#im not a woman but i am femme most of the time so i kinda like it as a concept

[pleasepleasefckme]

Hate how even in femdom, which is supposed to be less misogynistic in theory, the beauty standard is still you need to look like a child. Tf????

[bonesawfemme]

Being femme as a trans guy is such a strange experience bc like. Socially & presentationally I am feminine. Logically I know I’m perceived as a woman. Hell most of the time I don’t care or have enough energy to correct when I’m misgendered. But like, the idea of being a woman is in & of itself deeply repulsive to me. Like not in an internalized misogyny way but in a “that is disgusting & not at all how I see myself” kinda way. Like the minute I stop interfacing with femininity through a Femme Male view it no longer becomes a pleasant or accurate experience. Like no part of my presentation when I was living as a butch girl was pleasant or felt correct to me. & like idk it’s funny to me how it works out. Like I’m realizing now I’ve just .. described how being trans works. But I’d im going through a(nother) “god my life would be SO MUCH EASIER if I could just be a woman” phase 🪦

[ratontheline]

ANOTHER PIECE ANOTHER RANT

Art talk first:

Let’s address the fact I FORGOT THE FLOWERS IN HER HORNSJXICICKCN

I DEADASS FORGOT but WHY AM I STILL POSTING IT EVEN THO I SEE AND RECOGNISE THE MISTAKE???

Welp, this is actually not my first time I have missed a BIG ASS detail, Gura was my first victim😔 I deadass would forget her tail which which comparatively that was mad bigger than this - THIS DOESNT CHANGE THAT ILL STILL OVER THINK IT THO even tho it’s like normal to forget some details😭… whoa.. LIVE ON AIR YOU SEEING ME ACCEPT THAT, unless this is just me convincing myself that’s it’s fine😵‍💫👍

Also this was supposed to go up a lot earlier ummm like 7 hrs ago👉👈 SORRY I WENT SHOPPING😭

Also there were some last mine design changes there actually was suppose to be a kiss mark but I was advised to remove it👍

AND I rushed to upload cuz I won’t be able to post it Tom cuz I’ll be busy😭 so right now, TODAY it had to go up.

There’s also a lot of stuff happening aside from that, the big glaring one is that… IDK HOW TO DRAW BOOBS‼️‼️you would think that staring at all these vtubers and their big honkers I would be pretty good at it, colour me surprised when shit looked UGLY.

Yall I had to sit and actually learn how to draw them… not complaining 😳 I tried brute forcing it, looked like dog shit so art advice: stop and practice wat u struggle with cuz i spent a hr on this when i could have just watched a 20 min video did a bunch of exercises and we’ll be done with it tops 30 mins😭

Also the music for this one was BUMPYYYYYYYY

EEEYUP-

Girlies the vibes were a lot of Britney Spears✨ Maneater✨ Femme Fatal✨, the vibes in my playlist were slowly turning to more mobster/mafia vibes later on regardless music still eating🤩✨ I wis-

JDJIDJS SHE LIKED ITJXICJCJCN

HOLY SHIT NVM I ATE😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋😋

WOW

yea shit that’s happening😵‍💫🤙 rad

UMMM yea nvm BVM NVMSKDskkz

How am I feeling????

GREAT NOW🤭🥰😍💖

I was about to go on a tangent about how ehh this week was and how random my started hands shaking (it’s probs cuz I barely slept and ate😭 but I have done that before idk y it’s like doing all this extra stuff), I been having the sniffles and a headache for a hot while but shittttt nvm🥰

We good😍👍

We so good🥰

Anyway next week I’ll probs draw more Fauna, graduation is coming up🥲 i wanted to draw more fauna but i looked at all my past ones… most of my art has been about the a graduated members😔 i don’t wanna just do that😭 yea im sad and like thinking about them but still there’s a lot of holo mems I haven’t drawn✨ and a lot of them are hot✨✨✨🥰🥰🥰 so expect a lot more art from me🥰

Anyway that’s all sorry if it’s kinda all over the place again

Also happy holidays to yall guys✨✨✨✨

Cheers 🍻

[possessesnightshift]

I don't usually respond to these kinds of posts beyond the realm of the tags but like... jesus christ people are you fucking serious??

like i don't even know where to start with this reblog chain alone, not to even getting into all of the replies. i guess chronological order? (in fitting tumblr fashion lol)

ok so the poll itself. this is fine. it is very interesting for the data to show a statistically significant difference in opinion between trans women and the rest of the queer community. i am not judging this poll itself. i totally empathize with trans women who are put off by drag bc of the reasons listed further down. you can not like something that's popular within the queer community. in fact, it is important to listen to people who don't like popular things lest we all succumb to groupthink.

HOWEVER, the moment someone dares to say in the most non-confrontational manner possible "huh its kinda disappointing trans women don't get to enjoy this artform like everyone else" all bets are off.

Now that post might not have been trying to be condescending but the way its written it kind of is. i reiterate that i think trans women are valid for saying they have more negative feelings than positive based on their life experience. maybe some of these women ARE educated and still hold a negative opinion and that is totally fine. but the pushback goes beyond just that

"i already know that cis people respect drag queens more than they do transfems"

um? which cis people? cis people within the queer community? cishets? those are already two wildly different groups to sample, but apparently it's just cis people.. fine ok whatever maybe there's a point to be made about how crossdressing (an important tradition that's been a thing in the queer community for a long ass time) is easier to accept in a temporary performance than as part of a permanent stable identity. the resentment isn't a constructive thing necessarily but i get why its there. fine let's move on

"but I fucking hate how any time some shit happens with trans femme people's rights the news bring in fucking drag queens to talk about it, and they accept. we are not drag queens..."

ok immediately im done being charitable. what the fuck. what the fuck is this nonsense? why? what the fuck are you saying? oh my god.

what is the point of this harsh anti-drag queen stance? are you on the side of the anti-drag bills in congress? this is fucking extreme. do you think these bills exclude drag queens and cisgender crossdressers? do you think the transphobic us govt will just give these people a pass? do you the most homophobic cishet legislators can even differentiate between a trans woman and a drag queen and a cisgender gay man and a bisexual man who happens to be a twink? ALL of these people fall under the umbrella of icky sinful queer. all of them. which is the entire reason we need solidarity in the first place. i can get being frustrated (which is all the original poll really measures) but this goes beyond that. this is about the question what do with we DO with our frustration.

this shit is bad. this is the textbook example of the queer community turning against itself instead against the actual cishet oppressors. while yes cishets are chided lightly in these reblog chains for being bad (what else is new?) the vast majority of the words and analysis in this thread go towards shitting on other queer people, either drag queens directly or cisgender queer people who don't differentiate enough between transfems and drag queens or whatever. however you slice it, this is the definition of infighting. that is what is happening on this post.

i think i've mostly made my point but i'll finish with the very last lines of the last response which is the closest to reasonable:

"And I guess it just frustrates me that the people who use the idea of "queer history" as a bludgeon to tell trans women to be quiet don't know what they're talking about."

Like... telling trans women to be quiet? the snarky post saying for trans women to educate themselves on the history of drag is not silencing trans women. it is literally inviting trans women to stay in this discussion and potentially find value in this artform. that is not just shutting trans women down entirely. in fact, it kinda feels like that is what is happening to the cis queer people and cishets who like drag.

i dont' have any pulitzer prize winning arguments to make the trans women who inevitably will disagree with me see what im so concerned about. i don't know what string of words to use to get people to understand why i find this so threatening to the future of the queer community's existence. we NEED to disagree with each other respectfully. we NEED to have constructive dialogues. but what i see in this post specifically is evidence of trans women being radicalized against the rest of the queer community in real time. and why? because of resentment. supposedly drag queens are making a mockery of transfeminitity by making drag into this big public display that's watering down the queer essence into something palatable for the straights. idk. maybe that's true.

but again. what is the response? what do we DO with this information? well apparently spend a lot of time shitting on drag queens ig. the saddest thing of all is that in a lot of ways i agree with the idea that being expected to just adore drag in an uncritical uncomplicated manner because you are a queer is very annoying at best and deeply hurtful and insulting at worst. i basically have no reason to like modern drag in and of itself save for its association with the queer liberation movement and that history. i have positive feelings of drag not because of any of the times i went to a drag show and enjoyed it (a grand total of zero times) but because of the importance in my heart to support any kind of intentional gender bending in society. whether that's gender bending like they do in the new york balls in paris is burning, gender bending by being born one gender and transitioning to the other later, or gender bending by being a man indiscernible from any other cisgender average joe but still preferring to want to be with another man, i NEED to support all of it because all of this makes me safer as a queer person. sadly, it seems the separatist movements have already taken root. it seems as though individual factions of the queer community are dividing against each other in a time when gay rights have become mainstream but QUEER rights on the whole are more threatened than ever, basically the perfect breeding grounds for resentment and infighting to get out of control.

i want to emphasize the need for queer solidarity. the need to accept people even if their queerness feels like its brushing up against yours. and then i want to ask every queer person on here alongside every straight ally to ponder deeply what the POINT of this rhetoric is.

no i mean it. do it. ask yourself what the point is in being this militant against drag queens? or ace people? or intersex people? or any other hypothetical group that isn't your neck of the queer woods? why is this group of queer people gaining rights a bad thing for you? why? can you say why? and if you can, is that a valid enough reason to go to war with the rest of the queer community?

i don't care if you agree with me.

i just want you to be brave enough to ask the question without any expectations and just listen. listen to yourself, to your internal biases, to other queer people, to straight people who support you, to people who don't, it does not matter in the end. i just ask you to pose the question:

what. is. the. point. of it all?

I've gotta admit I think about this one a lot for many reasons. I'd really love to see what others think

[thundrgrnd]

Shalom

whats ur sun,moon,rising, mercury, venus, and north node?

cancer sun, scorpio moon, aries rising, gemini mercury & venus, and north node in virgo.

where are you currently based out of?

fairfax, va.

what is the culture of your family?

interdependent in deed even not in word. im a middle child of five kids. we believe in community and being there for each other however we can be.

describe the impact that your heritege has had on your mediums?

living as a third culture kid who was born in the us to nigerian parents, moved to South Africa, raised there, and then moved back to the US has done a number on my brain, but for the most part it has opened my mind to the different ways everything comes back to community - its all about love, honesty, vulnerability. i try to be as transparent as possible in my work and really say what i mean.

list all of your creative disciplines?

all?????

writing, singing & songwriting, bass guitar, crochet.

how long have you practiced each?

forever, since i was a child, since 2020, started crochet as a child but picked it up again when i was in the psych ward.

what drives you?

impacting others. sharing the human experience.

what are you passionate about?

is it lame if this is also impacting others and sharing the human experience?

who in your personal life and the artistic world has had a profound influence on your work?

my mom: she is honest and true, a golden human. we’re honest in different ways about different things, but she inspires me to come as i am and ease off the pressure i put on myself.

florence and the machine: the first cd i ever bought and loved was between two lungs (deluxe) in 2010. the writing, the imagery, the vocals, the delivery altogether inspires me the same way it did when i was 12. i still listen to that album, although i have it on vinyl now.

lcd sound system: making noise and saying shit and being like “ok, this rocks” is basically how i would like my music making experience to go, they make it seem possible.

what is your greatest accomplishment thus far?

playing my first show in new york where we finished the set and got asked for an encore. i was like, “we have no more songs!” and they were like “play concrete again!” and everyone was chanting my name at the end. brain melting. never forgetting that one. idk if that counts as greatest accomplishment, though - i think surviving 2023 takes the top spot.

current profession?

i am a musician and marketing and communications coordinator at a health equity nonprofit.

where do you see yourself in the foreseeable future of 5 and then 10 years?

5 years: hopefully debt free, maybe having released a couple more albums, hair long.

10 years: i can’t think this far out man. i thought i wouldn’t make it past 17 for a long time so now thinking about the future is kinda mind melting.

who would you like to collaborate with?

people who love me back and mean it. anyone who’s willing to hear me out. anyone who believes in the collective and community as the answer to capitalism. basically, if we’re on the same frequency, let’s make shit.

what does creative expression mean to you?

recently it’s been trying to be nonjudgmental in how my artistic practice takes shape. just appreciating myself as an artist and recognizing my attempts at making good art are still shows of me making art, period. showing up as myself and letting whatever comes out come out.

what does it mean to be a woman or non binary earthling of color in america?

to fight some system every day.

what does it mean to be a femme or non binary artist of color in america?

to fight a different kind of system every day.

how has this created a barrier in your life and career?

being new to music i was definitely swept off my feet by a record label who ended up withholding money from me and refused to help me during a desperate period of time. i strongly believe that i would not have been treated the way i was if i was not a black woman.

what does creating revolutionary change in the word through art mean to you?

showing up as myself and committing to doing it every day. it’s one thing at a time. loving harder despite it all.

where should we start in dismantling the mechanisms of oppression across the globe?

with your friends. if they aren’t with it, find new ones.

what do you want to see in the creative world now, and in future generations?

more people finding their voice, more people leaning into the fact that art existed for tens of thousands of years before agriculture. we thought it was more important to paint than it was to feed ourselves efficiently, and i’m not saying we need to forget to eat but sustaining ourselves off art, returning to a life of practice… i’d love to see it.

what communitiy do you most resonate with currently?

those who identify themselves to be both lovers and fighters.

bisexual. bi as in one and another, instead of one of two. all genders are welcome at this party.

where can we find your work?

[caelumsnuff]

Same POC anon that said they didn’t feel at home here! Thank you for letting me ramble! I think since most of the angrier *speaker* characters have mellowed out over time, I personally find people making any of the speakers MOC cool (I will admit that I did wonder why Damien was often/always Black for people at first, but again his mellowing out over time did help ease that! Oh and I do think people might often make Gavin brown is because Redacted canonically gave him tan skin?? Maybe. Am I trying too hard to give the benefit of the doubt lol? Maybe, maybe lol). I personally don’t think you’re being hypocritical at all tbh!

I do occasionally wonder about listener characters which I totally get is often self-inserts so a lot of them being white I understand ‘cause the fandom is mostly white. I will admit though that Alexis and Darlin’ often drawn as Black women and/or femmes and *usually* only them out of the non-Redacted voiced characters used to make me go hmm. And the art is beautiful and I think it’s better than, you know, never seeing a non-white listener character on my dashboard and no one is obligated to *ever* ever ever draw anyone a specific way aaaand Darlin’ has also done some mellowing out as well. I’m half Black-American and half Korean-American so I’m just hyper aware of the ‘angry Black woman’ stereotype so I think that’s why I wondered why those two “only” (for the most part when it comes to the more consistent fandom headcanon looks) out of all non-Redacted voiced characters? But again, again Darlin’ has mellowed out so I’m just making a fuss.

I meant to talk *less* with this ask (I know you said in another ask not to apologize, but this *is* excessive, I’m sorry), but you brought up the weird racism allegory. And yes tbh! I’m sorry you had to deal with anons being mean when you talked about it. It reminds me of Zootopia where the allegory doesn’t work exactly cause it’s like ‘of course a rabbit might be afraid of a lion. It’s a lion!’ like ‘of course regular empowered people might be wary around demons like they are the most powerful beings walking around them.’ I get though that Redacted probably feels more comfortable with being more explicit about a coming out story like with Damien seeing as Redacted is a queer man and feels more comfortable with allegory instead of being explicit for race since all the characters’ races are *technicallyyyy* up to listeners (technically because sometimesss the ‘this character is white’ vibes pop up lol /lh), he might not know how to go about it (if he ever thought about going about it explicitly which I doubt which no biggie!), and soooooo many fantasy works have used race allegories for a such long long time now (most not the best metaphor wise either lol) that he may just be used to that.

Okay, this was way longer than I meant for it to be. I’m sorry again. Thank you for being such a great person and letting me get this out when you don’t have to. I hope to be brave enough to talk about this on my own tumblr eventually. I hope you have a wonderful day!

I'm shaking you like a soda can for apologizing so much (lighthearted) (silly)

I wish this fandom was welcoming enough for people to talk about this in the open too, but alas this fandom is kinda shit aslkdfasdf (for the most part)

I appreciate that you don't think im being hypocritical. I give the benefit of the doubt for most depictions of all the characters considering theres explanations for most of them. I understand a lot of the characters have mellowed out now, so they also have soothed my squinting a lil bit. I do be "hmmmm"ing at some of them still askjdfasd i cant help it.

I am REALLY happy you mentioned Alexis being depicted as a black woman, because that was the exact depiction that made me genuinely like squint at my screen.

Honestly i never question depictions of the listener characters, considering most of them are either self inserts or OCs to play the part of the listener characters. I do genuinely appreciate all the art in this fandom, a lot of the people here are so talented. It's nice to see diversity amongst all the characters and i still stand by that.

I'll never get over the d(a)emon allegory for several reasons, but in part because theres literally so many other, better allegories that could have been used in this world instead of d(a)emons vs humans its literally so irritating like. daemons vs demons, or empowered vs unempowered , or several other things are right there! ugh its so irritating. Like admittedly it is hard to write a good race allegory into a work that isn't racist somehow, but this man hit like all of the big no-nos with this, which should not be humanly possible if you sat and wrote in your sleep (hyperbole for comedic effect).

ANYWAYS thank you so much for the ask. Again, im happy to know you can let off some steam here, makes me happy tbh. I know i took a little long to answer this (energy), but i hope you have a lovely day as well, anon.

[intergalactic-chameleon]

thinking abt gender again bc when am i not

at school -amongst certain peers- i am now understood as being transgender. theyre just kinda like “yea you’re not cis/a woman” and it feels pretty fucking nice. like im finally being given the option to be more authentically me just by virtue of other ppl clueing into how i express myself. and im very into it… like yea, i am transgender. pretty literally. cool

but it’s also a bit strange bc im not super vocal abt specifically identifying as trans or genderqueer. and like, i allow myself to be gendered as a woman if that’s what someone chooses to do. bc i dont rly care nor does it fully feel like im being misgendered. i can be a woman if i need to or want to be. im also cool with my boyfriend calling me his girlfriend. so it kinda feels like i live a double life in some ways.

most ppl immediately identify me as a woman and dont question that decision after doing so, and i work with that. it doesnt make me feel particularly uncomfortable to be addressed as miss or ma’am etc, and i still relate a lot to women/womanhood. and not that being feminine is inherent to being a woman, but i still sometimes miss having long hair and no hair on my face, and also feeling the urge to adorn myself in flowy clothing and pretty jewelry.

and honestly, thats probably because it’s easier for me to feel ‘pretty’ when trying to match that ideal, but also it was a fun creative outlet. putting together a beautiful feminine outfit was really fun! and i have so many items of pretty jewelry and clothing that i still really love and dont want to give away yet. i dont want to pretend like i suddenly am no longer feminine just bc i choose to look more masculine these days.

and look, i can definitely still “femme it up” if i want to, but i think im now going to save that for special occasions. masculine formal wear doesnt rly do anything for me, so i’d much rather wear a pretty necklace and maybe shave my face for a special event instead of trying to find a suit that fits me lol. i digress. i just want to have it all, but it’s difficult to do that. esp since i dont do drag or anything like that lol. (too bad i never got into theater hahaha)

regardless, the most annoying thing abt all of this gender stuff tho is that cis ppl just dont fundamentally understand what im doing lol. my primary care doctor mentioned my mustache at my last physical a few months ago because he was wondering if it bothered me at all… insinuating that if im a Female, i inherently would probably be uncomfortable having facial hair (which NATURALLY grows on me, mind you). ik it can potentially be a sign of a hormonal disorder, and most Women do in fact hate having facial hair, but it’s just like, dude, you dont know me like that. my ratstache and patchy chin hair makes me feel GOOD. no further questions at this time — or ever, please. thanks.

[lanchang]

I posted 674 times in 2022

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

i dont think that xie lian calling feng xin and mu qing "precious jades" means that he thought of them exactly like property or anything but they were his bodyguard and his servant and i think that relationship was reflected in that line. he valued them in a lot of ways, both as friends and as two people who were close to him very skilled and well-trained. and i also think that the precious jades line is sweet like awww youre 15 and you think your two best friends are the most special people in the world <3 and youre right

37 notes - Posted February 7, 2022

#4

47 notes - Posted March 16, 2022

#3

[ID: a screenshot of fu yao and nan feng from the TGCF donghua standing next to each other with slightly dumbfounded expressions. overlaid top text reads "second guesser 🤝 face-value assessment" bottom text reads "idiot moves"]

74 notes - Posted February 3, 2022

#2

who is the most femme camp queen pussy cunt cunt slay character in either mdzs or tgcf 🎤

RATING TGCF CHARACTERS BY HOW FEMME CAMP QUEEN PUSSY CUNT CUNT SLAY THEY ARE

DISCLAIMER: i dont know what im talking about. minor spoilers for book 3

XIE LIAN: has had at least one femme moment but idk about camp or queen and only a little pussy but pretty cunt cunt and slay overall. half credit for being the flower crowned martial god and half off for being a trash god of scraps 5/10

HUA CHENG: femme (known to take the form of a sexy evil woman) ✅️ camp (mayor of ghost city) ✅️ queen (mayor of ghost city) ✅️ pussy cunt cunt (youve read the book) ✅️ slay (c'mon) ✅️ overall 100000/10

MU QING: he is not femme he is vain and insecure he is not camp he is actually very self conscious he is not queen but well maybe a little queen and very pussy cunt cunt slay. 8/10

FENG XIN: unfortunately basically none of these words apply to him but he gets a point for suggesting that xianle citizens get jacked to combat human face disease that was kind of a camp moment imo 1/10

QI RONG: femme❌️ camp ❌️queen❌️ pussy cunt cunt ✅️ slay ❌️would have had more points if he was pink but hes green. i reformatted this post and forgot my rating umm 3.5/10

JUN WU: he is SO not femme camp queen pussy cunt cunt slay he is incel daddy dom 2014 tumblr -100000/10

SHI QINGXUAN: perfect score but didnt die like hua cheng so no extra credit 10/10

HE XUAN: he did die so +2 but not camp or pussy so -2 overall also 10/10

YIN YU: tbh even less femme camp queen pussy cunt cunt slay than feng xin except for when he told quan yizhen to kill himself 2/10

QUAN YIZHEN: none of the above 0/10 which is also a perfect score in a different way

LING WEN: all of the above AND girlboss but didnt die 100/10

PEI MING: tbh also kinda incel daddy dom 2014 tumblr but he canonically fucks so only like -2/10 (sorry to pei ming likers i am not one of you but he is very funny)

SHI WUDU: im gonna be real i havent reread black water arc in like 2 years i dont remember his personality very well at all ummm 3/10 he gave cunt he served he died

i cant think of any more characters ✌️

75 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

mulian is sooooo complicated like god.... platonic or romantic whatever the case its just tragic how mu qing thought xie lian was too good for him like how could they ever actually be friends BUT at the same time he also didnt think the gap between them was fair or fitting of their actual skills and xie lian occupied this very specific place in society that mu qing was always so far away from no matter how hard he worked (as mortals) and yet even though mu qing KNEW that he wasnt actually that far below xie lian he still didnt think any of that or their entire relationship meant they could be friends.... AND despite all that he still in awe of xie lian the whole time he thought xie lian was amazing.....

92 notes - Posted February 4, 2022

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[moth-flowers]

writing down some ✨gender thoughts✨ so i can finally fucking sleep

(thats a lie, im gonna watch adventure time THEN sleep)

ok so, pronouns, teehee.

it's,,,, complicated

i can only imagine so much inside my head, so it's more of a guessing game at what would be comforting for me. but, i can say what is cool in my experiences so far

she/her is kinda swag, not gotta lie. but not really she/her in a "THIS IS A GIRL" way, but in the "oh yeah she's my homie, we're good bros, ayo ask her is she wants to hang with the lads later" kind of way. like, I'd be totally ok with them if people would stop fucking assuming im a woman and using femme terms on me.

on the other hand tho, i like when women perceive me as the same? not in the "we're both women :)" kind of way, more like the "we have things in common and some mutual experiences which i can appreciate, but i also recognize our differences and will not call u girlie" kind of way (girlie is a really cute word actually, and my relationship with it is that it's ok as slang most of the time, and from certain people the cuteness and wholesomeness of the intentions can override the dsyphoria bc I'll be like "🥺 damn im ur girlie and im cute and u love me, damn that's so cool." again, it's complicated and im only explaining this to the best of my abilities and based on my current understanding of my gender, which is of course subject to change)

on the other other hand, I can't help but wonder something. am i comfortable with she/her pronouns because they've been used all my life and im just used to them? is it because over the years I've gotten really good at ignoring the mild discomfort they might give me? or maybe even that im more comfortable being a masc kind of woman who dislikes people acknowledging me being a woman, in part because the discomfort is something im used to dealing with?

theres's even more alternatives as to why i feel the way i do about she/her pronouns, but for right now im done and im tired, and i wish my gender brain would shut up for like a minute

[astronomical-bagel]

please tell us about this pirate dsmp au you keep talking about. anything. one sentence. i am So Intrigued. (also theres a song i found that makes me think about it--Shackleton in The Endurance album, i don't remember the artist)

Anon anon anon you do NOT know how happy you just made me. I’ve been working on this for MONTHS, ive even gone so far as to write an outline. I’ve NEVER done that before, even with my 100k word fic. This au is my BABY. My CHILD. I‘ve done SO much worldbuilding and you bet your ass I’m working on more.

Here here here, I’ll ramble under the cut, because I’ve got so much to say

Okay, first! im not gonna spoil stuff but I wanna give you the crews!! The first name of each list is the captain, and the second is their first mate!! Also, there are some names that are in more than one list, but that’s just because they decided to switch over to a different one!

The Blade

Techno

Phil

Wilbur

Tommy

Tubbo

Ranboo

Niki

Jack

Quackity

Eret

Sapnap

Karl

Fundy

Fate Fatale

Puffy

Sam

Connor

Callahan

Corpse

Schlatt

Hannah

The Diamond Red Duckling

Bad

Skeppy

Antfrost

Ponk

Hannah

Nightmare

Dream

George

Drista

MD

Mamacita

Ossium

Quackity

Sapnap

Karl

Shitass

Terry the butcher

Charlie Slimecicle

MD

I’m super proud of my crews sjsjs even though some of them are so so short but I don’t have to introduce ever sailor on the ship, so I don’t gotta worry too much lol.

As for the namings, The Blade and Nightmare are pretty obvious, but Fate Fatale was named after Femme fatales, bc Y’know, puffy is a woman and she will kill you, but the first part was change to Fate because it is INEVITABLE that she kills ya, or so they say. Ossium was named after Quackity’s horse (it means bone in Latin). I may or may not change this one, but I like the idea of ppl calling the Bone Ship, and Quackity calling it his Ivory Steed or smth. I would t called it las Nevadas, but that’s still a country here lol.

the plot doesn’t actually line up with cannon chronologically, there is no L’manburg ship that Wilbur and Tommy are on and Wilbur blows up (though his backstory does include that he was the captain of the Symphony before his crew mutinied. I’m rlly proud of that name), there is no ‘Tubbo being the captain’ or whatever, there aren’t even any discs (they weren’t invented until 1880 or smth, and this is set in a vague 1700s time). So, it’s a pretty organic plot line. But! I do keep somethings in! Like exile, for one. It’s not actually exile, but it’s got the ‘Dream manipulating Tommy‘ part in it!

Speaking of Dream!!! There’s magic!! There’s magic in here and my writing teacher helped me write the entire magic system!!! I’m bit gonna put all of it down bc that is LONG and also some of it is spoily, but basically there’s 3 types of magic: Nether, End, and idk Earth magic? Still working on the name of that one. Anyways, the Nether and End are basically the afterlifes, but because of demons there can be travel between. It’s basically unheard of for an Earth person to go through to the other side (or a dead person to come back 👀👀) , but there’s legends. Nether demons are curious and and come over fairly often, therefore there’s more known about the nether.

Each person can be aligned with one of the three magics (more than one will kill you, end of story) and learn them— Earth being the easiest, as it is easily gained naturally (sirens, saytrs, druids) and easily learned. nether is the second easiest, with Nether demons being almost common in some places, and End being the hardest and most dangerous to learn (but the most beneficial!)

If you havent guessed yet, Ranboo is an End demon, and Bad is a nether demon. Tubbo, Puffy, and Schlatt are all saytrs, Sam is a siren, Hannah is a druid. Phil studies End magic, and thats how he gets his wings!! Elytra!!

Okay, since this is getting as long as some essays, I’ll just leave with a few fun facts:

in the Antarctic Empire, it’s an old custom to grow one’s hair out of theyre keeping an important oath, to show their commitment. Their hair is also very commonly a bright red!!

El Rapids, a small island nearby to the badlands, was annexed by Las Nevadas

people from L’Manburg are called L’men. Or British. Lots of people don’t know why they’re called British, but there’s stories about L’Manburg once being a colony of a small country called Britain, but when L’Manburg grew to be bigger than the country, it just kinda... ate it. Like agar.io

despite Britain once existing, the landform is nothing like our Earth’s

All demons have an energy source in the center of their chest that produces their magic. A Nether demons is called their Star, and an End demon’s is called their Pearl!

as a very very last thing, here is a list of swears used in this universe:

Prime

End (by the end, for end’s sake)

Ender

Nether

withering (used in the same way as fing but not as f, usually used for corruption-y things) (These withering vines won’t stop growing)

Mother (usually by Ranboo, its not as common) (Used alone, but also Mother knows, Mother knows best, Mother up above)

“By her scales” (referring to mother)

“By the bell” (Referring to the worship bell used in many religions and cultures, usually less of a curse and more used as a promise

Endermites (mostly used by ranboo but tommy and tubbo pick it up, maybe phil) (used like “fiddlesticks’)

anyways thank you for letting me ramble ehe, please don’t hesitate to ask again, I’ve got so much more to talk about. (also I was listening to the song you recommended on repeat while writing this. It loops so well!!)

[little-bard]

So I have this idea for gender fluid in the witcher universe. So humor me if you will.

So I’ve seen the idea floated around the community how there could easily be trans people because they could just do the same thing as Yennefer. But obviously, you give up fertility to live in the body you should have been born with. I was thinking traditional non-binary could do it to appear more androgynous if that’s what they wanted as well. But then I started thinking of myself. I’m technically non-binary but I’m gender fluid. And sometimes I want to present highly masc but can’t because of my body but I would also be depressed if I couldn’t present femme anymore on the days where I felt that way.

So here’s my fantasy solution. You can go through the same spell but it’s ever-changing. Whereas Yen’s is a permanent appearance change this is one that changes with your true inner self. You obviously give up being fertile but I’m not sure if it would require more yet. It would obviously mean no casual sex as you don’t want the man you just bedded as a woman to wake up next to a man. Or reverse. And it would be hard to maintain friends because you could have two lives almost but once you maneuver telling the people you’re close to I think it would kinda be like a superpower? Like you can be a wanted criminal as a man and a queen as a woman. I also don’t imagine there being a lot of people who would be gender fluid in the universe. So it’s odd and many people don’t even know it exists. I think I would write a binary gender-fluid character with male and female. But they could be any genders. And it’s not like shapeshifting (I mean kinda but also no?) like strictly still their race and usually still similar looking.

I kinda have an original character in mind, obviously friends with Jaskier because I feel like the little bard draws special people to him. Maybe an Ex-lover? No definitely because Jaskier is bi/pan as heck and being able to love one person who’s both man and women and amazing and sweet. And ATTRACTIVE that’s amazing! Also, this person probably felt the most comfortable letting their pent up sexual energy out with the man Because let’s be honest, Jaskier is a sweetheart and treats them exactly the same no matter if they feel like a different gender in the morning. (Also they’re both huge sluts and enjoy the same things sexually.) And that’s exactly what they needed, someone who cared about them and understand they were one person, just someone who experienced 2 genders and needed to be both to be happy and fulfilled. But they realized they weren’t right for each other and remained best friends.

I imagine them meeting the gang in a female form. Short and curvy, long flowing wavy brown hair a beautiful dress and a soft almost doll-like face all tied together by their piercing green eyes. Jaskier sees them at a random event at court and invites them to travel with the crew to the next town as they’re all heading that way. At first, they’re weary but they agree, as it’s Jaskier there’s no way he would travel with anyone unaccepting of who they were.

Geralt is almost jealous when they arrive to begin the journey with their own horse (a bigger bag too. Normally one person didn’t need that much) and even lets Jaskier ride with them. Jaskier begins playing his lute and singing a song that Geralt isn’t familiar with but they certainly are, as they sing along to his song bird-like voice with a soft and beautiful voice of their own. At camp later too, the two were inseparable. Geralt tried to not stare at them. Jaskier had always been a flirt and could get any person in bed if he wanted to. But it was the familiar feeling between the two that put Geralt on edge. Nobody but him was supposed to those soft smiles on Jaskiers lip or having Jaskier sing them songs only they knew. Geralt felt the Magic on them but he and yen agreed that it was just like the spell on her. Appearance-based nothing more. The two old friends put their bedrolls basically on top of each other and Geralt often heard a small giggle from either one of them throughout the night. He kept his eyes looking up at the sky as to not know if his bard was bedding another.

In the morning Geralt stared shocked, as where there once was a small woman the night before there stood a tall buff man maybe even two inches taller than him. The man had on a simple tunic and leather pants, his hair was longer then Geralt’s and brown and wavy but was pulled up in a bun, he was broad-shouldered but still seemed to have a clumsy air about him, most importantly, he had green piercing eyes. Jaskier was basically hanging off the mans arm as he begged for the man to make him breakfast. All the man did was let out a low deep chuckle. Geralt forced a cough and that alerted the pair to his presence.

“Jaskier.” Geralt basically growled. He was demanding an explanation but the bard was busy trying to shove a pan into the taller person’s hands.

“You didn’t tell them?” The man said as fear ran through his eyes. “Jaskier!” They said in a deep roar. “You always do this”

“I didn’t think it was any of there business Cass! Who you are shouldn’t be that much of a big deal.” Jaskier responded. Geralt was almost hurt that he was being ignored but at least they weren’t being close like before. Somehow them fighting calmed him. “Also I don’t always do this.”

“Oh yeah? What about that time you basically demanded we have a threesome with that warrior woman? We bedded her as two men. You remember how you promised me, you would make sure I got to our room that night before the morning in case I wasn’t the same and it put our lives in danger? You know I get sleepy after sex! But you wanted another round so you let me fall asleep then and then you did after. Remember her reaction when she woke up and a woman was curled into her side? She almost killed us for ‘tricking’ her!” This statement did not calm Geralt. Especially coming from the beefy man in front of him. Jaskier definitely had a type. By now yen was awake and listening intently. It’s almost as if you could see the popcorn in her hand. Both of them were slowly piecing, where the women had disappeared to, together though.

“I thought you liked when I demanded you. You know you could have always said no. I only did that because of both of our enjoyment.” Jaskier genuinely looked worried and stepped closer to the other person before him, resting a soft hand on their arm.

“Jask, you know it’s not that. I did enjoy it...” they suddenly got quiet, becoming more aware of the others around them. “...can we not discuss my sexual desires in front of a witcher and a sorceress, please? I was saying you normally forget how hard it is for people to understand who I am. Not everyone is you Jaskier. Some people like a heads up that the women they met yesterday is now a man who looks like he weight lifts 3 cows every morning.”

“I know I’m sorry. I just forgot it’s not normal. You’re one of the most important people in my life, I just assumed others would judge you on character, not gender.” Jaskier apologized in a soft voice.

“It’s fine. I know you don’t mean harm.” They smiled and picked up Jaskier for a strong hug. Jaskier let out a giggle and hugged them back.

Geralt coughed letting them know of his presence once more. The taller person pulled away from the hug with a deep blush.

“Oh, I guess I’ll formally introduce myself as Jaskier didn’t. I’m Cass. Born Lady Cassandra. Jask likes to joke it’s actually short for Casanova. I have a similar spell as Yennefer if what Jaskier tells me and what I know about sorceresses is true. But mine is a bit more complicated. I don’t feel one gender or the other. I feel both but normally at different times. I settled mine with changing each day based on how my true self felt when the sun rises.” They extend their hand for Geralt to shake. He grabs it hesitantly.

“So your Jaskiers lover?” Yennefer asks bluntly.

“Ex-lover. No need to fear dear sorceress, I’m very much free for the taking.” They said with a chuckle and wink. “Me and Jask work much better at friends. So you need not worry either Witcher! I promise to not lay an ill-intentioned finger on your little bard. But if you don’t soon someone will. I mean unless you're not into small boys, if that’s that case I’ll over myself then” They laughed and it was deep and jolly. It felt like it could shake the whole forest.

“Cass!” Jaskier lept back into the conversation and slapped the other. “Stop flirting with my friends. They’ll start to like you more than me. Go make breakfast, Geralt always burns it.” He shoved the pan at them while pushing them to the fire.

OKAY IM STOPPING THERE.

Basically, I needed to get this out of my system to focus on actual fics. But it was really cute in my head. I hope you enjoyed 💕

[femmedamsel]

hey there, hope you're doing well. im a butch, about a year into being aware of that fact. my girlfriend think she might be a femme and wants to read more about that. the only real piece of literature i can point her towards is SBB. do you have any other writing/book suggestions for her or any other lesbians wondering if they're a femme?

This is really a great question. And unfortunately I’m not sure how much I can help (but I’ll try).

I want to start with saying there’s not just one way to be “femme.” It’s not so black and white. Some femmes are jeans and sneakers kinda of gals, never wear dresses or makeup and have short hair. Other femmes won’t leave the house without “putting on their face” and the highest heels imaginable. I consider myself kind of a “granola”/“crunchy” femme which basically means I tend to rock a lot of dresses and Birkenstock’s but not a lot of heels and makeup. (Don’t get me wrong I have heels and makeup but I tend to wear both for myself as my wife is 100% oblivious as to when I actually put on makeup). I also have my days when I LOVE dressing vintage or “bombshell” and pull out all the petticoats (which my wife hates but I do them for me not for her). There are tomboy femmes and “high” femmes. Both and everything in between is 100% valid.

Also being femme means different things to different femmes. I don’t feel that my wife and I feed into a heteronormative relationship. Yes she 100% opens the door for me (love it) but when the plumbing gets backed up I’m the one pulling out the tools to fix them. She’s neater than me (I’m a total slob) and does most of the cleaning. Nothing is sexier than a big butch woman with a broom in my opinion. I can’t have children...she’s younger than me and we’ve talked (a lot) about her carrying our child. And physically she’s super butch. I mean over six foot tall and can’t wear women’s clothes even if she wanted to because it’s too hard to find. Can’t stand her hair touching her ears. Sexy and dapper in her boxer briefs and sports bras. But she can cook a killer meal and LOVES (and I mean loves with a passion) hallmark Christmas movies and Disney princesses. Being butch/femme to me doesn’t mean we have to fit in nice boxes.

But that brings me to my biggest complaint of being a femme in the community- invisibility. Sure we have plenty of visibility in the media but that has way more to do with the male gaze and not a lot to do with the actual gay community. And that can suck. That’s part of why I 100% admire my butch sisters. You visibly live your truth every day. You don’t have to come out 10 times a day because most of the time people assume you’re gay. As a femme I feel like I’m constantly coming out of the closet. And I get terrible responses. “But you don’t LOOK gay” or “but you’re so pretty” or “so feminine.” I mean yeah there are perks to that. I don’t face the same level of discrimination at work or socially because I “look straight.”

So yeah I’m a big fan of SBB. It was one of the first books that helped me accept who I am and who I’m attracted to (women masculine of center basically Brienne of Tarth all day every day). But when it comes to resources for femmes specifically there’s not a whole lot out there. There are some articles on Autostraddle and AfterEllen (not a lot). There are a few good YouTube channels. There are a LOT of academic and non academic articles (best resources really) but not a lot of books.

But really, again, femme means different things for different people. My biggest advice (especially as someone in her mid 30s who spent most of her 20s figuring it out) is to just try on different hats. See what you’re comfortable with. Don’t feel pressure to be one thing all of the time. And don’t feel like there’s an impossible standard to fit (as in please don’t ever ask me to understand what contouring makeup is or how to do it-I don’t and not all femmes have to contour makeup). There’s really a lot to be said for learning what you like and what you’re comfortable as and accepting that. If that has a nice neat categories box to check awesome, but very few of us fit into a box all of the time.

There are also some great butch/femme communities where she can meet more femme sisters that might give her a better sense of community (also it’s kind of nice to have a bit of visibility and validation from other femmes and butches).

I know that’s not what you’re asking for strictly. If she likes magazine or academic articles (very helpful when discussing the history of femme), just let her google those but I don’t have a specific source where I would steer her.

[transimailisa]

love your post on sexuality and asoiaf! in the meantime before your essay, would u maybe wanna briefly tell us who you think is lgbt+? i personally think sansa is a cis femme lesbian, brienne is either an nb lesbian or straight trans man (i see both sides there,) and i see arya as ace (maisie williams said the same thing!) obviously no pressure but i am curious!

thank you anon !

tbh i have two moods for that kind of stuff either i just wanna have fun and just mostly think that 95% of the characters are in some way lgbt or i need to do an analysis

it all really depends of my mood but most of the time im the first one as i am very pro death of the author

but now in terms of actual readings and what if i went deeper in analysis (i clearly didn't label all of them but have my thoughts in general) :

brienne : always my top 1 character to rant about for that kind of stuff. like she's actually really different from like every other gnc women from the series. her relationship to gender, how she expresses it and act on it are all very interesting and very not straight. i really don't know how to label her for gender but i definitely think that she should be a wlw

sansa : so far all her crushes are very socially oriented so it really reads as compulsory heterosexuality. very definitely cis but sexuality to be discussed

jaime : like i'm not the biggest fan if you know me but i couldn't stop wondering how his need to be validated by men he admire clearly reads more than bros moments. also the way he identifies himself so much to cersei in looks and personality makes me think that while he is big on Toxic Masculinity he also has kinda a different perspective on gender than most men from the series

brynden tully : and im almost sure he's gay cause the simple coding of backing up from a wedding and living away from marriage in a straight society is very telling

arya : while it's difficult to tell cause she's still a child i very much think that how she is a gnc she should grow as a gnc woman and have a very different take on gender

asha : the way she admires women and go to lead men and also sleeps with a twink. that's a repressed lesbian folks

qarl the maid : is a twink. grrm could have made it harder but no. it's right there.

anyway so far that is my take !

edit : wAIT I FORGOT JON TOO he very much love his satin

[cowboyjen68]

Hey jen! so im a 14 year old femme lesbian. Due to my parents putting a LOT of pressure on me to get a good education, get married, etc. I've always kind of had an obsession with my future. I plan to go to college to be a nurse, I know where I want to move when im older, and have a few ideas on what college i want to go to, and ever since i discovered im gay ive kinda fantasized of getting married to a lady, adopting a kid, living in a small house, the whole thing. So because ive looked [1/?]

up to you for a while, and you’re the only older lesbian i’ve ever seen, is it naive to hope my future will play out like this? I know life doesnt ever like to make things simple, and i cant predict what will happen throughout my life, so it probably wont all just work out exactly as planned like some happy gay disney movie. But like, does my optimism just come from being young and having very little life experience? Does everyone go through this? [2/3

]Maybe I’m overthinking a lot, because its late and ive had a lot of caffeine, but you appear like such a mother figure and its difficult to be at this weird stressful age where im trying to figure myself when I have nobody to go to ask these kinds of odd questions. Sorry this is so long and i hope my rambling isnt too confusing! [3/3]

First, I am glad you recognize that your plans are hightly influenced by your parents, but you are self aware enough to replace the man in the “Suburban Dream” scenerio with woman whom you love.  All of this is possible. If you want to go to college, get a good job, marry, have or adopt a kid... you can. You can buy a small house and get a picket fence with one dog, two cats and a suburu in the driveway.  

You are young.. and you are optimisitic. Optimisim does not have to fade with youth.. look at me.. 

Lets start with college.  College is something I highly recommend IF if suits you and you have the means.  Even without a firm idea of how to use your degree, if can teach you communication, problem solving and social skills that will help you in life.  IT IS NOT for everyone. And that is okay as well.  Some people go right to a job they earn money at or that they want to try. I always tell my kids, work at a burger joint and become a lawyer, just live within your means and be happy.  Look at me, 25 years on a job that i loved and was quite good at, but the business management took my love and stomped on it.. now I happily work with nervouse dogs.. Yesterday a Yorkie tried to eat my shoe and it was fine by me. 

Now, career, Passion and drive for a career you love can  be punched around an awful lot in the real world. IF you start a college path OR  job you hate... start looking for something else. Don’t just quit.. have a backup plan.. muddle through classes until you can swith your major.. Slave away at the job until you have another, but there is no shame in not loving what you once thought you did. 

Marriage and Kids:  Marriage, for me was only a way to protect my kids and get Rita on good health insurance. I did not care if anyone, including the state validated our relationship. I knew the day we got married that I loved her, but we were better friends than lovers and I wanted to do what I could to make sure she was safe.  I shouldn’t have agreed to marry her and we both knew it, but our hearts were in the right place.  Marriage is what is fed to us by family, culture, society, media...on and on.. PLease proceed with caution.  Make sure that you are excited to marry because of the person.. not because of the idea. Be in love, have so much passion for them that all you think about is hearing about her day or kissing her when she is telling you about her day. Don’t be in a hurry.

  Kids are the same way.. DON”T adopt or have a child because of the romantic sound of being a lesbian mom. Yes, being a mother is great, my kids are now my friends and my kids.. it is wonderful.. BUT it was super fucking hard to raise them. Kids get a mind of their own around 3.. just be aware that kids are a huge unknown factor in life.  Be prepared to not have perfect angels nor devils, but a small human that is also trying to figure out life and make mistakes and your job is to sort of stand in their way until they can do things on their own..  

You are super young and clearly smart. You have time.. Just keep your mind open to new ideas and don’t follow a path because “it has always been the path”. Set goals and work towards the nurse degree by studying science and taking community college classes. That is awesome to have a plan.  Keep your heart and mind open enough to tweak things as you gain new insight about yourself and your plan.  You are motivated and have support, that is awesome.. use all that to your advantage.  Join your GSA or get involved in your community, whether it is gay pride or an animal shelter. Start to build a network of people. They can be great resources, for jobs, references and information to help you expand your world. 

And YES most of us go though this.. either having firm plans and worrying if they can come through OR having no idea what to do in the  future and feeling like we are floundering.. Both are normal. 

I am glad you reached out.. I am always happy to give some mom advice. 

[zetrystan]

How powerful is hugduul compared to Nicholas or Hector? It’s a weird thing to answer actually... Hugduu’l is technically a... healer? Tank healer. Yes. Does Hector know how Nicholas feels about him? What do you think? :) your sona looks like shaggy from scoobydoo I do look like Shaggy. Mh. Will we see more of Nicolas' lovers in the future ? :D (in Bromance) Yup! He has even a bunch of “main” lovers that will enter the story. We actually technically saw some of them already... and one is in the comic. :-> Favorite movie ? 030 Can’t choose! But I recommend Confessions (Kokuhaku) (2010). It’s very very very good. Are you aware of how wonderfully diverse you art style is and what a joy it is to look at? Eeeeeeeh. Nope, I’m sincerely not aware. :’> Haha. I wish I was able to make more different stuff, actually! U play overwatch? Nope! But if I did, I would main Junkrat, I’m pretty sure. Will you make a bromance physical book if and when it finishes I actually still am wondering... I don’t think Bromance would really work as a physical book as it is right now, but my friend @bekkidoodles​ actually gave me an idea of how to make it look good. But it would need a whole other lot of work. :’) Your a cutie.. Shut up. >:I Do you like cake? What kind? If not why? Almost all the kinds of cake, like any true human being should. IS MAYONNAISE AN INSTRUMENT? No it’s not. Horseradish is not an instrument either. Will any Angels or beings from other Pantheons appear? (in Bromance) Technically speaking, we already have a god and a demon in the story! But you will see more for sure... at least one other is planned right now... hEY COOL CAT if you could be a dinosaur for a day,the heck would u do ? Woah woah, important informations are missing there. In the prehistoric age? In our times? What kind of dinosaur am I?? are u gonna drop merch or comics strips of it someday ? cause at least im pretty interested in saving n buying ! (Bromance) Well, for the comic strips, they can be find on my Bromance Tapas page! As for merch... I’m yet again still thinking about it. I’m not sure Bromance has enough of a following to have people interested in buying enough stuff, ahah.  Do you have any plans for bromance, or is it mostly improvised? A mix of both. I have a plan for both my “main” story and my “side” stories, but I don’t like being too organized, so I keep enough space to create more things if I want to. Do you have your own irl bromance? :o Haha, kinda, in a way. Not the same kind though. as a pet would you rather have a tiny kitten-sized dragon or a large house-sized dragon? Kitten-sized dragon, of course. A house-sized dragon would be COOL AS HELL, but also absolutely not practical. How do I feed it? Where does it sleep? Where does it even stand? (in the middle of the street?) What color is the shirt youre currently wearing? I drew my shirt on the drawing in this post, haha. Go check on top of it! Do you love me? Are you pizza? If you are, the answer is yes. What hobbies do you have outside of art? Not much, since I spend most of my time drawing. But... video games? Jeez, that’s original. How many projects are working on right now? I remember you have a lot going on all the time it seems. I usually have a lot, but I tried to shorten the list the most I can. So now, I’m pretty much trying to focus on Bromance. Did you ever get water back for your street? or are you still melting snow? HAHA yes, forgot to tell it here. We got water back after two days. Two. Long. Days. Without showers or toilets. Terrible. Your ideal date? No date is my ideal date. Aw shit dude you like Heartstopper? I just started reading and it's real good I do, discovered it a few weeks ago! Well made comic! Do you loke anime? I loke anime. Any plans for another comic? Kinda, but I’m trying to kill those plans as soon as I have them. Better focus on ONE comic first, it’s hard enough! ahah Hey Trystan! Ou sont toute les femmes dans ton comic? (translation: where are all the women in your comic?) They exist! Considering I showed mainly three characters in the comic and I’m focusing on them, it seems like there’s no women, ahah. But I assure you the next big main character planned to be introduced is going to be a woman! (Well... kinda...) How long have you been drawing for? Any art style/artist you admire? For a long time, not too sure. Always been drawing a little, at least. And I know way too much artists I love, ahah. But recently I really have been digging @mancameron‘s art. Biggest goal for 2018? Not fail. It’s not up to a good start.

[clefairytails]

lesbian tag game

thx for sending me this @redcladsheikah <3 all my lesbian friends should do this too, if you want uwu i’m too lazy to tag like 50 ppl hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh @lebians @tiedyked @talaxian @lesbian-mcelroy @ireallylikecameras 

1: did you ever think you were straight?

not really, i knew i liked girls even as a child. but i did go through multiple periods of trying to convince myself i was straight, needless to say it didn’t work out lol.

2: what’s your favorite element of gay culture?

our sense of humor! it’s amazing that we’re all so funny despite putting up with so much bullshit.

3: are you femme, butch, or neither?

femme! i’ve been looking into femme history lately, bcs the idea that femme is just an aesthetic is a misconception c:

4: do you prefer to date femmes or butches?

tbh every time i declare i have a type i immediately fall for someone that’s the complete opposite of that, so i have no idea. lately i’ve been wanting a goth gf, but i just developed a crush on a prep soooo i’m terrible at self-reflection. this bitch don’t know what she want.

5: what’s the worst part about being a lesbian?

the feeling that there’s a part of you that needs to be fixed, but you can’t do anything about it. it’s like seeing a picture on the wall that’s crooked, but it’s stuck like that and you can’t ever straighten it. or having a hair out of place that keeps sticking up no matter how much you try to gel it down.

6: what’s the best part of being a lesbian?

is women too obvious of an answer? girls are angels and i’d die for all of them

7: how long were you questioning for?

pretty much never, i guess. i had crushes on girls since kindergarten, then in 2nd grade i was told girls could only like boys, so i tried my best to be straight even though in my heart i knew i wasn’t. since i couldn’t make myself like boys, i kinda just ignored the idea of liking anyone at all until middle school, when i found out what the word “lesbian” means online. of course, all the stuff i found about lesbians called us disgusting perverts, so i went through many phases of calling myself literally anything else but a lesbian. i’ve only started using the word lesbian specifically in the last few years, especially since i joined an amazing discord group. i love them so much, they’ve helped me feel so proud of being a lesbian <3

8: what’s the most annoying thing straight people do?

exist. 

jk lmao, i’m honestly not annoyed by straight people, but i like making jokes as if i am. it’s hard to annoy me in general, i’ve got a high tolerance for that type of stuff. if i have to answer, i hate it when strangers (usually straight men) pry into my sex life, but i’m not really annoyed by that as much as i am creeped out.

9: what do you look for in a girl?

vampirism is my only requirement.

10: if you had to marry someone you know right now, who would you choose?

@lebians bcs i feel they’d be the most able to put up with my bullshit. everyone else would kill me on sight. if only @ireallylikecameras was still single, then when we got married we could put together our 50% employee discounts at BK and get infinite food for free, ending world hunger. i think that’s how it works, but also im gay and therefore bad at math.

11: do you have a crush right now?

does being in love count as a crush? if so, then i have three.

12: do you fall in love easily?

i crush easily, and i say i’m in love easily bcs i’m a leo (meaning i need to exaggerate to live), but actually feeling love? only once.

13: is there anyone in your life right now you think you’ll date in the future?

fingers crossed.

14: is there anyone you want to be kissing right now?

at the moment i’m feeling very touch repulsed, so no. but i also go through periods of feeling touch starved, and during those times i’d kiss pretty much anyone lmao.

15: do you think you’ve met your future wife yet?

i don’t know if i want to be married. i hate making commitments.

16: top, bottom, or vers?

i suspect i’m a bottom, but i’m also a virgin with no self awareness about what she wants or likes, so who really knows.

17: is there anyone you wish you could fuck right now?

still feeling touch repulsed, so no. also i have issues with actual real life sex. i always think i want to have sex, but when the situation becomes real, i feel disgusted by it and chicken out. i have no idea if this is some sort of asexuality or internalized lesbophobia. i should probably go to therapy lol.

18: rough or gentle?

rough, in theory. like i said, virgin who doesn’t know what she likes. but as a general rule, i don’t like slowness.

19: how many stereotypes do you fit into?

i’m fat, hairy, make lots of jokes about hating men (at least online, not in real life bcs i dont wanna get stabbed), i sometimes look like a guy,

20: what version of the lesbian flag do you like most? (butch, lipstick, original, etc.)

i like the femme one! i have it as my banner, it’s the lipstick lesbian flag without the lip print. the original flag was so fucking good, too bad it got taken by the terfs. the labrys is such a powerful image, and purple is a good color. also i saw a moon lesbian flag going around, that one is so good.

21: do you have a good gaydar?

hhhh i’d like to pretend i do but tbh i’m not very observant and straight up bad at reading people.

22: be honest, would you rather be straight?

yes and no. i’d rather have been born straight, because it would’ve saved me so much pain, but it’s a few years too late for that lol. if there was a magic pill that could make me straight today, i wouldn’t take it. i’ve been through so much as a lesbian, it means something to me now and i wouldn’t trade that for anything.

23: are you cis?

yep.

24: are you a sugar mommy or a sugar baby at heart?

hardcore sugar baby. my dream job is being an older woman’s trophy wife.

25: are you committed to someone at all right now emotionally?

hhhhhhhhhh unfortunately. i don’t want to be.

26: are you looking for a serious relationship currently?

yes, but i shouldn’t be. i don’t think i’m ready to be in one.

27: is there someone you’d like to be in a serious relationship in?

yes, but she’s straight and already married lmao. whoops.

28: do you want children?

no, i’m too selfish and irresponsible.

29: is your family accepting of your sexuality?

my mom and dad are, though they don’t take it very seriously. pretty sure they expect me to grow out of it one day. can’t blame them tho, i’m waiting for the same thing lmao. my extended family is huge, and their opinions range from being extremely homophobic to being gay themselves, but i’m interacting with them less and less as i get older.

30: how confident are you in your sexuality?

very confident, though i don’t want to be. i’m still secretly hoping one day i’ll see a guy i’m attracted to and he’ll fix me, but being realistic, i’m a huge fucking lesbian. women are enchanting.

31: are you polyamorous or monogamous?

monogamous. my insecure ass could not be poly hhhhhh.

32: what advice do you have for your 12 year old self?

be more selfish. you don’t have to put yourself second for the sake of others, especially at your age. nothing you do will matter in a decade, go fucking wild.

33: have you ever been to a gay bar?

nope. i want to go one day, but i have terrible social anxiety.

34: leather jackets or flannel?

both of those are really hot, but i’m gonna go with leather jacket.

35: describe your dream girlfriend

- vampire

- big tiddy goth gf

- nice personality or smthn

- uhhhhhhhhh tiddy

(ok but srsly, i can’t answer this question bcs i NEVER know what i want!! i always thought my type was THICC for sure, but all three of the ladies i have feelings for rn are pretty skinny and flat chested)

36: do you have any lesbian friends?

at least 50 lol.

37: what elements of gay culture do you actively participate in?

air, water, sometimes earth. never fire.

38: do you find straight people irritating?

nope, but i do find straight pda uncomfortable to look at. mostly bcs it reminds me of what i'm supposed to want. but i’d never tell a straight person that, obviously. i’m not rude.

39: would you rather adopt a kid or have a biological kid?

i’ll adopt a tortoise, and feed her any children that cross my path. but if i did ever have a child, i’d want it to be biologically mine and my wife’s. mostly bcs i’d want to know what it would look like, which is a selfish and stupid reason to have kids, and exactly why i’m not gonna lmao.

40: do you love yourself?

i’m a LEO (jokes aside, i don’t know. sometimes i do, sometimes i don’t. but i love myself more as time goes on. definitely more than i did than when i was a teen, at least.)