#im tired all the time lately
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missing them...
#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙#tape entry circa 1980#im feeling so lost in everything and i just need my min and ryan so bad to feel better...#i just wish i was HOME w them both that i was home in the 1980s#i want to take a nap w them both im so tired#im tired all the time lately#id like for them both to take me on a surprise roadtrip#to pop in a mixtape they made for me and jam out#to hear all the songs they associate w me and ones they know i love#or tuning into the radio#there wasnt nearly as many ads back then... theyd play a good handful of songs w practically nothing inbetween#and then throw in a couple ads real quick to get back to the songs#we can order take out and listen to the radio in the background and talk abt where we're going next#taking over as driver and looking over at min whos looking over the map while i hear ryan playing his acoustic in the back and singing...💖#night spent sleeping together in the back of the van and others sleeping in a motel room#i love the idea of that kind of freedom w them both that my home is wherever they are as long as we have eachother#but i also love the idea of just always being able to go home to them w our own cozy living space#to fall asleep w min and ryan on the couch and to wake up to the tv static after they went off the air#hear ryan snore and feel how he clings onto me while min protectively holds onto us both#the sounds of their breathing the warmth of their bodies the rhythm of their heartbeats... its all just so comforting#and being able to wake up w them to do things like help min style his hair in the morning and make breakfast together while ryan sleeps#to eventually wake him up w the promise of a tasty breakfast and kisses 💛💙#i just miss them... more than fucking anything#i would finally be ok and happy if i could go home to them both#to have a free life w them making music and having fun#every part of me always every moment of every day longs for them and misses them... and loves them...
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*gives you a gay little kiss that feels like home*
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#lesbian#sometimes you may see a post from me and go:#why the fuck would she post that??#and wonder if i regret it#the answer is no <3#all my posts are bangers😤#esp this one#and that is NOT the exhaustion and lack of sleep talking#maybe it’s late and i have to be up#in five hours#and i came to the realization that ALL my kisses count as gay little kisses#and had to share that with the internet#okay and it’s a GOOD post😤😤😤😤#im not gonna see this at a time when im more sane and be like wtf#i’ll see it be like: wow that’s a great post#@ future me: u can fight me on this im right okay#god im so tired
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dads loveeeee telling you to make the effort to get in touch when ur an adult. sir u are a scary alcoholic with anger issues and have been my whole life. how am i the one that needs to put in the effort. grow UPPPPP
#like wtf man i swear#im working late shift tired all the time it’s not my job to fucking meet a quota of when to see my dad like how dare he dictate that to me#after everything
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"We are not the easiest opponent for everybody else, let's put it that way."
#the quote i think is a ref to carlos and the penalty haha so had to add it#ah also this interview kinda confirmed what i was thinking earlier#about him keeping expectations low and taking any kind of success as a win#even if that means a few points#very pragmatic yknow#he said h'd be happy w being in the lower top 10#WHAT IF IM NOT HAPPY W THAT FERNANDO? WHAT IF I WANT YOU TO ASPIRE TO GREATER HEIGHTS#but nah im happy as long as its in the points but....id be happier if it was top 3-#nah bcs he had me getting excited over a p5 the other race#but honestly very nice and comforting to see him so happy all the time#also god im so tired and its so late and i still feel ill so the cuteness aggression hes giving me is insane#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#we do a little bit of f1#2024 chinese gp
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some of the less nice thoughts about being aroace
extras below the cut
sketch
closeups on my favorite panels
bonus: adios
#doodles#kingdom hearts#roxas#axel#olette#aromantic#asexual#aroace#do i tag pence. hes in the background of one panel#ehhhh sorry pence no tag for you#also not tagging soriku and namixi#i mean by the logic of 'theyre in one panel so i wont tag them' i also shouldnt tag axel but. he has dialogue so#anyways i have a very irrational love of olette whenever i need a random side character in a kh comic? olette#i think she uses webmd. anyways im done talking about olette#so let me clarify about this comic#im aroace. this is all just things ive thought before#im not saying in any way these thoughts are real. theyre just thoughts#thats why it ends with 'but there isnt. its just me.' there IS nothing wrong with being aroace. even if it feels like it sometimes#im not trying to send a message im just trying to express a feeling ive had for a while#anyways. the aroace community is super positive and i like that. but not everything i feel about it is that positive#sometimes it feels like im missing something yknow#this comic seems like its about roxas. but its about me. congrats youve been fooled#drafted something similar to this for aro week but didnt finish it in time so this is spiritually part of asaw 2024#btw sorry im not posting as many drawings lately#schools kinda stressful im pretty tired and busy most the time#i am throwing this drawing to you like a slab of meat to a pack of hungry dogs. take this meager ration in these trying times#alright i think thats it bye now
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[asmr boyfriend voice] woof woof bark bark
#hermitaday#rendog#rendog fanart#hermitblr#hermitcraft fanart#ren#my art#did i ever tell you guys me getting mcyt at all was because i watched lizzies last life pov late at night while i was sick#and ren just. stole my heart#i knew nothing about him or hermitcraft at a time i was just like this guy is so fucking weird. i need to know more#and when i searched him up the first thing i got was the inappropriate compilation#really good first impression. never recovered from it#so yeah my mental state currently is rendogs fault#anyway ive always kinda had trouble drawing him. had to pull up alot of references for this one but i think this is the happiest ive been#-with his design.#idk what it is. i think it's partially because rens got a very model like face irl and im intimidated. guy could be selling watches.#the beard + glasses combo also messes with me i think#he always looks so accursed before i slap the facial hair on him#uhhh i don't think i have any other thoughts to say. good boy good boy goodboy good boy good boy#i might make a postmortem on hadm later on rn im tired. would be fun i think. id get to finish my scrapbook
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L'APPEL DU VIDE
okay so. jack! jack. what a collection of guys. the overlap between jack and the beanstalk and jack the giant killer, though. that sure is something! sometimes king arthur is there, which always takes me by surprise.
this. specifically. is an idea I've been kicking around. jack and the beanstalk is not a story I've ever enjoyed, as a kid it was probably my least favorite to read. as an adult, I was INTENSELY fascinated by reading j.g. ballard's the drowned giant. I think about it frequently, and somewhere during a re read of it, I ended up revisiting jack.
combining different versions of jack into one character is not a new concept, but it IS a fun one! the version I've been assembling together plays less with the fun elements of a jack story (and adjacent folklore stories), and focuses more on the potential for tragic elements with the addition of the usual grim and jagged narrative edges that I personally enjoy.
jack with the backstory of the devil and the three golden hairs, only jack doesn't find love, he's TIRED, all he wants to do is go home, but there isn't a home to go back to. what is the point of being born lucky if this is what it gets you? jack the giant killer, only he doesn't want to kill giants, jack who saw a body of a giant when he was a small child and cannot bring himself to do as a king commands. jack, who climbs up the beanstalk and stops halfway to look down. etc.
to go back to the drowned giant real quick, both to set the tone about jack seeing the body of a giant as a youth, and also because I've been haunted and obsessed with this excerpt of it ever since I read it:
J. G. Ballard, The Drowned Giant
anyway! this was originally like, a two illustration concept to get out of my system. however. I'm halfway through outlining a narrative. so. maybe it will also be several illustrations and also comic.
#original tag#generic medieval tag#WAHOO. alright.#i dont have any additional commentary in the tags. reading the drowned giant years ago Did Something To Me#and it connected with whatever it was that made me dislike the jack and the beanstalk narrative (i know what it is. its just not really#all that relevant to this post. also im tired. its time for bed)#through the power of Why Not. i will now. turn it into a story????#i think. its definitely been taking up a lot of space in my mind lately#the only thing stopping me from turning it into my Side Project to do when i need a break from doing Bad Governance edits#is that. ive run out of notebooks???? to start a new story in. and i am Old and i only outline stuff by hand#eventually i'll get to daiso and pick up some new ones and work on this for real. until then. im going to continue to write about it#in my personal journal where i dump all my thoughts and ideas into
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final evos for my fakemon starters are finally done ^w^
pre-evos + extra notes under the cut
#myart#pokemon#fakemon#mycharacters#character design#the evolutions were all done w a fair amount of time between em and you can TELL#its late i went to sleep early so im up <///3#i was gonna add their dex entries and shit but im tired man#EDIT: theres more notes now
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If you're taking requests, could I request a hero x villain thing where the villain wakes up in the hero's house, totally confused, and he tries to ambush her when she arrives with food? (She has telekinetic abilities, which helps with a lot. I imagine her house would look like the Burrow from Harry Potter - a bunch of things fixing themselves and all that.) But if you aren't taking requests, feel free to ignore this. I've got plenty of your lovely stuff to read. :)
im sorry this is so late!! thank you for the request, i enjoyed this one :)
When the villain finally regains consciousness, the first thing he notices is the scratchy blanket thrown over him. The second thing he notices, when he opens his eyes, is that the blanket is not his. Nor is the house he’s in.
It’s a world away from his home downtown—a low coffee table sits next to the little sofa he’s on, decorated with thick books that have clearly never been read and a blue vase that’s collecting more dust than flowers. The low afternoon sun streams in through wide windows and envelopes the table and chairs in the corner in a warm orange, the speckled colours of a light catcher draping over the woollen rug nearby. The villain wishes he lived in a place like this, but he’d never dream of being civilian enough to need it.
He has no recollection of getting here. Where was he last? Did he get entangled with a civilian somewhere? What the hell did he do to end up here?
The villain is so caught up in scraping his memory for a clue that he doesn’t hear the door squeaking open behind him. What he does hear is the gentle “oh, good, you’re—”
Now, panic is not a good look on a villain. But frankly, waking up in an unfamiliar home and being faced with a stranger that is approaching from behind gives the villain some instincts that’ve probably saved his life more than once.
He lurches up from the sofa with a snarl, earning a rather startled yelp from the newcomer and toppling the coffee table vase to the floor. The blanket he’d attempted to throw off in his attack has curled itself around him like a snake, and he gets no further than the back of the sofa before it trips him over.
“Oh, sorry!” the person says lightly. “That was a little more intense than I intended, but I suppose I wasn’t expecting you to leap at me either.”
The villain, trying not to let onto his embarrassment at this turn of events, glances up. A hero, one he kind of recognises, is holding a tray upside-down and looking back at him. No, actually, the tray isn’t upside-down. The villain is just on the floor.
“That won’t help you heal,” she continues with a short laugh. “Come on, lets get you back on the sofa.”
The villain goes to throw himself at her with nothing but his nails, but the blanket is wrapped around him unnaturally tight. The hero settles on the armchair opposite as it curls around his shoulders, hefting him to his feet before shoving him back onto the sofa.
“What the hell is going on?” is all the villain can think to say.
The hero smiles brightly, unbothered, and sets her tray on the coffee table between them before turning her attention to her shattered vase. “You were a little worse for wear by the time I got to you,” she offers unhelpfully. “Honestly, I was a little worried. You’ve been out for some time.”
The villain watches blankly as the vase picks itself up off the floor, hovering a few inches off the ground to meticulously piece itself back together. None of it would’ve clicked if he didn’t clock the hero staring at it like it’ll disappear the moment she looks away.
“You’re telekinetic,” he says flatly.
The hero turns back to him as the vase sets itself back on the coffee table. Its perfect presentation slips as the hero lets go of it, several pieces sliding out of formation and dropping to the table. “Maybe.”
She gives him a coy smile. The blanket still has a tight hold of him, keeping him sat on the much too comfortable sofa. The sun is moving, throwing some of her face into wild yellows that brighten her face more than a hero deserves. God, the villain hates all of this.
“You got a bad wound in your battle.” The hero gestures to her side vaguely. “You need time to recover, so I would suggest you stay here until you’re better.”
“I’d much rather be at home than trapped here with you,” the villain snaps.
“Oh.” The hero tilts her head in a way that the villain knows isn’t genuine. “Well, you shouldn’t move around too much. Do you have someone at home who can look after you?”
The bitter silence that follows brings another smug smile to her lips. “Then you’ll stay here,” she says after a moment. “My house will make sure of it.”
“Can you tell your house to lay off? Your blanket is trying to strangle me.”
The hero laughs brightly, and as she does the blanket’s vice-like grip loosens slightly. “I brought you some breakfast, by the way.” She gestures to the tray, which the villain now notices has a bowl of soup and several pieces of bread on it. “It’s proven difficult to feed someone that’s unconscious, so please do make sure you eat something.”
She gets to her feet before the villain can think of anything to dispute her. “I’m just going to clean up in the kitchen. I’ll be back in twenty minutes.” She points to the tray. “I expect that to have gone down when I get back.”
With one last smile she turns on her heel and lets herself out.
The villain stares at the closed door for a moment before turning his gaze back to the steaming bowl in front of him. For god’s sake, it does smell good. He takes it in his lap, nabbing a piece of bread with him and dunking it into the soup.
The vase is slowly disintegrating, pieces dropping out of place every-so-often. The villain watches it like entertainment as he eats, but eventually it starts to get on his nerves. A quick scavenge of the hero’s drawers finds him a tiny tube of glue.
All of this is a pain in the ass. At least this gives him something to do with his hands.
#creative writing#writblr#writers on tumblr#writing#writing community#heroes and villains#hero x villain#sorry its so late!!! i usually try to get on requests earlier but alas. life#also ive just come back from visiting a friend literally yesterday#and im sure you americans think the journey isnt that bad#but it was 3 hours there and 4 hours back. no clue where the extra hour came from#nice tho!! do like a good drive. even if im trying to explode other drivers with my mind out of pure rage all the time#so. i am tired
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Have some doodles I did today, trying to build back up the motivation to draw 👉👈 we trying
#spoopydoodles#undertale#sans#sans undertale#chara#frisk undertale#chara undertale#frisk#doodle#sketch#self insert#sans the skeleton#drawing has just been hard to do lately#like motivation wise#I want to get back to it im just so tired all the time so its rough#but doodles are better then nothing
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D:BH Rarepairsweek 7 | @dbhrarepairs
Day 4 - Kara/Luther
#dbhrarepairsweek#luthara#dbh luther#dbh kara#detroit: become human#d:bh#dbhrarepairs#everytime they touch i actually go insane#the handholding? tHE HANDHOLDING?#there are also touches which i didnt include bc they include like death scene and im not abt that#i discovered that moment in the final gif the other night and it inspired me to make this#her hand just GENTLY PLACED ON HIS? AND SO FOCUSED IN FRAME HERE. DAMN.#(i truly thought i was gonna do the prompts but i didnt have time to preplan so that's why it is very sporadic.)#(i guess this cOULD be unlikely allies and they DID at one point go on a roadtrip but)#(the theme for this to me prob is just 'subtle touches' huh)#also it's a past midnight here im technically late but iT'S FINEEEE#i love the concept of them just being physically close all the time without establishing their relationship#until suddenly one day someone ELSE maybe asks and it caughts them off guard and they have to consider how they feel#OOHOOOO#i also have ideas for other gifsets for them but they need more time#ill do it after this week hehe#i have so many luthara thoughts but i am also so tired. goodnight.
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officially summer or something
#saroart#dead cells#the beheaded#🕶️#me when im at work: rabidly want to draw#me at home: drawing? dont know her#also all my creative energy has been gping into writing lately#ive probably written 100k over like 8 versions#thats an exaggeration maybe#but at least 70k for sure#maybe this latest try will work#hopefully because its been a long time and id like to publish something soonish#anyway. beheaded in a guy fieri shirt. got the beach ball back i see.#i wanted to draw a super obnoxious pattern but in the end i was too tired#me with my face pressed up to the window looking at button down shirts with loud prints that i can't afford: i want you
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quick drawing of ian
#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#shameless#shameless fanart#m does art#my art#im really sorry for being so lack when it comes to posting art lately#im just really tired like all the time now#and dont have much free time anymore#but its not an excuse! i'll try my best to post more often
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finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i dont need to pretend to simp that Guy just because everyone else in my friend group does
#finally coming out as a dyke in 2023 is realizing i can be insane abt women the same way my friends are insane abt men#life changing#mochats#im sorry to my friends who think me simping that guy was genuine#i was just trying to fit in#its a good time to admit that 90% of the time i also dont care abt male characters same way how-#-some straight women dont care abt female characters#i refuse to waste my power on a guy everyone else cares about#im tired enough and i have assignments to do#if i become an outcast for only sparing my energy on women then so be it.#i care about my friends and love them gushing abt a Guy but i personally cannot be made to care in a way they do#not just because i think (often neglected) female characters deserve more of my attention but also because-#-my attraction does influence my interest LETS BE FR HERE#growing up is realizing that putting attention on things you dont care about#is exhausting#as fuck#and i kind of hated how i feel like i wasted my youth energy drawing characters idc abt to please others#now im just tired all the time#while wishing i can draw more women more often#so like#dont do that#draw and write what YOU want#btw its not that i dont care abt men i just have such low energy lately that if i care for anything else but women — it may be unfulfilling#live laugh fatigue#every time i see a guy fanart i scroll past life has never felt so good#(unless its by a friend which i will appreciate dearly i love my friends art and how passionate they r)
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idk if you still draw merlin art that much BUT ,
i always headcanon arthur with long hair for historical accuracy . what do u think of it? what long hair would you give hin?
i’m bad at focusing on multiple things at once which is why i tend to only post art of one thing for a few months straight but trust me i think about merlin and all my other interests All The Time…. i am always up to talk about them!!!
anyways i know this probably isn’t the answer anyone wants but. historical accuracy be damned i like his hair short…… if i Had to have it longer id want it like that scruffy haircut they almost gave him in s4ish? if i remember? i love a disheveled looking man <3 im sure thats not at all what you meant by long hair though haha
consolation arthur sketch for me not being a long hair person:
#hope to get to my other asks soon ive just been. very tired lately haha i appreciate them very much though#anotherchaoticidiot#i still have so so so many merlin wips#ask#anyways im biased to giving characters short hair idk i#i really like s3/4 merlin’s really short hair i dont think he gets enough appreciation :(#i see people make fun of arthurs haircut a lot but truly i love a boring man short haircut im so sorry shfkg#there are so many other characters i see drawn with long hair all the time and its great however im so. i lovw short hair…………..#merlin
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If Peppino accidentally nicked himself with a cooking knife while in the kitchen, do you think Fake Peppino would be concerned, react like Bruce from Finding Nemo, or some other third thing 🤔
felt inspired so you get this response in Doodle Comic Format
hes never seen blood before. so now its convinced peppino is filled with Mystery Sauce that he, for some reason, isn't allowed to lick :(
im also of the opinion peppino is too confident in his knife skills so he regularly neglects safety. usually this works out, and he definitely chops like a beast, but he also cuts himself a lot especially if hes tired
#sorry for how much my art style fluctuates in such a small space of time it happens when im doodling fast jdkjs#fake peppino#peppino spaghetti#pizza tower#alloyart#barely Art but shh. sorry for posting sketches in the tag btw im just too tired to colour things lately-#anyway obligatory tag ramble#i just love the idea of fake peppi moving to eye level. staring him Dead in the eyes for like a solid 30 seconds.#then slowly sticking his tongue out#he was testing the waters! seeing if this was an Okay Response! and it was apparently Not#smh. whys peppi keeping all that mystery sauce to himself. honestly thats rude and he should share
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