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Is it possible to get an orchiectomy before Inauguration Day ?? I have to get these things off of me before it’s illegal!! I don’t care if I have to DO IT MYSELF. Please tell me I’m overreacting

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Oct 30

Tomorrow is Halloween. Another year of not decorating, not going to a Halloween party, not dressing up. Which is totally OK but for me it means I’m still stuck in depression. Not bad depression but low grade and constant. Or is it the chain vaping thc? I think it’s that. I want to stop but I’m failing. Like everyday I get up telling myself I’m not getting high today and ten minutes later I’m getting high. I feel so guilty. This isn’t how I imagine my life. But it’s not all bad. I have to remember how fortunate I am. This election is also tearing at my heart. I’m terrified of trump winning. Not just for our country but for the world. Today I’m going to start making good decisions. I already got high this morning so yeah I messed up but I can chose sobriety the rest of the day. I’m going to make this journal a priority and of course if you see yourself in me or have any advice I’d absolutely consider each one.

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Just started talking to my ex of 20 years. I’m not very smart.

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September 19 2024

I’ve never been a person who calls out sick to work. There are people who rely on everyone to show up and a call out can ruin an entire day in a retail setting and also makes everyone work harder. That being said I have now officially called out for the third time and I’ve only been working at Ross for two months. I’m actually disgusted with myself. I hate the rush of joy I feel after calling out. I’ve become so unreliable and also a liar because I’m not even sick. Well just in the head. I apologize to all shift managers and store managers. It’s absolutely wrong to do. But also I don’t agree with the notion that humans should be forced to work all day to afford shelter and food. Like ok work my life away just to die. Like I’ll be laying on my deathbed thinking omg I was such a good employee. Nope. Non of it matters. Just the life experience does. I believe in reincarnation and past lives. I’ve completely abandoned religion but I believe there is something in the universe. A connection. A home. Ewwwwwww I sound sooo stupid right now🤣 ok I got too high and now I’m contemplating the universe 🤣�� dumb bitch!!! I’m just trying to excuse away my call out lol. Oh alsooooooo I’m going to actively start searching out like doctors and talk to my insurance to get my surgeries to hurry and finish my transition. I’m sick of feeling like a sexless old maid. The main surgeries I want are an orchiectomy and FFS. Oh also I need some laser on my face. I’m not very interested in getting boobs because they seem uncomfortable and they make me feel bigger and being 6���5” tall feeling big is the worst!!! I’ve been on hrt for nearly a year I should really measure myself to see if I shrunk. I hate being super tall. I’d prefer to be closer to 5’10” but at the same time it’s fun to catch everyones eye when I enter a room. I low key like people and long for close relationships. But yeah I need those two surgeries to feel free. My tuck would be so tight I would be able to easily wear leggings and bikini bottoms. Sorry I’m rambling. I haven’t gotten to let loose in quite a while and being stoned coupled with delicious coffee and the joy of calling out sick I guess I’m just finally content lol. If you’re reading this right now I wish you the most amazing day and I hope one day we can get high and have coffee together. 💜

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September 6th 🏳️‍⚧️

Been a long time. I shouldn’t have left you. Without a dope blog to vibe to. 💋 I’m still at Ross!!!! I can’t believe I’ve held a job for two full months! In that time I dropped off of college but now I’m back. Week 1/8 going full time to online school😛 and part time work is tough. It takes so much of my energy to get myself to do my schoolwork. I think I’ll be on hormones for a full year I. December so that’s coming up. I noticed some good breast growth and my nails, hair and skin seem to be radiating health!! However I’ve become quite overweight. I’m talking 32% body fat. It’s absolutely ruining my self esteem and it’s actually becoming increasingly difficult to keep up with the fast pace of my job. I decided to start Golo. I just got my lil starter pack now I need a food scale. Bet I can get a good deal at work. Anyways that’s life for now. I’m still using weed like crazy and I know it’s not good but I just guess I need it for now. But I really want to stop.

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Have you ever happened to follow Mr. Natural. He was big in the late 60s and 70s, an underground comic strip. One of his strips, which has stuck with me through the decades, is where one of his followers, Flaky Font, asks Mr. Natural(the guru). “What is the answer?” Mr. Natural asks Flaky to repeat himself as he doesn’t quite understand the question. Flaky does and the old man ponders the question for the next several moments. He turns to Flaky and says, the answer is “ to go fuck yourself.” Gets me through the day every time.

🤣🤣🤣 I’ve never heard of it but that’s funny. Seems like something I’d read🙌🏻

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lol wheres the plug that sells ozempic

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You can try UPS. They always hire for holiday season, Starting pay $21/hour. You will bust your ass and sweat though. You show up on time and work hard nobody bothers you because the Teamster's Union does not put up with that shit. I am just happen to be a supervisor. So I know. If you are fired you know you fucked up bad. At our hub there are three transgender women and one transgender male that I know of working. Three have been there for years, and one is a supervisor like myself. I live Washington state. Good luck.

That sounds perfect! Thank you!🙏🏻 I’m gonna give them a try!!

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August 10 12:44am

I had to call HR on one of my managers tonight right after I got off work. This asshole manager is picking on me. She calls me slow, talks about how slow I am and how bad my side of the store looks when it totally isn’t true. Then a coworker says she’s just like that just let it go. Um noo. Ross is a big company and should not have twats like that working there. Like it was blatant and other associates noticed. Like why me?? I don’t goof off or anything, no one will even fkn talk to me there. So I just focus on my work, going as fast as possible and to have that lazy fuck mess with me just for her pleasure. I don’t even care if it all gets solved and she stops picking on me, having to file a complaint this early into my employment makes me think I made a mistake with Ross. Sooo I’m going to start job hunting again. But this time I won’t quit until I find another job. Like I’m sorry but hanging up shirts shouldn’t be a do or die job. Ugh I could slap that ugly bitch right across the face and watch the dark bags under her eyes shake! 🤣 I cannot deal with anymore shit universe. Please give me a break!! Just a small period of happiness would carry though for a while.

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My knees are hurting so bad from work and being a total 🐖 . I literally have to go see a Dr for this, it’s pretty bad.

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July 26 1AM

I love having tumblr. I love that it’s my own little world that no one who knows me knows about. Nobody other than a couple girlfriends even knows I’m trans. So I suffer alone a lot. The dysphoria is so bad sometimes I had no idea it could get that bad. Only happens when I’m at work or in public I start to get massive waves of guilt. But I’m not quitting. I’ve gotten close but I’m not giving up. I take my hrt and go to work and come home and lay around. Definitely not the most exciting. But when I’m alone I feel my soft skin and luscious head of hair, soft bubble butt and my breasts and I feel so amazing in those moments. But when people come around kat has to hide. Definitely think that’s what’s causing the dysphoria but it can be other stuff too. But when things feel bad I can come on tumblr to my little corner and read and indulge. No dysphoria, no public spaces, just on my new couch waiting to get tired and enjoying the scroll. I work tomorrow from 10am to 3pm. Not bad. I’m loving these part time shifts. Next week I’m going to go get a new vehicle. I’m slowly getting back on my feet. I’m quitting weed again tomorrow. I’m gonna miss it but it’s really holding me back. Life is way better sober anyways and I get addicted so easy. Anyway babes. I’m gonna continue my scroll. Starting today when I get up I’m putting my health first. Gotta start making big changes in my life. Love you guys 💋

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14 year old transgender girl Pauly Likens was unjustly robbed of her life due to trans panic between the dates of June 22nd and July 3rd, 2024. say her name.

i have seen only one or two posts about this, but none of them include her name and it sickens me. Her name is Pauly Likens, a 14 year old transgender girl from Sharon, Pennsylvania who met up with a 29 year old man whom she met on Grindr who was brutally murdered and her body was dismembered because she was a trans girl. she went missing on June 22nd, and her dismembered body was found on July 3rd, 2024. her body was DISMEMBERED and thrown into a river. she was not only murdered but BRUTALLY murdered. she was 14 years old. 14. she couldn't even legally drive yet in the united states. she just barely graduated elementary school.

her mother is fighting for her case to be processed and acknowledged as a hate crime. i am disgusted to find out that my home state of Pennsylvania only considers racial discrimination as real discrimination that can be persecuted by law. gender identities and sexual orientations are not considered at all. lawyers and government officials are also trying to deny that it was a hate crime, because her murderer was a self admitted gay man. i don't care what type of queer you are: there is never an excuse to lay hands on a transgender person just because you don't like how they identify.

this is utterly sickening. to say this wasn't a hate crime is living in denial. i don't care if her murderer was gay. he's a murderer who had a clearly charged reason for doing this. he stole a life from a young transgender girl for no reason other than she identified in a way he didn't like. he's not dangerous because he's gay, nor is he exempt from being transphobic. his sexuality had nothing to do with this. not only was this man a dangerous transphobe, but a predator. a 29 year old man willingly met up with a 14 year old child. this man is dangerous for reasons that have nothing to do with his sexuality. he's a transphobic child predator. he deserves no sympathy or to get off scott free just because he's gay. he willingly met up with Pauly. she didn't force him to do anything. she was a child, and he is an adult.

please say her name. while talking about the dangers of Grindr and how minors should not use it, please include her name. yes Grindr is an extremely dangerous platform for trans women, men, and trans people in general, but that shouldn't be the focus of your conversation about her. don't use her death as a platform to discuss how fucked up grindr is without acknowledging who she was as a person. don't just make her another statistic on a page. she was a real person, a child, who was robbed of her life, and robbed from her community. she is not just another number in a long list of trans panic murders. her life meant something. say her name. fight like hell for Pennsylvania to acknowledge that her death WAS a hate crime. their archaic outdated laws need updating.

her family has a GoFundMe to give her a proper burial, please consider donating or spreading the word about it:

here is a news article that genders her correctly where you can read more about what happened:

rest in power, Pauly Likens, we miss you. you are loved. we will fight like hell for you and your family. remember her.

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