#im getting better at handling it from other people but from myself? doing something i might regret later? i just don't know
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I donât really have the energy right now to argue any more than I will in this post as to why I donât really like the phrase but since im âtraumagenicâ I just want to say beforehand that personally, it just makes me uncomfortable. Itâs not necessarily about what it represents, but itâs the wording and what it could theoretically imply, just going off of wording alone. Obviously, since my system comes from trauma, Iâm biased towards that viewpoint but I do understand that plurality isnât limited to what I experience. Itâs just hard to shake the idea that plurality can be something purely positive since thatâs just not what I experience. Thatâs my own problem though, I suppose.
I do understand where youâre coming from in some of these points and after reading it I do get what youâre trying to say and accomplish here, although I have an additional interpretation. Itâs like the lefthandedness chart to me, plural acceptance will lead to more people realizing they are plural. And thatâs a good thing, yes! But I need you and everyone else using the phrase to understand that at first glance it really doesnât come off like what youâre describing or even what I just described, and it seems like many of the people who are in favor of it arenât interpreting it the way you see it either. Iâve seen many posts about it claiming that it *doesnt* imply there will be more plurals, in an effort to look better to traumagenic systems like myself who arenât completely on board with the phrase. I also donât appreciate how traumagenic systems who take even the slightest offense to it are being treated by the ones in favor of it just because the phrase bears resemblance to other phrases calling for acceptance like âthe future is transâ â i feel like itâs obvious that when including systems who are formed from trauma the community should be receptive of their concerns since this is a very sensitive topic, and yet Iâve seen far too many people compare traumagenic systems to angry transphobes who are âtraumatizedâ by the âwoke leftâ just because they donât want their very Real trauma seemingly paraded around like some award, even if you and others claim thatâs not whatâs happening.
Overall I think the phrase could have used some workshopping to avoid confusion , or the usage of the phrase should have been completely defined from the start so that confused and concerned onlookers have easy access to a post that explains what the movement is about in depth rather than tacking important info on to my random post lazily complaining about syscourse (/lighthearted) Obviously you canât control all your followers or supporters of the phrase, but maybe if it was handled differently there would have been less assumptions about it? Either way, I think itâs well within the right of traumagenic systems to dislike the wording regardless of what it represents. You canât force everyone to like it, even if it is meant to represent a good idea.
Again, I want to reiterate that I get where youâre coming from with this and I would love for plural acceptance too obviously, but I think it should have been handled differently because the feelings of traumagenic systems are important too.
(I wonât be responding to this any further, the original post was just meant to be a jokey thing anyways.)
i love seeing system positivity posts because it makes me feel less Fake about it but god i hate all the discourse. why is tumblr just discourse. Everyone explode NOW
also why is plural tumblr so bad at wording things. âguys nooooo âthe future is pluralâ is about acceptance of plurality!!1!1!â okay but. surely you see what it sounds like right. Surely you do. Why are you defending the worst slogan iâve ever heard This hard. âthe future is singletâ doesnât sound right either. Can we all just kill ourselves /ref
#marimo yips#syscourse#i think this is the last time iâll ever comment on something syscourse or even system related lol i wasnât expecting any kind of response#<- /lighthearted#thats on me tho
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sexuality is so dumb. relationships are dumb. romance is dumb and sex is dumb and it's all too fucking complicated and weird
#sorry. im just having a lot of thoughts and it's making me frustrated.#ive been thinking a lot about polyamory? which sounds strange ig but. i don't know.#it sounds very appealing at this point in my life#i don't always feel romantic attraction like other folks do and it feels like i wouldn't be understood in a monogamous relationship bc of it#i don't think people could handle the fact that sometimes my romantic attraction just Disappears for a day or two before it comes back#or the fact that my ideal romantic relationship is just. we're best friends but with all the extra relationship shit added on.#i want someone to be my best friend that i also kiss and take out on dates and bang sometimes. or something.#part of me feels like id be better understood in a polycule bc it's already a slightly unconventional relationship situation#also because i have a lot of love in my heart and im scared ill have to cut that part of myself off from others if i have a partner that -#- gets possessive over me in a weird way. maybe i just have poor experiences but idk.#there's sexy possessiveness (fun when done right) and then there's just. Gross possessiveness. which is what im worried about.#i don't fucking know!!! it's weird and complicated and the longer i type the more i realize i don't wanna think about it#im cutting this post off now. that whole rant probably made no sense but whatever
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#ok time to bitch and whine bc i wanna :3c#first off i want to say that i know all the nuances and i dont have it the worst and i think my mom is fine but. im also allowed to be upse#and i dont want to backpedal on that so i will try my best to not excuse behaviours with 'but also's. if i do fucking hit me with hammers#sillyposting#ok. early-mid 2021's. starting to get into the bad stuff for me.#im just getting aware of the autism and. other circumstances.#fine sure yesyesyes. i want to sit with my knee above the table bc its more comfy and i dont see a problem. my parents apparently do#i persist bc. there isnt a fucking problem and their points are stupid. i still think so and luckily theyve gotten over it now but.#anyway. alongside the rebelious action offf: wanting to sit comfortably!! i also sometimes have issues with sensory overload. SHOCKER.#especially then as i was getting worse in every aspect and. having actual physical symptoms because of it. my ticcing was bad during it#anyway. apparently having headphones on during dinner is also bad. most of the times i didnt want to cause more trouble so took them off.#akaaaa i was just forced to dissociate during almost every dinner instead of. having the 'privilege' to be normal.#the worst day with this was during fall break when my grandparent were also there.#i think it was just before the dam broke for me or maybe it was during but....#during dinner in an unknown vacationhouse with more people than i was used to and chairs that scraped the floors: i wanted to keep my headp#i didnt have music on. i was actively participating in conversation! i just needed a little less noise.#but it was for some reason too much to handle. and my parents werent grown up enough to let this slide.#taking care of myself was less important than upholding their useless ideals. ok.#i was denied dinner. because i needed something different than what they personally wanted.#so i went to my room and cried. 17 y/o. aside from everything else that was already happening inside me this still hits me the hardest#its the fact that. they didnt consider me at all. i still dont know why they were so upset over me doing something slightly different#the fact that they couldnt even properly explain why (because there wasnt a real reason) didnt help my view of them during that time.#anyway. im doing better now. i dont think theyre abusive anymore or have ever really been. *gets hit with hammers* ow okayyy#but. it has stuck with me. very much so.#so now when my mother keeps her headphones on during dinner bc of overstimulation. it hurts. it hurts so much.#you couldnt give me this during the beginning of the worst part of my life. but youll take it for your own now?#i wont say things bc ill get hit by hammers so. i get to be upset about this.#i do. i should be.#i want things to have gone differently. i want them to have understood it earlier. if not that; i want her to not take what i was denied.#I... *get hit with hammers*.... =3=
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#uses this post as a vent because i have ahit in my brain that i dont actually wanna say to people but wanna get ut out of my brain#i fucking hate myself#i feel like a waste of time and space constantly#i never can do anything right#even when i do something okay kr am proud of something theres always people who do it better#i can never be close to perfect and it eats me up#i hate my body i hate my brain#i have no personality i have no creativity#all im good at is copying others#their art styles which i use as âinspirationâ because i cant even make my own pose for drawings or do anything original#their personalities their likes and dislikes#nothing about me is mine its all things i grabbed from others so they would like me#and now i dont like me#i dont know me#i dont feel like i deserve to exist#but here i am and im going to exist even though it hurts#i dont know why people love me but they do#they at least love the me i am to them#and i cant handle hurting people so i will exist#im going to be a parent#how am i going to take care of a baby like this#my husband has to parent ME into just beushing my teeth and drinking water#im fucking useless#im ugly disgusting trash that will never do anything positive with my life#but maybe thats just how i feel today idk maybe tomorrow will be better#i doubt it#if you actually read this and you know me#no you didn't#dont talk to me about it plz
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#told my roommate ive been depressed this weekend and she kindly offered to watch a movie but i knew shed be too tired and need to cancel#bc of the clocks changing and its ok i know how tired she gets i was the one to suggest it was okay if she cant + it was still a nice idea#but now im alone for the evening again ive been alone all weekend and weekends are the hardest for me and i thought i was feeling a little#better but im not and theres nothing to stop me from harming which is okay i keep it safe and its always a choice i make to do it or not#not anyone elses responsibility but i didnt want.to be alone tonight thats all. and offering something she knows she cant fulfil makes me#feel rejected too and i also wanted to talk abt some of her behaviour that upsets me sometimes but gently bc i dont want it to seem like#im blaming her bc its not her fault im so bad at communicating and neurotic and weird abt shit that doesnt even make sense#but its been bothering me for a really long time and it comes up again every time we meet with other people and i get really upset over it#and im the one that keeps putting off talking about it but its so hard when its been gping on so long and i find it so hard to express#anything and communicate especiallt when its shit like this but im so so so so tired of sitting on it i just want it resolved one way or#another and now i wont see her for a few days bc of this family trip and itll be on my mind the whole time and the thought is making me#feel insane already ive wasted so many hours and hours being upset by her and not being able to talk abt it i need it to stop its not even#that big a deal.it just is to me. and i dont know how to say anythign ever#and she wants to make plans with friends next weekend which feels like hoisting an anvil above my head bc if i dont go i risk having a#rejection sensitive episode bc im vulnerable rn and this is exactly what happened over the summer and it took me months to recover from but#if i do go ill get upset bc ill feel unwanted there and ill be dealing with the same issue that comes up every fucking time and either way#ill end up harming in response to it bc i cant handle how intense my emotions are and i dont have any better outlets right now#for these specific feelings and i dont want to do that i want to be a normal fucking human being who doesnt lock themself in a#stupid fucking iron maiden style repression over completely innocuous shit that no one would even know im reacting this way to#i cant do it i cant do thjs anymore i cant i want it to stop im so tired and it hurts so so much feeling so much like this#they should make a mind for me that is capable of not inflicting distress this intense on itself i need to explode#actually. maybe since i wont see her for a couple days i can write a long discord message about it instead. i know its a shitty way to#deliver information but maybe it would be easier that way rather than trying to summon the courage to say anything in person when im#usually actively upset abt it at the time and my immediate response to getting upset is to shut down and not express which doesnt help#and its so stupid but i need it to not be like this i cant keep living with her and getting so upset so regularly it has to stop now#ill think about itand maybe draft it. and then i can decide. but right now i need to eat. and pack. and then cut sorry. but its ok#ughhhhfdhf. please let this week be better ill try harder ill say something i have to im the one inflicting this on myself by not talking#about it!!!!!!!!! so. man and i think my dinner is cold now too. oh well#.vent#tw self harm
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Reading Alice oseman's "Loveless" and sitting here like, wow I wish I could argue with someone, tell them to their face that I'm angry and they fucked up, and then feel justified in my actions moving forward
#i feel guilty for being angry with ppl or showing them that their actions have consequences#bc i grew up with two abusers that justified it bc they worked so hard they were in pain they did the bare minimum for me#and now i really struggle with drawing those lines with other people; oh this person said something very insensitive to me#but they were having a bad day and it happens!! oh to look at someone and give a solid fuck you to them#afraid to see my anger weaponized in any way whatsoever bc that's the primary thing that happened to me as a child#always gentle and delicate as one holds a butterfly or dismantles a bomb..#you know. sometimes i wait for apologies and they dont arrive when i discuss something and mention how i was hurt#you know maybe i would like to be angry about that and (figuratively) poke and push another person#maybe i dont want to back down anymore. it's a fine line of course but i cannot stand how afraid i feel when emotions rise#im getting better at handling it from other people but from myself? doing something i might regret later? i just don't know#hoatm rants
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pairing: sebastian sallow x fem ravenclaw reader
summary: there's only one way to get into salazar slytherin's scriptorium.
a/n: hogwarts legacy was 70% off, i bought it and it's good but not good enough in all the ways that matter so im fixing it for myself. no i dont know why this is where my inspo is when i have so much unfinished stuff but just go with it
wc: 2.1k
warning(s): angst but hurt/comfort angst! a more in depth scriptorium scene so crucio is used but this is from seb's pov so lighter descriptions of all that fun stuff
âOminis, you have to.â
âIâm not doing it!â he exclaimed. âWhat do you not get?â
âWould you rather die here?â Sebastian spat. âBecause if you donât, thatâs what will happen. And Iâve become rather fond of my life over these past few minutes.âÂ
âI refuse to use dark magic,â Ominis seethed. âYou of all people should understand, Sebastian!âÂ
âI donât understand why youâd let us die instead of casting one spell!â
He barked an incredulous laugh. âIt is not just one spell! God, youââ
âCan you do it?âÂ
Sebastianâs anger faltered for a moment when you spoke up, and he frowned when he saw you were looking at him. âWhat?âÂ
âCan you do it?â you repeated. âCan you cast the curse?âÂ
âIââ His mouth fell open and shut as he looked between you and Ominis, before they finally settled on you. ââI think so. Not well, butââ
âThen you can do it,â you said. âCast it on me, and weâll be out of this mess.â
Sebastianâs eyes widened as he said your name in disbelief. âYou canât be serious!â
You stared at him. âDo I look like Iâm joking?â
âYouâre being ridiculous,â Ominis cut in. âI know what it feels likeâyouâre not putting yourself through that. Weâll find another way.â
âThere is no other way.â You gestured at the letters on the ground, his auntâs last mark on the world. âYouâve got the answer right here, and a willing victim. What are you waiting for?â
Sebastian grimaced. âCalling yourself a victim isnât helping.â
âThe only reason youâre willing is because you donât know what youâre signing up for.â Ominisâs blank gaze pointed at the ground, but his sharp words hit you all the same. âItâs unimaginable, excruciating pain. Every one of your nerves exploding, your bones being crushed to dust, your blood turning to fire. You will never forget what it feels like.â
You crossed your arms, trying to ignore the chill settling over you. âWell, itâs either that or we sit around here until we die.â
âEven if he wanted toââ
âWhich I donât!â Sebastian cut in.Â
âHe would have to really mean it,â Ominis finished.Â
âAgain, which I donât!â he exclaimed.Â
âThat just means it wonât hurt as much,â you said. âShould take away some of your reservations.â
Sebastian huffed. âThere is something wrong with you.â
âAnd you were all for this when it would be Ominis casting it on me?â you asked, tilting your head.
âIâ I figured he would cast it on me!â His eyes widened. âIâ I could teach it to you, and you could cast it on me!â
âWill the two of you stop bickering?â Ominis asked. âItâs not making this any better.âÂ
âOf course,â you nodded. âSebastian will cast the Cruciatus Curse on me, and weâll be out of here. Okay?âÂ
Sebastian stared at you, your steely gaze having already met his. Youâd always been stubborn, unyieldingâheâd known it since you bested him in a duel in your first ever meeting.Â
Ravenclaw hardheadedness, he figured. Always assuming you knew best (you usually did), that you were right (you usually were), that you could handle whatever ended up in your path (you usually could).Â
And here you were, standing right in front of him, those determined eyes unwavering as you practically begged him to cast an Unforgivable Curse on you.Â
Did you know that he wasnât even sure he could cast it on you? Not just because it was near unthinkable, but because he had no idea if he could scrounge up enough ill will towards you to even partially want to hurt you.Â
Did you know that you were the reason heâd started doing better in classes? That, no matter how much he complained about your study sessions together, that he could have been doing something much more productive, he treasured every moment with you?Â
Did you even know that the mere thought of causing you pain made him want to retch? That, yes, he may very well choose death over imparting the torture curse on you?Â
Did you even know how he felt about you?Â
Sebastian pulled his wand out his robes, his grip tightening in an effort to stop his hand from shaking. âYouâre sure about this.âÂ
You nodded. âIt wonât leave any physical wounds. Itâll be over sooner than you know it.âÂ
He huffed as he glanced away. âYou shouldnât be the one reassuring me.âÂ
âI donât mind,â you shrugged. âJust⊠buy me a pint of butterbeer when we get out of here. Then weâll be square.âÂ
âYouâre not exactly aiming high,â Sebastian said wryly.Â
You smiled. âMy mum always told me it was the simple things. Now, do it before I lose my nerve.âÂ
He swallowed the lump in his throat and nodded, once, twice, three times as he adjusted his hold on his wand. He closed his eyes as he tried to remember the wand movement, but instead, he saw your face.Â
The first time he met you, when you embarrassed him in front of the whole class by beating him ina duel. When you asked him to take you to Hogsmeade for the first time, and you ended up taking down a trollâhow beautiful you looked with the glow of exertion beneath your skin, when you turned to him with the widest (and maybe first) smile heâd ever seen from you in the wake of your efforts.Â
How could he do something like this to you?
He pushed the doubt down. There was no other way. You wanted him to do itâwanted him to save them all from a very boring, very preventable death.Â
Something in the scriptorium could save Anne. That was worth anything.Â
Sebastian took in a deep breath. He brought forth every negative thoughtâthe goblin that cursed his sister, his housemates that believed in nothing but blood purity, his uncle that refused to believe in him, refused to even try to save Anne.Â
None of it to do with you, who had done nothing but support him since you helped him up from the ground after pummeling him into it, but he tried to project it onto you anyways.Â
He raised his wand.Â
He opened his eyesâyour gaze hadnât moved. They showed no fear, no anger, no emotion at all but steely determination.Â
âCrucio!âÂ
Red light arced from his wand to your body. You crumpled to your knees the instant the spell reached you, skull-splintering screams echoing throughout the small room as the curse wrapped its way around you.Â
Your scarf fell from your neck, your robes pooled around you, your knees and palms scraped the stone as you tried to support yourself in any way. Your agonized wails were deafening, and Sebastian nearly lost it right then and there, nausea rising in his throat. Ominisâs blank, widened gaze fell on the wall, his hands clenched into fists as he fought to keep his expression even.Â
You were one of the strongest people Sebastian knew. Always infallible, always so smart, so level headed in the face of his impulsivity. Naturally gifted at magic, and somehow willing to tolerate him. And heâd been forced to reduce you to this.Â
But it worked. Your screams of pure torment unlocked something in Salazar Slytherinâs sick design, and the door of tortured faces pulsed with red energy before sliding into the stone.Â
Sebastian rushed over the moment the door started to open, his wand falling from his grasp in his haste and his eyes wide with fear and concern. He went to touch you, but stopped just before he couldâhe didnât want to hurt you more. Your entire body rose and fell with your beleaguered breaths as you rolled on your side, your every movement labored.Â
âIâm so sorry,â he breathed. âIâ Iâm so sorry. Are you okay?â
You couldnât respond, the pain still arcing its way through your body despite the curse being done. You inhaled sharply as your eyes screwed shut, and you nodded.Â
âYouâre clearly not okay.â The slight waver in Ominisâs voice betrayed his unaffected stature. âThat was remarkably stupid.â
âOminisââ Sebastian started, but you shook your head.Â
âIt worked,â you interrupted as you lifted a shaky hand to point at the now revealed scriptorium. âCouldnât⊠couldnât be too stupid⊠could it?â
âThere is something wrong with you,â he whispered. You could only manage a pained laugh at his words.Â
Sebastian stayed there with you as you fought through the last few convulsionsâhe said nothing when you grabbed his hand, bit back his wince when you squeezed tighter than a vice. After what you just went through, he could bear something so small.Â
Your breathing was still labored when he finally helped you up. Your legs nearly collapsed beneath you, but he kept you upright.Â
âYouâre okay,â he whispered, desperate to reassure you. âYouâ youâre okay.â
âI told you I would be,â you said.Â
âYou did,â he conceded. âI keep forgetting youâre always right.âÂ
He got the slightest smile from you at that. Sebastian glanced over when he heard footsteps, and he saw Ominis approaching. His whole body still held a tenseness, but he was sure it was for a different reason this time.Â
ââŠYou took that well,â he finally said, and he held out your scarf.Â
Again, another laugh and another wince. âI really didnât. But thank you.âÂ
You reached for the scarf, but Sebastian got to it first. He gently draped it around your neck, taking special care to keep the Ravenclaw emblem in the front. You had a lot of pride in your house.Â
âHowâs that?â he asked softly.Â
âPerfect,â you nodded. âThank you.âÂ
He nodded too, and Ominis cleared his throat. Sebastian turned back to him, his cheeks tinted slightly pink. Ominis held his wand, and he took it back before shoving it back into his robes. Casting any sort of spell felt dirtied right now.Â
âThank you,â he said. âI⊠Iâm sorry about all this.âÂ
ââŠThank you,â Ominis echoed. âLetâs just get out of here before any more of Slytherinâs tricks find us.âÂ
âNo arguments here,â you mumbled.Â
Ominis walked in, and though your eyes followed him, you lingered back with Sebastian. He still supported you, one of his arms interlocked with yours. A part of him was worried that you would collapse again the second he stepped away. He could feel your chilled skin even through your robesâno wonder you always wore your scarf. You ran colder than a mermaid.Â
âIâm so sorry,â Sebastian said quietly.Â
âYou already said that.âÂ
âBecause itâs true,â he said. âThese curses are unforgivable for a reason. You never should have had to go through this.âÂ
âWell, I forgive you,â you said. âWe had no choice, and I asked you to do it. And,â you gave him a wry look, âit didnât hurt that much, so you clearly didnât mean it.âÂ
He couldnât even laugh at thatâhe kept hearing your piercing screams, agony beyond all reason. He would surely hear them for weeks to come in his sleep, see your prone form every time he closed his eyes.Â
He felt you nudge him in the side. âHey. Perk up. Iâm okay. Besides,â you gave him a sideways smile, âRowena would be proud. Anything in the name of knowledge, eh?âÂ
That got the slightest of smiles out of him, and he shook his head. âThereâsââÂ
âSomething wrong with me, I know. Thatâs the third time today.â You tilted your head towards the scriptorium. âNow, shall we get what we suffered for?âÂ
Sebastian nodded, and the two of you walked in, him still supporting you. Ominis had already made his way up the stairsâhe really did want to get out as soon as possible. You had your wand in your free hand and had already murmured a quick Revelio, eyes darting around in an effort to unearth any secrets.Â
âThat brain of yours never stops, does it?âÂ
Your lips quirked. âNever.âÂ
Another beat of silence as you searched the alcoves together. He couldnât help but watch youâyou were a Ravenclaw in her natural habitat. Your brow creased just so, your pretty features honed to a single point of focus, cycling through all your thoughts at breakneck speed despite what you just went through. It made his heart swell with something he couldnât quite name, right beside a gnawing hole filled with guilt. Â
âI really do owe you a pint,â Sebastian murmured. Â
You laughed. Lighter, this time, and with only the slightest grimace. âMake that two.âÂ
A smile crossed his lips without him even thinking. Sebastian was so glad he had you in his lifeâhe was only sorry he had to wait until fifth year.Â
âDeal.â
#sebastian sallow x reader#sebastian sallow x you#sebastian sallow fic#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy x reader#hogwarts legacy x you#sebastian sallow hogwarts legacy#h
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pairing: lando norris x ricciardo!reader summary: after being caught hooking up with lando, you both decide it would be good for your images to fake date. too bad you hate each other. notes: been loving enemies to lovers rnđ«Ł masterlist
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f1gossip New WAG alert? After a night of partying, Lando Norris was pictured kissing Y/n Ricciardo outside the club! Onlookers claim they then went home together after thisđ He was seen having a private dinner with another girl just a few days ago and rumored to have brought a different girl on his ski trip a few weeks ago.
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user lando is on a streak LOL
user this is so random?!? i was not expecting this duo but im here for it HAHA
user no cause she rarely attends races but when she does shes never seen with lando?đ
user omg he better not play my girl, I love y/n
user WHAT DOES DANIEL THINK OF THIS OMG
user I wanna read the family gc so bad...
user wait they would be so cute
user is he finally settling down omg
user I hope so, I lowkey see them together
user im here for it!! shes so much better than these other girls hes been seen with
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danny what. were. you. thinking. you're in so much trouble missy call me ASAP!!!
y/bff/n LANDO NORRIS?!?!? WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM BEING A PIECE OF SHIT??? girl we need to debrief last night
lando norris we need to talk
Fucking fantastic.
Based on your notifications, you put two and two together and realized you were paparazzi'd with none other than the man you hated the most. You and Lando had a very complicated relationship to say the least. You had met when your brother, Daniel, joined McLaren and from the start he had given you the cold shoulder. You didn't know what you did wrong and tried to be kind to him, but after a while you stopped when he dismissed you like a child. You thought you would get along with him after Danny had told you about his interest in photography. You yourself were a photographer and decided to take the year traveling with your brother to capture some photos in F1, but you had figured the fame was getting to Lando especially after his breakup with his girlfriend. He was starting to bring different girls to the garage in every race and you would never see them again after.
You remember your last interaction with him in the McLaren garage in the final race of the '22 season was when the complicated part of your relationship began.
"What are you doing here, y/n? This is a place for serious professionals, not hobbyists."
"Lando, always the charmer. I'm here to photograph greatness."
"Greatness? You wouldn't know greatness if it lapped you on the track."
"Well, I'm pretty sure greatness doesn't come with an ego the size of your car."
"Watch your tone, y/n. This is a dangerous place, not a playground for kids."
"I can handle myself, Lando. Unlike some people, I don't need a helmet to protect my head."
Both your eyes were filled with hatred as they interlocked, each refusing to back down. As the race begins, y/n continues to snap photos, capturing Lando's intense focus and determination.
After the race, both Lando and Daniel were disappointed they were not able to get into the podium on their last race of the season. Your brother asked for some time alone so you approached Lando, camera in hand, knowing it would be the last time you were in the same garage as him.
"Tough race, Lando. I got some incredible shots, though."
"Don't patronize me, y/n."
"You know for what it's worth, I saw a different side of you on the track this season. It's like you're fighting not just against other drivers, but against something within yourself.
"What are you talking about?"
"I may be the younger sister of your teammate, but I'm not blind. There's more to you than the arrogant facade you put on."
After that conversation, you began seeing Lando less and less considering your brother was now racing in AlphaTauri and you were hardly at the paddock anymore. The few times you did see Lando, the tension had shifted into something different. But it was now winter break and you and Lando were both back in Monaco.
You had gone out last night and you did not believe your luck when you saw Lando in the same club with a smirk on his face. Determined to show you could rise above the tension, you decided to lose herself in the pulsating rhythm of the music. As you moved to the beat, you felt a tap on your shoulder. Turning around, you found yourself face-to-face with none other than Lando.
"Surprised to see me, princess?" He looked at you with a mocking smile knowing the nickname would rile you up.
"Surprised to see you alone at a club and not wrapped up with some girl? Yes, actually."
"Didn't take you for the jealous type, I like it."
Against your better judgment, you found herself drawn into banter with him. The tension between you turned into a strange kind of chemistry as you exchanged barbs, each remark escalating in intensity. A few drinks were exchanged and you slowly began to lose your guard around him and eventually ending up on his bed that night.
You groaned at the memory of last night's mistake and decided it was best to text Lando back before anyone else to get your story straight. He quickly replied saying he was on his way and you began to straighten yourself up.
"You know usually when I hook up with a girl I don't see her the next morning. Consider yourself lucky y/n."
"Still arrogant as ever, even when we're both fucked right now."
"Well you're a little more fucked than I am really."
"Just get in here Lando." You opened the door to let him in and quickly shut it afraid you would be pictured together again.
"I've got good news for you sweetheart. My team has made a plan to sort this mess out."
"Go on with it. What is it?"
"Jeez feisty in the mornings, heh? But congratulations, you are officially my girlfriend, we've been dating for a few weeks now and have kept it under wraps to figure out our feelings for each other privately."
"A fake relationship? That's your solution? No fucking way."
Lando sighed and rolled his head back in annoyance. He knew you were immediately going to shut this idea down but he had planned what he was going to say beforehand and knew what to say to convince you.
"You think I want to do this? My team needs me to do this, I haven't exactly looked like a saint these past few weeks and hooking up with my friend's sister behind his back isn't going to make me look any better."
"And what's that got to do with me?"
"Well in case you haven't noticed, this doesn't look good on your part either princess. There's some hateful people on the internet already slut shaming you and saying you betrayed your brother. If we tell people we were already dating prior to these pictures, it lessens the hate. Not only that, are you really going to tell Danny you had a meaningless one night stand with one of his friends?"
You knew he had a point. Danny wasn't going to be happy if he found out about the brewing tension between you and Lando.
"Please y/n, the internet already likes us together. This would be good for us."
"Lando Norris saying please? Wow, never thought I'd see the day." You genuinely were shocked at his desperateness for you to agree, you didn't think about how this affected him as much it did you.
"Yeah, yeah. It's only for a few months then we could go back to pretending we dont exist to each other."
"Okay fine, just for a few months. And I'm doing this for Danny, not for you." You quickly agreed not really thinking it would be that big of a deal. Just a few posts and appearances together and this would be over before you knew it.
"I knew you'd give in." Lando gave you one of his infamous smirks and planted a kiss in the corner of your mouth. "Now come on we need some pictures to make this convincing."
And so it begins.
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Iâm gonna need general hcs on interactions with the boy next door⊠like what if we just moved to town and we first meet him as weâre moving in⊠Also can they be in like highschool? I donât know if thatâs already the gist but yeah. Sheâs moving in with her mom and heâs thereâŠ
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sorry anon i think i went way to far away from what you wanted shdhdh also theyre senior high school students (grade 11 - 12) which is like, two preparatory years for college. so theyre adults bc im much more comfortable with that :33
btw his name is lukas !! he's named now
male yandere + gender neutral darling/reader
lukas is easily approachable - he's got that warmth about him that just draws people in. it's all practiced to maintain his popularity though.
he's also a huge people-pleaser, despite the fact he easily gets burnt out and has his social battery drained.
so when his mom asked him to be a dear and help the new neighbor's kid on their way around the school + neighborhood, he just couldn't say no
sure he's tired, possibly close to having another breakdown just thinking about being pestered by fellow students for answers to homeworks and other menial stuff, but he still manages to say yes and give her another perfectly practiced smile
when he goes over to the house next to theirs - the ones you moved in to, you had no lasting impression on him
now, don't be mistaken, he does think you're good looking but at the end of the day he'd much rather curl up in bed and sleep
so he puts up that perfectly crafted persona and invites you to head to school with him. a new environment is much easier to deal with when you're not dealing with it by yourself! (or something like that)
he tries not to be overbearing, trying to get you to open up while also making sure he's respecting your boundaries and comfort as you made your way inside the school gates
you don't share the same classes, so he asks you for your time table so he knows your schedule
he hopes he's not being creepy or anything, he's just making sure your first day transferring here goes well
sure he's known for being a caring person in general but he does feel like it's his responsibility to make sure you're doing well you know? you're neighbors now, you guys should get along!
it's smooth sailing until it's time you guys finally went home
like that morning, he waits for you and invites you to walk home with him to familiarize with the shortcuts and local lounging spots for students
all the while he tries to get you to talk about your experience today
it must be due to the amount of stress piled up on his plate that lead him to feel... nervous.
his perfect persona cracking as his calm demeanour and collected way of talking slowly devolved into nervous tangents talking about anything at all
were you displeased? his perfection was practiced and polished since he was a kid, was it still not enough for you?
he could handle disappointing people a lot better now but paired with his currently leaning towards unstable, your displeasure is something that's slowly tearing him from the inside
he's jolted out of his thoughts when you suddenly speak up.
"thanks for showing me around. i thought i was going to struggle getting used to things all by myself."
you smiled up at him. "so... yeah. you're... okay."
his heart thumped.
everywhere all around him feels a ton of degrees warmer.
"...okay." lukas was tongue tied.
on the remainder of the journey back home, he walked you to your house, ensuring you got inside safely before making a beeline towards their house and into his room.
normally at this hour he'd be passed out in bed, tired after a whole day of pretending and smiling. today was perhaps the first time he didn't go to bed with his cheeks hurting and aching from smiling so much.
laying in bed, making an excuse as to why he's not going to be joining for dinner, just thinking about you and your words.
lukas grew up living to the standards of being perfect. a perfect son. a perfect student. a perfect friend.
anything less is... unacceptable to say the least. when you do or think of something so often in your day to day life, it becomes a habit. and lukas' habit is perfection.
but you thought he was okay.
okay.
suddenly 'okay' sounds much better than being perfect.
suddenly your opinion towards him becomes much more important than anyone else's.
lukas is a people pleaser, and onwards from that moment, the only 'people' he will ever want to please is you.
i hope this is sufficient? i'm actually v sleepy rn lol but thank you for the idea!
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im listening to mag again and damn do the archival crew HATE jon. listen i get it supposedly your lives would be normal if he hadn't brought you here... but he didn't? (minus og archive crew, jon requesting them and all) if anything he was just kinda there when you made decisions, bro wasn't EVEN THERE when melanie got hired like??? like how r u gonna wish him pain rn, he's ltrly sopping wet and on the verge of dyingđ
like another anon I got a month or so ago, this is one of my sleeper agent trigger phrases, so this might be another marina monologue moment.
as I'm also in the middle of a (for my standards) incredibly slow relisten, I've been thinking about this topic, too, but I've been coming at it from a slightly different angle than I normally do. in tim's case, we don't get an actual look at the circumstances under which he transferred to the archives, it is theoretically possible that jon laid it on a bit thick in asking him to come with him to the department and tim wouldn't have even thought of it otherwise, but with melanie we have several scenes of her hiring and onboarding where jon is not present and she continually rebuffs people who tell her she's making a mistake, so the text very clearly sets up that her blaming jon for being trapped there doesn't make sense. and, even with tim having been requested by jon, he still had to make the ultimate decision to switch departments himself, so, yknow, what gives?
most people, I think, and myself in the past, have come at this question from a very jon-centric pov because he's the main character and it's a jon-centric show, but I think putting it down to "they lash out at him because he happens to be there and stops defending himself after a while" misses something, as does "they lash out at him because elias sets everyone up to think they have an adversarial relationship to jon." more than that, I think it's about the rejection of agency.
tma is a show that's very much About agency and choices, so it's important to keep track of where characters suddenly balk and try to offload their choices onto other agents. martin, despite being very proactive and efficient when he sets his mind to it, has a consistent habit of thinking of himself as fundamentally unimportant and unable to affect real change. jon, someone who is usually culpability_acceptor_4000, really tries to convince himself that the web made him pull statements out of strangers. and melanie and tim, on realizing that they've gotten themselves stuck in the archives, have similar reactions of trying to retroactively make those decisions jon's.
they hate being stuck there and they can't bear the idea that it might be their fault, and they don't know how to reconcile the choices they did make with the greater forces outside of their control that shape their lives. tim swings right from seeing jon as fully responsible to seeing everything as the result of cosmically inevitable bad luck, and this hits him so hard that it leads directly to his suicide. post-bullet melanie gets a better handle on it; accepting that she chose to fall further into the slaughter opens her up to accepting that she made other choices, like joining the archives, as well as accepting future choices, like quitting the archives.
and yes, in the moments where tim and melanie are most vulnerable and just starting to realize how deeply screwed they are, jon (at least from their pov) does something to make it worse. when jon tells tim that jane presntiss wasn't his fault, tim says "well you sure made me feel worse afterwards! and then everyone had to pay attention to how you were feeling to get you to stop stalking us!" when melanie goes in for a second assassination attempt on elias, elias makes jon talk her down instead of doing it himself, presumably to try and get the slaughter mark done with. neither of these are the inciting incidents for tim and melanie's situations, but they stand out. and because jon is culpability_acceptor_4000, a man who feels like the weight of the whole world is on his shoulders and is even right some of the time, the accusations stick. tim and melanie don't want anything to be their fault, jon thinks everything is his fault, and it's a bit of a vicious self-fulfilling cycle.
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Been meaning to catch more of your streams because they're so fun and relaxing and inspire me to do art alongside you! but I have a question?? How on earth have you managed to keep a streaming schedule? (kudos!!!!) I've tried it a few times and after about a month of consistency I get so tired and drop off of it, do you get guilt about rescheduling? (saw some announcement from the other day and it was so communicative and professional) and, how do you measure your own levels of energy to know how long you can stream for? Some people are just Built Different but I don't hear it often talked about how being social like that can drain people, especially when popular streamers in this era are usually streaming all day every single day of the week! Honestly love your work and everything you do, from what you share we seem to have a lot of similar tastes and experiences so I was just curious if this was something you encountered, and if so would love to hear any routines or strategies you have, if you're comfortable doing so! :3
for one thing, this isnt my first time around the bend! i used to stream about four years ago to a much smaller audience, and i feel like that gave me a lot of experience that was useful now as a streamer. i was also still in college/working full time then, so it sort of gave me the like... 'if i stop now im going to sink and die like a shark' mentality about a LOT of my hobbies. art and streaming both.
i do fully understand the feeling of burnout, and with anything you do its important to develop a gage as to how tired you are to determine whether or not you need to reschedule. killling your momentum of doing something can often result in dropping the habit altogether, but at the same time you are a human being with needs so theres gonna be some days you have to just call it off.
my internal 'system' for sickdays/delays is 'if i cant fix the problem in an hour, its a sick day, and if i can its a delay. if i can fix the problem in ten minutes and im avoiding it, then i need to remember im gonna have a lot of fun after its fixed and get up off my ass'
sometimes that 'problem' was as simple as 'i got yelled at at work today and idk if i can handle being smiley and funny for people when i feel like shit', but reminding myself that i always felt better after i streamed was often enough to pull me out of that. if the problem was i was tired/felt like shit, id take a delay and prepare a dinner, shower, and sit down for a bit. then id generally feel okay enough and streaming was no problem!
its easy to beat yourself up for not maintaining a consistent schedule fr streaming when you start out, but the thing you should really be asking yourself is - did you take care of yourself, the streamer, so that consistency was possible? good food, good sleep, and alone time to relax are imperative to any public facing activity, especially something like streaming!
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hello everynyan!! it's baby's second (?) tumblr post. i present to you:
ELLIOTT'S ANDERPERRY SONG ANALYSIS
okay, so, here's the gist of it: i have an ever-growing playlist on spotify of songs i feel fit neil, todd, or their relationship as a whole. each song is not only one i like, but also has lyrics that represent something specific about them. this sort of thing is something ive done for multiple characters for a long time, and ive always had carefully curated reasons behind my choices. i just recently got back into the dps fandom, and thought this would be a good way to not only show how i see the characters, but also become a part of the community on Tumblr myself :)
i will not be doing every song simply because i do not have the time and the playlist is way too long for that, but i'll definitely be choosing some favorites. i'll most likely just post whenever i feel like it, so i can't promise any sort of a timeline. this is just a little project i thought would be fun, especially considering the fics im working on take me ages lol đ
sooo without further ado: song number one is....
Habanero by Rosie Tucker
i've been listening to a lot of rosie tucker's music lately, and this song really stood out to me as a todd/neil song from neil's perspective. one of the reasons i connect so much to neil as a character is because i see myself in him, and subsequently how he handles what i see as a very real depressive disorder throughout the movie. this song makes me think of his feelings and relationship with todd in canon, how he sees himself and todd, and the bittersweet-ness of loving someone in the "wrong" way.
"...you said "this never happens to me, this never happens" but you smile while you suffer so you're lying or wrong" this lyric encapsulates a big part of neil's perception of todd, especially towards the beginning of the movie. it specifically reminds me of the "what do you mean no?" scene and the argument they have leading up to it. it also alludes to todd's poem scene in front of the class and neil's reaction to it. he sees todd as saying this sort of bewildered, in awe, "this never happens to me," because, well, for todd, that's how it feels. he doesn't speak in front of people, he doesn't share parts of himself like that. i actually believe he didn't even really write poetry on his own before keating's class, either, so even writing at all is a big step for him- never mind showing others. we know todd hates public speaking and being perceived (although it's a lot more complicated than that, but i won't get into it here) so he "smiles while (he) suffers" because even though this is something he hates and feels so much shame about, a part of him is amazed and happy he did it at all. thus the "you're lying or wrong" from neil- i see this as neil recognizing that actually, knowing todd, this isn't the first time he's done something like this like he might think. in truth, todd says and does beautiful things like this all the time. though todd sees himself as dull and embarassing, neil sees the truth. we often think of neil as recognizing todd as a diamond in the rough, but people are more complicated than that. really, todd has always had this beauty inside him- this is just the first time he (and everyone else) has gotten the opportunity to really see it. neil feels vindicated in a sense, because he knew it was there.
"i'm never happy, but i've never been better" i feel this lyric is pretty straightforward when it comes to neil. he has depression, which makes it so so hard to feel happy, even when you think you should- and most of the time, neil doesn't even have those moments. todd isn't some cure-all for his problems, and certainly doesn't make his depression go away, but he's a huge aid to neil. he's the one person who really sees him. even if neil still isn't happy in the traditional way, he still feels better around todd. another thing i could get into buttt this post is already gonna be long enough as is lol.
"i need to see you sweat" i feel this one is also pretty self explanatory. it's sexuality and desire, something neil has likely not felt to this level before. especially when you're depressed, it's hard to feel any sort of desire. i feel that any thoughts neil would have would already be pretty vague because of his internalized homophobia, but this would be similar to the way he would allow himself to verbalize his feelings. there are a lot of great fics out there that i feel really encapsulate this well.
"wouldn't we be perfect together if we wanted exactly the same thing?" i would argue that the majority of the fandom kind of accepts neil's feelings for todd as pretty obviously requited, even though interestingly enough, from an outside perspective i would actually argue neil's feelings are the most obviously canon. not that i don't definitely believe todd feels the same, nor do i think this is a bad thing- it's just that the entire movie revolves around identity, and neil's passion for acting serves as a metaphor for queerness pretty obviously, and beyond that acting is associated with queer identity as a whole, another reason behind mr. perry's aversion to it. neil doesn't know if todd feels the same as he does. even if things may seem obvious to us, this isn't "normal" for the time period and so i believe wholeheartedly that neil didn't know todd had any feelings for him. was this more his own self hatred, him protecting himself, or that anything he saw that may have alluded to reciprocation he convinced himself was his own mind playing tricks on him? probably a mixture of all three.
"but i smile while i suffer like a sucker supreme" even though neil knows this won't end well, that his feelings are "wrong" and this is hurting him in the long run, he can't help himself when it comes to todd. he's a sucker for him and the feelings he gets being around him.
"all at once i'm a child trapping tadpoles in a cup, and i know they'll never make it (...) but i smile while they suffer 'cause i want it so much" neil knows being in the play, being with todd, and defying his father is a losing game. he knows, on a distant level, that he'll never get away with it. maybe during the play he finally, for one gorgeous moment, truly believed things would change- but then his father shows up and proves he was right all along. he knows he's doomed, that todd was right to doubt his plan to lie to his father in the first place, but he wants it so badly he doesn't care (or, more than that, he feels so incredibly trapped that he's given up and has resigned himself to the consequences). not only this, but his depression has made his latching onto the one thing that gives him hope even more intense. to be ripped away from this, the only thing he's ever wanted- the only person he's ever wanted- is the end. he knows that. even so, even though he can see the futility of it all crumbling beneath him, he sees the fall through.
"i can't believe i'll die before becoming a frog" there's a sort of disbelief in his resignation to death in his final moments, a darkly humorous "i can't believe it's come to this, that this is really happening" despite not really being surprised. neil is cutting everything short and throwing away his potential before his father gets the chance to do it for him. he'll never "become a frog" in so many ways- never get to live for himself, never get to become an adult, never get to act again, etc.
well...that was very long! if you've made it to the end of this post, i hope this was as fun for you as it was for me :)) i'll definitely be doing more of these as time goes on!! let me know your thoughts!!
(the playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3Fh97W8EItmoJHjQvjsBl4?si=WoH7J5GHTfmt3v7OuqbHnQ&pi=6x2g03n8Q1Knc )
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Anon from a while back who had the weird situation with the inexperienced poly guyâŠ
So Iâve got myself into another weird situation with a man. Apparently itâs my thing. Known each other for 8 years, have been into each other on and off for that long but weâve always either been with other people or it just hasnât panned out. Weâre now both single and heâs borderline obsessed with me. I know this because he tells me. Weâre good friends at this point.
Iâm thinking of suggesting fwb. But is that cruel knowing he feels more? I think itâs probably morally wrong. But also meeting a need for both of us. If it was made very clear thatâs what it was so he could make an informed choice does that make it better?
Usually im the one complaining about emotionally unavailable men so now I do feel like as asshole for being the one physically into someone but not wanting a relationship with them.
Anon, it is not "morally wrong" for you to have your own set of desires and boundaries that are not a 100% reproduction of what this guy wants and to try and negotiate some mutually beneficial arrangement. If he can't handle getting things from you that you are not positioned to give, that is his problem. He can exit the relationship. And so can you, if he attempts to round you up to a romantic partner when you've articulated that's not what you want.
My main concern is not whether you having romantic boundaries will hurt him -- my concern is whether he will actually respect what your boundaries are. Do you think he will? Does he generally show respect for your boundaries? How does he generally treat, and talk about, the people he is involved with sexually or romantically? Has he had casual relationships before?
If you think this arrangement can work, lay out exactly what you are down and not down for. If he acts all forlorn and pitiful about that, he's manipulating you -- whether he means to or not! --- and that's a bad scene. If he tries to argue with your boundaries, convince you to see him romantically, or acts as if there is no incompatibility between your two desires for the sake of like, trying to slowly frog-in-a-pot-of-boiling-water you into a relationship, stop seeing him or speaking to him as frequently until he learns to show you respect, or end the relationship. You might be surprised though. He might consider a friendship where you fuck to his net benefit and something he can work with. Who knows. But either way you gotta tell him.
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Hear me out- fluffy comfort sex with scara bc y/n's severe daddy issues are acting up and it gets rougher... idk ive just been fantasizing about this đ€
"For me~"
Tw: daddy issues, Signals of depression.
Scaramouche x GN reader PUREE comfort! :)
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scara masterlistt wanderer comfort
Fluff+smut
MINORS DNI---
Please make sure your taking care of yourself! I might not know you but your a beautiful person inside out who deserves the best and an amazing life no matter your age. Either young or old, things will get better. Have faith in yourself â€ïž I hope scara helps you feel better heređ
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Even though scaramouche has a interesting personality. I feel like he truly can relate to MANY people regarding their problems and that's why he's one of my, if not favorite genshin character.
He's on break from his most recent mission in inazuma and treats you out and catch up as another date. He brings you a couple of gifts and some dango he kept cold just for you. "I thought you weren't a fan of dango scara?" "I'm not but.. figured I might as well bring something sweet for you besides myself" you giggled but that soon turned into a sad expression while you played with the box of dango he handed to you. "What's wrong y/n?"
Unfortunately, hearing about what's going on with your father was the last thing he wished to hear. Your his everything and you getting treated or viewed as nothing is something that makes his skin boil.
"tsk, how about I teach that old man a lesson? Humans are all the same. Taking it out on others because they can't handle the fucking truth or their own shit life. Where is he?" Scaramouche stood up from the table and looked at his surroundings.
"S-scara baby please it's fine its fine.." he sits back down. "Being with you already makes my day a blessing." You cup his cheek and he sinks into your warm touch. Looking at your beautiful eyes. He sighs, "you don't deserve this y/n. And..I'm not going to be here all the time for you. Fuck...this is already pissing me off"
"I don't even fucking have a father, but if I did I sure as hell wouldn't let myself get pushed around like this." You frowned. "Hey. Look at me. Your not a push over okay? I-im just saying this isn't right. Your beautiful and deserve the world y/n. I'd give you all of teyvat in a heartbeat" which you assumed he could after seeing the 'Shouki no kami' he and 'the doctor' have been working on. "Is he always home and like this?" "Yeah.. it's just like this when I'm around... So I'd just find something to do to try and take my mind off if it but..it still hurts." He held your hand. "Its going to hurt my love, it hurt when my mom abandoned me as well. Leaving me alone, but you have to find hope. Be it something small or anything. The fatui was.. a revenge thing you can say but. I found hope within you to be different..even if I am still in it. For now." You blushed "wow kuni~ I never knew you could be so nice." And there went his ego, "I just tell it like it is. And like I said, you are beautiful my love. And you certainly are worth it. Every hour, every second and every breath I take by your side."
It grew silent for a couple of minutes. Scara got up and paced back and forth thinking of a way to help you, to make you understand he loves you. He knew that deep in your thoughts we're tragedy and pain, that you we're alone. And he didn't want you to feel how he felt when his life crumbled due to the stoned face of a god.
He wanted to hurt that man, make him regret it. But he knew that wasn't the right way. Sometimes violence isn't always the answer and he learned that from you. You we're the yin to his yang, the beat in his heart. He loved you more than anything and you guided him into the 'happy' man he is today more then anyone could ever hope to become.
He didn't take you home, rather to his own home. It was dark, black painted walls and only 1 or 2 pictures he took with his 'buddy, Childe' and the rest we're all pictures of you. Even in his room he had taped up letters you'd write to him during his abroad trips. "Look. Come here." He was a little stern but you can tell it was because he was angry at how you we're being treated. "You see all of this here? I read these everyday. When I wake up, to be reminded that I'll always have you y/n." He held your hands and sat on the bed while taking his hat off. "I want you too feel the same way, even with that piece of shi- 'annoying parent' around. You don't have to read my letters my love, but please. Stay strong. For me. And for the future we will have together, side by side. Always."
SMUTđ€Ș
Scaramouche laid you onto the bed and let out a groan "god look at this beautiful body of yours. How dare you look at yourself like this.. your fucking beautiful" he rubbed his hands along your body and took licks around your neck "I'm gonna treat you well t'night baby. And tomorrow I'm going to ask that brat Childe to take the rest of my missions for a bit(months) love." "B-but scara then your going to be so busy after-" he kissed you to keep you quiet. "Mmm mmm.. don't worry about that, trust me you'd be surprised to see the things he'd do after I put on a show for him(scara means killing a buncha people. Childe loves that shitđ©)
Scara moved down to your private part, licking and kissing it "Scara~ stopp..your tongue~"
"Want me to stop baby? I know you like it." "N-no" you said while rubbing through his hair "you feel so good~" he smirked. "Good you like it. How about my fingers, you want that to?" "Y-yes daddy..wanna feel your fingers." Scara licked at his fingers and put two inside. "Mmm your so tight around my fingers baby..." He took his other hand and held your leg up while biting at your thighs. "Scara~ please~ ah...hah...." biting and sucking on your thighs until you got a hicky "Yes? What does love want." "I- I want you inside." He stopped biting at you and laughed. "Mmm and here I thought you wanted me to be gentle. And cherish your body." "I-i do but... I want more of you scara" "then take what you want of me, my love"
"Oh fuck baby..L-look at you, bouncing on daddys cock so well." Scara's praises made your body heat up. You two interlocked hands as you chased your orgasm "Yes y/n..Fuck yes. i love you. I love you so fucking much, Please cum for me. Let me hear those beautiful moans." "S-SCARA~ OH sHIT~" You cum oozed onto scara as he kept praising you, "Mm..fuck baby you did so well..So fucking well.. lay down f' me." Your body grew weak as your high started to fade and he guided you to the otherside of the bed. Scara licked off some of your cum while cleaning you up. "Shit.. and you taste good too baby." You threw a pillow at him "You pervet-"
You awoke to your boyfriend soundly asleep next to you. Already in his fatui attire. "S-scara...Your still here" He ruffly opened his eyes. "Of course id be here dumass.. But i do have to leave in a bit.. Otherwise how else am i gonna get that ginger idiot to take my work for a bit." You we're shocked that he still committed to what he said earlier, You thought he was just speaking to boost you up but scara was serious about it. You gave him a hug. "Im so glad to have you in my life Kuni. I love you."
"My god, my mother, humans. They've all abandoned me. Because I was 'weak. Not good enough.' But now I understand my love, I don't need them. Or what they say... All I need and want is you. I want to wake up to your beautiful smile. I want while I'm away for you to be happy. So please keep trying, not for those that dismiss you like they've done me. But for yourself and me. I believe in and love you. Just the way you are and the person you strive to be. I love your kindness, the way you smiled even when you we're sad on our dango date and wake up everyday even if it's the bare minimum. Dont hide those emotions anymore my love, When your hurt, Fall in my arms. Please stay, don't listen to that old bastard or the pain in your heart. I love you and I will stay with you until the bitter end to pick you up. Just like you always did for me"
Ps: I will be home Early, Tomorow evening most likely. Apparently, childe sees me as his 'best friend' and is willing to help regardless. What a looser. Anyway, I have to prep up for the fatui's grand dinner. I hope you ate today my love, Farewell until then.
-Kunikuzushi.
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Requested by the beloved @fatherlesschild2 : CAN YOU WRITE SOMETHING ANGSTY ABOUT SHERLOCK AND ENOLA BEING SIBLINGS WITH READER, IDK I HAVE A QUESTIONABLE IMAGINATION BUT MAYBE THE READER GETTING INTO A FIGHT AND TRYING TO HIDE IT?
Warnings : uuuuuuuum angst? Grr scary brother
A/N: sorry for the delay lol. I had to copy and paste every single line from my other account so if something's out of place im soorry hahahah â€ïž
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*creak*
God damn you st-
*creak*
Maybe if i went slower
"God da-"
"Young lady."
Your eyes flew up as your lips parted in a little gasp. Before you stood a large figure. Broad shoulders and a threatening stance, it towered over you, causing you to freeze in place.
Tiny splinters dug into your frozen fingers as you gripped the stair handle, tightening your hold the more Sherlock kept silent.
I mean, is he going to keep standing there until the sun sets and the birds start churping?
Your older brother stepped aside, motioning for you to step inside. And you complied, slowly and hesitantingly.
"Youngsters ought not to be wandering about late at night, particularily when expressly told ,on multiple counts, not to slip out." Sherlock patienly waited for you, taking after you the moment you passed by him.
You felt smaller with a much bigger shadow than you. But you kept your posture straight, anyways.
Your head was feeling too heavy for your liking and you just wanted to sleep.
"I'm sorry, Sherlock, is there any way we could do this tomorrow morning? Now's not the time for a lecture." The words came in a gruff tone. And as if you weren't already in enough trouble with the man, you just headed for the room you and sister Enola shared.
"Sure...Tomorrow." Sherlock's voice sounded." Good night, little one."
"And don't think i didn't see those marks on your neck"
Fuck.
"We'll discuss it tomorrow."
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It's tomorrow.
A pain is etching from your temple down to the hollow part that sits under your cheek.
Flashes of your....eventful evening storm in from your subconscious and a long sigh escapes your lips.
" Finally awake."
AH. You shriek, your body jerking to the uncomfortably close voice over you. Rolling around halfway, you jump backwards, shrieking at the two people standing over you.
What the hell?
Sherlock and Enola were standing at your bed, both leaning down to examine you like you're a cadaver they were just about to start inspecting.
But you weren't. So why the fu-"
"How did you get that, y/n?" The investigator's eyes dart from your own eyes to your cheek, and you unconsciously cover the said thing with your hand.
Uh....you were't sure whether to lie or not. Whether to tell the whole truth or just half of it.
"Uhhh..." A long sigh escaped your lips without your accordance as you hadn't already decided on which story to tell yet. "Uh..." You stuttered again, flustered.
You shrink in your bed, melting into the sheets as you leaned away from the figure that lowered it's upper body over yours.
"Little one, your answer better be the right one."
Sherlock's eyes calculatedly pursuited yours until they locked.
Dark and threatening, they glared into your soul. Shit. How can someone regret their decision the second they made it?
"I....I fell down the bar stairs."
Fuck. How can someone regret their decision the second they made it?
Sherlock straightens his back. "Really?"
"Y...yeah. you c-c-an ask the men th-there if you want." You got out of bed, the opposite side of where your siblings were standing.
"I was walking....I might've had a drink or two." Maybe admitting to another forbidden punishable act will help you elude the real thing? "And as i was walking down, my ankle twisted and i found myself flying down the stairs."
You brushed past both of them, heading for the door. Nice lie! If they were to go ask the men there, nobody would be able to say a single word, because all of them would have been too drunk to even know their own names.
You'd highfive yourself but-
"Alright then, show me the other bruises."
You were glad your back was facing them, as your eyes widened in surprise. Fuck! You didn't think of that. "The ones on your hands and knees, probably, as well as your hip." Triumph laced Sherlock's voice. You internally damned him to an afterlife in hell.
"What...other bruises?"
"Well of course i can't do that!" You spin around, disdain etched across your face. You scoff.
"I can't undress myself in front of y-"
Haha! Enola. You almost forgot about h-
"He'll leave the room."
You snort a provocative chuckle "You really believe i think of you any differently, Enola?"
"I'm sure he trusts my decision making by now." Your sister lifted a triumphant brow.
Enola's eyebrows relax as annoyance etches across her face. She sighs and happiness internally floods your body. Looks like you were close to win the battle. With her.
"How's this?" Anger embodies Sherlock.
Definitely only with her.
"Lie and i will make sure you...never do that again."
Sherlock started walking towards you.
"But then again, i would like for you to spare us the anticipation, i already know you're lying. Because your-"
"Because my toes seem strange and i breathed in instead of out?"
"Because your friend came running here and said you were getting yourself in really bad trouble. And that it was only a matter of time before somebody got badly hurt."
Oh..of course she did...
"Listen, y/n, we understand that you're afraid of our reactions." Enola started, crossing her arms over her chest. "But you can't hide those things from us, we're your siblings."
Adorable-not good enough, though. Not to insult Enola's attemps and efforts, but you'd never do that just because you're siblin-"That's Enola."
"On my part, if i ever find out you're lying to me about something like this, i will make your life a living hell, little girl. And trust my words, i will make sure of it."
Your head spun towards Sherlock, a bit surprised and...scared as darkness suddenly swamped his voice.
You would've rolled your eyes at him but you were already in enough trouble. You wouldn't want to bury yourself in it, would you?
"I'm sorry." The lie slipped out of your lips like butter. You're not sorry. You don't care. In fact, you're not done with those stupid bastards. And you're not one to let go easily.
Thankfully, they weren't going to know since your face was already bruised. Or are they?
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I HAVE A QUESTIONABLE IMAGINATION TOO I WILL DO BETTER NEXT TIME OKI KISSIES NOW BYE BYE. â€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïžđ„đ„đ„
#Enola holmes fic#Sherlock holmes fic#sister!reader#sister x brothers#sibling fic#Sibling x brothers#sherlock holmes x reader#Sherlock holmes x sibling reader#henry cavil x reader#Henry cavil w sister#Henry cavil x daughter#Father figure fic
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Howdy! Could I request a platonic grusha with a reader who maybe gets into an accident during his snowboarding gym challenge? Not just taking a tumble or anything, like rocks fall or something and you break a limb.
Im not really sure what kind of genre this would count as... hurt/comfort, I suppose????
Idk. I just like giving my favorite characters heart attacks đ
‷ ă reminders and you. ă
â pairing : grusha x gn! reader
â summary : you get injured during grushaâs gym challenge.
â genre : hurt to comfort
â cw / other : bad injury mention , DO NOT RAG ON MY TAKE ON GRUSHAâS PERSONALITY OK , not proofread
â a/n : ahah we are very alike. IâM SORRY there are some non platonic parts in here i couldnât help myself â GOSH this couldâve been so much better. again, i'm sorry.
you and grusha were friends on good terms. heâd heard from you plenty on how excited you were to face him despite battling him unofficially many times before.
heâd then reminded you about his gym challenge, which led to him teaching you the basics.
everything shouldâve been fine. you shouldâve passed with flying colors, you shouldâve been able to battle him. but as grusha watched from above, he witnessed himself the event.
a couple of rocks flew your way from a bunch of whatever pokémon play-fighting, ranging from the size of a bergmite to a literal cetoddle. it was hectic.
this was early in the morning, so the snow tossed around from the first hit was easily seen throwing you off and landing you in the snow. grusha, without thinking, leapt from his position and sped towards your body. you were practically suffocating in the snow, the amount on top of you along with the heavy rocks against your one leg preventing you from getting up.
everything ached. grushaâs voice sounded so far away, even as he wiped the snow away from your face and got his pokemon to help get the rocks off.
yelling. ambulances. people carrying you away. grushaâs hand entwined with yours (as heâd taken off his glove to do so) in a protective, worried manner. and youâd just noticed your tears falling down onto the stretcher, warm compared to the coldness in your chest.
meanwhile, grusha was having an inward panic attack. why did it always have to be with snowboarding? he couldâve prevented thisâhe couldâve had the common sense to rid the pokĂ©mon around in case of something like this happening. but noâhe just watched you. watched the fall, watched your bleeding and crippled form from those stupid rocks and the icy mountainâs hand in all of this.
he gripped onto your hand like it was a form of life support, no matter how embarrassing it would be to explain it later. he was focused on the flashbacks of what happened to him before, his state and his life turned upside down because of one mistake.
but he promised to himself that whatever happened next, heâd be next to you through it all.
the ride felt like a time to reflect. reflect on childhood and whatever led you to this. âif i go out like this,â you thought to yourself, âat least itâll be by grushaâŠâ
like souls melded together, your thoughts were mostly on the other on the journey to the hospital.
heâd expected this, but couldnât help but cringe anyways at the diagnosis.
fractures, a concussion, internal suffering, and so onâsurgeries were unavoidable and inevitable. but to him you handled it all like a champ, thankful that the doctors here were skilled and handy at their jobs.
grusha was relieved you were alive. the doctors had said you were lucky, and he couldnât have thanked his lucky stars more for you.
his calm demeanor slowly returned in the lobby as he waited patiently for them to call him back. he got news that youâd have to stay overnight, which he was also expecting. and so he decided to stay with you as comfort.
he carefully opened the door to your room, the place dimmed and your eyes closed for sleepâor as he thought.
itâd surprised him when he saw your fingers wiggle a little, as if reaching out but suppressed by lack of energy (which was probably accurate). he gently took your chilly hand, warming it up with his now put on glove. youâd tugged at the material, though, and so grusha took it off.
his fingers, surprisingly soft and less cracked than youâd think them up to be, moved in soothing gestures against your own. your mind was still in a daze, but you knew that this feeling with him felt fuzzy and warm. a moment youâd want to last forever under different circumstances in which you hadnât injured yourself.
after some contemplation, he leaned forward to lightly kiss the top of your hand before shying his head away.
heâd stayed holding your hand until youâd fallen asleep, his cue to fall asleep on the chairs next to the bed despite the uncomfortable feeling.
grushaâs happy to say that he was fully available on the day you were discharged. on other days, heâd visit you in the hospital with the days cut short because of one thing or another. but because of a well needed day off, grusha appeared on the day and helped you get back to the outside world.
you got back your pokemon from grusha, whoâd youâd loaned them to to take care of while you were hospitalized. theyâd visited too along with him, always clingy and fussy over you.
you were supposed to use a special cast for a while, but it was better than staying holed up in that musty room with nothing to do and talk about scheduled dosages and surgeries all the time. much better.
with grusha by your side, you were going to go back to your usual routines and finally be able to battle him.
all this for a battle. spoiler alert, you win.
work of kyushiblast , please do not translate , copy , or repost here or on any other platform !!
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