#im obviously struggling lolol

[aliens-took-my-iwa-chan]

okay so im pretty sure I have a whole ask game ready for my 300 follower celebration, all I need is a prize idea

[narigyu]

WHEN THEIR S/O IS ALSO AN IDOL...

( ⚠️ ) 𝒸w :: just fluffy hcs with ur favs <3, not edited so there is prob typos... other than that, none i think? if there is any let me know!

𝓬hoi yeonjun

→ jjun would actually hide your relationship vv well! he does not want you getting flamed just because you guys are dating...

→ he would only tell his members about it, he doesn't trust anyone else with that information :<

→ i feel like if anyone was to find out it would be because he would be looking you up and down at award shows and fans would def see the way he looks at you with hearts in his eyes!!!

→ in public, he would try his best to ignore you when you guys are at the same award show or when your performing, but you're just so pretty he can't take his eyes off of you <3

→ but in private he is so super clingy towards you, he literally always has ANY body part draped over you.

𝓬hoi soobin

→ im sorry but soob would probably make it so obvious when you guys are dating but not the way you guys think!! (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

→ whenever you're near he would get nervous and very jittery, his members have to calm him down so he doesn't get cancelled LMFAO

→ imagine you get put as mc with him... lawd he is sweating and stumbling over his words. when you guys interview txt gyu would def be laughing his ass off watching soob struggle to stay focused

→ if you perform when he's there he would literally sit still so nobody suspects anything but tbh it makes him look even more suspicious. jjun def makes fun of him for it afterwards

→ after the night ends and he has you all to himself he finally calms down because no one is there to watch his every move! i don't really think he is the clingy type but soob would prob have your hand in his while you guys watch anime <33

𝓬hoi beomgyu

→ gyu would be good at hiding it! he already just treats you like how he treats all his friends, but you have the added perk of being his gf lolol

→ tbh he probably doesn't care if people find out... all that matters is that you two are happy and if anybody finds out then oh well!

→ but since he is an idol he would obviously have to keep it a secret...

→ gyu loves having an idol s/o because he would def love watching you perform! my boy is so in love whenever you come up on stage he would be cheering the loudest so soob would have to shut him up so he doesn't get into any scandals LMAO

→ when no ones watching he is super duper clingy its so cute!! he jumps right into your arms and cuddles with you while you guys just talk about the most random things ever :*

𝓴ang taehyun

→ TYUN IS LITERALLY TERRIFIED OF ANYONE FINDING OUT

→ he would hate seeing you get hate and ruining your image and would blame himself if you get into scandals

→ he is super good at keeping it a secret so it would be very surprising and rare if you guys got exposed tbh!

→ if you guys bump into eachother at events tyun would def put his hands on your waist and walk past you with a cute lil smile on his face AAAAAHGHSS..

→ i don't think tyunnie is touchy so when he gets you all to himself he probably just lets you lay on his chest while you guys just talk to eachother with music playing in the background </3

𝓱uening kai

→ omg bc i feel like kai would be so horrible at it he def takes after soob LMAO

→ fans would def find out even if you guys have only been dating for like two weeks. idk if people would find out bc he's like soob, really stiff and nervous around you or he would accidentally announce that on live...

→ let's just say hes on live on weverse with all his members and they're talking about everyone's performance and he just goes

→ " my girlfriend did really well too! " SILENCE.

→ EVERYBODY IN THE CHAT GOES SILENT AND KAI DOESN'T REALISE WHAT HE SAID UNTIL A FEW SECONDS LATER. soob awkwardly laughs and quickly says bye before ending the stream...

→ the next time he sees you he apologises sm and hugs you really tightly.. you have to tell him it's okay over and over until he falls asleep in your arms <33

narigyu 2024

[sweetmoogirl]

I'm curious as to the psychology of your kink. For someone so young, it seems like a pretty full on and specific kink. I am wondering firstly, what is the connect between fantasy and reality, if any, are you just engaging in fantasy purely for horny reasons? Does your fantasy and kink ever enter your reality and if so to what extent? Secondly, how did this kink begin for you - were you traumatised, did you simply explore the internet until stumbling across something that you explored further because of the sexual excitement it gave you, do you have mental illness or are you a fully functioning person? I think there's a lot to learn from you so please, the more detail and clarity, the better.

im pretty flattered that you seem to think im so interesting lolol

i dont know which kink youre specifically talking about though since a lot of my kinks can fall under this line of questioning. ill answer this for the three "worst" kinks i have: detrans/misgendering, cnc, and misogyny. if its not one of these three then lmk and ill answer again.

for detrans/misgendering, it really not that specific tbh. theres a lot of trans people who have a kink like this or similar to this. (forced) feminization is also very common, especially in masculine spaces. theres absolutely a psychological aspect to this, as well as a societal one. trans people are oppressed and often discriminated against in many ways, including being misgendered. this kink allows for a SAFE and CONSENTUAL space for someone to cope through their traumas in a healthy way.

theres also a VERY strict gender binary often forced on trans people by cis people, and sometimes others in our own community, that force a lot of us into a box. if you dont keep your hair short, wear boy clothing, like masc hobbies, and transition medically then youre not a real trans man. if you dont do makeup and wear dresses with long hair, tuck, get surgery or use padding for breasts, or act feminine then youre not a real trans woman. if youre too masc or fem or you dont fit into nonbinary stereotypes then you must be lying.

this kink is a very easy way to explore masculine and feminine sides to ourselves as trans people that we wouldnt be able to irl because of these harsh gender roles that we HAVE to adhere to otherwise no one takes us seriously (obviously trans people are valid NO MATTER HOW THEY PRESENT OR CHOOSE TO DO but this is a very common mindset we have to deal with).

i got into this kink bc my gender dysphoria is awful. its made me miserable for most of my life and it, alongside my adhd and possible autism, is why i struggle so much with depression and anxiety. im always worried about how ill be seen, if ill pass as male, and remembering my own body makes me sick. i started joking over half a year ago, saying "well i cant get dysphoric if i pavlov myself into getting horny everytime i get misgendered. haha checkmate t3rfs!!!" and then it became less of a joke.

i wrote stories of trans men exploring this kink in my writing and it really helped. im still dysphoric. i may joke about how this kink is the way to cure gender dysphoria but thats not how it actually works. i still have days where my body is unbearable and the thought of being feminized makes me want to hide away forever. but it genuinely did help to break out of those boxes i put myself in and play in a safe space with terms and mentalities regarding my gender.

in terms of fantasy and reality, this is purely fantasy for me. i have no desires to detransition, nor do i have any want to be misgendered outside of horny purposes. i am a man, i will always be a man, and thats not going to change just because tumblr user xyz called me babygirl. im almost a year on testosterone and im considering getting top surgery as we speak. this kink doesnt affect me on any other level than horny.

for cnc/noncon, this one is probably a bit more in depth. i dont have any specific trauma in this field. ive been touched inappropriately against my consent a handful of times (as in someone touched my chest or my hips) but nothing that spawned this kink.

however, there are studies that show that a LOT (as in over half) of afabs get fantasies regarding cnc and non consensual situations. this DOES NOT mean that they want to taken advantage of. for the most part, this kink derives from the idea of being wanted so badly by someone that they would take you no matter what. its also the idea of POWER PLAY, of being helpless and not having to make any sexual decisions.

theres also a lot of trauma involved and, as stated before, kink is a SAFE and HEALTHY place to cope with that trauma as long as safe words, aftercare, and proper communication is enforced. there are many people who like being in a cnc scene and knowing that, unlike their trauma, they now have CONTROL over the situation and can stop it whenever they want and have their wishes be RESPECTED. in this area, i am the wrong person to ask so i implore you to do more research on your own with this topic if youre truly curious.

for ME personally, i like noncon/cnc bc of that power dynamic. i am a submissive who could NEVER dom in any sense of the word. i like being completely submissive and i like having my dom take control and do anything and everything for me. i dont want to make decisions and i like being overpowered and taken care of. its just hot to be forced to do something, whether that be manhandled into the next room or be good.

this is a fantasy that ive had for years, even when i was a kid. i dont know WHY that is, but i do know that a lot of my friends who have childhood related trauma also had fantasies like that as a kid. i also discovered hardcore porn and noncon scenes when i was WAY too young to even know what sex was and im sure that exposure affected me in an unhealthy way too. again, id implore you to look for educational resources on the nature of forceful and violent fantasies, both sexual and not. its a fascinating subject and bdsm and kink psychology and etiquette has been a fixation of mine for years.

and it is just that, a fantasy. in real life, i am extremely sex repulsed and borderline identify as asexual because i dont want to do anything like that with anyone. im also, as mentioned before, extremely anxious and socially awkward so i dont like being near people at all. the idea of anyone hitting on me or not respecting my boundaries makes me feel ill, even if its hot while im horny.

for misogyny, ill keep it short bc its related to everything above. basically combine my reasoning for cnc and detrans and youd get my reason for this. its basically me, as a trans person, going from one extreme of being so masculine it was toxic and exploring the other extreme. its once again just me exploring a taboo subject in a safe and consensual space.

misogyny kink is rooted in strict female gender roles, as well as the forcefulness and disrespect you get from cnc. thats why its my favorite kink, it combines everything i like but specifically utilizes WHY i like those things. i discovered it when i made my first detrans/misgendering tumblr account and made a side account dedicated to it, and then when i made this account i just combined the two.

i grew up super fucking feminist and i still am a major feminist who is all about supporting women and their choices. i love women and think theyre cool as hell and much, much stronger than i am lolol. this is just a fantasy for me, nothing more. this is another kink that is heavy on the dom/sub dynamics, as well as giving people who experience trauma at the face of their oppression a place to take back those experiences.

anyways thats my super long post!!! tysm for asking, anon, i love answering questions. if you have any further questions then you can shoot me some more anons or you can message me directly, i dont mind :D

i hope i answered your question and it all made sense!!!!

[cchipollo]

Chip my Newgrounds expert! HELP!!!

I don't usually use Tumblr asks besides close mutuals and only rarely but seriously I just dunno who to contact at this point!

Sorry for labelling you as a newgrounds expert but technically anyone over 18 who uses newgrounds in an expert in my eyes (not really BUT YOU GET THE POINT)

Recently I've been addicted to going on The way back machine, its super funky to look at old websites from my childhood and other stuff that I like.

SO I FOUND OUT THAT PEOPLE HAVE BEEN aRCHIVING THE NEWGROUNDS TANKMEN PAGE AND WAS LIKE cool! cant wait to watch these fanmade videos! and turns out almost all of them are LOST.

An example (a pretty bad example cause it is A-rated and I can't watch it obviously) Is "GAY TANKMEN" WHICH ONLY WORKS ON FLASH AND HAS BEEN REMOVED BY THE CREATOR!!!!!!

Obviously, without flash, these don't work!

I absolutely do not know who to contact about this cause I'm not savvy in that kinda stuff.

The way back machine also showed LOOOOOADDS of other cool tankmen related stuff on there (which are now gone)

I understand if you dont wanna help (plus the videos could be one google search away, but if you ask me personally I do not want that in my search history/hj) but if you know anyone with like records and stuff it would be nice 2 know!

again sorry for the odd ask (Im not usually this weird about writing asks with all the uppercase and stuff), as I really am struggling to find someone that might help me cause Ive tried a lotta methods to find these and they just do not work.

any type of response will be appreciated! thanks!!!!

ay you know as much as i know probably. all i can think is if you can somehow get your hands on the swf files for them you can run them thru swivel conversion and see if it does you any good.

other than that i reckon contact tom fulp on ng for this kind of stuff lolol he's way more tech savvy and also knows more about his own site than i do. he's pretty nice so he'll probably be happy to help you out.

[always-me-meha]

*update* She said okay as long as he rips out carpet lol I don't think he happy xD she wants him to rip out a couple chunks for last nights stay and some more if he stays tonight 🫣 kind or figured there'd be a catch, they got annoyed we'd do nothing but hide in my room all summer instead of at least helping cut the grass or something, which he did actually offer on his own to do it before lol I'm sure if they asked he would've more often. I think this is her way of just being a dink tbh lol but hey if it gets him on her good books again 😬

Aghhhh I don't see why she'd say no.....

it's not like we go anywhere or do anything, at least she knows (that inner protective momma bear)

I'm safe getting stoned here at home, playing videos games/watching movies, in my room, we don't even leave it to bother her vs her being worried if I'm gambling or driving stupid or getting into some sort of trouble.

Ended up being a long long one as I had a wicked word vomit. If ya wanna keep reading lol.

Which we all know there is certainly trouble boiling in town. SO YES. I'd like one more night with my guy, safe at my house, no jib temptations, he can go home tomorrow, then I stay home till Tuesday.

Wahhh that's so long without my love 🥺💔

Ps. Fucking crazy I'm saying my love now..... like wow never ever did I think that.

Getting back on track....

Us trying to communicate through messenger is still a struggle agh. We were arguing yesterday, over my gambling boo boo, that I was seriously surprised he still came over anyway. Like aweeeeeee ♡ I'm sooo happy he did.

I don't care, even when we fight I still like to see him! Even if im grouchy and say I don't wanna haha I still always run to him when I CAN, anyway. Point being, it's nice he's here with me rn, and I'd love one more night 🥺

He knows it to, things get shitty the moment I go home, or I guess when we're apart, why when I was at his place he asked me to get my dog and stay with him lolol didn't want me going home and then another argument starts 🙄

I'm guilty to being one that probably starts it most of the time hehehehe I don't mean to. I just get depressy and shit..... I start over thinking, and then I over react to the way he responds to me, when i dont hear the responses i want. Then he gets upset and boom aghhhh fuck we'll work through it, we have to being we live in two separate towns. Not that far away but ain't no walk unless you like walking the distance....

Lmfao, I will walk 500 miles!

I just, like I said I'm constantly watched by my mother smh, I feel like I always need permission.... it fucking sucks. But that's what mental illness, suicidal attempts and fucking stupidity does to you I guess. I make poor choices obviously, I am grateful she toughs it out and supports me tho. I'm not easy to manage 😬. Her and my step pop are protective over me cause they careeee.

Like hell, they had to pick me up from the hospital like an hr away cause I was driving on the rim of my tire on the highway having a mental break down and I was highly intoxicated to. Luckily the blower couldn't get an accurate reading annnnd they fucked up the weed ticket so it got thrown out.

Hmmm oh yes I was involved in a police chase, not my fault I was basically knocked out drunk in the passenger. My step pop had to pick me up the morning after when i woke up on my friends couch, luckily not in the drunk tank lol

Lastly, my fucking psychotic break where I ended up hiding in a field on the Trans highway a province from home that the popo searched 2 hrs for me before I hopped up cause the green flashing light meant go... anywho 7 days later I think ya, the folks had to do a road trip to the city (in that province) to pick my ass up from the mental ward. Funny I was suppost to stay for 3 weeks but guess they couldn't handle me BAHAHA

Not to mention my OD, from when I was living alone..... ya almost lost me there. Thankyou for caring bosses that came to look for me when I didn't show up for work 💖

So you can see why they're protective eh? Oh and they know how I start getting alil more crazy when I'm involved with a guy, that's another thing they hate 👀 idk why it happens it just does, all my emotions go up 5-10 notches. Then they're the ones at home stuck dealing with the ups and downs from me. So I see why they hate it but it sounds selfish to me LMAO JKJK

Then of course the first man I date in years is like the most..... perfect guy 😉 that makes them so 'happy' for me..... anyway to me he is, yeah there's alot of shit that could possibly out weigh the good between us..... but let's just see where the ride takes us? (Mmmm , i think i said this before with him and that ended in a loud bang....then again we are dating now so it could be different, but yes many unnecessary emotional breakdowns for sure are about to happen, fuck. Stoopid bipolar making me sensitive as fuck when I know there's a bad ass bitch in there lol)

Like damn, I wish I was still like idk.... positive about things and giddy like 2020, when I thought i was head over heals for this guy, I never got triggered or anything, I knew how to calm myself down for him and stop overthinking and trust him. Hell he was in my bed sleeping that day I walked to the post office and caige seen and messaged me for the first time. I was so dedicated to this other guy I asked him if it was okay if I could chill with caige. Which he said yes. Just silly cause we were still just getting to know eachother (obv it was a spark that died quick due to my mental health, i had that psychotic break that i guess spooked him off lol), anyway thats how i started hanging with caige who somehow became my now love ❤️ who accepted me before n after my mental snap 🥰

And he's sleeping like a baby as I type this, that's when men are the cutest lol

Sorry yall I'm just over thinking and chatty rn.

[cantdance]

10 fandoms 10 characters tag game

rules: name 10 of your favorite characters from 10 different fandoms, then tag 10 people (i wont do that)

tagged by @lolotr almost a month ago. it took me a while to get to this, half because i kept forgetting and half because i legitimately struggled to come up with ten different fandoms i can claim to be in, but whos going to pass up a chance to rave about their blorbos

Final Fantasy XIV Online (FFXIV) - i love so many of the characters from this game. its not hard, the game is designed to make you love them. they feel like real people, especially in the last two expansions which emphasized their relationships with each other and with the wol (aka the player character). its difficult to choose one favorite but if i have to id say its gotta be alisaie leveilleur. despite not being relevant to the main story until the second expansion, her character is so rich and compelling. shes just a girl who wants to understand why her beloved grandpa left her to save a bunch of strangers, and she also wants to find out who she is and become her own person out of her familys (and especially her brothers) shadow. she also likes violence and explosions and how can you not enjoy that in a girl. unlike a lot of people who like alisaie, i also love alphinaud, and i love the way they interact. alisaie is my preferred twin but only by a slim margin. you can blame the backwards ass way i played this game for the fact that i love alphinaud even in 2.0

Marvel Comics - obviously its loki laufeyson! name a bitch more iconic. canonically genderfluid since 2014. your doomed by the narrative fave. raised by a father and a society that hated them for who they were, forced into the role of a villain to juxtapose their brother who was the only person to ever believe they could be more, at least until he didnt. killed and ate and burned themselves over and over to become something new. literally broke free from the narrative to become their best self but still a morally dubious shithead trickster in any (well written) form. my absolute blorbo of all time, dm me for a reading list

Norse Mythology - loki laufeyson again lolol. name. a bitch. more. iconic. canonically genderfluid since the viking age. born from a forest fire after lightning struck a tree. canonically hot but in a fucked up and dangerous way. odin was like "whos this hot weirdo" and decided they were brothers. your ultimate doomed by the narrative baddie. prophesied to end the universe. the god of fucking around and finding out. there are so few verifiable facts about this bitch, he is a complete enigma even among the rest of norse mythology which is already so fractured and weird. we straight up dont know how, why, or even IF he was actually worshipped. hes the only god to not have a single village dedicated to him. there are, like, two or three runestones depicting him. snorri made him into a jesus figure in the eddas but he serves so much cunt that he is repeatedly misinterpreted as literal satan. your fave could never.

LegendLark/Dames and Dragons - this is another difficult one because the characters are all so great, but im giving it to laika because i have a funny story about it. my first listen through i was in the middle of the gray manacle arc when i started asking myself who my favorite was. i decided it was laika literally the episode before she leaves 🥹

Dungeons and Daddies - i feel like my favorite should be scary, as someone who was once a goth/emo teen girl. however im gonna have to give it to my boi normally lee oak-swallows-garcia, the perky peppy chipper cheery mixed up mascot who doesnt know who he is anymore. imagine knowing your parents are disappointed with you at like, 14. imagine inheriting a generational curse except its a literal eldritch curse that you cant do anything about. imagine connecting with the mind of an incomprehensible eldritch being that is killing your reality out of loneliness and fear and hatred and deciding to show kindness.

The Locked Tomb - probably an obvious pick but its gotta be gideon nav. shes your butch sword lesbian. shes your jock trapped in a science convention. shes your tragic unloved child. shes your doomed by the narrative/came back wrong double threat. shes everything to me.

Paranatural - im not actually current, unfortunately. ever since zack changed formats ive found it difficult to read. i understand why they decided to do it the new way, but my attention span is simply not long enough. eventually i will catch up probably maybe. that said, my favorite is of course max. i just love how sassy and exasperated he is. he literally didnt ask for any of this shit. like he just moved to a new town where he doesnt know anyone and suddenly theres ghosts and he has to join an organization to fight them and his bat has a monster inside of it and he almost gets run over by a train, how fucking exhausted must this kid be all the time

Hunter X Hunter - its the only anime on the list baybee. i thought about including others but none are super current and hxh is the one that i still feel strongly about. my fave from hxh is the one, the only, killua zoldyck. my son. my angel. my precious catboy murder child. a boy who was tortured by his own family and trained to not care about other people and who was so lonely he latched onto the first boy his age that hed ever met. he is so full of love and he would do anything for his best friend, including kill people, but to be fair he would also kill people for literally any other reason

The Wheel of Time - my most recent experience with wot was rereading the eye of the world in preparation for the amazon show, which was a huge letdown for me and a lot of fans of the books. my last experience with it before that was when i was, like, 12. as a kid my favorite character was egwene, and now my favorite is...still egwene. she is a strong, confident young woman who knows what she wants and doesnt shy away from going after it. shes very strong-willed and doesnt bend to the will of others, she is unrepentantly herself. she also reads very heavily as a lesbian despite being in a (rather annoying imo) het romance with the mc. i dont think this was intentional (given the aforementioned het romance) so i wouldnt call it coding but like. shes a young adult who eschews traditional female roles and aspires to be unmarried and spend her time with other women how ELSE am i supposed to read that

Homestuck - very much NOT a current fandom, but it defined a great deal of my life, so i feel like it should be included. my favorite for this one may be the most difficult to predict, or maybe not idk, but its kanaya maryam. i remember the first time i was reading, waiting for my patron troll to pop up, and it was her. at first i paid attention to her just for that, but i fell in love with her pretty fast. i have a thing for female characters who go through arcs of self discovery and learning to value themselves outside of the opinions of others. something about starting out thinking youre a prop for other people and ending as a whole ass person is so *chefs kiss* also shes sassy and wields a chainsaw which is badass. i personally think her arc fell flat and she was underutilized in the end, but shes hardly the only one that got overlooked tbfh

im not tagging anyone mostly because i have no idea who i would tag. if youre reading this and want to do it, please do!

[solosatan]

[seoafin]

Hi there morgan! would u mind elaborating more on what u mean that jjk is a manga that struggles narratively and is being held only by a few characters? also u said before that gojo isn't intersted in any female character correct? i hope shonen doesn't do the usual like with most other stories but how would i know lolol

sure! i talked a bit abt good characters vs a good plot in this ask

i think a lot of shonens (most of which are modeled on a battle structure that usually ties into narrative) struggle in this aspect because of its focus on flashy cool combat and not much else like characters or plot. like i've said a great manga would ideally have a great meaningful cast of characters and an overarching narrative that ties into a strong close. i think in that aspect while jjk has (had?) a strong cast of characters, it’s plot hasn’t been fully fleshed out in a way that i think could’ve been done had akutami given more time to his characters and their relationships. i think akutami does give great thought to how he incorporates mythology and cursed techniques and reoccurring motifs and themes but i also think akutami keeps the plot perfunctory (if that makes sense) and keeps to what he needs exactly and not much else

akutami also fails at worldbuilding. he takes for granted that it takes place in modern day tokyo and you can see it (he could elaborate so much on jujutusu society and its structure and how it operates in and outside the public sphere and the three great clans and even the smaller ones). obviously i can’t mete out judgement considering the manga hasn’t finished yet but he could give us more than crumbs 😭

also i’m not the only one to point out how the pacing of the shibuya arc felt off (ive actually seen quite a lot of ppl who quit the manga during the shibuya arc and im not surprised). the only thing jjk has going for it are it’s characters (and im not even talking about how well developed the characters are bc the women really aren’t. i’m talking about how likeable the characters are and their popularity which i have my own set of grievances abt lol)

so like i said the manga’s not finished yet so i’ll have to see how akutami finishes the next arcs. i just really really really hope he doesn’t go the route where almost everyone dies. i’d hate that.

[ccsthemovie2]

(I think it's a word over 500, but:)

"Speaking of Tsukishiro, how's he doing?", Eriol asks. Frying pan to fire to volcano.

"He's good," Touya says quickly, before Sakura can say anything. Yukito is not even in the ballpark of "good". Yesterday he called Touya and begged him to bike over and said it was important and when Touya showed up he was asleep, and stayed fast asleep right through to the next morning. He keeps trying to make appointments with doctors, and then falling asleep before he can call, or, when Touya calls for him, before he can make it out the door. Privately, Touya isn't sure how much good a doctor can do for him, but anything has to be better than this, right?

"Really? I'm glad to hear it." Ugh, how much has Sakura told him. Not that she doesn't have a right to talk to her friends, but, come on, would it kill her to least keep it between her and Tomoyo and the funny looking cat.

He's good, that's an obvious lie. Ruby has said Yukito could barely stand upright at school. Every inch of Touya Kinomoto is packed full of magic. Sooner or later, Eriol figures, either Sakura will be powerful enough to sustain him, or Yue will have to get over himself and just eat already. Touya can't actually do anything with his magic, so it's not like Yue, even weak as he is, will have to face much of a struggle to take it. (Aside from competition with Ruby, of course. There's something to that, right, articles and studies about animals being healthier if they need a bit of careful planning to get their food? Yes, so this works out nicely.)

Or maybe- oh, that's probably it. Yue's on to him, isn't he? He's just being stubborn as usual, figuring sooner or later Clow will appear via Eriol and save him. He can imagine how surprised, overjoyed, grateful Yue would be, if Eriol showed up and saved his life. He can imagine Yue's head resting on his neck as clearly as if he had kept Yue well-fed with magic a thousand times in his lifetime. It would be nice, in the short run, but it wouldn't be right, no. Clow is dead, and Yue needs to learn to live with that. If he knows what's good for him, he will take responsibility for his own life, and if he doesn't...

Ahh, well, maybe it's Clow's old sentimentality, maybe Eriol is just warming up to Sakura's moon guardian all on his own, but he can't bring himself around to the idea of letting Yue just die. He'd save him, if it came down to it. But, he tells himself sternly, only as an absolute last resort. He's just worrying because he misses Yue and wants to get to know him better all at once in that past-and-future way- it's worth a visit, soon. Yes, a nice little visit, and Yue will never even have to know it happened. Just to check in.

(sorry the formatting got weird when i copypasted lol!)

hiiii thanks for the ask!!!

if we talk about this convo we need to back up and talk about how it got here. this should give you some idea of how badly this needs to be under a cut for length lol.

so it all starts with the bit about how someone falling and being caught is something that happens a lot in ccs. how with eriol, it's purposeful, and with fujitaka (and i misremembered it but since found out she fell *on* him and not *caught* by him, which lolol i hope he broke a bone, but also its fine the fic's already marked canon divergent, or maybe the story gets misremembered, whatever, in any case), it's an echo of clowriol's intentional artificial-trustbuild-dangersaves but without the magic or purpose to back it up (just like fujitaka himself!), but it's a situation he quickly makes favorable to him, because it may be a blank slate but it's made of the same material.

this whole convo was part of one of the very first chunks written, but everything was going to go in a very different direction at first. (there's a lot of Cut Content from this fic, some that i just didn't like, some that wasn't connectable with the rest of the fic after it took the shape it took but might pop up somewhere else one day idk). in this particular bit i cut the later half of the conversation because i really didn't like what i'd written, but then even though the direction of the story changed the conversation was still going so it had to bounce somewhere else, so it bounced to yukito. here we are answering your ask 2 paragraphs in!

yukito, iirc in the anime, did catch her from a fall, (in the manga, which made way more sense for why she had to change her clothes and rest so much, he saved her from drowning, again iirc because who can trust a memory) and at a point where eriol still has some investment in making yuekito/sakura (ewwwww) happen, he's going to try and draw on that symbolism to nudge her in that direction, right?

so all this said, SPEAKING of yuekito. how are they doing.

bad, obviously. touya's freaking out. i imagine that part of what's stopping yukito from seeing a doctor is yue, though- he knows it wont help, and i dont think yukito has, like, person insides that will stand up to medical tests, and yue would pick up on yukito like, not wanting to be outed to the doctor as a magic construct because he, like, doesnt actually have a real heart that pulses, just a repeating heartbeat sound. doesn't for real have blood etc to test, just records of blood type (for personality reasons).

and also touya's a very like keep-ur-problems-not-everybodys-business type so hes like imagining sakura venting her fears to this weirdo and getting pissed off. but that didnt actually happen, eriol knew all on his own lolol. touya you have to say something nice should happen to sakura to make up for wrongly suspecting her now

and this bit on eriol's end is all wrong information and inaccurate conclusions and i was really worried ppl would take it at face value but i hope nobody did. in ccs we get moments where eriol wants sakura to take power, or to learn that power can be taken- his final battle with her, for example, where the answer to his light and dark puzzle is to use kero and yue's power, except that's not something she would ever Want to do or would even Occur to her to try. the power is gifted to her by kero and yue (and syaoran!) because they love her.

same concept, here- the answer to the 'yue is dying' puzzle is to eat touya's power, and he can't imagine the real reason why he won't just do that, and when he thinks about it too long it goes right to his ego- yue looovvvvesss clow, and by extension me. he wants meeeeeee to save him. he wants to neck kissy MY magic soo sooooo bad. but yue isn't considering any of that at all. he's thinking about yukito and what touya means to yukito and why that would make yukito hesitate to reach out, and that no way in hell will he just ambush his other self's crush down a dark alley and take his magic, even to save both their lives. he's a lot more selfless than clow and eriol ever realize. maybe- this is just a half formed thought right now, i dont know if im like certain about it, but- maybe they feel his devotion to clow was a form of selfishness, that he Wanted Love as a thing he could hold and own, whereas pretty much everybody else who meets him goes like YOU SELFLESS MAN YOU CANT JUST DIE FOR PPL YOU CARE ABOUT YOU GOTTA TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOOOO

and there’s also that bit of teacherliness intrinsic to the three of them again: im doing this to teach him a lesson. im letting ruby do her thing without telling her what’s going on to help and encourage yue, etc.

anyway, that (in terms of fic weaving itself into canon) solidifies his decision to do uhmmmm a thing that creeps me out real bad in the anime (knocking yue out to have a moment with him, and oh, ding, there's another 'you fell but i caught you' moment!). eriol loves this manner of hanging out with people, you see it later in this fic, even:

It's important to say what's in your heart to the people you want to say it to, even if you have to make sure the other person never hears it. It's important for your own emotional freedom.

he loves to spend time with people exclusively on his terms, to the point where the other party never even knew he was there, because he knocked them out, or because he was just staring creepily at the outside of sakura's house while she did homework, etc etc etc.

tldr: it's all connected, aaaaaaaaa

[obeyme-kaidii-writes]

Beginnings (2/9)

Mammon x ace gn!MC x ace!Leviathan

NOTE - read the content warnings listed in Part 1

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Mammon sprawled out on his bed. He knew exactly why you were avoiding him. And even though he’d scoff and act annoyed, he was really anything but. Every time he’d see you, for a brief moment he’d imagine you running up to him and tackling him in a hug like you’d use to. Which was ridiculous. Of course you wouldn’t do that, not after what he said.

Bored, and lonely, and with nothing else to do, Mammon pulled out his DDD and started browsing through Devilgram. He had initially been trying to distract himself, but it didn’t take long before he had stumbled across some old photos of you and him together. A soft smile spread across his face, even as he felt his heart tightening in his chest. He really missed you.

He swiped to the next image, surprised to find it was one that had been taken by one of his brothers of you and Levi. He noticed the glimmer in your eye as you looked at Levi while must have been ranting about who only knows what. Mammon felt his eyes starting to burn, tears pricking at the corners. He knew that look. That was his look. The one you were only supposed to direct at him. And here you were gazing at his brother like that?!

He was about to chuck his phone across the room, when his thumb swiped the screen again, this time moving on to a video of the three of you. You were at some coffee shop, and Mammon’s arm was wrapped tight around your shoulder, holding you close. Levi had been sitting next to you, awkwardly drinking his ridiculous coffee creation, when you looped your arm through his and tugged him to you so that he was also in the frame. The action made him blush up a storm, but there was that unmistakable look on his face of an idiot in love, one Mammon knew all too well.

Fuck.

He didn’t know how he hadn’t seen it before, but seeing the three of you together like that, you smiling and laughing as Mammon realized he was recording a video and not taking a photo, and Levi practically glowing like he was having the best day ever, made it painfully obvious just how smitten the lot of you were. You had done the responsible thing and tried to talk to Mammon about your feelings, and he had been a total dick, letting his insecurity get the better of him.

He had nothing against the idea of a polyamorous relationship in general. He had never had one before, but that was more just about timing and circumstance than any preference on his part. But as soon as you suggested it, a horrible dark, ugly feeling started to consume him and he just couldn’t think straight anymore. The thought that maybe the reason why you wanted such an arrangement with his brother was because Mammon was somehow lacking in some area had been hard to shake.

Mammon glanced back at the video on his DDD, swiping again to move to the next photo, and again and again. Dozens of photos of the three of you (and sometimes his other brothers too). You clearly didn’t think Mammon was lacking. You just genuinely seemed to love them both.

Mammon’s bedroom door suddenly got flung open, Levi forcing his way inside.

“What the hell did you do?!” he shouted, pointing an accusatory finger at Mammon.

“What the hell are ya talkin’ about? I haven’t left my room since I got home from RAD!”

“I’m talking about MC, idiot, and why they have been avoiding me.”

“I dunno. Sounds like your problem,” Mammon quipped, turning his attention back to his DDD. He knew exactly what Levi was talking about though. And he knew it was his fault.

“Don’t give me that crap!” Levi shouted, picking up a nearby pillow and chucking it at Mammon. The impact knocked his designer shades askew, “Talk!”

“Fuckin’ hell! Aight. Fine. Wanna know why they’re avoidin’ ya?”

“Obviously!”

“Because they’re in love with you.”

“Th-th-that’s not funny! What kind of sick joke is that? It doesn’t even make any sense!” Levi stuttered, caught completely off guard by the revelation. But Mammon just shrugged his shoulders, hurling the pillow back at Levi, before laying back down on his bed.

“Go ask them if ya don’t believe me.”

Levi couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Why the hell would Mammon, who was supposed to be your partner, tell him that you had feelings for him? Had he broken up with you? Were you avoiding Levi because you were heartbroken and didn’t know if he’d accept your confession and just couldn’t bear to have your heart broken twice so close together? His thoughts were rapidly skipping from one to the next, as he struggled to make sense of this.

“F-fine! I will!” he finally shouted, slamming the door behind him as he left.

“STOP SLAMMING MY FUCKIN’ DOOR!” Mammon yelled after him.

——————

Back in his room, Levi was pacing in front of his fish tank, talking things over with Henry.

“Should I just go to their room? No, what if Mammon was just lying. Then they might not want to see me! Or worse...Mammon might be with them and I’d walk in on them and he’d just laugh at me for being so stupid. That has to be what this is, right? Some sort of trick because he’s in a bad mood. He just wants me to embarrass myself. There’s no way they’d actually like me. I mean, I know they’re my best friend, but still. That’s totally different than actually liking someone.”

Levi continued to ramble on and on, Henry swimming laps around his tank, like he was simply letting Levi wear himself out before he reached the obvious conclusion.

“Well...maybe I could like, text them? That would work right? Just a simple “ha ha can you believe what Mammon said” sort of thing? That should be ok, right? Not too desperate? What do you think, Henry?”

But Henry didn’t answer, he just continued swimming, leaving Levi to do what he knew he needed to do.

“Fine...but if this doesn’t work out, I’m blaming you,” Levi grumbled, taking out his DDD and tapping your name in his contacts.

>>>LEVI - hey

>>>LEVI - so. I stopped by Mammon’s room earlier

>>>LEVI - and he said you had feelings for me! LOLOL

>>>LEVI - can you believe that?

Levi held his breath as he waited for your response. The little “typing” notification appearing and then disappearing several times left him feeling like he was about to be sick.

>>>YOU - Mammon said that?

>>>LEVI - yeah, crazy right?

>>>YOU - it’s true

>>>YOU - but I don’t know what to do

>>>YOU - it’s complicated

>>>YOU - Levi? Are you still there?

>>>YOU - im sorry, did I say something wrong?

>>>YOU - I really care about you, I do

>>>YOU - you’re my best friend

>>>YOU - it’s ok if you don’t feel the same

>>>YOU - Levi?

[astralhugs]

Hi! May i request the RFA + Saeran reacting to an MC that is too stressed bc of school/work so she starts crying? ♡

I’ve added bonuses bcs yall seemed to enjoy it and its also an apology for taking too long TT enjoy~~

masterlist

requests : open

YOOSUNG

* omgomg he understands

* HE RELATED TO YOU SO MUCH

* You’d both usually study together, take breakd together.

* It wasn’t too bad.

* Well...until final exams were coming up and Yoosung’s finished sooner before yours even started

* So you didn’t wanna bother him anymore.

* Third day of studying accounting and you passed out on the desk 🤩

* Yoosung was awake in the middle of the night, getting water when he saw you weren’t in bed.

* He checked on the desk to see you, asleep on the desk with some notes and reviews scattered around.

* He also saw some dried up tears probably from a few hours ago due to stress.

* He gently picks you up, checking the clock.

* 1.37 AM.

* The next morning, he woke up extra early to give you breakfast in bed.

* When you were about to leave, he would kiss you for good luck.

* Will help you when you have some problems during studying!

* Would even stop playing LOLOL just to help you study!!

Bonus (since most of yall loved these~) :

MC! Wahh! I can’t believe you made it this far! You did your best this school year, I believe in you okay? I can’t help you study all the time but I’m always cheering on for you~ All the best!! ♡

ZEN

* he was a good student up until middle school

* so whenever you needed help with a problem uhh he feels bad but he can’t solve it either.

* Unless its like language or a reading comprehension then he’s good at those!!

* A few days before your presentation, about some character analysis that you were still reviewing and ZEN had just gotten a new role.

* Did I mention its a major character role?

* You didn’t want to distract him so...you decided to try studying on your own.

* It was until you got too stressed out about it and started crying.

* You weren’t able to memorize it and had to look at the slides all the time.

* Zen finished his practice when he came back to see you with teary eyes, in a dark room, your laptop with full brightness.

* Zen immediately turned on the lights, worried your eyes would get hurt.

* He saw your eyes were still puffy and immediately held you in his arms.

* “Babe, you could’ve asked me...I would’ve made time for you.” he softly whispered.

* He lets you cool down for a while and asks you with a soft voice to show him your presentation.

* He started to read through it and realized what was wrong with it.

* He started to explain, little by little. Not wanting to stress you out again

* Rewards you with little kisses, be it on the lips or on the neck idk

* Its relaxing studying with him.

BONUS : Babe! <3 why are you stressed out? TT Oh! You’re studying? Take it easy~ I know exams can be important, especially during this time but please make sure to take care of yourself! Drink water and eat, okay? Love youuu mwah mwah mwah

JAEHEE

*empty i’ll write hers soon once i know what to write for her*

BONUS : Oh dear...are you still up studying? MC, I’m working late tonight so I can’t help you but I hope you’ve eaten and have been taking care of yourself well! Please know I’ll support you even from the C&R Building to my place and always will!

JUMIN

* He’s smart.

* Like high IQ smart

* Its canon

* Anyways, he saw that you were struggling with your business classes.

* One day, you were finishing up your graphs when Elizabeth got on top of it and scratched it.

* Tearing the paper apart.

* You widened your eyes, you were too tired to scold Elizabeth so you just sat there and shut down for a while until Jumin came home.

* He saw Elizabeth in the front door looking bad and poiting her paws at you.

* Jumin saw you, sitting down, staring at a torn paper and immediately saw what happened.

* He placed Elizabeth on the couch and went up to you and hugged you from behind.

* From there, you started crying.

* “I-i worked so hard on it, I’m not blaming Elizabeth but-“

* “My love, don’t worry. I’ll help you, okay?” he said in his calming voice.

* Starts from scratch with him again.

* It was easy for him because 1. he’s the ceo in line 2. he has a high IQ 3. hes a business man? tf?

* Very relaxing to study with him, though its not often, he’d try to make time to teach you<3

* Won’t yell at you if you get it wrong.

* Rewards you like kisses and ruffling your hair everytime you get an answer correct.

BONUS :

Its you. I’ll be running late tonight, Assistant Kang needed a few more files finalized before showing them to my meeting tomorrow so I won’t be able to come home early tonight. If you’re studying, please be sure to drink and eat somethinf healthy. I’ve asked Mrs. Kim, our maid to watch Elizabeth to watch her to make sure your work won’t be destroyed so I hope that helped. I’ll see you soon, my love. Wait for me.

707

* ANOTHER SMARTY

* Idk if it was mentioned but I remembered reading somewhere he had a high IQ

* WELL

* Your compsci class was teaching you how to code with C++

* You struggled with ‘HELLO WORLD!’

* Well...Saeyoung and Saeran just reunited so...you obviously didn’t want to bother both of them.

* Saeyoung was peeking around to check if you were eating when he saw your laptop, opened with C++ on it.

* “MC! Where did you learn how to hack?” he asks cheerfully.

* You turned around, tears in your eyes, “Why can’t I do it?”

* Saeyoung was shocked, he saw the piles of papers and the textbook.

* He smiled, while holding your hand tightly, grabbing a chair and sitting down next to you.

* He scanned through your code and immediately saw the error.

* He fixed it for you and taught you the basics.

* Dropped some easy hacking materials for you to impress your peers.

* Would definitely have a study session together! All three (four if Vandy wants to join) once every two weeks.

* Saeran would read the textbooks his brother would give to him and try explaining it to you while Saeyoung does the computer stuff.

* Studying with the choi twins? I’d like that.

BONUS :

DUNNNNNNN! Is my precious MC sad??? :((((, O-oh no, I didn’t mean to make you more sad! Ahh I’m not making this easier for you huh? MC, I hate seeing you sad...even if its just from a screen. Studying may be a bit hard. I was there. But I will always support and love you. Even if we are from different universes so take care, okay? :>

SAERAN

* OOO BIOLOGYYY

* You were learning about flower languages and you knew Saeran was good at it...while you weren’t.

* So you decide to ask him for help.

* Well...that day, he was in a bad mood but wanted to calm down so he thought teaching and reviewing with you would calm him down a bit.

* Well it for sure didn’t buddy.

* You showed him the book and he scanned through them.

* “How do you not get this? Are you dumb? An airhead?”

* Ever since he stopped drinking the elixir, he never really said those words to you so...it was kinda painful for you to hear that.

* He saw the tears in your eyes and regretted what he said.

* He snapped out of it and immediately held you tight in his embrace, “I’m sorry I’m sorry....” he mumbled, stroking your back gently.

* Tries not to get mad when you get it wrong.

* Would secretly put candy under your book everytime you get a question correct.

* “Princess, is that a candy you placed under your book?” he secretly placed it there.

BONUS :

Ah. Don’t ever think of yourself as an airhead when you’re studying! You’ll feel better when you don’t do that! Whenever I scold you...scold me back! Don’t just accept it and cry- hhh, please take good care of yourself even when you’re studying. I um...I love you okaythisisembarassingbyeee

OMGMGMFKFKF IM SORRY I ANSWERED TO THIS SO LATEEEE I JUST FINISHED SCHOOL LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO AND FOUND INSPO TODAY TT SO SORRY

requests : open~

have a great week guys <3

[cunaeparker]

Ooh how about a request where its just one of those days that Y/N drinks coffee and because she rarely drinks it shes now all hyper active asking questions, getting distracted easily, laughing, and is just all over the place and Tom is just there trying to calm her down and help her focus on her work and give motivation bc shes literally gotten nothing done in the 5 hours. Idk i just thought this would be really funny and cute lolol.

sounds cute !! i kind of changed it up to an angry, tired type thing if thats ok bc i cant help but to gravitate towards that ahah

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im currently taking requests for those of you that don’t know, so feel free to send stuff in !! 

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Word Count: 821

Summary: she’s tired, and tom’s too done with her shit to do anything about it

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Stubborn

Y/N Y/L/N does not handle caffeine well.

She's currently sat at a circular table in the middle of her university's library, nursing her—what, sixth?—cup of coffee in hand, taking quick sip after sip as her eyes skim the large textbook splayed out in front of her. Her right hand is holding a neon yellow highlighter and her other is trembling, though still bringing another sip to her lips, as her best friend (and forced study-buddy) Tom wrinkles his nose and furrows his brow, looking back and forth between her opened textbook: He's obviously disgusted, because God only knows how many cups of coffee he can force down his throat in one achy, procrastinating hell of a night, but watching his best friend struggle to keep her eyes open, taking grudging sip after grudging sip, he can't help but to feel the least bit bad.

He leans forward and pulls her textbook towards him and out of her line of sight.

Y/N's eyes dart up and an agitated scowl spreads across her tired face. Her eyes are red and puffy, her face seems to be drooping with exhaustion, and underneath it all like the pièce de résistance is a large set of purple eye bags, adding to the tiredness seeping from her body.

Tom grimaces.

"Y/N, I think we should head back to your place," he says. "You look kinda bad."

"But I'm almost done," she protests, scowl deepening. "Let me finish."

She reaches for the textbook, but Tom shakes his head and pulls it further away. Y/N's face heats up and she huffs.

"We've been in this damned library for five hours and I'm not going to carry you out of here when you eventually pass out," says Tom firmly. "You need sleep and we are going to leave."

Y/N casts him a withering look as if what he said was completely irrelevant. She picks up her phone and glances at the cracked screen.

"It's been four and a half hours," she grumbles. "You're wrong—but besides, what's thirty more minutes going to do?"

"Make you pass out."

"Answer the question."

"No."

"Yes."

Tom resists the urge to scoff. "See, you're getting grouchy! I need you home before you gouge my eyes out with your pencil."

A small smirk cracks her lips at Tom's joke, but they go down as quickly as they came and her eyes go back to stone cold exhaustion.

"I'm not going to kill you," she says, rolling her eyes and sipping her coffee. "I'm just annoyed."

Now, Tom scoffs.

"By what?"

"You."

"But I'm not doing anything!" he splutters, "you're being really unreasonable!"

"No, I'm not. I have the right to be annoyed when you keep pestering me!" she says. "Leave the thought alone and I'll stop being moody. I need to finish my work."

"I thought it wasn't due for another two weeks."

Y/N glares at him, but suddenly reaches out to snatch her textbook away from his hands.

"I mean, it is," she replies, a corner of her mouth twitching into a smug smile when Tom throws his head back and groans, "but where's the harm in wanting to finish early?"

Tom wants to pinch her. "I don't know, Y/N, sleep deprivation?"

Her face falls.

"God, you're annoying," she mutters. She collects all of her items and stands up, cursing under her breath and moving to another table. She rolls her eyes and sits down, working even harder.

And all Tom does is sit at his own table, eyeing her, thunderstruck, as her pen whips across the page and her mouth frowns in concentration as she mutters the words she's reading under her breath.

God, what Tom wouldn't give to fling that wretched textbook out the window.

So much for having a stubborn friend.

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[lovelyserpentines]

Hi! I can’t begin to tell you how absolutely in love I am with tsbu GOD. Sometimes when I‘m bored I’ll just go and read it, if I need a pick me up I’ll go reread my favorite scenes, and I can’t even begin to tell you how many people ive already sent it to. I am beyond excited for whenever Chapter 5 is going to come out.

but trust me when I say: make sure you’re allowing yourself to take a break from writing when you have free time during school :,) as someone going to art school rn the best thing we can do for ourselves when we want to be creative but can’t be, is to just allow ourselves to do something else. I gain inspiration more when I’m not drawing. Sometimes it helps by finding another creative outlet, so for me that would be writing and honestly maybe even baking lol. Most of the time I just go and play a video game I enjoy of watch a tv show/movie that I love. Because eventually if we force ourselves to be creative when we really aren’t feeling it, that’s what leads to burn out and then we can go a long period of tone without being creative.

you obviously don’t have to do any of this of course LOLOL I was just seeing you saying how you’ve been struggling to write more for this chapter so I’m hoping something can help you find that inspiration again.

another thing to remember is that tHE MOMENT you post chapter 5, there will be 3672267382 of us flocking to ao3 the moment we know it’s uploaded. WE AREN’T GOING ANYWHERE CUZ THIS FIC IS TOO GOOD. I’m always in the EJ Caswell/Gina Porter tag on AO3 hoping that you’ll pop up somewhere dbejdnekwk

anywho this is super long so I apologize for the long message but I do hope you’ll get that inspiration back sometime soon! GOOD LUCK WITH COLLEGE!!!! AND IM SO EXCITED FOR CHAPTER 5!;!!,,!!,!,!,,

this is such lovely and kind advice 🥺🥺🥰

the only problem is my major IS creative writing, so the burnout isn’t just from tsbu or college in general. i’m just doing so much of my thing™ that i don’t want to do my thing™. in fact, what i end up doing in between ficspiration moments is reading books/fics, w the occasional movie/tv show episode sprinkled in. i’m a MESS

just an insight into what’s going on here gornkfg but regardless that is some solid advice! just gotta implement it more ❤️

also the last paragraph makes me (✿ ◕‿◕) thank you for the luck! good luck in art school 🎉

[moonblssm]

YESS THEY ALL LOOK SO GOOD THIS COMEBACK my seungmin feeling enhanced x10 but my favorite part of that video was seeing minho all happy taking classes from the dance studio in america because it must have been so long since he’s been in that type of environment. they obviously dance a lot as idols but sometimes it looks too easy for him LMAO, husband status

2/4 husband status said: “seungmin said it’s my time to shine baby. and i also love when there’s bass in songs!! probably why i like skz music so much because they’re so heavy on bass but it also sucks when skz have really pretty instrumentals but it just gets overwhelmed with bass so im glad they toned it down a little this time!!”

3/4 husband status said: “also, just read ur jisung fic!! she’s back baby and better than ever”

4/4 husband status said: “ahh ik i already sent three asks that you haven’t responded to yet but im kind of getting into nct but there’s so much content where should i start??”

okay hi baby! i’m so sorry for making you wait so long for my response. i love you so much and thank you for being so patient with me! there’s a lot so...

seungmin with black hair is so @#^%&$%#$@&&^%$!!!!! i cannot express how much i love black haired minnie because he makes me so fsahkcahs i love him. and yes! i couldn’t believe they learned from the lab (i watched their younger team on world of dance!) and i just felt so full of love when i say minho! he looked so happy and in his element and it was just so heartwarming!

i actually really really really like bass so i didn’t mind the bass in god’s menu! but i definitely agree that when bass is more refined, the bass drop sounds super super cool! especially when im blasting it in the car on my way to work lol

something about seungmin’s recent posts on insta has me feeling a certain type of way and i can FEEL the confidence he has rn!! what has that black hair dye done to him HHHHH

and thank you! i’ve had the jisung fic written for a little while now! the rest of the maknae line is left and i’m struggling to put together a plot for theirs hhh, but currently focused on finishing some other things and trying to prepare myself for college T-T

and i’m glad you’re getting into NCT! i used to be an nct based blog but i became such a multi stan this year and last lolol. i honestly can’t remember how i learned so much about them but i just kept up on all their content and binged old stuff. i would definitely watch that one very extensive (un)helpful guide with like different parts! i watched a lot of guides and that helped me to learn all the jokes and members and personalities!!

again, i love you so much and i’m so sorry <3

[rqs902]

Hello! I wanted to ask about the whole Linmo VS button fiasco. I don't know anything about it but as a diehard fan of his I must know. 😂 preferably with "evidence" (By the way, thank you so much for all of your translations and such, it's my energy source.) ~another Linmo fan

hello!! hahahahhaha omg it was a whole fiasco yes. (you’re welcome by the way!!! thank you for being a diehard fan of his ❤ and im happy to be able to be an energy source!!) so basically at the QCYN iQIYI VIP Fanmeeting, during the Huo Zhong (Tinder) performance, Lin Mo’s button kept bursting open even though he tried really hard to button it back up 

i actually dont have as much knowledge about fantakens as my good friend bobby @mr-linmo​ so i actually employed her to help me with finding “evidence”! she’s super fun and has received permission from lots of fansites to upload mr tyger fantakens so if you dont follow her already, i would highly recommend!!! but yea so she recommended this fansite: here 

on that fansite’s weibo, you can find photos and videos of the “button fiasco” lololl bobby also pointed out that a lot of fansites are (thankfully) pretty considerate about the incident, so there arent many (if any?) photos of him actually with his bare chest bc they edited them to make them more appropriate 

she also pointed out this photo post: here where you can see he’s obviously struggling with the button but also maintaining his facial expression (i love his stage presence ❤) 

i also wanted to point out that you can watch the official video of the performance: here and you can see that he’s really struggling (many many times) to try to button his shirt properly but failing… so the poor guy really really did not mean to or want to flash all of dachang (even tho he did ;;)

and i subbed this video for you so you can see how he reacted to the incident :) even tho he was really flustered and frustrated about it at the time, i hope that one day he’ll be able to look back at this moment in amusement, bc he really did try his best, but he just really was defeated by a button that day 😂

[berryunho]

I’m crawling out of the crusty hole that the first week of school left me in and let me just say that AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

yeah 🥰

I hate icebreakers.

School is starting off with me and my horrible sleep schedule that consists of sleeping at 3 am and waking up at 11 am and boring morning classes that have me in this horrible purgatory of constantly falling asleep only to snap my neck by suddenly jolting awake FMIMFIFJZ

ALSO HEYYYY SHOUTOUT TO MIGHTYCHONDRIA ANON LETS GO CANADIAN ATINY 🥳🥳 but I’m hoping for a great semester for you as well! Let’s all struggle together #teezersoverschoolclub (couldn’t think of a better name atm-) but help if you’re in the GTA /YYZ then you know how horrible the time vs walking distance ratio that universities give you 🫡 not sure abt other universities around the country tho 😭

AND HELP I WAS ABSOLUTELY CRYING AT THE SMUT ATTEMPT THREAD BUT I WOULD BE SO READY TO READ IT IF YOU RELEASE IT AND I HAVE A TINGLING ON WHO IT MIGHT BE BUT I’LL TELL YOU IF I WAS RIGHT LMAO

Sorry if this was a bit long btw I’m trying to summarize a week in an anon question lolol but I hope school treats you well and that you’ve had a great week compared to me lolol 🥰

- From, a-half-dead-and-hanging-by-a-string 🍓 anon

ALSO ALSO IT WAS MY BDAY A FEW WEEKS AGO AND MY SELF-BDAY PRESENT FINALLY ARRIVED SO I CAN AT LEAST GO BACK TO SCHOOL WITH A CUTE NEW IPAD CASE AND DECORATE MY PC TOPLOADERS HEHEHE - From, 🍓 anon (obv💀)

dear 🍓 anon first of all im sorry your first week was bad </3 im sure everything will get better once we're all settled into the semester hehe

BUT OKAY FOR REAL ICE BREAKERS ARE... ALSDJFKALSDJFKL im fine when they don't give you a prompt. bc i have my go to icebreaker (i have 7 siblings) (1 full brother and 3 half siblings and 3 stepsisters LKFJDKSJFKJDS) BUT when they give you some prompt... immediately no. my korean prof made us share our favorite fact about korea. i was like. mf. NO ONE HAS A FAVORITE FACT ABOUT A COUNTRY ?>%(#* but yeah i really hope the semester starts going better LKDJFSLKDJf it sucks so bad to have a messed up sleep schedule ugh ...

BUT YEAAAHHH MIGHTYCHONDIRA AND 🍓 ANON UNITY !!! lol we will be each other's school support system okay... im here for #teezersoverschoolclub ... but 🍓 anon... have you ever said what your major is 🧍‍♀️ hehe you don't have to share obviously but im curious hehe and YAY im also in the tablet note community like its so luxurious ... i love it... but having a cute cover is obvs half the fun so YAYYYY HAPPY LATE BDAY???!!!!

BUTANLKSJFLKASDKJFAK WRITING THAT SCENE WAS SOOOO DIFFICULT BC I WAS LAUGHING AND CRINGING AND HATING IT AND LOVING IT ALL AT ONCE ALKSJDFLAKSD in the end its really not. Smut. just like. suggestive... KLJDFLKSD GOD I EVEN HATE JUST SAYING THATLSKJRKTAJSDL hehehe i think it will be included... probably.... so ill be awaiting LOL

hehe no worries about being long i enjoy the pen-pal vibes KDJFLJDKJ i hope your week has started off better!!