#rato ranto

[ratontheline]

The Rato ranto of today is:

I’m locked in🔒

Well somewhat🫠👍 I’m just drawing and just posting it cuz I can, I will and I should.

Anyway thinking of drawing all of Ames outfits 2/5 are done so 3 more outfits left I’ll be done with that on the 25, Leaving me 5 days till 30th.

Idk what I’ll do for the last 5 days🤔💭 o well I have time or I think I do

Anyway CHEERS

[ratontheline]

Well shitttttt

Ummm it’s already 27/28 and I’m like 2 outfits behind 😂🫠 sorry yalls I was playing ptn, toa is happening so I was doing that leading the ss to get the cute profile thing AND i was catching up with the holo gta server, bro it had so much going on and lastly gotta watch the last few ame streams😭

But rest assured it shall be done… hopefully😭😂👍

[ratontheline]

Yup yup yup THIS TIME I ACTUALLY DREW SOMETHING- it’s call for a celebration🎉🥳🍾🎁🎊👯‍♀️

WeLL TeCHNicallY 🤓☝️ I drew something days ag- SORRY🙇‍♀️

I’ll try to explain myself LMAOODJDN

Anyway, Feelings on the piece?

I think pretty Self explanatory, self exclamatory JK it’s kinda complicated LOLS

I basically thought it was ass… I don’t think so anymore.

Let me explain:

Comparing it to my other stuff it’s not so ground breaking shaking but it’s also not terrible- like it could have been so much uglier but it’s not, so therefore it’s good enough. There’s things that I have drawn that are so fucking ugly I’m even flabbergasted that I am capable of being that bad and would not share it with anyone, but this? It’s not something I could classify as ugly, messy yea but not ugly and same goes with my other work that I don’t share - I have labeled them as ugly and unworthy to be shared but it’s not rlly😭 they are perfectly okay tho.

Also I do ik I can be critical on myself but it’s valid tho, if you know you can be better then it’s reasonable to be so harsh, there’s no ceiling on how good you can, and I whole heartedly believe that I can be insanely good, others may think not but I think it’s possible. I haven’t figured how to get to the next level (probably being more consistent but I’m going to ignore that🤪).

Anyway that’s my feelings.. this piece isn’t as ugly as I thought LMAOO and also hope it clears the air as to why I’m so self critical HAHAHA

Anyway cheers to yalls hope to more art, ngl I feel like this a big catalysis but idk for sure LOLS SEE YA NEXT TIME

👋

[ratontheline]

Hey… Im back posting again…

Kinda goofy… I do remember what I said and I quote:

“There’s not going to be art for a while until I fix it..”

…it hasn’t even been 3 days, I had reasons.

As you may or not know I got scammed ummm I was not feeling so great after it 🤠 I really wasn’t going to post for a while, I was recouping my resolve and just trying to get my head back on again before I was hit with another whammy.

Amelia Watson ceases all social media related activities ie including streaming

Ummm it seems to be that my week just got EVEN WORSE HAHAHAHAH

I probably have not said it but I’m a big holo myth fan. Love everything about them… istg they are literally the perfect group construction ever made. They had art, music, games, yapping the whole shebang and they also had a perfect models. Anyway threw me for a loop this one HAHAHH.

Umm I poured my heart out on X/two imma just copy paste what I was feeling:

“...l'm going to be posting art again.

I'm not rily in the best head space but I can't let this feeling go. Not after this group literally gave me a reason to start drawing.

If holo myth didn't exist I wouldn't be drawing.

They genuinely inspired me to make art again.

To think that the group I owe my art too is losing a member - it hurts.

I draw for them... I improved so that I can make better art for them... every single one of them contributed to me stepping out and indulging in my love for art unapologetically.

To try again.

To be obsessive, to be critical, to be innovative with my art.

Like words can't even express the amount of love and respect I have for them.

...Cheers Ame🍻I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, hope u know whatever you do will inspire someone out there. Just as you and the rest of the girls have done for me.”

Dawg first of trying to copy paste that was so fucking hard, anyway I was crying while typing that SORRY IF ITS KINDA DISJOINTED I WAS GOING THROUGH IT ACTUALLY😭

Anyway yea pretty much it, I do really mean it, like they are my shiny chariot (lwa) like if it weren’t for hololive I wouldn’t be drawing that how damn impactful they are for me.

Im putting them on a pedestal, I dont give a fuck if that’s bad.

Anyway yea that’s that but what does it have to do with me posting… well a lot.

I was sad cuz I lost my money, but I’m sadder cuz Ame is graduating… so I’m posting more.

It make sense don’t try to argue with me. I probably sound crazy whatever IM A MESS LEAVE ME ALONE, ig best way to think about this is to think of me like Akko she wants to become a witch cuz she watch chariot’s show and spread happiness. I watched them make stuff which Inspires me to make stuff to. Anyway I love them.

anyway cheers guys, sorry it this also all over the place, it’s been a rough ass week I basically took hits to my psyche like crazy anyway expect a lot of art from me for a while.

I am locked in.

After I cry some more CHEERS YALL😭🍻