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I HATEEEEE DYSPEXIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#so im driving some little dude to his appointment i left like super early incase n it turns out i was given an address to a fking House ?!?!#obviously he doesnt know the address cus hes just some lil dude so im like ringing up his guardians and#the one that actually goes to the hairstylist cant answer obs cus i had to take his son cus hes busy duh#BUT THAT MEANS IM JUST DRIVING AROUND SOME PLACE IDK TRYING TO FIND PLACES THAT LOOK LIKE HAIR#& when i find one im like uh does this barber sound familiar cus im not taking him to some random one#andlike omg and the entire time im playing music real loud trying not to cuss out in front of this little kid#like IM ALREADY SHIT WITH NAVIGATION. & THEN U GIVE ME THE WRONG ADDRESS AND IT'S RAINING#and he wants to go get an icecream afterwards n im sitting at the barber chatting it up#but i am like actually on the verge of a breakdown cus i made him late bcs i cant just figure shit out#like#it's just so fking frustrating like it makes me feel like a failed adult or smthing like#i AM GOOD. I AM GOOD AT DRIVING#once i know a place im good but if im lost it's like my brain is panicking too much#i have to look at the road and signs and places#like i turned at a green light and completely forhot it wasnt an arrow like i just saw green and went#like i couldve killed this little kidlike#IM GOING FUCKING CRAZY#and i dont want anyone to feel bad or like have to be extra cautious when they need me to drive or smthing#like im alrdy very frustrated with my stupid limitations like in general so like failure kinda just heightens it like#iURGHHH I HATE BEING IMPERFECT I CANT FKING STAND IT IDC IF THATS NARCISSISTIC N PRIDEFULNIDCC#it's better than being EMBARRASSED i HATE BEINGNEMBRASSING AGRGHHHHHH#anyways it's fking raining and it's dark . idek where im gonna take this kid bro like hes hungry#imma go on google YIPPEE#my best friend. google maps who i cant tell distances on so i either turn too soon or too late or rlly fking quick#Ii LOVE MY LIFEEE
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omw to socialize again (well, i technically have 4 and a half more hours but i have to get to the other city first) and i wanna cry
#also i still dont know where the fuck i will be living and the classes gonna start very fucking soon now#and my family doesnt understand that i literally cannot think about this or im gonna have a mental breakdown#i might be the least independent person alive but i just want them to fix this for me 😭#��‧₊˚
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turning on a queue i had set up for times i could barely get any free time. letting you know im a bit scattered and ill answer any ask/request when i get the chance! 💕💕
#sleepy talks#im having too much work and personal life stuff on top rn#me: a raccoon#life: *critical hit*#anyway im just on breakdown ice. being like “it should break soon” but it doesnt. and everytime i step it cracks. and the pressure builds up#when is it gonna break!!!!
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i am so sleeby ausghhsh
#if i get through today without a breakdown it’ll be a miracle#i’m seeing friends but also#it’s literally a competition so i’m gonna get judged#realised that’s what i like about my friends. no judgement we r all as weird as each other and we don’t have to prove anything#i’ll be okay just gotta believe in myself#seeing besties tonight and we r having cuddle pile:)))#n i know there’s a fic coming out soon which im so excited for#i know what i need. jawbone the guidance counselor#k time to repeat his speech to adaine in my head#however fuckin wild it is it actually helps#i have a goddamn medical condition and it is okay#hoooooo boi#let’s do this
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im having a fibrocsystic flare up and cramping and depressed cause therapy days are always bad and i had another revelation that something i thought was just silly that happened to me as a kid was actually abuse and i wanna scream and cry and throw up WHEN DOES IT GET EASIER
#let me fuck that old man for my mental health pls im gonna have a breakdown#anyways the ''when does it get easier'' is a rhetorical question i know the answer is when i stop having to deal with violent people daily#but that day is not going to be soon or maybe not even ever so#idk just shoot me lads im tired i wanna go to bed ive slept like shit for the past week#maybe ill log of and just read a book for a bit instead of doomscrolling#i hope yall are having a good day#anyways can we talk about how much doctors and just people in general downplay fibrocystic breast disease?#like i genuinely thought i had breast cancer before i was diagnosed its painful and scary
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Wip Wednesday!
I was tagged by @disasterbuckdiaz @alyxmastershipper @911onabc and @cowboy-buck
I've been posting a lot of the wayf fic so I'm gonna switch it up a bit and post something from my Buck breakdown fic. This picks up right after this other snippet of it. There's also another snippet here (if you read this one please know I don't write linearly and I legit wrote the climax of the fic before writing anything else and now I'm here trying to make it make sense kspakalal)
At this point of his life, after everything, Buck knows better than to hope for the best. To pray it's a coincidence when he knew this was the highway Eddie needed to take to get to Pepa's. The place he knows Eddie and Christopher are supposed to be at that night. But he's frozen in place, foolishly looking around as if he wouldn't have noticed Eddie before. He knows he's still in the truck, if he wasn't he would've made his presence known. He would've been helping people. "Bobby?" Buck calls, voice strained, and the captain turns to him with a frown, eyes shifting to worry when he takes in the look on his face, "that's Eddie's truck," he says, watching as Bobby looks from him to the truck, and back at him.
Imma tag @bucks118 and @housewifebuck as usual if they feel like sharing
#this one has been harder to write than I thought#and i knew it was gonna be hard so like#dont expect it to come out any time soon#like i have a plan and i really like the this scene towards the end that i already have written that's pretty much the reason why im#writing it in the first place#a bit of it is the second snippet listed because i like that bit and i doesn't really give away much of the plot#so....#writing#911 wip#buddie wip#wip wednesday#buck breakdown fic
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#shout out to crying quietly in a bathroom stall before u have to go teach a room full of 18yo children#my face is v splotchy and if anyone asks if im alright i might burst into tears#y bc i got here at 7am. so i woke up at 5.30 and i teach from 3 to 5 normally#but the person who teaches 5 to 7 is sick so someone needs to substitute and i knew as soon as i saw the email it had to b me#bc no one else is prepared to teach on the 1st day of the week. so i get to do a 12hr day with basically zero breaks#and i have SO much that needs to get done. all the other TAs have all their stuff graded or at least made a start#and im gonna be here until its dark outside. and i probably made everyone feel bad bc my voice was shaking when i volunteered myself#and im not mad at them or blame them. im the obvious choice to do it. i also just so happen to b having#some sort of breakdown so ya kno. not ideal but so it goes#itll b fine. its the topic i study so it should b fine#unrelated#thats thr other thing. its beautiful outside and im not gonna b able to run bc itll b too dark when i leave
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* if i experience one more negative emotion tonight i swear to god
#[salutations sir!.zip]#* these last two dayz have just felt like one continuous mental breakdown and im fucking OVER IT#* DOESNT HELP THAT I CAN TELL MY PERIOD IS GONNA START SOON. THAT JUST MAKEZ IT WORSE#* when can i just go back to feeling numb. i miss that compared to Every Bad Emotion Ever
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Me: I wanna be productive so bad! I wanna finish my drawings!!
Illness: how about barf up a lung?
#personal*#jess talks#I’m working on such a cute set of drawings you guys…#like I wanna finish them SO BAD#but I’ve had illnesses back to back for 3 weeks now and I still feel rough#not to mention getting my period after 6 months of nothing having one#god I love PCOS🫠#and I’ve been coughing sm I’ve revived my asthma#so that’s great#anyway winge over#I swear I will post something original soon#but recently it’s just been binging naruto#I even had to cancel going to my best friends birthday plans because she agreed I was too ill and it was for my own good#(which in hindsight is true but I still had a mental breakdown over it)#ANYWAY shut up Jess#I’ve had an awful week at work and need to do something fun#so it’s a mama and daughter day for me on Saturday + chrimbo shopping#and then im gonna FINALLY play the quarry!!!#y’all were so fucking kind im still in disbelief#but I had to wait til payday to get another external hard drive because mine is full🥲#so that should arrive tomorrow and I can finally play it!!!#the idea of a potential non anime oc too is v exciting#okay im done ranting: peace ✌🏻
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I'm slowly becoming a master of feeling guilty over things I don't have impact on
#or i have some impact but itd mean sacrificing something really important to me (and lead to feeling guilty bc of not doing this thing)#basically as my graduation and finals gets closer and closer i get also closer and closer to a breakdown#how havent i had a period of 'not doing anything bc whats the point' is a mystery#but it has the potential to come soon woth how ive been feeling lately#(im gonna hope no one really notices that post bc i feel like i wanna share it with people but also dont want them to worry lol)
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the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice
#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email#ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown#at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in#and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm#m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚#(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say)#n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna#keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time#so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool#and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said#or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚#then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i#need anything‚ thank you'#and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case#i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only#acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard#keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before#and still my sentences prevail
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holy shit.
#i dont want 2 evolve him. hes perfect. oh my god#what should i name him. rn im thinking starburst.#holy sit#i want my porygon 2 have best buddy status so im gonna keep it with me for now but this guy.... soon#ohhmy god. i opened pokego on a whim i just had a huuuuge crying breakdown in front of my dad i think he is a sign. an omen of some sort#blahblahblah#pokemon
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..well take away my last remaining piece of happiness why dont you and make the show start at fucking 4am instead of the 11.30am i was prepared for
cause fuck me i guess im not allowed to have anything nice ever
#i already took my meds im gonna pass out soon i cant watch this live either#im actually about to have a breakdown this is the one thing i was looking forward to and now im being robbed of it as well#this is fine its fine i didnt want this its fine#i lied its not fine. its not fucking fine#im so fucking upset fuck
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Yes.
Every day is a special occasion when you're around
Hence a lot of swearing :)
who am i y’all
#<i'm okay the wuestion is are you okay#i miss you too#and im gonna talk with you everyday from now on#yknow for your sanity#ily^^#<- im okay im just out of my meds#trying to not have a breakdown in front of people lol#im getting them soon hopefully#but my dms are always open!#and im lurkin for the most part for now#just experiencing a lot of bad thoughts and hallucinations#ily guys#i just don't want to drag you into my mess#i feel bad#dw about me tho ill be okay :)
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bad news
So I wont be making anything anytime soon this year, and this is because my baby sister destroyed my tablet and it DOESNT work anymore, i cried all night when it broke on monday, i was at school when it happened so i didnt know. Anyways, even tho my parents bought a new one...its not even for me. But instead its for my little siblings and if i wanna use it i gotta share it with them, i hate that cuz that old tablet was the only device i had and used since i dont have a phone, im so mad bc theres nothing i can do anymore since the new tablet is "baby coded" and has limited apps that my parents monitor. Well, even tho my mom said she'll buy me a phone next year, so i have to wait at least 8-9 months for a phone. Btw my future posts that r coming are definitely drafted and scheduled beforehand, so yea.
Im so sorry guys but for now, this is the end of Simmi23, not until I come back one day. thanks to all my friends and followers, ilysm.
#simmipurple#bad news#sad#im gonna cry#goodbye#rant post#personal rant#minor vent#personal vent#vent post#taking a break#having a breakdown#see you soon
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Day 22: Stone // Keeper
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