#im kinda going insane bc i dont like my life rn at all
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damn depression is actually like. kicking my ass pretty hard
#i am so#sooooo#augh#everything is so much effort im not happy with anything i cant do anything that i like and just??? what am i supposed to do with my life#WHEN I CANT DO SHIT#writing in painful drawing is painful#i want to do both of those things and i just cant#i can read books in public transport and play zelda and thats pretty much it?#im kinda going insane bc i dont like my life rn at all#but i feel too weak and lazy to change anything#its like i want to rest forever because its never enough i never have enough energy#and just. aughughughgughugh. i dont want to die thank god i am not suicidal#but man i do not want to live as myself anymore right now#i guess i will write yaoi about it or something#gah i now this is my blog and all#but sorry for the constant depressing talk lately lmao#it gets better eventually
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#ok so like this is fine bc im not in a horrible mood rn. this is more i feel like complaining bc what im doing is kinda ridiculous#but my memory is so bad that ill probably forget if i dont write it out. but basically 4 days a week i have to come in starting at 7.30 to#water and prep for measurements. then from 9am to 6.15pm i have to nonstop take the measurements. and theyre timed so that means#i get abt 4 min to do anything before i have to take another measurement. which is abt enough time to start to focus and then have to stop#which is very fucking frustrating. and i have to manage data. coordinate for this fucking paper. and keep track of like 10 other things for#work stuff. which means that it takes me like and hour to send easy emails and they come out all fucked uo bc my brain is so shot#but on top of that i also have to fucking do the steps to get set up for my new school in the fall. and like ive officially accepted the#offer but havent talked to my new advisor since then so now theres this weird gap where im like. uh fuck do i ask for wtf im supposed to#do? bc ive been able to do things for like 2 or 3 weeks but then my life started collapsing in around me. and like there r probably#instructions somewhere but i cant fucking read lol. whatever. hes nice i just need to find the energy and words to email him and b like lol#srry everythings been insane. but bc ive waited so long i have to compulsively keep going back to check that ive been accepted like somehow#that would change while im not looking. ugh. and ive also fucked myself over housing wise bc theres a housing shortage in the city and huge#demand of housing on camus so theres a wait list for everything but i cant fucking apply bc i cant get my id to work. and fucking idk who#to call or email abt that. but idk i might have to have roomates for a semester. or my parents offered to give me some extra money for an#apartment until i can get one that doesnt put me in the red on a grad student budget. ugh. i dont wanna do either of those things#but christ do i not want roommates. ill figure something out. its just annoying and difficult from so far away#and it makes me kinda sad bc ppl r like: r u excited?! and im like. i cant really think abt that. partly bc im constanly putting out fires#in the present so theres not really space for it. partly bc i dont allow myself to b excited abt things so as not to get my hopes up.#but just after i accepted i was excited. and now it feels like im reaching my hand out toward a floating light just out of reach. like#its a nice idea but i wont believe until it happens. but that just bc ive become distorted about things#and i dont even get a weekend bc the 4 days of measurement r friday to Monday and i cant fucking relax on weekdays bc ppl r like hey can u#do this??? and there r things i can only do on weekdays so its like ok i guess ill just suffer forever thrn. and my boss texts me like: hey#did u do X? and am like: uuuuuh i fucking dont kno what day it is anymore. i dont understand y we have to meet. lets just not talk bc im#afraid ill say something worrying. so yea its pretty fucked up rn. but this stuff ends on the 24th#then ill probably not take a break and fucking finish the measurements for another project bc i just really need it to b done. i need it#all to b done so i can fucking wash my hands of this and fucking quit and move away at the start of july... or August if i decide i hate#myself that much. ugh. at least the lab has been pretty empty so no ones seen me crying lol#also thr fucking rutgers guy emailed me yesterday like: hey u want this position? and im like bitch u r like a month too late also im in#my cringe fail era. i would not survive at ur school. ugh everything is terrible. 2 or 3 more months then i csn leave this place forever#unrelated
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Bitches on here be like "haha! I read this callout about you and i told everyone around me to ostracize you and ignore you and the reason you're alone is divinely orchestrated karma, of course, surely not me and my hand in manipulating people to hate you, surely this is some sort of divine intervention and not a smear campaign that i try to justify my actions with "its gods will" with"
#do yall ever consider the karma *YOU* will acquire for treating me this way over someone elses lies about me?#bc something tells me whatever im going through rn. that you think i shoulda killed myself over... well babe.#i got some bad news for you and how karma works. lmao#and oh baby it hurtsm oh mam am i just suffering so hard.#my body aches all the time. i dissociate constantly.#well. when it happens to you and you're all alone with no support yknow.... hope you figure it out :/#hope the karma doesnt hit you too hard :/#at least im strong enough to not let all of this shit make me go fully insane. doubtful for yall tho lmao#and im going to give just as little fucks about yall writhing in your mental agony as you have for me :)!#oh and uh. dont think karma will be light on you just because 'you didnt know you were being lied to 🥺'#aww.. poor you... but anyways yeah when you fuck w someones life even if you realize you did it over someone elses lie... kinda feel like#you're not gonna get out of hurting someone else so much that easily. kinda feel like thats not gonna happen for you.#kinda feel like the energy is eye for an eye not eye for an acknowledgement of your actions and regretting them.#but who knows. i guess it really depends on who you are. how sorry you actually am. how much you understand what you did and how you hurt#someone. all of that sorta stuff will decide how bad your karma is.#so ig. hopefully its nothing too bad !
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I know like nothing about any of ur ocs or works so, could you sum up telling me about whichever you want so I can ask more questions in person? Please feel free to make the ask as long as possible!
stares autistically...YAYU..galaxy quest is my Main ocverse bc its almost 11 yrs old now and its just been a default in my mind since i was 11-12ish but capitalist creepshow is a close 2nd with how fleshed out it is...my oc carrd has some good info character wise but its lacking on worldbuilding + plot stuff bc im insanely character focused and suck at that shit badly LOL, also the plot/episode page and number of seasons on gq's page is outdated bc i recently like completely redid the plot and havent updated it yet 😭 anyway u can have existing gq lore. sorry if this is weirdly worded and hard to understand im at work rn 😢 i also have a couple scattered tumblr posts on random important bits of lore/character stuff ill get them later. oh ya and toyhouse if u want to see whos who or whatever. a couple side characters havent been redesigned yet but ill get there eventually lol
gq is like. a 90s-2000s CN styled adult cartoon (i always sum it up as if futurama and chowder were 1 cartoon. BIG BIG influences from chowder especially with the voice acting my goddd )..its Planned to have 5 seasons, it used to be 4 but with the new plot i had to add one to fit it in without Completely starting over on every single season lol, also perhaps 1 semi canon movie and a small side series for a bunch of silly mostly canon fillers i couldnt fit into the show itself.
so like i said im bad at having a consistent plot, also words are hard for me so ur getting a Very shitty bastardized version of what i Do have.
Basically it takes place mostly on 2 planets, earth and alkaliba(i hate this name i made it up when i was like 15ish, i just cant think of something better rn😔) its initially in 2009, but actually this is like a Different 2009. bc basically there was a mass extinction like several hundred million years ago and everything just kinda started over but like only Slightly different (sounds stupid af out loud but just trust me ok) alkaliba had existed for a Very long time the next galaxy over and it just so happens that the planet is dying and all their natural resources are fucked. so melody (lenarrs mom) set up an agreement with alkaliba that they could borror resources from earth. (melody is thousands of years old, but thats a secret lol) also melody was from another dimension Also a very powerful sorcerer and kept most of her spells and whatnot in her journal But its written in her native dimensions language which nobody on earth (except lenarr) can read. anyway she used her magic to connect the 2 planets using a series of portals called stargates (again. subject to change, also they connect to a Lot of other planets besides just earth but whatever) that allowed ppl to easily travel between the 2. bc of this alkaliba Kinda "colonized" (FOR LACK OF A BETTER WORD) earth? and that was normal for a few thousand years.
anyway for s1 jump ahead to where canon starts (2009) tix is sent to earth by meredith (queen of alkaliba, tix is her son but u dont know that until later in s1 when they actually Go to alkaliba) to pretty much track lenarr down and convince him to use his powers he inherented from melody (lenarr is not aware of this at all) to pretty much save alkaliba (BIG SPOILER. THIS IS SOMEWHAT DISHONEST. sure lenarr could Choose to save alkaliba but that would result in the destruction of earth or it could be vice versa. it cant be both BUT youll see) so he find lenarr Completely by coincidence after lenarr offers to help him bc tix has never seen snow or ice in his life and is having Difficulty. anyway this is ridiculous that i havent figured this out after 10+ years but tix does Something to convince lenarr to go with him, bc obviously lenarr would be very hesitant to. a bunch of shit happens u know the drill 1st episode shit to establish everything. i could type out a full episode 1 plot but i don't particularly want to rn😢
s2-3 is just mostly playing toys w my characters and tix teaching lenarr how to use his powers (s1 finale is when lenarr starts to Get it but u know) also s2 is noodles villain arc and s3 has eugene in it which is so fun bc i really really like noodle and eugene is funny. OH AND THE MAIN VILLAINS. hydro is the Main antagonist but he has 5 other idek what to call them. henchmen????? that either work for him (griff, dimentia, derric) Or are loyal to him bc he practically saved their life (grem and pixie, also dimentia a little? its complicated) and while Yes hydro IS a villain and he IS evil, hes actually just trying to save earth bc in his mind alkaliba is actually like the typical alien invasion thing u see in movies (not exactly whats happening but it Is possible u could see it that way) he just goes abt it in the weirdest most fucked up way possible. also BIG plotpoint worth mentioning, grem and tix were dating for at least 3000+ years before tix left him for his (now deceased) wife, which grem is Extremely bitter abt. so hes obviously loyal to hydro bc hydro helped him escape his abusive father BUT hes also doing it for himself to get back at tix. (important note tix Was the asshole in that situation 100%, grem is actually right to be upset a little but probably not That much) anyway once lenarr tix and zach(forgot to mention zach is tixs best friend who tix brings along bc hes smart and good at strategizing, also bc tix is GAYYYYYY) get to alkaliba finally it is literally impossible to conceal the fact that tix is a prince there. and bc lenarr doesnt know the Real reason why hes there he doesnt think much of it, in fact he finds it weird that tix wouldnt tell him that.
jumping allll the way to s4 when the Actual shit goes down. this is where shit gets less in depth bc its Extremely new..this is when lenarr learns that hes being used to basically doom earth, u know. his home planet. (considering having either hydro or grem tell him, not in a nice way either) obviously he gets really upset abt this, Especially bc its been at least a couple years since canon started and zach and tix are basically like family to him at this point. he probably runs off idk. i need to think abt it more bc i JUST made this up but im considering recycling an OLDD concept from like early highschool gq where lenarr gets to visit melody in her home dimension. also forgot to mention. melody and lenarrs older brother ruben both committed suicide when lenarr was younger. melody only did it to go back to her home dimension, but ruben did it bc he got rlly depressed after melody died ÷(
anyway lenarr gets to see melody, its very sweet ÷) he talks to her abt his problem abd she gives him some kinda cryptic advice bc Plot. this changes lenarr basically, at this point hes mastered melodys spellbook and Now he can create his own spells or whatever. SO. he comes up with a way to make it so NEITHER planet gets destroyed somehow. this works bc lenarr is actually like twice as powrful as melody at his full potential. after this the main villains would most likely have their redemption arcs somehow i havent thought up What exactly happens yet. and for s5 its basically just me wrapping things up and playing with my toys freely...theres still active plot happening thats very relevant to the story obviously but its a liiiiitle less high stakes and thats all i got in regards to the main plot bc if i sat here and typed a detailed explanation of my fun fillers id be here for years
SOME GENERAL TRIVIA FUN FACTS DEVELOPMENT SHIT 4 FUNSIES TOO.
originally gq was Not supposed to be a cartoon nor was it an ocverse. it was a fucking spm fan spinoff i made up bc i was autistic af and 12. grem was my first ever oc that was Not a fursona and he was actually terrible like as a person. i mean hes kinda terrible now but not as bad
griffs name was changed a few years after i made him. it used to be falcon (STUPID AF BUT I WAS 12. REMEMBER THIS.) also i thought itd be funny for his name to be griff bc youd think its short for griffon but no its short for grifford. also texs and tiabia names were changed too. tiabis name was janette and she was actually originally an adult but i thought itd be better if she was 7
like 99.999% of my original designs and concept art + silly little comics of my villains bc it was just them when it was still a mario thing is lost media forever bc my mom accidentally threw it all away when we moved to a new house i miss it every dayyyy id do Anything to see it again..... the Only original stuff i have is from highschool and i fucking hate my artstyle then so its sad af...its just lenarrs finalized design (which actually barely changed since then) and MAYBE if i looked hard enough thru my old computers i could find zachs original design too? idk i dont feel like looking
speaking of the spm thing. dimentia was supposed to be dimentios little sister which is why shes named that (original i know) but i decided to take the name a different direction after it became its own thing
grem went through the most design changes by a huge margin, but imo derrics few redesigns were the most insane and drastic. pixie went through One change and it got reversed a couple years later LOL
some Stupid reasons behind design changes were 1. hydro used to have 4 heads, hence the dumbass wordplay on "hydra" but i got so fucking fed up with drawing them every time + i kept forgetting to so i just made him a regular dragon. and 2. griff has his mask bc i literally just kept getting mad trying to draw his face right. thats literally it. thats the only reason.
fun fact noodle was probably my least favorite oc before i redesigned him. i hated him SO FUCKING MUCH especiallyafter i came up with his villain arc. now hes my favorite toy and i lovie
HUGE props to my bff @/killer12345blog. hes literally my cowriter and theres a couple characters of his in the main canon that play a HUGE part (eugene, daffodil, and louise) also eugene was actually a joke character and i HATED HIM (AS PART OF THE BIT) but i randomly got really attached to him now hes the villain for s3😇
gq was actually RECENTLY renamed. it used to be H.I.D.E. dont ask me what it means or what it stands for idfkkkkk i thought itd come to me eventually but it didnt so i changed it bc w/o a meaning it was just dumb af
tix was originally very very small. like around pixies size. also gq was still a video game for a bit but it was like its own Thing by then. tix was intended to be the tutorial character kinda like tippi
also im going to go ahead and say this LMAO. the original alkaliban designs were Heavily inspired by homestuck bc thats what i liked back then. ive tried soooo hard to make it not as obvious but i feel like itll always be so so obvious 😭
im actually kinda considering having gq be 3d animated instead of 2d, stylistically if that were the case itd look kinda like. idk. do u remember that moomins cartoon they made a few years ago. like that. but i seriously doubt ill end up making it 3d anyway
i fucking hate musicals usually but my GOD are there a couple showtunes i want in there. jfc. i have a dedicated yt playlist of songs i want in gq Or relate heavily to certain characters/events. hi. speaking of i like to think gq would have a very 80s cartoon soundtrack like the one in labyrinth or something similar
tix and zach were originally Much younger. tix was like 19 or 20 and zach was 17 iirc? i changed that bc 1. dumb and 2. i wanted tix and zach to be in love i didnt quite like the age gap it was a little iffy
the origin of lenarrs name is kinda silly. i was having trouble coming up w a fitting name and one day after school we drove past a sign for lennar homes or whatever the companys called and i went AHAAAAAAAH!☝️🤑
i think noodle was originally brazillian, idr why that changed..also tex was japanese iirc
tix is like Billions of years old probably. its intentionally left unclear and vague but also IDEFK.
im probably forgetting LOADS of important shit but whatever....u get the idea + ive been typing for like 2 hours in between work shit
#ocs#i gotta go grab those other posts immediately but this is like the very basics of gq LOL. you are so strong good luck reading this#its incoherent af bc im working and im not proofreading all that LMAO
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thinking about therapy again bc i knowww i need to be in it. but i think one of my inarguable needs in a therapist is that they see me as an equal? i guess is the best way to put it. and thats not really something you can Ask it's more of a vibes based thing. but like. i hate playing stupid with doctors psychiatrists therapists etc i want to be like This is what im experiencing These are the resources ive looked into This is what i think is going on. where do we go from here. and like i know a fair amount about psychology and i dont want to have to pretend i dont. or for them to assume i dont. and like id look into peer support and stuff but i feel like thats more short term and less intensive than id need to unpack my childhood stuff. Oh i completely forgot to post and also finish typing this. anyway idk like what are even the chances of finding a provider in my area, who takes my insurance and is willing to work with me abt the copay, whose main modality isnt cbt, whos experienced in cptsd/dissociative disorders, and also who i click with as a person. idk. it feels completely hopeless lol and i know its not but like. maybe im fine rn like maybe i dont even need therapy really (least fine guy youve ever met voice)
but the other problem is i also need like, a social worker who isnt school-related and extremely overworked (god bless her tho omg) bc i need a lot of help getting like, case management and applying for disability etc. and just normal therapy isnt gonna help me when i also need those things. but i feel like most long term therapists arent also social workers and vice versa
and i dont even know what modality would be helpful for me. i know dbt WAS when i was younger, but now i know like. the basics, ive learned the coping skills etc. so idk if it would still be helpful? and i know like, somatic focused therapy or whatever would probably be helpful, because actually understanding what my body was doing and why and how that effects my mental health has been really helpful in the past. but also i feel like a lot of somatic therapists are... whats a nice way to say this. like a lot of the ppl ive seen either on like psychologytoday etc or on instagram reels are. the type of guy to buy dreamcatchers on shein and use cherrypicked parts of other cultures without understanding their cultural context. and, like, try to cure my dissociative disorder with reiki or something. Sorry im thinking abt the therapist i had in early 2020 now
idk i just dont really know what to look into even. bc ive heard good stuff from a friend abt emdr but im skeptical of emdr like, casually. like i havent tried it and i dont know a huge amount about it, but on the surface it kinda sounds like bullshit- yeah just look between these lights and think about stuff and thatll fix you. but i also understand how repetitive movement can be calming (#autism) and it makes sense that being exposed to those memories and also in a safe place would be helpful? and i like that u dont have to talk abt the traumas in depth out loud. but i also feel like thats more for single-event traumas or at least trauma that u like, remember
and i feel like being able to talk out loud abt stuff would help me. like having another person to bounce my thoughts off of whos not like. a friend. and is able to deal w that kind of thing. and is also paid to do so. And can also help me like. recognize when im being insane. but also Wont assume im being insane and that all my thoughts are fucking cognitive distortions
idk its just exhausting trying to figure out What i even want from therapy other than to Feel Better and stop losing entire months of my life sometimes and to be able to like. make phone calls and talk to people and not feel evil and insane all the time. and to be able to live away from my parents and have a life, whether that involves Employment or not. one of my short-term goals in therapy w a long term therapist would explicitly be to decide my long term goals and how i'll know i met them. bc i think talking abt the therapeutic relationship w my therapist up front is something that would benefit me. due to the avoidance.
idk. wgat everrrr.
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Here's a continuation of the Hakuri/Chihiro College AU bc i passed all my classes this semester :3
After moving in, Hakuri struggles to adjust to Chihiro's living space. Its not like Chihiro is broke right now, with having inherited his dad's finances and other possessions, but its a stark contrast between his own upbringing and Chihiro's that gives him whiplash.
Chihiro is extremely patient. Its almost to the point where he's never really seen that guy pissed off before. Well, thats a lie, he did see Chihiro threaten Soya's life on the phone after basically saving Hakuri's life, but that wasnt even a physical altercation. Its was basically thirty minutes of Chihiro explaining in great detail (down to the goddamn law) how he would make sure Soya not only loses his hands but also ends up in prison. Soya hasnt called back since.
Maybe it was for the best, though.
What really makes Hakuri struggle to adjust, though, is Chihiro's borderline insane ability to somehow be a mind reader. He somehow knows every time Hakuri has had a nightmare, if Hakuri is on the verge of a panic attack, if Hakuri needs space and even when he's having trouble managing his pain despite the years of practicing his poker face.
Its...scary. Its also really, really nice.
The first month is Hakuri and Chihiro dancing around each other as they try to remember they share a space now. A few times, Hakuri screams when the other accidentally enters his room (it used to be a guest room after the previous roommate moved out to start her new business, a cafe, which is apparently only a block away), and Chihiro gets surprised when Hakuri enters the kitchen. Sometimes they would awkwardly sit next to each other while watching tv until they go to sleep, and other times they accidentally talk throughout the night until the fall asleep on top of each other on the couch at three in the morning.
Im too lazy to write more bc im cleaning rn but like..yeah. Hinao would meet Hakuri and immediantly give Chihiro the look and it all goes downhill from there with how much she texts him cringy date ideas she found on tiktok. Shiba comes over unannounced and scares the hell outta Hakuri but after the initial awkwardness Shiba immediately likes the kid. And says such to Chihiro, something like "Thank god youre not gonna die alone, kid."
The weirdest relationship is Hakuri and Hiyuki's mutual respect for each other since Chihiro and her are kinda rivals. They dont hate each other but they definitely argue a lot whenever they end up in the same classes.
Tbh if I were to write this i would only have hakuri's family pop up as a major plot point once, since i dont like repetitive scenes with the same antagonists. Soya already tried once and got his ass beat so he wouldnt again, but Kyora would probably try to contact hakuri and it'd be more of a subplot kinda ordeal. Chihiro's main conflict would likely revolve around his canon story, but instead of fighting the man reaponsible for his father's death he would personally keep tabs on anything he finds so once he's legally able to pursue them he's have all the material he needs.
Again, i dont want to make this AU too dramatic. Its a modern College AU so like...I wanna keep it semi realistic while it being dramatic and entertaining, yaknow?
#this is all word vomit#i didnt even proofread this#kagurabachi#hakuri x chihiro#chihiro rokuhira x hakuri sazanami#chihiro rokuhira#sazanami hakuri#mentioned hiyuki#mentioned shiba#mentioned kyora#mentioned soya#hakuri sazanami#hakuhiro
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KY'S LIFE IS STRANGE DOUBLE EXPOSURE NONSENSE LIVEBLOG: Episode 4
(HUGE spoilers ahead !! don't complain if u read ahead w/out being ready)
tutorial chapter 1 chapter 2 chapter 3
chat this episode was so fucking ass holy ever loving god.
I'VE BEEN TRYNA BE NICE AND OPTIMISTIC BC I DO LIKE THE GAME BUT UM.. HUH??
starting off strong they changed the wolf squad sweater to the chloe price cosplay.. no hate tho bc max kinda served cunt w the look ngl
"you really white-privileged your way into all the cool powers" LMAO okay self-awareness😭 lowkey real tho bc i love daniel (and alex seems cool) but out of the 3, Max has the best powers
YIPPIE MAX CRYING !!
i loved the talk about LiS 1 and how it impacted max, although i wish it was a little deeper (im never satisifed w max's emo-ness lmao)
ykw i said im never satisifed but i deadass have a whole paragraph tweaking out abt the convo LMAOO
bro i thought ts was a multiverse doppleganger story at rhe beginning of the game tbh
highkey disapointed bc i was hella invested in the doppleganger thing :( ily safi tho
why is safi giving chloe ep 2 core rn.. girl max has BEEN THROUGH IT, why dont u listen to the girl who C L E A R L Y knows what she's talking abt
safi: would u shoot me 🥺🥺🥺🥺
me (lying so far out my ass its unreal): no !!
chat max is SO FUCKING FINE. even with this ugly ass cosplay i need her so bad its insane
idk how restraining orders work but cant Safi not go near Lucas w his temp one?? how is this even gonna work
oh brother this mission is so ass
welp this def reminds me of a Life Is Strange game !! (lame ass mission that sadly furthers the plot)
OH MY GOD IS THIS SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE THE END OF THE WORLD PARTY FROM LiS
ts is corny asf, lazy asf, and boring asf.
okay i think Maya was supposed to be giving Rachel Amber but she had such a weird storyline and it is lowkey jus confusing me
so Lucas murdered Maya the same way Jeffershit does to Kate ? damn yeah ok fine thats actually sad
Nooooo the pretenous off brand jefferson isn't a good guy!?!? nooo :(
(i have literally zero drafts abt this mission; the gingerbread house thing was sad but the main story was boring and too short for any detailed commentary)
Safi this is NOT shapeshifting wtf
girl what did lucas say to u damn😭
real talk why isn't max being affected like the others? is safi delibrately not hurting her? thats kinda gay
BRO WHERE DID THE TORNADO COME FROM
"people's headaches are getting worse" MAMA A STORM BEHIND YOU ❤️
dude this is literally so not right. this is not how the storm worked in LiS 1.
oh god what the hell
this is lame as FUCK dude holy hell
THATS IT??? THAT WAS SO SHORT???
okay um. i have opinions for sure:
this chapter def felt rushed. it honestly feels like they ran out of storylines and said "ykw? they REALLY liked life is strange 1, lets just do that again !!"
hopefully episode 5 makes it better bc i do like this game, but jesus this episode was not as good as it could've been.
#it feels important to note that the title of this post in my notes app is: 'call this a SHITnado the way this game became a shitstorm'#lis double exposure#life is strange double exposure#lis de#lis de spoilers#life is strange de#life is strange#lis#life is strange double exposure spoilers#ky plays life is strange double exposure
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Uhhh life update under the cut (neutral but very ranty)
So I started/ am starting a new internship this week. I didn’t update much throughout the process bc things at my last one got increasingly heinous, like actually abusive n after that trauma I’m too scared to even consider what my future looks like rn. And if I were to express every shitty thing that’s gone on the past month it would actually consume all my time and I’m trying to move on. One can only hope that it was one brief part of my social work journey but the trust issues are real n will probably affect me as long as I live and I’m not even being dramatic 👍🏻 however comma it appears my dream of being a Therapist™️ is not lost, im excited n terrified to say that im going to be a substance use disorders therapist for the next 7 months, if I end up rly liking that it may be a long term thing and if its not my strong suit i still have the option to pursue more general therapy or whatever else. Ive been experiencing a million and six emotions abt this transition bc its been so uniquely stressful and I dont feel prepared but i want this to be like,, a third shot at building a relationship w a workplace that furthers my development n confidence in the field, n i want to be the person for clients that i set out to be when i decided on social work. It’s tough to feel available for smth intense like this when i dont rly get to heal from what’s going on w me personally rn but i kinda gotta just jump in and keep going like i always have. Maybe this will all be a necessary step towards a better quality of life in the future idk. Im sooo so scared but im also so excited to be doing the thing that my previous job kinda stole from me. And even if this ends up being the hardest thing ive ever done its getting me out of a situation that was traumatizing me more each day and im grateful for that. I’ll always look back on this first several months of grad school as a particularly rough time but HOPEFULLY someday I can laugh at how those few months were so insane but the rest of grad school actually got me somewhere. I’m stuck between not wanting to dare to hope vs being even More afraid of that trauma bleeding into my next chapter so I’m just rly insisting on starting over n making this a fresh (if slightly late) start
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HIIII ROS i am sorry i never replied to your reply to my ask from a while ago i am so bad at that ;-; in response to that kinda (bc we were talking about jhariah) i did see them live! 3rd concert ive ever been to in my life & it was life changing... i was front row n there was a baby mosh pit n i was with my best friends it was so good <3 i didn't get to see all the songs off TRUST CEREMONY live but if he tours again i will try to get tix because i must see CONTROL BABY live... my faves are control baby n fire4fun n russian doll <3 but it is my fave album ever created (except maybe Måneskin's Teatro D'Ira vol 1)
Dont wanna yap too much but other music im liking rn: Dua Saleh's ROSETTA ep; Missouri Surf Club's songs Rotten & Kingdom Come; Jean Dawson's entire discography generically but specifically SICK OF IT* and New Age Crisis; Ethel Cain's everything; and then im still consistent w the narcissist cookbook, an unkindness, sons of the illustrious father etc. I have been getting into a crazy amount of music since summer started though so there are sooooo many others but i wanna know what you're listening to! i like your music taste as ive said :3
ANYWAY I think i might just send another ask because this is ramble-y n u dont have to reply to it bc its overwhelming but!! Yeah hehe okay p. 1 - mare
HII HI HI no worries!!!!!!! all good i'm also really terrible at it!!!!!! hehe <33 jhariah concert & mosh pit is SO awesome though.. man.. thats so cool.... love that experience for u!!!! <333
checking out all of these rn they're SOO GOOD.... dua saleh ROSETTA ep literally going on the repeat playlist rn omg. ough. how have i not heard them before. holy fucking shit. missouri surf club goood i love the florence influence.... jean dawson & ethel cain WHOO!!!! hell yeag. god. u also have such good music dude. good shit.!!!!!!!
what have i been listening to!!! shit!!! this is gonna be LONG but u asked for it!!! a lot of morcheeba (big calm), de la soul (the grind date), sneaker pimps (bloodsport), tricky (maxinquaye) <- one of my all time faves, madvillainy, cibo matto (viva! la woman), yaeji (with a hammer), chai (wink)... summer to me is usually very hot & humid & sticky & dreamy to me (busted ac) so this is my laying on the floor staring at the fan vaguely dissociating rotation.
other than hip hop & trip hop-- dragon new warm mountain i believe in you by big thief!!!!!! somehow never listened to this one & i'm ill over it. & july flame (other all time fave) by laura veirs & central reservation by beth orton (<- huge recent discovery ill over her voice) & broken social scene self titled for my acoustic rotation...
heavier set: been getting BIG into creature feature they're literally so fun. i think u might like them tbh. american gothic is my fave so far!! summer is for shitty pop punk 2 me!! esp. when i actually have to Do Stuff & not lay on the floor melting. so. we the kings, fall out boy (cork tree & infinity on high), the cab, the academy is..., yellowcard, motion city soundtrack, alkaline trio :]
ALSO special mention 2 blue sky black death (slow burning lights, late nite cinema, noir) bc their instrumentals make me so insanely nostalgic & have been my writing soundtrack for the past month!!!!
#YAY i hope u r doing well mare!!! sending excellent vibes & decaf iced coffee ur way <3333#man. i love talking abt music. thank u for giving me an opportunity to talk abt music LMAO#mare tag!#if i had 2 pick two of these for u specifically i thinkkkk it would be central reservation & with a hammer. and also creature feature hehe<
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my interesting awesome coworker who lore dropped to me yesterday for 3 hours while on a work call
im not bullshitting or anything but unfortunately she is schizophrenic. like no joke type beat and its ok. she literally said she sees ghosts and feels them touching her inappropriately at night during our WORK CALL and i was just like. Shocked because 1. i was fully believing her and 2. we're supposed to be working rn and 3. it was too much bc she said multiple genuinely insane shit during the call like full on lore drop and i was supposed to keep up with it. just to name a few of what i remember because i need to forget this as much as i can because i lowkey sensed low vibrations and might have fucked something up spiritual wise for myself from this conversation because it kinda freaked me out:
she is convinced her husband of 12 years was paid to be her husband and to ruin her life/ kill her
she is convinced her husband is poisoning her bc ever since she started eating whatever he gave her, she started feeling dizzy and started losing weight
she told me there are >100 people in India stalking her and trying to kill her and her brother
she told me these people killed her mother and father
she is convinced her brother's wife was also paid to ruin his life and is actively torturing his 2 children in order to kill them
she told me her entire house is bugged
her car is bugged
she told me her office is the only "safe place" to talk because theres no hidden cameras in there
she told me she saw 3 angels hovering over her in a video of her sleeping at night
she told me her husband has explicit pictures of over 20000 females on his phone (aka cheating on her)
man i could go on but i dont wanna think about it. she started crying too and i was like damn what is my life rn i was comforting her as much as i can and i kept thinking wow her life is living hell because i was genuinely believing every word she said. but after thinking abt this interaction a bit more, maybe shes going thru smt personally bc how are you mentally sane enough to endure all this and not kill urself like it was just insaaaane u guys. she just kept talking about suspicious encounters with every single person she talked with in person whether its at the supermarket or a phone service company and they would all try to scam her or hurt her. idk man. shit just wasnt clicking but i understood whats happening at the end. damn im fr that coworker ppl just vent to omg 😭 iwas like omg damn ma im just an intern like
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yeah i definitely liked sanuso more than i liked sanji. before... before i came to like sanji. i don't think i was rly an Actual Fan though. seeing fan content of sanji (shipping content included) is part of what made me grow to like him. so ur right that a ship i like with characters i dont like would make me grow to like the characters!!
tashigi and reiju is so insanely good.. theyre perfect for each other...
LMAO ISNT THAT PRICE A BIT STEEP?? nami moment
robin definitely would notice but it would have so much more impact to have luffy intervene imo?? he is probably the most important person to both of them (arguably true for all the crew) and also he just . idk hes emotionally intelligent. hes perceptive. people dont give him enough credit. luffy is not stupid!!!!
"he and robin can be similar and enies lobby is what made everyone love her more…" YEAH EXACTLY!!! there doesnt need to be a whole arc but just show us that he isnt JUST the cool guy. i need him to cry .... i need emotional vulnerability.. please oda ..... on my knees begging for this. PLEASE Oda...
"already there babes 🫡 just doing my part" thank u
"DID. DID THEY ACTUALLY CALL HIM TRACE HEATFIST IN THE 4KIDS DUB…ARE U SERIOUS RN…IVE NEVER HEARD THAT BEFORE PLEASE SAY SIKE." YES THEY ACTUALLY DID. its a stupid change but HIS VOICE IS SO COOL... theres a scene where he and luffy meet on alabasta n luffy is like: hey, trace?! and trace is like "yours truly 😎😏🔥 hey luffy, whats up? 🔥🔥💪✨" and i fucking Fell In Love on first listen. i have the biggest . fattest crush on 4kids ace. why is he so suave. why is he so cool. pathetically showing my love for the worst dub's version of the best character
i was so relieved that luffy sounded different that i can forgive anything else. i don't care if the acting is worse...
AT A CHRISTIAN GALLERY???? ur so brave
"i will share embarrassing stories like my life depends on it"
(hoping i havent used this image before)
THE SPOTLIGHT ON SANJI.... THAT IS SO FUNNY...
"BUT IM TOO BUSY READING ONE PIECE" good point... reading both would be hard.. /gen
"lion…and wings…so u want to be a griffin 👁️" i did not realize this. but yes i GUESS I DO?? i like manticores and unicorns the most out of any fantasy creature but i could never be a manticore bc it means i keep my face.. and unicorn.... doesnt have cool paws... oh and i love dragons... i WOULD be a dragon but i would like to be like. fluffy.. i want to be fluffy..
"DIDN THE BEAT OUT ZORO IN THE POPULARITY POLLS ONE TIME" YEAH HE DID... i dont know maybe i just missed it?? there were a lot of ppl there... and my memory is kinda hazy.. i will be on the lookout for law next time i go to a con
"WRONG bangs my sanji gavel." I FORGOT U WERW THE SANJI MAGISTRATE..... please forgive me....
that is so cool 🥹
"also sanji’s love for mice/rats makes me fucking insane bc its the cutest thing on earth." I KNOW RIGJT... like hes a cook.. he should hate them... but he doesnt!!! hes super fond of them!!! because he had mice friends at the lowest point in his life!!!! GOD.. i also used to love mice so . thank u sanji. representing rodent lovers. im having too many moments lately where i relate to sanji.... former sanji hater becomes sanji
"SANJI LOVES MICE MORE THAN WOMEN CONFIRMED-" GENUINELY!!!
"they’re all expecting sanji to freak and kill them and then they walk in and he’s made them tiny stir fry and is calling them cutesy names." STOP THATS SUCH CUTE IMAGERY 😭😭😭 sanji would never hit a woman mouse.
"also all the fan content ive seen where ratatouille is his favorite movie. ANYONE CAN COOK!!!!! 😭" IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE
"we turn a sad into a frrAAANKKYYYYYYYY" HSJDHS
"ROBIN WHYYY WAS THAT THE FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT OFFFF SHE IS INSANE. SHE’S SO WEIRD." IN HER DEFENSE, THEY WERE RIGHT THERE. HOW COULD SHE NOT... HOW COULD SHE NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT ....
"should i send some on discord as well. is that how i break the ice. images of sanji with his ass up in the air (my collection)" YES..... YES DO IT.... in return i will sned... uhmm... law!??
ok but sanji in glasses. even at the peak of my sanji hatred i begrudgingly admit that he was very attractive in those glasses...
LOOK AT HIM SOB... whole cake island was kinda his enies lobby emotional depth moment???
heres this loser
EAT
i have this sanji saved bc he looks so pathetic and sad
omg nooo how did choso get in here ...... noooo ...... that was a big accident.... completely an accident.... not on purpose at alll........
usopp out here converting more ppl to sanji likers than i am…smh. i do love the way sanji backs him up so often in canon tho, its very sweet
KNJKCDNA WAIT THE $5,000 A MONTH THING? I MEAN YES. BUT DO YOU KNOW THE YE OLDE TUMBLR JOKE IM REFERENCING? DO U REMEMBER COMMUNISMKILLS…THAT AWFUL TUMBLR USER THAT THEN WAS LIKE “i’ll shut up if u pay me $5000 a month” actually deranged and iconic. here’s a post about it
the entire crew IS important to both of them but arguably he is the only person on the crew they would listen to in a situation like that is luffy yea. he’s the mutual friend that they both love deeply and loves both of them deeply even tho they hate (“hate”) each other. AND he’s emotionally intelligent and wise!! yea!!
joining u in the begging for sad zoro. campaigning for abusing zoro in the next chapters. ready to make this meme real
NOT TRACE HEATFIST…his voice did seem cool tho ur right. i like to imagine he speaks with the emojis like you typed them. (“how are you saying that out loud-”) is the crush only on 4kids ace specifically..sorry sorry TRACE. IS IT ONLY FOR TRACE
I WANT TO STEAL ALL THESE REACTION IMAGES HAHAHA
WAIT IS IT A SPOTLIGHT. I THOUGHT THEY HAD TRAPPED HIM UNDER A CUP LIKE A BUG KJAFHBdiwjnwd
dragons. [breathes in] dude i love dragons so fucking much. i watched that documentary animal planet or discovery made where they said dragons lived in the prehistoric time with t rex and shit and BELIEVED IT FOR SO LONG. also obsessively played httyd games on the internet and other Dragon Themed Things. and i had legend of spyro: a new beginning for the gamecube and it was like my first ever video game i owned myself that wasnt a hand me down and i beat it literally 9+ times…after 9 i stopped keeping track..i loved spyro and CYNDER so much. CYNDER WAS SO COOL. THAT WHOLE GAME WAS SO COOL. just last year i started playing flight rising (but i fell off lmao)
“former sanji hater becomes sanji” KJSDBDNKJSN YEAH relating to sanji is half of why i love him. and the amount i relate to him is. way far more than i thought i would ever relate to. the pervert stereotype anime character of any given show. so mad…but also i love him a lot 😭 has become a bit of a comfort character for me UNFORTUNATELY…but i relate to his passion and his low self esteem and his self sacrificial nature and his (percieved) gender issues and even his stupid easy-to-fall-in-love shtick. god. anyways
MICE > WOMEN ‼️‼️‼️CONFIRMED
I WANT TO PUT THE SANJI FEEDING MICE AND THE CREW IS CONFUSED SCENE IN A FIC SO BAD BUT I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK ATM 😭
“sanji would never hit a woman mouse.” sanji vs. minnie mouse his hardest battle yet
ROBIN….ROBIN 😭 I WILL CONDONE ALL HER ACTIONS BC I LOVE HER BUT SHES SO STRANGE 😭
SANJI ASS IN THE AIR COMING UR WAY
dude. thank you for saying that bc. when sanji had those fucking glasses on as mr. prince in alabasta. i was simping just a little bit. and mad about it.
AND ALSO UM??? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THIS?? STOP BEING PRETTY???
this outfit was gay as hell by the way. like how am i supposed to believe that is a fuly straight man-
“whole cake island was kinda his enies lobby emotional depth moment???” it 1000% was down to him leaving the crew and needing to be rescued and learn to love himself and live for himself. robin and sanji are my two favorite strawhats and GOD THE SIMILARITIES ARE BRUISING. have u seen that post where its drawings of each of the strawhat “rescue teams” of arlong park, enies lobby, and whole cake?
law 1: edgy. flipping u off. deranged. a bit evil looking. kinda hot
law 2: naptime. flourishing. in his lane. never done wrong in his life. thats just a guy
“EAT” KJDBVSDAJBCJDA
NOOO THAT SANJI IMAGE GENUINELY MAKES ME SO SAD BUT HE ALSO LOOKS SO SO PATHETIC 😭 SOPPING WET CAT OF A MAN
HI CHOSO. IDK U BUT I LIKE UR HAIR. HI
here are a couple more one piece memes i have collected. i will be sending u a discord message...soon
#asks#replies#IF I DONT REPLY/REPLY SLOW AFTER SENDING U THE DISCORD MESSAGE. ITS BC I WORK A LOT THE NEXT SEVERAL DAYS 🥲#march anon#long post
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What do you think Rose’s love language is?
violence blood killing maiming etc.
no but actually i thought about this and i think its absolutely words of affirmation (also im sorry for how much detail im about to go into but im taking a class rn where we talk about love styles/love languages a lot so i have a lot of thoughts about this)
for one thing she really cares about what other people think of her and ties her own personal value into what she can do for others, so i think the verbal reminder that other people care about her means a lot to her
also before i get into this i want to say for the record that love languages can also be platonic so the screenshots im about to use are Not all romantic ships (i know this is common knowledge but i just wanted to be very clear bc im about to use screenshots of like. lian and slade. and i dont want anyone thinking im saying it romantically)
anyways first things first in fresh hell (best rose book ever) she is hallucinating the team a lot and pretty much every time she hallucinates them theyre encouraging her or saying that they care about her. shes kinda using the words that she wishes other people would say to her to support herself while shes Alone and Struggling
not to mention when it actually does happen not in a hallucination it clearly means a lot to her every time
(ok in fairness the kyle one isnt really words of affirmation but i really like that moment so im posting it anyway)
also the less serious example is rose in nightwing #114 asking dick how she looks then glaring at him until he says she looks nice hfdkjasfhsdf the renegade arc is a comedy to me
plus she also tends to feel most hurt when people are saying harmful things about her
not to mention she tends to look for slade to say something positive about her and will get. um. very upset when he doesnt
anyways i think that her love language stems from rose's mom because lili very clearly has no problem with outright talking about how much she loves rose <3
now you might be thinking "lauren you dumb bitch. all youve done is make a compilation of people being nice to rose. relationships are a two way street and rose doesnt compliment people"
and to that i say... its complicated okay
i have two possible reasons for this. the first is that she is so fucking bad at expressing herself and she doesnt know how to be nice to people, and is terrified of showing others that she loves them
the other reason is that some people have different love languages for giving & receiving!!!! and i think that while rose's receiving love language is words of affirmation, her giving love language is acts of service
now usually these "acts of service" are either saving their life or beating the shit out of someone that hurts them but it COUNTS okay!!!
and of course. the funniest "act of service" which is marrying hosun
anyways i ran out of images but rose as deathstroke arc my beloved, i consider that another act of service because her father was dead and she knew what he would have wanted to be done (killing his last target) so she did it
also id like to think that her acts of service love language stems from wintergreen because of how he did so much to help her when they first met <3 <3 <3
i had more for all of these but tumblr only allowed 30 images per post <////3 how am i supposed to be publicly insane when theres a limit 😔
tldr: her receiving love language is words of affirmation and her giving love language is acts of service <3
#i love it when i get asked stuff like this because i get to think way too hard about my special little guy#im surprisingly not even projecting on this one bc words of affirmation is one of my lowest fhdkajfhda#rose wilson#dc#i spent so long making this when i really should be working on like. finals. but hehe!#ps i have no idea why the pictures wont stay next to each other :( it says that they are whenever i try to edit it#but then when i look theyre all stacked on top of each other <///3#so im sorry that tumblr is making this post longer than it already is :(
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woo life update #2 bc i have internet now & am not actually losing my mind.
HELLO ‼️ yeah like end of march/the entirety of april was quite literally the worst time of my life and i am very. tired. a hiatus was vv much needed. (plus i didnt have wifi anyways so its not like i could do much here even i wanted to.)
i’m still not back. bc things are still vv rocky. (& literally stressing myself to death for a month and a half has left me physically ill SKSKSKS). but here are some small things that’ve happened !
1): i don’t have a laptop anymore. so when i do eventually decide to come back art is gonna be in a very weird spot. (im using my mom’s ipad rn but i also dont have an apple pencil so drawing with a stylus is odd).
^ adding onto that point. i also scrapped everything i was working on beforehand. i had already backlogged myself, so having to start using a whole new device just gave me the push to scrap all the ideas i had, and refocus myself. (most of them were just gifts for friends & birthdays i missed. :( but its okay hopefully you guys will have more sksksk).
for the time being i think i’m just gonna be making things i feel like making. ever since i started on tumblr i’ve always treated it like a job bc ive always thought it was unfair to those who followed me, and it was seriously starting to diminish my love for certain things (especially as i got into more things like genshin n honkai; feeling like i had to make an absurd amount of content everyday so things seemed ‘fair’ really just tanked my mood). but after taking a month break i was like “yo these are my blogs i should just do what i want.” SO ‼️ virek is still around & i’m still working on him, but there isn’t any set schedule bc i like a lot of things rn, and am just only gonna work on him when i’m in the right mood 🫂 (i don’t wanna end up hating him)
2): i’ve gotten really into honkai star rail & am already close to doing everything there is to do. so now i have more old people in my arsenal to draw.
not much has happened besides me sleeping/gaming to distract from literally everything else going on in my life. so forgive me for my absence 🫶 but hopefully i’ll be doing a lot better when i come back <3 (again the hiatus was. much needed. bc anyone who speaks to me literally ever knows that i can never actually take a break. thankfully this time i was forced to <3. and still kinda am bc our wifi is kicking on and off still & is vv janky but ANYWAYS. ILY GUYS 🫶 GIVE ME LIKE ANOTHER HALF YEAR AND I’LL BE BACK AND NOT GOING INSANE /j)
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JUST REALISED IM LIKE 66% OF THE MAFUAKI TAG????? AND NO ONES POSTED CRAZY INSANE BRAINROT HERE??? IM ALONE??? WHAT THE FUCK MAN
ok whatever i’ll i i here’s more insanity under the cut
this is genuinely just brainrot, headcanons, and random character analysis abt mafuaki and their dynamic
mafuyu is aromantic in my brain 🫶 so her dating him is genuinely just her fucking around bc shes bored and wants to feel something
also mafuyu is good at everything too so its double hitting the complex
hes never gonna be good enough
LIKE mafuyu's whole thing is being the perfect daughter who is good at everything despite not giving a shit about any of it, so she finds it really funny that akito has self esteem issues and is constantly comparing his abilities to other people
shes probably like
wow. this is smth i really dont experience
and ig she also compares it to ena's behaviour and shes defs like "oh yeah they sure as fuck are related'
coz the shinonomes are teeming with jealousy and inferiority because they can never live up to the standard they want
ena has complicated feelings about art because all her life she's being told she'll never make it
and akito knows hes nowhere near as good as the rest of vbs and he tries to hide it behind a tough guy persona
its so gap moe...
MAFUYU drags him to her room one day and keeps him in a fucking garbage bag/bodybag duct taped and cuffed and hes like freaking out bc even tho he did consent to this (he wanted to see her room) the fact she WENT THROUGH w this at all w/o a hint of remorse is downright terrifying
also when he looks around her room and how barren it is hes like 😟
"ohhh im so fucked why am i here"
he also accidentally finds out mafuyu composes music and its better than anything hes ever written to the point he fucking cries LOL
i would assume like
their rls is super casual coz theyre both busy
but they make time to see each other because a) akito gets to flex he has a girlfriend b) mafuyu finds him decently entertaining to which she's surprised about c) its a win-win
AND IDK its just super entertaining to me
thinking abt a shitty crack beach episode 25ji and vbs crossover.....
mafuyu in a swimsuit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
mizuki in a sun dress or some shit and refusing to go in the water
kanade fucking dies.png
ena is there for her socmed
kohane and an in couple drip and they fucking slay
toya is barely allowed to go and hes in some expensive swimsuit and kinda pathetic. like. hes all "wow this is my first time!"
akito thinks ena is so embarassing rn but Holy Shit Mafuyu Has D Cups
hes so repressed abt being gay he tricks himself into liking boobs. or maybe hes bi idk
teenage boy crisis of "NO i cant like men i love boobs ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️"
(guy who dreams about making out with toya)
also i just think its funny that toya is completely oblivious in this au until either halfway or the end bc hes fr just
"yayy i have friends!!"
😭😭😭
akito is scared shitless of mafuyu tho bc he's begun to notice her smiles don't reach her eyes
and any friend of ena's has hella issues
i don't think mafuyu ever really opens up to him about her mental issues but akito isnt completely dumb, he can kinda sense that theres smth wrong w her, especially like. the fact she has an empty aquarium in her room is fucking FREAKY
also the way he has to be snuck in there is just 💀 ermm rip girlie
mafuyu's parents knock on her door and she throws him out the window
i’m so normal abt them
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bohemian rhapsoy by queen is currently stuck in my head rn
like. first of all there is ALWAYSS gonna be songs stuck behind my head its just how it is. theresalways gonna be background music in my little head. quiet intimate moments are near impossible due tothis which kinda sucks but oh well.
and i mean. all the fucking time. unless someone is literally yelling at me theres gonna be a song playing in my head
and asdjliasf its annoying bc i listened to bohemian rhapsody like a WEEEK ago and thought 'oh this song is pretty good i dont think im all that obsessed w it though' and guess fucking what
literarlly its the only song playing in my head. all day. every day. one specific part of a song. its sort of driving me insane
MAMAAAAAAAA, OOOOOOOH, (i forgot the lyrics here)
sometimes i wish I WAS NEVER BBORN AT ALLLLLLL
just that all the time. my brains just OBSESSED w it i swear
idk how to feel about it there is literally nothing more interesting in my life going on at the moment, huh
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would also like ur thoughts on everything i will listen to u talk abt video games always LOL but 6 9 12 22 28!
thank uu and likewise 🫶🫶 will not answer everything bc thts so many but also i feel like ive covered a lot of these topics before on my sideblog but! i will answer these for u 🫰
6. A series you’ve enjoyed since your early days of gaming and still enjoy to this day whether it still has games coming out or is one you return to pokemon and rhythm heaven :') ❤️ from these series ive only played platinum and rhds as a kid, so as an adult ive been enjoying their other titles.. though i do not rly care for 3d pokemon titles.. but with time that may change. and wait technically final fantasy, bc i had the ff4 ds cartridge as a kid. except it was in japanese and i had no idea how to play it and did fuck all. i didnt even realize it was final fantasy until years later when i played ff7, and i recognized the running from battle animation. and now i have final fantasy brainrot <3
9. A game you played completely blind with no prior knowledge of and enjoyed/loved ff9 and ghost trick 😎 im so happy i played these without any spoilers or any idea what to expect, bc i really think thats the best way to experience them
12. A character you particularly like in the game you’re currently playing YRP girlies 😎😎😎 idk when ill ever finish x-2 cuz this ps3 is kinda busted, but despite their kinda cringe dialogue i still love yuna and the girlies
22. A game ending that’s really stuck with you FF9....... i think u saw my insanity firsthand when i did not shut up about it for like 8 months 😭 it really changed my life bc it was ff9 that really made me get more serious w literary analysis of games and medias in general, bc i just wanted to understand everything abt this story. majora's mask similarly changed my life and was the reason i made a sideblog to begin with, because i NEEDEDDD to be insane about this game somewhere.. god what an ending. god. ok im not going to go insane abt it rn LOL my focus is on Spider-Man now.
28. Pick a series you like. What was the first game you played for it? Was it a good starting point? Would it still be a good starting point now? i wont pick final fantasy bc my answer is literally the same as yours LOL so um... i will pick zelda. my first zelda game was botw and honestly that is an AWFUL starting point for getting into zelda JFKLJSDL bc its just so. fucking different from every zelda game out there. and also bc its a love letter to the franchise, that probably a million references flew over my head bc i didnt know what they were referencing. but yeah like its just absolutely awful to go from a game where you can freely jump to a game where you have to ROLL.
but at the same time i dont think botw is an awful starting point. bc like.... its a good game. its a good Modern game. like the older zelda games, especially the 3d titles, are extremely outdated. i dont think anyone should be playing those in this day and age when botw/totk is there to experience instead. while not ideal, i think its fine to hit it off with a modern switch title, then work your way down to older titles.
of course 2d zeldas are a different thing. dare i say, the superior thing. also i dont believe anyone should get into zelda. bad franchise. except when the games are good. all pondering aside the best starting point for zelda is ALBW, then MM3D. maybe some MINISH CAP as a treat. those are the only existing zelda titles. to me. but jokes aside if someone is really gonna have a 'starting point' for zelda games then its definitely BOTW/TOTK or ALBW. doesnt matter whether its a switch title or ALBW played first, but its very very very very important that ALBW is played as well.
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