#OOC : KFC CHICKEN BUCKET

[tetsuwan-atom]

Pongas

[im-not-a-hero-bud]

it's a bird! it's a.. peng?

authors note: i do not own any of these characters ! they all belong to flying bark studios this could be ooc??? idk

MK sighed.

``You know, everything that has happened so far has been very.. uh..` ``A hell. You can say it, peasant.`` Redson interrupted MK with. He kicked a rock as MK nodded a little sheepishly. ``True. I mean, your dad got possessed by LBD, then she started possessing Bai He, then Macaque showed up, then the Spiderqueen and Brotherhood stuff, then you randomly turned good-`` ``I did NOT turn good, Noodle boy. I am simply... tolerating you and Dragon Horse girl now.`` Redson interrupted MK again. ``C'mon, Redsy, we're like, your best friends now!`` Mei said and playfully pushed Redson. ``I hate you, Dragon Horse girl..`` Mei giggled and affectionately put an arm around MK. ``I heart you too, Redboy!``

MK just smiled and listened to the two of them talk and even fight a little. These days were surprisingly peaceful. After everything that happened, it was a nice change. It was almost like a breath of fresh air after holding your breath underwater for a little too long.

MK looked up at the sky. He noticed this little white dot in the middle of the sky. ``Hey, what's that?`` MK pointed to the little dot. ``It's a bird!`` Mei enthusiastically said as her eyes sparkled a little. ``It's a plane-`` Redson interrupted MK with before Mei quickly removed her arm from MK and aggressively picked him up and put him on her shoulders. ``Put me down!!`` Redson said as his hair was all firey again. That happens sometimes. ``Redboy, just tell me what that dot thingy is! I'm too curious about the dotty thingy to put you down!`` She yelled at Redson, slightly scaring him in the process.``Alright, alright, fine, peasant!`` Redson looked up in the sky, covering and narrowing his eyes a little due to the sun. His eyes widened as he saw what it was. ``It's- It's a plane. There's nothing to worry about. Just ignore it.`` Redson explained in a slightly hurried and startled tone. ``Are you sure? It looks more like a bird-`` Mei said, putting Redson down. ``Yeah.. Holy crap. You saw Peng, didn't you?`` MK asked in an interrogating tone. ``.. Maybe, maybe not. But if we just ignore them-`` Redson said before being interrupted by the loud bang.

It belonged to Peng falling to the ground a few hundred meters away.

``We kicked Peng's butt once, we can do it again.`` Mei said, determined to do so. ``.. I think I'll stay out on this one.`` Redson said a little sheepishly.

``What!?`` Mei and MK said in a choir. ``Why!? Don't you want to kick that undercooked chickens butt!?`` Mei said, a little frustrated. ``.. I couldn't do it then, why would I now?`` Mei's face softened slightly when Redson uttered those words. ``.. It's okay. You can stay out on this one, Redson. Especially since that KFC bucket kinda traumatized you.``

Redson's face went blank for a second. ``.. You two know they're an eagle, right?`` ``.. They are?``

ill make the rest later too lazy rn

[sailorvinusmoved]

vi's energy is on par with the time we had a lockdown in high school because there was an armed robbery down the street at a gas station and the criminals got away. and while we were sitting there, this one guy was just like 'this isnt why i signed up for drivers ed' and just opened the window and like. left.

[necare]

“ The good thing about not having any friends is I can do less gift shopping! ”

[leorugiet]

regalchocoboがあなたの投稿に返信しました: .

WELCOME TO GALDIN KWEH

gdi, that sounds like some take out item at Kenny Crow’s.

[tetsuwan-atom]

The fact that there's an actor called 'Bowen Yang' out there means the meta's becoming uncomfortably close.

[tetsuwan-atom]

Hopefully I'll be able to tackle a few more replies soon.

The 26th is Bowen's birthday, after all.

[tetsuwan-atom]

Hello, I has awoken now. It is unclear how my head will treat me today, but I have music, so I feel good so far

[tetsuwan-atom]

So, the next thing I gotta do here are the actual replies here, then I'll be tackling discord stuff. It might take a while as right now we're going through a heatwave here and it's completely shot my drive to do any writing.

I keep mentioning a project I've been working on. If anyone wants to know what it is, feel free to DM me on Discord. I'll happily tell you!

Bit of some thinking under the cut, you don't have to read if you don't want to.

I do want to add too that... I guess for a long time I feel like I've been waning a bit when it comes to this site. I feel as if I have no time for it anymore, though I still get the odd opportunity when writing strikes. Despite that, I haven't made any concrete decision about my future here on Tumblr, but it does feel sometimes that... this site has changed, yet in some ways I haven't, and that the golden era of it all has long passed.

I once mentioned I missed the days of big threads, writing actual stories, things that really got me wanting more and more. I feel like that era of Tumblr has finished in a way, for a number of reasons, drama, work, things just... changed.

And of course I feel like I'm letting people down by not being here. Of course that isn't the case, people have told me to take my time with things, but sometimes I feel like I've let things hang for... too long. I dunno. I'm very indecisive about this place. I still cherish each and every one of you all who's stuck with me, that still wants to write with me and carry things through. I'm not going anywhere yet.

If I do leave, IF I leave, it won't be 'permanent', because I'll consider coming back if my project falls over, although in such a scenario it could be a long time. IF that happens, I will still be roleplaying on Discord and encouraging everyone to continue things through there. Having said that, no concrete decision has been made.

I just want to be honest with y'all about the state of play. I'll do my best to keep coming and writing, though motivation has been very, very hard. I've been on here for nearly 12 years, that's a long time to be doing this. Please feel free to reach out over Discord if you ever want to talk, about anything, doesn't have to be RP related at all.

[tetsuwan-atom]

I’m back and it’s gonna be everyone else’s problem.

[tetsuwan-atom]

So the next thing I'll be doing soon are asks, just gotta get a liiittle bit more energy, just waking up!

[tetsuwan-atom]

liroyalty​:

Alright, who are the whoresons that picked the kill option with Ann

i just wanna talk-

When you wanna talk.

Like, real talk.

Alright, who are the whoresons that picked the kill option with Ann

i just wanna talk-

[tetsuwan-atom]

So after yesterday I feel like I should have a bit of real talk with y’all.

While I have not made any concrete decision, I’m contemplating about my future on Tumblr.

I’m not exactly a new spring chicken. I’ve been on this platform for over 10 years. That’s... a bloody long time. The amount of fun I’ve had with so, so many people is phenomenal. Roleplaying and writing on this platform in all the different scenarios and stories not only allowed me to develop my writing skills to levels I wouldn’t have considered when I started, but also allowed me to explore my imagination and create a story that not only I’m proud of, but something which has intrinsically become a part of me.

I’m pretty sure I’ve said before about back in the early days there was rarely any drama at all. There were moments here and there, some of those people left the platform ages ago. I’d say things really got bad from 2020 onwards. A lot of bad decisions, mostly trying to seek closure, getting ‘the last word’, things which on reflection are pretty pointless. Getting sidelined because of favoritism, along with one particular event which, six months or so later, eventually brought down an entire fandom and the joy that came with it, it’s kind of surprising that I’m still here to be honest, after everything that I’ve gone through and, well, after everything I’ve put others through.

Nowadays it’s hard to say whether the landscape has changed or if I’ve changed. Maybe it’s both. When I first came to Tumblr in 2012 I was unemployed with a lot of time up my sleeve. I could be active every day and get so much writing done. In 2015 I had my first proper experience of a job which lasted 8 months and even then, I still had time to roleplay.

In 2019 I ended up in the job which, after a change of company, I’m still carrying now. 2 days per week, but around 2021 I began to carry extra responsibilities in life. Every weekend is dedicated to something. Time on replies began to wane and I think there were quite a few instances where replies would be like.. a month or more late. I didn’t think about it as much as I do now that, my lack of activity may have affected my relevancy on this platform.

And as of 2022 I’ve taken on a project which, if I’m going to be honest, has taken priority over Tumblr. Roleplaying takes second fiddle to it. This project is giving me more joy than Tumblr right now. That is saying something.

But what is it saying? Is it saying that all the drama I’ve been though has affected how I feel about the place? Is it saying I’ve replaced Tumblr with something new and exciting?

I sometimes feel that the longer I’m inactive the less I feel relevant. I miss out on things, I don’t know what’s going on and catching up can be... hard, if not sometimes impossible. I really have become the definition of low activity, a snails pace on everything.

And in addition it’s like... the drive to write in this canon, to roleplay on this platform. It’s diminishing. For months I feel like I’m reaching the end of this chapter in my life, the end of this part of the story. I used to say I’ll quit tumblr when I turn 30. I’ve made it one year on, but now for different reasons I wonder if there’s much point to continue further.

The anger I felt yesterday at that group of people who, well, pretty much tossed me out like trash 2 years ago. It took me back to this dark place, this vindictive place that just made me want to get up on some theoretical podium and chant to the nines about how bad they are and how much they’ve hurt me. That this drama even years on just... hasn’t stopped, the thought that people really hate me so much they’ll tell others to avoid or block me just to make them feel safe. It might not even be the truth at all, but at the time it’s how I felt.

It made me think, just do it, you’re not really here anymore, you’ve got nothing to lose if you expose them for who you perceive them to be.

And yet, that’s not true, is it?

It was the post of someone I was keen to interact with who had seen that post that brought me back to reality, that indeed, you can potentially lose. An aggressive post about threatening a group of people not to fuck with you is a pretty shithouse impression, isn’t it? Despite the situation at hand, from an outsider’s perspective, I think even if I was looking in to someone else doing that, it’d make me think further on whether or not to interact.

Probably because I’ve been through it too much.

It’s put this whole talk to the forefront, really. If I left I wouldn’t even say things ended too early. I’ve had a bloody good run on this site. I’ve seen many good friends disappear on this platform, some without a trace. Tumblr nowadays is nowhere near the same platform as it was when I joined. Some things don’t change, like the problems with canon RP communities (this is widespread throughout many fandoms!), but the atmosphere as a whole, it just.... doesn’t feel the same.

I sometimes parrot on that nobody deserves to be left out or left behind but, in my inactivity and absence from this platform I’ve done that to myself.

Even after this wall of text it’s hard to put feelings into words. Back in the days there were grand plots, stories that I reckon could attest to the ages, threads that made me feel like I was writing at the peak of Tetsuwan ATOM. Now in this phase I feel like those days might have gone, without chance of return. In some ways it’s the lack of the drive, the absence of the big, multiverse-jeopardising plots that brought an actual story to the fold, once a landscape of so many plots and ideas, now all really just thoughts and memories.

I could make the decision now to retire Tetsuwan ATOM and leave Tumblr for good. Rolescape has been in alpha for a while and who knows when that would come online. Even then, would I have the drive to move over? With my baggage in this form, is it really a fresh start for this series? Some last glimmer of hope that everything will be okay, this struggle of holding out, for grass that may seem greener, but will it be by the time I come to plant?

I wonder if I’ve reached the end of this chapter.

Yet, not everything is finished.

There are plots and threads currently ongoing that I am very keen to see through and finish. Hell, even future threads with mutuals I’m looking forward to. Building more bonds, ships, reaching grand events, some I just feel like I’m on the cusp of, that years of plotting and writing are leading up to some incredible moments. Ideas for ships that I want to explore, some more radical than others.

I can’t be done with this platform while things are not finished. I’m not ready to let everything die just yet.

The decision to quit, while not ruled out completely, is not something I can consider without the input of others. I wouldn’t spring this on my friends, my mutuals, who have been with me over the years. If I were to quit, it would really just be quitting roleplaying on all internet platforms, like Tumblr, Rolescape, etc. In this event I’ll be switching to full time roleplays on Discord, which has greater benefits over Tumblr in many ways.

There is the thought of a hiatus, but for how long? How long is a piece of string? Is it even really worth going on a hiatus when nothing’s going to change IRL with projects, commitments and work? I’m inactive as is, it’s like accidental hiatuses every other week with the odd day of getting replies done.

There is also the thought of cutting back. No, I don’t mean dropping threads or partners or anything like that, but it’d be more that I won’t be seeking future partners myself. If anyone finds me and wants to follow me, I’ll still consider them like I do now, but I won’t be personally looking and dash-checking. In fact, in this option I might be considering ignoring my dashboard as a whole and focussing entirely on my activity feed, like I used to do in my early days of Tumblr. Downsides here are I may stop posting ask memes and I’d probably lose sight of everyone else posting ask memes, but it would allow me to focus entirely on my stuff with those I write with. In some ways going back to the bubble of just my threads, asks etc with others.

At this point in time I haven’t made any concrete decision about the future, but there is a lot to think about. Do I still have a place here? Would it be better to take everything I have with my moots to Discord? Would they all even follow me over? Despite the drive to retire I still want to finish things, build things, rekindle some old ships and the like. I can’t see myself as being done yet.

Could this be some sort of ‘Tumblr Existential Crisis’? I don’t know.

All I know is I don’t know what the future holds and if it’s best for me to stay here or go...

[tetsuwan-atom]

okay so someone tipped me off on a new anime and this might be grounds for another Bowen FC to put somewhere

[tetsuwan-atom]

You know what I really miss writing?

Epic adventure threads!

Legit above everything else these were the stories that really have a huge impact... and I've had quite a few of them in my time on Tumblr. Some being involved in fandoms like TMoHS, Digimon, Fate/Stay Night and Toaru Majutsu No Index, some being purely OC adventures.

They would take weeks, months to finish but boy it was worth the build up to the epic fight at the very end, the climactic turns along the way as well it's just...

I really miss the big adventures.

The stories that just could never be forgotten.

[tetsuwan-atom]

Aaaaand now I've got the 'twitter/X' look that I've heard about.

This... this is going to take a lot to get used to