#im on my period which is not helping

[imaginaryberries]

Currently going out of my mind with Leo not eating. I know it’s just because he’s not well and it will pass but I am just so stressed all the time. He’s had like two banana pancakes and part of a croissant all day today. He isn’t drinking much either and it’s sometimes at the point where you even suggest he eats or drinks something and he starts crying. It’s exhausting.

[obsob]

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!

✷(print shop)✷

[iridescentmirrorsgenshin]

okay but the fact that we hear all about kaveh's life post-fall out with alhaitham, the fact he graduated, worked at construction firms and continued taking on others' burdens, had a hard time finding solo work because of how arts are perceived in sumeru, that he went to his mother's wedding in fontaine, that he took a vacation from work because he was stifled by the environment and felt he had lost motivation and worth as an artist, was determined to complete the palace of alcazarzaray at the cost of everything he owned just to have a tangible object of his efforts and view of art only for its outcome to further emaciate him, until he meets alhaitham for the first time in years, is understood at once, has no need to don a front as he does for everyone else in his life, is listened to, is challenged once more and reinvigorated in his perception of his ideals, is offered a second chance, a home, and accepts it, although he cannot comprehend why alhaitham would offer such a thing and yet not ask anything of relevant substance in return, other than rent

all of this, and we hear virtually nothing of alhaitham's life post-fall out with kaveh, besides his graduation and his taking on the job of the scribe. his character stories omit this part of his life whereas kaveh's is full of detail and emotion, mostly suffering. the first instance we see of alhaitham in this time is from kaveh's perspective when the two meet again in the tavern, and in this alhaitham endeavours to understand kaveh once more, before offering his house - the research centre previously allocated to the both of them for the success of their joint thesis before they fell apart - to kaveh.

we don't know why alhaitham moved out of his grandmother's house and into the research centre, why he renovated it from a research centre into a livable home, only that he did so after kaveh informed alhaitham through a third party that he was not in need of a house, nor do we know his thought processes and emotions in the years spent apart - the years that are carefully documented in kaveh's character stories. the image we are presented with is that of stasis; alhaitham pursues no other close friendships, he works as the scribe, owns a nice house within sumeru, is financially secure, and functions within, and carries out, his own ideals - is content with this way of life. in this, from alhaitham's perspective, there are no details necessary to give from this time

but in inviting kaveh to live with him, his character stories tell us that what he gains by doing so is the mirror of himself, both in personality and scholarly thinking, and in this, he is able to gain an enhanced view of the world, which otherwise would be limited. with kaveh being present in alhaitham's life, alhaitham believes that his vision is perfected, whereas it could not be before, with kaveh's absence. it is in this that we hear what alhaitham has been missing in his life, and ultimately, it is kaveh, not just as a scholar, but as a person

what is omitted from alhaitham's character stories is provided in kaveh's character stories; where we hear about kaveh's struggles, we don't hear about alhaitham's. perhaps this is because alhaitham did not struggle as kaveh did in terms of realising and achieving his ideals, but instead his struggles were in silence, recognising that his vision, and himself, had been compromised because he had rejected the ideals that served to enhance his own vision, that he had inadvertently rejected, and thus had been rejected by, kaveh.

[inirat-andnothingmore]

okay confession time: i have never once cried watching iwtv. like ever. and i wasn't even spoiled on anything. i literally watched every episode alone and without knowing what was going to happen at all. didn't even come close, and this media has connected with me more than anything ever. i was always afraid that i looked at things a little too 'objectively' and didn't focus on my feelings about anything bcuz i didn't have that many strong feelings, but this past year has really confirmed a heart of tin. that's it. thank you for letting me get that off my chest.

EDIT: i meant this in a funny sexy way actually

[rowanisawriter]

Every day i suffer

[gonzo-n-kermit]

Thinking about rdr2... Thinking about cowboys... Thinking about spending more money on games... Save me from bad decisions...

[petorahs]

what is it about avenday that makes me snap and go crazy with my art i wonder

[wizisbored]

squinting at netherborne trying to figure out lydias understanding of gender

[jaffre]

doctor confirmed that 👉 this guy 👈 got pcos and i just got an implant to at the very least get my whacky periods under control and hopefully get them to stop entirely

[clay-pidgeon]

Its fine im fine im locking the fuck in. Im eating cold cucumber slice. I love my cold cucumber slice#Mycoldcucumberslice

deutsche version: es ist gut ich bin gut ich schleiße mich verdammt ein. Ich esse kalte gurkenscheibe. Ich liebe meine kalte gurkenscheibe#MeinekalteGurkenscheibe

[nebulastarss]

You know how wild it is to see comments on YouTube of children going "i subed. im 7"

I did not interact with the YouTube comments until I was a teenager. I have made a grand total of less than 5 comments. Because I'm a pussy who was scared of saying something stupid and having the internet show up at my door to shank me. Yknow. Exactly what I was taught would happen.

And I stare at these comments and I think to myself

'If you knew your address, you would've posted it.'

[punkalope]

ive been on my period for 10 days and in those ten days my rabbit ate my tablet cord and my grandparents started visiting so i justh avent had the chance to do comms and i am. dying of stress. im trying not to ofc i know people are patient but I havent been able to sit down and deal with it it is. SO hell.

[forcekenobi]

how am i meant to work under these conditions

[phagodyke]

officially now have enough overtime to take an entire day off im gonna ask for this friday and if they don't give it to me I'm refusing to do any more overtime until they pay me the equivalent for it. WITH overtime pay. and I'll call in sick friday anyway lmao 👍

[twinksintrees]

what if i never get to live the life i want

[deathsmallcaps]

I swear. I comprehend I’m not the best teaching intern in the world. I also was not the best camp counselor, cashier, and so on. But if my observer gives me so much criticism that I cry again I’m going to be so motherfucking pissed.

Especially since she’s asking me to stay late just to review me. While I have family visiting. And I’m gone for most of the day. And my commute is over half an hour. Which isn’t bad around here but still.