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I don't want to talk about this much, but it may affect page uploads.
Saturday night, I was assaulted and strangled by my brother. This is not the first time he's done this, but it was severely excalated this time. I deserved it. Honestly, I wish he'd succeeded so nobody would have to deal with my shit anymore. I'm still very much in crisis mode, and I'm so sorry if I disappear. I'm praying I can continue working despite the situation, but this may warrant a short break.
I'm so sorry for any inconvenience this may cause, and I'm even more sorry I'm bringing this up at all. I need to stop talking from now on, honestly. I just wanted to communicate why I may poof. I don't know. I'm scared, and I can't do this. But I have to keep going.
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
#abuse mention#im not so afraid to use that word now#but i still feel so much guilt#it must have been my fault#im a screw up#all i ever do is ruin things and bring people down#anyway sorry ncksncjd#not cat#important#notice#i cant do this#i cant#ask to tag#suicidal ideation#im so very tired
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Stellar death
#dddaily4sherin#day 313 i totally did not mess up the day count yesterday#life series#grian#scott smajor#pearlescentmoon#inthelittlewood#goodtimeswithscar#zombiecleo#3rd life smp#last life smp#double life smp#limited life smp#real life smp#mcyt#trafficblr#traffic smp#my art#i had an epiphany after a certain astro class and have been losing it ever since#screw the solar system make them all (dying/dead) stars!!!!!! (and related events)#and I finally got to do it tdy LMASODAOS HOPE U GUYS LIKE THIS IM VERY HAPPY WITH IT >:D#also ppl who knows astronomy/astrophysics feel free to psychoanalyze the hell out of this. i had sm fun assigning them HEHEHE
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I may have just made my life's work
#house md#malpractice md#hate crimes md#more mouse bites#he needs mouse bites to live#dr house#and im sorry if somebody already made this#i looked around a little and havent seen one but thag doesnt mean anything#Thank god tho that its november and this isnt gonna screw up my wrapped
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eleven please this is not proper workplace ergonomics (still image + ref under cut !)
#this piece is how i discovered the procreate layer limit#my art#dw#dw fanart#doctor who fanart#doctor who#bbc doctor who#eleventh doctor#eleventh doctor fanart#11th doctor#11th doctor fanart#matt smith#matt smith fanart#im done im never animating anythung ever again#doctor who series 5#kinda gave up on the tardis console. too much detail screw you
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no lips? solution: bite :)
#I cant let gang know I fw their heavily complex and screwed up relationship#If I'm being honest Im not super passionate about any of the mouthwashing ships#so you can interpret this however u want!#I just wanted to draw something silly w my fav characters lol#mouthwashing fanart#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#anya x curly#Anya x curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing curly#mouthwashing anya#graveyardshift
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something about s1-3 zane is just. oh this guy is so silly and friend-shaped. look at his friendly boy swag. like????? how could you ever hate him. the ultimate silly
not to hate on his titanium era because frankly it is very cool. but the essence of s1-3 zane is unique and uncapturable. he is just a little guy you can put in your pocket. his default facial expression is so inherently funny. there are no thoughts behind these eyes. i would trust him with my life.
#its almost 3am and i cant sleep HELP ME#ninjago#lego ninjago#zane julien#ninjago zane#my post#does this make sense? i am so fond of him like platonically let me just state this isnt any funny business. i just think hes neat#all the ninja have been my favourite at one point or another in my life (its now cole) but this era of zane i will forever be biased for#again im not being a hater of the new state of the show lol most of the characters are way better but zane is the exception imo#you can't improve upon perfection i guess x#AMELIA GO TO BED ITS 3AM#me: hmmmm why is my sleep schedule so screwed? why do i keep waking up at midday?#and then this is the shit i do at 3am#average amelia antics#amelia isn't funny
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another comic for âutilities includedâ skfkskdjsjs
this time for chapter two đ
masterpost
#one piece#sanji#zoro#zosan#narrator: and he continued to wait. and yes it was worse for him#i was humored that some ppl thought i had whipped up the last comic in less than 10 hrs#when in reality i had early access and had drawn it in advance#but then i DID make this one in less than 10 hrs so maybe im just rly inspired by this fic#also i will NOT screw the link up this time i swearâŚ#i just have to wait to add it bc im scheduling this BEFORE the chapter is edited and postedâ#which reminds me im supposed to go edit that arent i dkfkdkfkdkf#utilities included
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this season i want to do my mining a bit differently. instead of mining horizontally, i want to mine vertically to maximize what you can get.
#omg ive redone this like 4 times but idk why the quality keeps getting screwed I GIVE UPPPP enjoy griam bc this guy never uploads on time#grian#hermitcraft#hermitcraft s10#hermitblr#mcytedit#ĺ¸éąź.gif#its almos 3am im going to bed#i wanna design cherry blossom grian tmr....#sorry this lopks bad but ive actually given up but i didnt wanna toss it in thr recycle bin
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the way tattoo is so rough around the edges and has no idea what to do when faced with aran's overflowing emotions and tears (even the fake ones) but whatever gentleness he possess, even if it might not look like much to others, he's always willing to give
#GOD HOW I WISH THEY GAVE US MORE OF THESE TWO AND THEIR COHABITATION#AND ALSO OF TATTOO IN GENERAL#im just constantly rotating him in my mind like a microwave he's sooooo#like he's such a survival of the fittest and a screw them over before they screw you over kinda guy#all he knows of love is bleeding under someone fist to protect the few people he can allow himself to care about#because he can't have weaknesses or he won't survive#but he's also the one who invents and fixes things#who picks up trash and turns it into something different (maybe still trash maybe not)#he has these moments of extremely awkward and yet deep gentleness#and he thinks rosĂŠ proposing to jack was 'kinda cute'#he is teaching aran to survive and that aran /is/ capable to survive by himself#while aran is bringing out this softeness buried within him#AND I JUST NEED ARAN TO PROPOSE TO HIM BECAUSE THAT MAN WANTS TO BE ROMANCED AND NO ONE CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE#idk what im saying ;;;;;;#jack and joker#jack & joker#tattooaran#tattooarun#m: txt
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i like to think that l is severely and utterly touch-starved. and that during yotsuba arc, light and l shared small little casual touches. nothing much at first, and all were initiated by light on accident. it started with light casually brushing his hand against l's, and then he'd put his hand on l shoulder to lean over him, ect ect. it was normal for light but the whole time l is just basking in these small touches. and he too gets used to them. he gets used to the warmth light radiates, his constant presence, and the small touches. soon he's responding back to the touch and now its their new normal, the others constant presence and touch. and then higuchi is arrested. light isn't a constant present for l, not to the degree he used to be. there isn't another warm body next to him at all times. l shouldn't be bothered by this, he shouldn't crave lights warmth, his touch, but he does and oh god he finally realizes why humans crave other humans. he really does. and when he does finally realize and want and crave this feeling he can't have it anymore because that light is gone.
#l lawliet#light yagami#death note#i was rewatching dn and that scene where l tugs on lights sleeve came on#that's what inspired all of this#its 3 am none of this is coherent#ep 25 is coming near im screwed#lawlight#ig????#again its 3 am I should be asleep but this just popped up and I had to write it somewhere
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Low Polys your Mystery
#I wanted to do more with this but I can not for the life of me figure out shader and setting up a good animating rig#Im following tutorials and nothing it working#I might say screw it and just do the shading and animating in unity cause at least I can just use poiyomi#Shader nodes make me want to eat glass#Mystery skulls#Mystery skulls animated#3d model
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Holy flip!! Fully colored suntan post?? Decently done grass??? Someone pinch me (day 10 suntan)
#omori fanart#omori#kel omori#omori kel#omori omori#suntan omori#omori suntan#omori omokel#omokel omori#kelmori omori#omori kelmori#kel x omori#omori x kel#these kids gay whta the flip!!!#what is omori holding???? idk probably a bug or something these two are autismed and adhd'd about things i think.#the grass took out all my will to live đ#this is technically the second full drawing of today. but. im not posting the other one until i post the fic its about. yeah. fic with art.#im becoming ill. both mentally and physically. screw the flu or whatever i got.#I'll make suntan until i CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. ill draw sunny dead and kel crying for my last suntan drawing of all time (im okay!)#this is /j btw i am NOT that ill. i have suntan shenanigans to get up to !!!!!!#what in blackspace THATS A LOT OF TAGS.#omori cactulip#cactulip omori#I KEEP FORGETTING THESE TWO. DNI.
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Judas Kiss / Betrayal
For day 2 of @gortash-week (and ironically done b4 Larian dropped that kiss bit). Alongside smth else that'll follow suit later cuz this prompt rewired my brain. Close ups under cut.
Based on the Statue 'Judas Kiss / Bacio di Giuda' in St. John Lateran in Rome (except I flicked the side cuz of hair logistic reasons)
#based on the judas kiss statue in rome#im posting this nd running lest i change my mind again#hoping tumblr wont screw up the resolution too hard so u can see the skin details#... and i may have forgotten how his nose bridge looks but yk its fine its fine art can be imperfect#bg3#enver gortash#durgetash#gortash week
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someone get this samsung flatscreen tv out of my head. he refuses to leave and wonât pay rent
tried to draw him similar to the og Hazbin style except i actually gave him internal organs and im actually pleasantly surprised!
non-shaded, textless version just because i like how it turned out:
#yes i traced the hands shut up#the pose was kind of modeled off of a scene from Ready For This just because i thought it looked neat lol#my art#hazbin hotel#vox#vox hazbin hotel#he has been rotting my brain for the past month geT HIM OUT /j#edit: screw it im making this my pfp lol#edit 2: WGAT THE HELL THIS IS BLOWING UP???? UH THANK YOU I GUESS HKFFVHH /pos
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YIPPEE after months I finished @u3pxx 's Crowley and a bonus Azira Raven :')
#yes i know the gif is screwed up but i dont wanna go back and fix it ^^;;#im satisfied with it and that's all that matters#good omens#good omens reverse au#anthony crowley#crowley#good omens fanart#good omens crowley#bad omens#pixel art#pixel sprite#spritework#i was also wanted to do a gif for Aziras raven but ive lost the juice u-u;
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i think one the main reasons why brutalia could never work out long-term is because they both constantly want some form of control over the other, even though they hate when someone has power over them in such a way. itâs like, they love each other immensely, obviously. but the other could be so so much better and happier if they just changed this one tiny thing about themselves! and they donât seem to want to do it themselves because of their stubbornness (affectionate) soooâŚ.might as well do a little emotional blackmail convincing so they can be easier to control and convinced to stay with me forever happier as a person! this plan is Completely Foolproof and Nothing Bad Could Happen!!!! Itâs not emotional manipulation if I just want the best for them!!
#i like my brutalia where theyâre both just a tiny bit evil over each other#dc had to split them up because their combined power of autistic control freakiness could shatter dimensions#actually now that I think about it this qualifies for ghostbat as well#except itâs different with those two. literally âIM fine. itâs the other guy who has a problem.â (guess what both are mentally screwed)#brutalia is just them sortaâŚfully accepting the other But Not Really if that makes sense#bruce wayne#batman#talia al ghul#minhkhoa khan#ghostmaker#ghostbat#dc comics#batfam
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