#im sorry my brains a mush rn

[ratatatastic]

pretty boy spotted in dania beach alert pretty boy spotted in dania beach alert!

6.29.24 (x)

[goodnightevan]

Inspiration Saturday

Tagged by my beloveds @wildlife4life ans @lover-of-mine tysm babes 💙💙💙💙💙

I finally actually FINALLY started writing again this week (just a little but it's still something) so you get a mooodboard AND a snippet for my Buddie and Madney Married In Vegas fic

Maddie thought she'd have a simple wedding. Just her, Howie, Jee-Yun, and their close friends and family. But then her parents had to step in and “help” – most definitely trying to make up for not being there at her last wedding – and now it's nothing like it was supposed to be and Maddie is tired. She just wants to hurry up and marry the love of her life.  Which is why she ends up telling her fiancé, “Let's get married.”  They're currently at their second bar in Vegas after seeing a show and gambling a bit. Buck had seen her stressed, and gave them a trip to Las Vegas to celebrate their joint bachelor and bachelorette parties. But now she thinks being here is a perfect sign that they should get married now.  Howie laughs. “Yeah, that's kind of why we're having this bachelor/bachelorette party.” “No, I mean, we're already in Vegas with our closest friends. We can still do the big wedding to include Jee. But I want to marry you now.” He blinks at her. “You're serious.”  Maddie takes his hand and gives in a soft yet determined squeeze. “Absolutely.”  Howie gives her a giant, beaming smile. “Okay let's do it.”  “Yeah?” She asks, her smile mirroring his.  “Yeah.” He squeezes her hand. “Let's get married.” 

No pressure tagging: @wh0re-behavi0r @gayhoediaz @elvensorceress @monsterrae1 @eddiediazisascorpio @giddyupbuck @hoodie-buck @eddiebabygirldiaz and anyone else who wants to do this!

[lemonzestywrites]

Game Changer opinions?

ofc! these are more just general thoughts but here you go

- they should have me on

- me and @shyaudacity just were mentioning how hilarious lou is, he's an absolute legend

- the escape room episode is hands down my favorite one, my comfort episode fr

- i personally would love to see sam play in an episode with the sole intent of destroying him (al la sam says but worse)

- also would love one with the crew members actually! i wanna see them playing to

-would also love to see and 'amazing race' type of episode where we just send these bastards around LA and whatnot :)

[laughingtale]

on the priority of the to-do list:

recheck verses / tags / pages to see whats outdated/in need of smnth

update rules w/ new info or changed info ( cant remember if i updated my age there yet or not either ). Might add rule/note ab considering someone following one of my blogs all of my blogs bc it gets a bit confusing---

get pages up for @binksbrew specifically, decide whether or not to add kyros, bartolomeo, bege, or guernica

LOOK AT FOLLOWING/FOLLOWERS LIST (<- person who. has not looked at that in. over a year orz )

Sort through inbox / drafts and decide if keep or if new slate or mix,,,,

Maybe make a new promo,,,, its been ten million years since ive opened ps,,,,

[sunnist4rs]

genuine question how are you a terf if you were previously nb

I've always been a tomboy. I grew up around mostly feminine girls who tried to change my style and interests. So I hung out with the boys and was always disappointed to find the only reason they'd like me was that they had a crush on me. They'd guilt trip me into dating them and then I'd move away (my familys pretty nomadic).

As the only representation I saw of what a girl could be was super different to me and was something I started to resent (I was a 'not like other girls/bruh girl') I thought I must be a boy. My family (used to be) super accepting of the tqia+ (my mums now gender critical), we watched Mardigra on the TV every year since I was a newborn so I grew up around that stuff.

In 2020/1 I started 'questioning my gender identity'. It was lockdown and tqia+ propoganda was all over social media. My mental health was pretty bad so I found comfort in this community. Even at this time I disagreed with some of the ideals like trans people in womans sports and neopronouns but I felt forced to go along with it or be ostricised. During this time I genuinely believed at different stages I was demi-girl, genderfluid, demi-boy or even trans. But nonbinary was what stuck for years.

Up until this year I went by they/them pronouns everywhere and while I've always only gone by my nickname I called my birthname a 'deadname'. I saw confusing strangers with my appearance as the biggest compliment, I'd make flag accessories and felt super uncomfortable whenever anyone called me 'she'. In PE I would switch between boy/girl teams and everyone at school knew about my pride.

When I moved overseas I fell into the redpill/tradwife sphere for 6-8 months and became gender confused. I still called myself nonbinary but only believed there were three genders including my own. Later on in this phase I began to accept my womanhood even though I was disgusted by it. I decided to make a blog to speak my mind politics wise as tumblr is covered in TRA rhetoric and I wanted to make a space where I didn't have to pretend I believed in it. Quickly I discovered radical feminist theory as it's the main gender critical ideology on here. I'm a pretty factual person and while a lot of minority oppression stats don't add up womans suffering from men was very clear when I actually read the evidence and theory.

TLDR; I was raised thinking being a woman was a bad thing and being nonbinary separated me from that. I convinced myself I was basically a boy and I got huge waves of encouragement for doing so. Once I left this bubble the illusion began to shatter and being nonbinary didn't help my health anymore. I discovered radical feminism and it all fit into place; I am a woman, just a gnc one. I was friends with at least 30 different tqia+ kids when I identified as nb and they all had very similar stories to me so it's likely they were manipulated by society too.

[deliveringspookzandtreatz]

to the tall muses this is basically marco to them no one can change my mind

[birdietrait]

Hey, what is the meaning of queue? In simblr context, i mean. Than you

in simblr context? ik people do timezone reblogs and queue those up, is that what you’re referring to??

[sundial-girl]

Do you have any hcs for Heron???

how did you catch me thinking abt him... spooky

i'm like super bad at listing hcs out in an organized manner (*_ _)人 but here's some:

goes for long walks at night to clear his mind when he can't sleep. yeah walking around the dark alone at like 2 in the morning probably isn't the safest thing but he prefers the solitude at that time of day. occasionally he'll also find something like a cool rock or shell or whatever on these walks to bring back and gift to one of his friends (or just keep for himself)

occasionally tries to hide his emotions so those close to him won't worry about him, but he's not actually very good at that (sometimes) and it just makes them worry more :'0. also, very prone to mood swings, which he also tries to hide as to not ruin the mood [pun was not intended i swear]

please don't let him wear roller skates/heelys - he says he'll be fine and knows how to use them but he crashes into everything and nearly breaks his bones 😭

he and oliver don't actually talk all that much but there is a silent mutual understanding (bird instincts 🤝)

used to have a higher cold tolerance prior to losing his hand (& eye), but can't risk being out in the cold as much anymore due to the mechanical parts possibly getting damaged (& the metal gets freezing which is. uncomfortable) so :( rip

scared of the dentist but only a little bit. not completely terrified but doesn't like going there

i know the mauling len to death thing is a joke sorta but i wonder if there is smthn deeper to it. like len reminds heron of himself in a way (even in spite of several differences), and something about that makes him so envious and full of rage and he's not sure why (he does, but wouldn't admit to it)—what's even more frustrating is len just keeps being... len. is he willfully ignorant and is this mockery or is he really that forgiving? and how could you forgive someone after all they've done to you? maybe len represents a lot of things heron is not and that's what really sets him off to attack him, personally. but maybe not thats just a theory a heron theory

very neutral on goldfish crackers

bumps into doorframes a lot b/c. tol

there was a trend years ago iirc? of people just randomly climbing up to really high places and just sorta sitting there. i feel like maybe he'd do that sometimes just cause? like w/ the first point he might just need places to vibe alone sometimes

thang

[peri]

tip for ppl who use tumblr desktop: currently there is a glitch where most of the time, blogs wont open if you click them, as well as clicking some notifications in your activity. the only current workaround i know as of rn is to click to go back a page then click the blog/notification again. clicking back wont actually take you to a different page. smth important to notice is when you click a blog, the url changes. it'll have /peri at the end, for example, which is of course the url for when you're on someone's blog. if you see that url but don't see a blog popping up, then just click to go back a page and try clicking the blog again! this usually brings it up right away, it hasnt failed me yet.

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Okay uhhh plant flower ideas!!!

• Is more plant than human or metal

• Able to mimic other people's appearances/voices (due to the ciflower voice being completely different)

• Met moke because he'd not been in his greenhouse in like 2 years so he walks in one day and finds this creature which looks human except for the vines twisting from their legs sitting there.

• Moke introduced his friends, she ends up living with the Meika twins in their greenhouse

• Usually people can't tell she's not human, sometimes she just removes one of her hands (she can regrow them) just to see people's reactions

• also I like the spore idea from the hivemind au, so she can use controlling/borracherro spores if she wants. Usually she won't unless Moke's doing his working-for-5-days-straight-thing or something

-🌟

INCHRESTING!!! i really like these 👀👀👀 yess plant flower...

why is everything happening to moke lmaoo omg... poor guy, "normalest" in the friend group of undead eldritch horror, literal plant, broken android besties 1 and 2, and whatever len is ig

omg tho flower NO not the spores 😭😭 ik u have good intentions in trying to get moke to not overwork himself but PLS just make him like... tea or smthn 😭

[minaharkers]

— TAG GAME.

TAGGED BY @indorilnerevarine literally like a month ago and i just got to this i am. so sorry lawl

TAGGING: @chuckhansen @denerims @tommymillers @jacobseed @queennymeria + anyone else who sees this an wants to join >:3 

THREE SHIPS: 

THREE CANON SHIPS (interpreiting this as canon x canon characters instead of the pairing itself being canon): faramir x eowyn (lotr), jaime x brienne (asoiaf), finn x poe (star wars)

THREE OC SHIPS: merethel lavellan x dorian pavus (dragon age), ryem daeron x kira carsen (star wars: the old republic), aerie x kaidan (tes: skyrim)

FIRST SHIP: omg. okay...i think it might be some thing from the Wizard Franchise but i dont engage with that anymore so im gonna say faramir and eowyn since lotr is permanantly tattooed inside my brain

CURRENTLY CONSUMING: a raspberry dark chocolate iced coffee 

CURRENTLY WATCHING: finally catching up on the last of us and yes it is making me sob like a little baby

LAST MOVIE: glass onion because i am bad at watching movies 

LAST SONG: cold by the oh hellos

CURRENTLY READING: the last book i finished was the bioshock companion novel but im gonna go back and start reading the fires of heaven by robert jordan since i was taking a break on reading the wheel of time series

CURRENTLY CRAVING: borger......i want a cheeseburger even tho i literally had one on friday 

[goodnightevan]

I was tagged by my beloved @lucydonato to do the last receiptify of 2023 tysm babe 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

I didn't listen much but when I did it was basically my two new fave Christmas albums

No pressure tagging: @wh0re-behavi0r @monsterrae1 @jddryder @eddiediazisascorpio @eddiebabygirldiaz @giddyupbuck @honestlydarkprincess @hoodie-buck @missoliverstark and anyone else who wants to do this!

[nyxypoo]

@arisaturn

heat stroke photoshoot redraw with my muse 🐈‍⬛☀️

did a follow-up of this kuroo from another angle too (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

[botanicallyinclinednerd]

Guess what crossed my dash :P https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHsZbhmega0 This may be about LBD but 👀 its got me thinking about an AU where Wukong ends up in his own Greek Tragedy by going against Guanyin...which would kinda end up being that, he never went on that redemptive journey huh? Lmao, reverse Odysseus 😭 don't be a monster, be a monkey, have a gentler hand-

Wukong but he never stopped believing in greeting the world with open arms

[qualityrain]

Do you have any hc on ana's relationship with the other members of the snow lotus squad? I personally think that ana was close with her first squad but not with the second.

Also, if they had more time to interact, what kind of relationship would owl and mei had?

im going to be honest ive never thought abt it until now 😭 i mean it makes sense she was closer w her old one considering it was only a year ish or else when she became the leader of the new one. (i do not know anything abt how valk school or how squads work) I think she stayed in snow lotus squad since she was 12? and grew and fought with the others and she was 16 and became the adjutant and she really looked up to the leader and they never really had anything go badly and if it did the leader was there to fix it(i think ana just did whatever the leader told her too)and the squad could go through it together anyway right!!!! cut to all of them dying in manila

i wish there was more said abt her afterwards because she basically just lost like her friends and family but she has her bio fam looking out for her and like the other valks to support her. idk abt her new squad shes probably rlly protective of them because she can’t let what happened in manila happen to them again!! cut to all of them dying because of honkai (i acrually do not rmb if ppl made it out alive. idt dudu/rita/Alvitr said anything abt it) (i wish there was more of her thoughts abt becoming a herrscher and the whole situation like i think it would be interesting!!! BUT NOOOOOO STAY IN A COMA I GUESS)

i cant decide on what rs mei and owl would have because i cant decide on whats funniest. the raven mei owl dynamic is my fav in the entire game i want them to become a wack ass found family (delusional). i think b4 coral arc if mei and owl ever met and spent more time tgt their interactions would just be like how mei interacrs w kevin its just the “….” dialogue for five hours. theyre both perfectly fine not talking to each other but i think owl would be the one she would ask if she wanted answers because yk how kevin wont say shit and raven has double meanings and tries to fight her every time i think owl gives her answers no double meaning no underlying motive. he has no business with mei and he doesnt give two shits.

i think after coral arc if owl survives i cant chose between mei being a bitch to him like how she is to raven or being normal w him because raven would be annoyed i think the latter is funnier but i think more ppl should be a annoying to owl because hes so rude for no reason LMFAO. i think mei would be slightly protective of him because yk theyre parallels of each other and she is the older one and maybe she teaches him abt herrscher powers also i think owl treats her nicely because shes not annoying like raven (affectionate) and she now knows his cringe backstory.

[scarysanctuary]

definitely agree, i think a lot of his "healing", especially in the middle of s2, was not actual healing at all, but an attempt at feeling better, simply because he didnt have the means to actually heal without having some help, similar to Ed in s1e10 when he was singing his song, it seemed like he was trying to process his heartbreak in a healthy way, but then of course without someone guiding him through it, he soon turned back into Blackbeard, or in season 2 when he said no more booze, no more drugs, and was cleaning around the ship, as if he was getting things back in order, meanwhile he knew full well that he was going to try to kill everyone on the ship including himself. i dont think enough people acknowledge the similarities between these two, but thats probably because a lot of people dont like Izzy but they do like Ed, so they dont want to highlight that they have anything in common.

It's so interesting to me that Izzy's suicide attempt wound heals very slowly, and leaves a big visible scar, in a show where characters regularly shrug off much worse injuries. You can even see it under his drag makeup:

Injuries in OFMD seem to have a physical impact on the character more or less in proportion to their psychological impact, regardless of how serious the wound should realistically be. In S1E4, Stede spends one episode injured after getting stabbed and hanged due to his hubris and incompetence, but then he's fine after hanging out with Ed for a while and getting some validation. In S1E6, Stede spends an entire night impaled on a sword, but he doesn't even seem to be in pain and suffers no lasting damage because it's not a psychological wound. And of course, in S2E3, Ed comes back to life more or less physically intact after realizing that Stede is there waiting for him, even though he should have been very, very dead after what the crew did to him.

But all of Izzy's injuries have a realistic impact on his body, in a way that isn't the case for any other character. I think some of that can be attributed to his Only Human In A Muppet Movie status, but it's also because of his uniquely fucked up relationship with Ed.

Ed causes all of Izzy's injuries, and I think they affect Izzy so permanently because of how deeply invested and dependent Izzy is on his relationship with Ed; his whole sense of self is bound up in it. Those wounds represent the toxicity of their relationship and how much it's damaged Izzy.

In contrast, when Izzy shoots Ed in the arm, the wound doesn't seem to stick around; we never see any evidence of it after that moment. Ed's actions have a far deeper impact on Izzy than Izzy's actions have on Ed, because there's always been an inequality in their relationship; Izzy cares about Ed much more than Ed cares about him, and that's the fundamental problem for Izzy.

Izzy post S2E4 has made a deliberate decision to move on from what happened between him and Ed, because it was so big and so awful that it's not the kind of thing he could either just forgive or ignore. And I think his Ed-induced suicide attempt was kind of the final straw; it's after that that he goes on deck and shoots Ed, which David Jenkins has described as Izzy "breaking up" with him. I don't think Izzy's stopped being in love with Ed, but he's stopped trying to influence his behavior as much, or even spend much time with him at all, and he's spending time with other characters instead.

But for all his change in behavior, every time he's on screen, we get a visual reminder of what happened, in both his leg and the scar on his face. Both are emphatically visible in the above scene, when Izzy and Stede are talking about Ed. It's a reminder of the impetus for Izzy's character arc this season, his relationship with Ed, and I think it's an indication that he hasn't fully healed psychologically, and probably never will. All he can do is keep moving forward.