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★— creepypasta headcanons bcs I'm bored :3
made this with my bsf (he has no idea what creepypasta is)
TW!!! : mentions of alcohol, abuse, mentions of murder (ofc), smoking, organ eating (basically cannibalism), TELL ME IF I MISSED MORE !!
Jeff The Killer :
a bit abusive and possessive
ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGER ISSUES ANGERISSUES
his room is an absolute mess, a yellow stained matress, monster cans in the corner of his room n everything
absolutely REFUSES to buy a new knife, he thinks he doesn't need a new one
probably smells like gas
instead of him blinking (he can't because bro has no eyelids) he rolls is eyes back :3
Ben Drowned :
ABSOLUTELY FUCKING STINKS due to how he stays in his room all day
his computer is both fast and slow at the same time
only gets out of his room to eat (rarely eats since he's a ghost)
picks fights with jeff
had a invader zim phase
Ticci toby :
has a hard time sitting down lmao, he tried to sit properly but failed
his fingers are covered in bandages due to how he keeps biting his nails (i mean he can't feel pain so 🤷)
this man REEKS of marijuana and pine wood, no questions asked
he lets his anger out on killing people, which happens often
sharpens his hatchets once in a while :3
Eyeless Jack :
definitely smells like men's cologne or organs
he works out sometimes on weekends, I don't see how he doesn't
is a great cook but doesn't cook often, he prefers eating organs
his teeth are sharp, perfect for chewing organs :3
still good with first aid, patches up toby when his fingers bleed
note : i ran out of ideas lmao, anwyays first post !! ALL OF THESE ARE OOC(?) but happy advanced new year!! :33
#creepypasta#creepypasta headcanon#i ran out of ideas#hcs#lmao#:3#jeff the killer#jeff the killer headcanons#eyeless jack#eyeless jack headcanon#ticci toby#tobias erin rogers#ticci toby headcanons#ben drowned#ben drowned headcanons#i need to piss#im out of ideas#help#i feel silly#ooc#ooc post#first post
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Stareater might be on a lil pause whilst I catch up with uni work
But when I do pick it up again it's very close to being done ..so HM ..I'm not worried about this becoming a month long hiatus like last time :)
#stareater au#yipppppppeee#i had a very very roung day today relating to uni#so i feelllll real drained#exspecilay after yhe idea of having to pause stareater once again#but its okay ...im confident in how its going#im also debating starting liek a team of ppl who might eanna help out and work on thsi au#whether that be art or writing or whatever#im a lil drowned in work and i think its time i ask help a lil#cos the last thing i wanna do is abandon the au
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#Reds such a unique and sad character to me#No matter what he does he is in a loop somehow. both actually and mentally.#He wants change - but he's afraid of it - But he NEEDS it - but its too scary.#He wants to be normal - But normal is boring - But its safe.#Too weird for people - too normal for freaks.#He Likes those two - But getting attached hurts. - But he truly does love them - But what if hes the issue? what is HE hurts them.#and thats why i think transport was such a big turning point. because he does hurt them#He tries his best and does what he thinks will be best.#him being alone so he issnt an “Issue”#And them being happy and healthy in a place where thier needs are met. and they dont have to be scared anymore.#but he fails and he hurts them.#His torture here is feeling helpless and whenever he tries it fails to the point he feels awful.#He has such complex and battling emotions they loop in his head over and over. too the point he cant do anything#thus making him a neutral character.#But neutral issnt a Good thing#Yes he doesnt hurt anything. But he doesnt help or comfort either#He is in a loop inside and out.#Hes drowning.#SIIIGHH sometimes it hurts understanding him /hj. (i know theres like a gigillion ways to interpret him lmao.}#im actuly kinda sad i havent seen anyone else have the idea of him being torn apart inside and anxious tho.#or that he sees himself as a big monster. maybe even due to him leaveing before (trying to help but failing again)#or that hes easy to manipulate. thus creating danger for the other two.#But im just yapping and making a comic based on my thoughts :]#(as ive been a lil mentally ill about string man lately.#dhmis#dhmis red guy#dhmis fanart#dhmis comic#dont hug me im scared
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I'd like to know why you are all alone while I'm lost at sea /
Maybe we'll be there when you want
#bella#fc!bella#lc ocs#art#this is from reinhardt's (branch-wdk53) pov! you cant escape him in my art. i cant escape him#link leads to stranded lullaby - the lyrics are also from there :3#this is around rein's fears about bella being like ryn but is also about the extraction interaction (still love that name)#honestly every piece of this has. so many meanings like. god#let me just redo all this and go through them one by one lmao#the sea: this one's about them being in the same situation. also their issues (the sea will slowly rise; obscuring and drowning them)#it's also about guilt - it can be a blood ocean! the blood of those they let die...#OOOH I JUST NOTICED THIS: bloodbath! since it's a blood sea :3#the halos: the inner one is halfway just for composition half bc rein sees bella as a good person. the outer (hard to see but) tear-shaped#halo is both a drop in the sea (me when the blood sea! when we've let so many die it no longer matters.) and a noose's opening -#like foos's but metaphorically(? lmao) bella's own suicide by distancing herself from her friends and therefore her help/support system#the black spots: represents rein losing her in a way. he knows what's happening but has no idea how to help. also tied in with his#amnesia/memory loss (totally covered; lost info; yknow). could even be from pain or drowning in the sea! who knows! :3c#...........yeah im normal about these two. you can trust me.#i need to make a bella/ritz piece istg... ive been sleeping on them!!!!!!!!#but. i love these two so much. total of 2 interactions and i made the MOST out of them <3#also since im naming all these now since i gotta save them to post em: this one is called lost
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using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like it’s so. i don’t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much it’s own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i don’t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and it’s like. cmon. wouldn’t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like i’m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isn’t within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesn’t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place i’m in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think it’s making this worse. especially because it’s henry’s dad’s local#and where henry’s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. it’s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and it’s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i haven’t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadn’t come back i’d be in a normal mental state#by now. that’s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i don’t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like it’s not even worth the effort because it’s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i can’t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and it’s so exhausting and i can’t sleep and there’s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#i’ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
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kandi stimboard !!
requested by: me :))
🌈 / 👑 / 🌈
👑 / 🌈 / 👑
🌈 / 👑 / 🌈
#ive made sm kandi#help im drowning in it#kandi#kandi patterns#kandi cuff#kandi beads#kandi raver#kandi ideas#kandi kid#kandi stim#stim#stimboard#stimmy#visual stim#stimblr#stim gifs#rainbow stim#stim gif#stimmies#stimulation#stim blog#stim stuff#stim stim stim#good stims#visual stims
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part of me wants do stupid shit
gotta admit I'm hypocrite
I like it way better than being on the side of it
I'm a psycho l.o.ving it =)
time of my life
we're all just just skeletons
just joining the fight
joining the FIGHT
this song describes more of player's personality.
"I'm a psycho, loving it" just shrug it off because it's a game to them.
"I'd kill for a life that ain't boring. I'm lot's of things but not sorry."
this ISN'T sans. this part is for the human! sans does regret his actions. and maybe so does the human but they're not going to let those emotional attachments cloud their obsessed perfectionism.
this makes a perfect duet seriously.
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Anyone else feeling strangled by the grief of knowing they'll never make everything they want to due to the constraints of time and the human body lately?
#havijg an incrscibly normal day today#constantly feeling crushed by the never ending onslaught of ideas how does everyone else cope with this I always feel like im drowning#need to get faster and better immediately but the problem is I have to start slow and bad you understand#NEED to do more real practice#also think that burn out and fatigue playing tennis with my psyche for the past six years is probably not helping#wait actually that reminded me I have to make another appointment today thabks tumblr tags for remidninf me#I AM okay just stressed and tired hope everyone else is okay also#and if not I hope you feel okay soon then#sunny with clouds
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Listen dear, and listen close If you want a show, I'll be your host ♬
#📼 . occ#im still writting stuff#muse hit so hard its 4 am send help#THIS SONG POPPED UP IN MY PLAYLIST AAAAH#just wanted to let ya all know i love my threads / ideas i share with all of ya#thank you so much brrrrrr#on the side note i might not get more threads from now lol#otherwise i will drown#I STILL WROTE ALL WHO I ALREADY OWE SOMETHING SO DONT WORRY
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Understanding the scene of Ted putting the tie on Mike (Mike commenting on how it's too tight and it's choking him and Ted saying that's how it's supposed to be) in a very Mike-Ted parallels way. AND IT WAS ON FRONT OF A MIRROR TOO. Shrimp colors everywhere.
#im so sorry for being this way truly i cannot help it. the vicious cycles get me. im seeing the light#bc personally i dont see it as simply about heteronormativity. i mean its a part of it#but its framed as like. ted is choking mike with heterosexuality! and while that is true to an extent they have ted say thats how its#supposed TO BE for a reason! clothing is something ppl put on themselves. putting on your tie too tight- choking yourself its not just#sexuality its about control. controlling your image. controlling yourself#the religious themes of s4 wasnt just a recent feature. the idea of repression (emotional/sexual/physical) goes all the way back to s1#the concept of keeping such a tight control over yourself (ie 'choking' yourself and enforcing it on your children) falls in line with#religious trauma. constantly being watched not only by authority but god. repressing/choking yourself so you dont step out of line#and again its on front of the mirror. like idk mike-ted parallels arent popular in this fandom but take it up with the duffers#i didnt put them in there they did!!!#like the idea of being so repressed and being in a constant state of controlling oneself to toe the line not only falls in line with a lack#of pov (which they intentionally take away from mike and intentionally never give to ted)#but also mikes possible ED which again is about control! these are all metaphors for controlling oneself to a harmful extent!#one day ppl will appreciate mike ted parallels beyond 'ted hates mike for being gay' but alas today is not that day and it wont stop me#also 'try new things' being about coming out of your comfort zone! mike trying the pinapple pizza and ted going on the ferris wheel#not tightly controlling yourself to the point you make yourself miserable#blasts runs in the family drowning out literally everything else#its all religious trauma? always have been
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so, who else has like 5 different projects laying around their room, in open boxes or on the desk but clearly visible to anyone who sees your room, or is it just me?
#help im drowning in projects#i have too many ideas#and not enough time#or space#or money#aaaaaa#and then i start one#but then it sits there when something else comes up#help its a *problem*#196#r/196#/r/196#shitpost#transfem#trans#queer#:3#rule
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me, scrambling to try and catch up as best as i can with little train man things while also drawing/writing self-indulgent things:
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Final Light Allegiances
LONG POST AHEAD!!!
This is all characters thus far! Everyone here has a design, and majority have backgrounds or personalities. Feel free to reference this post whenever someone gets mentioned to learn a bit more about them, I will update this as needed. ???s are characters who exist but have no design, name, or personality yet.
All images and art of these characters can be found here, with short bios.
Colony of Clickers
A group of cats who, under their commander's guidance, were able to 'tame' the clicking ones and control them. They are the only colony to be successful post-Final Light, and are even allowed to roam during the day within their settlement thanks to the protection of the clicking ones.
Commander
Voice of Snow - Black tom with white speckles and blue eyes. The first cat to successfully rebuild a colony, but failed the Seasonal Trials. Ex-Colony of Fireflies.
Advisor
N/A - Voice of Snow, oddly, has refused to appoint an advisor. While nothing enforces this, many are unhappy about this decision.
Hunter Denning
Diesel - Ashen-colored tom with pale blue eyes. Shade of Maple’s partner. Huge flirt, openly poly, loves his boyfriend.
Shade of Maple - Calico tom with several scars. Diesel’s partner, ex-Colony of Bones.
Guard Denning
Wing of Hawk - Tortie tom with a short tail and large brown eyes. His epithet is “Talon of Hawk”. Ex-Colony of Mist, last known surviving member.
Winnie - White and orange molly with green eyes. Ex-Colony of Storm, Winter Paw.
Healer Denning
Arrow - Calico molly with blue and orange eyes. Stressed over the lack of healers in the colony, often works alongside the Dreamers. Ex-Colony of Storm.
Trainee Denning
Cypress - Silver molly with spotted tabby markings. Excitable and curious.
Student of Maple - Brown tabby tom with amber eyes and a red marking on his chest.
Followers of the Lynx
A remnant of the colonies of old, the Followers were and still are the protectors of the Lynx's artifact- one of the four artifacts a cat needs to become a colony's commander. They still accept challengers even now, the whole colony voting to determine if a cat is worthy of leadership. Ever since the Final Light, no cat has gotten a majority vote.
Leaders
Polarbear - Large white tom with tan spots and green/blue eyes. Leader by election, Slate’s partner. Secretly manipulating the Followers to prevent the Lynx’s artifact from ‘getting into the wrong hands’. Unfortunately, by his definition, any hands are the wrong hands. Killed Maia, an orange tabby who was a member of the Followers, in order to keep this secret.
Slate - Calico tom with green eyes and missing tail. Leader by blood, Polarbear’s partner. Aware of Polarbear’s crimes but chooses to stay silent in order to keep his only friend alive.
Members
Pumpkin - Brown and white molly with copper eyes. Has a collar with a pumpkin name tag. Previously a house pet, found and trained by Polarbear.
Heart of Ember - Tortie molly with green eyes. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dream’s kit.
Ruin/City Cats
Less of a 'faction' and more of a vague group, the City Cats (or as they're more recently known as, the Ruin Cats) survived through sheer numbers alone, and continued on with life as if nothing had changed. Hundreds of cats still roam the streets, gather at the abandoned mall in massive groups, and trade and sell their goods. The only change seems to be the camaraderie many cats now feel for their neighbors- the sudden deaths of so many uncovering something lost buried in many.
Leader
Audrey - Black long-furred molly with blue eyes. Longest lived leader of the City Cats, famous for her honesty and honor.
Merchants
Cade - Hairless cat with pale yellow eyes. Mall merchant, sells herbs.
Members
Cross - Brown tom with grey-green eyes. Claws-for-hire, good friends with Audrey.
Isaiah - Brown and white tom with blue eyes.
The Dreamers
Ashamed in the part they played in Call of Dreams' ostracization, three cats agreed to atone for their actions by dedicating their lives to helping those who needed it. Over time they made a name for themselves for their selfless and virtuous actions, and others joined to help. The group named themselves after the cat who brought them all together, in her honor.
Founders
Song of Marigold - Beige and brown mackerel molly with violet eyes. The first and most vocal of Call of Dreams’ persecutors. Has been going after Dreams for months prior, and when she first spoke against her, the others began dog-piling. Feels no sympathy, but pretends anyways. Ex-Colony of Bones.
Ripple of Bramble - Torbie molly with green eyes. Openly accused Call of Dreams of falsifying prophecies for her own benefit. Ex-Colony of Fireflies.
Valley of Apricot - Orange tom with bright green eyes. Openly reminded everyone of Call of Dreams’ past as a lawbreaker. Ex-Colony of Storm.
Members
Breeze of Dawn - Orange mackerel tom with dull green eyes. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dream’s kit. Hides his association with Call of Dreams despite loving her deeply, and fears everyone will look at him differently if they found out.
Ruby - Silver molly with dark grey markings and blue eyes. Extremely optimistic and bubbly, and passionate to learn about healing. Unfortunately for everyone (especially Dawn, who she likes), she sucks at medicine.
The Forgotten Colony
The Colony of Mist had two choices- flee, and lose their home they fought for so long for and lost so many to, or defend it and lose it all anyways. So, a third option was chosen: collapse the entrance to the caves, and live within the tunnels until the danger passed. As the tunnels collapsed, the Colony of Mist began their wait. With three years having gone by, hope dwindled, and the colony accepted that the world above was lost.
Commander
Commander of Ash - White and grey cat with pale yellow eyes.
Advisor
Voice of Dove - Grey tabby with green eyes.
Hunter Dennings
Blossom of Peach - White and orange molly with orange eyes.
Frost of Heather - Fluffy cream tabby tom with lilac eyes. Distant and cold, but friendly.
Echo of Sparrow - Cream and brown molly with brown eyes and white speckles.
Healer Dennings
Blur of Fennel - Brown tabby tom with a cream underbelly and green eyes. Short tempered and closed off, but extremely empathetic.
Stream Of Amber - White and orange mackerel molly with amber eyes. Selectively mute. Curious and reserved, likes to let Fennel talk for her.
Trainee Dennings
Outsiders
Call of Dreams - Tan and black molly with amber eyes. Also known as ‘the Shining One’, she was suddenly contacted by the gods who warned her of the Final Light. When she tried to relay the message, she was shunned. She stole three kits and ran away right before the Final Light, saving their lives and raising them as her own. Ex-Colony of Bones.
Creek - Grey tom with a black collar and green eyes. Bailey’s partner. He takes in and cares for whoever he finds, likely good friends with the Dreamers.
Bailey - Heavily scarred brown tabby molly with green eyes. Creek’s partner. Has a rough past as a city cat, which she isn't particularly ashamed of.
River - Short-haired blue molly with green eyes. Guards the river and helps cats across, especially when the river gets violent. Real name unknown.
Riddle of Raven - Long-haired black tom with white points and chest and orange eyes. Wears a necklace with fangs and claws as protection. Ex-Colony of Bones, Call of Dream’s kit. Left to find out what happened to his parents.
#Feel free to ask about any of these guys!#Unfortunately theres still about 10 or so spaces I wanna fill here#and since (fun fact) almost all of these characters were abandoned OCs or adopts#its. slow going.#I've always loved the idea of giving old unwanted characters new life. IDK if thats. weird? They get a second shot at being loved :)#also note: 'partner' can mean anything from spouses to dating to QPP#Polarbear and Slate are something like QPPs for example#FOR THOSE CURIOUS BTW. 23% OF THESE FUCKERS ARE CALICOS OR TORTIES. GIRL HELP IM DROWNING IN WHITE BLACK AND ORANGE PATCHES#final light#wip#worldbuilding#writeblr#writing#neverlight era#the forgotten colony#ruin cats#followers of the lynx#the dreamers#colony of clickers#i am NOT tagging all the characters sorry
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i get so in my head about writing smut dude like every time i'm like THIS IS SO REPETITIVE THIS IS LIKE ALL THE OTHER SMUT IVE WRITTEN ITS ALL THE SAME
how do yall do it how do u persevere
#this is a cry for help#i want this easy easy easy chapter out before christmas but WE'LL FUCKING SEE i had a fun lil idea for a smutty scene and now im drowning#i'm trying to inspire something but reading my faves but nothing dude#but NOTHING#emily screams into the void
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I love how everybody has that specific trauma from those movies, but that's silly. It's these you should worry about! :3
#that article has haunted me for a while i need everyone else to suffer too#bc the one comfort is thinking that those deaths are silly and over the top#but no#i need you all to know someone REALLY died in a tanning bed#its. real#ask game which final destination death made you scared of an everyday object?#mine was escalators#humans are so fragile its stupid i hate it#i almost drowned under a boat at the age of 9 or 10#no oxygen for 2 minutes made me need help and almost pass out#two minutes#final destination is over the top but theres so many dumb ways to die#did you guys know brazilian showers are eletric?#so we never run out of hot water BUT we mix water and eletricity every day and somehow thats ok#sometimes we see little sparks while showering and just. keep going#im just saying if we made final destination someone would die like that#final destination#oh and nail guns. who thought that was a good idea
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Running Low on Smick
Children have always needed the standard things to survive into adulthood: food, shelter, water, love... But, for the last few centuries, children have started needing another thing: Smick.
Smick isn't something found in nature, it's manmade. Since smick was discovered and became widespread, we have evolved to need it. If children don't get enough smick, they will never make it to adulthood. They will wither away into husks, unable to interact with the world or anyone else before disappearing entirely.
So, where does smick come from? Well, long ago we developed a procedure that helps smick grow inside adult bodies. Once each week, it can be harvested and dispersed to the children who need it.
This procedure isn't free. It costs thousands of dollars and takes multiple years of specialty diets, training, and conditioning before the body can successfully create smick good enough for children to consume. But once your smick is quality enough, you'll be paid for each harvest! Think of all the children you're saving with your sacrifice.
Each smick donor signs a yearly contract. This is such an important job -- it keeps our children alive! -- that if you back out of the contract early, you will have to pay a hefty fine to help cover the losses. We're sure you can at least stick it out to the end of the year, right? And, actually, the first year is the hardest for everyone, so you really can't tell if you should stop donating smick until year 5, at least!
The harvesting process is a tad invasive and happens once each week. The doctors will take a sharp rod and insert it three inches to the right of your sternum, which will slowly draw out the smick. The first few times are rather painful and no anesthesia can be used or risk contaminating the smick. It's okay if you scream, we all expect that from new donors. After the first few times, you will start getting used to the pain. Your wound will start healing in a new shape to accommodate the weekly reopening.
Even as you get used to it, the recovery process still takes plenty of time and resources. If you want your bandages and disinfection supplies to be covered, you'll have to fill out these forms. Oh, and the approval process takes at least three weeks. No, we can only approve the materials for one surgery at a time. Yes, we agree it would be easier to purchase your own materials. What an excellent idea!
You do get paid for the harvesting, like we said before. Thank you for being so kindhearted and taking this difficult job. Here's your payment! What? You were expecting more? Well, we thought it would only be fair to give you this much because of how much free time you get from having this job. I mean, one hour of surgery every week and that's it! A lot of people wish they could have time off like that. Oh, and don't forget always having holidays off, that's pretty generous!
You do have to be prepared for the surgeries, though. Did you complete the 24 hour fast? Did you make sure you exercised at least 3 hours each day this week? Did you stick to your prescribed diet?
Oh, and yes, the recovery period does take time. No, we can't reschedule the harvest. It happens every week. I suppose you can push it off a day or so, but we'll be keeping track of how many times you do that. Too many times and we'll start docking your pay.
You're experiencing fatigue, depression, and feelings of isolation? That's normal! Don't worry, it gets better over time. Just be patient.
You're thinking about the harvests all the time? You feel like you can't relax because you know there's always another harvest coming? Well, that just means you care so much! You're doing a great job, thanks for being prepared.
I don't see why you're complaining. You get the chance to save the children! To keep our world running and safe! Who cares if some doctors are cruel? If the children -- the ones you give so much of yourself to help -- laugh at your gaunt face or tease each other about becoming smick donors?
There's people out there who can help you! Just tell them how they can help. They're waiting, all you have to do is speak up. What? You're too overwhelmed? Well, that's why you should ask for help, silly! Add asking for help to your schedule. Create a list of things people can do for you. Also pencil in some time to feel guilty for needing help in the first place.
You're so kindhearted! So loving! So caring! So resilient! Thank you for saving our children. As a reward, here's a few pieces of candy and a certificate we printed for you. Keep up the great work!
#first year teacher#feeling bitter#im so tired#took a mental health day and now i feel like im drowning again#i want to help kids learn#but there's just so much to do all of the time#i feel like half a person#parent teacher conferences are coming up#i feel like i'm going to explode#burning out like a dying star#burnout#there's so much more i could've said#like how schools aren't even set up to help students learn well#or how teachers have to fill so many toles that aren't just teaching the kids#therapist. accountability warden. conflict specialist. heck even lunch and recess duty feels like too much on top of everything else#or how nonteachers make teaching your whole identity#it makes me indescribably upset when my friends laugh at me using certain words or dressing a certain way “because I'm a teacher”#but they're actually things I've always said and worn?#i like the idea of this job#i like being able to help kids learn#ask questions about the world they live in#figure out this “life” thing#at the same time feeling underappreciated or disrespected or overwhelmed everyday is doing bad things to my brain chemistry#things need to change but i don't know how to make them#a tip original
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