#im deleting this later i feel like shit

[captainmaxatx]

Omega! Logan who was born in the 1800s when secondary gender roles were very prevalent but it actually really suited him and he wanted to be a home maker and have a bunch of pups but he was always too big and hairy and and not seen as a good Omega. Alphas would sleep with him but never treat him the way they would a “proper” omega and they didn’t ever want anything serious because it’s like almost shameful to have a big hairy omega.

Then times change and Omegas start breaking out of the cookie cutter roles and they go into the work force and what not (feminism but it’s omegas) and Logan is very happy for them he thinks they all deserve the right to choose, but still no one wants him. And everyone expects him being an omega with the way he looks to be at the forefront of the movement to want the change for himself, but he doesn’t.

And over the years he toughened up and stops looking to start a family and put his dreams on the back burner to become what everyone expected of him.

And then everything happens and all the sudden Logan finds himself in a universe without secondary genders, where he isn’t a too big and hairy omega, he’s just some guy.

And unintentionally he finds his way into the role he’s always craved, where he takes care of the home and the dog while Wade makes the money, and it’s the closest he’s ever been to the life he wanted. He mostly retires from fighting and heroing, but now he’s ready for a new challenge. And being near Laura has only served to dig up that old desire and instinct he tried to bury so long ago

And I mean, even if the mutant hate wasn’t as bad as it is in Logan’s old world there was still a time here not to long ago when mutants were ran out and scattered around the world. And now with the people at Xavier’s working on getting the Mutants back into the city trying to re group with their still dwindling numbers. I mean Logan and Wade should help with the mutant re population efforts, who better to do that then two very eager immortals who can heal from anything and with a whole gang of friends around them for free child care.

[gremlinwithapen]

tw: crying, ostracized whumpee, (redeemed) villain whumpee, don't look too far into it I made this in a couple of hours to get the emotions from something unrelated out

"I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean it!" Villain sobbed as she stared fearfully up at Hero, arms clasped tightly around her sides. "I-It was supposed to be a joke! I don't even watch those kind of movies…"

"Hey, hey, whoa," Hero raised their hands as they stepped into the room, trying to get a word in among the younger super's cacophony of emotion. "Slow down. What happened?"

"I-I was just talking with everyone, and e-everything was fine. I s-said something a-about a couple of civilians I w-was helping being fr-frustrating, a-and I joked a-about 'horror movie monster' on th-them," Villain whined, shaking softly. "Y-You know, weird s-superpowers a-and all. I-I don't know, I j-just blurted it out, and then they were all staring at me, a-and I saw one of th-them reach for a w-weapon-" "Th-they thought I was g-going to hurt them, Hero," her voice dropped to a whisper. "E-even after everything I've d-done, all th-the work I've b-been doing to be g-good, they thought I w-was going to hurt them."

"Oh, Villain," Hero murmured as they crouched down to be on her level, still a foot or two away to give her some space if she needed it. "I… Well, I'm not sure what they were thinking. But what I am sure of is that you aren't going to harm anyone here anytime soon. You've been trying your absolute hardest after everything Supervillain did to you, and you're doing amazing."

"B-But aren't you g-going to do something? W-What if I w-was going to d-do all that? Shouldn't you t-take my powers, j-just in case?"

"What? Villain, I'm not going to take anything from you. You just made a mistake, okay? We all say stupid things sometimes, and you didn't deserve to be treated like that after one throwaway line," they said, reaching out to lightly grasp her shoulder. She flinched momentarily but didn't pull away, even leaning into it a little. "All I need you to do right now is to learn from this and to not let it keep you down. You're a wonderful person, inside and out, and we're both gonna keep fighting to make everyone see that. Take as much time as you need to pull everything back together, but then I want you back up and doing your thing."

Villain didn't answer, but Hero knew that deep down, their words had gotten through. They stood up again, brushing their hair out of their face.

"Do you want something to eat, bud? You've been in here since this morning," they smiled, holding out a hand for her to grab if she wanted it. "I think the cafeteria's already closed, but I've got some emergency snacks back at the lab."

She seemed to pause for a moment, a numb fog of exhaustion creeping onto her features as her overclocked emotions finally ran out of steam. She nodded weakly as she grasped their outstretched hand, staggering to her feet.

"There we go. Let's get you somewhere a little comfier than an old supply closet, and we can figure it out from there," they said as they guided her along through the now empty halls.

"Thank you," she whispered as she stared off into the middle distance, her voice raspy from crying. Hero could tell they had a long way to go, but they knew it was worth it. It would always be worth it.

"Don't mention it," was all they said back.

[pimento-playing-hopscotch]

Writing my new fic like…

[kiwibirdlafayette]

i was told once that sometimes i have trouble fittin in with other fancontent makers because im seen as a “threat” (whatever that means) but trust me when i say i am not here to compete with yall. Zero interest in fact. i dont think fandom is meant to be a game of who can be the ‘best’ fan and im here to just yknow. contribute to a community :]

If it seems like Im loud and sometimes pushy about people seein my stuff its because im passionate about and proud of a with what ive made and i want to share with the other people who are also enjoyers of that thing!!

[alaskan-wallflower]

sometimes i wish my brother and i got along better.

we were pitted against each other a lot as kids. it was always ‘your brother does this so why don’t you’. he was always smarter. braver. better. and it made me resent him.

i guess it’s my own fault. i’m the one who hated him. i’m the one who pushed myself to be better. i’m the one who made sure my schedule was packed full of classes t that even he couldn’t bear and all in the case that i wanted to be better. that’s all i wanted. i was selfish. i was arrogant and i saw our relationship as a competition and the only thing that came of it was that i resented him. i resented him for going to a prestigious school. i resented him for being better. and i’m the one who tore our relationship.

maybe i am just worthless. sometimes i wonder if my brother really is more important than me. he probably is. he’ll be something. i won’t. all my teachers told me he was gonna be president and what was i going to be?

i lied to everyone. i lied to my therapist and told the, that me and my brother were inseparable because that was what i wanted. i wanted a relationship that was unbreakable while the only one who was breaking it was me and my resentment.

i think he’d be better without me. maybe he’s glad he’s going to college because he can get away from me. i want to get away from me.

i’ve been told all my life that he’s smarter than me. hell, my own mom told me this morning that my brother is more approachable than me because ‘he would make friends no matter what room he went into. you’d hide in a corner away from everyone’. and i’d be damn pressed to say that didn’t hurt like hell. maybe i’m being sensitive.

i want to hurt. i keep thinking about relapsing or trying to restrict eating since it’s the only way i feel secure and like im in control.

i know no one would miss me. i’m useless. i’m worthless. maybe my dad would miss me but that’s it. sometimes he’s the only one i stay alive for. but im too much of a coward to do anything. i’m too much of a coward.

this is all my fault. i hate myself. i can’t do anything right and i wish that i could jist end it all because i don’t want to be here anymore. and i know my parents aren’t gonna be as sad when i leave. they’ve sung my brothers praises all summer-he’ll, they had a fucking wall dedicated to him and they kept telling me that this year wasn’t gonna be abiut me which i get cause he’s going away, but i know when i go away it’s not gonna be anywhere near the same. because im not smart or good enough. im just a coward who can’t even carry through her even more cowardly ideations. and that’s all ill ever be.

please don’t worry too much. i’m not going to do anything. i’m just going through a lot of mental hell. i don’t want to keep venting because i feel bad so please ignore this. i just needed to write it down.

[3-aem]

thinking about my exit interview that was super informal but at one point i was like okay i will say something positive about the team and my ex manager was like okay

and then we both sat there in silence for a solid minute

[greghatecrimes]

spiritually banging my head against a wall. every time i start having respiratory/throat/chest symptoms from my mcas, I immediately flash back to all the times I've had anaphylaxis and get terrible anxiety. Survival mechanism, yes. But also... I am not having fun and I have not had full blown anaphylaxis since the early days of post mold exposure. so like. let's take a deep breath and calm down, body

[skunkes]

abt to say smthng deranged

but ive reverted to accepting my fate here especially since im really really lazy and stupid and just want to draw but the only sharp thing still poking at my sides is wanting to transition and how I know as soon as my birthday rolls around I'll wish I had done anything to get out and start that, while sobbing hysterically over how the years just keep passing me by in that regard. 14 years. 15 years. And many many more.

But at the same time its like. I wouldnt want to claw my way out solely to transition (which at this point would be the sole positive thing about leaving). Because whats the point. I want to be transitioned before I really look for or accept love, yes, but moving out and doing so wouldn't lead to that I dont think. Id be living the same life im living here, but Worse and more exhausting. So i also dont see the worth in fighting to do it.

I feel those 2 views are at odds, but, like, its never enough to do things just for myself even if I really need it. It always has to be in relation to someone else. There would not be a someone else so why bother. Im not finding love while I live here so it doesn't Really matter if i cant do it, but this wouldnt change if i left so why would I fight for it. Why be the true version of me if I have nobody to share Me with (especially considering it will ostracize me from most everyone else I love.) I dont know

[rgbwings]

I'm sorry for the lack of activity damnn it!!!1

i don't know if people really care about what's goin on with me (because I'm at this point where I really can't believe what people tell me when comes to their emotions) but I'm getting worse.

I can't touch this site without feeling people hate me

[potatobugz]

*leans against door seductively* does anyone have any tips on what to do when its hard + uncomfortable to breathe and ur heart is beating faster than normal to the point where its hard to focus on anything else

[hishoukoku]

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[biblicalhorror]

God I know everyone is celebrating right now because trump looks like an idiot and Harris easily wiped the floor with him but. I can't help but feel defeated by the things she was actually saying. Not even a platitude about climate action being important. No mentions of the recent shootings, just affirming her own personal gun ownership. Continued insistence on the US having "the most lethal military in the world" and reaffirming Israel's "right to defend itself."

Like. This debate was Establishment Republican vs. Delusional Republican. I know what's at stake right now, and I don't think we have anywhere near enough time to mobilize behind any kind of third party solution, so I will be voting for her when the time comes, but it just feels so bleak.

[orangechickenpillow]

I think regardless of whether or not this is a bad idea, or the fact that watcher needs funds to create these shows (which is real and valid), whether this works out for them or not, ultimately, this change is going to result in the loss of community.

Let's be so real: people are going to record their new stuff and post it on youtube, or other piracy sites. That's just a fact. People do it with netflix, they do it with hulu and apple tv and movies, etc. etc. People are going to find ways to watch watcher's shows without paying for them. But, if I were to go and watch the next season of ghost files on a piracy site (cannot believe I just made that sentence, btw), the thing is, I'm not going to come and post about it here on tumblr. When the previous seasons dropped, I was making posts while I was watching, just of my thoughts and stuff -- and I was liking other people's posts they were making while they were watching. And it was a great time of us all reacting to the episode. But now, if people are able to find the content for free, there's not going to be any of that. We'll watch it, and maybe we'll be able to enjoy it despite all of this, but even if we post about it, it's not going to feel like a community anymore because so many people will be out of the loop. So many people won't know what's going on, or what we're talking about, because they weren't able to watch it. Even if you take out the piracy aspect, that's what you're going to have. The fandom (or, unfortunately, what's left of it, if we're being real) will turn into People Who Have The Subscription and People Who Don't.

This is so long and dramatic, and I've got things to do today that don't revolve around internet shows, but even so: I feel like we have the right to vent our feelings and then move on however we see fit, so that's what I'm gonna do. Last thing I'll say (for now at least lol) is that I understand why watcher is doing this, I understand that raising enough funds to do what you want is hard, I understand that above all they are a company that wants to do ambitious things and will need the money to do so. That being said, this has created a shitty situation for a lot of people who have been watching their content for 9 plus years (because really, the watcher shows were an extension of their buzzfeed shows) for free and are now being faced with a "pay or don't watch at all" ultimatum. So, I get why they did it, and I get why people are upset.

[pawbeanies]

today is my one year anniversary at my current job !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which means its pretty much my one year anniversary of getting DUMPED and LEFT

[limbel]

nice! a customer said something so awful to me today that i spent 10 minutes crying in the bathroom

[mattmonss]

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