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michsmeesh · 6 months ago

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*quietly crawls out of my pit*

ohhh hiii hello i'm alive by the way

#im sorry for disappearing i really am #i just got overwhelmed from work and school and hHHHH #i literally have barely been drawing these past few months because. no time #but i'm trying to work on a little something right now because art is my heart and soul and i want to create stuff again #i also have a long weekend (for the first time in months) so. time to draw #still into rdr btw...

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arsenicflame · 6 months ago

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Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?

#ive been super curious about this because people seem to have really strong opinions on the queue! so many people seem to HATE it #but i love using the queue! i dont really know exactly why i like it so much- i started using in like... 2016 and its a fundamental part of #my tumblr experience now. i think i started off just using it for offline hours so id hit most my american mutuals (/ for aes posts)#but these days basically everything goes in my queue (cept time sensitive things & like. current hype and original posts-#anything 'normal' posting is in the queue)#idk it feels. nice to me! i like to spread out my posting and not rb 30 things in half an hour and then disappear for the rest of the day #esp since my spaces are so circular- the same post runs on my dash a dozen times minimum. and i get to put it on ur dash a week late!!!#and its so nice to have small interactions with mutuals in incompatible timezones; to open up my notifications in the morning #and go: oh! my friends were here <3 #its such a Part of the tumblr experience for me i dont think i could ever truly change now. maybe switch to timed queueing #but my availability changes so much i prefer to just. know i guess #but (i am so sorry for all that) im curious about how other people feel!!!!!! itd be so interesting to hear abt why people do/do not like i #i know some people like the experience of spamming and going. some people think it makes this seem to much like influencing or whatever #everyone has their reasons and i want to know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#nyxtalks #poll #queue #no see answers option because you must fall into one of these

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klanced · 1 year ago

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Keith walking into the holding cell greeting all the regulars by name while Lance is sobbing lamenting that his life is over and his future is ruined (they were like. Trespassing or some shit he’s going to be fine)

lance: (actively dry heaving in the corner, on the verge of a panic attack as he imagines having a permanent record)(actually what does a permanent record even look like?)(omg is he going to have to go to COURT? like in JUDGE JUDY?)

keith: remy, this is lance. lance, this is remy, she’s my favorite alcoholic :)

#voltron #klance #honestly I imagine they got caught trespassing while ghost hunting #if they’re in Texas then they will most likely get a full on misdemeanor on their record. Texas is very big on property rights.#trespassing can quickly elevate to criminal charges in texas it is actually very serious. do not trespass in texas.#meanwhile in Maine trespassing can be just an infraction & not added to your record #like sure they're teenagers so they could get their records sealed or expunged when they're 18. but like. the garrison would know. not good #sorry i just like talking about the law #speaking of which let me go on a tangent #i do think keith frequently gets charged with trespassing. at his own shack in the desert.#and so now he is Really good at juvenile law specifically because he is constantly arguing with cops #keith: this is not trespassing. my dad owned this property & he died unmarried without a will.#keith: i am literally his child and i inherited this land after his death YOU CAN'T ARREST ME FOR TRESPASSING ON MY OWN PROPERTY.#cop: okay well the house is all burned down it's a safety hazard #keith: I AM NOT IN THE HOUSE I AM IN THE SHACK WHICH MEETS MINIMUM SAFETY REQUIREMENTS. GET FUCKED.#cop: okay but you're out after curfew--#keith: is this a game to you? drag me in front of that judge i DARE you. you want to take the ORPHAN to court over CURFEW?#keith: you want to arrest my parents? WHAT PARENTS? everyone in this county knows me as the son of a hero firefighter.#keith: a hero firefighter who died in the line of duty btw. in case you forgot. since i'm an ORPHAN who has no one who CARES about CURFEW.#keith: my dad is dead my mom is gone my brother disappeared in space im 0 for 3 parents-wise. drag me before a judge. make my fucking night #sometimes i answer an ask or make a post specifically so i can do my own separate thing in the tags #i just like talking about law. i'm so excited for law school u guys #keith #lance #lance: (freaking out)#keith: (relaxed because he knows a really good lawyer who specializes in juvenile law)#shitpost #ask #anonymous #otp: we are a good team

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mr-urple · 3 months ago

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Sometimes I hate having the latest timezone because I get really insecure at night but everyone's asleep so I can't ask for a hug from my family and god it kind of sucks

#It's nice being up the latest because then I can somewhat ensure everyone else sleeps at peace (SOMEWHAT)#but god sometimes I wish I could be the one who's wished a good night after letting out my late night thoughts #not condemning anyone btw I just #Idk I'm gonna make vent art like usual it's the only thing i have #sorry if im worrying anyone im fine i swear i just need to calm the fuck down #why am i like this im so sorry everyone maybe i should just leave #i dont do anything good for anyone anyways im not that important all i do is just make everyone worry about me #i dont really do anything to help anyone im so useless im so pathetic maybe i should just delete my account and disappear #fuck im venting again i gotta shut the fuck up #im sorry #im so sorry ignore me please im probably gonna delete this in the morning or soemthign im just being stupid like usual #maybe this is why my dad always calls me a useless retard

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money-and-dandellions · 9 months ago

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continuation to this post:

Meg who unintentionally and absolutely illogically gets worried when Lester gets sick after the ghoul incident and he doesn't really understand why would she do that

until he does

#meg will fidget with literally anything and stare at him non stop #and ask him so much questions which is strange (why would she ask so much questions; why she asks him to make a stop; why she stares at hi #as if he will disappear; why she frowns so much at him? he is fine?)#so she asks him questions OR doesn't ask them at all just looking at him because he is tired and sick and how for the fuck he i—#—what if he will die? she can't lose him not again he almost died je was so pale she can't lose him again its going to he her fault—#and lester doesn't really understand why she seems so unnerved but tries so hard not to show it until he stops to yk stretch or smthng and #and practically blanks out and all he can hear is his little sister's voice why it is so small why it sounds so scared is she crying why—#why would she cry he is fine why is his cheeks wet ow that hurts and then he gets conscious and realises after a pause what had happened an #and sees meg that is so so scared and oh gods im sorry i didn't mean to scare you whats wrong why are you crying—#oh #and lester will get it after some time and try to make sure that she is okay that my dear meg is not your fault i am fine just a #a little tired and its okay shhhh #i am a sucker for when lester is sick af #the author is also sick with harsh flu is had fever (39°C) for 2 days straight but now is getting better #toa #lester papadopoulos #meg mccaffrey #sunflower siblings #love them #and they love each other #platonically

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deerlow · 1 year ago

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Preston: Behold, the fields in which I grow my fucks! Lay thine eyes upon it, and thou shalt see that it is barren!

#camp camp #cc #incorrect quotes #preston goodplay #preston camp camp #cc preston #preston cc #camp camp preston #so guys… how we feeling about that camp camp news?#personally #im glad something new’s coming #but man #i am kinda upset about the change in voice actors #like i’m sorry but no one can be as good as michael’s max #also my feelings about diversity in voice casts is mixed #bc in voice acting imo it shouldn’t really matter what the person’s rave ir ethnicity is because you’re looking for a VOICE #but that’s just me #anyway time to disappear for a year again lmao

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w3bgrl · 8 months ago

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bubble message 240313

artist billie <3 10:14 PM

my friends!! it’s been a while huh?

artist billie <3 10:16 PM

i’m so sorry i haven’t said hello recently! things have been crazy for me as of late.

where has the time gone? the days go by so fast as you get older…

i sound like my own grandma lol

artist billie <3 10:19 PM

i just wanted to check in real quick and let stay know i am alive and well!!

photo evidence ^^^

artist billie <3 10:21 PM

thank you so much for your continued support 🩷 your notifications warm my heart every day!

i will be much more active soon! i promise!

i hope!!!!!

#♡ billie #billie.bubble #skz oc #stray kids oc #stray kids 9th member #stray kids #stray kids imagines #skz headcanons #kpop added member #kpop oc #kpop addition #kai note! genuinely im sorry for just disappearing life has been…#yk….hard as usual #but i am really trying to get something out soon! thank u for the interaction always!

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famewolf · 24 days ago

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i will genuinely never understand my dad!!! and i feel guilty for being confused and angered by him!!!! i don't know what he wants and i doubt i ever will

i guess he's known that he's had cancer for over a month now but never told me. and i dont know if it's because he wanted me to reach out/pay attention to him, as he's done in the past or if he just didn't think to, or if it's some other third mysterious reason that i can't think up

we aren't close since he was rarely in my life but i feel like that's something you tell your kid.

and the only reason i found out is because i went to go check and see why he hadn't replied to my message about asking if he wanted to hang out for the thousandth time without getting a response

#[static]#he tells me 'kid im gonna change i miss you i love you we need to hang out more im sorry that i wasnt around'#and then when we try and make plans it's like pulling teeth to get him to follow through #and sure there's been a couple of times in my life where ive had to back out of plans with him but like .....#we're talking less times than i have fingers on one hand in 30 years lol meanwhile he disappears for years without a word regularly #i thought we got somewhere last year when i decided to reach out after i stopped talking to him #we're both adults and we're busy but i somehow manage to have regular scheduled dnd games with 4 other adults twice a month #and i cant get my biological father who claims to want to know me reply to a message #and i know i know i know he's got his own demons and battles but i s2g it's just Frustrating because i dont know what he wants from me #i dont fuck with indecision and i dont like not knowing where i stand with someone #i know that he wont reach out to people in hopes they 'care enough' about him to do it #but like dude .......... SHOW THAT YOU CARE ABOUT ME TOO WTF #i want to be unendingly compassionate to him since he's gotta figure out what he's gonna do regarding his throat cancer #but like ..... what am i supposed to do with this lmao he saw my message and didn't reply and maybe he's busy #but he also didnt reply to any of my other messages asking to make time to see each other #but then he called me this summer to see if i was in town when he was there (and i wasn't and it was out of the blue)#he also posted a lowkey transphobic comedy sketch on his page which is weird because that's not really his politics but also he's old #and i can just hear exactly what he'd say about it if i tried to even bring it up to him ever #idk what he wants from me but i sometimes think even he doesn't know #i think we missed our time to mend things into something that makes sense #anyways sorry for the vent into the void i just got new information and dealing with stuff about my dad is always difficult #i have rarely felt wanted by him and have never felt seen for who i am either

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laulo821 · 1 year ago

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funfact! klark is in fact a big boy, being 190cm tall (6'3). but due to his horrible posture he towers much lower as shown in this pretty accurate graph

but also. since he always stands like that. he also WALKS like that. so enjoy that little stance gif i made of him. look at him!! prancing!! where is he going...

honestly it kinda be scary to see him go about this way but hes just used to it. walking 24/7 on tiptoes. standing normally is too hurty to the backy

#art #lore #tenyoxin #klark barbel #i also have a graph containing (too much) details about his neck piercing too if anyone wants it!!#yes the pointy things on the sides of his neck is a piercing #am i so insane about him that i do graphs about him? yes.#hed be scared of my stalking.#also!! his tail is disappearing so you can see his back leg properly :] also it should move yknow according to his movement but honk mimimi #funfact he always keeps his tail hovering above the ground. hes just used to it #else he dont really use it voluntarily. but very useful for his balance (the reason he can so efficiently walk on tiptoes 24/7 actually)#ANYWAYS SORRY IM RAMBLING IN THE TAGS #I COULD GO ON FOR HOURS ABOUT HIM #THATS JUST WHAT LOVE DOES TO YOU BABY

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qqqqqqqqqqq0 · 4 months ago

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i've been having some trouble falling asleep lately

#art #i'll be yapping in the tags #its not that im depressed or anything. it is the opposite actually #ive been using this medicine for quite some time. and it made all my negative emotions disappear #“oh wow huh but isnt it great you don't feel bad anymore”. this is the same thing my psychiatrist told me when we were discussing this topic #in hindsight it was kinda silly of her to say. i can't believe i pay a ridiculous amount of money per session just to hear shit like that #but she's cute and im a pathetic homosexual who'll seethe at the sight of other specialists like a beaten dog so I will let it slide i guess #we see each other twice a year anyway and all i need from her is the prescription for happy pills. anyway the happypillen #i would fight god if it means i can use stertraline for the rest of my life. thanks to it i can and i do live #but I don't really feel like myself anymore. do you get what i mean #the things that have been giving me anxiety attacks or flashbacks not so long ago? i feel almost nothing about it at this momet #it still haunts me to this day but the intensity of my feelings and emotions does not reach even 1/5 of what it was before #i do not want to disclose more specific topics so i will use a simple example. i used to be afraid of dogs #the fear was so severe that the mere sight of the tiniest little barfing creature was enough for me to freeze #now i can pass one without any problem. the fear i feel today is nothing more than a shadow of bygone times (something i do out of habit)#but i guess this example is not objective enough since my close irl friend has a dog that i became fond of #im still pretty sure this dog of her is capable of biting my ass off if necessary but im not afraid of it #because fear is not an option in this brain of mine at this moment #i don't feel any anxiety sadness or anger anymore. even if something close to it begins to rise in me it shuns down within a few minutes #i can't even cry. i am craving emotions that i was so eagerly trying to dispose of back then #i feel the most mentally stable I have ever been and at the same time i feel pretty much dead.#perhaps i just got used to the fact that sorrow accompanied me for a very long time and i should learn to live without it #perhaps sorrow is just as important as happiness and its absence is a mere side effect of the happy pills #and i have to put up with it in order to have a functional brain #perhaps we people are never happy with what we have in our hands. also i hate drawing #one's can tell since the picture i attached is raw as fuck #but even despite my praised mental stability if i were to stay alone with it even for a minute longer i would go insane #next time i will draw something lighter and cuter. like my favorite kpop boy or fortnite. maybe in the next century #thanks for coming to my tedtalk. bye #i made a typo in the word “sertraline” but im too lazy to fix it i would fight god for you but i will not do this im sorry zoloft

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inevitablestars · 5 months ago

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i just want to know what im doing wrong

#sorry im fucking stupid and awful #id fix it if i knew how #instead i can just quit that fixes it too #but if anyone wants to tell me why my writing sucks and is awful that would be appreciated #<- i am genuinely asking please tell me what im doing wrong i cant keep doing this #what will get people to read and enjoy what i write ill do anything it just hurts putting hours and real feelings into all of this #into hundreds of thousands of words for nothing for one person to read and thats it thats all its ever been #ive posted regularly every week and that doesnt work i post when i have chapters read sporadically i talk about it on tumblr but nothing #i try to write things that i think people will like and no one does i try and try and try and nothing works #no one even pays attention to me at all i really could just disappear from here and it wouldnt matter #no one would wonder why my fics stop updating no one would miss me #i should delete this and just go #im sorry #this is why no one likes me

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hiemaldesirae · 5 months ago

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i need to kill myself (re-experiencing debilitating crush i did not ask for)

#sorry for pining on a friday morning i just need to talk somewhere #im so bad at emotional vulnerability hhaaah #what am i even doung. i wsnt tot ell hjm so much but #i would sooner simply disappear from the face of the earth than ever make him uncomfortable or make him feel obligated to put up with me #i really. i dont want ot talk to him but also its the one thing i want to do all day every day #anyway i slice it. he wouldn't understand anyway that id be satisfied eith whatever sort of intimacy i can get from him #so its not like it even matters when ill only ever be an arms length away #ah. i want to send him sunflowers and whatever fucking household appliance he needs today #this sucks. so much #who in the world would willingly choose to ever fall in love #ran rambles

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smallest-moon · 1 year ago

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hey bestie didnt you just say that you were friends with the administrator of the fortress of meropide? couldnt you just uh..... ask wriothesley??? like "hey babygiiiiirl mind if i send my friends over to check on that dude whose magical girl transformation i interrupted in a very cool way and is probably blowing your head to fight him? thanksssssss xoxo <33"

#or am i being stupid?#i mean hes still sending a third party and im sure wriothesley is worried a “prisioner” of his disappeared so idk #its not like the court of justice is intervening since its us just investigating righhhht?? do we really need to get falsely accused. AGAIN #sorry yall i'll get back on this when i have more info #genshin impact spoilers #fontaine spoilers #genshin impact #neuvillette

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new-haven-psych-ward · 1 year ago

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Kamen Rider Geats episode 38 poorly summarized via memes with as little context as possible: