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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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hellooo danandphilgames buddies!! happy belated 10 year (more like 5 but shhh) anniversary :-)
#dan and phil#daniel howell#phil lester#amazingphil#phanart#dnp art#IM SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO POST THIS HERE IVE BEEN MEANING 2 DO IT FOREVER#theres soooooo much i can say abt this piece... such a journey.... what a ride....#i gave this 2 them as a puzzle and had them sign a lil print of it and they were SOOOO SO SWEET WAHHH#i luv them sm.... im so grateful 4 their kind words it rly meant the world 2 me ;___;; <3333333#also dan was like “good luck to us doing that puzzle on the bus!” as i was walking away fkjhsdfhj#anyways anyways ok sry back 2 the pic!! theres SOOOO many parts thatd b fun 2 point out and explain but itd b too long for tags AAAAA#would any1 b interested if i made like... a thread on twt or smth mayhaps...? or reblog this with a read more underneath...?#ive only ever just posted art and dipped idk how non-tag yapping works despite me being on this site since i was like. 12 kdsjhfksdh#my art#if ur reading this hi ily i hope ur having a good day!! :-) <3
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Oh yay a new queen with kits let me just check out her informatioFOURTEEN MOONS?!?!?!?!?!?!??!
#clangen#clan generator#warriors oc#warrior cats#sporeclan#SHES LITERALLY FINCHPAWS AGE.................. SOLTALON GIRL WHAT HAPPENED#shes just a baby herself </3</3</3#also i cannot describe how relieved i was that finchpaws infection went away. we have such a bad track record in this clan with infections#took me way too long to realize soltalon was sol-talon and not like a reference to something. sigh.#sc:moons#sc:foxspeckle#sc:minklake#sc:piperdapple#sc:finchpaw#sc:fennelacorn#sc:soltalon#sc:greenkit#sc:mousegrove#sc:cliffthicket#sc:lizardkit#sc:strawkit#sc:puddle#sc:carolina#im so sorry it took me ten billion years to finish this moon ive been so busy and then i got a lil burnt out on it lol#it's out now tho!!!!!#tw blood#tw birth#< really nowhere near graphic imo but tagging just in case
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embrace maternity and have the courage to write mpreg. or whatever Dan Howell said
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Hey, just wanted to reach out to say that I found you pointing out and calling this person was really great and you shouldn't have apologized. It was incredibly true what you said, and to be honest it seems out of touch with the reality of a great deal of the japanese fandom, the nuances and their culture. Also, it was as you pointed out, extreme and may I say rude. I want to mention too that the way it was written, as if entitled of the knowledge and the 'explanation' made it all worse in context of the 'fucked up'. The original poster always gets away by using the 'well-written academic'' statement of their 'metas' as an excuse to do or say and make everyone else agree and if not, uses victim narrative and discourses exactly selecting wording for people to agree on it or feel bad.
I don't know if they tagging you in the way they did made you reblog and apologizing/backing up, but no one thought bad about you pointing it out. On the contrary, a lot of people had been bullied and discriminated by this person when they called them out/disagreed going onto lenghts of sending their friends to harass people, and the other persons can't even defend themselves because they are effectively blocked. To quite a few people in the fandom has been done, even accusing them as 'acephobes' (when they're not) or even Nazis by spreading lies. So yeah, I just wanted to say that. I think you were right to call them out publicly.
Thank you very much for this ask. To be completely honest I agree with everything you said here and don't actually feel bad about pointing anything out. I mainly apologised because I didn't want any potentially poor phrasing from my side to cause unnecessary hostility and because I myself have gripes with this person's behaviour but didn't want to cause a scene.
My honest opinion is that they have a serious issue with taking accountability for their own mistakes and highly overestimate their own intellect. If you're reading this, @thegirlwhorideslikeasamurai, sorry if I seem harsh, but it's true. I saw your post lamenting how you're the only academic meta writer / fan in the fandom and I didn't interact then because I honestly do not care enough to start that drama but with the information Blonndiec has just given me, I think it's necessary that someone calls you out.
You're not an academic. You're not beyond the mental capabilities of other fans. You're actually incredibly childish in your metas and analyses and I am not kidding when I say that I was halfheartedly writing essays more academic than every analysis I've seen from you when I was barely a teenager. I don't know how old you are and I frankly don't care. You're not as clever as you think you are.
Also, don't think I didn't notice that you didn't reblog my correction (link here to my correction and here to their "response" for those who didn't see that exchange) of your post so that you could control what your followers saw of the exchange. You're the opposite of an academic. You control information to tailor the narrative, you don't cite your sources properly if at all, you don't format your posts in anything close to how an academic analysis would be, you make unbased claims, you reference posts and canon material without in any way indicating where that information is from, you reference your own (equally unacademic) metas and your conclusions from them without indicating what post it's from or that it's your own theory this new one is based on and instead present it as a common fact, and I could go on and on and on. Your posts are also riddled with logical fallacies and you talk in absolutes and opinions when there's no canon basis to claim such things. I'm sorry, but that's not academic in the slightest.
To be clear, you don't have to be an academic to post on the Internet. You don't have to be anything at all. You could up front be a genuine idiot with no remorse and that's fine. But when you claim to be an academic and also put down the rest of the fandom for not being on your level, you have to be able to back that up. It'd still make you sound like a prick but at least your arrogance would have a basis. It currently does not.
I haven't personally seen the discussions that Blonndiec is referencing and I'm not going to claim anything definitive (because that would be unacademic of me, take notes) but if what they're saying is true and did happen as described, which I have empirical, if anecdotal, evidence to believe could very well be (a friend of mine has personally been blocked by you after they criticised you without actually mentioning your name which I of course can't prove is the reason for the block but the timing is awfully convenient), you should know that you should be ashamed of yourself.
If there's context missing, feel free to enlighten me and call out any incorrect accusations. You have every right to defend yourself. However, I encourage you to cite your sources since you're such an academic. If you don't, then it's just your word against Blonndiec and anyone else who might comment's word and that doesn't prove anything. Don't misunderstand, acephobia and nazi rhetoric should absolutely be called out but only if it's actually happening. False accusations can ruin lives. I hope you know that.
I'm not a fan of calling people out publicly and, again, thank you for this ask, Blonndiec. But considering many of the issues I've personally seen and those I've been informed of by second hand sources were posted publically, I don't really feel bad about calling this out. I could do a full breakdown of just the insulting "academic" comments alone and how there's no academia to be found in said academic metas and, Samurai, if you give me reason to, I will show exactly what I mean point by point (and academically just to give you an example of even low level academia).
If you respond to this, do it in a reblog. That's what a real academic would do. If I'm wrong and you can prove it, you'd have no reason to not show my post in your rebuttal. If I'm right, you'd have every reason to be upfront about your mistakes and how you intend to rectify them. There's nothing wrong with being wrong but there's a lot wrong with refusing to admit to it in a way that lets others peer review you (academic thing, look it up) and come to their own conclusions about the situation. That's what you did when you just @'ed me instead of reblogging my response. A true academic wouldn't hide a peer review. You'd know that if you were one.
I swing in many academic spaces and yet that doesn't make me any kind of expert and I don't claim to be one because I'm not. But since you want to be one so badly, reblog this with a response and show us all how smart you are. I'm dying to know what your academic take on this is.
#sorry to any moots and followers reading this for going off like this#this has just been weighing on me for a long time#i have absolutely zero issue with someone just making posts about a thing they like and things they think about#it doesnt have to be any kind of academic in the slightest#citing sources is not necessary to be a part of fandom#but when you make such a bold and demeaning claim that actively puts down the very fandom you claim to be part of#im gonna get pissed#we are not your underlings and you are not better than anyone else#maybe this is my inner jantelov shining bright here but this is exactly what the modern jantelov is for#calling out people who think theyre better than the rest based on nothing but arrogance and ego#trust me this is not how i usually try to sort problems but ive had it and i think everyone should know#ive personally fallen victim to the “explain away with half baked arguments and appeals to emotion” tactic from people#its very easy to want to give people the benefit of the doubt#so as someone who knows and has experienced how easy it is to fall into that trap i want to point this out to those who might not notice#its very easy to miss#but i didnt miss it this time and im not letting anyone else miss it either#when you start forgiving this type of behaviour youre only a step away from letting them walk all over you#suddenly youre wrapped around their pinky and you wont notice until the light from the exit dims so much that you cant see at all#ive been there#im not letting you go there too#to be clear this isnt a this person issue but you have to catch this behaviour the moment you see it otherwise youll catch it too late#im only being this up front about it because i want you to be able to recognise when someone actually dangerous does it#its a kind of pipeline#i want you to notice in time#ask#yuri on ice
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how has realising your ideals gone for you?
#ts4#ts4 edit#genshin impact#kaveh#alhaitham#haikaveh#p#sorry. sorry. im kind of not though#CAN WE MAKE SOME NOISE FOR HOW THEY LOOK. FAINTS TO THE FLOOR#im not sorry for genshin impact maintaining a grip on me still. they gave me divorced never dated yaoi HOW AM I MEANT TO WALK AWAY IN THESE#CONDITIONS. yall know me.............. anyways ive been compared to both of these guys so really this was a long time coming
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SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD
#i rise from the dead once again!!#sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting#school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :(#ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late#its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself#even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better#but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time#so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better#man. that got really depressing :/#anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D#ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3#i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now#sonic the hedgehog#sage robotnik#AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING#anyways#sage sonic#hatsune miku#i guess#whoof im scared to post this#or maybe im just exhausted#probably both :/
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Apesar
#artists on tumblr#criatvra#digital painting#moth#moth art#moon#moon art#stars#night#uh... hi#ive been away for so long lmao im sorry
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fanart for what may be my favorite fic of all time, Running Behind by @asidian! here's prompto enjoying all the foods from the fic beacuse he deserves it <3
#ffxv#prompto argentum#final fantasy xv#final fantasy 15#im going to be wild in the tags here for a moment. this fic makes me CRRRRRRRAZZZZZZEYYYYYYYYYYYYY#like barking snarling yowling tearing up dirt with my hands taking bites out of the drywall#its like old at this point but every couple of years i remember it and im like well here i go again! and reread it in a several hour sprint#and then scream and cry nad throw up cause i love it soooo so much#seriously i recommend it so sohard . honestly even if you dont like ffxv#ultimate hurt comfort fic checks off all my boxes 11/10 explodeing#oh yes also the art is here. yea i got carried away drawing the foods jfkdslhglks#hi author if you read these tags im sorry for pinging you about your fic that came out like. 7 years ago#but ive been meaning to make fanart for it for sooooo long cause i love it and i finally got around to it lol#koob art#digital art#im going to be pissed if theres a food i forgot to include lmao#anyways yea i <3 prompo my scrinkly winkly crunkly doo he deserfes happines. im going to disappear into the sunset now
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chinamatsu old image dump (If the style changes drastically within these, its because theyre from a long span of time)
^Not the finished version of this comic. I lost the finished version. Which seems to have happened more often than not with comics specifically.
Also, I often used their Chinese names, but I guess for this comic I had decided not to...?
#chinamatsu is one of my favorite aus ive been crazy about it for years....... i will do so many things with it its crazy#sub aus of aus. so fun#but i do especially love modern age au chinamatsu. because i love modern china and i work with kids.#osomatsu-san#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#osomatsu#karamatsu#choromatsu#ichimatsu#jyushimatsu#todomatsu#my art#chinamatsu#sorry about long post. ill tag that too.#long post#im really fond of this stuff........#simultaneously im a little shy.#also one of these images has yokais in it. funny.#i also have another version of the apartment where theyre wearing the modern clothes instead of the hkw clothes but this post is long enoug#anyway duansongs favorite game at the ripe age of 2 or whatever is 'get away from jiejie and go back in the restaurant and san gege gets#angry and puts her back outside. and you repeat. its very fun for her
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wip of iii
#sorry ive been mia so long#the first thing i've drawn in months and its more sleep token#i gotta make my way through all the boys#ive been travelling tho so thats nice!!#now that im back i gotta draw sleep token to keep the demons away lol#sleep token#sleep token iii#sleep token art#sleep token worship#st's resident lanky boy#i wish i could play bass like him he looks like hes having so much fun#im working on it#i'll play some sick st bass covers one day
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shє hσpєd hєr slíght trєmвlíng wαs nσt vísíвlє tσ phíllíp. ít hαd just вєєn sσ lσng. shє hαd míssєd hím, αchєd fσr hím, lσngєd fσr hím, prαчєd fσr hím- αnd hєrє hє wαs. чєt shє fєlt sσ much guílt, mσrє thαn hєr σwn rєlíєf thαt hє wαs αlívє αnd wєll. guílt thαt shє hαd strαчєd, guílt thαt shє hαd nσt cσmє вαck sσσnєr. surєlч hє wσuld undєrstαnd hєr σвlígαtíσn tσ thє mєrmαíd wσrld. surєlч hє cσuld… σr wσuld hє?
sчrєnα wαs nσ fσσl. shє cσuld píck up thє chαngє ín hís hєαrtвєαt, thє єvαsíσn σf hís єчєs. shє knєw. hє díd nσt hαvє tσ sαч ít. shє swαllσwєd, sílєnt. αftєr αll, ít hαd вєєn σvєr twσ чєαrs. phíllíp wαs єntítlєd tσ hαppínєss. shє cσuld nσt αnd wσuld nσt єхpєct tσ hαvє hím wαítíng fσrєvєr.
вєfσrє shє knєw ít, hє wαs plαcíng thє вíвlє ín hєr hαnds. shє hєld ít fσr α mσmєnt, hєr hєαd shαkíng ín α símplє 'nσ.' "í cσuld nσt," shє sαíd, mєєtíng - trчíng tσ mєєt - hís єчєs. "чσur kíndnєss ís αpprєcíαtєd. вut чσu dσ nσt hαvє tσ, nσt shσuld чσu. í sєє чσu hαvє σthєr … cσmmítmєnts."
hєr vσícє wαs sσft αnd lσw. nσt unkínd. shє knєw ín hєr hєαrt σf hєαrts thє místαkє wαs hєrs. чєt ít stíll stung… αnd mαчвє ít αlwαчs wσuld. phíllíp wαs nσt just αn σld lσvєr. hє wαs hєr fírst lσvє, hєr σnlч lσvє. hє hαd tαught hєr sσ much αвσut hєrsєlf- sєєíng hєrsєlf thrσugh thє єчєs σf sσmєσnє whσ rєαllч lσvєd hєr hєlpєd hєr sєpαrαtє hєrsєlf frσm thє fαmílíαl mσnstєr shє fєαrєd shє wσuld вєcσmє. lєαvíng hím hαd вєєn nєхt tσ ímpσssíвlє; lσsíng hím, wσrsє.
shє hαd lσσkєd. shє hαd scσurєd. thє sєα hαd чíєldєd nσthíng, αnd shє wαs nσt α crєαturє σf thє lαnd.
gєntlч, αnd hσpíng hєr smílє wαs kínd єnσugh, shє prєssєd thє вíвlє вαck íntσ hís hαnd. "thαnk чσu. вut ít wαs σnlч tσ rєmínd mє σf чσu, αnчwαч, αnd í вєlíєvє wє mαч вє вєst lєαvíng thíngs whєrє thєч αrє."
shє hσpєd hє dídn't nσtícє hєr vσícє trєmвlє.
shє hσpєd hє nσtícєd thαt shє dídn't rєαllч mєαn thαt.
tímє wαs α funnч thíng.
ít cσuld pαss, αnd lєαvє, αnd língєr. ít cσuld crєαtє dístαncє αnd чєt nєvєr fullч rєmσvє trαcєs σf whαt wαs. ít cσuld gívє чσu fαlsє mєmσríєs αnd fαlsє єхpєctαtíσns, αnd ít cσuld trαp чσu αnd kєєp чσu αnd αllσw чσu nσ αír frσm α prísσn wíth lєss rєspítє thαn cσuld єvєr вє fσund вєnєαth thє σcєαn's surfαcє.
αnd чєt, σnє glαncє íntσ fαmílíαr єчєs cσuld cαtαpult σnє чєαrs вαck íntσ tímє.
shє hαd cσmє tσ thє shσrє lσσkíng fσr α chαngє. hєr jσurnєч undєr thє sєα hαd tαkєn α tσll σn hєr. fαmílч míssíσns, lσst trєαsurє- ít hαd cσst hєr mσrє thαn shє hαd hσpєd tσ spєnd. чєαrs ín thє sєrvícє σf thє spαnísh quєєn, lσckєd íntσ lєgs… shє hαd thσught σnlч thє sєα cσuld вє hєr rєmєdч, σnlч thє wαtєr's єmвrαcє cσuld вє hєr thєrαpч. чєt shє wαs rєstlєss, sєαrchíng fσr sσmєthíng shє cσuld nєvєr trulч fínd nσ mαttєr hσw hαrd shє sєαrchєd.
sчrєnα hαd α gíft wíth lαnguαgєs. ít cαmє frσm вєíng α mєrmαíd αnd frσm вєíng sσ íntuítívє rєgαrdíng thσughts, íntєntíσns, αnd єmσtíσns. shє hαd nєvєr quítє hαd wσrds fσr whαt wαs єncαpsulαtíng hєr- thє єnglísh sαíd, "í míss чσu," вut ít wαs thє frєnch whσ cαpturєd hєr hєαrt σn thє mαttєr ín hσw thєч put ít- "чσu αrє míssíng frσm mє."
вut shє wαs surє hє cσuld nєvєr fσrgívє hєr dístαncє.
tσσ much tímє undєrwαtєr hαd mαdє hєr fσrgєtful. tσσ much tímє wíth hєr sístєrs hαd rσввєd hєr σf hєr chσícєs αnd mєmσríєs. ít wαs nσt hєr chσícє- shє hαd nσt wαntєd tσ fσrgєt fσr α mσmєnt. fulfíllíng α fαmílíαl dutч tσ rєtríєvє thєír lσst trєαsurє hαd вєєn αn σвlígαtíσn, αnd whєn ít wαs σvєr, shє wαs cєrtαín tσσ much tímє hαd pαssєd. hαd phíllíp fσrgσttєn hєr cσmplєtєlч? wσuld hє єvєr lσvє hєr αgαín?
shє símplч wαs αfrαíd tσ fínd σut.
чєt.
hєr вrєαth cαught ín hєr thrσαt.
shє hαd вєєn rєαchíng frσ α вσσk ín thє mαrkєt, α вíвlє σf αll thíngs- mєmσríєs, cσmfσrt - αnd hαd nσt quítє lσσkєd whєrє shє wαs gσíng--
untíl hє crαshєd íntσ hєr, tσσ, αnd thєír єчєs mєt, thє dístαncє вєtwєєn thєm fínαllч cєαsíng. hєr hαnds trєmвlєd; shє nєαrlч drσppєd thє вíвlє. thє shσpcαrt kєєpєr snαtchєd ít σut σf hєr hαnds, вut shє wαs unαffєctєd. hєr whσlє wσrld hαd pαusєd, lσckєd íntσ α fαmílíαr fαcє вєfσrє hєr.
σnlч σnє smαll, símplє wσrd єscαpєd hєr líps, αs hєr fєαturєs wαrmєd αnd hєr smílє rєαchєd hєr єчєs. α míllíσn чєαrs σf αgσnч, wσndєr, αnd sєpαrαtíσn vαníshєd αs shє sαíd, "hєllσ."
#i missed rping with you too! so so so much#you write so beautifully#im sorry ive been away so long#been hoping to get here on my days off and life was an interesting mix of very hard but also very good the past few weeks#i had a painful rough patch and to be honest I got some prayer; God healed me (thank GOD) and then I was away for the weekend#but today all i could think of was getting on and replying xD#and i am hoping to reply to the ooc messages too if i dont fall asleep lol#its like 10 and i have been up since 5 with not much sleep last night#but this is so worth itttt#anyway yes project as much as you need. let s make this a thread of healing in every sense <33333#you know i love you. do what you need to <3#iseekbutonething#not me over here crying over the preciousness of our muses
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adhd comix
#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired#like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability#and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors#i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working#isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol#if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you#need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid#im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher#to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll#go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms#AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis#theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were#comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run#and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make#a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need#to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh#yapping#vent
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@fishshit I consider your post canon so I made it
Edit: I FOUND IT
Edit 2: Yakov trauma
Edit 3: I lied, here's the design rant
Edit 4: Updated design!
#i cant find the original post T_T#im going to search your entire blog if i have to#i will find it#anyway in the mean time heres something that started as a sketch and then went completely out of control and i am not sorry#i am beyond repentance you could say#it took me at least three tries to spell that word right on the illustration and english can go die#viktor deserves to be dramatic as fuck#yakovs aura was made of retirement papers when viktor showed him this#especially when viktor added that “oh by the way ill be wearing a big ass luxury designer fur coat” and then skated away#have fun deciphering the meaning behind all my design choices#for once i will not rant about them#ruins the fun#but if youre interested i do have a breakdown ready at your leasure#im sorry ive been listening to the song for hours now while drawing this and it just fits viktor so well i cannot#this is canon in my heart#arom antix art#arom antix#art#yuri on ice#yoi#yuri on ice fanart#yoi fanart#fanart#viktor nikiforov#also i am so sorry the mukbang comic is taking so long i swear i havent forgotten#some of it is done but its far from finished but itll happen#im going to finish it and you can quote me on that and come to my house and whack me with a newspaper until i do it if you want to#collab#religious imagery
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New game interest unlocked
(crow in bottom right belongs to @patchwork-crow-writes)
#ramarl#phantasy star online#long tag warning lol i rambled#so i was introduced to phantasy star online#i think its safe to say i really enjoy the game#thank you mr crow for showing me this game :D i have new creatures to scribble now#there shall be more of these doodles#i promise you that#meant to post this wayyyyy earlier today but uh#my car broke down :') ....again :')#last week it wouldn't turn on and the headlights weren't working so we were like ''ok this is a battery issue and i need a new one''#because jumping the car didnt fix it#so we took my old battery to a shop and they tested its charge before showing us which new one we should get#but the battery had charge???????? so we went back home to troubleshoot#and then found the hooks(?idk what they're called) that connected the battery to the car had something corroded on them#so we grabbed a can of coke and scrubbed away#hooked the battery back up and bam car was working#so the issue was those hooks#until two days ago when my car didnt work again#looked at the battery again and the hooks came loose; tightened them up and bam car working again#and now at this point I'm scared to go anywhere cause what if i get stranded on my own??#so this morning i said ''alright I'm gonna drive myself to church just to be sure that my car works''#AND WOULD YOU GUESS WHAT HAPPENED#at this point i just wish the damn battery was dead and that i could replace it and move on from this#i know they're a bit pricey but jesus this is exhausting#but i can't just buy a new battery if im not sure that's the actual problem because then I'd have a battery and nothing to do with it#i hate having a car sometimes i just want a bus system#or a jeep#but preferably a bus system#sorry rambles thats a long way of saying i didnt post this earlier because ive been working on my car lol
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Im gonna need your like, whole musical rec list, bc literally every song you have posted has not flopped once, give me your faves i need to eat them
OUGHHH YOUVE UNLOCKED THE BEAST ARGSHHFHJDF....
in the interest of making this both easily accessible but not stretching the dashboard, im embedding bandcamp links when i can, otherwise linking to youtube when unavailable
in no particular order, inclusion based mostly on what im still actively into LMAO but also just things you should give a go at least once:
list of artist recommendations
zeal and ardor: described as a mix of african-american spirituals and black metal. try devil is fine, you aint coming back, wake of a nation or church burns
bloodywood: indian folk metal, literally nobody is doing it like them. recently featured in monkey man (2024), try chakh le, yaad or dana dan
stromae: if youve never heard any of his songs WHAT ARE YOU DOING..... incredible lyricist, described as a blend of hip hop/electronic. papaoutai made the rounds on tumblr a while back, but you should also try santé and l'enfer
alamat: pinoy pop. a youtube commenter described them as sounding like 2nd gen kpop which probably also explains why i took a shine to them LMAO, notable for the amount of filipino culture on display and the diversity thereof (singing in different languages, themes). first heard them thru kasmala either here or on twitter lmao, try aswang or maharani
andy bull: alt-pop. a lot of poppy and upbeat songs with a melancholic undertone imo. an australian artist, try it's all connected or keep on running
cosmo sheldrake: electronic, wikipedia also lists him as folktronica and baroque pop. you may have heard the song come along on an apple ad - hes known for sampling sounds from nature. pliocene for example features sounds from endangered ecosystems.
if you like cosmo sheldrake, you might like hidden orchestra (electronica, ambient). also making use of field recordings, i really love the archipelago mixtape but its a hard sell at about an hour lmao. if you like the following song then i implore you to give it a go
son lux: experimental, you may have heard from them in the entire soundtrack for everything everywhere all at once (!!!!!). try dangerous, dream state (brighter night) or live another life.
ammar 808: electronic/world fusion, also behind bargou 08 (folk rock you should also listen to). i just cant get ain essouda out of my head, but i also love geeta duniki
miyavi: j-rock, used to be a visual kei artist. these days he might be known more for anime openings like flashback (kokkoku) or other side (id:invaded), or for work like snakes in arcane (or actually inspiring and voicing a character in it), but ive always been partial to his early work like sukkyanen myv or ashita, genki ni naare
songs/albums
'threads' album by now, now (indie rock).
'dream to make believe' or 'what to do when you are dead' by armor for sleep (rock, emo). here's the truth about heaven from the latter album
i already posted about it but denzel curry's 13lood 1n + 13lood out mixx (rap, trap) is extremely good
the guilty gear soundtracks and im so serious im not fucking joking. different kinds of rock and metal and all sorts of influences put in, a genuine labor of love. xrd and earlier games are mainly instrumental with some vocal tracks (try give me a break or big blast sonic), while strive pretty much always includes vocals (of course i need to rec rock parade, but also try requiem. its genuinely hard for me to pick and choose lmao)
not an album and not an artist
coke studio pakistan and coke studio bangla knocking it out of the fucking park, im particularly a fan of harkalay and kotha koiyo na. you could try the other coke studios too (tamil, india, etc)
triple j like a version is when the radio station triple j brings in artists and has them do a cover of a song (artists choice). i liked denzel curry's cover of bulls on parade and flume's shooting stars (video for this one is incredible, man had a vision you just have to stick it out), but you get a lot of interesting interpretations like the wombats' running up that hill, gordi's in the end or, infamously. the wiggles' elephant
ive DEFINITELY missed out some, but thats what my music tag is for LMAO i hope someone discovers something they like here!!!!
#ive tried to include a mix of songs that covers their range..#includes the ones i like but ALSO is easiest on newcomers#particularly with the metal bands LMAO#eg church burns isnt really my favorite on the album but i remember it being the song i started with#specifically because someone in the reviews said it would be the easiest to start with. and they were right#also miyavi HAD to be here ive been a fan since GRADE SCHOOL#if ive recommended an album and not the artist its probably because im not a huge fan of their other stuff LMAO either cos#theyve moved away from what ive recommended stylistically (armor for sleep or now now)#or i havent gotten to a lot of the other stuff/its not my thing (denzel curry. sorry)#i liked the song ricky but a lot of the discography just isnt what i listen to rip#honestly it was so hard to choose AHSDUSDF i tried to choose artists that i really think others should listen to#but yeah obviously some are just there because. /i/ like them lol#wait not me reading the ask properly again and seeing that the focus was MY faves ASHDSDFSDHFBSDf#i got too excited at the prospect of recommending music#sonochinosodomy#ask#Bandcamp#music#obviously this couldnt be Everything... but ive done my best#to pare it down.............#long post
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