#im talking about in a 2014 roleplay way

[werenotacoupleyesyouare]

Do you think c!tnt duo sext through letters after the finale

[v4mpbab3]

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welcome to my little cyberscape i abuse every 5 minutes seven hours a day ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹

after starting to interact more with people here i thought an intro page would be very much appreciated. i go by deia or darky though i haven’t used the latter one in yEARS

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⋆｡‧˚ʚABOUT ME ɞ˚‧｡⋆

i’ve been on tumblr for 10 years, but only started being more active this past year after a really rough time; i’m turning 23 this winter and will start my master’s degree in clinical psychology soon; i’m balkan!(have fun figuring which kind while i drink from my goblet of blood); still feel stuck in 2014 (my prime); horror media is a big part of my personality so im a big nerd when it comes to that; have a visceral feminine need to self insert myself in every piece of media i consume (and i never do it in a healthy way); my pronouns are she/her/xe but i don’t really mind if y’all use any others; im bi with a heavier preference for girls

i used to have many hobbies like drawing, reading and writing fanfiction, but uni burnt me out so badly i barely pick them up; i’m drawing like once in a while, rarely writing and sometimes i pick a book if my eyes don’t hurt so much lol

i’m in a bunch of fandoms i talked about here before, but right now i’m hyperfixating on creepypasta again (they bring me lots of nostalgia and comfort)

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stuff i like (a lot):

gothic literature

horror media (books; movies; games anything)

merlin and ahs

baldur’s gate3

2014 lmao i wish i would go back and be emo again (i will)

alt music

stuffed toys and monster high dolls

flip phones

autumn and my edgy sweaters

dark make up

dnd

roleplay

watching movies over discord with people (if we’re moots i’m BEGGING you!!!)

zelda games (only played OOT and Majora’s Mask on my nintendos)

dark romance (stay down and put the gun away please i am literally just a girl)

taking silly personality quizzes!

if it wasn’t clearly enough – yapping; i talk a lot.

extra fun facts about me: i have stargardt, severe allergies, myopia and look like a stereotypical annoying nerd (which i am); if there is something i miss more than anything on the internet is baptismonfire’s content

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[monmuses]

Knowing your partner well can potentially make writing together a lot easier! || Dash game (repost, don’t reblog)

Name: Toastie / Temmie

Pronouns: she/her (but i have no preference! you can refer to me by he/him or they/them, i rlly dont mind)

Preference of communication: Discord bc i’m active there AAAAAAAAALL the time

Name of muse(s): ...i have too many to throw down. i write both OC and Canon and i have 250+ muses (possibly more)

Experience/How long (Months/Years?): since 2014 (8+ years), probably later???

Platforms you’ve used: Tumblr, Discord, Amino (sadly), YouTube/Google+ (when it was first introduced), Skype

Best experience: god there are SO many best experiences but if i can name one, it’s probably the birthday dinner thread i did on Discord w/ @mistermxrgan​ months ago. i genuinely enjoyed it and had a lot of fun writing!

RP pet peeves/dealbreakers: i have so many but like... my main one is just no weird/vague ooc posts and drama shit. roleplay wise, dont try to beg my muse for attention in a vague way or use trauma for plots without telling me

Fluff, angst, or smut?:  YES FOR ALL THREE! however on smut, i am VERY on edge about it; it’s only available to mutuals i actively talk to and write with. i dont do casual smut bc i have no energy for it

Plots or memes?: MEMES! MEMES! they’re WAY easier for figuring out plots and prompts. plotting i can SORT OF do but only if me and my other partner have an idea we can agree on

Long or short replies?: tbh i do long replies. i only ever do short replies for crack purposes but it doesn’t last long

Best time to write?: i write at all times during the day. im active very late at night for SOME god awful reason

Are you like your muse(s)?: OH yeah, in some way or another. every single muse has something i relate to, INCLUDING canon muses. and yknow what? im not afraid to admit it. i might project on my muses a bunch but thats how i get to know my muses via writing

Tagged by: ripped it from both @pompedia​ and @boriiqua​

Tagging: you! steal it from me

[oleandy]

@4lph4kidz​ asked, and so i must oblige because i LOVE talking

alright, this is going into silly cringe era of andy homestuck skaiagalaxy oleandy’s life (some inside jokes with friends, my old deviantart user was skaiagalaxy hahah)

obviously, this will go under a readmore, it’s long, verbose to the point of obnoxiousness, and also somewhat personal! but nothing im not willing to discuss

stances, alright we’re ready? okay

hi, i’m andy oleandy and i shipped only rosemary and dirkjune for [checks notes] like 5-6 years.

2014 was a COMPLETELY different era from now, crackships sproinging up everywhere, and shit was a lot more free reign (more to the detriment honestly, but thats not today’s topic)

and due to a very silly, very typical of the era seven minutes in heaven rp i did with a (now ex) friend, i got into shipping it. because why not? it was different, and new and i related to june so much! rn i’m roughly 13-14, right on the peak of realizing i am not a cis woman. so i latched onto june, mega hard. she was a different protagonist! she obviously had her prickles, and she wasn’t always nice, but she still was kind- and had a good heart.

i roleplayed her for a very long time, mostly on sites like roblox.

hey! that’s me! on the now defunct EB: hey karkat! game. really good, had lots of fun there

and then i read strider home for ghostly rejects (a fic about june waking up after a possession and suddenly having the powers of a medium- with dirk being to put it simply, a ghostbuster), and that absolutely latched into a mind, same with a cup of mint tea (fantasy, centaur fic. i’m not sure if i’d recommend it now since i havent read it in a while, so i might have nostalgia lense).

here’s some dave art from the fic actually.

nice to see how much i’ve improved!

but back to the ship

i spent a LOT of time thinking about it, as homestuck goes on (i was SO excited for them to meet, and subsequently heartbroken by their single interaction. such is life lol)

and then in 2016 the credits come

and i was right, june is lost and horribly depressed (same hat. 2016 was a tumultuous year for me- and that'll be for another post). i Immediately project my feelings of being a repressed gay person (and also being a repressed trans person.)

i like to think dirk and june helped fix each other, so even now i kinda. keep some of that in my canon perception- well. they don’t “fix” each other, but friendship is friendship and sometimes i find the thought of them being exes as june realizes she’s a woman nice.

sometimes i make it dramatic, sometimes funny, and often times they simply parted ways cuz it couldn’t work anymore

(obv it still becomes somewhat dramatic on dirk’s side, because he is dirk strider)

i dont really have anything left for this post but id love to continue to talk about it! it’s fun

[crimewizards]

So what is Blackrock anyway

ohhhhhhhhhh you have asked SUCH a pandora's box question my friend

the blackrock chronicle (season names: the tekkit adventure, tekkit: rebirth, and blackrock chronicle: rising) is a modded minecraft roleplay series started in 2012 by yogscast members rythian and zoey proasheck. it follows the adventures of rythian, a mage bent on revenge on the people who destroyed the previous server, and zoeya, a girl with slight amnesia who can talk to mushrooms and becomes his apprentice. this is the MOST surface level explanation i can give.

going more in depth, the series is divided into three seasons - adventure, rising, and rebirth - and ran from summer 2012 to approximately summer 2014 if i recall correctly. it never had a proper video conclusion, but in 2017 rythian and zoey discussed where the story would have gone on tumblr. it starts as a normal minecraft series, albeit with a slight framing device of how rythian wants to get revenge on lalna (also called duncan) and the members of SipsCo for their part in destroying the old world in a war, and recruits zoeya as his apprentice with the promise to teach her magic.

season 1 (adventure) follows them as they do some normal mod-learning stuff, get more gear, and then about halfway through the season get into the Actual Roleplay, all told from rythian's perspective. at the very end of season 1, it splits into rythian's perspective and zoeya's perspective. it stays this way into season 2 (rising) as rythian and zoeya take separate storylines. season 3 returns to rythian's point of view as the two plotlines reunite.

i can't exactly say much in terms of plot because of spoilers, but here are a few out of context moments: - zoeya reads bedtime stories to a volcano - there is a dinosaur and he has a sniper rifle - rythian gets trapped inside a fishbowl and is absolutely seething - zoeya invents the TARDIS - Minecraft Romance - mushroom revolution/politics/execution - emotionally devastating minecraft roleplay good lord

like. its 2022 and im still trying to get people to watch this series. its so good even tho its. yknow. its minecraft roleplay lol. but that shits been all the rage so, hey! might as well try to get some other people into it and show them what ive been going insane over since i was twelve years old.

[tetsuwan-atom]

So...

I’m having preliminary thoughts at the moment but I just wanted you to know what I have been thinking.

I might have said this before, but I've been on Tumblr since 2012. I can't remember what month, it'll be nine years soon. When I started I was kind of learning the ropes, especially going from singleship to multiship. When I think about it even in the beginning there were problems. I wish I never stuffed up my first ship, that was quite fun, but that's.. a long time ago. Things picked up and I felt from 2014 things were getting good. Yeah, there were the odd dramas here and there but, it really was smooth sailing. I had great friends, some lasting a long, long time. Then in the latter years, 2017, 2018, 2019, those were some great years, incredible years.

2020 was when things went downhill.

It wasn't even when things got bad in March/April. It started in January with something I did which, to this day I extremely regret. Things would be different if I could take it back. Other things happened, I made another mistake in July I wanted to take back, but things got hard. Another mistake in November, lost a good friend then.

When 2021 hit things got really, really bad. One drama after another. I get hit with vagueblogging, callouts. That was when the accusations of toxicity started.

And with what happened  in July, the end result even. I'm... taking that really, really hard.

It has all taken a huge toll.

Tumblr is not the same place I enjoyed anymore. I appreciate all my friends here of course, we've made some great threads and experiences here and honestly I do want to continue them all!

But this platform has become... it's becoming more and more like a source of anxiety and drama. I don't even know if what happened recently will be the last of it.

I am, considering, for a fresh start, that eventually I might be moving to Rolescape. I’ve joined the discord server to watch it’s progress. I want it’s members to understand I’m not there to cause problems. I’m there to watch this develop. A few of my friends might be too.

If, I do make the move, I will be approaching everyone whom I’m currently rping with or those who I definitely intend to rp with and figure out where to go from there. I am also open to Discord roleplaying if it suits them better. I might stick around on Tumblr a little depending on what happens, but, if I am to complete this fresh start, the end result might be that this blog is archived.

I’m just letting everyone know ahead of time. My IMs and discord are open if you wish to talk to me about this.

At this stage, while I am on a short break and after, it is still business as usual on Tumblr. It may still be a long way off before Rolescape is live. When it is, a final decision will be made, but hopefully I will be able to keep each and everyone of you on, in some way or another.

Thank you again for your continued support and I hope we can all continue to have fun in the future, however it is.

Have a good day, everyone.

Charlie~

[tcthinecwnself-a]

Get To Know The Mun!

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———  BASICS! ♡

(PEN)NAME: Peggy

PRONOUNS: she / her / 

ZODIAC SIGN:  Aquarius 

TAKEN OR SINGLE: single, but talking to people here & there

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

You know Triston from Yugioh Abridged?? I can do a solid impersonation of his voice. It started out just as me and my sister joking around, but we were pretty shocked when I did so good at doing his voice. The voice of super strength. 

I’m studying to be a professional animator & storyteller! And I’m applying for summer internships left and right. Kind of stressful, but at least I’m doing what I love.

I’m a cosplayer! I’ve got almost 8 homemade or purchased cosplays under my belt. It’s really fun & I love dressing up as characters. 

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

so i can’t really say I’ve been roleplaying since 2013, but I had a young Elsa & Vanellope blog waaaaay back in 2014. Yata, yata, stuff happened & I dropped tumblr for a while. Then Sing came around in 2017 and I hopped right back to it! I’m super thankful for everyone being patient with me in my earlier years. Especially when I wasn’t the best writer, but I think I’ve gotten much better over the years! I’ve also written a few drabbles just for myself to learn character mannerisms and stuff. But heck! I’d say 5 years of experience is pretty great!

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

 I’m always more attracted to male muses than female muses. I’ve been trying to balance it out, but male muses are where I thrive! It might be because I was cast in way more male roles in theater productions, or because male characters are (unfairly) better written than most female characters. But apart from gender, I really get attached to dad characters, characters with abandonment issues, characters with repressed feelings, and all around goofball characters. I try to stay away from IRL horror stuff, but things like Hazbin, Helluva, & Villainous don’t bother me too much. I can handle cartoons. 

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF: fluff! who doesn’t love it! More present on my blog than it used to be tbh and i’m really happy about it! I love all the silly & fun character interactions I’m getting now-a-days. 

ANGST: absolute sucker for it!!! I could do angst all day tbh, I love, conflict between muses, or hurt/comfort, or really anything. Long paragraph angst is something I absolutely adore. It’ll never get old

SMUT: definitely more comfortable with it than I used to be! Though it’s still rare here, I’m getting more comfortable with writing sexy time headcanons & the occasional sexy ic stuff. Of course, it’s is a solid line of only writing it with muns im comfortable with. 

PLOT / MEMES: I can and will come into your IMs and yell multiparagraph headcanons at my friends. Plotting is WHERE IT’S AT my dudes. I have plots with my mutuals that we haven’t even written out yet publicly, but they are there and I love them so very much. I love crafting whole-ass stories in IMs. As for memes! Heck yeah I love memes!! I’m not very good at sending them, especially to people I haven’t interacted with in a while, but I’m gonna try to get better at it. But my inbox is ALWAYS open for memes.

tagged by: @lloronala​

tagging: steal it from me if you’d like to!

[berkcwitz]

❛ ✶ (   madison beer, cisfemale, she/her   )   spotted   !   jalissa   berkowitz   was   spotted   singing   along   to   find   my   way   by   dababy   in   hilton   grove  .   you’ve   heard   of   them   right   ?   they   are   a   twenty   two   year   old   pornographic   actress   /   internet   personality   who   has   already   amassed   a   net   worth   of   550m  .   you   should   really   follow   them   on   insta   @callmejalissa  ,   they’re   about   to   hit   89m   followers  .   the   tabloids   have   been   calling   them   the   vixen   because   they   are   known   for   being   whimsical   but   also   a   bit   abrasive  .   though   most   people   recognize   them   by   a   drunken   gaze   staring   into   the   mirror   as   she   holds   finger   guns   to   her   head   ,   a   laugh   too   contagious   ,   leaving   notes   in   lipstick   on   bathroom   mirrors   &   echoing   of   her   mothers   longtime   disapproval   .    —   ooc info   (   mia.   twenty.   est.   she/her.   )

GUYYYSSSS ?! this group ? a masterpiece , wow . im hella excited to get to roleplay with you all . im mia by the way , im twenty ( i’ll be 21 in june what a vibe ) & i live in the est ( a clam chowder eating , dunkin donuts chugging , no Rs havin , boston sports loving new englander ). also i go by she/her pronouns ! i am going to be so honest with you guys . this intro is dummy long . like , i promise i will not judge you if you hmu asking for a quick synopsis of my girl because this shit below this cut ? is a novella & a half , sis . if im very honest i really just needed to flesh her out completely because she’s a new baby of mine ? and i wanted to make sure i really knew her before i put her out on the dash . im so anal about this , i know . anyways , before this little note section gets as long as the intro without further a do ? adu ? idfk ... here’s jalissa , she’s ... a piece of work . also if you'd prefer to plot on discord hmu @ 𝖒𝖌𝖐'𝖘 𝖜𝖍𝖔𝖗𝖊#9789 .

𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐓𝐇

full name: jalissa  billie-jean  berkowitz nickname: lissa , jals , jb , berks , jalissa cadden ( porn name ) birthday: october 13th birthplace: fort lauderdale , florida hometown: hilton grove residence: hilton grove nationality: american ( est. 1997 through birth ) , british ( est. 1997 automatically a citizen due to mother’s citizenship , passport was claimed est. 2012 ) ethnicity: askenazi jewish ( maternal & paternal , 100% ) religion: judaism orientation: pansexual , panromantic ( she never really came out per say , people just kind of know she’s attracted to all genders . her family is very religious and she’s very involved with her synagogue so she’s made the choice not the necessarily put a label on her sexuality but is open about loving people no matter gender ) languages spoken: english ( fluent , first language ) , yiddish ( fluent , second language ) , spanish ( fluent , third language ) , german ( conversational , fourth language ) . father: henry  christian  berkowitz  ( 50 years old )  was born & raised in fort lauderdale , florida by a politician / banking heir & talk show host / philanthropist . henry himself went on to follow in his father’s footsteps and serve as a us senator for two terms & currently is the ceo of berkowitz capital . ( relationship:  it’s never been perfect but the love is clear in the relationship & he’s been much better at being supportive of her in recent years . certainly a daddy’s little girl even when you do wrong you can’t do much wrong type of situation ) mother : austen  sylvia  rachelson-berkowitz  ( 48 years old ) was born & raised in westminster ,  england up until her teens when she & her mother moved to washington dc after her mother had become the incumbent uk ambassador to the united states . austen was crowned miss usa at the age of 20 & later went on to follow in her families long time involvement in politics ( holding former offices as a us representative as well as governor for two terms ) . today she spends much of her time putting her law degree to work on criminal cases . ( relationship: they’ve never been close & have never quite seen eye to eye . since jalissa was nineteen she & her mom haven’t said more than ten words to one another & if they have it’s never necessarily positive ) brother: kenneth  patrick  berkowitz  ( 24 years old ) was born in fort lauderdale , florida & raised in hilton grove . he shares the same parents as jalissa and is the couples first born & only son . kenneth is following in the berkowitz footsteps & is heading the uk sector for berkowitz capital since graduating from columbia university a couple years back . ( relationship: the two siblings have always been close. they had a similar friend group growing up & alot of the same interests . they’re still rather close to this day despite being countries away from one another ) sister: sariah  rachel  berkowitz ( 19 years old )  was born in fort lauderdale , florida & raised in hilton grove . she shares the same parents as jalissa and is the couples last born . sariah currently attends stanford university where she’s on a pre med track . ( relationship: the two were often at each other’s necks growing up . mostly because how similar they are to one another . as of recently the two have grown close , though , with sariah fessing up to looking up to her older sister ) social class: upper education: highschool diploma ( hilton grove highschool g. 2015 ) career: youtuber ( from 2014-present ) , pornographic actress ( from 2016-present ) , podcaster (from 2018-present ) notoriety: being apart of the prominent berkowitz family , having one of the top 10 most watched pornographic movies , her podcast with her best friend tickets to our downfall  & her youtube channel callmejalissa . weight: 122lbs  height: 5′4″ hair color: brown ( with blonde highlights ) eye color: hazel ( wears blue contacts sometimes ) positive traits: whimsical , astute , extroverted , affectionate , quick , intelligent , friendly , ambitious , passionate , humorous , loyal , compassionate , effervescent negative traits: opportunistic , recalcitrant , hypocritical , vain , critical , stubborn , distant , sneaky , abrasive , sarcastic , obsessive , vengeful , reckless , arrogant likes: black coffee , birthday parties , lying , sunshine , baby pink , glossy lips , gossiping , stand up comedy , sunkissed skin , dogs , peanut butter , popping champagne bottles , driving with the windows down , swimming , mimosas , oversized sweaters , taco bell , cranberry juice , makeup , football , cosmetic work , arguing , online shopping , exotic foods , jewelry the price of a car , fresh berries , roller skating dislikes: liars , driving in the snow , her mother , jelly , basketball , bad drivers , when people lie about their cosmetic work , sushi , hateful people , disloyalty , overly emotional people , romance , being alone ,  astrology enthusiasts , hospitals , silence , cheap perfume , criticism , traffic , being late , red wine , short hair , anything banana or grape flavored  hobbies: reading magazines , dancing to her newly curated playlist in the mirror , gossiping with her grandparents , video editing , meddling , going for brunch , goat yoga , drinking alcohol while snuggled up in bed , painting alternate universe cartoons , attending big soirees , making impulsive decisions , smoking weed , sleepovers with her closest friends , suntanning on yacht decks , late night instagram lives , marilyn monroe movie marathons  chara inspo: kourtney kardashian , emily nelson ( a simple favor ) , tan france ( queer eye ) , evie zamora ( thirteen ) , rebekah mikaelson ( the vampire diaries ) , jennifer check ( jennifer’s body ) , gabrielle solis ( desperate housewives ) , regina george ( mean girls ) , lucifer morningstar ( lucifer ) , kathryn merteuli ( cruel intentions ) , veronica lodge ( riverdale ) , chanel oberlin ( scream queens ) , samantha jones ( sex and the city ) , andie anderson ( how to lose a guy in 10 days ) , blair waldorf ( gossip girl ) , naomi lapaglia ( wolf of wall street ) , maddy perez ( euphoria ) , kat hernandez ( euphoria ) fashion inspo: fran drescher , bella hadid , alex chung , madison beer , romee strijd , kendall jenner , selena gomez  career inspo: tana mongeau , jordan lipscombe , sofia franklyn , alexdandra cooper , lana rhodes , abella danger headcanons: she has one hundred percent smashed the windows in an exes car , she drives a black range rover , vandalized an exes home before , says “ harely quinn is my spirit animal “ once a day , is not the type of ask if you’re okay with her vlogging , has slept with rock stars and couldn’t care less that they’re basically the age of dirt at this point , is actually very sad when she’s not putting on the vivacious front in front of people , dances on tables whens she’s drunk , its not a party unless someone has offered her a line  

𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐉𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐀

the   berkowitz   family name has long been one that holds prestige & power . among the 1% for over a century . they are a prominent banking family that has had their hands in the pots of nearly every big banking company across the nation . coming into the united states after word broke of the california gold rush back in 1849 , the berkowitz brother’s were of the lucky few to acquire pounds of gold by the thousands . later founding what would become a leading investment bank known as berkowitz capital . the generations to follow would capitalize on the head start given to them by the two brothers . expanding the family company as well as the knowledge of the family name through heavy involvement in politics alongside the kennedy’s . since as early as 1953 there has always been a berkowitz family member actively appointed to a political role ( governor , senator , representative , us ambassador , etc ) . although the families roots within the states are documented in the capital of california , as generations went on they made their way over to the east coast , with most of the family members now residing in southern florida . 

the   rachelson   family is a prominent political family . synonymous with power & eloquence . with their rise initially taking place in the british parliament . many escaped to england from germany between 1933-1935 . they hadn’t settled into the states until jocelyn rachelson ( jalissa’s maternal grandmother ) was appointed the united kingdoms ambassador to the united states in 1987 . the rachelson’s have since had heavy involvement in the us government , both behind the scenes and at the forefront . much of the rachelson family have stayed within the european union ( germany & poland ) as well as england . although the few that followed jocelyn to the states now reside in washington dc and the tri-state area .

henry & austen had met through their mutual friends . it didn’t take long before the two became a rather public couple , a supercouple if you would ( similar to that of a brangelina of the 1% ) . although they’d met in new york the two decided that when it was time to start a family they wanted to move to hilton grove , an island austen had eyed for years . instead they found themselves moving down to fort lauderdale where henry had grown up . before they knew it , they were three kids deep in settling down in fort lauderdale . austen’s anger from never wanting to build a life in florida started to tumble into the relationship & the daily life of the family & so in an effort to recover the marriage henry agreed to moving the family up to hilton grove , where they have resided ever since .

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐉𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐀 𝐄𝐑𝐀

jalissa was born the second of three children and oh boy does she suffer from middle child syndrome , riddled with a envy and a need to be in the mix . the berkowitz household , although , from the outside looking in looked like a fabulous family life was anything but . jalissa , like her siblings , was born on a pedestal & what came attached with that was even higher expectations from her parents . her parents found a way to be extremely authoritarian & uninvolved all at the same time . they were very dismissive if you disappointed them & everything jalissa did seemingly did just that .

for a long time she was obsessed with getting her parents approval , she’d turned life into a silent competition between herself & her siblings . she befriended only the people her parents approved of , did all the events they asked her to do , did everything she could to excel academically & only dated people who were of benefit to her parents ( people who’s parents where also in high places ) . 

during highschool she joined the model un , debate team , and soccer team . if it were up to jalissa & not her parents she’d probably had joined the cheerleading team but her mother would never let that fly . it was too “ self indulgent “ to fit the family brand ( if only she’d known what would be coming years later lol ) .

it wasn’t until she was seventeen that she started to deviate from her parents wishes . of course , the catalyst to this was a boy , one her parents hadn’t really approved of but jalissa was completely head over heels for him . he really helped her boost her confidence to be her own person ? and not allow her parents to treat her like a puppet . with his encouragement she started her youtube channel , something she’d wanted to do for years but her mother had shot down the idea anytime jalissa brought it up . it was once again too “ self indulgent ” . the channel known as callmejalissa was an outlet for her , talking to a camera was the most heard she’d felt in seventeen years of her life . and god she knew that was hella sad . she really grew to view her subscribers as family & by the time her channel was brought to her parents attention ( more like her mothers , her dad had found her channel just four months after she’d made it and promised not to tell her mother so long as she was smart about what she posted ) she was about to turn eighteen and there wasn’t much they could do to stop her from doing it .

at eighteen she’d graduated highschool salutatorian with offers from university of pennsylvania & brown university . in all honesty she didn’t wnat to go to college , she saw it as a complete waste of her time . it wasn’t like she was going to do anything with the degree anyways . it would simply be a point of bragging for her parents at events & at this point she really could care less about them being able to brag to their friends . she knew she had to play along though , because this was the same year she was going to receive her first half of her trust fund ( a whoopin 500m , yes her trust fund in total will be 1b her parents are grossly wealthy guys ) so she bamboozled ? her parents , promising she’d committed to attending penn just so they’d allow for the money to be released to her account . she moved out of the house , literally moving into a house of her own a couple blocks from her parents house & claimed she was living in pennsylvania for college . we stan a sneaky binch .

two months later her parents were at her front door , though , ready to give her an ear full . her mother basically disowned her at this point . telling her how every year jalissa found a new way to be a bigger disappointment . her dad kind of played good cop , like he normally would because her mother often dug into her pretty deeply . to the point where any insecurity ( even though with the way she carries herself you’d never think she has any ) she has stems from something her mother has said / called her in the past . if henry berkowitz had a soft spot , it was certainly jalissa , it that had only grown clearly with the harsher austen became on the girl .

a few months before her nineteenth birthday a sex tape was released of jalissa cheating on her boyfriend at the time . it was a drunken mistake she’d made around the time of her mother basically disowning her , but that explanation did suffice for her boyfriend who inevitably broke things off with her . although this was a horrific time she’d received an abundance of offers to film more tapes . it was enticing to say the least . she was someone who loved intercourse but also had this deeply rooted desire to get back at her mother ? and what better way to do so then to something so far left from what her mother was about . this was next level disappointment in the eyes of austen berkowitz . the only thing that made sense ( in her mind ) was to dive head first into the porn industry .

like you’d expect her parents had a fit when they found out about her new career choice . although her internet fame had soared to new heights and her youtube & instagram followers were loving every second of this move . her mom was currently serving as governor and has since not been able to get elected in the political world since jalissa became one of the top porn stars around . they basically blacklisted her & jalissa feels no remorse , she’s gone so far as telling her mother “ sucks to be shunned , huh? ” .

although it took her dad a while to come around , he cares far too much to shut her out . 

not to long after jalissa & her best friend started their podcast tickets to our downfall , it’s a mix of call her daddy & the basement yard , basically two besties talking on a level that most people wouldn’t want to leave the privacy of their own space , giving advice , hoe tricks , and telling funny stories of their past . it a total hit & one of jalissa’s favorite things to do .

she live sin the same house she has since she was eighteen . she lives on her own with three dogs and a cat . she absolutely hates being alone and so maggie ( a tan corgi puppy ) , louis ( a  yellow lab puppy ) , humphrey ( a chocolate lab ) , and cedric ( a orange scottish fold ) are her babies that keep her sane in her big ole home . 

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 

as you can tell jalissa is chaotic , impulsive , reactive , and overall just searching for attention . she doesn’t care if the attention she receives is for the wrong reason or not , as long as she’s getting it . despite this she’s a good person ? i promise . she’s very friendly , loves a good joke & having a good time . very fun loving . she’s the type of person to try and bring up everyone else’s mood even when she isn’t feeling 100% herself . she’s loyal to those she deems are loyal to her . sometimes she’s bad a seeing who is actually loyal to her though & will be disloyal to someone who actually has her back ? oops . she’s definitely not the type to sugar coat anything for you , she tells it like it is & refuses to apologize if that hurts your feelings . if you cross her ? i’ll be praying for you . she’s the type to fuck your s/o , tell your boss some wild story about you & dump alcohol over your head at an event all in the matter of a week . don’t get her going , she’s absolutely relentless . with that said she’d very affectionate ... ? you can catch her hugging up on whoever is next to her at all times . touch is her love language , because lord knows she’s no sweetheart . she hates the stereotype of porn stars / internet personalities being ditzy , although she didn’t attend university she was accepted into two ivy leagues based off her academic abilities alone . the girl is intelligent & enjoys having a clever conversation from time to time .

𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

a girl squad or just a squad in general really , give my baby her lil group of people please

her ex boyfriend from when she was seventeen ( he’s mentioned above ) but basically he’s the one who encouraged her to not let her parents make her their puppet , they didn’t approve of him , jalissa fell head over heels for him . they would’ve dated for nearly two years because the sex tape of her cheating on him came out .

the person she cheated on her ex with ? maybe they’re the one who leaked the sex tape ? maybe they never even told jalissa they were recording ? 

her best friend that she does the tickets to our downfall podcast with ? these two are literally like twins , just two peas in a pod ( pun intended )

fans of her work ? and im not taking about her youtube channel or podcast 

ex hook ups that think she’s crazy ? she probably gave them reason to think so lbr

frenemies give me blair & serena circa season one type of shit

just plain old enemies , they were probably friends at one point or maybe just have always disliked one another ? 

smoking buddies were they literally just hot box cars together and munch on taco bell talking about why sound vibrates & shit 

someone who isn’t afraid to confess their love for jalissa but her damaged ass refuses to confess her feelings for them ? so it’s just this constant cycle of them having a good time , them being sweet & her just gets weirdly quite & starring at them before she complaining about them going and ruining the vibes

she’s a bad influence on them ? they’re a good influence on her ? ride or dies ? partners in crime ? only friends when there is a substance involved ? sugar baby vibes ? unlikely friends ? flings ? crush ? friends with benefits ? everytime they are around one another its a fight ? someone she lets crash at her place sometimes ? someone she’s backstabbed & maybe they don’t even know she has & they still think she’s a ride or die for them ?

[blooming5th]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO.

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Are they underrated?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.

How strictly do you follow canon?  — Pretty strictly, I think? I mean... I do always try my best to stick to canon events because although I am a big fan of AUs, I absolutely suck at writing canon-divergent characters. I also look out for possible dialectisms that come from Hinamori & put some work towards Hinamori’s personal development; all of this according to whatever has happened to her in canon / is shown by her in canon.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  There’s an entire world waiting beyond Hinamori’s pretty face? She’s still pretty much just a baby when in comparison to many other Lieutenants (being the second youngest, right after lil Yachiru), which makes her super innocent and funny. She’s also very upbeat, easy-going, and friendly! She’s such a devoted Lieutenant and honestly a great worker? Super strong with her kido spells, too! A great student?! A very, very good girl, honestly! She’s the greatest person you will ever meet, I swear to GOD !!

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  —  Most of the people, from what I can perceive from reading different opinions and have read through my years in Bleach forums and such, is that she’s pretty mentally weak. Hinamori seems to be extremely unbalanced and the previously mentioned devotion actually becomes... a weakness? Although I don’t agree with it ( mostly because I do believe her devotion towards Aizen was induced and not... something natural ), I can understand what people mean by this. Also, she mostly uses magic spells and keeps herself at a certain distance when in combat;; which people might easily perceive as her being weak when it’s just... her fighting style and body stature.

What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  I have roleplayed Hinamori for over 6 years now? almost 7, actually. I made this blog in 2014, however, I was supposed to be writing Hitsugaya. I ended up changing my entire blog’s aesthetics, not even a week later, to match Hinamori and decided to try her out. Why? Well... long story short... the fandom was full of Hitsugaya blogs. asjhdfasjdhfg I didn’t want simply be just one more in the ocean of amazing Hitsugaya writers;; so I decided to write someone who gave me access to heavy development ( because there was so little content back then ) and fun times ! lil peach was the obvious answer!

What keeps your inspiration going?  —  Most of the time its music? Whenever I decide to focus on an rp blog, I create a go-to playlist that helps me channel the muse’s traits and helps me write with more ease! That... and re-reading manga pages that might make me come up with headcanons, which I, later, always tend to apply to threads. Oh yeah, uh... LMAO! How could I forget? Talking to friends and discussing things with them, also often lets my creativity soar and helps me channel my muse’s persona. uwu

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO.

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO. 

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO. 

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day?  YES / NO.

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO.

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  Honestly, yes? I am a person that needs to receive constant criticism & is very open about it, too. I often find myself asking for criticism & find myself craving for bigger improvement.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  —  HELLS TO THE YES !! But then again... who doesn’t? It makes me so so happy whenever I receive a question or a simple message that might help me develop Hinamori’s character traits or behaviours? I love my girl so much;; knowing that others want me to gush about her amazingness & make her grow even more is nothing but an honour to me, tbh.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  Well... yeah? But not in a bad way, of course! I absolutely love discussing headcanons and getting different points of view from things ( such as headcanons, in this specific topic ) so I can center myself and find a clearer way to analyze things! Discussing headcanons is dope, man!

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  This is going to be a pretty short response cause ;; I don’t care? I’m not here to really... please others. I’m here to have fun for my own self and to enjoy writing with other amazing fellas. Ain’t nobody gonna rain on my parade with unnecessary negativity;;

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  —  I haven’t ever seen many people hate Hinamori’s character? However, I do have seen quite the few people disregard her as the important character she is, or reduce her to a level that doesn’t... entirely fit the reason why she was created. Still, it’s none of my business. I don’t let it get to me or feel... the need to do anything about it? Or even talk about it? I can’t really change people’s views, so I often would just rather love my baby peach and let others do as they please.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  —  ABSOLUTELY? It’s even part of my rules like ;; please tell me if you ever find a grammatical error ANYWHERE in my blog. English isn’t my mother tongue and thus it can be very difficult for me to keep up with fancy writing while also sticking to correct grammar? idk if this makes sense but... yknow.

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  I do think I am very easy going kind of fella? Sometimes it takes me forever go get to messages ( both through discord & IMS ), but I think that’s because lately I’ve been feeling super emotionally drained ;; I haven’t been out of my goddamn house for three months and I sincerely miss seeing faces that aren’t my parents. I did take a drive the other day but... sobs... it left such a bittersweet taste. ANYWAY !! Yes. I’m very easy going and talkative. Also a big, big enthusiastic? And positivist! I am someone who always prefers to stick to the bright side of life and ignore anything that might be the least problematic so yeah ~ I am uwu. Come meet me. I’m cool. I swear.

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

Tagged by: @hirako5hinji​   ( aka the greatest taichō ever. uwu go to bed harder next time, Anna. ♡ ) Tagging: ANYONE WHO WANTS TO DO IT !! just steal it from me. be gay. do crimes.

[isa-ghost]

Achievements Unlocked?

The last decade has COMPLETELY shaped who I am now and the fact that it ends today and essentially sends me off into the next one where turning 30 is the end is something I can’t wrap my head around and not just bc it’s barely 9am as I’m writing it. Ten years hasn’t felt like ten years and all the shit that’s happened during those ten years feels like it’s happened in the last like,,, 3.

Basically this is just me going How The Fuck Did All Of This Happen In A Decade and highlighting the big things that shaped who I am now.

Uhhh this is long I’m gonna-

2010/2011 (Shit’s A Blur):

I started noticing aesthetic interests I had.

I developed my love for the outdoors and exploration.

I started realizing vaguely spooky things were really intriguing to me.

I got SUPER into Harry Potter.

Which lead to me creating my first two Ocs.

I started switching from drawing animals/landscapes to drawing people.

I made my first cluster of friends I hoped I’d have forever. (Spoiler alert: only still have one of em).

2012:

I started identifying with punk rock & emo culture/aesthetics.

I made my first cluster of online friends (Spoiler alert: don’t talk to any of em now)

I got into YouTubers.

I got into anime.

I made my first “blog.” It was a Facebook page for a fictional character.

I discovered my favorite band.

I made my first online friend I hoped I’d have forever (still have em so far!)

I met my future wife.

I started roleplaying with Ocs.

Which lead to making more.

I started drawing digitally using bases. Which started my improvement.

I made my own first little community via my FB page.

Which lead to an rp group of more friends I hoped I’d have forever (still got a handful of em!)

I discovered my other favorite bands.

I started using Skype.

I got into more anime.

My parents were officially fully separated. 

Which began the very start of realizing my dad was verbally abusive.

Congrats Isa, You Need Glasses You Dumb Fuck. Hooray astigmatism.

I graduated 8th grade.

2013:

I was essentially forced to move in with my dad for high school.

I started high school.

Officially became total anime trash and started watching them like crazy.

I THINK I hit 100 Ocs at some point this year. Just kept makin them from here.

Met my first cluster of irl forever friends (spoiler alert: only have 1 now).

Learned having Ocs was Not Just An Isa Thing, Holy Shit I Thought I Was Just Weird.

Promptly fell in love with learning about other people’s Ocs.

Realized Wow, I Kinda Can’t Stand My Dad And I Don’t Trust Him.

Had my first boyfriend. *gag* He was nasty.

Experienced my first long distance relationship. It lasted 3 days.

2014/2015 (Shit’s Also Blurry):

Got another long distance boyfriend. First relationship I genuinely liked the person.

I realized talking multiple people through the lowest points of their lives and keeping them from harming themselves was a sign I should maybe get into psychology and do that as a job.

I started getting interested in researching mental disorders.

Realized Okay Yeah, I Lowkey Hate My Dad

Realized I had A Concerning Amount Of Symptoms Of Depression. Fuck.

Realized Huh, Girls Are Pretty Too,,,

My friend taught me about bi and pansexuality. Casually started identifying as pan. Didn’t know shit about LGBT+ stuff.

Was shown a video by my friend. Decided Wow I Really Like This Screaming Potato Guy.

Acquired one more forever friend I still have.

Got slapped in the face by Gravity Falls.

My mom moved out of the rural town I just spent the last like 8 Years Of My Own Character Development In, Dammit

I realized money and finances Fucking Sucks.

Had the,, probably worst year of my adolescence. Angry, depressed, sick of my dad. It was Not Great. Almost started self-harming, only didn’t because I’d be a hypocrite if I did after helping my friends stop doing it.

Homestuck invaded my life around here I think.

Decided I’m Gonna Live With My Online Friends One Day! (spoiler alert: nope).

Was kinda forced by my dad to move out of the apartment I lived in and therefore forced to transfer schools.

Got to meet my future wife irl for the first time. Wow that was,, so gay before we even realized.

Okay Hold On, This New School Is,,, Really Nice.

2016:

New school. New me. New friends. New everything. Fuckity shit fuck.

Okay wait they have an anime club like my other school did we good.

Met another two forever friends that I think really are forever friends now.

Angry Shitty Depression Time Died Down A Little.

Somehow learned about evilsonas. Huh, Does Jack Have One? ... Ok Cool, They’re All People’s Ocs. Meh.

Started learning how to drive. Oh My God This Is Fun.

Lost my second ever pet and was... very confused when I wasn’t as traumatized as I was the first time I lost a pet.

Boyfriend kinda Thanos snapped from existence bc his irl life was hectic.

Experienced what it’s like to have a friend that died.

Wow my irl best friend is hot. ... Okay I Think Boyfriend’s Absence Is Bothering Me. *proceeds to ignore that*

Gets into some more bands.

Knock Knock, You Have Separation Anxiety, Isa.

Finally decided to try out high school things like homecoming. Ooh That Was Actually Fun.

The beginning of the worst end to a friendship I’ve ever had starts. Not Handling It Well.

Discovered Fooster. Cue hyperfixation on new favorite YouTuber and more new friends.

Wait What The Fuck What Just Happened To Jack’s Camera,,,, OH MY GOD HE ISN’T-

HE IS. OH FUCK HE IS. MMMMHELLO KNIFE MAN.

Totally forgets he exists for the next like 10 months.

Realization I Really Fucking Love Halloween.

Discovered what asexuality is and immediately identifies because I thought I was just weird.

Hmm maybe I should start watching this Markiplier guy

Big Sad Times, My Friends Graduated. Next Year Gonna SUCK.

Tried out Dungeons & Dragons. Fuckin loved it.

2017:

Ah fuck I’m a senior in high school this is gonna be a trip.

Discovered I like photography.

Literally where did this school year go it’s so blurry.

Was convinced to end the relationship with boyfriend. He’s still a good bean.

Hey uhhhh online best friend do u big gay.

WE big gay.

Found a book I really like that isn’t Harry Potter, damn it’s about time.

Ok But This Book Really Fucked Me Up, I Love It.

OH FUCK WAIT I’M GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL.

Oh that wasn’t so bad.

Actually had to be PUSHED by my friends to have my first kiss with my girlfriend at my graduation party because I was too busy going [dkasjdjf] about having her physically in my presence at all.

First super memorable vacation. Wow I Fucking Love Traveling.

Got to meet another online friend!! I am,, incredibly lucky about being able to do that, this was like the 4th friend I got to meet.

[That one motion blur conspiracy theorist meme] SABRINA IM TELLING U JACK IS UP TO SOMETHING HIS TWITTER IS FUCKY

Gets punched in the throat with Kill Jacksepticeye on the way home from vacation and remembers how much I fucking love Anti

TIME FOR COLLEGE. I made a mistake.

TIME FOR COMMUNITY COLLEGE. Much Better.

Friend I Still Have From High School 1/2 introduced me to Bendy and the Ink Machine. HYPERFIXATION TIME BABEY.

Let’s,,, lets try Tumblr. Jack exists there a lot. And so does good art of everything I’m interested in.

Wait Who’s This Baby With The Mustache, JACK EXPLAIN

Okay there’s More Going On Here, lets get active in the community.

WHY THE FUCK IS THERE SECURITY FOOTAGE. THIS IS SKETCH. THIS ISOH MOTHERFUCKER ITS ANTI

Isa: Become Theorist

The rest is history, really, all stuff I’ve posted about on here. xD

And knowing me I’ve left out other highlighted bits but remembering all of this is,,, really exhausting lmao, I’m surprised I jotted down as much as I did in Relatively Chronological Order.

[goldmcdal]

𝕀ℕ𝕋ℝ𝕆𝔻𝕌ℂ𝕀ℕ𝔾 ... 𝖗𝖔𝖝𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖊 𝖕𝖆𝖙𝖊𝖐 !

°✧｡ { MELTED ICE CREAM , AN EVERLASTING SMELL OF CHLORINE , RAINY NIGHTS } i can’t believe i just saw roxanne patek name ! yeah, the twenty-three year old that’s representing team australia in swimming this year. this is their third time in the games. i wonder if they’re as querulous and captious as people say. but, i mean, they seem pretty jocular and dedicated, too. well, we’ll see how well they do. °✧｡ *

[chris d’elia vc] what’s up my babies, hi! im literally so exited to be here & roleplay with all of you. my names meg, living in the est and i go by she/her pronouns. i go back to school in like a week and wow ... i don’t wanna deal with all that right now , but that’s life amiright ? enough about the dred of college life, here’s my lil cinnamon bun roxi. if you’d like to plot just hit that heart button and i will come running to you ♥

here’s her career stats !

timeline

1996, roxanne zsófia-lynn patek was to born vivian and mikael patek in cairns, queensland, australia. their second child and last child. she has an older brother by three years named lucas. 

her grandmother (paternal) would babysit roxi and her lucas during the days and even some nights when her dad had meetings. this was because her mom worked as a yacht stewardess so she was often away from the family and her father worked as a financier so he had a busy schedule, although he made a point to spend as much time as possible wiht the kids through activities like camping, surfing, bbq’s, and reef diving.

2002, her parents had roxi in gymnastics for a few years but she wasn’t really taken to it. she preferred to run off to the pool or talk her brother into bringing her to the beach down the road instead of stretching or practicing routines. 

her father noticed how much she loved being in the water and how she’d set up races with her friends, more importantly he noticed how she always won, even against the boys. that’s when he decided to put her into competitive swimming at the local ymca. she took to it well and her coaches often raved about her abilities.

2008, she started secondary school. she joined the schools swim team, found herself a tight knit group of friends who she’s still friends with to this day. 

within her first year on her schools team she’d broken most of the record set over the years as well as many records within the district. by her second year on the team she held every record but the ones in breaststroke. 

2010, she made her world championship debut in dubai. she won her first international gold medal, two silver medals, and one bronze medal (the only bronze medal she’s every had on an international scale). she medaled in every race she did that year.

it was a stand out year for many reason for roxi, of course for the obvious being her first worlds but also because her family had come together for the first time for her meet. her dad, grandparents on both sides, mom, and brother were all there supporting her in the stands.

she’s had unwavered support from her family ever since. they make it to all of her meets and have had no questions of her abilities ever since.

2011, her first world aquatic championship where she won five gold medals and a silver and set her first world record, ever, in the 1500m freestyle just before she made her olympic debut in london. where she dominated, taking home a gold medal for each race she competed in. breaking two olympic records,  two australian records, and a world record. 

2012, she attended that years world championships in turkey coming off her first olympic year, she and ryan lochte were named the best female and male swimmers of the competition.

2014,  she graduated from school and decided she wanted to study sports business but she wanted to explore her college years in a different country and so she applied to several schools around england and america. she inevitable decided  to attend stanford university where she was offered a full ride on a athletic scholarship.

although every summer she came back home to australia for about a month.

2015, her second olympic appearance in brazil. where she won four gold medals and two silver medals. breaking two world records, one of them being her own. 

this olympics was a different experience as she’d spent alot of time with american swimmers she felt it was alot easier to start building report around the olympic village between countries apposed to her first year were she stuck mostly to her fellow australians.

2017, the day after setting a world record at the world aquatics  championships she was competing in the 200m butterfly when she banged her head against the wall during a turn. she finished the race in 2nd but was brought to the hospital due to her head bleeding and the championships were put on an hour hold to clean out the pool. 

she had to announce she wouldn’t be competing in her last two races for the championships and took nearly a month off from swimming. 

during that time she debated retiring in fear of the accident happening again but decided to get back to training later in the year. 

2018, she graduated from stanford with a sports business degree and minor in international politics. she decided to move back home to australia were she lives just down the road from her parents in cairns.

2019, she’s just off one hell of a run at the 2019 world aquatics championships that was held in south korea. she has two new world records under her belt and four more gold medals. according to her coaches she is in the best shape of her life.

personality

 so basically roxi is not like other girls *eye roll* or atleast she will claim so until her last breath. 

she’s always been a total daddy’s girl and has been giving everything she’s every wanted in life, so she’s a tad bit spoiled y’all. she’s more of a whiny baby than a raging bitch though so that’s sort of a positive?!

she was never the best in academics, roxi was a solid b- student with a tutor, but what she lacked in academics she’s made up for ten-fold in her athletic ability.

she’s only had two serious relationships her whole life. 

is pansexual although she’s only ever dated guys before. 

she’s the friend you hit up when it’s curfew in the village but you wanna cause a little trouble maybe prank your neighboring roommates, or run through rome. she’s always up for a good time, so long as you’re not getting int he way of her training.

on the note of training, boy, no one trains more than this girl. she’s part fish basically and lives in the pool. she is the most decorated female swimmer she didn’t get there by being lazy that’s for sure lol.

she sucks at running so she kick-boxes for workouts when she’s not in the pool.

if she likes you you’ll know, if she doesn’t, you’ll know

I'll definitely add more to this as time goes on ~

[scourgefrontiers]

we made it to day 5 of pride wowie !!

today i will talk abt some positive lgbt+ experiences ive had in fandoms..that...i can remember i guess

oh jeez where do i start.  my memory is like super bad so this is difficult LMAO

i guess i could start with..god forbid, hetalia.  that was my first big fandom so i feel like i gotta mention it.  at the time i was into hetalia, i was only just starting to figure myself out. i was still with my first boyfriend and i still id’d as a cis girl.  for a while literally my only tie to the lgbt+ community was how i shipped gay couples thats it. and like im not saying that made me a super great ally but it..introduced me to the concepts i guess?  anyway like.  after i broke up w/ my boyfriend (this was around 2013 i think) i felt more open to exploring myself.  i realized i was trans soon after and started exploring my sexuality as well. i dated my first girl at this time, who i met through hetalia roleplaying (in retrospect not my best decision lmao).  we ended up both realizing we were trans so we started to transition together!  things didnt work out w/ our relationship but it did help me figure out the direction i wanted my identity to go in.  irt fandom, i started playing around with more lgbt+ headcanons, mostly trans ones, and this helped me feel more secure in my identity.

the next big fandom i moved to was danny phantom in 2014.  this one..hoo boy. my identity sort of Became danny phantom at this time lmao. i was in DEEP.  this is when i started going by dan for obvious reasons and i began to question if i was really a guy.  i ended up deciding that i was more nonbinary than a binary trans guy, though i still wanted to go a masculine route with my transition.  i continued my pattern of projecting onto my fav characters and headcanoning them as lgbt+ which again helped me feel more secure and welcomed.  i also met my next partner in this fandom who i’d end up dating for nearly four years afterwards which was rly nice

finally came dragon ball.  this is where i rly started going crazy w/ the projection and headcanons. like everyone is gay or trans in some way. im still Here so idk what else to really say abt this one, but i do wanna address how fu has helped me out with my identity!  this sort of ties into kin stuff but i’ll just talk about the lgbt+ aspect of the identity stuff.  y’all know i project super heavily onto this dude.  well honestly its been a really healthy thing for me? the way i draw him is mostly me projecting my ideal body onto him and how i’d like to look in real life, scars and hips and all.  speaking of the hips, i used to be pretty dysphoric abt  my figure, but since i started using fu to cope with that ive p much gotten rid of those feelings!  its really great tbh.  thank u fu i love u

idk if this was me talking abt positive lgbt+ experiences in fandoms or if it was more of me talking about my lgbt+ journey in fandoms but. whatever. it made a post

[monalisaclub-archive-blog]

monalisa-club’s 100 follower giveaway!

so WOW i really revamped this blog and actually stuck to it, huh??? well, at least in my second go ‘round on it ( lol ). for those who didn’t know, probably none of you, i actually made monalisa-club all the way back in 2013 or 2014 and only truly made around 7 muses for it. it was my second roleplay account ever. back then, i didn’t really know about the krp or jrp community ( i didn’t even know how to promo correctly ), so my amount of mutuals was very sparse. but, now, i’m happy that i’ve found a bunch of people who want to write with me and have fun with my muses! i’ll get onto the giveaway after the read more. for now, let me do these honorable mentions that i’ve been dying to get to ✨

@peachseouls​ -- COUSIN CAN WE GO BOWLING???? but fr, it’s so funny how life works out. you messaged me one day, wondering how to reply to a starter i made you, and the next thing i know we’re im buddies and serial threaders. i remember going “oh no they hate my starter” and i was 101% sure we weren’t gonna rp again, but look what happened! i’m glad that you did message me that day and we became friends. you make my experience here a lot better and i love all your unique muses 💕

@nakamatsuyama​ / @jurina-andthediamonds​ -- i’m glad to see you back on the dash again, even if it’s only sparse. you were one of my first writing partners, both here on this revamped blog and my zodiac-themed multi-muse blog! you’re always so sweet to me and it’s nice to plot with you, because you’re always so excited to do so with me c: you’re awesome!

@artificiallovc​ -- hey gurl hey~ you’re another person that i hold multi-threads with and i love every one of them! you have some pretty unique muses that i love to write with tbh, so i never get tired of plotting with you ( even tho i take 435654767 years for some threads ;; ). your attention to their personalities really helps define them and it’s one of things i like about your writing. we talk a bit here and there, even tho it’s mostly plotting, but never be afraid to talk to me about other things! i’d love to be your friend and rp partner both o/

@rhapsodiie​ -- you’re the sweetest <3 whenever i’m whining about something ooc, you give me some words of encouragement and it makes my day brighter. it’s also really nice to see you take interest in my muses, even the ones that you don’t have threads with ( and we don’t have any threads yet....which is a total CRIME ). we are plotting currently tho and i’m glad that we are. i can’t wait to write with you!

@mementomorri​ -- we don’t roleplay a lot, but i love seeing you on my dash and it always warms my heart to see you like a post about my muses and tag me in things. you’re a great writer and have created an interesting and compelling original character in morri, she has such a detailed background and interesting personality. i’m glad that we’re mutuals!

more awesome people and fantastic writers!

@ucndrcm​ @goreadored​ @eternitysought​ @blvelemonade​ @pastwinter​ @sunkissces​ @hardturbulence​ @sakuxrisu​ @floires​ @honeyedbreath​ @gwyynbleidd​ @rcvus​ @etastra​ ( btw i miss you :( ) @ghcstbvster​ @synrgetic​ @kindsickness​ ( one of my first mutuals here and on the original monalisa-club! i miss you too~ ) @nobleconsort​ @crimsontigerlord​ and a lot of other great people that i might’ve forgotten to mention!

icon giveaway info & rules --

next friday, i’ll use a random generator to pick a top three people who’ll get roleplay icons custom made by me! third place gets 30 icons, 2nd place gets 50 icons, and 1st place gets 100 icons of the faceclaim of their choosing. the rules for the contest are these:

must’ve been mutuals with me prior to this post

must reblog this ( a little shameless promo, yes i admit lmao )

must provide me with the link to a psd and/or icon border that you’d like me to use

cannot distribute the icons to anyone else, they’re for you and you only

that’s it! pretty simple rules for a simple giveaway

[shuicheese]

Okay so- It’s going to be a new year real soon. And I haven’t done anything for my pals during Christmas and I really, really wanted to do something to show how thankful I am towards my friends. So here’s a small ‘follow-forever’ thingie! ^^

I will put them under read more since it’s a long list hehe. This isn’t in any order, btw, I appreciate all of you and if I somehow, somehow, forgot to add you then- Im so sorry! ;;;

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@diligencekit - We’ve been pals for a reaallly long time now, and I really enjoy your company, bro! I consider you a really close friend of mine and a broski. ^^ You’re possibly my first close pal on the net, and I’m glad that we’re still buddies! Your art has always been a huge inspo to me and it’s probably the main reason to why I got a drawing tablet. qwq; 

@valskya - Another close net pal/broski! I’m happy that we’re close friends and we started talking again! You and Jen always seem to make me really happy, your art has also been an inspo to me and I’m always happy to see your art! You also got me into Juuni Taisen which honestly made me really happy, we had lots of fun watching the episodes and such! You’re also another really close friend of mine, and a broski as well! I’m just really happy we started to talk to each other again~

@zingospinning - I completely adore you. I really don’t know where to start with this- Okay, so when I first saw you in school, I instantly wanted to befriend you. But I was so god damn nervous because I wanted to impress you and such,  but then we became friends in an after-school club and that was both the best thing and the most nervous thing because I still really wanted to impress you. Looking back at it, I sort of find it amusing. I think when I befriended you, I started to become slightly more social with others and had a bit more friends? I only had one friend and if I haven’t met you, then holy shit where would I be now? You’re funny, a huge sweetheart to me, and I enjoy your company so much! I wish I can see you every day in school again but ey, I do hope you’re doing well and I love you! You also introduced me to many things, such as BNHA, Teen Titans, etc etc. Thank you so much for the great stuff in life, Zingo! <33

@hasikon - Where do I begin. Okay, fIRST OF ALL! Thank you for making sure I was doing well this month, and thank you for everything too. You have wonderful OC’s and a wonderful humor, and whenever we have a Skype call, it honestly makes me laugh and it’s so chill. Playing games with you is so fun, even though I may have ‘ruin’ the experience for ya. xp Btw we need to play TableTop Simulator sometime again hoho. 

@nikolas-is-gay - BROTHER!! Nikolas is my sweet n satanic baby brother!! I love him so much and I’m so glad we started talking! Has a great humor, I adore his OC’s, and his creativity! We hurt each other on a daily basis by talking about angst about our OC’s and we love it. Honestly, I don’t know what I would do without him, he’s there to cheer me up whenever I’m feeling down and the things he says always seem to make me laugh and/or smile. It’s nice to have him around tbh~

@maginpui - Oh gosh- My sweet and adorable P.Wife! She’s so adorable and I honestly love, looove her humor! She never fails to make me laugh and I also really appreciate her kindness! I’m so sorry that I never really got the chance to properly talk to you in school though,,, But I do hope the gifts I got you are fine! And I love you so much, I hope you’re well, P.Wife! I also returned all of the gifts you gave me- I love them all so so much and I am extremely sentimental of em! Especially the Pusheen gifts!

@dettouo - East or West, Dett is the best! I really need to start talking to you again! You’re such a sweetheart and you’re adorable! I really enjoy talking to you and you seem really fun to talk to! I do hope you’re well too~ Honestly just talking to her makes me feel really happy.

@turtleofrage & @killualluka99  - AH YES, THE BUNDLE I GOT WHEN BEFRIENDING ZINGAY! Also a great birthday gift, considering I met them on my 16th birthday? These are my adopted children, I love them both so much! Seeing them whenever I visit Zingo makes me happy! I love their humor and I also enjoy their memes and company~

@dylanhack - Another old pal of mine, and an older brother! We haven’t been talking a lot lately but I really want to change that. You’re really fun to talk to and I was looking back at my old posts yesterday, and I honestly really miss you heh,, I do hope we can talk again! Because you’re a really fun buddy and I enjoy your company!

@philosopher-rachel-wolf - I’ve known Rachel since...I guess 2013? But we’ve properly started talking in early 2014 and ever since then, I wanted to improve myself because inspired me so much! You’re probably the main and only reason to why I write better now, and still roleplay in the RP community. Well I mean- I try to roleplay but writers' block,,,heh h-- But I’m not kidding when I say your writing has influenced me. I’m so happy that we became friends and I’m even more happier that we still are! You always have that jolly personality that really makes me smile ^^ And your art! Where do I begin- you always seem to be improving it , and I’m always so happy to see your improvement. It’s seriously makes me smile too- I love it! Keep up the wonderful work, Rachel! <33

@chibinel - Listen-- We got ‘banned’ in a Cuphead server for confessing out love for Beppi the clown, we have a role called “EXTRA BANNED” because of it. I’m proud of myself- Okay but jokes aside, I love Gaster! I love their art so much, it’s so adorable and it’s just- it’s really good! They’re nice to talk to and I’m glad we got along well! ^^

@valf-xx - Listen- Valf is a huge sweetheart when I first met her. I really love her Dangan Ronpa imagines blog ( @komaedas-trash cHECK IT OUT BLEASE-- ) and I love talking to her! I like screeching about Eraserhead with her and I also love her art~ She’s just- She makes me feel so calm, I really appreciate that !

@puddingskitty - Fun and adorable buddy! I enjoy seeing her art and seeing her on my dashboard in general. I love her Toy Bonnie’s design, and whenever I see a rabbit, I can’t help but get reminded of her~ Honestly I enjoy her company even though I was quiet for sometime- And you’re probably the first person who drew my OC, Zerum, as a small gift and I still really appreciate it! Thank you! 

@kamukuraprojects - Another buddy I consider a brother!! Listen- his cosplaying is so?? It’s so beautiful?? I love it so so much! You’re a gorgeous boy and I simply adore your generosity, I do hope things are gonna be better for you since I heard you’re having a bit of a hard time I think? But I hope you’ll have a great and wonderful new year and hope that next year will be better for you! ^^

@imperial-dork - My spirit animal. Literally my spirit animal- his humor is honestly my favourite and I look up to this man even though a certain goat told me not to. Either way, I think Magnus is a cool dood, and I enjoy hearing about the wacky things he’s done~

@fluzeh - I love Lazy’s art so so soooooooo much! I want to draw just like her one day! She’s so sweet and I love to mess around with her~ I also enjoy watching stuff with her- we watched the MLP movie on rabbit and honestly it was a nice experience~ I love it! I hope we can do more things like that! She’s also the person who designed my main fursona, honestly I just- I adore my sona so much because it’s from you, and I will forever treasure it!Thank you so so much again for the design! <33

Okay I’m one tired idiot atm but I just want to say that for those I haven’t wrote a small description thingie for, please try not to get upset! I’m sorry in advance that I couldn’t say something for you, but I hope you all are alright with this!!

Here are some people that I enjoy talking to/admire and/or people I would love to talk to/get to know better!

@ciel-beehive, @pikabrightheart, @plantsarehardcore, @frizzbutt, @his-pall-mugman, @rottenmilkyarts, @tvvy, @darkshadowsnake, @garnetarmstrong,  @flareon, @raphadelialovesyou, @cheinsaw, @official-akamatsu, @crowstainedred, @ryoumahoshi, @ellsworld, @korekiyo--shinguuji, @btal, @infinitypixel, @askmoonburst, @ask-evil-rainbow-dash, @zyrdrake, @radhalla, @rubberhoseartist, @wolfex126, @miss-bribri, @ladykailolu, @rosealinathefox, @rexieh, @johntheslothblog, and @spacescarf

That being said, I hope all of you had a great year, and if it wasn’t a great year, then I hope next year will be better for all of you! 

I love you all, thank you so much for everything, and have a happy new year!! <33

[picklepickens]

small notes for the future me cuz i forget things really easily

2004- born

2008- divorce. beginning of feeling so scared around people 

2010-2013 - not recognizing emotions, only feeling scared because of not knowing much. the only way to show these emotions are through tears

2014- new people. starting to feel more aggressive than sad. getting into video games, social media. dreaming of romance, but only because feeling desperate. ‘if even my family, the people closest to me cant make me happy. then a lover will!!’, thoughts of running away. learning english. giving up on grades cuz i failed a test where the questions were ‘is this hot or cold?’

2015- starting off really well, making friends, as well as abandonment that comes after. getting into music and focusing on drawing. learning what sex is D: , playing volleyball, start of good memories in the school bus, opening up more to people. meeting online friends, getting into fandoms, unironic roleplaying

2016- being the official emo of the school while somehow getting in a popular girl group. manipulation, bullying, self doubt, slight sexual abuse. getting REALLY into creepypasta, rock music. being abandoned at the end of the year, learning about social interactions, more happy school bus memories!, doing makeup, getting in a swimming club for 3 days, breaking knee while moving. ow

2017- moved into a new, beautiful place. realizing a weight has been lifted off my shoulders since the place i lived put a lot of pressure on me. trying to fit in at school after the wreck of last year. developing an unhealthy crush, being disappointed soon after. learning about public transportation, starting to hang out with friend outside. girls night!, meeting cool teachers, drawing in every break, learning more about social interactions. financial problems, having only soup for one day. feeling alone and unwanted, having urges to harm self, not going outside, eating unhealthly, falling into heavy depression. taking medication without being diagnosed, but it helps. the only good things that happened that summer was going to a nice holiday and discovering dan and phil, who made things so much easier for me.

2018- new, healthy friendships. being silly. starting to work on grades bc at this point i have to, cuz i need to go to a high school with a scholarship! learning that if i put my mind to it, i can actually do schoolwork and good grades. increasing confidence. being happier, sneaking out of school, new schoolbus! good memories!, being a lil horny lmao, another unsuccessful crush, dancing, mEMEs, starting to talk to my dad again, only to not talk to him for a few more months, which is just the usual, taking care of physical health at summer, getting thinner and turning into a hot piece of ass, moving out of the dream house bc of ongoing debts, moving into an older, problematic house.

2019- starting high school!! actually socializing, studying, studying, STUDYING. getting reeeeally competitive. trying out new clubs, going to the uk for the first time, having an amazing time there. getting 2nd place in a mational competition, earning an iwatch, going out so much more, strenghning friendships, getting really into fashion, starting to enjoy reading, getting into nature

2020- the excitement dying out, being self concious, still studying and having good relationships with teachers, being extremely anxious about the future, being obsessed with money, slight self hatred, still being competitive but chilling out a bit, making even more lasting friendships, having strong opinions, self theraphy, realization of having one self encouraging side and another critical side, constantly having mood swings, giving up on schoolwork, starting to accept and love the house that i live in, only to have problems with the landlord, being evicted, but we havent moved out yet,,. discovering passion, being relieved, cutting hair and dying it pink, feeling like a bad bitch, using owo and uwu unironically, realizing that i forget some things as a defense mechanism. remembering the sexual disturbance in 2016. realizing its abuse. realizing familial abuse. actually starting to talk with dad, actually being like a real dad and daughter, starting to accept him and openly love him, discovering the value of some friends that i ignored, discovering that i made really good friends who were willing to help me out in time of need, coming to terms with some problems, and just going by. also there was a pandemic and i think i got the covid 19 at the start of it, but it wasnt as recognized as it is now. so i guess we’ll never know. being confessed to by a good friend. going out of the awkward phase with past crush and being friends again, not being too affected by the pandemic. improving at digital art. reducing myself a bit cuz i realized i can be overly hyped and end up hurting others. 

SO THIS HAS BEEN MY LIFE SO FAR. i wanted to make this kind of thing for a few days cuz i recently realized i forget a lot of things cuz thats just how my brain gets over things. its not perfect, im still a bit scared, im still self concious but i got so much better compared to what i was. a scared lil girl. now im just a bigger scared lil girl lol

- so hi to the future me! i wonder if things are going as planned, i wonder if u ticked some boxes off the bucketlist, and i wonder how future fam is doing as well. please take good care of yourself and the others! i cant wait to grow up and be, well, you.im putting 1 in the tags for personal stuff, cuz i want to go back on them one day. so thats the code

bye now! i love u!!

[dannidalion]

How I joined the phandom / Phil appreciation birthday speech thing

In 2010 I saw my first Youtube video. I only remembered this recently when rewatching it once again. My friends at school told me to check out the sight so I did. Robot Death Machine by AmazingPhil was one of the first that popped up (Which is weird since it was uploaded a year prior). In 2012 I got on it a bit more and rediscovered him and this dude dani house fire or something and started watching them maybe once a month? In 2013 something pretty bad happened and that's when I got my first actual device. A white iPad mini (not spon). It came with Youtube I think so I finally made an account, which was a stop motion account. Got 9000 views on one and I was 11 so I was like woAh IM faMouS!!! Anyways. Subscribed to them and started watching a bit more. Then in late 2014. I think before Christmas we got evicted. Or near that. They shut off our water/power and we couldn't pay the bills. So we had to move back to our old house with my cousin and her, now, ex husband. We had no wifi, no tv and no data on our phones so all we could do is watch movies on the vcr and dvd player. I did art and cooked, but couldn't do my schooling. Basically I slept on a couch not being able to sleep till 3 and being woken up at 6 every morning by Michael who could not clOSE THE FRIDGE QUIETLY FOR SHIT. Until we got wifi we'd go to starbucks or target every week or something so I could talk to my friends, get on this game Onverse and sometimes watch Pewdiepie, Wassabi Productions, AmazingPhil and Danisnotonfire videos. We got wifi after months. Almost 8 I think? Honestly all I'd do is sit on my ass all day talking to my friend Angel and watch videos and play Onverse. Once I sat in my new room (Which was actually my old old room before I moved to another) and *cringe incoming* roleplayed for 8 hours. Not in a sexual way... Moving on. Slowly I sopped watching them as I began to focus more on school and having an online social life until last year. I logged onto my old acc (this one) to see I had a bamiltrillion (new word) of notifications from them. I decided to watch some of the ones I missed and slowly caught up with them. Only about 5-7 months ago did I properly join the phandom. I mean sure in 2012-2015 I saw all the theories in comments but I didn't really have any social media and didn't watch them enough to be considered a part of this great community. And in this short amount of time I've made many friends and acquaintances, joined at least 4 group chats and honestly grown as a person. They may seem like 2 plain youtubers with a crazy fucking fanbase but they've saved a lot of people. So personally. I would like to thank whoever decided to put a promotional camera in that box of cereal for this amazing man to find. Catch the pun? Sorry

Happy birthday @amazingphil