#im incredibly desperate

[crazy-together-reddie]

i bet if we manifested hard enough mcr5 would drop

[spontaneousmusicalnumber]

ough you know the book you want is obscure when even the internet archive hasnt heard of it and you can't find a pdf anywhere

this looks like a job for the formal inter library loan process at the municipal library

i've given them a year and a budget to get it to me so i can scan and keep all of the Finnish iron age tablet weaving patterns contained therein

[babybells123]

No but you don’t understand . I need Jonsa to be a tangled mess of depravity and tenderness. Grief haunting them - the ghosts of their past connecting them in some irrevocable way, because perhaps that’s the only way they know how to bond - initially, at the very least. Estranged but bursting with love but not knowing how to show it because ‘we were never close.’ But Sansa used to teach me courtesy, and Jon used to sneak me lemon cakes when no one was watching. I love you so much but I feel as if you’re a stranger to me and I don’t know how to change that. Do you wish it was arya who walked through those gates or I should have been a better brother to you, I should have ridden north for you. Please just let me hold you in my arms until our hardened hearts soften again. Until something ineffable develops. And to their horror, they realise this raw and fresh and beautiful (damaged) bond that they have created. And then comes the angst. The yearning. The unspoken words. Religious disillusionment. Inadequacy. Shame shame shame. Understanding slowly burning brighter, until they realise how similar they actually are and oh my god , you were there the whole time and I never even realised. But she was radiant and glowed brighter than any star in the sky, how could I not ??? Now give me your hands and I’ll kiss your fingers one by one, I’ll gentle each tip the way you’ve deserved. And I’m here, I see you. I’m not leaving, but gods am I a vile being. Look at how this world has corrupted me.

[moriparty413]

happy pope listening to megalovania anniversary eve. as much as i don't want to think about it, it's also the one year anniversary of the urfaveisunfuckable disaster, and some of you may remember me as mod gortys (or mori or rhys. yes my name is rhys. no im not mod rhys. we're two different people with the same name. it happens.) i wouldn't be making this post if i wasn't absolutely desperate, so if you were at all entertained by that clusterfuck, please do me a favor and just read.

i've made this announcement before, but i was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia at the end of september (which is leukemia awareness month, ironically enough.) needless to say, chemo is expensive. i was a college student who was only able to go on scholarship, and the scholarship was rapidly becoming not enough. my parents are both teachers, a job that notoriously never pays well, and my dad quit to be able to take time to take me to my appointments.

my aunt made a gofundme for my care, and the reason i'm so hesitant to link it is that she included my legal name and face, and i know that many people on this site are no better off than me. i am truly desperate, as i spent the majority of october and november in this hospital and this is, needlessly to say, a huge obstacle to getting a job. even though i'm now in remission (not completely, there's some residual left), i'm still going to have to get maintenance chemo about once a month, and the only way to completely ensure i don't have a relapse is to get a bone marrow transplant. this would mean i'll have to stay in the hospital for another month, have visits three times a week for another 3 months, and then have visits slowly getting less often for another 3 months. even then, i'll have to have more frequent checkups for the rest of my life just to make sure i stay well.

even if you can only signal boost, not donate, i would greatly appreciate it. if i had a dollar for every note on that video recapping the drama, i'd have at least 43k. any amount of help would be appreciated. we've only reached about 4k, and while i'm grateful and surprised that we even reached that much, it just isn't enough for all the expenses that will be piling on. thank you for your time.

also, if you are able to donate, please don't send any comments with the names mori or rhys on them, i'm not out to my parents in any capacity and this i don't want to come out to them while i'm so dependent on them. thank you for your understanding.

[neonhellscape]

okay its no secret i dont buy into marazhai being the persona he puts on. so as i've officially met him in game now, im making a list of all the in-game reasons i think he's a bit of an idiot [which i love btw. i find him far more compelling if he's a bit stupid/weird and he's trying so hard not to be but you just know nobody in commorragh is inviting him to parties]

the very first time you get a glance of him on a rooftop and. 'deal with this' "of course" proceeds to just walk off like 3 seconds after the other two

ambushes you. has you cornered. is in optimal position to kick your ass frankly, high ground and better weapons and utilising shock against you. ...he bitches at you for a while, gets insulted, then runs off into the forest with a maniacal cackle

heinrix fired a mild insult [considering what he's like to everyone else its barely an insult] and he took big enough issue with it to start saying how he'll break him and turn him into a pet. oh sure dude you're responding super well to this mild comment from the guy who accidentally insults everyone and their entire ancestral line at some point

i think it says something that he's learned to speak your language fluently too. that Has to be some kind of Yikes moment to admit publicly in drukhari culture. buried family secret great great grandfather drukhari-georg learned to speak mon keigh and now we claim he just spoke oddly because was shot in the head as a child to prevent the shame

he also knows the mon keigh lore that says youre a super special little guy as rogue trader and actually LISTENS to the fact you're the special little guy as rogue trader. and he does treat you as more equal/with more respect than the other characters. thats not just a drukhari culture yikes thats what gets you checked for a concussion or brain damage

literally socially atrocious enough its believed he's working with you [read: with you. not using you, not manipulating, cooperating. this is a big difference i feel] and only he himself doesnt believe it

ignore the fact he eventually DOES work with you which. is its own follow up statement

challenges you to fight him, to give chase then and there. i made him wait while i went through english government simulator where i queued for multiple days, did multiple day/week voidship trips back and forth, got distracted by accidentally starting jae's romance, pasqal telling me to servitorise her, getting blackout drunk with her, shipwide broadcast tm, giving her a voidship, her getting me a space cat, attacked by pirates, dealt with a plague, explored a few extra systems.......................

he destroys your palace. ...its rebuilt effectively within a week. most of the damage is in bodies which are just sent to the poor district to rot [almost feels worse than the damage done good job imperium]

the throne has claw marks. he could've blown it up or shot it or piled corpses on it but no he wanted to sit on the fancy chair and so turned into a common housecat mauling the sofa arm

how long was he just sitting there lounging on that chair? again see how long i kept him waiting. he was just sitting there trying to find a comfy position on this [for him] kinda small chair JUST so he could briefly taunt, break your window with his space motorbike, jump off the chair in a dramatic [but not gunna lie not that impressive] feat of gymnastics, then fly out. he doesnt even shoot at you as he leaves

i will continue my list as i see more that entertain me

[wanders-in-stars]

Going through a dwemer ruin and fell off a platform and died, but before the game reloaded I heard Gore say,

"Oh, you moron. Get up! Hey, get up – oh, gods."

I – help?? The sudden change in his tone when he realised what had happened?? My heart???

[windup-dragoon]

I'm sorry it came to this but in light of recent news, I've set up a Gofundme in hopes that I may remain in my current location and safe!

Details of my current situation is mentioned on the page.

Likes and reblogs are immensely appreciated, especially since links are tricky on tumblr! 💕

[council-of-colors]

Front rn be like

Murderer, Murderer, Murderer, Sasha, Gay ass, Living Weapon, and Me

[jils-things]

i went wandering off in my pokespe gallery and had to relieve how wonderful this scene played out. no kidding

please dont read the tags i got emotional there /lh

[satans-knitwear]

what if i told you.... me and the bestie are making plans for two weeks time....to get our nipples pierced together 🫣😳🥺

[rockn-rule]

Ok y'all imma need to talk about this god forsaken night light from night in the woods

Because why is no one talking about the blue canary in the outlet that's oddly very reminiscent of the 1990s they might be giants song 'birdhouse in your soul' ?? Because the meaning of that song is to build a place in your soul for what makes you feel most secure and I think that Mae has it around for that reason.

Also not to spoil night in the woods, but the way Mae explained her mental illness was amazingly well done and makes Mae the best rep I've seen imo

And before I forger look at this lil bird light I found omg

It's pretty identical to the one in night in the woods and I love it

[mongeese]

It's so hard being obsessed with Riz and Fabian's platonic relationship bc no one understands them like I do. They're boy best friends they're foils they're equal and opposite. The thought of kissing each other makes them both want to vomit. It isn't a qpr but they are still soulmates. They're a little obsessed with each other. They make each other better. When they're together it inevitably becomes teen boy chaos. And it's so categorically not romantic I cannot stress enough how non-romantic it is. It's the best thing ever and it's tragically misunderstood

[bunnihearted]

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[cowboy-robooty]

guys i decided to succumb to the demons. getting back on the instagram grind to get popular so i can make friends. in good news this means i will finally make drawings to post again. in bad news this means i will have to use instagram

[nicodiangelo-we-stan]

In honor of Hispanic Heritage Month I believe that for that entire month Rick should make my terribly inaccurate hc I had when I was 11 of Mexican Nico real

Sorry Italians, you can have him back October 16th

[stcries]

if you guys haven't watched captain laserhawk: a blood dragon remix yet, do yourselves a massive favor and do so!!! i binged all six episodes yesterday, and this show has me in a severe chokehold right now.