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huginsmemory · 8 months ago

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Killing murdering screaming waiting for my cousin to text me back whether or not he can drive me to the airport tomorrow or if I have to order a taxi WHICH NONE OF THE TAXIS ARE OKAY WITH LESS THE 24 HR NOTICE THIS IS FINE IM FINE IM NOT GONNA PUKE. look I'm gonna call em ANYWAYS to see if I can get one if he can't but please. Please. Just put me out of my fucking misery

#this whole trips been a fucking blood bath of anxiety #booked trip w auntie going up and then that gets cancelled. THEN we organize for tuesday.#then i get a email late sat being like youre not actually on the flight sorry uwu #and so i have to get upisland my self which involves a 4 hr b #bus ride and staying over at my cousins/aunts now since i cant get up w my aunt. and i need to now figure out how to get to the damn fucking #plane but im not getting answers from ky cousins whose OUT and my aunt isnt here EITHER #and ive also not heard back if ive got a ride for up the rivee #im not fine about this #its an earlier plane too fuck this shit #its almost 10 pm now please

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desiredrivcn · 6 months ago

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how does your tragedy end ?

you lose everything, but must go on

this is a slow decline. one by one, the things you love are ripped from your aching fingers. people, keepsakes, happy memories... until, at last, even the very meaning of home is gone. your past is tainted beyond salvation. the only way to move on is to forget it, forget yourself, pretend you never existed. go somewhere new and answer to no name. live quietly. wake in the night with all your regrets pressing down upon you. then get up and go about your day in the company of strangers.

steal from me i dare u

#— ☾ study.#— ☾ muse: « impartial iudex » neuvillette.#IM NOT FINE ABOUT THIS

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bixels · 2 months ago

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As gen-AI becomes more normalized (Chappell Roan encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use gen-AI because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by tech companies. I draw not because I want a drawing but because I love the process of drawing. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.

#personal #im still fighting it but im also a realist so I’ve accepted that this will be our future #rant #gen ai is fucking boring #I hope this doesn’t make me sound like a ‘going against the crowd. not like the rest of society’ type (it would be depressing if it did)#but yeah even in a world where it’s considered totally fine to use ai to make art I’ll still be using my bare hands #because I like it and nobody can take that from me #if you’re a young artist interested in or already using ai. just know that the thing you rely on to make art can be taken away at any point #all of it. and there’s nothing you can do about it if they decide to. it doesn’t belong to you

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stemmmm · 5 months ago

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bad youtube clickbait thumbnail that reads "I think I just had a therapy session with a DEMON???"

#gravity falls #gf nevermind all that #the book of bill #bill cipher #dipper pines #theres a tag now so im not gonna link all the context in the post anymore #i have no confidence this one is even funny i just wanted to draw them #we talk about this all the time but its endlessly funny that stump made a billford au and both of us have been like.#so mabel and dipper right? how are mabel and dipper how are they handling the situations. just fine it seems

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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gvaine · 11 months ago

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wound tending is everything. unparalleled intimacy. let me care for you. let me touch the skin around your open flesh. let me stain my hands with your blood. let me get close and breathe in the same air as you and stare into your eyes for a few seconds too long. let me make you think of me every time you see the bandage, or scar

#im fine #i am still thinking about the merthur art #**

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noodles-and-tea · 2 months ago

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Just some more thoughts on that jayvik dbh au

#I got a lot of people saying that Viktor should be the Android #which I did mention in the tags last time #but after thinking about it I just think that the human experience is such an integral part of viktor as a character #(aside from the fact that it makes every character ever)#his pain and suffering due to his illness and disability and class #like I can’t take that away from him #not that Jayce doesn’t go through his own things too #but I think Jayce’s naïveté from season one lends itself well to an Android in awe of human life #and a jaded but wise Viktor who still has a good heart and sense of humour #I mean this is just my version of the au and like I think I said in my tags last time im pretty sure I’ve seen a few around with android V #definitely got recommended some fics that I’m excited to check out!#sorry for rambling - this isn’t to discredit any other interpretations!! just kind of exploring my thought process behind it :)#oh also sorry that this is angsty lol #it’s fine #my art #arcane #jayvik #Jayce talis #jayce arcane #Viktor arcane #dbh #detroit become human #arcane au #noodles talks #(in the tags)

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ef-1 · 4 months ago

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I often think about how Lewis said he personally called so many drivers in 2020 and personally asked them to kneel for BLM. I think about how he said he personally tried to explain the protest to them and answer all their questions. I think about how he felt when so many of them still declined. I think about how he was fined for wearing shirts for BLM. I think about how F1 stopped him from wearing a shirt that simply said "Justice for Breonna Taylor." because F1 wanted to 'de-politicise' the sport. I think about how when they asked Stefano Domenicali, the CEO of F1, about Lewis' activism, he said F1 is not racist and he does not "Percieve" the racism Lewis is talking about.

I think about how Nelson Piquet, who was fined $1 million for racially abusing Lewis on video was *banned* from the paddock. I think about how he just showed up to the paddock today clearly wearing a paddock pass and hanging out outside of Red Bull, not even hiding inside.

I think how this is all so symptomatic of how rotten to the core F1 is. How Lewis being the most successful driver in the history of the sport did not spare him from this.

#f1 #lewis hamilton #brazilian gp 2024 #i hope the red bull building collapses on all their heads 🫶#im literally so fucking bitter. im so fucking bitter. i dont care to hear any of you whining about who got fined for saying fuck #formula 1 #t Nelson Piquet

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bones-of-rabbit · 3 months ago

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