#im going to pick up the prescription tomorrow..

[orcelito]

Got my appointment today, so I am of course unable to do Anything Else while I wait for it. And it's not until 2 hours from now 😭

I did set up my new dehumidifier tho, so hopefully that can help with the humidity in my apartment. Waiting impatiently for it to collect the water, but I just gotta give it time...

[coridallasmultipass]

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[ty-bayonet-betteridge]

i didnt have anywhere to wear my costume on halloween so im just gonna wear it when i go to pick my prescription up and buy discount candy tomorrow

[katvalentinesblog]

May 8th

Yesterday was orientation at my new job. I had the worst anxiety the day before and of orientation. A couple days ago I found out I was dropped by my insurance. I had to pay full price for my dr visit then found out my Zoloft is $243 without insurance. So I had to make my last few days stretch and with missing doses I’m completely out of my mind with anxiety. I was crying and shaking before my orientation yesterday. I just found out about an app that can drastically lower my Zoloft costs so I will pick it up tomorrow. Also when I get really scared I always try to blame it on my transition so for the second time in like 2 months I sent a message to planned parenthood asking how to stop my hormones followed by another message saying “oh nevermind I want to stay on hormones I just need therapy sorry”. So now I’m super worried what they think and worried they will take my prescription away. Which I don’t blame them if they do because I’m a complete fucking idiot. Hopefully they won’t think too much of it but like I said I did this once before a couple months ago. Hopefully they will call and I can explain myself. I want to stay on my hormones more than anything even if I have to do it in private the rest of my life. Anyways Home Depot is intimidating as hell. It’s even worse I’m so heavy because I have absolutely no self confidence around the other people there. I’m really sabotaging myself in every way. My anxiety is so crazy. I woke up at 4am which was about an hour ago and can’t sleep. When is it going to click?? When am I going to prioritize my health?? I’m freaking out about my hormones being take. Away although I can have over a month left of them at home I’m sure I can figure something out if then end up taking my prescription away for acting crazy. Not being on my Zoloft for a couple days has my anxiety going nuts. I’m just not in a good place. I’m going to try and lay back down and sleep. I work tomorrow and every weekday for the next two weeks YIKES. So I’m going to diet very hard like try not to eat much at all. Maybe try the 5 bite diet again. If I was very thin it would help my self confidence and anxiety exponentially!!! I’m going to get my meds tomorrow morning and pray everything goes smoothly. Hopefully planned parenthood calls and I can explain myself and bed them not to stop my hormones. Let’s see how tomorrow goes. Thank God for tumblr. I’m so fkn lucky to have this outlet. Getting this worry out to this journal helps immensely!!!! I hope I can fall back asleep. Please please please God, universe, guardian angel, anything out there please help make my life better. Please 🙏🏻 Ok im going to try and sleep. My alarm goes off in an hour and a half yuck.

[nakedanddismayed]

i take a test as a formality. it’s 8a and the faint + sign appears. he is in the shower and i go in.

“ah.. i have bad news.”

“okay what do we need to do?”

“i’m going to make an appointment. we are still on the same page right?”

“absolutely.”

i walk the dog and you call me.

“i want to reassure you that you’re making the right decision.”

you pick up dunkin and we start the 3.5 hr drive. neither one of us are feeling particularly hungry. my emotions are ebbing and flowing. high highs and low lows. i know this would be even harder if we were on different pages. i’m just scared.

but everyone at our destination is so kind. and my 2 closest friends text me as soon as i arrive. i feel so supported. they take me back alone first to ensure im okay then they let him back and we learn about the process. i take the first medicine there and we get Caines while waiting for my prescription. We pick it up no problem and set back out to head home. we walk the dog together and spend the night talking in bed. tomorrow will be brutal, but worth it.

everything is going to be okay.

[voidsumbrella]

today

surprise wife retrieval at airport at 7 am, when i had already booked the day because i thought they got in tomorrow morning

2 hours of middle of the night cleaning, 1 hour of laying in the dark with my eyes shut, 2.5 hour round trip to airport

wife is also dead on feet

pass out for 1.5 hours before helping my parents clean the goat house. humidity is at 79%.

shower.

go back out to get bloodwork done and pick up some pet supplies, tack on grocery run while im out

prescription rabbit food is on backorder with no restock date in sight; spend 2 hours drying and pulverizing hay so it can be mixed with a bird handfeeding formula to make a passable substitute

clean kitchen, as it is now covered in hay dust

and now i have to make dinner.

im very tired.

[gnarlykickflip]

okay so i need to:

take my shot (today)

prep cocktails and dinner (today)

gaming (today) (drunk)

order groceries

pick up my prescription

inventory and order light bulbs

prep for more gaming (messaging, organization, maps)

clean out my car

install wipers

clean out my other car

balance budget

book bergen hotel/airbnb

book oslo-bergen train if possible (not yet available)

amazon route (weds morning)

tire appointment (weds morning)

go to the bmv (weds)

nap (weds)

gaming (weds)

and on top of all that i gotta make time to go watch orientation videos once my bg check comes in. maybe i should get some of this done now so i have less to do tomorrow.

if anyone sees me on tumbr tomorrow can u pls remind me to gtfo. im going to try to stay offline until thursday if at all possible.

[athene-studies]

k havin some trouble keeping out of The Ennui this past while and i realized i had 7 core values listed on my blog (listed on the little explore thing on my desktop theme as "live life on purpose • step off the path of least resistance • take care of myself • contribute to the community • get things done • always learn • appreciate beauty") sooo score thats a weekly challenge right there.

im just gonna start tomorrow (its the night of the 5th as i post this) since im lucky and my week isnt bounded by things like "weekdays". lets do them in order!

6. Tue - live life on purpose: to keep myself mindful I'm going to write down what I've done after every half hour of my day, plus im gonna plan out a couple things at certain points of the day and attempt to stick to those plans 7. Wed - dont get dragged back into my comfort zone: i do have a dentist appointment that day, but im going to also go to the library while im out, which ive been trying to do for a while but just never felt right. im going to wear a cute but maybe a bit weird outfit, and whenever i have an urge to do something (i should go read, i should cut up and eat an apple), im going to do it instead of succumbing to the Nah. ...also this isnt relevant to the daily challenge but i do need to pick up a prescription so im going to try to remember that 8. Thur - take care of myself: im going to try to do all of my self-care habits ive set up. most of them i do once in a while, but i havent managed to do all of them at once in a few weeks. so that means doing my workout, brushing my teeth, turning my phone off at 1 and reading instead for bedtime, making sure my laundry is put away... etc. this one's only a small part of the day but i guess that means its a good chance to rest lol 9. Fri - help others: its a terrible time of year to do things like volunteering, plus short notice, so im going to focus on chores around the house and donations and home political action, that sort of thing. maybe text my siblings to find out how theyre doing. 10. Sat - get shit done: i mean what else is there to say. at the beginning of my day im going to write down a list of things to get done (attempting to include things that are low on my priority list so just keep repeatedly getting pushed back, like calling my grandpa and working on a video edit) and see how much of it i can do. the slogan for the day is gonna be "if i think to myself 'yknow i could go do this thing' i fucking will" 11. Sun - learn: hopefully the rest of the week will have caught me up on my accounting course, but if not, id like to do that. after that, though, id like to set aside some time to read articles on things i care about but dont know much about, and do a lesson or two of language learning or coding or something. learning at my own pace isnt going very well so far considering "my own pace" is ✨stagnancy✨ 12. Mon - appreciate the world: not much else to note other than looking around myself more often. im pretty good at this one already. lets use it to mean "do hobbies"-- take an hour to do some writing, take an hour to do some music, drink a tea ive been keeping aside for a special occasion, idk

and i will let you know how that goes :)

[daddyd0nt]

Go big or go home but no, if your protest harms other vulnerable people more than it harms the people making policy, it is a bad protest. You can go into work and fill prescriptions and not accept payment like those bus drivers in Japan if you want to cost the company money to make a point but like I said if my medication is late by a few HOURS i could have a seizure and Im a danger to myself and anybody I run into when Im not medicated to the point where I was declared too disabled to work despite having a degree because multiple therapists wrote letters essentially calling me a dangerous ticking time bomb unfit to interact with the public.

Why is my life as a chronically ill person who depends on medication less valuable than the life you'd be "throwing away" if you took out a politician or something else actually meaningful? Why is the risk that i will land myself in prison without my meds worth taking but the risk of legal consequences for refusing to take payment not? Your "right to protest" does not take precedent over my right to literally live.

IDGAF who is at "fault", protesting by failing to provide medical care is horribly immoral and hurts vulnerable sick people 100X more than it hurts the people in power.

If you want to hurt the people in power then hurt them, but don't do it at the expense of innocent vulnerable people.

When my last workplace did a walk-out I was one of the only people who didnt walk out and abandon a room full of little babies to stand in the parking lot. I stayed with my babies, then stayed late to take care of the kids who got picked up late and made it a point to tell every parent that the workplace was on strike and not to bring their child tomorrow, and informed my boss that I would be joining the protest in the parking lot on the following day. But some of these women abandoned rooms full of infants to make a point about not wanting to take extra unpaid training (which I agreed with, it was bullshit, but my human instinct would not let me leave little children unsupervised). It wasn't the babies' fault so I tried to keep them from being the ones most hurt by the protest. Infants were completely confused and screaming in their cribs in abandoned rooms and me and two other teachers (both older black women if that matters) went around room to room collecting the kids and bringing them to the indoor play area while we tried to contact as many parents as we could to have the kids picked up. But we did NOT leave those babies. We did not walk out of that building until the last baby had been picked up. We did not let the babies suffer and be afraid as a bargaining chip.

My life/health is not your bargaining chip.

[enthesea]

busy day for the en guy... had a psych check in appointment and she upped my dose of sertraline.

got the lease documents for moving signed and taken in... bought some totes n moving stuff...

then i went to pick up my prescription at walgreens. and since they didnt have my insurance on file she said itd be like 30 minutes. so i go ok! and wander around

and then 30 minutes pass and i go back and say ok medicine please! and, different person, tells me. its not gonna be there till tomorrow. so i go hahaha! ok! and now im home :]

[parasprite]

I should just go today. But i don't wannaaaaa. But I need to. Aaaaa

[sinnershavesoulstoo]

Anti-depressants? Yes. I have to pick them up tomorrow.

Do they think I'm bipolar? Yes. Even tho I literally only talked to the man for 20 minutes. The last therapist I had told me I wasn't bipolar, sooo? Because the one before that said I was and I was v confused.

Did he tell me I could have depression symptoms because of my thyroid and my possible sleep apnea? Yes. Which is insane, because this has been lifelong (as long as I've remembered at least)

Did they give me any type of ADHD assessment? Absolutely not, because I'm not that kind of mentally ill. I'm the even worse kind, apparently?

I have an appointment on uh the 7th? And im going to ask the therapist about the adhd assessment because honestly i think that's the worst part of this. My ADHD has previously been diagnosed and I took medicine for it and I felt so much better. And I'm always so worried that they're going to think I'm fishing for an Adderall prescription. And like, yes? But because I know it worked great in the past. And i don't know how to get the help i need. Because nobody takes me seriously.

[goofyjelly]

yes oh my gosh and I love telling this story so much that I'm putting it in the reblog and not the tags for once, I'm so sorry OP:

Picture this: I am a child, around 8 or 9 I wanna say, and the Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog show from the 90s is my lifeline. I love it with all my heart and I want to be able to watch it all the time.

One night, my dad shows me Ferris Bueller's day off and I very confidently start scheming.

The next week, I pull out ALL THE STOPS!!! I take every trick I can remember from the movie and more, making my head warm and damp and all that too. That morning, mom walks into my room and I play it up. This is my acting debut. She feels my forehead and is like "Oh wow! you're burning up, you can't go to school today."

And I continued to be a little shit about it, and insisted that I should go to school, and that I don't want to miss anything (this was of course an absolute lie. I want to stay home and watch Sonic, but I didn't want her to know that). This wasn't out of character for me to do, I was a very shy and people pleasing child, I did genuinely like going to school, so she bought my lie.

She tells me to lay down and relax, and later we'll go to the doctor, and if there's anything she can get me. The moment I've been waiting for.

But I can't sound too eager. I can't act too cocky. So I pretend to think, and ask if I can watch something, since my head hurts (lie) and I don't think I can go back to sleep (another lie. straight to my mom's face). So then I get her to suggest to me that I watch Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog, since she knows it's my favorite. Now it's her idea.

I've won. I've watched so many episodes in a row while my siblings are out at school and this is the biggest victory high I've felt in my very short life.

Then we go to the doctor. I almost break. I know they won't find anything, obviously, since I'm not sick, but backing out or even trying to back out without sounding like a baby would arouse suspicion, and I can't let that happen. I've come so far, and if I don't back out I might get an ice pop after the doctor's visit.

Im at the doctor's, and I bullshit a lot of, to me, unprovable symptoms: headache, throat feels "weird," etc. They take my temperature, but of course it's normal, and my mom then says that I was burning up this morning (another one of my lies).

The doctor mentions how a bunch of strains of the flu are going around.

I do a flu test.

I have the flu.

I try and ask a few follow up questions, as if there ARE any follow up questions when you're given a fucking flu test. And in school we had quite recently learned about how you "shouldn't take medicine you don't need" so I was freaked.

We go home, and my mom says she's gonna pick up the medicine tomorrow since the pharmacy near us kinda sucks with getting the prescription in a normal amount of time.

I got my ice pop, watch a shit ton more episodes of the Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog, and go to sleep.

I wake up feeling like I was ran over by a large garbage truck. I have the flu. the flu does not feel good.

I somehow, through whatever luck, predicted that I had the flu. I think when you get sick with, like, the flu, you don't start showing symptoms like the minute or even the day you get infected.

Which, in a way, was great, cus we basically already had a diagnosis and medicine, so I was gonna get better real fast.

I stay home. I watch more Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog. I am in a lotta pain cus 9 year old me has little to no pain tolerance. But I have Sonic.

However many days go by, I feel a lot better. Then I go to sleep. I wake up feeling extremely shitty. Back to the doctor.

I have, somehow, gotten a different strain of the flu.

The doctor says this happens sometimes. I say I think the whole situation is very funny. The doctor and my mom do not know for why I laugh.

We get a new prescription, I get another ice pop, and I watch more Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog.

More days go by. I'm feeling better. I go to sleep.

I. wake. up. feeling. like. trash.

again.

Back to the doctor. My mom is laughing through utter confusion.

I have, god knows how, gotten the third strain of the flu that's going around.

The doctor actually full on laughs upon seeing me again.

"You're doing this on purpose" he says

I laugh. "only the first time."

Another round of ice pops and Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog and then I'm cured for good.

Actually, I don't think I've gotten the flu since then.

So, that's my Ferris Bueller adventure. The Flu Cubed.

Did you ever pull a Ferris Bueller growing up? (pretend to be sick)

[starbratinum]

tw: prescription medication and accidental withdrawal,physical sickness, mental symptoms

basically i forgot to pick up my seroquel and on day 2 of a weekend without it i feel like i’m going fucking crazy

🐜🕷️🦟

been getting progressively sick all day and it’s culminating to me laying in bed w the lights off after vomiting and i’m so!! sick and sad!!

yesterday was hellish and i forgot to pick up both my fucking seroquel scripts and im now on day 2 without my 3x a day 50mg and 150mg at night :)) because i ONLY have 300 mg left and and rationing them for tonight and tomorrow night

it’s just now hit me that, because i take 4 doses a day and am on a total of 300mg a day, i am absolutely experiencing the beginning of fucking withdrawal symptoms and i’m so…

there’s not even any internal stigma of “oh it sucks im even physically dependent on this” bc no fuck that, i have been so fucking sick and sad for so long i’m so GRATEFUL this medication if the FIRST to work with absolutely minimum side effects, and without being needed to be combined with 2+ other scripts.

it all just the unproductive, intrusive shame that comes with being a physically disabled adult who can’t fucking work, who puts all my effort into being productive in the ways i physically and mentally can, but i can’t even make sure i have the ONE fucking med i need?

once again, i know that’s the emotional voice making me feel worse than i already do. but god fucking dammit, after over a decade of dealing with all this, and knowing i’m doing so fucking well comparatively- i still feel so incompetent and pitiful and a waste of space!!

having bpd and cptsd with a brand new fibromyalgia diagnosis makes me want to scream!!! but all i can do is take my fucking meds, use my cane when i need to, and get outside to appreciate the fucking sun. and that’s OKAY!!! i just need to keep reminding myself.

[cinastre]

i took out the trash! (not recycling)

i called cvs and got some sort of solution to my prescription!

i picked up said prescription!

and i did the dishes!

i think im gonna go to bed now and get a whole bunch of sleep and do the other chores around my stuff tomorrow

after work:

-take the trash out good god

-fucking call cvs

-floor time (required)

-dishes

-make my bed

-sweeper

-potentially otger chores

[obsob]

hes casting spells....what is he casting....