#im the worst child shes even had the misfortune of being around

[pocparks]

this is a vent post lmao

[femmedesyeuxnoirs]

I am so fucking fed up with this family. My aunt is the most irresponsible, stupid, racist, rude, annoying, loud, abusive, emotionally immature, hypocritical, deranged person I have ever met in my family. I am literally ashamed to be related to that woman. She lacks so much emotional self awareness its actually unbelievable. Im not exaggerating. Think about that person you know who lacks the most self awareness of anyone youve ever met in your life. Thats her but at least ten times worse. Every day when I hear the garage door open at 5 pm I just think okay. Alright. There goes the peace and quiet. Not only does she yell at her kid, she is as of late always taking her anger out on the dog?? I havent gone a single day in this household where I havent heard screaming. She literally never taught her child how to wipe either. Like just basic life skills. She is one of the worst parents I have ever had the misfortune of observing. So of course this kid is growing up to be just like her. His trash and toys are all over the floor and after leaving used toilet paper all around the toilet he doesnt even wash his hands. Whenever I hear that inevitable flush and then immediate sound of the door opening, I know that it was him that just used the bathroom. I let him use my laptop to play minecraft too and he leaves it turned on the entire night as if I hadnt told him like 3 times to turn it off when hes not using it because it destroys the disk. And every time he gives it back to me its somehow smeared in grease and crumbs on the screen and keyboard. I dont even know how thats possible. LIke not to be hating on a child but I cant fucking stand him. He leaves messes everywhere and no one in this house tells him to clean it up. Like every time he showers he leaves his dirty clothes literally spread out all over the floor, and then leaves the floor and rugs completely wet. Last time I showered after him he had spent like an entire hour in there, and apparently had slathered conditioner or something all over the bathtub. Like why does nobody say anything??? And then my aunt is constantly having to tell him to stop being violent to the dog because he reacts to it the way his mother has always reacted to him. Im gonna be honest once I saw that she got him that dog I knew it was going to end in disaster. When he was younger he used to throw rocks at choco and make our pets angry and harm them for literally no reason. Me and my sister would tell each other that the way he behaves is some future serial killer shit. My imediate family has always had that kind of icky feeling about him. So now that he has this dog he takes his anger out on it daily. I dont even know what my aunt was thinking. I think she probably regrets getting him one because every now and then when they think i cant hear them she tells the kid “one day youre going to kill that dog...” i honestly agree with her for once. Just the other day he was running around carrying chewy lifting him high off the ground and swinging him. And he dropped. The puppy. It wasnt on purpose but that is still extremely fucked up. After that the dog got really quiet and stopped playing. I just hope he didnt cause the thing any permanent damage. Including this, these are the other ways that he mistreats and neglects his dog: he purposefully neglects feeding him, neglects cleaning his area so that hes wallowing in his own waste and urine(though this can be attributed more to my aunt being a lazy irresponsible cunt), he washes his bed and doesnt put it in the dryer so that the dog is forced to sleep in a cold wet bed, he shrieks at him to try to scare him. Like screams at the top of his lungs. It drives me completely fucking insane. He also puts on sound effects of dogs barking and growling on full volume to scare him, and is constantly hitting him while hes trying to play with him. To try to get him mad and get a rise out of him for no reason besides his own amusement. My aunt has to keep reminding him “dont hit him!!!” like several times in a row before he actually listens. This whole puppy for christmas thing is the most irresponsible thing my aunt has done. She knows that her kid is prone to abusing animals and incapable of looking after a living thing and still she gets him this dog. As a poor attempt to try to mend her horrifically broken family which is entirely her fault. I remember the day she got him chewy she recorded his reaction and posted it to facebook, which is like yeah thats what parents usually do. But the entire night you could hear her rewatching the video constantly. And I couldnt help but feel that she was doing it out of a fucked up act of self congratulation to try to convince herself and everyone on the internet that she actually isnt an abusive cunt of a mother. One of these days he is going to cause serious physical harm to this poor dog or even kill him. So you understand how I feel like this is inevitably going to end in tragedy, for the kid and the dog. Its a miracle i havent killed myself during the time ive spent here really. I might actually do it honestly. If my family doesnt forcibly commit me to the mental asylum first

[schnees-and-schnugs]

head empty baby schneebling ficlet ??? (just so yall know i had no idea what this was going to be about until i started typing so im gonna be surprised by what i write too). if it seems that winter has chronic ADHD brain in this fic its bc i have chronic ADHD brain and that’s just how i roll.

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  Winter tried to ignore the meowing as long as she could. After all, there was not a single feline creature to be found in the manor, so either she’s dreaming or hallucinating. Or maybe her ears are ringing from her father’s latest tantrum. 

  Being held hostage at the dinner table and forced to listen to his incessant barking voice ought to have caused me permanent brain damage. She smirked under her covers. Now if I can close my eyes and go back to sleep-

  “MEEEEROOOWOOW”

  What the fuck is that?

  Winter knew she ought to get up but she really did not want to. Her thighs ached from horse riding lessons earlier in the day. Her head ached from her business studies her father forced down her throat. Her soul ached from the pain of existence. She was beginning to think she was being punished for some transgression- if being unbelievably charming and sexy deserved- actually, I don’t think I’m going to finish that train of thought. 

  Winter could only tolerate her own sense of humor in small doses, but giver her situation- her entire life up to this point- she didn’t think having an unbecoming jocularity was high up on her list of Current Problems and Tragedies. In fact, it’s quite low given that her father makes up the better part of the first half. 

  She rolled onto her side, one ear muffled by her pillow, and the other under the soft thick layer of her cotton blanket. The noise seemed to have disappeared, and Winter was quite okay with that. She wondered briefly of the possibility of a mountain lion finding its way into the Schnee Estate. She wasn’t even sure if wild animals such as that existed in Solitas, much less bright and pristine Atlas. Winter wasn’t even sure if mountain lions meowed. 

  If a beast made it’s way into the manor, what would I even do? No doubt she would try to locate the animal, gather Weiss and Whitley in her arms and stow them somewhere safe. Maybe even use a piece of meat to lure the lion into father’s bedroom, she mused. Winter tried lull herself back to sleep with the thought of her father begging her for mercy as she unleashes her new pet-

  “MREEEEEEEEEEEWOOOOOOOOOOOOOW”

  Her eyes snapped open. Gods-

  A soft muffled voice followed the feline yell. A familiar voice. A voice exactly suited for one little boy she new very well. 

  Winter narrowed her eyes and listening closely. She could tell it was Whitley from the general childish sound of his tone, but due to her very comfortable position in bed, she couldn’t quite her the specifics. Huffing, she sat up and pricked up her ears.

  “... quiet....please kitty... you’re going to wake up....”

  Winter sputtered. Kitty?

  Did Whitley somehow bring a cat into the manor? She didn’t doubt that given the chance he would- he was overly fond of animals in a way that Winter never understood. Not that she hated animals per se, but the idea of the added responsibility of a pet on top of her already ever-growing responsibilities of being heir to the SDC did not sit well with her. Whitley on the other hand, being the third child, and well, and actual child, didn’t really have much to care about beyond his normal tutoring sessions. Which means that, of course he can have a tiny bird feeders outside his window to feed the little birdies and cry at the sight of a roasted chicken because how could they kill and cook and innocent little animal?

  Winter didn’t understand how a child under 10 years of age could be taken by vegan persuasions- even Father was shocked to silence at that outburst at the dinner table.

  The sound of Whitley’s voice faded out as Winter strained her ears. If he did bring a cat into the manor, she needed to fix that immediately. Father would be furious at not only being woken up in the middle of the night but Whitley breaking the strict rule of no animals whatsoever allowed indoors.

  Father is allergic.

  (What animal he’s allergic to is unknown, but Winter suspects he’s just afraid of them).

  Sliding off the bed, Winter winced at the feeling of cold tile on her bare feet. She simultaneously thought of giving Whitley a good scolding for making her roll off of bed at such an ungodly hour and thanking the Gods that Whitley’s room was right next to hers on the other side of the wall. And the farthest away from Father’s room.

  Sliding her feet into a pair of pale blue fluffy slippers, she cautiously stepped out of her room and into the hallway. The moment the clock strikes 12 the hallway lamps usually shut off on their own, leaving at least this portion of the manor pitch black until the sun rises and lights up through the windows. If Father was working late he would manually change the lights to turn off at a later time- only to suite himself, of course. Everyone else who had the misfortune of living in the manor had to finish up and be back in their rooms by midnight or suffer having to find their room in the dark among the endless doors that lined the hallway. Winter had mastered the art of blindly walking down this hall- but not without multiple mishaps and embarrassments at first, unfortunately. 

  Arms outstretched, Winter felt her way from her doorway to Whitley’s room. She kept close to the wall and tiptoed, feeling for the doorknob before pressing her ear against the room door.

  “Are you hungry little kitty?” There was an affirmative purr and Whitley hummed. “I’m going to have to find you some treats...”

  Winter could practically hear the cogs turning in his little adolescent mind. She knew for sure that Whitley was formulating a plan to break into the food storage for the animals in Mom’s garden- would they even have any cat food in there? He surely is going to be disappointed. 

  Winter sighed. She almost wished she had stayed in bed. She turned the knob and nudged open the door, prompting Whitley to softly gasp. 

  “Winnie!” She heard him quickly shift on his bed. Winter stepped fully into the space before gently closing the door behind her. She turned towards him and assessed the scene before her. Whitley, in his white nightgown, sat in the middle of the bed. He was cradling a suspicious lump wrapped up with his blanket while his round face was contorted by a small frown as he stared back at his oldest sister.

  “Father says that we shouldn’t leave out room after midnight”, the lump shifted and Whitley clutched it tighter.

  “Father also says we aren’t allowed to bring animals into the manor...” Winter crossed her arms over her chest. “What’s that on your lap?”

  “Nothing!”

  “Are you sure?” Whatever annoyance Winter felt melted away at the sight of Whitley pouting. She sauntered playfully to the edge of his bed and wiggled and finger in his face. “Are you lying to me? Your older sister Winnie? You’re lying to me?”

  Whitley broke eye contact. “Well...” The lump mewed and a furry white paw extended from out of the cover of the blanket. Winter raised a brow.

  “That looks suspiciously like a cat.” Winter crawled into his bed and uncovered the little creature. The cat loafed on Whitley’s lap, grooming the pristine white fur on around its pink paw beans. It looked to be a few years old. 

  “Isn’t it pretty?” Whitley caressed the cat’s back, having already moved on from the earlier argument. Winter tried to pat its head but the little critter swiftly dodged her palm and scampered to the edge of the bed and curled up, seemingly to sleep. Rude.

  There’s a more present matter at hand anyways.

  “Where did you find it?” Winter turned her attention back to her little brother.

  “Her”

  “What?”

  “It’s a she, Winnie! Look at her butt!” Winter politely declined the suggestion. She had no interest in inspecting the cat’s backside- she didn’t seem to like Winter anyways.

  “Well, where did you find her?” 

  “I didn’t find her! Mr. Hartley gave her to me”

  “The grounds keeper?”  Winter scoffed. “Why would he give you a cat?”

  He narrowed his eyes at her. “Why don’t you don’t believe me?” His eyes started to brim with tears and he grabbed Winters right hand with his own two smaller ones. “Father said we’re not allowed to bring animals in here but I didn’t know what to do! Mr. Hartley said he’s leaving but he can’t take her with him. I said I would keep her. But Father is going to yell at me if he finds out- I’m scared...” 

  Winter’s chest ached at the desperation in Whitley’s voice. This isn’t normal is it? For a child to be so terrified of their parent like this. When she was his age, she felt the same way- so scared and vulnerable. It was the end of the world to get negative attention from Father, and most of the time it seemed to be the only type of attention he gave. It almost seemed par for the course all those years ago. She didn’t know any better- it was just the norm.

  Looking at Whitley, petrified like she was- she could see the abuse from the outside. Almost as if she’s watching her own experiences and she’s chained to a front row seat. Except she didn’t have an older sibling to hold her hand and to share the pain with. To protect her. To defend her. Isn’t that what she always wanted in the worst days of the past? Couldn’t she be that now?

  Whitley couldn’t keep the cat. There was no amount of convincing that could make Father give in- it’s always been about his own ego, more than anything. But that doesn’t mean that Father has to know this cat was ever here in the first place. Atlas has plenty of animal shelters, and having a pet cat was in vogue now. She would convince Whitley to let Klein take the cat to the nearest one in the morning. Father would never know if they were discrete. 

  “Winnie...” Whitley’s bright blue eyes searched her face.

  Winter grabbed him under his arms, and with little struggle, sat him between her stretched out legs. She hugged him around the waist from behind and softly told him her plan. 

  “... do you want to do this with me?”

  Whitley sniffed. “I can’t keep her?”

  “Father won’t allow you to. We can make sure the kitty is safe and taken care of though... Klein will do this for us, I know it. You won’t get yelled at and you can tell her goodbye in the morning. Father will be none the wiser.”

  “What does that mean?”

  “It means that he’ll never know.”

  Whitley was quiet for a few seconds before Winter felt him nod softly beneath her chin. “Can I sleep with her tonight?”

  Winter blinked. She forgot it was currently hours past Whitley’s bedtime. He must be half asleep.

  “Yes. Just make sure to keep her in your room, okay? I’ll leave a message for Klein to see in the morning. Don’t...” She paused. She noticed Whitley breath start to even out as he fell asleep against her.

  I suppose I’m going to be sleeping her tonight also. She needed to make sure that this all goes well. However, Winter couldn’t ignore the uneasiness in the pit of her stomach. Was she just getting Whitley used to this? Hiding secrets out of fear? Was she allowing Father to have his way in Whitley’s eyes? Getting Whitley accustomed to living under Father’s thumb? She was just trying to protect him. But she couldn’t shake the feeling of selfishness, that she was denying Whitley happiness for the sake of peace with their Father.

  Mom always told her to choose her battles carefully. 

  She couldn’t help but feel that if she chose all the wrong ones, she’ll end up hurting Whitley beyond repair.

[padawanlost]

i have to admit im still a bit confused as how Vader still carry on the chosen one prophecy through out OT. i know georges said he still is and i trust the man's vision but imo killing out sidious for selfish reasons too (luke) doesnt counterbalance the fact the force was plunged in darkness by 3 decades of genocide. what do you think? (ps: thank you so much for all the wonderful metas)

Hey! Thanks :) The Chosen One prophecy is a bit complicated as is Anakin’s role in everything so I’ll break it all down in parts:

“You have got to remember that this is one movie, and it’s meant to be seen I through VI. So, I think when you watch the actual movie in order, the story will become very clear: that Anakin is the Chosen One. And even when Anakin turns into Darth Vader, he is still the Chosen One.” - George Lucas

The prophecy of the Chosen One

The Chosen One prophecy was made thousands of years before the events of the movies. by the time TPM starts, it’s considered a myth by most so they don’t know *exactly* what it means and how they supposed to deal with it. As we saw with Anakin’s visions, prophecies are tricky. 

Because some Jedi have been able to use the Force to anticipate possible future events, it is not surprising that Jedi records relate various accounts of prophecies. The Great Holocron contains many references to the prophecy of the Chosen One: A Jedi will come To destroy the Sith And bring balance to the Force. Records are unclear about this prophecy’s exact origin, or whether the above words were the actual prophecy or a concise interpretation. Several accounts indicate that the prophecy was the subject of debate as far back as twelve hundred years ago, but it may in fact be much older. However, records do establish that approximately two hundred years before the Battle of Yavin, Jedi Masters became aware of an abrupt change in the shape of the Force, and many believed that a looming sense of dread pointed to the growing power of the dark side; some Jedi suggested that the Sith had returned, while others—maintaining that the Sith were extinct��dismissed this notion. But as time passed without any indication of Sith activity, the Jedi Master Yoda proposed that the gathering darkness was a sign of the coming fulfillment of the prophecy of the Chosen One. According to Master Yoda via the Great Holocron: Fully defeated by just anyone, the dark side cannot be, but only by the Chosen One. And who might be this Jedi? Know I do not, but not yet born is he or she. This much, sense I can. A vessel of pure Force the Chosen One will be, more powerful than any Jedi in history. [Ryder’s Windham’s Jedi vs. Sith: The Essential Guide to the Force ]

Another man—even another Jedi—might have resented the rebuke, but Obi-Wan only sighed. “I suppose—he is the chosen one, after all. The prophecy says he was born to bring balance to the Force, but …” The words trailed off. He couldn’t remember what he’d been about to say. All he could remember was the look on Anakin’s face. “Yes. Always in motion, the future is.” Yoda lifted his head and his eyes narrowed to thoughtful slits. “And the prophecy, misread it could have been.” [Matthew Stover. Revenge of the Sith]

She blinked as though he’d slapped her. “Why—that seems … unlikely, doesn’t it? What about this prophecy the Jedi put so much faith in? Isn’t he the chosen one?” “Very probably. But I have scanned this prophecy; it says only that a chosen one will be born and bring balance to the Force; nowhere does it say he has to be a Jedi.” She blinked harder, fighting down a surge of desperate hope that left her breathless. “He doesn’t have to—?” “My Master, Qui-Gon Jinn, believed that it was the will of the Force that Anakin should be trained as a Jedi—and we all have a certain, oh, I suppose you could call it a Jedi-centric bias. It is a Jedi prophecy, after all.” [Matthew Stover. Revenge of the Sith]

They knew very little of the prophecy but they *assumed* the chosen one had to be a powerful Jedi and that his role was to defeat the Sith. They didn’t know fro sure what the prophecy said about what balance meant or that this chosen one had to be ONLY a Jedi. but, because they couldn’t fathom the possibility of someone who isn’t a Jedi defeating the Sith, the moment Anakin stopped being a Jedi they automatically dismissed him as the Chosen one in favor of Luke. of course, that doesn’t mean Anakin stopped being the actual Chosen One.

The Balance:

If good and evil are mixed things become blurred - there is nothing between good and evil, everything is grey. In each of us we have balanced these emotions, and in the Star Wars saga the most important point is balance, balance between everything. It is dangerous to lose this.” George Lucas

The one thing everyone seemed to agree on was that the Chosen One was to bring balance but what was balance? It wasn’t 2 Sith//2 Jedi. It wasn’t a world free of evil or conflict. It was a world where good and evil could coexist without one or the other trying to dominate the Force. It wasn’t political, it wasn’t about ending wars and religious/political groups. The balance was about the Force and in this case the Sith were the ones unbalancing the Force so the Chosen one’s job was to defeat the Sith.  

We know the Force was ‘unbalance’ by Plagueis and Palpatine’s experiments but ALSO by the Jedi Order’s inability/unwillingness to prevent the ever growing corrupting in the Senate and all the problems it caused in the rest of the galaxy Surprise and disbelief mingled in Sidious’s blue eyes. 

“The Force?” “Yes,” Plagueis said pensively. “But I failed to exercise due caution. As we attempt to wrest the powers of life and death from the Force, as we seek to tip the balance, the Force resists our efforts. Action and reaction, Sidious. Something akin to the laws of thermodynamics. I have been audacious, and the Force has tested me the way Tenebrous sought to. Midi-chlorians are not easily persuaded to execute the dictates of one newly initiated in the mysteries. The Force needs to be won over, especially in work that involves the dark side. It must be reassured that a Sith is capable of accepting authority. Otherwise it will thwart one’s intentions. It will engineer misfortune. It will strike back.” “The Maladians—” “Perhaps. But in any case this is why the Jedi Order has descended into decadence and is dragging the Republic down with it. Because the Jedi have lost the allegiance of the Force. Yes, their ability to draw energy from the Force continues, but their ability to use the Force has diminished. Each of their actions engenders an opposite, often unrecognized consequence that elevates those attuned to the dark side; that buoys the efforts of the Sith and increases our power. Yet our use of that power requires delicacy. We must be alert to moments when the light side falters and openings are created. Then, and only then—when all the conditions have been met—can we act without fear of meeting resistance or repercussion. “To say that the Force works in mysterious ways is to admit one’s ignorance, for any mystery can be solved through the application of knowledge and unrelenting effort. As we had our way with the Senate, and as we will soon have our way with the Republic and the Jedi, we will have our way with the Force.” [ James Luceno. Darth Plagueis]

Yoda’s reinforces this idea when he says their vision is clouded by the dark side. Everything is muddled so they can no longer see clearly. 

“The first film starts with the last age of the Republic; which is it’s getting tired, old, it’s getting corrupt. There’s the rise of the Sith, who are now becoming a force, and in the backdrop of this you have Anakin Skywalker: a young boy who’s destined to be a very significant player in bringing balance back to the Force and the Republic. George Lucas - from the American ANH VHS tape in the making of Episode II in the 2000 release.

To bring balance is to ‘clear’ the Force. It’s not about eradicating Sith or saving Jedi. The Force is beyond of that. the Chosen One’s job is about cleaning the slate clean, regardless of political agenda. Of course, it doesn’t mean the Jedi *had* to way. Anakin could and should’ve chosen a different path. Nothing was set in stone. but the path he did choose doesn’t mean he stopped being the chosen. The fact he accomplished his mission by making the worst possible choices doesn’t mean he didn’t accomplish his mission as the Chosen One. In the end Anakin’s saved the Jedi, destroyed the Sith and help restore the Republic. And with that, he restored the balance. It’s not about erasing what happened before it’s about making things better from that point on.

Anakin Skywalker

“What the whole story is about” is a mishmash of tales as old as tale-telling: A young boy, plucked from obscurity by elite beings who believe he is somehow blessed, who grows up under their wise tutelage, becomes corrupted by power and evil, and then must finally face his own son – equally trained, equally tempted – in a battle to the death. – George Lucas

Anakin was the chosen but the world of around him didn’t protect him and that influenced his behavior. Anakin didn’t made bad choices because he was born a bad person, he made bad choices because of how he was raised and everything that happened to him. it has nothing to do with his chosen one status. Anakin was born because of the Force but it had no control over how people treated him and how he reacted to their treatment. Everyone had free will, everyone used it and things happened as they did. It’s as true for Anakin as it’s for every other kid in world. The fact a child shows promise doesn’t mean the child shouldn’t be protected and raised right. and if the kid does grow up to do bad things it doesn’t mean the kid never had any talent. 

Also, the prophecy doesn’t say Chosen One had to do anything out of the goodness of his heart. He had to bring balance. How and why he’d accomplished that wasn’t set in stone. The fact Anakin sacrificed himself to save his son doesn’t mean Anakin didn’t save the galaxy. I’d even argue that Anakin’s sacrifice wasn’t selfish. The fact he was thinking about his son doesn’t mean he was only thinking about himself. Personal sacrifice, by definition, is not a selfish act. It doesn’t mean the person is wholly selfless but the act itself is not a selfish one.

TL;DR:

The force wasn’t out of balance because the Sith were evil, because the Jedi were killed or because innocents were dying. People have been killing each other for thousands of years before the Force was considered ‘out of balance’. What changed was the Sith experimenting with it and the Jedi’s withdrawal from the galaxy. To correct that the Force created a child that would eventually fixed that. the child was called Anakin Skywalker and he corrected the situation by destroying the Sith, ensuring the survival of a new and better kind of Jedi and by ending a war that would lead to a creation of new, less corrupt government safe from the influence of the dark side.

So, yeah, Anakin was always the chosen one even when he was Darth Vader and George’s claims are backed by the lore :)

[vfdbaudelairefile13]

Misery Loves Company Part 2:

Meet Esmé Squalor:

The city's sixth most important financial advisor, powerhouse fashionista, and fixated on revenge coke addict. Esmé takes no time showing the orphans that she is just as scary and dangerous as Olaf and sometimes they think she is the worst of the two. Esmé has one thing on her mind and that is her precious sugar bowl which she vows she will steal back or she will burn the entirety of VFD down trying.

Esmé has no problem with any of the vicious acts that Olaf suggests. She is down for just about anything he has in mind. Murder? Yes. Very in. Kidnapping? Yes. Completely In. Arson? Yes. The innest thing since aqueous martinis. And making sure a young child is never able to sleep peacefully again? In her words that 'deliciously in'. The children have a new villain to watch out for and believe it or not...shes more unstable than Olaf.

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[Trigger warning: subtle and not so subtle hints at Esme and Olafs hideous and devious intentions with teenaged orphans. Please read with caution]

Olaf was driving like an absolute psychopath as he raced from the burning hospital to the rundown carnival in the hinterland. He was angry. He felt defeated. Not only did those three blasted orphans escape his clutches AGAIN, now apparently someone had survived one of the fires...which one? He did not know. But that bastard, Jacques Snicket, seemed so sure of it when Olaf was watching that video. *stupid fucking VFD and their stupid fucking members escaping their well deserved deaths!* he thought as he growled as loud as he could. And to make matters worse while he was driving this way all he could think about was the woman who broke his heart so many years ago and so many times since then because he was driving just like her.

"YOU IDIOTS LET MY PRETTY LITTLE PET RUN AWAY!" He yelled hitting his fists as hard as he could on the steering wheel.

"Well technically boss..." the bald man spoke up. "She didn't *run away* the bookworm rolled her away on a gurney,"

Olaf growled again. "Oh. How I *cannot* wait to obliterate *that* brat! Oh, he thinks I've been brutal before, he hasnt the faintest fucking idea! And if you dont shut your mouth YOU WILL FEEL MY WRATH AS WELL!" Olaf yelled.

Now everyone in the car shifted a little, even Esmé who was unamused at the whole situation but kind of fearing for her life as he drove like a unpredictable madman. But...when I say that everyone in the car shifted a little...I mean *everyone* and even the three secret passengers in the trunk shifted a little especially Klaus Baudelaire who started to shake.

"Klaus...Klaus...you're fine," Violet whispered desperately reaching around for his hand. Once she found it she squeezed his hand tightly trying to keep him in reality with her and Sunny.

"We shouldnt have gotten in this trunk," Klaus whispered back. "He is going to kill Sunny and I...and..." he stopped talking when he looked towards Violet, who frowned. Both older orphans knew what Olaf would do to Violet if given the chance. Hell, both older orphans knew what Esme wanted to do with Klaus if given the chance. They both feared that even Sunny, by now,  Had a faint idea of what Olaf was talking about. "Why did....you *make me*... get in his trunk," klaus cried as he began to sob. Sunny turned her head towards her brother.

"Shhhh," Sunny pleaded. "Quiet," she reminded Klaus.

"We're going to die..." he whispered fearfully.

Violet frowned as she held klaus' hand tighter and grabbed Sunnys hand with her free hand. "I got you guys," she whispered. "I'll always protect you,"

"We know," sunny whispered back.

"Can you believe there is a SURVIVOR!?" Olaf shouted and then he screamed in pure anger. "Just when Ithought I was winning! I framed them for my MURDER for fucks sake! I HAD that pretty little brat!" He screamed angrily.

Violet shuddered and Sunny put a comforting hand in hers.

Esme scoffed and rolled her eyes when he mentioned Violet being 'pretty' again. He turned to her. "THIS IS YOUR FAULT!"

"HOW THE FUCK IS THIS *MY* FAULT!?" She asked angrily. "It was YOUR idea to use the girl as bait!"

"But you let the Baudelaires take the Snicket bitch right out the operating theater!"

"YOU SET THE HOSPITAL ON FIRE! I GOT THE FUCK OUT OF THERE!" she yelled. "He was standing right next to YOU. Why didnt ypu do anything!"

"HE WAS HOLDING THE LARGE KNIFE YOU GAVE TO HIM!" Olaf yelled back. "The plan was to use the girl as BAIT! NOT have him actually kill her! She is our key to BOTH fortunes!"

Esme gave a wicked smirk. "Oh...that was the plan? I must've forgot,"

"You pathetic jealous bitch!" He yelled.

"Oh *Im* pathetic? You've lost to these children for MONTHS now!"

"YOUVE LOST TO THEM TOO!"

"If I was in charge of this entire thing, those two girls would be dead and the boy would be our little prisoner," Esme replied wickedly smiling.

This made Klaus shiver and Sunny put her free hand in his the same way she had for Violet.

"You wouldnt have the SNICKET fortune if you killed the Snicket bitch you dumb bitch!"

Esme smiled wickedly at Olaf again. "I dont need Lemony's fortune...hell, unlike *you* I dont need Beatrice's fortune either," she laughed. "No what *I* want is to make *Beatrice's little mommy's boy suffer* " Esme tapped her long nails against her window. "Of course I also want back what's *mine*!"

Olaf rolled his eyes. "*So do I*!" He screamed. "But NOW one or two of them might not be inheritors of ANYTHING! SINCE THERES A FUCKING SURVIVOR!"

"Darling...youre honestly looking at *that* all wrong. I think this is good news," Esme replied

 Olaf responded by pushing his foot harder on the pedal.

"How is that a GOOD THING!?" hr asked.

"Well...think about it. Whoever it is. We will get to kill," esme pointed out. "I personally hope its Beatrice. I'd love to kill that sugar bowl snatching bitch...ooooh and we could make her children watch!"

"Or we can torture her children in front of her," Olaf pointed out smiling.

"Who do you think the survivor is boss?" The hook handed man asked.

"I dont know. If its Bertrand...well that's the least exciting option. But Esme's right...if its Beatrice, torturing her or her precious son and daughter would be fun."

"What about Snicket?" The henchperson of indeterminate gender asked.

Olaf pushed hard on the brakes causing everyone to ram forward a bit. His car came to a screeching halt. Violet, who had the misfortune of getting into the trunk first was squished harshly against the end of the trunk as Klaus tried to shift himself away from violet to give her room. Violet had let go of Klaus' hand in attempt to shield Sunny from hitting anything. Olaf turned around to face his henchperson. "I doubt that its Snicket...but...if it is...let's just say when I find his pretty pipsqueak daughter...I will make him watch as I *destroy* her entirely and then I will make her watch as I murder her father agonizingly slow and then I'll murder that stupid fucking bookworm and biting brat in front of her too," he hissed causing Violet to start shaking.

He took a deep breath and began driving again. Esme huffed in annoyance as the hook handed man did his best to hide a disgusted face.

Klaus looked to Vi. "Speaking of that...did he...?"

Violet wiped a few tears from her eyes. "I dont know...while I was conscious, no. Esme kept barging in before he could do more than touch my face or leg. But... when I was unconscious...I dont know. Wouldnt I know? Like...wouldnt I feel different?" She whispered as she began to sob quietly.

Klaus sighed. He didnt know the answer to that. He just gave Violet a small smile. "Yes, I think you would feel different. So if you feel the same then he didnt," he lied as he shifted his arm under her head to give her head some support. He had no way of knowing...and he feared that Violet would never get a true answer.

Violet nestled closer to Klaus and Sunny as she shivered form the cold mountain air that seeked in through the bullet holes of Olafs trunk. Klaus and Sunny could hear her whimpers and shivers. Klaus tried his best to take off his suit jacket from where he laid but he couldnt. Sunny shifted to lay more on Violet to act as a blanket for her. "Violet..." klaus whispered.

"Yeah," she replied back in a hushed tone as she wiped a few tears from her eyes.

"I just wanna say this... if I ever find out that he *did* hurt you or if he ever *does* hurt you like *that*...or if he continues to try to hurt you like *that* **I'll castrate him myself...**" klaus whispered. Violet looked towards her brother and even in the cold, dark trunk of their worst nightmare's car, she could see the dark look in his eyes.

"Klaus...you dont..."

"Oh you're right," he replied. "I'll hold him down and let you do it if youd rather.."

Violet gave a small chuckle to that.

"Darling! I've been thinking about what you said back in crow town,"

"What did I say back in crow town?" Olaf asked confused as he continued to drive like a psycho.

"Well... you said that the boy was much more fun to torture than either one of the girls...and *you're right!*" Esme recalled. "So why dont we just keep him,"

Olaf growled. "Wr are keeping the Snicket bitch! That little tease has another thing coming..."

"We are keeping the boy..." esme demanded in a tone that made Klaus shudder.

"Why dont we just keep who we catch first?" The hook handed man replied. "Besides when we left the hospital the brats were stuck in a utility closet...I doubt they all made it out,"

Olaf snickered at this. "It would be nice if one or two of them burned to a crisp...just like their parents," he began smiling and laughing.

"Well, except the survivor," the henchperson of indeterminate gender replied.

This sent Olaf into another screaming and raging fit.

Esme rubbed her temples. "I just want my sugar bowl...that's it...that's all. I'm down with murder, kidnapping, and making it to where little children cant have another peaceful night of sleep but I AM NOT DOWN WITH THE YELLING AND THE INSANE DRIVING!!!!"

"Fuck off...we are almost to Caligari Carnival. Then we can ask Madame Lulu where to find that little Snicket tease and the two other ugly brats," Olaf replied.

Esme rolled her eyes. *I will kill that fucking brat. Hes not touching any girl related to that bitch Katherine* she thought as she continued to rub her temples. 

Esme was not someone who was used to someone telling her that she cant have her way. She was too rich, beautiful, and powerful for *that* bullshit but as she sat in the passenger seat of Olaf's car she was beginning to think that shed have to take matters into her own hands if she was going to get what she wanted. Olaf seemed determined to have the Snicket brat as a captive...and Esme would rather have the infant than the Snicket girl.

"Do we have any wine? I'm parched and I heard wine is very in this time of year,"

"We have some in the trunk. I would be happy to get it if we stopped," the hook handed man replied.

The three children froze. Violet put her arm around Sunny tightly as Klaus put his arm around Violet to hold her and Sunny, who laid on top of Violet hoping to keep her warm, put a loving hand on Violet and her other on Klaus. Their hearts stopped as Olaf stopped the car.

[astranxmica]

Kids headcanon thingy for CanaryCorp

sara x lex’s kids || ( headcanon )

BEWARE ITS GONNA BE A BIGGUN, blame @corruptcorporateexecutive

cut because its looooong

pregnancy

do the parents have one child or are there twins, triplets, etc.? one boy and then twins

what do the parents name the baby(ies)? leander and then louene and lincoln

did the parents discuss other names, too? yep especially about breaking the L thing

how do they decide on the name(s)? they just knew it when it was right

what would the child have been named if they had been the opposite sex? quentin, dinah, lenanna 

did the parents find out the sex during pregnancy or is it a surprise? found out ( Lex had an army of nurses and doctors run an entire genetic panel on all of the kids )

were there any complications in the pregnancy? nope 

which parent carried the baby? sara obviously

how easy was it for them to conceive? none of the children took any effort other than obstaining from birth control

was the child carried to term? leander was a week late; the twins were a week early

did the parents deliver in a hospital, at home, or somewhere else? leander was at home in a pool and she was at a hospital with two twins cus she wanted an epidural 

did the delivery go according to plan? perfectly, sara was a champ

did the parents have any daily rituals (reading to their belly, etc.)? lex dotes on sara, does every cute dad thing, and tries to make her slow down; sara relies on eastern medicine which lex finds ridiculous, but would never say so to sara

do the parents have a baby shower? sara didn’t want one, but lex threw a huge one for her regardless and she actually liked it 

what about a babymoon? babymoon hell yeah. they both dropped everything for the kids, especially leander. 

how supportive was the other parent during the pregnancy? Lex was fantastic, despite public opinion watching him like a hawk

which parent worried the most and which one was chill? lex was much more worried, sara wanted to go out and kick ass the whole time

which parent left pregnancy books all over the house and which didn’t touch them? they both watched what to expect when expecting a lot

infancy/toddler

is the child a good sleeper? they all slept excellently

how often does the child cry? the twins soothed one another and leander needed lex more nights than not 

which parent finds it easier to get them to stop? lex is amazing, but they both are great with them

how does the child behave at bath time? they are all the. best

what is the child’s first word? leander - cheeyos ( cherios ); louene - dada; lincoln - marmie 

how bad do the child’s diapers smell and which parent has the misfortune of changing them? the worst because of crazy healthy diet parents going wild; and its totally lex, cuz sara does enough

which parent has a harder time adapting to their new role? sara

just how terrible are the terrible twos? the WORST; they know what they’re doing; evil baby geniuses

does the child go to day care? if they do, how old are they when they start? they start socializing at the premiere mother’s day out when they’re two, and sara uses the time to crime fight

if the child doesn’t go to day care, who says home to look after them? oh but they do

which parent babyproofs the house? both of them

which parents designs the baby room? also both

which parent is more likely to give in to tantrums? lex

is the child spoiled with toys? yes, they are spoiled with everything

which parent does the potty training? sara

which parent has to take them outside to hose them down after a particularly nasty diaper? sara cuz ew

which parent do they take after more? leander & lincoln – sara; louene – lex

what habits do they pick up from their parents? mischief, fighting, affection for science, chess prodigies, always having to be right, dopey smiles, killer glares, fearless loyalty, stubborn af, tinking with electronics af, geek af, badass af,

how often is the parents’ date night now? they generally manage once a week even if its only them having private sex marathon time together

who babysits when the parents go out? the lances, because sara doesn’t really trust the luthors other than lena

child

how did the parents decide what school to send the child to? or was the child home-schooled? lex sent them to the best schools, sara didn’t let him send them to boarding school insisting they stay with her in the manor

who packs the lunches? the benefits of being a luthor, they were made by chefs

are the lunches eaten by the child, or thrown away? always eaten and  loved

which parent helps with homework? lex is dedicated to his children

what does the report card look like? ALL A’s OF COURSE

is the child/ren popular, or only have a few friends? they’re a pack of wolves

does the child play a sport? fencing for all of them, louene is the best

does the child play an instrument? lex had them all classically trained-- louene plays the cello, leander the piano, lincoln the drums ( the violin didn’t stick )

do both parents turn up to the matches/recitals? always and you better not say a bad word about any of their talented kickass children

which parent buys their clothes? or does the child pick out their own clothes? dual effort, but lincoln is the most particular 

what’s the child’s style? louene is uptight and prim and can kick ass too; lincoln is her polar opposite and is a bad boy with a drumset; and leander is a total hipster

is the child more interested in playing inside or outside? both boys are more into it then louene

how often does the child get in trouble? what do they get in trouble for? they are too smart to get in trouble

does the child have any siblings/cousins? how well do they get along? pack of wolves, you’d have to. be an idiot to go up against the luthor children

what pet does the child beg for? do they get it? a dog named jeeves

is the child shy and reserved, or outgoing and gregarious? Lincoln > Leander > Louene

does the child still take after the same parent they did as a toddler? they are a rather equal split– a straight up mix

teen

what does the child want to be/do when they finish school? louene: lead L Corp; lincoln: a musician; leander: an astronaut 

which parent does the child get along with better? literally they a wolf pack family

is the child out all night partying and drinking with their friends, or staying in studiously doing homework? or both? both, but louene is the hardest to get to go out

how does the child go on their SATs? do they make it to the SATs? they all kill them, but lincoln hides his scores from his parents for months

does the child go to prom with their friends, or a partner? they all manage dates; Lex and Sara give them death glares before they leave

how do the parents feel about their first boyfriend/girlfriend? sara *flipping knives* and lex with a shovel talk to the boys especially 

what are the child’s friends like? do they get along with the parents? they tend to stick together, but the boys definitely have crushes on Louene’s friends

what kind of music is the child into? all sorts like all sorts, and they all end up sharing their music with one another in some melting pot of sound

how do the parents and child/ren go learning to drive? is it a disaster, or does it go fairly smoothly? Sara holds on for dear life, Lex laughs while they do donuts in the parking lot

does the child have a casual/part time job? what is it? sara is a big proponent about them working, but lex gives them extra cash and summer internships without question

does the child hang out with their family, or are they too ‘cool’ now? wolf pack again

what’s the child’s personality like? louene:  a little luthor queen; leander: too cool for school the all-star athlete and genius; lincoln: part of the band and rebel to boot, but dont mess with his fam

who does the child take after now? they are a perfect mix of noble captain and corrupt executive

adult

does the child make it to adulthood? all of them do don’t make me think sad thoughts, question. that’s rude af

does the child end up in the job/lifestyle they dreamed about? why? yep they all do, including lincoln who became a bit of a pop/rock star

are their any hiccups in the road? tons, but sara and lex are always there

does the child move far away from their family, or stay close? licoln is a jet setter, louene runs the company and has sunday dinner every week, leander becomes a philanthropist physician without expecting it 

what would the parents prefer? they all be happy

does the child have any significant others? any children of their own? eventually, louene settles down with a genius engineer and has one kid (alexander); lionel never marries but is a devoted uncle; leander marries a pulitzer prize winning journalist and has five children

how do the parents feel about being or not being grandparents? they love being grandparents

[alphanyawa]

1 Potato 🥔

2 Potato 🥔 🥔

3 Potato 🥔 🥔🥔, 4

Lil Pickaninny

You’re only Just a Hoe.

It’s QWhite Disarming

To live Freely above Rights

And Daddy is the Oga at the top

So I can gamble my life

Your womb I enter like a suppository

Only I decide when to come out

Your virtues I steal, Because I can

It’s the only way I feel like a Man.

They say silence is Golden, because Silence has a price.

So Tell me Batisse, Will £5 Million suffice ?

DEAR BEAUTIFUL  WOMEN OF THE WORLD ALL CREEDS & COLOURS

I LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING THAT I AM. I LOVE SO MUCH I HAVE LEARNED TO BE NUMB TO IT. IF I ACTUALLY FEEL AND SHOW HOW MUCH I REALLY LOVE IT MIGHT KILL ME.

TO THOSE WOMEN WHO WERE TOLD IT WAS YOUR FAULT 

You were blamed out of fear, It wasn’t your fault, the people around you were miseducated, they didn’t know how to address how you were feeling. They have never had to do it.  We as a society do a lot out of fear, because we have been shushed when we tried to tell the truth, or stand up for ourselves. We have been developed to believe we can never make a difference. You think, I am one woman what can I do…?

THE SAD TRUTH IS THAT IT HAPPENED, AND IM SORRY THAT IT DID. YOU NEED TO FACE THE REALITY OF IT. IT HAPPENED. NOT FOR REAL IT HARD, BUT IT’S NECESSARY TO FACE IT. 

THIS IS IT NOW, ITS NOT YOUR FAULT FOR REAL, BUT WHAT YOU DO NOW, AFTER IS YOUR FAULT, YOUR RESPONSIBILITY, YOU CANNOT BE FEARFUL!!! USE THAT PAIN TO DEVELOP YOUSELF FULLY. THE WORST IS OVER AND IT IS NOW TIME TO FACE THE WOMAN THAT YOU BECAME AND DECIDE WHETHER YOU LIKE HER. IF YOU DO NOT KNOW WHO YOU ARE YOU MUST WORK ON YOURSELF UNTIL,YOU DO LIKE THE WOMAN IN MIRROR. SHE IS BEAUTIFUL I ASSURE YOU, AND THE SCARS OF HER BATTLES THAT SHE HAS FACED AND WON IS WHAT MAKES HER MORE BEAUTIFUL. 

Your personal philosophy, will determine what kind of future you have. You are not a tree if you do not like something change it, all authority is given to you. I know what religion says I know what Mum and Dad say I know what society says but you cannot expect change if you’re following the same set of rules. Change it up, This is how your life will change not by chance not because a magical man in the sky. The universe gives guidance but we’ve become so distanced from ourselves we let another person, or thing dictate who we should be.

  It is a shame that we live in a world that is ready to hear comforting lies, than be told the cold hard truth. Humans are incredibly complex we don’t always react as we are supposed to do. We can be governed with such great pride. We often forget that unity is the very thing that keeps us together. we tend to be so self absorbed we forget to put other peoples thoughts, and feeling beyond our own.  You are not a hoe. I am sorry if your virtues were stolen from you. I’m sorry if the most delicate part of you was violated. I’m sorry for the Men in your life that presented themselves to believe that is all men should do it is not. They are not supposed to exert their strength over you, to hurt you, they are meant to stand up, for you and protect you. It is imperative now more than ever for us to teach women to be who they really are.

My Dearest Love, You know who you are,

I’m sorry for what you went through, and that you are not receiving the support you would want. You will need to have an understanding heart in order to where your Mother is coming from. I am by no means defending her because what she said isn’t right. You do however need to take into account that she was miseducated by the women and men around her. In softening your heart towards her, you will find it easier to educate her on what you went through what she said wasn’t right, and is probably going to leave you angry and feeling burdened. I urge you not to be too angry at her, use the opportunity wisely. A large majority of African women were heavily miseducated, they were taught their needs are secondary to a man’s. She is not saying it because she hates you. She truly believes what she says is correct. Try to build her knowledge, and help her help you.

I have been a victim of sexual abuse & harassment and as a woman you’re already vulnerable. We live in a patriarchal society which seems to offer us no protection. If we are raped our moral and modesty are questioned. Growing up most females are given the mentality that if you get raped it is your fault. This is a heavy burden to put on an victim. Why doesn’t the abuser get any of the blame. It is down to the fact that  unfortunately as women we are viewed merely as sex objects we are almost dismissed as people.

People that are prone to abuse our children are never the strangers that we warned our children of, or the that our parents warned us off. They are normally the people closest to us, the ones we give access or have access to our lives. Uncles, Fathers, Siblings, Teachers, so forth. It is unfortunate that this occurs, but we should stop misleading our children into believing only a strange man could do it. Most of us were abused by someone everyone knew and if we were to speak the truth we would be ostracised for doing so.  they know what they are doing and often find themselves in place where they can exploit their authority or position of power in order to satisfy their sick needs. we need to start speaking up and supporting one another to make allegations stick. Many women, people fear reporting because they are afraid nothing with ever happen. They also fear being blamed. 

Many black women experience harassment, and abuse at the hands of white men who see us as nothing more than sex object. Black Women are more so sexualised than any other kinds of women due to our overt curvature, and also from the Master/Slave mentality which still exists till today.  Or we are fetishized by our abusers. Many women are offered hush money to keep their mouth shut. Imagine someone’s dignity, and self worth being manipulated so a monster is not revealed for what they truly are. 

  http://www.complex.com/pop-culture/2016/05/hollywood-child-abuse-timeline

One word

WEINSTEIN, 

OR RATHER  Should we call it  THE WEINSTEIN EFFECT

  Much like Jimmy Saville, in the UK. Who only after his death the truth of his true nature came out.  Even Gary Glitter who was seemingly too close to Tessa Dahl, Roald Dahl’s daughter was charged of raping an 8 year old.  Weinstein is one of the many faces in Hollywood accused of sexual abuse, harassment. Bill Cosby, Woody Allen, Michael Jackson, being the most high profile though he was cleared of all charges, Sex scandal and pedophilia have long since been occurring in Hollywood.  Many stars have come forward to say sex scandals are a public secret in Hollywood. There are many young actors that have long since been telling us the abuse they have suffered, but we have learnt to protect our abusers. They have so much power over us we have let them win. In this case they are people with real money and real power but yet the suffering continues 

What happened to Terry Crews is a blessing in disguise I would never wish for anyone to be sexually assaulted. However with him being assaulted it brought much needed attention to the silence on the topic. Do you know how it feels for a woman to hear a man say they understand. I think as women this is all we want is to be understood.

And he is right those that have suffered need to join together and support one another that is the only way that they will find justice by standing in unity. It is easy to dismiss one person when they come forward, but when there is an excess of 50+ people such as Bill Cosby it is harder to ignore, and something will be done. People everywhere go through sexual abuse everyday. Even those that are high profile, my heart weeps for the like of Ke$ha, who has been very lowkey since she came forward about the abuse she had gone through. Many high profile celebrities have gone through abuse, and have suffered in silence.  Many stars like Raven Symone has come forward to tell of their experience and they are not believed. 

We as women are very emotional creatures, this is heavily negated in our patriarchal society whereby the feeling of women at greatly ignored. There is a heavy imbalance in male to female energy in our whole world.

In moving forward my loves I have to ask you to look for a bravery that can only be supported by unity. We as women need to unite and find a way to adequately heal and support one another. I understand that it will not be easy.

Acceptance of what has happened is the first step to overcoming the consequences of any misfortune. Sometimes knowing when to give up is the real test of character.

|Edwin Mamerto

Until you accept what happened to you, you will not be able to move forward. Yes DENIAL is so much easier because we can pretend that it never happened to us, we can uphold a fantasy that everything was perfect. You can pretend the life you wanted to live was ruined, but the truth us when the dis-ease infected you it was your job to restore balance and order to yourself.

The word DIS-EASE is used when there is a lack of harmony, within the human body. It is not uncommon for us in our life to use our heads to govern ourselves. We have long forgotten how to use our hearts, part of using our hearts is feeling the pain, and understanding that it is real. It requires you to cry if you feel you need to, crying will help ease the pain it is healthy to cry.

Keep a journal to help you manage your pain, write down how you feel, you will be able to look back on how far you come if you can keep it consistent.

It also helps to find someone who you are able to trust to talk to and let your guard down, there many skilled people who are equipped to deal with the mental, emotional, physical, issues caused by sexual abuse. Please remember the efficacy of any treatment requires your cooperation from you. 

YOUR LIFE IS IN YOUR HANDS SWEETHEARTS

In order to create the destiny you want, it is up to you, Your life, your decision. You do not understand why life has been given to you, until you do something with it. You have been given freewill to be bitter if you wish, that only poisons you though. Moreover you have been given freewill to enjoy life to the fullest and discovered what the Universe should will to you, should you learn to cultivate your soul. Do not forget this is your life !  this is not a dress rehearsal!  Many of us will ask why me, but in order to understand life it must be viewed backwards.   I strongly believe everything happens for a reason. I empathise with what you are going through, but there is a point where you will need to take responsibility for the quality of your life. I have met many women who have been through hell, and back and blame the quality of their life on they’re situations.  They have been so harrowed with hurt and disappointment they no longer know how to bring sweetness into their own life. Conversely I have met women with the most beautiful auras, they have been downtrodden, beaten forgotten, neglected, but with the way they wear a smile on their face you wouldn’t ever know the pain that they have; they have used to build the beauty around them. They have stopped fighting for survival and balanced themselves to bring sweetness into their life. 

Situations in our life occur to test our character, it’s hard to tell someone that this happened to them to test who they are, they have been weakened to be stay a victim. I guess there are a few benefits of victim mentality; you get attention and validation for your feelings.  Those with victim mentality believe that they have little control over their lives. They feel sorry for themselves; believe that the world is somehow against you.  When you are the victim you no longer have to take risks you can just stay the victim.   You don’t even need to take responsibility because someone else made you feel this way right, you’re not in control of how you feel. Victims often tend to have an over inflated ego because they feel they are always right. Everything is ME ME ME. 

Helen Keller said; Character cannot be developed in ease, and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.  You can find healing , all this happens for a reason, I should hope that when one that has suffered would work, in order to improve conditions for themselves, and other persons. The problem with humanity led by patriarchy is that our hearts are easily hardened, and we only see our own pain we feel no one else can understand. 

 THE DARK TIMES OUR CHARACTER FACES, ARE DOWN TO US TO DICTATE WHAT WE DO WITH THEM. THEY CAN EITHER MAKE OR BREAK US. ULTIMATELY WHAT YOU DO NEXT IS ENTIRELY UP TO YOU. YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE WORLD PLAYING THE VICTIM. 

This is the time to turn your focus outwards and stop being selfish. You need to learn to be okay not being the victim not everything’s about you unfortunately. Take responsibility no one can make you feel how you do without your permission. It is time to have gratitude, and forgive.  Being grateful will make changes easier to deal with. This is the time to turn your focus outward and help someone out. What you would like someone to do for you do for someone else that is how we change the world by being the change we wish to see.   It is not governments that will change the views we have, they have their own agendas.  It is us that need to learn to give each other a break and learn to help one another. Our problems can only be as big as you make them, they may seem like a ripple, or a tidal wave. But you’re always the only one who creates it.

Scott Adams said remember there’s no such thing as a small act of kindness. Every act creates a ripple with no logical end. Gratitude in appreciating that you made it will also really help with healing. 

Friendship is held to be the severest test of character. It is easy, we think, to be loyal to a family and clan, whose blood is in your own veins. Love between a man and a woman is founded on the mating instinct and is not free from desire and self-seeking. But to have a friend and to be true under any and all trials is the mark of a man!

– Charles Alexander Eastman 

I would also encourage you to learn to spend time in nature it will give you great clarity, and perspective. In being around nature it will help you feel better connected to people. We live in a world with so many filters that we forget just to tell ourselves we are not okay. It is necessary to unplug and just be reminded of the unity that encompasses us.  Friendship is key in our futures. If you have a good friend do not let them walk alone, don’t push people away learn intimacy tell your friends you are not okay, talking about it is the only way to make it okay to talk about it. Explaining how you feel will give you real power to make changes to your life.

IF YOU DO NOT LEARN ASK FOR HELP, THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE NO.

The test of character is having the ability to meet challenges          

– Walter Annenberg

In moving forward my loves I have to ask you to look for a bravery that can only be supported by unity. We as women need to unite and find a way to adequately heal and support one another. I understand that it will not be easy. Nothing is ever easy. The next few years will pass whether you like them or not, if you want to waste them focussed on pain then by all means do that or you can overcome it . It may seem like I’m hard, and I am somewhat, and lacking in emotion. I am filled with nothing but love, and understanding, but in order for me to love you fully I have to help you heal. Healing will not come by mollycoddling you , and telling you that you are the victim. I must challenge your, heart, your mind, your very soul. If this doesn’t make you question yourself and reveal the abilities you have to heal then  I would be failing you. Only by challenging you can I help you grow.

I really would like for you to know that. I understand all too well how you feel, but I didn’t have the time to focus on my pain. I suppressed my pain. The energy of my pain went elsewhere but that is a story for another day.  I have been a victim of sexual abuse & harassment and as a woman you’re really vulnerable. I stand before you the, woman that I am, know that I went through hell, and I overcame. My life experiences shaped me I have also, had to face hard truth about myself, and stop blaming everyone else and find the responsibility in making myself the way I felt.

I love beyond measure and give my soul in everything I do. I am grateful for everything that happened to me and I have forgiven everyone who hurt me along the way. We are already taken for granted as women, there is no need to pit ourselves against each other this the time for us to open up our hearts to each other and Unite as women.

I shall close with this, the thing that keeps me going in that in far-reaching corners of the globe there a young ladies younger than myself going through extensive abuse, me opening this discussion is to one day be able to reach them in their corner of hell and make a difference.

Where I came from in Africa it is easy for abuse to be dismissed because it makes people uncomfortable to talk about it, but here in the Western World it is easier, there are greater access to building platforms to connect one another, and make a difference. The only things we need to build them is love, unity, compassion, understanding and most of all courage to face difficult truths.

Let me remind you again

 I LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING THAT I AM. I LOVE SO MUCH I HAVE LEARNED TO NO LONGER BE NUMB TO IT. I  ACTUALLY FEEL AND WILL SHOW HOW MUCH I REALLY LOVE IT IS WHAT BUILDS ME. PASSION IS WHAT CARRIES THE WIND BENEATH ME. UNITY OF LIGHT AND DARK IS WHAT HOLDS ME TOGETHER

I am specifically addressing women, because I am one, and my truth will resonate to other women, because we understand this about each other, with this being said, I am aware that men can also be sexually abused, and harassed, but I am not a man, and cannot offer the adequate support a man would require. However, I do urge anybody, and everybody who needs it to seek help, and advice best suited to helping them heal in the best way. 

We can get through this. Together. 

WE NEED TO BE THE CHANGE WE WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD.

Love and Blessings

  BATISSE DIONYSUS

XOXO

          Healing from Sexual Abuse & Harassment 1 Potato 🥔 2 Potato 🥔 🥔 3 Potato 🥔 🥔🥔, 4 Lil Pickaninny You're only Just a Hoe.

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sara x ray’s kids || ( headcanon )

ITS TIME TO HAVE THE PALMER CHILDREN DISCUSSION

 blame @atomiism as this was requested by my bae; also, happy valentines day with this long as headcanon thing

pregnancy

do the parents have one child or are there twins, triplets, etc.? triplets ( three boys) + 1 smol girl 4 years later who was a total surprise

what do the parents name the baby(ies)? the triplets: michael “rip” ; leonard “len” ; and daniel “danny” ( after his brother )   the smol girl: laurel 

did the parents discuss other names, too? yep family names were tossed around, but they ended up picking names of the people closest to them

how do they decide on the name(s)? *points at above* 

what would the child have been named if they had been the opposite sex? ugh, the triplets would be laurel, kara, and anna; the boy daniel 

did the parents find out the sex during pregnancy or is it a surprise? found out ( ray had an army of nurses and doctors run an entire genetic panel on all of the kids )

were there any complications in the pregnancy? no, blessedly

which parent carried the baby? sara lol

how easy was it for them to conceive? sara became pregnant as soon as she removed her iud and then accidentally despite them using protection

was the child carried to term? the triplets came two weeks early; laurel was two weeks late

did the parents deliver in a hospital, at home, or somewhere else? on the waverider for the triplets and laurel in a ‘palmer’ wing of the star city general

did the delivery go according to plan? triplets went perfectly; laurel came without an epidural 

did the parents have any daily rituals (reading to their belly, etc.)? raymond reads scientific journals to the kids and sara ( particularly in the tub ), going out in the middle of the night to buy her whatever she’s craving ( and never judging her about those cravings ), foot rubs back rubs all the rubs, singing to her belly in bed, and raymond making her still somehow feel sexy as hell even when carrying triplets

do the parents have a baby shower? sara didn’t want one, but it happened 

what about a babymoon? raymond and sara spent a lot of time off from ‘work’ after the triplets, but they still occasionally go running about through time when they’re needed or show up for team arrow/flash, but raymond goes back to tinkering and making tech marvels to support his family with billions 

how supportive was the other parent during the pregnancy? IM LAUGHING. ITS RAYMOND PALMER. THE MOST SUPPORTIVE AND NURTURING AND GREAT.

which parent worried the most and which one was chill? raymond is more worried about any physical complications, but sara is more worried about the actual issue of perhaps ruining their future children 

which parent left pregnancy books all over the house and which didn’t touch them? sara had been a badass baby sitter so sara doesn’t worry about it; ray reads everything he can get his hands on 

infancy/toddler

is the child a good sleeper? the triplets always slept perfectly, laurel never

how often does the child cry? the boys soothed one another and laurel (( especially rip who was tracing around her sister like a mother hen )) 

which parent finds it easier to get them to stop? raymond is amazing with them

how does the child behave at bath time? so they love it and they don’t want to get out of the tub ever, except for danny who is a butt about baths and run ou the house naked if their parents look away for a moment 

what is the child’s first word? laurel -- poop; rip -- firefuck; len -- all gone; danny -- shoes

how bad do the child’s diapers smell and which parent has the misfortune of changing them? the worst because of crazy healthy diet parents going wild; and they share duties tho like 50/50 but ray will always jump on it willingly if sara eyerolls 

which parent has a harder time adapting to their new role? sara

just how terrible are the terrible twos? the twins weren’t so bad, but laurel was a TERROR which nothing could pascify ( except her brothers, occasionally )

does the child go to day care? if they do, how old are they when they start? despite everyone’s expectations, Sara stays home with the kids and is a devoted home-mom the majority of the time

if the child doesn’t go to day care, who says home to look after them? raymond also spends a lot of time working from home so that they can both be with their kids

which parent babyproofs the house? raymond

which parents designs the baby room? also raymond

which parent is more likely to give in to tantrums? also also raymond

is the child spoiled with toys? spoiled with everything when you’re a palmer kid

which parent does the potty training? sara 

which parent has to take them outside to hose them down after a particularly nasty diaper? sara and raymond are both necessary-- i mean, triplets

which parent do they take after more? laurel and leonard -- sara; michael and danny -- raymond

what habits do they pick up from their parents? mischief, fighting, affection for science, always having to be right, dopey smiles, fearless loyalty, stubborn af, tinking with electronics af, geek af, badass af, 

how often is the parents’ date night now? they generally manage once a week even if its only them having private sex marathon time together 

who babysits when the parents go out? the lances, the legends, pretty much anyone they can find who they are sure won’t combust at their little pack of wolves

child

how did the parents decide what school to send the child to? or was the child home-schooled? raymond had an extensive spread-sheet 

who packs the lunches? they switch off, but mostly raymond

are the lunches eaten by the child, or thrown away? “why did dad put sprouts on my sandwich?” “I don’t know, Rip-- he just doesn’t like you I guess” “Shut up, Len”

which parent helps with homework? raymond does the science and math; sara does the humanities; raymond takes over any project and makes it ridiulously extravagant always 

what does the report card look like? flawless though danny and rip do best in science, leonard in math, and laurel in getting away with whatever she wants

is the child/ren popular, or only have a few friends? they’re a pack of wolves but a popular pack of wolves

does the child play a sport? lacrosse for the boys, soccer for laurel

does the child play an instrument? rip plays the guitar; len the piano

do both parents turn up to the matches/recitals? always and you better not say a bad word about any of their talented kickass children

which parent buys their clothes? or does the child pick out their own clothes? dual effort, but laurel is the most emphatic about only shopping with sara

what’s the child’s style? leonard-- clean and organized; rip-- geek chic; danny-- tshirt and jeans; laurel-- *ray running his hand down his face* “no, you’re not wearing that to school, laurel” 

is the child more interested in playing inside or outside? both, though rip is a bit of a gamer fiend and has to be coaxed by siblings 

how often does the child get in trouble? what do they get in trouble for? Laurel (everything) > Leonard (sassy af) > Danny (jock af) > Rip (mediator af)

does the child have any siblings/cousins? how well do they get along? pack of wolves, dont mess with any of the palmer kids or you will face the wrath of the clan

what pet does the child beg for? do they get it? a dog which laurel names ‘jax’ as a kid and jax resents it  ( a lot )  until laurel explains she wants him with her always

is the child shy and reserved, or outgoing and gregarious? Laurel > Danny > Leonard > Rip

does the child still take after the same parent they did as a toddler? they are a rather equal split-- but if you had to choose laurel and leonard taking a bit more after sara; rip and danny taking a bit more after raymond; but they literally a straight up mix 

teen

what does the child want to be/do when they finish school? laurel: conartist; danny: astronaut; leonard: musician; rip: physician/physicist/hedontknow 

which parent does the child get along with better? literally they a wolf pack family

is the child out all night partying and drinking with their friends, or staying in studiously doing homework? or both? both-- though party scale: Laur > Danny > Len > Rip

how does the child go on their SATs? do they make it to the SATs? they all kill them

does the child go to prom with their friends, or a partner? they all manage dates, even though Rip was a bit shaky for a second, the other triplets set him up

how do the parents feel about their first boyfriend/girlfriend? sara *flipping knives* and raymond being a cute cinnamon roll with a half-joke / half-serious shovel talk

what are the child’s friends like? do they get along with the parents? theres a whole gamut of children always at the palmer house, because ray buys the kids all the awesome stuff and put in a pool when laurel asked, and all the boy’s friends think that sara’s the hottest mom around 

what kind of music is the child into? all sorts like all sorts, and they all end up sharing their music with one another in some melting pot of sound 

how do the parents and child/ren go learning to drive? is it a disaster, or does it go fairly smoothly? laurel and danny handle it very well; leonard doesn’t take corrections and nearly kills everyone; rip lets the others drive and pretend its not cuz he’s worried about it

does the child have a casual/part time job? what is it? sara is a big proponent about them working, but raymond is more than willing to pad their pockets with extra allounace; laurel babysits; danny works at the local movie theater; leonard tutors; and rip does webdesign for local businesses 

does the child hang out with their family, or are they too ‘cool’ now? wolf pack again

what’s the child’s personality like? laurel is the trouble maker and wild card; danny is the jock who still makes good grades and is really a softy at heart despite reputation; leonard is the aloof, musical, dreamy one; and rip is the wiz kid genius

who does the child take after now? they’re a mix of both parents, though laurel is most similiar to sara. 

adult

does the child make it to adulthood? all of them do don’t make me think sad thoughts, question. that’s rude af

does the child end up in the job/lifestyle they dreamed about? why? yep they all do, including laurel, who despite her parents urgings is a bit of a criminal legend

are their any hiccups in the road? tons, but sara and ray are always there

does the child move far away from their family, or stay close? rip and danny stay close; leonard moves to persue his career; no one is. ever sure where laurel is until she shows up, but she stays in communication with her brothers 

what would the parents prefer? they just want them to be happy  ( and they take bi-yearly family trips together always )

does the child have any significant others? any children of their own? danny is married and has two children; leonard and rip both in serious relationships; laurel is a mystery and much like her mother, rather illusive 

how do the parents feel about being or not being grandparents? there could be no happier parents in the world. they are infinitely proud.