#im sure people have noticed this already but i honestly havent!

[henrikvanderswoon]

Fredonia, you say??

[lunatic-fandom-space]

I just saw a very interesting post about the difference between how todolf shippers look at todolf as a fantasy vs how elisatod shippers look at elisatod as a fantasy and i wanted to throw my two cents in regarding elisatod in canon, but Im feeling a lil shy so Im not reblogging it, and this is a pretty small fandom so Im sure youve already seen it or will see it if you just keep scrolling down. In case you havent, the gist of it is that for a lot of elisatod shippers (and for a lot of the people in charge of the more recent german-language productions) one of the biggest appeals of their dynamic is this idea that death doesnt love anyone except for Elisabeth which makes her special, whereas with todolf its more like. Im having a hard time summarizing it in my own words, I guess i personally would say that its literally just the inverse where todolf shippers think that death has a romantic relationship with everyone (or at least everyone who thinks a lot about death and dying) so the 'specialness' of it doesnt matter/doesnt factor into it, its basically just about their dynamic in a vacuum, but i dont think thats what the post was saying ? Whatever, we're talking about elisatod rn so it really doesnt matter

So, for me the most important thing about the love between Elisabeth and der Tod is that its pretty much unrequited until the moment she dies. Like, we have a brief moment of mutual interest when they first meet and she sings the little Wie Du reprise and (in the 1992 prod) he gives her this suggestive look after shes done, but after that its basically all him pursing her when she clearly does not want that, until Rudolf wo bist du where she is finally ready to give into him, but now he doesnt want her, and then they only really fall in mutual love when she dies and they basically have no other choice. This friction where they can never really be in mutual love because Elisabeth never wants to lose her agency or control over her life until she doesnt and tries to give it up, and Tod only "wants" her when shes clinging on to life and rejecting him, is the core of their relationship.

Now, you'll notice that i put the word 'wants' in quotes when i was talking about Tod and thats because i dont think he, as originally witten in the vienna productions, is capable of wanting anything because hes not a person, hes a reflection of the people around him and because of that, his behaviour in any given scene is determined by the context around him. I know thats kind of a clunky way of phrasing that, but I have to do describe it in such a broad and vague way because his behaviour is really not consistant. For an example of what Im talking about, in Elisabeth mach auf mein Engel, he tells Elisabeth that he loves her but hes only doing that in contrast to Franz Joseph; her husband comes up to her trying to burden her with his own problems when she's feeling bad and in need of comfort herself, meanwhile death is offering her unconditional love. Another example that I like is in Die Schatten werden länger reprise, where he has to start the song because Rudolf is too paralysed by fear to articulate his feelings until he has his support

But the moment of death's behaviour being influenced by the people hes interacting with that I find the most interesting, is his introduction during the prologue where the people he's interacting with are the audience. Because during that part of the song, hes essentially playing into the audience's expectation that Elisabeth and death will be a traditional soft tragic romance, hes talking about her in a very gentle and wistful way and in way that subtly implies that she was the only person he ever loved, but then during the actual story, hes treating her very aggressively and their relationship is honestly pretty unpleasant, and we can clearly see that she was not the only person he ever loved because his and Rudolf's relationship is just as intense in a similar overtly romantic way (and arguably more so because its mutual and requited). But then obviously we got Kein Kommen ohne Gehen which essentially contradicts all of this and severely clashes with the entire rest of the elisatod relatio ship, but its late and if i start complaining about that, Im gonna add another 2 paragraphs to this post

So yeah, these are some of my thoughts about elisatod, i have a lot more but its 2am and i just soent two hours writing this and I can feel my brain turn into mush, so yeabh. please let me know what you think

[jazzzzzzhands]

oh... its officially october i really hadnt noticed... but i have an announcement that ive been dreading to make I say this with a heavy heart... But i wont be doing Inktober this year

I've been doing Inktober for 8 years now And everyyear i pour my heart and soul into doing Inks that seemingly seem to happen by magic and i usually feel such a big inspiration to do my Best Works! and i will admit that i usually prepare for it too But something happened this year and well I havent really been myself this year Art has been hard, doing anything has been hard i am trying! I'm happy to have the asks that i have to inspire me But everytime i've gone to Ink, the drive has.. just not been there i did manage! to do about 4 of them I will post them a bit spaced out through this week But after that.. I think what i will do is that i will reblog my favorite inktobers throughout the year that i have done in honor Another thing im doing is im trying to rekindle my love in different fandoms, because it sort of feels like i've already drawn for everything! i'm watching a lot of shows.. playing games it feels like fandoms are at a standstill right now I'm just waiting for the next big excitement to hit! It definitely feels like a grand Pause Where im revisiting a lot of old shows while im waiting I know not a lot of people will be bothered, Im not a very well known artist. But for anyone who knew me for my inks I do apologize to you and to myself It honestly breaks my own heart that im just... not doing it this year ive always looked so forward to it... But also ive always just tried to do the extraordinary, always one-upping myself! going the distance! Inktober always has been magical for me... I'm not sure if i will be "fixed" by next year or if it will feel ok to return after missing a year but i just dont have it this year the drive, the motivation, the energy, the magic... i have to look inside and find it again

[therapy-ghost]

Gotham Villians React to: Ex psychiatris GN! reader

Request by: @gallifer

Scenario: Reader(GN) is an ex psychiatris with the knowledge of some of the darkest and weirdest things ever from the GCPD and is now the hypnotic owner to a club called 'the Hard Knock', catching the eyes of some of Gotham's greatest criminals Characters: Riddler, Jerome, Jeremiah(after spray), Fish Mooney, Victor Zsasz, and Ivy(S4)

Riddler:

He recognize you, you and Edward worked together and once he started to turn up and notice you on the job.

he found interest in you, found intelligence behind your words… which could easily control anyone

after finding your club and the darkest corner of Gotham, and you standing on the stage as you sung; might I mention every man and woman also swooning for you… but more in the sense that it was more of them dazed

he realized that there were a few snapping out of it…

“hypnotism? Huh… they will be useful”

yeah, you could easily help him run Gotham

Jerome:

the least i can say is fasinated

this boy found you and a few men in the back of the club, them all being ordered around by you and it was amazing

very hot in his eyes

he then skipped on over and started to flirt, which honestly surprised you, but then you flirted back a bit

before walking away

"So, i see im gonna have some rivalry for you, huh?"

he said this pointing to the guest you had following you around mindlessly.

Jeremiah:

they way that you have built this empire of yours is interesting to him

and your ability to control people so easily, he first just thought they were simps

he would come to the club every week to watch you, and if you arent there, learn about you.

and after a while, you picked up on him watching and asked way?

"your ability to comand this room is incredible, and was here to ask if you would be willing to assist me in my plans for Gotham?"

bros pushing it

Fish Mooney:

she heard that there was compatition and went to check it out and didnt regret a thing.

the decro was fun and eye pulling, the smells werent bad, the people there were easy

and you were entertaining

the way you had people of all kinds waiting on you hand and foot, made her a bit jealous

"So, they're the owner of this place? interesting, gonna have to have a word with her"

she wanted to take you under her wing, even if you were already flying.

Victor Zsasz:

He had been given a job and was told the man he was to kill was in your club

the first thing his eyes went to was you, and he was surprised

you were turning men who were about to fight you into them kissing the groung you walk on

you havent even spoken to him and he was following you around

"manipulative, dirty, bossy, and a bitch... my kind of person"

lets just say this isnt the last time he will flirt with you

Ivy:

She would have just been relaxing in the club when you stepped out

Eye's become focused on you as you speak and sing to people

she asked one of the workers who you are, and the response pleased her.

after you became free, she walked up to you to talk.

"I guess this club isnt so bad after all~"

Every second day she will greet you, obsessed with learning about you.

thanks for your patients and i hope you enjoy, if anyone has a request they would like to put it, pleace check my pinned post to make sure you can and send it in, with detail.

Bye~

[anotterthatlovestoys]

Another Goodwill browse

So, over on my main tumblr I made a few posts going through goodwill lots of ponies out of interest and seeing which ones get the most bids and such. I've been doing research into the MLP collecting community and I'm always interested to see what people consider worth spending money on.

Today I saw a LOT of vintage ponies were recently posted as I was scrolling. Interestingly all from what looks like a single goodwill location.

This is the first lot that caught my eye, "Vintage Hasbro My Little Pony MLP Lot No. 1", because it was bid up to $101, with just 10 bids. The other two comparably sized lots were at like $32. So obviously I had to look over the ponies and figure out why- now, if you're a seasoned MLP collector maybe you'll see immediately which one is the most valuable, but I wasn't 100% sure.

First off I double-checked the price of the pony with rainbow wings, Ringlets, because I knew she goes for slightly more than other ponies. However, she's only listed on ebay for about $45. Many of the listings say "RARE HTF" but there are like 22 listings for her- afaik she's not rare, she's just pretty looking so people like her.

I also checked the popcorn pony and the bright yellow tropical ponies, because sometimes ponies with funky schemes or sillier designs are slightly more pricey.

But at that point I had already noticed this pony: Satin n Lace.

It seems like magenta Satin n Lace is actually proper rare/HTF. I noticed information on the coloration is even difficult to find on MLP wikis and forums. This pony was printed in 3 variants: Lavender colored, Magenta colored, and "So soft" which means her body is magenta but white flocking fuzz is covering it, giving i the appearance of lavender. There is only one listing for her on ebay, for $75.

So, I'm guessing that Satin n Lace being good quality + having several other high quality ponies and desirable ponies made someone really want this lot, hence the $100 bid.

They have a fair few other lots, and they split up a lot of the sets sadly. Here they've separated Galaxy and Fizzy (right) from Tic Tac Toe and Bright Eyes (Left). Bright Eyes sells for more on her own (havent been able to figure out why). Fizzy and Galaxy are some of my favorite pony designs, too.

Meanwhile gingerbread, whizzer, and 2 party times got a lot of their own:

Looking at lots 2 and 3, there are a lot fo dupes- I'm not sure if they got all these ponies from the same place or not, on second thought. But a few of the same collections are repeated, like the magic message ponies and ice cream sundae ponies, and there's another rainbow curl pony in this set. Lot 2 has 6 bids but is only up to $30. I do <3 Steamer though, respect.

Now for a lot nobody has bid on: six g2 ponies! At $10 that's less than $2 per pony! But collectors don't like g2 as much. Perhaps someone will pick them up anyways.

This My Little Pony Friends lot is from a different goodwill, just posted, and its got! zigzag! Kingsley! and Spunky the camel! People don't like the other MLP friends as much as they do Cutesaurus the Dinosaur but that's okay, they are loved by me. And they are being bid on.

There's a lot just of these three Summer Wing ponies, and a separate lot that includes 2 of the third one (Little Flitter). These'll probably sell for higher and get bid up- they're not that rare or special but I imagine many people want to get this collection.

Looking at all these ponies, you can tell they did their research to figure out which ones to separate out, more or less.

For reasons again, unclear to me, Diamond Dreams is worth much more than the other Merry Go Round ponies- selling for $130+ on ebay. The Big Brothers with hats are separated out (including others that are not wigwam, the racism pony).

They're also individually selling the So Softs and ponies like Starglow (im pretty sure the Glow n show ponies are just more expensive because they glow in the dark), plus some of the ones with accessories. Honestly the So Softs they're selling are like, some of the cleanest SS I've ever seen.

I'd imagine the sets they have listed, like this, might be bid up to a slightly higher price just because if someone doesn't have that set they might be tempted knowing they can get so many at once.

In comparison, a different goodwill posted these 3- a Sparkle pony and 2 baby Sparkle ponies- and didn't list their names out like the first goodwill.

It is usually more fun to see the ones where people don't know what they have, because you get fun mixed gen lots, like this one which has mostly vintage ponies, a vintage lunchbox, a g2 McDonalds toy, a g3 McDonalds toy, and a g3 pony (or two, I cant tell)

This is actually the first time I've seen Woolly & Fleecy being sold. They were part of the Baby Ponies and Pretty Pals set, which were ponies with animal companions with matching cutie marks. They don't sell for *that* much on their own or even together but its sweet to see them in the same set!

Other highlights include: 3 twinkle-eyed ponies, a princess brush and grow pony, and 2 Glittery Sweetheart Sisters. Quite a nice and varied set.

This lot comes with a doll who I don't think is MLP related- not sure which doll- but I think a baby pony playset of some kind, a Merry-Go-Round pony, one of the playtime baby brothers (which I dont see often) and even 2 Fairy Tails, which are the bird spinoff of MLP. I think the two birds are these (photos from mylittlewiki)

...

woah theres actually this big lot that comes with a bunch of ponies and accessories. it looks to me like these are mostly early year ponies though, so idk if they will be bid highly. they're also really dirty. I dont think mlp collectors care that much for Megan and Molly but maybe someone will want them!

goodwill even has these 2 princess WITH their bushwoolies and hats which is cool.

man, lots of fun stuff on the thrifting web today. alas, i should stop, as i have looked at so many plastic horses that i cannot afford, and i really need to do other things now...

[s0lar-ch3ri]

out of context things for a fic im reading (its from my mutual, and i might update my unfinished oneshot for gill after...and do a big oneshot seperation lol)

fic link for people who havent read it yet GO DO THAT NOW EVEN IF YOUVE ALREADY READ IT REREAD IT AND COMPLIMENT IT THIS IS ALL ABOUT CHAPTER 5

im adding "This letter is filled with glitter. If you open it you will be too." in some way shape or form into my vocab its beautiful

i honestly thought that jay was gonna say gill and OH MY GOD THATD BE SO FUNNY AND KINDA ANGSTY IF DONE IN A CERTIAN WAY LOL

(honestly kinda a fic idea there: ava gets help from lizzie as they learn lizzies brother [chip] believes that gillion likes ava or smth. i wanna see the siblings helping their siblings come together)

...oh the heart refs are starting

"He did. She screamed." pure comedy imo

"He kind of liked that idea, he needed more mean girl friends (one can never have too many)." SCREAMING MUTUAL YOU KNOW THE LESBIANS SO WELL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

...mutual. im not your mother father or parent i wanna put you in timeout AHHHH WHY THESE REFS

mutual. hey. you dont need to remind us. you can let us be happy.

i wonder what the title of the fic means btw

as someone who calls their friend pookie, MISS FERIN DIDNT FUCKING STUTTER

"Stress shouldn’t be real, it was stupid." PREACH!

OH MY GOD HE SAID THAT BEFORE THE KISS HES SO GAY YOUR HONOR GAY AS HELL

FUCK ME I CAN IMAGINE GILLS VOICE SAYING THAT HANG ON IF I DO AN OUT LOUD IMPRESSION...

fuck it is as riduclous as it appears

bro jay and ensa have had a "they/them pussy" moment together and i see it thats the fucking look on their faces good for them

OH. I SEE. GAY "SEX" THEN DEATH. FUCK

he found his kid got a bitch and was so shocked and happy he fucking died

"But then again, maybe he deserved it." chip babygirl you make no sense

wait chips 17 here. 2 years away from being 19. the canon age. oh nononononononono

hey. anybody else notice a pretty big character of chips past hasnt been brought up yet? like, fucking price. the guy thats believed to have mistreated chip. the guy who made chip kill a man. MUTUAL WHAT ARE YOU PLANNING.

okay so i have a theory. my mutual doesnt plan on giving chip a break, hes just lost his dad unknowingly how, hes currently 17, and price hasnt been mentioned ONCE. characters act pretty similar to canon, including how theyve been mistreated in a sense (seen by the elders). the title (You'll Forget (It's Not Your Fault)) doesnt seem any good.

my theory? following the canon idea that chip has been through so much he easily forgot about kenta and his nightmare shit, chips gonna be dealing with price, and i dont think its gonna be just for a couple months. price is behind arlins shit, and price gonna make chip think this shit is all his fault.

oh nvm checked tags REDO THEORY

minor character death probs means you know who if you read it i dont wanna say it cause big spioier uhhhh READ IT OKAY IM SAYING IT NOW arlin, but from the beginning its had memory loss (how i didnt notice this before is beyond me) so im thinking its caused by like bad shit that happens (price is going to fuck with him more and ill sob) and hes blaming himself for it cause he thinks all thats happening including the memory loss is because hes doing shit wrong

(from what i know, depression and shit can cause memory loss BUT im not sure ill be back with results tmr on this so until then REBLOGS OFF)

check my mutual out or ill llegally have to eat you (on tumblr @red-might-be-dead)

[scaryarcade]

Im so happy i found your blog. Ive been trying to access therapy (i live in a country with a public healthcare system btw) since summer 2019 when i couldnt access children MH services anymore, and no fucken clinic wants to accept me as a patient. i have so many comorbitities that general practices cant treat me, and every specialist clinic ive been referred to has pointed to one/several/all of my other issues and gone "not our problem lol" and referred me to a different specialist, rinse and repeat until its bad enough to end up back in the psychward, and then rinse and repeat that as well lol. Id already lost faith in the system but i had nothing else (i live alone, im not close to my family, and ive only had 1 single friend/steady contact for the past few years, i was never very social but my ability to keep up socially has gradually just worn down completely), and honestly finding more and more anti-psych blogs has done SO much for me. ESPECIALLY the weird (VERY affectionate!!) ones. Im just very emotional over feeling.. more acceptable? Or something? I dont know but, my heart is full of love and appreciation, and your blog is probably my favourite anti-psych blog. Im really happy that you're here, both on tumblr and on the planet in general, and that you're talking, i dont know how to express this but yeah. Very very very happy i found my way here, i hope the sun shines from just the right angle to reflect off a cool shiny object youd otherwise not notice, i hope you're in just the rightplace and just the right timeto witness a bird committing shenanigans, i hope the soap bubbles in your dishes form a little heart, i hope you notice a happy nostalgic smell you havent thought about it years, i hope you see a falling star, i hope you a thousand tiny wonders find their way into your life, even - especially - during dark and heavy days, even if its perhaps not the time youd appreciate them most, nonetheless i hope they find you. Much love, 🐈‍⬛

thank you for sharing ;_; i felt similarly when i started learning about antipsychiatry, it was a huge weight off my chest when i learned other people had similar problems with the system and i wasn't just uniquely fucked up. im with you 100% lol its been very comforting to identify myself as One Of The Weird Ones. i ahve so much affection for my fellow weird freakish and/or strange people.

this ask means a lot to me, i'm not rly sure how to express it so i'm sorry for the relatively short response but i hope a million little joys and delights find their way to u as well

[margle]

15 (ish) questions for 15 (ish) mutuals (but I didnt do that part sorry)

thanks @cowboycharmac , @translesbianvampire , @number-one-hog-hater , @23meteorstreet for the tags!

were you named after anyone?

sort of. I asked my mum and she listed a few people but the main one is a very hedonistic character from a book.so that’s a fun role to fill. the other people are a bit more daunting in their accomplishments.

do you have kids?

no and I dont want any.

do you use sarcasm a lot?

not very often, I guess. ive been told I am very difficult to read if im telling a joke or not. especially sarcasm. im mostly sarcastic when im being mean rather than funny. I guess im more likely to be dry?

what's the first thing you notice about people?

I honestly have no clue. definitely not their shoes. and probably not their face because I can never remember what people look like. I sat in a car with my driving instructor for months but could not tell you what he looked like. physically, I probably notice hair and clothes first? but otherwise if im meeting someone new I just notice whether they talk to me or not and how they hold a conversation.

what's your eye color?

blue/green.

scary movies or happy endings?

im a wimp and I dont like scary movies. so I guess I prefer happy endings, although I dont mind some tragedy. for tv I almost exclusively watch comedies. i dont watch a lot of films so i’ll mostly watch what other people want. im a fan of rewatching, so it is rare I will willingly watch something new on my own. as for books, ill read anything! but especially interesting gothic classics and translated books. I like slice of life and anything with great world building. not a huge fan of ya probably because it was all I read when I was younger so I got a bit bored of it.

any special talents?

I never know how to answer that. im decent at various things but nothing in particular. if you showed me a relatively common uk bug I think I would be able to id it.

what are your hobbies?

im into entymology. I like taking pictures of bugs and recording their species. there are other things I do, but im hesitant to call them hobbies because I dont do them that regularly. 

have any pets?

yes! a beautiful, wonderful cat.

what sports do you play/have you played?

I dont play sport regularly. did the usual sports at school. (I did some more interesting stuff but im trying to be humble. im big into baseball - Ive got a batting average of .328, have 118 home runs and batted in 1014 runs. im also in the baseball hall of fame. that’s right guys, im baseball superstar wade boggs. Im a true american - I love baseball and posting on tumblr and my family and beer)

how tall are you?

I honestly dont know. 5 foot something. that should narrow it down. 

favorite subject in school?

I liked english lit in later school. earlier on I liked all the arty stuff best. textiles was a lot of fun but the teacher was a prick. 

dream job?

games design but im shite at coding. :( conservation work would be cool. havent decided yet. when I was a kid I wanted to be a farmer and used to like planning my future farm layout. now I just play stardew valley.

im not sure who to tag because I think most of my mutuals have been tagged by other people already. or have already done it. ive spent too long deliberating over who to tag/not tag. and so this is an open invitation to whoever wants to do this. you dont have to be my mutual! I know this kinda defeats the point of these things but gah idk I never do these.

[midnightmisadventures]

Okay lets play fair and give edward some points

Cause we all know who Bella ends up with

Okay so i need to bring you up to speed on 2 dreams ig

Dream 1:

I was doing my usually dreaming at high school bs and at the end of the day trying to find my bus. It was foggy and rainy and dream dark so I go to the bus I think is mine, and i dont realllyyy recognize the bus or driver but i also hadnt been in a long time and wasnt confident what i remembered. Basically i asked the guy what number it was and he dream mumbled and said "seats 11, blank and blank) are available vibes.

So im still not sure, but i start walking down the isle to the empty seat and then i get to it, and sitting in the one across is Liam. And as i approach we just look at eachother like...uhhh somethings wrong cause we do not share a bus.

He was wearing the famous blue hoodie and it was scrunched around his face. And i said "well, if youre here im definitely on the wrong bus" and he was like "yeaaaaa.....your prob on the wrong bus" but not in a mean way.

So i quick decide, im gonna leave while i still can. Seeing liam is a funny gag but i just want to get home so id rather be on the right bus.

So i turn around to get off and Liam starts going "wait wait wait, arielle" its now that i see he's sitting in his seat with another girl.

The girl is ...... hawkins....like the chocolate. But regardless i turn back around and he's motioning me to come back. And i go like "what?"

And he says "hey, if the bus driver hasn't said anything i wouldn't leave" basically saying "if you havent gotten caught why leave?" which isnt what i was worried about btw. I just wanted to be on the correct bus home. But liam was phrasing it as, like "aww cmon stay, itll be fun, no ones making you leave"

So fine.

I sit down in the seat next to him. And he seems to be happy about it. So we're riding and i think we're doing small talk. But he's also actively bantering with hawkins and im like.....why did i impulsively stay on this bus to be near him if hes with another bitch. Like i didnt notice who she was till too late?

So theyre like playfully bickering. Like not even flirting bc they were already together.... And i hear her be like "uh you cant do that, i LIVE with you, thats so inappropriate, your girlfriend lives with you you cant do that"

I have no idea WHAT he couldnt do, or what they were talking about. But they were joking around and now i knew that they were not only together but hawkins livesss with him.

But then Liam sort of comes over to my seat and starts talking to me again, sort of making jokes. And im trying to not be weird bc he clearly has a girlfriend so even if i did want to be close to him i felt like i couldnt.

But now he's like super close to me, i cant ignore him, he's being sweet and playful and cute. He evenutally, puts his bag on my lap and sprawls out laying on me. Like lays on my lap like he's gonna take a nap.

And i was like he's so cute, but is this crossing a line? Like i can't caress him or play with his hair or feed into this right? His gf is RIGHT there.

So after a little i feel like he could tell i wasnt reciprocating like, he was expecting me to hug on him and play with his hair but i wasnt. But also it mattered that i wasnt like "get offfa me" when he layed on me. Like i was fine with him laying on me and smiled and giggled but i thought it be to far to cuddle him.

And he noticed i wasnt biting so he sat up.

Around then i noticed hmmm, omg is that joel and chris and jake and brighton?? type beat. Like is that christian c**v**t.

So im realizing omg wait is this bus 99? Which isnt technically my current bus but i do know this route i should be able to figure out when to get off. Even if i get off a chip i can uber home.

But honestly im shocked, it wasnt even just bus people it was just highschool people and.....yea most of them were guys.

But i was confused because why was LIAM here. He was never "on my bus"

But suddenly im more comfortable, like wait i know A LOT of these people. I have to know more than him? Like this is actually my territory not his. He doesnt have homecourt advantage....he just has a girl.

And he wasnt.....rubbing hawkins in my face. But cmon im human he's living with his girl and theyre giggling like an old married couple like i WAS jealous.

So i turn around and see christian/donald h****n and im like "hey i thought i was on some random bus, and now i see all of you guys thats wild is this my same bus from before"

like explaining omg i used to be on here i think? or at least i know a lot of these guys used to be on my bus so i know what neighborhoods we're going to.

So im like trying to catch up with Donald and figure out whats going on here. I also wasnt flirting but it felt good to know like...at least i have friends i can talk to and pretend to look cool. Im not isolated and liam wont think im a loser.

But Donald says.....i dont even know how to describe it lol. Donalds like "yea but...i don't even think we utilized our time together, like we didn't kiss, did we?

And...your guess is as good as mine. He was also being so cheeky about it, like "wait we didnt right?....*blushes* i dont even remember us kissing once >.<"

As if thats the bare minimum, how could we not have even done that? we really wasted our time together

But....i've never- , like it was Donald H****n!!!

So immediately im like "no no, thats not what i meant" kinda blushing kinda giggling uncomfortbly lol. Cause like im flattered really but no we never kissed and its not like i asked you if we ever made love lmaoooo like im not talking about that

I also remember being concious that Liam was in earshot and was like oooh i wonder what he's thinking, he must think im a popular hottie. But i dont have confirmation that he heard

Lots of symbolism i know....

Anyway, there isnt much else.

At one point we stopped somewhere and Liam said like "arielle, do this this and this here and theyll help you get home" and it was actually really sweet of him. I remember being grateful that he went out of his way to help me navigate cause he didnt have to....and i was confused where his head was at with me and......karmic. Lol it is not even worth it to call hawkins karmic. SHe didnt even earn that title.

[simphasocs]

Silence - Lore

TW: Thoughts of su*cide, depression, negative thoughts

So, I randomly decided to write something as I have a breakdown. I dont know, this is pretty messy and just... eh. I needed to let out some feelings so there. I honestly dont know if i wanna change Lore's UM but I might someday or something. The people here are supposed to be Rook and Azul but right now Im too tired to wrjte them in detajl. I dont know why i did this in first person either since I havent written a first person persctive in a long long while. My lack of sleep and breakdown explains the messy,.everytbinf. i really dont know what the hell i wrote but i wrote something, so yeah

I thought I was fine. Sure I was wrong to think that I can handle this by myself. I'm on my third year, I'm not foreign to the concept of asking help. I've done that before. In little things such as studying so I can understand the lessons better.

So why is it that I feel so terrified to ask my friends for help?

I can't breathe.

I can't breathe!

I can't—

I could hear a faint knocking on my door. I don't think I can face anyone right now, I can't.

As I hug myself tight, the headache never fading as I feel my vision swirl. If I were to collapse here and not wake up for a while... would anyone notice? Surely someone would, they're my friends after all. And yet, I still feel uncertain. What if they don't notice? What if no one does?

Again, the knocking continues except this time much louder. I hear a few voices but they sound so muffled to my ears that I don't know who it is. I don't think I want to know either.

I want to cry and scream but if I do then they'll hear me.

I'm so tired.

I just want this to be over with. I want everything to be over with.

There was a faint clicking sound from the door— no!

I can't let them see me like this! I can't let anyone know. If they know then what if they see me as a burden? What if they see me as pathetic? What if they hate me?

And with that, despite being exhausted in every sense of the word—I used what's left of my energy to use my unique magic. "Dream Well", so that everyone outside of my room can't get in. I know after a while they'll just get in but at least... at least I held them off for much longer.

Grasping my chest for air, I felt my pen. My shaking fingers carefully removed the pen as I examine it; black, it's covered in black...?

I don't... I didn't think I used my magic all that much...

I feel so lonely. I don't want to exist anymore. I want to talk to them but I'm scared, I'm terrified. I want to pretend I never existed. I want to be comforted. I want to feel safe. I don't want to be a bother. I want to fade away.

The thoughts are getting louder... I know I shouldn't listen, I already went through this. I shouldn't listen. I shouldn't listen.

And yet I do. Even as the thoughts are nothing but doubts and lies that hold no truth, I listen.

The thoughts that tell me that they—everyone— won't care if I stop existing. The thought that I'm nothing but a bother to everyone around me. The thought that I shouldn't have interacted with anyone so that they wouldn't be dragged into my mess. The thought that I should've left them when it was still early, that way I wouldn't be wasting anyone's time.

I feel something wet on my face, the moment I touch my face, I was pulled back to reality. When did I start crying...? My fingers are shaking too...

I guess I was hyperventilating the whole time...

The more I feel myself come back to reality, the more I notice things. Like how my vision is foggy. Or how the dulling pain in my head never left, same with the dizziness.

I've been stuck to my thoughts this whole time that I never heard myself speak, I don't think I even remember how I sound like. My whole body feels so numb and weak. Do I just give in...? Do I just let the fatigue get to me...?

I feel like I'm close to fainting, it's a good thing I'm on the bed. I won't bother anyone. I won't be anymore. I'll just stay here for a long long while...

I must've forgotten about the people at the door since I heard a the click of the doorknob, someone's probably gotten inside. I don't have the energy to check anymore...

I think I heard someone say something to me but I can't make out what they said. Everything sounds so muffled. My vision is slowly being covered in black and all I saw are yellow and white till—

I woke up a day affter that. I knew because they told me. I don't know why they're here by my side. I also don't know why I opened up to them. I still want to run away and pretend I never existed nor mattered but right now... I'm fine existing...

They made me feel like my existence isn't a burden. I don't really understand how nor why... but I tried to trust them and their words. For now I'll accept the help they're offering.

I'm scared still. I don't want to involve them in my messy private life any further than this. I really don't want to, I'm fine choosing to hide my presence and my existence than to trust people. I really don't want to be a bother. But... for now I'll allow myself to be. I'll ignore the thoughts telling me how much I'm wasting their time and efforts. How I'm a waste of space. How I don't deserve the help they're giving me, the comfort and kindness.

The thoughts get louder each moment but I ignore it. For now I'll endure it, for now I'll ignore it. For now I'll accept their presence by my side. I may not tell them the thoughts in my head for now or any time soon but I can allow them to see my physical weakness. The effects of thoughts. For now I'll be fine.

[nerves-nebula]

yEAH i agree. like im pretty sure thats what my mom did actually. she basically did no hard rules or anything except that we had to listen to her, and it made us dislike our dad for actually telling us to go to bed on time and stuff, so i get that.

I just dont see the point in forcing a kid to go with someone they clearly can't stand because that's already going to make home life suck shit from the start. like, it wouldn't have been better if people noticed the alienation tactic and decided i should be with my dad full time, because he does actually suck too! and all things considered it was better that my mom took care of us full time.

thats why i also think its important for kids to be allowed to switch literally whenever they want. like, i trust a kid to know who they feel most comfortable around, and i want them to be able to leave the moment they start to feel less comfortable.

though my situation was weird and definitely nothing like mike & abby's. idk idk i'm just spilling my thoughts, i honestly havent thought about how a system like that would work and tbh i don't think it WOULD work in american society as it is rn. or in 2003 or whenever this movie takes place...

why is she grilling him about taking sleeping pills. this is not a reasonable reaction. also IS he taking sleeping pills on the job????????

i was under the impression that he just falls sleep easily. whats going on in this movie. i hate this.

[races-erster]

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[victoria1676]

Okay I just remembered that the reader had decided not to destroy sumeru and snezhnaya but the real reason they didn't destroy sumeru is because they saw how their archon looked like a child and you can't tell me they thought 'This child's canna be the true reason this nations gonna downfall so there no point lmao' but it could also be because they never really attacked them and maybe assisted the reader because their are healer there but also their archon represents wisdom lol so they wouldn't be as blind anyway I'll be back to give you more art and just chat lol anyway see ya.

-Anon Crow ✌️

Notice: This is all for fun and mostly something you dont need to take serious in the game as these are just my opinions and thoughts that I try my besg to make people understand despite it might not be able to understand properly the way I try to show it TwT

Actually the reason why I picked Sumeru and Snezhnaya is that:

Sumeru:

Since its coming out next month I will be busy exploring and reading the lore alot so that I can understand the plot of that region and trying to understand all the Sumeru characters properly without butuchering or making the character OOC. The dendro archon is like so far obviously the god of wisdom and despite their small form they are very much someone we do not underestimate if people like read or why the Dendro archon is a small child XD

But anyways back to the topic.

Like i mentioned the Dendro Archon despite being youngest of the seven being 500 years old if I am correct remembering Ganyu's dialogue where she mentioned about the dendro archon and yes again they are the God of Wisdom so for me I am sure they would be aware something is wrong with the creator that suddenly appeared and acting like a tyrant. Espeically like despite they are mentioned to be a kid we cant underestimate them XD

Hopefully around 3.0 we can get more lore of her and lore of Sumeru because im dying to know their lore including Fontaine!! 😭💕👌

Snezhnaya:

I find like considering that is basically where all the Fatui are gonna be appearing a lot and the Tsaritsa so far me is like someone who worship the creator in her own way but never a harder core type like Zhongli, Venti and Ei. She feels like someone who cares about the creator but is more focused on her plan.

(Yeah so far im still trying to get the right description of Tsaritsa without making her OOC TwT forgive meeee)

But like both she and her harbingers have their own goals and I think some harbingers i find would not be a worshipping type unlike Childe who already is exposed being a vessel and someone who will do anything be the creator's side.

Meanwhile I still have to search more info of the harbingers as majority some of their lores were mentioned by charas, books and artifacts of them.

La Signora for me is the one who would despise the creator but always like questions them on why didnt they save her beloved and why is her body (and possibly her soul) now confined into a daily torture of boss fighting domain.

Scaramouche for me feels like someone who hates the creator for making him go through a hard and harsh life especially taking away his friend away. It would take time for him to like get around okay with reader.

But honestly these are just my thoughts since I havent done much re-reading lores since I am still waiting for Sumeru and also trying to get more primos to get Kazuha since i only have 4 or 3 days left to get him along with Heizou DX

These two inazuman anemo boys better come home cause i legit had to multitask my last summer assignments and farm more primos to get them before the banner ends. I could have also get Klee if my luck as a F2P is not very bad and cursed TwT

[violetnotez]

heyy!! i love your work and reading them rlly makes me feel better :")

do you take emergency reqs? i havent been sleeping well lately (staying up till 5am in the morning) and also been getting reoccuring bad dreams more recently,, so now im kinda scared to sleep although i should- :(

may i req hcs of how megumi, inumaki (if you write for him) and gojo would comfort their s/o or just help them sleep better in general? i hope this isn't too much,, thanks again and i hope you have a great week ahead <3

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Hey bb! Omg yes I’ll totally write this for you, I know how crappy it is to not get sleep 🥺💕

⤷S/O WHO CANT SLEEP + BAD DREAMS | JJK

characters: megumi, inumaki, gojo

⚠️warnings: a few curse words

MEGUMI FUSHIGURO➭ Megumi would honestly be very worried. He wouldn’t show it too much on his face, (because of how tsundere he acts) but he has a heart full of gold and he worries about you a lot, more than he likes to admit. So when he sees the eye bags under your eyes growing throughout the week, he knows something is wrong. He won’t asks many questions, wanting you to come to him in your time to tell him what your going through. He’ll be very protective over you, insisting you should sit out of training or whisper to his classmates to take it easy on you, you’re not doing so well today. Once you finally come to him one night, a nightmare forcing you to tell him everything in hopes of getting some comfort, he ushers you inside his room without even a second thought. You guys talk for a while, Megumi listening to all of your worries and troubles from the past week. He isn’t very sure what to do to make you feel better, but he goes to one thing he knows always brings him comfort. He summons a few of his spirit bunnies, the little white fur balls hopping all over his room. It brings a smile to your face, as the rabbits always had a love towards you (probabaly because you are always feeding them little snacks), and a few of them snuggle into your lap. You and Megumi continue to talk, but this time about anything and everything as you both pet the little bunnies to sleep.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

TOGE INUMAKI ➭ Toge is clingy as hell, and when his s/o isn’t feeling their greatest, he just knows it (it’s like psychic at this point.) The first few nights of sleep that are restless he confronts you gently about it, his hand holding yours reassuringly as he gave you a worried expression. He touches your eyes, closing them as if to say “Are you sleeping?” You giggle at the gesture, but not wanting to worry him, you lie and say your fine. (Remember when I said he was psychic about this stuff?) Seriously though, he won’t have any of it, because he already knows something is up. He furrows his brow, defiantly saying “Tuna,” (basically, in his one way he’s calling out bullshit). He grabs your hand, and will stomp his way into his room, keeping the light dark as he gets a an old childhood movie he knows you like on his laptop and cuddling you into his body. He just wants you to be comfortable and get at least an hour or two of sleep, and if he needs to be there to make you feel safe, he’s more than willing. He pets your hair, and when he notices your eyes seeming to get heavy, or your breathing get deeper, he whispers “Sleep”, and you slump gently against him. He doesn’t feel the greatest using his curse technique on people he loves, but if it’s to help you feel better, he will do it in a heartbeat.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

GOJO SATORU ➭ This man child, I swear to god. He’s probably the best and worst person to tell about your sleep issues, because he’s going to take that as a all night party. When you tell him you aren’t sleeping so well, his “master plan” is to tire you out so much that you fall into the best sleep of your life (really, it’s just an excuse to go to a new bakery he found with you). He plans out your whole night, and you two go everywhere, just trying new foods, new experiences...and it honestly was a lot of fun. Except this man is so tiring- it’s like he’s zapping all the little energy you have to fuel his own. Once he knows you’re becoming very sluggish, he just grins like a little kid, insisting he carries you back to your room (you can’t fight him, he’s gonna do it). Once you get back to your room, he doesn’t leave, wanting to make sure you get a good night’s rest like he promised. He does everything he can- putting on weird ASMR videos, insisting you wear his blindfold like an eye mask, even insisting wearing one of his shirts will make you feel more comfortable (that one was just to see you wear his clothes). You eventually just knock out, because he’s way too energetic to keep up with. If you do wake up from a nightmare, he’s the best person to have around though. He doesn’t judge, cause he’s had a few nightmares himself (“it comes with the job”, he says), but he will just make you laugh with all his dumb comments and antics. He will get you water, snacks, a movie, whatever you need to get your mind off of it. And he won’t leave, even if you insist you feel bad he’s taking care of you-he wouldn’t ever let you go through that alone <3

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[jackalopey]

that post made me think about things, so here are some wheelchair thoughts from someone who recently started using one (im ambulatory, which means i can physically walk and do not use a wheelchair 24/7, personally i use it because walking can cause me to feel faint and get migraines and i was housebound due to this before; i don’t know why this happens but am waiting to have a neurology assessment)

wheelchairs are great! like i said, i used to be basically housebound, and when i did leave the house i had to really plan where i was going and what i was doing. i’d basically have to make sure i was walking for no more than 5 minutes a day, total. but since i started using my wheelchair, i havent had to consider that at all because i’m fine to be out for hours and hours and to travel miles and miles.

basically wheelchairs are anti-isolation. being able to go out and spend time with people and visit nice places is incredible. i wasn’t able to freely do that for 8 or so years.

when you’re in a wheelchair, you are small. i am already short, but the wheelchair really takes it to another level. it’s like i’m seeing the world like a child would, or something. also i’ve been more perceptive to my environment, maybe because i’m lower to the ground, which is interesting.

you feel everything. a lot of places are technically wheelchair accessible, but my god the flooring is not pleasant. cobbles are my worst enemy. god forbid you’re sensitive to travel sickness. for me this can trigger migraines, which is not ideal.

my wheelchair is pushed by someone else because i cant afford an electric one and one that i push would give me the same issues as walking. being completely under the control of another person like that is scary! roads freaked me out so much the first time, because i felt so vulnerable when i couldn’t control myself, and the person pushing doesn’t necessarily think about this because they are in control

expanding on that, being unable to control where i go can be frustrating. sometimes i want to go left when the path splits, not right, and even though there’s no real difference it’s frustrating to not be able to make that choice for myself. sometimes i want to go slower, sometimes i want to stop to look at something, but i can’t just make those decisions for myself, i have to communicate them first

again on accessability, a lot of people have wheelchair lifts for stairs, but to use them you have to find a member of staff to get help (or i assume you do; i have no idea how they work!), and honestly... it’s just not worth it for small staircases. i don’t love going down the stairs in a wheelchair, but it’s faster. ramps are better.

so many shops are inaccessible due to the interior design. when i was in paddington station, 2/7 of the shops were accessible to me, and both of the ones that were accessible were chains. the others had corners that my wheelchair couldn’t fit around, and many stores also don’t have doors that open wide enough for a wheelchair to comfortably fit in. also often shops do technically have enough room, but it’s tight so i’m constantly anxious that i’m going to knock something over

kids look at me more. that’s just something cute i noticed. they’re very curious, and they rarely say anything, but they’re really often looking over and staring. i don’t know if it’s because they’re not used to wheelchairs or if it’s just because i’m closer to their eye level, but it’s cute

people are a lot kinder than i expected. before i used it i was extremely anxious because i am young and i had heard stories about ambulatory users being harassed when they stand. i know that this is a thing that happens to people, but this hasn’t been my experience yet, at least. most people who comment on my share assume that i’m able to stand, but aren’t at all judgemental about it, and i haven’t had any rude comments or invasive questions yet. i’m sure it’ll happen eventually, but people being kind really helped with my anxiety

that being said some people are also very patronising. they don’t try to be, and i don’t know if it’s because i look like a 12 year old, but my god people seem to infantalise me even more than normal in the chair. i appreciate they’re trying to be nice, but me being unable to walk long distances doesn’t actually mean that i’m a child, weirdly!

please dear god clean up dog shit. i am begging you. it’s horrible getting dog shit on the wheels of the wheelchair. it can be hard to avoid sometimes; at least when you’re walking you have more control over your feet. my wheels don’t have the same level of flexibility of movement

it hurts my butt to be sitting for extended periods of time :/

that’s all i’ve got for now, but i’ve had a lot of thoughts, and a lot of them have been about things i hadn’t really heard about before. i don’t know if this is useful to anyone, but it’s stuff i would’ve liked to have heard more about before

[onigirisamu]

Good day!~ Congratulate with new blog! Can I ask you headcanons about being Inarizaki manager and boys are really simp for her?

thank you so much!! this req right up my alley HAHA

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𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐳𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫! 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

pairing: inarizaki x reader

genre: fluff

warnings: none

a/n: im so sorry hahsjsj i tried to not get carried away hope this is ok??

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general hcs:

• inarizaki never had a manager before but the workload for them suddenly became heavier and they decided to go look for one

• honestly they kind of tried looking for someone back then but they had to put it off, turns out most of the people who applied were just the twin's fangirls

• that is until you came along

• you were classmates with suna, you two got along well and was surprised he wasn't annoyed with you yet

• you casually talked to him about all sorts of stuff until you complained about your club shutting down because it lacked members

• "you should be our manager lol" suna jokes

• "wait a minute...you're a genius"

• "WAIT NO IT WAS A JOK-"

• but you're already running to the gym

• suna groans, sure you weren't a fan girl and was capable of doing job but he low-key didn't want his team mates to hog you

• cuz guess what he's a simp 4 u 😔

• the team that afternoon had a huddle talk with u waiting at the side of the gym

• "suna, that girl, she isn't a fan girl is she?"

• "trust me she isn't one of those idiots"

• WELL if suna says so 🤷🏻‍♀️

• after a trial day of being a manager, they saw that you were really capable and fit for the job so yay

• and after a week in, you were already doting on them like a parent 😭 you were so caring like??

• you would give them back pats after a hard days work and they would just melt ugh you would've given them head pats but you were probably shorter than these giants

• they'd give you the head pats tho!!

• after practice dinner with them at a restaurant is often tho so ur wallet might be dying but this gives them an excuse to spend more time with you

• they would literally help you with anything too, cooking?? kita and osamu got you, lifting something heavy?? aran is already grabbing it from your hands with a kind smile

• you'd make up stupid nicknames for all of them that you thought was cute but they don't mind!!!!! THEY LOVE IT!!!

• you would honestly find so many ways of making them blush for some reason lol like MF BREATHING

• havent they had a female manager/ nonetheless friend before?????? mayhaps

• or it's because they really like u 👁️👄👁️

• when someone makes you cry you bet that that person won't be bothering you again especially if those were the twin's fangirls

• atsumu and his scary aura is already on it

• they're not that great with comforting someone who's been crying but they do try to lighten the mood and your workload by helping you and making funny jokes

• best believe that training camps are the worst, mostly for you

• three words: so much testosterone

• kita is very protective of you, having you in the middle of the team so you won't get lost and hit on by other guys from other schools

• when you finally meet the other managers, you breathe a sigh of relief and join them

• the day goes by and all of you were having dinner, you left your table to get more meat

• "hey, aren't you inarizaki's manager?" he leans in curiously

• you backed away since he was too close to your liking, "aha...yeah i am"

• "oho~ got a boyfriend?"

• a few tables away was your team, watching the uncomfortable exchange between you two, they were silently fuming

• almost all of them walked behind the boy who was making you uncomfortable and suna tapped on his shoulder, they simultaneously glared at him

• "WHAT THE-"

• "leave her alone"

• he scrambles to leave, hella weirded out by the amount of guys who came up behind him

• you almost cried how they noticed that you were uncomfortable

• HUGS ALL AROUND and a lot of thank yous huhu you were so lucky your boys were there to save you

• maybe suna accidentally joking about you being manager was the best mistake he ever made even if he does have to share the attention with his teammates