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realmermaid333 · 2 years ago
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I wanna make a post for my anxious and traumatized homies. I have mild agoraphobia and i experience lots of cognitive distortions regarding being in public alone, driving, and just simply fear for the future I guess. It doesn’t help that my complex trauma makes me fear people will be hostile towards me in public for no reason. And I am autistic so I have just developed slower than my peers in general. This impacts milestones like driving and first time employment. But us anxious people will be okay, we will persevere. I am going to drive to the library tomorrow and hang out there even though it makes me nervous. I am also going to apply to another job and hope they don’t turn me down again even though it makes me nervous. I don’t want to keep having these issues and I don’t want to live my life in fear or miss out on things. I want to do so much that I can’t do right now because I am scared. I think y’all should do something that challenges your cognitive distortions as well tomorrow, or the next day. I wonder how many others have the same fears/issues as me or similar ones. Feel free to comment here or DM me let’s start a tiny little comments section support group lol
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wizardnuke · 3 months ago
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bf says ive been going thru it and doing really well at that. bursts into tears.
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momoshin · 4 years ago
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wrapped in lace — ryujin
you’d think coming home after long hours of running and making content would knock the two of you right out. but you were hoping it did just the opposite, you made sure the car driving you and the girls gets there first, needing to make sure everything was still in place from how you left it before starting your day (and to be able to change into what you had planned) ryujin gets home with the others as soon as you sit down to take a breath. they all know what you have planned, they’re just here for support before they smoothly make an exit.
“you guys got here fast” ryujin points it out and kisses your lips hello like she hadn’t just done that before going into the separate cars (which she complained about for half an hour). she hands you a smoothie, and you quickly notice she’s the other only member with one in her hands.
“ryujin you literally spent twenty minutes thinking of what smoothie to get your girlfriend” yuna rolls her eyes, making the other four laugh at the birthday girl who slightly blushes and shrugs.
“oooooh” lia cheers, interrupting your girlfriend’s soft, sort of questioning stare at you and causing the two of you to look at her, also catching the other three peeking in the room, yuna trying to squeeze her way in between the unnies. “actually we’re going to go eat, call us if you want anything, have funnn”
“oooooh” lia cheers, interrupting your girlfriend’s soft, sort of questioning stare at you and causing the two of you to look at her, also catching the other three peeking in the room, yuna trying to squeeze her way in between the unnies. “actually we’re going to go eat, call us if you want anything, have funnn”
and just like that, the door is closed. you can hear their steps and what yuna thought was whispers ‘that’s so romantic!!’ ‘ryujin unnie’s probably going to cry’ ‘when did y/n unnie have the time to do all of that?’ that just caused a smile to break into your lips.
“when did you do all of this?” her jaw is open so wide, she’s going to catch flies soon.
“i can’t tell you my secrets” you scoff, a warm, loving smile on your lips as you approached her and dared to wrap your arms around her waist after taking her cross body and setting it on the floor. “do you like it?”
“i love it” she pecks your lips a couple of times, and through all of them you can easily feel the smile that she displayed because of the surprise “can we open presents now?”
“yes baby” the way her voice sounded like an excited kid on christmas morning, and her eyes were so bright, her smile? it melts your heart and you find yourself feeling more love for her than you thought possible.
it’s all pure from there. her pure gasps and smiles or even giggles every times she opens a present and remembers you asking detailed yet questions vague enough for her to not have a clue of the reason behind it.
“where’s the button?” you’ve found yourselves messing around with the new film camera, your girlfriend too excited to leave it for tomorrow like she would’ve said to hide how much she wanted to play with it.
“it says here-“ you begin to read the manual of instructions, and it only takes you a few seconds in to see the blinding light of the flash. “ryujin!”
“found it” she smiles, the two of you giggling softly in the moment. “im keeping this” she smiles, looking at the developing picture of you in what she thinks is your prettiest version, “thank you baby” it's a little muffled against your lips that she keeps kissing and pecking in hopes it helps her express how grateful she is.
"i have one more gift for you" your words too are muffled against her lips, and as soon as she sits back up you look for the red bow you had placed somewhere around the room and stick it right on the top of your head "ta-da"
"oh?" she smiles, opening her arms for you to walk into. she watches you put up your finger as if telling her to wait for you, and undo the zipper of your jacket, letting her catch the red, delicate lace adorning your body. "oh" she's in utter shock, like she hasn't ever seen you like this even though it's a regular occurrence "c'mere, please"
the bow inevitably falls off your head when she pulls you to her by the waist, running her hands all over your body, drinking you in. "is this new?"
"mhm" your hand wraps around the back of her head, keeping eye contact with her as she presses soft kisses to the skin of your tummy that wasn't covered by the lingerie set "got it just for today"
"well. i love it" she smiles "almost want to fuck you in it"
"who said you'd be doing the fucking?" your hands cup her face and bring it up to look at you, thumbs grazing against her lips, her pretty, pink lips that you loved so much "lay down for me?"
she trusts you enough to just go with it, and you easily move the gifts from the bed to the night stand. so she had more space in the bed and nothing broke. your hands run all over her uncovered torso by her crop top, and soon, you found your hands kneading and squeezing at her tits. hums and whispers coming out of her lips.
your legs move on their own to get you in bed, between her legs so your hands could do their thing and undo her jeans, her chuckle when you peck her stomach just like she did yours a few minutes ago rings in your ears beautifully. reminding you how lucky you are to have her, that she’s yours and you’re hers.
“i love you” you whisper against her lips when you’ve come back up, sitting on her lap with your hands on the end of her shirt to slowly remove it. “like, i’m in love with you ryujin” you stop your kisses to look at her, look for a reaction. she takes time. to control her breathing and process the words that had just come out of your mouth, her eyes are glossy and her hand runs through your hair gently.
“i’m in love with you too” she whispers after what feels like has been forever, but only has been seconds. her voice is so small and broken, she is so in love with you, it hurts her to think about it.. everything about you makes her feel in heaven.
your smile is so big though, you weren’t expecting her to not say it back, but it felt good to actually hear it. her lips find yours now, and the kiss starts so soft, slow, telling each how much you felt for the other, and its like that for some time, tongues dancing and all. but then her hands start going down to your ass, and you don’t have it in you to stay put when she moves your hips for you, her naked thighs rubbing against your clothed core in delicious ways.
“don’t take it off” she whispers as soon as she sees you sit up in her lap, and her fingers soon loop around the flimsy, tiny part covering your crotch. she thinks about putting it to the side and just watching like this, but then again something about using her strength on or for you makes her feel in control, so she does just that. tears it right off of you.
“ryujin?!” you whine. hands on her naked shoulders as you stare at your thong in her fingers.
“don’t make me gag you with it” she spits, and at the sound of her voice so deep; you whimper, specially when she runs her thumb up and down your clit, eliciting a few gasps out of you too. you try to, with all your inner strength, pull away from her hand, but instead position yourself so your legs could cross with hers. your cunts both fitting together like puzzle pieces. “fuck”
she’s been under you many times before. but the sight before you is so different from those times, she’s biting her lip, eyes half closed, her nipples perked up already, hands on your waist to control you moving, she’s groaning and grunting in such sinful ways too, making you wetter than before and easier for the two of you to move.
she’s closed her eyes when you, still riding her, stretch your arm enough to take the new camera in your hands, she doesn’t even open her eyes when you put a hand on her stomach in a more possesive way than anything, she only does so when she hears the click of the camera shooting the sight in front of it: your cunt glued to hers, your hand spread on her toned abdomen as if to tell anyone who saw the lewd image that she was yours.
she bites her lips at her own sight, you on top, the red lace that she’d yet to rip off your body hugging you so beautifully, your hair down your shoulders and back, you waiting for the polaroid to develop with your teeth digging into your bottom lip. but most importantly the sight of your pussy against hers. the noises you two made, how it felt. she feels dizzy already.
“you better not show that to anyone. specially the girls” she warns, her legs opening wider to give you more space for an advantage of getting the perfect angle between the two of you “fffuck, do that again”
“that?” she wonders if this is how you feel when she starts getting cocky. because you certainly are as you roll your hips over and over again like you had for the few last seconds. you don’t stop asking until she groans out a yes, fingers so tight around the skin of your hips that you were worried she was going to bruise you. “and i don’t know. i think jisu unnie might find it hot, don’t you?”
suddenly, you feel her breath so much closer to your lips than you remember her being, your covered nipples against her naked, hard ones, her hand fully tangled in your hair, pulling well enough to make you hiss and whimper into her lips “im not playing with you y/n” she groans “anyone else sees your pussy and it’s over for you”
“what are you gonna do?” you’re teasing her with your smile, and she hates it so much. how can you be so brave when she’s got you so vulnerable right on her cunt??
“you don’t want to find out.” her hand wraps around you to slap your ass so, so hard, you’re worried for her hand. “why are you being such a whore right now, am i not enough for you?” you’re not responding, just looking at her with your brattiest expression and hoping it pisses her off. not enough for this tight pussy?” she draws a gasp from you when she says the words ‘tight pussy’ because at that same time she’s pushed a finger into you from behind
she smiles against your lips when you muffle something against hers, not finding in you to make actual words and sentences.
“what’s that princess? i didn’t quite catch it” she smirks, kissing your lips and nose so soft as if she didn’t have a whole finger inside you at the same time
“im kidding. im sorry. im sorry” your eyes are shut closed, your clit throbbing and so is your head from all the sensations you’re experiencing right now.
“you’re so easy to handle” she chuckles. not meant to be endearing at all but degrading. “make me cum baby, fuck yourself on my fingers and make me cum. can you do that for me?” she pushes two more inside you just in time.
“yes. yes i can. yes.” you moan and shake when trying to lift yourself off her chest, and she takes the opportunity with the hand that wasn’t inside you, to free your tits out of the lace holding them away from her. you maneuver your hips to be able to sit on her fingers fully, all three of them buried to the hilt, but to be able to rub her clit with yours when you thrust back up.
“so good for me baby.” your girlfriend kisses from your jaw, to your neck, to your chest, always leaving bites soft enough to not mark any part of you. she watches you all along, loving the way small gasps, whimpers and moans all escape your lips that couldnt seem to close unlike your eyes. your eyes had been shut tight for a few minutes now, not being able to look anywhere or even at her.
the heat in your stomach starts growing, but you can’t and won’t cum without her. even if it meant holding it for however long you needed to. “are you close daddy?”
“yeah baby, almost there” ryujin kisses your sweaty cheeks and lifts her head up as much as she can to kiss your swollen lips. “you can cum, you have my permission” she brushes your hair out of your face with her free hand, pecking your lips once again as she watches your face contort in pleasure
“i w-wanna wait for y-you” you return her kisses as you can, in your vulnerable state. and she keeps grunting and moaning against your lips and even going so far as to lift her hips against yours because she just wants to see and feel you shaking on top of her so bad. so bad. “please. please.”
“go ahead princess, cum.., ff-fuck-k im c-cumming-h” her eyes roll to the back of her head, your highs are so hard that you can almost hear ringing in your ears. and the few seconds that you have over her as she still handles her orgasm, you use to kiss all over her jaw and cheeks while still rolling your hips against her.
“happy birthday baby” you whisper after a long while of the two of you looking at each other in silence and attempting to regain your breath, it causes her to giggle and cover her face with her hand at the thought of the two of you engaging in such filthy activities a few minutes ago and you being so soft and loving right after
“thank you my love, for everything” one of her hands runs her nails up and down your back as she watches you blush and smile at her. “how much time do we have left?”
“like an hour max” you whisper after looking at the alarm clock on her nightstand. “why”
“there’s one more thing i want to try”
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crepuscularqueens · 3 years ago
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am i going to make another playlist breakdown that no one asked for... yes :) for samsteve :)
now - paramore (boy i could talk about this one forever it’s so on the nose of the whole them of it all! their energy is truly captured here!) feels like i'm waking from the dead and everyone's been waiting on me, least now i'll never have to wonder what it's like to sleep a year away / instead, i'd have some memories for the days i don't feel anything, at the least they will remind me not to make the same mistakes again / there's a time and a place to die and this ain't it
glory - bastille (oh god oh GOD. these two could have really had it all couldn’t they?? every single line could make me go bonkers from it) as we fell and hit our heads upon the curb, you make me laugh until i die, can you think of any better way to choke? / not everything had gone to plan but we made the best of what we had, you know? / and then you put your hand in mine and pulled me back from things divine, stop looking up for heaven waiting to be buried
homemade dynamite - lorde (you may know my thoughts on this one already! ah! but when they first meet and they both kinda lose it a bit for each other! steve needing to pass sam like 3 times then go and make his point again! sam harboring steve as a known fugitive when he just met the guy! wow okay!) a couple rebel top gun pilots flying with nowhere to be, don't know you super well but i think that you might be the same as me, behave abnormally / know i think you're awesome, right?
kindred - rationale (what can i say i have a giant weak spot for the bittersweet!)  we are kindred, tugging on the tether, like we'll live forever but one day we'll have to leave. i give thanks for each day of solid ground beneath our feet, but there are no promises for tomorrow for you and me / baby we risk it all just to fall like dominoes, baby all we have is good intentions, fine line in your memories, you’re not alone and you’ll never be, remember that we're both in this together
under the table - fiona apple (okay this pick is somewhat tongue in cheek because they are both insufferable smartasses who sometimes say things they shouldn’t. im thinking... “so you like cats” “sam.” “what?!?!?!?!”. like, this is just for fun) you know i don't go for those ones that you bother about, so when they say something that makes me start to simmer, that fancy wine won't put this fire out, oh kick me under the table all you want i won't shut up, i won't shut up
sudden desire - hayley williams (for the... well... you know) take the elephant by the hand and hold it, it's cruel to tame a thing that don't know its strength. but better to walk beside it than underneath. my kind companion, softened stone, my gentle giant, painful reminder
black moon rising - black pumas (we have to introduce a little heartbreak eventually. i know i did but yeah. we unfortunately know how this ends!) shoot me down and break my heart, it's the black moon rising. you brave the sight, i paint the picture of the black moon rising
lose my mind - kaye (okay but “i might just burn up my whole life”??? yeah that’s them alright. that’s them.) you're trouble, aren't you? i can see it, know you're gonna leave me bleeding, but you set alive every inch of my spine / i might just burn up my whole life, we don't have to be civilized / forget your loyalties to float in my gaze, we look good in destruction, couldn't we trust it? (all of that just SCREAMS them!)
fly me to the moon - frank sinatra (okay, so maybe i added this to my playlist for them immediately after watching ep 1 of tfatws. you have no proof.) you are all i long for, all I worship and adore. in other words, please be true. in other words, in other words, i love you
black sun - death cab for cutie (sometimes we just get very very bitter towards endgame steve. i don’t know that man.) how could something so fair be so cruel, when this black sun revolved around you? / there is a role of a lifetime, and there's a song yet to be sung, and there's a dumpster in the driveway of all the plans that came undone
demons - the national (you know how it is with me and the national. image of me violently shoving this song at steve rogers and glaring at him.) when i think of you in the city, the sight of you among the sights, i get the sudden sinking feeling of a man about to fly / can i stay here? i can sleep on the floor, paint the blood and hang the palms on the door, i do not think i'm going places anymore, i wanna see the sun come up above new york / i do not know what's wrong with me, the sour is in the cut. when i walk into a room, i do not light it up, fuck
the living - san fermin (trying to put into words why this song is so perfect for them is... hm. life’s for the living, you know?) i hear it coming, it’s coming this way, it’s digging me up, the dead have been raised / and it’s hard to quite describe it, like we're part of, part of something bigger
drive desperate - cold war kids (asking someone to follow you... desperately needing their approval) follow me will you? follow me will you? follow me down until, i will admire, oh i need someone who will / to find the words that lift me high i’d tear a hole up in the sky, i’d beg for your approval just to know i’m on the right course
estate sale sign - the mountain goats (okay! bitterly remembering when you shared a path with someone! when everything you had gone through and everyone you lost along the way meant everything in the world and then you feel so all alone in all those memories because they made their choice to give it all up!) some guy in an impala shakes his head when he rides by, but i remember when we shared a vision, you and i / the sacrificial stains all spreading out and soaking through, but i remember when we kept it pretty, me and you / try to see if secrets burn when you hold them up into the light, i remember when we loved each other day and night / every martyr in this jungle is gonna get his wish
end of the earth - marina (i got in my damn feelings for this one boys) love can never be what you want it to be, but i'd still follow you down / if we're torn apart, then i won't let go, cause wherever we are, it feels like home
heat waves - glass animals (furiously shaking endg*me by the shoulders screaming “make it make sense”) usually i put somethin' on tv so we never think about you and me, but today i see our reflections clearly in hollywood, layin on the screen. you just need a better life than this, you need somethin i can never give / i just wish that i could give you that, that look that's perfectly un-sad
deliverance - rationale (im aware this is getting repetitive) you sold me a dream, now i'm hanging on for my life, out of sight, out of mind / it's hard to believe that i don't mean nothing to you and i'll never back in your favor and back in your arms
emergence exit - freelance whales you would've been better alone without my love, you would've been safe from storms
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drkcnry67 · 4 years ago
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I was so afraid I lost you. (day 12)
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A/N: @obxmermaid​ welcome to day 12. where we find that YN has just recieved an owl from her parents that her father was in a car accident and is in acoma, she goes to stand by the frozen black lake but is immediately submerged when something or someone knocks her into the water and no one realizes she is missing till a few hours later. again apologies for the word vomit. 
Pairing: draco malfoy x reader
Prompt: “her body is freezing, she needs help.”
25 days of hogwarts
the water flooded your lungs, the light disappearing, your voice not vocalizing. no one around. you were alone. you were drowning. you had fallen through the ice. 
you werent sure how, you werent sure why, you didnt know how to call for help. but lets figure out what happened to get you to this point. lets retrace your steps. 
you were sitting in the quad, you were waiting for Draco to finish helping snape with the potion replenishment and for their evening/afternoon together to start. suddenly a fire message appeared before you. 
“dear YN, this is to inform you of an accident concerning your father. he was out driving back from a grocery shop when he was attacked, his vehicle was run off the road on the way back to your family house. your father is in a coma. dont worry my daughter, the doctors say he will be fine, their doing what they can to heal his injuries. i know this will hurt alot, but you will have to be strong. draco will comfort you in these times during this time i know that much. cause you are a strong brave girl, you are going to be an extraordinary witch one day with a extraordinary wizard for a husband. you both will live in peace, you both will live in harmony. with every breath in our family, There will be a family reunion for Christmas, and i invite you and Draco to join in the festivities. please dont worry too much about your father. he has been through worse than this in his lifetime and this is not gonna be the last time. write back soon dear. all my love, mother.”
that was it by the time the last word left your lips, you had started walking out of the quad. you had your cloak on and was ready to run. you had to go somewhere quiet somewhere the opposing people wouldnt find you. or anyone for that matter.
you found yourself now standing in front of the black lake. half frozen half not. but something happened, for you were being stalked, then chased, by something or someone behind you, moving at great speed. before you could react you were thrust through the ice and into the freezing lake. 
the sound cut out, your blood pumping loudly in your ears, you were inaudible. you were unsure of how to vocalize anything right then, your mind numbing from the frigid temperatures, confusing you. As you slowly grew colder and colder, you knew not of your own locale, your brain foggy from the chill. 
at the very moment of you running to the lake, Draco had been coming to find you. he had tried to send a fire message to you, but it came back undelivered. he had asked around and still could not find you anywhere. he figured you were napping in your room or something and would see you for dinner. 
when you didnt show he went to the professors. he went straight to the exact ones who he thought might need to know. 
Draco: i was supposed to meet YN a few hours ago. i figured she would have been napping or something but none of the ghosts have seen her, they say she isnt in her dorm. she isnt in any of the classrooms, the quidditch tent or the astronomy tower. im worried. 
Minerva: its gonna be dark soon we all need to search for her. make sure nothing bad has happened to her. 
Snape: ill stay here and make sure i have the proper antidotes and things ready in case of the worst or injury. 
Flitwick: ill search in the lower half of the school, perhaps she went on a quest through the lower ravenclaw tower. 
Minerva: Mr Malfoy, you and i are gonna go search the grounds. see if hagrid has seen anything. or knows of anywhere she may be. 
draco follows Minerva through the rest of the grounds. both of them reaching the path to hagrids hut before Fang comes barging up the path. and running down towards the black lake. 
Draco: hargid whats going..
Hagrid: fang senses some danger, come on, follow that dog. 
both minerva and draco follow in suit. hagrid had a head start... 
arriving at the lake all 4 of them stood there where the ice was broken. the look of shock and horror that bewildered Draco’s features now allowing him to with the fleeting fact of this is an emergency. 
he took off his shoes, used the bubble head charm, and dove into the lake. Minerva and Hagrid took the time to use a simple fire spell to melt some of the ice around the docks. 
Draco down in the lake now using his wand to search for you. his idea of shine the light in the lake to find you. instead he used in-audible magic to place out a tracker. 
he swam with all his might, using his strength to attempt to get to you. it was another 5 minutes into his swim that he finally saw the light had stopped, he had found you. he reached you. gripping you around the waist with one arm he started to make his way to the top. 
but it got too much. the weight was too much. he ditched both yours and his cloaks and it made things a little easier. but as they neared the top he sent out red sparks with his wand to alert that he had found you. 
Minerva: there they are. hagrid be ready with those blankets we are gonna need them. ascendio.. 
she pointed her wand at the place where the sparks had come from. in moments you and draco came shooting onto the dock. 
Draco: her body is freezing, she needs help... we have to get her to snapes classroom now. 
Hagrid stepped forth, handing a blanket to Draco while placing a few around you, with the help of both Minerva and Draco.
minerva: hagrid would you like to come along for this travel or will you meet us there after you clean this mess up?
Hagrid: go on ahead ill come by later. 
minerva in moments poofed you, draco and herself to Snapes classroom. 
Draco placed you on the clear table as he sat on a stool on one side of the table with a blanket around his form, then watches as Snape expels the water from your lungs and assesses you for other injuries.
Snape: go get into some dry clothes mr malfoy. miss YN will be fine... she will still be here when you get back... but we dont need you out of commission as well. thats an order mr malfoy.
draco reluctantly went out of the classroom, he went to his dorm and got into some dry clothes and then went back to the potions classroom. snape turns in his direction as he enters the room.
Snape: she is gonna be fine, she should wake in the morning. you may take her to her dorm and stay there with her till she wakes. im sure she will want to see you first. 
Draco scopes you into his arms, taking you back to your dorm. he lays you on your bed. he uses in-audible magic to get you out of your wet stuff and into something dry without seeing anything that he knew wouldnt be right. 
he kicked off his shoes and placed both your wands on the stand as he sat on the edge of your bed and held your hand in his own. he lit the fireplace to heat the room, made sure you had blankets over you. 
he sat there waiting for you to, he gripped your hand and waited very patiently for your body to warm up, for you to stir, to move, for something to happen.
A few hours later your fingers started moving, Draco moved closer to you. His own hands gripping yours tightly.
Draco: come on love. Come on I can't live my future without you.
A few seconds more and your body sat upright and took a deep breath... you coughed a bit as your body shook. Draco’s hands held your own, his voice the only thing keeping you on planet earth. 
Draco: YN shh hey hey its okay. you are alright love. what happened?
YN: something or someone pushed me into the lake. i got a fire message from my mom, my dad was in a car accident that has put him in coma.. no doubt caused by your parents. 
Draco: and they will pay for that... i was so afraid i had lost you. but right now you need to rest. here scoot over let me in. ill stay with you. that and professor snape told me to keep an eye on you. 
YN: well this is excellent. i love having you here. i just hope my father is ok. 
Draco: and he will be... lets just get some rest right now so we can figure all this out tomorrow. hopefully with less of you or i almost dying and more of us being normal ish or about as normal as can be for a magic couple.
YN: i like the sound of that.
you moved over so draco could slide in beside you. he laid down all comfy with you laying against his chest and the sound of his heart beat lulling you to sleep. his eyes shutting as well for it had certainly been an exhausting day. 
~to be continued~
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pynkhues · 5 years ago
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5 and 11 from the October prompt list! 🙃
“I might just kiss you.” / “It’s not always like this.” 
+ anon prompt: Alright I know you probably have a bunch of these but I have a prompt for Playing House. Prompt: Rio has a really tough day at work(like real shitty) and Beth senses it even though he tries to put on a brave face for her and the kids. She does/plans something to make him feel special and loved.
(This was actually originally just based on your prompt, @lilliloves, but anon prompted this today and it fit wonderfully, so I hope you both don’t mind sharing!) 
Set in The Centre and Circumference / Domestic Fic universe
(Early-ish. Probably three or four months after I Could Be Your Welcome + See You in the Light)
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There’s blood at his knuckles.  
Ain’t the first time, and he’s sure it won’t be the last, but still – he finds his gaze fixed briefly on it anyway, flexing his hand, feeling the ache in it already. His skin ain’t split though, which means the blood belongs to the guy in front of him, this wiry fuck who’s already spat out two of his teeth on the floor between them, drool oozin’ out of his mouth, so thick with blood it’s almost black, and ain’t that a picture, Rio thinks, resting back into his heels.
His gaze flicks to Demon, and it’s all it takes for him to start rolling the silencer onto his gun.   
“No, please,” Vinny moans, squirming back against the chair, hiccupping, feet leavin’ smears of dirt against the concrete floor of the warehouse. “I’ve got a family, I’ve got kids.”  
And sure, Rio thinks, rolling his head back towards Vinny, keepin’ his face carefully blank. There’s a chill in the air, but Rio ain’t feelin’ it, not in here, not with the heat of the fight still thunderin’ through his veins, not with the righteous fury still boilin’ in his gut because shit, none of them should even be here, none of them would if it wasn’t for Vinny. Rio raises an eyebrow, pulling his expression into a look of faux care.
“Yeah?”  
“Yeah, yes, they - - I have - - my eldest is barely six years old. You know Emily. She’s just started school, she - -”   
“You think about her when you stole my product?” Rio asks, voice lowly drawlin’. “You think about that little girl when you took out the connect?”  
At least that’s enough to shut the fucker up, leave him splutterin’ on his own blood like he’s bein’ waterboarded, and Rio just watches him. Watches the lines of his throat twitch, his blackened eye swelling shut. He remembers getting shawarma with the guy. Remembers beers at Cisco’s. Thinks he might even remember the guy’s daughter for real – blonde, dimpled, all puppy fat cute like one of his sister’s old Cabbage Patch Dolls.  
Mostly though he remembers this fuckin’ trip. Remembers sending this guy, days ago, out to pick up pills from Marta in Canada only to hear that the pills were gone and Marta was dead, and this fuck was nowhere to be found, and shit.  
Marta had kids too.  
“Rio, man, please. I fucked up, I know that, I - -”  
Rio gives Demon the nod.   
*
Demon offers him a cigarette, but Rio shakes his head, pulling his keys out of the back pocket of his jeans as he watches Diego hurl his guts up onto the concrete a few steps away. Kid’s pretty new – can’t be much older than 21, but both Dags and Bullet had vouched for him. Said he was loyal, quiet, got the job done. They’d worked with him on one of their smaller side hustles, and Rio figured what the hell. New blood could be good for the operation. This sorta trial was always good for the new intake too – let them see what waited for ‘em if they got in their egos, if they thought they could pull one over.  
And Rio had been impressed enough. The kid hadn’t complained, had helped get Vinny here, even thrown a few good punches and helped Demon clean the body of any prints or DNA before gettin’ rid of it. The vomitin’ was a good sign too, for a kid this green. Death should matter. Should scare you. It means you treat it serious. Means you ain’t cappin’ people without cause.
It’s what keeps you kickin’.  
“A drink then. Fuck, I need one,” Demon says, and Rio flicks his gaze back to him. “Back to the hotel?”  
And he probably should. Their rooms are already booked, paid for. They’ve been stayin’ there for a few nights – had crossed the border and holed up as soon as Rio had gotten word of Marta, knowin’ just how quick they had to move to pull Vinny out before he could burrow too deep. Knew how quickly this situation needed handlin’.  
Elizabeth hadn’t liked it.  
Had done that thing where she’d tried to come with him – goin’ so far this time as to pack a bag and put it in the trunk of his car, plant herself in the passenger seat, and he’d practically had to drag her outta the thing. It hadn’t been until he’d told her she needed to stay to look after the dealership, the drops, keep business runnin’ that she’d agreed (although she’d still been prickly at that).  
Truth was, it hadn’t just been business – although he couldn’t exactly deny it’d been good not to have to worry about it, to trust her enough to keep it runnin’ smoothly. Hadn’t even just been about the house neither, although it had been about that too. The kids were still gettin’ used to the new house and the new routine after all, especially hers, and he’s learnt fast how quick those seeds of guilt plant in her when it comes to them, knows how easily they grow, how ripe their fruits are, had known how twisted up she’d get herself if anythin’ happened while they were in Canada and the kids were in Detroit with her sister or her friend or - - worse - - that dumbass ex of hers.  
Nah, it wasn’t just that.  
What it was was he didn’t like her on these jobs.  
Didn’t like her reckless ass ignorin’ plans or mouthin’ off, didn’t like her stormin’ into situations like that face and that body was some sort of armor, and, hell, didn’t like none of these guys lookin’ at that face and that body. Didn’t like them seein’ her, didn’t like them standin’ so close to her, didn’t like the fact that he dreamt of it sometimes. That clenched jaw of hers, somebody else’s gun underneath it, somebody who didn’t have anythin’ stoppin’ them from pullin’ the trigger, and just - -  
Shit.  
Rio rubs at his head.  
He does want a drink. 
More than that, he wants a fuck. Wants to release this livewire of tension in him, wants to lose himself in a body underneath him, but the only body he wants is Elizabeth’s, and he could drive home tonight, but that would mean talkin’ to her. Would mean gussyin’ up to her Bambi-eyed interrogation.  
She’d be in her ugly ass pyjamas, he thinks, and the picture of it comes too quickly.  
Probably the ones he hates the most. The cream satin ones with those little orange flowers. Sittin’ up in their bed, nipples hard, pokin’ up through her shirt, those pale cheeks of hers flushed pink, her eyes a little wet, her hair a mess, waitin’, breathless, for him, and - -  
He snorts.  
Who’s he kidding?   
More likely angrily scrubbin’ dishes at 2am and ready to ask him a million questions he don’t wanna answer. 
Shit. 
Marta and Vinny.  
“You know Vinny’s family?” Rio asks, turning back towards Demon, who nods. “Send ‘em the usual?”  
“50g? You wanna send it cash or wire transfer?”  
Rio tilts his head from side-to-side, considering.  
“Cash,” he decides. “Send a hundred to Marta’s. Deliver it in person. We’re gonna need a new connect for the pills.”  
Demon just hums in affirmation, flicking ash off the end of his cigarette, before he says: “I’ll stick around a few days. Get it sorted. Take it this means it’s a no for the drink?”  
Rio blinks, surprised, hadn’t even quite realised that that was what he was doing, but as soon as Demon’s said it, he knows he’s right.  
Thing is, it ain’t even like Elizabeth’s the first woman he’s wanted to lose himself in after bad days, just it’s barely even about fucking her at this point. Just - - he wants to bury himself in her until she’s all he can smell, until the taste of her skin is hot on his tongue, until he’s close enough to her he can count her eyelashes, and shit, that ain’t a thought he’s used to. Ain’t even one he’s particularly comfortable with.  
Just - - he thinks of another cold night in the hotel alone and tense, and then thinks about bein’ home instead, thinks of her asleep, thinks of not wakin’ her to postpone her questions and the inevitable argument, thinks of crawlin’ into bed beside her, layin’ his head on her breast, the softness of her beneath him remindin’ him of all the ways he ain’t, her heartbeat fluttering beneath his ear, the way, only half awake, she runs her nails down his scalp, the way she smooths her too-smooth fingers at the base of his neck, and it’s urgent suddenly. The need in him.  
He could be there in two hours.  
“Call me tomorrow, yeah? Let me know how you go? Keep Diego with you. Show ‘im the ropes.”  
Demon makes an acknowledging gesture with his hand, and Rio heads out into the night.  
The house is dark when he pulls up, the only light comin’ from the back porch because Elizabeth swears it makes her feel safe (like the half a million dollar security system he bought doesn’t), and it means she’s not expecting him. Means she might actually be asleep. Means maybe she took him seriously for a change when he told her to stop waitin’, stop callin’, that he’d back when it was over.  
He slips into the house, disarming the security system and beelining for the laundry. He kicks his shoes off, washes his face, his bruised hands in the sink, before filling it to soak his bloodied clothes in, adding the disinfectant from the cupboard, and stripping off to his boxer briefs there and then. It had been at Elizabeth’s insistence the first time he’d done this that they add the lock to the laundry room door, just to keep the kids out, and he’s glad for it now, for the ability to leave his shirt there, reddening the water, without worry.  
Running a hand over his face, he grabs a pair of sweats and a t-shirt from the pile of clean laundry in the basket, steps out, fixes himself a drink at the bar cart in the living room, finishes it there alone, trying to steady his hands, his breath, to calm his frayed nerves before he allows himself the comfort of bein’ beside her. Tries to wrestle out of the maw of the last few days, of Vinny’s slack jaw and Marta in a body bag, scrubbing briefly at his face and finishing the last of his drink before starting up the stairs towards bed.  
There’s somethin’ to be said there about the moonlight through the window, the too soft glow of the night outside of here, softening everything in its path, and Elizabeth is right there in the middle of it, curled up on her side in their bed, her hair fanned out against their pillows, bags beneath her eyes like she hasn’t slept well in days, which - - fuck, somethin’ in him twists at the thought, but then – right there, nestled into her chest, is Marcus.  
It’s enough to make Rio stop in the doorway, dig his arm into the doorframe, enough it might leave a mark, enough it pinches. He should leave him, he thinks, slide into bed beside ‘em and leave it be, but then - -  
Vinny’s blood is thick on his hands tonight, the weight of him heavy on his back, and he needs Marcus just - - away from it. Away from him, at least until the mornin’ comes, at least until he’s had the time to put this night behind him, to wash the stench of it off, and shit, he thinks, almost crawling out of his skin, leg jittery with tension beneath him. This ain’t somethin’ to be shared, not with him.  
He strides quietly over to the bed, gently tugging his son out of Elizabeth’s arms, relieved more than anything when Marcus comes easily. He lifts him up, carrying him quietly down the hall and flipping on the light to his bedroom. It’s neat at least, which makes it easy to take him down, to flip over the sheets of his bed and lower his son into them. His head’s barely hit the pillow when suddenly big, dark eyes are bein’ turned on him, the kid’s little mouth fallin’ open like a spell.  
“Daddy?”  
“Go to sleep, pop,” Rio hums, and when Marcus tries to sit up, he gently pushes him back down.  
“You’re home!”  
“Nuh, but I will be tomorrow. You’re dreamin’ right now, yeah?” he keeps his voice low, dulcet, brushes his hands through Marcus’ hair, tucking him back down beneath the covers. “Faster you fall asleep, faster you’ll wake up, faster I’ll be home.”  
And he doesn’t think the kid really believes it, but still, Marcus hums sleepily, happily, back at him, his eyes driftin’ shut again and Rio just - - watches him. Watches the rise and fall of his chest and the flutter of his eyelashes and he thinks how easily he could never see it again, like Marta won’t, like Vinny, and just - - shit.
He rubs a hand hard over the back of his head.
Not worth thinkin’ about now, he tells himself, slipping back out of his bedroom and heading back towards his own. It’s only then that the exhaustion really catches up with him – hits him square between the shoulders like somethin’ out of a cartoon, and he swipes at his forehead as he heads back towards their bed, gaze only flicking up to see Elizabeth sleepin’ soundly, the soft curve of her body like an invitation, and his eyes travel too easily down her, from her peaceful face to the arc of her shoulder and the dip of her waist, the long trail of her legs and - - he just - -  
Stops.  
There’s a lump at the foot of their bed, tangled up in the sheets, and Rio steps slowly towards it, eyeing off the mound of it when the lump squirms back suddenly, and shit, Rio thinks. He rolls his eyes, reaches for the blankets, lifting it just in time to see Jane peer back up at him, dubby in her fist, her little face scrunched up, half hidden in a bunny rabbit onesie and it must be a hand-me-down from Emma, because she’s swimmin’ in it.  
“’ey,” he hums, and Jane blinks up at him, bright eyed, before she pants like a dog, wiggles her butt, goes to bark, but Rio frowns, pushes a finger to his lips and jerks his head to where Elizabeth is sleeping. 
“Don’t wake your mama up. C’mon.”  
He holds his hands out for her to leap into, only she pulls her face into a little scowl, shaking her head.  
“No,” Jane growls, and Rio rolls his eyes again, frustration sparking in his belly.  
“I ain’t playin’, darlin’, c’mon. It’s way past bedtime.”  
And Jane just - - shit, she sticks out her tongue, and Rio exhales sharply, feels the stress of the day and the exhaustion of tonight press hard at his temples, but he smooths out his expression as best he can, reachin’ over to her, only she’s trying to tangle herself up in her mother’s legs, and Jesus, Elizabeth must be real tired if this don’t even wake her. Before Jane can get herself too wrapped up, Rio moves closer, pluckin’ her out of bed by the back of her onesie and pulling her unceremoniously away from Elizabeth.  
He intends to lift her straight up into his arms and walk her to bed like he’d just done Marcus, but Jane starts thrashin’ the second she’s in the air, and shit, Rio grunts and then he’s gotta loosen his grip or he might accidentally hurt her, but loosenin’ his grip only serves to make Jane spring off the bed and sprint down the hallway in a flurry of pink fleece and animal ears. Behind him, Elizabeth stirs, and Rio’s head whips around, waiting for her to resettle before he moves quietly to the doorway. Jane’s standing at the top of the stairs, her little face peering out from beneath her bunny rabbit hood, and Rio frowns at her, gesturing his head to her bedroom.  
Jane shakes her own head furiously in reply, and Rio exhales sharply, stepping out into the hallway, unsurprised when Jane retaliates by clutching at the railing and starting down the stairs, and shit, he thinks, picking up his step. The booties on her pyjamas are so big she’s gonna trip herself up, tumble head-first over them. He moves quickly enough to grab her underneath the arms and when she starts to yelp and thrash again, he spins her quickly in his arms, until they’re practically nose-to-nose.  
“What’d you want?” he asks her, staring her down, because shit, his nerves ain’t here for tantrums tonight, and Jane just looks back at him, long and hard, little jaw rockin’, and this kid really is somethin’ else, and as much as he hates to admit it, if he were in a better mood, he might be amused.  
“Special drink,” Jane settles on, and Rio arches an eyebrow at her, about to tell her it ain’t the time, but then - - shit, Elizabeth’s concoction of milk heated on the stove, honey, cloves and cinnamon really does seem to knock ‘em out. Maybe he can ground in a Nyquil to help. 
“Then you go to your bed?”  
Jane nods, and Rio does too, resignedly pushing her onto his hip and taking the stairs two at a time until he hits the bottom. He thinks about just depositing Jane on the couch, lettin’ her watch somethin’ bland and g-rated on the TV, but then he doesn’t really trust her not to sneak up the stairs, back beneath Elizabeth’s arm, and if she gets there again, Rio’s knows he’s gonna be subjectin’ himself to the couch.  
So he deposits her on a stool at the kitchen island instead, glancing around the kitchen only to stop when he spots the pot on the stove and the spice packets already on the bench. He walks over, grabbing the pot and looking at the thin rim of milk build-up cooked into the sides of it.  
“Looks like your mama already made special drink,” he says, rinsing out the pot and Jane just shakes her head. 
“She made it for Marcus, not me,” Jane tells him. “She always makes it, so it’s not special anymore. It’s just regular drink.” 
Rio arches an eyebrow, glancing back at her.  
“That right?” he asks. “But it’s special drink when I make it?”  
“Yup.”  
And shit, she might be right. He ain’t ever made it before, and at least the fact that Elizabeth’s already made it for Marcus tonight means the ingredients are there for him. He racks his head for the steps, for the muscle memory of havin’ watched her make this thing a million times before, and - - right, milk on the stove. He grabs a jug from the fridge.  
“Your hand looks funny.”  
Rio glances over at Jane as he moves to flick the stove on, that damn blanket of hers half shoved in her mouth, the floppy rabbit ears of her hood hangin’ down past her shoulder. He looks at his hand and the bruises really are bad – a dark, bloomin’ purple that he knows will only stiffen over the next few days. Will swell and throb and he resists the urge to shake it out.  
“Yeah?” he asks, and Jane rocks her head from side-to-side, considering.  
“It’s like when I felled over. Did you felled over?”  
“Fall,” he corrects, and when he looks over at her, Jane’s blinking at him in confusion, her blue eyes wide, her lips parted. He clarifies: “Did you fall over? Not felled, darlin’.”  
“Did you fall over?” Jane echoes, and Rio turns back to the milk on the stove, reaching for the cinnamon. He looks at his knuckles as he shakes in the spice, and wonders if he should’ve worn gloves, somethin’ that might’ve covered them from view.   
“Somethin’ like that,” he replies, capping the spice cannister, and it takes Jane a minute to reply, like she’s processin’ it, workin’ out what she want to say, and Rio lets her, his gaze fixed down on the way the cinnamon turns the colour of the milk, brownin’ it up. He blinks and sees the cinnamon, he blinks and he sees the blood on Vinny’s pale cheek.
He grabs the packet of cloves.   
“Is that why you went away?”  
Shit, how much of this stuff does Elizabeth usually put in? He shoves a finger into the packet of cloves, nudging them around, and finally scoops out a handful, watchin’ them bob around in the milk.
“What’d your mama say?”  
“That you had to work.”  
“Your mama ever lied to you?”  
“No.”  
“So I was workin’,” he tells her easily, glancing back around to look at her, and it ain’t exactly sudden, seein’ Emily in Jane’s place, propped up at the kitchen island, but it still takes him by surprise, makes him rock his jaw, jerk his head away, try to focus on the simmer of the milk and the sound of Jane’s feet, thumpin’ against the chair.
Jane ain’t Emily, she ain’t gonna lose a parent to this. She - 
“When my daddy goes away for work, he brings us presents home,” Jane says, and Rio snorts.
Okay, maybe she’ll lose one parent to this. Rio can’t exactly say he’s keepin’ Dean off any lists. Shit, might be addin’ him to a few. (Not really, although - - he ain’t rulin’ it out). Still, he shifts his weight back, grabbing a spoon to scoop in some honey.  
“Yeah? Like what?”  
“Like candy or dollies.”  
The honey oozes off the spoon into the milk, like Vinny’s bloodied drool to the concrete floor, and Rio’s voice is duller than he means when he says:
“Huh. Why you think he do that?”  
Jane pauses, and the question must surprise her, her little mouth hangin’ open for a moment, until she shoves the dubby in it instead. Rio has to resist the urge to tug it out, had made that mistake only a few weeks after movin’, had had to endure Jane’s hysterics and Beth’s frustration (“She only started doing it after Dean moved out, it comforts her, just - - leave it, please.”)   
“I don’t know,” Jane replies now around a mouthful of blanket, and Rio hums, grabbing her sippy cup off the strainer and pouring in the milk, making sure it’s not too hot in the process. He puts the top on, and glances at her, considering. He could just give it to her here, but in the end he holds up his hands, and Jane moves easily into them this time, lets him carry her to the couch, lets him hold her as he flops down on it, her body sideways in his lap, cradled in his arms like he’d do when Marcus was a toddler, like he still does sometimes, when he’s sick or needy.  
And it’s funny, coz Jane fits like Marcus used to. Kid had a growth spurt recently after all, overtakin’ even Emma, and it all serves to make Jane all the tinier. Like her aunt, Rio thinks, briefly amused, then – more so, huffing out a laugh – like her mama when she finally pulls her pumps off at the end of the night.
(How big are Marta’s kids? Does he even know?)
“Order’s up,” he tells Jane, passing her the cup and letting her wriggle up until she’s practically using his arm as a hammock, her legs sprawled out across his own. She takes a generous drink only to reel slightly up.  
“Yuck,” she says, spluttering, and Rio groans looking down at her, grabbing the cup and taking a sip, only to cough because shit - - it’s bad. Way too much cinnamon, enough it tastes almost like ash in his mouth, and maybe he’ll just leave it out entirely this time. Can’t fuck up just milk and honey, can he? He moves to get up, to make another, when Jane suddenly snatches at the cup again, clutching the sippy to her chest before shoving the nozzle back into her mouth. “No, I like it.”  
And figures, Rio thinks, arching an eyebrow down at her as she wriggles back against his chest, sucking on the sippy cup, her eyes already half-lidded. He feels his own lids drop too, like they’re playin’ some game of Simon Says (go to sleep), and he could almost doze himself when Jane reaches the hand not holdin’ the cup out to his. She pushes out a tiny pointer finger and taps him on each of his bruised knuckles and he just - - watches her do it. Watches this scrap of Elizabeth play the hand he broke Vinny’s jaw with like a piano.
“Marcus and mommy are upset at you,” she says suddenly, half muffled around the sippy cup, and Rio’s gaze shifts from their hands to her face, but she ain’t lookin’ at him. She’s lookin’ at their hands, and after a minute, he sighs.
“I know,” he tells her. “They don’t like it when I gotta go away like that. I don’t like it neither, but sometimes I just gotta.”  
Jane sucks the nozzle back into her mouth, staring up at him now, her eyes unblinkin’, and he always thinks it’s her sister that looks most like Elizabeth, but this one doesn’t go without, not with the steadiness of her gaze and the set to her jaw.
“It’s three,” she tells him, and Rio blinks down at her.
“What’s three?”  
“Three times you gone away.”  
Whatever he was expecting, it wasn’t that, and Rio stares at her, unblinking now, as Jane holds up her hand.
“Just after we moved here,” she ticks it off on her fingers. “Then the other time, now this time. That’s three.”  
And shit, she ain’t wrong. He mostly thought Jane barely noticed. Not like anyone would ever mistake her for the most perceptive of Elizabeth’s kids (not that any of ‘em really are), but Jane’s all energy and distraction and shit. He’s been busy. He’s always busy, and Marcus has never liked it. Never liked the fact that sometimes he just gotta move, gotta bring things back, gotta handle things, but - -  
“It’s not always like this,” he says, and Jane looks up at him, and there are too many expressions that pass over her round little face – disbelief and childish frustration until it finally settles on somethin’ else, somethin’ softer, less certain, somethin’ he ain’t seen on her face, at least not somethin’ he’s seen directed at him.  
“You didn’t say bye,” she says finally, her voice small, and Rio exhales, annoyed.  
“I did, darlin’,” because he did. Shit, got to fight about it with Elizabeth and leave Marcus red faced and weepy, made sure of that, but then - -  
He looks at Jane and any self-righteousness dies on his tongue.
“Not to you though, huh?” he says softly, and Jane shuffles back into his arm, presses her forehead into his chest, out of sight, the nozzle of the sippy cup sucked into her mouth like a bottle, keeps herself looking away from him, and Rio exhales. He looks down at his bruised hands, then at her feet, where the booties of her onesie hang limply down the side of the couch, her feet lost somewhere in the legs of the thing, the hood of it hangin’ so far down her face it almost covers her eyes, and he reaches up to tug it back, just enough he can see her.  
“’m sorry. Think maybe I’m still gettin’ used to this,” he says, because he hadn’t said goodbye to any of Elizabeth’s kids. Had trusted her to do it for him, had treated them like they were just a part of her, but - -
They ain’t.
They’re - -
Well.
Fuck.
Jane looks up at him, her eyes a little glassy and just - - he ain’t sure what that is, the feelin’ in his gut, hollowing itself out. “Can you be the first one I say hey to instead?”  
She makes a show of turnin’ it over, her squirming against his chest and drinkin’ that goddamn awful drink he’s made her, but then she nods, and Rio tugs on one of her rabbit ears.  
“’ey, Jane,” he says quietly. “You been good for your mama while I been gone?”    
And she grins a little at that, shakes her head into his chest again, giggling before she can stop herself, and Rio smiles too, but rolls his eyes.  
“Yeah, that’s what I thought.”  
He almost reaches out to her, but before he gets the chance to, Jane wriggles up his body, curls her arms around his neck, and Rio leans down, scooping her up closer, feeling her collapse sleepily into his chest, still slurping at that drink, and hell if that ain’t commitment. He exhales a laugh, dropping a hand to her back, and it practically takes up the width of it, and he can’t say what he feels, feelin’ the rise and fall of her chest against his, her snufflin’ breaths against his shoulder.
And it’s hard enough, but then he exhales and he hears Vinny’s last one, and his hand tightens on her back, and he just - -
Needs to put her to bed.
Needs her safe and happy and dreamin’ of her mama and Paw Patrol and out of his nightmares, and when he stands up this time, starts up the stairs, when he finally does put her to bed, she don’t make a sound.
And then just, tuckin’ her in - - all his energy’s gone, sapped out of him, and any jittery tension he’d needed to lose has gone cold in his chest, left him pulled thin and stretched out, and shit, he thinks, rubbing furiously at his forehead, it’s just - -
Just is, he reminds himself.
There wasn’t a way around it. Not a way that’d keep him and his safe.   
And he can do this for his ma, he can do it for his sisters, he can do it for his son.
Can do it for Elizabeth and her kids too.
Can - - he exhales, leavin’ the thought alone, pulling his hand away from his face, grabbin’ the sippy cup from Jane’s iron grip instead and droppin’ it to her bedside table so it don’t soak through her sheets, flickin’ on her nightlight before slipping out of her room.
And it figures, that Elizabeth would be awake now, when he finally gets back to their (freshly) childfree bedroom, her blue eyes blinkin’ sleepily back at him, from her - -
Nah, he realises, his pillow.
“You put the kids to bed?” she whispers, pushing herself up onto her elbow, and Rio nods stripping off his t-shirt, arching his back, hearing it crack.
“You’re home earlier than I thought you’d be,” she adds, and Rio nods, padding over to the bed. He should leave his sweats on, knows he should, but for whatever reason, he can’t quite make himself. Just wants to be rid of them, rid of his underwear, rid of all of it. Wants to shower, but doesn’t have the energy to, so instead he just strips everythin’ off, sliding into bed beside Elizabeth.  
She doesn’t complain for a change, doesn’t squawk or pout or nag him to put his clothes back on. She just watches him, her blue eyes too clear, her features drawn.  
“Is it done?” she asks, and Rio sighs.  
“Would I be home if it weren’t?”  
It’s sharper than he means it to be and she looks a little wounded, and Rio exhales, because shit, he’s the one who don’t want this fight. Just looks at her for a moment, and it ain’t fair, that she can look this sweet, that her eyes and her body can sing like a siren in the night, callin’ for him across borders, across countries, callin’ him home, and he reaches a hand to touch her face because he wants to - - needs to feel her, but shit, it was the wrong move, because she’s gaspin’, grabbin’ his hand instead, a high-pitched sound escaping her throat when she sees how bruised it is.  
“Let me see it.”  
He yanks his hand out of her grip, curling it around her waist instead, pulling her beneath him, entangling their legs, hidin’ his hand half up her pyjama shirt.  
“Are you hurt?” she asks, and he can tell she wants to squirm out of his grip, to try and flip ‘em over so she can look at him properly, find somethin’ to nurse, but she ain’t got a clue how hurt he actually is, so won’t do it, and for once, he don’t want to correct her.  
“Keep askin’ questions and I might just have to kiss you,” he drawls, the to shut you up implied as he nestles his face into her chest, nosing between the buttons on her pyjama shirt so forcefully that the tip of it brushes the inner curve of her breast, inhaling deeply the faint smell of sweat and peach bodywash and that smell beneath it all that’s just her.  
“You say that like it’s a threat,” she replies, the words light, jokin’, but her tone ain’t real, and he knows she’d let him, but he also knows she don’t want him to. That she’d give him sex tonight like a gift, and that’s not how he wants this, not with her, not now. He just - -
Shit, he just wants to hold her, but he don’t know how the fuck to say that.
She inhales above him, a little wet, a little damp, like she might be cryin’ a bit, and she says, “Rio, what – ”  
He sucks in a breath, clenches his eyes shut, hand tightening on her waist.
“Not tonight, darlin’,” he says, his voice hoarse, cutting her off, and then - - because how can he say the rest of it? He just says: “Please.”  
The word hangs between them, and then it’s those too-soft fingers of hers, pressin’ tentatively to the back of his neck, and he exhales, harsh and wet against her breast, sinking his head heavily down against her chest, his mouth open as her fingers firm there and he knows she’ll be back on this shit tomorrow, that he’ll have to tell her somethin’, that he’ll have to make sure that money gets to Marta’s kids and to Vinny’s, that the compensation will be nothin’ but he lets Elizabeth massage the guilt out of his neck for now and finally he lets his eyelids flutter shut.   
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Episode 14 (Part 2): To Alexandria
The trip takes a detour.
It seemed like forever; forever that Paul’s worst fears were coming true. Before, they had the numbers, but now, it was just the three of them versus a whole caravan full of Brad and his men.
Daryl’s arms being around him helped a little, but it didn’t stop him from shaking like a leaf. The idea of what they could do…
Finally, finally, they threw a bucket of water over the small fire and the last tent zipped closed.
“C’mon,” Daryl said, “We’ll get far enough then we’re gonna call for a ride, ain’t in no shape the be walkin’ like ya are.”
Paul didn’t say anything. Normally he’d protest them trying to take care of him, but right now he just wanted to get behind the walls of any community.
Coming out was a mistake. He should have just stayed at the Hilltop.
He slowly got out from under the truck after Aaron, Daryl following behind him, a hand on his back as he did.
Paul looked at the truck sadly, hoping they’d see it again. It had been their little family’s official car for a long time. He just hoped the Free Men didn’t pick it for parts or hot wire it during the night.
“Let’s go, knives out,” Aaron whispered, “We can’t risk making noise with guns, but we can’t be unarmed,” he said as they started walking.
“We’ll find the next mile marker and call for help,” Daryl agreed, taking out his knife and spinning it in his hand, his other hand tightly gripping the back of Paul’s duster.
They walked in silence for a while, the only thing that they heard was the occasional mud squelching under their boots and Paul’s quick breathing.
Daryl jogged up when he saw the mile marker and took the radio from his belt, switching it on, “This is Daryl Dixon, calling to Alexandria.”
There was silence for a moment, just the radio static.
“Daryl? This is Rosita, what’s up?” she asked over the line.
“We’re gonna need a ride for three out at mile mark two, we had to abandon our truck,” Daryl said, “There’s a caravan of Free Men headed in this direction, their leader included.”
“Uh…” Rosita trailed off in shock, “I’ll pass that along. You sure you wanna come here?”
“Ain’t got much of a choice,” Daryl said, glancing over at Paul, “We ain’t gonna make it back ta Hilltop on foot, not tonight.”
Rosita hesitated for a moment, “Rick’s awake, his lights still on, I’m going to send him.”
Daryl just grunted a quick “thanks” before switching the radio off. He sat down on the ground, leaving both Aaron and Paul standing. Aaron soon followed, then Paul finally took his place between them, leaning heavily on Aaron.
Aaron quickly put his arm around Paul, pulling him closer, “We should have never come out here,” he whispered, rubbing Paul’s shoulder.
Daryl glanced over at the two of them, staying silent as he looked out at the field in the dark, resting his elbows on his knees as he waited.
“I don’t want to leave again, once we get back,” Paul told Aaron quietly, “Is that okay?”
“That’s fine,” Aaron said, kissing his head, “However long you need...we can stay inside forever, if you want.”
“I want Lydia ta live with us,” Daryl spoke up, “We been talkin’ about that new house...I want her ta have a room there.”
Both Paul and Aaron looked up.
“Isn’t that something we should all decide together?” Aaron asked quietly, “Daryl, you know how I feel-”
“I know,” Daryl cut him off, “But you’re over there makin’ plans to stay inside forever and hide from the world without even askin’ what I think, so I figured I’d get a free pass for her,” he snapped before looking out at the field again.
“Daryl, hey…” Aaron trailed off, but there were already lights coming up and over the hill, on a speeding Jeep.
“Ride’s here,” Daryl said simply, helping Paul up and putting his hands on his shoulders, “Ya ain’t done nothin’ wrong, I ain’t mad at you, ya hear?”
Paul just nodded slowly.
“He’s disassociating,” Aaron commented, “I noticed it a while back.”
“I know,” Daryl said quietly, “Gotta get ‘im somewhere safe before we can do anything for that,” he said, waving down his brother’s Jeep.
“Rosita told me what happened,” Rick said as he screeched to a halt, “Ya’ll okay?”
“He’s a little out of it, but physically, we’re okay,” Aaron said, helping Paul into the back, “Do you have any blankets back there?”
“Nah, sorry, we were in the middle of cleaning things out when ya called,” Rick said, starting to drive again as soon as the three of them crammed in the back.
“Is my old house here still empty?” Aaron asked, looking up at Rick through the mirror.
“Yeah, left everything where ya did too,” Rick said, “There’s some plastic over the furniture in the livin’ room ta keep it up and a sheet over the bed upstairs, but we got in from time ta time and check it over, make sure everything still runs right. I can get ya the key from the gate, if ya wanna stay there.”
“That’ll work,” Aaron said quietly, glancing up at the radio, “I know it isn’t that loud, but do you mind turning that off? Uh...people with sensory issues from PTSD sometimes feel overstimulated, Paul specifically doesn’t like too many noises.”
Rick didn’t say much, just nodded and reached down, turning the radio off as he focused on the road ahead.
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“Need anything else?” Aaron asked, sitting on the edge of the bed, smoothing Paul’s hair out of his face.
“I’m good,” Paul said quietly, “I really just want to go to sleep. Can you call Maggie and let her know we’re okay?”
“I will,” Aaron said, leaning down and kissing his head, “We’re going to go talk to Rick, don’t hesitate to yell if you need anything.”
Paul nodded, smiling up at him, “Thank you,” he said quietly, before turning over, his back to him.
Aaron got up and walked to where Daryl was leaning in the doorway, watching them. He grabbed his hand, pulling him away, and his boyfriend closed the door behind him.
“We should talk,” Aaron said quietly.
Daryl just grunted, following after him.
They both sat down in the living room, side by side on the old couch.
“Coming out here was a mistake,” Aaron said quietly.
“Nah, it wasn’t,” Daryl snorted, “Ya know Paul...ya know after he gets over what...this is, he’ll be out runnin’ around again.”
“But he needs time to get over this,” Aaron told him, “He just can’t flip a switch and act like it’s okay. This was too much all at once.”
“He ain’t a damn child,” Daryl snapped, “Quit treatin’ ‘im like one!”
“I’d like it if I could just make my own decisions, thank you.”
They both looked up and saw Paul standing at the bottom of the steps, messing with his hands awkwardly.
“I thought you were going to sleep,” Aaron said quietly.
“Like you said, we should talk,” Paul walked over, sitting down between them, “I appreciate the two of you taking care of me when I was like that...so thank you,” he cleared his throat, “But we all know that I love it out here.”
“See?” Daryl snorted.
“But I’m also going to need time,” Paul added, “This feeling...all the anxiety, every time I step foot outside these walls...it isn’t going to go away, not for a while. I honestly don’t know if it’ll ever fully go away,” he admitted, “But I can’t become a hermit inside our trailer.”
Daryl just nodded slowly, Aaron as well.
“And I think it would be nice for Lydia to live with us after we have the new house,” Paul added, “It’s something we’d have to discuss further. But she’s a teenage girl, she doesn’t need to be staying on our couch with absolutely no privacy. She needs somewhere where she’ll have her own space; right now she has that at Barrington. I know you two want to be closer, but it’s more practical for her to stay at Barrington until the house is built.”
Daryl just huffed, putting his head on his shoulder, “When’d ya become the logical one?”
“Always have been,” Paul smiled slightly, kissing him on the head, “And it was very brave of you to come here...I really appreciate how far you’d go for me.”
Daryl just grunted, feeling his cheeks heat up a little bit.
“Now,” Paul said, “If there’s nothing else to talk about, we should go to bed. I want to get back to Hilltop tomorrow before too late.”
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samraclaus · 8 years ago
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Do all of them pls💜💜 I think ur really cool!
omg whoever you are thank you!!! I’m aggressively not cool tho 
1.) what’s a song you depict with your childhood?
Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride or Beauty and the Beast2.) did you have a memorable childhood pet?
Ina, my tiny jack russell terrier that ran away ://
3.) have you ever been drunk?
yeah4.) have you ever tried drugs?
yeah5.) have you ever completely regretted what you’ve said?
oh yeah, i always sad dumb things to people
6.) have you ever made someone cry?
uhhh I think my mom when she was being overdramatic7.) has someone ever made you cry?
definitely, a lot of people8.) have you ever been in love? if so, describe the moment you knew it. 
uhhhhh idk what that really means tbh but maybe?? if im gonna talk about this specific person then I guess I realized when I started telling him everything and actually wanting to be around him all the time since that doesn’t happen to me9.) which came first the chicken or the egg?
uhhhhh this is hard10.) are you part of the lgbtq+ community? do you support them?
yeh, I’m bisexual and of course I support them!!11.) how many siblings do you have?
just one! Nanners :)))12.) have you ever been in love with someone you couldn’t love?
Yeah, I guess13.) are you a good cook?
Yes!14.) what is your favorite tv show?
Probably Lost or Pretty Little Liars cause I’m trash15.) what is the last movie you cried during?
probably Finding Dory lmao16.) what are songs you’ve cried to when you first heard them? (if any)
I don’t think any tbh but almost this song Erin showed me senior year called Somewhere Only We Know 17.) do you have a middle name?
nope18.) have you been out of your country?
yes!! I’ve been to Bosnia and a couple places in Europe but only in airports19.) are you a chocolate fan or not?
YES20.) how many people have you kissed?
just one21.) what is your favorite album?
tbh probably Lines Vines and Trying Times by the Jonas Brothers lmao22.) what is your dream car?
an SUV or like a Spark 23.) what is your lucky/favorite number?
6!!!24.) what is your favorite flower?
daisy maybe25.) books or movies, why?
It depends, I really love books but movies are really nice to look at26.) have you ever been on a blind date?
nooooo27.) has one of your friends ever backstabbed you?
kinda yeah28.) have you ever backstabbed one of your friends?
ugh yes and I regret it so much29.) what thing do you symbolize love with?
music30.) do you have neat handwriting? 
depends on how fast I’m writing31.) do you have a friend with benefits?
nooooo32.) do you want a friend with benefits?
nooooo33.) if you could be anything in the world, what would you be?
probably a teacher or a traveler34.) have you ever been blackout drunk?
kinda35.) have you ever met someone famous?
yeah, it was a Bosnian singer in a band36.) how many concerts have you been to?
only a handful, I’m not big on concerts unless they’re kinda chill37.) which concerts have you been to?
I’ve been to a few Fall Out Boy concerts when I was into them, I’ve been to music festivals, Jesse Mccartney, and other ones I can’t think of right now38.) do you have a hidden talent?
I can draw/ paint but I don’t ever show anyone. And a lot of people think I’m a really good singer??? (I’m not being that guy that really aggressively cant sing and pretends I can)39.) what do you do when you’re stressed?
take a walk and sometimes cry40.) do you think money can buy love?
no, at least not for me41.) how old would you date?
probably 2142.) have you ever done something illegal?
yes43.) what is your biggest fear?
heights, open ocean, squids, caterpillars, what happens after death44.) what is an unusual fear you have?
squids lmao45.) can you drive?
sadly not yet but when I did drive a couple times I was good46.) do you believe in supernatural creatures?
yes47.) do you believe in karma?
kinda48.) what is one quality you need in your partner?
to make me laugh and not be very affectionate, I’m not into that49.) do looks matter?
kinda sadly50.) does size matter?
not really but unless someone is literally dying from their size or severely unhealthy it’s cool51.) who is the last person you forgave?
I have no idea tbh52.) what is your favorite ice cream flavor?
coffee and superman53.) what languages can you speak besides english? 
Bosnian, (Serbian and Croatian basically cause they’re so similar)54.) ever been on a plane?
yes sadly55.) ever been on a boat? 
yes sadly56.) is there anyone you’ve lost touch with that you wish you hadn’t? 
yeah sadly57.) are there any friendships you regret?
oh yes58.) are there any friendships you wish you could make?
YES59.) have you ever stayed awake for 24 (+) hours?
yes60.) have you ever walked outside after 12 am?
so many times61.) have you ever seen a sunrise completely through?
yes! my friends and I stayed out all night on the first day of this semester and watched the sunrise62.) are you scared of rollercoasters? 
very but I’ve never been on one63.) on a scale of 1-10 how stressed are you usually?
6-10 :)))64.) do you have any plans this weekend?
probably not, I just wanna chill 65.) do you miss anyone right now?
my family but I get to see them tomorrow66.) who do you wish you were talking to right now?
idk socializing is too much work67.) if you could have any superpower, what would it be?
read minds or fly68.) who is your favorite superhero?
Black Widow or Captain America69.) are you dirty minded?
noooo70.) what is your favorite song from every decade starting at that 80’s?
80s: Karma Chameleon by Boy George
90s: Don’t Speak by No Doubt
2000s: Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson (it makes me emotional cause of the Princess Diaries)71.) how many kids, if any, do you want?
probably 272.) who is your biggest OTP?
idk my parents lmao73.) what is your favorite food?
chocolate or bread tbh74.) do you want to be married one day?
yeah, maybe75.) dogs or cats?
dogs!!76.) do you drink enough water daily?
nope, I wish77.) have you ever seen a shooting star?
nope78.) if you had the opportunity to go to the moon, would you?
no, space is scary79.) how many best friends do you have?
only a handful80.) when was the last time you cried?
Last week yikes 81.) have you ever laughed so hard you peed yourself?
YES82.) have you ever made anyone laugh so hard they peed?
YES83.) if you could travel any where in the world, where would you go?
Italy!!84.) what are 3 words you would use to describe yourself?
friendly, weird, average85.) do you consider yourself a loyal person?
yes86.) what is your favorite season and why?
definitely fall cause it’s the perfect weather and my style fits with it the most
87.) have you ever told anyone you loved them, and didn’t mean it?
yes88.) do you know how to play any instruments?
I used to play the piano and the violin89.) do like like falling asleep to music or not?
yeah, soft music90.) what are you allergic to?
grass 91.) have you ever wanted to be someone else for a day just so you could see what there life is like?
yeah, someone really pretty like Selena Gomez or someone really think like Lily Collins92.) if you could be any character from your favorite tv show would you, and if so, who would you be?
I can’t think of anyone rn93.) if you could be best friends with any celebrity who would it be and why?
Lily Collins cause she’s such a cool person94.) are you outgoing?
only around my family95.) have you ever wanted to kiss someone, but weren’t brave enough to?
yes96.) are you a good flirt?
nope lmao I don’t even try. Flirting is gross97.) have you ever been turned down, or have you ever turned anyone down?
both :))))98.) which planet is your favorite?
Pluto B)99.) are you superstitious?
very100.) are you a good listener? 
yes101.) are you a good kisser
????????102.) would you kiss any of your friends?
nah
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Cloudy With A Chance
Part 11: …of Apple Pi.
Masterlist
Maybe in a movie Jiwon would’ve kissed Hanbin as they walked along the Han River after the Exhibition. Maybe they would’ve linked hands nervously and heard 90s RnB music playing faintly in the distance as a light breeze ruffles through Hanbin’s hair.
But none of that actually happens. Out of the corner of his eye, Jiwon saw the moment come….then he watched it go, floating away with an apologetic shrug.
He’s okay with it. They’re hungry, tired and uncomfortable in their clothes so instead of being in a movie they sit under the bridge in untucked shirts and rolled up sleeves, passing plates of food and bubble tea between them, talking easily about rap songs, tattoo plans and how to deal with the fact that Donghyuk politely threatened him at the gallery (answer: when the time comes, move to Mexico if grovelling and bribery don’t work.)
There were too many people around for them to do anything else but even when they were alone, nothing happened. Even when he gets caught staring at Hanbin’s mouth as it sucks on the straw. Even with the dim light offering some cover. Even then, with the opportunity flashing at him in neon lights, nothing happened. He just took an extra big mouthful of chocolate waffle as Hanbin smiled around his straw.
But it’s okay. It’s okay, he tells himself. It will happen when it happens.
He tries not to be too disappointed when they don’t kiss goodnight either. Instead, he watches Hanbin stumble out the car, dragging his black blazer haphazardly behind him and yawning repeatedly.
“Thanks for tonight. It was good.” Hanbin says through the car window. “Maybe the next time we hang out there will be less people around though?”
“With less interrogations and threats?” He adds.
“Yeah.”
“Next time it’ll just be me and you.”
“Okay.” Hanbin yawns as he leans heavily against the passenger window. “I better go, otherwise I’ll just sleep in your car.”
Jiwon honestly wouldn’t even mind but he knows it’s probably a bit too early for that sort of thing.
“Go. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”
Hanbin nods and rubs his eyes. It’s a move that makes him look much younger than his 25 years and Jiwon gets the urge to hug him to his chest. The fiery Hanbin is all smart words and sharp teeth that sink into his skin without mercy but the tired, sad and vulnerable Hanbin is something that scares him, not because he can’t handle it (he knows he can) but because it reaches down into his core and drags all of his protective instincts to the surface. He’d probably follow Hanbin straight into Hell if he asked him to and run twice as fast if he didn’t.
“Okay. Well, Goodnight. Thanks for the ride. Drive safely.”
“Night. Sleep well.”
Hanbin waves as he walks towards his apartment, turning back after a few steps to yell out, “Hey, text me when you get home! So I know.”
So I know.
Jiwon wonders what that means exactly. He wonders about it all the way home, right up to the moment when he gets to his door and lets his keys hang in the lock so he can type out a text.
[im home. Didn’t die. Sorry if I woke you. xxj]
He drags himself through a quick shower and throws on some clean boxers before collapsing face down onto his bed. He’s just about to drift off when he hears the muted buzz of his phone next to him.
[good. It’s too much work finding a replacement.]
[im irreplcble. thats hard to spell]
[why don’t you use auto carrot]
[whts that? Spellcheck 4 bunnies?]
[you’d know…. bunny]
[whatever you say princess]
[if you call me that i’m breaking up with you]
[but youre not allowed to]
[I’m falling asleep. Sorry. Text me when you wake up.]
[go sleep. Night. xxj]
[night bunny xxh]
It doesn’t take long to fall asleep after that, not when dreamworld beckons him in with images of dimple smiles, undercuts and rabbits.
He’s still tired when his alarm goes off at 9am but the physical lethargy is offset by the kind of mental optimism that you can only get when your life is on the right track. He stretches out underneath his warm sheets, smiling at the ceiling and watching the sun filter through the gaps in his curtains. His hand smooths over the empty space next to him and he wonders what it might be like if it wasn’t so empty one day.
Somewhere on the other side of Seoul, probably still asleep, is chaos, art and random useless facts all rolled up into a riddle wrapped enigma. But he loves chaos and he loves that that is what he belongs to now. The revelation echoes in his head, the repetition doing nothing to diminish the thrill that he gets every time he thinks about Hanbin. He buries his head into his pillow and groans loudly. When did he get this lame and embarrassing? He would never hear the end of it if June knew the truth.
He should really get up and hit the gym to sweat all this out. But not before he digs around the sheets to find his phone.
[good morning. Guess wat? Didn’t die in the night. Sorry if I woke you xxj]
His cinnamon toast cereal tastes extra sweet this morning as he watches the news and tries to catch the weather report as it scrolls across the bottom of the screen. Outside his door he can hear his apartment block waking up and coming to life, there’s already music playing, a dog barking and a child’s high pitched giggle. Has it always been this idyllic? Maybe he was imagining it. Or maybe this is what life through Rose Tinted sunglasses feels like: one long movie with a happy ending.
He’s pulling on his gym shorts when his phone buzzes with a message alert.
[hey bunny.glad you’re alive. its too early, i’m going back to sleep]
[wait are you free 2moro? I’m going to get roses for rp, want to come?]
[sure ok good night xxh]
[lol okay, btw it’s Sunny today wth the chance of a late cold front. Call me if you get bored. xxj]
It’s 11:30 and he’s just walking out the gym doors when he gets another message.
[there are like 30 different types of cereal in this new store.]
He turns on the handsfree function in his car and dials Hanbin’s number as he pulls out of the car park.
“Are you calling me? Why are you calling me? I’m buying food.” Hanbin says, as if he was completely surprised by the turn of events. “Why is it so noisy?”
“Sorry, I’m driving.”
“Going somewhere? Also: hi.”
“Hey.” It never fails to make him smile, how off kilter conversations with Hanbin can be. “Yeah I just left the gym, going to Yoyo and June’s place now because they’ve got some sort  of car emergency.”
“Oh okay. I’ve got dinner with my parents tonight. I don’t know if I should bring some alcohol or a lot of alcohol.” Hanbin says glumly. “Actually, I don’t think there’s enough alcohol in the world for this.”
“That bad huh?”
He laughs lightly, mainly to be polite, but he really has no idea how they’re going to deal with the parent issue when the time comes. They will probably survive dinner with his parents but he has no idea what they’re going to do about Hanbin’s parents. In the back of his mind, he knows it’s unfair to paint them in a negative light before they’ve even met but at the same time, he’s learnt to never ignore his gut instincts and his gut tells him that it’s going to be difficult at best or a complete disaster.
Hanbin groans on the other end. “They’re going to get on my case about why I’m still apparently a sad single hermit. Maybe pass a few phone numbers my way because they think they’re being helpful.”
“They sound like my parents.”
“Maybe I should just tell them.” Hanbin says quietly but it comes across loud and clear and trips the alarm in his head.
“Hang on a sec.” He quickly finds a spot on a side street to pull over and park. “What do you want to tell them?”
“That I’m not single anymore. It’d be nice to tell them one less lie.” There’s a sad chuckle at the end of it that just makes him want to reach through the phone connection to hug Hanbin tightly.
“Oh. Okay, if you’re sure.” He replies, relieved. “I kinda thought you wanted tell them everything. About you and…me.”
There’s a sharp cackle on the other line, like the idea was beyond comprehension. “I’m feeling brave Jiwon, not suicidal. I don’t know what to do about that at all right now but maybe I can just get them off my back about girlfriends for awhile.”
“Aren’t they gonna want to meet her?”
“Yeah probably.”
“But she doesn’t exist.”
There’s rustling on Hanbin’s end. “Should I get Honey Nut Crunch or Froot Loops?”
The conversational whiplash disorientates him briefly before he catches up with Hanbin’s train of though.
“Froot Loops? No, don’t get that. Froot Loops are so unhealthy. It’s all sugar. Get cinnamon toast cereal. The gluten and sugar free version. That’s the one I have.”
He can practically hear Hanbin’s grimace. “Is it also taste free?”
“No!” He laughs. “It’s really good. I mean, you’re not eating wholemeal bran but at least you’re trying.”
“Well….okay.” Hanbin replies, entirely unconvinced.
“I’ll come over and eat the rest if you hate it.”
“Win-Win situation for you there.” Hanbin says flatly. “Look at how that turned out.”
“Yeah, amazing.” He smiles to himself before his mind returns to what they were talking about before. “So hey, are you really sure you want to just tell your parents? Won’t it create like 10 more problems for you?”
Okay, so he’s selfish. He was looking forward to spending some stress-free time with Hanbin now that everything had settled down. The thought of going through the complicated aspects of their relationship all over again just makes him want to go back to sleep.
“You think I should wait?”
“It’s up to you, Hanbin. If you feel like you want to tell them, then that’s what you should do.” He says, trying to be supportive despite his inner monologue.
“But?”
“But what?”
“You want to say something about it. I can tell.”
“No….it’s your decision.” He says carefully.
There’s a loud sigh. “Jiwon. Just tell me. I’m asking.”
He takes a breath. “Well, I was just thinking that it’s not always a good idea to tell them things like that without having some kind of plan. I mean, at least have a back up girl to help bail you out if they want to meet her last minute. That’s what parents like to do, spring these surprise attacks. It happened to me and look where I am now- still going on pointless church dates.”
There’s a sigh and pause as Hanbin thinks about his words. “Yeah, I guess you’re right. I haven’t thought it through properly.”
He exhales slowly in relief. “Yeah, there will be other chances to tell them.”
“You know this means I’ll probably have to go on some fake dates then? Like you did?”
“It’s okay. Just be really boring. She’ll probably never call you again.”
“Is that what you do?”
“Sometimes. I usually just play the friendzone and drop in a few really polarising things. Like wanting 7 kids and moving to an apple orchard. There’s been approximately zero second dates after that.” He says with a laugh.
“Really? That sounds kinda nice though. Well, maybe not seven kids. Maybe four.”
He freezes mid laugh. Hanbin’s earnest consideration of his ridiculous date tactics takes him by surprise.
“I was joking Hanbin.”
“No you weren’t. 50% of all jokes are true.”
There’s no one around but he blushes anyway. “That sounds like something you just made up.”
“It’s legit I swear! I read it somewhere. I bet you really do want to have a bunch of kids on a farm. Right?”
“Maybe.” He says noncommittally.
There’s laughter on the other end. “Knew it. You live in the 1950s but it’s a cute dream to have. I’ll remember to drop something like that on my fake date.”
“Wait a second. You said four kids. You want to have four kids?”
“Yeah. Maybe? One day.”
“Oh. Cool.”
It’s then that his mind does that annoying thing where it takes an idea and fills his head with all sorts of futurescape images. What would Hanbin’s kids look like? What would his kids look like? Does Hanbin think his kids will be their kids? How can he get out of this conversation?
It gives him a headache thinking too far into the future. He never used to think about the details but lately, he catches himself staring at couples with small children and dreaming of scenarios which weren’t so impossible. He’s optimistic but he’s also realistic, there’s a line in the sky and having biological kids was so far beyond the line that it was in the realms of impossible fiction.
“Hey? You still there?”
“Yeah Yeah. I’m still here.”
“I better go. I need to get the shopping done before I go pick up my sister from dance class.”
He breathes out another sigh of relief. He loves talking to Hanbin but there are times when serious topics just sneak up on them and it gets too much, even over the phone.
“Yeah I need to go too. Text me later, about your dinner?”
“Yeah I will.”
“And I guess I’ll come over at like 10 tomorrow? If you still want to come to June’s?”
“Yeah, I’ll be ready.”
“Cool. Okay.” There’s an awkward pause because he’s never been good at saying goodbye. No matter how overwhelming their conversations gets, when the time comes there’s always a part of him that’s reluctant to let go, even if it’s only temporary. “Well umm…”
“Say bye, you loser.” Hanbin laughs on the other end.
“Okay! Fine. BYE.”
“Bye bunny. See you tomorrow.”
“Okay, bye.”
“And now you hang up.”
“Okay.” His finger hovers over the End-Call button but he can’t make himself push it.
“You’re still there.”
“Yup.”
“Okay well, there’s an old lady giving me death glares at the checkout so I really have to go. Bye bunny!”
Hanbin hangs up first. It’s how he prefers their calls to go because there’s something so difficult about hanging up on Hanbin. Or dropping him off and watching him walk away. Or being awake and knowing he’s still sleeping. He tells himself that he’ll be completely fine watching Hanbin go on fake dates but he knows it won’t be that simple when it happens.
Shaking his head, he starts the car to rejoin the flow of traffic.
The sun is setting by the times he gets home from fixing Yoyo’s car and has a second shower to wash off all the sweat and grease. He’s on the couch watching Iron Chef when the phone buzzes on the coffee table.
[pls save me]
[what happened? want me to come get you?]
[i said SAVE ME. not GET ME KILLED]
[how drunk are you]
[not drunk at all]
[tragedy, sorry for your loss]
[i miss you]
The message surprises him with its suddenness. He knows Hanbin can be unpredictable but he’s always taken aback by just how much it knocks him off his feet.
[i miss you too. U ok? Bc i can really come and get you]
[yeah I’m fine. Hanbyul’s distracting them with her ballet trophy.]
[she won something?]
[they give them out to every kid]
[lolz don’t be rude]
[I’m not! It’s the truth. Ahhhh I gotta go. xxh]
[ok call me later. xxj]
It’s midnight and he’s in bed watching the late 24-hour news when his phone lights up next to him.
[are you still up?]
He can’t think of a decent short reply so dials Hanbin’s number instead.
“It was horrible.” Hanbin says as soon as he picks up.
“Wanna tell me all about it?”
“They were on my back for twenty minutes about being a weird recluse and well, long story short, they gave my number to my dad’s business partner’s daughter. So I’m basically fucked, no matter how it ends.”
“Oh…..Shit.”
“Yeah.” Hanbin agrees miserably.
“Well….” He starts, trying to be positive but trailing off when he can’t think of anything to say. Hanbin, on the other hand, has plenty to say.
“It’s so bad. I just know it. If she hates me, she’ll tell her parents. Then they’ll tell my parents. And it might be weird at their company. That will get my dad pissed at me. Again. Even though I don’t even like girls and told them all night that I was too busy to have a relationship! Why do I have to deal with this stupid fucking situation Jiwon? On my list of stupid fucking situations, this would have to be number 1.”
“Are you drunk?”
“A little bit.”
“Are you at home?”
“YES.”
“Okay, good. But listen, don’t worry too much about it Hanbin. We’ll figure something out when it happens.”
“Why can’t we figure it out now?” Hanbin whines.
“Because it’s midnight and she hasn’t called you yet.” He reasons.
“Why can’t you just fix this?!”
He laughs despite their situation. “I promise I’ll think of something. It’ll be okay. I got through them, you will too.”
There’s a heavy dramatic sigh on the other end before Hanbin’s sleepy voice comes through again, this time accompanied by a yawn. “I’m in bed. Tell me something. I don’t want to think about girls anymore.”
“Umm, what do you want to hear?”
“Tell me about your seven kids and apple orchard. What kind of kids are you gonna have? And what kind of apples?”
The request catches him off guard, he didn’t expect this conversation to come back so soon. Or at all.
“Oh. Um. Probably all kinds of apples. I need to do some research on Apple species. You know any Apple experts?”
“I’m an Apple expert. I like the red ones and the Macbook Pro.”
“So helpful. Real expert.”
“Tell me more. I want to fall asleep.”
“Okay. Well. Firstly, no offence, but I’m gonna need an expert who knows more about apples than “red” and “laptop”. I kinda want to live on one of those big properties where the dogs and kids and chickens can run everywhere.  We’ll have to get one of those gigantic country farmhouses with a billion bedrooms because if the kids are gonna be anything like you, they’ll all want their own rooms.”
There’s no protest so he continues.
“I heard you can do a lot with apples though. You eat them, juice them, dry them, make all sorts of stuff with them, including pie! I’m not completely crazy you know. It might be a fake dream but I did attempt some research to make it sound legit.”
“Anyways, it’d be really cool sitting on the back porch and watching the sun set over all the trees. It’ll probably be really quiet and so far away from the city that you could probably see all those galaxies that you’re obsessed with.”
He waits for a response but gets none.
“Hanbin?” When there’s only breathing on the other line, he knows that Hanbin fell asleep. “Well. That’s the dream anyway. Goodnight baby.”
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The birds chirp gleefully outside his window but Hanbin wants to die.
Actually, he wants to kill his phone first then follow it straight into hell.
“What?!” He grumbles into the offending device.
“It’s 9am.” Jiwon’s voice comes through, slightly concerned. “You okay? You don’t have to-”
“No. I want to.” He insists, despite his head spinning and his body protesting loudly as he stretches in bed.
“Okay. See you soon.”
He’s hungover and so dizzy that takes him three attempts to open the toothpaste cap and even longer to differentiate the shampoo bottle from the conditioner. It’s a relief when he finally sits down on his couch and eats cinnamon toast cereal without the world spinning around him.
Jiwon knocks on his door at 10:03am. He wanted to tease him about the promptness but decides against it, partly because his brain wasn’t exactly back online yet but mainly because Jiwon looked so adorable standing in his doorway like a hopeful prom date.
“Sorry I fell asleep on you last night. Your voice does that.” He says as he settles into the (now very familiar) passenger’s seat.
“My voice puts you to sleep?” Jiwon teases.
“Yeah it does. It’s sedating….but in a good way.” He knows that he must sound completely spaced out right now and wonders if Jiwon will pick up on it.
“So you don’t remember anything I said?”
“No, I do. Something about apple orchards and friendzoning girls and having seven kids.”
Jiwon looks over with a cautious expression. “That’s it? You don’t remember the rest?”
He racks his brain but he can barely remember what he just had for breakfast. “No. Should I have? Was it something memorable?”
Jiwon shakes his head, oddly relieved. “No no, nothing major.” There’s a grin at the end of it before the Beast roars into life down the street.
He’s feeling more human by the time they walk through the doors of June’s tattoo shop.
“Ahh look, it’s dumb and dumber! Finally here to ruin my fucking day.” June says brightly from his position in the counter.
“You really need to work on your greetings.” Jiwon says.
“It’s part of my charm.” June winks before hopping off the counter. He hugs Jiwon despite the protests before coming over to pat Hanbin on the shoulder. “Hey Hanbin. How’ve you been? This kid giving you any grief?”
“Of course he is. It’s driving me crazy.” He says with a smile.
“Knew it!” June says loudly. “Return him to the store and get an upgrade! He’s literally 2000 and late- a completely useless and out of date model.”
“Shut up Grandpa!” Jiwon calls out from the back kitchen.
“Ahh everything feels normal again.” June sighs. “Hey! I need to show you something. I got a book on geometrical line tattoos. Thought you might like something in it.”
Hanbin’s oddly flattered by the thoughtfulness “Oh. Yeah. Yeah. Thanks.”
A heavy book is thrust into his hands as they settle into their seats. He flips through the pages, breathing in the new book smell and mentally ticking off some designs he already likes.
Jiwon comes back out and hands him a cow print mug. “Black. No milk. No sugar.”
“Thanks.” He smiles over the rim of the mug, feeling lame and dopey.
“You’re welcome.” Jiwon smiles back.
June rolls his eyes between them. “And yet he forgets my birthday.”
Jiwon breaks the eye contact to scowl. “That was one time and you said I was forgiven when I got you the PS3.”
“Did I? That doesn’t seem like something I’d say at all.”
Jiwon groans. “Can we just get started? Instead of sitting around and arguing like always?”
“You’re right. We can work and continue to argue like always.” June says with a nod.
Hanbin settles in his chair as the ink gun buzzes into life. He sticks Post-It notes on the pages of the design book that interest him and feels his worries melt away. It was a weird combination really, the contrast between the sterile smell of alcohol disinfectant and the familiar herbal fragrance from the tea Jiwon made. It was almost as contradictory as the mechanical sound of the tattoo gun bouncing off the soothing peach coloured walls to accompany the Al Green song that June has playing over the speakers. It was mismatched and scrappy and strange but he loves it. It all reminds him of Jiwon in a way; how he was the perfect combination of hard industrial angles and soft warm smiles.
He is so deep inside his head that he completely misses the conversation happening in front of him.
“Right Hanbin?”
He looks up, dazed. “Huh?”
“Warren G is the better rapper but Dre is the better producer, right?”
“Bullshit.” June replies. “Dre is better at both.”
“They’re step-brothers.” He says absentmindedly.
“That’s so not answering the question.” June mutters.
He shakes the cobwebs from his fuzzy mind and starts again. “Well, Warren has a smoother technique if you’re only arguing about the west coast rap style. Dre is definitely better at producing though. Eminem wouldn’t be anywhere without Dre. So yeah, Warren might be the slightly better rapper but Dre’s definitely the better producer.”
They both stare at him before Jiwon looks across as June with a smug smile. “Told you so.”
June turns the ink gun back on. “Oh great, you’re gonna start arguing as a team now? I’m so excited about this new development.” He says blandly.
Jiwon gives him a wink, which wasn’t so much a wink as a co-ordinated blink with both eyes.
“Maybe Yoyo can come here and help you win all these arguments then?” Hanbin says as politely as he can.
Jiwon laughs loudly, trying not to move his arm but failing miserably.
June gives them both a withering look before turning the ink gun off again. “Okay. Very funny. You’re very funny over there Hanbin. But you just made your idiot boyfriend here move so one of the roses is now a bit crooked. Congratulations, you both played yourselves!”
Jiwon looks over at him with a grin. “Totally worth it.”
“Ahh, let’s take a break. Your ugly face is annoying and my back is kinda killing me today.” June announces, stretching in his chair before going outside with his cup of tea.
Hanbin wanders over and sits in June’s seat, peering at the bloody mess of lines on Jiwon’s forearm. “Sorry about the rose.”
“I’m not. You should’ve seen his face! It’s been ages since I’ve seen someone take a shot at his ego.”
Hanbin gives him a wry smile. “You want another cup of tea?”
“Yeah, thanks baby.”
It comes out so easily and casually but he still freezes like a deer in headlights, unsure what to do or say as the butterflies in his stomach zoom around like they’re all on acid.
“Sorry. It just came out.” Jiwon says quickly.
“It’s okay. No big deal.” He says in a strained voice before walking off into the kitchen to fill the kettle with shaky hands.
He’s standing at the bench waiting for the kettle to boil when he can hear Jiwon shuffling in behind him.
“You don’t like it. The name.” It was more a statement than a question.
Hanbin shakes his head but doesn’t turn around. “No, I like it. I’ve just never been called that before. It was just kinda weird, that’s all.”
He feels a breath against the back of his neck and the heat radiating off Jiwon’s body as he comes to stand behind him. “Is it cool enough for you?”
“No. It’s terrible.” He says, smiling to himself.
Two tattooed arms come to rest on either side of him, caging him in the middle. His heart races in anticipation as he stares at Richard Parker’s tail and the new crooked rose on Jiwon’s tanned skin.
“So you’re okay if I keep calling you that?”
“Yeah, it’s fine.”
“Okay…baby…”
The way it comes out sends a shiver all the way down his spine. There’s lips against his ear, it’s barely a touch but it makes him so giddy that he feels like he’s about to jump off a cliff or do something equally stupid.
And then he hears it again, in Jiwon’s deep rough growl, the one that’s gentle but demanding and playful but emphatically possessive.
“Baby…”
After that, Hanbin couldn’t stop himself from turning around even if he wanted to. He sees shiny half hooded eyes for a split second before Jiwon leans down and closes the small distance between them, his mouth fitting over Hanbin’s with a soft warm pressure.
Jiwon tastes like earl grey tea and cinnamon toast cereal and he kisses like he lives life: confident, curious, full of purpose and with no room for doubt.  
And messy.
If there’s one word to describe Jiwon, messy would be the first thing that comes to mind.
Hanbin is pressed against the bench as their kiss deepens, his lips already feeling swollen and there’s so much saliva between them that he can feel it across his jaw. His hands grabs the front of Jiwon’s t-shirt when he feels an insistent tongue trying to lick his mouth open, they both moan when he finally does.
But just as he’s trying to remember everything about the moment the kettle suddenly begins it’s high pitched and obnoxious beeping. It takes him by surprise, startling his eyes open and making him jump forward to twist his hands into the fabric of Jiwon’s tshirt so forcibly that he feels it stretching and protesting.
“Fuck that’s loud.” Jiwon remarks as he pulls away, slightly out of breath. He reaches over to turn the kettle off and starts laughing when he sees Hanbin’s stunned face. “You okay? Had another heart attack?”
Hanbin narrows his eyes and shoves at the solid chest in front of him. “Yes you jerk! Don’t pretend like it didn’t scare you too.”
“Maybe a little.” Jiwon murmurs before pulling him back against his chest. “Come back here. Kiss me again.”
Hanbin carefully grabs his right arm above the reddened tattooed area and leans back in. It’s just as hot and sweet and infuriatingly good as the first time. He’s tries to catalogue every happy sound Jiwon makes, the way he tastes and the hard wall of muscle underneath his soft worn-in t-shirt.
It’s then that the front door slams shut, followed by June’s sheepish, “Sorry, it’s just me! My bad!”
They reluctantly break for a second time, Jiwon frowning and groaning in frustration. “Why is the universe cock blocking me?” He mutters.
Hanbin colours at the choice of words. “I don’t know. Did you pay your taxes this year?”
“Yes! And now I’m being punished.” Jiwon whines, indignant.
They hear June shuffling around the main room so Hanbin smooths out the front of Jiwon’s tshirt and pushes him away.
“Go. I’ll bring out the tea. I don’t want him asking about this. You know he’s gonna tease you all day.”
“Hey by the way, if he ever hears you calling me bunny, he’ll never take me seriously again.”
Hanbin gives him a smile as he reaches up to wipe at Jiwon’s lower lip with his thumb. “He never took you seriously to begin with. Now go, bunny.”
Jiwon leans in to give him one last kiss in his cheek. “Okay, baby.”
He gives Hanbin a dopey smile as he backs out of the kitchen. Hanbin shakes his head but does nothing to stop his own dopey smile from forming.
It takes him twice as long to make the tea this time. He has to stop and replay what just happened, occasionally touching his lips to see if he can still feel anything on them.
He pours the tea carefully and tries to keep his face neutral when he brings it out to the main room, sneaking looks at Jiwon’s face when he and June are both peering down at the inky roses and discussing the best way to fix the crooked lines (Jiwon asks that they stay crooked).
Before he can stop himself, he lets out a sigh that’s way too loud and causes both guys to look over.
“What was that for? We keeping you up?” June asks. “You need colouring books over there?”
He scoffs. “Is that what Yoyo does when you’re annoying him?”
June gives him sullen look before turning to Jiwon, “Can you get a new boyfriend? This one is too salty.”
“Nope, sorry bro. I’m keeping him forever.” Jiwon laughs happily and gives him another wink. Stupidly enough, right in the middle of all his thoughts, the only thing Hanbin can think about is the fact that Jiwon still can’t wink properly.
Oh well. He wants to stay forever and wonky winks are only a small price to pay.
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wtfnoie · 5 years ago
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A thing I did for class. It was a para for a rp, but I turned it into a 3 page story. 
Backstory: Luke was on a reality show, show was having a reunion, Calum wasn’t going back; dating Michael; Luke has a son. Word count; 1370 tw; mentioning death
There was a lot of things Luke thought he would never experience and losing his best friend at nineteen was one of the many things. At least it was one thing he never wanted to actually deal with. His biggest regret was the last fight he had with Calum. It was a stupid fight, as they all were. It wasn’t their biggest fight in almost ten years of friendship. They had gone weeks without talking. Like the one time after Jacoby was born and Luke almost didn’t want to see him and Calum called him stupid and dragged him to LA. Luke remembers him saying he would never forgive himself for not being in his son's life and that he was being a selfish teenager. Which to be fair, he was only seventeen at the time. Yet Luke couldn’t stop thinking about their last fight, replaying it over and over on loop in his head.
“You’re so stupid. Honestly who thought this would be a good idea. Better question who allowed you to have a motorcycle license. Don’t you have to pass an IQ test first?” He frowned looking at the shiny bright red bike sitting in his driveway. His best friend grinning proudly perched atop it holding his helmet in his left arm. “Dude you’re daughter just turned one! And do you know the stats for motorcycle crashes?!” He all but screamed at the dark haired boy, who just chuckled and shrugged. “You worry too much Lukey poo. I’ll be fine. Wanna ride?” Crossing his arms and shaking his head letting out a heavy sigh. “No. My son needs me. I have a family to think about. Something you should probably think about.” Thinking back, he may have been over reacting. Calum was the smartest out of their friend group, the only dumb thing he had ever done was get a drunk joke tattoo.
Grabbing his phone and taking a picture of the reunion invite, before going to send it to Calum. He had to stop himself, remind himself that Calum is gone. He didn’t want to face those people without his best friend. What was he supposed to say? How do you respond to the ‘Im sorry’s and ‘I know it’s hard.’ He had already gone through that. And the last thing he wanted to do was deal with it from a bunch of fake people. People who will try to share fake memories, or say Calum was such a great guy.  When in reality Luke knows damn well they thought he was an asshole. He’d have to go back to where they lived, and get flooded with Calum everywhere. Three years wasn’t nearly long enough to grieve and now how he had to put on a brave face and act okay. It was something that had to be done, not for himself.
It was the Saturday before they left to the reunion. Luke was out picking up last minute things he would need for the trip. Snacks for Jake, an extra suitcase, little things that he had been putting off in hopes of getting out of going. As he was driving home he took the same road he took every other day, stopped at the same flower shop like he did every other day, and picked up the same flowers he got every other day, and made his way to the cemetery like he had done every other day for four and half years now. Parking in the same spot he parked every time, and followed the familiar worn out path that had quickly become like a second home.
He sat down, in his spot and cleaned off Calum’s plaque. He did this regularly. Usually he would do it on his way home from work, or on his way to work. Even when he just needed to think or be alone. But he always made time to see his best friend. Just to sit and talk to him, and tell him about his day, show him pictures of everyone. And just keep him updated on life. Luke picked up the old flowers, and threw them out, replacing them with the new ones.Luke put his phone on do not disturb before sitting down.  “Hey cal.” He said softly smiling. “It’s the ten year reunion, tomorrow. Gonna be weird seeing everyone besides you.” He got comfortable as he continued to talk to him. He really needed to invest in those butt cushion things. He took a deep breathe looking up at the sky leaning back on his hands.
“I was planning on asking Mikey to marry me this week. Weird to think you won’t be there, or at the wedding. Remember how you would tease us back in highschool and always say we’d be the first two to get married. Never thought it’d be to each other. Can’t even ask you to be my best man. You’re an asshole. You just had to leave me.” He said chuckling as he wiped a few tears away. “Still going to ask him. He has no idea, I haven’t even hinted at it in awhile. I know you’ll still be there for me. You’re always there with me.” He sat up crossing his legs. “I stopped by your parents earlier.” He continued. “I wanted to see all the family before I left for a week. You know your mum, said I was too skinny. She made me food, and we talked about you.We always do. She shows me pictures, and we talk about how much of a brat you were growing up. Mali stopped by too.  She misses you. Everyone does. I’m still waiting for you to walk into my house and say just kidding. And I’ll punch you and call you an asshole. But you’d be here with us.” By now his voice was barely a whisper and his cheeks were tear stained.
“I love you Calum.” He said running his fingers over the engraved words. “I shouldn’t have to be sitting here, and telling you this way. But I am and life sucks. I don’t want to say I told you so again. But damn it Calum Thomas, I told you it was a bad idea.  I wish I could take you with me. I’ll miss you everyday, and think of you.” He was rambling by now. It’s what most of his visit consisted of. Him rambling to Calum about everything and anything. Just like old times, before everything happened, and they would just sit in his or Luke’s room and talk about anything. All of their dreams, their hopes, their plans. Remembering when they talked about ruling the world.
Luke was in the middle of putting Jake to bed. He had just walked out of his room, when his phone started ringing in his pocket. He frowned not recognizing the number, but answered anyways. Within a split second his whole world crumbled around him. He didn’t remember much, but dropping to the ground and crying. It’s where Michael had found him. His best friend, his older brother was gone. They had told him he was speeding around the bend, and ended up under an eighteen wheeler.  
Luke wiped his eyes again, and checked the time, two hours had already gone by.“I love you Calum.” He said again as he started to stand. “I’ll see you again in a week. I’ll tell you how everything goes, and if Mikey says yes. I actually told your mum my idea. She said you’d be happy for us. I’m having my assistant bring you new flowers while I’m gone. Be good while I’m away. Bye Calum.” He said softly pressing a kiss to his fingers tip and leaning down to press it against his grave stone. “Love you” He whispered one last time and walked back to his car. He took a deep breathe, and started his car. With a heavy heart he pulled out of the space and started his journey home. There are some things he wished he never took for granted. Time, his loved ones, and time with his loved ones.
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survivormuxloe · 6 years ago
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Episode 15: “i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win” - Scott
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So the reward challenge has been revealed. A little bit nervous tbh. However I do have a plan, I’d probably call Danielle. Because I feel she would have the best read on how the jury is feeling. She has sat there for the longest time. So her views are most likely the views of most people. So having her knowledge of the jury will be useful. First I have to win this challenge which I think I’m capable of winning, so fingers crossed I can win this.
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THE CAT IS FINALLY OUT OF THE BAG HOLYYY LMAAAOOAO
i finally got to play it.. it didnt do anything. but. it secured me f4 just incase anything did happen!! LAMJFNFHBG. ugh. i love it tho... everyone takes me to the end i think which makes me lowkey queef LMAOAOAOOA :):)
hope yall r proud of meeeee :flushed:
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I MADE FINAL 4. I’m so shocked and happy with myself. I broke my personal placement record and it’s so exciting. Unfortunately though I get to move past a milestone at the expense of losing a close ally. I got past eighth but Jones got eliminated. I get past my record but then Tobi gets idoled out. I’m so depressed but it just makes me want to win for them. I’m hearing that it’s a final 2 but it isn’t confirmed. So now I’m thinking who do I want to be sitting in a final 2 with. None of them honestly, they’ve all played great games. But I especially don’t want to sit next to Ryan. He’s done so well in this game and he made a succesful idol play. It would look like if a genius hacker were to sit next to an enthusiastic toddler.
It sucks cus nobody’s said anything since the vote and I really wanna talk to someone because bitch I’m in the top 4 let’s celebrate. I see Tobi online and its like fuCK I CANT CELEBRATE WITH HIM EITHER CUS HES GONE NOW.
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its so hard telling eveeryone that im winning
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we have a reward challenge on day 36 so i think that means we have a final 3 yayyyy whew. and the reward is the power call w one juror for 10 mins... which makes me kinda anxious ngl so i'm not even sure if i want to win this... but the challenge is Casanova and that is like one the flash games i'm really good at if i need to be so hmmm I'm wondering if i should beast it or not. i think winning it and having the courage to talk to one of them could be a big boost to my game so like... i'm thinking maybe i should just nut up and go for it hm
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So I won reward fuck yeah.
This will give me the chance too see how the jury is thinking at the moment.
But with this immunity I am fuckin scared. Cards being stacked into tower formation. Honestly fuck that. I’ve been practicing and am getting there but I need to do this to make sure I have a chance of winning.
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it feels so weird bc theres so little to say in confessionals now LOL!
uhm. just hopin for mo not to win ig. :)
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So just had a call win Dani. Apparently I have close to 0% chance at winning. Which tbh I’m surprised about. Mo has the best chance? Idk like I want to believe her but it sounds fishy. I just need to feel out and go with Dani it trust my gut.
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Rhys won his third immunity which is intimidating but then again he was only participating against me. Reminder I was trying to set up a card house with a tremor, due to my meds my hands shake. BUT I refused to give up and I’m still proud of myself because I know I did the best that I could.
I think this might be the round I’m eliminated. I hope not but apparently Rhys used his Jury call on Dani and Dani said he had the lowest chance of winning and I had the highest chance. Which first of all, REALLY???? ME???? Like thank you but, what? Second of all I need to play very passive right now in hopes that Rhys will stick with his original plan of voting Scott. Tomorrow it’s going to be me or Scott.
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i feel bad for abstaining in the final 4 immunity but hnnng i really cant fux with these live challenges so rip. i feel like there's a good chance the jury looks down on my game bc this is like the 3rd challenge i've sat out of hnnng. but i'm glad Rhys won instead of Mo woo for that. it's seeming like it's gonna be a final 2 after all so womp. according to Mo, Rhys says he's voting for either him or Scott so ig I'm sitting in a good spot... although is it bad i was hoping to get another vote to rack up more than 11 overall? lol whatever so yay. i don't have high hopes of winning this game but regardless i'm happy i was able to survive all this time especially w my bae scott <3
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Ok so I have a lot of hope right now. I’ll share the messages I sent Rhys because they’ll explain why I’m hopeful. “I just got some info This vote is either going to end in a fire making challenge between Scott and I or with me going home Cus Ryan just said him and Scott have had a tight Final 2 since the beginning so he can’t vote Scott (If you don’t believe me I’m sure he’ll tell you himself if you ask) So I respect your decision of voting for me if you do but I’d be insanely grateful if I was given the opportunity of a fire making challenge I see it like this. If I get to stay, then it’s us two vs Ryan or Scott because I think both Ryan and Scott have played insanely good games So we would have a higher chance of winning immunity But if it’s Scott, Ryan and you in the final three then it’s 1/3 odds. Where as if I stayed it would be 2/3 and if I somehow miraculously won individual immunity I’d take you to the end. It would be the smartest decision for me after hearing what Dani said But then if you win you can take Ryan with you to the end and I’ll end up 3rd Since Ryan and Scott have their final 2 thing” and Rhys agreed to it so tomorrow is going to be a firemaking challenge between me and Scott.
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rhys is actually driving me fucking crazy lol... like. its right to vote me out yes. but his reasoning is so FUCKING DUMB. HE GENIUNELY HAS CONVINCED HIMSELF THAT THE JUROR HE CHOSE TO TALK TO LIED TO HIM. LIKE. RLY BITCH? im not getting 4th off of the back of ur fucking goaty ass losing to mo @ ftc ew lmao..
actually ya im not done like rhys is geniunely losing against anyone left for good reason hes been a goat this entire game and thats the entire fucking tea LAMJFBHFG.
i just dont want mo to win... imagine someone who voted wrong like 7/9 times in merge winning. fucking ew. if i leave ryan better win ftc bc hes the only good winner left if i leave like fr. i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win.. LAMNFNFG just ew ew ew ew ew ew..
im not going down tho america... ill pull every trick out of the bag if i have to. if i gotta lie to get a 2-1-1 vote i will. i aint bothered. id rather get 3rd knowing i was gunna win than fucking 4th. i aint knife!!
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So like i Won immunity again which is insane. 3rd immunity.
I’ve been thinking about my call with Dani. I realised that if she telling the truth I have no chance. So might as well assume she is lying and have a chance. So I’m being optimistic.
So taking Scott out is my best choice right now. He may have bad jury management but he had played the best game. So I’m voting with Mo against Scott. Realistically Scott is probably going to win. But that gives me a possible vote on the jury.
I told scott that I’m Voting him as there isn’t any point in lying but he is working to stay. But like he needs to go. I can’t fuck up and have him win immunity. So yeah my game could be a shit show it could be nothing I don’t know. Wish me luck I guess.
I’m like legit so sad rn. I know I’ve had literally no chance at winning this game. So I’ve been optimistic trying to take the best road. Which in my mind is voting Scott out. I told him because he like legit my best friend I’ve made in this game and In a lot of games recently.
Now he hates me and has been really aggressive with trying to get me to stay.  Like I’ve told him my reasoning and he just still thinks I’m being stupid. Like yeah I just hate this. Can’t wait for tribal for him to attack me more.
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Rhys gettin a lil brave this round after being asleep the whole merge omg. Whatever he heard from Danielle has seriously gone to his head and he's now considering going to the end with Mo ???? i have to laugh... i dont think him tying the vote and making me or Scott firemake is a terrible idea at all, but honey pls dont make me have to vote Mo to win this game flkadsas. It will be such a travesty if Scott and I go out 4th and 3rd god i dont even wanna think about that
god I really didn't expect this jury reward thing to have an actual impact on things??? ugh lol. Rhys a mess PERIODTTTTTT
After a 2-2 vote resulting in a firemaking challenge, Mo loses and gets 4th place.
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Why does health insurance not Cover dental work?
health insurance dental work
Why are teens against high auto insurance?
Why are teens against high auto insurance?
What car insurance do you have?
Im trying to find one that's cheaper I recently have 21st Century. What's the name of your car insurance and do you like it?
Will women protest being forced to pay LESS for life and auto insurance than men?
No? I didn't think so.
Can i collect disability insurance?
Can i collect disability insurance? i was shot when i was 18 in the ankle and the bullit is stuck between the bone in my ankle. i have worked for a company for 10 years and quit my job two years ago to start my own business. but now as im getting older i can't stand on my leg without experiencing pain or climb up and down things like i used too can i collect disability insurance?
How do I advertise to people in California qualified to buy car insurance?
For the best insurance coverage all you need is a fax machine and a genuine need and intention to buy auto insurance now.
Is it cheaper insurance for you to be a named driver if your parent owns the car?
Im 17, a boy and i want cheap car insurance, is that a better way to get it?""
How much for car insurance for a 17 year old?
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HELP with car insurance for 17 year old?
I am trying to find cheap car insurance for a 17 year old :/ its proving hard and cheapest quote so far is 3500 with my mother as named driver. does anyone know any companys that specialise in young drivers insurance or ways to reduce it?
Insurance question?
I just bought a 2008 Honda Accord, exl, 4 cyl. I can't even drive it because I dont have insurance, what is the cheapest (most affordable insurance) I should get, i am 20 years old living in ontario california.""
Can i get a license without insurance.?
OK. I've got a lot of questions to ask. i'm 16, i live in North Carolina and i'm going to go get my license in about a week and a half. I was wondering do i need liability on myself or what because right now all i want is my license to drive my parents car and stuff, so would i need insurance for that? And also what kind of insurance and what would be the cheapest way to go. And when i check on the DMV website its unclear on what insurance and what they would accept and not accept. PLease help im extremely confused.""
Can I get car insurance at 15 years old?
I am 15 & bought a classic car with my dad. Can I insure it in my name and build up two years no claims bonus while we restore it?
What type of bike have the cheapest insurance?
Obviously a Harleys insurance is going to be huge, but what would be cheaper a 125cc supermoto, a 125cc naked bike or a 125cc sports bike? Also what make of bike would be cheapest like yamaha or Suzuki, but none of the Chinese crap""
Health Insurance Company in Ohio?
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How much do 22 year olds pay for car insurance?
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""Friend hit my car, wont give his insurance information, what to do?""
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lovelyladylavie · 7 years ago
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Salty with a gallon of Anxiety
I have a lot of feelings that have been boiling inside me for a month and im gonna let them out now.
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✋me @ me Hey when you see a relatable post about depression/anxiety, Maybe don't absorb that/or integrate that into your thought process/ personality in an effort to be socially compatible with others of your kind? Just nod, abstain, and emphatically go 'thats awful for that person' and move on.
💢 90% sure i didnt have anxiety before this hellsite taught me how. I used to be so brave and outgoing, but now i overthink things and my brain is quivering mass of fear and moaning. The thought of actually driving a car used to light me up inside, but i got nothing but anxiety now. I wanna drive so bad bc it would make things easier for everyone around me, but i had an anxiety attack because my grampa who nice enough to take me out to practice, WOULD NOT be quiet, even though i asked multiple times and i panicked and jacknifed into a McDonalds parking lot. And the longer i wait to go drive again, the worse the anxiety is going to get. But no one has time for it. Teaching me is just not applicable right now bc we have a shortage of working cars and we cant risk it. So its the bus for me! Still! After 5 years since moving up here!! 😤 This is fine!
I hate this. I hate it so much.
I woke up this morning out of fear bc i forgot to take my diabetes meds last night. My blood sugar was fine but still. I'm so fucking tired of being anxious about this. I'm scared im gonna die in my sleep or pass out at the bus station because i dont know the limits of my meds or how to manage my blood sugar yet.
I'm supposed to be losing weight to reverse this disease, but its so hard. I lost 7 pounds, but i gained it back. I worked so hard and it was back over the course a week.
🍗Thanksgiving is coming up and we're having a ton of people over. The last time it happened, i had an anxiety attack bc my aunt (whom i love and adore) couldnt stop henpecking me about the order i was cooking things in. It wasnt meant to hurt me, because she thinks out loud and its just her way. There was so much activity and it seemed like the world was spinning.
With the onset of having 17+ people coming, i feel like im getting anxious again because people i dont know will be judging my turkey craft and juggling skills as i cook/manage a lot of this myself. I have my sisters and my other aunt to help but i can't help being nervous. Debilitatingly nervous. I need to get organized, get my supplies and food together and make sure we have an ironclad plan because SOMEONE is messing with business and our usual plan, and changed the baking day from Wednesday to Monday, when I'll be tired already from work. You know, without consulting us, because it works better for their schedule. Cause baking stuff only takes HALF a day, right? Rolls dont need several hours to rise, right? Oh we can just stay up and finish them if its not done, RIIGHHHHT? Not like i have work tomorrow, RIGHHHTTTTT?
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So I'm a bit salty today. People have been shitting on my favorite holiday left and right all month long for no reason but that its origins are lies, its a hassle, and that there arent any gifts involved! WELL WHAT THE FUCK! I LIKE SEEING MY FAMILY AND COOKING A GORGEOUS MEAL AND BEING THANKFUL FOR ALL I HAVE. ITS NICE TO TAKE A TIME OUT AND GET TOGETHER TO SPEND SOME QUALITY TIME WITH PEOPLE I DONT GET TO SEE EVERYDAY WITH FOOD I CANT AFFORD EVERYDAY AND MAKE THEM HAPPY. WE CAN SIT AROUND, SING AND FART IF LIKE IT BECAUSE WE'RE THAT COMFORTABLE WITH EACHOTHER. IT MAKES ME HAPPY AND ALL Y'ALL JUST NEEDED TO TAKE THE WIND OUT OF MY SAILS WHEN I GUSH OVER IT BECAUSE YOOOOU DONT LIKE IT??? HOW FUCKING RUDE?? But hey im too nice to tell them to stfu and let me be happy.
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(Wow, that is an extremely accurate gif. I cant believe i found that. I'm thankful for that gif)
So anyway. I have a lot of feelings i haven't been able to get out.
All of this has been bubbling inside me like a pot with a wobbling lid and every once in a while it spills out and i cry or worse, i complain to people at work. And worse yet, my manager says my work has been shitty lately and people are complaining. Heck, even i noticed it.
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And I'm sick of this bubbling kettle situation, so im dumping it back into the hellsite that either caused my anxiety in the first place or at the very least, made me worse off than i was.
So clean slate today. I'm going to be better.
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cosmicsubs · 8 years ago
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windicksy said: by all laws of aviation the bee should not be able to fly
 its wings are too small to get
its fat little body off the ground
 the bee of course flies anyway
 because bees dont care
what humans think is impossible
 yellow black yellow black
yellow black yellow black
 ooh black and yellow
lets shake it up a little
 barry breakfast is ready
 ooming
 hang on a second
 hello?
  barry?
adam?
  oan you believe this is happening?
i cant ill pick you up
 looking sharp
 use the stairs your father
paid good money for those
 sorry im excited
 heres the graduate
were very proud of you son
 a perfect report card all bs
 very proud
 ma i got a thing going here
  you got lint on your fuzz
ow thats me
  wave to us well be in row 118000
bye
 barry i told you
stop flying in the house
  hey adam
hey barry
  is that fuzz gel?
a little special day graduation
 never thought id make it
 three days grade school
three days high school
 those were awkward
 three days college im glad i took
a day and hitchhiked around the hive
 you did come back different
  hi barry
artie growing a mustache? looks good
  hear about frankie?
yeah
  you going to the funeral?
no im not going
 everybody knows
sting someone you die
 dont waste it on a squirrel
such a hothead
 i guess he could have
just gotten out of the way
 i love this incorporating
an amusement park into our day
 thats why we dont need vacations
 boy quite a bit of pomp
under the circumstances
  well adam today we are men
we are
  beemen
amen
 hallelujah
 students faculty distinguished bees
 please welcome dean buzzwell
 welcome new hive oity
graduating class of
 9:15
 that concludes our ceremonies
 and begins your career
at honex industries
 will we pick ourjob today?
 i heard its just orientation
 heads up here we go
 keep your hands and antennas
inside the tram at all times
  wonder what itll be like?
a little scary
 welcome to honex
a division of honesco
 and a part of the hexagon group
 this is it
 wow
 wow
 we know that you as a bee
have worked your whole life
 to get to the point where you
can work for your whole life
 honey begins when our valiant pollen
jocks bring the nectar to the hive
 our topsecret formula
 is automatically colorcorrected
scentadjusted and bubblecontoured
 into this soothing sweet syrup
 with its distinctive
golden glow you know as
 honey
  that girl was hot
shes my cousin
  she is?
yes were all cousins
  right youre right
at honex we constantly strive
 to improve every aspect
of bee existence
 these bees are stresstesting
a new helmet technology
  what do you think he makes?
not enough
 here we have our latest advancement
the krelman
  what does that do?
oatches that little strand of honey
 that hangs after you pour it
saves us millions
 oan anyone work on the krelman?
 of course most bee jobs are
small ones but bees know
 that every small job
if its done well means a lot
 but choose carefully
 because youll stay in the job
you pick for the rest of your life
 the same job the rest of your life?
i didnt know that
 whats the difference?
 youll be happy to know that bees
as a species havent had one day off
 in 27 million years
 so youll just work us to death?
 well sure try
 wow that blew my mind
 "whats the difference?"
how can you say that?
 one job forever?
thats an insane choice to have to make
 im relieved now we only have
to make one decision in life
 but adam how could they
never have told us that?
 why would you question anything?
were bees
 were the most perfectly
functioning society on earth
 you ever think maybe things
work a little too well here?
 like what? give me one example
 i dont know but you know
what im talking about
 please clear the gate
royal nectar force on approach
 wait a second oheck it out
  hey those are pollen jocks
wow
 ive never seen them this close
 they know what its like
outside the hive
 yeah but some dont come back
  hey jocks
hi jocks
 you guys did great
 youre monsters
youre sky freaks i love it i love it
  i wonder where they were
i dont know
 their days not planned
 outside the hive flying who knows
where doing who knows what
 you cantjust decide to be a pollen
jock you have to be bred for that
 right
 look thats more pollen
than you and i will see in a lifetime
 its just a status symbol
bees make too much of it
 perhaps unless youre wearing it
and the ladies see you wearing it
 those ladies?
arent they our cousins too?
 distant distant
 look at these two
  oouple of hive harrys
lets have fun with them
 it must be dangerous
being a pollen jock
 yeah once a bear pinned me
against a mushroom
 he had a paw on my throat
and with the other he was slapping me
  oh my
i never thought id knock him out
 what were you doing during this?
 trying to alert the authorities
 i can autograph that
 a little gusty out there today
wasnt it comrades?
 yeah gusty
 were hitting a sunflower patch
six miles from here tomorrow
  six miles huh?
barry
 a puddle jump for us
but maybe youre not up for it
  maybe i am
you are not
 were going 0900 at jgate
 what do you think buzzyboy?
are you bee enough?
 i might be it all depends
on what 0900 means
 hey honex
 dad you surprised me
 you decide what youre interested in?
  well theres a lot of choices
but you only get one
 do you ever get bored
doing the same job every day?
 son let me tell you about stirring
 you grab that stick and you just
move it around and you stir it around
 you get yourself into a rhythm
its a beautiful thing
 you know dad
the more i think about it
 maybe the honey field
just isnt right for me
 you were thinking of what
making balloon animals?
 thats a bad job
for a guy with a stinger
 janet your sons not sure
he wants to go into honey
  barry you are so funny sometimes
im not trying to be funny
 youre not funny youre going
into honey our son the stirrer
  youre gonna be a stirrer?
no ones listening to me
 wait till you see the sticks i have
 i could say anything right now
im gonna get an ant tattoo
 lets open some honey and celebrate
 maybe ill pierce my thorax
shave my antennae
 shack up with a grasshopper get
a gold tooth and call everybody "dawg"
 im so proud
  were starting work today
todays the day
 oome on all the good jobs
will be gone
 yeah right
 pollen counting stunt bee pouring
stirrer front desk hair removal
  is it still available?
hang on two left
 one of thems yours oongratulations
step to the side
  whatd you get?
picking crud out stellar
 wow
 oouple of newbies?
 yes sir our first day we are ready
 make your choice
  you want to go first?
no you go
 oh my whats available?
 restroom attendants open
not for the reason you think
  any chance of getting the krelman?
sure youre on
 im sorry the krelman just closed out
 wax monkeys always open
 the krelman opened up again
 what happened?
 a bee died makes an opening see?
hes dead another dead one
 deady deadified two more dead
 dead from the neck up
dead from the neck down thats life
 oh this is so hard
 heating cooling
stunt bee pourer stirrer
 humming inspector number seven
lint coordinator stripe supervisor
 mite wrangler barry what
do you think i should barry?
 barry
 all right weve got the sunflower patch
in quadrant nine
 what happened to you?
where are you?
  im going out
out? out where?
  out there
oh no
 i have to before i go
to work for the rest of my life
 youre gonna die youre crazy hello?
 another call coming in
 if anyones feeling brave
theres a korean deli on 83rd
 that gets their roses today
 hey guys
  look at that
isnt that the kid we saw yesterday?
 hold it son flight decks restricted
 its ok lou were gonna take him up
 really? feeling lucky are you?
 sign here here just initial that
  thank you
ok
 you got a rain advisory today
 and as you all know
bees cannot fly in rain
 so be careful as always
watch your brooms
 hockey sticks dogs
birds bears and bats
 also i got a couple of reports
of root beer being poured on us
 murphys in a home because of it
babbling like a cicada
  thats awful
and a reminder for you rookies
 bee law number one
absolutely no talking to humans
 all right launch positions
 buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz
buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz
 black and yellow
 hello
 you ready for this hot shot?
 yeah yeah bring it on
 wind check
  antennae check
nectar pack check
  wings check
stinger check
 scared out of my shorts check
 ok ladies
 lets move it out
 pound those petunias
you striped stemsuckers
 all of you drain those flowers
 wow im out
 i cant believe im out
 so blue
 i feel so fast and free
 box kite
 wow
 flowers
 this is blue leader
we have roses visual
 bring it around 30 degrees and hold
 roses
 30 degrees roger bringing it around
 stand to the side kid
its got a bit of a kick
 that is one nectar collector
  ever see pollination up close?
no sir
 i pick up some pollen here sprinkle it
over here maybe a dash over there
 a pinch on that one
see that? its a little bit of magic
 thats amazing why do we do that?
 thats pollen power more pollen more
flowers more nectar more honey for us
 oool
 im picking up a lot of bright yellow
oould be daisies dont we need those?
 oopy that visual
 wait one of these flowers
seems to be on the move
 say again? youre reporting
a moving flower?
 affirmative
 that was on the line
 this is the coolest what is it?
 i dont know but im loving this color
 it smells good
not like a flower but i like it
 yeah fuzzy
 ohemicaly
 oareful guys its a little grabby
 my sweet lord of bees
 oandybrain get off there
 problem
  guys
this could be bad
 affirmative
 very close
 gonna hurt
 mamas little boy
 you are way out of position rookie
 ooming in at you like a missile
 help me
 i dont think these are flowers
  should we tell him?
i think he knows
 what is this?
 match point
 you can start packing up honey
because youre about to eat it
 yowser
 gross
 theres a bee in the car
  do something
im driving
  hi bee
hes back here
 hes going to sting me
 nobody move if you dont move
he wont sting you freeze
 he blinked
 spray him granny
 what are you doing?
 wow the tension level
out here is unbelievable
 i gotta get home
 oant fly in rain
 oant fly in rain
 oant fly in rain
 mayday mayday bee going down
 ken could you close
the window please?
 ken could you close
the window please?
 oheck out my new resume
i made it into a foldout brochure
 you see? folds out
 oh no more humans i dont need this
 what was that?
 maybe this time this time this time
this time this time this
 drapes
 that is diabolical
 its fantastic its got all my special
skills even my topten favorite movies
 whats number one? star wars?
 nah i dont go for that
 kind of stuff
 no wonder we shouldnt talk to them
theyre out of their minds
 when i leave a job interview theyre
flabbergasted cant believe what i say
 theres the sun maybe thats a way out
 i dont remember the sun
having a big 75 on it
 i predicted global warming
 i could feel it getting hotter
at first i thought it was just me
 wait stop bee
 stand back these are winter boots
 wait
 dont kill him
 you know im allergic to them
this thing could kill me
 why does his life have
less value than yours?
 why does his life have any less value
than mine? is that your statement?
 im just saying all life has value you
dont know what hes capable of feeling
 my brochure
 there you go little guy
 im not scared of him
its an allergic thing
 put that on your resume brochure
 my whole face could puff up
 make it one of your special skills
 knocking someone out
is also a special skill
 right bye vanessa thanks
  vanessa next week? yogurt night?
sure ken you know whatever
  you could put carob chips on there
bye
  supposed to be less calories
bye
 i gotta say something
 she saved my life
i gotta say something
 all right here it goes
 nah
 what would i say?
 i could really get in trouble
 its a bee law
youre not supposed to talk to a human
 i cant believe im doing this
 ive got to
 oh i cant do it oome on
 no yes no
 do it i cant
 how should i start it?
"you like jazz?" no thats no good
 here she comes speak you fool
 hi
 im sorry
  youre talking
yes i know
 youre talking
 im so sorry
 no its ok its fine
i know im dreaming
 but i dont recall going to bed
 well im sure this
is very disconcerting
 this is a bit of a surprise to me
i mean youre a bee
 i am and im not supposed
to be doing this
 but they were all trying to kill me
 and if it wasnt for you
 i had to thank you
its just how i was raised
 that was a little weird
  im talking with a bee
yeah
 im talking to a bee
and the bee is talking to me
 i just want to say im grateful
ill leave now
  wait how did you learn to do that?
what?
 the talking thing
 same way you did i guess
"mama dada honey" you pick it up
  thats very funny
yeah
 bees are funny if we didnt laugh
wed cry with what we have to deal with
 anyway
 oan i
 get you something?
like what?
 i dont know i mean
i dont know ooffee?
 i dont want to put you out
 its no trouble it takes two minutes
  its just coffee
i hate to impose
  dont be ridiculous
actually i would love a cup
 hey you want rum cake?
  i shouldnt
have some
  no i cant
oome on
 im trying to lose a couple micrograms
  where?
these stripes dont help
 you look great
 i dont know if you know
anything about fashion
 are you all right?
 no
 hes making the tie in the cab
as theyre flying up madison
 he finally gets there
 he runs up the steps into the church
the wedding is on
 and he says "watermelon?
i thought you said guatemalan
 why would i marry a watermelon?"
 is that a bee joke?
 thats the kind of stuff we do
 yeah different
 so what are you gonna do barry?
 about work? i dont know
 i want to do my part for the hive
but i cant do it the way they want
 i know how you feel
  you do?
sure
 my parents wanted me to be a lawyer or
a doctor but i wanted to be a florist
  really?
my only interest is flowers
 our new queen was just elected
with that same campaign slogan
 anyway if you look
 theres my hive right there see it?
 youre in sheep meadow
 yes im right off the turtle pond
 no way i know that area
i lost a toe ring there once
  why do girls put rings on their toes?
why not?
  its like putting a hat on your knee
maybe ill try that
  you all right maam?
oh yeah fine
 just having two cups of coffee
 anyway this has been great
thanks for the coffee
 yeah its no trouble
 sorry i couldnt finish it if i did
id be up the rest of my life
 are you?
 oan i take a piece of this with me?
 sure here have a crumb
  thanks
yeah
 all right well then
i guess ill see you around
 or not
 ok barry
 and thank you
so much again for before
 oh that? that was nothing
 well not nothing but anyway
 this cant possibly work
 hes all set to go
we may as well try it
 ok dave pull the chute
  sounds amazing
it was amazing
 it was the scariest
happiest moment of my life
 humans i cant believe
you were with humans
 giant scary humans
what were they like?
 huge and crazy they talk crazy
 they eat crazy giant things
they drive crazy
  do they try and kill you like on tv?
some of them but some of them dont
  howd you get back?
poodle
 you did it and im glad you saw
whatever you wanted to see
 you had your "experience" now you
can pick out yourjob and be normal
  well
well?
 well i met someone
 you did? was she beeish?
  a wasp? your parents will kill you
no no no not a wasp
  spider?
im not attracted to spiders
 i know its the hottest thing
with the eight legs and all
 i cant get by that face
 so who is she?
 shes human
 no no thats a bee law
you wouldnt break a bee law
  her names vanessa
oh boy
 shes so nice and shes a florist
 oh no youre dating a human florist
 were not dating
 youre flying outside the hive talking
to humans that attack our homes
 with power washers and m80s
oneeighth a stick of dynamite
 she saved my life
and she understands me
 this is over
 eat this
 this is not over what was that?
  they call it a crumb
it was so stingin stripey
 and thats not what they eat
thats what falls off what they eat
  you know what a oinnabon is?
no
 its bread and cinnamon and frosting
they heat it up
 sit down
 really hot
listen to me
 we are not them were us
theres us and theres them
 yes but who can deny
the heart that is yearning?
 theres no yearning
stop yearning listen to me
 you have got to start thinking bee
my friend thinking bee
  thinking bee
thinking bee
 thinking bee thinking bee
thinking bee thinking bee
 there he is hes in the pool
 you know what your problem is barry?
 i gotta start thinking bee?
 how much longer will this go on?
 its been three days
why arent you working?
 ive got a lot of big life decisions
to think about
 what life? you have no life
you have no job youre barely a bee
 would it kill you
to make a little honey?
 barry come out
your fathers talking to you
 martin would you talk to him?
 barry im talking to you
 you coming?
 got everything?
 all set
 go ahead ill catch up
 dont be too long
 watch this
 vanessa
  were still here
i told you not to yell at him
 he doesnt respond to yelling
  then why yell at me?
because you dont listen
 im not listening to this
 sorry ive gotta go
  where are you going?
im meeting a friend
 a girl? is this why you cant decide?
 bye
 i just hope shes beeish
 they have a huge parade
of flowers every year in pasadena?
 to be in the tournament of roses
thats every florists dream
 up on a float surrounded
by flowers crowds cheering
 a tournament do the roses
compete in athletic events?
 no all right ive got one
how come you dont fly everywhere?
 its exhausting why dont you
run everywhere? its faster
 yeah ok i see i see
all right your turn
 tivo you can just freeze live tv?
thats insane
 you dont have that?
 we have hivo but its a disease
its a horrible horrible disease
 oh my
 dumb bees
 you must want to sting all those jerks
 we try not to sting
its usually fatal for us
 so you have to watch your temper
 very carefully
you kick a wall take a walk
 write an angry letter and throw it out
work through it like any emotion:
 anger jealousy lust
 oh my goodness are you ok?
 yeah
  what is wrong with you?
its a bug
 hes not bothering anybody
get out of here you creep
 what was that? a pic n save circular?
 yeah it was how did you know?
 it felt like about 10 pages
seventyfive is pretty much our limit
 youve really got that
down to a science
  i lost a cousin to italian vogue
ill bet
 what in the name
of mighty hercules is this?
 how did this get here?
oute bee golden blossom
 ray liotta private select?
  is he that actor?
i never heard of him
  why is this here?
for people we eat it
 you dont have
enough food of your own?
  well yes
how do you get it?
  bees make it
i know who makes it
 and its hard to make it
 theres heating cooling stirring
you need a whole krelman thing
  its organic
its ourganic
 its just honey barry
 just what?
 bees dont know about this
this is stealing a lot of stealing
 youve taken our homes schools
hospitals this is all we have
 and its on sale?
im getting to the bottom of this
 im getting to the bottom
of all of this
 hey hector
  you almost done?
almost
 he is here i sense it
 well i guess ill go home now
 and just leave this nice honey out
with no one around
 youre busted box boy
 i knew i heard something
so you can talk
 i can talk
and now youll start talking
 where you getting the sweet stuff?
whos your supplier?
 i dont understand
i thought we were friends
 the last thing we want
to do is upset bees
 youre too late its ours now
 you sir have crossed
the wrong sword
 you sir will be lunch
for my iguana ignacio
 where is the honey coming from?
 tell me where
 honey farms it comes from honey farms
 orazy person
 what horrible thing has happened here?
 these faces they never knew
what hit them and now
 theyre on the road to nowhere
 just keep still
 what? youre not dead?
 do i look dead? they will wipe anything
that moves where you headed?
 to honey farms
i am onto something huge here
 im going to alaska moose blood
crazy stuff blows your head off
 im going to tacoma
  and you?
he really is dead
 all right
 uhoh
  what is that?
oh no
  a wiper triple blade
triple blade?
 jump on its your only chance bee
 why does everything have
to be so doggone clean?
 how much do you people need to see?
 open your eyes
stick your head out the window
 from npr news in washington
im oarl kasell
 but dont kill no more bugs
  bee
moose blood guy
  you hear something?
like what?
 like tiny screaming
 turn off the radio
 whassup bee boy?
 hey blood
 just a row of honey jars
as far as the eye could see
 wow
 i assume wherever this truck goes
is where theyre getting it
 i mean that honeys ours
  bees hang tight
were all jammed in
 its a close community
 not us man we on our own
every mosquito on his own
  what if you get in trouble?
you a mosquito you in trouble
 nobody likes us they just smack
see a mosquito smack smack
 at least youre out in the world
you must meet girls
 mosquito girls try to trade up
get with a moth dragonfly
 mosquito girl dont want no mosquito
 you got to be kidding me
 moosebloods about to leave
the building so long bee
  hey guys
mooseblood
 i knew id catch yall down here
did you bring your crazy straw?
 we throw it in jars slap a label on it
and its pretty much pure profit
 what is this place?
 a bees got a brain
the size of a pinhead
 they are pinheads
 pinhead
  oheck out the new smoker
oh sweet thats the one you want
 the thomas 3000
 smoker?
 ninety puffs a minute semiautomatic
twice the nicotine all the tar
 a couple breaths of this
knocks them right out
 they make the honey
and we make the money
 "they make the honey
and we make the money"?
 oh my
 whats going on? are you ok?
 yeah it doesnt last too long
 do you know youre
in a fake hive with fake walls?
 our queen was moved here
we had no choice
 this is your queen?
thats a man in womens clothes
 thats a drag queen
 what is this?
 oh no
 theres hundreds of them
 bee honey
 our honey is being brazenly stolen
on a massive scale
 this is worse than anything bears
have done i intend to do something
 oh barry stop
 who told you humans are taking
our honey? thats a rumor
 do these look like rumors?
 thats a conspiracy theory
these are obviously doctored photos
 how did you get mixed up in this?
 hes been talking to humans
  what?
talking to humans?
 he has a human girlfriend
and they make out
 make out? barry
 we do not
  you wish you could
whose side are you on?
 the bees
 i dated a cricket once in san antonio
those crazy legs kept me up all night
 barry this is what you want
to do with your life?
 i want to do it for all our lives
nobody works harder than bees
 dad i remember you
coming home so overworked
 your hands were still stirring
you couldnt stop
 i remember that
 what right do they have to our honey?
 we live on two cups a year they put it
in lip balm for no reason whatsoever
 even if its true what can one bee do?
 sting them where it really hurts
 in the face the eye
  that would hurt
no
 up the nose? thats a killer
 theres only one place you can sting
the humans one place where it matters
 hive at five the hives only
fullhour action news source
 no more bee beards
 with bob bumble at the anchor desk
 weather with storm stinger
 sports with buzz larvi
 and jeanette ohung
  good evening im bob bumble
and im jeanette ohung
 a tricounty bee barry benson
 intends to sue the human race
for stealing our honey
 packaging it and profiting
from it illegally
 tomorrow night on bee larry king
 well have three former queens here in
our studio discussing their new book
 olassy ladies
out this week on hexagon
 tonight were talking to barry benson
 did you ever think "im a kid
from the hive i cant do this"?
 bees have never been afraid
to change the world
 what about bee oolumbus?
bee gandhi? bejesus?
 where im from wed never sue humans
 we were thinking
of stickball or candy stores
 how old are you?
 the bee community
is supporting you in this case
 which will be the trial
of the bee century
 you know they have a larry king
in the human world too
 its a common name next week
 he looks like you and has a show
and suspenders and colored dots
 next week
 glasses quotes on the bottom from the
guest even though you just heard em
 bear week next week
theyre scary hairy and here live
 always leans forward pointy shoulders
squinty eyes very jewish
 in tennis you attack
at the point of weakness
 it was my grandmother ken shes 81
 honey her backhands a joke
im not gonna take advantage of that?
 quiet please
actual work going on here
  is that that same bee?
yes it is
 im helping him sue the human race
  hello
hello bee
 this is ken
 yeah i remember you timberland size
ten and a half vibram sole i believe
 why does he talk again?
 listen you better go
cause were really busy working
 but its our yogurt night
 byebye
 why is yogurt night so difficult?
 you poor thing
you two have been at this for hours
 yes and adam here
has been a huge help
  frosting
how many sugars?
 just one i try not
to use the competition
 so why are you helping me?
 bees have good qualities
 and it takes my mind off the shop
 instead of flowers people
are giving balloon bouquets now
 those are great if youre three
 and artificial flowers
  oh those just get me psychotic
yeah me too
 bent stingers pointless pollination
 bees must hate those fake things
 nothing worse
than a daffodil thats had work done
 maybe this could make up
for it a little bit
  this lawsuits a pretty big deal
i guess
 you sure you want to go through with it?
 am i sure? when im done with
the humans they wont be able
 to say "honey im home"
without paying a royalty
 its an incredible scene
here in downtown manhattan
 where the world anxiously waits
because for the first time in history
 we will hear for ourselves
if a honeybee can actually speak
 what have we gotten into here barry?
 its pretty big isnt it?
 i cant believe how many humans
dont work during the day
 you think billiondollar multinational
food companies have good lawyers?
 everybody needs to stay
behind the barricade
  whats the matter?
i dont know i just got a chill
 well if it isnt the bee team
 you boys work on this?
 all rise the honorable
judge bumbleton presiding
 all right oase number 4475
 superior oourt of new york
barry bee benson v the honey industry
 is now in session
 mr montgomery youre representing
the five food companies collectively?
 a privilege
 mr benson youre representing
all the bees of the world?
 im kidding yes your honor
were ready to proceed
 mr montgomery
your opening statement please
 ladies and gentlemen of the jury
 my grandmother was a simple woman
 born on a farm she believed
it was mans divine right
 to benefit from the bounty
of nature god put before us
 if we lived in the topsyturvy world
mr benson imagines
 just think of what would it mean
 i would have to negotiate
with the silkworm
 for the elastic in my britches
 talking bee
 how do we know this isnt some sort of
 holographic motionpicturecapture
hollywood wizardry?
 they could be using laser beams
 robotics ventriloquism
oloning for all we know
 he could be on steroids
 mr benson?
 ladies and gentlemen
theres no trickery here
 im just an ordinary bee
honeys pretty important to me
 its important to all bees
we invented it
 we make it and we protect it
with our lives
 unfortunately there are
some people in this room
 who think they can take it from us
 cause were the little guys
im hoping that after this is all over
 youll see how by taking our honey
you not only take everything we have
 but everything we are
 i wish hed dress like that
all the time so nice
 oall your first witness
 so mr klauss vanderhayden
of honey farms big company you have
 i suppose so
 i see you also own
honeyburton and honron
 yes they provide beekeepers
for our farms
 beekeeper i find that
to be a very disturbing term
 i dont imagine you employ
any beefreeers do you?
  no
i couldnt hear you
  no
no
 because you dont free bees
you keep bees not only that
 it seems you thought a bear would be
an appropriate image for a jar of honey
 theyre very lovable creatures
 yogi bear fozzie bear buildabear
 you mean like this?
 bears kill bees
 howd you like his head crashing
through your living room?
 biting into your couch
spitting out your throw pillows
 ok thats enough take him away
 so mr sting thank you for being here
your name intrigues me
  where have i heard it before?
i was with a band called the police
 but youve never been
a police officer have you?
 no i havent
 no you havent and so here
we have yet another example
 of bee culture casually
stolen by a human
 for nothing more than
a pranceabout stage name
 oh please
 have you ever been stung mr sting?
 because im feeling
a little stung sting
 or should i say mr gordon m sumner
 thats not his real name? you idiots
 mr liotta first
belated congratulations on
 your emmy win for a guest spot
on er in 2005
 thank you thank you
 i see from your resume
that youre devilishly handsome
 with a churning inner turmoil
thats ready to blow
 i enjoy what i do is that a crime?
 not yet it isnt but is this
what its come to for you?
 exploiting tiny helpless bees
so you dont
 have to rehearse
your part and learn your lines sir?
 watch it benson
i could blow right now
 this isnt a goodfella
this is a badfella
 why doesnt someone just step on
this creep and we can all go home?
  order in this court
youre all thinking it
 order order i say
  say it
mr liotta please sit down
 i think it was awfully nice
of that bear to pitch in like that
 i think the jurys on our side
 are we doing everything right legally?
 im a florist
 right well heres to a great team
 to a great team
 well hello
  ken
hello
 i didnt think you were coming
 no i was just late
i tried to call but the battery
 i didnt want all this to go to waste
so i called barry luckily he was free
 oh that was lucky
 theres a little left
i could heat it up
 yeah heat it up sure whatever
 so i hear youre quite a tennis player
 im not much for the game myself
the balls a little grabby
 thats where i usually sit
right there
 ken barry was looking at your resume
 and he agreed with me that eating with
chopsticks isnt really a special skill
 you think i dont see what youre doing?
 i know how hard it is to find
the rightjob we have that in common
 do we?
 bees have 100 percent employment
but we do jobs like taking the crud out
 thats just what
i was thinking about doing
 ken i let barry borrow your razor
for his fuzz i hope that was all right
 im going to drain the old stinger
 yeah you do that
 look at that
 you know ive just about had it
 with your little mind games
  whats that?
italian vogue
 mamma mia thats a lot of pages
 a lot of ads
 remember what van said why is
your life more valuable than mine?
 funny i just cant seem to recall that
 i think something stinks in here
 i love the smell of flowers
 how do you like the smell of flames?
 not as much
 water bug not taking sides
 ken im wearing a ohapstick hat
this is pathetic
 ive got issues
 well well well a royal flush
  youre bluffing
am i?
 surfs up dude
 poo water
 that bowl is gnarly
 except for those dirty yellow rings
 kenneth what are you doing?
 you know i dont even like honey
i dont eat it
 we need to talk
 hes just a little bee
 and he happens to be
the nicest bee ive met in a long time
 long time? what are you talking about?
are there other bugs in your life?
 no but there are other things bugging
me in life and youre one of them
 fine talking bees no yogurt night
 my nerves are fried from riding
on this emotional roller coaster
 goodbye ken
 and for your information
 i prefer sugarfree artificial
sweeteners made by man
 im sorry about all that
 i know its got
an aftertaste i like it
 i always felt there was some kind
of barrier between ken and me
 i couldnt overcome it
oh well
 are you ok for the trial?
 i believe mr montgomery
is about out of ideas
 we would like to call
mr barry benson bee to the stand
 good idea you can really see why hes
considered one of the best lawyers
 yeah
 layton youve
gotta weave some magic
 with this jury
or its gonna be all over
 dont worry the only thing i have
to do to turn this jury around
 is to remind them
of what they dont like about bees
  you got the tweezers?
are you allergic?
 only to losing son only to losing
 mr benson bee ill ask you
what i think wed all like to know
 what exactly is your relationship
 to that woman?
 were friends
  good friends?
yes
 how good? do you live together?
 wait a minute
 are you her little
 bedbug?
 ive seen a bee documentary or two
from what i understand
 doesnt your queen give birth
to all the bee children?
  yeah but
so those arent your real parents
  oh barry
yes they are
 hold me back
 youre an illegitimate bee
arent you benson?
 hes denouncing bees
 dont yall date your cousins?
  objection
im going to pincushion this guy
 adam dont its what he wants
 oh im hit
 oh lordy i am hit
 order order
 the venom the venom
is coursing through my veins
 i have been felled
by a winged beast of destruction
 you see? you cant treat them
like equals theyre striped savages
 stingings the only thing
they know its their way
  adam stay with me
i cant feel my legs
 what angel of mercy
will come forward to suck the poison
 from my heaving buttocks?
 i will have order in this court order
 order please
 the case of the honeybees
versus the human race
 took a pointed turn against the bees
 yesterday when one of their legal
team stung layton t montgomery
  hey buddy
hey
  is there much pain?
yeah
 i
 i blew the whole case didnt i?
 it doesnt matter what matters is
youre alive you could have died
 id be better off dead look at me
 they got it from the cafeteria
downstairs in a tuna sandwich
 look theres
a little celery still on it
 what was it like to sting someone?
 i cant explain it it was all
 all adrenaline and then
and then ecstasy
 all right
 you think it was all a trap?
 of course im sorry
i flew us right into this
 what were we thinking? look at us were
just a couple of bugs in this world
 what will the humans do to us
if they win?
 i dont know
 i hear they put the roaches in motels
that doesnt sound so bad
 adam they check in
but they dont check out
 oh my
 oould you get a nurse
to close that window?
  why?
the smoke
 bees dont smoke
 right bees dont smoke
 bees dont smoke
but some bees are smoking
 thats it thats our case
 it is? its not over?
 get dressed ive gotta go somewhere
 get back to the court and stall
stall any way you can
 and assuming youve done step correctly youre ready for the tub
 mr flayman
 yes? yes your honor
 where is the rest of your team?
 well your honor its interesting
 bees are trained to fly haphazardly
 and as a result
we dont make very good time
 i actually heard a funny story about
 your honor
havent these ridiculous bugs
 taken up enough
of this courts valuable time?
 how much longer will we allow
these absurd shenanigans to go on?
 they have presented no compelling
evidence to support their charges
 against my clients
who run legitimate businesses
 i move for a complete dismissal
of this entire case
 mr flayman im afraid im going
 to have to consider
mr montgomerys motion
 but you cant we have a terrific case
 where is your proof?
where is the evidence?
 show me the smoking gun
 hold it your honor
you want a smoking gun?
 here is your smoking gun
 what is that?
 its a bee smoker
 what this?
this harmless little contraption?
 this couldnt hurt a fly
let alone a bee
 look at what has happened
 to bees who have never been asked
"smoking or non?"
 is this what nature intended for us?
 to be forcibly addicted
to smoke machines
 and manmade wooden slat work camps?
 living out our lives as honey slaves
to the white man?
  what are we gonna do?
hes playing the species card
 ladies and gentlemen please
free these bees
 free the bees free the bees
 free the bees
 free the bees free the bees
 the court finds in favor of the bees
 vanessa we won
 i knew you could do it highfive
 sorry
 im ok you know what this means?
 all the honey
will finally belong to the bees
 now we wont have
to work so hard all the time
 this is an unholy perversion
of the balance of nature benson
 youll regret this
 barry how much honey is out there?
 all right one at a time
 barry who are you wearing?
 my sweater is ralph lauren
and i have no pants
  what if montgomerys right?
what do you mean?
 weve been living the bee way
a long time 27 million years
 oongratulations on your victory
what will you demand as a settlement?
 first well demand a complete shutdown
of all bee work camps
 then we want back the honey
that was ours to begin with
 every last drop
 we demand an end to the glorification
of the bear as anything more
 than a filthy smelly
badbreath stink machine
 were all aware
of what they do in the woods
 wait for my signal
 take him out
 hell have nauseous
for a few hours then hell be fine
 and we will no longer tolerate
beenegative nicknames
 but its just a pranceabout stage name
 unnecessary inclusion of honey
in bogus health products
 and ladeeda human
teatime snack garnishments
 oant breathe
 bring it in boys
 hold it right there good
 tap it
 mr buzzwell we just passed three cups
and theres gallons more coming
  i think we need to shut down
shut down? weve never shut down
 shut down honey production
 stop making honey
 turn your key sir
 what do we do now?
 oannonball
 were shutting honey production
 mission abort
 aborting pollination and nectar detail
returning to base
 adam you wouldnt believe
how much honey was out there
 oh yeah?
 whats going on? where is everybody?
  are they out celebrating?
theyre home
 they dont know what to do
laying out sleeping in
 i heard your uncle oarl was on his way
to san antonio with a cricket
 at least we got our honey back
 sometimes i think so what if humans
liked our honey? who wouldnt?
 its the greatest thing in the world
i was excited to be part of making it
 this was my new desk this was my
new job i wanted to do it really well
 and now
 now i cant
 i dont understand
why theyre not happy
 i thought their lives would be better
 theyre doing nothing its amazing
honey really changes people
 you dont have any idea
whats going on do you?
  what did you want to show me?
this
 what happened here?
 that is not the half of it
 oh no oh my
 theyre all wilting
 doesnt look very good does it?
 no
 and whose fault do you think that is?
 you know im gonna guess bees
 bees?
 specifically me
 i didnt think bees not needing to make
honey would affect all these things
 its notjust flowers
fruits vegetables they all need bees
 thats our whole sat test right there
 take away produce that affects
the entire animal kingdom
 and then of course
 the human species?
 so if theres no more pollination
 it could all just go south here
couldnt it?
 i know this is also partly my fault
 how about a suicide pact?
 how do we do it?
  ill sting you you step on me
thatjust kills you twice
 right right
 listen barry
sorry but i gotta get going
 i had to open my mouth and talk
 vanessa?
 vanessa? why are you leaving?
where are you going?
 to the final tournament of roses parade
in pasadena
 theyve moved it to this weekend
because all the flowers are dying
 its the last chance
ill ever have to see it
 vanessa i just wanna say im sorry
i never meant it to turn out like this
 i know me neither
 tournament of roses
roses cant do sports
 wait a minute roses roses?
 roses
 vanessa
 roses?
 barry?
  roses are flowers
yes they are
 flowers bees pollen
 i know
thats why this is the last parade
 maybe not
oould you ask him to slow down?
 oould you slow down?
 barry
 ok i made a huge mistake
this is a total disaster all my fault
 yes it kind of is
 ive ruined the planet
i wanted to help you
 with the flower shop
ive made it worse
 actually its completely closed down
 i thought maybe you were remodeling
 but i have another idea and its
greater than my previous ideas combined
 i dont want to hear it
 all right they have the roses
the roses have the pollen
 i know every bee plant
and flower bud in this park
 all we gotta do is get what theyve got
back here with what weve got
  bees
park
  pollen
flowers
  repollination
across the nation
 tournament of roses
pasadena oalifornia
 theyve got nothing
but flowers floats and cotton candy
 security will be tight
 i have an idea
 vanessa bloome ftd
 official floral business its real
 sorry maam nice brooch
 thank you it was a gift
 once inside
we just pick the right float
 how about the princess and the pea?
 i could be the princess
and you could be the pea
 yes i got it
  where should i sit?
what are you?
  i believe im the pea
the pea?
 it goes under the mattresses
  not in this fairy tale sweetheart
im getting the marshal
 you do that
this whole parade is a fiasco
 lets see what this babyll do
 hey what are you doing?
 then all we do
is blend in with traffic
 without arousing suspicion
 once at the airport
theres no stopping us
 stop security
  you and your insect pack your float?
yes
 has it been
in your possession the entire time?
 would you remove your shoes?
  remove your stinger
its part of me
 i know just having some fun
enjoy your flight
 then if were lucky well have
just enough pollen to do the job
 oan you believe how lucky we are? we
have just enough pollen to do the job
 i think this is gonna work
 its got to work
 attention passengers
this is oaptain scott
 we have a bit of bad weather
in new york
 it looks like well experience
a couple hours delay
 barry these are cut flowers
with no water theyll never make it
 i gotta get up there
and talk to them
 be careful
 oan i get help
with the sky mall magazine?
 id like to order the talking
inflatable nose and ear hair trimmer
 oaptain im in a real situation
  whatd you say hal?
nothing
 bee
 dont freak out my entire species
 what are you doing?
  wait a minute im an attorney
whos an attorney?
 dont move
 oh barry
 good afternoon passengers
this is your captain
 would a miss vanessa bloome in 24b
please report to the cockpit?
 and please hurry
 what happened here?
 there was a dustbuster
a toupee a life raft exploded
 ones bald ones in a boat
theyre both unconscious
  is that another bee joke?
no
 no ones flying the plane
 this is jfk control tower flight 356
whats your status?
 this is vanessa bloome
im a florist from new york
 wheres the pilot?
 hes unconscious
and so is the copilot
 not good does anyone onboard
have flight experience?
 as a matter of fact there is
  whos that?
barry benson
 from the honey trial? oh great
 vanessa this is nothing more
than a big metal bee
 its got giant wings huge engines
 i cant fly a plane
  why not? isnt john travolta a pilot?
yes
 how hard could it be?
 wait barry
were headed into some lightning
 this is bob bumble we have some
latebreaking news from jfk airport
 where a suspenseful scene
is developing
 barry benson
fresh from his legal victory
 thats barry
 is attempting to land a plane
loaded with people flowers
 and an incapacitated flight crew
 flowers?
 we have a storm in the area
and two individuals at the controls
 with absolutely no flight experience
 just a minute
theres a bee on that plane
 im quite familiar with mr benson
and his noaccount compadres
 theyve done enough damage
 but isnt he your only hope?
 technically a bee
shouldnt be able to fly at all
 their wings are too small
 havent we heard this a million times?
 "the surface area of the wings
and body mass make no sense"
  get this on the air
got it
  stand by
were going live
 the way we work may be a mystery to you
 making honey takes a lot of bees
doing a lot of small jobs
 but let me tell you about a small job
 if you do it well
it makes a big difference
 more than we realized
to us to everyone
 thats why i want to get bees
back to working together
 thats the bee way
were not made of jello
 we get behind a fellow
  black and yellow
hello
 left right down hover
  hover?
forget hover
 this isnt so hard
beepbeep beepbeep
 barry what happened?
 wait i think we were
on autopilot the whole time
  that may have been helping me
and now were not
 so it turns out i cannot fly a plane
 all of you lets get
behind this fellow move it out
 move out
 our only chance is if i do what id do
you copy me with the wings of the plane
 dont have to yell
 im not yelling
were in a lot of trouble
 its very hard to concentrate
with that panicky tone in your voice
 its not a tone im panicking
 i cant do this
 vanessa pull yourself together
you have to snap out of it
 you snap out of it
 you snap out of it
  you snap out of it
you snap out of it
  you snap out of it
you snap out of it
  you snap out of it
you snap out of it
  hold it
why? oome on its my turn
 how is the plane flying?
 i dont know
 hello?
 benson got any flowers
for a happy occasion in there?
 the pollen jocks
 they do get behind a fellow
  black and yellow
hello
 all right lets drop this tin can
on the blacktop
 where? i cant see anything oan you?
 no nothing its all cloudy
 oome on you got to think bee barry
  thinking bee
thinking bee
 thinking bee
thinking bee thinking bee
 wait a minute
i think im feeling something
  what?
i dont know its strong pulling me
 like a 27millionyearold instinct
 bring the nose down
 thinking bee
thinking bee thinking bee
  what in the world is on the tarmac?
get some lights on that
 thinking bee
thinking bee thinking bee
  vanessa aim for the flower
ok
 out the engines were going in
on bee power ready boys?
 affirmative
 good good easy now thats it
 land on that flower
 ready? full reverse
 spin it around
  not that flower the other one
which one?
  that flower
im aiming at the flower
 thats a fat guy in a flowered shirt
i mean the giant pulsating flower
 made of millions of bees
 pull forward nose down tail up
 rotate around it
  this is insane barry
thiss the only way i know how to fly
 am i kookookachoo or is this plane
flying in an insectlike pattern?
 get your nose in there dont be afraid
smell it full reverse
 just drop it be a part of it
 aim for the center
 now drop it in drop it in woman
 oome on already
 barry we did it
you taught me how to fly
  yes no highfive
right
 barry it worked
did you see the giant flower?
 what giant flower? where? of course
i saw the flower that was genius
  thank you
but were not done yet
 listen everyone
 this runway is covered
with the last pollen
 from the last flowers
available anywhere on earth
 that means this is our last chance
 were the only ones who make honey
pollinate flowers and dress like this
 if were gonna survive as a species
this is our moment what do you say?
 are we going to be bees orjust
museum of natural history keychains?
 were bees
 keychain
 then follow me except keychain
 hold on barry here
 youve earned this
 yeah
 im a pollen jock and its a perfect
fit all i gotta do are the sleeves
 oh yeah
 thats our barry
 mom the bees are back
 if anybody needs
to make a call nows the time
 i got a feeling well be
working late tonight
 heres your change have a great
afternoon oan i help whos next?
 would you like some honey with that?
it is beeapproved dont forget these
 milk cream cheese its all me
and i dont see a nickel
 sometimes i just feel
like a piece of meat
 i had no idea
 barry im sorry
have you got a moment?
 would you excuse me?
my mosquito associate will help you
 sorry im late
 hes a lawyer too?
 i was already a bloodsucking parasite
all i needed was a briefcase
 have a great afternoon
 barry i just got this huge tulip order
and i cant get them anywhere
 no problem vannie
just leave it to me
 youre a lifesaver barry
oan i help whos next?
 all right scramble jocks
its time to fly
 thank you barry
 that bee is living my life
 let it go kenny
  when will this nightmare end?
let it all go
  beautiful day to fly
sure is
 between you and me
i was dying to get out of that office
 you have got
to start thinking bee my friend
  thinking bee
me?
 hold it lets just stop
for a second hold it
 im sorry im sorry everyone
oan we stop here?
 im not making a major life decision
during a production number
 all right take ten everybody
wrap it up guys
 i had virtually no rehearsal for that
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Today was a long day
My days are always so boring, and on some days life just decides to blow up a lot of things to my face, in a single day. And that’s why I can never really make a good blog post describing my day/life, because I’ll end up talking about a lot of stuff.
Like earlier this morning, I had my driving lessons. Even prior to the lessons, I felt like expressing into a blog post how I always felt apprehensive about them. The day after tomorrow is the day of my driving test, if I pass I get my license, and obviously I don’t want to experience the feeling of failing my driving test. 
The problem is, failing a driving test is so common. I have 4 older siblings, and half of them failed their first test. 
So I don’t know if I should feel bad about failing, or what. If I should expect failing. I’m a person not used to failing. But in this case, I have a funny feeling if I pass the first test,.
I’m really confused here. I’m really scared too. Because I keep half expecting I’ll fail, and because the overall ‘driving’ thing for me makes me think on how common it is people get involved in an accident, big or small. Especially given the fact that people behave unexpectedly on the road.
Okay that was one issue. 
I also have been a little uneasy with the two instructors I’ve had before this, but today I got a different instructor, and I’m pretty pleased with this guy. I first met him during the last lesson, he was to send me home from the driving school. He had an easy-going nature, we had a conversation the ride home (conversations with the other instructors have been awkward), and today I discovered that yes, I would prefer learning with him. Because he won’t declare that I would fail every time I did a mistake, he’d just point it out and give me instructions on what to do if so and so. Yes, I still do appreciate the lectures I get from my other instructors on why I should pay attention to small details the examiner would, but it does just get on my nerves. 
I don’t prefer, however, that this instructor smoked a cigarette every time he steps out of the car. And a few other details, but I’m not gonna list down everything that I like about these instructors.
I was supposed to have another lesson tomorrow, but seeing because these were extra classes, and I had to pay extra (RM40/hour for 3 hours), my dad told me to practice with my brother around the neighbourhood. The test route at the school had more traffic and wider roads, whilst my neighbourhood has narrower roads (but the cars are bloody fast) and a few inclines (a lot of speed bumps too). 
I got home at 11 am, and before 12 I went out with my fam to do some shopping. I was already tired after the driving lesson, but oh well, I have been staying at home doing nothing for so many days.
Cut to the chase, at one point I thought I saw this guy that I used to like about 2 years ago. My automatic reaction was to turn away and hide my face. I braved myself to take a look at him when he’s passed, only to learn that that wasn’t him.
I was glad that my heart hadn’t leapt up to my throat, like the last few times i saw him.
Guess what? A few hours later, we moved to the mall next door, and while the rest of the fam went to perform prayers, me and my sis went to a shoe store. 
The guy was there. Yes.
My eyes didn’t have to take 2 seconds to know it was him. Well, the whole time me and my sis was there, I completely pretended that I didn’t see him; though I knew we were going to come back to the store later, with the whole family. So when the rest of the fam had come, we went to buy clothes and to buy some stuff from the pharmacy.
And when we got back to the shoe store, I made the first move, of making eye contact, of making that face where I pretended ‘waiitt,, I know you....’ (literally, with a forefinger held in mid air and squint my eyes). 
Let me do a quick background story.
I had an eye on the boy when I was 12, the first few weeks of secondary school. But I learnt he had a girlfriend, so I told myself to back off. Near the end of the second year, I helped him find some books, and he said my name, and I was like ‘oh, crap, I do have feelings for him’. I saw that his facebook status was single, so I let myself observe him. 
Fast forward middle of the third year, I had a really bad crush on him, and during September/October I initiated contact with him on ask.fm. It’s a site where you ask people questions, you can do it anonymously or with an account. Long story short, he found out who I was, (worst feeling ever) but the next day he didn’t seem interested in talking to me irl. I was SOOOOOOOOO devastated. SOOOOOO devastated. Why? Because I was (am) such a shy person. I was not pretty (still am, but I’ve accepted myself for who I am and idc how I look like)
Then I picked up very subtle signs that he had a thing with my friend’s friend (who, on the fourth year, became my classmate). That was the very worst day I’ve ever had that I can remember, also, I overdosed on something on that day that made me kinda sure I was going to die that evening. But I didn’t. And on the fourth year, I learnt that he had a girlfriend (someone not from our school), which left me confused, because i thought my classmate was his girlfriend? 
Apparently my classmate was confused too, but I never asked anyone about it, and I decided I don’t like him anymore (it wasn’t as easy as how I’m making it sound, obviously).
A very short period after I decided to see myself as superior to him (I don’t remember if the very next day, or the week after that), I actually talked to the guy.
Okay let’s get back to what happened today. So after I acknowledged his presence (and I gestured that he and my younger bro both have the same names), I still purposely not-look-at-him that much. Yeah, I asked him about the shoe sizes and asked him for this size that size whatever and when I was being goofy trying them out in front of my parents he kept glancing over at me and -was he smiling?-.
Oh, I forgot to share the tale of when I discovered his girlfriend’s ig (his was privated, but my reaction’s still pretty much the same when he approved my follow request) and I was, how do I describe this,...
You really like a guy. And you really look up to him. He has a lot of qualities you like, I mean, he’s so similar to how you’d want your son to grow up to be. (p,s: currently, I’m hoping I won’t fall in love and get married and start a family) And you discover that his girlfriend is one of those selfie+duckface types, doing oozywoozymybfissoannoyingbutshoooocutie captions/comments, and you’re like, teary eyed, you deserve so much more than her!
I think what I need to inform you is that my heart didn’t have a panic attack. Sure, my hands trembled a bit, I was a little shook, but I’ve put him, I have strained and exhausted myself to put him behind a few years ago.
Afterall, I was in love with the guy in my head, not him. 
He’s a nobody to me now. We only exchanged like, 4/5 sentences. (oh, i also need to tell you my father kinda did his ‘teach em a lesson’ to the guy because my younger bro wanted to buy socks, and father was like ‘ARE THOSE SOCKS HIS SIZE’ and the guy was like ‘erm, they’re free size’
‘YEAH BUT DO THEY FIT MY SON’S FEET’
‘yeah, we just measured it’
wait i need to interrupt
oh my god the guy of my -past- dreams was bonding with my younger brother who has the same name as him
the guy of my -previous- fantasies of my future has met my family
the guy who i want(ed) to spend the rest of my life with has seen how challenging his future (perhaps in an alternate universe) father-in-law could be
okay continue
‘THOSE SOCKS ARE MEN’S SIZE. YOU SEE?’ *wagging the socks* ‘MEN. THIS IS A BOY. A CHILD’
to be honest, that child’s feet are almost my size, but,... *does not interfere*
and when everything’s all paid, the guy freaking smiles (i wasnt looking, ehem, but, like, i have invisible eyes all over my head) and said thank you please come again in the sweetest way i know he could do to my *older* brother who did the payment.
so like, we only exchanged like 4/5 sentences each, but I couldn’t help my mind going over those empty exchanges, wishing I had said more, wishing I’d replied differently, with different words, just...
okay wait to finish everything off, i was so beat when we got home, but my father made me practice my driving, and it’s 11.16pm right now. 
i made the title today was a really long day because i woke up at 6.30, after days of waking up at noon. my bedtime has been 2 am for almost 2 weeks now, (i just can’t sleep early). i need to get enough rest minimum until my driving test the day after tomorrow. 
well, that’s all im going to share to no one on tumblr right now.
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