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ā creepypasta headcanons bcs I'm bored :3
made this with my bsf (he has no idea what creepypasta is)
TW!!! : mentions of alcohol, abuse, mentions of murder (ofc), smoking, organ eating (basically cannibalism), TELL ME IF I MISSED MORE !!
Jeff The Killer :
a bit abusive and possessive
ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGERISSUES
his room is an absolute mess, a yellow stained matress, monster cans in the corner of his room n everything
absolutely REFUSES to buy a new knife, he thinks he doesn't need a new one
probably smells like gas
instead of him blinking (he can't because bro has no eyelids) he rolls is eyes back :3
Ben Drowned :
ABSOLUTELY FUCKING STINKS due to how he stays in his room all day
his computer is both fast and slow at the same time
only gets out of his room to eat (rarely eats since he's a ghost)
picks fights with jeff
had a invader zim phase
Ticci toby :
has a hard time sitting down lmao, he tried to sit properly but failed
his fingers are covered in bandages due to how he keeps biting his nails (i mean he can't feel pain so š¤·)
this man REEKS of marijuana and pine wood, no questions asked
he lets his anger out on killing people, which happens often
sharpens his hatchets once in a while :3
Eyeless Jack :
definitely smells like men's cologne or organs
he works out sometimes on weekends, I don't see how he doesn't
is a great cook but doesn't cook often, he prefers eating organs
his teeth are sharp, perfect for chewing organs :3
still good with first aid, patches up toby when his fingers bleed
note : i ran out of ideas lmao, anwyays first post !! ALL OF THESE ARE OOC(?) but happy advanced new year!! :33
#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanon#i ran out of ideas#hcs#lmao#:3#jeff the killer#jeff the killer headcanons#eyeless jack#eyeless jack headcanon#ticci toby#tobias erin rogers#ticci toby headcanons#ben drowned#ben drowned headcanons#i need to piss#im out of ideas#help#i feel silly#ooc#ooc post#first post
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Stareater might be on a lil pause whilst I catch up with uni work
But when I do pick it up again it's very close to being done ..so HM ..I'm not worried about this becoming a month long hiatus like last time :)
#stareater au#yipppppppeee#i had a very very roung day today relating to uni#so i feelllll real drained#exspecilay after yhe idea of having to pause stareater once again#but its okay ...im confident in how its going#im also debating starting liek a team of ppl who might eanna help out and work on thsi au#whether that be art or writing or whatever#im a lil drowned in work and i think its time i ask help a lil#cos the last thing i wanna do is abandon the au
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#Reds such a unique and sad character to me#No matter what he does he is in a loop somehow. both actually and mentally.#He wants change - but he's afraid of it - But he NEEDS it - but its too scary.#He wants to be normal - But normal is boring - But its safe.#Too weird for people - too normal for freaks.#He Likes those two - But getting attached hurts. - But he truly does love them - But what if hes the issue? what is HE hurts them.#and thats why i think transport was such a big turning point. because he does hurt them#He tries his best and does what he thinks will be best.#him being alone so he issnt an āIssueā#And them being happy and healthy in a place where thier needs are met. and they dont have to be scared anymore.#but he fails and he hurts them.#His torture here is feeling helpless and whenever he tries it fails to the point he feels awful.#He has such complex and battling emotions they loop in his head over and over. too the point he cant do anything#thus making him a neutral character.#But neutral issnt a Good thing#Yes he doesnt hurt anything. But he doesnt help or comfort either#He is in a loop inside and out.#Hes drowning.#SIIIGHH sometimes it hurts understanding him /hj. (i know theres like a gigillion ways to interpret him lmao.}#im actuly kinda sad i havent seen anyone else have the idea of him being torn apart inside and anxious tho.#or that he sees himself as a big monster. maybe even due to him leaveing before (trying to help but failing again)#or that hes easy to manipulate. thus creating danger for the other two.#But im just yapping and making a comic based on my thoughts :]#(as ive been a lil mentally ill about string man lately.#dhmis#dhmis red guy#dhmis fanart#dhmis comic#dont hug me im scared
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I'd like to know why you are all alone while I'm lost at sea /
Maybe we'll be there when you want
#bella#fc!bella#lc ocs#art#this is from reinhardt's (branch-wdk53) pov! you cant escape him in my art. i cant escape him#link leads to stranded lullaby - the lyrics are also from there :3#this is around rein's fears about bella being like ryn but is also about the extraction interaction (still love that name)#honestly every piece of this has. so many meanings like. god#let me just redo all this and go through them one by one lmao#the sea: this one's about them being in the same situation. also their issues (the sea will slowly rise; obscuring and drowning them)#it's also about guilt - it can be a blood ocean! the blood of those they let die...#OOOH I JUST NOTICED THIS: bloodbath! since it's a blood sea :3#the halos: the inner one is halfway just for composition half bc rein sees bella as a good person. the outer (hard to see but) tear-shaped#halo is both a drop in the sea (me when the blood sea! when we've let so many die it no longer matters.) and a noose's opening -#like foos's but metaphorically(? lmao) bella's own suicide by distancing herself from her friends and therefore her help/support system#the black spots: represents rein losing her in a way. he knows what's happening but has no idea how to help. also tied in with his#amnesia/memory loss (totally covered; lost info; yknow). could even be from pain or drowning in the sea! who knows! :3c#...........yeah im normal about these two. you can trust me.#i need to make a bella/ritz piece istg... ive been sleeping on them!!!!!!!!#but. i love these two so much. total of 2 interactions and i made the MOST out of them <3#also since im naming all these now since i gotta save them to post em: this one is called lost
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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like itās so. i donāt want to say isolated necessarily. but so much itās own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i donāt think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and itās like. cmon. wouldnāt it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like iām like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isnāt within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesnāt actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place iām in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think itās making this worse. especially because itās henryās dadās local#and where henryās wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. itās like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and itās going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i havenāt even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadnāt come back iād be in a normal mental state#by now. thatās the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i donāt want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like itās not even worth the effort because itās so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i canāt deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and itās so exhausting and i canāt sleep and thereās so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#iāve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
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#no but i actually hate that i made this blog to vent freely bc i have no other place to talk abt anything or my feelings or thoughts#and im a very isolated person and a shut in and i dont have a job or go to school successfully and i dont know anyone#like blah blah. i have struggled and im drowning in them all. like why the fuck cant ppl just comprehend that we all have different views o#life and the world? like 'wallowing' is .. i have heavy anxiety which is completely untreated and it gives me real bad suicidal ideation#if me complaining on a blog that im btw not forcing anyone to read helps me to stay alive and get my pain out... why does that matter to#other ppl?????? like why does other ppl get so mad seeing someone they dont know vent??#also this goes for everyone but u can literally have no idea abt all of a person's life#esp on here where all u see is like my text posts where i vent abt how i FEEL. bc i want to. ??? i want to do that so i do#u dont know the context u dont know my experiences or what has happened in my life or context#u dont know what has transpired between me and other ppl i vent abt#like u know fuck all. u dont have the right to pass judgement onto a stranger that doesnt even know u exist#and even if i complain on here bc i dont have a real life but i want to#u have no idea what im doing with the rest of my time???? im making lists im trying to look up info abt school and programs#im trying to read abt my mental health issues and im doing mindfulness and im going to the gym#i am trying!!! and u dont have any idea what i do or how i try and u dont have any right to judge me bc all u see is one part that is me#complaining bc this is what i use this blog for. genuinely i do not get why this is even a big deal or why anyone would follow or read smth#makes them irritated???????#idk.. i dont wanna disable anons and stuff (bc funnily enough no one ever says this stuff with their url š¤Ø) bc i dont wanna miss out on the#stuff but it is infuriating that i have nowhere to go no friends no therapist etc etc to talk#and this is all i have bc i want to vent !!!!!!! and then i have to be like ok now other ppl i dont even know#and who dont actually give a fuck abt me are gonna judge me and tell me im living incorrectly#and ive never gotten more such things than now? why do y'all hate that i vent abt losing out on my 1st love#and feeling heartbroken?????? what the fuck? that has nothing to do with anyone else but me? like genuinely wtf#i just wanna vent bc i feel like im drowning but now i feel like i cant bc ppl just judge and like ugh
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kandi stimboard !!
requested by: me :))
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#ive made sm kandi#help im drowning in it#kandi#kandi patterns#kandi cuff#kandi beads#kandi raver#kandi ideas#kandi kid#kandi stim#stim#stimboard#stimmy#visual stim#stimblr#stim gifs#rainbow stim#stim gif#stimmies#stimulation#stim blog#stim stuff#stim stim stim#good stims#visual stims
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part of me wants do stupid shit
gotta admit I'm hypocrite
I like it way better than being on the side of it
I'm a psycho l.o.ving it =)
time of my life
we're all just just skeletons
just joining the fight
joining the FIGHT
this song describes more of player's personality.
"I'm a psycho, loving it" just shrug it off because it's a game to them.
"I'd kill for a life that ain't boring. I'm lot's of things but not sorry."
this ISN'T sans. this part is for the human! sans does regret his actions. and maybe so does the human but they're not going to let those emotional attachments cloud their obsessed perfectionism.
this makes a perfect duet seriously.
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Anyone else feeling strangled by the grief of knowing they'll never make everything they want to due to the constraints of time and the human body lately?
#havijg an incrscibly normal day today#constantly feeling crushed by the never ending onslaught of ideas how does everyone else cope with this I always feel like im drowning#need to get faster and better immediately but the problem is I have to start slow and bad you understand#NEED to do more real practice#also think that burn out and fatigue playing tennis with my psyche for the past six years is probably not helping#wait actually that reminded me I have to make another appointment today thabks tumblr tags for remidninf me#I AM okay just stressed and tired hope everyone else is okay also#and if not I hope you feel okay soon then#sunny with clouds
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Listen dear, and listen close If you want a show, I'll be your host ā¬
#š¼ . occ#im still writting stuff#muse hit so hard its 4 am send help#THIS SONG POPPED UP IN MY PLAYLIST AAAAH#just wanted to let ya all know i love my threads / ideas i share with all of ya#thank you so much brrrrrr#on the side note i might not get more threads from now lol#otherwise i will drown#I STILL WROTE ALL WHO I ALREADY OWE SOMETHING SO DONT WORRY
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Understanding the scene of Ted putting the tie on Mike (Mike commenting on how it's too tight and it's choking him and Ted saying that's how it's supposed to be) in a very Mike-Ted parallels way. AND IT WAS ON FRONT OF A MIRROR TOO. Shrimp colors everywhere.
#im so sorry for being this way truly i cannot help it. the vicious cycles get me. im seeing the light#bc personally i dont see it as simply about heteronormativity. i mean its a part of it#but its framed as like. ted is choking mike with heterosexuality! and while that is true to an extent they have ted say thats how its#supposed TO BE for a reason! clothing is something ppl put on themselves. putting on your tie too tight- choking yourself its not just#sexuality its about control. controlling your image. controlling yourself#the religious themes of s4 wasnt just a recent feature. the idea of repression (emotional/sexual/physical) goes all the way back to s1#the concept of keeping such a tight control over yourself (ie 'choking' yourself and enforcing it on your children) falls in line with#religious trauma. constantly being watched not only by authority but god. repressing/choking yourself so you dont step out of line#and again its on front of the mirror. like idk mike-ted parallels arent popular in this fandom but take it up with the duffers#i didnt put them in there they did!!!#like the idea of being so repressed and being in a constant state of controlling oneself to toe the line not only falls in line with a lack#of pov (which they intentionally take away from mike and intentionally never give to ted)#but also mikes possible ED which again is about control! these are all metaphors for controlling oneself to a harmful extent!#one day ppl will appreciate mike ted parallels beyond 'ted hates mike for being gay' but alas today is not that day and it wont stop me#also 'try new things' being about coming out of your comfort zone! mike trying the pinapple pizza and ted going on the ferris wheel#not tightly controlling yourself to the point you make yourself miserable#blasts runs in the family drowning out literally everything else#its all religious trauma? always have been
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so, who else has like 5 different projects laying around their room, in open boxes or on the desk but clearly visible to anyone who sees your room, or is it just me?
#help im drowning in projects#i have too many ideas#and not enough time#or space#or money#aaaaaa#and then i start one#but then it sits there when something else comes up#help its a *problem*#196#r/196#/r/196#shitpost#transfem#trans#queer#:3#rule
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me, scrambling to try and catch up as best as i can with little train man things while also drawing/writing self-indulgent things:
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Final Light Allegiances
LONG POST AHEAD!!!
This is all characters thus far! Everyone here has a design, and majority have backgrounds or personalities. Feel free to reference this post whenever someone gets mentioned to learn a bit more about them, I will update this as needed. ???s are characters who exist but have no design, name, or personality yet.
All images and art of these characters can be found here, with short bios.
Colony of Clickers
A group of cats who, under their commander's guidance, were able to 'tame' the clicking ones and control them. They are the only colony to be successful post-Final Light, and are even allowed to roam during the day within their settlement thanks to the protection of the clicking ones.
Commander
Voice of Snow - Black tom with white speckles and blue eyes. The first cat to successfully rebuild a colony, but failed the Seasonal Trials. Ex-Colony of Fireflies.
Advisor
N/A - Voice of Snow, oddly, has refused to appoint an advisor. While nothing enforces this, many are unhappy about this decision.
Hunter Denning
Diesel - Ashen-colored tom with pale blue eyes. Shade of Mapleās partner. Huge flirt, openly poly, loves his boyfriend.
Shade of Maple - Calico tom with several scars. Dieselās partner, ex-Colony of Bones.
Guard Denning
Wing of Hawk - Tortie tom with a short tail and large brown eyes. His epithet is āTalon of Hawkā. Ex-Colony of Mist, last known surviving member.
Winnie - White and orange molly with green eyes. Ex-Colony of Storm, Winter Paw.
Healer Denning
Arrow - Calico molly with blue and orange eyes. Stressed over the lack of healers in the colony, often works alongside the Dreamers. Ex-Colony of Storm.
Trainee Denning
Cypress - Silver molly with spotted tabby markings. Excitable and curious.
Student of Maple - Brown tabby tom with amber eyes and a red marking on his chest.
Followers of the Lynx
A remnant of the colonies of old, the Followers were and still are the protectors of the Lynx's artifact- one of the four artifacts a cat needs to become a colony's commander. They still accept challengers even now, the whole colony voting to determine if a cat is worthy of leadership. Ever since the Final Light, no cat has gotten a majority vote.
Leaders
Polarbear - Large white tom with tan spots and green/blue eyes. Leader by election, Slateās partner. Secretly manipulating the Followers to prevent the Lynxās artifact from āgetting into the wrong handsā. Unfortunately, by his definition, any hands are the wrong hands. Killed Maia, an orange tabby who was a member of the Followers, in order to keep this secret.Ā
Slate - Calico tom with green eyes and missing tail. Leader by blood, Polarbearās partner. Aware of Polarbearās crimes but chooses to stay silent in order to keep his only friend alive.
Members
Pumpkin - Brown and white molly with copper eyes. Has a collar with a pumpkin name tag. Previously a house pet, found and trained by Polarbear.
Heart of Ember - Tortie molly with green eyes. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dreamās kit.
Ruin/City Cats
Less of a 'faction' and more of a vague group, the City Cats (or as they're more recently known as, the Ruin Cats) survived through sheer numbers alone, and continued on with life as if nothing had changed. Hundreds of cats still roam the streets, gather at the abandoned mall in massive groups, and trade and sell their goods. The only change seems to be the camaraderie many cats now feel for their neighbors- the sudden deaths of so many uncovering something lost buried in many.
Leader
Audrey - Black long-furred molly with blue eyes. Longest lived leader of the City Cats, famous for her honesty and honor.
Merchants
Cade - Hairless cat with pale yellow eyes. Mall merchant, sells herbs.
Members
Cross - Brown tom with grey-green eyes. Claws-for-hire, good friends with Audrey.
Isaiah - Brown and white tom with blue eyes.
The Dreamers
Ashamed in the part they played in Call of Dreams' ostracization, three cats agreed to atone for their actions by dedicating their lives to helping those who needed it. Over time they made a name for themselves for their selfless and virtuous actions, and others joined to help. The group named themselves after the cat who brought them all together, in her honor.
Founders
Song of Marigold - Beige and brown mackerel molly with violet eyes. The first and most vocal of Call of Dreamsā persecutors. Has been going after Dreams for months prior, and when she first spoke against her, the others began dog-piling. Feels no sympathy, but pretends anyways. Ex-Colony of Bones.
Ripple of Bramble - Torbie molly with green eyes. Openly accused Call of Dreams of falsifying prophecies for her own benefit. Ex-Colony of Fireflies.Ā
Valley of Apricot - Orange tom with bright green eyes. Openly reminded everyone of Call of Dreamsā past as a lawbreaker. Ex-Colony of Storm.
Members
Breeze of Dawn - Orange mackerel tom with dull green eyes. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dreamās kit. Hides his association with Call of Dreams despite loving her deeply, and fears everyone will look at him differently if they found out.
Ruby - Silver molly with dark grey markings and blue eyes. Extremely optimistic and bubbly, and passionate to learn about healing. Unfortunately for everyone (especially Dawn, who she likes), she sucks at medicine.
The Forgotten Colony
The Colony of Mist had two choices- flee, and lose their home they fought for so long for and lost so many to, or defend it and lose it all anyways. So, a third option was chosen: collapse the entrance to the caves, and live within the tunnels until the danger passed. As the tunnels collapsed, the Colony of Mist began their wait. With three years having gone by, hope dwindled, and the colony accepted that the world above was lost.
Commander
Commander of Ash - White and grey cat with pale yellow eyes.
Advisor
Voice of Dove - Grey tabby with green eyes.
Hunter Dennings
Blossom of Peach - White and orange molly with orange eyes.
Frost of Heather - Fluffy cream tabby tom with lilac eyes. Distant and cold, but friendly.
Echo of Sparrow - Cream and brown molly with brown eyes and white speckles.
Healer Dennings
Blur of Fennel - Brown tabby tom with a cream underbelly and green eyes. Short tempered and closed off, but extremely empathetic.
Stream Of Amber - White and orange mackerel molly with amber eyes. Selectively mute. Curious and reserved, likes to let Fennel talk for her.
Trainee Dennings
Outsiders
Call of Dreams - Tan and black molly with amber eyes. Also known as āthe Shining Oneā, she was suddenly contacted by the gods who warned her of the Final Light. When she tried to relay the message, she was shunned. She stole three kits and ran away right before the Final Light, saving their lives and raising them as her own. Ex-Colony of Bones.
Creek - Grey tom with a black collar and green eyes. Baileyās partner. He takes in and cares for whoever he finds, likely good friends with the Dreamers.
Bailey - Heavily scarred brown tabby molly with green eyes. Creekās partner. Has a rough past as a city cat, which she isn't particularly ashamed of.Ā
River - Short-haired blue molly with green eyes. Guards the river and helps cats across, especially when the river gets violent. Real name unknown.
Riddle of Raven - Long-haired black tom with white points and chest and orange eyes. Wears a necklace with fangs and claws as protection. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dreamās kit. Left to find out what happened to his parents.
#Feel free to ask about any of these guys!#Unfortunately theres still about 10 or so spaces I wanna fill here#and since (fun fact) almost all of these characters were abandoned OCs or adopts#its. slow going.#I've always loved the idea of giving old unwanted characters new life. IDK if thats. weird? They get a second shot at being loved :)#also note: 'partner' can mean anything from spouses to dating to QPP#Polarbear and Slate are something like QPPs for example#FOR THOSE CURIOUS BTW. 23% OF THESE FUCKERS ARE CALICOS OR TORTIES. GIRL HELP IM DROWNING IN WHITE BLACK AND ORANGE PATCHES#final light#wip#worldbuilding#writeblr#writing#neverlight era#the forgotten colony#ruin cats#followers of the lynx#the dreamers#colony of clickers#i am NOT tagging all the characters sorry
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i get so in my head about writing smut dude like every time i'm like THIS IS SO REPETITIVE THIS IS LIKE ALL THE OTHER SMUT IVE WRITTEN ITS ALL THE SAME
how do yall do it how do u persevere
#this is a cry for help#i want this easy easy easy chapter out before christmas but WE'LL FUCKING SEE i had a fun lil idea for a smutty scene and now im drowning#i'm trying to inspire something but reading my faves but nothing dude#but NOTHING#emily screams into the void
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I love how everybody has that specific trauma from those movies, but that's silly. It's these you should worry about! :3
#that article has haunted me for a while i need everyone else to suffer too#bc the one comfort is thinking that those deaths are silly and over the top#but no#i need you all to know someone REALLY died in a tanning bed#its. real#ask game which final destination death made you scared of an everyday object?#mine was escalators#humans are so fragile its stupid i hate it#i almost drowned under a boat at the age of 9 or 10#no oxygen for 2 minutes made me need help and almost pass out#two minutes#final destination is over the top but theres so many dumb ways to die#did you guys know brazilian showers are eletric?#so we never run out of hot water BUT we mix water and eletricity every day and somehow thats ok#sometimes we see little sparks while showering and just. keep going#im just saying if we made final destination someone would die like that#final destination#oh and nail guns. who thought that was a good idea
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