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I don't want to talk about this much, but it may affect page uploads.
Saturday night, I was assaulted and strangled by my brother. This is not the first time he's done this, but it was severely excalated this time. I deserved it. Honestly, I wish he'd succeeded so nobody would have to deal with my shit anymore. I'm still very much in crisis mode, and I'm so sorry if I disappear. I'm praying I can continue working despite the situation, but this may warrant a short break.
I'm so sorry for any inconvenience this may cause, and I'm even more sorry I'm bringing this up at all. I need to stop talking from now on, honestly. I just wanted to communicate why I may poof. I don't know. I'm scared, and I can't do this. But I have to keep going.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
#abuse mention#im not so afraid to use that word now#but i still feel so much guilt#it must have been my fault#im a screw up#all i ever do is ruin things and bring people down#anyway sorry ncksncjd#not cat#important#notice#i cant do this#i cant#ask to tag#suicidal ideation#im so very tired
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Stellar death
#dddaily4sherin#day 313 i totally did not mess up the day count yesterday#life series#grian#scott smajor#pearlescentmoon#inthelittlewood#goodtimeswithscar#zombiecleo#3rd life smp#last life smp#double life smp#limited life smp#real life smp#mcyt#trafficblr#traffic smp#my art#i had an epiphany after a certain astro class and have been losing it ever since#screw the solar system make them all (dying/dead) stars!!!!!! (and related events)#and I finally got to do it tdy LMASODAOS HOPE U GUYS LIKE THIS IM VERY HAPPY WITH IT >:D#also ppl who knows astronomy/astrophysics feel free to psychoanalyze the hell out of this. i had sm fun assigning them HEHEHE
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I may have just made my life's work
#house md#malpractice md#hate crimes md#more mouse bites#he needs mouse bites to live#dr house#and im sorry if somebody already made this#i looked around a little and havent seen one but thag doesnt mean anything#Thank god tho that its november and this isnt gonna screw up my wrapped
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no lips? solution: bite :)
#I cant let gang know I fw their heavily complex and screwed up relationship#If I'm being honest Im not super passionate about any of the mouthwashing ships#so you can interpret this however u want!#I just wanted to draw something silly w my fav characters lol#mouthwashing fanart#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#anya x curly#Anya x curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing anya#graveyardshift
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eleven please this is not proper workplace ergonomics (still image + ref under cut !)
#this piece is how i discovered the procreate layer limit#my art#dw#dw fanart#doctor who fanart#doctor who#bbc doctor who#eleventh doctor#eleventh doctor fanart#11th doctor#11th doctor fanart#matt smith#matt smith fanart#im done im never animating anythung ever again#doctor who series 5#kinda gave up on the tardis console. too much detail screw you
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something about s1-3 zane is just. oh this guy is so silly and friend-shaped. look at his friendly boy swag. like????? how could you ever hate him. the ultimate silly
not to hate on his titanium era because frankly it is very cool. but the essence of s1-3 zane is unique and uncapturable. he is just a little guy you can put in your pocket. his default facial expression is so inherently funny. there are no thoughts behind these eyes. i would trust him with my life.
#its almost 3am and i cant sleep HELP ME#ninjago#lego ninjago#zane julien#ninjago zane#my post#does this make sense? i am so fond of him like platonically let me just state this isnt any funny business. i just think hes neat#all the ninja have been my favourite at one point or another in my life (its now cole) but this era of zane i will forever be biased for#again im not being a hater of the new state of the show lol most of the characters are way better but zane is the exception imo#you can't improve upon perfection i guess x#AMELIA GO TO BED ITS 3AM#me: hmmmm why is my sleep schedule so screwed? why do i keep waking up at midday?#and then this is the shit i do at 3am#average amelia antics#amelia isn't funny
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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another comic for “utilities included” skfkskdjsjs
this time for chapter two 😅
masterpost
#one piece#sanji#zoro#zosan#narrator: and he continued to wait. and yes it was worse for him#i was humored that some ppl thought i had whipped up the last comic in less than 10 hrs#when in reality i had early access and had drawn it in advance#but then i DID make this one in less than 10 hrs so maybe im just rly inspired by this fic#also i will NOT screw the link up this time i swear…#i just have to wait to add it bc im scheduling this BEFORE the chapter is edited and posted—#which reminds me im supposed to go edit that arent i dkfkdkfkdkf#utilities included
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ghost is so excited it dumps its arsenal in the house
#yeah it prepares a lot throughout the years#with weapons just lying on the ground you don't really have to be able to fight to get them#i can probably make it say a lot of fucked up stuff for a lot of weapons but this is already 10 pages long now#it becomes a sort of weapon drawing practice in the end#which is... good? i guess?#i mean weapons are hard to draw because you can't just completely screw up the perspective and ratio and still make it sort of good looking#also fuck forbearance what the hell is that rotating stuff at the front it twisted my brain#why did i choose to draw that its not like im making a point about shaxx having rhulk's weapon by standing in one place 24/7#should've drawn edge transit instead at least i actually use that#destiny 2#destiny ghost#destiny exo#destiny 2 art#my art
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this season i want to do my mining a bit differently. instead of mining horizontally, i want to mine vertically to maximize what you can get.
#omg ive redone this like 4 times but idk why the quality keeps getting screwed I GIVE UPPPP enjoy griam bc this guy never uploads on time#grian#hermitcraft#hermitcraft s10#hermitblr#mcytedit#咸鱼.gif#its almos 3am im going to bed#i wanna design cherry blossom grian tmr....#sorry this lopks bad but ive actually given up but i didnt wanna toss it in thr recycle bin
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I Depend On You
#🐟 my art#theyre so normal and healthy and good for eacjother (lying)#obsessed with their fucked up complicated relationship idk .#putting them in a jar n shaking it around#two really messed up affection starved people using the other to fill their personal voids#but theres an unwilling attachment there that neither will unpack or do anything with#like. they need eachother bc screwing around w/ eachother temporarily fills that void but they wont allow themselves#to be emotionally intimate or vulnerable with eachother really (most especially ted wont)#they wont allow to be anything more than eachothers tools so they wont really unpack just how dependent they are on eachother#but they are. so dependent#im explaining this badly but i hope u get it#hatchetfield#tgwdlm#the guy who didn't like musicals#charlotte sweetly#ted spankoffski#tedchar#not sure if i should ship tag this bc its specifically an unhealthy portrayal#ill remove it if anyone asks i guess#eyestrain#neon colors
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the way tattoo is so rough around the edges and has no idea what to do when faced with aran's overflowing emotions and tears (even the fake ones) but whatever gentleness he possess, even if it might not look like much to others, he's always willing to give
#GOD HOW I WISH THEY GAVE US MORE OF THESE TWO AND THEIR COHABITATION#AND ALSO OF TATTOO IN GENERAL#im just constantly rotating him in my mind like a microwave he's sooooo#like he's such a survival of the fittest and a screw them over before they screw you over kinda guy#all he knows of love is bleeding under someone fist to protect the few people he can allow himself to care about#because he can't have weaknesses or he won't survive#but he's also the one who invents and fixes things#who picks up trash and turns it into something different (maybe still trash maybe not)#he has these moments of extremely awkward and yet deep gentleness#and he thinks rosé proposing to jack was 'kinda cute'#he is teaching aran to survive and that aran /is/ capable to survive by himself#while aran is bringing out this softeness buried within him#AND I JUST NEED ARAN TO PROPOSE TO HIM BECAUSE THAT MAN WANTS TO BE ROMANCED AND NO ONE CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE#idk what im saying ;;;;;;#jack and joker#jack & joker#tattooaran#tattooarun#m: txt
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i like to think that l is severely and utterly touch-starved. and that during yotsuba arc, light and l shared small little casual touches. nothing much at first, and all were initiated by light on accident. it started with light casually brushing his hand against l's, and then he'd put his hand on l shoulder to lean over him, ect ect. it was normal for light but the whole time l is just basking in these small touches. and he too gets used to them. he gets used to the warmth light radiates, his constant presence, and the small touches. soon he's responding back to the touch and now its their new normal, the others constant presence and touch. and then higuchi is arrested. light isn't a constant present for l, not to the degree he used to be. there isn't another warm body next to him at all times. l shouldn't be bothered by this, he shouldn't crave lights warmth, his touch, but he does and oh god he finally realizes why humans crave other humans. he really does. and when he does finally realize and want and crave this feeling he can't have it anymore because that light is gone.
#l lawliet#light yagami#death note#i was rewatching dn and that scene where l tugs on lights sleeve came on#that's what inspired all of this#its 3 am none of this is coherent#ep 25 is coming near im screwed#lawlight#ig????#again its 3 am I should be asleep but this just popped up and I had to write it somewhere
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horrortale waterfall game broke me sorry (hey just like horror!)
#say it with me: average triglycercule art if i locked in#THERES NO FUCKING ART OF THIS CHAPTER YET IS EVERYONE JUST SLEEPING OR SOMETHING!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!#all the blue's supposed to be the light from the core after horror's eye was used to reactivate it btw#and (this was unintentional but anyways) the purpleish tone horror's clothes have is because he said that to aliza in the game#ohhhh my goddddddd....... how much is your life worth......... its worth so much but treated like its nothing#ACTUALLY not EVEN horror's life. just his body. screw the personhood in the first place#hey horror looks awfully similar to another black eyed and mouthed sans out there..... huh...... i wonder who.........#current horror saying that type of shit to past horror AS IF HES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE NICER IN THE FUTURE#this was originally an excuse to draw horror with the new gray eye but then i decided against it smh.......#and also an excuse to draw blood. the ONLY thing i'm good at rendering#my inability to render is really prevalent here. only covered up by the composition and harsh lighting and lineart and whatever the fuck#anyways TRIGLYCERCULE ART???? IN THIS DAY AND AGE?????? when was the last one........... probably my birthday rain of dust art LMAO WHAAAAA#well that completes my shitty trio focused art. killer's bday dust's bday (although it was so ass) and now this! now they all have 1 piece#tricule art#horror sans#horrortale#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#my horror bias has really been showing these past few daus#but i mean........ I MEAN LIKE WHEN HES THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL GETS UPDATES OUT OF THE TRIO IM ALLOWED TO BE OVERJOYED#as the sole horror representative of mtt nation i gotta fucking carry all the other 3 supposed horror enjoyers on my back 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#bad sanses#bad sans gang#nightmare's gan#eeaaughhhhh hes not part of the gang hes part of the trio...... get horror away from nightmares fugly ass.......euaaghhhhh#but whatever. im so excited for this art to be locked in the Five Note Banger Jail!#IF YOU READ THESE TAGS THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO PLAY THE WATERFALL GAME OR REREAD THE HORRORTALE COMIC 🫵🫵🫵‼️‼️‼️‼️👿👿👿👿👿
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Low Polys your Mystery
#I wanted to do more with this but I can not for the life of me figure out shader and setting up a good animating rig#Im following tutorials and nothing it working#I might say screw it and just do the shading and animating in unity cause at least I can just use poiyomi#Shader nodes make me want to eat glass#Mystery skulls#Mystery skulls animated#3d model
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Holy flip!! Fully colored suntan post?? Decently done grass??? Someone pinch me (day 10 suntan)
#omori fanart#omori#kel omori#omori kel#omori omori#suntan omori#omori suntan#omori omokel#omokel omori#kelmori omori#omori kelmori#kel x omori#omori x kel#these kids gay whta the flip!!!#what is omori holding???? idk probably a bug or something these two are autismed and adhd'd about things i think.#the grass took out all my will to live 😁#this is technically the second full drawing of today. but. im not posting the other one until i post the fic its about. yeah. fic with art.#im becoming ill. both mentally and physically. screw the flu or whatever i got.#I'll make suntan until i CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. ill draw sunny dead and kel crying for my last suntan drawing of all time (im okay!)#this is /j btw i am NOT that ill. i have suntan shenanigans to get up to !!!!!!#what in blackspace THATS A LOT OF TAGS.#omori cactulip#cactulip omori#I KEEP FORGETTING THESE TWO. DNI.
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