#im not one to usually gaf about how my works are doing cause i have to keep up the mantra that its for Me

[zarnzarn]

heart by the fingers final chapter coming out tomorrowwwww

(i was gonna put this in the tags before I added too many- but here's my genuine request to give this fic a chance! lemme convince u ;) hehe)

[melanatedeuph0ria]

my initial thoughts on the bear s3 (having only gotten to ep 5)

im not even mad ab the whole sydcarmy breakdown in s3 rn I’m just like disappointed because what the fuck man

I’m only on ep 5 and I’m not gonna lie to y’all if this was as good and actually interesting as season 2 I’d be eating it up and binging that shit as much as I did last year. Well now I rlly can’t because I just HAD to rewatch the show w my parents so now that means I have to wait until they’re in the mood to watch it to watch it with them so I don’t feel like I’m betraying them for watching episodes on my own (mostly my mom tbh) but like ts is NOT speaking to me man

like I NEVER use “man” at the end of my sentences like that only when I’m actually exasperated and fucking tired of the shit something or somebody is pulling

Like FROM WHAT IVE SEEN this season has only showed me that like OKAY I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THE FAKS IM JUST SEEING THEM WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH LIKE…WHY IS JOHN CENA HERE STOP TRYING TO MAKE SHIT INTERESTING BY INSERTING RANDOM FUCKING CELEBRITIES INTO YO SHIT FIRST OF ALL

SECONDLY I’m pissed with how CARMY IS TREATING MY BEAUTIFUL BLACK QUEEN PRINCESS DUCHESS SYDNEY

Like what happened man 😕

It was legitimately going so so so SO WELL IN SEASON TWO

LIKE I HAD HOPE INDISPUTABLE HOPE ABOUT THEM GETTING TOGETHER

LIKE HUH

but then this WHITE MAN has the nerve to treat her like GARBAGE

FIRST FROM GETTING INTO A FIGHT WITH RICHIE FOR NO FUCKING REASON CAUSING RICHIE TO FALL OVER AND SPILL ALL OF THE HARD EXPO ORDER WORK SYDNEY WAS WORKING ON

LIKE I WOULD HAVE BEEN GONE BYE RESTAURANT WITH NO FUCKING SIGN ON THE FRONT LIKE WHO DO YALL THINK YALL AREEE

ALSO I FIND IT DISRESPECTFUL AS HELL

DISRESPECTFUL THAT THIS NIGGA IS ASKING HER “WHAT DO I DO WITH CLAIRE???” LIKE LMAO WHY NOBODY GIVE A FUCK

I THINK IM MOVING TO THE SIDE OF THE ARGUMENT THAT SYDNEY DESERVES BETTER THAN THIS MAN

AND I WIULDVE THOUGHT HE WOULDVE BEEN AT LEAST A LITTLE, MAYBE A LITTLE MORE GENTLRR WITH HER DURING COOKING TOME OR WHAGEVER TF BUT HE STILL JUST AS GORDON RAMSAY-ISH WITH HER LIKE WITH ANYONE

WTF DID WE DO STORER

LIKE WHY R U BEING A BITCH ABOUT SYDCARMY SHIPPERS LIKE U JUST PUT A BIG ASS HOLE IN THEIR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP

LIKE OKAY THEY DONT HAVE TO GET TOGEHRHER WHATEVER IF THEY DONT ILL STILL BE PISSED BUT WHATEVER

BUT I FEEL LIKE

UGH IDK

I CAME TO SEE A LIL ROMANCE THE NITTY GRITTY. LIKE EW HOW THE HELL ARE YALL GOING TO BE SHOWING CLAIRE AND CARMY KISSING IN THE DARK LIKE I DONT CARE WHAT TYPE OF WORK SHE DOES I DONT GAF AB WHAT SHE DO FOR WORK LIKE I APPRECIATE HER BEING A NICE PERSON TO THESE KIDS AND STUFF BUT CMON

CARMY AINT CALL HER NOT ONCE THIS WHOLE TIME IVE BEEN WATCHING

RICHIE IS THE ONLY ONE IM FR INTERESTED IN MARCUS TOO BECAUSE HE TRYNA DO SOME EXPERIMENTAL SHIT OUTSIDE OF THIS STRSSSFUL ASS ENVIRONMENT

AND SINCE WHEN DID THEY STILL OPERATE THE BEEF?!? I THOUGHT THEY CLOSED THAT SINCE WHRN IS A BRANCH OF THAT STILL OPERATING AND WHY IS ONLY EBRA IN CHARGE?!?

I THOUGHT THEY BUILT OVER THE RESTAURANT AND TURNED IT INTO WHATEVER THE FUCK IT IS NOW I MIGHTA MISSED A PLOT POINT BUT I DONT REMEMBER THAT EVEN BEING SAID

ALSO WHI IS THAT MAN WHO WALTZED INTO THE BEAR REASTUARSNT AND WAS TALKING W CARMY AS HE WAS CUTTING SOME SHIT AND WHO ALSO WAS AT THE WINDOW OF THE BEEF LIKE WHO ARE YOU HO LIKE R U A FAK OR WHAT BITCH

CARMY IS JUST TOO SAME OLD SAME OLD FOR ME LIKE CAN WE PLEASE CHANGE FOR ONCE IN OUR LIVES

LIKE I UNDERSTAND RICHIE ON THE FIRST EP LIKE WHAT THE FUCK DO U MEAN UR SORRY WHEN U LITERALLY CALLED ME A LEECH FOR WANTING TO BE INCLUDED IN THIS FAMILY BECAUSE HE DOESNT HAVE ONE TO RLLY CALL HIS OWN?!?!? LIKE CARMY CAN YOU CHILL OUT THIS MAN ACTUALLY LOVES YOU NO PAWSE

from what I’ve watched already its okay NOT TO SAY THE ACTORS ARE BECAUSE THE ACTORS DID AN INCREDIBLE PERFOMANCE AS USUAL LIKE THEIR SKILLS ARE STILL GREAT BUT I DONT LIKE WHAT THEY HAVE YALL DOIN WITH THAT AND ITS PISSING ME AWFF DONT PMOOOOO

ALSO IS IT JUST ME OR DO I FEEL LIKE THE BLACK CHARACTERS ARENT GETTING SHIT THIS SEASON

LIKE MARCUS AND TINA..OKAY OKAY THEY GOT THEY LIL EPISODES

BUT WHAT AB NOW IN THE PRESENT

I THINK WHO IM MAINLY TALKING AB IS SYD, EBRA, AND GARY I DAMN NEAR FORGOT HIS NAME BECAUSE WE NEVER EVER EVERRRR SEE HIM. EVER.

LIKE I ACTUALLY LIKE HIS CHARACTER I WANT TO SEE MORE OF HIM HE SEEMS COOL

okay main points:

* syd deserves better

* syd needs to stop being a lil mean to her dad idk I might be soft but like (it HAD to be said cs why r u being so rude to him for having genuine concerns about this murky ass apartment u finna dig into yo pockets to pay for?? ALSO this sussy ass partnership w this man liiiiiioke…)

* they seemed to care more ab carmys failing and anticlimactic relationship with claire than marcus’s late mother (ALSO I couldn’t help but notice SYDNEY was the only one, THE ONLY ONE who came to support this man as they were cleaning his mom’s hospice equipment out of his house…LIKE YALL HAVE NOTHING TO DO COME HELP??? like okay they came to his funeral which I appreciate y’know but still that part irks me)

* ts feels like filler at its finest somebody already said that but I felt like it had to be restated, like if CLAIRE YO

* IF CLAIRE IS THE MAIN DAMN PLOT POINT FOR THIS NIGGA CARMY RN AND IS THE ONE DRIVING HIM TO DO ALL THIS CRAZY NONNEGOTIABLE SHIT TO GET HIS MIND OFF OF IT IM DONE

* okay I’m done thank y’all for listening

* also I’m writing this on my notes app so I just copied it over

*ok bye y’all ty for listening !!! :3

UPDATE: I just read a few posts on here giving different perspectives and now I feel like I might’ve missed some stuff 😭

like maybe this is just setting it up to LOOK LIKE syd and carmy aren’t ever happening just to make season 4 and have them

idk how to even end that sentence

[pumpkinsy0]

Hcs for the little things Tim does for Ponyboy when Pony is struggling with seasonal depression?? I've always had the thought that Tim would would help put in little subtle ways

imma b so honest rn i cant make a wholeeee hcs post about it, bc there is so very little tim would rlly do for pony😭😭

AND IM NOT PULLING THIS OUTTA MY ASS OR TRYING TO B MEAN TO U ANON, im saying this bc ik if i did it i would kinda b saying things ik for a fact tim aint doin

im not saying he doesnt gaf about pony far from the truth, he does (he kinda has to🙄🙄🙄), but u gotta remember 1) tim is a gang leader, w all due respect to pony he got shit he gotta do, ponys not on his mind 24/7 365, whatever tim hears about pony its usually days later and its from an outside source 2) he knows that whatever the hell he could possibly do, darry or someone else from that gang is already doin for pony, he cant sit there and talk w pony asking whats going on, pony doesnt know him THAT well to b talkin w him about that. pony already has a supportive system that tim cant do much to add on 3) as mature as we alllll wanna make tim, that nigga dunno jack shit about emotions either, when tims depressed he gets up, does what he gotta do, and ignores ts till it passes, tim wont b that helpful to pony i fear

WITH ALL THAT SAID PLEASE TAKE THE SMALL THINGS TIM WOULD DO!!!!

•he checks up on pony through darry by asking, and curly through curlys own big mouth, tim doesnt even have to ask about pony, curly just rambles about him and tim finds out whats up

•if darrys the one telling pony to go at his own pace to get better, tims the one encouraging pony to get back into what he likes, or just go outside lil man, get air, yo room stuffy as hell u CANNOT possibly enjoy being here all the time w ur loud ass gang. maybe tim even lets pony in on a lil secret place he knows about if he wants to b alone

•the shepards dont eat MUCH cause theyre broke but they have a better diet than the curtis gang, tim gives darry some ideas on what to feed pony cause maybe a change in food will make pony more upbeat ir at least change how he feels SOMEHOW (tim thinks hes grasping at straws but look maybe pony will show interest in SOMETHING)

•tim doesnt mind slipping curly a few extra dollars so him and pony and enjoy themselves buying a snack or going somewhere or whatever, gotta make pony go outside

•tim enjoys going into ponys room to mess w pony a bit, hit him w a pillow, flick his forehead, tim has no shame, it gets pony all confused makes him stop thinking about whatevers getting him sad. AND IT WORKS, cause now ponys thinking about that the rest of the day

[luvhughes43]

i just finished binging your blake hughes au and MY GOD do i LOVE it I ADORE IT REALLY and i would like to ask the following:

first, has blake dated people before nico? if she has what would happen if they ran into an ex of hers who never really got over her? (bc lbr blake is THAT girl)

second, what are their date nights usually like? i like to think theyre pretty chill people and that they find things to do at home together like painting or making clay sculptures

third, was blake's pregnancy/delivery hard? i hope it wasnt :(( and did carrying rudi kind of mess with her back a bit? and has nico ever done the thing where the dad lifts up the belly for a bit to offer some relief?

fourth, blake and jack are twins which is the cutest thing ever! what are your personal headcanons for them as twins? and does blake have a favorite brother?

fifth, do they have more kids after rudi? or is that a long time away?

lastly, what do you think the hischier-hughes combo are up to right now?

im soso happy you love the au!! it means so much fr🫂🤍

first: blake had a summer fling with alex turcotte when they were both younger and that does cause some awkwardness with nico because he wasnt aware of their relationship before staying at the lake house. other than that we havent really discussed any other relationships ! but maybe she dates a guy for a year or two before she gets to know nico. the ex lives in nyc and he never really got over blake after they broke up (bc she is that girl🤭). blake and they ex have a few mutual friends and so maybe the ex tries to talk shit about blake and her relationship with nico. blake ends up hearing about it but she doesnt really gaf. nico gets upset about the shit talking though and gets a little possessive if they see the ex out in public. not aggressive though nico will just be extra touchy with blake which she doesn't mind one bit.

second: they are very chill ! their date nights at home usually include making dinner or dessert, painting (they've definitely done that tiktok trend where u paint your partner then do a reveal), and a little self-care spa evening🫶 when they do go out though they like to try new restaurants, see a concert in the city, dance lessons (?). i feel like blake would be obsessed with learning salsa or something and she would def make nico be her partner !

third: blake struggled with her back during her pregnancy ! she had to start PT again but nico was very helpful ! he was definitely lifting her belly, helping her with her physical therapy, etc.

fourth: jack and blake are the sassiest siblings and they 100% match each others attitude. when they were younger they'd get into arguments over literally anything but they would also forgive each other in an instant (still true once they're older). as for favourites, blake is the closet with jack and hes literally her other half but her unspoken favourite is quinn ! blake and quinn gossip like no other. on the other hand, blake babies luke soo much.

fifth (literally do not know how i missed this i’m so sorry babes): i personally think they should have one more but i’ve gotten mixed feedback… what do u guys think? because i totally see them as being a single child household but then again, they both grew up with siblings so i can see them having more babies down the line…

lastly: the hughes/hischier combo are in nyc helping blake and nico move into their first apartment ! blakes got her brothers and her bf working overtime building furniture and carrying hers & nicos things up to their apartment ! she rewards everyone with tickets to an upcoming country concert that the group had been debating on going to <3

thank u so much for the questions i really loved answering them🫂

[trolagygirl2022]

im not looking for a reading but mainly advice do u have any tips on feeling less apathetic? ive ruined my once good sleep so many times that i no longer have the energy to truly enjoy something for myself because my energy is always taken by something ir someone else. im not kidding it takes me 5 minutes around some leeches and my batteries will be drained in an instant.

i couldnt even watch a whole programme the other day because my dad likely has adhd and or is just attention seeking and kept being a distraction all the way thru it and on top of that and other people who have usually been arseholes or they jsut like to make my life harder than it needs to be. i dont really like them anyway i have no desire to fit in socially anymore, my cat is messing up my sleep and ive got a concert im going to that now i dont know if i have any particular feelings towards it cause im just wasting away atp and concerts or anywhere where theres lots of people is incredibly draining but i didnt want to pass up on this group i love and its weird i love a foreign group but i cant find the same love for anyone around me all the time is that normal? and i had been trying very good to keep sleeping at right times and i just feel thay im losing my mind slowly but surely cause i keep getting these distraction campaigns and other shit i have to do or react too. people just take my energy and drain it then wonder why i dont want nothing to do with anything anymore that and its like i can pour my heart into a friendship only to realise the same "friend" didnt really gaf about me anyway so yeah im rather bitter and apathetic and it sucks so any advice would be moderately more delightful rn. i dont think therapys going to do nothing ive tried it before but i wind up with the same feelings i had some time ago and nothing really amends it honestly shits been getting bizzare for years now and it just slowly pushes ur buttons. even if i try something im too tired to keep going with it or i force myself to like it because if i dont then ive got nothing else i really like doing so i overdo it on my interest then also get burnt out and bored of it quickly. and i dont want to fix this issue with filling it with things that in the long run still wont make me truly enjoy whatever it is i want to do. honestly ppl in victorian times were lucky they had the plague and some other shit going on that got rid of them quickly but modern life is like a slow painful forced existance where i dont end up caring much for anything.

also nothings worked out in the past literally it feels like people are against me being happy and successful. and if im not a social person due to having always been around the worst sort of personalities then what is there to really seek out in people? they all end up being the same knobhead as the previous one aka usually a self entitled prick who only cares about themselves. then theres the whole its usually the attention seeking pricks who are most adored praised and pitied for just about anything even tho it should be clear as day that they are the biggest arseholes to ever exist whereas quiet people often get nitpicked at for simply trying to exist in an overcrowded place where people mainly want something for themselves and they often dont seem to care how their actions affect others anyway? do u get what im yapping about. its been my problem for years now in fact more than a decade people have been purposefully trying to bother me even other alleged grown adults have acted like worse toddlers that are stuck in adult bodies. sorry for yapping but idk what else im supposed to do. jts like when people do something just to prove u right about them and im like yeah ok i get its how theyre wired but it dont make me care that deeply for wanting to belong anywhere yet it feels like if we dont belong anywhere fomo kicks in and that sucks even more.

For me I think the best way is to put myself in their own shoes. Like I would say most times I'm a pretty empathetic person but especially when I think about myself in that person's position. You should also try discussing this with a therapist or some professional! Take care 😊