#im only on episode 2 and i keep yelling

[allofuswantgwinam]

just started The Glory 👀 i love and i can’t wait to watch her kill them all!!!!!!! i fucking hate bullies with a PASSION!!!!!!!

[yutarot]

IN PERFECT SYNC [j.jh smau]

six — the man he was. wc: 376

the moment you heard jaehyuns voice amongst the crowd and the bands cover of champagne supernova, you immediately felt your heart drop.

there was no way this was happening.

“kazuha…” you poke her arm, causing her to roll her eyes at you for interrupting her so-called ‘fan moment’ which consisted of her being adamant she’d had eye-contact with the jeno lee, the bands bass player, who was standing 100 feet away.

“what is it!” she yells, and you immediately panic, whisper yelling at her to shut up.

but when you point to the man ahead of you, her eyes turn wide.

“no way.” she replies. “yn we need to leave.”

she grabs your arm in attempt to pull you out of the crowd. but there was no way in hell that you were leaving here without taking up this opportunity, and that fact only encouraged you. that and the 7 beers that you had already drunk, telling you that this was the best idea in the world.

which it definitely wasn’t.

but before kazuha could stop you, you had already reached up to tap on his shoulder, watching his eyes roll as he turns to face you.

“oh, for fuck sake.” he dead-pans, his friend, yuta, beside him, laughing at the sight.

jaehyun looks anything but amused.

“you’re blocking my view.” you snap. he sighs before attempting to turn back around. that was until the next words leave your mouth, somewhat quicker than you had hoped.

“so you’re just gonna ignore me. again.”

“yn.” he warns.

“no.” you shrug, “let’s talk about it, right here and now. i don’t see why not.”

he looks at yuta before turning back to you.

“you’re drunk.”

you know confronting jaehyun like this isn’t the best idea you’ve ever had, but this conversation is long overdue.

“im leaving, don’t talk to me.” jaehyun says as he walks off, yuta shrugging before following after him.

you want to chase after him, yell at him for everything he’s ever done to you, everything he ever did to you. but you stay, wondering if you’ll ever get the chance again.

but for now, you stay hating him. the man he is, the man he will be but most importantly:

the man he was.

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[dovveri]

misunderstandings

bachelorette masterlist - part 1 ▸ part 2 ▸ part 3 ▸ part 4 ▸ part 6 ▸ part 7

synopsis: y/n watches the most recent episode of the bachelorette and is met with something she doesn’t like. sana also seems to be angry for whatever reason and it builds up into a big argument at the end of the night.

warnings: sex! overstimulation, fingering, scissoring, oral sex, degradation, choking, cursing

w/c: 7.1k

a/n: soooo sorry for the delay this will probs be my last update for a while bcs finals season is driving me up a wall (if u see me post another story or part its bcs im actually not studying and u should yell at me for it) i lwk hate the pacing of this chapter i feel like its everywhere but hey! we got some smut!

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the backlash wonsik gets online is more than satisfactory. apparently, with all the evidence piled up against him, he would most likely be sent away for the rest of his life. which is disgusting to think about, how much crime do you have to commit to get a life sentence? you try to shake those thoughts as you watch the most recent episode with the leftover contestants while sana’s on her individual date as usual. it was tradition now, even more so as the pool of contestants gets smaller and smaller.

after your day off, things had gotten right back to normal.

sana went on a solo date with jacky. good thing it was jacky too because they had the famous ‘conquer a fear’ date. who knew big, australian jacky was afraid of balloons. and in typical bachelorette fashion, producers came up with a romantic hot air balloon date for 5am in the morning.

costume designers had rushed into your room at 4am, turning on all the lights and pulling sana from your arms, not even casting you a second look now that they were used to seeing the both of you cuddled up and naked most of the time they had to come in and dress you.

you were barely conscious as they ran around frantically, pulling the covers over your head and groaning a little, trying to make yourself go back to sleep.

you’re sure sana didn’t feel the best either from the little grumbles and whines you can hear faintly as she struggles to keep her eyes open while makeup artists dab eyeshadow on her eyelids.

soon enough they're off and you drift back into sleep, only to be awoken a few hours later so you can get dressed and attend the group date for the day.

that was also pretty fun. everything was meant to be high-adrenaline, facing your fears, all that sort of stuff today. so the team had booked out a big amusement park and you all had free rein. it was also good because it meant you had a little bit more freedom, not everyone had to stick together so people ended up splitting naturally when they wanted to do different rides and you had even managed to sneak sana away from the cameras for a quick make out session in the toilets.

it was a pretty great day and would make for a nice and light episode after the mayhem that happened with wonsik. there was a rose ceremony as always but this time, only 2 people were eliminated. unfortunately you had to say goodbye to dae and nayeon, sana did say it was getting harder and harder to eliminate people because as the more time goes on, the closer you get, and when there's less people in the house, it also facilitates closer relationships. she had to eliminate those two simply because she felt her romantic connection with them wasn't as strong as it was with some of the other contestants. it was rough but that's showbiz.

after 2 more eliminations tonight, it would officially be the quarter finals meaning it would be time for sana to meet all of her last 4 contestants' families and close ones.

currently, you're enjoying an afternoon tea at the contestants' house. as usual, sana was on a solo date with jiwon but there wouldn't be a group date today because there wasn't enough time to film it. instead, the both of you were allowed a little sleep in after yesterday's rude 4am awakening, and a little more time in the afternoon to dress up before the rose ceremony tonight.

the episode had just finished with jacky and sana's date. jacky still won't go near a balloon and he's probably developed a fear of heights on top of that too now but at least it looked pretty on television.

you had teased him when the episode showed him nervously walking around and inspecting the hot air balloon before sana had to basically yank him into the basket. he had his eyes shut tight the entire time, holding on to sana for dear life while they ascended. it was a little cute when sana finally managed to get him to peek his eyes open once they reached their highest altitude, just in time to catch the sunrise, and in exchange for getting over his fear and not backing out of this date with her, she gave him a rose and kissed him on the cheek.

you heard afterwards from eunji that as soon as they touched back down he had jumped out of the basket and laid face down in the grass for about half an hour, just getting used to the feeling of being on the ground again.

they had caught a bit of him on the floor doing exactly that which was pretty hilarious because sana was crouched next to him, poking him and trying to get him to sit up but he just groaned and mumbled something incomprehensibly in response, his rose still clutched tight in his hand, stretched out in front of him.

they cut it off there though, maybe a little for jacky's reputation but you all knew how long he was there for.

after a short break where they show a few scenes of silly occurrences inside the house with the other contestants, and then finding out everyone was invited on the group date that day, except for jacky who was invited but ended up taking the rest of the day off to recuperate and basically laid in bed in the medical office, even skipping the rose ceremony since he already got his rose.

they shot everyone in the car on the way to the amusement park, asking the contestants what they thought was going to happen, if anyone was scared, trying to pull a few comedic clips together, all the anticipation scenes the audience needed to be excited for the date.

eventually, everyone's in the middle of the amusement park with sana and yourself waiting for them in casual clothes. you shift a little as you recall the way you had her gasping into your mouth and your hand up the blue polo shirt she’s wearing on screen only 20 minutes after the introduction and everyone had split off.

in the meantime, while the cameras were running around frantically trying to find sana, they had filled in the gaps with clips of the other contestants, you laugh when momo is practically dragged onto a rollercoaster by jihyo and jun, she’s kicking and screaming but they manage to strap her in and gesture for the roller coaster attendant to go. its one of those really fast ones where it goes from 0 to 100 in seconds so the force pushes all of them back against the seats, poor momo barely has the time to blink and then its over. she’s gasping with her eyes clenched shut while the other two are laughing and pulling her off and along to the next ride.

it’s great being able to watch what happened when you weren’t on screen, and also what sana was up to when you weren’t with her.

you laugh when they show all the contestants clambering onto the carousel, you had all taken some group pictures and some of them were more than silly.

eventually, you get to the rose ceremony, and just as you were on the night, your breath is taken away again with sana in a stunning red dress. she really nailed being on camera, her face was one that was meant to be on screen.

the night starts merrily, everyone's more of a family now, you’re all happy to drink and talk together, and it wasn’t so competitive to get time with sana anymore because there were less contestants.

you frown a little though when the camera shifts to sana and jihyo, they’re sitting very close in one of the more private rooms inside the house.

jihyo’s playing a joke and sana’s laughing, a little flushed, probably from the alcohol as she slaps jihyo’s arm lightheartedly. jihyo preens at the attention, grabbing another drink and offering it to sana who accepts it gratefully and takes a sip.

she hums in satisfaction before speaking up, “so you never did tell me how you broke up with that gym rat…”

jihyo’s laughing a little nervously, twiddling her thumbs a little, “right yeah… i just realised that i made the wrong decision. i was caught up in the newness of everything with him but after that got old, i realised i still loved-“

sana’s eyebrows are shooting up, she’s setting down her drink and clearing her throat.

“sorry.” jihyo flashes an apologetic look over at sana, but sana shakes her head.

“no no it’s okay. be as honest as you can, please. we’re both here because we’re looking for a relationship right? can’t do that if we have any skeletons still in the closet.”

jihyo’s smiling gratefully and then continuing, “he wasn’t it for me. that’s why i broke up with him. i’m sorry for the way i treated you sana, you didn’t deserve that, you never did anything wrong in our relationship and i never really gave you a reason to why we broke up. i hoped by coming on here i may be able to win back a second chance.”

sana hums again, taking a moment to think while jihyo nervously looks at her with wide eyes.

“jihyo… you hurt me a lot when you left.”

“i know! and i’m so so sorry for that! i never want to do that to you again, all i’m asking for is another chance sana.”

she’s shuffling closer, grabbing sana’s hands tightly and imploring with her eyes.

sana looks down at their hands together, taking a breath before looking back up, "look... i'm not going to lie to you... i never really did get over you completely."

what?

"and i wouldn't have kept you in here for this long if i wasn't curious about what you had to say and if i wasn't ready to give you a second chance."

what the actual fuck?

"it wouldn't be fair though. to the other contestants, y'know? if they knew you had a head start. and i admit i was avoiding you a little because i wanted to even the playing field and get to know everyone else first before revisiting this." she makes a gesture with her hands, signaling between the two of them. "so its nice to finally be able to sit down and get a clear answer about what happened in the past."

jihyo looks more and more hopeful as sana goes on, your hands only get tighter around the fabric of your pants. sana didn't tell you about this conversation last night. sana hasn't mentioned anything jihyo related. whenever you ask, she's always managed to change the conversation or misdirect you with the promise of sex. was this why? is this how she really felt about jihyo? did she think you would disapprove? well you do disapprove but that was besides the point.

all of the other contestants don't seem too shocked with this news. it's not too surprising though because they've all lived with jihyo and the one thing they all have in common is sana so there's no doubt they've all discussed each other's feelings for sana, and jihyo probably told them their history as well.

you're fuming though. you can't believe sana didn't tell you something this important. that you're finding this out along with the rest of the country when you were meant to be her best friend here, the one person who was supposed to know everything before everyone.

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the rest of the afternoon goes by in a blur. you can vaguely tell when someone comes up to you and tries to initiate or bring you into the conversation but your mind is swirling with information about sana and jihyo, their past interactions, whether you could decipher any of sana's feelings from observing her.

eventually, it's time for the rose ceremony again and you're still in your head about everything you thought you knew happened yesterday.

you have half the mind to pull sana aside and ask her about it but when you meet sana's eyes, she squints a little and looks away quickly with signs of a pout in her lip.

the night continues like this, the two of you stealing glances at each other only when you think the other isn't looking. when sana starts pulling jihyo aside though, you don't care if she sees the look of disbelief on your face, she doesn't seem to notice anyway, all cozied up to jihyo.

you're averting your head again and downing the rest of your drink in one gulp.

when it's time to read out who gets a rose and who's going home, you're stiff standing next to sana, she's purposely avoiding your gaze as well. the tension between you two was so thick jiwon had come up and asked if something had happened between you two. and technically nothing did happen so you don't really know why sana seems to be angry with you when you were the one who was hurt by yesterday's episode.

the ceremony is brief, you have to say goodbye to jun, and eunji unfortunately but you can barely give them a proper hug as you stare at jihyo who's now made the final four.

after your goodbyes you quickly make your way towards the car, tapping your foot impatiently while waiting for sana to finish saying her goodbyes so you could both go home.

unfortunately, that takes another 20 minutes and you're just about to tell the driver to leave without her when she's sliding into the car, still avoiding your gaze and sitting on the opposite end of the car. normally she's all over you, needing affection after a big day but now you're pretty sure if she moved any further away she'd be falling out the window.

that was fine though. it’s not like you wanted to have an argument with her while the driver could hear you anyway.

the car’s pulling in and she’s opening her door and stalking inside the house without even a second glance towards you.

what the fuck? why was she mad at you now?

you feel almost childish copying her actions and making sure to slam the door on the way in, but if she was acting like this for no reason that only infuriated you more.

you find her in the kitchen, tapping her foot impatiently and waiting for you to come in.

once you’re standing on opposite sides of the counter, you cross your arms and still. she’s leaning on the counter with her hands, staring you down. there was no way you were going to be the first to break. she was the one who had some explaining to do right now, not you.

sana's stubborn as well though, lips pursed and not backing down.

it goes on like this for a few minutes before you finally break, raising an eyebrow and asking coldly, "so do you have anything you want to say to me sana?"

sana scoffs, the tips of her ears red, "do you have anything you want to say y/n?"

"what? no! i don't even know why you're being like this right now! i'm the one who's been left in the dark here."

"oh you're the one who's been left in the dark huh? unbelievable that you're still lying to my face about this. is that how you really feel about her?"

"excuse me?! it doesn't matter how i feel about her! the whole issue is how you've been dealing with this situation!"

sana sneers, your voices getting louder and louder trying to top each other, "this again? seriously y/n? i'm my own person and i'm allowed to have opinions on who i like and who i don't like! if she's being weird or sneaky or whatever i'm going to call her out on it!"

you scoff, "yeah right. like you called her out on it last night? and tonight as well i bet. why did you take so long saying your goodbyes huh?"

sana goes beet red and you think you've got her, "what?! what are you talking about?! and i stayed behind to say proper goodbyes to everyone! not like you apparently who couldn't care less, you barely talked to anyone tonight, when jun, and eunji, who was one of your closest friends here right?! when they had to leave you didn't even look them in the eye when they hugged you!"

"riiiiiiiiiight and you expect me to believe that? you weren't cuddling up and getting a quickie in before you had to go right?"

"what?! what are you talking about y/n?! quickie- what?"

"with jihyo! you stayed behind to talk to her didn't you!?"

"what?! well yeah i did but what does jihyo have to do with any of this?"

"what?! i've been talking about jihyo this whole time what do you mean?"

she's slipping something out of her suit pocket and sliding it across the counter to you. your phone.

"are you fucking serious y/n? you've been talking about jihyo this whole time? what the fuck? why the fuck are you suddenly bringing her up? you're the one who's been going behind my back getting all flirty and friendly with miyeon! after you told me you were just friends?! calling each other babe and sweetie and honey in your texts, how the fuck did you even get her number anyway? how long have you been talking to her huh? how long have you been fucking me while talking to someone else?"

you're scrambling for your phone, unlocking it and scrolling to your messages with miyeon. fuck. sana must have read everything. you don't even remember leaving your phone behind but it must have been with her since the morning. you scroll down the texts and see the most recent messages miyeon has texted you today and you find that sana has been replying to her.

"are you serious sana?! why the fuck did you go through my phone?"

sana turns her head at that, pouting a little, "i didn't mean to! she just kept on texting and i thought it must have been something important if your phone kept going off so i just went in to make sure everything was okay! how was i supposed to know you were basically sexting her behind my back!?"

"we were not sexting oh my god sana! miyeon is my friend we're just friends!"

"why have you been keeping this from me then?! you must like her or something then don't you?!"

"what?! no! and don't talk to me about keeping secrets right now sana!"

"what secrets have i kept from you?!"

"hello?!" you're waving your hands around frantically, "the whole jihyo situation?! why didn't you tell me you never got over her?"

"i never got over- what?!"

"you said so last night! on national fucking television! don't play dumb with me right now sana, and don't try and change the topic on me!"

"i never said that! are you being serious right now? jihyo and i split and it took me a while but you were there for it all! you saw me at my lowest and you helped build me back up! i am over her!"

"why is she in the final four then?"

"oh my god y/n you cannot seriously still be talking about jihyo! i'm over her! the producers wanted her to make it to the final four because they thought they could add some drama in during the home visits or whatever! jihyo and i talked about it last night and i told her why she was still here because i didn't want to keep leading her on! that's why i stayed for longer after the rose ceremony, i just wanted to check on her and make sure she was okay with all of this because i still care about her! i loved her at one point in my life!"

"that's not what i saw in last night's episode!"

"what?!"

"yeah! you and jihyo were all close and snuggly and she told you she still loved you and you said you were going to give her a second chance!"

"y/n i never said any of that." the rage has lifted slightly now, replaced with confusion.

you're breathing heavily, tired from arguing, you and sana had more fights these few weeks that you've been filming than you've had your entire lives together.

you tap out of your messaging app, going to tiktok and searching up last night's bachelorette episode, scrolling past all the funny jacky moments and amusement park shorts, trying to find the part where jihyo and sana were talking. someone had to have posted about it.

"are you serious right now? are you fucking texting miyeon while we're talking?"

"what?! no! sana i told you miyeon and i are just friends! i'm trying to find a clip of you and jihyo last night to show you what i'm talking about!" you find one then and quickly hold it out for sana to see.

she watches the clip replay a few times while you wait defiantly.

after the seventh replay you take your phone back, sighing when you think she has nothing to say for herself.

“y/n…”

“want to explain yourself now? anything else you wanna divulge while you’re at it?”

“what? no y/n i didn’t say any of that. they edited that together. i didn’t say any of that to jihyo i promise.”

you look at her in confusion, looking back to your phone, and then back to her.

“i did pull jihyo aside and we did talk but i never told her that i didn't get over her. y/n you have to believe me baby i- i can call the producers right now, they'll clear everything up." she's reaching for her phone, but the immense relief that she doesn't still have feelings for jihyo washes over you and brings you to action. moving around the counter and taking her phone from her and wrapping her in a hug.

she stills against you, and you're both surprised when you feel your own tears falling down your face, the tension of the night finally getting to you.

"y/n..."

"i'm sorry. i'm sorry i do believe you. this all seems so silly now i hate when we fight. i overreacted with the whole jihyo thing and it could've been solved so easily if i'd just talked to you instead of..."

sana softens against you, wrapping her arms around your waist and carding a hand through your hair. "it's okay baby. i'll talk to the producers tomorrow and make sure they don't pull anything like that again. and after the home visits i promise jihyo is the one who'll be going home."

you sniffle a little, "you don't have to do that for me sana. i swear i was just being..."

"hmm?"

"i don't know i'm tired sana. can we go to bed?"

she hums against you, pulling you both towards the bathroom for your nighttime routines. once you're done, you're climbing into sana's bed and picking up your phone again, scrolling back to your messages with miyeon while waiting for sana to finish her routine and join you.

y/n: heyy sorry i just got my phone back, sana's had it the last few hours because i left it behind so if i seemed weird over text it's because she was messaging you

miyeon: oh it's okay! i did think you sounded a bit off but i just chalked it up to u not feeling well or something. was sana mad when she found out we were texting?

y/n: 😂 how did you know?

miyeon: well i was on the receiving end of her jealousy when she texted me today so that was one clue 😂

y/n: jealousy?

suddenly your phone starts vibrating and miyeon's name flashes across the screen. you pick up hesitantly, "hello?"

"y/n! hey! it's good to actually hear your voice again!"

you chuckle a little, "you too princess. what's up?"

"nothing really, i just wanted to see where your head's at with sana now."

"what do you mean?"

"remember the conversation we had the night i got kicked out? while you were drunk?"

you squint a little, shuffling around in the sheets, "kinda... why?"

"i noticed the way you looked at her, the way you talked about her, even on the first night i think the reason why no one suspected that you weren't just a regular contestant was because i thought, we all thought you also felt the same way we did for sana."

"w-what?"

"you might not have realised it... but i think you were beginning to see it when filming started. do you get jealous when you see sana with the other contestants?"

"i- well- i mean i kinda just thought i was friend jealous though. or like that i just wanted the best for her which was why i was so harsh on contestants in the beginning."

"the way you talk about her over text sounds like its more than that y/n."

"i don't- what- i'm not jealous-"

you barely register that sana's finished with her routine now, sliding into bed next to you and cuddling up immediately. "what are you jealous about?"

you freeze, looking at her like you've been caught with your hand in the cookie jar in the middle of the night.

"is that sana?" you're broken out of it quickly when you hear miyeon's voice over the phone.

sana bristles though, moving away from you and frowning, "are you on the phone with miyeon?"

"i- yeah-"

sana's snatching the phone out of your hand instantly, bringing it up to her ear and speaking into the microphone with a cold sneer, "yes this is sana. can i help you?"

you can't hear miyeon respond but the way sana's speaking sends a lightning rod of arousal down your spine. your mind is still hazy with what miyeon's suggested, and you're thinking about how you hated seeing sana kiss wonsik, how blinded you felt when you thought sana still liked jihyo, what could this mean? how long have you liked sana for? has it always been this way?

you don't realise that sana's features have become less defensive as she talks to miyeon, almost apologetic even when she settles back down next to you, humming in response to something miyeon's said over the phone. she's within proximity again that you can make out miyeon's voice.

"-but i hope you've been doing well and taking care of yourself with all the craziness that comes along with filming."

"yeah thank you miyeon. really. and again i'm so sorry for all the misunderstandings and i hope you know that eliminating you was definitely a mistake and it was very short-sighted of me but i'm glad that we've finally had a chance to talk where i'm not completely hostile to you."

you can hear the airy giggle of miyeon over the phone, "of course! all the best with the rest of the season sana. maybe we'll see each other on the other side."

sana smiles, "definitely. goodnight miyeon!"

she hangs up and hands your phone back to you, going right back to cuddling as if nothing had happened.

you're trying to pick out what part of that conversation that you overheard bothered you when it hits. "eliminating miyeon was a mistake?" was this the jealousy again?

"weren't you the one saying that?" sana raises an eyebrow at you, brushing her fingers over your side.

"well- i-"

she's giggling now, "i'm just kidding. miyeon just put to rest everything that was on my mind so i have nothing to worry about. i'm sorry for overreacting when i found out you were texting her. you're allowed to have friends, sorry i was trying to micromanage that."

"what was on your mind?"

"hmm y'know... you mostly."

you whine, hitting her lightly while she laughs at you.

"she told me you were just friends and she never meant to make it seem like it was anything else. she also helped me... come to terms with a few things so i'm actually very grateful for that."

"what things?"

"so many questions y/n. are you worried i'm about to steal her away from you?" sana teases.

"what? no! stop teasing-"

she grins, poking your cheek, "i'm keeping that to myself for now okay? i'll probably tell you one day. just not today."

"why not?"

"just because." she smiles, "now let's sleep."

you grumble a little, confused at what miyeon could have told sana, confused with what miyeon told you. there was one thing you did want to test out though...

you lean in quickly and capture sana's lips, taking her a little by surprise but she's quick to reciprocate, closing her eyes and kissing you back.

you're aggressive, climbing on top of her quickly and licking into her. you're trying to figure out if kissing her made you feel anything more. anything that could clue you in on your true feelings for her.

she's breaking away from you panting though, pushing you back slightly when you try to chase after her again, "woah y/n baby baby slow down- what's got you all in a rush?"

your eyes are dark as you look down at her, friends don't normally feel like the world would end if they stopped kissing right? you needed to be back on her, in her, needed to feel her around you, needed to taste her, needed to memorise every single sound she made, you needed her. that was more than just lust right?

"just- just need you please-" you're leaning back in, almost begging.

"no- no y/n stop. tell me what's going on, you're not normally like this."

you groan, head falling to her shoulder, slumping against her. "something stupid miyeon said..." you mumble into her shoulder.

"what did she say?"

you huff against her, "that i had feelings for you."

you hear the gasp sana lets out, her hands at your waist tightening their hold and you groan into her, grinding down a little at the feeling.

she stills you though, hands sliding down to grip your hips, "stop that." her voice is harsh, and you're reminded of the way she talked to miyeon over the phone, all cold and annoyed. it only makes you drip more at the tone of her voice and you whimper a little.

"do you?"

"do i what?" you're distracted, wanting only to kiss her again.

"do you have feelings for me?"

you sigh, "don't know- that's what i'm trying to figure out."

"how are you trying to figure it out?"

"kissing you. touching you. seeing if all of it made me feel something more."

"something more?"

"i don't know. something other than horny."

sana hums before finally loosening her grip. "okay. try it. just promise me you'll tell me what you think afterwards?"

you're quick to latch onto her lips again, mumbling yes and thank you into her.

she bucks her hips up against you and you moan. she was finally giving into her feelings and letting you do what you wanted, expressing herself freely.

“can you- mmf- can you-“

“what what is it baby? what do you need?”

“can you- be mad at me?”

she’s kissing down your neck, nipping slightly as you grind down into her, “i’m not mad at you. we talked about this just then baby.”

“no- i need- can you pretend to be mad?”

she’s licking up to your ear, “i don’t understand baby. can you elaborate?”

“f-fuck sana- can you- just imagine i did like miyeon and i wanted to fuck her-“

you’re scared you said the wrong thing and ruined the mood when she stills under you. then all of a sudden she’s rolling you over and straddling your hips, lips and teeth back at the sensitive parts on your neck. “you like it when i’m mad?”

“g-god yes sana please-“

“whore. you want me to mark you up? make sure everyone knows your mine? mine to ruin?”

“yes yes sana please-“

you moan when you feel her sucking at your collarbone, intending on doing exactly that.

"off." her hands are at the bottom of your shirt tugging, and you scramble up, almost knocking your forehead against hers in haste, you'd laugh but you were so pent up you couldn't think about anything other than her fucking you all night long.

her hands are cold when she slides them up your stomach, cupping your tits and you shiver at the feeling.

"trying to piss me off on purpose bringing up her name into this hm? after we just made up too." she squeezes and you gasp into her, nipples hard against her palms as she runs a thumb over the tip.

"think my pretty baby's going to come for anyone else?" she circles a nipple leaving you twitching, "i'm going to ruin you so that everytime you even come close to coming in the future, you'll only be able to think about me."

she's licking a trail down the middle of your chest, before sucking marks into the sides of your breasts, avoiding your nipples, only tracing them lightly with the tip of her thumb.

you're squirming around under her, begging and crying, eyes clenched shut, hand drifting down towards your folds, trying to alleviate some of the pressure that's built up.

she snatches your hand quickly and pins it above your head, "don't even fucking think about it."

you whine under her, trying to pull away from her grip but she has you completely under her control.

"don't do that baby. you asked for this didn't you? you're going to be a good girl and take it now." her lips come back down on your other tit, sucking and licking again, you're grinding up into nothing, stuck with the feeling of your own sticky arousal.

"p-please sana need- please- more-"

"what do you need baby? this?" she takes a nipple into her mouth then, sucking gently and flicking over it with her tongue, then popping it out of her mouth, "or this?" a hand trails lower, thumbing the waistband of your pyjama bottoms. "maybe this?" a knee comes up then, pressing right where you need her most and you’re moaning against her.

"g-god sana- fuck- all- all of it- god i need all of it-"

"be more specific sweetie. you can do it. c'mon now."

"f-fuck need you to fuck me like you said you would. need to feel your fingers inside me, your mouth wrapped around my clit, your hands gripping my ass so hard it'll leave behind handprints. just need you sana please- please-"

"mmm that's a good girl. begging for me like the slut you are. because you were so pretty i'll give you that. but you gotta talk me through it okay? if you stop i'll stop and i'm going to go fuck myself in your bed and leave you here for the rest of the night."

you whimper, nodding your head.

"words baby."

"yes, yes yes god please just-"

she smirks and then she's back at your nipples, fully sucking on them now and pulling your bottoms off along with your panties, immediately swiping a finger through your wetness. the sudden change from feeling nothing to feeling everything be stimulated was almost too much but also exactly what you needed.

"god sana please- inside- need you inside."

she's pushing one finger in and you feel yourself clench around her, already so close, desperate for her. suddenly you're remembering your actual task, but before you can formulate another thought she's pulling out and thrusting back in with another finger.

"god you're so wet for me baby. how long have you been thinking about this hm?"

"i- fuck- i'm never not thinking about you sana."

sana hums, keeping a slow, languid pace, "is that helping with your little mission tonight?"

"i- w- fuck sana faster please-"

"answer the question first."

"f-fuck i- i don't know- i c-can't think- please-"

she's pulling out and removing herself from you so that none of your skin is touching anymore.

"now? now can you think?"

"sana please fuck- yes! yes it's helping everything is helping please just need you back-" you're making grabby hands at her, trying to pull her back so you can feel her against you again.

she obliges, pushing back into you and humming, "that's a good girl."

"thank you- god sana- thank you- mm fuck thank you-" you're babbling, barely making sense when she speeds up, curling her fingers inside you just the way she knows you like, and rubbing her thumb along your clit each thrust inside.

soon enough, you're coming around her, her name and curses spilling out of your mouth but she's not done. she's crawling down your body, marking almost every inch of skin she can get her mouth on, and then latching onto your clit and sucking, fingers still pounding into you.

"f-fuck! sana! 's too much! f-fuck-"

she only hums against you, the vibrations against your clit only tightening the coil in your belly once more and the overstimulation is too much and you feel yourself coming again.

she's pulling out and you think she's finished but she flips you onto your stomach, slipping a pillow under you to lift your ass up, hands gripping the cheeks and spreading them apart, just like how you had begged her to. but then her fingers are prodding at your entrance again and she slides in, and this angle is so much deeper and you cry out, muffled against the sheets, trying to squirm away from her but she's got your ass right where she wants you.

she's leaning down, pushing in and out of you again, you can feel her chest against your back, the fact that she's still wearing her top fleetingly crosses your mind but you can still feel her hardened nipples against your skin, you arch back into her.

"my baby's not done yet. you're going to give me another one. and another one. until you've finished your little experiment right?"

you're sobbing into the sheets, the delightful mixture of pleasure and pain running through your body, your hyperaware of every single movement, every single place your skin touches, every breath she takes as she ruts her fingers into you.

you feel your third orgasm coming up when a hand is snaking a way back up your body, pinching roughly at your nipples before closing around your throat. you gulp and clench even harder around her fingers when she squeezes her hand lightly, moaning your approval.

"yeah? you like that slut?"

"y-yes o-oh god fuck- sana- fuck-"

she's squeezing tighter now and the pressure is perfect, the lightheadedness from the cutoff of oxygen combined with the overstimulation and you're coming again, thrashing into her as she releases you slowly, heaving in air as specks of black dot your vision.

you feel almost numb when she slides the pillow out from under you, turning you slightly so she can kiss you gently, and you moan at the taste of yourself on her tongue.

she's slipping a leg between yours when you realise that she's taken off her bottoms, and you gasp when the feeling of her wetness glides against your clit.

you whimper against her lips, "sana..."

"shhhh baby one more."

you're helpless against her, whining and pushing yourself into her, relishing the way her breath catches and she moans when your clits drag along each other. she's got one hand at your tit again, pinching a nipple and you need to feel more of her so you slide a hand up her top, grasping at her breast and moaning when she rocks against you just a little harder at the feeling.

your lips never leave each other, even when you're so blissed out you're just panting into her mouth, rutting against her. you're not even thinking straight when you mumble the words, slurred together and mixed with curses, but sana still catches it. "i love you."

she stops immediately, leaving you humping her like a dog, panting into her wondering why she's stopped.

she's gripping your hips, stilling you, eyes wide, "what did you just say?"

"i love you sana fuck- please- please let me come again please-"

her eyes study you, half-dazed, and then suddenly she's rutting against you again, your hands tighten around her tits just to be able to hold onto something because she's pushing against you and you're so close and her hands are basically moving your hips against hers without you even doing anything, she's moaning into your mouth, caught in her own pleasure and it's all too much when you feel her tighten her legs around you, coming with a whine and shaking, you come again, eyes closing and feeling the wave of pleasure wash over your body, twitching lightly against her in the aftershock.

when you pull apart your legs are sticky and filthy and hers aren't much better, stained with your essence, you can't even open your eyes, just letting her plant light kisses across your face and neck, holding her against you and learning to breathe again.

when she kisses your eyelids you manage to peek open, staring at her in wonder.

"did you mean it?" her eyebrows are slightly furrowed, hair sticking to her forehead, bottom lip protruding a little in a pout.

you were overcome with pleasure and overstimulation, but you remember everything you said. "i did. i love you. i'm sorry it took this long to realise it."

she sighs, eyes tearing up, "i love you too idiot."

"what about the season?"

"we'll figure that out later. let me clean you up and we can cuddle and sleep?"

you hum, whining when she leaves you to grab a damp towel, missing her warmth already. it felt painful to be without her. every second you spent apart, you were thinking about her, you can't help but laugh at how stupid you've been. you've been in love with sana for the better half of your life, you were determined to make it up to her. to show her just how much you loved her. just how much you needed her in your life.

you smile happily when she comes back, bringing her into a sweet kiss and letting her wipe at your legs. you were so, utterly, in love with her, and you finally realised it.

[actualbird]

who in the nxx yells “THERE’S A BUG” and who removes the bug, and how?

HELP HAHAHAKHVFAHSF THIS IS A LOVELY PROMPT, THANK U FOR THIS!!!

those who yell "THERES A BUG": marius and mc

now im not saying both of them are particularly squeamish, no no, they can definitely keep it cool when the situation Calls For It. that being said, seeing a bug in the nxx meeting room on a slow day isnt exactly the most high stakes of situations, so the most High Stakes Element remains to be whatever bug they see

mc just doesnt like bugs, theyre creepy theyre crawly and she doesnt trust anything that can dart out of her line of vision in the blink of an eye

marius also doesnt like bugs and because of his upbringing, he did not get to see very many of them growing up. which means every time he Did see a Bug Intruder, it's like a Category 5 Drama Moment

the moment they see the bug, theyre announcing it LOUDLY to everybody else in the room while also getting up to stand on some chairs

those who dont yell "THERES A BUG" but does look at the bug and track its every movement while sitting still like a statue hoping the bug doesnt notice him, as if bugs operate on some kind of t-rex knowledge: artem

let's rewind a bit. before marius and mc saw the bug, artem saw it first. and he just

didnt say anything about it

artem.....Also Does Not Like Bugs. but he also also doesnt like being loud about things he doesnt like so he just Sits There, so still you'd think he fucking died, and he hopes the bug mistakes him for some kind of inanimate man-shaped furniture and avoids him due to sheer disinterest

it doesnt avoid him.

it probably crawls or flies very close to him a few times the only thing that stops him from screaming "THERES A BUG" is his self-control thats as hard as cast-iron skillet

it's fine though because marius and mc spot it and sound the alarm

(thank god)

those who remove the bug: luke and vyn

luke and vyn are the ones who will both 1) be completely unbothered by the bug and 2) have to bring it out

the reason for luke is obvious, he's had wilderness survival training and probably had to eat bugs like in an episode of Man VS Wild to survive on an uninhabited island, so hes REALLY past any squeamishness with bugs. in fact, if mc said the word, luke would grab the bug and crush it with his bare hands

and vyn is a gardener!!! bugs are APLENTY in the garden, so he sees them not as malevolent but as important creatures in a healthy ecosystem. the bug probably got in from vyn's garden, actually, since nxx hq is on his property

and thus

The Timeline Of Events When a Bug Appears In The NXX HQ Meeting Room

bug: //crawls in

artem: //sees it, soul leaves his body for a bit and he petrifies himself as a defense mechanism

mc: why did artem go so still

marius: i dont know, maybe hes rebooting?

mc: dont be mean!

marius: im not being mea---FUCK

mc: what?

marius: THERES A BUG

mc: theres a wha---THERES A BUG

marius and mc: //immediately moving to stand on the couch

artem: //still Not Moving, hoping that mc and marius' sudden movements attract it

bug: //flexes wings open and closed

mc: NNNNO NO NO NO

marius: STOP DOING THAT MOTHERFUCKER

mc: NONONNONONONNNONONNOONONOONOO

marius: AAAAAAAAAA

vyn and luke, coming back in from where they were in the file room: ???

mc: THERES A BUG THERES A BUG

luke: oh. do you want me to kill it?

mc: NO!!

marius: YES!!!!!!

artem: i havent moved in 20 minutes

mc: JUST BRING IT OUT

luke: dead or alive?

mc: ALIVE

marius: DEAD

vyn, while they were all conversing: //gently coaxes the bug onto his palm and lets it out through the window

vyn's rationale here was that luke was doing a great job at handling (i.e. distracting) the People, so he went ahead and took care of the Bug. the bug will not be returning to the nxx meeting room because it was quite cold with no soil and also VERY loud

[ungratefulurchin]

hey uh so im so sorry for anyone who enjoyed the dandys park au, i just cant keep pushing myself to do it as im just too stressed and keep having panic attacks but here is the rest of the character designs and the whole fic for the au 🫶

may continue it one day when i am properly able to but for now i cant, again i am so sorry to the few people who actually enjoyed it.

and heres the WHOLE story, with erics ending too 👍

CHAPTER 1:

it was a normal day in south park, a few fights but nothing out of the ordinary till stan called kyle, kenny, and eric to come to his house since he found an old tape that looked interesting.

As the group arrived they all marvelled at the tape labeled ‘DANDYS PARK’

“is that some gay ass kids show stan?! this is what you called us here for????” yelled eric.

“yeah but ive never seen it before do you guys want to at least see what it is?” stan said.

the group agreed to watch it (eric only joining since stan had food) and as it played an old fashioned rainbow intro spread across the screen displaying all of the characters, the cartoon characters sung along throughout the episodes and danced while talking about various topics like talkshows, dinosaurs, baking and cooking, music, shops and even sleep.

on the last episode it was around 3am, the boys all slowly woke up and grumbled about the loud tv.

it seemed much more eerie and dark since when the fell asleep until, stan had a small red petal coming out of his face.

“dude, stan what the hell is wrong with your face, you have a petal coming out of it..” kyle spoke worriedly.

the tv slowly cut to a picture of dandy the flower with no petals but a small red one growing on his face, exactly like stans.

(muffled) “hey uhh guys look at the tv..” kenny whispered while pointing to the tv.

stan felt ill and fell back asleep on kyles shoulder as more colourful petals sprouted around his face till he was basically a dandy lookalike.

suddenly eric yelped as he glanced into his reflection to see his arms to look like shrimp arms.

the other 2 quickly turned their heads to see what eric was yelling about as he passed out on the floor basically looking like a shrimp.

kenny was next, his whole head turning to glass as it morphed into a fish bowl.

kyle being last let out a scream before his skin turned into a strawberry like texture, still looking fairly close to his as he had been sunburnt a few days ago.

the whole town had rised into complete chaos as many kids were turning into weird things and just straight up disappearing.

after while all the kids woke up in colourful rooms, some finding out earlier that they had been turned into a toon.

stan woke up in a shop, he looked in a mirror and realised he looked like the flower from the show, since the flower was a shopkeeper and stan felt as if he was meant to be him and since dandy was the leader stan would test out a microphone that echoed into each room explaining that everyone is okay buy that they should come to find him so they could sort this out.

after about 15 minutes everyone flowed into his shop and he tapped his microphone to get everyones attention.

“okay so as you all can tell, we have been turned into.. uh well toons?” stan spoke worriedly as he explained the situation.

“i think our best bet is to try figure out how to get out of here as i think this is linked to a tv show me and my friends were watching.”

after stans little speech the toons divided into their own groups, stans gang was the first to go down the elevator but on the first floor stan disappeared and couldn’t be found, kenny figured out that they could extract a black goop from the machines scattered across the room and after completing all of them the door opened and as it closed stan popped out of the floor with a shop, he was sweating and looked like a had seen a ghost, kyle noticed the same black goop they had extracted on his hands but decided to talk to him about it later.

after a bit the group gave up and as they came back to everyone they were bombarded with questions, suddenly a speaker boomed

“TO COMPLETE FLOORS EXTRACT ICHOR AND SAVE TAPES TO BUY FROM DANDY.”

stan was in the back of his shop with his dog trying to find a way out as some ichor spilled on his hand and and made it grow stronger and larger, stan decided to try test it on his dog but as he did, kyle walked in to talk to him about the ichor on his hands and thought he was trying to kill his dog and turned into a monster because of his hand.

stan yelped in suprise and quickly locked the door leaving him, kyle and sparky in the room.

kyle began questioning him but soon stans gaze went above kyles head to a giant sparky snarling at them both, stan quickly smacked his ichor hand over half of kyles face leaving a ichor spot on him as sparky ripped his arm off, stan ran out and locked them in there, kyles painful screaming and the sound of one last yelp as his foot was torn off before absolute silence. stan sat down in his promising himself to never return into the room, before a few toons came down to his shop.

CHAPTER 2.

a few toons walked over to stans desk and she shortest, who appeared to be an eight ball asked about the elevators and if they were a way out.

“uh im not sure maybe go down there amd figure it out, just extract those machines like the speaker said to.?” stan said

“okay.. sounds stupid but we are sick of this” firkle said angrily.

DING!

a large elevator door opened and the four goths walked in, mike was running to catch the elevator but just missed it.

…

FLOOR 1

the elevator halted and a large door opened with a timer telling them to exit or be sent back up.

the goths walked into the unfamiliar room and began to look around for whatever they thought the machines were, after about 10 minutes Henrietta found the first machine and the other goths got to the others, Michael was surprised at how fast he was at doing it but decided not to mention it.

DING!

…

FLOOR 5

the goths walked out yet again chattering about how easy this was and how peaceful it was since no one else was down there, suddenly firkle heard a loud snapping noise sounding like rocks grinding together, low but fast footsteps that sounded like mud being dragged across the floor were getting closer.

firkle was sweating while crouched low hiding behind a box. . .

*Drip.. drip.. drip..*

ichor was falling from above the box firkle was hiding behind.

…

a low growl came from above firkle causing him to snap his head up to see what was behind him.

Sparky was standing above firkle, his face snapped in two pieces held together by ichor, it was the most terrifying thing firkle had seen.

…

*BARK BARK* an angry bark followed by an unrecognisable scream echoed down the hall

firkle was running for his life as micheal finished the last machine it felt as if sparky had gotten faster, suddenly as all the goths ran to firkle, sparky had him stuck in a corner.

the other goths didn’t know what to do since the timer was ticking.

pete ran past micheal and henrietta knowing how badly this could end and used his star hands to push henrietta and micheal in the elevator, he then threw himself at sparky stunning the twisted dog and dropped his blanket to reveal his four arms to grab firkle.

“d-did you know he had four arms..?” asked micheal.

“..no. oh my god look he’s running back with firkle they will be okay!”

henrietta gasped.

suddenly pete whispered “sorry firkle, try land in a roll..”

“HUH PETE WHAT DO YOU M-“ screamed firkle as pete used all four of his arms to throw firkle with all his might into the elevator.

FIVE.

FOUR.

THREE…

pete stopped knowing he wouldn’t make it and did a small wave to the other goths while yelling to cover firkles eyes.

TWO…

sparky appeared behind pete and pulled him away while he screamed for mercy as the elevator closed.

ONE.

micheal was the only one who properly saw it as he stood in front of firkle and Henrietta who was behind firkle covering his eyes.

“i.. lets go back up.”

micheal spoke softly obviously holding back tears.

firkle began screaming asking where pete was and if he was okay, henrietta softly whispered that he was fine (knowing he was infact gone)

but to not tell ANYONE, even mike and to just say you dont know where he is.

as the elevator took the three back micheal sprinted past the crowd in front of the elevator asking how it went, he dashed to his room and slammed the door shut and locked it as he began uncontrollably sobbing.

CHAPTER 3

(TW SU1CIDE) please dont push yourself to read those chapter if you cant, it is not very important to the storyline.

…

eric walked out of his room looking to find kyle to pick on, after searching everywhere he went to stand for help.

“do you know where kahl is?” eric asked with a hint of anger but also something else.

“uh. no i dont have you checked his room?”

“yes, i guess ill just go on a solo run.” eric said with no expression.

DING! the elevator arrived, kenny asked if he could come but eric turned around and gave him a look telling him to leave, craig and tweek were near him and craig was trying to calm him down since tweek thought that eric was going to die.

eric stepped into the elevator anxiously and left a note inside for whoever goes into the elevator to see, suddenly stan popped out of the floor scaring him a little.

“can i just leave this note here? i want someone to see it so people know what happened to me.. uh! incase anything happens.” eric questioned

stan looked at him like he was going to say something but just nodded quietly.

DING!

FLOOR 1

eric walked out and began to wonder around the warehouse he was in, eric picked up a candy he found on the floor and ate it, it made him speed up a bit, he documented it in his book and kept going.

he found a machine and began doing it, a slight urge to give up came across him, he just kept going though.

he documented everything on the floor and threw his book next to a machine with a little rainbow bandaid next to it.

…

it was quiet and kind of cold but eric just stared at his reflection in the machine and threw his head against the machine rapidly.

he quickly noticed it was filling up faster than when he did it his usual way so he began to hit his head faster, his ears ringing and hushed head throbbing as he did it.

DING!

the elevator came back but eric glanced at stan and remembering that he basically had no one left as kyle disappeared, standing was always working and butters hated him he bolted towards a machine, his head spinning as he ran.

SMASH!

he smashed his head into the machine one last time, his ears rung as his head bled ichor.

he put some ichor on his finger and in his last moments he drew a small heart on the back of his head.

…

maybe it is better this way.

stan watched feeling a pang of guilt run through him but ended up leaving his note for whoever entered the elevator next.

…

DING!

kenny walked in casually after realising that eric hadn’t returned for a good 4 hours, stan tried to hide the fact he knew why he was here but wasnt very good at it.

a few toons yelled goodluck while laughing about how great it was to have a break from eric.

kenny saw the note and asked stan about it but he just said eric wanted to leave it in the elevator, kenny picked it up planning on reading it while on the floor.

DING!

FLOOR 1

kenny opened the note reading it slowly.

If you are reading this, i am probably gone.

i have nothing to say but sorry, im sorry for annoying everyone and making such poor choices.

it is better off this way.

- Eric C

kenny felt his heart drop as he read the note, he ran frantically around the warehouse looking for eric but only found a note explaining about the candies and how the bandaids work.

kenny quickly finished the machines till he got to the last. even the fish in his head seemed shocked.

a machine was broken open, ichor leaking out onto the floor.

he was gone. eric was gone.

DING! the elevator appeared and kenny walked in coldly, not even cracking any jokes.

as he went back up to the other toons holding a note and walking silently away to his room, they all could guess what happened.

Heres the character sheet too just because incase anyone wants to draw them 😄

tag me if you do i would love to see!

DANDY - stan

ASTRO - pete

SPROUT - kyle

VEE - bebe

SHELLY - mike

PEBBLE - stans dog sparky

TOODLES - firkle

TEAGAN - henrietta

RODGER - micheal

GLISTEN - clyde

SHRIMPO - eric

FINN - kenny

BOXTEN - tweek

CONNIE - craig

POPPY - nichole

GOOB - jimmy (make eyes go diff ways)

SCRAPS - timmy

RND

RAZZLE (white one) - pip

DAZZLE (grey one) - damien

LOOEY - tolkien

TISHA - heidi

COSMO - butters

BRIGHTNEY - wendy

GIGI - red

FLUTTER - unnamed goth girl

[fmluder24]

Sticking it to the Government: “Drive,” Antisemitism, and the Antiauthoritarianism of Fools (3166 words)

Buckle up and put it into high gear, folks! This is a post analyzing Season 6 Episode 2 “Drive” and its current popularity on my dash as of writing this post. Spoiler alert: This is one of my least favorite episodes (up there with “First Person Shooter” and “En Ami”) and I am very skeptical of its resurgence right now. This post will include an analysis of the episode, placing it within the larger meta-textual context of the show’s treatment of conspiracy and how Mulder in particular is sopping wet with antisemitic tropes. Then I will move on to evaluate the current popularity of one line in particular on Tumblr (“You’ve got to stay alive if you want to stick it to the government”), what that line is responding to in the current American context, and why we should be critical of its application in this moment. Please don’t reply telling me that it’s my fault for reading into this and that it’s not that deep! It is.

The Episode (with Analysis)

Im going to only briefly mention pretty much every Scully scene, not because I don’t love our girl, but because the point of the episode and my problem with it lies entirely in Crump’s scenes. In fact, many of Scully’s scenes are wonderfully atmospheric and show off what a badass she is. They are the best parts of the episode and for that they will be sidelined. This post is already going to be way too long so I need to be economical where I can be.

We open on a broadcast chase scene, which is a very nice moment of realism. Thank you, Vince. Crump is driving with his wife (Vicky) in the backseat of a stolen car. They think she has been kidnapped and intercept him. He gets arrested. Vickys’s head explodes. Cut to Mulder and Scully are doing some grunt work following up on fertilizer purchases. Mulder is grumpy, Scully is very professional. Mulder’s interest is piqued by the news story playing in the background of the house they are at. He convinces Scully to take a detour to investigate the case.

Cut to Crump in his cell, with his head ringing, crying for help. The local law enforcement officer says that he is accusing them of killing his wife. Scully decides to look at Vickys body while Mulder says he will try to talk to Crump. The scene where Scully and the ME examine Vicky’s remains is very good, very atmospheric and viscerally gross. Mulder follows Crumps ambulance as they take him to the hospital. We notice that he does better the faster the ambulance driver drives. When they arrive at a stop sign, Crump jumps out with a gun and takes Mulder hostage. Scully calls Mulder and informs him that there may be a contagion at play, but Mulder is already trapped in close quarters with Crump. Scully tries to coordinate with local law enforcement to intercept them, but Crump threatens to kill Mulder if they don’t back off. Its at this point that we get the first crucial hint of Crumps animus for Mulder. He picks up Mulder’s badge, scoffs, and says, “It’s you people. Figures.”

Now this has some plausible deniability to it. Perhaps he is seeing that Mulder works for the federal government, and being that he evidently thinks government officials are out to get him, he must be reluctant to trust Mulder as he is an officer of the law. However, that is not the reason he tosses the badge aside in contempt.

The tension amps up when Mulder stops at a traffic light and Crump screams for him to go. Mulder puts together that he has to keep the car in motion to keep Crump alive. He then starts calling Mulder “boy” and yells that “you people put me here.” I think the decision to have Crump insist on calling Mulder “boy” is to me more indicative of how I’ve seen white people write anti-Black racism than it is indicative of how antisemitic interactions go, but your opinions may vary. Mulder and Crump avoid the roadblock that local law enforcement set up. Meanwhile Kersch contacts Scully and makes it apparent that the jig is up. They aren’t getting away with doing this under the radar.

Mulder tries to get more information from Crump, who insists Mulder address him as Mr. Crump. Crump then asks Mulder if his last name is Jewish. Mulder neither confirms nor denies this, only insisting that he also be addressed as Mr. Mulder. I think from Mulder’s reaction he is not particularly taken aback at Crump’s statement. We have seen him experience being profiled by antisemites before, which obviously happens during “Kaddish.” Less obvious but still relevant is when he gets tortured by a skinhead in “The Pine Bluff Variant,” but that episode is not the subject of this post.

Cut to Scully investigating the Crump residence, being a thorough badass as per usual. They find a dog who Scully thinks is exhibiting the same pathology, whose head also explodes. Cut back to Mulder and Crump. Mulder is trying to get more information out of Crump to figure out what has been done to him. Crump explains how his wife grew sick and how the faster he drove when taking her to the hospital, the better she seemed to do. Mulder expresses his condolences to which Crump replies “Sure you are. You and your Jew FBI.”

Ding a ling a ling. That’s a bell. There is an element of irony here. Mulder is not a part of some shadowy conspiracy to torture Crump, but he was born into the elite globalist cabal based in New York City. More on that later.

Crump then rants about how he knows what’s really going on and that he is a government guinea pig. He backs up this feeling by listing different negative reporting on real actions of the US government, such as Agent Orange exposure. He says he’s seen government agents sneaking around the woods near his house at night. It is here that Mulder gives us the immortal quip, “On behalf of the international Jewish conspiracy, I just need to inform you that we are almost out of gas.”

Cut to Scully doing her investigative science things and barging into the home of an old deaf woman. Again, this scene is very atmospheric and enjoyable. Mulder and Crump have to stop for gas. Things go wrong such that they eventually just steal another car and hit the road again. He leaves a message to call Dana Scully at the FBI. Scully is puzzling over why the deaf woman has been fine when everyone else is ill. She puts together that this isn’t a pathogen. Scully receives Mulder’s message that if they stop, Crump will die.

Mulder and Crump realize they need to go faster and faster to keep Crump well. Crump mumbles a very half assed apology about “the Jew stuff” stating that Mulder “cant help who he’s born to.” This is, and I cannot state this strongly enough, not an actual apology. Mulder even sarcastically jokes about how he can’t see the road because he is tearing up. Crump then asks what I wonder every time I watch this episode— why the fuck is Mulder helping him? (Because this is a fantasy written by a white Gentile of a minority helping their oppressor despite it compromising their safety but I digress.) Mulder replies that Crump shouldn’t make him question that right now. Crump expresses skepticism that Mulder is actually helping him, fearing that he may just be playing into the hands of the grand Jewish conspiracy. Crump wishes he were dead instead, to which Mulder replies “Hey, you gotta stay alive if you want to stick it to the government.” More on this line later.

Scully goes to investigate the Navy’s Project Seafarer. She pretends she is part of the FCC. Apparently there was a brief power surge in the ground conduction system. She gets little information. Cut to Crump and Mulder. He is still insisting on being called Mr. Crump, although we have now turned a corner and he has begun to call Mulder, Mr. Mulder. Cops on motorcycles hand Mulder a phone so he can talk to Scully. (Codependent besties cant go a day without talking lol). She fills Mulder in on the ground conduction from Project Seafarer going underneath Crump’s property and how that impacted Crump. Upon hanging up with Scully, Mulder says to Crump, “Whether they did this intentionally or not, you were right. They did it to you.” Here we have no actual condemnation of the antisemitism that Crump is espousing. In fact, Crump is pretty much spot on. Mulder is literally affirming that the government did this to him, with no clarification that this in no way reflects on Jewry.

Mulder relays the plan to Crump. The plan is for Scully to intercept them, using a large needle to relieve the pressure in Crumps ear without anesthetic. Mulder ultimately runs into Scully at the end of the highway, a dead Crump in his backseat, crushed at his failure. He looks pensively out at the ocean, removing his tie.

Cut to DC. Kersch bitches at them for going off without permission and for running up a giant bill that Scully, poor girl, is now responsible for. Scully stands by Mulder’s decisions and the fact that the DOD shut down Project Seafarer due to their work. Kersch is a dick about it. End of the episode.

Hopefully the next one isn’t also radically out of touch, with like, for instance, campy Nazis trying to kill a time traveling Mulder. That would form a concerning pattern!

The Problem with the Episode

The thing about this episode that really gets to me is there is no definitive condemnation of Crump’s version of events. We are meant to read from Mulder’s use of humor, and the truism that Mulder is Always Right, that the crimes of the government in this episode have nothing to do with the ethnoreligion of its suspected members. But the episode does not actively state this. Crump’s bias isn’t actually checked beyond the fact that he seems to think he has met One of The Good Ones in the form of Mulder. The X Files does not actively condemn the antisemitism that infects the show, aside from the episode “Kaddish,” which has its own problems, as do all of the Very Special Episodes of the show. Really, if you were watching this episode as a one off, without the context that we are typically supposed to agree with whatever social or political statement Mulder is making, you could walk away from this thinking that The Jews in fact did this to Crump!

But let’s go with the assumption that almost every episode asks us to go with— that Mulder is right. Mulder doesn’t seem to believe in any antisemitic characterizations of the government he is working from within to fight. At least part of the reason for this seems to be that he is actively, repeatedly under threat from these antisemitic bozos, regardless of his whatever his ethnic affiliation is supposed to be. He is a Jew in the eyes of the people who would do him harm because of that, and he, being aware of this, seems to take a dim view of antisemites.

Why did the writers bother to give him a personal stake in the fight? I think the writers knew they were playing with fire by writing a show about how conspiracy theories are true, and they wanted to distance themselves from the accusations of antisemitism that would inevitably follow. The significant thing to me, here, is that I am fairly certain this was a cynical attempt to distance themselves from allegations of how they were utilizing tropes around Jews in their conspiracy plotlines, rather than an attempt to actually distance themselves from the tropes in question. But why wouldn’t it be enough to just have Mulder condemn antisemitism, as he does by his lines in “Kaddish”?

My cynical interpretation that I have no evidence for beyond my gut feeling, is that they just couldn’t help themselves upon seeing David Duchovny. My more serious, text-based interpretation is that Mulder, while not canonically Jewish, is on a meta-textual level, representative of The Jew. What do I mean by this? I have written elsewhere about the mostly negative Jewish stereotypes embedded in Fox Mulder as a character.

Here is a quick rundown for people who didn’t see that post:

1. He is a rich cheapskate.

2. He is born into the elite globalist cabal based in New York City, which specifically

helped Nazis escape justice after the Holocaust.

3. He dislikes his own appearance, to the point of wanting a nose job, specifically.

4, He knows some Yiddish.

5. He inexplicably hits it off well with sketchy Jewish-coded characters like Saperstein.

6. He died in the Holocaust. (Deep sigh)

7. He consistently faces antisemitism, often to the point of violence being done to him or at the very least threatened.

Bonus round: He is anti-Christianity specifically, and “Revelations” implies that God does not show up in Mulder’s life as a test of Scully’s faith.

In essence, he is a fetishized, and in these cases helpless, victim of antisemitism, while being simultaneously from a very malevolent and powerful background. He stands in opposition to the canonically existing Christian God of the show, and is peppered with these little tiny culturally Jewish moments. All this amounts to him taking the role that is attributed to The Jew as a figure in the non-Jewish imagination, with the various contradictions that that role entails around power, victimhood and privilege. He is not canonically Jewish, yet he’s pretty much beat for beat how these writers would have written a Jewish character, sans some obligatory circumcision jokes.

The show’s treatment of conspiracy cannot be pulled apart from the fact that a character laden with negative tropes around Judaism is explicitly born into the group pulling the strings of this elaborate global conspiracy. Judaism would already be associated with that group given the broader context of how virtually all conspiracy theories around globalist cabals eventually get to an antisemitic place in mainstream American culture. This association is just all the more apparent in the context of The X Files having a character connected to the cabal who has these tropes and experiences attached to him.

The Antiauthoritarianism of Fools

The fact that this goes largely unaddressed within the show and within the fandom leads me to characterize this as “the antiauthoritarianism of fools.” This is a play on the concept of “the socialism of fools,” which is basically the idea that people who have criticisms of capitalism fall for antisemitic conspiracy theories instead of actually thinking critically about capitalism and arriving at a more principled criticism that doesn’t target Jewish people. The antiauthoritarianism of fools, then, would be an antiauthoritarianism that falls into convenient and lazy beliefs around antisemitic conspiracy theories, rather than a principled antiauthoritarianism that targets the actual powers that be.

The government that Crump is trying to to survive to stick it to is, in his head, The Jews. Mulder, in all his Jew-coded glory, is the emissary of that government, simultaneously canonically complicit in what has been done to Crump, and working against the powers that are trying to harm him. Mulder is as paradoxical in the episode as is The Jew is in the non-Jewish imagination. I don’t think Mulder is literally endorsing Crump’s antisemitic worldview when he encourages Crump to stay alive. Mulder is pretty canonically An Ally, if not straight up One of Us depending on your interpretation. But in the narrative of the episode, we are never actually refuting Crump’s assertion that the government he needs to stick it to are The Jews. For all we know, he dies believing that, and believing that he just happened to run into a Good Jew, who couldn’t help the fact that he was born Jewish. This does not actually lessen his antisemitism. He is a very sympathetic villain despite the values dissonance I think the episode is trying and failing to lead us towards. It isn’t enough to lightly imply that he is wrong about what he believes about Jewish people by having Mulder disagree with him; we needed the writers to actually, unequivocally condemn him like they did the Nazis in “Kaddish.” Leaving this open to interpretation just reinforces the tropes they are playing with. Really the entirety of The X Files has a superficial politics, a kind of reflexive paranoia that falls very easily into the antiauthoritarianism of fools.

Why This Matters Here and Now

Okay, so some people are reblogging a gifset on Tumblr with a line I don’t like. Whomp whomp. Who cares?

This matters because this is a popularization of a moment that is the antiauthoritarianism of fools. We are in a context where many, many people in the United States live in terror and rage due to the recent election of Donald Trump. I am one of these people. In that sense, the sentiment that one should stay alive out of spite to such an evil government can be empowering.

We also live in a moment where the richest man in the world did two Nazi Salutes back to back at the presidential inauguration. If you disagree with that characterization of his gesture, block me please. And the ADL, ostensibly made for the protection of Jews in the United States, failed to condemn him. This is a moment of a radical mainstreaming of antisemitism along with every other hateful -ism under the sun. In this moment, we should not promote an uncritical antiauthoritarianism of fools, because that uncritical thinking will bite us all in the collective ass. When people reblog that gifset or images, they are promoting a moment where the context is that The Jews are the evil government that one should resist. Thinking critically about art is essential when fascism is on the rise.

Am I going to block people who post that quote? No. Because I also believe in freedom of speech. I get why the vibe of that quotation is something people are going for when shit is so rough and scary right now, but I think we need to be critical of the context of the quotation if we are going to build communities and spaces strong enough to resist.

Thank you for reading if you made it this far. If you need me, I’ll be writing Tu B’Shvat MSR fluff, because Jewish fans deserve a celebration of Judaism, not whatever the hell Carter and Co. wrote. If you want more of a Jewish perspective on this episode, I wrote a fic a while back where Mulder is actually Jewish and processes with Scully what that experience of being kidnapped by an antisemite would have been like for him. Here’s the link:

[fandomfantasyy]

MASSIVE WARNING FOR II 17 SPOILERS ++ INANIMATE INSANITY THEORY ++ ADAM KATZ TWITTER CODE SOLVING !!

i am holding onto way more hope than i should, however, this is a stray theory of mine that im holding onto for said hopes sake.

to those who haven't watched ii 17 yet, PLEASE keep scrolling. i mention just about everything that happened in the episode, and im basically reviewing it at the start. the episode is so much better without any spoilers!!

so, inanimate insanity 17. if you don't wanna hear me blabber on and on about the episode, scroll to the other big text. otherwise i am RANTING i need an outlet. 3:

inanimate insanity 17 was a rodeo. me and my partner had a few straggling theories before we watched it, and a few of them were true. knife did indeed punch cobs, they really did fight, everyone that heard was disappointed to find out they were made by mephone 4.

starting with the majority of the opening sequence, going from memory here, knife's desperation? ow. suitcase's new found paranoia? OW. them doing everything to find out what was wrong was so bittersweet, because you can just tell that they don't know how to stop it and are holding onto to random theories and hope.

nearing more of the middle section, i completely forgot that bow could possess people. made me giggle a bit tbh….. besides that, I HATE COBS HE MANIPULATED MY BABY, TOILET. ☹️ the admission of guilt from mephone 4, only to realize his apology could never speak loud enough almost killed me. lightbulb, fan, and test tube, all dead. the bright lights poly. when toilet told mepad that he understood it wasn't a competition anymore? and when cobs pulled off toilet and begun killing everyone? jesus christ dude (also im a little sad at the lack of extra pronunciation on "your" when paper yelled at salt saying "hes not your boyfriend" as a payjay shipper but....)

more on the end side, the fight convinced me for a damn while. it doesn't make sense to me how one single throw got knife extremely scuffed and chipped, but it's finneee, it's show logic!! :3 anygays. the main painful time. the pull of the plug, prompting toilet to call himself "the best assistant", the way knife put his hand on suitcase to comfort her, the way cobs SACRIFICED MEPHONE X??? dude this show is gonna make me go bonkers.

last but not least, "the show is over," and mephone 4 has no choice but to go back "home" with cobs. ow.

there are still so many questions. the eggs helped power everything, but were they fake? how did mephone 4 find the land he built inanimate insanity on? obviously it isn't fake, he's still sitting on it at the end of the episode. where's 3gs? what about mepad? was mepad made up? too much to answer with too little information.

overall, what a painful episode. it seems like the end, right? wrong.

inanimate insanity is not over. we are getting ii18.

at least, thats my theory. average movie length spans 1½ hours to 2½ hours. us inanimate insanity fans were told that this finale would be as long as a movie. right now, we are only at an hour. i dont remember the last time i watched a movie that was only an hour. they're out there, yes, but i doubt the creators would pray on very short movies to support their angst.

adam katz's teasing on twitter / x, saying that mephone x was after him, only for his account to be seemingly gone or empty? there's no way adam simply quit twitter because he ended his line of work. it's a thing that happens, but i dont think this is that. most of adam's characters in the show died before the plug was pulled. is that a direct reference? i don't know.

as of october 15th, adam seemingly returned to twitter, but instead as the robot from ii17. why would they bring him back suddenly, why would they make this teaser? there's no real, legitimate explanation in my eyes... other than them maybe just wanting to torture us. that, however, is not the point.

continuing on adam robot twitter thing, on his twitter / x profile / status, (idk what it's called i don't use twitter / x,) it says, "Loading a large amount of files... / Estimated wait tim: 2880 minutes, 0 seconds". that directly translates to two days. we're heavily likely to get the true final episode or the trailer of such of ii2 in 2 days.

update for the above. on october 18th, around 3pm EST, a code to decipher was posted. someone in the comments of the twitter / x post said that it was "you seek to know the true reason for such a tragic second season if you decide you want to show more there may be something to restore see .com/insert code". we, the viewers might be bringing the show back.

season one and season three's final episodes ended with a "the end". ii17 did not have this end card. this seems like a very crucial thing that they couldn't just "leave out". after all, why on the most important finale of all of the finales so far, would they leave out saying "the end"? if it's truly the end, they wouldn't leave it with a black screen and a sobbing community. (the last part, maybe, but not the first part.....)

both season one ended with 18 episodes, and season three ended with 19 episodes. season two seems to almost be ending on episode 17. this could go either way, with season two ending with a pattern of 17-18-19, OR, if we're really lucky, 18-19-20. (or we just get an extra 18 or smth idk)

there is a reason why this is only a stray theory of mine. only 6 days before the release of ii17, adam katz and brian koch were saying their thank you's and goodbye's to the inanimate insanity community. it feels like the end of this show is near, if not sadly over now.

overall, i still have hope. but this wont be clear until we either see a ii18 trailer or we dont. i will regularly update this with new information as it gets found by me and my partner. goodbye for now, inanimate insanity community, and good luck.

robot adam's twitter saga.

adam katz's teasing on twitter / x, saying that mephone x was after him, only for his account to be seemingly gone or empty? there's no way adam simply quit twitter because he ended his line of work. it's a thing that happens, but i dont think this is that. most of adam's characters in the show died before the plug was pulled. is that a direct reference? i don't know.

as of october 15th, adam seemingly returned to twitter, but instead as the robot from ii17. why would they bring him back suddenly, why would they make this teaser? there's no real, legitimate explanation in my eyes... other than them maybe just wanting to torture us. that, however, is not the point.

continuing on adam robot twitter thing, on his twitter / x profile / status, (idk what it's called i don't use twitter / x,) it says, "Loading a large amount of files... / Estimated wait tim: 2880 minutes, 0 seconds". that directly translates to two days. we're heavily likely to get the true final episode or the trailer of such of ii2 in 2 days.

update for the above. on october 18th, around 3pm EST, a code to decipher was posted. someone in the comments of the twitter / x post said that it was "you seek to know the true reason for such a tragic second season if you decide you want to show more there may be something to restore see .com/insert code". (credits to @\NickleBFDIA2012 on twitter/x !!) we, the viewers might be bringing the show back.

connecting to that, more hints have already been found. there was a code on cabby's wiki that is decoded to “You want the second key word? These pages are your answer. Next, go to the three time player with the lowest average placement." (credits to @\MeesterTweester on twitter/x !!) this brought the fandom to nickel (i believe), and im not quite sure what it says.

however, i do know one thing. it's been solved, and my theory was proven true.

we will be getting episode 18 of inanimate insanity by late november.

[zoyo14]

dont kill me pls

uh, controversial opinion, i didnt like the MD finale

[spoilers/ranting]

now dont get me wrong, i feel like the ending was fine, but the trip to get to said ending? ehhhhhhhhhhhh..

the animation is like, the greatest, prob the greatest in the entire series. however, the writing for that episode feels under cooked. like, theres too many plot holes, too many lose ends, the pacing is absolute dog water.

but the biggest issue? N and Uzi's personalities changed. Uzi reverted back to pilot emo gremlin, and N turns into strictly Uzi support with PTSD.

like, idk, i feel like N really didnt do anything, like, you could prob remove him from the episode and it would be more or less the same. and if you look at the merch?

feral N? decapitating J??? i dont think N earned this, that didnt happen. im 99% sure N doesnt even lay a finger on J that whole episode, the most he even interacts with J is writing the "I O U one spaceship" note. like, the N that was teased and shown in the merch vs the N in the actual episode is not the same person. [no i dont mean that literally]

Vs stand? she 'died' fighting the sentinels, Uzi's? she sacrificed herself fighting the solver/cyn, N's? he didnt do that, eldritch J doesnt even show up in the finale, N doesnt really even fight outside of supporting Uzi and V, none of the DDs even get X visors for that matter.

alot of the characters feel useless i think. like, khan doesnt really do anything, nori doesnt really do anything, thad and lizzy, N, hell, even J. this episode just kinda boils down to Uzi vs Cyn with strong support from V. wouldnt be so much of an issue if Uzi hadnt had her time to shine in episode 7 aswell, like, everything before this was building up for N to take a grand stand or something. he should be PISSED at Cyn, everything and everyone hes ever loved got stripped from him because of Cyn, he literally DIED for Cyn back at the manor, only to watch as himself and V are mutilated and transformed into the DDs, and he gets dumped on a planet where hes abused by J for god knows how long, and when he finally starts to stand up for himself, make a friend/lover in Uzi, reconnect with V, they end up 'dying' right in front of him, FOR him aswell.

all of that stress, all of that fear, all of that anger, and what does N do when he gets back to the surface? sees J working with Cyn? sees Cyn literally destroying the planet? hell, even comes face to face with Cyn?? he just stands there in fear. weve seen N push past his fear before, weve seen N confront Cyn before, so why now is he just standing there? or the one point in the fight where he stops because Cyn flashes a picture of a dog on her visor, like, that shouldnt of have stopped him. thats the person he should hate the most in the universe right now, giving him second thoughts over a png of a random dog. like, huh???????

N also never gets a resolution to his literal years of CONSTANT abuse from J. the only time N lays hands on J is episode 2 with eldritch J. who fights J the whole finale? V. whos pissed at J for betraying them? V. but whos decapitating J in the mural? N. huh? what? why??? also this is a minor nitpick, but in the ending where N yells "THATS MY GIRLFRIEND!!! :D" that doesnt seem like an N thing to do, like, N is a very humble character, he doesnt come off as the type to brag about having a gf.

not to mention Uzi, omg. i think in the finale Uzi is just being a dickhead. for example, when N recovers her he openly says and expresses that hes angry at her for what she did, and what does she do? she headbutts him and calls him a bitch. now lets consider V. what does she do upon finding out N is alive? she apologizes profusely, UNPROVOKED.

what does Uzi do upon seeing V is fine? she makes a deadpan comment about how shes happy V is alive. now tbf, she does look back and give a genuine smile, just to say like "hey, im being serious tho", but like, still, damn Uzi.

another thing i dont like is how serious moments keep getting ruined by jokes. every time something devastating happens, you either dont get time to process it before gets resolved, or the tension is destroyed by a joke.

N getting his core ripped out for example, the second i started to panic, like "OH GOD CYN HAS N'S CORE-" his core is back in his body and hes fine after like 10 seconds. every 'fake out' death in that episode doesnt work, because it gets resolved in literally 20 seconds or less. but i feel thats more a result of the serious pacing issues in the episode.

the episode is 20 minutes, whatever, but keep in mind, MD: Intermission, THE FAN EPISODE, is about 21 minutes long. thats right, A FAN EPISODE MADE BY A COLLEGE STUDENT WAS LONGER THAN THE FINALE. WHAT????????

overall i just think the finale comes off as incredibly rushed, hell, even the merch seems rushed. now im not gonna point any fingers, but certain items seem kindaaaa, ehhhhhhh [cough cough, cat V plush, Cyn plush, and random sticker sheet that just uses the animatez box art]

but yea, thats my 2 cent about the MD finale, overall im prob gonna forget about that episode and go read fic rewrites or something

[dreamsy990]

so 358/2 days, amiright? heres my thoughts

this game is just. god its an emotional rollarcoaster

i guess ill start with the things i dont like!! which is mostly the gameplay. i dont really mind the mission structure shockingly (i like being able to roam around but having a clear goal makes things easier for my adhd ass, and i think the miniature storylines are very good for the most part) but i simply could Not get into the combat. especially coming off of kh2 it feels so stiff and unfun to play the only part of the game where i enjoyed the combat was fighting riku at the very end. i think the panel system is okay but i dont like that levels take up space. why did they do that.

story-wise, i dont like the retcons!! a lot of the ones i take issue with are very minor but things like roxas only fighting riku once instead of the implied multiple times (even the dialogue doesnt make sense when you change that, why does roxas say 'how many times do i have to beat you' when theyve only fought once?) are the kinds of inconsistencies that just annoy me.

im also a little bit annoyed at the very concept of this game at all. i think roxas worked just fine as a character without this game. it feels sort of unnecessary in the grand scheme of things. also, xion. i love xion, dont get me wrong, but i dont think she adds anything to the series over all. thats not to say she doesnt add anything to this game because shes a great character and i love her, but shes just. kind of like this game in that if you got rid of her i dont think it would really change the narrative so much.

BUT DESPITE THAT ALL!!!!!!!! i fucking ADORE this game. it is genuinely so full of charm and soul that i just cant bring myself to dislike it. i think this is one of the best written games in terms of dialogue. every scene (at least for me) hit exactly as emotionally hard as i think it was meant to. i was laughing at demyx's antics and crying at xions death and yelling at saix and i think thats exactly how the game is meant to be seen.

days at its heart is a slice of life. its working a 9 to 5 its going through a depressive episode its losing friends its grieving its making fun of your coworkers its living. its a game about life and i love that.

this game really did make me forget that axel roxas and xion dont get a happy ending. i spent so much time looking forward to them making up that i forgot that roxas ran away. hell i almost forgot that xion died.

days is emotional and its story and its characters are just so fucking good. the conflicts all felt very real and you can tell exactly where everyones coming from. the way axel roxas and xion fall apart hits so fucking close to home. but god damnit if axel had any good communication skills like half of this could be avoided

its also one hell of a love letter to axel's character. hes always been one of my favorites (he recently earned first place) and i think this game does him a lot of justice. hes trying to do good. he wants to keep everything together he wants to be there for his friends he wants to make things right but he just cant. its just AUGH its so fucking good

that thing about axel's characterization really also applies to roxas. i dont have much to say about him beyond the fact that i think it does his character very well. also tism. hes so autism.

i kind of like the very limited graphics too. sue me i enjoy low quality games. the hands are not animated and they all have two expressions (blinking and not blinking) and their weapons are flat and im living for it. the very few fully animated cutscenes are good too!!

the (real, i dont count riku) final boss is unfortunately very easy. you can just stand directly in front of her and mash a she wont hit you its too easy but vector to the heavens did mess me up a bit. also earlier scene but "ill always be there to bring you back" with the other promise playing over it? fucked me up man. yoko shimomura is once again killing it

i cant believe roxas didnt get to go to the beach.

i have to give this game a 9/10. its writing is incredible but the gameplay could use a lot of work. its just not fun to play. but again the characters, emotions, and music all make up for that tenfold.

[callsign-relic]

hi!! liveblog! its. very long. 3 episodes! but mostly im yelling about episode 2 because character intros <3

SEASON 2 EP 1!!

newwww season let's go BABEY!!

oh shit it starts out like RIGHT where it left off.

blackarachnia seems to be back to normal... smart move leaving during the initial confusion

Megatron smackin Scorponok and Waspinator fhksbffbfkjfk??

uh oh!! its not over yet!!! quantum surge...

"sneaky ball of legs"... i LOVE all the weird nicknames and monikers so so so much. every new one is a delight 

OHHHHHH TARANTULAS IS STILL IN HER HEAD... OHOHOOOO SO FUCKED UP

OHHHHH SOOOOOOOO FUCKED UP HES CAUGHT HER IN A WEB IN HER OWN BRAIN...

also ehehehe... big spoder.

side thought. i enjoy tarantulas but i would NOT want to be a tiny around him. hed eat u (a win in ANY other circumstance) bUT i feel like hed be so nasty about it. so truly awful. 0/10 experience.

ITS THE FIRST EP OF THE SEASON- HOW ARE THERE SO MANY UH OHS ALREADY- OH MY GOD?????

whats happening to everyone!!!!!!

DID TERRORSAUR JUST DIE? he fell in the lava!!!!! TERRORSAUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:

what IS happening to you Megatron?!?!?!

CHEERING YELLING at Tarantulas and BA being stuck together for the time being. 

"h-hey! im uh... gorgeous!" RHDKFHSK RATTRAP

OH SHIT they got fancy robotic beastmodes????

cheetor can FLY????

oh no the poor boy

RATTRAP HAS WHEELS... he looks like a cat toy xgufkghckgjx

oh my god. what about the predacons

waspinator is the same...

OH GOD. Megatron... somehow MORE intimidating than before

oh tarantulas has also undergone some changes (??)

oh shit yeah. rhinox was alseep for all that

WHAAAAAAAAAAT was that OPs spark?????

spinning rattraps wheels... how scandalous Dinobot :3c

oh shit is scorponok also gone???? ARE THEY ACTUALLY FR DEAD??? i dont know what to do about this! IM USED TO THEM COMING BACK...

CHEETOR YOU CAN FLY NOW YOULL BE FINE

these new forms are strange but also REALLY fun mechanically.

OH!! cheetors got a tail whip(?) ill miss the guts gun but this is pretty neat

hmm. its interesting that now cheetor actually looks more cheetah-like in his bot mode more than his beast mode, with the prominent spots and all- oh. his butt is still spotted in beast mode.

"rrroyalty! youve come for me!" aw inferno...

AW HE KINDA DID COME FOR HIM ACTUALLY. THEY'RE RETREATING NOW

new forms has its ups and downs i suppose. learning how to control them is one issue lmao

OH????? OH TWO NEW CHARACTERS??

HELL YES HELL YES HELL YES!!!!!!!!!

fuck!!!! i just remembered. WHENS MY MANTA RAY BOY APPEARING. that didn't look like a manta ray environment. so i assume not yet...

oh god. is this going to be another situation where it turns out that the character/s that ignited my interest in the show for to only appear really late in the runtime... PLEASR. IVE ALREADY BEEN THROUGH THIS WITH TFA BLURR, SHOCKWAVE AND SWINDLE... PLEASE................. also tf armada...

i mean ill have a good time regardless but AUGH,,

anyway. terrorsaur and scorponok are GONE gone it seems DDD: 

im significantly more sad about one than the other hskfnndbd sorry scorponok

id say the same abt OP but uh. with Optimuses track records in other continuities... he's probably fine.

S2 EP2

:0 what are the Fuzors.

YES lets go new character intros!!

i love that Megatron has like. rollerblades now. i take back what i said about him being more intimidating. hes got rollerskates.

what does waspinator know? what does DINOBOT know?

HRJDFHKDHD Dinobot sneaking up on the camera HFJFHFKDNFKDNFKD REALLY GOOD!!!!!!

THE DISCS... Hkdfhjs i wrote that and then waspinator said it half a second later bskfbdksn

WHAT is the significance of the moon- "EARTHHHHH........"

WHAT!! what do you MEAN the discs give a record of the future!!

oh fuck i forgot they got sent back in TIME

awwwwwww NOOO waspinator oh my GOD hes been UNMADE- HE GOT CUBED?????

HE GOT CUBED!!!!!!!!!

Tarantuachnia!!!!!!! i cant. merge their names. tarachnia.

i love that she keeps kicking tarantulas' body along LMAO

oh waspinator is fine :]

HRJSOSJDKNEKBGKEBGKE AWWW NOO BABY... "oh Suuure! dont MIND waspinator! waspinator just LIE HERE and SUFFER... drag HIMSELF to CR TANK..." awauauauuaujhdgfhhtn4nmdmx

Tigatron: after you, my lady <3

aw... off they go............ 

oh!!!!!!!!!! we're getting THREE???????? BOTS??

RT: crack the egg and say hello! 

or not :( one's a dud. 

this is how OP comes back... or Starscream.

PLEASE not Starscream.

critical scanner damage!! 

WHOS THIS!!!! 

THE VOICES. i love them!!!!!!!!!!! 

HRJDKFHDKWMFNEK THE ONE THAT JUST WOKE UP AND IS LIKE "I bet i can THRASH yer tail" HELLO????? oh my GOD what is he. that was a cobra tail thing. it ALSO HAD A FACE. WHAT IS HE!!!!!!!!!!

also whats the OTHER one

WOLF

WINGED WOLF?????????????????

hes like. a deviantart creation. 12 year olds cool wolf angel oc. i love him.

scorponok... TWO. scorposnek.

TARNATION! whys he a COWBOY!! i was like. oh he's got an accent- NO!! HES A COWBOY!!!!

wait actually hes a scorpion and a snake, those ARE desert-y cowboy animals. fair ig

inferno: "FOOL! pain is my friend! allow me to introduce YOU to it!!" hehehe

oh my god hes THWACKIN him around by the tail ahdjdbs??

awww angel wolf is standing up for the cowboy! even though cowboy just tried to beat him up!

oh my god. dinobot and him have the potential to be great friends. they have similar values.

a knight and a cowboy... what a combo to introduce.

wait.

WAIT

IS THIS SILVERBOLT? hes all chivalrous... 

i know you mentioned him when i first asked abt beast wars. is this your boy...

"what? you TRUST this tinhorn TOAD?" 

hes so dramatic. I LOVE this cowboy- QUICKSTRIKE!!

YESSSSSSSSS I WAS RIGHT HE IS SILVERBOLT!!!

hes FR a deviantart OC. the way he DESCRIBED HIMSELF im HWEEZING he's fantastic. "PURE, STRONG AND FAST..." he was even framed dramatically by the moon!!!

OHHHHH i love both of them. 

Quickstrikes design with all his scorpion legs on one hand is uh. A Choice though LMAO

rattrap: "primal's been vamped. dinobot's DISSAPPEARED. stripes and the bird lady are on some world CRUISE" dhdkdjjsksnfme he says it like theyr on holiday

rhinox is going offline?? 

awhh... Rattraps gettin left alone... :((!!?!

WAIT NVM CHEETOR IS STILL HERE WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABT.

Ehdjfodjskdjdkgnlsbdkdndhdk sir?????? YOJ SENT HIM AWAY 

oh my GOD Dinobot is Hamleting again!!!

"to be or not to be..."

whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing, end them... fun fact back in highschool i had that whole soliloquy memorized.

my god hes having a crisis out here. just like hamlet 

HES *STILL* SOLILOQUIZING

the discs ARE a mystery though. very very fun. 

oh hes HIDING them

yesssss... YESS................ hes BACK! MY WEIRDBOY!

i LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!!!

oh this is FASCINATING. 

Megatron: "Teamwork and cooperation, those are the Predacon watchwords..." 

QS: "how about backstabbin, and treachery?"

so so so fascinating that Megatron fully knows whats needed for a cohesive team (teamwork and cooperation), but those aspects so often go against the values of the characters that he'd align himself with. 

the cobalt kitty! i love the fact that they give themselves silly monikers as well.

silverbolt............ hes too nice for the predacons

MEGATRON CAN FLY TOO

giddyEUPP!! YEEHAW!!!!!

im torn. im discovering that i actually do not like Quickstrike very much.

its been like. less than 15 minutes after hes been introduced and im just like. oh youre terrible and annoying.

but . BUT. i know im gonna have a GREAT time when you're onscreen because some FREAK SHIT is gonna happen. also i still really like his silly cowboy accent dhfjdbe,,, but i but i do not like Him.

oh god. rhinox is in danger.

Dinobot is hiding the disc 👀?

BIG GUNS!!!!!!!!!!!

rattrap is so FAST!

OH SHIT. Tarantulas can still control BA!! 

so fucked up!!! SO FUCKED UP!! awful awful man!!

"yoo hoo! waspinator here too!" HES SO CUTE.

OH NO. SOME MORE COWBOY BULLSHIT IS ABOUT TO GO DOWN.

is that a CLOCK? what a cool clock design

whaaaaaat is going on with Rhinox!!!

oh these cowboy shots are really cool actually.

i LOVE the dramatics

to be continued!!!!!!!!!! FUCK i forgot this was a multiparter!!

in that case ill include the next ep in this set too

S2 EP3

HRJSHSJS SO many shots. THEY DECIMATED THAT ROCK.

they really are out numbered atm

TRANSMETAL TARANTULAS ZOOMIN whskfbemrhek??????

awwwh... SILVERBOLT

OHHHHHHHHHH THE NEW BOTS ARE FUZORS. because. theyr. fusions................ okay yeah fair hajfkfksmfbekgb,,

where's Black Arachnia...

Rhinox!!!!!!! Is he going after OP?!?!

Megatrons room again... OH THERES HIS RUBBER DUCKY 🥺

SB: "These Maximals are Fools!" ehkrjfke

UH OH MEGATRON FIGURED IT OUT THEYR GOIN FOR RHINOX!!

doggybot! oop. there he goes.

RHSJDODJEKNFKDNFKE THE SUDDEN  CUT TO DINOBOT BOPPIN UP AND DOWN AS HE GETS TRANSPORTED BY RATTRAP whdkfkflfn

oughghhh... Tarantulas and Black Arachnia's dynamic is So so so messed up here its great

HE GOT SQUASHED AGAIN

she's so SNEAKY <3 

awhhhh BUPPY. hes got puppydog eyes!!! HES CUTEEEE

awh silverbolt... he's had the idea of defecting put into his head >:3c

rhinox went somewhere where all are one...

LETS GO! ITS PRIME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i assume anyway

the cowboy musical stings are actually Really good. LIKE REALLY GOOD. i came around on those. it works so well.

of COURSE they gave Quickstrike fucking cowboy spur noises for his footsteps.

"WELL THATS JUST PRIME."

LETS GOOOOOOO

hes got a HOVERBOARD??

i wonder if the creators of the show just happened to be watching a ton of western movies when making these episodes. why's there so much cowboy stuff.

SB: consider that my resignation, Megatron!

HECK YES

"well, i like your resume" LMAO??? his resume contains: Megatron Yelling

LMAO?? RATTRAP TOOK OVER OPS QUARTERS.

black arachnia >:3c ohohoho im so excited to see what she does.

i assume that the new transmetal forms were partially made in order to sell new toys LMAO. i wonder if others will get transmetal forms later on as well :0

i actually prefer the look of their og forms (i. love animal), but i really like the functionality and fun designs of these new ones...

I really like Tarantulas and Cheetors new forms in particular !! I think only Tarantulas looks definitively Cooler in my books, but that's also because his design was pretty Silly before imo. stripy....

ahdkfhsk SORRY I TALKED SO MUCH THIS ROUND,, THERE WAS JUST SO MUCH TO COMMENT ON,,,,

id have just done eps 1 and 2, but 2 and 3 is a two parter... anyway ill probably have a longer gap between liveblogs again so im not just. taking up So Much Space on your blog and in your askbox shfkfbdndn o7

- init

[deltastra]

My Thoughts on Tower of God Season 2 Episode 6

Finally, FUG is here!! And I believe this is the episode where we meet a certain somebody? :3

WEBTOON SPOILERS WAS TEASED BUT NOT OUTRIGHT STATED

Rating: 7/10

Summary: Music and tension was on point! However, Jinsung's face looked a bit wonky?? Maybe that's just me. I think the stiff movements while they talk is actually making the scenes feel more awkward. Either way, I really liked the pacing for this episode and I hope they COOK for the next!

You know as crazy as Yihwa was for flat out insulting Viole in front of FUG (and insulting FUG to their faces), I feel like people often miss the fact that she was angry for the whole team. She genuinely thought Viole betrayed them. While of course, her assumptions come from the fact that she was always suspicious of him to begin with, I still feel like she was just looking out for the team.

And now we are hearing Viole speak more (with emotion at least)!!! I love this older Bam voice!

Haha I love how Miseng always breaks the ice by being herself! Despite her "crybaby" personality, she genuinely helps the team ease up. The way Jinseng gave her more apples makes me ;-;.

Yea...maybe I'm just looking too deep into it? I don't know, but Jinsung's face looks a bit off??? He looks a bit too young here.

THIS is why I love Team Sweet and Sour. Like Arkraptor said, they're all defective in their own way. They cover eachother's weaknesses and provide comfort when needed. They aren't from rich or well-off families and even if one of them is, she still struggles a lot. It's just the way they're all so casual with eachother that makes me love this team so much! Found family <3.

This reveal is so well done to me. It's just told in a casual conversation. "Hey, you're very lucky. That guy who was overly friendly with you wanted to kill you all at first!". It shows how, yes, not all FUG members are insane killers. However, they cannot be trusted so easily either.

I genuinely did not like the change season 1 did at the end where Bam stands up on his own. Because it gave the impression to anime-onlies that Bam WILLINGLY joined FUG. Now this scene feels awkward. Because all of a sudden he cannot decide? This is just a nitpick and I'm sure not many people will care. But I feel like it shows how you have to be careful what you choose to change in an adaptation because it may break the immersion later down the road.

Hmm they didn't mention the memorial rings that were used to track down Bam's friends? Well it wasn't mentioned in the first season so it makes sense. I appreciate that they're still following the webtoon this time even if they have to correct some parts in order to make it flow better with season 1's changes.

Hehe Hwaryun munching while Wangnan furious. I do wish they at least showed his face properly or make him stand up in order to show his anger over Viole's situation. Sitting stiff while yelling all that feels awkward at most.

Aww I wish they showed that panel with the two of them and that glowing tower (I forgot its name whoopsie) between them! It was one of my favourite scenes :(

BAHAHAHAH IM SO SORRY BUT THAT ZOOM IN ON KARAKA WAS GENUINELY SO FUNNY AND GOOFY LOOKING. I hope season 2 part 2 has improved camera movements/zoom-ins because these look too strange. It's like the animation cannot keep up with the music.

AWWWWW VIOLE SMILING <3

Awww I wish they showed Miseng on Viole's shoulders like in the webtoon </3.

I love everything about this. Hisoka's VA voicing Urek is so good!! I love the tone of his voice which gives off a threatening vibe.

I always liked this introduction of Urek. He looks and sounds threatening, but the moment he found out that they are Regulars and not Rankers, he was willing to let them go. He isn't a "good guy" in this, but he can definitely be reasoned with. I always loved Tower of God antagonists because of how multi-layered they can be.

And this is the best reason to why Viole is stubborn/ruthless in these tests. It's not cause he's "edgy" now. He literally cannot afford to fail a single test. It's a great motive that can keep the story constantly progressing in my opinion.

YES LETS GO MY SECOND FAVOURITE VIOLE QUOTE!!! AND MAN THE MUSIC IS SO GOOD I FELT SO HYPED UP.

AND WHEN THE BEAT OF THE OST "Guardian" BY KEVIN PENKIN DROPS...GOD THIS IS SO GOOD. THE ELECTRIFYING MUSIC IS PERFECT FOR THE UREK REVEAL! I will admit, I always pictured "Bubble in the Wine Glass" for Urek's reveal but this is better!

Yea I really wished they showed us this shot, at least its in the ED!

Okay so this episode was slightly better but man, the stiffness during talking scenes was pretty obvious here... I really hope they try a bit harder for next cour. But that Urek reveal was so hype!!! I cannot wait! I hope it's episode 1 animation again!!! They have a lot of expectations given the Great Journey OP which had the fight animated for the first time. Hope for the best! P.S. I know my opinions have been very...wishy-washy. So I want to make my stance clear. I am enjoying the anime. But I also acknowledge that it's not a great adaptation. There are very obvious flaws.

[m0e-ru]

hi ive been binging your blog a lot recently. i rlly adore the sheer effort you've given to these dumbass fucking characters that otherwise get such little people even attempting to appreciate or engage with them beyond very shallow depths. as someone who only really got into the p4 games relatively recently (2022. my only remembered experience with the series beforehand was like a couple episodes of the the p4anim years ago and playing p5 in 2016/2017) and kind of being shell-shocked by how characters like marie and teddie and namatame were perceived by the overall fanbase once i started engaging with it more i really appreciate all the writing and analysis and art and other shit you do for them. even the gas station attendant, a character i overlooked initially, i've come to love because of all the time and energy you put into picking them apart like a dead frog in a science class

uh yea idfk i feel generally vindicated by seeing the way you characterize these bitches. especially marie as someone who felt like a lot of her interesting aspects were evaporated by the fandom (somewhat because of p4ga i feel but but still) and wanted to see more silly fanart of her (and shumarie/soumarie/whatecvrer the fuck that wasn't just kind of surface level romance becuz i rlly do love their dynamic w how i see bancho in my head. idiots who dont know how to properly express themselves w one repressing themselves to adopt a likable persona and the other unable to shut the fuck up much to their own detriment. im not gonna get over that fucking "marie makes everyday sunny for him" post ever i think) so uh keep on keeping on and ill continue to like your posts and something

anyway dumb stupid cringe fucking rant over. i apologize if i come off like a loser i dont use this website and idk the general tumblr etiquette. im pretty sure shit like this shouldnt even go here but . dont need to respond to this i just wanted to yell into the void cuz i appreciate this account. rest of this will just be panels of marie and teddie and bancho from some of the p4g anthologies i own that i wanted to share in the off chance that you also dont already own said anthologies n have seen them befor. these r only from the last ID antho and the dengeki one because those r the only 2 i have proper pictures of

hai i read this ages ago and i wanna get back to it by saying youre so awesome possum forever and ever dont worry about your ettiquette because getting 3 essay worthy paragraphs of you talking is basically everyone ive met in the tumblr nation

another thing i remember is that a bestie also loved your offerings esp the last one because those two look so lalala AUAHUAHA okay i should answer this ask properly now that i have the time 🏃🏃🏃🏃

can we give it up for the bingers and blog skimmers !?!?!?! you guys are such an interesting breed i remember trying to do that in 2018 i can already recall the thrill going through my blood im so honored to see people doing that and moreso coming to me to tell me about it WAHAUHAHA 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

this gas station (blog) really is catered to the niche market of all time also because the way my brain is wired to just go in the dustiest nooks and corners of a community and thrive and live there. i AM the bug you see when you lift up the rock . hai . i'll do anything for these poor poor characters being tossed around like hot potato with people who dont bother understanding thing or even try to pick them up at all. also im getting such a kick every time someone tells me i got them into appreciating the attendant or even iznmi more OR in a different way. thats why im here bros . me when i do my JOB !!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

the way fandom handles shipping has always irked me because theres just SO much you can do with two characters than just make them hold hands. what if there was blood invovled, you know . /starts pacing around the room / you know im glad you know the know it's so cool you know /shaking you/ im glad i have a post that's affected you so much like i thought it was just a silly caption at the time and seeing it after 2 or 3 years is like "YEAHH i cooked this " and im glad you brought it to me hehehe

i hope this gas station brings you joy and you keep coming back for more etc etc and please know i really am happy to see you around in whatever branch you show up at 🫡🫡🫡 /explordes

[itsclydebitches]

I just need to know if Im the only one who felt weird abt that Isaac scene. The one where he takes Colin's phone. It just felt ooc for Isaac to follow colin and yell at him to delete the pics like a mom nagging. I never got the impression that Colin was thought to not follow his captain word by anyone in the show. I get that Isaac needed to find out (tho id prefer if colin did it on his own terms) but I still want to know what you think

Personally, I'm sold on Isaac's actions largely because of Colin's in that scene. Meaning, he's the most vocal in his disagreement about deleting private photos post-breakup. I'm afraid I can't bring up the episode atm so I don't have exact quotes, but Sam and Jamie are in full support - lecturing to the group at various points, like Isaac - with the other members being sorta on the fence, but then eventually persuaded. It's Colin who keeps pushing back against the idea, citing (if I remember correctly) things like personal property and memories. That strong stance is important because it sets him up as being the one member out of the group who might feasibly ignore Isaac's order.

Another thing that's important is how open the group is about their relationships (and the ways in which Colin has been barred from that due to his sexuality is a whole other post). From the group hanging on Sam's every text back when he was messaging Rebecca, all the way to now where Jamie is making a (hilariously) impressed face at whatever Will is deleting, there's really no secrets among the team. Or rather, heteronormativity has made it so that most of them assume there are no secrets. They delete those photos in full view of one another... which in some way kinda defeats the purpose of keeping them private, at least on a small scale, but really it's about the good intentions here. They trust each other to do the right thing, but they don't trust outsiders, so they delete the photos so they can never fall into the wrong hands.

Now, toss these two things together. Looking at that combination from Isaac's perspective, I think it's less nagging than it is an understandable (if not excusable) response to his assumptions. Colin has been the most vocal about this being a stupid idea, so when he leaves the assumption is not "Colin wants privacy" it's "Colin is trying to get out of this." Now with Point #2: why would Isaac assume it's privacy in the first place? No one else is bothering to find a quiet corner because, again, no one else has anything to hide. It's also important that Colin doesn't explain this to Issac. To be 100% clear I am NOT blaming Colin for his defensive reaction, only pointing out that, again, from Isaac's perspective this seems even more damning. When Colin says "Fuck off" rather than something like "I am deleting everything, I'd just prefer to do it without you lot looking over my shoulder," Isaac's assumptions appear confirmed. So he snatches the phone. Is that an appropriate reaction? No. Is it an extreme one? Arguably. But Isaac feels very strongly about this issue, even more-so once he realizes that Keeley was a victim, so his belief that Colin is blowing this off makes him angry enough to force the issue. If you won't delete those photos, I will.

Then, of course, he sees what those photos are.

Honestly, I hope this moment of miscommunication and, frankly, privacy invasion is addressed in their (inevitable) confrontation because while Isaac is by no means a bad person for this mistake and while it's understandable how this mistake came about... that's still a huge breach of Colin's privacy, especially given his specific circumstances. Plus, as we see via the acting, it rightly terrifies him. Already we've seen that although Isaac isn't comfortable with this revelation, he's not outing Colin to the group either, so this is perhaps the "best" outcome of such a mistake, bar Isaac immediately reassuring and apologizing to Colin, which we obviously didn't get. But just because he hasn't gone on a full blown homophobia rant doesn't mean Isaac doesn't have shit to apologize for (both now and from the past), so I hope the writing addresses how they both got to this moment, not simply the internalized homophobia that Isaac needs to grapple with.

And yeah, I agree that generally speaking I prefer for queer characters to come out on their own terms... though in Ted Lasso's case I feel like that would have been a waste in some respects? Meaning, this whole arc is not just about Colin, but the community which he's a part of - football - and the horrific homophobia that pro-athletes face. We've just been reminded that there are NO out footballers in the pro league. We've also learned that Colin has no desire to be the poster-boy for gay footballers. So in the last couple episodes to have him suddenly come out on his own would a) undermine the extreme consequences of that and b) undermine Colin's personal wants and needs. I get that Ted Lasso as a whole is about the optimistic vibe and undoubtedly the show has demonstrated, in this season in particular, how far people can come when given support... but I still think it would have been pretty out of left field for Colin to suddenly go, "You know what? I will come out! I will shoulder the terror of potentially loosing these friendships, and the media frenzy, and being forever the first out gay man in pro-football, potentially putting my very safety at risk because the Lasso Way taught me to love myself!" That's a little too optimistically saccharin, even for this show. Personally, I prefer this version where the outing occurred due to good intentions - Issac trying to protect people from what Keeley is going through - while still allowing the space to unpack WHY Colin was scared to come out in the first place.

Basically, I expected Colin to be outed somehow because I've always figured that would be (and I do kinda hate using this word) the most realistic outcome for his scenario. In real life someone should NEVER go through this, but in a story sometimes a character needs that push, so that we can resolve the conflict by season's end. Given my other meta-writing obsession, I keep comparing this scenario to Volume 9 of RWBY. It rankled that RWBY had a magical universe force Blake and Yang to confess because they live in a homophobia-free world have nothing, absolutely NOTHING, personally holding them back. So why make a joyous moment so uncomfortable by taking away their consent? In contrast, Ted Lasso is all about that homophobia and Colin has a boatload of personal reasons not to come out, even though he may want to in a perfect world. In this case, the story "has" to force his hand somehow. Either that, or we'd need more time for Colin and the world he lives in to develop - time that Ted Lasso simply doesn't have.

[girlgrian]

no offense sorry grian but pearl failing her task this week was such bullshit. i understand it’s the rule but it was right before the session ended and literally doesn’t matter. the only difference is she didn’t push the succeed button 2 seconds earlier. idk it’s just annoying ruleslawyering at this point she Did her task it’s Fine

like people who don’t know what the task is are yelling FAIL THAT SOUNDS LIKE A FAIL YOU FAILED so obviously the natural reaction is to say what the task was to clarify that lizzie sending the chat message wasn’t actually part of the requirements. i just think if we’re going to be so strict with the no telling the secret thing then grian has to be way more proactive in being like no pearl go in a one on one call or dm an admin directly and ask them if that counts and which button to press instead of just letting everyone heckle her while saying “remember not to say your secret!” one time

it’s super extra bullshit when some of the secret tasks are so obvious as to be impossible to keep secret (like cleo having no feasible reason to be on a pig for that long) and will openly joke about “haha for no reason how long is a session. haha im setting a timer for no reason” which is way more a betrayal of the spirit of the secret thing. IDK i guess i just have a lot of problems with the games design and what kind of episodes it facilitates in general but i won’t get into that here

[helluvabossrewrite45]

Hello, I just wanna say that your scene rewrites are amazing. Seeing Stars has got to be one of my favourites.

On the topic of Octavia, I agree that Viv and her team missed an opportunity with Via. To me in the context of the narrative, Octavia can be a tragic character that is screwed over by the writing. It is implied that she takes after Stolas with her love of astronomy as their form of bonding. Yet, she slowly watches her father drift away from them and is probably wondering if they—she even matters to him. You’re just watching a parent that you had a close bond to just leave you behind because they found someone else that captivated their interest. On top of the divorce that is currently going on would leave a child feeling doubtful.

I also just never understood why the writers want to keep having her being mad at her dad, even though they say that Stella has clearly been ruining the family, yet it’s his fault? Half the time the writing seesaws on Stella and Via’s dynamic because the only time she does care is when Stolas is there and…I get that could be counted as gaslighting, but the character lacks subtlety that it’s hard to tell when she’s always yelling. More often she doesn’t even care for her with two episodes implying this.

I just in general feel frustrated with this family because either avenue could be interesting if the writers took it seriously enough but they don’t and instead choose spur of the moment scenes that we have to use as jigsaw puzzle with some pieces not fitting because world building barely matters.

Sorry for the ramble. You’re version or fix it is probably one of my top favourites for the characters because I can definitely see the use of the loosely outlined jigsaw puzzle. Have a nice day/evening.

Thank you anon, im glad you like my rewrites

I agree 100% with via, they did the same thing with moxxie to her, that being repeating the same arc again of her being mad at her dad but forgive him in the end. It kind of shows that just like moxxie, they didnt know what to do with her which is a shame because the small details she has are there to be fully explored, but they never explore them. Like her and music, she oftens listens it even at the dinner table and with stellas reaction to the cheating affair, we can peice a puzzle of her doing it as a coping mechanism; escaping her problems through distraction. And with seeing stars main plot is around via running away to see a meteor shower, it would've been perfect to explore that side of her along with more knowledge of the family in general to piece this puzzle their giving (like the relationship with her mom, her uncle, the rest of their family, how they react to the situation, how their currently dealing with it, etc...) through flashbacks (since the whole point would've been that these issues wont go away no matter how much you try to ignore them) And yes, her closeness with her father drifting away is definitely tragic and its sucks that it wasnt futhered explored, especially with the entire goetta situation as a whole since were in season 2 and we dont even know how they reacted to it. It makes me wonder why even give us these pieces to solve properly if its so little that it makes it pretty impossible without theorizing from any vague info we have and thats not how problem solving works.

And yes, its odd that shes only mad at stolas but never to stella. I mean, i get she would be on her moms side because of him cheating but still with how stella is written, you'd think she'd hate her too. In this rewrite, stella would actually be subtle in her abuse to stolas in a way where you can still recognise it but also understand why other (like via) wouldnt. An example of this would be my first post where her and stolas confront each other about the divorce, the quote; '-or did you forget? Like you always do?'. Its meant to showcase her most common tactics, shaming. From her background (that i'll explain further in her own post), she oftens picks up things from her family, which shaming is included. She would shame stolas whenever he makes a mistake or does something she doesnt approve of (like if he wore a suit she didnt like, she would say; 'you know were meeting your family right? You think they want to see their son of royalty in that sort of wear?' or them arguing on how much time via should spend on her astronomy lessons; 'Shes going to be a future you and what, you wanna just, make her lazy, huh?!' (or even 'I didnt think you'd care that less for your own daughter....') See these are what you could recognise as shaming but also understand why people may not consider it so, potentially using excuses like 'oh shes probably right because its royalty/she just cares about looking good enough for her family' or 'oh she just cares for her daughter and her future' (ironically enough, those are kind of what fans AND the show itself use as an excuse for stolas lmao) but just because via doesnt recognise stella's abusive tendencies, doesnt mean she isnt upset with her. She very much is, mainly with stella's aggressiveness as stella developed anger issues throughout her life and didnt have anything to help it. Via hates it whenever stella yells because of course she would be, no one likes angry loud noises! Its just that unlike with stolas, shes not as open with her frustration to her mother because shes genuinely scared of her from that aggression that makes it much more harder to truly express her feelings about her, instead keeping it to herself along with her feelings towards how the rest of the family is reacting to it given that it just feels too much for her to be involved in. So the reason why shes only open on being mad at stolas is despite what he did, he's the only one she feels safe in being mad about (I mean, she does have andrealphus as someone safe to an extent though he's very dismissive of telling her whats going on with the goetias and definetly doesnt take being wrong well like stella so hes not much better) that way, it'd be more understandable and futher peice the puzzle of their family and their dynamic. Family itself is quite complicated because of the nuances it has behind it and i wanna incorporate that to the goetias were their not fully evil but tend to care about their statuses rather then whats right in front of them (that being them as a family) since i think its interesting to explore and wouldve suit stolas, stella and octavia really well.

No need to apologise for rambling, i like getting asks of peoples thoughts/ideas on helluva. Hell look, im rambling too. I hope you enjoy the future rewrites i have in store, have a nice day/evening too

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Ok I think I like the live action 😭 i was so ready to hate it but I honestly am having a good time relearning the characters in a different way!

They connect the crew together faster but they have more moments that really show why zoro and nami started to like Luffy which is nice not have to go through 50 episodes just to get a few plot points out of the way.

Koby!! My boy!! I was SO READY to diss on his character because in all honesty his character was whiny at the beginning (even in the anime too). BUT them introducing Garp early and allowing Garp to become a psueo parent to him is honestly so fucking cute 😭. They have a genuinely interesting relationship and its part of my favorite moments in the show 😭 Also the actor is doing a great job showing us how Koby grows more confident and sure of himself and its amazing!

Zoro i couldnt help but keep loving and Nami is so good! The actress that plays Nami is amazing!

I’m only on ep. 4 but a couple of gripes:

1. It a little 🤪 cringey. But in all honestly its kinda a given for a live action for an anime, some of the elements are going to come through but its just a little shocking to see live actors actually act out the fighting moves yell since we r so used to anime characters in a anime environment.

2. The characters that where HUGE in the anime are like meh. Not saying they werent great characters but its still disappointing to look at Arlong when he looks so normal size. A core element of what makes one piece so memberable is watching this tiny underdog go up against the biggest and the baddest and having the strength within to come on top all because of his determination and drive. Its just underwhelming some of the fights that are supposed to be so epic: biggest and baddest vs underdog rubberman! Who will win! I get that they probably tried their best with what they had but im allowed to complain a little i think.

3. There are MANY moments within the anime that was SO IMPORTANT! And it just gets… left out. Ok! I’m not saying that it has to be another series that is 1000 episodes long but in live action form but sometimes a scene is so powerful and to leave it out is not my cup of tea. For example im fine that they changed zoro eating the dirty rice balls in a different context. It worked in showing us that zoro is a good guy! But leaving out how Luffy got Koby in with the marines and how zoro, badly injured, tried to save luffy by carrying his cage showing us how loyal of a person zoro is bla blah blah. I think people will understand what im talking about if you watch/read the original source material.

The show is great to watch so far and brings a new spin on the characters without making them unrecognizable (cough* velma *cough). The actors are fantastic and the costumes are SO good. I’m loving them actually change clothes according to the new chapter they are on, i think they are inspired by the cover page art, its nicely paced and they do give a good representation of the anime/manga. And im glad im not hating it yet.