in it and I see why people take themselves out...#I won't do it... I promise I won't but I understand.#The pain is so tremendous... The pain is immense... Greater than any physical pain I have experienced...#I had a brain tumor once and had to go through brain surgery for it #but even that.... I'd experience that 10 times over again if it meant I didn't have to experience the emotional pain I have been traversing #I would willingly experience kidney stones for a third time... a FOURTH time if it meant i didnt have to experience this mental torture...#I'm suffering greatly #and i'm so distraught.. I am so caught up in despair and anguish.. I want to be at home all day praying and reading my Bible...#I want to be at peace because my mind is in disarray #I want to be away from the chaos of life because my mind is chaos rn #I don't need any more of it #tags #im trying so hard to trust God and to cling to Him #But I am literally HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE like LITERALLY #i am so tired of feeling this #I am so tired of my situation #and why it had to happen in this way to me #this is quite literally a nightmare...#poetry #poem #writing #creative writing #writer #writers #writing community #writeblr #writers and poets #writerscommunity #writer community #writers on tumblr

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cleo-serotonin · 9 months ago

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i just want school to be over already. im so burnt out from everything. i worked full time over spring break and have a speech due the first day back and i couldnt even enjoy the break bc ive just been stressed about it the whole time. then 2 papers due next month and finals coming up. juggling school, work, and family/friends feels impossible. like, you just cant give 100% to all while still giving 100% to yourself and it takes its toll after awhile.

#second semester senioritis is no joke </3 #i already have all the credits i need to graduate but my speech class is the one important one #like im taking it now so i wont have to take it in Real College #and missing a speech would = failing #and i already got a 75 on one of them which still pisses me off #bc i didnt realize that the video didnt attach bc my father almost DIED and was in the hospital so i wasnt checking canvas for a few days #the only reason she even took it was bc youtube had the timestamp of when it was posted #still took late points off but whatever #anyways sorry to get so real and personal on the silly little mermaid blog but i just need to get it out and im also procrastinating writin #this speech lol #and i think i lowkey have a phone addiction??#soo #i really need to get my shit together #but theres no time!!!#god and im so tired all the time bc i get home late for working then wake up early for school :(#im like a sim whose fun meter is red #cleo-serotonin lore #vent #i just have 0 motivation #anxiety fuels me #oh and this burnt out feeling is really concerning me for when i get to Real College #bc if im already feeling this way now;; how am i gonna feel when the classes are even harder and i have to take more of them?#if i had a passion or even knew what i wanted to study it wouldnt be an issue #but alas #mermaid isnt a major

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ittybittybumblebee · 1 year ago

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God please let me be soooo sick so i dont have to work. Amen

#i think im catchign something but im not sure i hope it hgets worse i really do i wanna stay home im tired im gonna cry #i need the excuse so bad #i need it to be bad enough or else ppl r not gonna take seriously plz let me stay hooooooome #fr i will cry #i wont #but i m gonna feel like im gonna cry #my bodys gonna cry #i have worked for TWO MONTHS almost straight let me beeeeeeee im tired im so tired #i am gods weakest soldier i need to be its my role to fill im goign to be that pathetic little shit i need a break #'noooooo bee thats nothing #two months?' I HAVE NEVER WORKED CONSISTANTLY LIKE THIS BEFORE GIVE ME A BREAK THI S IS MY FIRST TIME #its HARD work. to me #i need to be a little bitch about it toniht ive been so strong so long im tired imreally tired #i hope i get sick and never have to work again #i have the saddest wettest big eyes right now i need someone to pity me to further my ulterior motive of not wanting to work i need it

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robotpussy · 1 year ago

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woke up from my sleep angry because I take too long to do anything like I'm so fucking annoyed rn I genuinely cannot comprehend how ppl have full time jobs and go to school and also fully indulge in their hobbies and get them done in timely manners because if I'm doing anything I have to either finish it in a day or it will take a year to complete it

#anyways im not working on that hobie thing anymore its stressing me out that its taking me a month to make a fucking collage 😭😭#u thought i could have real progress yesterday but after 3 hrs of working on it i got tired and wanted to sleep #*i thought #also the reason why i barely ever make videos im either too tired or it will take me 5 months to edit because #i can't focus on more than 1 thing at a time. if im editing something don't fucking ask me to go anywhere i need yo finish this shit #or it will never be done #been trying to edit my Beyonce and spiderverse vlogs and its just taking too long i just abandoned them #and then like. school.#that fucking university has done nothing but waste my time. wasting my time travelling for 6 hrs so by the time i get home #i cant even do anything but eat and fall asleep because if i stay up to work on what i want to do i will basically get no sleep #cant even indulge in my hobbies without wanting to kill myself because even those stress me out OH MY GOD

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pyreshe · 2 years ago

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i have said it before and i will say it again; livvy deserves to be fucking scary!!

#she is gods perfect arson & killing machine and im tired of pretending shes not #✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ: ooc / [mothman vc] take me home country roads

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kraviolis · 1 year ago

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MURRAY GOLD YOU MAKE ME SICK

#krav talks #love dont roam.......... im throwing up #oh god. “reel me in my precious girl come and take me home cus my body is tired of travelling and my heart dont wish to roam”

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amatres · 2 years ago

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i'm going to make a hawke whose character arc is so not resolved by the end of da2

#ama mumbles #allyn hawke (oc)#allyn 'living in kirkwall feels like waiting for an executioner and the destruction of the chantry freed me of that' hawke #'do you approve of anders actions allyn' 'yes bc it meant i could finally leave kirkwall #allyn 'living on the run feels right to me bc i spent so many of my formative years like that unlike my younger brother and sister #who had lothering more than the many different homes across ferelden and the forests we would hide in in between #and maybe ill settle down again and have a garden but god it's not going to be this place that was my mother's home never mine' hawke #what do you do when you stop running? build a home. but what if that home so thoroughly wants you dead what then #'sure ill live on the run with my lover killing slavers. anything not to feel the crushing weight of my ghosts and own oppression #that partly lent a hand in the death of the ppl i loved. yes i love talking things out but theres too much here and im so tired'#her whole identity was built out of taking care of her family but what happens to an identity built on others when they are all gone #shes going to have to rebuild her sense of self in her like 30s and 40s good luck to her #wow that was a lot of tags sorry lmao

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