#im an adult and i never got good representation in a fucking while

[davekat-sucks]

Im not a poc, or at least if im mixed im white passing so maybe i dont get an opinion on this

But i dont get why people want so badly the trolls who would be out to be racist charactictures of poc, to be poc? Like just because they are stereotypes and shit, it comes off like theyve never interacted with actual poc in their life?

For every "poc druggie" gamzee type ive met, ive met three more who were white or white passing.

Same for like eridan, feferi, meenah, etc. Etc. They all remind me of white people ive met irl over any poc i met. Ive met a lot of meenahs, eridans, feferis, during my life- all white. Most of the time black people ive met or poc on general just break all those molds, while white people just fill the niche? If that make sense? Like theyre stereotypes for a reason, more often than not theyre not accurate, their slander or even just projection.

Hell feferi comes across as one of those white girl who have white girl savoir complexes but still fuck up and fail and secretly hate all the responsibility theyve put on themselves trying to be "perfect ally".

Also Hs^2 attempt to retcon the symbolic black silhouette used for older/adult trolls to make that come across as mythologically mysterious and stuff that were being accused of being black face back in the day that are now just no actually trolls skin just gets darker with age, as if thats not arguably worse? Its a retcon to "unproblematic-ify" the problems of HS proper, but in its attempt to do so.. is worse somehow???

Like as a hole, the fandoms attempt to retcon and fix fhe racism...feels like its just being actually racist. Like go ahead and read into and pick apart Hussi's writing decesions all you want, but like. Even in well meaning jest, i feel like they fail, so terribly hard.

Homestuck trolls are trolls. Not humans. Yes part of the joke is their culture largely is earth but trollified. But i think in their rightousness to do better then the yeah, admittedly shitty aged comic we all love, theyve done it and themselves dirty. Theyve took the joke too far, and i dont think they are even in on the joke at all.

Adult trolls being only shadow black silhouettes were suppose to mirror the human Guardians as they are all white. Part of it was for the mysterious theme, as said. But likely have became an actual thing because of The Condesce being the only living adult troll at the time, who still appeared as a black silhouette even up to her death. She could have possibly stayed that way as a familiarity of kids vs adults and how she is intimidating and the final boss, but it's a thing now that trolls having darker skin as they age is canon. Hey, the fandom wants dark skin on trolls so they can project POC on it. They got their wish. I think when people try to make trolls or humans as 'accurate' as possible for being POC, it soon becomes more of a stereotype than actual diversity and representation. They deny about it and some praise that the over-exaggeration of traits is good representation. The characters become more like someone's OC than the actual characters they were from. Drawing on-model is a sin in the Western fandom. Some also don't realize some implications considering what happens to certain characters to a series. Like if someone headcanons that Eridan was trans, people forget that he was killed by Kanaya. Does that mean Kanaya was in the right for killing a trans person then? What about Vriska being black and Aradia as Asian? Her killing an Asian person is now okay? It's why we got shit like people being upset that Gamzee and Meenah are supposedly black stereotypes.

It's sad that nobody can accept fantasy or sci-creatures as they are. It's why we got shot like orcs in DND now being GOOD people when they were just monsters. Everything has to be connected or related to human standards. They can never have their own customs, cultures, or beliefs.

[snowflakes-rulez]

i think about the eggpire is pretty inclusive in fanon/canon terms for all ages, poc, and lgbt+ despite being the butt of the joke. 

btw these are just about their characters. so we got: 

a 9′6  demon is a milf who has big tiddies cuz he represents the trans men/nonbinary people to feel more comfortable with their boobs. nice design tho.

a gamer agender who wants to get paid in riches and wants to smooch a robot who goes by sam nook.

a literally tall ass gay cat. 

a doctor who loves lemon who been betrayed by the love of his life and literally got his arm cut off, but the egg give him a prothesis to help him out.

a 2′2 crystalized human structure is the sign of the demon’s motivation. you gotta give it credits for them having a character platonic/romantic relationship thats actually pretty good.

a tired purple teenager who just want to get money too but also seek approval from others cuz he wants to be known for something big. mostly in fanfiction. 

she isnt included according to the wiki, but hey an important flower girl character who can actually kick ass rip punz and is an ironic representation in her uh corrupted form?? since white roses literally means purity. :) 

yet theyre the villains kinda. the egg is the main antagonist tho. ill come back to this later lol

[uwurakax]

another day ♡

pairing: oikawa x f!reader ♡

genre: angsty // exes // mutual pining ♡

summary: after the constant fighting and bubbling insecurities, you and oikawa both decide that breaking up is probably for the best. too bad that it wasn’t what either if you had wanted ♡

♡ read part one ‘save your tears’ here ♡

word count: 2k ♡

author’s note: super tired, i should be packing but im not lol, 4am gang ayyy. as always not proofread because i cannot stomach the idea of rereading what i wrote. this was what originally ‘save your tears’ was going to be, but part one got too long so haha. spoils of part one, so if you haven’t read it go ahead, or don’t lolol it could be read alone ig hurr hurr ♡

♡ (inspired by save your tears - the weeknd/ariana grande) ♡

At one point in time, you would’ve enjoyed an atmosphere like this; the blaring lights, pounding music, and even the heat radiating off warm bodies in a cramped space. It was much more enjoyable when you had the familiar, comforting presence of him.

Yes him: Oikawa Tōru. Also known as the the guy who broke your heart less than two months ago. You hadn’t seen him since the week after, finally being able to pick up everything and go. It was scary how silent it was between you two. The unit the both of you had made a home, your first home with him, just a little more barren. Just a little more bare.

Just a little more empty.

Once homely rooms were now plain. To anyone else, it could be called minimalistic or modern. Sleek if you were to exaggerate it. To the both of you however, it was just stone cold. A lifeless corpse. One poor imitation of what it once was.

And seeing it like this was almost enough to have your heart break for a second time. It was a physical representation of your relationship. The feelings of warmth, comfort, admiration, any and every word any literary body could ever akin to love was once found here. It was sad to see it gone, almost like it was never there. However if you looked past the surface you’d see all the small details of things that once occupied the room. The once full drawers now easily fitting clothes with plenty of room to spare. A countertop with products only to one half of the sink. The minuscule dust imprints left behind on the shelves that once housed your books.

The lingering smell of your perfume that was once so prominent.

You couldn’t tell, but Oikawa could. In the week you were gone, it slowly started to fade. The first night Oikawa was drowning in it. It clung to, what once was, your pillow and on the blanket. Choking and suffocating him with the sweet smell. He couldn’t bear to see the bed without you in it, and hated the God awful smell. Opening the window and facing away, he had a dreamless sleep that night.

And as the week passed, so did the scent of you.

He couldn’t explain why, but the moment he opened the door, his body felt at ease. His eyes blessed, even if you had those dark circles and slightly red eyes with unkempt hair. It was as if it was instinct to feel relief at being near you.

It was the longest few hours of Oikawa’s life that day, and somehow it was still just too short. Helping you gather your things, putting them into boxes and loading them into a tiny hired truck until eventually there was nothing left.

You were gone from the apartment, and now Oikawa’s life.

It was awkward the second time, saying goodbye. The finality of it all dawning on the both of you. You at least had this excuse to see each other once more. After this, there was nothing. No more reasons to come back, to call, message or even see each other again.

This was officially the last time you’d ever get to see Oikawa Tōru.

You’d both stood there for a few moments, only the wind against leaves and the occasional car offering any sort of background noise. Neither of you wanting or willing for this moment to end. Despite it all, it wasn’t hard to see that you both yearned for each other. Just how cruel it was that you couldn’t see it.

Oikawa kept your pillow close that night. The smell of you was so faint, he was sure that it wouldn’t be too long before it completely faded. As he held the plush item near his chest he couldn’t help but wonder what kind of life he could’ve had with you if he wasn’t so prideful? All the fantasies and white picket fences surged in his mind, and so he finally drifted off to sleep, thinking of you.

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘☽༓☾∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

“Here”

You turned to see your best friend handing you a glass of, well you weren’t sure exactly but anything to dull your senses at this point was okay in your book. Yes, almost two months since your breakup and you were still so torn. It was what he wanted right? Your lives are better this way. You’re sure his is. He wouldn’t have to hear you “nag” as he so put it, and you didn’t have to feel the exhaustion resulting because of it.

It was better this way. You knew it. Oikawa knew it. Your friends and family knew it. Heck even the old ladies down the damn street knew it.

So why did it feel so shitty.

You downed the drink quickly, not wanting to go through the spiral of emotions you were sure you were going to experience. You’d deal with the pain and hangover tomorrow like the adult you were. For now you just wanted to dance till your feet hurt, and then drink until they stopped hurting. A quick descent into self destruction that you’re sure you’d regret.

Or maybe you wouldn’t.

The moment you turned your head to get back to the dance floor you locked eyed with him.

For a moment you stopped breathing. The music faded out quickly and the patrons of the club disappeared. Suddenly it was just you and him.

He looked good this time around, nothing like the last time you saw him. His perfectly fluffed and styled hair that was just so effortlessly Oikawa had become messy bed head. His bright chocolate eyes that twinkled just a little with mischief when he smirked had become sunken. His whole demeanour had completely drooped into a depressive state. It hurt to see.

He wasn’t like that now. He looked like how he had been before. No longer were the remnants of a heartbroken man. Oikawa Tōru had gone back to his charming self once again.

A cute girl with silky, long black hair approached him and just as quick as they went, everything came flooding back; the music, people and you found yourself being able to breathe again.

She touched his arm and laughed. The look in her eyes filled with the glimmer coyness. Her body language oozed with flirty persona. It was all too familial.

You should’ve guessed that he’d date again. It wasn’t like he couldn’t. The moment you both severed the relationship he had every right to do what he wanted. You did too. Sure you were seeing someone, but it wasn’t like that.

All too, touchy-feely.

It hurt to see, you weren’t going to lie. Seeing the way he touched her, held her, danced with her. For a good portion of the night you saw it. Seeing him be with her, the way he used to with you. No longer being the main character in his story; you were in the audience, watching.

You didn’t want to stay until the ending.

Without a word, you briskly brushed passed sweaty bodies, being bumped a few times before you finally made it to the door and opened it.

You walked a couple paces to the middle of the footpath, deeply inhaling the fresh air. It wasn’t suffocating anymore. You fumbled with your purse, reaching inside to pull out your phone. With the glow of neon lights emanating behind you, you saw a stray tear on the blackness of your screen.

Fuck, when did that happen?

You wiped it with the palm of your hand, and went to unlock your phone. As you prepared to send a text you heard the call of your voice.

“Tōr-Oikawa?”

He mentally winced at this, the formal tone of using his surname struck something inside. He didn’t like it, not at all. It wasn’t right, it felt strange.

“What are you doing here?”

“What are you doing here? You followed me”

“Right... I guess I just wanted to see how you were, that’s all” he looked away, awkwardly scratching the back of his head. You softened at this. It just took you back to why you fell for him in the first place. The little things like this, that made you feel cared for and loved. Perhaps for a few minutes you could be delusional and pretend that Oikawa still cared for you.

“I’m fine, what about you? How is everything going?” Yikes. You cringed at how awkward you were being. You supposed that that’s how it was, not exactly friends and not complete strangers either.

“Yeah fine too...” he trailed off, and just like that you were brought back to that time before you left. Before the official goodbye. Not ready to end things just yet, but neither knowing what more to say.

Just for a little while, let me remember every trace, curve and detail.

You didn’t know what came over you, but soon enough you found yourself drawing closer to Oikawa. He looked at you with half lidded eyes, not daring to move a step, almost afraid if he did it would ruin this moment with you. Yes, it was selfish but...

You lifted your hand to cup his cheek, just like a memory from before. Using the pad of your thumb, you gently brushed over the soft skin. Ever so delicately, you traced down his jaw. The intimacy of your movements crossed a boundary between you. You knew it and he did too. You’d let yourselves be greedy though.

Oikawa raised his own hands to touch your face, perfectly ingraining it into his mind and body. His fingers slowly going over your features. He wouldn’t allow himself to forget any part of you.

It wasn’t long until you both wanted to overstep more.

The longing between you too great to try and stop. Eventually you both moved closer, faces and soul alike reaching for the other. Just a bit closer.

“Y/N?”

“Oikawa?”

You both frantically pulled away, heart racing now.

“Kageyama..”

“Tobio”

Oikawa tried to hide the venom in his voice, he really did, but when he saw Kageyama make his way beside you he couldn’t help but see red.

It didn’t seem like life was playing a very fair game.

“Oikawa are you alright?” He looked down at the petite girl beside him, now clinging to his arm. He threw on one of his brilliant smiles and told her it was okay.

“Are you cold? Here” Oikawa couldn’t keep up that smile for too long, not when he saw him putting his jacket around you. How you snuggled into the warmth. How it showed Oikawa that you were no longer his, and that you now found solace in another.

He couldn’t blame you, he knew that deep inside. He did the same, why shouldn’t you? It didn’t stop the burning hatred and envy he felt. The overwhelming sadness that enveloped him. All a heavy dump of emotions thrown on him within a few seconds.

You felt it too though. That girl hanging off his arm. Getting to parade around that Oikawa was hers. It was totally unreasonable to feel this way. You both ended things. It was mutual right? You would’ve told him and he would’ve told you if this breakup was a mistake right?

Right?

“Wanna go?” Kageyama whispered in your ear. You nodded.

“It was nice seeing you again T-Oikawa” you smiled sadly.

“You too Y/N...bye” you both turned away, walking in opposite directions. With every step, your heartache grew just a little more. Almost like your body needed to be near his, the memories it held being more truthful than your head could ever be.

Your heart, body and soul wanted Oikawa.

Your mind told you to let him go for his sake.

“Hey Y/N?”

“Hey Oikawa?”

“Yes Kageyama?”

“Hmm?”

“He was your ex right? Oikawa?”

“That girl back there, is she her? The ex?

“Yeah he was”

“Yeah, she was”

“Do you still love him?”

“Do you still love her?”

There was a pause and you both stopped, mulling the question over.

Did you still love each other? It wasn’t hard to tell, everyone knew the answer. Ask any stranger but...

“No”

..

...

..

You both lied.

[venhedish]

On the importance of platonic love: fanon romance vs. canon relationship dynamics in Supernatural.

Hey I’ve seen some posts going around about this little niggle, and I don’t want to say I’m exceptionally qualified to talk about it, but I have been an active participant (and celebrant) of relationship anarchy for most of my adult life and I also practice non-monogamy, though that’s far less relevant to what I’m gonna be talking about here.

This applies to all fandoms where people are shipped together and obviously have a connection but are never officially made canon, but since spn is my shit rn and a lot of this particular flavor of discourse seems to be centered around Sam and Dean’s relationship (which I’m also slightly maybe embarrassingly obsessed with?), I thought that’s what I’d focus on.

Basically what I want to say is that there’s nothing wrong with pairing characters together romantically in your fanfictions and headcanons (hello! im a big gay wincest/destiel/wincestiel multi-shipper, myself!), but arguing that Wincest (and Destiel to a lesser extent) went/was always canon really, really undermines the importance of non-romantic long-term relationship representation in popular media. I mean, seriously, how fucking cool is it that Sam and Dean are canonically soulmates and also brothers and also ride-or-die-best-friends? There isn’t much precedent in TV for the kind of complicated, blurred-lines dynamic that these dudes share, and minimizing it to they fuck or they’re just brothers really diminishes one of the best Right Things™ the show managed to accomplish. The same can be said for Dean and Castiel’s relationship, too. 

I think we as fans can do a better job of celebrating non-romantic canon relationships while also still shipping them together in fanon spaces. There’s a problem our communities seem to face where we have a really hard time distinguishing where the line is between The Written Word and What My Heart Wants, and both of those things are totally good and valid! But—here’s the part that I see people struggle with—you can appreciate both at the same time. In my headcanon, Sam and Dean fuck because I have a deep desire for complicated, all-consuming romance and I want to turn any two characters with chemistry into a thing. But as it pertains to my real life and the brain I reserve for fandom meta and social-justicey-intersectionality-ish-issues of representation and breaking from hetero-normative standards, I want to see more varied and sundry takes on the non-traditional family unit, on what it means to be queer platonic with your brother, on loving and cherishing your angel best friend more than society typically considers acceptable but without having the expectation of more.

This is a lot. But I just want to celebrate that we got to watch a television show on thee CW network buck societal relationship norms for fifteen years!!! Despite its failings in like, every other area of representation, this one is a big win from me and it’s just really cool and good so thanks for listening. I love you. Bye.

[feralmunson]

Soooo, I just watched It Chapter 2 and I decided to come back to my It blog 🎈🎈

FIRST OF ALL IM GONNA TALK ‘BOUT REDDIE BECAUSE, BOY HOW I LOVE THOSE TWO, OK

I liked how, after they put on the shower caps, Richie starts talking shit bout them and Eddie quickly takes off his lmao

I loved the hammock scene, how Eddie demands Richie to move the fuck out of it and Richie, being the gay little shit he is, doesn’t move forcing Eddie to climb on pushing him and shoving his glasses with his foot while ranting lmao I loved it, and that hammock was a perfectly good excuse for them to be close to each other so yeah, if I were Richie I would’ve done the same to be close to my crush

Richie’s pep talk to Eddie after he said he was too scared,,,, I need a Richie in my life :(

“next time we’re picking “scary””

“next time!!!?!!?”

And, thanks to @buckley-robln, I realized the meaning of the “very scary” door, it being a closet and simbolizing our boys’ fear of coming out, wow I’m sad 

And then how Eddie stabs Pennywise and proudly goes to tell Richie, and then suddenly Pennybitch stabs Eddie,,,, I knew he was gonna die and still I was surprised and cried like a baby :((

Then when Eddie says he has to tell him something, and Richie looks at him hoping he would say something important... then Eddie making a “your mom” joke and Richie just laugh, his laugh being one of the last sounds Eddie hears...

But what made it worse was Richie’s denial and the other loser’s trying to console him oh my god it really had me crying

AND, IF THAT WASNT ENOUGH, THAT SCENE AT THE QUARRY WHERE THEYRE ALL HOLDING RICHIE AND HES CRYING AND IM CRYING OH WOW MY HEART :(

RICHIE

MY POOR BABY THAT SCENE AT THE ARCADE BROKE MY HEART 💔

It was just too real, I mean, like that small touch of hands that causes you lots of emotions that somehow scare you because you don’t know what the hell is going on with you, that fear that comes with the uncertainty of what will happen if anyone knew, bitch I felt that

When they show him carving the “R” a small part of me hoped it was an “E” next to the “+” but I didn’t wanna get my hopes up cause you know how we gays rarely get any representation on the big screen, so at the end when they show him re-carving the E I completely lost it and cried, plus Stan’s letter, it was just to much for me :((

Richie’s character has me speechless, like I feel I kind of empathize a lot with him and I just want to hold him tight and tell him everything’s gonna be alright :(

EDDIE

That scene when Bowers stabs my homeboy Eddie I wasn’t sure if it was real or what the f u c k was going on, and then how Eddie, like the badass he is, takes out the knife and stabs him back lol and how he slowly walks out of the bathroom 😂

How he was paralyzed by fear when the Stan/spider thing was attacking Richie and how Bill yells at him and how he tells him to don’t be mad, that he got really scared, my poor baby

Also, the scene at the basement of the pharmacy was v important I mean, my poor Eds was desperately trying to save his mom while being surrounded by thing that scared him, and then how he manages to weaken the leper, finding the answer to how to end Pennywise, yes Eddie! 👏🏼👏🏼

HANBROUGH

I loved their relationship I mean I didn’t ship them before but now w o w they’re so cute with each other I’m,,,

I liked how, even after everyone had gone, Bill stayed there with Mike and listened to him and everything

And when they pressed their foreheads together after ending that 🤡 bitch !! c u t e

And at the end omg when they’re talking on the phone and Mike makes a pause and says “I love you”, and then Bill says “I love you too”... I know it was like in a platonic way but I just- 💖❤️💞😘👏🏼

(I couldn’t find a gif of them both, sorry 😔)

BILL

The guilt he feels for Georgie’s death 😭

That moment where adult Bill sees his younger self telling him everything was his fault, and that his little brother’s death was his fault just because he pretended to be sick just cause didn’t want to go out and play with him... I can only imagine the amount of guilt he was experiencing

But then when he faces him and finally realizes it wasn’t his fault and “kills” his young version, putting an end to that feeling of guilt... Good for him 👏🏼

MIKE

A KING

It must’ve been really difficult to get the courage to call everyone and ask them to go to Derry, knowing that it meant danger

And all the research he did, all the effort he put on the investigation to end Pennywise, all for the greater good, wow, he deserves everything good in the world 💖

Even though I didn’t like how he kept some information from the others >:(

But it’s ok, I love him, it was for the greater good

BENVERLY

I really liked how Ben recognized her immediately, so sweet

When they’re talking at the hotel and Bev says she thinks it was Bill who wrote the poem and everything and I was just like “Girl, no!! Open you’re eyes, boo!!! He’s literally sitting there next to you!!!!”

Then when they put their totems inside the thingy, Ben’s words broke my heart, my poor baby :(

And how Bev says she should’ve held on to that memory (talking bout the letter) 

Then when they’re both fighting their fears and suddenly Ben starts calling her and then she hears him and they both yell each other’s names and she finally kicks the door open and saves him, wow, powerful 🔥👏🏼

And when she finally realizes it was Ben the whole time ajsnjkadhs it was a short, beautiful moment <3

BEN

He was Just. So. Sweet. I mean, one could’ve thought he would’ve change because of how his life changed and how successful he was now, but he was still the sweet lovely boy with the biggest crush in Beverly Marsh 😭💖

He was just so pure and good

I love his relationship with Beverly

That scene when he was being practically buried alive gave me a n x i e t y, and how Pennywise told him he was gonna die alone and all that shit I was so ANGRY at that bitchass clown

Also when he tricks him into believing that Bev was calling him ugly stuff and being mean to him absolutely broke my heart but he was smart enough to know she would never say anything like that to him, but still, I hate seeing him sad cause he deserves the world 😤

BEV

She was such a badass wow I love her

She could punch me and I’d thank her

That scene when her father blames her for what her mother did and yells at her and all of that was v scary, my poor girl how could she live with him 😖

Also the scene at the bathroom with the blood, it surely was incredibly overwhelming listening to everyone who ever hurt her saying all that shit, but then I loved how when she hears Ben she gets enough strength to get the fuck out of there and save her boy!! we love a queen!!!!!

I’m so glad she finally found someone who loves her and treats her as she d e s e r v e s.

STAN THE MAN

Oh boy, how I missed him :((((

Even if we just saw him for little bits, I liked how happy he seemed at the beginning, with his puzzle of birds and all

Then the ~scene~ was absolutely heartbreaking I mean how he gets in the tub, and then they showed us a memory and then... :(

Then his speech at his bar mitzvah!!!! so powerful!!! (And Richie clapping lol) 👏🏼👏🏼

And the letter!!!! Patty sending the letter to the losers meant to much! I cried the whole time while they read the letter, it was a beautiful way to end the movie

Also, all of the scenes where they showed us happy Losers being a bunch of kids with nothing to worry about, bitch I cherished each one of those. Like when they were at the club house, and at the photo booth... good times, man ❤️

It was a good movie, I laughed, I cried, I got scared on several ocassions, and I can’t wait to go and see it again 

[lookslikezombiesatbest]

an opinion on the daybreak characters because no one asked :)

Hi! Again, no one asked about this but idc so whatevs.

Josh

okay so he was fine, pretty funny at times and he seemed like a very real teenager. The sex scene with him and Sam was funny and accurate for how much adults say that your first time will be pretty awkward. I also really liked how basically the whole mission for the first season (find sam, conquer the world together) was pretty much all in vain, it’s a good segue into the second season that is obviously coming. Plus blah blah blah he played young sam in supernatural which I used to watch religiously so yeah

Sam Dean

k so i know shes supposed to be the main love interest but she was really pretentious to me. like she was the trope of the dream girl who was super philosophical and “idk the real me but everybody else acts like they do so I’m gonna complain about it” it just got very old very quick and she was crazy unfair to josh about it who was just insecure and wanted to love her. I do agree that josh shouldve been cooler about her not being a virgin and her arc where she became queen of the jocks was definitely cool tho and I cant wait to see how that’s gonna go down in s2

Angelica

okay. so. ik everyone loves her and I definitely love her as a character and the concept of a genius 10 year old in the apocalypse while having personal conflicts of her own with her parents and never feeling like she belongs, but the really fucked with my interest in her when they made her swear so much. Like, im all for swearing and know that if youre mature enough to handle it, you should say it but with her it was just ‘let’s put swears in for the hell of it’ it just got annoying having to listen to all of her insults that made no sense but were just there for comedic shock value of ‘hey there’s a child saying these things woah lol’. So again, loved her character and the actress behind her was really good as was the concept, it was just the dialogue that really made me not like it.

Ms. crumble

So this is crazy biased because i absolutely love Krysta Rodriguez, Broadway star, but i really loved her character. She was played beautifully and she was wonderfully random with her quirks and sayings and overall look as a character and i was very excited when we got an episode dedicated to what happened to her and im really excited to see her more in s2. Plus i loved the bond she had with angelica and they had a lot of chemistry that really worked well with that portrayal of angelicas own mother figure

Wesley

GIVE IT UP FOR MY MANS okay so i love wesley. He was absolutely amazing as a character and really was just so dope. His love for being a samurai was a wonderful trait that added to both his comedy and his really great survival skills. Like i felt like he had a reason to be there. Loved his relationship with turbo and overall just love him. That’s all i have to say and yeah

Turbo

I really loved his arc and i felt like i could still root for him when he was evil just because it was fun and i could root for him when he wasn’t evil because he changed so much and i was so proud of him. So yeah he was just a good character overall and i loved his episode and his arc

Mona lisa

She was a really good side character and absolutely gorgeous. She was crazy and crazy funny and i really hope to see more of her in s2 just because she was so entertaining and i want more of her backstory

Principal Burr

So in the ferris bueller version of the apocalypse, ferris bueller plays the antagonist. I loved him. He was perfectly sociopathic and just genuinely played perfectly. The twist of him being baron triumph and not hoyles was honestly not expected even tho they gave us every clue lmao. Perfect villain quite honestly

K so that’s it. I know i didn’t include smaller characters like KJ just because she wasn’t there as much but hopefully we learn more about her and the other daybreakers as we through the series. Overall the first season was pretty good, some of the dialogue was a little yikes and i feel like it’s trying to be a little toooo woke? If that’s possible??  And some of the dialogue was...not it. But the cinematography was great, characters were overall pretty good, it was really fun and crazy and random, which is what i really love in zombie media (the reason i love zombieland so much is that it’s wild and doesnt take itself seriously) so if youre looking for just some lighthearted zombie fun with crazy characters and really dope ass costumes, you should definitely watch this. And ignore some of the cringe dialogue cuz it gets better.

Also it has a lot of representation that is like, meant to be there. Like i wasn’t confused with certain characters being gay or Muslim or deaf (all of which are represented without it being weird!) although due to me not being any of those things, it’s up to those who are can only decide if they’re represented correctly but i really enjoyed seeing them on the screen! 

[penisbrigade]

plays on the “born sexy yesterday” trope

Ok so you know the stupid movie trope thats like uwu stupid girl whose hella hot meets dude and he has to teach her about humanity or whatever the fuck and its literally just pedophilia but the child is in the body of an adult? Yeah okay so here's a few plays on that trope that i would love to see

-lesbians and the “street smart” one is a disaster lesbian who tries to get the “wise but stupid” one dates with dudes without realizing that the “wise but stupid” girl is slowly falling in love with her but she also doesnt know what falling in love is and it probably has one scene where they’re watching a movie or something to show the “wise but stupid” one to some extent how dating works or whatever and somehow the “wise but stupid?” one is exposed to some type of making out scene and shes like “will i have to do that” and the lesbian is like “yeah maybe” and the other girl is like “with a man” and the lesbian is like “haha mood and yeah lmao” and the other girl is like what if i dont want to? I dont know how?” (lowkey she knows what shes doing tho bc shes l e a r n i n g and the lesbian is a good teacher who doesnt take advantage of her) and the lesbian is like “fam idfk you just sort of go with it” and the other girl is like “can i practice with you?” and the lebian is like “ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha what?” and the other girl starts sort of leaning in and they’re having a moment and everything and then the lesbian is like “*blushing feriously* haha yeah no only people who like each other do that” and the other girl is like “you dont like me?” and the lesbian is like “uh-haha-no i mean-um-not-not-not like-um-that aha” and the other girl is like “like that?” and anyway itd be really awkward and cute and anyway they dont actually kiss until, like, three seasons or twenty chapters later because i like making people suffer

-(⚠️trigger warning: rape⚠️) ok so theres a girl who was basically was genetically altered/scientifically invented to be a sex toy and shes just sort of the prototype or first model and shes kind of actually human but men are trying to turn women into the equivalent of sex toys that you buy for self pleasure and its all gross and by the time she gets out shes already been r*ped multiple times by scientists there and they were trying to alter whatever so that there sould be settings for how she reacts to sexual pleasure/how she acts during sex and before it and just how she has sex in general and also k i n k s. (So anyway im gonna throw up ill be right back) now comes the dilemma of her escape. She probably escapes herself although thats hella hard so i hink one of the female scientists who was supposed to help with the project because shes a woman or whatever is disgusted so she helps the girl out but she gets caught. So now the girl is in this city alone and has no idea what to do. Shes really smart but not street smart, just book smart. So she goes into a cafe and theres a dude there whos running the register or whatever you call it and hes like “hi welcome to starbucks what the fuck can i get for you” and shes like “help” and then she fucking faints because she never got food or sleep besides the times she was knocked out for sex and the small amounts of food she was allowed to keep her from dying but also make sure shes skinny. Now this dude is stuck with this girl who just fainted and nobody else is in the cafe besides his partner person or whatever who he works with id his coworker and they’re both freaking the fuck out because what the fuck a girl just fainted. Idk ut it everntually ends up with this dude taking this girl to stay with him and somehow the doctor had a way to contact him and the girl refused to talk for a while because trauma or she just immediately jumps into “ig he wants sex” bc thats what shes een taught essentially and hes like “no wtf” and shes like “what” and she thinks somethings wrong with her or something idk and either way she ends up being silent for a long time because of trauma and has nightmares and all that and its super sad and this dude has to convince her hes asexual and hes not into sex at a l l and eventually she believes him and then they end up being best friend with absolutely no romantic feelings involved and idk she might turn out to be asexual too and once he tells her what it is shes like “you dont like having sex” or however he explained it depending on how he defines asexuality idk and hes like “yeah basically” and shes like “i dont like it either but i had it. Why didnt you?” and hes like what the hell because what the hell and it ends with them absolutely demolishing whatever orginization did this shit and its really fucking cool. 

-the last trope but with a play on the sexualities where the guy is gay or the girl is just straight and the guy helps her find a nice dude who wont take advantage of her and all that or the girl is a lesbian and mayhaps shes also in love with the girl who helped her escape or the girls like holy crap im not even a girl whats this so the other guy helps him transition or something idk switch it up a bit. Give it some of that snazzy representation

idk fam but feel free to add more ig

[vampanic]

okay here’s what i remember from THE CON

i can’t remember if the ticket was cheap or pricey. i don’t know why. i wanna say it was more expensive or of equal value to a bigger con and i justified it to my parents and myself because it was the first one. but i went because i thought the idea of a con that was centered on the various fandoms popular on this site at the time was a genuinely neat idea. i also thought, okay let me just go because it’s another one to attend.

i should note: that have been to a lot conventions in my time. i’ve been to acen twice i think? i’ve been to nebkon twice. sadly i have never been to c2e2 or flashback chicago (which i may never get to go to now whoops) and i’ve been to wizard world chicago i wanna say 4 times?

now at these cons (mostly wizard world) these fandoms aren’t as present. in fact, the main demo of that con was adult to middle age to older visitors as well as families, so usually teens and young adults would find each other at this con (whether planned ahead or by accident there) and freak the fuck out over our cosplays or mutual love of whatever.

so because of this again the idea of a t.umblr con was exciting to me, even though i was already at the end of being interested in those fandoms (as i’m sure most people were at the time)

okay so first, this con was far. wizard world and acen are held at the rosemont convention center which while kind of far from where i live, is accessible by train via downtown or via one of chicago’s big airports. i always got a ride though which with summer traffic, took forever. so much like that this con was a journey away.

the hotel the con choose i remember thinking it seemed new, but it was far from where i lived which inpacted the amount of time i spent at the con and the decision to only go two days (i didn’t return the last day because it was a shit show)

i went to this con by myself because i think at this point i had already had a falling out with my friend who i went to cons in the area with (she did not attend that i know of). i wore two cosplays that i had made already for other things, gwen stacy and america chavez. this would have been the ideal place for me to cosplay something more niche, but i just didn’t care that much about it. maybe i didn’t think it was worth it at the time since it wasn’t going to be a big con.

so i get there and there’s no long line to get my badge in fact i don’t even remember a line at all. which, for me, was bizarre. every con i’ve been to before had huge lines even on off hours to get badges. but whatever. i cant remember if where i got my badge was in the the same room as where the ball pit was or not. but yes, i did go into the ball pit and i was silly in it with some other people because

idk you see a ball pit you go in the ball pit? in hindsight i know it’s not acceptable to have this at a con, but shit i guess i was high on life at the time. someone took a pic of me in the pit, but i have never seen it.

i remember seeing some very impressive cosplays at this con. i also bought some really great art in the dealers room which was small. (here’s the artist. also this was nonfandom art. i don’t remember buying anything else from anyone because i don’t think i saw anything i liked/could afford) there was no unlicensed night vale merch sold here that i remember, but i do remember receiving free unlicsenced night vale like pamphlets from a random vendor and also  there was a vendor who was giving away a large piece of night vale fan art with a purchase of over something dollars i dont remember.

panels: i don’t remember there being many panels or even very interesting panels. panels i remember going to include: bisexuality in media/bisexuality representation (which was put on by the bisexualbooks tumblr), ask an avenger (which was put on by various marvel cosplayers), and a panel that was about female characters in supernatural (i was a spn stan back in the day jsyk).

the bi one was good. i remember it being the most like a panel that you’d go to at a larger convention. they had slides and info and they took questions and had several speakers.

the avengers one was what we’d call today “cringey” but it was cute. it was exactly what it sounds like. avengers cosplayers sat up on a stage answering questions in character. i believe that all the cosplayers had rp and/or ask blogs which is why they were chosen.

the supernatural panel was, like the bi one, complete with slides and various speakers, but from what i remember it was mostly going down the list of female characters in the show. i remember from the fandom that there a good chunk of people who love the characters, but they’re often killed off or abandoned and this is something a lot of fans did have gripes with. this is gonna sound fake when i say it, but this did happen, we got to charlie and someone said “yeah i like charlie she’s cool because she’s a lesbian but she doesn’t act like one like she’s still feminine” and i spoke up and said “well yeah it’s cool she’s a lesbian, but what do you mean she doesn’t act like one. like queer female character shouldn’t have to be feminine to be seen as good rep.” and people clapped. i know that sounds fake, but please believe me because this is a setting where people are inclined to clap when they agree with statements. people clapped at others too.

i also attended the costume contest, the night vale panel, and the meet and greet with doug jones.

the contest was fine. there was one individual at this con who i can’t name because i didnt know their name, but they cosplayed as ed from edd ed and eddy and they were in character the whole time to the point of discomfort. it wasn’t just for the contest i found myself in a cards against humanity game that they were in and it was even there and it was weird.

then the night vale panel happened and ooooooooohhhh boy

this was the most filled room in the whole con. a main reason i went to this con was to see them and im pretty sure this was everyone’s main reason to go. i known someone from other cons who came from florida to see this. (fun fact: we were mutuals on various platforms and had hung out at various cons and i knew their name, but they could not remember mine and i thought that was bogus so i ghosted them. dont know if i was justified in that but whatever)

so here we all were waiting. for over an hour. during this time people talked and i remember someone cosplaying the glow cloud went up and down the isle with a little glow cloud baby in a stroller and we all laughed and cheered. people started playing card games. we kept busy. for me though.

this was one of the most boring cons i’ve been to honestly. i’m having trouble remember a lot of it and that’s because i went solo. i had no friends there. i cosplayed gwen from like the 60s and this was before spidey joined the mcu and before itsv was a thing so spidey was basically an niche fandom (i was active in the tasm and dane deha.an fandoms at this time and the latter became toxic as fuck but that’s a whole other story) or something older comic fans liked.

my other cosplay was america chavez from young avengers which never got that popular either (though kate bishop and kid loki where more recognized, but for their connection to bigger marvel names). so it wasn’t like other cons where my cosplay was an ice breaker and i could join groups. i was alone.

so a lot of the con for that reason was awkward and waiting for night vale was like being the person texting in the corner at a distant relative’s party because they know no one.

so they finally come on stage to say that night vale will not be performing and people went ballistic people were shouting and the person said “we have doug jones in the next hall you should go over to that” and someone yelled “WE DON’T WANT TO SEE HIM”

i went to see doug jones and i was previously unaware of what his name was but i knew who he was. he talked about his work and acting process and did a meet and greet after. mr. jones was a delight and i’m wondering how they even got him there in the first place. he was leagues above this. 

i had to leave the con early that day to go to my brother’s football game, but i believe that was the night they “protested” at the con and i kept seeing on tumblr that it was cancelled. i decided not to go back the next day because i was unsure of what was happening and because it was too far.

and the rest is history. i’m sure i went to other panels, but i can’t remember them. i do remember going into the room where they were watching pacific rim, but it was on a shitty projection screen and i wanted to go to a panel instead.

it’s shitty what happened with the con. and a lot of the unrest came from literal teens who were cheated from money who didn’t know how to act, but all the responsibility goes to the people who organized it poorly. The concept of a tu.mblr con i don’t think should have been inherently bad. i think it would have been cool to have a con that focused on more niche interests. but shouldn’t have been as big as they wanted it to be for the first go.

anyway that’s most of what i can remember. it’s kind of blur because i spent most of it by myself and there wasn’t much to do so i didn’t even spend the whole day there.

quite frankly, i’m glad i wasn’t there when they started singing les mis because i have no idea how i would have acted.

[six-of-ravens]

okay: top five books that you've read this year (2020); top five nanowrimo plots that you have written cuz you got a great backlog there;

heyyyyyy guuuuuuurl ;)

answers below the cut bc hoooooo boy this got long

top five books: thank u for specifying this year or i would’ve died on the spot lmao. i’ve only read 22 books and im already stressing:

5: When We Were Magic - Sarah Gailey: 6 teen girls with secret magic powers need to hide a body after one of them kills a guy during a botched attempt at prom night sexytimes. Hilarious, gory (side note i LOVE Gailey’s whole Thing about Magically Dividing People Down To Separate Parts, they did it in Magic for Liars too and i find it hilarious and unique and creepy), and all about That Power of Friendship. Hella gay, of course. 

4: The Fifth Season - N.K. Jemisin: fantasy novel set in a world with super maxed-out seismic activity, where epic volcanic eruptions and earthquakes are commonplace, and some people have the ability to cause/control/stop them, though they’re feared and reviled unless they work for this special government agency that controls them. Story is split between 3 perspectives: a mother searching for her daughter in the aftermath of a massive quake, a young woman working at that agency, and a child first being recruited. INSANELY good worldbuilding, super dark but absolutely brilliant. The ending BLEW MY MIND!!!! Jemisin is a goddamn genius. First in a trilogy but I haven’t read the rest yet.

3: The Refrigerator Monologues - Catherynne M. Valente: a novella set in this comic-book world filled with superheroes and villains, where various girlfriends who’ve been Fridged (one literally) tell their tales of woe at a coffee shop in Deadtown. Hilarious, witty, with a healthy dose of Valente’s over-the-top and out-of-the-box prose. A super fun exploration of the fridging trope and basically a direct callout @ Marvel and DC.

2: Upright Women Wanted - Sarah Gailey: a novella set in the futuristic wild west where librarians are engaged in an underground fight against the fascist regime. a girl runs away to join the librarians after her best friend/lover is killed, ends up embroiled in some awesome shenanigans. super SUPER gay. actual representation of the States in 50 years. Gailey is my hero.

1: Stay Sexy & Don’t Get Murdered - Karen Kilgariff & Georgia Hardstark: a dual memoir by the hosts of My Favourite Murder. One of the only memoirs I’ve actually enjoyed lmao. Anecdotes from their lives that tie into funny quotes they’ve said on the show (though IMO you don’t need to have heard the podcast to enjoy it). It’s like when you’re at a family gathering and your drunk family members start pulling out the whack stories and you just slam your fourth rum and coke like “oh, fuck yes.” Georgia and Karen are the cool vodka aunts I never had and I love them endlessly for it.

top five nanowrimo ideas (thank u, u know i love screaming about these lmao)

5: The one I’m tossing around right now, loosely called the Mermaid/Fantasy Thing. There’s a palace with a mermaid living in the baths(?) and that’s all, folks! check back later when I actually work on this one and have more to offer. I kinda wanna make this a middle-grade story just so I can make the world really crystal-y and pastel and shit but also I can’t not swear so that Could Be Difficult. Maybe adults just need to embrace the She-Ra aesthetic a little more.

4: The Trash Wizard Chronicles. A series of short stories (nano rebel plan, if i ever get up the nerve to rebel) about this (trash) wizard named Tlin (yes that’s a slurring of Tam Lin but it’s a COOL NAME FIGHT ME) who’s banished from the Unseelie court and lives in the city in exile. Follows his escapades in providing wizardly services, balancing his human bank-teller cover with his magical life, and plotting to overthrow the Unseelie royal family while dodge efforts by the almost-worse Seelie court to recruit him. At least one of these is a murder mystery involving a witch who sees ghosts.

3: The steampunk one with the mad scientist who accidentally zaps herself into another world. She’s trying to find a cure for the illness that plagues her and do it before the bastard who left her for dead in the African jungle. Instead, she’s pulled into a medieval world deprived of magic because their supposed leader is a fraud (based off of The Gateway podcast talking about how the repulsive therapist Barbara Snow may have implanted memories of satanic cults in Teal Swan’s brain...mind-blowingly terrifying to hear about). This scientist has to journey with the rebels to depose this fake leader and find the real one before she can be magically sent back (or she can get struck by lightning.....she’ll try anything). Features the peasants from Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Guinea Worm Angst, and a lot of Victorian cursing.

2: The one about the paranormal investigator and the thief. Started writing this on Wattpad last summer and gave up quickly because commitment is a bitch. Patricia (paranormal investigator) blackmails Kina (thief) info helping her solve a series of bizarre kidnappings after she catches her breaking into her apartment during some drunken shenanigans. A cute lighthearted lesbian romance. Features a stupid drunken injury, a park that never ends based off of my own terrifying experience of getting lost and walking in a circle for half an hour in Fish Creek last summer, and A Whole Lot Of Lying To The Cops

1: The one about an emo kid in 2009 who is sent to live on her aunt’s farm for the summer, where she meets the neighbours’ girl, who’s obsessed with the Romantics. Themes that discuss the romanticization of “bad” things (emo culture vs the Romantics) and when that can help and hurt (not my opinion, just thoughts). Lots of gardening because that’s my latest obsession. Maybe less Romantics than expected because I’ve just been reminded that i hate poetry! This started as an excuse to redownload every single emo song I ever heard and it remains that. Possible gay romance? Also possible unicorns. Definite goats that are definite assholes. Haven’t written this yet because I keep chickening out because the story won’t have any magic (unless I bend it and do some Moira Fowley-Doyle “was it magical realism or trauma-induced delusion” shit) and Who Am I Without Magic?

[tysabrewing-s]

Thoughts on Lena?

Wow anon u rlly just asked my number one actual fave™ as always prepare for one big post hhvhvhjvn 

Like ive always liked edgy teen characters I think they have a nice charm to them and I like the conflict they cause for other characters ( best example for this is besides Lena is needletail from warriors tbh!! Theyre rlly similar in cool ways) 

Lenas like different for me tho she isnt just some dumbass teen messing shit up and everybody be like "broooo stop being so immature :\\" I mean she is that but she means more to me as a character again abt to get super personal ( what can i say my favs are my favs cuz I relate to them personally or wish I was like them lmao) but I relate to her like a lot haha I dont have anybody in my life like magica is to her in all but I can relate in a very toned down way of how controlling she is and how she doesnt get a bit of space ik that isnt the main aspect of it but god I still felt that u know I also relate how magicas keeps being like "u cant have friends lmao its only to get scrooges dime stop getting attached" again not exactly the same but a certain person in my life is always telling me friendships are dumb they never last blah blah blah shouldnt bother to pursue any for this reason and its just annoying okay anyways tho enough abt me im srry this is so long its basically me just venting :') 

One of the best things abt her tho?? How she sasses pack at magica and isnt shown to be in the wrong pretty sure everybody and their mom has talked abt this but like srsly not all victims of abuse are super nice wouldnt hurt anybody type of person hell most arent its just such a breath of fresh air for once to see a character go thru this shit especially one of those edgy™ characters ( srry to describe her as edgy like 5 times but idk other ways my vocabulary sucks fhchcjvhv) and isnt shown as just being rebellious or whatever magicas literally treating her like dried up cat piss and audience KNOWS this we literally cant deny it and when beakley apologized to her for being rude I wanted to explode from happiness??? Ive never seen a show do that have an adult admit they were wrong okay I dont watch a bunch of cartoons but even when i think abt other stuff i like like books movies games etc ive still NEVER seen this 

Basically lena is an absolutely AMAZING representation of abuse victims is what im trying to get at ( btw if im in any way wrong abt this pls someone dm me!! Ive never been abused so I get I can never get it like know how that experience feels if im wrong pls educate me on this!!) 

Also I adore her dynamic w webby like my short answer is im a big old softy for nice bubbly girl\emo gal trope and I eat it up like somebody who found a bit of water in a desert 😔👊 

But like its also rlly heccing epic cuz most likely before her nobody ever treated her as like a person so just an extra cherry on top with it 

I see their dynamic as like finding comfort in each other and helping each other with it and idk its very endearing and sweet to me to think abt 

And on top of this?? Shes still a dumb as FUCK teenager!! Like beagle day massacre is basically just her taking a 12 yearold to crash a party lmao and forget the eps name but when her huey and webby just went underground for whatever reason?? Absolute horrible inlfuence and im all for it babey 

Anyways even tho ive written a book by now heres some headcannons djvjvjvjb

She likes an ironic shitposter basically just think of those cant see the haters thru my tears or is crying until 4 am badass stuff haha 

Cusses like theres no tomorrow 

When she gets older ( if she like ever ages that is lol) her and louie get rlly close like their buds and do dumb stuff like stealing a police car 

I hc her as a non binary lesbian!! She goes by she\they but mostly she 

She makes a tik tok ironically but then it actually got popular 

She used to steal a lot while living on the streets so shes rlly particular on what she spends her money on and she rarely shares anything 

Everyday she needs at least a while to herself to listen to some music and stuff like that she hates being around ppl all the time 

Idk if this even counts as a headcannon cuz ik everybody agrees with but shes touch starved af she rlly only accepts hugs and stuff from webby tho 

She actually doesn't think violets is a knock off of her or anything like that shes just a jealous bitch haha like shes actually rlly impressed that shes good at controlling magic 

She wouldnt tell anybody this but she actually kinda likes how she looks she isnt super confident abt it but she doesnt think shes ugly and is like "huh u know what my dyed hair is kinda dope" 

Shes like totally in love with lemon demon 

Alrighty pretty much done with this post!! Srry if im rude or its to long I just can never shut up abt my fav characters once u ask me yknow jghfjfghj

[unproduciblesmackdown]

40, 47, 59, 62, 76

lmao hell yeah thanks for All this support i love it!! quastions

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

really idk i feel like even our schools’s Antics were pretty par for the course and i was just sitting in the corner reading the whole time basically......trying to think if anything wild happened in college but even then it was p similar. well you know what, whatever donors covered the majority of the cost of the school’s black box theater being renovated apparently Stipulated that every other year a rodgers and hammerstein production be put on. absolute freaks. my roommate/friend and their then-boyfriend, the one mormon i have Knowingly Known in my life, were in pirates of penzance (sic?) together. hilarious

47. favorite type of cheese?

i like cheddar and like, parmesan, smoked gouda.....let’s get that shit Sharp!!! and hard lmao

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

idk i’d be like an npc just doing their weird thing on their own. i’ve never played pokemons unless you count pokemons Go but i think about the famed “i like shorts they’re comfy and easy to wear” npc kid. like, yeah. i feel the same. and would say similar bullshit nobody asked about

62. seven characters you relate to?

oh god.........recognizing the self through the relatable characters :|

well let’s just talk about the wrol roles right off b/c the characters that Most occupy my gay thoughts (which is to say: my general thoughts) will inevitably get priority when it comes to Remembering things

1) whom among us doesn’t relate to jared kleinman........will roland emerging from relative obscurity and coming for our entire fucking lives like the goddamn legend he is. it’s tough b/c it’s like, oh well alana is relatable too, so is evan unfortunately sorry evan, and in ways i might ~usually act~ like one of those two more than jared but. no. it is Jared who wins the relatability contest, and we all get to be beautifully haunted by it forever

2) leaning hard into winston even with the few glimpses of him b/c somehow will Cannot play an allistic cishet. and this is even More of a case where maybe i don’t much have winston’s demeanor.......even without winston being a beacon of confidence, he has more confidence lmao. and he has that ability to just Be Himself in a situation which, i wish i had that moxie lmao. i am a lot more [usually trying to be accommodating wayyyy harder than i should], booo......even though he’s clearly not great at conflict considering how it doesn’t take Too much to put him out, it’d be pretty impossible for me to be all “called them hacks and lame” or carry out a very irritated monologue in front of four people in the first place lmao. but who knows. and it’s more in the details of like, oh no winston’s the odd one out even though he hasn’t really Done Anything, but we all ~understand~ why he Deserves it.........his expectation / treating it basically as Fact that he will disappoint people.......the [weird] [offputting] behaviors and his way of speaking in What he Says and How He Says It seeming wrong to people.......like it’s only 15-ish min of content that we have here and we don’t have the least info about will’s own thoughts on the character but it’s like. how is this such an iconic Gay Autistic Quant b/c these vibes are so rare. and i appreciate that he can be ~difficult~ lmao. same with jared though i didn’t mention it. i can be difficult!! love it for us...

3) briony atkins from murder of bindy mackenzie as a character who Does act more like how i Usually Act Like lmao.....god we’re only on three i forgot there was seven of these. and yet i know there’s probably at least 2 dozen characters who could make this list and i just won’t think of most of them unless directly reminded......but anyways yeah i mean in person i mostly do Not want attention unless i feel comfortable enough / in my element or whatever. especially if it’d be some situation like “sitting in a group of randos” lol. i mean it depends b/c i also can sometimes be ~on~ in terms of Masking and trying to be like Haha I’m Social I’m Regular and i def engage in Nervous Chatter sometimes, but like, very often it’s like god don’t talk to me and i don’t want to talk either.....and then yeah people Will be surprised that like, idk, i’m opinionated as shit and idk that i Enjoy Things / Have Thoughts And Feelings coz the assumption i guess is that you must simply have nothing to say. so the dismissal of this person who seemingly has nothing to contribute and must be Boring rings true lmfao.....but then of course it’s also important that her personality Under that is the one getting mistaken for emily’s lol cuz yeah At Heart i am sure of that dramatic / intense / excitable type Sometimes. but it takes some excavation before i am like “oh i can engage in my actual self” and like weeks and months to get comfortable w/ people and i’m always suspicious that anyone actually would enjoy it and i’m not too much......i am a motormouth actually and have something to say about any and everything and like to Have Fun Here but like. idk i come off as boring and can be Notably Quiet lmao

4) oscar martinez from the office is weirdly [Haha Same] sometimes lmfao. sort of keeps to himself but also has to pipe up with Opinions and Pedantry and the kind of Drama of a restrained theatre gay. some deleted scene from an episode where during an interview clip of Jimothy in a theater lobby and you have oscar call from across the group in that [wearied Ugh God] way of ‘jim, they’re remaking ___’ while jim just kind of gives a cursory “wow gosh” or whatever and like, i sure don’t have lots of Theatre Opinions but that “oh jeez i have a Take on this and have to share it with someone” vibe is like hahaha yeah.....it’s funny in the “the gang goes to the ice rink for a third of the ep” bit where you just catch oscar doing [ice skating turn] with some solemn intensity.......the “here’s a question nobody’s asking: is this worth it” quote.........way at the end where there’s a whole deal with one of the indoor plants and he’s like “why is it a He” @ the collective gendering of the houseplant lmfao.......i love the one thing where he and pam and uhh toby right? have the Finer Things book club or whatever and jim wants to join just like ~ironically~ and pam has to tell him that oscar doesn’t want him to join b/c he’s not going to take it seriously and use it as a Jokes Vehicle. and then you get the scene at the end where jim Is basically doing that and they’re just like taking it out of him and oscar’s all very seriously like “did you get it all out of your system” lmfao like yeah, earnest members only lmao.....the thing where he gets mad at angela’s like Jazz Musician Posed Babies posters all “it’s kitsch it Destroys art” lmaoooo and in a totally different season all “this is the problem with debate” over the completely inconsequential “is [whichever actress, i forget] Hot” “”””debate””””.......the whole tendency to get involved and always have a take to get across.....opinionated-sometimes-to-the-point-of-petty central. also that he’s the canon gay, are there even any others? anyways and as the us office’s spiritual successor i’ll add on to this by uh what’s the name of billy eichner’s character on parks and rec? it’s craig right. that Self-Powered Intensity is very #me as well.

5) augh god........im like lmfao shit who represents my Hater Club side. hmmm. oh no wait you know what. totally different but i love Prof Beatrice Hotchkiss in the trt nancy drew pc game. she’s holed up in her room writing all the time and just is weird when you try to talk to her all like no i won’t open the door, bring me food, do this Research, bring me my Ski Boots i guess......and then when you do meet her it’s all at like post-midnight in the lounge and she’s all like, encouraging you as a Night Owl and your investigative curiosity and all and i’m like oh word yeah being up in the dead of night is the shit. she’s just weird and passionate and this is another character i might not Act hardly at all like but who i vibe with lmfao. hotchkiss was the supportive adult in my life

6) remembering how hotchkiss is a historian made me think of academia which made me think of like, once again with “these vibes are So So Rare” i really ought to put the wrol role of Nato on the list cuz like. that essential representation of “gets gr8 grades but isn’t really ~academic~ / doesn’t care about that and really just cares about Hanging W Friends and [real specific interests]” is like wow damn that’s the Mood. coz like to an extent i can always Relate to the ~overachiever~ types a la the [nerd character gets all-A’s and other nerd shit] deal, but there’s eventually the issue of like.....those characters like bindy mackenzies and alana becks Care about their achievements (not exclusively as some ppl would have it 9_9) and are Studious whereas i always hated school and was a godawful student in terms of Habits and always got good grades b/c the devil was with me or something and like people will think i must have tried real hard and dedicated myself to Academics and stuff and it’s like.........no................not at all hardly, sure i did my hw every night but at like 11:29 pm or studied for a midterm at lunch right before the class lol or flipped through a lil bit of the sat study guide the night prior.........the “low-effort dumbass who Academically Excels Anyhow” representation is so crucial like!! i run into a wall when it’s the Good Grades nerd character who is real studious and focused and stuff like. couldn’t be me. meanwhile the “naturally weird + probably some ‘deliberate’ weirdness” and “likes animals” and “most likely to just wanna Roll With It” and “shitty focus lol” and “non sequiturs” and “without [activity] i do nothing” is all like....ahahahohoho..........nato rly got to make this list. and honorable mention for Wrol Jeremy. again: whom doesn’t relate!!!!!!!!

7) damnit i know there’s So many answers to [characters i relate to] and whom cover like, more particular Facets here but i’m struggling lmao. Uh. like i’m like, who’s the Hot Mess / continually evolving disaster characters i vibe with......who’s the peak despresso detached Haters rep......who embodies the solo production lifestyle........dammit you know what lol i tend to Feel for like, the background ~nobodies~ who might just get like totally destroyed in some movie with life or death stakes just to like, show how much danger our heroes / Important Complex Protags are. same w/ jeremy not feeling like the Hero / the one who the story’s about / the cool guy / player 1 / etc etc etc i’m like oo i’d be the npc who doesn’t really do anything, i’d be the rando getting blown away in the background of someone else’s story. on a totally different note another shoutout / honorable mention to wybie from the coraline lmfao one of the best characters invented from thin air for an adaptation......tangentially relevant b/c he’s entirely here to support the protag / not his story at all, just here to help and prompt interactions / exposition really.......but love that [weird loner kid who’s best friend is a cat and annoys the other kid and doesn’t Get it and has specific interests and entertains himself and just is doing weird shit around here tf dude lmao killing it] like, #mood. #lifestyle. less dismal to relate to than the bg person who dies......his counterpart who totally dies is somewhat fleshed out / given Investment so it doesnt Really count as [background Nobody who’s really just fodder for “defining the stakes / threat level”] Character Concept

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

latkes maybe......Yummy

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Man, god, im just suddenly thinking about "ak/ur/oku" and like.. How the fuck did that even become such a huge thing in early 2000s fandom? Dear god so much early gay shipping in fandom was super unhealthy "sinful" bullshit made by straight people for fetishy purposes rather than genuine representation. But a/kurok/u was such a weird one because it was like.. Just globally accepted and never aknowledged to be problematic?? Man i still remember how lil 13 year old me didnt know there was anything wrong with it, like seriously when stuff like this becomes popularized it ends up sending bad messages to actual queer youth. Learning about your sexuality via the internet cos there's no sex ed irl for you, abd you end up stumbling into toxic fandoms before you have the critical thinking skills necessary to know that this stuff is bad and shouldnt be imitated. Like seriously one of the things i worry about EVERY NIGHT AT 2AM THAT KEEPS ME FROM SLEEPING is that stupid lil 15 year old me made a post on deviantart going like "are pedophiles really all bad? I mean it sounds like an illness. I mean maybe theyre just scared and they want help." Like im terrified constantly that someone will find that old thing and judge me as if i still believe that apologist crap, or as if it was actually an opinion i formed from a fully developed mind, rather than from a kid who (as far as i knew) had never met a pedophile, thinking about pedophiles in the abstract, while being influenced by fuckin pedophile-dominated fandoms and having NO IDEA. and of cooooourse i wanted to believe that i was mature for my age, i thought that was a compliment.. Uuuuugh...

Sorry, going a little offtopic there.

But anyway isnt it kinda weird how akur/oku was just.. Not even regarded as pedophilia? And when i was a kid it wasnt just me not understanding the gross parts of the fandom, i legit never thought axel was that much older than roxas. And it was one of the more popular gay ships cos at that point as far as we knew it was the only person axel had any sort of backstory with, and he cared so much about this guy that he was willing to sacrifice his life to help sora even when he knew roxas would never come back. At the time without further context it seemed like a reasonable assumption to make? And it wasnt until Days that i realized axel was intended to be an adult rather than a teenager, and even worse A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO MADE THAT SHIPPING ART KNEW THAT. Uuugh it was so gross in retrospect to go back and see all the clues i missed that these people were fetishizing roxas's inexperience and veey much writing him as underage. AAAAAAA!

Anyway im glad that shit is now recognized as shit and now we have canon evidence of this dude being old as balls. And honestly i love the relationship of him as a big brother/dad to roxas and xion a lot more, even though as a kid i was desperate for any kind of queer representation in kh. Like.. I never really actually liked the ship that much or felt any chemistry? I just latched onto a few bad writing flubs that could potentially be interpreted as Gay Evidence because i was SO damn desperate! Like i felt like i had to support all these gross abusive ships in fandom cos if i wasnt then i was being 'homophobic', i mean they were THE ONLY AVAILABLE OPTIONS, right? :( Its only now ive grown up i can see how wrong that was, and how people just used it as an excuse to make gross shit and get away with it. Like how in Black Butler all these 'yaoi fangirls' kept erasing the rarest of rare things, a canon trans woman, because 'its sexier if its gay'. Ughhhh. And seriously that discourse still exists for poor Grell, and there's still a lot of these shitty bigoted people pretending to be allies, but like seriously this was EVERYWHERE in 2005! And lgbt rights and even lgbt communities at all were way smaller and less available to the poor teenagers who really needed that positive influence while they were figuring out who they are. So man the abusive side of yaoi fandom was WAY more powerful, and wya more.mainstream, with barely any criticism. And the whole content of this fandom was creepy fuckin adults making pedo porn, and kids who just discovered they were queer and tried to headcanon their favourote characters as being like them. Fucking predator heaven! So yeh that ruined KH for me and definately made me scared of returning to Black Butler for almost a decade. And then i found out that the manga itself has none of that pedo shit and that one of the fandom's biggest abusive gay man archetypes was actually a trans woman this entire time, and just gahhhhh....

Also like seriously this is a tad offtopic but can we kill the anime trope of either everyone looking young or everyone looking old? Or creepy things where just one character looks the wrong age in order to fetishize pedophilia? I dont think kingdom hearts was one of those intentional ones, like i mean there's super bad shit where its like 'this 5 year old looking person is really 9000 years old/actually 18 and just hasnt had their growth spurt yet' (somehow its even more insulting when theres not even a magical excuse) Or the other way around and we have a character thats canonically underage but drawn looking sexually mature with big ol knockers so its somehow okay. The existence of those horrible things is why i end up feeling uncomfortable even seeing ambiguous ages as just a trope in completely innocent anime, yknow? Like in pokemon and digimon all the 10 year old protagonists are exactly the same height as all the adults, and all the female love interests for ash have to be early bloomers in terms of chest and hips, while notably Iris is the only one who actually looks her age and also the first non love interest. Its another reason why i prefer the new art style for the latest season, they make everyone look like kids and Lillie continues to look like a kid even though she's the main girl and has all the cute scenes with Ash. The girls even got very normal looking kiddy swimsuits in the beach episode! Why is that so uncommon, to find the bare minimum thing of underage kids not being sexualized at the beach??

Soooooo yeah, thats at least part of why kid me thought axel and roxas were within a similar age range. Like i thought roxas was maybe 16 and axel was 18?? Somehow?? I dont even know, kingdom hearts isnt even SUPER bad with the 'kids look like older teens,all adults look like age 20 at the most' anime syndrome. Its probably more because id been raised on games and anime that followed that trope, before i played kh. And as a kid you just dont really know the exact differences between 'old', like i mean i knew teenagers were tall and boys get a growth spurt, so somehow it made sense to me that axel could be the same age as roxas?? And man even if i knew he wasnt, i was barely educated at all about pedophilia and i didnt know the nuances of it. I just knew 'its bad for adults to marry kids' like man i was really behind the curve in general learning due to my undiagnosed autism and abusive parenting so like HERE'S 12 YEAR OLD ME NOT EVEN THINKING ABOUT THE SEX ASPECT. And i didnt know that adults in relationships with teenagers was bad too, or like 16/17 year old teens dating kids... I was so fuckin dumb... I really cant believe that not only did i believe stupid adults saying 'pedophilia isnt bad if you're non offending, its okay to make cartoon child porn as long as you dont physically abuse real kids' but also i somehow just DID NOT EVER REALIZE that axel was an adult and roxas wasnt even a goddamn older teen...

So yeh im making a lot of excuses for why my stupid younger self was blindly parroting bullshit, but im not trying to excuse how goddamn wrong and bad it was. I still wake up ashamed in the middle of the night for crapoy decisions i made as a dumb kid, and in terrified that some shreds of it might still exist out there on the internet and maybe someone else could read it?! Gahhhh! Seriously could i have accidentally helped spread that bullshit brainwashing to other kids? And seriously when people say this shit is harmless they just need to look at this, look at how being into problematic yaoi is such a common 'phase' for ACTUAL CHILDREN. Like its not fuckin NATURAL for kids to fall into this stuff, they do it because they dont know any better but the people making the goddamn founding blocks of the fandom are fuckin grown women fetishizing gay men or grown men fetishing lesbians. There's people who do know better who actually conciously decide that a/kurok/u is a good ship while knowing all the goddamn details of what it actually is and exactly what theyre supporting by shipping it. Ughhhhh!

So yeh fuckin Please Stay Safe In Fandom, Kids

And pedophiles have absolutely none of my sympathy, please ignore that goddamn shit i wrote as a little kid being fuckin groomed by a fandom without even knowing it.

This also applies a lot to the rest of LGBT+ aside from just gay shipping, like seriously it took me til age 18 to find any positive representation of trans people or even a proper explanation of what being trans is, yet before i was even 8 years old i'd seen a million 'lol gross man in a dress who gets sexual gratification from wearing women's underwear' jokes in kids shows. And when i was 12 i'd already been exposed to the fuckin hell of m/pre/g thanks to its prevelance of untagged n/sf/w shit in the kh fandom. And by age 15 i'd been exposed to pedophile apologists arguing whether child porn was okay if they only got off to that and didnt personally abuse that kid with their own hands. All of that shit but actually learning about homosexuality and gender in sex ed would have been 'too much' for someone my age...

God what a fuckin mess. Fuck im really really fuckin worried that any of my ignorant comments at those ages could have been read by other ignorant kids and contributed to that disgusting fandom atmosphere. Fuck i think about this so damn often im so damn ashamed of how ignorant i used to be yet i know the adult fuckfaces making pedo shit never reel one lick of shame any damn day of their life. I used to excuse their shit as an actual kid cos i just ASSUMED they would be ashamed and want to seek help! Gahhhh..

[lizardswithoutlegs]

HOOOOOWOWOAH BOY

ART ASKS

when i walk into a building i get to eat everybodys pencils and they cant say no

do it 

( also thanks for asking ! ) 

itd bother me a lot less if everybody came to my apartment and took one of these beautiful eggs

YEAH UNFORTUNATELY IM STILL..... WORKING THROUGH THE SAME WAITLIST but im comparatively REAL CLOSE to being done with it and i should be opening up sometime later in...... the Year

Boy Have I

theres This messy thing from a while back and then also

THIS, from even FURTHER back, when i didnt realize how fucking RED all the outlines on my things were because of the monitor i was using, two for the price of one

why not both

i do Not but it you ever see me walking on the street please throw handfuls of teeth at me theyre the only things my wretched body can digest and im always hungry

OH MAN ok so, an art telephone game is based on, of course, the game telephone, where one person says a phrase and then whispers it to the next person, and so on and on until the person at the very end says whatever they heard and if its done right the final sentence is wildly different than what you started with

an ART telephone game is the same kind of concept, except one person draws out a scene or character, and then other artists draw THEIR interpretation of whats going on, and so forth until the last person can end up with something COMPLETELY different than what the first scene was

youd think thered be less room for error with drawings, but as each person ONLY sees what the person ahead of them has made, they can get PRETTY OUT THERE - im gonna be a part of pythosarts game, and theyve done a couple of em before - for example one round started with THESE as the first two drawings

and then fourteen interpretations later, ended up with these as the final two

its good its real good

I Cant Control Where Bigfoot Goes, I Can Only Take Note Of Where Hes Been

YEAH, sort of ! on the main, iguanamouth, i have a bunch of different tags for art depending on what they are but not really a catchall one, BUT i do have an art only blog where everything gets tossed over ! 

HONESTLY THE ADVICE i got is basically what all art advice is gonna boil down to eventually - you gotta just. do it. you gotta DO it

absolutely nobody you know who draws things well started out at the level theyre currently at, and putting down the things youre visualizing onto paper is a combination of getting the the technical aspects down as much as getting the idea in your head

and that goes with figuring out anatomy and how bodies are put together ! ive got to use references for a Million things,. especially the dragon hoards - theres absolutely nothing wrong with using references for your drawings ! and being able to create accurate representations of things without looking is something that comes more with drawing something over and over and memorizing the body shape more than just, feeling like you should KNOW how to do something

so dont beat yourself up for needing references. if youre trying to shy away from them a little bit but still cant make something look nice without em, try using several different reference photos to put together an entirely different pose ? 

theres ALSO the SHRIMP METHOD, which is great for practicing and getting good at one particular thing - this probably isnt SUPER HELPFUL but good luck ! 

god i tried. exactly ONCE maybe fourish years ago but it wasnt art, i was trying to stream the lion king movie and i had no idea what i was doing, i didnt realize i needed to wear headphones so the sound wouldnt snowball into a feedback loop of my own voice that never ended but i kept laughing and it kept distorting worse and worse, like the audio version of saving and resaving something as a jpeg

it was just me and my friend ronni in the stream and ONE other person who never left and never said anything and i kept addressing them out loud like WHO ARE YOU and that only compounded the noise problem and eventually i gave up

anyway i havent tried since

i uhhhhh dont think i COULD, really - fear especially is something thats kind of subjective and one persons Big Terror could be neutral or even cute to another person

like for me i used to have a lot of childhood fears about the ocean, and how deep and dark and vast it was, to the point where i couldnt play a lot of water levels in video games, even ( but i had almost drowned several times when i was Very young which probably had, a little somethin to do with that )

maybe sometime ill try to explore things IM afraid of, but its hard to encompass a psychological response in an image !! could be a fun experiment, though ! !

a few PLANT ANIMAL AZKZ, HUH, DONT HAVE A WORKING Z KEY

SHIT DUDE THESE ARE... SO GOOD thats the official name EVEN IF i didnt use. a daffodil as the flower base. it doesnt matter 

yes

i got A BUNCH of flower and plant themed suggestions and theyre all REALLY GOOD ( way more than these ) but straight up im taking a break from em for a while - if anybody is else is reading this though you should definitely tackle one of em

WASABI ASKS

Do Not Feed Animals The Paste

i keep going back to read this ask because you could replace wasabi with my name and its the exact same. its the same. i feel like i have to hide somewhere

this was real and this is the award they gave us

there were other awards but the judges refused to give them out. they burned them in front of the other dogs. we won

it depends on the age ! wasabis pretty much an adult, so her sheds are pretty infrequent ( usually once every 7-8 months ) BUT when she was still growing back like 6 years ago, she would do a full-body shed every other month !

wasabi accepts tokens of appreciation in the form of : fruit, green beans. No Exceptions

i would never seperate wasabi from her hands

absolutely..... not. not even a little bit h h hh a this isnt a disney animal companion, i dont even know what “kind of like a dog” means with , a lizard who cant make any vocalizations or get up on their hind legs or NOTHIN sometimes if i hold a piece of fruit on my hand and she reaches for it she gets confused on whats what and tries to bite my fingers instead

ONCE WHEN SHE was attacking her reflection in a mirror i put my hand in front of her face to break eye contact and she SUNK HER TEETH RIGHT IN THERE but immediately let go like “oh whoops”

lissten . . .  wasabi is so sharp, just absolutely everywhere, and these are the sharpest. the grabbers

heres a lil battle damage from earlier today actually

this is pretty tame BUT the long long lines are from claws, and the thinner, closer together ones are from holding her and her scales scraping against the skin. so not even just the Body is completely safe ! this is not an animal youre gonna wanna get your face real close to if theyre in a walkin mood

she doesnt even MEAN to scratch the shit outta me, its just kind of a byproduct of being a big tree lizard. her tail is absolutely the worst thing to get hit by though. the WORST. lucky me she doesnt attack anything that isnt a dog or a vacuum cleaner or her own reflection

ahhh i got her when i was 16 ! and i dont know her exact age but she was somewhere between 3-6 months when i get her - SHES probably closer to 9 years, but ive had her for about 8

LENGTH THOUGH...... the last time i measured her she was just barely under four and a half feet, but that was a few months ago and its possible shes. Just Slightly larger. shes currently sleeping as i type this so i guess we will never know

duel me

too late for coats..... its all tail action now

ROCK ASKS AND ALSO ASKS ABOUT PUTTING ROCKS IN YOUR MOUTH

oh MAN i feel you . . . . . . . . . . i dont think i could actually Bear To Eat any for real but some of em. just. they. i gotta. just. bite on em a LITTLE just a little bit, a tiny bit, a nibble

when i was real young i used to tap things against my teeth to tell what kind of substance they were made of based on the feeling/hardness/density WHATEVER and i still sometimes do it when im checking stuff out and. it uhhhhh sure is interesting finding out not a lot of people did that

a handful of these delicious raw agates, just for you

please stop spying on me

i DO NOT but you may eat this piece of bornite

meet me at the airport and ill cover your bus fair

theres a lotta different ways to figure out what kind of rocks you got but when you have absolutely no clue on where to start your best bet is to search for the biggest distinctive features of it, and try to narrow it down based on the results

like for something like these pieces of chalcedony, you could try “waxy green translucent mineral”, and from the search results find a few candidates that might be what you have on hand, and then look into each one to see if you can get a definite answer 

ive got a handful of rock and mineral guide books that i always pick through whenever i snag something im not sure of, and if youre REAL into it those are always something you could start keeping an eye out for 

now this is a REAL superficial way to telling what something is and wont be useful for a good chunk of minerals ( as a lot of samples can look really close to something else ) and THIS is a much more in depth way of telling something apart, but its also a lot more time consuming ! so good luck. and good eating.

Just Try And Fucking Stop Me

ANIMAL ASKS THAT ARENT............ ABOUT MY LIZARD

im married to this one actually

fuck. ok. heres. a secret. a In the ask Post secret. wasabi goes through a period that lasts a month every single year where she carries eggs in her gut, and spends that month not eating and digging around in everything, trying to find the right spot to lay these eggs. and. when it happens i never know what to do with them, and i dont want to just THROW THEM AWAY so i. eat them. i eat the eggs. i fuckin eat the eggs dude

Theyre All Goddesses

unless you plan on having your lizard roam around outside whenever they want, the outside environment doesnt really matter much for most reptiles as long as you set their habitat up right ! BUT i do know that australia has bans on certain reptiles ( iguanas are one of them ) and so youre gonna have to look up whats actually available in that area 

 bearded dragons are native and those are always a good option, but so are a lot of geckos - its really gonna depend on what youre into ( but i dont really recommend anoles if thats an option, because theyre fast as Hell and dont like being handled )

what the fuck is a bee

oh geez im sorry ! i remember going through this with spiders a lot when i was younger to the point where looking at photos of em used to be a fuckin, TRIAL 

you could try a really gradual exposure deal, where you start off with getting comfortable with just images, and slowly working your way to dealing with one in a controlled setting ( like a petstore, maybe ? not HANDLING em or anything, but just being near one in a way where its absolutely impossible for them to touch you )

the shitty thing about this kind of phobia is that even if you KNOW its irrational theres sometimes not a lot you can do about it, but if you can stand looking at photos of them you could try learning up about them, and finding out the types of species youre likely to encounter around your house, and seeing how many ( if any ) are ones you should avoid ?

i know some people that have major problems with snakes are because theyre unsure if the ones they find are poisonous or not, and it might go a long way to confirm that the reptiles you meet wont be able to harm you even if they TRIED ( which is gonna be the case with a lotta house geckos, they cant do SHIT youre a GIANT )

very VERY few lizards have venomous bites, and the worst most of em can do is give you a bloody finger if theyre large enough, and even then its usually not much worse than a cat scratch !

still though, if youre really serious about trying to get past this, dont force yourself too quick into what you think you SHOULD be, and take tiny steps outta your comfort level when you can

this probably isnt uhhh SUPER helpful hh hhah but good luck !  shit im going through this post and its like ALL reptile photos. im sorry

i feel about them, with my hands

MMM it shouldnt HURT them unless theres something Really wrong, considering its a natural procession of growth, BUT its definitely itchy as hell, to the point where reptiles trying to remove it will drag their bodies over stones or walls tryin to get it off

sometimes wasabi drags her whole hind foot over her head like a dog to get it off and it is. a Sight

ahhh honestly there arent a lotta reptiles thatre gonna do much more than TOLERATE the touch and not really, enjoy it, like a dog or cat or bird

but speaking from experience with wasabi, youll probably want to avoid most the head and stick with the top of the back near the sides - wasabi doesnt enjoy having her tail messed with much either, but shes ok with her dewlap and feet being touched

the most important thing to keep an eye out for when youre touching one is their body language, because  THATS gonna be a dead giveaway for whether you need to back off or not

closing their eyes is a sign of stress, not enjoyment ! same with tilting the head back, but if thats ALL theyre doing then youre probably not gonna face any retaliation

B U T if theyve got an extended dewlap with a raised body or tail off the ground, not a good idea to interact with em ! thats a defensive posture, and you risk getting hit with a tail or even bitten if your hand gets too close

youve got more to risk with males, who are way more territorial and generally larger, but if they seem pretty chill when you approach and dont stand up and stare at you, youre probably in the clear

COCK of the ROCK

I HAVE im so jealous of anybody whos got to see one in person - actually handling one is a level beyond that which i could even comprehend

OTHER THINGS.....

no but i was bit by a pigeon once

this is the only joke i know

i fuckin WISH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayy im into it - honestly i havent been following the band so much as just kinda, picking up whatever anybody else mentions and so my knowledge on Gorillaz Lore is pretty uhhhh h hh h scattered but im definitely interested in seeing where this goes

i remember watching the first and second season and it being pretty good - some of the episodes and jokes are hit and miss but you absolutely got me with the creature and alien design

havent seen any of the third season yet though !

i mean the fruit ones could be pretty up there 

how bout. an abstract concept. who cares about physical forms wheres the dragon of melancholy 

why come theres nothing to eat in my apartment but bread. im good otherwise but its all just bread

i havent watched either of em in YEARS and YEARS but i distinctly remember. these lil dancing mushrooms

oh wait FUCK 

FUCK !!!!!!!!!

no... NO.... she is not allowed to eat ANYTHING from the plan shelf, try as she MIGHT

im a little mad that this sill isnt bigger because the only other one that gets sun is in my room and wasabi WIll... absolutely eat those. no doubt. a convenient and expensive salad, for my awful gremlin 

god im looking at these and its all jade plants isnt it

little golden books taste the best but they can make you sick if you have too many at once. my favorite genre for snacking is sci fi fantasy but anything over 300 pages tends to get a little tough if you dont break it up with smaller chunks. non fictions always a gamble because the taste is wildly different each time but you can usually tell how ripe it is by the cover color

ayy im already a big fan of some of their stuff, ive got a couple songs from them in my music tag - im especially into i miss you and their shut up and bring it here remix

TOP FIVE THINGS

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this is barely related but once i filled up a bathtub with water and then dumped about ten bags worth of mint tea into it and then just. soaked around in the tea. listen it was really nice. id try the cheese

i dont have any ships but i was on one of those model pirate boats once for a school trip. our boat was named naruto and the other one was named sasuke and the captains shouted “make them kiss” and ran them into each other. everybody on board drowned

youre trying to trick me into googling yoshi without shoes and its not going to work

me reading this message from the safety of my apartment :

nice try, but wrong again ! : )

THIS IS GOOD info, thank you

oh SHIT the other side of paradise, take a slice, life itself, and season 2 episode 3 are all my Big Faves

the way you phrased this makes me think you already have a strong opinion on it

hey uh. coming from a person who was absolutely CONVINCED that theyd be dead in the future when they were 12, a not insignificant part of that was me feeling that there was something irreversibly wrong with me for not behaving or acting in certain ways based on what was going downstairs

and obviously im still HERE but it means i can understand how devastatingly terrible it can feel when youre that young and it seems like the way you behave and feel are flawed, or dirty, and anything that can lessen that feeling and make you comfortable in your own body is huge, can save your life

not that im saying its always a LIFE OR DEATH decision !

i guess if youre viewing it as adults forcing a child into making decisions that you dont think theyre capable of understanding its easy to be hesitant about getting behind it, but nobody is forcing a child to be trans. nobody has tricked them into feeling this way. you cant just walk in and get started on treatment on an immediate whim - some programs require 2 YEARS of concrete evidence before theyll even consider it

i feel like you should try speaking to the parents of trans children before you really put down a concrete opinion on whether this is a good or bad thing, and seeing the difference ( if any ) its made in their lives 

people whove detransitioned, or found they had ultimately a different identity than the one they were exploring could also be an avenue to look intto ! i have several acquaintances who, after a period of years, found they werent trans but wouldnt take back the time where they were figuring out if they were, and i know this doesnt invalidate the friends i have who ARE 

ultimately this is what it boils down to for me : Its Sure Gotta Beat Being Dead

i WILL give you that ive definitely seen a lot of overreactions to seemingly innocuous topics on this website

but youve also got to keep in mind that everybody who is saying these things MEANS them, and to them theres a completely reasonable explanation to why they feel that way

im not saying you should blindly accept any criticism you get, but to instead try to get a grasp on WHY theyre responding the way they are instead of immediately dismissing it

its because i cant drive and they wont let me sit in the front on account of the smell

NICE THINGS

AHHHH I GOT.. a bunch of other really sweet messages to the point where id feel weird about putting em ALL UP BUT... IF YOU SENT ME SOMETHING i can promise i absolutely saw it and it made my day better and just, holy shit, thank you for taking time out of your life to say anything to me at all

because you didnt have to, even a little bit

youre all beautiful and im kissing you on the mouths all at once. no take backs

[adlunametadastra]

I Have a Few Questions!

As a former curator of an insanely popular classy & kinky erotica tumblr (I closed mine down like 8 months before tumblr begun its purge of the kink), I have a bone to pick with issues of consent, diversity depiction/representation, and double standards regarding expectations. Buckle up, knuckle draggers (lovingly), because the shitstorm has arrived!!! 

1. Why...pronounced H-whyyyy, do internet “men” (used loosely) turn to porn and paid entertainers to determine and define what consent and sexual enjoyment is or isn’t...for WOMEN??? If you pay a person enough, they will act as if they genuinely enjoy doing what you’re paying them for BECAUSE THEY ARE BEING PAID!! Not to say that these actors may not enjoy the work; there are plenty of testimonials post-coitus to support the notion that a lot of them do in fact enjoy their adult entertainment, but it must be cleared that they are also ACTING. ACTING IS NOT ALWAYS AN ACCURATE REPRESENTATION OF REALITY!! IT IS ALL ABOUT PERCEPTION!!!

I bring this one up to discuss the act of erotic asphyxiation, aka “choking” or “breath play”. It looks sexy, but it is actually quite dangerous. One wrong hand placement (It has to be right below the jawline or you risk damaging/snapping the hyoid bone which connects the head to your neck/throat) and you can genuinely strangle someone to death. It should only be a slight exertion of pressure, a light squeeze, and only be done between two people with immense trust for each other because a life is on the line. Literally.

This act ties into consent because it is wrong to assume that anyone and everyone enjoys choking simply because you see it depicted in erotica and porn all of the time. For instance, I was born with the birthing cord around my neck. I was born choking. It was wrapped so much so that it had to be cut off so I could breathe after just having been born. Let that sink in. My mum randomly told me this a couple of months ago and she added, “yeah that’s why you never liked anything around your neck. No high neck sweaters, short necklaces, and you can’t psychologically swallow pills.” It is because I came into this world nearly dying from essentially a biological noose around my neck and throat that I am violently against anyone putting anything around or near my neck and throat. And to this day, I also am unable to swallow pills. I will fight, maim, and/or KILL anyone who tries to choke me. It is not a joke.

I say this because you would learn information such as this if you simply got to know a person why also seeking their respect, friendship, and consent.

2. Am I the only one who is upset at ONLY seeing white women and men (and stupidly skinny white women at that) in the classiest, most romantic and sensually depicted erotica? I would love to see a dashing white man kissing, caressing, or cuddling a gorgeous curvy Black woman, Asian, Hispanic, or even Indigenous women. We all possess forms of conventional and unconventional beauty. I also want to see Hispanic, Asian, Indigenous, Black and other types of men depicted and mixed in with said lasses, too. No one should be left out!

How am I, a curvy and short woman of mixed race & ethnicity, supposed to feel assured about my ultimate fantasy of being seduced all classy kinky sensual and passionate-like, if I can’t even see such pairings actually happening? All of these handsome men (I tend to naturally gravitate towards White men, European preference, but I plan to sample every flavor of man that walks this earth..hehe...yep i said it, come at me...lol) that exist and follow me, STEP IT UP!!! IM TIRED OF HEARING, I WANT TO SEE! I NEED TO EXPERIENCE THIS!!! COME OUT OF THE CLOSET AND PURSUE!!!

3. This leads to my third and final grudge regarding existing double standards when it comes to appearances in both erotica and porn, and how they tend to provoke the idea that women have to be petite, lithe/slender/slim, dress sexily, all done up, etc., while the average man has a (sometimes huge ass) beer belly, smelly hair, and no general desire to strive above mediocrity. This man, as average, below average, and gross as he is, has the NERVE to demand that women he interacts with to be porn star goddesses whose sole focus is to suck his dick 24/7 with red lip lacquer that doesn’t transfer and leave marks behind. 

First off, FUCK YOU AND THE HILL YOU WILL DIE AND DECOMPOSE ON!

Second, lmao go back to your mom’s basement playing the latest Call of Duty release, where you belong, you knuckle dragging troglodyte. In general society, like attracts like. Even if a woman isn’t skinny (curvy/plus size), if she is GORGEOUS, dresses well, and overall has her shit together, she will indeed end up attracting men like Idris Elba, Colton Underwood, Daniel Dae Kim, and the hot dad on Jane The Virgin, because they recognize a good woman when they see her.

I myself speak four languages aside from English (Spanish, Italian, Latin, and Portuguese); I am finishing up one degree in May and will head off to my next one in August, making three degrees under my belt; I adhere to a plant-based diet; I am a virgin and I couldn’t give two fucks what anyone thinks about it because this bitch is accomplished AF and demands only the best so i have no issue with holding out until I am approached by the best; am I skinny? Never will be, but I know that my legs look damn good in heels, my breasts look AH-MAY-ZING in bras/bra-less dresses & tops, and I overall look amazing in jeans skirts and trousers. I’ve won talent shows for singing and dancing; I am about to graduate Magna Cum Laude with invitations to three honours societies and scholarships to cover everything I’ll need for graduate school in Scotland, because I worked hard for and earned it. In other words, I am a catch and I fucking know it. I will never, NOT EVER, settle for less, and to call me delusional or say that i’m searching for the impossible is not only factually incorrect, it is offensive. Get your shit together, then come and play with the grown ups, ok?

This has been my Ted Talk.

[weedconsortium2]

If you’ve never listened to Chris Webby’s music–you should. In a world where the hip-hop arena is dominated by trappers and mumble rappers with tattoos on their faces and little substance to their lyrics, Webby’s well-rounded bars shine like a beacon in the dark.

Webby became a viral star last year after dropping an amazing freestyle over Dr. Dre’s “What’s The Difference” during an interview with Sway Calloway on SiriusXM. He killed it, dissing “new school” MCs and slaying crooked policy-makers:

Remember the name, C-Web, I spit sickly, I got my competition breathing hard as Chris Christie.

Beyond free-styling, Webby is a great writer. A good intro to his music can be found in his “Raw Thoughts” series, a rap trilogy where he lists all the people he does not like and explains his reasons. In the first song of this trilogy, Webby puts “scummy politicians”—as he calls them—to shame.

It’s hard not to crack up over his slick burns, as he calls the former anti-weed Attorney General Jeff Sessions an “old Smurf,” promising to “light up a doobie” on his “turf.”

As one explores Webby’s music, it’s obvious this guy is all about weed. His albums Homegrown, The Checkup, and Wednesday all feature marijuana leaves on the cover art. Webby also recorded a few odes to pot, with his recent song “Sativa” featuring famous stoner B-Real of Cypress Hill:

This sh*t is sublime. Hit it and lift up your mind. The most specific of kinds, Particular strains I’m smoking during daytime Got me feeling high and energetic at the same damn time.

Feeling the urge to talk weed with this verbose, pot-loving rapper, High Times hit up Webby to meet up.

Webby’s Love of Weed

Webby says he grew up in a weed-friendly house. His dad was a musician, and his mom was a middle school teacher. They were respected members of the community and enjoyed a good ol’ joint every once in a while.

“I caught them when I was really young and, obviously, at the time they didn’t want me to smoke weed,” Webby tells High Times. “So, when they caught me in the eighth grade, they scolded me. They were right too. They explained my brain wasn’t done forming yet. Weed is for adults.”

But, as he got older, his love of pot could no longer be contained or hidden.

“Nowadays, I smoke weed with my parents,” he says. “I think that being in that sort of a household allowed me to realize marijuana isn’t a bad thing and that people like my mom, a school teacher for more than 30 years, a pillar of society, could use it and still be good, productive people.”

Over time, Webby didn’t just develop a love of weed and a passion for advocacy, he also developed a deep understanding of the strains that best work for him.

“There’s no doubt that different types of weed will put you in different types of places,” he says. “I have my bedtime weed, I have [my] when-I-want-to-write weed, I have a nice sativa for when it’s creative time, and a nice heavy indica when I’m ready to go to bed and just need something to help me get there.”

Best. Joint. Ever

Over a long conversation, Webby discussed politicians, opioids, his ADHD and use of Adderall, and many other topics. At one point, we decided to go for a classic cannabis enthusiast question: What’s the story of the best joint you’ve ever smoked?

“Well, that one’s a thinker,” he says. “Let me think for a while. In the meantime, let me tell you the story about the guy who taught me how to roll a joint. I was in high school and I went on vacation with my buddy Nick to an island called Bequia, in the Caribbean. It’s a very small island and his family knew somebody who lived there, so we went and stayed with them.”

“I remember we would walk around this island, we met everybody, and we befriended this young Rasta named Linton. I would say was probably about 25 [years-old] or so. Linton was the fucking man. He showed us around a bunch of nights and he was always rolling joints. Up to this point, I had remained pretty unsuccessful at rolling a good joint. Linton broke it down for me and he not only taught me how to roll a joint, [but] he also taught me how to roll a joint while on the move. We walked around town and he had me rolling joints until I got it right.”

“To this day, I still use Linton’s rolling technique.”

‘Yo, Hillary’

Moving away from cannabis, we returned to “Raw Thoughts” rap. In that song, Webby does not only destroys Jeff Sessions, but he also incinerates other well-known conservative politicians like Ted Cruz (whose face puts him in a “crappy mood”) and former Environmental Protection Agency Administrator Scott Pruitt—promising to “build a pipeline through his wooden kitchen cabinets.” At one point, Webby unexpectedly recites:

But, yo, Hillary. Really? You think that I wouldn’t mention you Just ’cause I tend to be liberal with all my general views? But you’re an evil lady; [I’ll] say it ’cause I got to. I’m down to have a woman President. Just not you! You Claire Underwood-ass bitch, you wicked witch Lyin’ through your fuckin’ teeth every single chance that you get…

We asked if he was really down to have a woman president. After all, “Raw Thoughts II” is a feminist-as-hell song:

Bill O’Reilly says he’s sorry but really none of us buy it, You can’t pay me off like all of those women to keep me quiet. Who cares if he denies it, I’ll still come for him… I’ll teach that old prick to treat women with respect When I jam a pair of stainless steel scissors in his neck… Old, gross, and crusty, outdated, and rusty, Out of shape and husky. Do you know how to tell if Bill O’Reilly’s near? When you hear a woman scream: “Don’t touch me!”

“Absolutely,” he unhesitantly responded. “I think a female in the White House could be a great thing. I think that Hillary Clinton is a very poor representation of what a female in America truly is; I think she is a corrupt politician like the rest of them… And, at that point, why even put a gender on it?”

“She is the same as them,” he continues. “She is a horrible person and horrible people cannot be defined by male and female. But I think a woman in the White House could actually be a great thing. I think women think differently [and] tend to be more compassionate [and] tend to sit back and think before they act a little bit more than testosterone-driven men… There are there are differences between men and women. I’m all for equal everything, but beyond all that there is the difference between a man and a female, going back to what we are as a species, before all this society stuff came into play.”

So, what about women in cannabis? What makes the cannabis industry more receptive to women? Why are there more C-Suite female executives in cannabis than in most other industries?

“I think the marijuana industry just attracts a lot of people like us; just cooler individuals who are just with it… Of course, women can be in charge of stuff. For me, that’s a no brainer.

“I think that’s one of the coolest things about marijuana: it brings cool people together. Through my life I’ve met some of the most incredible people through just smoking a joint.”

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April 12th, 2018 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on April 12th, 2018, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on The Robonoid Fan by Mharz.

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✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

COMIC TEA PARTY START!

Good day everyone~! This week’s Comic Tea Party is now officially beginning~! Today we are discussing The Robonoid Fan by Mharz~! (http://robonoid.mharz.com/) For those new or in need of a reminder, discussions about the comic are freeform, so please feel free to bring up whatever you wish. However, every 30 minutes I will be dropping in a discussion question to help those who would like a prompt. These questions are totally OPTIONAL to answer, and you can pay them no mind if you wish. If you miss out on any though, they’ll be pinned for the duration of the chat once they’re posted~! Remember, constructive criticism is allowed, but the primary focus here is to have fun and appreciate the amazing comics that the community makes~! As a bonus, each chat a top comment will be picked and featured in the archives and on an ad for CTP! All that being said, let’s get started and have a great discussion!

QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?

snuffysam

The end is probably my favorite part. It's a sad ending, but it really shows how Meirin was able to change, and Shin wasn't.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i....i didnt even get to pin it before you replied

✨Respheal✨

snuffy was READY

🌟Draco Plato🌟

I liked seeing Meirin at work in the beginning, it reminded me of how fun interacting with customers was

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i liked the illustration for the end. there was something really melancholy about the composition

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

YO IS IT TIME FOR A MHARZ COMIC TO BE IN A CTP?

StickFreeks

I liked the ending too! It was a neat twist, I really wasn't expecting it.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yeah the ending was pretty good

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Oooh, boy. I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT MY FAVORITE SCENE IN THIS I agree, it's the end scene. AAAAAAAAAAA Shin. Shin. Booooooooooooooooi. I was SO glad Meirin didn't respond in the affirmative for Shin. He was kind of a butt. I mean, he had potential for growth, but clearly didn't. AND I'm really honestly curious who the person he <Spoilered> was to him, and what relation they had. I wanna know!! But Shin, that doesn't... excuse anything.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

@draco meirin at work reminded me more of the parts of work where professionally jealousy is concerned even though your rivals are also your friends cause work politeness or something

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Also I read the epilogue in the book and let me tell you I felt so much better after reading it but also Shin never changes let me tell you

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Can i just say Shin has really nice hair

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

(OK, yes he does, but only when forced by circumstance)

StickFreeks

I had the idea that he got fired / replaced by somebody and that's what the drama was that led to his actions.

🌟Draco Plato🌟

@Rebel yeah there was that aspect of it too~

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

THAT SAID -- I also kind of wanted to see the two of them get together up until that last scene.

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i thought shin needed therapy XD

son plz calm down

✨Respheal✨

@StickFreeks I agree: http://robonoid.mharz.com/comic/56

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Ahaha. Oh, I Thought that was the case, but was the replacement the same person that caused him to get arrested?

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Damn adults.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i think it is implied its the same person maybe

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

And poor Shin, all the hell he goes through

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i mean its the logical conclusion to make

StickFreeks

I think he deserved his end, I didn't really feel bad for him.

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

my favorite was merin watching robonoid, i'm sucker for that henshin stuff(edited)

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i liked that too delta

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i have to agree that was my fave scene. i liked watching meirin get legit excited about it and i liked she changed her opinion on the show just being for kids

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yeah, it's pretty cute

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin is adorable, though

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

@Kabo (I know right?)

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

henshin shows can get fuckin dark, like garo and the OG kamren rider, they aint just for kids

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yus she is adorable~

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

^^^^^

Delta's right

StickFreeks

I couldn't tell if Shin was emulating Robonoid's hair or if they just had the same hair, but I was convinced that he was the "real" Robonoid for a good while.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

hahaha i thought that too. that shin was like the va or something and thats what he did for work XD

🌟Draco Plato🌟

same

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

he was probably emulating it, i know if i could wear a kamen rider helmet everyday i would

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

kek

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

gotta represent your favorite stuff

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yus

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

^^^

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I dunno, Shin was pretty rich. I think he WAS the actor. :3

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

maybe he was, we could ask mharz later

StickFreeks

I thought he was blowing all his money after getting fired. XD

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i partly assumed his emulation was a representation of his fragile mental state. cause i feel shin desperately wanted to be the hero and not the bad guy. so gotta emulate a hero to reflect that

🌟Draco Plato🌟

same rebel

✨Respheal✨

Yeah

🌟Draco Plato🌟

he may have been rich in that he knew he was probably going to go to jail soon too

so just spent it up

✨Respheal✨

I was just thinking that he was trying to "take justice into his own hands, like a hero" and didn't have the adult recognition of where to draw the line(edited)

StickFreeks

I'm still unsure why he had the intent to kill somebody- like I know his "motive", but it seems unreasonable that he'd do something like that after trying to protect the kid.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

That seems fair

🌟Draco Plato🌟

super heroes don't generally kill people either

so it is a bit out of character perhaps

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

well monster die in the end of henshin shows, maybe he saw them as the monster

🌟Draco Plato🌟

altho he also was obsessive and crazy

oh that could be delta

StickFreeks

It makes for a good story, I just wish that there was some more build up or representation of him getting to that line

outside of "adults are terrible"

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

like every episode the monster explodes once they've been beaten

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Pretty much

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yeah i agree stick(edited)

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

yeah it did come outta now where for me

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i think as a reader I felt a biiit too detached from Shin to grasp his whole character picture

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

If memory serves, Mharz did note that this story was started in 2011 -- so it's an older work!

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

since were seeing things though merin, we didn't really get everything about shin

StickFreeks

I think I was most confused by why he asked Meirin to "wait for him", since it seemed like they had just been friends for at most a couple of weeks

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i didnt find him killing unreasonable. partly 1 because we have the phrase crime of passion for a reason. even the most reasonable ppl can do dumb crap if theyre angry enough. and i think part of shin's character is that hes a hypocrite. so of course as a hypocrite hes going to do contraditory things.

yeah i have to say i was confused on the time scale here

StickFreeks

That's very true, he did have that "unexpected crazy", I just wish it was shown more. XD

Or in more drastic ways, anyway

✨Respheal✨

Hmm, I wonder why he was going by an alias the whole time

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

especially for when shin committed the crime. thats the only wrench i see in the victim being the guy who replaced shin. cause from shin's words it sounded like itd happen after he met meirin. but then why was shin there in the first place when he could probably afford a much better place to live?

✨Respheal✨

Might he have done things before?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Hnngh, IDK if the guy that Shin got arrested about was his replacement

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

merch can cost a lot rebel

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

it can but at that point, priorities man XD priorities

🌟Draco Plato🌟

also girl not going to wait for your ass shin, she knew you a month tops, you weren't even dating, and you going to jail for life

StickFreeks

Yeah seriously XD

🌟Draco Plato🌟

also still wondering if he drugged her

when he brought her back from the restaurant

ruffies are a thing

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Can... I talk about the epilogue?

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

god that be fucked if so

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

or is that TOO spoilery?

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

i don't see why not kabo

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

AHAHAHHAA I wish Mharz was here XD

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

i do too

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

but lemme tell you -- Meirin continues to keep her common sense.

🌟Draco Plato🌟

wait where's the epilogue

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I think, short of spoiling it. That's the best I can say.

It's in print only atm

🌟Draco Plato🌟

awwwww

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

OH WAIT

https://gumroad.com/l/robonoid-epilogue

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

OMGG

StickFreeks

Oh yay! Thanks!

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

OH SHIT

🌟Draco Plato🌟

omg did he date rape her

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

It's 10 years later. I would say it's worth it. It's $2, but y'all should throw some money at Mharz

and JUST READ IT JUST... READ IT NOW

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

AAAHHHH

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

It's very cute and lemme tell you, again, Meirin continues to keep her common sense and I love her so much.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I need to get this

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

im glad meirin doesnt go on some i hate adults spree and realizes responsibilites are indeed a thing

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I think having to actually worry about paying rent is kind of important XD

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yus

StickFreeks

I gotta drop out a bit early but this was fun! :D See ya!

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

see ya

🌟Draco Plato🌟

bye stick~!

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Bye!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

thanks for coming stick~!

maybe the dating scene sucks where meirin lives. so she waits cause otherwise eww has to date oldman bankerman or something XD

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Ahahahahaha oh dear.

🌟Draco Plato🌟

well did he not go to jail for murder then?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Oh no he definitely did

🌟Draco Plato🌟

but he gets out 10 years later?

that'd be a super short murder sentence

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

good behavior maybe?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Well, I guess that'd depend on your lawyer

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Hmmm

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

and also the story's set in the Phillipines, so it might be slightly different depending on circumstance

🌟Draco Plato🌟

maybe, but geezus

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

oh gosh, what if Shin's crime was an accident

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

also I GOT THE EPILOUGE

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

QUESTION 2. At the end of the comic, Shin, whose real identity is revealed to be Manuel Robles, is arrested under the suspicion of murdering an Intelligence Communications employee named Sid Simon. Do you think Shin actually committed the crime? If yes, what do you think his motive was? If no, why do you think Shin is the primary suspect (and will his innocence be proven)? Given Shin’s leanings on hating adults who lie, why do you think Shin himself was so willing to commit such a huge lie? What do you foresee in general for Shin’s future and will he reflect upon his time with Meirin?

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

It's SO HEARTWARMING

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

RIGHT, JUSTIN?! I told you, Meirin keeps her goddamn sense!

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

YESSSS

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

honestly, that murder thing was a huge left turn for me, i had no idea that was going to be a thing and i'm still a little confused on it

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Also -- OMG, I think Shin DID commit the murder, although maybe it might have been manslaughter. He was hiding and scared before he got arrested. Even if he was an asshole with violent tendencies, I have a hard time thinking the act was actually premeditated.

also tbh I was kind of hoping it was the neighbor kid's mom but well. No, that wasn't the case.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

im leaning towards he did the murder. though i am 100% in the it was a crime of passion category. cause shin seems pretty explosive in general. so i could see him seeing some shady stuff going on him being like "that asshole murders oh whoops."

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

"Oops, I punched this guy and he hit his head on the floor the wrong way"

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that being said, despite thinking that the victim was who replaced him, i actually think the motive was different. that shin confronted him over something else entirely

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

"it was the stairs, i swear officer"

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Well considering how triggered Shin got...

✨Respheal✨

I'm just hung up on the question of why he was using a fake name in the first place

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Only with Meirin, though

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

maybe to be cool

✨Respheal✨

Maybe

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Wait

How old even is Shin?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

28

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

oh wow

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i didn't understand why he didn't resist arrest

and was just sitting there basically waiting

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Guilty conscience!

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

he wanted to be a hero, justice came to his door, what kinda hero would run from justice

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I think Shin probably was like "yeah well, I'm boned"

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

yea

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah that is one that bugs me. why the fake name? and also why was he so....different when meirin showed up? like for a moment i thought he was undercover

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yeeeah

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Ahahahaha

🌟Draco Plato🌟

how was he different?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Maybe Shin gave acquaintences a fake name so he wouldn't get bugged

🌟Draco Plato🌟

she said he was different but i kept flipping back and forth like is it the shirt

he looks the same

or did she just mean his personality

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

she meant his personality

cause he wasnt all angry

with his furrowed brows

🌟Draco Plato🌟

but everyone's got different mood days

so it didn't strike me as that weird

(edited)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

it struck me as weird cause that was the first time seeing it. so if i was meirin i wouldve been like this is weird the first time. if it happened again okay whatever, different mood

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i wonder why going to jail mellowed him out

did he smoke a bowl before she showed up

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

shin mightve just chilled some cause he was going to confess to meirin. ya know, without telling her hes a dirty, dirty murderer

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Or his real name

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

This

Also I finally decided to jump to the middle of the story

🌟Draco Plato🌟

hey Meirin, I know I just met you, but call me maybe

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Definitely seems like Shin is a fishy person in general

with how he acts

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yeah he does

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

in the 50's pages(edited)

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i knew the ending before i started reading so i think it made it easier to see he was shifty

early on

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I dunno that Shin's really shifty? Just... .... In need of an attitude adjustment

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

^

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

yeah

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

A few thwaps upside the head might get ya killed tho

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i didnt find him shifty. what i found shifty was meirin's landlord was nowhere around to complain to. which i know she explained it, but what a terrible landlord.

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

hes an idealist in a world where that thinking doesn't work

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

wait if the landlord is gone how did shin even get a room? this is why i wish i knew when the murder was. cause if shin was hiding there from teh start it makes sense how he showed up so suddenly. he was a squatter

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Pretty much

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

the landlord is probably a company

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

wish i reread it before this

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

XD "Hi here's my check"

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

tfw I'm jsut reading the whole thing now

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

didnt sound like it cause meirin siad the landlord was out of town or something. i remember this distinctly cause right before i read that i was like "meirin just complain to the landlord this is why they exist wtf." and then meirin explained why she wasnt doing that and i felt the fool

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Sorry I'm late. Today's been a day. ^.^ I'll respond to remarks from half an hour ago for a bit.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

hi math~!

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

MATH

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Favourite bit's a tossup. I liked when she brought food and then was going to leave but relented when she realized he was actually really hungry, that was kind of touching. But I also liked when she thought it was a ghost near the start, that was funny.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i liked how she flipped her gears so quick and was like "jk thats silly its a new tenant"

common sense meirin

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yeah, the ending was really interesting. Didn't anticipate that. Kind of casts everything in a slightly different light?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yes. although if were being critical i do wish the ending had been foreshadowed a bit more. it kind of came out of left field for me

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Hmmm. If Shin WAS a squatter... does that mean he never had a key

also, how long was that body gone for

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

so you didn't see that coming either

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

StickFreeks: Oh, damn, good catch! (With the firing leading to the drama.)

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Okay I pretty much read the whole story now

including the epilouge

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

its wierd to thinks he a squatter cause didn't we see inside his room with all the robonoid stuff

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I love it and how realistic it approaches things

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: Yeah, good point about the emulating on purpose with hair. I agrees.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

no one said squatters cant have stuff. shin didnt seem like he had a whole bunch of stuff tho to me

but i might be biased cause i have like 5 times that amount of stuff in my room not even counting all the shit stored in my closet

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Also yeah the police invasion (sorry for spoilers) came out of nowhare

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

maybe i'm just mis-remembering then(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Respheal: Yeah, the alias thing made me wonder!

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

also I feel ya

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Shin moves from safe house to safe house with his favorite things

he only really had a computer and some posters, assuming the bed was part of the apartment

IS IT THEORY TIME

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah given the style of the bed to me it seemed more like it must of been a prefurnished apartment

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

DID SOMEONE SAY THEROIES

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yeah, with the dead guy being in Intelligence, I thought maybe Shin was some sort of spy who got too caught up in his cover or something.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin: An adorable cinnamon roll of a character, perfect, do not question her. We know the story's from her point of view. Probably did not wait for Shin because she has common sense. Shin: A homeless, murderous squatter who might have been robonoid at one point or another -- and then got fired. Killed a guy, but didn't put a gun against his head or pull a trigger, but the guy's dead. Hates giving his real name because people are jerks and Shin sounds much cooler ANYWAY. "SHINJITE KUREYO"(edited)

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

>Shin was Robonoid

at some point

I love that theroy

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Buboy's probably yelling at his mom, "Mama... Life has just begun... But that guy had gone and thrown it all awaaaaaaaaaaaaay"

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I liked how she said "its a new tenant... but what IF IT'S NOT... no it is". Just something about that.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

kabo that shin description geez XD homeless, murderous squatter

tbf

if he is a squatter

it is a not O_O

hes not a new tenant in that case

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Oh, also, he probably stole someone's credit card.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Maybe Shin's parents created Robonoid. Modelled him after their son. He could never live up to their expectations.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

shin grew up, learned there werent monsters and giant robots in real life. was eternally devastated

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Okay, I'm caught up to the present now. ^.^

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

:3

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

if he stole a credit card that would explain the fancy restaurant

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

im glad shin had a job at some point cause tbh at first i thought he might just not do anything all day but watch robonoid

QUESTION 3. As Meirin spends time with Shin throughout the comic, she seems to change bit by bit. Do you think Meirin will remain changed, or will the comic’s ending cause her to revert back to her old ways of thinking? Do you think she will remain a Robonoid fan herself, or will it just bring back bad memories? How do you think watching Shin be arrested will affect Meirin in general? Most importantly, do you think she’ll wait for Shin like Shin asked her to? Why or why not?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

IF MEIRIN WAITS FOR SHIN, SHE IS A FOOL

MEIRIN IS NOT A FOOL

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: Oooh, good point, I forgot about the restauruant.

snuffysam

I sure hope she doesn't wait for Shin. Keep watching Robonoid if you want, but move on with your life.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

so by that do you mean meirin just marries shin while hes in jail? XD

✨Respheal✨

For real 8V (I gotta start winding down for bed so I'm ducking out o/)(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I tend to agree with Kabocha there. Interesting thought, the idea that Robonoid would bring up bad memories though. Hmmm.... maybe not? If she's able to talk with people like the little kid?

snuffysam

I think she might take up Shin's mantle of helping kids? Like, if she sees a kid in need, she'll help them?

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Meirin marries Robonoid.

✨Respheal✨

pff

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

:'3

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Shin is the priest.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

FROM JAIL

It's a video wedding.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I would say maybe somewhare inbetween

to answer the question

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

i'd like to think meirin would keeping being a robonoid fan, yeah sure the guy that introduced it to you may be a murder but a good show is a good show, when she scracted the surface of it why let the dumb thing wiegh down your enjoyment of it

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

meirin kidnaps that abused kid and runs away from him. cant wait for shin because shes on the run

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I really want to know what happened to the abused kid

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

tbf with shin arrested meirin can take all his stuff. so no reason not to be a fan. someone has to have all that merch

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

exactly

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

it's probably evidence

Shin stole it from Sid Simon.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

the true motive

shin wanted that sweet limited edition poster

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yes

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yeah, I wondered about the abused kid too. They both kind of had valid points, need to not ignore it but getting involved can just cause problems for everyone.

Shin took down all his stuff though before he was arrested.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

that scene really made me wonder if the country has a cps. cause the thing you should actually do in that situation is call cps

but different country, different protocols

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

What's CPS? thinks Oh, child protection services, right. Would probably need some kind of evidence.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea

I'm curious too

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i dont think you need evidence persay? well to report abuse you dont and i think they usually send someone out. to take the child is when they need the evidence

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i know in america they avoid that tho because foster care is terrible and often damages the child even more

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

At least Meirin will finally get some sleep? (Though she had trouble that time it was too quiet, so hard to say.)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

but still idk. i dont think either of their answers were right. cause shin's jump to violence and all that certainly is bad and if hes trying to not go to jail thats not how you do it. although in retrospect maybe thats why shin was ready to go for that. he might assume hes going to jail at some point so what does he have to lose? on the otherhand that, i dont agree with meirin's lets ignore it either, because that is exactly how abuse endures

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

meirin can just put on robonoid fan in the bg

problem solved

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I'd say they should have done something about it

without going to violence

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Agreed, both of them were kind of right. That felt like a bit of a loose thread.

(Or kind of wrong, depending on your POV.)

At least Shin didn't bite her hand when she silenced him.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

they were both right and wrong at the end of the day, imo.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

:'3 The story has some shades of gray to it.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Even Robonoid's not perfect. Dude seems to show up late to fights.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah i think at the end that was kind of the point. that adults and kids arent some black and white thing and that theres a fine line between good and bad. as meirin put it, "you should think like a child but not be a spoiled brat."

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Lol, Math

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

i chalk that up to how henshin shows go, monster has to cause some havoc first mat

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Robonoid's probably responsible for tons of property damage.

Imagine the insurance bills!

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

oh of course he is

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

his oh so much

*this

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

'Tis a good quote, Rebel.

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

theres tons of explosions and builds collapsing everytime a monster shows up

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Lots of dea--- oh no shin really was robonoid

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I could imagine that if the series was longer, it would start to show some of the faults of the Robonoid character

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Is Robonoid really a robot?

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

maybe, could be an ultraman thing where he just gets really big

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

and maybe Meirin would get some idea of why Shin gets bad influences from an anime aimed at kids.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

SJB: Ooh, maybe. I wonder if there's more than the two videos.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

True

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

there has to be, it seemed like serialized show

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

It would have bene cool to see more of the Robonoid franchise and it's influence in Shin

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Robonoid III: Now He's Really A Noid.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Don't let him get the pizza

Maybe an extended cut of the comic could show more of Shin's character and his fondness for children(edited)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

yeah it seemed like a serialized show to me. there were multiple dvds. and since theres merch its more likely a show cause the points of those shows is to make shit tons of money selling merch

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

True

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

plot twist: shin is only nice to kids cause its his devious plan to steal their merch

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

audible gasp

🌟Draco Plato🌟

i did wonder that

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Shin is secretly being financed by Big Robo.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

LMAO

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

thats a whole different mech thing mat

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yis, and they're trying to devalue the other shows by having fans who steal merch from kids.

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

my god, to think big robo would do such a thing

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

so was the murder all about the fact sid simon actually was an undercover employee for big robo's rival. and shin discovered it but someone had to take the fall for their corporate espionage

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

yes

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

That could be canon!

Interesting that Meilin had heard of Sid somewhere. Was that in the comic?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i didnt see it anywhere besides the news. i think she was commenting more shed heard of intelligence communications

on a different note, i hope meirin keeps watching robonoid fan if only because i think meirin could use something light hearted in her day. working as a bank teller sounds horribly dull and irritating cause many angry customers.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

True

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

we could all use some henshin in our lives

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Gotcha. And yeah, hopefully she still sees it as a fun pasttime.

puts a hen on Shin's head

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

mat plz

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lmao

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I'd sketch it but I'm not good with fast sketches.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

QUESTION 4. The comic deals with a lot of themes in regards to what it means to be a child, what it means to be an adult, and the good and bad that goes with each. Whose line of thinking in the comic did you find more compelling: Meirin’s or Shin’s? Why did that line of thinking appeal to you? Was there any scene in particular that you think was well done in showcasing the themes? Do you feel Shin’s lies ultimately hurt his arguments, or do you think they still stand up regardless? How does the Robonoid show fit in with the themes? Overall, what is your take away from the comic in regard to what it says about life?

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I honestly felt like I connected a lot to Shin

since me and him share a few weaknesses

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

The weird thing is, Shin's deception felt rather un-childlike. What was he gaining by lying? Most kids would have a reason for that.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

though I agree a lot with Meirin.

also yes that

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

shin's philosophy intrigued me more as its similar to my own

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

You can see from both sides with the characters. Which is nice.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

me and Delta are one and the same

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Shin loses some credibility for calling Meirin old though.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I mean, I get it was in character, but speaking as an old person, booooo

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i saw points on both sides but i sided with meirin way more. while she could stand to be more light-hearted, i was more attune to her being a responsible adult and accepting there are just things that you have to do as an adult

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Shin was definitely stubborn. I think the idea of him being "in his own world" was nicely set up from the start with him playing loud audio late at night.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Like I always do

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

But your neighbours. O.o

(They'll think it's a ghost!)

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Thnakfuly i don't do it every night

Sounds like a fun story to do on Halloween

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

actually not going to lie, that opening scene is also what made me side with meirin's thinking more. XD cause she made a reasonable request that his stuff is too loud. and he responded by being a brat. so no matter how much i see validity in his points, ill always see it as coming from a place of a spoiled adult who thinks if he clings to childhood he suddenly wont be an adult XD

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Rebel: There's truth to that, yeah.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Indeed, Rebel

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

An interesting thing was how we did get some scenes at Meirin's work, fleshing out her world a bit, so she wasn't tied to the apartment. So it might have been easier to side with her too, she was more multifaceted.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

^^^

Maybe we needed to see more of Shin's life without Mei's influence/presence(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

More adult, even.

Shin, apparently living the high life with not worrying much for money, but tending to forget to eat.

(I admit, sometimes I get so caught up in work I forget to eat.)

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

same

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I wonder what Robonoid would be like from Shin's point of view.

"Huh, she's cu--- WHY IS SHE YELLING AT ME GO AWAY Y'OLD HAG"

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i kind of wish wed seen a bit more of meirin's life outside. like even more than we see. like id have actually liked to see her tell her coworker about shin vs. it being relayed as an afterfact already happened

a version from shin's perspective might have been interesting

but also sounds angsty filled

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I was waiting for the ultimate Robonoid attack - "Robonoid Fan"! Big japanese fan that he waves at the enemy.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

did meirin ever say how old she was?

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yeah, I don't know if we needed to see from Shin's perspective. But maybe Meirin talking to her coworker and getting advice on someone similar?

I think she just said she was roughly the same age?

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin said she was 25, I believe.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

nah i think the story works better completely from meirin's perspecive. id rather see shin's as like some offshoot extra

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yeah cause she said she wasn't that old then said her age

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

okay i thought she said she was 25

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

When Shin first called her an old hag :'3

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Oops, missed that.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

the fact shin was 28 at the end made me rethink that scene with much wtf

like shin

youre older

who are you calling a hag

🌟Draco Plato🌟

yeeeeeeah XD

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

he's a child at ~heart~

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

at the time he couldn't have known that

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Shin, you make worse decisions than a 14-year-old child who's never been told no and has no supervision

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Lmao

I agree with that

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

http://robonoid.mharz.com/comic/9

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Mature behavior

SirDelta God King of Mecha, Time

welp i was wrong

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

rereading that scene, his intimidation of Meirin shoulda been a dead giveaway...

🌟Draco Plato🌟

mmm yeah

that seems like foreshadowing now

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yea.

Foreshadowing 70 or so pages ahread

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

I like the art style by the way. Pretty simple, but made dynamic with expressions and backgrounds.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

I agree

It reminds me of one of the video games I used to play since it had kinda a similar artstyle(edited)

I'll just say that(edited)

Simple, yet well crafted with lots of effort

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Which probably makes sense given the idea that Robonoid could be a video game too.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

True

and it is one in-story

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yes, crafted. And yes.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

if shin was a squatter him not locking the door makes sense

im totally banking on him being a squatter in hiding

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

True

Also every time I hear "squatter"

I imagine Shin listening to Russian gangsta music

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Shin, you gotta build your thighs. Do some squats.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i always wondered why no other neighbor complained about shin. like certainly someone shouldve been busybody enough to go around knocking on doors being like "do you believe this shit"

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yes

#Squatnation

also this

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Yeah, if he could hear the kid in the apartment below, couldn't they hear him listening to Robonoid?

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Doesn't he have like, two or four other neghibors?

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

He is on the second floor. Bit of a weird place to squat. Got to carry all your stuffs upstairs.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Yes

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Yeah, the kid mentioned he was hearing the robonoid theme

and he loved it

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Kabocha: Oh, that's right. Good catch.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Kudos to Kabo for catching that

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

maybe meirin just picked a really shitty apartment

since nobody cares

just loud neighbors being loud

normal tuesday

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

It's cheap. ^^

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

#LoudTuesday

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Here's a final puzzler. Do you think 'The Robonoid Fan' could also refer to Meirin, rather than Shin? Because she wasn't a fan, then became one, whereas Shin's whole persona seemed to be based on lies.

Well, that or denials.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

i think it could be argued to refer to both of them.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I think it's for both.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

That's what I thought at first

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

since the themes were largely about how neither was completely right or wrong

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

But yeah applying it to both sounds accurate(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

It's not plural though.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

but both their ideas combined was the true answer

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Or well, it probably centers around Shin, like the Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi is... about haruhi, but the main chara is really Kyon

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

lol

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Shin is our troublesome character, who just happens to not be actually.... good at being a hero. SORRY SHIN.

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Hmmm, interesting. (Oh, I hope Shin doesn't have amazing powers.)

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

its a title, doesnt have to be plural to apply to both. cause metaphor.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

You don't get cookies for that scene in the epilogue, even though we all know Meirin made the right decisioooon

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Very meta. 4.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

I know, it's probably both, but I'm just being silly at this point in the evening :3

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Oh Kabo~ :3(edited)

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

All good. Me too. Haven't even brought up any ships.

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin x Connie forever.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

Well the epilogue conforms a ship and denies another

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Meirin x Big Sis?

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

meirin x robonoid

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

just a small teaser

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Wait, wait: Crack theory before we run out of time

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

DO IT

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin IS Big Sis

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

CRACK IT OPEN

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Robonoid takes place before The Angel with Black Wings

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

OMGGGG

I CAN SEE IT(edited)

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

Meirin dies and becomes Big Sis. She wants to be called "Lola" as a rememberance to Shin. AND RAY IS SECRETLY HER LOVE CHILD WITH SHIN -- lookit the spiky hair

(lola being similar to "granny")

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

shin is ray's dad #confirmed

MathTans the Pun 👑Prince👑

Maybe they're just twin sisters.

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

this is the narrative i will push from now on

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

This explains SO MUCH

Kabocha: going off the rails at the last minute.

Superjusting of ✨Time🕑&Space☄✨

YES

🌟Draco Plato🌟

looooool

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

ANYWAY THIS COMIC IS GREAT READ IT PLS

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

tbf i didnt connect their hair till now XD

Kabocha, Marquess of ✨Sparkle✨

https://gumroad.com/mharz Buy Mharz's comics!

✨🐱 RebelVampire 🐱✨

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