#im gnna handle it :))

[darktetras]

Hi guys I'm still alive don't worry how's it going

[truckstoptigers]

i should've known it'd come back

[enochianforest]

i really would 250k word a post finale fix it with doom patrol. i truly would

[poobit]

i have many thoughts on how Mouthwashing handles the themes of abuse and the symbolism around it especially as a survivor ... im not gnna hold back so -

first of all i think since its clear the point Jimmy is dismissive of Anya´s personhood and his perception is warped towards what he does as a Captain rather than what he does as a man, it makes sense she doesnt get her own labyrinth or such , i cant argue around that because its realistic he´s so male focused he cant even bother to truly think about what he did to her, i would love it if Wrong Organ decides to do a side story vignette of her own perspective and view in the future if the game proves its successful enough for side content like that.

Assault is something usually not handled with subtlety in games, i think what struck me the most was how real the dialogue of her coping and suicidal ideations and how Curly responded to it felt , the dancing around the subject, the deflection, the "whats next" of the ever impending consequence of pregnancy, how Anya pleads for help from the person she trusts but nonetheless a man unequipped and too emotionally attached to the abuser to be able to confront him, its so real, Curly´s lack of initiative is something Jimmy fully takes advantage of the moment things dont go his way, he turns everyone against him even as a helpless body on a bed because he needed to be in control of the situation, thats what abusers do.

A more sensationalistic game would have easily played Anya´s helplessness and assault for shock for sure, because it would be easy, she is the archetypical victim trope, shes modeled in Wendy Torrance likeness from The Shining, shes meek and unsure of herself and Jimmy shoots her down from the very beginning to make her feel unqualified and cornered, but the furthest the games goes is making Jimmy terror towards the pregnancy and the baby as a boogeyman that crawls and tramples over him. No sights of bleeding legs or her crying or screaming and much less present objectification of her body (which is something that i always think the horror genre has such a struggle not grabbing onto, sexuality is mostly always played up in assault stories especially if the victim is an adult woman), she remains a fully clothed figure and maintains the agency to her own demise, away from Jimmy and beside Curly, which is tragic and obviously still a symptom of horror´s proclivity to back female characters into corners of self inflicted punishment, but the alternative would have been that sooner or later, Jimmy would have killed her.

Its clear to me that the game used Curly´s state as a way to put a barrier between Jimmy and Anya, we dont objectify Anya, but we objectify Curly, Anya doesnt just feel pained and unable to handle Curly´s medication because shes in a sensitive state, her comments about his noises and such draws a line between her trauma and her perception of things as Her fault, she cant handle hearing his struggles and cries trying to swallow a pill because it reminds her of her own helplessness, so she leaves the task to Jimmy, someone who has no qualms in forcing someone down, the emphasis of every treatment as a repetitive process and the sound design is all very poignant and for me, a great way to handle assault as a metaphor, Curly did not consent to being in this position, it is very much still Jimmy´s fault and the fact that Jimmy is basically keeping him alive against his will even to the last moment of the game says everything, Jimmy doesnt love Curly the same way he doesnt love Anya.

The horses are not lost on me, i think horses as animals are often seen as "viril" symbols, strong and often volatile, they can be often hard to mount but when one does the rider and animal are seen as this one all powerful entity, like centaurs, which also carry symbolism of assaulters mind you, so while maybe not intentional on the dev´s part i think it still points to the Horse as a symbol still important in the game, the only spoken audio lines of dialog come from the Pony Express mascot Polle itself, and they are the first to actually confront Jimmy´s self centered line of thought and over-focusing on Curly, if the Tulpar is akin to a beast of a burden then Jimmy beat the dead horse way long ago.

All in this to say that Mouthwashing was a really good experience and i really hope the dev team is interested on expanding a bit more on it because i trust their vision.

[seraphimsinful]

Fucking. Whatever. I guess. It doesnt matter .

[tomboyyyaoi]

o shit i forgot to check out the dub lol

will post opinions when im done but take em w a grain of salt coz as i said im not a huge dub fan

[dykexenomorph]

Minsc :D

MINSC MY BEST FRIEND MINSC!!!

HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM: he was one of those charas tht made me SOO pissed when i first saw him bc i was like "oh im gnna be soo insufferable about liking him." and then i WAS (mostly on call w my poor sibling [hello theo.] but also on here for a bit as well)

PEOPLE I SHIP W HIM: im sorry ik its so basic but it genuinely could only ever be dynaheir for me....they're EVERYTHING to me aughhhhhh

NON-ROMANTIC OTPS W HIM: ASIDE from the obvious answer of jaheira, im also fond of him and khalid :3 (im sure ill also enjoy whatever he's got going on w aerie as well whenever i finally finish bg1 and get around to playing bg2)

UNPOP OPINION: i honestly dont think i have one? i love him a lot and never rlly see anyone saying anything negative about him LOL

SOMETHING I WISH WOULD HAPPEN IN CANON: i dont really have a solid answer for this YET!! like i said, im still playing through the og baldurs gates, so im still forming my opinions on how his chara/story is handled throughout the games

CHARACTER ASKS

[puphoods]

⚠️⚔️🌍 Claire...

oc ask game... :)

⚠️ - If this oc came with a warning sign, what would it be?

this isnt a warning sign. i have to be truthful though. anxious dog do not pet

⚔️ - How does this oc handle conflict? avoids at all cost if he can... hes both emotionally stunted and fearful of conflict with those close to him because hes afraid of it causing long term problems in the relationship. less "interpersonal" and more "fighting" conflict though is sort of the same- fighting was his job for a long time so he will do it when and where necessary but if he has any emotional ties to the situation he becomes extremely avoidant to the point where it makes things exponentially worse

🌍 - What are this oc’s religious views? this is a good question i never thought about that... im gnna slap a big "its complicated" on that one. he probably has some level of religious views from his upbringing but in general hes very (cant think of another word) "practical" when it comes to stuff, very what i can see is whats real sort of guy. so i will proobably have to think about this one some more

[5eraphim]

im a waitress nd  i had the most surreal experience cleaning the men’s bathroom closing today,

so im finishing up; yknow finished wiping down the counters, faucets nd handles on the urinals nd toilets. im about to leave and this guy comes in and hes giggling and asks me "oh are you here to help?" and im like ?????? what the fuck does that mean? does he want me to help him pee??? like milk the pee out of his dick like a cow's utters??? is he asking to pee on me??? im like no?? and hes still laughing to himself standing in front of the urinals like "ahahaha ok ill be a gentleman and wait for you to leave before i start" and i'm like- cool thanks! am i hauled ass out of there.

 i still have no idea what "have you come to help” could mean, but i do appreciate waiting for me to leave b4 he started pissing. like ok i get it, your facing the other way, im not gnna see your dick or anything but idk still weird :/

man i am paid 6 dollars an hour to be here, i am NOT paid enough to get pissed on by strangers

also so funny its negative 10 degrees out and everyone has to go to work up here, meanwhile i’m talking to my friend from Texas and he’s like, “yeah it’s 34 degrees out and everything is shut down here lol” ... you hate to see it.

[phantomwiise]

i feel bad bcuz when i get sad my automatic reaction is 2 just go ghost, nd im feelin a bit depressed so iam try my best 2 stay cheery nd not ghost every1 lol

iplayed lyk 2 unranked games on ow n im alrdy done with it ;-;

being in a sad mood sucks but ihav 2 remembr tht life moves on neway nd evrything tht happens is 4 the best c':

i feel lyk im handling evrything in my life p well, nd not having a breakdown abt it nd thtz an improvment :3 gnna do a major room clean nd bcuz it is gloomy outside tis a treadmill day!

just keep swimming as they say <3

[ogeeitsme]

I hope Kris is doing well,, -🐢

DDGSHJGSSJ SIM NOT,,,,, b I rlly appreci8 the sentimnt

[gumdecay]

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[meistoshia]

HEY I LOVE YOU SO MUCHCHHHH H& YOU AHVE NO IDEA HOW ECSTATIC I WAS WHEN YOU GOT INTO THE POKEANI & I LOVE YOUU SO MUCH!!!! YOU MAY THINK YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE, BUT GUESS WHAT LOSER!!!! YOU BRING JOY TO SO MANY PEOPLE'S DASH WITH YOUR UTTER LOVE & APPRECIATION FOR ANY OBSCURE MUSE YOU DECIDE TO GO WITH & YOU ARE SHAPED LIKE A FRIEND & I HOPE 2020 TREATS YOU WELL

air out the old decade.   //   accepting.

[karkats-longsleeves]

[tomboyyyaoi]

also im gnna get a bit of shit here but i think if we ignore knives' slightly incestuous obsession with vash its a bit of a detriment to his character.

knives is far gone. hes disconnected from reality due to his extreme and messy emotions. and on the topic of his extreme and messy emotions and his disconnect from reality (and rejection of humanity) i can absolutely come to the conclusion his obsession with making the perfect society for him and his brother is a bit unhealthy if im being nice about it!!!

but i think we should all just grow up and realise that reading him this way isnt bad at all and is just another thing about knives that stresses his motives and mental state and how deeply he objectifies vash and im not even saying this as a shipper, this is purely from an analytical standpoint

knives' two extremities of hate and love are so visceral and i think very well handled, he functions purely from his fear of what humans do to plants (and what they do to his brother) and that for him developed into this ugly feeling that pities, objectifies, minimises and victimises vash but not in the ways we (the fans) do but in the way abusive, toxic lovers do. knives insists himself as vashs saviour and protector and even though i cant say that his obsession with vash is romantic or sexual its still an unhealthy, ugly, messy obsession and i dont blame people for reading him as a having incestuous... feelings

as long as theyr not reading it and claiming it as something that ruins his character because for me it really deepens it

[chrliekclly]

Your typing makes it really hard to read your posts even though you have great content! :(

frst thng i thought wen i got this wz ‘tough titties, pal’

but to b srs n my last coupl posts i actully taggd:

so like, i get it. im tryin