#im so sorry... i have messages from july

[bebecue]

knock knock u there?

HI oh my god i pulled a hyungwon and forgot my password

[freshxsturniolo]

JULY 4TH PT3 - chris sturniolo x reader

pt1 pt2

you pull up outside the triplets house later than evening, admittedly feeling a lot fresher than you had this morning. after your first initial texts with chris, you ended up falling asleep for another hour or so before being awoken by jake, who was begging you and tara to help him clean their apartment. you reluctantly got out of bed, but after a coffee (or two), you felt the movment had helped you come alive slightly, but in and out was still the only thing you wanted to eat after nibbling on a slice of toast all day.

keeping your date a secret however, you should have known was not going to happen. when you annoyed your departure from the three boys house finally, you were met by a load of stares. in their hungover states they were all planning on watching movies and order takeout, so you had no choice but to tell them.

"im meeting a friend" you had said when jake had given you an eye. you notice the smirk from your best friend tara as the words leave your mouth but you do your best to avoid eye contact, but a smirk comes over jakes face immediately.

"his name chris by any chance?" he says.

you eyes divert to tara immediately, and she holds her hands up in surrender. "dont look at me" she laughs, and you cant help but chuckle as you turn around to leave, knowing that tara would likely fill the 3 boys in, but as you leave you're only met with a chorus of claps and woops.

"so annoying" you mutter, which they hear as they all erupt into laughter.

you spend the next hour at your own place, panicking about what to wear. you're dying to text chris but the lack of communication since your earlier messages felt exciting, making you giddy almost. so you settle for a comfortable pair of shorts with a baggy tee, your favourite earrings and a small subtle amount of make up with some lip gloss. giving yourself a once over in the mirror, you smile before putting your converse on and head to your car.

so now you sit here, waiting for chris to emerge from his house, you lean across to look in the mirror and apply another layer of lipgloss just to keep yourself busy before you drum your fingers across your steering wheel, turning up the song you were playing through the bluetooth before you finally see him walking down the driveway.

you smile as you take in him in. sweatpants and a black tee, casual but somehow cool, hair so clearly freshly washed. his stubble from yesterday now gone. and he gives you a smirk as soon as he sees you looking, but you already feel so comfortable in his presence so smirk back, causing him to laugh and shake his head. when he finally gets to your passenger side and open the door, you bend your head to see it.

“your carriage awaits. in and out was it?”

he ignores you, gets in the car, shuts the door, and then finally swivels his head to look at you.

“you’re worse than matt. and i’ve been in the car 3 seconds”

you laugh, throwing your head back causing a chuckle to escape his lips.

“sorry” you say, looking towards him again. “i couldn’t resist. but seriously, in and out?”

“i’m starving” he mutters, and you nod in agreement with a smile on your face, putting the car back in drive and setting off down the street.

the nearest in and out is only a 5 minute drive away, and you spend those 5 minutes chatting about the night before. laughing about certain moments you had forgotten about till he has bought them up. by the time you pull up for food, your stomach hurts from laughing and your fear your mascara has likely leaked down your face. turning off the ignition, you lean to look into the rear view mirror to double check, and you become aware how dangerously close you are to chris. he’s quite as you wipe at your under eyes, and when you finally move back to your original position and turn to him, he’s smiling.

“you’re beautiful, ya know?”

“chris” you laugh, suddenly feeling flustered, your cheeks going a tinge of red.

he smiles as he looks at you, before looking out towards the restaurant. it’s busy, you notice. the line is long and there’s people sat on almost every table. even from sitting in your car and looking through the window you can hear the hustle and bustle, people likely in the same hungover state as you.

“i got an idea” chris says, and you snap your head back to look at him.

“go on?”

he looks back at the resturant one more time, before looking to you again.

“why don’t we get it to take out, and come back to mine? we can eat on the sofa, we can watch a movie …”

your hearts racing at the thought. truthfully, a night in sounded a lot better than sitting in a stuffy burger place and you tried to keep calm as you answered him.

“will you brothers mind?”

chris smiles. “they’re not in.”

you look at him for a second, his plump lips all of a sudden looking super inviting, but you smile.

“okay.”

“yeah?”

“yeah” you smile.

“perfect. come on” he says now, opening up the car door and stepping outside.

you follow his actions, grabbing your phone and keys and stepping outside, locking the car and putting all your belongings in your pocket before you walk around the car to meet chris who’s waiting for you on the sidewalk. when you reach him you smile, and you realise in that moment you had never formally even said hello, so you smirk.

“hi” you say, and his eyes divert straight to your lips.

“hi” he mutters, and that force is back. you can feel it, he can feel it, and then he finally takes a step towards you.

“this is possibly the least romantic place in the world, but can i kiss you?” he whispers, and you let out a laugh as you step closer to him too.

“you don’t even need to ask” you whisper back, and it takes him no time at all to press his lips to yours. soft, gentle, just a peck that lingers for a couple of seconds before he pulls away again. you can feel your heart beat racing as you look back into his eyes, before a laugh escapes you both.

suddenly, your appetite for food is completely gone and been replaced by something else.

TAGLIST : @spencerstits @chrissturnsss @slut4chriss @valkatriee @sturnsjtop @viiiwwwee @gwennysturniolo @melanch0lybby @sturnioloblues

[anemoiashifts]

permashifting & sv!c!dal ideation & early shiftok.

im so fucking scared to post this. tw.

ive been in the shifting community for four/five years now & most of my time was watching quietly from the sidelines up until last july when i made my shiftok account. i want to preface this by saying these are my experiences & observations & ive always been pretty firm on my stance. ive spoke about this (i think) twice on tiktok & will now give some updated insight. i don’t expect everything to agree with me but please don’t jump down my throat for saying what im going to. i respect you, please respect me. cool? yes? okay !!

there are similarities between sv!c!dal ideation & permashifting & im so so sick of people hardly taking about it. what re-sparked this interest in the topic was i saw someone make a video on their views towards the topic & i do resonate with their points heavily. this was the only video ive ever seen of anyone making a video like this minus myself & it’s been long overdue.

to clarify, im not against permashifting completely im against how permashifting is spoken about & how it’s promoted. it’s wayyy too casual & ive seen a lot of triggering things in my comment sections / confession submissions. i used to get about five of these or so (ppl saying they wanted to unalive themselves) a week when i was actively doing them but they’ve since kinda died down. if, me, an account with (at the time) ~15,000 tiktok followers were seeing this, i cannot imagine the kind of messages those 100,000 followers shiftokers were getting.

another thing that i haven’t spoke about too much is the sv!c!de notes id receive. i got about two or three of them. ignoring the overstepping of boundaries & oversharing, my heart goes out to those who submitted those. i think shifting came at a time when everyone was bored & cooped up inside & shiftokers could’ve unknowingly preyed upon people’s loneliness & vulnerability. i remember people could say things like “im k!11!ng myself tonight so I’ll wake up in my dr” & the fact that was even a thing is so beyond horrific. im gonna put some confessions ive gotten in the past just to show you what i was seeing daily at one point. scroll a ways down if you don’t want to to see. sorry ! idk how to blur it but would if i found out how to.

i wanta take a sec to call out all the adult shifters who neglected to speak about this.

i hear people say “but if they didn’t discover shifting they wouldn’t still be here” or “it buys people more time”. i get it. really, i do & i don’t think that’s a bad thing. what i do think the bad thing really is, is the adult shifting creators who enable the kind of talk & push that shifting is this other option without telling people to take care of themselves in this reality. the mental well-being & safety of people should always be put first, especially with spaces involving a lot of children when most of the information comes from the mouths of adults. shifting was popularized by tiktok at the height of c0v!d & everyone was arguably at their lowest. i think the timing in which shifting was introduced helped shiftok get popular at the time (along with harry potter trending, of course) & a lot of ppl saw it as a trend to latch onto & leech off of to grow a platform. i think some people totally — probably unintentionally — took advantage of peoples desperation for an escape for profit. that’s what I’ve felt with some former / earlier shifting creators, anyways. that’s why shiftokers are seen as these figures that were/are looked up to so heavily because they’ve gotten something that people with destructive situations are so desperate for & i think that’s really diabolical & sad.

this post isn’t to shit on shiftokers completely, not the modern shiftokers anyway. i have some really cool mutuals who genuinely post insightful content. i think tiktok has gotten a little better with some bumps every now & then but it’s not as bad as 2020.

i don’t think shiftokers are doing this intentionally. & who knows ? maybe they’re are afraid their audience will get upset or off put or they’ll lose support but the longer we put the conversation off the more people’s mental health will worsen. whatever the reason may be, keeping numbers up or getting “canceled” isn’t worth it at the risk of lives of children. it’s long overdue.

then the idea of escapism comes in. escapism isn’t bad. arguably, most things we do are escapism; reading, scrolling on tumblr. its how we look & obsess & look at that escapism. that’s when it becomes unhealthy. the consept of shifting as an escape from something like depression can exacerbate those feelings of because people do struggle to actually shift. that state of “waiting” to shift can be extremely difficult if you’re not struggling mentally, so if you’re struggling mentally on top of trying to shift without success? also throwing being a minor onto that.

anyways this post was all over the place because i could talk about this for hours. i have no idea if this will ever have a place on tiktok or if I’ll even end up posting this to tumblr. this was very ramble-y but a very important ramble imo. i tried to organize & keep this short to the best of my ability. feel free to agree, disagree but these are my poorly organized thoughts.

a little reminder to enjoy the journey & process of shifting rather then hyper focusing on “the end” of it. take a break if you find you self only thinking about shifting and not doing stuff you gotta do here or if your making yourself sick over it. it isn’t the end of the world if you don’t shift. i believe everyone is here for a reason & i can promise you everything will work out in the end.

to those who resonate with mental health struggles & shifting, my heart goes out to you & only with you the best. be gentle with yourself — that goes for all of you.

[akookminsupporter]

https://www.tumblr.com/akookminsupporter/754125564527493120/im-pretty-sure-the-pre-release-is-not-going-to-be?source=share

I'm sorry i honestly dont get why you're mad at me? i'm not saying that its what i want or what i would like just that in comparision with set me free for ex it doesnt look like its the same thing

I really like your blog and your opinions so im not going to take it to heart or anything but i really didnt get the reaction kkkk maybe you misunderstood me

Alright, anon, I'm going to break down everything I found wrong with your message and explain why I was so offended.

I'm pretty sure the pre-release is not going to be something official.

From the outset, your message confused me. What do you mean by it not being official? It's literally part of the album that will be released in July. It’s part of the official album schedule. It was OFFICIALLY announced by the agency, so I don't understand what more official you want it to be, or what more official it could or should be.

I could be wrong, but it’s written as track video and not MV, there’s no teaser, no photo, no preview, so I think it’s only a video.

Anon, it could very well be a letter and it would still deserve respect. It deserves the very least that these companies have to offer in such cases. Jungkook’s song, for example, the one he released for FESTA, didn’t have an MV and yet it received much more than Jimin’s song, which is part of his album, has had so far. Namjoon’s pre-release for his album had much more than Jimin’s has had, MV or not.

The actual song will only be available on streaming when the album comes out.

Honestly, anon, this doesn’t make sense either. If this were the case, why release it nearly a month before the album if they’re not going to give it the importance it obviously has and deserves? Are you joking? I just don’t understand how you don’t see the flaw in your take and your justification for why Jimin is being treated unfairly AGAIN.

I appreciate that you like my blog and my opinions, and that’s why I trust you won’t be surprised by my clear and defensive stance when it comes to Jimin.

I do apologise for the ‘fuck you’.

[radicalhighway]

hey..... im not dead! apologies if i worried anyone. july has been a rough month for me mentally the past couple years or so. ill explain what happened under the cut bc it gets a little personal and a tad ventish. with that being said...

tl;dr: i needed a break bc i was having a bad mental health crash and only intended to be gone a week at most. then shit hits the fan, i blink, and its been a month. im back now, though!

so uh. as stated before, ive been experiencing rough mental health crashes in july the past couple years or so. i tend to act more dodgy and maybe a bit snippier than normal, im not sure why. i only intended to take a week off to recover, but life had other plans i suppose. i ended up getting real busy with changes at work, then got hit w/ the sick + period wombo combo, and if the universe didnt hate me enough already, i got hit with the sickening revelation that i really dont know who i am or what i want. ive been so detached for like 2 years or so at this point. im just cruising through life, letting everyone else decide what i should do next. i dont know my desires or dreams, i just. dont have any goals anymore. im lost, im stuck, im stagnating. i know people say its fine to not know what youre doing and to be lost, but. im genuinely stuck. i dont know what im doing. what i want from my life. who i am as a person. ive just been surviving these past few years and its just. so. exhausting. and discouraging. so im like. trying to discover myself, i guess. im not entirely sure how im going to go about that. all i know is im sick of this all encompassing feeling that im stagnating and permanent state of detachment. im tired of being alone. i want to right my wrongs if at all possible, i want to be better. i just... need to discover myself somehow. i guess.

anyway.

im back now. im very, very sorry for disappearing like that, it was wrong of me to not even update yall on if i was okay or not. im sorry i keep doing things like this. i promise though, this time was not intentional. life just threw some curve balls my way, and a month passed by before i even knew it. ill try my best to not let this happen again, at least not without some pop ins for updates to let yall know im okay.

as an end note. im a scared animal. the thought that theres long, angry messages awaiting me on discord is... discouraging. to say the least. so i may take a bit to work up the courage (and spoons) to face my consequences for my shitty habit and check discord. im also lowkey a little scared ppl are gonna leave me over this nasty ol habit. not to say it wouldnt be warranted, yall have every right to since its a shitty thing for me to keep doing but. still hurts even if deserved. i truly never seem to learn, huh? sick of being alone, but refusing to be vulnerable enough to allow people to help me… crazy.

thank you all for being patient with me, and thinking of me if you did.

cheers

[aphrodite1288]

im sorry but saying ksoo never said Ji about his premature enlistment is the most ridiculous thing you've ever said. I mean that's something he didn't decide a week before his enlistment it might be imposible for Ji not knowing that. If that's true which I think it's not the case I directly broke up with him like that's not a decision you make alone if u are in a long term relationship

First of all guys whom are Non-Kaisooists, I saw Kadi kissing and going on Vacations in Spain, Hungary, Hawaii, L.A, Philippines and Jeju, and in Sapporo and Osaka, you will not affect me or change my mind with your asks. So spear yourself the effort and don't come here if our blog irritates you! What you believe keep it for yourself no need to come convince us what you believe. Do I make you this Angry that you had to come anonymously send such dumb questions?

So back to the main topic:

If you were a real EXOL you would know EXO said Ksoo came to them without any notice and said I'm going to be enlisted in 2 months and it was in April and they clearly said they were shocked all of them when he announced that he applied for the Military and signed all the paperwork and done some of the medical checkups.

And Honey, I didn't say it ! It's the People who know better than me and you said.

The members also said he told them nonchalantly as if it wasn't a big deal. He didn't even discuss it with the company to reschedule any future projects because simply he has had enough of SM and he sabotaged them his own way. And the members said they were all so supportive.

And Ji was there with them and after Ksoo's enlistment Ji went absent for two months straight no bubble messages no Instagram lives nothing he went disappearing. under the excuse that he forgot his password. After that he was so depressed and sad and shortly before SuperM's debut he came on RadioStar show and revealed he suffered from Depression the past few months which explains his absence , he also said he is seeking medical help with a therapist!

And I still remember the MC shamelessly and Rudely asked Suho if he knew about this and him and the members were all so taken aback and they showed sad expression and that Stupid MC again shamelessly told Suho : "Did you know about your member was mentally exhausted and depressed? You Should be more attentive to your members'mental health!!" and Suho was so embarrassed and hurt that he apologized to Jongin and told him " I'll pay more attention to you and the members from now on and always come to Hyung whenever you feel like you need to talk, don't hide it". Because Ji clearly said he didn't tell any member that he was in deep depression or that he was regularly seeing a Therapist.

And it was a very critical Kadi period that he went for hiatus for two months and even earlier that year in 2019 after jenkai, Ksoo fought with SM and was reported to have left the company remember March 13th 2019?? (if you were in this blog since 2019 they talked a lot about this and explained everything regarding how Jenkai is related to Ksoo's case with SM and how it affaceted Kadi and Ji). Ksoo went missing since Jenkai exactly since January 5th when he was seen in Blue dragon awards show or whatever I don't remember the name, until his enlistment day July 1st, he was ABSENT. AKsoo took a long vacation refusing to be on any Schedule and refused to film Underdogs2 and refused all Acting projects and even refused to be on any Exo schedule as he was in a major mental health crisis and he even filed a lawsuit saying he was being overworked for 7 years with 0 off days unlike the other members, it was his first vacation since he debuted and SM only gave him 7 days vacation in 7 years and he talked about it in The 100Days Husband Press Conference and Booklet ,it's one of the main reasons he wanted to leave which is why the rumor dropped in March 2019, it was reported that he wanted all the accumulated Vacations since 2012 SM wanted to rob from him! Which is why he went missing for 6 months and we saw him going to Japan 3 times with Chanyeol in February remember? Also Baekhyun said he met Ksoo accidentally in Japan and they had a meal together. At that time Ji went to Philippines with his friends. This time Kadi were on a break from each other. And Ji didn't speak to Ksoo and there were no sightings of the both of them together anywhere and Ksoo didn't stay with Ji at all and they weren't even on talking terms.

Every couple have downfalls like this it's normal. We all almost broke up or even broken up with our partners at one point of our lives. Especially if you're in over a decade relationship of almost 14 years.

Anyway the story is too long. I can explain it all if you DM me instead of Hiding like this.

[hvartofglass]

𝙄𝙉𝙏𝙍𝙊𝘿𝙐𝘾𝙄𝙉𝙂 ... 𝖡𝖠𝖤 𝖸𝖴𝖭𝖧𝖤𝖤 ( 𝖳𝖧𝖤 𝖡𝖫𝖠𝖢𝖪 𝖱𝖮𝖮𝖪, 2019 )

wait till you hear about this next nominee: BAE YUNHEE, born on the 10th of JULY, 1997 and bears a striking resemblance to KIM YERIM. they’re a FIRST year BACHELOR OF MEDIA & COMMUNICATION STUDIES student and HER INFLUENCE AS A SCION OF THE HEO FAMILY AS WELL AS HER PROMINENCE IN VOLUNTEERING AND SOCIAL ACTIVISM — impressed yet? rumor has it they’re hoping to be the HEAD OF PUBLIC RELATIONS OF THE GRAND ELYSIAN GROUP, but personally, i think they should aim a little higher — something like the king’s club, for one. now, that suits them a little more, don’t you think? guess we’ll just have to see if they’ve got the talent for it in our upcoming recruitment round.

happy belated opening day! so sorry to everyone who's been waiting for me to reply messages, but i wanted to make sure i put out the intro first so we could go straight ahead with plotting once i put up enough information! not to mention i still have to work on my pages for yunhee. anyway i'm fae ( 22+ years old, she/her and gm+8 ) and here's my little black rook, who used to be the sweetest angel now turned into the cruelest demon. warning : this is a really long read ahead because i somehow can't help myself. anyway just drop a like and i'll be running into your dms to start plotting! ( either tumblr ims or discord at your request )

SUMMARY

HERE'S HOW HISTORY BEGINSㅤ:ㅤ although it is true that the heo family's nouveau empire has only just risen to modernity, the family has already amassed a fortune ten times greater in a fraction of the time it took ancient dynasties — the whole legacy built by a self-made hotelier owning a chain of the most luxurious and opulent resorts and hotels around the nation under his own luxury hotel conglomerate, the grand elysian group.

but in spite of their rise of power in modernity, the heo family was still a family that followed the archaic hierarchy. in other words, its old age misogyny : where sons are to be raised as future leaders, whilst daughters are more likely to be trained as potential brides so they could be traded off for business merges and contracts. and being the youngest daughter of the youngest daughter, bae yunhee was quite frankly doomed from the beginning.

being the youngest of four children and the only daughter, yunhee had already been deemed useless in the eyes of her mother from the moment she'd drawn her breath in the world. her mother had only ever wanted and needed sons so they could be raised, trained to fight for her honor in the never-ending civil war for the throne of the grand elysian group. daughters were thought to be too weak for her goals, so her mother didn't hesitate to pawn yunhee off in the care of the nannies.

bae yunhee was undoubtedly the black sheep of the family, growing resentful of the family's obvious favoritism towards her brothers whilst she'd been left in the dust. for the longest time, she desperately yearned for even the slightest silver of attention and affection from her family while also longing for their acknowledgement for her achievements. but no matter how hard she tried, it was just never enough. and yunhee wondered if she was cursed to live in the shadows.

AND THEN CAME HIM.ㅤnoh hyungseo, the golden boy and the gilded heir. yunhee herself can’t begin to tell the tale of how she managed to catch his attention and his heart, for all she knew was that he wanted her and he wouldn't stop chasing her until he had her. not like she could deny him in the first place. after all, noh hyungseo was every girl’s fantasy of a charming prince.

safe to say that noh hyungseo had invested everything into molding yunhee into becoming his ideal woman. he had given her everything she had ever asked for and more. her family had been more than ecstatic when yunhee of all people started dating hyungseo; so much that they actually began paying more attention to her than ever before — especially her own mother.

all of a sudden, she was given the opportunities she'd only ever seen given to her older brothers. finally becoming on par with the rest of her relatives when she started to gain media attention for her beauty and perfect mannerisms whilst joining the many philanthropic activities and attending many fundraising events. she's now the face of the family's philanthropy, the very paragon of virtue for the whole world to lay their eyes upon.

bae yunhee may be many things, but she's no fool. she knows that the reason her family is giving her the attention she'd long sought after was because they were betting on her relationship to foster businesses connections with hyungseo's family, hoping for a union between the forgettable daughter and the blue blooded real estate heir that would have their businesses entwined forever.

yunhee had always known the truth. she may have been more in love with the idea of noh hyungseo than the flesh and blood beneath the veneer of him. but even so, she would still claim it to be love. the world had made way for hyungseo, the way it did for emperors, kings and conquerors. is it really so bad that she wants to be the chosen queen to rule by his side once hyungseo have ascended to his rightful throne to his empire?

BUT HERE'S WHEN THINGS STARTS TO REALLY FALL APART.ㅤwhen she had only just adjusted to a new life at SNU, yunhee had suddenly been approached by a chessmaster and was given an exclusive invitation to join the king's club, which only left the girl stupified. there's no real use in having her around, especially when her second oldest brother was already an alumni of king's club a few years back. still, it was a coveted invitation that people would do absolutely anything for to have it. and yunhee would be foolish if she were to reject such golden opportunity.

for most part, she had only followed her boyfriend's lead during her days as an initiate even despite knowing too well that hyungseo was her competitor for the position. but yunhee never really cared for the club the same way that hyungseo did. frankly, the only reason she'd even joined the club in the first place was to make sure to reign hyungseo in and never allow his eyes wander to any other woman, especially cxd7. she wasn't about to let any women take a chance at her boyfriend, not when she had worked so hard to keep him to herself.

she should have reigned hyungseo in harder, kept his behavior in check. perhaps then the darling wouldn't have had to lose him to a stupid ritual and a stupid lake, all because hyungseo was simply too egotistical and overly confident.

bae yunhee was absolutely devastated by the loss of her boyfriend. even moreso, when hyungseo in death wouldn't be given the courtesy of justice. she was nearly hysterical when she'd been forced to kept her mouth shut and had to follow the script along with the rest of the members so they could hide the club's existence from the police and the public. her conditions only worsened during the funeral when she'd gotten in an argument with one of the chessmaster and was downrightly humiliated when the chessmaster cruelly exposed the reason for her invitation in the first place was because of her late boyfriend.

and this was the starting point of her resentment towards the king's club.

ALL EYES WERE ON HER.ㅤespecially when she gained so much media attention as the grieving girlfriend and beloved high school sweetheart of the late noh hyungseo. the world had pitied her for her loss and in turn, yunhee saw a chance. yunhee found weaponry in the attention surrounding her and didn't waste any time to utilize it to the best of her abilities. which is why after graduating from SNU, yunhee had established a charity foundation in the name and honor of her late boyfriend which only skyrocketed her likeability towards the public to the point she had been hailed as their beloved darling.

life had become beautifully effortless for bae yunhee, especially when she began working in the family's business in the public relations department before her promotion as the grand elysian group’s  head of public relations .

but even with her bright future ahead of her, yunhee had never forgotten her hatred and resentment towards the king's club, wanting to do nothing more but to burn it down to a crisp. especially knowing that she only became an official member of the club because her late boyfriend was dead.

she blames everyone in the club for his death, even herself. because in her eyes, she's no better than rest of them. especially when his shadow haunts her still, looming across every facet and reflection of the lives and future they could have built together.

PERSONALITY.

they say the loveliest angels makes the cruelest demons. and perhaps they were right. 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗅𝗅, 𝖻𝖺𝖾 𝗒𝗎𝗇𝗁𝖾�� was the living example of such statement. once upon a time, she'd been the sweetest girl to have ever lived — with her delicate and gentle disposition, along with a heart of gold that she wears upon her sleeves to match. emphatic and kind to a fault, yunhee had been once the type to never hesitate to lend a hand to others. she admittedly sees the world in a rose-colored view, often finding beauty in everywhere she could. but that doesn't mean she's a stranger to the rather more noxious side of emotions, especially envy and jealousy as she'd grown to be extremely resentful of her family's favoritism. and due to her longing for attention as well as her desperation for validation, yunhee had been very malleable to influences if it meant any way that she could be loved and desired. but after the incident and herself suffering both a broken heart and a broken pride, yunhee began to change herself for the worst. she became more guarded, more distrustful of the world around her, and absolutely resentful than she ever was before. she was now a mosaic of once beautiful broken pieces, a collection of everyone's worst nightmare. mercurial and manipulative, she makes it a point to everyone and anyone to never ever underestimate her again.

WANTED CONNECTIONS.

I very much prefer brainstorming but i do have a lot of ideas we could expand on, such as : the chessmaster senior who she had an argument at hyungseo's funeral and is now considered enemy number one because they humiliated her during the worst times of her life, a very small group of friends who she sincerely trusts, people who genuinely mourns over hyungseo, potential allies during their initiation days ( people who just didn't want hyunseo to become an official member so she's the next best thing ha, ), enemies/frenemies, a long list of men that she constantly flirts with in front of hyungseo just to spite him and invoke jealousy out of him ( even better if they were friends with hyungseo or hated hyungseo, because ya girl is messsssyyyy ), people who suspects her for being the informant ( because lets be honest, she doesn't hide her vitriol and resentment towards the king's club at all after what happened )

[hansirilow]

alright. so this is weird. 

i logged into this account while i was looking for a bootleg post i had saved years ago. first time i've logged in here in like.... five years? i saw the names of a lot of friends i had on here. i saw some inbox messages too, i dunno how old they are. i saw some old posts and messages and just reminisced/spiraled a little bit. i used this blog religiously from when i was 14 to like 18ish. i went thru a lot on here. i had community on here when i was at my loneliest. i was volatile and so scared and trans and queer and i guess in some ways, nothing has changed. im 25 now, gonna be 26 in a couple weeks. i figured i could make a little post to update y'all. i dunno if anyone will read this. but i've been thinking a lot about my friends i made here lately.

i turn 26 in a little over a month. i'm still jasper, havent transitioned yet, but i might be the gayest i've ever been. my coming out process has been Awful to say the least. but my 9 year anniversary with my partner jer is coming up. i'm spending my 26th birthday with jer in salem, mass, my favorite city in the world. 

i have an associates degree in theatre and a bachelors degree in english with a creative writing concentration. not doing anything in those fields yet but i'm figuring things out. it hasn't been exactly easy. 

i'm figuring my life out i guess! i went thru a very traumatic falling out with a group of friends that abused me during the pandemic. i lost a lot of my college life to a horrible group of people, it's a whole thing i'm not gonna get into right now. in some ways i'm still recovering from that. in some ways i'm better than i've ever been. 

i'm like high key a furry now tbh. i have a fursona named salem who kinda saved my life i guess. he is everything to me. 

no shock here but i still love fall out boy with every part of my heart, maybe even more than i did when i was a kid. i got my first tattoo and it's a fall out boy one. i also got into a lot of other alternative bands! i adore ghost a lot, i'm seeing them in july. i also love sleep token, spiritbox, bad omens, linkin park, and poppy. music has gotten me thru the worst of the shit i've been thru. 

and despite everything, i still love musicals and andy and spring awakening and everything. i actually logged in looking for a wicked bootleg in the wake of the movie coming out. i saw andy as jonathan in tick tick boom in cape cod a couple months ago! front row in this old little local theatre, what a magical night it was. i'm planning on getting andy's handwriting tattooed on me still, and i want some other musical related tattoos eventually (i'll probably be covered in a couple years: gender affirming care). 

also i really love spiderman now but no one's shocked by that either, that's just transmasc rite of passage i think. 

i guess i'm still the same in a lot of ways. that weirdo little gay boy that felt too much and definitely shared too much. i am so sorry for being way too TMI when i was younger. i was way too young and unsupervised and lonely as hell. i'm happy to say i'm a bit older and a little less lonely and a little more reserved in what i share online now lmfao 

that being said, i do art and stuff still! i post my art on instagram (sometimes) at @/witchcityspider and on bluesky @/kingofpentacles if anyone wants to find me there. or if you want my discord or my personal instagram you can let me know. i made another blog at one point that i use here and there: @shadowacademy 

i've thought about reaching out to people i used to talk to here but i didn't wanna freak anyone out, so i'm doing this instead. 

i'll keep this blog up, check it here and there. in some ways i miss it. i miss the community i guess, having a place i belonged. i've gone through a lot and lost a lot of friends over the past couple years. i mean, hell, i went through a lot on here. it was a huge part of my life, somedays my little sect on here was all i had. and i hope that, even my friends that have deactivated or aren't active, i hope you all are well and happier than we were in 2015. almost a decade ago. 

i guess i just wanna hug my little 15 year old self and i wish i could warn him about what has happened to us since, but i can't. but we made it out. despite everything, it's still me. 

anyways. i'm around if you're looking to find me. i'm off trying to be cryptic and mysterious but just coming off as a certified yapper elsewhere. i don't wanna be weird and interrupt people that don't wanna see me again, but i do miss so many people from here. i wonder if they ever remember this or think of me and wonder where i've been. maybe it's selfish or maybe it's just human, i'm not sure. 

but i'm here. figuring my shit out, but i'm here. 

i love all of your lights. you are fabulous creatures, each and every one.

jasper morningstar 

or hanschen rilow 

whichever you prefer 

x 

[tsluv89]

Hii taytay! I hope you will read this message🫶🏻 in 2019 when i was watching on tv some music channels i saw your mv of ME! and you need to calm down🌸 first i didn’t believe it was you because these songs were SO GOOD. i was always waiting to hear it again and again. i know these mv like so good they have a special place in my heart as you🌷 in 2023 i found out that i will be attending your eras tour and i was so so so happy about it because it was my dream to hear you singing live for soooo long🫶🏻 my pare surprised me on Christmas and it felt like magic. when the concert date was coming we started worrying about the tickets because on these tickets were other people’s names. we were calling the company for like so many days and hours but we didn’t have any update. on july 31 we started our journey to warsaw. we had to drive by the bus for over 10 hours! it’s because we live in latvia😮 we were there on august 1 and just as soon we got off the bus we immediately started to contact the company about the tickets because we didn’t have much time left. we decided to go to the stadium to see what kind of merch u were selling. there were so many cool stuff that i really wanted. our tickets were vip so we went to the vip stand to get the boxes and then it all started. the lady scanned our tickets and said that they were invalid. we needed to change something about it but i cant remember what. and at that moment i understood that we were SCAMMED. im the only one in my family that knows english pretty well and i can speak it. so i had to call the company over and over. i started crying so bad because i was 100% sure that i wouldn’t be able to see you☹️ my dad said that he will get me merch so i would feel better and i still would have something for the eras tour. on night 1 i wanted to go to the stadium and listen outside. it was so magical and i wanted to cry. i trade many bracelets there i had 120 bracelets with me and on first night i traded 30 bracelets! next day we were calling the company again again and again but no results. it was my dads name day so i wanted to go to the stadium again so he could listen to hist fav songs but he was so sick and he needed to rest so me and my mam went there and filmed some videos for him. i traded some bracelets too. and when you were singing you need to calm down two moms came and one of them just simply gifted a bracelet and on the bracelet was TS.03.08. IT WAS A SIGN. when we got home he said he could hear from the apartment some of the songs😮 we sent hime all the videos we took and went to bet because he had a flight early in the morning. CONCERT DAY! omg i was so stressed. we were at the stadium at 10:00 because we had to be there first to change the names on the tickets. then tings started to go HORRIBLY. the lady scanned the tickets and said that our tickets were sold to others and on the tickets were different names. she said sorry and we left. as soon as turned i started crying so badly because we didn’t have any time left and that we were officially scammed. my mom calmed me down and said that we need to fight again for the tickets because they spent 1400€ for these. we were calling the company for about 3 hours and on the last call MAGIC happened. the lady on the phone said that they have some replacement tickets available but there was a big problem we were risking for loosing the tickets that we own right now and not having to get money back but we chose the replacement tickets. there were only one on the standing plan so we selected them. once the tickets cane to email we were running to the booth were you could change the name. the lady scanned the tickets again and they were VALID. my mom had to pay for the name change 20€ but that’s ok. it was 13:00 and we were running to the vip stand to get the boxes. once we got them i started crying happy tears. we cam to the apartment and change super quickly and rushed to the stadium🫶🏻 when the show started i was crying CRYING. i couldn’t believe you were in front of me. thank you tay for all i love you❤️

@taylorswift

@taylornation

[hidden-for-reg]

about me post!

Hi, I’m Mia! That’s just an online name but that’s what i’d like to be called. ~she her and straight~

My ao3: hidden_for_reg

My Doctor- G- Complete- James Potter is a surgeon at Godric's Hollow Hospital and Regulus Black is a patient with a fractured knee. So what if Regulus is the most beautiful man James has ever seen? So what if Regulus' heart won't stop fluttering at the thought of his doctor? Surely nothing would happen... right? *originally on posted on Tumblr for Jegulus Microfic June/July prompts

Winners- T- Incomplete- Sirius ruined everything by running away. Regulus ruined everything by staying.

My fandoms are mainly related to the Marauders but I like tons of other stuff as well so don’t be afraid to ask me about them!

I’m always open to making new friends! Sooo if you want to be friends, message me!

I mainly write Jegulus microfics and occasionally I’ll post fanart for the marauders.

More info about me under the cut!

My language is primarily is English but I am also fluent in Spanish and I know a little French (by a little i mean words and a few phrases)

Before I begin, my askbox is always open and so are my messages but please.. no hate or anything, Tumblr is supposed to be a safe space for people and let’s keep it that way 🫶

anyways.. let’s get into the rest!

requests i guess?

if you have an idea you’d like to see me write, send it over! But i have rules for that:

NO SPICE! Writing spice makes me very uncomfy and if you request anything spicy or spice-like, I will not write it

I just do tiny microfics or multi-part microfics, so please don’t ask me to write a whole story with a million chapters.

**If you request something and I don’t get to it immediately, I am so sorry!

my ships!

Currently Jegulus obsessed

Wolfstar, i’ve loved them since literally forever

Rosekiller

Dorlene

Marylily

Drarry (i know i know, it’s not marauders, but they still hold a special place in my heart)

i really like books

so I kind of love reading. I used to be reading all the time, but I had a gap where I stopped reading but I’ve picked it back up and here’s some of my favorites that I’ve read recently! (and yes I count ao3 fics as books, they basically are)

books I enjoyed lately: If We Were Villains by M.L. Rio, Meet Me At The Lake by Carley Fortune, Solitaire by Alice Oseman, Heartstopper series by Alice Oseman, Icebreaker by Hannah Grace, Crimson Rivers by bizzarestars

movies!

i probably take watching movies more seriously than I should, but i love them. So here’s some movies that i love love love (the list is long bare with me)

Dune movies

Zombieland movies

Legally Blonde

To All The Boys trilogy

How to Train Your Dragon movies

Call Me By Your Name

Maze Runner trilogy

the Harry Potter movies will always be in my heart

i’m definitely forgetting a lot but for now that’ll do.

TV shows

I watch shows as seriously if not more than I do movies. I LOVE binge watching stuff. If you think you can recommend anything based off what you see, don’t be afraid to let me know!

my tv show loves:

*If something says “currently watching” that means, please don’t spoil!!

Grey’s anatomy (currently watching)

Brookyln 99 (currently watching)

Gilmore Girls (currently watching)

White Collar (currently watching)

Bridgerton (currently watching)

Cobra Kai (currently watching)

Teen Wolf

Riverdale

Heartstopper

Ginny and Georgia

Stranger Things

Wednesday

Avatar the last airbender and the Legend of Korra

Things that make me happy 😊

I like reading, writing, watching movies and shows, sour candy, listening to music for hours, running, singing, anddd Tumblr! Tumblr is probably the only thing I have that is completely separate from my real life and I so appreciate the getaway it provides, it’s like a small safe haven 🫶

MUSIC!

i LOVE listening to music and i never go a day without it so here’s a MasterList of my favorite artists!

Conan Gray (im attending FH tour!)

Taylor Swift

Chappell Roan

Bowie!!

Ariana Grande

Laufey

JVKE

Benson Boone

Billie Eilish

Harry Styles

Bad Bunny

ANYWAY—

Thank you so much for reading the whole rant about me post

-mia 🫶

[kennethmoop]

Ok im sorry to directly message but I just gotta know now, are the characters in your elemtal au directly derived from Minecraft diaries or not? Like is wally a directly associated with aphmau? If you see this, thanks for bringing up old memories.. <3

Hello there and it's okay! I love answering questions hehe ✧

And of course! I adore MCD and I was sad when MCD didn't have a real ending, and even MS so I decided to make a welcome home au inspired by MCD

✧even if my au is inspired by the characters from MCD and MCD itself, I have my own storyline and plots of my own to this au

✧my characters in my elemental au , is half inspired by the characters withing MCD

Like stated for example Wally Is in a way associated with Aphmau but told ina different storyline and idea way.

If it'll help anything out I'll help by stating this as a spoiler

SPOILER ⚠️✧inspired✧

Wally/Lord Wally- Aphmau

↪️ other version of Wally (the original Lady Irene )

Queen Julie- Candenza

Warrior Sally- Kathleen

PH Barnaby-Aaron

Sir Howdy - a mix of both Lawrence and Garroth

Mage Poppy- Lucinda

King Frank- Zane

King Eddie- Travis

Home- "reincarnation of the evil spirit"

Side characters

Lord's Mother Mary(Mariana)[last of the bloodline]

and his father Lucifer

Y/N - yourself interacting within the story, you can be whatever species or power holder u wish to be

Mrs Beagle - The old lady from the forest (forgot her name rn forgive me lol)

And new characters I've created for the story but that's a secret ✧

BUT! Remind u, they aren't like the MCS characters, they're just inspired, so they don't have their personalities. Just inspired

✧but again I'm glad there are others out there who still enjoy MCD, and I'm happy i brought old memories to u!

‼️reminder: my au is just an inspiration from MCD it isn't a copy, original ideas but also inspiration from that story as well‼️

[reggies-eyeliner]

𝐌𝐔𝐋𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐏𝐒 (CLOSED)!

OPEN 2/26-2/24<3!! (5 SLOTS LEFT! [2/19/23])

I have not done matchups in ages but THEN I WATCHED Lockwood & Co?? I had this whole epiphany like. WRITING THESE WERE SO FUN HELLO?? matchups will be open from 2/16-2/24! please read through all of the rules :D If a submission doesn't fill out all the requirements, I am more likely to push it off until later, so please make sure to read it carefully! I SWEAR IM NOT GONNA MAKE IT TOO COMPLICATED OKOK LETS DO THIS VAMANOS&lt;333!

(AND YES PLATONIC MATCH UPS ARE OPEN FOR MY AROSPEC/QPR/PLATONIC RELATIONSHIP LOVING BABES GET OVER HERE RIGHT NOW)

THIS IS LIKE A BUFFET. PICK AND CHOOSE WHAT YOU WANT BABES MWAHAHAHA

FANDOMS (up to two*):

across the spider-verse*

most animated movies (httyd, bh6, rotg^^)

lockwood & co*

stranger things

julie and the phantoms

avatar: the last airbender

the legend of korra

rottmnt**

voltron: legendary defenders

haikyuu

* i've only watched the series so far + i'm about to start the comics/books (and very excited to omg) !! just an fyi that my pairings will most likely revolve more around the characters featured in the series IM SORRY I SWEAR I'LL GET TO THE BOOKS/COMICS ASAP

**exclusively platonic matchups preferred/qpr!

TYPES OF MATCHUPS:

the classic: submit in matchup information + get paired with (a) romantic partner(s)! in return for the matchup information, you will receive: a 1x3 moodboard, one song + a hefty list of headcanons + a mix-and-match randomized trope explanation! (ex: a blurb about sharing a bed, first time meeting, fake dating confession scene ; ~100 words!)

the Fave Homie(s)™: platonic matchups (my personal fave MWAHAHA)! you'll get paired with as many characters as you'd like<3!! in return for matchup information, you will receive: a 1x3 moodboard, one song + a hefty list of headcanons + incorrect quotes describing your dynamic between you and your found family/best bro<3

customized schedule: submit what your schedule looks like throughout any day of the week (up to two) + matchup information (platonic or romantic), you will receive: an hourly schedule on what life is like with said character i match you with + the aspects of your life with them! (ex: 8am, wake up by their side + they make you coffee blah blah blah), + a song for each moment of the day to describe your dynamic :D

MATCHUP INFORMATION:

name + preferred gender(s) to be paired with

preferred fandom (up to two are okay, but please let me know which one you'd like me to focus on more!)

platonic and/or romantic + polycule preference etc + preferred age group!!

you can include your sexuality if you'd like to (only if you want me to touch on the aspect on how your matchup will support you because. yeah<3)

giving + receiving love languages

hobbies, talents, things that make you you (think: if this wasn't in my life, how different would i be?)

mbti/zodiac (optional)

personality, how you handle difficult situations

what consist of a good memory for you

favorite songs + music taste/colors/any kind of aesthetics!!

anything that brings you comfort/anything that doesn't give you comfort (can be about a relationship or just in life :-D)

OTHER RULES?

preferably off anon! i'd love to talk to you more after the matchup submission as well MWAHHAHA<333 if you're planning on being anon, an emoji anon would be p cool so we can chat more!

as i'm also a busy student, i will prioritize school-- if you submit a matchup, please be prepared to have up to anywhere from a 1-14 day wait! i'll send you a message that i got your ask hehe

you should totally use a pick up line in my ask box i enjoy pick up lines so much.

OTHER THAN THAT MAN write as much/little as you'd like!

[setsunatekiblast]

sorry this is like fully just insane babble and a look into truly how fucking weird i am in the head im really considering making a blog JUST for venting but im too lazy to do that rn

so like general rundown for context

i did some really downright shitty things as a teenager as a result of unresolved trauma in basically every corner of my life at the time (obviously this doesnt absolve me from what happened). when i was told about the extent of it i apologised and distanced myself & never talked to anyone involved ever again.

months later when i expressed that a former friend who had (in my opinion, rightfully) stepped in to stop the situation from worsening had caused me harm prior to all this and that it was still impacting me on my private account, it was leaked to her. i was threatened with a callout post and she was acting like i wasnt truly sorry for the things i'd done/trying to change even though i had done my level best to be accountable for my behaviour and do what was asked of me.

because of everything that'd already happened + this i was living in this constant state of severe anxiety. as in, i could hardly eat due to feeling nauseous every moment i was conscious, would randomly start shaking and crying & my physical health was deteriorating at many points. i was like this from about july all the way through to november-early december, i think?

like all of this happened five years ago but ive absolutely refused to let myself move on because i thought i would be dodging accountability for my behaviour but i've kind of just had a mental shift recently (maybe from my kansai trip i think it did something to me). looking back while talking to my friend i internalised everything about that series of incidents so hard that i considered myself a horrible and irredeemable person, so ive been keeping myself at arms length from others because i didnt want it to happen all over again and didnt trust myself to actually change. i thought that if i was pursuing relationships with others, i wasnt being accountable enough and dodging my past behaviour.

idk im just tired of living like this. im tired of all the self-sabotage and the fear and anxiety i have over the most minor of things. i'm tired of jumping up and running at the first signs of closer friendships forming. i had a panic attack over someone calling me a friend for gods sake, that's not normal. its not! the fact i even struggle to call people friends because of all this fear about relationships with others after all that isn't good and i need to change from that lol

even just thinking that i deserve better makes me feel like im swallowing needles and glass though, and it sucks so fucking much LMFAOOOOOOO. i dont even know what to do because i feel so shitty about even trying to pursue support from those closest to me. i feel like i'm asking so, so much of people when i cant give much of anything in return. not to mention that right now even the idea of being misunderstood makes me feel absolutely terrible and like i need to be on the defensive. in general i feel like i offer so little that trying to lean on people is selfish and that i'm just going to end up hurting them like i did that friend who simply just wanted to help me. i don't want to feel this way anymore but it's a cycle and i don't know how to stop feeling so horrid about everything and actually. well. allow myself to feel supported AND be normal in the head about it

like i need to move on not just for my sake but because. really. it's been such a long time and i don't even recognise the person i was in those messages. but i can hear just how much pain my past self was in and that just sucks, man. my friend didn't want me to suffer, but he was rightfully hurt and angered by the way i behaved. the best way to show my remorse has always been to do better by those who come into my life, but i never wholly succeeded in that because 90% of the time i would sabotage my own relationships with others and not get too close out of fear that i was going to ruin it all and just be as shitty as i was before. i thought closing myself off would be doing right by him, and to a degree it was. but it wasn't productive for me because i wasn't doing anything but closing myself off

anyway i handled something pretty good tonight that i know my past self wouldve probably flipped out about so that's probably a good sign i guess. its actually kind of surprising to see that even though my spoons are maybe a 1 at best rn i can still handle things with some grace and tact and Not be terrible. idk. maybe things are gonna be okay, especially since i have so many people in my corner nowadays who want nothing more than to see me overcome everything

[bigstupiddummie]

making a post in the tags to “call out” a person is so dumb and childish and stupid, so i won’t put this in there. however, the admin of @wavehq is full lying on my name these days even though i haven’t talked to them or anyone else involved in there in like 6mos. and i rly want them to stop.

i don’t have my old discord account w ss. if anyone else has ss with me in them, u can add them to this post idc how ugly it makes me look. i talked a LOT of shit ( and pertaining to this story, about sel esp ) and called ppl some nasty names and any ss will incriminate me of that. so me talking shit isn’t a ‘gotcha’ anymore. i talked shit and called sel names, as well as k, and i know sel called me names, and im sure everyone else did too. whatevs.

yk what i never did ? i never made a “manifesto” about my ex friend, or priv-retweeted their personal ooc twitter account to mock them. i never helped create and work on an rpt blog, then went and consoled the person being mentioned in nasty messages in the blog on some “oh im so sorry this is happening to you ˙◠˙” shit when it was them the whole time. the worst i did was “fuck her, he’s a cunt, fuck them”, but dream, you lied to me a Lot!

and you’re lying in defending yourself by saying i “heavily hate” sid or anyone. i never have, never did, never will. the last thing i said to sid in like July was “hey, heres my ooc tiktok, im deleting discord. if i never hear from you again, take care.” and then i left rp and the rpc entirely. haven’t talked to or even perceived any of you in months.

you want to believe i’m “bringing this up now” to start stuff or something, but what stakes do i have in any of this? you and yours drove me out of the hobby i’ve loved since i was 12, used an rpt blog to force me to defend myself against your ugly claims at a time you Knew well and good i was absent and dealing with a family death ( and then came in my dms to comfort me ??? you and k both. ) . i lost all of my best friends of several years. trust me, i want no part of the rpc anymore. i don’t want back in. i don’t want to engage. this is a nothing tumblr account that ill never use again. consider, instead, that another person close to the situation and i shared similar experiences and realized there were too many untruths and inconsistencies to let it rest, rather than just ‘starting stuff’ to start stuff.

“sid says steph crops screenshots to make them look incriminating” aye , but i definitely gave my entire discord login out, more than once, and encouraged my friend at the time to go ahead and look for themselves ( they declined at the time. i can still give the login i really do not care. though idk if the login will work anymore bc the accounts been deactivated for, uh, 6 months.) i cropped ss where earthp members were telling me how K is making them uncomfortable and how they were worried lenny was being dragged around by K, that i did do. and i STILL let k know that that’s what they were saying. i can’t stress enough ive got Nothing here that im fighting for i just think its ugly to lie for so long to everyone

“steph heavily hates sid” i do not. note the last thing i said to sid, up there ^. we did follow each other on tiktok then, and then we didn’t speak for 6 months. as of this morning, we are no longer tiktok mutuals - so it goes. sid never owed me anything. i don’t hate them. they know ( and yk what, so do my irl work managers!!! bc this shit affected my actual real mental health!!! ) that the day things went down, i left work early sobbing full blown emotional episode, writing paragraphs in desperation, to the point of overwhelming them and myself. i loved them dearly, called them my ‘spouse’ and best friend everyday, etc. though i don’t know now if they knew more about you than they let on. anyway……. please don’t just be declaring shit about me like it’s fact ?? i don’t hate anyone. not even you dream! just stop lyinggggg i hate that

ye all made me feel like i was crazy and losing myself in my own paranoia omg??? and ye were in your private chats afterward going “well deserved!!!” who even are you what did i do to you omgggg are we not in our late 20s with lives and careers ?????

if this is all bc of heddie/reddie and avengefm ? its ships dude it’s dolls it’s not real and to commit so much energy and emotion to lying to protect ur ships/rps is troubling at best. and if its not about heddie/reddie, then i haven’t a NOTION bc you and i, even when we were friendly w each other, were not close enough to create a bond to break??? i didnt do anything to you but welcome you into my writing spaces and engage in yours to the best of my ability. i was transparent with you when my activity struggled or i needed a break for mental health reasons… but what you had done with your friends is what ruined my mental health ?… go figure ….

i know who was behind that blog because they came clean and told me your connection to it as well. i know sel said nasty things about me too - we’re human and humans love talking shit. but no one else ever took it as far as you did, dream.

i don’t want anything from you! just stop lying on my name i don’t “heavily hate” anyone. outside of my shit talking from 6mos ago, i haven’t said a word against anyone but yourself; i’ve called you a liar, here in this post, because that is what i believe you are.

nobody in my entire life brings up what happened in everwell more than you and k. i owned up to every part i had ( whether directly or by my unavailability, all of it ), i deplatformed and cut out my two best friends ( people i had had in my HOME and had met IRL they were real people to me!!!!! ) and apologized personally to everyone affected, while picking out a funeral outfit and consoling my crying family. these are all my cards on table. you don’t have to respond either. just omg quit lying about me and the way i feel and what my intentions are - if a mf wants to know what im thinking and feeling, they can just Ask me.

and k i don’t want anything from you either! your names in this post because you were involved, and you know your involvement with that blog and how you also came to console me after. outside of that, i do not think of you and do not care what you think of me.

sid, i don’t want anything from u all either and i meant it when i said if i never hear from you again, take care bc i did care for u lots and also invited you into my home bc you were a real person to me. just know for a fact that anything dream says i’m saying about you or feeling toward you is just pulled out of thin air for whatever reason.

i always thought ye all were great writers!!! and so did snags and lex, way back when it was about writing for the love of writing. i would say all the time “omg dream is so funny” “omg k is cracking me up”, and they’d agree. hell if they’re at all in the rpc anymore and see this - hey guys! sorry shit got so ugly. you’ll never guess who was behind it.

i left the rpc and got mental help. i hope ye can get some help too.

* this is dream bringing sel into the Issues and tying her directly to k, btw. you keep saying you didn’t bring sel into the k stuff, but “they’re besties” “she and sel” “they want peach to drop eddie so sel can pick up eddie” this is where we’re getting that from, bc you keep saying you only referenced sel’s activity and didn’t connect her to k at all. i cropped out sids response. i can add it if need be but it’s just sid believing you.

this is where i’m pulling what im referencing in this post from. the second half is censored bc it doesn’t have to do with me.

this is me texting my irl work manager on the day sid and i last spoke. i was distraught and emotional and crying but ok yeah i “heavily hate” sid when the way everything went down broke me to bits OKAYYY

the censored names are the names of my irl managers like it was So Serious so don’t try putting words in my mouth about sid.

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[nyegi]

called out of work for the first time since july because im having a period from hell, everything hurts and im anemic 😃👍 im out of good tampons and lunchbox food AND im almost out of prozac so i had to message my psychiatrist asking her to refill it even though technically im supposed to do a telehealth appointment first 😃👍 this is the second time ive done this with my meds bc i am forgetful & she did message me back but im afraid to open it bc im scared shes going to be mad or say no 😃👍 and i feel really bad about calling out but also i work really hard all the time & my coworker who i was mainly worried about said "stay home if it bad!" so i was like you know what kimberly. i will stay home if it bad. so i did. but now im bleeding & cramping and i need to go to the store and check my pychiatrists patient portal and be an adult and take care of myself. but everything hurts & i am overwhelmed 😃👍 AND im nervous because what if calling out today makes them revoke the days i got PTO accepted for in mid-december or something. like what if i dont get to see my loved ones in december now because of this. this is my first Job With Benefits And PTO so i dont really undertsand how it works. plus what if i actually get really sick or something and need to call out then but i cant because i called out today over my nightmare period. Sorry im spiraling and overwhelmed im trying very hard to be normal about it hehe