#im radicalizing my coworkers

[coolcoelacanth]

i love bringing anti-establishment vibes into the establishment

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

i got so lucky and i scored a posh and cushy job now - which i am eternally grateful for - but i cant tell you how bizarre it feels to be working with men i KNOW would have paid me for sex not even two years ago. my male coworkers are really nice but today im assisting at a workshop with external clients and oh my god. some 50+ man said he used to do business trips to the phillipinnes and i just KNOW. most people are blissfully unaware of the dark underbelly of business trips and the male dominated business world in general

plus, since adapting a more radical feminist view on things there are some things you cant unnotice/unsee. like we are equal parts men and women but the whole time the men were dominating the conversation. they rarely smile, they barely look at me, because they dont consider me important enough or because im by far the youngest, tall and slim looking, i know what middle aged business men are like. they probably watched some hardcore porn only yesterday or this morning

and another thing, after having worked as a babysitter, a newspaper delivery girl, a food delivery girl, a waitress/barista in the busiest cafe in town, and other underpaid jobs, as well as having been an escort, its crazy these office jobs really are all about talk but way better paid while the real work is done by people earning minimum wage at best. and many of the people in these positions have never worked such a job in their whole lives and it SHOWS

[shaftking]

im doing my civil duty as a trans woman by radicalizing my whole social circle (friends, coworkers, relatives) aginst nonbinaries

Respect to our troops (normie trans women)

[rgr-pop]

okay my job is Very blue collar, can you talk more about being told to go to a… doctor’s appointment???? for inappropriate workplace behavior? is this common? obv not saying you were actually inappropriate. but if someone was homophobic at your workplace, hr can tell them go to therapy??? like a tumblrina scorned???

yes well i can do my best! officially i can say all this now Technically but dont rb but if you are in the field im happy to speak to colleagues, i had a disciplinary action filed against me for privately correcting a coworker for using the wrong pronouns for a trans girl student. she is on the school board and she works closely with someone who lost a city council race in large part because she had worked with bethany christian services and was discredited. so of course i very innocently talked to our director about how im soooo worried about her possibly being radicalized by this issue on the school board--have you watched the news? no? are you not getting the ALA emails....? so i had a conversation with her about she pronouns, she screamed in front of patrons that nobody can tell her what she has to call them. she called our student a karen. i asked my director to handle this, specifically said if you ask me to handle this i will feel like its undue attention as a queer person in the workplace please have someone else do it. set up a process for pronoun stuff, i found him some training resources, the whole thing. his solution was to force me in a meeting with this person in which she said that pronouns quote reminded her of being enslaved. i was not allowed to leave, cried, made five or six on paper and recorded on video claims of quote homophobic retaliation. the other person filed a complaint against me which means she cant face any disciplinary response. officially my report on paper you can probably FOIA it says that the discipline was for using the word homophobic and transphobic. well actually my discipline was for rude behavior in that meeting plus saying the words homophobic and transphobic but they found in my hearing that i was appropriately apologetic for raising my voice and crying but that i refused to apologize for saying homophobic and transphobic (they didnt ask me to but obviously i would not have. so thats what my report says. a little birdie told me that in the hearing discussion the words quote religious freedom were tossed around. its unofficially prohibited to communicate about someones pronouns in the library until further notice and ive been told they will get a procedure on paper next year. as a consequence for my behavior (saying homophobic and transpobic i face mandatory counseling. can they do this - i think yes but i really think its a legal technicality that has never seemed a winnable fight to anyone. my understanding is that it is probably common. what i believe is typically the case is that employers will partner with something called an employee assistance program. the employee-facing component of these orgs is access to mental health services as a benefit (in the case of me, in lieu of healthcare benefits(. employers partner with these orgs to offer those employee-facing mental health services while contracting the company for other org psych/HR services. here is one of the big companies that does this, based in detroit, who i believe does this work with state of michigan employees (who i am not( - https://hmsanet.com/managed-behavioral-health.html the employer contracts this company to provide employee benefit limited mental health services and also uses their services for various disciplinary, mediation, crisis management, probably also consulting purposes. in my case, im being required to have a counseling session with a counselor through what is described by the company and my employer as a voluntary program, but i have been instructed that doing so is mandatory.

interestingly, in the past when ive worked with union members who got this disciplinary action, it was posed to them as they could choose to go to counseling or have a higher level disciplinary action. i was expecting this to happen to me, but i was not given the false option. mandatory referral through your employer are the words used. im required to sign a release of information allowing the counselor to disclose information about my participation and progress and it appears that this will likely be in the form of a checklist certifying my compliance. obviously what i would prefer is to create an even more complete paper trail of them doing homophobia on purpose so were considering the strategy...

[nutzworth]

its 6/12! i HAVE to read homestuck! i didnt read ANY last month. oops

DAY 9: JUNE 12, 2024

STATS: read for 2 hours and 30 minutes pages read: 1903-2068. 165 pages. act 5!!!!!! page 2000! slur count: 13 + 0 = 13 silly count: 13 + 0 = 13 piss count: 2/3

THOUGHTS: ohhh my god. ok not much original thought here but by god did a lot happen

ok LOTS OF TROLLS. this time. but we will get into that later

johnkat is so funny. karkat just kind of sucks. i guess were getting into it now HES SO FUNNY! hes so mean. esp to his troll friends in act 5. he has no whimsy and no fun. he loves to lie. hes oppressed hes a MUTANT yet he wants to join the military. even though the military would KILL HIM for being who he is. ohhh my god. his clean ass room. his romcoms. he loves romcoms. he sucks at programming. he keysmashes in here WHATEVER. back to the kids

soooo much guardian lore... so much LORE. i love nanna and i love pa harley. and their upbringing THEYRE SO WEIRD.

(about pa harley) ADVENTURE!!!! oh my god. "She can handle it, he tells her. He believes in her." AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! HOPE PLAYER! i love the hope aspect im gonna go crazy in act 6 when jake is there. but right now? this is FOOD. im EATING IT UP!

michael guy bowman is so john egbert voice. its canon that dave strider is a whiteboy and that michael guy bowman is literally john egbert and thats IT.

dave is being so rude and mean to terezi. for the girl that said to john "WOW. MAKING FUN OF A BLIND GIRL? FUCKED UP!!!!!" she sure does turn a blind eye (LOOOL) to dave being like "yeah me and this guy? all up best friends. you know why? we can both see. and were going to this see party and theres so much shit and paintings and its great. to look at. and FUCK YOU. for being BLIND." and terezis cackling about her wonderful D4V3 1S TH1S YOU? drawings. theyre funny

[S] DESCEND!!!!!!!!! oh my god. what a flash. this would make me crazy if i was an upd8 reader. JACK NOIR IS INSANE. HE JUST KILLS EVERYONE! the music is sooo good too. it matches so well. its SCARY.

speaking of jack noirs destruction: ok here's more about wv. this is probably so surface level but it drives me crazy i need to restate it ok wv is a regular ass farmer. hes normal. the WAR comes. hes like GOD THIS SUCKS! he starts a revolution. he unites both sides. hes radical hes powerful and by god is he AWESOME. he faces jack noir. him and his big ass army. jack noir KILLS ALL OF THEM. ALL OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEYRE ALL DEAD! except wv. which hussie puts it in the recap "Jack then killed the entire rebellion army, sparing only WV?. Perhaps to leave a survivor to tell the story, or perhaps out of respect for a fellow mutineer. Only he knows." WHAT????? WHAT!???? OKAY and so wv is surrounded by his brethren. his friends. his army. ALL DEAD. and at the same time prospit falls to skaia. and out from it is johns dream self. and a PLUSHIE. OF JACK NOIR.

this is insane. its like humiliating. its awful. its like jack is laughing at wv's face. oh my god. anyway wv rips it apart and hes real for that. I LOVE YOU WV!!!!!!!!!!!

not to mention PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! let me just put some badass images in here. so you know

SHES SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!! shes pissed off shes SO pissed off. she kills hb and uses his walkie talkie to call over jack noir. shes standing on that hill with the blood of jack's coworker flowing in the adjacent creek holding both the crowns covered in blood. she gets the promised package and SHOVES it in johns arms and storms off. shes PISSED OFF!!!! RIGHTFULLY SO! OH MY GOD!

and then the PACKAGE.... obviously you KNOW im crazy about the jake english cameo. but also....

this made me crazy. i like almost cried. oh my god. shes JUST DEAD. ON THE FLOOR. JOHNS SITTING THERE READING THESE LETTERS AND JADE IS DEAD!!!! IN FRONT OF HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob. oh my god. and he sheds One tear. and then jack comes to kill him

i loooove how homestuck goes panel-heavy sometimes... along with the short "a [...] is [...]. [...], [...]." which makes no sense in writing. let me give you some examples

i love it. it makes the reading more poetic and slow. its like, make your own opinions on the subject matter. its matter-of-fact. its simple. its SAD. its like this event is so disconnected from everything were going in third person to describe it. its curt and its AWESOME. I LOVE IT!!!! i think if skaia had dialogue or narration or anything this is what it would sound like. it would give you pictures and a short description, and it would say "go fetch".

ok recap. not much but hussie says "Back in the meteor lab, John began the ectobiology session which appeared to have been prepared for him in advance by the guardians who had just been there." which i think is so cute. the guardians prepared it FOR him.... homestuck is truly a story about kids and the things that control/lead them. guardians/skaia/fate/each other/first guardians(bec, doc scratch). even the story itself. so awesome

THEN ACT 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the silly name for alternia translates to "turd odor fuckball" which is funny. and karkats silly name translates to "nookstain bulgereek" which makes sense

whats REALLY interesting to me is karkats parallels with dave. even in these first few pages karkat is SO SIMILAR to him. both slice their teasing names in half and say that they dont have time. theyre "Kind of a big deal, ok?". they have a need to seem "cool". karkat narration has the line "This was not the coolest thing you could have done just now." which threw me for a loop: i never thought of karkat needing to seem Cool. but he does he wants to. hes a leader. he pretends to be a leader. he doesnt want to show to sollux that he thinks highly of him cus he needs to seem COOL. i love karkat

alternia is a planet full of tragedy. they need to sleep in sopor slime to assuage the nightmares of "blood and carnage". theyre surrounded by so much evil and destruction that they need DRUGS EVERY NIGHT to be normal. auuugh.

honestly i pity gamzee waaaay more than i pity karkat. karkat has it good for all i care in the beginning. hes just not sharing his blood color. GAMZEE THOUGH? everyone thinks hes annoying. you can tell hussie writes him as if he's a joke; its clear hussie hates gamzees character and wants you to hate him too. but i cant. hes a hippie and an addict and a black boy. and i feel SO BAD that hes written like that. he could have been great if he wasnt in this situation :-( im sorry gamzee

rip sollux you would have loved reddit

karkat at the end of the karkat/sollux convo kills me. "hey i know we just bantered about how much we hate each other and stuff, but are we still friends?" hes so cute. are we still friends. yeah... yeah. and sollux is like "you say this EVERY TIME. are you joking" and karkats like "Yeah. Yeah im joking haha. Sure am" the poor guy. just wants friends THEYRE JUST KIDS!!!!!! SOB!!

i love terezi. shes so ANNOYING. and i love her for it. shes just fooling around all the time. she wants to piss people off. "Ohhhh karkat youre sooooo handsome and heroic!" hahahahahaha. she does NOT care. "But all of your scalemates are alive to you. ... At least you pretend to believe that to annoy people." SHES SO FUNNY! she gives NO fucks. i love how shes drawn too

then karkat comes in all like HEY TEREZI. IM THE LEADER!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU! what an asshole. but terezi dont care. you know what she does? "lol ok." and then "yeah the leader goes on this badass and seriously cool heroic adventure and hes awesome. and me (the second in command) gets to sit down and do nothing and be bored and its no fun" and karkats like "YEAHHH!!!! IM THE HERO! WOOOO!" and then it cuts to the actual game and terezis been fooling around with her gamey god powers. hahahahahahaha so awesome

okay thats it. i love aradia i saw like 2 of her. maaaybe ill read more this summer :-) bye bye thanks!

[abyssmalice]

// genshin leaks

(someone told me there were madame ping leaks so i snooped around and found a whole bunch of the latest leaks and i Obviously have some thoughts about them

how could i not when we're supposedly getting harbinger info??????????????????????????????????????????????

so anyway. the remaining harbingers have a schism of ideology and being split into conservates and radicals is v interesting............

tonitoni would look like a radical in this case, probs more so than all the rest, but i also think she'd be neutral like pierro bc she also doesn't give two shits about what her coworkers think or what theyre fighting over. Her priority, is to fucking Leave the fatui after all, she wants no part in their nonsense beyond the bare minimum required.

ALSO THE COLUMBY AND PIERRO AND CAPPY INFO DROPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pierro and cappy truly do have dad energy just as i thought. and columby.................... i fucking called it, she vaguely does have freyja vibes, which is what i currently have for tonitoni's opinions on columbina (feels too much like freyja for her liking; "gentle and calm and has a loose screw in the head", add the part where fighting is normalized as freyja herself sees it....... YEAH IM WINNNNNNNNNNNNNINGGGGGGGGGGGGG)

[symbiodyke]

god. there are coworkers who I like that are trans and seem at least somewhat radical and want to hang out with me (???) but I think it would be weird to reach out.... like idk if they were just being polite or smth

I mean one of them texted me a few days ago but I haven't responded bc im going through it so fuckin bad rn so I think I missed my chance to connect with them. I hope their opinion of me as a potential friend isn't lowered

also one of them said their roommate has a pottery wheel and that I should come to their place and make something w them since I got so excited abt the mention of it but I can't tell if it was a real offer they want to follow through on.

i need to learn how to be normal is2g bc im clearly doing something wrong

[valodia]

Speaking of which today my coworker was back from her week of paid leave and she said "i thought of you this morning cause youre always saying work sucks and its basically inhumane to have to work for a living we dont need it etc. And i rlly felt that this morning. i wanted to stay home"

N im sitting here like i love that you think this way about me like it really sounds more radical than it feels to believe lmfao

[selamat-linting]

and yeah, other than my coworker being the most oversensitive and argumentative asshole in the world, my other friend, my little kitten whom i met in the org, he was rejected and got divorced because he used to cheat on his partners. and he does made a reputation in our local activism scene as someone who is in the right but so blunt that most people just simmer in resentment and complain about how he's too harsh and radical without actually refuting his points. like, im seeing all of that and i still wants his ass. to be fair, i think every communist have to be a little too blunt and aggro to survive in this political climate, but there is no hope for me to ever get close to someone normal. im too insane to have good taste in both friends and partners. even my highschool friends was a debate club kid. i have at least one long term friendship i ruined because i think we're having a fun conversations while the other thinks i hate their guts and is verbally shitting on everything they stand for.

to be fair, its not my fault. random kids and adults have been calling me insane freak or a variety of crazy bitch and mentally ill since i was six. the one compliment i consistently get throughout my entire life is that im "unique" or "different", they might as well call me insane. of course i'll end up falling for people who don't get along with others as well. of course im enamored with dumpster fires. of course i bond with them well.

[privatelife]

i complain abt this a lot but all my coworkers think im crazy and immature for not wanting to date republicans or libertarians or independents (or whatever other word they wanna use that all just translates to republican) and it MAKES me feel crazy like. no matter who it is, no matter their age or anything else they literally all say "well everyone's entitled to their opinions, i don't judge anybody for their political beliefs" like WHY THE FUCK DON'T YOU. it's not a fucking matter of opinion, it's basic human decency to not be a bigoted piece of shit. and why would i ever want to try and build a relationship with somebody who i disagree with so fundamentally. people can "believe what they want to believe" until i rule them out of my life entirely. funny how that works. i know i live in florida but i'm not the crazy one here i know im not. it genuinely upsets me on a regular basis how everyone perceives me as a childish "radical" for having a spine and morals and for not having a bloodthirsty vendetta against poor ppl (hello), gays (hello again), trans ppl, or anyone who isn't white. god

[toddstool]

hey I've been reading about female separatism and sm of it really resonates. I don't know what to do because I have little cousins (I'm 17) and i am a very huge part of their lives (I'm moving out of state in January to be closer to them) because their home environment is extremely difficult and dangerous, and I provide safety and comfort. They are the light of my life, but six of the nine kids are male. I want to take the most radical of steps because radical feminism is a huge huge huge part of my life too, I just can't imagine cutting contact with these children because they depend on me for stability and my love for them is immense and unimaginable. :( what should I do? I don't want to water down the female sepretism movement either. I totally understand if you don't have the answer that's okay, and thank you anyway for your help. any response is so appreciated.

be safe and take care

hi to jump right in: don't sweat it! I understand wanting to add to the movement and being involved, but individuals are of course going to have to deal with many different aspects and situations through out the course of their lives and not everything is so cookie cut. in my opinion, if helping and being there for those kids regardless if they're male/female is important to you then you should follow your heart and do that :·) I think it's pretty noble to go out of your way for that, most people wouldn't want to be involved. and since three of the kids are girls in a terrible situation I commend you homie. it shouldn't be your job to do this being a kid yourself and im honestly sorry to hear that, but I get that this is what you want to do. just remember to not be too hard on yourself. this is the adults failing, and whatever happens that you did your best. to make another point though, female separatism isn't just living with other women in a planned household; it can be little decisions here and there. something like deciding to only listen to music made by women, supporting and buying women's art, not making friends with males, not pandering or being friends specifically with male coworkers or classmates, sticking up for the women in your life even if you don't like them, etc etc. you're still a minor and don't have independence so something like separatism can be difficult to practice, don't worry about it. i mean who knows where you and these kids could be 20 years in the future! all in all what I'm trying to say is that you'll have to navigate life and what it throws at you by the best of your ability, and if you have ideals and practices that you want to implement, do it if you can! this isn't one of those situations where you can practice female separatism and that's okay. again, don't worry. focus on your studies and health, on becoming a strong, independent young lady, and you'll do just fine :D

[c0smiccom3t]

Where are my manners? Furyne... Meet Ryonna. /Ref

Alright so... This is Ryonna Lemurs. They are a Bounty Hunter. But you can call them Ryo. This is their radical era design btw, im currently making the current design right now.

Voice claim: Chloë Grace Moretz (Crash 4: It's About Time), Tabitha St. Germain (Radical Era, Tag Team Racing) (They have a cockney accent lol)

Ryonna started out as a Bounty Hunter for hire. After finishing their fighting classes and searching for a job, she started to become a bounty hunter. They had no calls, unfortunately. Even though she thought that Bounty Hunters "were big these times around". But then. Ryo got a call. And it was from a mad scientist. Ryo, after accepting the task to meet the scientist in their "castle", she set out and began their quest. (In pre-its about time, they made it in time and met Dr. Cortex. Agreeing to work for him. (i might write a fanfic about it actually) and in the its about time main continuity, Ryo made it late, and decided to hang around with N. Gin and N. Brio instead. Until finally meeting up with Cortex and becoming the duo of a lifetime for the game as it progresses.)

Ryonna is a very skilled fighter (After all they DID go to fighting / Martial arts classes, didn't she?), but also a master of stealth.

Aside from having superstrenght (except when they're holding Cortex. he's heavy to her.) and super strong fists that'd knock you out silly [aka Birdchirper (right) and Stargazer (left)], Ryo is an expert climber, and also has a strong enhanced leaping ability, enhanced reflexes, senses, night vision, a fluffy prehensible tail and super agility. Not to mention Stench Generation.

Oh. Yeah, speaking of stench... They have a weapon of her own which they call.. "Scent bombs". You know lemurs have got smell generation, and so this athletic lemur does, too! She has different types of scent bombs ("Fresh air bombs", for refreshing on a hot day, "Smoke bombs", to dissappear quickly with no trace from enemies, and most importantly... "Stink bombs", something to distract your enemies with when you fill them with the smell of defeat.)

Ryonna also serves as Cortex's right-hand... Instead of N. Brio. Funny, if i do say so myself. (Example: Crash Tag Team Racing, in which they had to share a car with him.). Even though Ryonna sometimes can't keep up with Cortex's childish behavior, temper tantrums and dramatic flair (especially sometimes they're considered more of a caretaker than a right-hand), she still cares about him and all they want is to see him happy. ("If you're happy then i'm happy, sir.")

Ryonna keeps a straight face (almost) most of the time, but fails to since things go on and she cant keep their feelings in for much longer. Especially when pure moments happen, she feels like they're about to cry. But they are mostly tough enough to stay strong for a little more.

Ryonna also has a crush on Dingodile, but i'll get to that on another time. this is taking too long.

BONUS QUOTE (from their current version from its about time): "...I did not get the invite to Rumble, unfortunately. But i am wishing the best of luck to my coworker N. Gin, my boss, Dr. Neo Cortex. ...And Dingodile as we--AGH! FORGET I SAID THAT LAST PART!"

TL;DR: Meet Ryonna and get to know their abilities and relationships in this post.

I might draw a few drawings of them and her relationship with Cortex btw. Just you wait. Now if you'll excuse me, i got a webcomic to schedule.

[sainthelgas]

Ive seen a lotta people naming people who they hlame for the election. So I thought id toss my hat in the ring

I blame Joe biden for being too much of an egotistical shitbrain to know when it was time to stand down

I blame people who voted third party gor thinking their shitty little party could ever realistically win an election. Its a game of pretend we have to keep up for their sake but lets all be honest. Jill Stein was never gonna win. Theres a better chance of donald trumo and kamala hariss both dying in a firey explosion

I blame Richard Nixon. Obviously. Reagen only became president because of him so oh yeah

I blame Reagen. Donald Trump is riding on his dick so hard. He wishes he could skin the man and walk around in it.

I blame the shithole state of florida in entirety. When i become president in 2027 after donald trump gets run over after his voters realise he isn't in fact gonna make the economy better instantly by being president ill nuke that little dick off the united states. Itll be so much more aestheticslly pleasing...

I blame england for sending us over here in the first place. I hope if donald trump becomes president he deports me and my lot back to ireland.

I blame canada as well. Specifically prkme minister Justin Trudeau. He knows what he did. Back in the summer of 2007...

I blame video essay youtubers whos "video essays" are actually like half lets play and half additional dialogue. Video essay is a very vague term but id say for it to be an essay you would ahve to write a script first. Fucking Moron.

I blame youtubers in general actually. Anyone with over a hundred thousand subscribers. Every single youtuber says they goted kamala but actually voted trump because theyre billioanires and all they care about is that tax break. Yes event the one you're thinking of. Them too.

I blame the writers of hey arnold: the jungle movie for reviving arnolds stupid parents with bad designs. People loves it cause they really wanted it to exist after it originally vot cancelled. But like as a movie it kinda sucks. I hate what they do with helgas character

I hate that I named this blog after helga from hey arnold. Yeah my names not helga btw. I considered ysing my real name but I dont wanna. So i will conti us to refer to myself as helga for simplicites sake.

I hate that we dont know. If i wake up tomorrow and kamala won somehow ill delete this post and if you mention it I will DENY DENY DENY. Im mostly just accepting s trump victory so in the case of her still winning somehow ill have a bice surprise in the morning.

I blame Mike Pence. Ultimate conservative pundit/loser. He couldnt even go throigh with a full on conspiracy so he pussied out. He was tbere for the rull radicalization of the conervative party a d he tugges his collar and went "yikes! I dunno boyt this one you guys..."

I blame my conservative (ex)coworkers. Even the hot one with green hair who played blink 182 alingside tom macdonald over the speaker. I was nothing but nice to her despite her being anything but to me.

I blame the character designers for Dandadan for not letting the grandma look like a gilf. That was literally the main reason I stopped watching it.

I blame the people of florida itself. Not just the state the people specifically. Of course the first time I actually vote it doesnt mean shit. Of course florida wasnt gonna flip blue who was I kidding. Florida was supposed to be a swing state but then he literally moved here sk that kinda went bust. Is that all it takes? Him moving here and spending his stupid donation momey on our economy? Hes like the ultimate tourist hes from new york of all places but floridians are sucking on him like calfs sucking on a teet.

I blame mr beast for not turning north carolina blue. He basically owns that state (which is also a shithole) he couldve turned it blue but he didnt.

I blame the disgusting rotting people of the united states. We can take comfort in the knowledge that every agaony we suffer we inflict it four times upon someone somewhere in the middle east. So you can see that on twitter and think "at least im not that guy".

I blame arizona nevada and all the other shithole states who try to leach onto relevance by being a swing state. Why are they deciding the election and not ME?!

I blame Jude. Hes in alabama and its red so I can buy that. Its his fault. I checked his discord and hes playing fucking huitar hero. How could you possibly play guitar hero at a time like this?!

And lastly. Of course I blame Donald trump. Ill give him this, he was born to be president. Loud annoying and overly confident. Kinda like a Gjinka of the united states itself. People will treat him as an oddity president for one reason or another but honestly hes not that much worse then nixon. Have you heard the nixon tapes? Half that shit is worse then most of what donald trump tweets. He just had the sense to not let other people know how genuinely delauded he was. A slow de-evolution going from jfk to nixon to trump. As people became more and more aware of how corrupt the president could be. My point here isnt to be like "oh trump aint gonna be that bad" cause he will be. Both on a moral and like political level. I think a swing toward conservatism has been kinda happening since 2020, even with joe biden as president we lost roe v wade and kinda saw him sit around like a corpse for four years. Which he was great at fyi. Really the role he was born to play. You could even forget he was there. Sorry this is supposed to be donald trump hate but its just so played out. Whats left to say? Hes imcompetent. He literally ran on building a wall and left office with the wall unfinished. The single most consistant thing about all politicians, is their ability to fail to keep their promises. If he couldnt even build one stupid wall how is he gonna do half the shit they out in plan 2025? Get ready for four years of failed promises and conservatives slowly having to realise donald trump isnt gonna make the money problem any better.

[dandie-on-the-wind]

dandie is in bloom

hey beautiful, its me, you!

so a lil recap; got dumped, healing heartbreak and abandonment wounds in therapy, reconciling the fact that relationships are two way streets, lost friends, made new ones, went on dates, went to lesbian nites, gave up on clawing at romance, started chipping the marble on what i want, came out as nonbinary, changed my name and pronouns, several meltdowns and depressive episodes, a strike at work! involvement in my community and radical organization, starting treatment for 'rollercoaster', talked to our parents earnestly and somehow we're okay.

i used to make a list of people in my diary that i loved. that list helped me come to terms with two things:

-i've met a lot of beautifully significant human being in this life, i'm ecstatic about most every new connection i have, i love people

-this list is those i've given my love to, not necessarily knowing if they were reciprocating

i used to think of love as a cup, a finite level of liquid held by a varying size goblet, now i see love as a waterfall, a tree, a dandelion. constantly in motion and changing form based on the medium and environment, SPREADING without strain

i also think i use the word too sparingly when it comes to those i care about. it's made the word lose its deep meaning, yet, added a sprinkling of beauty and light in everything thats not attached to another persons consciousness. i can say i love you to my coworkers and actually mean; i support you and i want to hear whats going on. i can say i love my friends, then later realize i was being too generous to those who dumped my goblet on the hardwood.

okay more later im so sleepy

last heard: i know the end by pheobe bridgers

okay im tearing up at this song goonite

dandie

[peachyteabuck]

Peachy!! im so sorry i completley forgot i wanted to ask about your reward aka the book trolley :D First off what was the best and worst book of last year? What was the easiest to listen to and the hardest, and with the trolley itself are you going to leave it as it is or are you gonna maybe add stickers or something to it? I had a random thought you could do some quilting inserts for the books to sit on, or something to put around the edge. I'm happy you reached your goal. what about this year?

hello!! I'm currently going to leave the Book Cart as is. I already have a drop off spot for stickers I get for free from random places, and I like the clean look of the cart currently. I do like the idea of quilting something for it, but I think that's just because I like the idea of a bookshelf quilt (but I uhhhhh have too many UFOs to start something big and new like that right now). Inspired by a coworker, my goal for 2024 is to read 105 books, and I've read 5 so far! I found another library that does free non-resident cards so Libby is my lifeblood right now for audiobooks.

best book(s) of 2023:

how the word is passed by clint smith

kill anything that moves by nick turse

this is how you lose the time war by Max Gladstone & Amal El-Mohtar

yellowface by r.f. kuang

salvation day by kari wallace

worst books of 2023:

Animal by Lisa Taddeo

a court of thorns and roses by sarah j. maas

hardest to listen to:

Confidence Man: The Making of Donald Trump and the Breaking of America by Maggie Haberman (it was good, just so fucking long. and maggie haberman narrates the book, and she's very much a journalist rather than a voice actor, so it's so monotone)

America's Cultural Revolution: How the Radical Left Conquered Everything by Christopher F. Rufo (conservatives are just...so dumb and wrong about things, to a degree that is legitimately painful)

best to listen to:

killers of a certain age by deanna raybourn (it's about assassins, so there are tons of accents, and the voice actors did an excellent job with all of them)

[thevillainsmustache]

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