#im crying???

[nerd-space]

Oh ok then! thats. 😭

[fallen5t4r]

Mary Macdonald was considered slightly odd by her neighbours, they didn’t mean to disrespect but it was just little things about her that added up to create a confusing and patchy puzzle of her life. Every memory and story of her childhood she would begin to recall with confidence was shortly followed by quick backtracking and over explaining, until it seemed even she was at a dead end in her own mind. “I had a best friend you know, and she was wonderful one time we… I mean he and I… There was a group of us…” She would stare. Stare into nothingness, until the person she was speaking to changed the subject and she slowly came back, but she would keep the same look that she was still deep in thought, like she wasn’t really there, like her heart wasn’t really there. It’s hard when your own mind is going against what your soul knows to be true.

[mayowayo]

FUCK I MISSED THE START OF MITSUKOU WEEK???

[greyscalemoon]

COULD IT BE ENOUGH TO JUST FLOAT IN UR ORBIT????? CAN WE WATCH OUR PHANTOMS LIKE WATCHING WILD HORSES???

[crapimgay]

I just finished Inside Job

Nobody told me it was going to make me cry? The last episode was actually devastating and I will never watch it again in my life.

[biblicallyaccurateloaf]

What the fuck. Just finished tbi. What the fuck.

[deathblossomed]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 & 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐒

@thuganomxcs : will you marry me ? Making Demands

WHAT? Botan's so startled she chokes on her own tongue, immediately freezing, eyes locked on Yusuke. He's asking her to marry him... And he says it so casually, no ceremony, just a simple question. But he's blushing, rubbing his ear the way he does when he's embarrassed. But there's something earnest in his eyes, determined. And, ah, she shouldn't be so surprised. They've talked about spending their lives together, he's mentioned having kids, he's mentioned staying together after death. She tells him she loves him every chance she gets and feels incomplete when they're apart. They've even joked about marriage before.

But still, to hear him say it, to really, truly ask. She doesn't know what to do, what to say. And while she remains speechless, her eyes have started to water, her cheeks turning pink. She feels warm all over and slightly like she's going to pass out. And while she's searching for the words, her body moves on it's own. She's lunging forward, arms around Yusuke's neck with enough force to knock him over while she crashes her mouth into his.

She kisses him because it makes the most sense, holding him tightly, landing atop him with her heart thudding so loud she's sure he can hear it. When she finally pulls back, she's breathless, tears streaking down her cheeks. She's trembling but smiling.

"Yes, yes, I love you," she trips over her words, a nervous giggling bubbling in her throat. "I want to, I think about it sometimes, ever since you mentioned that dream, actually. That I want to spend the rest of my life with you, that I can't imagine not being with you. I will, I want to, so much," she's chattering so quickly, before her mind has a chance to catch up.

But no, she needs to think, she needs to say everything she needs to. This is too important for her to fumble her way through. She gives him again to ground herself, kneeling over him with one hand on his cheek and the other threading through his hair. She takes a breath to steady herself, resting her forehead against his.

"But-- not right now, not yet." Immediately, her nerves quicken but she pushes through. "I'll marry you, I definitely will. I'm saying yes so listen to me," she insists, another kiss because she can't stop. "You're starting school and then you're going to start your own restaurant. And that's important. I want you to focus on that. Because you've worked so hard to get here and you deserve this chance more than anyone. And I'm so proud of you, every day, for doing it. I don't want anything to get in your way, even me. Not-- Not that I'm planning to, or anything but--" focus, Botan, focus.

"You're going to finish school first, and don't try to speed through or anything, you're going to do it right. And then we'll come back to Japan, back home. And we'll live together, I can live in Ningenkai, I don't mind. And when we're settled, when things are good and stable, we'll get married. We'll have a wedding with all our friends and family. You'll start your restaurant and when that is stable and working, we'll-- we'll start a family. All our own. Even if you decide to go off and become king of Makai, I'll still be yours. No matter what. That's what I want."

She stops to look into his eyes, still crying, still smiling. "I love you, Yusuke. More than anything. I've never felt happier than when you put your arms around me, or call me your girl. I want to be yours. Even after I bring your old, wrinkled soul across the river, for the last time, I'll follow you. I-- I might not be a good cook, and I can be a little ditzy sometimes and just-- a lot, but I'll do anything to make you happy. I love you, Urameshi Yusuke, I'll always love you."

[interplanet--janet]

WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCKDIFJRUAKS

[dayone-ish]

NAOMI BABY YOU LOOK AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[phoneticgrip]

ian and anthony reuniting to buy smosh in 2023 is an insane and good timeline moment

[darrysfav]

birthday cake that can sing or a narwhal that can shoot rainbows of its horn thingy

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN??? 😭😭😭

[cohendyke]

the photos app chose violence today (put landslide over a slideshow of pictures from the last time i was in nova scotia which was for my grandfathers funeral)

[stargirlrchive]

Hey just wanted to pop in and say thank you for the awesome work you give us. Just know it’s always okay to take your time and set a pace you know you will feel comfortable with . Many writers have been getting so much negativity lately and it pisses me off. So I’m very appreciative of you. Thank you. Have a good day. Lots of love ❤️

this made me so emo <3 thank you baby >:( I LOVE YOU SO BAD !

[blabberoo]

If Ford didn't got into the portal..

[deathblossomed]

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 & 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐒 ( @thuganomxcs. ) one muse comforts the other during an emotional breakdown. (I'll let you decide on who's sad but if it's Yusuke you have tons of scenarios regarding missing Genkai or seeing kids have fun with their dads and he's there...)

𝐈𝐓'𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑 since Genkai died. She passed away peacefully, no pain or illness. She knew it was coming, let everyone know so she could get in one final scolding. And by the end of the week, she was gone. The loss hit them all, with even Hiei coming to the funeral, 'to honor the loss of a respectable fighter' he says but everyone knows there's some softness in his heart after all the years of standing together. It wasn't a big ceremony, she told them to 'feed her body to the wolves for all she cares'. In the end, they had her cremated, her urn was lovely, painted like an ancient vase telling stories of a valiant warrior, someone to inspire legends. It sits in the temple, enshrined with incense and offerings, meticulously maintained.

And a year from that day, they all return, to honor her memory, to catch up for time lost when everyone split into different directions. They sit around the bonfire, toasting her name, drinking and laughing, telling stories to hold back the tears. Some people cry, Botan included, but the atmosphere is lively. Genkai would have beaten them all if she knew they were moping around her temple. Botan, who is always the center of a party, bubbly and smiling even with tears in her eyes, tries make sure everyone is comfortable. And as the sun sets, too many shots of sake deep in their veins, the atmosphere eases, the warmth of old friends beating even the fire pit between them.

Botan sits, watching everyone, laughing when Hiei and Kuwabara start bickering, clapping as Kurama throws a bundle of herbs in the fire that make it smell so warm and cozy, dancing with the girls when the radio hits a good song. But throughout it all, she's watching. Botan's an observer, as oblivious as she can be in conversation, her place has always been high in the sky looking down, watching people's lives go by. If she notices someone's having a bad time, she yearns to make it right.

And throughout the night, her gaze keeps flickering to Yusuke. Yusuke, who laughs and tells stories like the others, who arm wrestles Kuwabara and rustles Hiei's hair. Yusuke, who's eyes are far away, his body here but his mind sitting on a shelf above them like a ghost, like he'll vanish any minute. Botan keeps quiet about it, watching, knowing he'll be embarrassed if she calls it out publicly and she doesn't want to make it worse. Yusuke has always been the strong one, he cares deeply but privately. His heart is softer than he lets on. Instead, she just stays close, fills his cup, smiles at him, tells him Genkai would be proud of them all.

When the night grows late and the fire fades, everyone starts drifting to their rooms one by one. Until Botan's the last one, sitting alone in the dark. It's then that she spies Yusuke, sneaking out of his room and through the trees. Sure, she's nosy, but when she follows him, it's out of concern. She flies far behind him, to not make a sound, all the way out to the beach, where he sits in the sand, out of reach from the tide. She stays back, watching. There are tears falling down his cheeks and he's curled in on himself. And her heart just sinks.

Quietly, she walks after him. Botan takes a sit beside him, so close their touching. He tries to suck his emotions back in, scrubbing his face as if covering up a crime. She's seen him less concerned about being soaked in blood. She swats his hands away from his face. He doesn't need to hide with her. They sit silently for a minute before she breaks it.

"You know, when I was escorting Genkai, we got to talk a bit. People are often, reflective, when they've reached the final pathway. She didn't say much, tried to tell me that she already knew the way and could go alone. I think she let me come for my sake, not hers. But.. when we got to the door, she told me two things," she looked at Yusuke, pressing her shoulder to his, thigh against thigh. "One, that my eyes get puffy when I cry and I look ugly, so I should stop being so damn sensitive. And two... if I ever catch that idiot Yusuke, crying alone over her, I should kick his ass, so she doesn't have to come all the way back down to do it herself," she tries to mimic Genkai as best she can, but just ends up sounding cartoonish. "And since I wouldn't want to, you know, flatten you with my awesome combat prowess, I guess I'll just sit here. So you can cry and yell and do whatever you need to... without being alone. And if you try and run away from me, well, I guess we'll just have to fight," she smiles softly at him, bumping his shoulder, tears in her eyes now because even if she looks ugly, she hasn't learned to be less sensitive.

"So... if you wanna talk, we can do that. Or we can sit quietly. You can even put your head in my lap. Just... whatever you need, I hope you know that I'll always be here for you. You're stuck with me, ugly puffy eyes and all."

[lapdogchase]

putting this under the cut so you all have the same emotional experience i just did