#im gonna cry now (positive)
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#FIRST ONE'S A TRADE WITH GF'S FRIEND HEHA she drew me daisukeeee *crying#im sick now that i positioned both like this it looks like swansea's gonna kill him for the sweetener Bye#ignore mispelling................ minor spelling mistake......#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#daisuke#anya#scriboozles#eyestrain
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guess who got diagnosed with ocd a couple weeks ago
#meeeeee#god it has been. so helpful knowing#because i just thought it was pretty normal#it's very not normal btw#and knowing 'hey this is actually a compulsion or intrusive thought'#because it was so scary#but now i UNDERSTAND#it's still scary but i have answers#im gonna cry writing this djsnsj#this is probably the hardest diagnosis ive gotten aside from bpd#but also probably oneof the most important if i can be honest#ocd#ocd posting#ocd positivity#actually ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder#ocd recovery#ocd representation#ocd thoughts#ocd things#ocd tag#ocd problems#ocd stuff#not mlm#dantes talking again
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i was literally checking ur blog like an hour ago like wow i miss them and now u post again……. A gift
I???? 💕🩷✨
IM JUST HAPPY TO PROVIDE
#anon think of the CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR WORDS#ON MY POOR LITTLE HEART#i miss posting as much... i just be busy now with a real job TT#and also. ive been drawing a bunch more of my ocs#so. sadly. less aftg stuff to post on this blog#i dont intend to stop posting here#just in case thats a concern lol#but THANK U#im gonna cry now (positive)#not art sorry guys#asks#kind words
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genuinely, how do you learn to cope with the idea you'll have mental health issues for the rest of your life? how to you learn to find peace with the fact that rock bottom is always going to be just around the corner and theres nothing you can really do to stop it?
#i guess this is rhetorical but also if you have genuine tips i probably do want to hear them#im trying to adopt a 'be happy now because youll be sad later' attitude but some days its so hard to deal with the idea ill never be fully#in control. ill never be fullt stable. something will always set me off. ill always downswing#im at peace with the idea that whatevers wrong in my head is for life i just need to figure out how to be content knowing itll always be#bad again.#id like it to be easier#nyxtalks#idk stupid shit sent me panicking and the lingering effects have me catastophising and near crying about things that literally dont exist#its just in my head. i am seeing something that isnt there and i must remind myself that#and this is by no means a bad day in the scheme of things for me either#i just had a few awful thoughts#but it reminds me of how bad i get#idk its not that serious its fine#im gonna. maybe try and find something positive in the world now and stop thinking things that arent even true
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#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked#i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference#and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super#integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart#so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect#and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest#and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired?#its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears#like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked#toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun#hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's#where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab#reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever#unrelated
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im gonna kill a hostage
#luly talks#im throwing up and crying right now oh i dont like this shit one bit im gonna#blow the world up with my death ray#dialtown liveblog#<- im trying more positive language :)
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Was having a bad day (guy dead naming and misgendering me said that he didn't know he was dead naming and misgendering me even though 4 different people corrected him several times(amongst other things said)) then boom remember new dndads tonight
#aghhhhhh#anyways on a more positive note#it's so nice that i have trans friends irl now#theyre so nice im gonna cry#whispers of the raine#dndads#ALSO SHOUT OUT TO LOUIE. THE ABSOLUE KING THAT HE IS#and to my bestie for talking about chemistry to me and letting me holdhis hand when my voice didn't want to work to help calm me down#(i love chemistry)
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going on a mini hiatus! I'm SO sorry to the anons who've requested things that I haven't written yet, I promise I will write them at some point!! and I'm so sorry I'm taking forever to write them in general!!
#i hope no one blames themselves for this im just very sad and i dont have the capacity to be positive right now#and if i cant be positive then its really hard for me to be around other people ngl 😂 i feel like im being depressing and i hate that#idk i feel like im making their life worse if im sad ya know?#anyways im gonna go cry now lmao 😂#yall are free to send requests still of course but pls keep in mind it might be a hot minute before i get to it!#love you all#💛💛💛
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#im just gonna rant here real quick#all i want to do is erite but every sentence feels terrible and i'm having trouble getting from point A to point B#work was terrible today and i havent eaten a full meal in like a day and a half and i know its all just accumulating to poor mental health#and i know i'll get over it#but being in the position i am now is just awful and the only thing that makes me happy i can't even do because of my bad headspace#i just want food but i can't even go grocery shopping until day after tomorrow#i've been eating not even 1 meal a day because of work getting in the way and i'm over it#like. i fr just want to cry tbh. what i really want is to fly back to GA but i cant i'm stuck here#sorry to anyone who read this i just wanted to say it somehwere i knew no one would listen#before i go insane#like. i even bought a pizza and got it delivered to my current work place just so i'd finally be able to eat#but systems crashed and the store is also short staffed and both the staff i did have were trainees.#so i put the pizza in the fridge and told myself i'd remember to take it back to the hotel with me#but od course due to exhaustion and an already horrible short term memory of course i forgot#so it's another night with no dinner#i hate this shit
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#I fucking H A T E my sister I can't wait till I get the fuck out iof here#her kids are gonna be fuckin miserable#again she gets hung up on something that doesn't matter and makes MY LIFE harder#I fucking hate her it's not fair she gets to make me so angry and I just have to take it#fuckfuckfuck fuckfuck#I'm never gonna care about her crying over her stupid BF ever again#I'm so fucking done with this house o can't wait to get out of here she's so annoying#I told her this would happen#but everything's fine on her end cus I'm actually a good sister and DONT SAY ANYTHING#I know no one's gonna agree with me so I'm not gonna specify what happened#no one understands that I have a process and worrying about the chance of germs makes everything so fucking harder it#she negates the benefits that come with living in a clean house#I'm never living with her again EVER#and if she ever has to live with me im gonna be an annoying dictator just like her cus it'll be my house#why is she being this way????? I would leave her alone and not say anything if she was in my position#she's such a bitch I don't fucking care anymore#now I can see her BFs side a little#I'm not allowed to show emotion or anything I hate her so much I wanna die
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#what if i also am a mess this week 🤩#theres this banner marketing thing we ordered on monday that needed 5 business days and we needed by this monday#production started on it monday and they sent me a link to track progress and shit but the link didnt work#and i tried emailing them abt it and i had to email other ppl but i waited like a few days before doing that and ended up not getting iit#to work or anything and now we need the thing sent to somewhere by tomorrow afternoon#today afternoon lol and like they had the 5 business days they said they took for it so it Should be fine#but i literaly have no idea#bc the fucking progress link wouldnt work#and everyone i emailed to help w it werent responding over the weekend#so like im sending another email tomorrow morning at 8 lol to be like did yall send it pls bc i cant see TT#i feel like it's my fault if it doesnt happen and we wasted many money bc i've been handling the logistics and stuff for this thing#i know it's not rly but also i . couldve done some things earlier#anyway idk im not rly dwelling on that i just feel like#if i go on campus tomorrow and the banner is up im gonna start crying LMFAO#bc this is highkey stressing me out and i like to cry when im stressed 🥳#if it doesnt happen i will also start crying lmfao#i also always be overthinking things and just why cant i . not have such a negative perception of everything i SAY/do woohoo#afterparty for our show but im just crying bc release of this stress while everyone else is drinking#bro im not even nearly the most significant / high pressure board position and im likeeeejgndfndkfdkgdh lol#tbf tho marketing do be . the most during this week ig ;-;#also i need to go to sleep but i dont want to :D am excited for the show this week but i think i am#procrastinating actually having the week start bc it is kinda stresssssfulllllllll lolllllll#manifesting this fucking banner is up tomorrow#i will see it either in the morning idk if they put them up that early or#i guess when i leave the building in the afternoon but also i wont be facing the sign at all#or in the evening ;-; my only two chances to see#altho my friend might text me if she sees it when she goes like later morning i think#anyway *screaming* ran out of tags bye lol#jeanne talks
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EVERYONE FOLLOW MY BELOVED SCHVA RIGHT NOW. LOOK AT HIS ART. LOVE HIS ART. LOVE HIM
MININUG AU LIVES ON!!! (AND THE FIC IS COMING SOON TOO)
aged up christmas reveal with a baby!! happy holidays to the world's coolest person @frostedpuffs!!!
comic about frostedpuffs' minibug au for ashville's secret santa
#i wish i could scream for ten hours straight about this.#i have so much i want to say but all thats gonna come out is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#IM STILL IN SHOCK AND AWE. THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER#for any new followers: minibug au is my next fic im gonna write after ppu and ive been excited to write it for over a year now#AHHHH THIS IS SO SO SO SO CUTE.#also funnily enough minibug's bio dad is in this art but im not saying who it is although it's probably obvious (not adrien though)#BLESS YOU SCHVA FOR BEING SO AMAZING. IM GONNA CRY ABT THIS NOW /POSITIVE#ALSO U ARE SO COOL FOR USING MY ADULT DESIGNS LB/CN THEY LOOK SOOOO GOOD IN UR STYLE#CHAT NOIR'S HAIR AUUUGHH SO GOOD#tagged me#miraculous#minibug#minibug au
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#mol.txt#eds posting#so i got my cast which i was soooo excited about#but my ankles naturally do not rest flexed#and they put me in this cast flexed and like rly deeply flexed#so my whole leg is cramping and like. the surgery part of my ankle feels FINE everything else is on fire#like i know this is the protocol but like#i'm just hyperextending the other way and it hurts. so bad#i don't want to have to go get it redone but i'm also like. i am fully dying here#and i feel rly bad bc if i do go back i prob need someone to come with me#and a&s are both working now and im like. i'm so sorry but i'm fucking dying#like i'm sorry but my foot just doesn't bend like this fucking hellllll#i just wanna have fun birthday time w anna but NO my fuckass body i'm so upset#i also just want to sleep#like i know it's not going to be. comfy in a cast i know that#but this is like. i can't#and i can handle pain and discomfort okay! i can!#goddddd i just UGH#the cast tech like it's easier to learn to point again than flex again and i'm like cool but this isn't flexed for me this is hyper extended#anyway just gonna cry in bed for a bit while i try not to die#like things are going numb this isn't cool or fun#the doc was like for the cast we will try to flex as much as u can#and then the cast tech forced my foot into this position like No!!!#i feel like such a baby but
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I GOT A JOB IM GONNA SCREAM
#kodo rambles#holy SHIT#ive been trying to get a job for y e a r s#the pandemic starting and my health tanking completely hamstrung everything for me and my fiance#and now im in a position that i know i can do really well at#we are gonna have actual money coming in!!!!#we will be on track to move!!!!#im loosing my mind!!!!!!#i got offered my second choice and i have an audition for my first choice by sunday#but ive got a position either way#holy shit#im gonna cry#im gonna go and hug the love of my life until he is jam now
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i just WOKE UP !!?????!!!!!!
2024.07.15 — dinner date with Ume. ♡
(hands up if you know where the reference photo’s froooommmmm!!!! >:3 aju nice.)
#art!#you @ed me as if my ume senses weren’t already tingling. is this why i kept stirring in my sleep? there’s a disturbance in the air. and thi#so this is the culprit. how was i supposed to not feel the change in atmosphere ???#☆ミ umemiya.#WHY IS HE SMILING LIKE THAT /pos (compliment) LOOK AT HIS MOUTH HE IS SO KISSABLE ? HIS LIPS ???? BIBI .#AND LOOK AT HIS PRETTY EYES BIBI YOU ALWAYS DO THIS (compliment) LIKE U GIVE HIM HIS LIL DROOPY PUPPY EYES BUT U DO IT IN A WAY WHERE HE#LOOKS SO DREAMY AND SOFT. HIS EYES R SO FUCKING PRETTY. WTF. AND YOU GAVE HIM HIS GLASSES . and what if i can’t finish using my tags becaus#because i have EXPLODED. erupted like a volcano. yk star deaths ? that’s me. i did. i’m no more! goodbye to what remains of zevie#this is my ghost speaking bc i need to finish my tags here. look at the fuckinnnngggg muuuscles bibi drew.#do you see his bulging tricep. god i love men w huge ass triceps sm I LOVE THEN. and look at his bicep. i know all of you see that bicep#vein better than me !! better than me bc i’m not wearing contacts or glasses now. straight up outa bed and im hit with this !! can you belie#believe bibi (affectionate) bc i cannot !! LOOK AT THE VEINS SHE GAVE HIM …. not even just one biceps they are also ….#on his forearms . do yk what it means . yk when his fingers r inside u and they curl. the forearm muscle bulges and u can see the vein#protruding more . bonus if he’s sweaty and the muscle is just glistening. WOW! okay. moving on. LOOK AT HIS BOOBS. U CAN SEE THEM PEEKING#THROUGH THE SHIRT. THATS HOW BIG THEY ARE. see how they bulge bc of how his arm is pressing against it? CRIMINAL. me and all my ume girlies#are on our way to bury on our faces in them. HUGE pillows btw . ok moving on. LETS TALK ABOUT HIS HAIR . his hair. it’s up yeah? but it’s#messy like in his fight with choji. the best hair ever. he is actually so soft and so fluffy. his hair looks like fresh snow . he is#absolutely everything to me !! literally unreal. absolutely ethereal. an angel. WOW.#i want to talk about his shirt. and the fact that he wears white tees at bofurin simply bc someone told#him it looks good. what a cutie. he would wear anything if you asked him sweetly enough. ‘oh you think i’ll look good?’#ANYWAYS HIS SHIRT HERE … THE WAY HIS MUSCLES R LIKE BULGING AGAINST IT IM SO NOT OKAY >: AND NOW IM LOOKING AT HIS NECK#i want to cover him in bites fr . look at how COMFY the area between his neck / shoulder is ??? BURY UR FACE RIGHT THERE.#bibi !!! you never cease to amaze me . bc the sketch had me falling to my knees and crying (see pictures for references) and this finished#one …… i’m really not okay (positive) i am really . really not okay!!!#please he looks so cute >: IM TAKING YIU HOME UME . YOURE COMING WITH ME . today i will be the one giving you a piggy back ride#get those pretty arms wrapped around me STAT. bibi i’m sobbing the artist / writer / person that you are (compliment)#i have no idea how i’m gonna recover from this . maybe i should go back to sleep and wake up because no way this is reality. this isn’t real#and i am just dreaming right now. bibi never showed me this at all. bibi never drew this at all. it’s not real. go back to sleep zevie … le#let’s just go back to sleep …. don’t think about it. don’t think about how pretty he is …. oh no no …. yeah let’s get under the covers …#goodnight everybody !!!!!! i say this fully aware that this will (affectionately) haunt me in my sleep for the rest of the week
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