#im glad to have lived and grown as much as i have :^} sm of my early 20s was just trying to survive and get on my feet

[kuromi-hoemie]

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[love-anddeepression]

White Lily-Umemiya Hajime

a/n:This is actually so shit im so sorry, it was supposed to be something else but it became this. please comment and reblog if you like it i love feedback :3

Fluffity Fluff, ume being clueless and whipped, tsubaki and hiragi are besties i love them sm

It was cold, when you'd first met him. He must've been around fifteen, flung to the ground after a brawl. He had seen you in his peripheral, his vision was blurry.

Like a movie scene, you had entered his line of view, the sun shining behind you as you knelt down beside him, holding his head up and saying something he couldn't hear.

He woke up in his bed later. Sensei was sitting on a chair to his right, and to his left, you. The both of you were chatting animatedly and Sensei was soothing your worry, In fact, it was quite normal for Umemiya to come back to the institution beaten up and bloody.

He coughed and your gaze fell on him, your eyes widening, "You're alright!" you exclaimed.

'You have a goal', his mind provided, he couldn't be distracted by frivolous things like partners and love.

But gosh, you were so pretty. You were the prettiest girl he'd ever seen.

Your wide eyes sparkled when he smiled, "I am, aren't I. Thanks to you."

Sensei huffed, "Damn right, Ume. She shouted for help until one of the girls ran back here to get me. She was about to carry you on her shoulders."

Now his eyes widened, and he looked at you in surprise.

"Please, as if I would be able to carry him. He's really strong." you scoffed.

Ume had been called strong by many people, and it was a fact that he had accepted. He needed to be strong to change Furin.

So why in hell was he feeling so warm, all of a sudden?

He looked down, focusing on the pattern of his blanket. Bruised knuckles brushing against the soft wool.

"I am glad you're okay." you smile, "And thank you for having me, sir." you nod at the smiling scruffy-haired blonde opposite you, "I'll take my leave."

"Wait!" the words fall out of his mouth before he knows what he's going to say next.

You turn around and he freezes. He freezes like a little rabbit.

"Uhm." he looks away, a deep flush on his cheeks. He doesn't see Sensei trying not to laugh, "I don't even know your name! How will I see you again?"

You laugh, and it's like wind chimes. You give him your name and it sounds like it belongs in his lips.

'That is so cheesy', his fifteen year old brain mocks, 'What is wrong with you?'

"I'll see you in town, Umemiya-kun."

The next day, the boy looks for you like a panting deer in search for water.

When he finds you and you smile at him, he realizes two things.

He likes you :D

Shit. He likes you.

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He kisses you on his sixteenth birthday a day after you hand him a potted flower and a handwritten letter.

"Take care of it, Ume!" you had said on the messy, dirty rooftop of Furin, "It holds my feelings for you." The flower is a white-lily to match his hair and the letter smells of your perfume that he has grown to love.

He races to you after he reads the letter, a letter that says nothing about your feelings for him, but contains all the hopes you have for him.

'I hope you achieve everything you desire' He runs down the steps, two at a time, his hand burning as he scraps it on the rusty railing.

'I hope you never lose the fight in you. The resolve I admire so much.' his lungs burn, he's always hated running, but he presses on.

'I hope that you know that you are loved by so many.' he can see you from one of the windows, waving goodbye to Hiragi at the gate.

'I will never forget you as long as I live.'

"Wait!" he shouts again, like the younger boy on the bed, desperate to know you.

You turn again, your eyebrows raised at his panting form.

"Wait, " he groans, god he hates running, "Give me a second." he coughs and you giggle.

Hiragi slowly backs away with an eyeroll, he doesn't hide the small smirk on his face.

A moment later, Umemiya takes your hand in his, "I, uh. Your letter."

"Yes? Did you read it?"

He nods frantically, "Thank you. For everything."

You tilt your head, "Do you know what White Lilies stand for?"

He clears his throat, "Um, not really?" he winces.

"THEY STAND FOR LOVE, YOU IDIOT!" Tsubaki shouts, Hiragi standing next to him, covering his face in embarrasment.

He looks to you, his eyes a little wide.

You smile at Tsubaki and he winks at you.

"You love me?"

You look away, "I have, for a while. And-"

Whatever words you're about to say never come to light because Umemiya holds your face in his hands and brings your lips to his. Goal be damned, he was a fool for ever thinking that love was frivolous. Fool, his mind cackles, how could this ever be stupid? How can your hands in his hair be stupid? how can your smile when he pulls away be stupid?

It is love that makes him live, he realizes, Love for the town, for the people, for you. It makes every punch worth it.

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Umemiya plants the white-lily you gave him. There are still white lilies, two years later, along with your favorite flower, planted side by side in the garden he grew on Furin's rooftop.

He tends to them in the mornings along with Sugishita and he takes a picture and sends it to you.

"I can't wait! Sugishita!" he exclaims as the younger boy nods, his eyes sparkling. He looks up to you as well, you are always so kind to him.

"It's our two-year anniversary!"

[soggyriceee]

Moth to a flame part 3?

Moth To A Flame | Konig NSFW

| first of all, I just wanna say thank you for all the support on this story. when I say I was not expecting to make this a series I wasn't. I literally was listening to the song and got some really good inspiration for a quick little smut and kept it pushing lmao. im so glad you guys like it and I hope to write more long stories in the future! in this part I will say Konig is a little crazy, and a lot of mentions about stalking, mommy king(hehehe), and aggressive sex are mentioned. also horrible German translation. if these are any triggers to you please please do not read this part! thank you again ily all sm <3 |

four months have passed since you moved away. you and your boyfriend now live in New York, working a daytime job as a school nurse. you finally decided to put your college degree to work. your boyfriend worked at the same company, got a raise and is planning on taking you both out to Cancun for the summer. and of course,

you got the abortion.

it was the least you could do to help make your boyfriend feel better. the last thing you needed was to be alone in New York, a city too big for someone to learn on their own. you were happy. contempt. Konig was out of your life and you were able to focus on your boyfriend now.

however, arguments and trust issues were inevitable after what happened. as much as your boyfriend loved you, he couldn't trust that the same thing would happen again. whether it was Konig or someone else. a ring light camera was placed at the front of your apartment door, checked by him every night for Konig but also any suspicious activity. "its more so for our safety." he had told you a few days ago. but you knew it was more to prove his doubts wrong.

Konig harnt reached out to you. he was blocked on everything, completely ghosted. but you knew that wouldn't stop him from looking for you. you just hoped it wasn't anytime soon. the abortion was already a big step into the right path for you, Konig coming in and ruining that path was not what you needed. you were happy where your life was now, you were happy with your boyfriend. Konig would never be an issue again.

that was until you heard a knock at the door of your office. "come in~" you said sing songly, expecting another high schooler to come in with some lame excuse to be here and not in class. you paid no mind to when the door open, finishing putting the rest of the cough drops into the jar. "what can I help you with?" you asked, back still turned.

it was quiet for a moment. then, you felt two strong arms wrapping around your waist. you gasped, turning quickly. there, Konig looked down at you, a wide spread smile on his face. "Meine Liebe, ich habe dich so sehr vermisst.." he whispered, leaning down placing a gentle kiss on your forehead.

to say your heart felt like it would jump out your body was a humungous understatement. you know it wasn't your fault this time it was happening. but you still felt beyond guilty, and most of all scared. pushing him back, you moved to the front of your desk. " h-how.. how did you find me- how did you get in?" you asked, trying to swallow the lump in your throat. "dont worry about that my love.. im here now. im here to take you back home." he said, tilting his head slightly.

he looked around, humming softly. "this is a cute office. very you like." he said, smiling at the photos of you and students you had grown close to over the last few months. but he didnt really care about that. he cared about getting you back to "home". "I am home Konig. you need to leave me alone im serious this time. im happy here im happy with-"

"but you aren't. I know you aren't. I know you miss me meine liebe. I miss you too. think about you all the time." he said, another smile coming across his face. he moved closer to you but you backed away. he sighed, crossing his arms. he was unhealthy. he needed serious help. help you simply couldn't offer him. "how long are you going to play this game." he said, his tone more serious, his eyes shooting you daggers.

"im not playing a game Konig you need to move on. you cheated many times. you lost your chance to be with me." you said, looking to his side. he wasn't one to get angry, so you weren't worried about that. you were worried about falling for his gaze, his puppy eyes. " gosh those were mistakes. I regret it. I love you. I love you please come back to me." he begged, his voice going from demanding to desperate.

he moved forward again, this time following you until your back hit the wall.

shit.

he placed an arm on the side of your head, the other moving for your chin. smiling, he tilted his head. "dont you see.. no matter where you go, how many phone numbers you make. ill find you, like I always do. and ill fuck you good, like I always do. ill have you leave him and be with me. who you really wanna be with." he whispered, his eyes moving down from your lips to your covered breasts. your chest rose and fell quickly, tears brimming your eyes. you hated him. but you hated him even more because you know he was right. he always fucks you good. he always finds you.

"please.. please leave me alone." you whimpered, fighting back the tears. he ignored your cries and moved his hand to your tummy, frowning. "our baby.. where is it? you should be a lot bigger by now." he said, stepping back a bit.

at that moment you had remembered the abortion, cursing yourself for allowing it to slip your mind so quickly. "where is our baby?" he asked again, his eyes going back to dark, angry ones. you opened your mouth to say words, but none came out. what were you to say? what if he really got angry with you this time? but he had the right to know. and you knew that. after all, he was the father.

"i..I aborted it Konig.. it wouldn't have grown up with its real father anyways." you replied after a moment. you couldn't bring yourself to look at him. you knew all to well he wasn't going to have a pleased look on his face.

silence filled the large room until finally, he spoke up. "well. we can always try again." he said, turning to the chair at your desk. he rolled it out, sitting on it. "come here." he said, patting his lap. but you didnt move. he smiled, shaking his head. "always been defiant. I remember when we first got together I had to train that pretty little mouth of yours to not talk back to me. now look at you. thats what happens when you mess with boys, libeling. not men."

his words didnt bother you in an annoyed or angry way. unlucky for you, it made you clench around nothing. and he knew it did. he knew you loved being talked down on while being treated like a princess. he knew exactly how to turn you on and he was abusing that knowledge right now. " I bet you missed being thrown around, fucked like some worthless toy and then babied right after. dont you?" he stood from the chair, making his way back over to you. " you miss your mouth getting fucked, filled with cum. swallowing it all. making a mess on my dick.. fuck I think about it all the time. those pretty little eyes of yours looking up at me. mascara running down your face while I slide myself down that tight, tight fucking throat of yours." he said, looking down to your throat before quickly looking back into your eyes.

wet wasn't even the word to describe the situation going on in your underwear. you cursed yourself mentally for allowing him to talk to you like this. but you couldn't stop him. because he was right. your boyfriend, no matter how hard he tried, simply couldnt man handle you the way you loved. the way you needed. he was gentle, afraid to leave so much as a hickey on you. but he was slowly becoming more open to it, especially since seeing Konig pounding you from behind. he wanted you to stay, he didnt want you to move on to another. or back to Konig.

"Konig you need to leave.. im not coming back to you. you messed up far too man-"

" so let me make it up to you libeling.. lassen Sie mich um Sie kümmern.." he was now standing right infront of you, looking down at you. you couldnt look away. the way he spoke to you in his mother tongue turned you on, always. even if you couldnt understand every word, his deep voice and accent made it hot. his hand slid up your nursing shirt, gripping your covered breast. you bit down on your lip, closing your eyes. you couldnt give in. not this easy.

shoving his hand down, you stepped away. "Konig leave or ill call the police. ill write a restraining order anything to get you away from me." you finally said, fixing your shirt. "your so hot when you try to act all tough maus.. fuck its making me so hard." he said, pulling at his pants buckle. your eyes flickered down for a few seconds, but it didnt go unnoticed. "see dont fight it maus.. I know you want me to fuck that tight little pussy of yours. make you cum all over me. in this office of yours. you want me to fuck you on your desk huh?" he whispered, unbuckling his pants and slowly pulling his already hard dick out.

the tip literally dripped pre cum, dropping to the floor. it made you whimper, only fueling his craving for you. "Konig.. please leave." you whispered out, but it wasn't confident enough for him to believe. he smirked, turning down towards your chair once again. "maus dont you see how hard I am? I need you. I crave you." he said softly, eyes looking at you so "innocently".

his hand gripped the base of his dick, a sigh coming from him. he leaned over, spitting onto the tip and moving his hand down his shaft, slowly back up. a quiet groan left his lips, his head resting back and looking to you. he sped up his hand movements, keeping eye contact onto you. small, desperate whimpers slipped from his lips as his hips bucked up. "oh maus.. please~" he whimpered, his chest rising fast, falling at the same rate.

you whimpered at him, wanting to go and slide down on his dick. not matter how badly you wanted to keep up with the happiness you had in your life right now, you needed him. he saw your confusion and smiled, taking his other hand and reaching out. you hesitated, but slowly walked over to him. his movements slowed down, his eyes looking up at you. "please.." he whimpered.

you knew this was wrong. and you hated how much he always found a way to wrap you around his finger. how he always managed to get you beneath him, fucking into you relentlessly. and you hated how he always came back into your life when you were happy. you hated how badly you craved him, no matter how far away he was, or how bad he treated you.

you couldn't process anything until you felt him pull you down onto his lips. and you couldnt stop yourself from kissing him back. your hands cupped his face, forcing your tongue into his mouth. he smirked against your lips, pulling you onto his lap. you grazed over his exposed dick, sitting right front of it. you pulled away, a long strong of saliva connecting you two.

" maus.. i wanna fuck you so bad. please." he whispered, his hand sliding up your shirt, pulling your bra down and playing with your nipple. you whimpered, nodding your head quickly. "c-can I lock the door?" you whispered, looking down at him. but he was so focused on your nipples, and playing with himself that he same time. you assumed he didnt care, and continued to pull your shirt up and off.

he wrapped his arms around your waist and stood, sitting you on your desk. "imma fuck you... send you back home with my cum swimming around inside you. you want that?" he said, pulling your pants down. you hated how much you wanted to say yes. it was killing you. but the way his tip ran up and down your slit, teasing your entrance as he whispered filthy words into your ear, you couldnt help but whimper out a pathetic 'yes'.

thats all he needed to hear from you before he slid his full, thick length into your tight cunt, a deep groan coming from him as his head pressed against the top of yours. a gasp slipped from you, your hand covering your mouth. as hot as this was, fucking in your nurse office with the door unlocked, it was risky. in fact, you could loose your job. but he wanted that. he wanted you to have a reason to leave and go back with him, no matter how crazy or detrimental the reason. " so fucking dirty.. getting fucked on your office desk-shit- I bet you want someone to come in here and see this tight cunt getting fucked huh?" he whispered, gripping the back of your head, pulling it so your eyes met his.

he was hot. you couldnt admit it. the way he looked as he fucked you made you go feral. his hair sticking to the top of his forehead, eyes locked onto yours as small whimpers and groans left his pretty little lips. he could say the same for you. the way your tits jerked up and down every thrust he gave, your desk squeaking along with it. your hands gripping onto him as you gave him small, pathetic begs. "say it louder baby.. what do you want? be a big girl for me." he whispered, pulling his now shiny dick out, slamming it back into you. your hands gripped him harder as his grip on your head did too. "f-faster.. please" you finally were able to muster out.

his hips waited no time to move faster, feeling every vein and inch of his thickness move in and out of you. it was heaven. no matter how much you hated him, you couldnt stop yourself from letting him fuck you. anywhere. anytime. you guys were like magnets, no matter how hard you both tried you couldnt keep away from each other.

the more time went on, you realized the tears forming in konigs eyes. they weren't from pleasure either. " k-konig?" you asked, your hands falling to his lower stomach. but he kept going, no matter how hard you tried to stop him, he kept going. "I-i hate you.. so fucking much. I hate y-you because I know I c..I cant live with or without you-fuck.. I-i crave you even when I shouldn't.. I fucking hate you" he cried out, small whimpers coming every now and then from him.

for a moment you had to stop and think about what he just said. but, he didnt give you much time. the more his tears fell the faster and harder his thrusts became. the more aggressive he became. he let go of your head but pushed your body back, your bare back hitting the cold desk, pens and papers falling to the floor. "k-konig" your whimpered, your legs wrapping around his waist. "I-im gonna..cum soon..fuck!" he groaned, his head falling into your chest. his hot tears covered you and you could've sworn you heard 'mommy' fall from his lips every now and then. it made you clench around him seeing him so vulnerable, so emotional while fucking you.

he took one of your legs, pushing it up so your foot rested on top of the desk. his thrusts became deeper, the sound of your moans growing louder. his hand quickly found your mouth, silencing all the whimpers and moans that slipped from you. "m..mommy im cumming~" he cried out, his thrusts becoming more and more sloppy.

his sudden change in persona threw you off guard, but you liked it. too much. the closer he got the more he chanted 'mommy'. and you could tell, he was really close. "m-mommy I-ill hold it back.. ill hold it back till y-you cum first~" he whimpered into your chest, his arms finding your waist and pulling you up into him.

your hands quickly found his hair and tugged it, moaning how good you felt. "k-konig keep going.. im so close~" you moaned, your head falling back off the desk, eyes shutting closed. he growled, slamming deeper into you, stabbing your squishy g spot each time.

the knot in your stomach quickly came undone and not too long after, he came with you, his grip on you tight enough to snap you in half if he really wanted. he whimpered as the last bit of his cum shot into you, small 'plat plat's coming from beneath you two. he pulled out, watching the mix of cum pour out of you as if you were a waterfall, dropping to the floor.

heavy breathing filled the now silent room as you slowly lifted yourself up. "ill get you a paper towel." he said softly, shuffling over to the counter and grabbing the roll. he brought it over, getting to his knees and slowly, spreading your legs. taking the towel he ran over your pussy slow, collecting the cum. it was silent. you didn't know if you should bring up what he said, what he called you.

he sensed your tension and looked up at you from below. "I meant every word I said. I hate you. but I hate you because I love you too much to let you be someone else's. nobody.. nobody has ever made me this crazy.. ever. you've unlocked a part of me that I didn't know existed. I didn't know I had. my heart hurts seeing you happy with someone who isn't me, having a life with someone who isn't me. and what hurts more is to know I caused that." he spoke, his voice soft.

you looked down at him, your chest hurt. you opened your mouth to speak but no words came out. "you dont have to say anything. ill leave you and your boyfriend alone." he stood, throwing the papers away. "im moving back to Germany." he said, looking down at you. and you couldnt lie, your chest felt like it was tightening. tears began to pool but you looked down.

" I leave in three days. I just.. wanted to say goodbye. I guess. I know you hate me, I know you want me to leave. and I love you enough to do anything that will make you happy. if you-"

your hands wrapped around his shirt collar and you pulled him down, slamming your lips to his. his large hands slammed against the sides of you, holding himself up. he immediately kissed back, moaning into the kiss. thats when the tears fell.

"please..please dont leave.." you whispered, pulling away. you looked up at him, looking for anything that said "I won't".. but his lips formed a small smile, his hand meeting your cheek. "your happier without me.. you know you are." "I dont c-care. I cant ha-have you not here. please"

the tears kept falling and he caught each one, flicking them from your face. " oh meine liebe.." he whispered, pulling you into a hug.

✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ:

2 years had passed. you were pregnant. again. getting married in a few months too. you were excited because you felt like you were happy, for real this time. you stayed in New York, working at a new school more uptown. it was great, you were happy now.

" okay chicken orrr steak?" you asked your fiancé, rubbing your baby bump as you stared into the fridge. your soon to be husband came behind you, kissing your neck and putting his hand on top of yours. "chicken. we can make Alfredo." he said. nodding, you grabbed the meat, putting it in the sink to defrost.

" ill go run you a bath and we can get ready to go to the bakery. im excited to taste all the new cakes." he said, taking your hand and kissing each knuckle. " me too. especially the Oreo one. pleaseee at least try it. for me." you pouted. "your gonna say no to your pregnant fiancé?" you smirked, pointing to your belly.

you were due exactly 3 months after your wedding. so you both decided now was the perfect time to get married before you both had no time. "I guess I cant huh." he laughed, opening the bedroom door. you sat at the edge, watching his tall stature move to the shared bathroom.

as you watched him from your bed you smiled, thinking of all you both had been through. maybe it was the hormones, but you felt the tears well in your eyes. and it didnt go unnoticed either. " meine liebe? whats wrong?" he asked horridly, rushing over and wiping the tears from your eyes. you smiled and shook your head, placing a high kiss on his cheek.

"I just love you a lot. thats all." you whispered. he smiled, lifting you bridal style before kissing you passionately back. " Ich liebe dich mehr, meine liebe."

| tried to be cool and only highlight when y'all knew he was speaking at the end hehehe anyways guys this is like.. the end! if you guys would want one where the outcome is different and she stays with her current boyfriend lmkk cause I can do that too. but yea like I said thank you all so much for the love on this mini series <333 |

[ellecdc]

Omg elle! Your fic about sirius and potter!reader where she's "too much" is sooo relatable. I had a day like that this week. Not where I had too much energy, but experienced too much sensory output. All I wanted was a nap but i was stuck between doc appointments, schoolwork, and my part time job. Thank God for my co workers who understand what it's like to have "too much" days!

Anyway, this long message was to say thank you for putting these experiences into words with characters I've grown to love 🫶🏻

Also, this is a personal headcannon where the reader in this fic is audhd because this reader is me 🤫🤪

ALSO haha, would you consider continuing this fic?

https://www.tumblr.com/ellecdc/756563250565496832/hiiiiii-i-love-your-work-sm-i-was-wondering-you?source=share

I’m so glad you loved it!! And I’m glad I did the reader justice because I definitely was trying to portray her as at least living with adhd

Im not sure how I would continue it? But if you have ideas or prompts for this pairing feel free to send them my way 🫶

[h5eavenly]

omg i literally sent you an ask like two hours ago thinking "well this can't get any worse now we're gonna be so up from here on" AND IT SOMEHOW GOT WORSE?????? AGAIN I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WOAH yeji having it out for y/n over something that happened years ago and that hyune obviously got over is just soooo.. like she has so many reasons to give y/n a piece of her mind for and she chooses /this/ hill to die on?? AND not addressing her directly???? babyyyy this ain't it!! i think this is also a way of evidencing how distanced yeji and hyune have grown more than the distaste that she has towards y/n, like she doesn't know about hyune and her's connection and where they stand as much as the others do bc yeosang drove her away from them all which is so sad :-( sometimes she frustrates me a bit but i have a lot of sympathy towards yeji especially in this situation bc i know how hurtful it is to feel ostracised from your close friendships due to a toxic relationship and trying to hold on to the things you knew about them while not realising that they've changed bc you haven't been there enough to witness those changes :-( idk if this was your intention when you wrote it but it's really accurate. i know there's a lot of bad blood between yeji and y/n, now more than ever with the yeosang situation 💀 but i really do wish they can have a heart to heart sometime bc both of them have been so wronged and hurt by evil men and idk if a friendship between them is possible tbh but i feel like they can find a support system in each other even if they aren't friends. i just want my girls to be happy and i know there's a long way to go but they both deserve healing smsm :-(

now WDYM MFS RAIDED HYUNE'S HOUSE OH MY GOD????? this is y/n's fuckass father FOR SURE his ass wants to play gangster so bad HE AIN'T SHIT!!!!!!! i'm so flabbergasted i swear i never saw this coming??? i never thought that bum would ever go to this length to try to impose control on his daughter like that man's crazyyyyy. at first i thought the raid was bc of yeosang but you know that man ain't got no friends and is a coward he could never pull up like this 😭 so that's why i think it's y/n's father who's behind this bc he wants to have his godfather moment for some reason 💀 yk how weird men go crazy once they realise they can't control the women they feel entitled to so i think y/n moving out made him feel some kind of way. i can't wait for that asshole's downfall i swear i'm praying on it im going to church over it im manifesting it 🙏🏻 unless hyune is onto something that we're not aware of??? which idk im not sure about that honestly but i didn't see like half the things that ended up happening coming either so you knowww im seated, hyune and hannie living with y/n will be so cute too!! we love to see domestic hyune+y/n content we used to pray for times like this 🥹 so we might be kinda up after all maybe

thank you sm for the update so soon!! you're working overtime for this and it's sooo appreciated you deserve the world fr 🫂🩷🩷

genuinely curious what made you think "its only up from here" cus... 🫡efuhhfihw fyi anon i take my angst tag VERY seriously 🧐 some may say i'm not trust worthy but i just like being unpredictable

about the whole yeji situation it is intentional yes! im so glad you noticed its kinda hard to write such subtle things in smau without it being in your face because it's one of those things that i want ppl to notice but sometimes im like ahh idk if anyone would notice, i think for her she obviously views y/n as a rival but because she's left out (hence jinnie growing more distance ever since yeo came into her life) she tries to attack y/n with the only available card she has which is "you did smth bad to my friend" bc she doesn't know anything else and she wasn't even there when it all happened she only got snippets from the story and from jinnie's side when he was still feeling resentful towards y/n and you see the difference in this specific subject between her and lix (bc lix was there) he gets their bond sm more and it's so much easier for him to not hold it against y/n

listen y/n's dad might be a little worse than her mom idk they're competing for that title rn, ty for being so kind baby as alwayys i enjoyed reading and im sorry for talking sm i just get excited about my characters🥰🥰💞💞

[vivid-vices]

I follow you because you've lived a very different and difficult life from mine. It's very interesting and like reading someone's diaries, except that someone is a total stranger, older than you, and has dealt with sm trauma but they still keep going. tbh, sometimes i think you could qualify in a crime documentary (except thankfully, unlike most of those, you're actually alive and im happy and intrigued to see how your life continues even after all those horrible things).

also you've made my mind more open to things and more aware of certain realities.

just recently, for example, i saw your nsfw post about how being complimented by married men for being better than their wives got you off.

the concept of married men and mistresses disgusted me, but seeing someone so close (in that I follow your blog) be involved in that, made me think about it on a deeper level.

it made me realize that, instead of those common tropes where the mistress and wife fight over the husband, what if the mistress doesn't care at all? what if it's all just for the nooky, and so the wife should rather fight with her husband, because fighting w the mistress would be pointless? not saying this is excusable of course, but it just made me think things differently.

also that was the first post that made me think that yes, you are kinda "bad." 😅 well, some of your other posts do hint on it as well, but i digress.

at the end of the day, when i look at your blog, i see a person whose trying, despite their tragic past and destructive coping mechanisms and flaws and everything. and i enjoy reading about their everyday life. i want to see how they're doing everyday, whether it became shittier or better for them.

"studying under a microscope" (<- except said creature is at a safe distance and i can observe them and support them from a far.) ❤️

since i get to see so much of your personal posts and you don't get to see mine, i guess it would be interesting for you to know some things about one of your followers? (<- excuse to yap about myself)

our age difference is enough for you to be my parent (edited this one a few times so that "you're old" or "im young" doesn't come across insulting :'D)

I'm a pampered "good child" so seeing rebellious people or people who act against the norm intrigue me (that one time you shared about being a professional pickpocket as a kid..i thought, "huh..she must have been one of those cool kids/had a wild life. that's pretty interesting.")

i have some trauma with an older mentor in the past and that seeps in which is why im afraid to approach you off anon. (i really like reading abt you though <3). you 🤝 me - people who are better off as concepts /jk

i read your kalluto fic and liked it

also i hope you continue healing :)

my response is going to be all over the place, just a warning.

firstly, and probably most importantly, i'm actually glad you don't approach me off anon (and i mean that in the most positive way possible) because i'm very hesitant in the way i interact with people much younger than me. plus i'm awkward in general. but please feel free to continue sending anon asks, of course :)

i think a crime documentary about me would be interesting but i am happy to be alive and therefore not a contender for one lol. and thank you for the encouragement 🙏

personally i feel like i have no place to judge what a married person chooses to do, i'm just sort of like an object in that situation. their personal life has nothing to do with me so their marriage isn't my concern. i'm probably an asshole for that but i've never cared very much for people that i don't actively choose to care about (and the list of who i do care about has grown dramatically over the last few months, especially in regards to my tumblr mutuals, who i often genuinely care about and want the best for)

but if you're young enough for me to be your parent, should you be on my nsfw? 🧐

and again, thank you for your support even though you're a complete stranger to me. that's such a strange concept to me - i can imagine people following me to watch the disaster in progress, but not because they actually care. so thank you 🙏

i definitely didn't pickpocket because i was a cool/wild kid, it was just a better alternative than getting food out of the trash. i only knew three kids close to my own age and by normal standards would've probably been a total loser.

i'm so glad you enjoyed my kalluto fic!!! it's one of my least popular fics so i'm happy to see it get love 🖤

anyway this was lovely to wake up to and thank you so much for the explanation 🖤🖤🖤

[one-abuse-survivor]

Hi i really dont know how to feel about my mom. Shes kinda abusive ig i mean she has hit me before and shes verbally abused me more times than i can count, but shes less worse than dad so i think i just have a soft spot for her and its like its killing me lmao. she just lost her mum, and she has to do it all alone. the whole planning, and dealing with the ashes and bills and so so so many phone calls. shes very stressed out atm, and as ive started work lately, i feel like we've become sm closer and idk i wish i could fully forget all the bad shes done to me so i can just relax when its good. she snapped at me last night twice, calling me horrible things and threatening to punch me and stuff, and ik shes so stressed out but it still hurts inside and idk how to feel about it all. im autistic and i see things pretty black and white, and shes a grey colour and its just difficult for me to process it all and form an opinion cos shes 'supposed' to be one or the other, not both. (ik this is a false thing dw haha ik people cant fully be bad and fully be good lol) she vented to me before work today telling me how bad dads treating her, like he only cares about himself and isnt helping her with her grief at all. he just sits in the living room all day ranting to her about transgender people and black people and politics and she hates it. (hes every -phobe and -ist you can think of lmao) i just dk how to help or how to feel or just anything lol. im having a hard time atm myself and its just so stressful to have to always be the grown up around my parents. i have to always stay calm, i have to be the mediator, i have to calm them and comfort them and offer them solutions for their problems, i have to be their parent and its exhausting. ik theyre both orphans rn but i feel its unfair to use your own kids as your 'new parents' lol. its always been like this but its just more so now than before. i just cant cut myself off from my mum as shes in charge of everything in the house, and shes my mum, yk? shes had the short end of the stick her whole life and i just want to hug her and protect her but she hurts me a lot and im just torn between wanting her away from me for the rest of my life and wanting to be as close to her as i can, for her sake. idk if it makes much sense lol but i hope youre doing well and thank you for all the time an effort you put into answering the asks 💕

Hi, nonnie! Sorry I took so long to reply. Everything you shared here makes perfect sense. It's always hard for abuse victims to come to terms with the fact their abusive parents aren't all black or white but grey, and I can only imagine how much harder that is to deal with when you're autistic. I'm really glad you understand she can be grey, even if it's hard to come to terms with. That's already a really big step you've taken, and I hope you're proud of that!

It really sounds like your parents have parentified you—that is, they've forced you to take on the parent role in the house, emotionally. When this happens, it's not uncommon to feel the way you express at the end of your ask: like even though they've hurt you, you want to take care and protect them for their sake. And I'm really sorry you're going through this, nonnie. It's a horrible way to feel, and I can really relate, because I felt that way with my mother as well.

I don't know if this will help to hear, but through recovery, I've found that the longer you stay away from that parent, the easier it becomes to not feel so worried about them, responsible for them, or guilty for leaving them. The guilt was especially crushing for me years ago, and now it's completely non-existent except on special occasions (mainly when I have to see her again for any reason).

And I know you probably already know this, at least deep down, but nonnie, your mom is abusive. Your dad being even worse than her doesn't change that fact. The fact that your mom has had it really hard in life might explain her abusive behaviours, but it doesn't justify them. They're both abusive in different ways, and you deserve so much better than the way both of them have been treating you.

Sending a big, big hug and all my support your way ❤️

[technowoah]

could you do 21 and 23 from the prompt list with george x gn! or fem!reader?

btw i adore your writing!! i love all your ideas and your imagines are so original ahhh i love them sm

So Cliché [3:41 am]

TYSM! OMG THAT MEANS A LOT TO ME🤚🏾😭

Also sorry this came out so late

I am guessing the prompts are from the fluff list, but if this isn't what you wanted I'll do it from the angst list!

21) "Are you up? Do you need me to stay up?"

23) "Pinki promise kiss"

⚠︎ swearing, fluffy stuff, i didn't proofread 😪

Your eyes adjusted to the dark bedroom you were in. The door was closed and the curtains were slightly opened letting in the slightest slither of light inside. The sun hasn't rose yet and your body felt heavy. You turned around under the warm covers of your bed and looked at the clock beside your bed that shined 3:41 am.

You groaned as you rotated around in bed until you found a comfortable way to lay down. Time seemed to be going slower when you woke up, the need to sleep flooded your mind but you just couldn't relax. Turning around again you faced your closed door that led to the hallway. The door always had to be at least cracked and not completely closed, but your roomate was making too much noise at an ungodly hour.

Living alone wasn't good for you at all, you didn't feel comfortable living alone. It was so quiet all the time and no one was around to entertain you or comfort you when things went bump in the night until your friend George suggested that you moved in with him. You always complained that you needed a roommate so he proposed the idea that you two moved in together to make you feel safe.

A few days from that conversation you packed your things and moved in with George. Slowly but surely you moved all of your things into George's place and he was always there to help. George had two bedrooms in his house and they were right next to eachother. You both woke up around the same time and went to bed at totally different times.

George and you always made breakfast together, sat around the house thinking of things to do and just end up sitting on the couch watching anything interesting he finds, doing chores and going out quickly to then inevitably end up back to the couch to do absolutely nothing. George always ended up sleeping while you two had this time together because he stayed up so late you dont know how he could sleep like a baby like that all the time. He ended up either laying on the armrest of the couch or on your shoulder. You always thought that was uncomfortable for him, but he always ended up there. The last couple times he ended up laying on your thighs which flustered you the first time, and the second, basically anytime he goes to lay on your lap you tense up.

You weren't afraid of physical touch, but this was new to you, you've grown accustomed to George and you think you a crush evolved from nothing. You two have been really close and it all started with a stupid Minecraft server. Ever since you moved in you two have grown closer than ever and your complicated feelings if you would want George as a boyfriend or not flooded your mind as we speak.

[4:01]

You still couldn't sleep and it was becoming a problem. You tossed and turned until you felt comfortable and began to count sheep, but you already got to 40 and didn't feel sleepy at all. Encasing yourself underneath your covers didn't help, it only made you hot. You were wide awake at this point. You had sat up and got out of your bed slipping on some fluffy socks and quitely opened the door and shuffled your way to the living room. You tried to stay quiet trying to keep George asleep as you turned on the TV.

Turning down the volume you sat there for a while underneath a blanket you and George had on the couch for times like this. You had a throw pillow underneath your head while you layed horizontal, across the couch. Two shows later and your eyes began to droop, it was a sense of accomplishment because you were finally sleeping so you stayed there still so you continue to lull yourself to sleep.

"Y/N? What are you doing here?" George asked with tired eyes and gravelly voice. "Are you up? Do you need me to stay up?"

"Fuck you George. I was about to go to sleep. I kinda want you up with me." You complained as you pulled the blanket over your head with your eyes still closed.

"C'mon silly get in your bed. Were you here all night?" George said while leaning against a wall, clearly still tired.

"No. I couldn't sleep. Why are you here?" You asked, but your words mumbled together.

"I heard the TV." George pointed at the TV that was illuminating objects in the dark.

You hummed and he did as well. "Are you okay bub?"

You had a small smile on your face, you loved the small petnames he gave you. You had a small feeling that he didn't mean it in the romantic way you wanted it to be.

"I woke up and cant sleep now. I was almost asleep, but you came in so.." You said still drowsy from staying in the state of in-between being awake and sleep.

"Im sorry." George said with his head against the wall, eyes closed. "Mm sorry I'm tired." George wiped his face.

"Could you sleep with me?"

"What?" George asked laughing slightly.

"No not that, just sleep in the same bed." You said. Your brain was just working on his own. You wouldn't have said this if you were awake, but you were desperate and needed sleep. Also you were touch starved and your crush on George was becoming more apparent each day, but that wasnt the point now.

"Yeah I'll do that." George said while pushing himself off of the wall.

"What?" You said thinking he would reject the offer.

"You sound like me. Come on." George said making his way over to you and reaching his arms out. You sat up looking at him with half open eyes and ended up grabbing both of his hands to pull yourself up.

Once both of you were on your feet you both lazily made your way to your bedroom. You mad yourself comfortable under the covers while George sat ontop, restricting the cover's movements.

"You're ontop of the blankets, it's weird." You mumbled.

"Sorry, sorry. Um, what would you want me to do?" George asked as he got off of the bed and stood there awaiting for an answer.

Your back was facing towards him when you answered. "Come on under the covers, I dont bite." You faced towards him when you said that.

He smiled a bit and then got under the covers with you, he layed on his back facing the ceiling and his hands on his stomach. He was uncomfortable.

You turnedon your side facing George. "Are you uncomfortable? If you want you can leav-"

"No! No. Im just- Ive never done this before you know. I've never comforted anyone like this." George quickly said.

"Like cuddled anyone?"

"Like cuddle, yeah."

A silence fell upon you two until George laid on his side facing you. His face was close to yours and you tried not to freak out right in front of him. He reached his hand across your body and started to rub your back. You shuffled your body a little so that your heads weren't at the same level, you were level with his chest and you got closer leaning your forehead against his chest. You both got more comfortable and got closer in touch, he soothingly rubbed your back trying to lull you to sleep.

It was a while that you both layed like this, basking in eachothers comfort

"I wish I could sing like Wilbur. That would make this moment better." George whispered against your hair.

"You being here makes this moment already great though." You whispered as well hoping he could hear you.

"Really?"

"Really. I mean it. I love this." You pulled him close.

"I love 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ."

"I love you too."

You smiled with your eyes closed. "Promise you love me?"

"Pinki promise I love you." George lazily locked both of your little fingers together.

"Pinki promise kiss." You puckered your lips hoping he would get the hint.

You heard George chuckle and he softly pecked you lips, it was like he was testing the waters. You opened your eyes and he had a small tired smile on his face, the two of you ended up giggling like little kids and then going back into the calming state you both were in.

Thank God for you both being in that state of tiredness. You just hoped that you both remembered what happend at [4:32 am] when you both wake up.

EXTRA:

You were alone in the kitchen this morning making pancakes. George hasnt met up with you yet and you questioned why. Yes you remembered last night and you're glad that you finally had the courage to say that you loved him, but it wasn't how you pictured it happening.

You flipped your pancake as George came put from around the corner looking fresher and more awake than last night. He smiled at you and made his way over to you. He closely stood by you and reached over your head to grab a glass from above. He only stepped that closely to you to grab a glass.

You begun to think that he forgot about last night's kiss. He had filled his glass with ice and then with water he stood over by the refrigerator for a while until he walked over to you.

You had just finished the second pancake of the day and faced George who was stood beside you waiting for your attention. He smiled at you and slowly leaned down and gave you a kiss on your lips. It was slow and longing, like he wanted to do this for quite a while. One of his hands found the side of your face and the other one pulled you closer by your waist. He then pulled away having a big smile on his face, you matched his smile clearly glad that he did that and remember.

"This is so cliché you know that right?" You laughed.

George rolled his eyes playfully. "Exactly, I feel like I've read this somewhere before."

"Like on Wattpad?" You jokingly asked.

"Yeah I read a bunch of DreamNotFound fanfiction on there." George said as he swayed you back and forth along with him.

"Hey~!"

"I'm just kidding! And I pinki promised didnt I?" George rose his eyebrows.

"You did! You did!" You smiled at him and he matched your smile again.

"I love you." George said.

"I love you too." You replied.

"I could get used to this!"

[rurifangirl]

CHARACTER ASKSSS <33

for calipso, ymir and shou. you can pick and choose which you'd like to answer/leave out

4) How did you find the name for a certain character?

10) Do any of your OCs contain any symbolism in themselves/their story?

21) What is one of your character's biggest fears?

24) Are there any preexisting characters that your OC gets compared too a lot?

35) Which OC would beat you up if they met you IRL? -> Would this OC beat you up if they met you IRL? (i will kill them if so)

not too many questions, i hope you enjoy nevertheless <3

I've really enjoyed this and am glad, thank you so much again <3

4) How did you find the name for a certain character?

Shhdjskdj if I have to be honest, I chose Shou's name because of fantasy name generator 😭😭😭 LISTENN but I did modify It because It was "Shuu", and twisted It around and made another with the same pronounce.

Ymir's was because,, haha funny lesbian in aot that i luv sm and that looks very alike,,,

And I don't remember why Calipso. I just wanted to name someone like that wvhdjsj

10) Do any of your OCs contain any symbolism in themselves/their story?

OHHH DEFINETLY, ESPECIALLY SHOU AND CALIPSO hope i won't ramble too much (edit HOLY SHIT IM SORRY I'LLSGDGJST)

Edit: Shou's case is more of an oroborous so ty sm sunny for telling me

In Shou's case, It holds for the concept of not being able to search for help, nor being able to talk about himself. This grown even hate and disgust that got up in all these years, and has pretty much got the exact image of his snake self. Even that by itself Is sort of a representation of his mental state, which though he's gained 'control' over It, doesn't mean he's really behind that, at all. In fact, it's only gotten worse. And yet he doesn't show anything, because he has to keep that picture perfect image, and only few actually seeing through that and doing the best they can. But, he sort of hates that. He wants to resolve everything by himself like he's always had and, though he doesn't dislike help, he doesn't want to be fixed by It. Even in his group, Shou struggles a lot with his true intentions and thoughts, twisting them if that meant to seem more secure and cold. And though y'know yeah fuck It, even eating people Is part of it. Not the most part but, moreso the guilt of having soccombed so many lives for his own gain and having felt legit pleasure at times.. Needless to say that, him 200 years ago and him now are two very different people, almost opposites at that. And fuck i thik it's enough for nowhehdj

For Calipso's case, it revolves a shit ton on the concept of being left alone. I haven't gotten their post ready yet but, let's just say that he doesn't have the best experience with it. But I think the most important part Is legit their and Ymir's meeting after he becomes a Reeder in order to save her. To clarify, Ymir didn't know they've done to save them so, It was just a misunderstanding for some time. Plus, she was quite frankly horrified and, this close onto walking away. To which, Calipso was even more anxious and panicked, because Ymir Is the one who's ever wanted to stay among them. And her leaving him, would lead to nothing but a deep sense of emptyness. Now, don't count that later on this gets resolved well and they bond again, but they basically resemble that fear of being left alone because of your changes. Which I've realized it's kinda what happened w me but i digress, ive self projected on them too. I'm sparing ya onto talking about Ymir cus this Is pretty long by itself

21) What is one of your character's biggest fears?

Since I've talked a lot of Calipso n Shou, one of Ymir's biggest fears is having someone they care for to die because of her. They don't want to be the reason for someone's death, and would try to do her best to not have someone lost again.

They also have an irrational fear of spiders and thunderstorms, though the second one Is because of how many times she's been left alone, in the cold and night.

24) Are there any preexisting characters that your OC gets compared too a lot?

I don't think so?? If someone wants to compare em then sure but, most I've seen Is Rui bein compared to Ruri purely aesthetic wise sohsgdjsj

35) Which OC would beat you up if they met you IRL? -> Would this OC beat you up if they met you IRL? (i will kill them if so)

CAPABILITY WISE, they all could, no doubts.

But I think the only one who would actually try to beat me up would be Ymir. If I stand in her way id stand in her way y'know, and though they wouldn't definetly kill me, id still get beaten up.

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@a-chaotic-dumbass @spoopy-fish-writes @dopesaladlady @nadi-117 @audre-falrose @damnfoxx

[woozi]

YZA YZA MY BESTIE 🤍

HOW WAS CHEERS FOR YOU? im so so happy with the leaderline cb, i still can't believe we got it. all 3 of them slayed it with capital s <3 (also vv happy about it dropping on my birthday 🥺) vv excited for the repackage also.

how was concert for you?!! did you get to watch? i hope you did ( look at me asking as if we both actually attended 💀 ) felt so good to watch them perform after ages best two days of last month tbh. i cannot let shadow choreo get out of my mind godddd and cheol was so right about gyu's part being addicting (AND LIVE SHADOW GYU 💀🔥 GOD HELP US) they all looked so good eap in those prince outfits, and so so soft in their snapshoot encore outfits 🥺🤍 what were your favorite performances?

also what were/are your rankings of face the sun i wanna know tell me tell me:3, and OFC " 'bout you " ranks high in my list and is even more dear to me, always puts me in good mood no matter what 🥺 it's cheery, so upbeat, it's like a jar filled with colorful sweet clouds. darling has also become one of my favorite soft songs it's v cute i've lost the count of how many times i have listened to don quixote and shadow jsjdjdkdj total opposite of bout you and i love that so much. the angst and edgy vibe these two have i love love that.

that being said manifesting don quixote and cheers live performance we badly need it ( if you leave me too bc i love crying <3 djjsdjdk )

OMG ALSO im so happy my beloved 2 minus 1 made it on the setlist. vernon and shua should collab often tbh they always bring out bops.

wanted to recommend you some music last time i dropped ask but forgot dhdjkd woodz (album : colorful trauma ) and woosung (album: moth ) also released music in may along w got7 and svt. i wanted to tell you they also made may music wise good for me i feel like you'll like a song or two from these

also how have you been? <3 what has been your mind? <3 what music have you been listening to? <3 missed you very much 🥺 sending you best vibes as always and happy birthday month to you :3 hope july is very very kind and lovely to you. sending/receiving replies to you really be charging me with serotonin for days fr <3 thank you for listening to me 🥺🤍

also have i told you how i love it whenever i open your ask box and see " ask woozi a question " hsjdjdkdkd

MA CHERIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE <3

i think it's good!!! not yet obsessed w her but she might be a grower <3 i love the choreo sm though 👁 AND IM SO SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!

AND I DID WATCH THE CON ON BOTH DAYS <333333333 was so pumped tbh, they really were about Performances this time and i LOOVE THAT sm <3 ok but you're SOOOOOOOOO valid JFDHSJFDSH could he please put the double ds away 😭😭 also isn't shadow the choreo they rushed 👁 (idk if im rmb things correctly) it's even MORE amazing how they pulled that off tbh and for that to become ur fave <3 incredible!! i really loved the rearrangements for BeTS sm i thoroughly enjoyed all the performances but i'd say wave tbh <33 its FRESH!! also omg r u going to see them irl as well?

ALSO SAUR TRUEEEEEEE <3 darling has grown on me a LOT tbh <3 also love how u appreciated songs from opposite ends of the spectrum 😋 my ranking changes a lot but rn its hot > ash > don quixote = march = darling = shadow = domino = bout you > if you leave me

also they did perform don quixote (or is my memory lying to me fjsdhfsd im pretty sure they did though bc i rmb it from soundcheck) <3 AND NOT WANTING TO CRY PLEASE FDJHDSFDS

AND I KNOW?????????????????????????? god rocket line really is a blessing to humanity i'm so glad they were included in the set list

ALSO OH MY GOD ILY EVEN MORE I DIDNT KNOW U LISTENED TO WOODZ AND WOOSUNG TOO????????????????????? IM KICKING RN???????????????? ur taste oh MY GOD. i'm so so glad i met u tbh <3 and ure right may really brought us some BANGERS

i've been on summer break for a month now so it's been v fun for me, i finally got lots of sleep + got to do things i kept putting off bc of uni <3 so that's great!! honestly i'm just a svtpoppie 😭😭😭 but lately i've been more obsessed w sunmi than usual i really love her latest release <3 u should listen to it if u have the time!!

thank u for always being so kind ily vm </3 happy birthday month to US!! thank u for always hanging out w me <3 MWAH

PLS DSJKFSDHF THAT IS SO CUTE OF U 😭😭😭 wish i could also ask jihoon a question fr lmao ANYWAY!! hope u get to eat good food and spend the day as u want <3 hope today brings u much joy i love UUUUUUUU!!

[iamacolor]

hii king's affection anon again! I'm all caught up with the show (well except ep 14 😭) and I'm absolutely loving it sm!! dami is one of my favourite leads I've encountered so far. she's just soooo good?? the way we have a female lead who's strong AND vulnerable? literally the most amazing thing everr. also also park eunbin is just SUCH an amazing actress. you can see everything she's feeling and it's crazy (saw her first in do you like brahms and I absolutely love that show, she was flawless there as well)

and about jiwoon, I'll be honest I put of watching this drama firstly bcs it was a historical but also bcs I wasn't the biggest fan of rowoon 😭 especially after the disaster sunbae dont put on the lipstick was shcj but he definitely won me over this time!! he has improved soo much acting wise and his character is a great great love interest for dami.

also I enjoyed the little thing with the late King and gaon sooo much. like ik the king wasn't the best person ever but for him to remember gaon/eunseo and help him out was actually vv sweet

anyways im sorry if this was unnecessary

hi anon!!!! there is absolutely no need to apologise omg i was wondering if you had caught up with the show yet and hoping you'd send your thoughts!! i love reading other people's thoughts (one of the main reason why i make edits is so i can read people's tags lol) and talking about mine (this ask is about to get long) so there is no unnecessary ask don't worry 💜

i'm with you when it comes to dami, i think she's on of my fave leads so far if only because her set-up is so unique and tragic and it really puts her in such an interesting position, one that female characters usually don't get to be in and it's so interesting. i'm glad we got to see her as a child and then as an adult so we could see how she had become cold and had closed herself off to protect her lie and at the same time see how she had grown into the position of crown prince and was able to be commanding and smart and to genuinely care for her people and for her position. i love that she never feels like she doesn't deserve to be crown prince or king or to have power, she knows she can since she's be trained and educated for it and she's so good. but she has such hidden depths, so many things she's never fully experieced because she's never lived as herself (she's honestly such a tragic character) and at the same time she is fully the king now. i hope she gets to find who she really wants to be though and live as she wants one day, without having to look over her shoulder all the time and not being able to trust even her physician. i'm so glad she's not alone anymore (of course she always had a few people on her side with whom she has wonderful relationships) because she can truly show herself to jiwoon and rely on him.

and yes park eun bin is absolutely wonderful!! she's so commanding as hwi and yet so vulnerable all the time and you can always see that she never really releases the tension that her character carries and her eyes are so expressive. i had seen her before in do you like brahms and in age of youth s1 and so i was really curious to see her in this and she has such an impressive range, it's a pleasure to watch her performance honestly and to see how she's making choices to portray this woman passing as the most powerful man of her country.

sldkjfdkh i have not seen sunbae don't put on that lipstick but some of my mutuals watched it and from what i heard i'm not surprised it put you off lmao it seemed to be a very lacking show generally. i have only seen rowoon in extraordinary you before where i thought he did very well (clearly he was the perfect haru) so i was curious to see more of his acting in another tragic romance with impossible odds lol - with extraodinary you because of the genre of the show and the setting of his character he really didn't get to explore as much as he does in the king's affection - his interactions were reduced to very few characters and he also didn't even talk at first lol. so i'm really impressed with his acting here especially because his character is kind of a tricky one since he's put into such conflicting situations but he shines in comedic scenes and in emotional ones as well, it's really nice to see

and yes!! i'm glad we got a scene between gaon and the late king - showing once again that the king was looking back on some of the choices he'd made or things he'd let happen and the regrets he has but also allowing gaon to show more of himself and now i'm really curious about what he's going to do since killing the king was his main goal for so long

[tuanstars]

hey hi hello! can i pls get something fluffy with youngjae? literally anything im just starving for youngjae fics rn and am in DIRE need of my sunshine :( pls and thank you sm ♡

Friends - Choi Youngjae

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⇢paring - youngjae x gender neutral reader

⇢genre - fluff

⇢summary - you’re a new friend of got7 and they automatically love you! you grow attached to youngjae, and develop a small crush on him. it takes bambam and jackson to put the both of you together, though.

⇢warnings - none, this is really fluffy fluff because i’m sOFT for youngjae.

⇢notes- youngjae. that’s it.

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being a close friend of got7 got really chaotic. at first, yugyeom was the one to introduce you as a childhood friend of his, and you and the rest of got7 just instantly clicked.

now, the eight of you were the closest of friends. the members could tell that you’d grown attached to youngjae, though. they could tell that he’d grown attached to you ass well, and the feelings were mutual yet neither of you were brave enough to say it, nor think the other liked them back.

today was like any other day that got7 had invited you over to the dorms. all eight of you were littered along the couches, bambam, yugyeom, mark, and jackson all shared a couch, jinyoung and jaebeom were sharing a love seat, and youngjae was laying between your legs with his head on your tummy as he played with your rings and fingers.

all of you were engaging in conversation, cracking jokes, etc. it was a fun time between friends. you found yourself smiling whenever you felt and heard youngjae laugh, the sound is like music to your ears, and you could never get enough of it.

“y/n could you help me and jackson prepare food?” jinyoung asked you, and jackson was trying to hide a smile on his face. you rolled your eyes, and mumbled a yes.

you patted youngjae’s chest a few times and whispered that you were going to help jinyoung and jackson, oblivious to the way a pout settled on his face when you mentioned jackson. he leans up to let you leave, and leans back onto the armrest with his arms crossed over his chest.

you follow jinyoung and jackson into the kitchen, expecting to cook, but instead met with them crossing their arms and smirking.

“we know about your crush on youngjae.” they told you. “i don’t know what ‘crush’ you’re talking about, but you’re delusional if you think i have one.” you tell them with a small laugh, brushing off the fact that they were 100% right.

“yeah, okay.” jinyoung scoffs as he pulls some noodles from the pantry. “we see the way you look at him everytime he moves. and how attached you are to him.” jackson observes, resting his elbows on the counter.

“it’s youngjae. who isn’t attached to him.” you state, and jackson rolls his eyes and drops his head. “he has a crush on you too!” he says and does his best to persuade you.

“sure, and i’m the queen of england.” you snort, helping jinyoung spice the noodles. “it’s true! everytime you mention my name, he pouts and glares at me.” he explains. “okay, i agree with this one. youngjae probably thinks you have a crush on jackson which is why he hasn’t said anything.” jinyoung states, stirring the noddles.

“if all of this is true then i might tell him.... in a few weeks.” you mutter. “weeks?! no, you’re telling him tonight, after dinner.” jackson frowns, and now it’s your turn to glare at him. “okay look, if you won’t tell him tonight at dinner, then i’ll say it in front of everyone.” he bargains, and jinyoung hums in agreement. “jackson if you tell youngjae that i like him, i will beat you like a drum.” you murmur. he looks scared for only a minute, but this goes back to his normal smile. “okay, we didn’t actually need you to help us cook, go back in there and helplessly flirt with youngjae.” jinyoung says with a grin.

you roll your eyes for the umpteenth time, and finally leave the kitchen. youngjae seemingly perks up when you come back, leaning up do you could settle behind him again. you do, and he pulls your arms back down over his chest.

— xx —

eventually, the time after dinner came, you were anxiously waiting to see what jackson would do. everyone was piled into the living room again, you and youngjae in the same position, and jackson and jinyoung stood up.

“guys i have an announcement to make.” he hums with a smile pointed your way. youngjae sighs as he’s held in your hold, and you’re shooting daggers at jackson. “jackson if you make this announcement, i will bruise you like a banana.” you mutter, everyone laughs without knowing that you’re serious.

“anyway, y/n has a crush on someone in this room.” jackson seems triumphant as he announces it. no one really seems surprised, though. “literally everyone in here knows that-“ jaebeom says, but stops when jinyoung glares. “yes jackson, we know that y/n has a crush on you. no need to announce it.” youngjae mutters, not rudely but his words were laced with hurt and sadness.

“ew what? no i have a crush on you-“ you tell him, eyes widening when you realize what you’ve said. “shit.” everyone else around you wears triumphant smiles. “i like you too, y/n.” youngjae says with a cheeky smile. “you’re welcome.” jackson says before sitting down you roll your eyes, and pull youngjae up so that he’s cuddling into your side, with his face buried into his neck.

“i am so glad the both of you finally got together. i was getting tired of hearing youngjae complain about how much he likes you.” bambam teased, and everyone else agreed, leaving youngjae to whine. “guys...!” he muttered softly, arms wrapping around you.

everyone playfully rolls their eyes and goes back to their individual conversations, while you and youngjae were in your own small world, resting together with barely shared words. it’d be explained more tomorrow, what was going to happen between you two, but for now, you sat in comfortable silence.

[professional-benaddict]

Hi! I love your writing, and honestly I'm pretty bored with the quarantine too, so sending you prompts if amazing! Maybe little Peter finding his Daddies' whiskey and not knowing what it is, taking a big sip and getting drunk pretty easily, then going to them like nothing was wrong, but it made him kinda horny so he had to ask for help with that? And maybe he gets punished afterwards for taking his Daddies' alcohol? Thank you so much! Have an amazing day!❤

oMgg that is wayy too cute sksk thank you sm for sharing and im glad you enjoy my writing c: i hope youre well during these quarantine times sksk💓💓

Daddy Tony, Daddy Stephen, +18 Little Peter, underage drinking (bc US??), fluff

The Daddies are busy with something, Peter can hear it from the top of the stairs. He doesn’t really care what they are busy with, all that matters is that they are busy and out of his way. Deciding to just go do it, Peter gets up from the floor and heads to the wooden and glass cabinet with all the fancy bottles that his Daddies take out on special occasions. They always drink the stuff in the bottles from funny looking glasses too, which Peter doesn’t quite get. Wouldn’t it taste the same from one of his sippy cups?

Either way, Peter is determined to explore the forbidden cabinet and what sorts of exciting and yummy things he can find there. He starts out with the first bottle, which is a dark red and tall bottle with writing that Peter cannot understand. He can’t get the cork open, and he sighs in defeat. He will never know what’s in that bottle. But, he moves onto the next one, which is a golden colour. This bottle has a top he can twist and Peter grins widely, but then he quickly gags when he takes a sniff from the bottle and twists it shut again quickly.

“Yuck…” The bottle’s writing starts with ’T’, but Peter is not interested anymore and moves on. The next bottle is dark again and it opens easily, but this time Peter is much more careful with sniffling it. “Woah!”

This one actually smells a bit like… ice cream? It smells sweet and creamy and Peter lifts the bottle for a taste. It also tastes sweet, like creamy caramel, but then he feels it burning? His insides feel funny and warm and Peter coughs a bit. But, he likes this one, even with the burn. It is worth it for the sweet and creamy taste.

“You sure it’s working now?”

“Yeah, yeah, babe. It wasn’t broken in the first place. You just messed up the settings.”

“I did not.” Stephen grumbles, making Tony laugh.

Oh, shoot, the Daddies are coming up. Peter looks around where he is sat by the cabinet with five bottles surrounding him. The only one he actually drank from was the sweet and creamy one and he quickly moves the bottles under the cabinet, instead of back inside it. Then, the boy scrambles off, or at least tries to, but he trips over his feet. Why is he so dizzy all of a sudden? Peter giggles.

“Peter? You all right?” Tony asks and looks around when at the top of the stairs. Stephen is a step behind him and both Daddies head over to where Peter is on the floor.

“Y-HIC- yeah, Da… Feeling funny.” Peter giggles. Tony frowns a bit at the boy’s tone, but helps him up nonetheless. Both Daddies are surprised to see Peter so wobbly on his feet all of a sudden.

“Hey, Peter, what’s going on? Did you hit your head?” Stephen asks, immediately alarmed by just how sluggish Peter looks. He almost looks… drunk? “Peter, what have you done?”

The boy just giggles again and flops over Tony’s legs where the caregivers are crouched down to the floor. But, after a quick scan of the living room, Tony sees the open cabinet and his eyes widen in horror.

“Steph.”

Stephen gets up to investigate and pulls out the wine bottles, tequila and baileys from under the cabinet. He checks each bottle, then holds up the baileys one.

“I think he had some.”

“Jesus, Peter! Did you go into Daddies’ drinks?” Tony accuses and grabs Peter’s shoulders to look at him. But, the boy just giggles again like everything is hilarious.

“Dada! It was s’ gooood…”

“Peter Benjamin!” Tony says through gritted teeth, trying to keep his fury in check, but this is really pushing it. “You are not allowed in that cabinet, you hear me? That’s dangerous stuff for grown ups only. And what if you had dropped something and it had shattered? Peter!”

But, Peter is hardly listening. His gaze is unfocused and he sways a bit where Tony is still holding onto his shoulders. With a sigh, Stephen puts the alcholic beverages back in the cabinet, then locks it.

“Tony, he needs food and drinks. We can talk about all this later when he is sober.” Stephen reasons, putting a comforting hand on his partner’s shoulder. Tony lets out a heavy sigh and looks up at Stephen over his shoulder.

“Yeah, yeah, you’re right. Lets get him sober, then I’ll yell at him.” Tony says and gathers Peter into his arms. The boy is like a rag doll, but is still giggling at everything and blissfully unaware of the tense atmosphere. For now at least.

“Pete, what would you like to eat?”

“ICE CREAM!”

[doyouevenshipbr0]

gruvia fic: a song of ice and water

chapter 3

author's note: someone suggested i make an ff.net and......i TRIED BUT IM TOO STUPID IDK HOW TO WORK IT WGWFWUWGSG im baby omg. ok but would it be easier to read itnon ff.net? if so i will try it again but idk my 5 brain cells might not be up for it. ok this season of game of thr*nes was trash btw. its so fucking bad. thats all lol. i hope u guys are liking this fic and its not too hard to follow! i try keeping it as simple as possible in terms of the game of thr*nes aspect. ty for the feedback it means sm<3 enjoy!!!<333

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Gray watched over the courtyard, looking down on it from high up in one of the towers. He enjoyed just watching, a lot of the time. Watching over his people made Gray feel at ease, and it reminded him what his purpose was.

A small commotion caught his eye. He looked in a corner to see Juvia. She was training with a water magic teacher they found nearby for her. Gray silently commended her for still wanting to stick to her training, even in a foreign land.

After a few moments, he realized his eyes had been stuck on her. He'd never seen anyone move like that before. Every move she made had purpose, and it was all one continuous flow. Nothing was ever harsh and brute. Everything seemed carefully thought out and smart. She was moving like she was actually water. Gray's eyes widened when he saw her defend an attack by turning her body to water, and letting it flow right through her.

"She's intense." Gray jumped at the sound of Ur, his trainer's, voice. He looked over his shoulder and saw her standing right behind him, peering down into the courtyard just as he was.

"Who is?" Gray played dumb.

Ur rolled her eyes. "We both know who I'm talking about."

Gray paused. "Yeah. She's intense." He said, quietly.

"I've been observing her fighting style since she began training. I even sparred with her one time." Ur walked over and stood beside Gray at the window.

"You did? When?" Gray looked at her.

"You wouldn't know. You've been too busy sulking about this damned wedding to even take a second to notice her until now." Ur remained looking out onto Juvia.

"That's not true!" Gray defended.

"Yes it is." Ur said, immediately. "Everyone has been telling you to give her a chance, but you haven't even tried. What good is a lord that won't listen to his people?" She finally made eye contact with Gray.

Gray stood and thought for a moment. He supposed Ur had a point. It wasn't that Gray necessarily had anything against Juvia herself, it was just what she was there to do. He didn't want to take a wife. Because of this, he seemed to be ignoring Juvia altogether, for the most part.

"I've seen the way she looks at you and speakes to you." Ur spoke again. "I'm not sure what it is, or what you did, but she seems to adore you. Don't tell me you haven't noticed?"

Gray paused. He really hadn't thought about it. He didn't think about Juvia at all, actually. "No." He said simply. "I haven't."

"Well you should at least give her the courtesy of attempting to spend time with her." Ur said.

For a moment, Gray wanted to argue back, but he decided not to. "You're right. Thank you, Master Ur."

"I'm always right." She ruffled her hand through Gray's hair before turning around and walking out the door.

Gray smiled admirably at Ur as she left the room. She was his master and like a second mother to him. When he was little, he wanted to be just like her when he grew up, and now that he was practically grown, he still found himself having that same dream. She was his absolute role model. After thinking fondly of Ur, he looked back down to Juvia, still training as hard as ever yet didn't seem to be breaking a sweat.

He continued to be hypnotized by her motions and fluidity. The teacher they found for Juvia was considered to be the best water mage in the north, but he and Juvia seemed to be neck and neck. As he watched her, he thought back to Ur's words.

It truly seemed he really wasn't giving her much of a chance.

-

Juvia panted heavily as the spar between she and her trainer closed.

"You're just as all the stories say." Master Syrio said with his foreign accent, his breath not quite as heavy as Juvia's.

"So Juvia has heard." Juvia grabbed her water bottle and began chugging.

"You certainly did not disappoint me, rain drop." His lips curled into a genuine smile.

"Nor did you, Master Syrio. Juvia has heard tales of you as well." She matched his grin.

"I'm glad. I look forward to teaching you in the future. Though I don't know how much my expertise will help, since it seems you are already familiar with the Water Dance of Braavos." He nodded, in a way of acknowledging her technique.

"Yes. It is not only the origin of water type magic, but it is its truest form as well. Juvia's teacher in Riverrun studied it for almost all his life but never actually got to sail to Braavos and practice it in its native land. Juvia is looking forward to learning it from you, someone who is actually from the beautiful city." She smiled, imagining her old teacher. Her master Mercuphobia was the most extraordinary man she ever met. He was an incredible wizard, teacher, and parental figure for her, since her father wasn't much of one.

"Mercuphobia is an old friend of mine. We've trained together in the past, actually. For a man as stubborn as him, he captures the flow of water more beautifully than anyone I've ever seen. Your style reminds me much of his." Syrio approached her.

"Well, thank you." Juvia nodded. "That means a lot."

"While your skill resonates much with Braavos, I can still see The Riverlands run thick through your veins." Juvia's smile dimmed a bit. While she was proud of her land, the thought of it didn't bring much joy to her. "The 'water body' spell you use was first discovered in Riverrun, though, I'm sure you already know this."

"Yes." Juvia nodded.

"It's quite an impressive spell. No one has been able to learn it for years. Not me, nor Mercuphobia." Syrio said.

"Yes, well, to master it you must be one with the water, and with the curse of the rain, water was certainly a great part of Juvia's life." She smiled sadly.

"But the rain in your life is no more, and the spell still stands." Syrio gestured his arms open, notioning to the sunny sky, a sight Juvia never got tired of looking at. "That is a testament to your ability, little rain drop."

Juvia blushed. Even as great as Mercuphobia was, he was never as generous in his praising as Syrio had been.

"Hello, Ser." Juvia turned at the sound of Gray's voice. Gray nodded to Syrio. "My Lady." He bodded to Juvia.

"My Lord." Juvia and Syrio greeted at the same time.

"Master Syrio, do you mind if I steal away my fiancée for the day." Gray said seriously. Juvia's blush increased tenfold. He'd never referred to her as his fiancée before.

"It is hardly stealing, My Lord." Syrio bowed and held an arm out to Juvia. "The Lady is yours."

"Thank you." Gray smiled. He then turned to Juvia. "Would you like to go for a walk?"

Juvia couldn't speak. She responded with vigorous nods.

"Alright. Let's go." Gray turned and began walking.

"W-wait! Juvia should bathe first. I've just been training for quite a while--"

"We're just going for a walk. No need to get all dolled up." Gray looked back slightly and shrugged. Juvia stammered for a bit, but followed along.

After a bit of walking and no conversation, Juvia finally asked. "Where are we going, Gray-sama?"

"The Godswood. Have you been there yet?" He raised a brow.

"No, but Juvia's been wanting to go." She replied.

"Well, you'll finally get to." Gray said, Juvia smiled back in response.

The Godswood was filled with dozens upon dozens of thick, old trees. She'd never seen anything like that before. It felt like she'd stepped foot in a time traveler and stepped out centuries earlier. It felt like she was in a fairy tale forest that she'd heard about as a child in stories. Not to mention, the forest was somehow warm, even at the wake of winter.

"This is incredible." Juvia said in awe. "Juvia's learned all the history of this place, but never actually thought it would live up to my expectations." She paused and did a few turns, taking in all of it.

"When I was little I used to think this place was haunted." Gray said with a chuckle, and Juvia gave a small laugh as well.

"Juvia can't blame you. This does seem all so much for a child." She noted how the trees draped over each other and seemed to fold in the most beautiful, perfect way.

"If you were so interested in this place, why haven't you visited yet?" Gray and Juvia walked over to a hot spring, and Juvia figured that was why the air was warmer.

"Before Juvia left for Winterfell, my father told me that Juvia should he introduced to the Godswood by a Fullbuster. If Juvia wandered in here on her own as an outsider, the gods would be irritated." She decided to sit on a nearby rock.

Gray snorted. "And you believe all that nonsense about the gods? The old and the new?"

Juvia shrugged. "Juvia knows that her father can be cruel, so she just follows his orders for the most part."

"Oh." Gray looked down. "I didn't mean to-" He stammered. "I mean I've heard about how your father is-- harsh."

"Oh, there is no need for Gray-sama to apologize!" She quickly defended. "Juvia didn't mean anything by it! And besides, Juvia is here with Gray-sama now, so I don't need to worry about my father's cruelty anymore." She sweetly smiled.

Gray furrowed his brows and looked away. "Yeah. Sure."

Juvia's eyes softened as she looked at Gray. Ever since he took the rain away, Juvia had been enamored by him. Everything she did was to get closer to Gray; she really could not get enough. She didn't know just what it was that got her so hooked, but what she did know that he was one of the only people to stick up for her like that, and he was the only person who'd taken her rain away. Unfortunately, Gray didn't seem to feel the same. Whenever she tried to talk with him, he usually kept up small talk for a short while, and then came up with an excuse as to why they had to part ways. She could tell he was annoyed with her, but she didn't mind. She adored him, regardless.

"So you don't ever think of going back home?" Gray finally asked.

Juvia shook her head. "No. Of course I miss the place, but the people, not so much."

"I could never do it." Gray looked down at the water.

"Do what?"

"Leave me home and be shipped off to marry a stranger." He said, bluntly.

Juvia shrugged. "My father always told me he'd marry me off as soon as he got the chance. Juvia's been prepared for this her whole life."

"Sheesh." Gray scratched the back of his head. "Your dad sounds swell." He said, sarcastically.

Juvia softly chuckled. "Like Juvia said, it doesn't matter anymore. Now Juvia has you!" She gave him an excited smile.

Gray didn't reply. He fought a small blush that lingered on his cheeks and kept his eyes on the water.

"But enough about Juvia's father." She followed Gray's eyes onto the water. "Your father, however, Juvia has heard he's a great man."

"He is." A side of Gray's lip curled up.

"Juvia can't wait to meet him."

"That'll be awhile." Gray sighed. "With this war going on, and all."

"Juvia is sure he is doing everything in his power to get back to Winterfell as soon as possible." She said, surely.

"Oh yeah?" He peered up at Juvia.

"Yes. If Gray-sama loves him so much, then Lord Silver must feel the same about him. Feelings are always connected between two people, no matter how far apart they may be. Since Gray-sama and Lady Mika and all of Winterfell's feelings are so strong, Lord Silver must be feeling that love. If Juvia had love like that, Juvia would do everything in her power to get back to it." She gave a reassuring grin to Gray who couldn't help but grin back.

"That's a nice way to look at it." He said. "I hope you're right."

"Juvia is certain about it." She and Gray exchanged grins. "Juvia wishes he could be here for the wedding." She looked up at the trees, imagining how their wedding would look under them. "Speaking of, do you know when our wedding is to be?" Juvia asked. Gray almost choked on air.

"No." He quickly said.

"Neither does Juvia. Maybe your mother would know?" She turned to him.

"Not sure." Gray avoided eye contact.

"Hm. Well maybe-"

"Look, I already said I don't know anything about the damn wedding!" Gray prompty stood from the rock and looked right at Juvia. "Our marriage is the last thing on my mind. I have much more important things to worry about." Gray began to walk away from where they sat, or more like stomp.

"Gray-sama, Juvia-" She stood up and reached out for him.

"Don't follow me." He turned his head momentarily before continuing his exit.

Juvia didn't say anything. She put her hand back down at her side and slowly sat back down. She remained in the Godswood for a little while. She sat and thought about Gray.

As soon as she began to melt the ice around his heart, he seemed to freeze it all up back again.

And she was determined to thaw him completely.

[offical-potato]

Y’all interested in the crazy shit that happened to me today? Ugh imma vent below

Okay so backstory...I have a 9am class so I leave for school at 8:30 and eat a piece of toast in the car. After my 9-11am class I have to rush to my other class that starts at 11:10 that for some reason today my crazy art teacher had us meet somewhere different idk man not super important to the story. however, what is important is that I’m not really hungry until later in the day and so my stupid ass doesn’t really have a real meal until I get home.

So my 11:10am class is going on and I have a small snack but mostly I’m hyped up on earl grey tea and an iced mocha that I downed in the first 30 minutes of class. Now I realize that lots of caffeine+little food is bad but normally I’m fine and this isn’t really important until later in the story so remember that for later.

Alrighty to normally my 11am class gets out at 2pm but today my teacher decided we were done at like 1:30 so that was chill. So I’m leaving to drive home and I’m chillin in the car. Basically there is this one main road where I live that’s super busy and the lanes are tight. ALSO I’m a fairly new driver and I will admit not the best one... so I’m on this fucking main road and driving the semi-old SUV (its a total mom car lol) and I HIT THE FUCKING CURB GOING 30 MPH AND MY FUCKING TIRE GOES OUT.

Now okay listen here kids, if you get a flat you should turn off the road and slowly stop and check what’s up.

So that was I did. I turned off onto one of the side roads and there a big fucking hole in my back right tire. UGH I KNOW... so being the awesome fucking (semi) grown ass woman I am I look up how to put on a spare tire to get this shit started.

Side note: I was in the most butch outfit and I was living for it! I had blue jeans, a studded belt, a normal white tee that I tied into a crop top, and a flannel tied around my waist because it’s hot and I’ve gotta get those layers in the morning! Also I recently got a buzzcut and have 7 piercings...

Back to my story... so I’m now trying to find the fucking spare tire which is crazy and hidden. You’ve gotta take a plastic part off just to get to the jack kit like this shit is H-I-D-D-E-N! So when’s I find the jack kit I need to use some of those tools to loosen another thing to get the spare which btw is under the car suspended with some chain stuff. it’s an elaborate setup. Protip if your gonna take someone’s hubcaps Infiniti’s will be hard to take they’ve got some crazy shit.

Okay so this spare drops but it won’t come all the way out from under the car and by this time my dad gets here to help because I’ve never done this shit before. So he’s helping and we eventually...with much effort.... get the ruined tire off and spare on! Wooo I felt so accomplished like I helped with this shit and got that spare out from it’s crazy ducking hiding space like that shit was not easy.

But potato you ask? This surely must be where the story ends? NOPE HONEY I WISH!

I get home and I live on a hill so second tip kids, if you are parking downhill you need to turn your tires into the curb Incase it slides down. So I do this but my dad said I’m to close to the curb and need to move it alway.

This is fine I can do this. BUT THIS MOTHERFUCKING CAR LIKES TO FALL DOWN EVEN THO I PUT MY FUCKING FOOT ON THE BRAKE AND WENT STRAIGHT TO THE GAS IN R SO I CAN BACK UP LIKE DAMN KIDS THIS IS HARD SHIT.

I HIT THE CAR IN FRONT OF MY AND BOY OH BOY IM CUSSING UP A STORM. like at this point I’m close to crying because as I stated earlier, I haven’t had any real food! I just spend sm time changing my flat! And I’m tired!

Thank fuck tho the car in front of my had a soft rack thing so there WASNT ANY DAMAGE!!!! I swear there are little things in life that make me happy and I was so glad. I was shaking at that point and so done. Idk what I would’ve done if there was damage. Also don’t tell me neighbor I hit their car....

Y’all don’t know how grateful I was that there wasn’t any damage to their car. Like omf.

Moral of the story: I need to eat more food and drink less caffeine ALSO I’m a boss ass bitch so don’t fuck with me

[hoodiehan]

Some Recaps of KCONLA

1) My head hurts. It’s actually pounding. Sincerely, 머리 아프다 2) I’m so glad I got to sneak Aurora into the VIP suite with me HAHAH. But it was also so easy ?? 

Me lying to the lady checking tickets: UuUuuH can I go find my friend who went to the bathroom? She got lost and I don’t know where she is. 

Ticket lady: Yeah idc go for it

3) Was NOT ready for Changbin to come out first at ALL oh my gosh akjghgh I screamed so hard when Jisung came out and jumped so much 4) N.Flying is actually so good?? I’m definitely going to check out their music more  5) Itzy only performed 3 songs (they don’t have much though lol) but their energy and stage presence was so great !! 6) BANG CHAN. HIS HAIR. HIS FREAKING DARK HAIR HAD ME SCREAMING SO MUCH. I literally stopped and screamed “hIS HAIR” when Chan was on the screen. Same thing with Jeongin 7) WE IN THIS HAN JISUNG STAN SHIT FOR LIFE !! I LOVE AND MISSED HIM SO MUCH !! I MISSED HIS SMILE AND HIS FACE IM SO HAPPY I GOT TO SEE HIM AGAIN 8) Fanchants for stray kids were SO LOUD. During Miroh, the entire Staples Center went “STRAY KIDS WHOO” and ugh. I felt that in my soul. T’was fantastic 9) They performed Side Effects and I’m so glad I got to see that live ajskhg the choreography is beautiful. Also I did the “SEO CHANGBIN” fanchant during Woojin and Seungmin’s verse. :’)) Why did no one else do that with me :’)) 10) Seventeen are actually so funny askhlg their encore stage for Very Nice had me lmaoo they kept saying “thank you !! We’re Svt goodbye!!” buT THEN THEY GO BACK AND KEPT PERFORMING ONE MORE CHORUS ??? Honestly I’m booboo the fool LOL After their like 6th time doing that I stILL didn’t get it. Like they even walked off the stage... THEN RAN BACK UP TO PERFORM ONE MORE CHORUS. It was good though lmaoo 11) at the end, Seungmin gave a big heart to the crowd and Aurora and I screamed together and said “SO CUUTE” in sync. aslgkjh Seungmin had me on the floor today 12) Also skz interacting with fans sm ;-; on and off stage ugh lucky fans got free hi touches :( 13) And S.Coups taking a fan’s phone and taking a selfie !! What a lucky fan !!! 14) Jeongin looked so handsome and grown up last night 😭😭😭 His pink hair is AMAZING

Anyways. My head hurts ajkgsh