#im not putting that back on my face
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
alternate bad ending
(inspired drabble under the cut)
Lucanis has been taught to accept death since he was a child. He's trained in it. He's used to it. But that doesn't mean what family he has left isn't important to him. Rather it's what matters to him most.
Then he gets imprisoned and tortured. He watches people die, week after week for a year. He's made to think he's going to die at any moment. Made to think that his family is dead. But he doesn't know.
Then you come along, set him free, return him home to find only one family member left, the other probably dead after all. But he still doesn't know.
Then she's alive, imprisoned by the same person that imprisoned him, the other living relative. But he can't kill him. He won't be the reason to lose what he has left, and there's so little left.
But then there's you, who's shown him compassion he's never known, that there's something more than just family/contracts/enemies. That it's safe to be vulnerable around someone.
But he's scared to get close. Scared he'll hurt you. Scared he'll lose you, to himself, to a god, to something he can't kill.
Then his walls start to break. He doesn't know what he'd do without you. And then you disappear. You might be dead. A day, a week, a month goes by. You're still not back. You're probably dead. He thinks he'll never see you again.
It's weeks of not knowing, and he's wasted all this time fearing he'd only take time away from you, time he could have given you instead of pushing you away, and he's lost you anyway. You could have both been happier, if he wasn't so broken.
Then you're back, and nothing else matters, there's no holding back. He'll do anything to protect you, you are his sole purpose now. This he knows, more than anything.
Then the battle is over, the gods are dead, and so are you in his arms. He couldn't protect you.
He knows death. He knows you're dead.
But only now after decades without, does he remember what it's like to grieve.
#needed to get this out of my system :') i put way too much effort into those wings and needed to scale them back but im really proud of them#i tried to keep rook ambiguous so we can ALL share in the angst <3#dragon age veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#da4#evt draws#rook x lucanis#also this is my first time glazing art which is why it has those weird wrinkly distortions#i made a lockscreen version too just to punch myself in the face every now and then when i check my phone and forget lol
461 notes
·
View notes
Text
Learn from who? Learn from you?
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit#OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros#and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember#ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene#and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc#the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won
680 notes
·
View notes
Text
the thing about Irondad is that i can make reality whatever i want and what i want is Tony being a cringe failure when it comes to the parenting side of things and Peter simultaneously being like "yeah he is a fucking loser" and "he's super smart though and learning from him has been awesome" and "but if he would be my dad that'd be cool." like Peter is an unreliable and a biased narrator at the same time so he thinks Tony is cool but in my eyes I know what he is. Tony is actually like "i would die for this kid" but having an emotional conversation feels like he's been asked to drag his bare ass across hot coals. he doesn't even know where to begin to accomplish that task. which is why Peter says things like "oh he doesn't say a lot of things to me about how he feels but i can read between the lines" and in his mind Tony says things that mean another thing but never are *quite* that thing. usually jokes that talk about what he means without having to say it or be vulnerable. in his POV he's freaking out that Peter is missing to the point of being physically ill about it, yet Peter couldn't imagine it's that bad or because losing *him* is the cause of that problem. that's how Irondad really is, and i can make it better because canon is my bitch now
#iron dad#tony stark#because enough with tony being emotionally vulnerable in fics#who is that man#let's be very honest here#that man was good to morgan because he had the time to learn#he got HIMSELF stuck in that teenager phase with peter (we're talking about canon)#tony isn't a great dad#but he has the POTENTIAL to get there#they're slightly better in LoF because they went through a whole different phase#peter was dropping ironman in dumpsters and then calling tony stark a bitch to his face#and tony was intrigued#and called him a snot nosed brat right back#let peter bully tony actually#there needs to be more of that energy right back#put them on equal footing#peter parker#my phone keeps vibrating at me for no reason while i type this so im a little distracted#phone people who know phones why is my phone vibrating at me there's no incoming notifs and i dont have vibrate on#i can not afford a new phone rn#ill die
286 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ransom, Trey, and Nicky
#ts4#sims 4#the sims 4#two pointy eared mfs and their weird horned gf#im so ready for the poly pack i hope its as good as the mod im currently using...or that they work well together when its updated#anyway these are my current main ocs.....idk why ransoms face is so overexposed i think i accidentlly put two highlights on#im too lazy to go back in game and check
319 notes
·
View notes
Text

























blessed be (lorscher bienensegen) | telling the bees (wiþ ymbe)
"Bees" [remixed, abridged], Claudia Emerson // "Letter to Someone Living Fifty Years from Now" [remixed. abridged], Matthew Olzmann // "Letter to my Great, Great Grandchild" [remixed, abridged], J.P. Grasser | Len Redkole, Nina Weiss, Brian Babineau, Christian Peterson, Mitchell Leff, Dave Isaac, Megan DeRuchie
#liv in the replies#if i were insane there would be an appendix to this called telling the bees however i finished this at 3am yesterday its nearly midnight &#my cutoff is when my ahl asg stream cuts. GOD by now i should know when i save a poem like hmm. not applicable but god it'd be perfect#THAT'S A CURSE. DON'T PUT IT IN THE DOCUMENT. DON'T SAVE IT. FORGET YOU READ IT. IT'S A CURSE!! <- things i should've told myself when i#went to read bees was already like 👀 &then the first line was FUCKING CLAUDE!!!!! anyway. sorry also this is like. insanely long but ALSO#regarding mf claude. the first picture is a leftover from the claude edit i made years ago so that feels GREAT and BEAUTIFUL & also for me#as ever y'all will be getting a full breakdown. starting with what i regularly have a breakdown about every time i see it which is joelle's#james 1:12 tattoo which if u use the king james version (gay) is blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test he#will receive the crown of life the lord has promised to those who love him. which i always go blessed is he who perseveres // for those who#love him. and that's joel. ignoring him getting it then getting sent down on his birthday IGNORING IT. also we know the frosty/maple leafs#hahaha fuck the flyers lore right? good. that's morgan and his dad also bc i love a baby picture & it was perfect. also the dave isaac pic#next was in an article talking about morgan 'stung' by draft camp. shut UP. i have an alt for tells him with claude and ALSO hate the#elephant w/phil bc myesie u fuckin leaf-eater (giraffe) but i love the composition of that jake shot & had to use it (it was also almost#tells him) with thylacine jakey frog nolan also raff the extinct whale bc i needed him here. if my editing on incapable of joy is bad no on#tell me i did some SHENANIGANS to put morgan in there & color-pick/alter his jersey. new skill. i think euphoria is one of my favorite for#the sake of pride night but ALSO that polaroid kills me very time &they're so stoners contemplate the universe but ALSO i love transcendenc#so that whole three photo string i think is my favorite. and i was in looking at these like listen okay it's okay there are only so many#photos in the world. you can repeat from others you've seen before. except ALSO there's so many of these freaks together do you separate#and every time i was like there can't be more there was more. don't ask the number of back-ups for the sweetest blossom/pinch/ruffle sets#okay also the ready to be stung one was a surprise favorite fit for me because i love that line but wasn't sure how to convey it? so it's o#i think with how morgan's face is and the almost of it all. yes joel hardest trier is in there purely for me i do have an alt but. how coul#u doubt him. insert sasha's tweet abt how much joel loves philly but all his quotes have been abt being excited for morgan to have a fresh#start. AND NOT EVEN TWO MINUTES IN CALGARY AND YOU'RE STILL INSEPARABLE god i literally googled frost farabee calgary to find the last#blessed [because. heard but not seen you know of everyone traded but you went together. not seen. (which ties into the terrible appendix)]#and IT DIDN'T EVEN TAKE ME TWO MINUTES TO FIND THAT!!! WHAT DO YOU MEANNN anyway. sorry again it's so long & also i will be vanishing a wee#& a half after posting [redacted] is kicking my ass & im doing [redacted fun things WAIT ACTUALLY U CAN KNOW ONE i'm seeing hippo campus]#morgan frost#joel farabee#philadelphia flyers#calgary flames
77 notes
·
View notes
Note
foxboy has been forcibly made ambidextrous due to blueskittles' forgetfulness
all characters are ambidextrous when im writing them (< guy who doesnt know the difference between left and right)
#SEE THE THING IS SOMETIMES THE SWORD LOOKS BETTER ON THE OTHER SIDE COMPOSITIONALLY AND YOU JUST FORGET THAT THATS NOT HOW IT WORKS#and. and then sometimes. you are 100% convinced that what youve drawn is a sword in the left hand. but you are wrong#sigh. i need to stop writing about characters with swords. i cant keep doing this#theres an added layer of hilarity with vulpis (foxboy) in that i originally wanted him to be right handed and then immediately forgot that#after the first panel and started drawing him left handed. so now he's left handed bc he uses his left hand in all but the very first panel#it's way easier for me to keep it consistent with my mc (cottontail) because since the fight scenes are kinda from her pov her back is#usually to the camera. so i can just put the sword on the side that i am actively holding my pen while drawing#and you would THINK it would be easy to just. reverse that. with vulpis. but apparently fucking not#AND FOR SOME REASON THIS ONLY APPLIES TO CERTAIN THINGS?? like cottontail has an asymmetrical character design#with a big spot over the right side of her face. and i have NEVER ONCE fucked up and drawn it on the left. the sword tho? fair game. why#WHATEVER. it's fine im fine this doesn't eat me up inside. i am fine with being perpetually unable to understand simple directions#asks
76 notes
·
View notes
Text


you have to dyke it up at work so the kids who see you know its an option.
#i dont know how to smile in photos. nothing to smile about in my life etc#kora.txt#my face#i get to go to work like this because im an artist. god bless#mask BRIEFLY off for this pic in an empty elevator and then u know i put that thang back on
67 notes
·
View notes
Text
i redrew this shot from pretty woman with mulder and scully!! thought it would be cute to see them in a nice scene like this hehe :D
#churro art#my art#digital art#fanart#illustration#dana scully#fox mulder#the x files#HEHEHEHEHEEEE#DID I end up putting way too much effort into a doodle again. YES#but listen. look Ok look every time I start to like a ship I need to fully draw them out#like they need their own dedicated illustration😭😭#ANYWAYSSS IM HALFWAY THRU S3!#txf will be my friend all throughout this semester I fear….#TEHYRE JUST SO CUTE IDK. IDK#i also feel like I finally got scullys face right yayyyy#ANd mulders hair. which was somehow hard#anyways shjksbhjsbhud back to classes
194 notes
·
View notes
Text
who would win, god of the realm or one (1) hog 🐖
#based on the video technoblade vs hypixel btw PLEEEEEEEASE WATCH IT IF YOU HAVENT#also new simon design wooo i had to redo his entire part of this drawing to account for that#i cant believe he's in an official server animation now waaaaaaaa#um. augh idk what else to say IM JUST GLAD IT'S FINALLY DONE I CAN GO BACK TO DOODLES#THE WEIGHT OF AN UNFINISHED WIP HAS BEEN LIFTED IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#um click for quality or something idk i just like how techno's face turned out in the smaller details hehe.. especially the stripe#and are you proud of me i didnt put the black line under the neck for once. i thought it looked better without it this time#clogging tags to lower visibility dont perceive me outside my circle im scared 🏃🏃🏃#technoblade#simon hypixel#my art
245 notes
·
View notes
Text
The useless slob husband has gotten out of fashion lately and I LOVE that for men as a whole. The Ludo guy in High Potential is such a good dad/ex, and Derek in shrinking is such a good partner and friend, and Ricken Severance is always 100% into his baby, Jay in Ghosts goes above and beyond to go with Sam's and the ghosts' shenanigans, and Jonah superstore was the dad that stepped up often, that one husband in pivoting loved his career mom wife so much... shows are giving their women such cool dudes! I find myself actively rooting for these straight guys to be on screen. That shit was NOT easy to come in the 2010s, it was either useless slob or possessive sexyman.
#no dont mention jim from the office i hate that dude#high potential#severance#shrinking#superstore#like the hunks in greys anatomy or whatever were all mostly toxic at times#i could not care less about the LIs in women led shows bc they were just mildly possesive man candy#these guys are sunny disposition dudes and they put a smile in my face#network television I love you I missed you Im back#ghosts
61 notes
·
View notes
Text

hey kuniharu, buddy, i think youre thinking of your other son ???
#(this is a draft from LAST january i wasnt ever gonna post but one of the songs in my saiki playlist makes me think of this panel every time#and im very very very normal so very notmal about it and not on the verge of tears AT ALL)#hes not ENTIRELY wrong to be fair#mostly because kusuo puts up a major front that he isnt very good at seeing past#its just crazy to me that he can talk about KUSUO like this both to his face and behind his back but-#he never says anything about his sadomasochist son who fits this description way more perfectly ?#kuniharu ur a hater#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post
123 notes
·
View notes
Note
Important questions. With older bf!Simon is there ass eating? Second question, if so, is it a he eats your ass, you eat his ass, or you eat each others ass? 👀
brilliant question- let me go crazy for a second okay 🫶🏼
there’s an unspoken rule about your older bf!simon and that’s the rule that says there is no part of you that doesn’t drive him fucking crazy.
there are just some parts more than others.
and every time he has you bent over, he’s running his thumb over your asshole- call it a cliche but simon goes fucking nuts over your asshole.
which is why he can be found with his face between both cheeks, large hands kneading the flesh as his tongue breaches the tight muscle.
he likes it best when you reach back to grip his hair, there’s a moan that leaves him and vibrates through you when you pull his face against you.
satiates that filthy part of him that needs to claim every single part of you.
(simon’s a little more precious about his own ass, he doesn’t really know how to feel about you sticking your own tongue up his asshole. but when he’s all pliable and soft and you catch him at the right moment, he’s moaning his fucking head off- holding his thighs back as you run your tongue from his balls to his ass in one long stroke)
#sorry simon but you’ve got crazy movement at the back there- course im gonna want to put my face in it#older bf!simon#simon riley smut#simon ghost riley smut#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley blurb#simon ghost riley blurb#simon riley drabble#simon ghost riley drabble
360 notes
·
View notes
Text
Is his stupid chest on backwards
#studying world tour for. reasons.#im not seeing things thats his chest facing up right#trick question. im not seeing things cause they rigged it more normal in total drama x4 island#it could of been a straight line but no. put his pecs on his back who cares#thats it. feel free to ignore me I just need to express my observations#total drama#total drama noah#td noah#Starry speaks#I love blogging. I am no better than S*erra
219 notes
·
View notes
Text
Weezer but evil or something
#I need to fry them in a pan! ^_^#been rewatching rvb lately .. the fixation is still there in the back of my head#these might change a little but ermm face hcs yaay ^_^#I need to put them in a meat grinder.#rvb#dick simmons#dexter grif#rvb donut#rvb sarge#I need to throw rocks at them!#Like. affectionately.#Ignore the codpieces im going to get you.#my art👍#running out of things to say guys. Ok goodbye#ddbn greatest hits
374 notes
·
View notes
Text
AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY
#I WASNT EVEN MEANING TO SO I ACCIDENTALLY SKIPPED THE DIALOGUE BEFORE I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING FUCK#ill go and find it later if only to give myself peace of mind. BUT WOW. WHAT THE FUCK#my original plan was to 1) work my way to the king and talk to him 2) doom myself and take everyone down with me 3) loop back to floor 3#so i can visit the observatory and scrounge for any lore. although since i got killed that run siffrin asked the king to kill him first#which was intereresting. but i decided to have all doors unlocked that time around so i can just get the starcrest and go#but for some reason it wasnt working so i went to get the keyknife since i was already there and completely forgot i already had it#from the previous loop and THATS what triggered it. IT WAS FUNNY BUT ALSO SCARY BUT ALSO I THINK I GET WHAT THEY MEAN#about siffrin going back without actually changing. going along with a script even if his feelings on things change#the same way he has his own small rituals like the carving thing and does it for constancy. reassurance or safety even#and the times when he breaks script and ends horribly like the sadness attacking thing and bonnie yelling at him cause him to loop#to avoid it. although i cant really say anything bc id probably do the same thing. maybe not for the same reasons since im cruel#and make him do the worst to see what will happen since i put curiosity over rejection sensitivity as an observer and player but well.#i feel wrongfooted bringing it up since i dont have it myself but i have to wonder if this kind of leans into ocd tendencies.. i remember#reading something about how ocd is fuelled by fear. and things like counting and rituals are kind of used to cope with that?#if anyone knows anything more or talked abt it already id be really interested in hearing it bc im almost sure im not#the first to come to this conclusion. but i simply dont know enough nor have the confidence to broach the topic rn esp with how often#misconceptions around ocd get casually passed around so its hard for me to know what is and isnt a baseless assumption#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#playthru#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#change god#WHAT WAS THAT WITH WEARING LOOPS FACE THOUGH WHAT THE FUCKKK
64 notes
·
View notes
Text
ok. question.
ortega ended up hallucinating sidestep after they "died", but sidestep doesnt know about that. they know it got bad, but never the full extent of how their death affected them. so if your sidestep Did learn, if they found out ortega looked for them in every little piece they could, would that change anything for your sidesteps? would their relationship with ortega be any different?
#pulp speaks#Am i thinking of my “ortega sees sidestep posthb” fic again? perhaps#shameless plug btw yall should read it its called 'seen' on ao3 and i still like it#but anyway the important bits: ive been thinking about it with my sidesteps and its really interesting to me how different they are#but theyre all some variation of “i didnt know you /cared/”#caine is. uncomfortable with the idea#i genuinely dont know why but i do know that in the end their feelings on the matter are “whats done is done and im back now” with a small#“ill try not to leave again” mixed in#meanwhile cyrus is a deer in headlights over it#itd be way worse if he learned it when they met again- i feel like if he learned ortega was still that attached he wouldve left and never-#-come back. he would still want to Now but hes too tangled in his relationships and ortega is his /friend/ and leaving would just explode i#-his face‚ god Damnit ortega you son of a bitch‚ he shouldve just run. you werent supposed to drag him into caring about people again.#cecilia would have mixed feelings about it. i think shed resonate with it a lot for reasons she doesnt want to face#but it would also hit her like a goddamn Truck that he chose to move on/replace her rather than try get her back and its easier to get mad-#-about that than question her own feelings. but also maybe she could use this to her advantage? maybe this time he knows theres always a-#-chance hell come back for her next time. maybe. shes hoping there wont be a next time.#cynthias an interesting case because shes in love with ortega. deeply. but ortega /never came for her/ when she /promised/ and cynthia-#-is still furious about it#ortega hallucinated her in death but she couldnt put the pieces together and go looking herself? she cared enough to look for her but-#-not enough to save her?#she would still end up settling on bitterness for abandoning her but the information would shake her to her core#anyway. i think ortega should be used as a squeaky toy 👍#caine lynzal#cyrus becker#cecilia rider#cynthia garcia#ortega#sidestep#fhr
68 notes
·
View notes