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theroguemedusa · 25 days ago

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#knifeposting #the sads got me again #i just.#when will it be my turn to feel wanted #it'll subside #it always does #but every time it aches just as badly #i just want to feel desired and. pretty #and sexy #but its so hard when nobody i meet irl even knows what stone femme means #im sorry for the tag rant #im just. it hurts yknow

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moth--moss · 1 month ago

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ranchers,,,,

#tangotek #jimmy solidarity #solidaritygaming #solidaritek #team ranchers #trafficshipping #im so unhealthy abt them tbh. obsessed.#mcyt #for anyone concerned about tangos flames hurting jimmy... my jimmy is a phoenix so hes immune to tangos fire #plus tangos fires arent as hot/dont light things on fire unless he wanted them to yknow #kinda like if firespread is turned off lmao #so it would burn most ppl but to jimmy its just very warm. like sittin around a campfire except more cuddly #tango loves it because it means he doesnt have to worry about hurting him or try to keep conscious where his tail is #jimmy thinks the flames tickle #moss.png #im actually so happy with this one theyre so so cute #tango is definitely purring btw

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cent-scratchnsniff · 1 month ago

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Please don't hurt yourself

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #library of ruina #hod #hod lobcorp #hod lobotomy corporation #hod library of ruina #erm... michelle. hii michelle. going to have to spoiler tag for you though baby #lobotomy corp spoilers #lobcorp spoilers #okay i think thats it #no shading because this made me want to KILL YMSELF #it looks fone w out it anyways. yay. thank you filter after effects for saving my ass this . hurt me so muchh to try to finish #nothing specific that had me make this. at least from lobcorp lor. its more of having more empathy towards my past self or when i was young #than me. right now. it feels as if the past is so devoid of my current self yet i know that its Me. its just so distant. to the point where #at times it feels as if the me of the past is devoid of the current me. im told im very empathetic? hard to tell. that im patient and kind #or more of understanding to everyone but Myself. so when i try to be kind to myself it feels impossible. but im able to do it to my past se #which makes a disconnect. please dont hurt youself. please dont hate youself. you dont need to do that. i know you want to live it hurts #i know. its alright to want to live. you dont need to apologize and feel Guilty. but never towards Myself. to console and wish to soothe bu #not to the current self. to pardon and accept but not to this Me. so i wanted to put it down kinda. felt most similar to hod ish.#its guilt for living. apologizing for existing. wanting to be accepted and pardoned. but also forgiving and accepting the self of before #not so much forgiving. forgive is a weird word. the hurt never leaves. and the guilt is there regardless. but. yknow. accept #sorry some random shit. yappin. who gaf abt that guy. who was that guy. anyways. hod <3 HODD!!!#just like to ramble abt what i think abt when i go to make pieces. since i uhh dont really have anyone to tell who would care. so. awkward.#god thats embarrassing actuallt migjt delete if im not lazy asf later. loser oversharing on the internet AHH 💥💥#uhmm back to the actual piece. the proportions and fhe coloring were having me feel like i was dging trying to get it right. almost #considered just gettinf rid of it and scrapping the whole piece. didnt though. wanted to have it done and finished. hod <3 #the feeligns described arent what i would relate w hod? but closest chatacter towards the general thougut. so wanfed to draw her #i wanted to do more w ligjting and such as well. but it never ended up getting in. maybe later

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seilon · 6 months ago

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my only complaint about 2005 dw is that we didn’t get more episodes with gung-ho mortal baby jack harkness. absolutely smitten by that fucker

#I mean. who isn’t. that’s kinda the point #exactly what he Wants #im saying this because he’s pretty but also because as much as I think the direction he goes in is intetesting and I love torchwood with #all my heart (as much as it Hurts Me) there’s something so novel about chaotic rebellious pre-resurrection jack #that you never truly get after that first season #like it’s always there in the foundation of his character to a degree but he does end up with a lot more self control and people look up to #him and he’s much more orderly and and all-around not really chaotic anymore (torchwood as a group is chaotic in certain ways for sure but #he himself? not often. mostly only in trying situations or when highly highly emotional)#and don’t get me wrong it all makes sense narratively. that he’d end up like that. he’s had literally centuries to gain wisdom and #self discipline and to learn how to be a proper leader and to become jaded and an existential black hole of a man #but. yknow. I just miss that sexy egomaniacal revolution-leader type jack #anyway. at least he gets to fuck around with guys on screen in torchwood though. definitely an upgrade #kibumblabs #dw #doctor who #jack harkness

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year ago

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FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER.#HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain..#thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive.#and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up.#neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...'#RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this...#the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO..#I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

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mythtiide · 10 months ago

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its maid day so heres a little falkler! 🍨 + speedpaint !

#signalis #signalis falke #signalis adler #maid day #AHHH i had to much fun w dis..... i got to draw a little parfait so im happy....#i promised myself that i wouldnt miss maid day this year (i actually almost missed it because i completely forgot that it was maid day LOL)#BUT WEVE PULLED THROUGH!!!#honestly though this was a bit troublesome because i didnt exactly know what i wanted to do w the colors . originally i tried to do some Ac #-tual Rendering(tm) but i just . couldnt #my hand was startin to hurt itd been like 3ish hours already was just wuheurheuweiuweeruwuwe #im really glad i went for flat colors tho i think it fits real well :)#U can tell i got real fancy w dis oen cause i pulled out the watercolor overlay #yknow actually its been a pretty big goal of mine to use more decorative brushes in my art; just little things to add to the background so #hat it isnt just purley white with a bit o lace #of course simple goes a long way but idk i wanna add some pizzazz!#myth.art

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willyhoos · 7 months ago

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what if we... killed each other in multiple timelines 😳😳 and i cannibalized you out of adoration while you murdered me out of simple apathy... haha just kidding...unless?

#corpse party #ayumi shinozaki #yoshiki kishinuma #ayushiki #i truly mean this: kishinumas characterization is enhanced tenfold by his ending where he eats ayumi.#a silent acknowledgement that ayumi is his greatest desire and his greatest weakness. the school couldnt convince him to kill her hatefully #it had to convince him to murder her in some crime of passion. adoration. a sense of entitlement too.#but in the main timeline no one knows this (not even yoshiki?!) and its so funny.#also very funny: ayumi murders him or attacks him more often in timelines but its usually with mundane methods #the ONE (1) timeline in which yoshiki hurts ayumi he goes FULL cannibal. go big or go home kishinuma kun #idk. in 99% of situations he is her knight yknow. but hes also human and hes also a kid and hes also got some pain he keeps private...#tldr: yoshiki looks like a victim here but he is just as insane as ayumi LOL #flashing gif #seizure warning #okkk its 5am #my nyart #im proud of this :.)#i miss queue #final time 6hrs or so

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lucyvaleheart · 1 month ago

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how's that saying go, something something disaster lesbian? heh. keep up. im a disaster in general.

#......technically a vent post.#....but I'm tired of spitting out useless blank posts with some awful tags and calling it a night #.....i kinda hate that this works even. cuz it encourages me to do it again next time i feel awful #......but......i mean....its working? I guess?#....getting the feelings out...seeing lots of likes in support.....#........sigh.#........anyway. disaster. feel it very hard tonight.#....feel the same way as the last few vents....like I'm doing things wrong #like *I'm* wrong #......inescapable sense of dread #sense that I'm constantly fucking it up #not even sure what 'it' is. Just....just know I'm doing it badly.#....i don't know why the people in my life who love me.....love me #i can't comprehend it. the idea that someone.....likes me? *me?*#.......im a colossal waste of space and nothing i bring to the table could possibly be worth dealing with me #................sigh.....#.......the.....the suicidal thoughts are coming back again #...................................i....#.........i won't do it....I'm a coward. I couldn't ever make myself follow through #.........but goddess above i #i kind of. i kinda want to kill myself #....just.....just end this farce before i hurt someone else yknow #.......christ i feel weak. ugh.#......I'm so tired....

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fascinationstreetmp3 · 6 months ago

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putting this all under a readmore and not tagging i just wanted to put my thoughts down somewhere .. talking about marius and his fans & tw for mentioning csa / sa

personally. i understand that the marius/armand relationship has been a popular part of the book series for decades and it's fictional and yes i get it. but. i dont understand those fans who encounter people who find it purely horrifying or upsetting and then get mad at them for it. just because of how it's framed in the books as a beautiful gothic love story (filtered through both the author's intention & the skewed perspectives of the two characters involved in it) doesn't mean EVERYONE has to romanticise it and it's only babies or idiots or show only fans who "can't handle gothic fiction".

and then the people who try to convince everyone marius is armand's saviour who only ever treated him with love and kindness really confuse me. like, is it a wholesome relationship built on mutual love? or is it abusive and awful AND loving and caring at the same time? aren't the people who deny marius did anything wrong to armand really the ones who can't stomach enjoying gothic romances and have to twist it into something else?

it's a story of a fully grown man, a millenia old vampire, rescuing a teenager from sex slavery by purchasing him for himself, renaming him, showering him with affection, sexually abusing him, genuinely loving him, treating him like a child and an adult and student and son and lover all at the same time, making his entire world revolve around his master, punishing him emotionally and eventually physically whenever he gets too clingy or aggressive. and it's all done, not under just the 'guise' of love, but from a place of genuine love, and that's how both characters see it. it's entirely damaging and fucked up and the aftereffects of it on armand's mind and sense of self are present for centuries, compounded by everything else he went through. he still draws both comfort and pain from thinking about his past now and even tries to partially recreate the dynamic with someone else both in the book (with daniel, armand taking the role of the master; and keeping young 'mortal slaves' for a time) and in the show (with louis, armand taking the role of the slave)

it is a super fucked up relationship & i'm not one of those people who thinks you shouldn't be allowed to enjoy those in fiction. there's a lot of them that appeal to me obviously, and of course everyone has their own boundaries when it comes to that too. AND i know it's not all marius fans or even all marius/armand fans. i literally don't care what people like in fiction and i think we should all just mind our own business honestly

but it's the people who act like they're the only ones who get that it's just a tragic beautiful romance, that nobody else can read apparently, that 'marius haters' are just looking for things to be mad at that make me go ???????

#or they get pissed at the show for apparently 'making him worse' but. he was already worse #nothing in my opinion in the show has stated 'yeah he was ONLY ever awful and abusive' because clearly A looks back on his time with M #with a kind of sad fondness and reverence. the main source of his pain is how it all ended #the show is just taking the pre existing abuse and making it more obvious to the audience the outside viewer #even if it isnt recognisable to the character. he makes a disctinction between the abuse he experienced in the brothel #and the 'worshipful mercy' of his master #he feels bitterness at the 'donations' but he also felt bitter at M sending him to the brothels to get him out of his hair basically #and then yknow. hes also punished and pushed away for enjoying that #clearly hurt and confused and upset because he doesn't know how to please his master and make him love him all the time #and M DOES love him above all #but sanitizing all of that and making out its NOTHING BUT a tragically romantic monster/human love story..... i dont understand it #im the same with DM yknow its horrifying and beautiful all at once #you have to commit to it if youre gonna enjoy relationships like that i think. embrace how horrible it all is

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mizzyislost · 2 years ago

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something something how horribly tragic both the broken vessel and lost kin fight feel something something idk man this is hard

#i was going to say something much more poetic about the indescribable emotions i feel every time i fight broken vessel/lost kin but yknow.#indescribable #i swear if this doesnt do well i will explode i spent way too much time on it #you guys have no idea how many different coloring and rendering schemes i tried for this #ok actually it was only like 5 #but still!!#as someone who hates coloring #the whole process hurt me both emotionally and physically. my hand hurts now.#hollow knight #lost kin #broken vessel #my art #and i KNOW thats not how void. or like. spells or whatever work at all i was just trying to make it look cool ok #bv is crying and ghost is crying and IM crying and #various meanderings

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lovelyrotter · 5 months ago

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can ppl in this fandom like... stop... implying that transmasculinity in hcs or (especially) canon is shallow or misogynistic or even transmisogynistic on princible, like literally just by being prescent in someones mind or in the text. like that doesnt fuckin feel good. thats kind of really nasty to imply. if its not okay to say about other trans experiences, maybe dont say it about this one either. why is there a weird little exception here. yall KNOW how much that sucks to hear all day every day. what the fuck

#my t #idk how to tell the hs fandom that every piece of trans coding in roxy in hs1 can be read as transmasc too. like transfem and transmasc #at the same time from the EXACT same reasons. its almost like we all share experiences just by way of being trans. weird i know #its almost like being trans rlly truly highlights what it is to be human and how we are all in fact at the end of the day human together #i just want everyone to stop trying to 'poke holes' in other fans trans hcs FULL STOP across the board no matter who they are #or what the hc is. its needlessly hurtful and more often than not trips into real peoples dysphoria which then #makes the target more likely to lash out. so the person poking them abt it can do a ''SEE? THEYRE ALL MEAN ONE OF THEM #WAS MEAN TO ME JUST NOW'' routine. its so obviously a 'im not touching u!!!' playground maneuver like holy fuck grow up #if you wanna fight for transfem/me folks right to just exist random fans personal headcanons is not the fuckin time or place #the XY in roxys name could be read as her having been DMAB or it could be hussie having a long running giggle about him preordering #his own transmasculinity. roxys colour being pink could be bc shes a girl or it could be compcis!!!#roxys desperation for a bf is from loneliness in canon but its often read as her feeling like she needs one to be a real girl #it can ALSO be read as another aspect of him struggling with compcis and comphet esp w/ his fantasies abt being 'a mother'#yknow what i never fuckin see that rlly highlights the fact that this is just a shitty 'girls rule boys drool' thing? theres like. no #discussions on the potential of roxy being any kinda intersex. absolutely none. he could be mtftm for all you fuckin know #but oh yknow being mtftm is A Shallow Read so we cant have that. hs is only for girls didnt you know we need to terf- i mean turf #out every single instance of queer mascness bc its Evil in the text didnt you know #god help the fandoms word of god token trans boy dirk strider for 'choosing' his eternal misery while everyone else is enlightened #by way of transforming into a girl. bc we must place girlhood on an inhuman pedistal of perfection and niceness and joy and rainbows #like what IS this mahou shojo brand gender essentialism???? im fuckin sick of it #can we remember that girlhood isnt & wasnt safe or joyful for everyone & that that can translate into how we curate our fandom experiences

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schnee-gheist · 5 months ago

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The feeling when you have the greatest idea for a oneshot but CANNOT WRITE

I'm in so much pain rn/hj

#the idea is danny using the thermos as a tool of self depercation btw #think everyone hates you? dont want to exist to cuase more problems because thats all you ever do?#just go to a remote location and trap yourself in a sensory/consciousness- depriving prison knowing no one will ever find you ever again!#could be hurt/comfort if people panic and do look for him and do find him #interesting potential if team phantom/jazz/val/vlad find him #even more interesting potential if one of his rouges/giw/fentons find him :p #just UGHHHH the potienal is fucking killing me i want to but i CANNOT. WRITE. AT ALL #closest thing ive found to this was Voluntary Subject on Ao3 but the self-thermos trapping wasnt the main point of it #is there an equivalent of commissioning for writers? where can i find it? i need it right now #ragjrhagshdhagAHJSNRSHGAHDJFJAHSGXAAAAAAAA im losing my mind i need i need chat I NEED #yknow what Fuck It We Ball I Have An Ao3 Account I Can And Will Use It #see yall in 31 hours i need to atleast try #fanfictionfuckeries

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thegreatyin · 7 days ago

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now that im (very very very very nearly) at the end of SMEN i think i officially have jurisdiction to say: the difficulty of it is extremely overblown

#does it hurt to spend thousands of echoes worth of resources for No Reason? yes! is winking isle hellish? YES!#but it's also not really a hellish im like. unfamiliar with? or even that upset about going through?#what's the difference between winking isle and running praetorium 9000 times in hit mmo final fantasy 14. yknow.#people say SMEN was way more brutal and way more engaging before its rework and i'm ready to believe em. poor thing got declawed #yin-thoughts #fallen london #clarification on the ''very very very very nearly'' thing:#ive obtained 5/7 candles and am waiting to finish one (1) more rp before zailing to the chapel and finishing it for good #i havent posted getting st erzulie yet bc once i do i feel like it'll basically be a giant neon sign saying WE ARE DOING THE END NOW #CAERU'S DEMISE IS NIGH #START THE MOURNFUL CHOIR. etc etc. but i have gotten it and i have a lot of thoughts on it #and i'll post abt that when im ready to start caeru's doomsday clock #until then he's still ''safe''. for now.#anyway as i was saying. ive cleared basically all the major SMEN obstacles. ive done my time. ive seen the worst of it.#and the worst Wasn't That Bad. honestly i feel like it's a situation where people overexaggerate kind of on purpose?#if not deliberately then just. subconsciously? almost? just to stress to new players that this #Really Will Delete Your Account If You Finish It #That Is Not Under Any Circumstances A Joke #but like. seriously the actual process of doing it is not that bad.#in fact im sure i could repeat it on the scoundrel just to get free BDR from the seven fold knock #(im not going to. but i could.)

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pyrosomatic-metamorphosis · 1 month ago

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Dream drama still going on is like when you're watching a fun show and the producers are like HEY this makes great money so they order another season. And then another season. And then another season. And then another season. And then another sea-

#dream #discourse #its just the same thing over and over again #yes we KNOW youre an insecure pissbaby who's learned that crying in speciric ways will a) get the attention on you and b) send specifiic #groups of pwople flicking to your defense #blah blah superiority complex blah blah failure to emphasize with other people blah blah #failure to comprehend his responsibilities to mitigate harm as a once-loved mentor and mcyt figure #self assurance that as long as he talks calmly hes in the right because it takes effort to not be angry and look! look at all this effort #hes putting in and youre all just being mean 😔#i think it says a lot about how he treated the young members of the dsmp as equals #not because THEY were mature for their age but more so how he was and is immature #idk i think the psychology going on here is a lil interesting but hes v predictable #attention seeking etc etc #hes such a joke #idk im mostly having fun w this becausw i feel like the people hes hurt are gonna have infinitely more content and fulfilling lives #mwanwhile hes prob gonna be trapped in this resentful done-bad wahwah cycle #but id like him to have a lil more pizzaz w it yknow. put on a circus and pretend to be a monkey. throw his own shit #i would LOVE to see him try to justify a point by throwing shit i bet he could do it unironically

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teknikolor-walters · 8 months ago

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Does anyone else feel a debilitating fear of getting better? Is this normal? Does it secretly prove I'm just faking everything for attention? Probably tbh

#cicadas vent tag #likr #i was looking at my knee would and realised it was getting kinda better #and felt almost . disappointed and afraid #and with mental illness the feeling is rven worse #like of course i want to get better!!! obviously!!!#but i feel almost sad when i realized i havent had a suicidal thought in a while #but tbh #the fear of never getting better is also terrifying #it must be so annoying to watch me hate myself and hurt myself over and over again and not get any better #but the idea of getting better is scary too #yknow?#its all terrifying #maybe the only non scary reality is one where i isolate myself from all of my friends forever #but that just makes me sad #ok this feels kind of all over the place but . idk its a very all over the place kind of feeling #delete later #ok this one is getting taken out of the drafts early cuz i just refused my parents offer to wash my knee #and one od my thoughts was 'what if it stops hurting'#im fucked up like deeply i think #btw im doing fine now im so cozy just . yeah

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soap-is-an-artist · 1 month ago

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Hooray... it's 7 in the morning and I stayed up all night listening to the imperium... I feel so happy and satisfied with my life choices...

I am feeling very much not cowabunga, dude

[SEVERE rambling in tags]

#ouww it hurts!! it hurts!!! this is the stuff you're supposed to leave for angst fic writers not make canon in an alt universe?? ERIK PLEASE #i hate the whole entire world right now. genuinely cannot speak to anyone normally for the next 3-4 business days.#I have no one irl to rant to about this FUCK im stranded. im quarantined. im being held against my will free meee #The irl friend i have who knows anything at all about redacted only knows freelancer s1 i cannot drop this bigass plot on them #Genuinely i might start going mad out of repression. Erik writing “hope you enjoy” in the desc as if that wasnt the most painfully torturou #experience I've ever had in my life. The fucking inevitability. I knew Echo was going to pull some shit. IM JUST GLAD VIN AND FL ARE OK #they were NOT the turning point just let them live their cabin in the woods fantasy for however long they can okay...#Also I kinda love imp!vega. not the biggest fan of prime bc of the whole child beating situation but i sure loved this guy.#really knew what he was talking about when it came to revolutions and stuff. Like he's good. no disrespect to avior but vega did good #and he was so gentle with his partner which i find more appealing than torture but that's just me. that's just me i get it #And uh. speaking of that. Imp!sam. Yeah i get why some of yall are goin wild over him and i wish i could say i shared the sentiment but hes #too scary im weak like that. when i know a bastard would simply kill me without a care im just not into that yknow? or maybe you dont #Glad we got twisted gay damihux at the end though MUAHAJAJA that's one of the only redeeming lights that kept me alive #FUCKKKK SHIT FU K SJIT DAM ASHERS ENTIRE SCENE WITH BRACJIUM GOD HELP ME. ID DIE FOR THAT MAN #he's so fucking sad!!! he just wants his husband back!!! HE WANTS HIS FAMILY BACK!!!!!!#No even I don't understand how it's possible to get this attached to characters. I don't know. Im in deep shit.#Is this the end for me? Is my life over? These are the questions I have today. I probably just need to sleep because again #it's 7:30 in the morning. but regardless. These characters mean so much to me and this silly anthology has pulled emotions out of #me that i am terrified of feeling [survivors guilt hits me right in the fucking heart] and im scared. of what? don't know #That little shit Echo was right about one thing. It may not be real but the emotional damage it caused me is real. AND IRREPARABLE #redacted audio #redacted asmr #redacted imperium #redacted imp!asher #redacted echo #redacted imp!vega #redacted imp!sam #redacted vindemiator #tired of tagging. hitting the pillow. good night.

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